{"id":10110,"date":"2015-12-28T17:08:35","date_gmt":"2015-12-28T13:08:35","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=10110"},"modified":"2015-12-28T17:08:35","modified_gmt":"2015-12-28T13:08:35","slug":"r%c9%99sid-b%c9%99rgusadli-alin-yazisi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=10110","title":{"rendered":"R\u0259\u015fid B\u0259rg\u00fc\u015fadl\u0131 &#8212; Al\u0131n yaz\u0131s\u0131"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/kultur.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/12\/12027802_536807073156755_6945701829105550315_n.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignright wp-image-10096 size-medium\" src=\"http:\/\/kultur.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/12\/12027802_536807073156755_6945701829105550315_n-300x300.jpg\" alt=\"12027802_536807073156755_6945701829105550315_n\" width=\"300\" height=\"300\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Zirz\u0259minin havas\u0131 da qaralm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 el\u0259 bil \u2013 g\u00f6z-g\u00f6z\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259m\u0259yi o yana dursun, adam\u0131n bu qaranl\u0131qda n\u0259f\u0259si daral\u0131r, ciy\u0259rl\u0259ri t\u0131nc\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. N\u0259m torpaq d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259 h\u0259r n\u0259f\u0259sini ver\u0259nd\u0259 k\u0259sif mizg\u0259k qoxurdu. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr onlardan \u0259vv\u0259l d\u0259 burda adamlar saxlan\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. R\u00fctub\u0259tin can\u0131na hopmu\u015f qan, sidik v\u0259 n\u0259cis qoxusu bu qaranl\u0131qdan \u00f6m\u00fcrbillah ged\u0259n deyildi. Q\u0131z\u0131 onun \u00e7iynin\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259nib sol qolunu qucaqlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, qorxudan \u00fcr\u0259yi qu\u015f kimi titr\u0259yirdi yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131n.<\/p>\n<p>Onu q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri qaba\u011f\u0131nda o ki var \u0259zi\u015fdirmi\u015fdil\u0259r. Qollar\u0131n\u0131 da a\u00e7mam\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar, \u0259claflar. El\u0259 qoluba\u011fl\u0131 da zirz\u0259miy\u0259 tullam\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar.\u00a0 M\u0259ftil bil\u0259yini k\u0259smi\u015fdi. S\u0259lbiy\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 el\u0259m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259 v\u0259h\u015fi bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131yla q\u0131z\u0131 yeyib bitirmi\u015fdil\u0259r. Atas\u0131n\u0131n haray\u0131na \u00e7ata bilm\u0259y\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131n ba\u011f\u0131rmaqdan s\u0259si batm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130ki cantaraq erm\u0259ni q\u0131z\u0131 g\u00fccl\u0259 tutub saxlay\u0131rd\u0131. \u00c7\u0131rp\u0131nd\u0131qca k\u00f6yn\u0259yinin d\u00fcym\u0259l\u0259ri qopur, sin\u0259si a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131, bu da onlar\u0131 d\u00f6vr\u0259y\u0259 alan quduz s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fc daha da n\u0259\u015f\u0259l\u0259ndirirdi.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 M\u0259n adi \u00e7obanam, bu m\u00fcharib\u0259nin m\u0259n\u0259 he\u00e7 bir d\u0259xli yoxdur, burax\u0131n gedim, ail\u0259m nigaran qalacaq..! \u2013 kim idi onun bu yalvar\u0131\u015f\u0131na baxan&#8230; \u018fksin\u0259, t\u0259pikl\u0259rin say\u0131 da \u00e7oxal\u0131rd\u0131, z\u0259rb\u0259l\u0259rin g\u00fcc\u00fc d\u0259. \u2013\u00a0 Birc\u0259 balama toxunmay\u0131n, yoxsa&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Yoxsa n\u0259? \u2013 saqqal\u0131ndan kir s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u00e7\u00fc avtomat\u0131n qunda\u011f\u0131yla d\u00f6y\u00fcrd\u00fc indi onu. \u2013 De da, yoxsa n\u0259, itin k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcy\u00fc!?<\/p>\n<p>\u201cYoxsa da\u015fdan olsan\u0131z da, qollar\u0131m\u0131 ba\u011flasan\u0131z da sizidi\u015fiml\u0259 g\u0259mir\u0259r\u0259m, toxumunuzu k\u0259s\u0259r\u0259m, torpa\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n alt\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7evirib k\u00f6k\u00fcn\u00fcz\u0259 od qoyaram\u201d \u2013 h\u0259r t\u0259pik yedikc\u0259 s\u00f6zl\u0259ri qana bula\u015f\u0131b udla\u011f\u0131nda ili\u015firdi. G\u00fcnahs\u0131z birini qatil yerin\u0259 qoyub lin\u00e7 ed\u0259nd\u0259, onun qatil olmaqdan ba\u015fqa \u0259lac\u0131 olmur. \u0130ncavara, bir zabit d\u0259st\u0259y\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fanda d\u00f6y\u0259nl\u0259r ara verdil\u0259r. Kim idis\u0259 \u201cNiva\u201d il\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi \u2013 \u201cY\u0259qin komandirl\u0259ridir\u201d \u2013 a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n qan\u0131n\u0131 silib yaz\u0131q-yaz\u0131q onun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131.\u00a0 \u2013 M\u0259ni \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcn, amma q\u0131z\u0131ma toxunmay\u0131n&#8230; \u2013 m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259t dil\u0259di ondan, \u2013 \u201cErm\u0259ni olanda nolar, o da insand\u0131r, b\u0259lk\u0259&#8230;\u201d. Amma zabitin g\u00f6z\u00fc onun 17 ya\u015fl\u0131 m\u0259l\u0259k q\u0131z\u0131ndayd\u0131. Yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b \u0259lini q\u0131z\u0131n yar\u0131a\u00e7\u0131q sin\u0259sind\u0259n i\u00e7\u0259ri salanda \u0259rtafdak\u0131lar ars\u0131z-ars\u0131z iri\u015fdi. Q\u0131z\u0131n d\u00f6\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc azca s\u0131xd\u0131, \u015falvar\u0131n\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b yerd\u0259 s\u0259rili qalan atas\u0131n\u0131n al qan i\u00e7ind\u0259 olan sif\u0259tin\u0259 i\u015f\u0259di, sonra da, \u2013 \u201cAt\u0131n padvala, q\u0131z\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 saxlay\u0131n\u201d \u2013 deyib araland\u0131. \u00dcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn sidiyini silib birc\u0259 bunu dey\u0259 bildi, \u2013 \u201cO\u011fra\u015flar!\u201d. Onu le\u015f kimi s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcb yax\u0131ndak\u0131 kazarmaya g\u0259tirdil\u0259r, arxas\u0131nca da q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131. Kazarman\u0131n taxta d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259sinin balaca qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131bonu t\u0259p\u0259sia\u015fa\u011f\u0131 zirz\u0259miy\u0259 buraxd\u0131lar. \u00c7iyni\u00fcst\u0259 yer\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 bayaqk\u0131 k\u00fct a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 ild\u0131r\u0131m \u00e7axd\u0131 el\u0259 bil. S\u0259lbini taxta n\u0259rdivanla d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. S\u0131sqa \u0259sg\u0259r geri qay\u0131danda q\u0131z\u0131n dal\u0131n\u0131 qucaqlay\u0131b k\u0259rkindi, zirz\u0259mid\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rt\u0259nd\u0259 is\u0259, \u2013 \u201cKomandird\u0259n sonra n\u00f6vb\u0259d\u0259 ikinci \u00f6z\u00fcm olacam\u201d \u2013 di\u015fl\u0259rini q\u0131za a\u011fartd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 S\u0259nin s\u00fcd\u00fcn\u0259..! \u2013 Dilq\u0259m di\u015fl\u0259rini q\u0131cay\u0131b erm\u0259ninin dal\u0131nca m\u0131r\u0131ldad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cG\u00f6r n\u0259 g\u00fcn\u0259 qald\u0131q, ba\u015f\u0131ma k\u00fcl olsun m\u0259nim. Ax\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 dey\u0259n laz\u0131md\u0131r ki, qan-qadal\u0131 vaxtda niy\u0259 nax\u0131r\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 \u201cQ\u0131z\u0131l qaya\u201dya d\u00f6nd\u0259rirs\u0259n \u2013 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 d\u00fcz me\u015f\u0259nin k\u0259nar\u0131na? Demirs\u0259nmi, me\u015f\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b s\u0259ni qol-budaq ed\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r\u201d&#8230; \u2013 qolunu t\u0259rp\u0259tm\u0259k ist\u0259di, zoqqultuya zar\u0131d\u0131. S\u0259lbi dinmirdi. G\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131nda xurd-x\u0259\u015fil edilmi\u015f, murdarlanm\u0131\u015f atas\u0131na n\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lli ver\u0259 bil\u0259rdi ki&#8230; H\u0259l\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fc qaba\u011f\u0131nda erm\u0259ni zabitin s\u00fcnn\u0259tsiz al\u0259tini n\u00fcmayi\u015fk\u0259ran\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b atas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc murdarlayark\u0259n \u0259trafdak\u0131lar\u0131n p\u0131qq\u0131lt\u0131yla iri\u015fm\u0259l\u0259ri&#8230; \u2013 nifr\u0259t q\u0131z\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259ki q\u0259h\u0259ri \u00e7oxdan qovub \u00e7\u0131xarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>T\u00f6v\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fc hirsind\u0259n, az qal\u0131rd\u0131 havalans\u0131n, \u2013 \u201cQ\u0131z\u0131 zorlayacaqlar, bunun h\u0131nc\u0131-m\u0131nc\u0131 yoxdu. Allah m\u0259n\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm versin, bu n\u0259 b\u0259la idi u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sald\u0131m&#8230; Aman, ya R\u0259bbim, s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn m\u0259ni namusumda bo\u011fma. Son p\u0259nah\u0131m s\u0259ns\u0259n, qurtar bizi bu binamus, zal\u0131m kafirl\u0259rin \u0259lind\u0259n. Ucuz \u00f6l\u00fcm ver m\u0259n\u0259, kor-kar el\u0259 m\u0259ni, t\u0259ki q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n murdarland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcm g\u00f6rm\u0259sin, \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 qula\u011f\u0131m e\u015fitm\u0259sin. Yaz\u0131q balam, ax\u0131 n\u0259 g\u00fcnah\u0131n sahibiydin s\u0259n?\u201d \u2013 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n sa\u00e7\u0131na s\u00f6yk\u0259di, onun telini s\u0131\u011fallad\u0131, \u2013 \u201cQ\u0131z\u0131m, qorxma&#8230;\u201d \u2013 q\u0259h\u0259r hulqumunda d\u00fcy\u00fcnl\u0259ndi, \u0259li yan\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, \u2013 \u201cNec\u0259 qorxmas\u0131n? Bir azdan \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n bir alay ke\u00e7\u0259c\u0259k\u00a0 \u2013 Allah g\u00f6t\u0259rm\u0259sin&#8230;\u201d \u2013 penc\u0259yinin yaxas\u0131yla h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 sidik qoxan qanl\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc sildi.