{"id":10153,"date":"2016-01-16T00:14:14","date_gmt":"2016-01-15T20:14:14","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=10153"},"modified":"2016-01-16T00:16:43","modified_gmt":"2016-01-15T20:16:43","slug":"akif-abbasov-namusu-it%c9%99-atiblar-it-yem%c9%99yib","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=10153","title":{"rendered":"Akif ABBASOV – Namusu it\u0259 at\u0131blar, it yem\u0259yib"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"AK\u0130F<\/a>(\u201cAldanma s\u00f6zl\u0259r\u0259\u201d roman\u0131ndan)<\/p>\n

S\u0259m\u0259dl\u0259 \u018fziz\u0259nin nigaran\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na is\u0259 do\u011furdan da, \u0259sas vard\u0131. Ail\u0259 t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda idi. Sergeyl\u0259 Samvel \u0259li silahl\u0131 h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 h\u0259rl\u0259nir, g\u0259linin onlara t\u0259slim edil\u0259c\u0259yini g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdil\u0259r. Nizam ki\u015fi \u0259linin i\u015far\u0259si il\u0259 qad\u0131nlara arxa ota\u011fa ke\u00e7m\u0259yi buyurub h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. M\u0259rdi-m\u0259rdan\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc erm\u0259nil\u0259r\u0259 tutub:
\n– Sergey, Samvel, siz d\u0259 silahl\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z, m\u0259n d\u0259. G\u0259lin, qan t\u00f6km\u0259y\u0259k. Onu bilin v\u0259 yadda saxlay\u0131n ki, g\u0259lini siz\u0259 verm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m.
\nSamvel \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xaraq:
\n– Ay k\u00f6p\u0259k o\u011flu, dem\u0259k, bizi aldad\u0131rd\u0131n? \u2013 dey\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131b yer\u0259 t\u00fcp\u00fcrd\u00fc.
\nNizam ki\u015fi d\u0259 s\u0259sini qald\u0131rd\u0131:
\n– A\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259miz saxla. K\u00f6p\u0259k o\u011flunun s\u0259si g\u0259lir! \u2013 deyib dayand\u0131. \u2013 Bir m\u0259n\u0259 qulaq as, sonra\u2026
\nNizam ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, bunlarla at\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131n xeyri yoxdur. \u00c7al\u0131\u015f\u0131b x\u0259tan\u0131 bir t\u0259h\u0259r sovu\u015fdurmal\u0131d\u0131r. Odur ki, Sergey\u0259 m\u00fcraci\u0259tl\u0259:
\n– Sergey, s\u0259n bu Samvel\u0259 qo\u015fulub m\u0259nim namusuma sata\u015fmaq ist\u0259yirs\u0259n? Samvelin \u0259m\u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259r tutsan, \u0259ll\u0259rinl\u0259 onu bo\u011farsan, ya da \u0259lind\u0259ki t\u00fcf\u0259ngi ona tu\u015flay\u0131b, b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcll\u0259l\u0259rini ba\u015f\u0131na \u00e7axarsan.
\nSergeyi maraq g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc:
\n– Neyl\u0259yib bu Samvel?
\n– Daha bundan art\u0131q n\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259k? B\u00fct\u00fcn k\u0259nd bilir ki, Samvel s\u0259nin arvad\u0131n Siranu\u015fun a\u015fnas\u0131d\u0131r.
\nSergey Nizam\u0131 unudub Samvelin yaxas\u0131ndan yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131:
\n– S\u0259nin arvad\u0131n\u0131n\u2026 Ara, a d\u0131\u011fa, a supa o\u011flu, m\u0259nim arvad\u0131ma\u2026 S\u0259n ha\u2026 O-bu s\u0259nin arvad\u0131n\u0131 qamarlay\u0131r\u2026
\nOnlar s\u00fcp\u00fcrl\u0259\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131lar. Nizam c\u0259ld t\u00f6vl\u0259nin arxas\u0131na ke\u00e7di. Bu i\u015fin ax\u0131r\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Az sonra s\u00fcp\u00fcrl\u0259\u015fm\u0259 ara verdi. Onlar\u0131n s\u0259si e\u015fidildi:
\n– Sergey, bu t\u00fcrkl\u0259r s\u00f6z b\u0259z\u0259y\u0259ndirl\u0259r. G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n, s\u00f6z atd\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 aradan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. S\u0259nin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 piyl\u0259yirdi. S\u0259n \u00f6l, Siranu\u015f m\u0259nim bac\u0131md\u0131r. Adam da bac\u0131s\u0131na sata\u015far. A\u011f\u0131ls\u0131zsan, d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 inan\u0131rsan.
\n\u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc birt\u0259h\u0259r \u0259l\u0259 alan Sergey Samvel\u0259:
\n– Bu it o\u011flu yen\u0259 bizi aldad\u0131r, – dedi. \u2013 Onun silah\u0131 n\u0259 g\u0259zir?! Siyah\u0131ya \u00f6z\u00fcm baxm\u0131\u015fam. Ham\u0131dan y\u0131\u011f\u0131blar. Olsa-olsa bu kaftar\u0131n sapand\u0131 olar. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc qoru, vurub g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc t\u00f6k\u0259r, Samvel.
\nSergey t\u00fcf\u0259ngi qald\u0131r\u0131b Nizam ki\u015fiy\u0259 sar\u0131 bir g\u00fcll\u0259 atd\u0131. S\u0259s g\u0259lm\u0259di:
\n– G\u00f6rd\u00fcn \u0259claf\u0131. Silah\u0131 olsayd\u0131, cavab ver\u0259rdi.
\nSamvel:
\n– Ara, b\u0259lk\u0259 g\u0259b\u0259rib \u2026 Ged\u0259k, arvadlar\u0131 e\u015fiy\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xaraq.
\nO, ir\u0259li ke\u00e7m\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 Sergey onu saxlad\u0131. Nizam ki\u015fiy\u0259 sar\u0131 yen\u0259 bir g\u00fcll\u0259 atd\u0131:
\n– Ara, d\u00fcz deyirs\u0259n, Samvelcan, ya \u00f6l\u00fcb k\u00f6p\u0259k o\u011flu, ya da ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb qa\u00e7\u0131b\u2026 Ged\u0259k arvadlar\u0131n dal\u0131nca\u2026
\n– A\u011f el\u0259m\u0259, biri b\u0259sdir. Fatma qocad\u0131r, yerin\u0259 bat\u0131ran\u0131n biridir.
\nOnlar ev\u0259 ke\u00e7m\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 Nizam\u0131n s\u0259si g\u0259ldi: Allah\u0131n\u0131z olsun t\u00f6k\u00fcn bu da\u015f\u0131 \u0259t\u0259yinizd\u0259n\u2026 At\u0131\u015fma ba\u015fland\u0131. Sergey qolundan yaraland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb tez Samvel\u0259:
\n– M\u0259ni vurdu\u2026 G\u0259l, ged\u0259k, k\u00f6m\u0259y\u0259 adam \u00e7a\u011f\u0131raq.