<\/p>\n<p>El\u0259 bil min ilin k\u00fcs\u00fcl\u00fcl\u0259riydil\u0259r, lal-dinm\u0259z bir-birin\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259nib oturmu\u015fdular. Dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa, bir-birin\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259k o q\u0259d\u0259r s\u00f6zl\u0259ri vard\u0131 ki.., amma, olacaq ba\u015fa g\u0259lmi\u015fdi, onlar\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n q\u0259d\u0259r ikisin\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00fcn kimi ayd\u0131n idi.Dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa, t\u0259s\u0259lli verm\u0259y\u0259 he\u00e7 bir l\u00fczum yox idi&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>D\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259 taxtalar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131ndan seyr\u0259k i\u015f\u0131q s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc.Beyninin guppultusu az qal\u0131rd\u0131 qulaqlar\u0131n\u0131n p\u0259rd\u0259sini c\u0131rs\u0131n, \u2013 S\u0259nin n\u0259 g\u00fcnah\u0131n vard\u0131 ax\u0131&#8230; Atana \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k g\u0259tirmi\u015fdin. D\u00fcrm\u0259yimiz heyb\u0259d\u0259, suyumuz bo\u011faz\u0131m\u0131zda qald\u0131. Kimin a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259rdi ki, bu bi\u015f\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259r me\u015f\u0259nin i\u00e7iyl\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r ir\u0259lil\u0259y\u0259rmi\u015fl\u0259r. B\u0259s bizim q\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259rimiz kordurlar, hara bax\u0131rlar g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n?<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fc otard\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z yer idi, n\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131m\u0131za g\u0259l\u0259rdi&#8230; \u2013 S\u0259lbinin x\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 s\u0259si onun i\u00e7ini t\u0259rp\u0259tdi.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 \u00d6z aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131zla d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n t\u0259l\u0259sin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>&#8230;Zirz\u0259minin qap\u0131s\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131landa S\u0259lbinin can\u0131na \u00fc\u015f\u00fctm\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, atas\u0131n\u0131n qolunu b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk qucaqlad\u0131, \u00e7iynin\u0259 q\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131. N\u0259rdivandan d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n yen\u0259 h\u0259min s\u0131sqa erm\u0259niydi. T\u00fcrkc\u0259,\u00a0 \u2013 \u201cVaxtd\u0131r, komandir s\u0259ni istiyor\u201d \u2013 \u0259yilib S\u0259lbinin qolundan dartd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Ata, qurban olum, ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla m\u0259ni, haqq\u0131n\u0131 halal el\u0259! \u2013 k\u00f6m\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259di, k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259c\u0259k hal\u0131 v\u0259 q\u00fcdr\u0259ti yox idi atas\u0131n\u0131n. \u018fyilib atas\u0131n\u0131n boynunu qucaqlad\u0131, sidik qoxulu \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6pd\u00fc v\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 silib n\u0259rdivana do\u011fru yeridi. Dilq\u0259m g\u00fcc-b\u0259la dik\u0259lib q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 qucaqlad\u0131, indi onun q\u0131z\u0131na dey\u0259c\u0259yi o q\u0259d\u0259r s\u00f6z\u00fc var idi ki, ancaq zaman\u0131 yox idi. Can \u00e7\u0259ki\u015f\u0259-\u00e7\u0259ki\u015f\u0259 n\u0259rdivan\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 S\u0259lbi. Yuxar\u0131da \u2013 i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131nda tir-tir \u0259s\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131 ona \u0259lini uzatd\u0131, \u2013 \u201cAta!\u201d. \u018flin\u0259 qaranl\u0131q havan\u0131n r\u00fctub\u0259t qoxusundan ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 n\u0259 ke\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 ovcunu s\u0131xd\u0131. Qap\u0131 tapp\u0131lt\u0131yla ba\u011flananda el\u0259 bil Dilq\u0259min namusu qap\u0131 aras\u0131nda s\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131 \u2013 i\u00e7ind\u0259 q\u0131vr\u0131lan q\u0259h\u0259ri k\u00f6r\u00fckl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ancaq g\u00fcc\u00fc yetdi. Diz\u00fcst\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcb sin\u0259sini, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yumruqlad\u0131. Add\u0131m s\u0259sl\u0259ri it\u0259n kimi dal\u0131qatda s\u0259rilib sin\u0259sini y\u0131rtaraq a\u011f\u0131zdolusu h\u00f6nk\u00fcrd\u00fc&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Q\u0131z \u0259kdiyin yerd\u0259 belin q\u0131r\u0131layd\u0131, Dilq\u0259m. \u00c7obanl\u0131qdan ba\u015fqa bir i\u015fim, bir g\u00fcnah\u0131m olmay\u0131b, bu hans\u0131 g\u00fcnah\u0131m\u0131n c\u0259zas\u0131d\u0131r m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdirirs\u0259n?! Yoxsan, ad\u0131na and olsun ki yoxsan! Ki\u015fi deyils\u0259n, adaml\u0131\u011f\u0131n da yoxdur, n\u0259 qeyr\u0259tin, n\u0259 d\u0259 namusun var s\u0259nin! Olsayd\u0131, \u015f\u0259nin\u0259 oxunan m\u0259dhiyy\u0259l\u0259ri, dualar\u0131 bir t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 tullay\u0131b m\u0259nim hal\u0131ma yanard\u0131n, m\u0259n\u0259 bir \u00e7ar\u0259 q\u0131lard\u0131n. O\u011flan olsayd\u0131, g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131nda tik\u0259-tik\u0259 do\u011frasayd\u0131lar da vecim\u0259 almazd\u0131m, \u0259ld\u0259n ged\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131md\u0131r, \u0130lahi, namusumdur, qeyr\u0259timdir! Bu saat yard\u0131m\u0131na \u0259n \u00e7ox ehtiyac\u0131 olan b\u0259nd\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259m. S\u0259n nam\u0259rds\u0259n, bunca ill\u0259r bo\u015funa s\u0259nin ad\u0131na s\u0131\u011f\u0131nm\u0131\u015f\u0131q dem\u0259k&#8230; Q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 indi zorlayanlar, qoy s\u0259nin d\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 zorlas\u0131nlar, onda bil\u0259rs\u0259n n\u0259l\u0259r \u00e7\u0259kdiyimi. G\u00fcc\u00fcn yetirs\u0259, he\u00e7 olmazsa m\u0259n\u0259 ucuz bir \u00f6l\u00fcm ver&#8230; \u00a0\u2013 \u201cAl\u00e7aq t\u00fcrk, s\u0259n\u0259 bu da azd\u0131r!\u201d \u2013 h\u00f6nk\u00fcrt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u0259 yuxar\u0131dak\u0131 \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259r \u015f\u0259nl\u0259nirdi.<\/p>\n<p>Y\u00fcy\u00fcr\u00fcb n\u0259rdivana \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131, salamat \u00e7iyni il\u0259 ha g\u00fcc\u0259ndis\u0259, qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7a bilm\u0259di. D\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Qap\u0131nda itin olum, ya R\u0259bbim, q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 xilas el\u0259. Neynir\u0259m i\u015f-i\u015fd\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259n sonra ver\u0259c\u0259yin s\u0259bri. M\u0259nim, q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n can\u0131n\u0131 al, amma onu kirl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 qoyma. Bu \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n bet\u0259rdir. Q\u0131z u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 h\u0259r evin namus \u00e7\u0131ra\u011f\u0131d\u0131r, evimin \u00e7\u0131ra\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcrm\u0259, insafs\u0131z. Qoy qollar\u0131m\u0131 k\u0259ssinl\u0259r, boynumu vurdur, amma m\u0259ni namus yaras\u0131yla sa\u011f buraxma. R\u00fcsvay\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q \u00f6m\u00fcrd\u0259n uzundur, m\u0259ni r\u00fcsvay el\u0259m\u0259. Allah, Allah, ay Allah.., yatma, dur, qurban\u0131n olum, dur, qoyma q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 kirl\u0259tsinl\u0259r, g\u00f6st\u0259r allahl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131&#8230; Qazan qaras\u0131 ged\u0259r, namus qaras\u0131 getm\u0259z, namussuz ki\u015fi Allah yolunu getm\u0259z, ki\u015fi. Ki\u015fi ol, uzat \u0259lini, g\u00f6st\u0259r q\u00fcdr\u0259tini, g\u00f6st\u0259r! T\u0259k dostum s\u0259n ol, qoyma dostunun namusunu zorlas\u0131nlar. G\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259, Allah. H\u0259r ki\u015finin \u00e7ar\u0259siz qald\u0131\u011f\u0131 an olurmu\u015f, tut \u0259limd\u0259n, m\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k el\u0259, t\u0259k p\u0259nah\u0131m s\u0259ns\u0259n&#8230; \u2013 gah dizl\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcr, gah yerd\u0259n torpaq g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 s\u00fcrt\u00fcr, a\u011f\u0131\u015f-burnuna doldurur, h\u0259rd\u0259n d\u0259 qula\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259nin i\u015f\u0131q s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n yar\u0131\u011f\u0131na \u015f\u0259kl\u0259yirdi. Birc\u0259, q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Q\u0131z\u0131m, g\u00f6z\u0259l q\u0131z\u0131m&#8230; Anam\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 qoydum ki, ad\u0131yla b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259s\u0259n, ad\u0131m da getdi, q\u0131z\u0131m da, anam da. H\u0259r \u015feyim s\u0259ninl\u0259 getdi. Zavall\u0131 balam, ax\u0131 n\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcn bu d\u00fcnyada&#8230; S\u0259ni da\u011flarda k\u0259klik kimi s\u0259k\u0259n g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 b\u0259xt\u0259v\u0259r olma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 nec\u0259 ist\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, bir bils\u0259n&#8230; S\u0259n h\u0259r k\u0259sin q\u0131z\u0131 kimi deyils\u0259n ki, s\u0259n m\u0259nim g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin nuru, a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131n dad\u0131yd\u0131n. \u201cDad\u0131yd\u0131n\u201d yox, dad\u0131san, ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda \u00f6l\u00fcm, q\u0131z\u0131m&#8230; \u018flimd\u0259n bir \u015fey g\u0259lmir, qurban\u0131n olum, ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla bu nak\u0259s atan\u0131. S\u0259n\u0259 ata olan g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u0259 da\u015f ya\u011fayd\u0131, anan\u0131n qarn\u0131 y\u0131rt\u0131layd\u0131, m\u0259nim belim q\u0131r\u0131layd\u0131 s\u0259ni \u0259kib-do\u011fdu\u011fumuz yerd\u0259. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 q\u0131z u\u015faqlar\u0131 do\u011fulanda diri-diri basd\u0131r\u0131rm\u0131\u015flar&#8230; A\u011f\u0131r y\u00fck\u00fcym\u00fc\u015fs\u0259n, \u00e7ox a\u011f\u0131r, S\u0259lbi, m\u0259l\u0259k balam&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Zirz\u0259mid\u0259 varg\u0259l ed\u0259nd\u0259 aya\u011f\u0131na n\u0259s\u0259 ili\u015fdi. Su dolu vedr\u0259ydi. Vedr\u0259ni g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb i\u015f\u0131q s\u0131z\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131na qoydu. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u0259 bilm\u0259di. \u00dcz\u00fcn\u0259 su \u00e7\u0131rpd\u0131qca q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z\u0259lliyini g\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00f6n\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259tirib a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. \u201cYaz\u0131q xocal\u0131lar, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131za n\u0259 oyunlar a\u00e7\u0131bm\u0131\u015flar sizin&#8230; \u0130ndi \u00f6z ba\u015f\u0131ma g\u0259lir inanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015feyl\u0259r. Anam m\u0259l\u0259r qald\u0131&#8230;\u201d. \u00a0\u2013 Ana, Allah nainsaf \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131, bizi dayaqs\u0131z qoydu, ana&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Dilq\u0259m ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 itirmi\u015fdi, atal\u0131q, ki\u015filik k\u0259l\u0259finin ucunu taleyin \u0259lin\u0259 verib havadan as\u0131l\u0131 qalm\u0131\u015f, h\u0259yat\u0131n s\u00fckan\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131n yaz\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n h\u00f6km\u00fcn\u0259 vermi\u015fdi. \u0130ndi o, \u00e7ayda \u00fcz\u0259n saman \u00e7\u00f6p\u00fcyd\u00fc, ondan yap\u0131\u015facaq, imdad dil\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k bir n\u0259f\u0259r vard\u0131, o da \u0259li bo\u015fa \u00e7\u0131xan \u00e7ar\u0259siz q\u0131z\u0131yd\u0131. \u00dcr\u0259yin\u0259 damm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, Allah ondan \u00fcz d\u00f6nd\u0259rib v\u0259 onun imdad\u0131na yetm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. \u018fyilib suya baxd\u0131 \u2013 anas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Anas\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcc\u00fc kimi m\u0259\u015fhur qad\u0131n idi, o\u011fluna t\u0259bi\u0259tl\u0259 b\u00fct\u00f6vl\u0259\u015fm\u0259yin \u00e7ox sirrini \u00f6yr\u0259tmi\u015fdi. Yolda g\u00fcl\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t edib bir i\u015f dal\u0131nca ged\u0259n yerd\u0259 qaba\u011f\u0131na \u00e7\u0131xan bir t\u0259sad\u00fcfi adam\u0131n qara taleyini g\u00f6r\u00fcb p\u0259jm\u00fcrd\u0259 olurdu v\u0259 o\u011fluna he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259d\u0259n kor-pe\u015fiman ev\u0259 d\u00f6nd\u00fckl\u0259ri \u00e7ox olmu\u015fdu. El\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyi g\u00f6r\u0259 bilm\u0259si onun \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck ba\u015fa\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 idi, ax\u0131rda onlar\u0131 insanlardan uzaq da\u011flara \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015fdi, o\u011flunu \u00e7oban el\u0259mi\u015fdi. Yaz\u0131-yay\u0131 yaylaqda \u00e7ad\u0131rda qal\u0131rd\u0131lar, bir d\u0259 pay\u0131z\u0131n ortalar\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u0259rdil\u0259r k\u0259nd\u0259. Dilq\u0259min atas\u0131 v\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131 \u00f6tm\u00fc\u015f bac\u0131s\u0131 k\u0259ndd\u0259 qal\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Anas\u0131 ona \u00f6yr\u0259tmi\u015fdi: \u2013 X\u0259yal eliy\u0259nd\u0259, bir \u015fey arzulayanda el\u0259 et ki, Allah\u0131n sehrli \u0259li ist\u0259diyin o \u015feyi al\u0131n yaz\u0131na yaza bilsin. Yoxsa, s\u0259nin zorla yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 Allah al\u0131n yaz\u0131ndan el\u0259 sil\u0259r ki, x\u0259b\u0259rin d\u0259 olmaz, \u0259v\u0259zind\u0259 is\u0259 sildiyi yer\u0259 \u0259zab yazar. Allaha xo\u015f g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259n, insafs\u0131z \u015feyi arzulama. Allah\u0131n da ruhu var, onun ruhuduryeri n\u0259f\u0259siyl\u0259 isid\u0259n. Allah\u0131n ruhuyla al\u0131n yaz\u0131n \u00fcst-\u00fcst\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259, s\u0259n ist\u0259diyini Allah da ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259, bax h\u0259min arzun h\u0259yata ke\u00e7\u0259c\u0259k. Allah\u0131n ruhuyla uyu\u015fmaqsaat \u0259qr\u0259binin dal\u0131nca d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n zamana b\u0259nz\u0259yir \u2013 \u0259qr\u0259b qa\u00e7\u0131r, zaman gerid\u0259 qal\u0131r v\u0259 x\u0259yal etdiyin h\u0259yata ke\u00e7\u0259 bilmir, \u00e7\u00fcnki, s\u0259n yaln\u0131\u015f arzunun arxas\u0131nca d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcs\u0259n. Allah dayan\u0131b s\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 borclu deyil. Nec\u0259 ki deyirl\u0259r, \u2013 \u201cS\u0259nin arxas\u0131nca qa\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131n nem\u0259t h\u0259l\u0259 s\u0259nin deyil, s\u0259n \u00f6z qism\u0259tini g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259lis\u0259n\u201d \u2013 s\u0259n dayanmadan ir\u0259lil\u0259, gerid\u0259 qalan qism\u0259tin \u00f6z\u00fc s\u0259ni gec-tez yaxalayacaqd\u0131r. \u00dcmid v\u0259 x\u0259yyalar arxas\u0131nca \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nan \u00fcr\u0259k h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131yacaq. Allah\u0131n ruhunu tutub getm\u0259lis\u0259n. D\u00fcnyan\u0131 qorxunc bil\u0259nl\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u00fcnya h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n qorxuncdur. Amma \u00e7ar\u0259 var \u2013 d\u00fcnyan\u0131 oldu\u011fu kimi ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131 bacarmaq, zaman\u0131 t\u0259l\u0259b etdiyi kimi ya\u015famaq. Sahib oldu\u011fumuz \u015feyl\u0259ri itirm\u0259kd\u0259n ona g\u00f6r\u0259 qorxuruq ki, Allah\u0131n ruhu \u0259lini bizd\u0259n \u00fcz\u0259 bil\u0259r \u2013 ax\u0131 bunu yazan Odur&#8230; Amma sidq-\u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 Allah da biziml\u0259 h\u0259v\u0259sli davran\u0131r. Q\u0259lbini dinl\u0259, o, h\u0259r \u015feyi s\u0259nd\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 bilir&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Bir d\u0259f\u0259 yar\u011fandan y\u0131x\u0131landa aya\u011f\u0131 burxulmu\u015fdu. \u0130ki il bundan qaba\u011f\u0131n s\u00f6hb\u0259tidir. Dilq\u0259m onda \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n qorxmu\u015fdu. Anas\u0131 onun aya\u011f\u0131na yaxu qoya-qoya el\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, \u00f6z\u00fc-\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n utanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u2013\u00a0 \u018fzab \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k qorxusu a\u011fr\u0131n\u0131n, \u0259zab\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u0259 pisdir. Bu d\u00fcnya bundan da g\u00f6z\u0259l bir d\u00fcnyan\u0131n oldu\u011funun s\u00fcbutudur. Allah\u0131n Ruhuna qovu\u015fanda h\u0259r \u015feyin do\u011fru oldu\u011funa \u0259min olacaqsan \u2013 Allah\u0131n imtahan\u0131 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ac\u0131 olsa da&#8230; Allah s\u0259n\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt x\u0259yan\u0259t etm\u0259z, ondan g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259diyin z\u0259rb\u0259ni s\u0259n\u0259 vurmaz. \u0130nsan\u0131n ruhunda torpa\u011f\u0131n, hava, su, i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n h\u0259r\u0259sinin ruhundan bir azcas\u0131 var\u00a0 \u2013 ona g\u00f6r\u0259 onlar kimiyik \u2013 gah nurlu, gah s\u0259rin, gah da hirsli&#8230; Allah\u0131n ruhu b\u00fct\u00fcn ruhlar\u0131n b\u00fct\u00f6v\u00fcd\u00fcr. K\u00fcl\u0259k s\u0259hran\u0131n ruhuyla bir c\u00fcr dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r, me\u015f\u0259nin ruhuyla bir c\u00fcr,d\u0259nizin ruhuyla ba\u015fqa bir c\u00fcr. Allah\u0131n ruhunu tuta bils\u0259k h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131zda f\u0131rt\u0131na, tufan olmaz. Bir i\u015fi g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 \u0259minlikl\u0259 q\u0259rar vermis\u0259ns\u0259, Allah\u0131n ruhu da s\u0259ninl\u0259 olacaq dem\u0259kdir&#8230;\u2013 o, sanki Allah\u0131n ruhundan v\u0259hy al\u0131b ay\u0259-ay\u0259 o\u011fluna \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cBudurmu m\u0259nim qism\u0259tim?\u201d \u2013 \u00e7\u0131xan qolu quca\u011f\u0131nda o ba\u015f-bu ba\u015fa var-g\u0259l edib durmu\u015fdu. Q\u0259fil qopan h\u0259yacan siqnal\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259si iliyind\u0259n ild\u0131r\u0131m kimi el\u0259 ke\u00e7di ki, namusun m\u0259hz ilikd\u0259 oldu\u011funu k\u0259sdirdi \u2013 iliyi m\u0259l\u0259di, s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fc gizild\u0259di el\u0259 bil. Zirz\u0259minin tavan\u0131nda t\u0259l\u0259m-t\u0259l\u0259sik ayaq s\u0259sl\u0259ri basabas salanda, \u2013 \u201cAllah hey, indi bizimkil\u0259r g\u0259l\u0259&#8230;\u201d \u2013 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tavana dikdi. \u2013 S\u0259n\u0259 qurban olum, Allah\u0131m, ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla m\u0259ni, h\u0259dyan dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m haqq\u0131nda, g\u00f6st\u0259r \u015f\u00fcca\u0259tini, itin-qurdun olum, g\u0259l xilas el\u0259 bizi\u201d&#8230; Yuxar\u0131da kazarmaya t\u0259l\u0259sik girib-\u00e7\u0131xanlar\u0131n, metal cingiltil\u0259rinin say\u0131 art\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fsg\u0259rl\u0259r silahlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb kazarmadan qa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131lar. Az ke\u00e7m\u0259mi\u015fdi ki zirz\u0259minin qap\u0131s\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131, h\u0259min s\u0131sqa erm\u0259ni S\u0259lbini bil\u0259yind\u0259n tutub pill\u0259k\u0259nin yar\u0131s\u0131nad\u0259k enm\u0259yini g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259n sonra \u0259lind\u0259ki al\u00fcminium falqadan olan qab\u0131 q\u0131za verib qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rtd\u00fc v\u0259 \u00fcstd\u0259n kilidl\u0259di. Qap\u0131 \u00f6rt\u00fclm\u0259mi\u015f k\u0259sdirdi ki, S\u0259lbinin sa\u00e7\u0131 islaqd\u0131r v\u0259 \u0259ynin\u0259 h\u0259rbi kamuflyaj geyinib. \u00d6ld\u00fc, qan\u0131 damarlar\u0131nda dondu, \u0259ll\u0259riyl\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc qapay\u0131b bir k\u00fcnc\u0259 q\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131, yumaq kimi b\u00fcz\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb diz\u00fcst\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc. \u0130\u00e7in-i\u00e7in h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131randa S\u0259lbi \u0259lini onun \u00e7iynin\u0259 qoydu, \u2013 \u201cAta, \u00fczm\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc, salamatam, he\u00e7 n\u0259 etm\u0259dil\u0259r \u2013 macallar\u0131 olmad\u0131. El\u0259 m\u0259n hamamdan \u00e7\u0131xan kimi h\u0259y\u0259can siqnal\u0131 verildi, m\u0259ni birba\u015f bura g\u0259tirdil\u0259r. Dey\u0259s\u0259n bizimkil\u0259r h\u00fccuma ke\u00e7ibl\u0259r. B\u0259lk\u0259 bizim \u0259sir d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc bilirl\u0259r, bizi xilas etm\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259libl\u0259r?\u201d&#8230; \u2013 atas\u0131n\u0131n boynunu qucaqlad\u0131, \u2013 \u201cAln\u0131m\u0131za n\u0259 yaz\u0131l\u0131bsa, o da olacaq. Q\u0259d\u0259rimizi yazan, ancaq \u00f6z\u00fc poza bil\u0259r. K\u00fcl\u0259yin havada yell\u0259diyi qu\u015f l\u0259l\u0259yi kimi \u00e7ar\u0259sizik, ata. M\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00fczm\u0259\u201d&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Deyirs\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 toxunmad\u0131lar ..? \u2013 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n yana\u011f\u0131na s\u00fcrtd\u00fc.