\nBu yerd\u0259 deyirl\u0259r: \u00abErm\u0259ni qan g\u00f6rd\u00fc,qorxdu\u00bb. Onlar yola d\u00fcz\u0259lm\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 at\u0259\u015f yenid\u0259n a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. Samvel \u00fcr\u0259yini tutub y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131. Sergey tez aradan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.
\nNizam ki\u015fi c\u0259ld qad\u0131nlar\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb me\u015f\u0259y\u0259 sar\u0131 qa\u00e7ma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Daha k\u0259ndd\u0259 qala bilm\u0259zdil\u0259r. Onlar\u0131 axtaracaqd\u0131lar. \u00dcst\u0259lik kim onlara s\u0131\u011f\u0131nacaq vers\u0259ydi, onu da, ail\u0259sini d\u0259 g\u00fcll\u0259d\u0259n ke\u00e7ir\u0259c\u0259kdil\u0259r. Az sonra erm\u0259nil\u0259r \u2013 kimisinin \u0259lind\u0259 t\u00fcf\u0259ng, kimisinin \u0259lind\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u0259l, balta, tapan\u00e7a, yaba, qumbara Nizam\u0131n evini \u00fcz\u00fck qa\u015f\u0131 kimi d\u00f6vr\u0259y\u0259 ald\u0131lar. Onlar\u0131 tapa bilm\u0259yib ev\u0259 od vurdular:
\n– Qa\u00e7\u0131blar \u0259claflar. Ancaq uza\u011fa ged\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r.
\nKims\u0259 dill\u0259ndi:
\n– Me\u015f\u0259y\u0259 getmi\u015f olacaqlar. Oturun ma\u015f\u0131nlara.
\nMa\u015f\u0131n karvan\u0131 me\u015f\u0259y\u0259 istiqam\u0259t g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. Piyadalar \u0259trafdak\u0131 az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131 evl\u0259rin\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259l g\u0259zdirdil\u0259r. Mal-heyvan\u0131 h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b m\u0259\u015f\u0259ll\u0259ri evl\u0259rin dam\u0131na, ot tayalar\u0131na atd\u0131lar. Yanan evl\u0259rin say\u0131 get-ged\u0259 artma\u011fa, qad\u0131nlar\u0131n, u\u015faqlar\u0131n q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131, ah-nal\u0259si \u0259r\u015f\u0259 dir\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131
\n***
\nAslan\u0131n erk\u0259yi, di\u015fisi olmaz.
\n(Az\u0259rbaycan atalar m\u0259s\u0259li)<\/p>\n

Fatma il\u0259 G\u00f6z\u0259l yorulub \u0259ld\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r. B\u0259rk qa\u00e7a bilm\u0259dikl\u0259rind\u0259n uza\u011fa getm\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmad\u0131. Ma\u015f\u0131nlarda g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259r me\u015f\u0259y\u0259 da\u011f\u0131l\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Az sonra qa\u00e7q\u0131nlar\u0131n izin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb Nizam ki\u015fini yaralad\u0131lar. Sonra h\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259sr g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. \u0130ki p\u0259z\u0259v\u0259ng erm\u0259ni Nizam ki\u015finin ayaqlar\u0131ndan yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259-s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259 g\u0259tirib a\u011faca sar\u0131d\u0131. Qolu sar\u0131ql\u0131 Sergey yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b onun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 t\u00fcp\u00fcrd\u00fc:
\n– Ara, qoca t\u00fclk\u00fc, s\u0259n\u0259 adam kimi s\u00f6z dedik, qulaq asmad\u0131n. El\u0259 bilirdin \u0259limizd\u0259n qurtaracaqsan?! Ay s\u0259n \u00f6l\u0259s\u0259n! S\u0259n bir erm\u0259nini \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u00fcs\u0259n, m\u0259ni d\u0259 yaralam\u0131san. C\u0259zan a\u011f\u0131r olacaq. \u00d6z\u00fcn fikirl\u0259\u015f, s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 c\u0259za ver\u0259k?.
\nSonra Sergey G\u00f6z\u0259l\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131:
\n– Ay qanc\u0131q, s\u0259n niy\u0259 bu a\u011f\u0131ls\u0131zlara qo\u015fulub qa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131n? \u00c7\u0259tin idi s\u0259nin\u00e7in? H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 el\u0259diyind\u0259n el\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdin d\u0259\u2026
\nSergey bunu dey\u0259r\u0259k dart\u0131b zorla g\u0259linin pla\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u0259ynind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131. Donunu par\u00e7alay\u0131b d\u00f6\u015fl\u0259rin\u0259 \u0259l atd\u0131. Qay\u0131natas\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda d\u00f6\u015fl\u0259ri a\u00e7\u0131q qalm\u0131\u015f G\u00f6z\u0259l d\u0259li n\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi. H\u0259l\u0259 indiy\u0259d\u0259k o, evd\u0259 corabs\u0131z, yayl\u0131qs\u0131z bel\u0259 g\u0259zm\u0259mi\u015fdi. G\u00f6z\u0259l h\u0259yas\u0131ndan q\u0131pq\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 q\u0131zarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. O, Sergeyin \u0259lini c\u0131rmaqlama\u011fa, di\u015fl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Erm\u0259nil\u0259r h\u0259r\u0259si bir t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n g\u0259lin\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131lar. Fatman\u0131n f\u0259ryad\u0131 qalxd\u0131. Nizam\u0131n ba\u011f\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131 me\u015f\u0259ni g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc:
\n– Al\u00e7aqlar! Binamuslar! \u018fclaflar He\u00e7 olmasa, m\u0259ni \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcn sonra. Onu e\u015fid\u0259n olmad\u0131. G\u00f6z\u0259li yer\u0259 y\u0131xd\u0131lar. Kim is\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc onun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 sald\u0131. Fatma arvad\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yi gedib yer\u0259 s\u0259rildi. Nizam ki\u015fi g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumub, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u011fac\u0131n g\u00f6vd\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rpma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.
\nG\u00f6z\u0259l \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131r, erm\u0259nil\u0259rin \u0259lind\u0259n qurtulma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Bird\u0259n o, \u0259lind\u0259 tutdu\u011fu lezvan\u0131 erm\u0259nil\u0259rd\u0259n birinin \u2013 Surenin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi. Suren \u0259li il\u0259 sif\u0259tini tutub ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131. A\u015fot t\u0259pikl\u0259 G\u00f6z\u0259lin \u0259lind\u0259n vurdu, lezva yer\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, g\u0259lin a\u011fr\u0131dan q\u0131vr\u0131ld\u0131.
\n– Qanc\u0131q!
\nBunu Suren dedi.