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Quran haqq\u0131, yox&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Tavan\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131 sanki aral\u0131 qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 \u2013 i\u015f\u0131q bu aradan d\u00fcz onun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc, \u2013 \u201cAllah\u0131m, s\u0259nd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n iyn\u0259 ucu boyda i\u015f\u0131qda n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00fcc varm\u0131\u015f&#8230; G\u00f6st\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc, yorulma m\u0259nd\u0259n, s\u0259n adils\u0259n, r\u0259hmansan, s\u0259nin ruhun ist\u0259m\u0259s\u0259, kims\u0259 ruhuma toxuna bilm\u0259z. Yazm\u0131sansa, \u00f6z\u00fcn sil aln\u0131m\u0131zdan namussuzlu\u011fu, bizi \u00f6z k\u00f6lg\u0259n\u0259 al&#8230; \u2013 i\u00e7in\u0259 bir arxay\u0131nl\u0131q g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. \u00c7\u0131x\u0131b qap\u0131n\u0131 bir d\u0259 it\u0259l\u0259di, a\u00e7\u0131lmad\u0131 v\u0259 qap\u0131dan he\u00e7 bir i\u015fiq g\u0259lmirdi. Qolunu q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n boynuna dolay\u0131b sakitc\u0259 l\u0259ng\u0259r vurdu.\u201cB\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7aylar ona g\u00f6r\u0259dir ki, insan bal\u0131qlar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb \u00f6zl\u0259rinin sa\u011f olduqlar\u0131na sevinsinl\u0259r\u201d \u2013 anas\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259si qulaqlar\u0131nda cingild\u0259yirdi. \u2013 \u201cAllah\u0131n min bir sif\u0259ti var, onu h\u0259r cildd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n\u201d. Allah\u0131n lap yax\u0131nda, el\u0259 qula\u011f\u0131n\u0131n dibind\u0259 oldu\u011funu hiss edirdi. \u018fl atsa, Allah\u0131n n\u0259f\u0259sin\u0259 toxunaca\u011f\u0131na inan\u0131rd\u0131 indi, \u2013 \u201cO burdad\u0131r, biziml\u0259 birlikd\u0259 qaranl\u0131q zirz\u0259mid\u0259dir. Ta biz\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm yoxdur&#8230; S\u0131sqa erm\u0259ninin sur\u0259tind\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm Onu \u2013 \u0259lind\u0259ki qutunu ver\u0259nd\u0259 m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259tliydi. Bu Allah\u0131yd\u0131, erm\u0259ni deyildi\u201d.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Qabdak\u0131 n\u0259dir? \u2013 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Yem\u0259kdir \u2013 qab\u0131n qapa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b \u0259liyl\u0259 yoxlad\u0131 \u2013 A\u015fd\u0131r&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>&#8230; Xeyli vaxt idi ki, yuxar\u0131dan ins-cins s\u0259si g\u0259lmirdi, \u2013 \u201cAllah eliy\u0259 ham\u0131s\u0131 q\u0131r\u0131lalar&#8230;\u201d \u2013 i\u00e7ini dincliyin narahatl\u0131qla \u00e7u\u011fla\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0259caib bir hiss b\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcn burda oldu\u011funu g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259n Allah\u0131n onlar\u0131 t\u0259rk ed\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n \u0259ndi\u015f\u0259l\u0259nirdi. D\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nin kazarmaya qay\u0131tma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259mirdi.S\u0259h\u0259r yedikl\u0259rinin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 olsalar da yem\u0259kd\u0259n bir loxma da dadmad\u0131lar. Vedr\u0259d\u0259ki, Allah bilir n\u0259 vaxtdansa qalan sudan i\u00e7ib aqib\u0259tl\u0259rini g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n<p>\u201c\u00dc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcr balam\u201d \u2013 salamat qoluyla onu qucaqlay\u0131b yen\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259ssiz-s\u0259mirsiz k\u00fcncd\u0259 oturdular. \u00c7iyninin a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 yenid\u0259n k\u00f6r\u00fckl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259r t\u0259rp\u0259ndikc\u0259 \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc, a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fcz\u00fcr, dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259mirir, s\u0259ssizc\u0259 di\u015fl\u0259rini b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk s\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Kazarmada i\u015f\u0131q yananda, ayaq s\u0259sl\u0259ri \u00e7oxalanda yuxudan ay\u0131ld\u0131. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00e7oma\u011f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259n\u0259sini dayay\u0131b ayaq\u00fcst\u0259 qu\u015f yuxusu yatma\u011fa al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f adama t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u00fc g\u0259lirdi bel\u0259 d\u0259rin yuxuya dalma\u011f\u0131. Yerind\u0259 qurcuxanda q\u0131z\u0131 da ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 onun \u00e7iynind\u0259n g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb s\u0259s\u0259 diqq\u0259t k\u0259sildi. Q\u0131z\u0131n n\u0259bzi t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n h\u0259yacan t\u0259bili \u00e7al\u0131rd\u0131, yen\u0259 atas\u0131n\u0131n qolunu qucaqlay\u0131b titr\u0259di. Q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n pil\u0259 kimi yum\u015faq d\u00f6\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc bil\u0259yind\u0259 hiss edirdi, \u2013 \u201cAltda he\u00e7 n\u0259yi yoxdur\u201d. N\u0259s\u0259 Allah\u0131n n\u0259f\u0259sini duya bilmirdi indi, \u2013 \u201c\u00d6z\u00fcn k\u00f6m\u0259k ol, burda buraxma bizi\u201d \u2013 \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 Allah\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sib durmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n<p>Yen\u0259 d\u0259 kimis\u0259 e\u015fikd\u0259 m\u00f6hk\u0259mc\u0259 \u0259zi\u015fdirirdil\u0259r. Zavall\u0131 gah ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131r, gah onlar\u0131n ana-bac\u0131s\u0131na az\u0259rbaycanca s\u00f6y\u00fcr, gah da s\u0259si k\u0259silir v\u0259 k\u00fct t\u0259pik tapp\u0131lt\u0131lar e\u015fidilirdi ancaq. S\u0259sl\u0259r e\u015fikd\u0259n kazarman\u0131n i\u00e7in\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fckl\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259 ata-bala h\u0259y\u0259canla yerl\u0259rind\u0259 dik\u0259ldil\u0259r. S\u0259lbi b\u00fcz\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb atas\u0131n\u0131n qoltu\u011funda gizl\u0259nmi\u015fdi. Qap\u0131n\u0131n kilidi a\u00e7\u0131landa ilikl\u0259ri yenid\u0259n gizild\u0259di.<\/p>\n<p>\u018fsir d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n Az\u0259rbaycan \u0259sg\u0259riydi, a\u011f-ya\u015f\u0131l xall\u0131 gen maskaladdayd\u0131.\u0130ki n\u0259f\u0259r onun qoluna girib qap\u0131ya t\u0259r\u0259f s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fc. Paltar\u0131n\u0131 qur\u015fa\u011f\u0131nacan c\u0131r\u0131c-c\u0131r\u0131q etmi\u015fdil\u0259r. Enli sin\u0259sind\u0259, \u0259z\u0259l\u0259li \u00e7iyinl\u0259rind\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259 k\u00f6t\u0259k qan\u00e7\u0131rlar\u0131 q\u0131pq\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Onu n\u0259rdivanyeni\u015f\u0259 zirz\u0259miy\u0259 buraxd\u0131lar. Dey\u0259s\u0259n hu\u015fu \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 deyildi, ayaqlar\u0131 n\u0259rdivanda ili\u015fib qald\u0131. Qap\u0131 ba\u011flanan kimi Dilq\u0259m q\u0131z\u0131yla k\u00f6m\u0259kl\u0259\u015fib o\u011flan\u0131 \u00f6z k\u00fcncl\u0259rin\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcl\u0259r. \u018fsg\u0259rin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 su vuranda, g\u00f6rd\u00fc ki, qula\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ikisini d\u0259 k\u00f6k\u00fcnd\u0259n k\u0259sibl\u0259r.\u201c Bay sizin zat\u0131n\u0131za l\u0259n\u0259t, d\u0259yyuslar!\u201d \u2013 penc\u0259yinin astar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6k\u00fcb ikiy\u0259 b\u00f6ld\u00fc, suda islad\u0131b b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk yaral\u0131n\u0131n qulaqlar\u0131na basd\u0131. Penc\u0259yini par\u00e7alay\u0131b dayanmadan onun \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc islad\u0131rd\u0131. Dilq\u0259m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bu hu\u015fsuz adam zirz\u0259mid\u0259n qa\u00e7ark\u0259n yaxalanan Allah\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcyd\u00fc \u2013 \u201cBu adam bizi xilas ed\u0259c\u0259k t\u0259k p\u0259nah\u0131m\u0131zd\u0131r. Durub-durub bu adam\u0131 bo\u015funa g\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259z bura, o, tanr\u0131n\u0131n xilaskar \u0259lidir\u201d.<\/p>\n<p>Hu\u015fsuz \u0259sg\u0259rin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kilmirdil\u0259r. Amma qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n qaras\u0131nda he\u00e7 n\u0259 se\u00e7ilmirdi \u2013 qaran\u0131n qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00f6z i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u0259ritm\u0259siydi bu. D\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n i\u015f\u0131q da s\u0131zm\u0131rd\u0131 daha. \u201cTanr\u0131n\u0131n ruhu burdayd\u0131, b\u0259s nuru niy\u0259 qaraya b\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcb, yoxsa xilas \u0259lini uzatmaq ist\u0259mir..? \u201d. Bayaq t\u0259k qalanda yan-y\u00f6r\u0259sind\u0259 ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259-s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc v\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259 bil\u0259si n\u0259s\u0259 axtarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, tapa bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u00d6z \u0259li g\u0259lm\u0259zdi q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 bo\u011fub \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259. \u0130ndi, \u2013 \u201cBunun hu\u015fu \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259ls\u0259ydi, b\u0259lk\u0259 bizim can\u0131m\u0131za q\u0131yard\u0131 \u2013 baxma, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 olmasa m\u0259nd\u0259n ciy\u0259rli olar, dava-\u015fava g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f adamd\u0131r\u201d.<\/p>\n<p>Yuxar\u0131da \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259rd\u0259n birinin qaz s\u0259si g\u0259ldi \u2013 \u201cGec\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcbm\u00fc\u015f, yat\u0131blar\u201d&#8230; Dodaqlar\u0131 qa\u00e7d\u0131, \u2013 \u201cG\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n \u0130slam bildimi ki, s\u00fcr\u00fc ba\u015fl\u0131-ba\u015f\u0131na qal\u0131bsa, dem\u0259k dostunun ba\u015f\u0131 \u0259ld\u0259 deyil?\u201d. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 onun yan\u0131nda utanmadan qaz buraxanda, \u2013 \u201cNaleyi qaz\u201dd\u0131r, ke\u00e7 g\u00fcnah\u0131mdan\u201d deyirdi. \u201cKoraf\u0259him \u015feydi, y\u0259qin yen\u0259 \u0259xlaqs\u0131z \u015feirl\u0259r d\u00fcz\u00fcb-qo\u015fur. Onun birc\u0259 d\u0259rdi var ki, \u0259lin\u0259 bir adam ke\u00e7\u0259n kimi s\u0259r\u0259k l\u0259tif\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259, bi\u0259d\u0259b \u015feirl\u0259 onu u\u011fununcaya q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00fcld\u00fcrs\u00fcn. Hardan a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259r ki, bizi erm\u0259nil\u0259r \u0259sir g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb. Yaman dar\u0131xd\u0131m s\u0259nin\u00e7\u00fcn, \u0130slam. S\u0259nin o d\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 \u0259ks-s\u0259da ver\u0259n segahlar\u0131n, gic-gic \u015feirl\u0259rin, g\u00fclm\u0259li l\u0259tif\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc dar\u0131xd\u0131m, qarda\u015f. Allah, m\u0259ni \u00f6z d\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rim\u0259, da\u011flar\u0131ma, bulaqlar\u0131ma aln\u0131a\u00e7\u0131q qovu\u015fdur. Ya da ucuz \u00f6l\u00fcm ver m\u0259n\u0259, qurtar m\u0259ni bu z\u00fclm\u0259t qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n\u201d&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>O\u011flan q\u0131m\u0131ldand\u0131. \u018flhavas\u0131na onun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yoxlad\u0131, \u2013 \u201cAy\u0131ld\u0131n? Nec\u0259 hiss edirs\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc?\u201d \u2013 onu boynunun dal\u0131ndan tutub dik\u0259ltdi, k\u00fcnc\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259nm\u0259yin\u0259 yard\u0131m etdi.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Harday\u0131q..? \u2013 o\u011flan \u0259lini onun \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u0259zdir\u0259r\u0259k soru\u015fdu, \u2013 Siz kimsiniz?<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 M\u0259n d\u0259 az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131yam, q\u0131z\u0131mla birlikd\u0259 \u0259sir d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u00fck \u2013 bu g\u00fcn s\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n burday\u0131q&#8230; Kazarman\u0131n zirz\u0259misind\u0259yik. Yava\u015f dan\u0131\u015f, \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259r \u00fcstd\u0259 yat\u0131rlar.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131z han\u0131 b\u0259s?<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 O k\u00fcncd\u0259dir, \u2013 S\u0259lbi, yax\u0131n g\u0259l&#8230; Astadan dan\u0131\u015faq ki, nam\u0259rdl\u0259r oyanmas\u0131n&#8230; \u2013 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n bil\u0259yind\u0259n tutub a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 oturtdu.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Kims\u0259n, nec\u0259 \u0259sir d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcs\u0259n? \u2013 \u0259sg\u0259rin qula\u011f\u0131na sar\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0259skinin d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259diyini yoxlad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Snayper\u0259m. Vadonu ovlama\u011fa \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, \u00f6z\u00fcm onun ovu oldum, \u0259claf m\u0259nd\u0259n f\u0259ras\u0259tli \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Bald\u0131r\u0131mdan vurdu, qa\u00e7a bilm\u0259dim, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc vurma\u011fa da macal verm\u0259di. Kopayo\u011flu \u00e7ox mahir ov\u00e7uymu\u015f. Bu oyunda m\u0259n uduzdum&#8230; Andronik\u0259 s\u00f6yd\u00fcm, ac\u0131\u011fa, iki qula\u011f\u0131m\u0131 da k\u0259sdi&#8230; \u2013 azca inild\u0259yib yerini rahatlad\u0131. Can\u0131b\u0259rk, sa\u011flam o\u011flan idi.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Allahdan \u00fcmid k\u0259silm\u0259z, Allah b\u00f6y\u00fckd\u00fcr&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Bel\u0259 yerd\u0259 Allaha g\u00fcv\u0259nm\u0259k axmaql\u0131qd\u0131r, \u0259mi. Ne\u00e7\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131z var?<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 47. Q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131nsa, 17.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 \u0130\u015fg\u0259nc\u0259 verdil\u0259r?<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Xeylax t\u0259pikl\u0259yibl\u0259r, zirz\u0259miy\u0259 atanda is\u0259 \u00e7iynim \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Yax\u0131n g\u0259lin&#8230; \u2013 Dilq\u0259min bil\u0259yind\u0259n yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131, \u2013 Bu qolunuzdur?<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 H\u0259. Neynirs\u0259n..?<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 \u0130ndi a\u011fr\u0131dacaq, s\u0259sinizi \u00e7\u0131xarmay\u0131n \u2013 \u00e7iynini, k\u00f6rp\u00fcc\u00fck s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc bir az \u0259ll\u0259\u015fdir\u0259nd\u0259n sonra q\u0259fild\u0259n onun qolunu dart\u0131b geri oturtdu. S\u00fcm\u00fck \u015faqq\u0131lt\u0131yla yerin\u0259 oturanda Dilq\u0259min g\u00f6z\u00fc qaran\u0131 da se\u00e7m\u0259di, dilini-doda\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259mirdi. Xeyli m\u00fcdd\u0259t dirs\u0259yini qucaqlay\u0131b durdu. S\u0259lbi ovcunda ona su g\u0259tirdi,\u00a0 \u2013 \u201c\u0130\u00e7&#8230;\u201d \u2013 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131. Su qan dad\u0131rd\u0131&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 \u0130ndi nec\u0259dir, yen\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lki kimi a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131r? \u2013 o\u011flan\u0131n t\u0259mkini, ah-vay salmama\u011f\u0131 ona\u00a0 toxtaql\u0131q verirdi.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 \u0130ndi yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r, azca zoqqultusu qal\u0131b, \u2013 yava\u015f-yava\u015f qolunu t\u0259rp\u0259tdi. \u2013 S\u0259nc\u0259 aqib\u0259timiz nec\u0259 olacaq? \u2013 a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 bir t\u0259s\u0259lli e\u015fitm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Nec\u0259 olacaq, sabah g\u00fcn \u00e7\u0131xan kimi ikimizi d\u0259 g\u00fcll\u0259l\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r&#8230; B\u0259lk\u0259, h\u0259l\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259dil\u0259r, \u2013 \u00e7ox zal\u0131m q\u0259rar oldu Dilq\u0259m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn,\u2013 Q\u0131yacaqlar q\u0131z\u0131na&#8230; \u2013 yaras\u0131 gizild\u0259di dey\u0259s\u0259n, ufulday\u0131b ikiqat \u0259yildi,\u2013 Siz nec\u0259 \u0259sir d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcz b\u0259s?<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 qoyun otard\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131blar, x\u0259b\u0259rimiz olmay\u0131b. \u00c7obanam. Me\u015f\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xanda el\u0259 bildik ki, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcnk\u00fcl\u0259rdir. Qol-budaq eliyib me\u015f\u0259yl\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcl\u0259r bizi. Sonra da ma\u015f\u0131na mindirib g\u0259tirdil\u0259r buraya.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 B\u0259db\u0259xtl\u0259r&#8230; Neyl\u0259y\u0259s\u0259n, qism\u0259td\u0259n qa\u00e7maq olmaz, olacaq olmal\u0131d\u0131r&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Q\u0131z\u0131m yan\u0131mda olmasayd\u0131, he\u00e7 n\u0259 vecim\u0259 olmazd\u0131, q\u0131z b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259l-aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131 ba\u011flay\u0131b&#8230; Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u0259n?<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Anlay\u0131ram&#8230; Sabah Allah bilir ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za n\u0259 oyun a\u00e7acaqlar bu \u015f\u0259r\u0259fsizl\u0259r. Bizimki d\u0259 buraya q\u0259d\u0259rmi\u015f&#8230; Biz\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259dibl\u0259r ki, ancaq indi var, indini ya\u015famal\u0131d\u0131r a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 insanlar. N\u00f6vb\u0259ti saniy\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n. H\u0259yat ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n andan ibar\u0259tdir. Sabaha sa\u011f \u00e7\u0131xsan, bu g\u00fcn d\u0259 adi xatir\u0259d\u0259n ba\u015fqa bir \u015fey olmayacaq s\u0259nin\u00e7\u00fcn.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n saat ne\u00e7\u0259dir \u2013 sabaha az qal\u0131bm\u0131, yoxsa, h\u0259l\u0259 ax\u015fam yeni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb?Vaxt azald\u0131qca insan \u00f6lm\u0259y\u0259 lap t\u0259l\u0259sirmi\u015f. \u201c\u00d6ls\u0259ydik can\u0131m\u0131z bu \u0259zablardan qurtarard\u0131\u201d \u2013 \u00e7oban dostu \u0130slam\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fcyd\u00fc. G\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259m\u0259kl\u0259 pe\u015fimanl\u0131q aras\u0131nda \u00e7a\u015f-ba\u015f qalan\u00a0 qaranl\u0131q g\u00f6zl\u0259rini \u0259sg\u0259r\u0259 dikdi ki, b\u0259lk\u0259 onun \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 bir \u00fcmid g\u00f6r\u0259 bildi. Allah\u0131n ruhunda \u00f6z al\u0131n yaz\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 axtarmaq ist\u0259di qara r\u0259ngin qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda. He\u00e7 n\u0259 sezm\u0259yib g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yer\u0259 dikdi \u2013 \u201cBu qaranl\u0131qda \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcr. L\u0259n\u0259t \u015feytana, ka\u015f ki, he\u00e7 sabah a\u00e7\u0131lmayayd\u0131\u201d&#8230; \u2013 i\u00e7in\u0259 dolan d\u0259li fikir ona vicdan \u0259zab\u0131 verirdi. Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, qaranl\u0131qda onun sif\u0259tinin nec\u0259 p\u00f6rtd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u0259n yox idi. Da\u015f qayaya rast g\u0259lmi\u015fdi i\u00e7ind\u0259. Allah\u0131n saf dili qar\u011f\u0131\u015f s\u00f6yl\u0259yirdi ona el\u0259 bil. Allah onu \u00f6vlad sevgisiyl\u0259 imtahana \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015fdi v\u0259 fikrind\u0259n d\u00f6n\u0259n\u0259 ox\u015fam\u0131rd\u0131&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Anas\u0131n\u0131n ruhuna s\u0131\u011f\u0131nmaq qal\u0131rd\u0131, \u2013 \u201cH\u0259r k\u0259si g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n ba\u015fqa biri var. Ham\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n biri d\u0259 var \u2013 \u00d6l\u00fcm. \u00d6l\u00fcml\u0259 rastla\u015fandaona\u0259sl laz\u0131m olan\u0131n m\u0259hz o oldu\u011funu g\u00f6zl\u0259riyl\u0259 bir-birin\u0259 anladarlar. Bu zaman b\u00fct\u00fcn ke\u00e7mi\u015f, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k \u00f6z m\u0259nas\u0131n\u0131 itirir \u2013 insan o an\u0131 ya\u015fay\u0131r v\u0259 o andan etibar\u0259n ya\u015fay\u0131r. O zaman Allah\u0131n Ruhu da sevinir. \u00d6l\u00fcm ona Allah\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn sirl\u0259rini a\u00e7\u0131r, Allah\u0131n dilini \u00f6yr\u0259dir, tor g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7\u0131r. Bu d\u00fcnyada Allah\u0131n ba\u011f\u0131\u015flamayaca\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcnah yoxdur. Dara d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 iki q\u0259rardan birini verm\u0259lis\u0259ns\u0259, \u00fcr\u0259yini v\u0259 vicdan\u0131n\u0131 sakitl\u0259\u015fdir\u0259c\u0259k q\u0259rar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 dayan. \u00d6l\u00fcmqaba\u011f\u0131 rahatl\u0131q \u2013 bu \u00e7ox