\nErm\u0259nil\u0259r qalan paltarlar\u0131n\u0131 da dart\u0131b \u0259ynind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xarmaq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 G\u00f6z\u0259l imkan tap\u0131b birt\u0259h\u0259r aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131. Geri \u00e7\u0259kilib \u0259lind\u0259 olan balaca \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259d\u0259ki mayeni ba\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kdi:
\n– Al\u00e7aqlar, \u0259claflar! Bizim ism\u0259timiz yox, meyitimiz siz\u0259 qism\u0259t olar! \u2013 deyib yer\u0259 y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131 v\u0259 ilan kimi q\u0131vr\u0131lma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Sergey t\u0259piyi il\u0259 \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259ni vurub k\u0259nara atd\u0131:
\n– Qanc\u0131q sirk\u0259 i\u00e7di\u2026
\nFatma \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Yerd\u0259 uzan\u0131ql\u0131 qal\u0131b, G\u00f6z\u0259lin meyitin\u0259 key-key bax\u0131rd\u0131. Sonra sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 yolma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131:
\nBala da\u011f\u0131,
\nG\u00f6y da\u011f\u0131, Bala da\u011f\u0131.
\nOy, xain. Balan \u00f6ls\u00fcn,
\nYamand\u0131r bala da\u011f\u0131.
\nEl\u0259mi, \u00fcz\u00fcm, f\u0259l\u0259k
\nS\u0131z\u0131ldar \u00fcy\u00fcm, f\u0259l\u0259k
\n\u00c7\u0259kdin sin\u0259m \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259,
\n\u00c7al-\u00e7arpaz d\u00fcy\u00fcn f\u0259l\u0259k.
\nNizam ki\u015fi i\u00e7in-i\u00e7in a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. Sergeyl\u0259 yolda\u015flar\u0131 ona yana\u015fd\u0131lar. Sergey \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc Nizam ki\u015fiy\u0259 tutaraq dedi: – dinc\u0259ldin, Nizam? Bunu ist\u0259yirdin? \u00d6z \u0259linl\u0259 g\u0259lini verdin g\u00fcdaza\u2026 sonra: ri\u015fx\u0259ndl\u0259 soru\u015fdu:
\n– Ara, dinmirs\u0259n? \u0130ndi pikirl\u0259\u015f indi s\u0259n\u0259 hans\u0131 c\u0259zan\u0131 ver\u0259k?\u2026 Dilin yoxdur?\u2026 Onda \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz se\u00e7\u0259rik\u2026 Deyin, g\u00f6r\u0259k, ay u\u015faqlar\u2026
\n– Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259s\u0259k.
\n– Yand\u0131raq.
\n– G\u00f6zl\u0259rini \u00e7\u0131xardaq.
\n– Dilini, qulaqlar\u0131n\u0131, burnunu k\u0259s\u0259k, ovub g\u00f6zl\u0259rini \u00e7\u0131xaraq, sonra buraxaq, getsin\u2026
\n– Qollar\u0131n\u0131, q\u0131\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 baltalayaq\u2026
\n– Diri-diri yer\u0259 basd\u0131raq.
\n– A\u011faca mismarlayaq.
\n– Qarn\u0131n\u0131 yaraq\u2026
\nErm\u0259nil\u0259r sayd\u0131qca Fatma f\u0259ryad qopar\u0131r, a\u011f\u0131 deyir, g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 ax\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131. Suren ona ac\u0131qland\u0131:
\n– S\u0259sini k\u0259s qanc\u0131q! Bu g\u00fcnd\u0259n sizin ham\u0131n\u0131z \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn var. N\u00f6vb\u0259nizi g\u00f6zl\u0259yin.
\nSergey:
\n– M\u0259nim fikrimd\u0259 tutdu\u011fun he\u00e7 birinizin a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259lm\u0259yib. Bu \u0259claf erm\u0259ni qan\u0131 ax\u0131d\u0131b, \u0259n a\u011f\u0131r c\u0259zaya layiqdir.
\nSergey a\u011fac\u0131n a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya en\u0259n buda\u011f\u0131na m\u00fc\u015ft\u0259ri g\u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 bax\u0131b q\u0131m\u0131\u015fd\u0131:
\n– Ara, Nizam, s\u0259n m\u0259ni yaralad\u0131n, Samveli \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcn. Adam\u0131 el\u0259 \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259zl\u0259r. S\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 c\u0259za ver\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m ki, bu, tarix\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fs\u00fcn. A\u00e7\u0131n onu\u2026 Vazgen, Albert, yap\u0131\u015f\u0131n bu murdar o\u011flu murdar\u0131n ayaqlar\u0131ndan. Aqambek, Zori, siz d\u0259 qollar\u0131ndan yap\u0131\u015f\u0131n. \u0130ndi arxas\u0131 \u00fcst\u0259 at\u0131n bunu a\u011fac\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259.
\nErm\u0259nil\u0259r Nizam\u0131n \u00e7abalamas\u0131na m\u0259h\u0259l qoymay\u0131b onu buda\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 a\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar. \u0130ki n\u0259f\u0259r ayaqlar\u0131ndan, iki n\u0259f\u0259r qollar\u0131ndan yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b n\u00f6vb\u0259ti \u0259mri g\u00f6zl\u0259dil\u0259r. Sergey qalibl\u0259r\u0259 m\u0259xsus \u0259da il\u0259:
\n– \u0130ndi is\u0259 s\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131n bu \u0259bl\u0259hin belini\u2026
\n\u018fmr yerin\u0259 yetirildi. Q\u0131r\u0131lan belin x\u0131r\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 ayd\u0131n e\u015fidildi v\u0259 eyni zamanda d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli a\u011fr\u0131ya tabla\u015fa bilm\u0259y\u0259n Nizam ki\u015finin ba\u011f\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn me\u015f\u0259ni ba\u015f\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc, yeri-g\u00f6y\u00fc l\u0259rz\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259tirdi. Fatma arvad \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131raraq bay\u0131ld\u0131. Bir erm\u0259ni yax\u0131n g\u0259lib aya\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 onu o t\u0259r\u0259f, bu t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 it\u0259l\u0259di, t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259diyini g\u00f6r\u00fcb:
\n– Bu da murdar oldu, – dedi.
\nSergey ir\u0259li yeriyib aya\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 yoxlad\u0131:
\n– D\u00fcz deyirs\u0259n, g\u0259b\u0259rib.
\nSergey d\u0259st\u0259ni ba\u015f\u0131na y\u0131\u011f\u0131b t\u0259nt\u0259n\u0259 il\u0259:
\n– Samvelin qan\u0131n\u0131 ald\u0131q, – dedi. \u2013 Qoy bu t\u00fcrkl\u0259r g\u00f6rs\u00fcnl\u0259r ki, erm\u0259niy\u0259 \u0259l qald\u0131rmaq olmaz. \u0130ndi is\u0259, hayd\u0131, ged\u0259k.
\nErm\u0259nil\u0259r hay-k\u00fcyl\u0259, d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n ordusu \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 z\u0259f\u0259r \u00e7alm\u0131\u015f adamlar kimi ma\u015f\u0131nlara dolu\u015fdular. Sergey d\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131na sar\u0131 add\u0131mlad\u0131. Bird\u0259n Nizam ki\u015finin s\u00f6zl\u0259rini yad\u0131na salaraq ayaq saxlad\u0131: \u00abB\u00fct\u00fcn k\u0259nd bilir ki, Samvel arvad\u0131n Siranu\u015fun a\u015fnas\u0131d\u0131r\u00bb.