vacibdir\u201d&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>&#8230;\u0130ndi onun \u0259l-aya\u011f\u0131na dola\u015fan Allah nuruna ehtiyac\u0131 yox idi. Allah\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fc qara, \u0259li \u0259t\u0259yind\u0259n uzun idi onun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda. Anas\u0131n\u0131n ruhuyla onun al\u0131n yaz\u0131s\u0131 bayaqdan \u00fcst-\u00fcst\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u00d6l\u00fcml\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259mi\u015fd\u0259n qabaq boynuna d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n q\u0259rar\u0131 verm\u0259liydi, \u2013 \u201cY\u0259qin ki yuxar\u0131da saniy\u0259l\u0259r saat \u0259qr\u0259binin arxas\u0131nca t\u0259ngn\u0259f\u0259s qa\u00e7\u0131r\u201d. \u0130\u00e7ini d\u0259lik-de\u015fik ed\u0259n namus hissinin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z \u0259ll\u0259riyl\u0259 \u0259zm\u0259li v\u0259 bu fani d\u00fcnyaya g\u00f6zl\u0259rini rahat yummal\u0131 idi. Amma qula\u011f\u0131k\u0259sik Az\u0259rbaycan \u0259sg\u0259rini ram etm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r, \u2013 \u201c\u0130nand\u0131rmaq laz\u0131m g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k&#8230;\u201d \u2013 a\u011fr\u0131yan qolunu quca\u011f\u0131na al\u0131b \u00f6z k\u00fcnc\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 \u0130nsan \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259d\u0259n \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259yini bils\u0259ydi d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259lm\u0259zdi. Qar\u015f\u0131dak\u0131 olaca\u011fa haz\u0131rlanmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn sabaha can at\u0131r insan. Sabah n\u0259 olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bils\u0259ydik, n\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yimiz olard\u0131, n\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131z. Qoy sabah olacaq \u015feyl\u0259r s\u0259ni mat qoymas\u0131n, d\u0259rdl\u0259r is\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 indid\u0259n d\u0259rd olmas\u0131n, onsuz da d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259k iqtidar\u0131nda deyils\u0259n. Sabah \u00f6lm\u0259k bu g\u00fcn \u00f6lm\u0259kd\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. H\u0259r g\u00fcn ya\u015famaq \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 haz\u0131rlanmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnd\u00fcr. Bu, h\u0259yat\u0131n qanunudur \u2013 sanki qaranl\u0131q zirz\u0259minin ruhuydu dan\u0131\u015fan \u2013 Dilq\u0259min ruhu dil a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f v\u0259 dilinin alt\u0131nda al\u0131n yaz\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n oxuyurdu:<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 \u00d6l\u00fcm ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fmaq ist\u0259yirs\u0259ns\u0259, i\u00e7ind\u0259ki h\u0259r c\u00fcr sevgini cilovlamal\u0131san, ram edib ita\u0259tin\u0259 almal\u0131san. Sevdikl\u0259rin h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcmqaba\u011f\u0131 \u00f6z ba\u015f\u0131na b\u0259la, y\u00fck olur. Onlarla xeyli yol getmis\u0259n, bird\u0259n biri dizl\u0259rini yer\u0259 qoyub s\u0259ni yar\u0131yolda qoyur, el\u0259si d\u0259 var ki, s\u0259ni \u00f6t\u00fcb gedir, s\u0259ni arxalar\u0131nca s\u0259sl\u0259m\u0259kd\u0259n yorulmurlar, dallar\u0131nca ha \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131r\u0131rsan, s\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n g\u00f6zd\u0259n itirl\u0259r. \u00a0Dizl\u0259rini yer\u0259 qoyma\u011fa macal vermirl\u0259r s\u0259n\u0259. M\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7ox sevir\u0259m. Allah\u0131n ruhu ist\u0259y\u0259n kimi. Amma sabah Allah\u0131n ruhu m\u0259ni t\u0259k qoymayacaq ki&#8230; He\u00e7 a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259tirirs\u0259n do\u011fma q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda kirl\u0259tm\u0259yin ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131? Onun namusunu kirl\u0259d\u0259n adam \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259n biri olsayd\u0131, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 he\u00e7 bu q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259rd etm\u0259zdim&#8230; \u2013 qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n s\u0259si zirz\u0259minin ruhunu \u0259zirdi indi&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 \u0130nsan sava\u015flar\u0131n \u00f6vlad\u0131d\u0131r. G\u00fcnahs\u0131z d\u00fcnyan\u0131n b\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259ri kimi g\u00fcnahl\u0131 d\u00fcnyaya d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u00fck.Bunu ist\u0259y\u0259n biri var. M\u0259n Allah\u0131n bu qaranl\u0131qda al\u00e7aq s\u0259sl\u0259 zar\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fid\u0259 bilir\u0259m. O art\u0131q \u00f6z q\u0259rar\u0131n\u0131 verib \u2013 \u201cBu d\u0259f\u0259 al\u0131n yaz\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 ya\u015fayacaqs\u0131n\u0131z\u201d deyir m\u0259n\u0259.M\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fc da\u011flarda, me\u015f\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259, \u00e7\u00f6ll\u0259rd\u0259 ke\u00e7irmi\u015f\u0259m. Onlar\u0131n h\u0259r birinin ruhundan m\u0259nd\u0259 azca da olsa var. M\u0259n t\u0259bi\u0259tin dilini bilir\u0259m. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 me\u015f\u0259d\u0259, bulaqda, \u00e7ay k\u0259nar\u0131nda ruhum sevinir, ayaq tutub u\u00e7ur m\u0259nd\u0259n. Amma bu g\u00fcn i\u00e7imd\u0259ki ruhum k\u00f6m\u00fcrd\u0259 ya\u015fayan me\u015f\u0259nin ruhu kimidir. Sabah\u00a0 \u2013 \u201cYerin behi\u015ft olsun, Allah\u0131n Ruhu\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259c\u0259m v\u0259 Onun m\u0259nd\u0259ki \u0259man\u0259tini \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rpaca\u011fam&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Ruhumun mayas\u0131nda t\u00fcst\u00fc, sava\u015f yoxdur m\u0259nim. \u018fg\u0259r ikimiz d\u0259 eyni \u0259ld\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015f\u0131q v\u0259 eyni ruhdan yaranm\u0131\u015f\u0131qsa, m\u0259nim n\u0259 ist\u0259diyimi anlamal\u0131san&#8230; F\u0259rqimiz ondad\u0131r ki,\u00a0 s\u0259n Allah\u0131n Qad\u0131n ruhundan yaranm\u0131san&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Ata! \u2013 S\u0259lbi atas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131ndan durub dig\u0259r k\u00fcnc\u0259 ke\u00e7di, bunun ad\u0131 utanmaq idi.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 S\u0259ni sevm\u0259yi \u00f6yr\u0259ndim bu d\u00fcnyada. Kim bilir, o biri d\u00fcnyada n\u0259 var, biz\u0259 n\u0259l\u0259r \u00f6yr\u0259dil\u0259c\u0259k&#8230; Amma s\u0259ni itirm\u0259k \u00fczr\u0259 olduqca, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcm lap yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131qca Yaradan\u0131n Ruhunu daha ayd\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m. Bilir\u0259m ki, sabah bu Ruh u\u00e7acaq m\u0259nd\u0259n&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 S\u0259n sayaqlay\u0131rsan, ata?! \u2013 S\u0259lbinin s\u0259sinin titr\u0259diyini hiss edirdi.<\/p>\n<p>O is\u0259 ili\u015fmi\u015f val kimi s\u0259sinin tonunu d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259d\u0259n, t\u00f6vr\u00fcn\u00fc pozmadan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131:<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 \u00d6l\u00fcm olmasayd\u0131 insan h\u0259yat\u0131 diqq\u0259tl\u0259 ya\u015famazd\u0131, he\u00e7 vec\u0259 d\u0259 almazd\u0131. Allah\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fc D\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcd\u00fcr, g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fc Axir\u0259tdir \u2013 c\u0259hh\u0259n\u0259mi v\u0259 c\u0259nn\u0259tiyl\u0259. Biz \u00f6l\u0259rk\u0259n Al\u0259min ruhuyla birl\u0259\u015firik. K\u00fcl\u0259k d\u0259, d\u0259niz d\u0259 eyni Ruhdan yaran\u0131b, eyni e\u015fql\u0259 dal\u011falan\u0131r, b\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tini yay\u0131r, sonra s\u0259ngiyir v\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcr&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Ya\u015fay\u0131rsansa, dem\u0259k \u00f6lm\u0259k vaxt\u0131n yeti\u015fm\u0259yib.\u0130mkan ver, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc \u00f6z ist\u0259diyimiz kimi se\u00e7\u0259k. \u00d6l\u00fcmqaba\u011f\u0131 f\u0259ls\u0259f\u0259 zaman\u0131 deyil&#8230; \u2013 d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u00e7\u00fcn\u00fcn t\u0259bi qa\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131, \u2013 \u201cD\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f qanunundan o yana he\u00e7 n\u0259 bilmir, zavall\u0131 u\u015faq\u201d.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 H\u0259r ikiniz bu d\u00fcnyada he\u00e7 n\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259d\u0259n k\u00f6\u00e7\u0259c\u0259ksiniz&#8230; Xat\u0131rlay\u0131rsan, bir d\u0259f\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 demi\u015fdim, \u2013 \u201cG\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u0259 bax&#8230; g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7\u0259km\u0259 bax, bir az da&#8230; \u0130ndi m\u0259n\u0259 bax. M\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n?\u201d \u201cYox, g\u00f6zl\u0259rim qama\u015f\u0131r, kor kimiy\u0259m\u201d \u2013 demi\u015fdin. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 i\u015f\u0131q dal\u0131nca qa\u00e7an adam da h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 nur tapm\u0131r, \u00e7ox zaman bu yoldan kor qay\u0131d\u0131r. \u0130ndi bu qaranl\u0131\u011fa diqq\u0259tl\u0259 bax, bax.., indi is\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 bax. G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259nmi m\u0259ni?Yen\u0259 yox. Dem\u0259k he\u00e7 n\u0259 axtarmaq laz\u0131m deyil, s\u0259n\u0259 veril\u0259n h\u0259yat\u0131 ya\u015famaq laz\u0131md\u0131r yaln\u0131z. S\u0259ni axtaran is\u0259 m\u00fctl\u0259q tapacaq.