\nSergey sanki yatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, ay\u0131ld\u0131. Bayaq k\u0131, \u015f\u0259n \u0259hval-ruhiyy\u0259 yoxa \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131, qan\u0131 qarald\u0131: \u00abM\u0259nim qanc\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n?! \u0130ndi yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. H\u0259rd\u0259n b\u0259z\u0259nib-d\u00fcz\u0259nib yek\u0259 dal\u0131n\u0131 yell\u0259y\u0259-yell\u0259y\u0259 hara is\u0259 gedirdi. M\u0259ni d\u0259 aldad\u0131b. \u00abbir d\u00fckan-bazara d\u0259yim\u00bb deyirdi. Samvelin art\u0131q \u00f6ld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc xat\u0131rlay\u0131b yenid\u0259n kefi k\u00f6k\u0259ldi: \u00abAmma Nizam Samvelin anas\u0131n\u0131 yaman a\u011flatd\u0131. Yoxsa, g\u0259r\u0259k onunla m\u0259n haqq-hesab \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcd\u0259ydim. Bu da ba\u015fa\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 olacaqd\u0131. Bu g\u00fcn iki d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nimin dal\u0131ndan d\u0259ydim.
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\nKa\u015f s\u0259n sa\u011f qalayd\u0131n, m\u0259n \u00f6l\u0259ydim
\nBu g\u00fcn\u00fc, bu z\u00fclm\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn
\n(mahn\u0131dan)
\nErm\u0259nil\u0259r ged\u0259nd\u0259n bir q\u0259d\u0259r sonra Fatma \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259ldi. \u018fvv\u0259lc\u0259 harada oldu\u011funu anlaya bilm\u0259di. Sonra hadis\u0259l\u0259r yava\u015f-yava\u015f kino lenti kimi g\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 canland\u0131 v\u0259 inild\u0259di. Zar\u0131lt\u0131 s\u0259si g\u0259lirdi. Fatma boyland\u0131. Nizam idi. Fatma \u0259rin\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k etm\u0259k ist\u0259di. Nizam ki\u015fi a\u011fr\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259sirind\u0259n ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. T\u0259rp\u0259n\u0259 bilmirdi. Beli q\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. O, birt\u0259h\u0259r:
\n– M\u0259nd\u0259 i\u015fin olmas\u0131n qoy allah\u0131n \u00fcmidin\u0259 qal\u0131m. S\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259dirs\u0259n, a\u011fr\u0131m daha da art\u0131r. Bu a\u011fr\u0131 il\u0259 m\u0259ni he\u00e7 yer\u0259 apara bilm\u0259zs\u0259n. G\u0259lin\u0259 bir \u0259ncam \u00e7\u0259k. Nec\u0259 olmasa namusdur. M\u0259nimki buracan imi\u015f. G\u00f6r G\u00f6z\u0259li apara bil\u0259rs\u0259n. \u018fvv\u0259lc\u0259 onu ab\u0131ra sal. Apara bilm\u0259s\u0259n, di\u015finl\u0259, d\u0131rna\u011f\u0131nla da olsa bir \u00e7ala qaz, basd\u0131r onu. O k\u00f6kd\u0259 burada qalmas\u0131n. Fatma G\u00f6z\u0259l\u0259 sar\u0131 getdi. G\u0259lin sin\u0259si, q\u0131\u00e7lar\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131q yerd\u0259 uzanm\u0131\u015f, sa\u00e7lar\u0131 \u0259trafa da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Onun \u00f6l\u00fcs\u00fc d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bu g\u00fcn \u0259sl ism\u0259t, namus n\u00fcmun\u0259si g\u00f6st\u0259rmi\u015fdi. Fatma t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf v\u0259 sonsuz k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259 bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t onun sif\u0259tin\u0259 baxd\u0131, sonra g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 sin\u0259sin\u0259 t\u00f6k\u0259-t\u00f6k\u0259 \u0259ynind\u0259ki nazik, nimda\u015f pla\u015f\u0131n\u0131 soyunub bir t\u0259h\u0259r g\u0259linin \u0259ynin\u0259 geyindirdi. Yaxas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fcym\u0259l\u0259di. Nizama yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n \u00f6pd\u00fc. Ki\u015fi ona t\u0259l\u0259sm\u0259m\u0259yi tap\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Fatma bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t g\u0259lini quca\u011f\u0131na al\u0131b apard\u0131. N\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131 vard\u0131 bin\u0259van\u0131n?! Ar\u0131q, \u00e7\u0259limsiz q\u0131z idi. Bir-iki ay idi on s\u0259kkiz ya\u015f\u0131 tamam olmu\u015fdu. Bir doyunca h\u0259yatdan, yardan da kam almad\u0131. G\u0259nc ya\u015f\u0131nda qism\u0259tin\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Ancaq \u015f\u0259r\u0259fli \u00f6l\u00fcm idi onun \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc. Bel\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc tarix\u0259 yazma\u011fa d\u0259y\u0259r.
\nFatma yola \u00e7\u0131xmaq ist\u0259yirdi. Burada h\u0259mk\u0259ndlil\u0259ri, evind\u0259n-e\u015fiyind\u0259n gizlinc\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcb ged\u0259n ba\u015fqa az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131lara rast g\u0259l\u0259 bil\u0259rdi. Amma ehtiyatl\u0131 olmal\u0131 idi. Erm\u0259ni d\u0131\u011falar\u0131 il\u0259 d\u0259 rastla\u015fa bil\u0259rdi.
\nFatma yorulmu\u015fdu. M\u0259n\u0259vi c\u0259h\u0259td\u0259n d\u0259, fiziki c\u0259h\u0259td\u0259n d\u0259. Do\u011fma v\u0259 \u0259n yax\u0131n adamlar\u0131ndan ikisini itirmi\u015fdi. Evi da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. V\u0259t\u0259nd\u0259n did\u0259rgin d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Bu q\u0259d\u0259r qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131n, d\u0259rd-\u0259l\u0259min alt\u0131nda q\u0259ddi b\u00fck\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f, g\u00fcc\u00fc t\u00fck\u0259nmi\u015fdi. G\u0259lini apara bilmirdi. Y\u0131x\u0131l\u0131r, qalx\u0131r, bir-iki add\u0131m at\u0131r, dayan\u0131rd\u0131. \u00ab\u0130lahi! M\u0259n\u0259 g\u00fcc ver, q\u00fcvv\u0259 ver! G\u00f6z\u0259li burada qoyub nec\u0259 gedim, hara gedim? \u018frim qald\u0131 he\u00e7 olmasa g\u0259lini \u2013 namusu bir yana \u00e7\u0131xarayd\u0131m, bir qar\u0131\u015f torpa\u011fa tap\u015f\u0131rayd\u0131m. Ata-anas\u0131na, o\u011fluma n\u0259 cavab ver\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m? Fikirl\u0259\u015f\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r ki, \u00f6z can\u0131m \u0259ziz oldu\u011fundan onu qurtard\u0131m, g\u0259lini \u0259rimi is\u0259 qoyub g\u0259ldim. G\u00f6z\u0259li burada qoyub gets\u0259m, qurda-qu\u015fa yem olar. Fatma g\u0259lini quca\u011f\u0131ndan yer\u0259 qoyub, pla\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u0259t\u0259yind\u0259n yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131, arxas\u0131nca \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t bel\u0259c\u0259 getdi. Ancaq donmu\u015f, keyimi\u015f \u0259ll\u0259ri s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 baxm\u0131rd\u0131. Y\u0131x\u0131la-dura yola sar\u0131 getdi ki, b\u0259lk\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259y\u0259 bir allah b\u0259nd\u0259si tapa. Be\u015f-on d\u0259qiq\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi ki, yol g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc. Bir a\u011fac\u0131n arxas\u0131na ke\u00e7ib yolu pusma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Uzaqdan k\u0259nd g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Od vurulmu\u015f evl\u0259rd\u0259n \u0259trafa t\u00fcst\u00fc yay\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259l\u0259 ki, yolda-irzd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n yox idi. H\u0259r\u0259 bir t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. D\u0259st\u0259 il\u0259 yola \u00e7\u0131xmaq qorxulu idi.
\nFatma bel\u0259c\u0259 xeyli g\u00f6zl\u0259di. Uzaqdan bir ma\u015f\u0131n g\u0259lirdi. O, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131na al\u0131b yola \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131: \u00abYa p\u0259nah, az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131lar olar bird\u0259n\u00bb. H\u0259y\u0259candan \u00fcr\u0259yi az qal\u0131rd\u0131 sin\u0259sind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xa. D\u0259h\u015f\u0259t, v\u0259h\u015f\u0259t, acl\u0131q, \u0259zizl\u0259rini itirm\u0259si, \u00f6l\u00fcm qorxusu, g\u0259lin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 da\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259suliyy\u0259t, namus, irz\u2026 Ma\u015f\u0131n yax\u0131nla\u015fanda ba\u015f\u0131 gic\u0259ll\u0259nib yer\u0259 y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131. Ma\u015f\u0131ndak\u0131lar onu g\u00f6rd\u00fcl\u0259r.
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\nAc\u0131 xatir\u0259l\u0259r dil a\u00e7\u0131b dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qca Fatma var\u0131ndan yox olur, d\u0259rdi t\u0259z\u0259l\u0259nirdi. H\u0259rd\u0259n \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb eyl\u0259yirdi. Bu q\u0259d\u0259r a\u011fr\u0131-ac\u0131n\u0131, d\u0259rdi nec\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kir? B\u00fct\u00fcn bu hadis\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n, faci\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n, m\u0259\u015f\u0259qq\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259n sonra nec\u0259 olub ki, sa\u011f qal\u0131b? G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, allah\u0131n buyru\u011fudur. O g\u00fcnl\u0259rin yegan\u0259 \u015fahidi kimi hifz el\u0259yib, saxlay\u0131b ki, h\u0259min v\u0259h\u015f\u0259ti, d\u0259h\u015f\u0259ti al\u0259m\u0259 yays\u0131n, d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nin i\u00e7 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7s\u0131n.
\nFatma \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm dil\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, h\u0259l\u0259 ya\u015fama\u011fa borclu idi. \u018fziz\u0259nin x\u0259trin\u0259 ya\u015famal\u0131yd\u0131. Onu bu d\u00fcnyada t\u0259k qoyub getm\u0259y\u0259 haqq\u0131 yox idi. \u018flini bir halal s\u00fcd\u0259mmi\u015fin \u0259lin\u0259 verib can\u0131n\u0131 tap\u015f\u0131ra bil\u0259ydi ka\u015f.
\nFatman\u0131 yen\u0259 d\u0259rd, q\u0259m v\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7ul\u011fam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130\u015fd\u0259n qay\u0131dan qarda\u015f\u0131 Cavad onu danlad\u0131:
\n– Ay bac\u0131 yen\u0259 q\u0259m karvan\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259n? B\u0259sdir, s\u0259n allah. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc niy\u0259 bel\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcrs\u0259n?! Olaca\u011fa \u00e7ar\u0259 yoxdur. T\u0259k s\u0259nin ba\u015f\u0131na g\u0259lm\u0259yib ki\u2026 A\u011flama\u011f\u0131, s\u0131z\u0131ldama\u011f\u0131 bizim xalq yax\u015f\u0131 bacar\u0131r. Ham\u0131l\u0131qla y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131b bu yasdan \u00e7\u0131xmal\u0131y\u0131q. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 toxtaql\u0131q ver. E\u015fitdim, \u018fziz\u0259 yoldad\u0131r. Onu bel\u0259 qan\u0131qara, d\u0259rd i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131layacaqsan?! He\u00e7 olmasa, bu g\u00fcn \u00fcz\u00fcn g\u00fcls\u00fcn.
\n– D\u00fcz deyirs\u0259n, qarda\u015f, balama can\u0131m qurban. Ata da\u011f\u0131, qarda\u015f da\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kib. M\u0259ni bel\u0259 g\u00f6rs\u0259, yaras\u0131 t\u0259z\u0259l\u0259n\u0259c\u0259k. Birc\u0259 onu yerb\u0259yer el\u0259y\u0259 bils\u0259ydim, d\u0259rdim olmazd\u0131\u2026 Bir d\u0259, a qarda\u015f, d\u0259rd birdir, ikidir? S\u0259n d\u0259 deyirs\u0259n eynim a\u00e7\u0131ls\u0131n. Nec\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131ls\u0131n?! \u018fziz\u0259ni bir yax\u015f\u0131 o\u011flan ist\u0259yirdi. Q\u0131z\u0131n da g\u00f6z\u00fc onu tutmu\u015fdu. Allah onu da balama \u00e7ox g\u00f6rd\u00fc.
\n– Nec\u0259 y\u0259ni \u00e7ox g\u00f6rd\u00fc? Aralar\u0131 d\u0259yib?
\nFatma d\u0259rind\u0259n ah \u00e7\u0259kdi:
\n– Aralar\u0131 d\u0259ys\u0259ydi, d\u0259rd yar\u0131yd\u0131. Dil tap\u0131b bar\u0131\u015fard\u0131lar. Avtomobil q\u0259zas\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb h\u0259lak olub\u2026
\nFatman\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri doldu. K\u0259la\u011fay\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n \u0259t\u0259yi il\u0259 g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 sil\u0259r\u0259k:
\n– G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n, qarda\u015f, bizimki g\u0259tirmir. Allah el\u0259 bil qar\u011f\u0131y\u0131b. Cavad \u00f6z t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf\u00fcn\u00fc bildirdi:
\n– H\u0259, bu pis odu. Q\u0131z\u0131nda vaxt\u0131 ke\u00e7ir. \u018fr\u0259 getm\u0259yin d\u0259 \u00f6z vaxt\u0131-v\u0259d\u0259si var. Sonra el\u00e7il\u0259r d\u0259 qap\u0131ya yax\u0131n d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcr.