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 S\u0259n \u00e7obansan, yoxsa alim?! Can ver\u0259n adam Allahdan iki\u0259lli yap\u0131\u015f\u0131r, s\u0259n is\u0259&#8230; \u2013 \u0259sg\u0259rin h\u00f6vs\u0259l\u0259si daral\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Allah bizim \u0259m\u0259ll\u0259rimizin \u0259ks-s\u0259das\u0131d\u0131r, \u0259m\u0259limiz nec\u0259dirs\u0259, o c\u00fcr d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 qay\u0131dar. Bu qaranl\u0131q zirz\u0259mid\u0259 Allah\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r yeti\u015fm\u0259mis\u0259n. T\u0259kc\u0259 g\u00fcnahlara boylanmaq adam\u0131 iflic ed\u0259r. G\u00fcnahlar da, u\u011furlar da s\u0259nin do\u011fma h\u0259yat\u0131nd\u0131r \u2013 h\u0259r iki lenti sev\u0259r\u0259k izl\u0259m\u0259lis\u0259n. \u0130lan s\u0259ni sancmad\u0131qca \u00f6lm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n, ilana baxmaq s\u0259ni z\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259m\u0259z, o\u011flan. \u00d6l\u00fcm d\u0259, onu dadmad\u0131qca biz\u0259 yadd\u0131r. Guya ki, s\u0259n onu dadmaqdan qorxmursan, \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kinmirs\u0259n. Amma qorxunu, ac\u0131n\u0131 burdan hiss edir\u0259m. Qan\u0131ma z\u0259h\u0259r yayacaq o \u201cilandan\u201d qorxmuram daha \u2013 bu da ke\u00e7m\u0259li oldu\u011fum bir pill\u0259di, ke\u00e7m\u0259liy\u0259m. \u00d6l\u00fcm oca\u011fa b\u0259nziyir \u2013 ilk yananda t\u00fcst\u00fcs\u00fc adam\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ya\u015fard\u0131r, g\u00fcrla\u015fanda is\u0259 istilik, rahatl\u0131q verir. \u00d6l\u00fcm qorxusu g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc ya\u015fartmamal\u0131, a\u011fl\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131zdan almamal\u0131d\u0131r. Amma bu qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259ki nuru g\u00f6rm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131rsa, o,&#8230; \u2013 i\u00e7ind\u0259t\u0131xanm\u0131\u015f o s\u00f6z\u00fc bird\u0259f\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xara bilm\u0259di, \u2013 Bu xeyirxahl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z g\u00fcnahlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n mislind\u0259n qat-qat azd\u0131sa, v\u0259d edil\u0259n\u0259 do\u011fru inamla getm\u0259k daha a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 add\u0131md\u0131r&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 S\u0259nd\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 din xadimi \u00e7\u0131xar, \u00e7oban qarda\u015f \u2013 h\u0259l\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259k-dir\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 hiss etdi \u0259sg\u0259rin.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cB\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 anlama\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131b \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259ni\u201d: \u2013 Dal\u011falanan suda insan \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u0259 bilm\u0259diyi kimi, ruhu narahatl\u0131qda olan insan da Allah\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259 bilm\u0259z. \u0130mkan\u0131n varsa, onunla\u00a0 alver etm\u0259, oynama q\u0131sa zamanla. Allah n\u0259 g\u00f6yd\u0259dir, n\u0259 yerd\u0259, n\u0259 da\u011fdad\u0131r, n\u0259 d\u0259 d\u0259nizd\u0259. Allah, biz onu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fcz yerd\u0259dir. \u018flimizi atan kimi yard\u0131m etm\u0259kd\u0259n \u00e7ox xo\u015fb\u0259xt olmal\u0131, buna sevinm\u0259lidir. M\u0259n ondan \u00f6l\u00fcm ist\u0259mi\u015fdim \u2013 q\u0131z\u0131ma v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259. Ancaq s\u0259ni g\u00f6nd\u0259rdi&#8230; \u0130\u015f-i\u015fd\u0259n ke\u00e7ibs\u0259, onda unutma ki, bu s\u0259n\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 veril\u0259n h\u0259yat idi&#8230; Qorxma\u011f\u0131n vaxt\u0131 \u00f6td\u00fc \u2013 indi \u00fcmid vaxt\u0131d\u0131r. Sa\u011f qalmaq \u00fcmidi yox, \u015f\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259 \u00f6lm\u0259k \u00fcmidi. Olan onsuz da olub, olanacan qorxurdum, indi qorxmuram&#8230; \u0130kimiz \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259yik, amma S\u0259lbinin sa\u011f qalaca\u011f\u0131ndan qorxuram. Sa\u011f qalsa, erm\u0259nid\u0259n d\u00f6ll\u0259nm\u0259yini ist\u0259mir\u0259m. O erm\u0259nid\u0259n u\u015faq g\u0259tirm\u0259m\u0259lidir d\u00fcnyaya&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Ata! \u2013 S\u0259lbi h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Araya qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n a\u011f\u0131r s\u00fckutu \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc. N\u0259f\u0259sin s\u0259si d\u0259 k\u0259silmi\u015fdi&#8230; T\u0259xmin\u0259n yar\u0131m saatdan sonra onlardan hans\u0131sa Dilq\u0259m\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f g\u0259ldi. Qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda \u00e7\u00f6m\u0259ldi, onun yanaqlar\u0131ndan tutub aln\u0131n\u0131 aln\u0131na dayad\u0131. D\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u00e7\u00fcyd\u00fc:<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 \u018fg\u0259r m\u0259n d\u00fczg\u00fcn anlay\u0131ramsa, s\u0259n m\u0259ni bu dar macalda q\u0131z\u0131nla evl\u0259ndirm\u0259k ist\u0259yirs\u0259n, el\u0259dir..?<\/p>\n<p>Dilq\u0259m aln\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259rp\u0259d\u0259r\u0259k t\u0259sdiq etdi, \u2013 \u018fn \u00e7\u0259tini birinci r\u00fcsvay\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011fa d\u00f6zm\u0259kdir, n\u00f6vb\u0259tini adlatmaq daha y\u00fcng\u00fcl olar&#8230; \u2013 onun g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn i\u00e7in\u0259 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 M\u0259nim ist\u0259diyim q\u0131z var, b\u0259lk\u0259 s\u0259nin q\u0131z\u0131n buna he\u00e7 raz\u0131 olmaz. Allah \u00f6z fikrini \u0259n sonda deyir, b\u0259lk\u0259 bu q\u0259rar bizim xeyrimiz\u0259 deyil&#8230; \u2013 durub \u00f6z yerin\u0259 ke\u00e7di, \u2013 Yoxsa el\u0259 bilirs\u0259n ki, m\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn bu su i\u00e7m\u0259k kimi asan \u015feydir \u2013 h\u0259m d\u0259 bu hal\u0131mda? Bu adam \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259kd\u0259n bet\u0259rdir, insanl\u0131qdan uzaq bir \u015feydir. M\u0259ni qeyr\u0259tsizmi hesab edirs\u0259n..?<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 M\u0259nim yerim\u0259 \u00f6z atan\u0131, S\u0259lbinin yerin\u0259 \u00f6z bac\u0131n\u0131, ya sevdiyin q\u0131z\u0131 qoy.., sonra m\u0259ni anlama\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f&#8230; Bir \u015fey d\u0259qiqdir \u2013 biz s\u00f6zss\u00fcz \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259yik. \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcn qoxusu \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcb \u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259&#8230; O\u011flan, t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb qalaca\u011f\u0131n \u015feyl\u0259rd\u0259n qorxma, \u00e7\u00fcnki, Allah insan\u0131 \u00e7a\u015fd\u0131rmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn o q\u0259d\u0259r \u015fey d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb yarad\u0131b ki&#8230; Bu d\u00fcnya insanlar\u0131 mat qoymaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnd\u00fcr, bunu Allah da sevir v\u0259 h\u0259rd\u0259n \u0259yl\u0259nir biziml\u0259&#8230; Bunu, lap Allaha ac\u0131q verm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 olsa etm\u0259lis\u0259n. Nakam getm\u0259m\u0259liyik Al\u0259min ruhuna&#8230; M\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0259n Allah\u0131n ruhusan.Q\u0131z\u0131m m\u0259nim al\u0131n yaz\u0131md\u0131r.Sizin taleyiniz birlikd\u0259 yaz\u0131l\u0131b qism\u0259tim\u0259, \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm p\u0259rd\u0259si \u00e7\u0259kib yaradan. O, bu p\u0259rd\u0259ni s\u00fcbh tezd\u0259n qald\u0131racaq v\u0259 olmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259diyi yaz\u0131n\u0131 orda g\u00f6rm\u0259lidir. Yoxsa, onunla birlikd\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259 \u0259zab \u00e7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m\u2026<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Ata, s\u0259n bunu nec\u0259 ist\u0259y\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n ax\u0131?! S\u0259n ya\u015f\u0131m q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259rk ed\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n m\u0259ni, gerisi yaln\u0131z z\u0259nn etdikl\u0259rindir\u00a0 \u2013S\u0259lbi yuxar\u0131da yatanlardan qorxmasayd\u0131 h\u00f6nk\u00fcr\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 \u00c7\u00f6ll\u0259rd\u0259 susuz qalm\u0131\u015f a\u011fac ax\u015fam d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k \u015feh\u0259 \u00fcmid b\u0259sl\u0259y\u0259r. B\u0259s biz n\u0259y\u0259 \u00fcmid b\u0259sl\u0259y\u0259k, q\u0131z\u0131m? Bu qaranl\u0131q gec\u0259 bizi a\u011f g\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xarmayacaq. G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131nda murdarlar\u0131n s\u0259n\u0259 \u0259zab verm\u0259yin\u0259 d\u00f6z\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m, ruhum da d\u00f6zm\u0259z. Allah bu cavan o\u011flan\u0131 bo\u015funa g\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259yib&#8230; \u2013 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc divara dir\u0259yib c\u0131r\u0131qlanm\u0131\u015f penc\u0259yini ba\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kdi, \u2013 Bu etdiyimiz \u015fey, qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n biz\u0259 ver\u0259c\u0259yi t\u0259k \u00fcmid i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131d\u0131r&#8230; Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 kims\u0259 bizi q\u0131nayacaqsa, ad\u0131m\u0131za namussuz, \u015f\u0259r\u0259fsiz dey\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259, namussuz, \u015f\u0259r\u0259fsiz onun \u00f6z\u00fcd\u00fcr, s\u00fclal\u0259sidir. M\u0259n m\u0259l\u0259k kimi \u00f6vlad b\u00f6y\u00fctm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m ki, onu \u00f6z \u0259ll\u0259riml\u0259 iki saatdan sonra erm\u0259niy\u0259 yedirim&#8230; \u00a0\u2013 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rtd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc bilm\u0259l\u0259rini ist\u0259di.<\/p>\n<p>Araya donmu\u015f d\u0259nizin s\u00fckutu \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc. Bundan sonra el\u0259 bil ki, saat\u0131n \u0259qr\u0259bl\u0259rind\u0259n girv\u0259nk\u0259 da\u015flar\u0131 as\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Zaman saat \u0259qr\u0259bl\u0259rini \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi, qism\u0259t bu g\u00fcn\u00fc a\u015f\u0131b sabaha adlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Yuxar\u0131dak\u0131lar yataqlar\u0131nda e\u015f\u0259l\u0259ndikc\u0259 h\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u00fcn i\u00e7ind\u0259ki t\u0259lat\u00fcm beynl\u0259rind\u0259 \u00e7alxalan\u0131rd\u0131.Zirz\u0259minin s\u00fckutu q\u0259ti z\u0259f\u0259r \u00e7alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.\u00a0 Dilq\u0259m \u00f6z x\u0259yallar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7oban dostu \u0130slam\u0131n yan\u0131na qovmu\u015fdu. \u0130slam\u0131n segah\u0131 d\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 \u0259ks-s\u0259da verib t\u0259p\u0259nin ba\u015f\u0131nacaq g\u0259lir, onun ruhunu s\u0131\u011fallay\u0131rd\u0131. S\u00fcr\u00fcs\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131qca, telini darayan mehin s\u0131\u011fal\u0131n\u0131 duyduqca iliyind\u0259ki s\u0259rinlikd\u0259n xo\u015fhal olurdu.