\n***<\/p>\n

Siz bir qay\u0131qs\u0131n\u0131z, tale d\u0259nizdir,
\nO b\u0259z\u0259n bulan\u0131q, b\u0259z\u0259n t\u0259mizdir.
\nTale a\u011fl\u0131n\u0131zd\u0131r, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259nizdir.
\nTaleyin qay\u0131\u011f\u0131 olmay\u0131n q\u0131zlar.
\n(M\u0259mm\u0259d Araz)<\/p>\n

Cavan o\u011flan bayaq cavab\u0131n\u0131 alandan sonra yerind\u0259 sakit otur\u00acmu\u015fdu. \u018fziz\u0259ni dindirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259k etmirdi. Amma g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0131zdan ay\u0131rm\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r bu, \u00abke\u00e7i \u00f6z hay\u0131nda, q\u0259ssab piy axtar\u0131r\u00bb v\u0259ziyy\u0259tind\u0259 olan \u018fziz\u0259ni \u0259s\u0259bil\u0259\u015fdirirdi, sonra \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259m\u0259zliy\u0259 vurub, \u00fcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, bu bar\u0259d\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259di: \u00abBax\u0131r, c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m\u0259, qara yola baxs\u0131n\u00bb.
\n\u018fziz\u0259, t\u0259bi\u0259t\u0259n, qaradinm\u0259z, qa\u015fqabaql\u0131 q\u0131z deyildi. Deyib-g\u00fclm\u0259yi xo\u015flard\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259tcil idi. Lakin z\u0259man\u0259 onu d\u0259yi\u015fdi. G\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, h\u0259ddind\u0259n art\u0131q sad\u0259l\u00f6vh olanda bunu ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr yozur, bundan sui-istifad\u0259 etm\u0259k ist\u0259yirl\u0259r. Biri telefon n\u00f6mr\u0259si almaq h\u0259v\u0259sin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, ba\u015fqa birisi \u00f6z telefonunun n\u00f6mr\u0259sini verm\u0259k ist\u0259yir. Dig\u0259ri onu g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r. Onda fikirl\u0259\u015fdi ki, b\u00f6y\u00fck \u015f\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259rd\u0259 aldanmamaq, \u015f\u0259r\u0259, tora d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 ehtiyatl\u0131 olmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r. Ona ne\u00e7\u0259 yerd\u0259n ona el\u00e7i d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r. Aralar\u0131nda pullu, \u015f\u00f6hr\u0259tli ail\u0259l\u0259rin \u00f6vladlar\u0131 da vard\u0131, ortabab dolanan valideynl\u0259rin u\u015faqlar\u0131 da. Namuslu, qeyr\u0259tli, i\u015fg\u00fczar, i\u015fbacaran g\u0259ncl\u0259r d\u0259 ona \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259rini a\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Onlardan birin\u0259 \u0259r\u0259 ged\u0259 bil\u0259rdi. Lakin getm\u0259i. \u0130\u015f onda deyildi ki, onlar\u0131 b\u0259y\u0259nmirdi, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7\u0259kirdi, eqoist idi. Yox. \u00dcr\u0259y\u0259 zor etm\u0259k olmur. S\u00f6vq-t\u0259bii il\u0259 hiss edirdi ki, e\u015fqi h\u0259l\u0259 \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k a\u00e7may\u0131b, h\u0259l\u0259 qism\u0259ti rast g\u0259lm\u0259yib. M\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259ti salam\u00acama\u011fa h\u0259l\u0259 haz\u0131r deyil. \u00d6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc: \u00abSevgisiz nec\u0259 \u0259r\u0259 getm\u0259k, nec\u0259 evl\u0259nm\u0259k olar? Paltard\u0131r, alm\u0131san, xo\u015funa g\u0259lmir, ist\u0259rs\u0259n – geym\u0259zs\u0259n, ist\u0259rs\u0259n – satarsan, ist\u0259rs\u0259n – ba\u011f\u0131\u015flayarsan. Sev\u00acgini is\u0259 n\u0259 satmaq, n\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259k, n\u0259 d\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flamaq olur. Ail\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259 onun dayaqlar\u0131 m\u00f6hk\u0259m olur. \u018fziz\u0259 bel\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bu, onun inam\u0131 idi. \u00abO\u00bbnunla rastla\u015fana q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259qiqi sevginin n\u0259 dem\u0259k oldu\u011funu bilmirdi, onun nec\u0259 g\u0259ldiyind\u0259n, nec\u0259 boya-ba\u015fa \u00e7atd\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan x\u0259b\u0259rsizdi. N\u0259hay\u0259t, o da sevdi. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t b\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sars\u0131td\u0131, damarlar\u0131ndan axd\u0131, co\u015fdu, \u00e7a\u011flad\u0131 bulaq t\u0259ki. \u018fsl m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t t\u00fck\u0259nmir, t\u00fck\u0259n\u0259 bilm\u0259z. O yaln\u0131z do\u011fulur, bir d\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcr. Sevgi el\u0259 hissdir ki, h\u0259r adam\u0131n k\u00f6n\u00fcl qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcr. Bir g\u00fcn \u018fziz\u0259nin m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259ti d\u0259 g\u0259ldi. D\u00fcnya, insanlar daha da g\u00f6z\u0259ll\u0259\u015fdi. H\u0259r yan, h\u0259r \u015fey \u0259l-\u0259lvan r\u0259ngd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc. Ancaq bu xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik uzun s\u00fcrm\u0259di. E\u015fqi da\u015flara toxunub \u00e7ilikl\u0259ndi. Yalana nifr\u0259t edirdi \u018fziz\u0259. Qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na yalan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. S\u00f6zl\u0259r\u0259 aldand\u0131.
\n\u0130nsanlar q\u0259rib\u0259dir, \u00e7ox q\u0259rib\u0259. Bir-birini a\u011f\u0131na-bozuna baxmadan aldad\u0131rlar. Lakin g\u0259r\u0259k he\u00e7 olmasa, aldadanda da baxalar g\u00f6rs\u00fcnl\u0259r kimi aldad\u0131rlar. Aldatd\u0131 \u2013 c\u0259zas\u0131na \u00e7atd\u0131. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, g\u00fcnahs\u0131z, pak, m\u0259sum, k\u00f6m\u0259ksiz q\u0131za yalan satd\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 allah verdiyi can\u0131 \u00abO\u00bbdan ald\u0131.
\nYaradan uludur, adildir. H\u0259r \u015feyi g\u00f6r\u00fcr. T\u0259qsirlini d\u0259, t\u0259qsirsizi d\u0259. Odur ki, deyirl\u0259r: \u00abAllah buynuzsuz qo\u00e7un heyfini buynuzlu qo\u00e7da qoymur\u00bb.
\n\u0130nsanlar cild\u0259n-cild\u0259 gir\u0259r\u0259k, bir-birl\u0259rin\u0259 yalan dey\u0259, k\u0259l\u0259k g\u0259l\u0259 bil\u0259rl\u0259r. \u0130nand\u0131rmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259tta allah\u0131n ad\u0131ndan da istifad\u0259 edir, ona and i\u00e7irl\u0259r. Yaradan is\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcr. Onu aldatmaq \u00e7\u0259tindir. O ba\u011f\u0131\u015flam\u0131r. Kim\u0259 hans\u0131 c\u0259zan\u0131 ver\u0259c\u0259yini yax\u015f\u0131 anlay\u0131r. C\u0259zaland\u0131rma\u011fa t\u0259l\u0259smir. \u018fyri yoldan \u00e7\u0259kilm\u0259k, safla\u015fmaq, t\u0259mizl\u0259nm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u00fcnahkara vaxt v\u0259 imkan verir. \u0130lahi s\u0259birlidir, d\u00f6z\u00fcml\u00fcd\u00fcr. Lakin onun s\u0259brinin d\u0259 h\u0259ddi-h\u00fcdudu var. G\u00f6r\u00fcr ki, b\u0259nd\u0259sini c\u0259zaland\u0131rmasa onun s\u0259pdiyi, \u0259kdiyi pis toxumlar insanlara \u0259zab-\u0259ziyy\u0259t, i\u015fg\u0259nc\u0259, b\u0259d\u00acb\u0259xtlik, g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 g\u0259tir\u0259r, onda qanadl\u0131 m\u0259l\u0259yini – \u018fzray\u0131l\u0131 g\u00f6nd\u0259rir.
\n\u018fziz\u0259nin d\u0259rdi bir idimi, iki idimi?! Hans\u0131n\u0131 yad\u0131na sal\u0131b k\u00f6nl\u00fc \u015fad olsun?! \u00abO\u00bbna rast g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 yasdan t\u0259z\u0259-t\u0259z\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. \u00d6l\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r unuda bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yi bir k\u0259d\u0259r, q\u0259m-q\u00fcss\u0259, a\u011fr\u0131, \u0259l\u0259ml\u0259 y\u00fckl\u0259nmi\u015fdi. Ata, qarda\u015f da\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u00abO\u00bb, d\u0259rdini bir q\u0259d\u0259r y\u00fcng\u00fcll\u0259\u015fdirmi\u015fdi. \u018fziz\u0259, \u015f\u0259n, q\u00fcss\u0259siz, b\u0259xtiyar g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. \u00c7ox vaxt buna m\u00fcv\u0259ff\u0259q olurdu. \u00abO\u00bbnun say\u0259sind\u0259. Art\u0131q \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc xo\u015fb\u0259xt hiss etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey alt-\u00fcst oldu. \u00abO\u00bbnu itir\u0259nd\u0259n sonra yen\u0259 beli q\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f atas\u0131, a\u011faca sar\u0131laraq burnu, qulaqlar\u0131 k\u0259silmi\u015f, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, sonra is\u0259 diri-diri yand\u0131r\u0131l\\m\u0131\u015f qarda\u015f\u0131, l\u00fct-\u00fcryan soyundurulmu\u015f, sirk\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259r\u0259k \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259k m\u0259cburiyy\u0259tind\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015f g\u0259linl\u0259ri, d\u0259rdd\u0259n bel\u0259 b\u00fck\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f, g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ovcunun i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 olan anas\u0131 Fatma daim onunla idi. Beynind\u0259n, hafiz\u0259sind\u0259n silinmirdi ki, silinmirdi. Yatanda da, duranda da, yem\u0259k yey\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 onu izl\u0259yirdi.
\n– Burada d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz?
\nCavan o\u011flan\u0131n s\u0259si \u018fziz\u0259ni qap\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 al\u0259md\u0259n ay\u0131rd\u0131. Onu bel\u0259 q\u0259lba\u011fr\u0131d\u0131c\u0131, \u00fcz\u00fcc\u00fc, a\u011f\u0131r xatir\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n qopard\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 \u0259slind\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 o\u011flana minn\u0259tdar oldu, lakin dili ba\u015fqa \u015fey dedi:
\n– Dey\u0259s\u0259n, d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259yim\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sirsiniz. Yoxsa, yerinizi dar el\u0259yir\u0259m?!
\nO\u011flan p\u0259rt oldu. \u018fziz\u0259 kobudluq etdiyini anlad\u0131. Lakin \u00fczr ist\u0259m\u0259di. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 dalanda, qan\u0131 qara olanda xo\u015flam\u0131rd\u0131 ki, onun daxili al\u0259min\u0259 n\u00fcfuz etsinl\u0259r. Bayaqdan s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fcn sa\u011f t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n, ortada as\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, salonu g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259n g\u00fczg\u00fcd\u0259n g\u0259ncin baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u018fziz\u0259 hiss edirdi. Onu haldan \u00e7\u0131xaran \u0259slind\u0259 bu idi.
\nAvtobus dayand\u0131. \u018fziz\u0259 ki\u00e7ik \u0259l \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131n k\u0259m\u0259rini \u00e7iynin\u0259 a\u015f\u0131r\u0131b g\u0259nc\u0259:
\n– \u0130caz\u0259 vers\u0259ydiniz, d\u00fc\u015f\u0259rdim, – dedi.
\nG\u0259nc aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131. \u018fziz\u0259 p\u0259rtlik buzunu \u0259ritm\u0259k, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u00fczrxahl\u0131q \u0259lam\u0259ti olaraq x\u0259fifc\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di:
\n– Sa\u011f olun. Yax\u015f\u0131 yol.
\nG\u0259ncin d\u0259 doda\u011f\u0131 qa\u00e7d\u0131.
\n– Siz\u0259 d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 yol, hirsli q\u0131z.
\n\u018fziz\u0259 y\u00fck yerind\u0259n \u00e7amadan\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259nd\u0259 d\u00f6rd n\u0259f\u0259rin ma\u015f\u0131na yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Onu qar\u015f\u0131layan anas\u0131, day\u0131s\u0131, day\u0131s\u0131 arvad\u0131 v\u0259 onlar\u0131n yeddi ya\u015fl\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131 idi.
\n***
\nV\u0259t\u0259nim yaral\u0131, elim yaral\u0131,
\n\u00dcr\u0259yim yaral\u0131, \u0259lim yaral\u0131.
\nQa\u00e7q\u0131nam, k\u00f6\u00e7k\u00fcn\u0259m, hal\u0131m\u0131 sorma
\n\u015e\u0259hid\u0259m, itkin\u0259m, hal\u0131m\u0131 sorma.
\nQisas g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u0259c\u0259n hal\u0131m\u0131 sorma.