<\/p>\n<p>S\u0259lbinin ehmalca \u0259sg\u0259rin k\u00fcnc\u00fcn\u0259 do\u011fru getdiyini hiss ed\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 b\u0131ld\u0131r-b\u0131ld\u0131r ya\u015f gil\u0259l\u0259ndi, yana\u011f\u0131ndan sel axd\u0131 qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n uyudu\u011fu n\u0259m torpaq d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259y\u0259&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Anas\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259rinin s\u0259sini verirdi ki, \u0259trafda he\u00e7 bir h\u0259nirti e\u015fid\u0259 bilm\u0259sin, \u2013 \u201cEl\u0259 adamlar var ki, \u00f6lm\u0259k ist\u0259yir, amma \u00f6l\u00fcm adli g\u00f6z\u0259l m\u0259l\u0259k ondan uzaq g\u0259zir. \u00d6l\u00fcm ancaq sevdikl\u0259rini \u0259zab verm\u0259d\u0259n yan\u0131na apar\u0131r. \u00c7\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f a\u011fac\u0131n \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u0259 son qoyan \u00f6l\u00fcm xeyirxahd\u0131r.Q\u0131z y\u00fck\u00fc a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fckd\u00fcr.Q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n, ana-bac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n, \u0259hl-\u0259yal\u0131n\u0131n namusunu \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n \u0259r g\u00fcnd\u0259 min d\u0259f\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcb-dirilir.\u00d6l\u00fcml\u0259rin \u0259n z\u00fclm\u00fcd\u00fcr namus da\u011f\u0131yla \u00f6lm\u0259k.Atam bir d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00fcl\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259 deyirdi ki, \u2013 \u201cM\u0259ry\u0259minAllahdan \u0130saya boylu qalmas\u0131 h\u0259disi olmasayd\u0131, k\u00fcr\u0259k\u0259nimi \u00f6z \u0259ll\u0259riml\u0259 bo\u011fub \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259rdim\u201d.Sevdikl\u0259rini s\u0259n\u0259 ver\u0259n Allah onu geri alanda c\u0131rnay\u0131r\u0131q, kin p\u00fcsk\u00fcr\u00fcr\u00fck.H\u0259r \u015feyi Allah\u0131n q\u0259d\u0259ri, al\u0131n yaz\u0131s\u0131 kimi soyuq ba\u015fla qar\u015f\u0131la. Burda itirdikl\u0259rimiz, o biri d\u00fcnyada qazanaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u00a0 m\u00fckafatlar\u0131m\u0131z olacaq\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Yuxar\u0131da \u00e7arpay\u0131lar\u0131n c\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 artanda, ayaqyoluna ged\u0259nl\u0259rin say\u0131 \u00e7oxalanda Dilq\u0259m yerind\u0259 qurcuxdu,\u00a0 \u2013 Dey\u0259s\u0259n sabah a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r&#8230; \u2013 astadan dill\u0259ndi. O biri k\u00fcncd\u0259 \u0259sg\u0259r d\u0259 e\u015f\u0259l\u0259ndi. Dig\u0259r k\u00fcncd\u0259 zil s\u0259ssizlik idi&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Art\u0131q erm\u0259nil\u0259r yuxudan qalxm\u0131\u015f, s\u0259s-k\u00fcyl\u0259 zarafatla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar. Qap\u0131n\u0131n kilidin\u0259 a\u00e7ar sal\u0131nanda Dilq\u0259m boynuna dolanan qollardan az qald\u0131 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rs\u0131n \u2013 snayper idi, onu ba\u011fr\u0131na s\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131:<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, \u0259mi, ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla m\u0259ni. Haqq\u0131n\u0131 halal el\u0259&#8230; Sizin kimi bir qay\u0131natam\u0131n olmas\u0131n\u0131, sizin kimi bir ki\u015finin o\u011flu olma\u011f\u0131 \u00e7ox ist\u0259rdim\u2013 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sil\u0259-sil\u0259 \u00f6z k\u00fcnc\u00fcn\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131. Qap\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. Dilq\u0259m S\u0259lbini d\u0259 eyni k\u00fcncd\u0259 snayper\u0259 q\u0131s\u0131lan g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 i\u00e7i rahatlad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013 \u00c7\u0131x\u0131n! \u2013 s\u0131sqa erm\u0259niydi yen\u0259 \u2013 \u201cDey\u0259s\u0259n i\u015fi ancaq dustaqlara baxmaqd\u0131r\u201d\u00a0 \u2013 t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcd etm\u0259d\u0259n n\u0259rdivan\u0131 d\u0131rma\u015fd\u0131. Kazarman\u0131n z\u0259if i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda g\u00f6zl\u0259ri alacaland\u0131. Snayperl\u0259 S\u0259lbi g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. S\u0131sqa \u0259yilib \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131rd\u0131,\u00a0 \u2013 \u201c\u00c7\u0131x\u0131n dem\u0259dim siz\u0259?!\u201d. \u018fsg\u0259r birinci S\u0259lbinin qalxma\u011f\u0131na k\u00f6m\u0259k etdi, sonra da \u00f6z\u00fc zirz\u0259mid\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Dilq\u0259m indi onun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u0259 bildi. Da\u011f\u0131n\u0131q q\u0131vr\u0131m sa\u00e7lar\u0131 vard\u0131, qulaqlar\u0131n\u0131n olmamas\u0131 onu yara\u015f\u0131qdan salsa da, qarayan\u0131z, sa\u011flam b\u0259d\u0259ni el\u0259 bil\u00a0 m\u0259rm\u0259rd\u0259n t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. D\u00f6rd n\u0259f\u0259r \u0259sg\u0259r onlar\u0131 it\u0259l\u0259y\u0259-it\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 e\u015fiy\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131lar. G\u00fcn \u00fczl\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n kimi bil\u0259kl\u0259ril\u0259 \u00fczl\u0259rini tutub g\u00f6zl\u0259rini q\u0131yd\u0131lar. Onlar\u0131 it\u0259l\u0259yib bir divara s\u00f6yk\u0259dil\u0259r. Onlara toxunan yox idi, sakitc\u0259 durub onlara bax\u0131rd\u0131lar \u2013 el\u0259 bil heyvanxanadayd\u0131lar. 3-5 d\u0259qiq\u0259d\u0259n sonra \u00fcst\u00fca\u00e7\u0131q ma\u015f\u0131nda bir n\u0259f\u0259r g\u0259ldi, arxa oturacaqda oturmu\u015fdu v\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259 uzun snayper silah\u0131 vard\u0131. \u201cO\u011fra\u015f, Vadodur\u2013 Volodya \u00c7ebrikov&#8230;\u201d \u2013 bizim snayper astadan dill\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n<p>Vado yeyin add\u0131mlarla, \u0259trafdak\u0131lara g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ucuyla da baxmadan yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b silah\u0131n\u0131 divara s\u00f6yk\u0259di. Aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n birini \u00e7\u0259kirdi. Bizim \u0259sg\u0259rin arxas\u0131na ke\u00e7ib telini qarmalad\u0131, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 geri qan\u0131r\u0131b, bald\u0131r\u0131ndak\u0131 qab\u0131ndan \u0259ld\u0259d\u00fcz\u0259ltm\u0259 uzun, ovxarlanm\u0131\u015f x\u0259nc\u0259rini \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131, onun bo\u011faz\u0131na dayay\u0131b, rusca, \u2013 \u201cSon duan\u0131 et!\u201d. Bizim snayper k\u0259lmeyi-\u015f\u0259had\u0259tini oxuyub bitirdi. \u201cBitirdin!?\u201d \u2013 Vado ondan soru\u015fdu. \u201cS\u0259lbi, ad\u0131m Qabildir, erm\u0259nil\u0259rin g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn odunu alan, Vadonun q\u0259nimi snayper \u201cQ\u0259mlo\u201d. Axir\u0259td\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259n\u0259d\u0259k&#8230;\u201d \u2013 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n i\u015far\u0259siyl\u0259 Vadoya \u201chaz\u0131ram\u201d dedi. Vado x\u0259nc\u0259rini birc\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 bo\u011faz\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kib onun sa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 buraxd\u0131. Dilq\u0259m q\u0131z\u0131yla Qabilin aras\u0131nda dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 v\u0259 bu s\u0259hn\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. Vado qanl\u0131 \u0259lini \u00f6z t\u00fcf\u0259ngin\u0259 s\u00fcrtd\u00fc, \u2013 \u201cH\u00f6rm\u0259tl\u0259 d\u0259fn edin onu!\u201d \u2013 deyib, el\u0259 g\u0259ldiyi kimi d\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131na oturub g\u00f6zd\u0259n itdi. Qabil arxas\u0131n\u0131 divara s\u00f6yk\u0259yib dik qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, \u015fah damar\u0131ndan f\u0259vvar\u0259 kimi f\u0131\u015fq\u0131ran qan Dilq\u0259min \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc, x\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 getdikc\u0259 z\u0259ifl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 divar boyu s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259-s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259 arxas\u0131\u00fcst\u0259 yer\u0259 s\u0259rildi. S\u0259lbi \u0259liyl\u0259 a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 tutub h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131r\u0131r, qorxudan tir-tir \u0259sirdi. \u018fsg\u0259rl\u0259rd\u0259n biri tapan\u00e7an\u0131 aya\u011fa \u00e7\u0259kib Dilq\u0259min \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259, o, q\u0131z\u0131na deyirdi, \u2013\u201cG\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u0259 bax&#8230; g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7\u0259km\u0259, bax, bir az da&#8230; M\u0259n\u0259 sar\u0131 baxma! \u0130ndi de, g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin qaralt\u0131s\u0131nda m\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259nmi?\u201d.<\/p>\n<p>\u2013\u00a0 G\u00f6zl\u0259rim qama\u015f\u0131r, kor kimiy\u0259m&#8230; Amma, n\u0259s\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m&#8230; \u2013 S\u0259lbinin titr\u0259k s\u0259sini e\u015fidirdi. \u00d6z\u00fc is\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk yummu\u015fdu. Sanki Dilq\u0259min beyni al\u0131n s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc, d\u0259rini \u0259ritmi\u015f, \u00a0g\u00fcll\u0259 d\u0259liyi boyda de\u015fikd\u0259n o da g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi\u00a0 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. Aln\u0131na dayanm\u0131\u015f tapan\u00e7an\u0131n l\u00fcl\u0259sind\u0259n Al\u0131n Yaz\u0131s\u0131 s\u0259tir-s\u0259tir u\u00e7araq g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fd\u0259ki qara l\u0259k\u0259y\u0259 qovu\u015fduqca ruhu sakitl\u0259\u015fir, iliyinin giziltisi s\u0259ngiyirdi&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"bawpvc-ajax-counter\" data-id=\"10110\">Yaz\u0131ya 1096 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Zirz\u0259minin havas\u0131 da qaralm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 el\u0259 bil \u2013 g\u00f6z-g\u00f6z\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259m\u0259yi o yana dursun, adam\u0131n bu qaranl\u0131qda n\u0259f\u0259si daral\u0131r, ciy\u0259rl\u0259ri t\u0131nc\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. N\u0259m torpaq d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259 h\u0259r n\u0259f\u0259sini ver\u0259nd\u0259 k\u0259sif mizg\u0259k qoxurdu. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr onlardan \u0259vv\u0259l d\u0259 burda adamlar saxlan\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. R\u00fctub\u0259tin can\u0131na hopmu\u015f qan, sidik v\u0259 n\u0259cis qoxusu bu qaranl\u0131qdan \u00f6m\u00fcrbillah ged\u0259n deyildi. Q\u0131z\u0131 onun \u00e7iynin\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259nib sol qolunu qucaqlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10110"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=10110"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10110\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10112,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10110\/revisions\/10112"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=10110"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=10110"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=10110"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}