\n(Sabir R\u00fcst\u0259mxanl\u0131)<\/p>\n

K\u0259nd \u00f6z h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. Az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131lar \u00f6z \u0259z\u0259li torpaqlar\u0131ndan \u2013 haz\u0131rda Erm\u0259nistan adland\u0131r\u0131lan yerl\u0259rd\u0259n qovulandan, silah g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131landan sonra mill\u0259timizin ba\u015f\u0131na \u00e7ox oyunlar g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Az\u0259ri t\u00fcrkl\u0259rini Az\u0259rbaycandan Az\u0259rbaycana qovmu\u015fdular. Yuxar\u0131 Qaraba\u011f da erm\u0259nil\u0259rin tam n\u0259zar\u0259tin\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. Bu azm\u0131\u015f kimi, \u015eu\u015fa, La\u00e7\u0131n, K\u0259lb\u0259c\u0259r A\u011fdam, F\u00fczuli, Qubadl\u0131, C\u0259b\u00acray\u0131l, Z\u0259ngilan da \u0259ld\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Az\u011f\u0131n erm\u0259nil\u0259r, onlar\u0131n hava\u00acdarlar\u0131 BMT-nin q\u0259rarlar\u0131na bel\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259l qoymurdular. BMT \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 q\u0259ti add\u0131mlar atm\u0131rd\u0131. D\u00fcnya yaman d\u00fcnyad\u0131r! Haqq\u0131 qoyub nahaq\u00acqa q\u0259hm\u0259r \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rlar! T\u0259kl\u0259dil\u0259r d\u00f6vl\u0259timizi, xalq\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 pis g\u00fcn\u0259 sald\u0131lar. Ad\u0131na did\u0259rgin, k\u00f6\u00e7k\u00fcn, qa\u00e7q\u0131n dedil\u0259r.
\nDa\u015fl\u0131 k\u0259ndin\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 Erm\u0259nistandan, sonralar Qaraba\u011f\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n did\u0259rgin d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f ail\u0259l\u0259r p\u0259nah g\u0259tirdi. Burada yurd-yuva sald\u0131lar. T\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n ev-e\u015fik d\u00fcz\u0259ltm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131lar. \u018fziz\u0259 il\u0259 anas\u0131 da Cavad\u0131n h\u0259y\u0259tin\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131lar. Bu adamlar \u015f\u0259n, deyib-g\u00fcl\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 \u018fziz\u0259 onlar\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin d\u0259rinliyind\u0259 bir qay\u011f\u0131, nisgil, sonsuz k\u0259d\u0259r, d\u0259rd oxuyurdu. Bu zaman ilk n\u00f6vb\u0259d\u0259 beli q\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, el\u0259 bel\u0259c\u0259 d\u0259 me\u015f\u0259d\u0259 yalq\u0131z, k\u00f6m\u0259ksiz qal\u0131b can\u0131n\u0131 tap\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f qoca, g\u00fcnahs\u0131z atas\u0131 yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc. Sonra qarda\u015f\u0131, g\u0259linbac\u0131s\u0131\u2026
\nRastla\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 adamlar da \u00e7ox itki vermi\u015fdil\u0259r. Kimisi o\u011flunu, q\u0131\\z\u0131n\u0131, kimisi ata-anas\u0131n\u0131, \u0259rini, arvad\u0131n\u0131 itirmi\u015fdi. \u0130tki pis \u015feydir. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 adam\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fc axtar\u0131r, g\u0259zir, \u00fcmidini \u00fczm\u00fcr, tapaca\u011f\u0131na inam\u0131n\u0131 itirmir.
\nBir d\u0259f\u0259 day\u0131s\u0131 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 qay\u011f\u0131l\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n \u018fziz\u0259y\u0259 ac\u0131qland\u0131:
\n– Cavan q\u0131zsan.\u018flini yan\u0131na sal\u0131b oturmusan. D\u0259rd \u00e7\u0259km\u0259kl\u0259 n\u0259y\u0259 nail olursan? Atan\u0131n, qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n ruhunu incidirs\u0259n. \u0130nsan nikbin olar. Sabah\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259r. G\u0259lin, ham\u0131m\u0131z \u00f6l\u0259k. Bununla i\u015fl\u0259r d\u00fcz\u0259\\l\u0259c\u0259k? Bilmir\u0259m, anan\u0131n d\u0259rdini \u00e7\u0259kim, yoxsa s\u0259nin\u2026 Q\u0131z\u0131m, s\u00f6zl\u0259rim x\u0259trin\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259sin. Dem\u0259yim budur ki, bir i\u015fin qulpundan yap\u0131\u015f. Anan g\u00f6rs\u0259 ki, s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 alm\u0131san, insanlara qaynay\u0131b-qar\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan, deyib-g\u00fcl\u00fcrs\u0259n, s\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259yat e\u015fqi var, \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan \u2013 o da cana g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k.
\n\u018fziz\u0259 day\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 qucaqlay\u0131b a\u011flad\u0131:
\n– Yax\u015f\u0131, day\u0131, yax\u015f\u0131 \u2026
\n– Ali t\u0259hsil alm\u0131san.
\n– K\u0259ndd\u0259 u\u015faq ba\u011f\u00e7as\u0131 yoxdur, harada i\u015fl\u0259yim, day\u0131?
\nCavad q\u0259h-q\u0259h \u00e7\u0259kdi:
\n– Ay, q\u0131z\u0131m, k\u0259ndd\u0259 yoxdur, rayon m\u0259rk\u0259zind\u0259 ki var. On-on be\u015f d\u0259qiq\u0259lik yoldur. Sabah t\u0259hsil \u015f\u00f6b\u0259sin\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259r\u0259m.
\n***
\nErt\u0259si g\u00fcn Cavad t\u0259hsil \u015f\u00f6b\u0259sinin m\u00fcdiri Adil \u0130srafilovla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. O, Cavad\u0131n g\u0259li\u015finin m\u0259qs\u0259dini bil\u0259nd\u0259 bir q\u0259d\u0259r fikr\u0259 getdi. Cavad q\u0131z\u0131n, anas\u0131n\u0131n v\u0259ziyy\u0259tini ona dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131:
\n– H\u0259r ikisi sars\u0131nt\u0131 ke\u00e7irib. Onlar\u0131 ayaq \u00fcst\u0259 qald\u0131rmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r. K\u00f6m\u0259k ets\u0259niz, bu , allaha da xo\u015f ged\u0259r.
\nAdil m\u00fc\u0259llim siqaret yand\u0131r\u0131b d\u0259rin bir qullab vurdu:
\n– Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m. K\u00f6m\u0259k etm\u0259k borcumuzdur. Ancaq imkan\u0131m\u0131z yoxdur. U\u015faq ba\u011f\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131n bir qismini ba\u011flay\u0131blar. Qabaqlar camaat i\u015fl\u0259yirdi, m\u0259cbur qal\u0131b u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011f\u00e7aya verirdil\u0259r. D\u00f6vl\u0259t d\u0259 ba\u011f\u00e7alara avadanl\u0131q, \u0259rzaq ay\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130ndi, bilirs\u0259n, ba\u011f\u00e7alara dem\u0259k olar he\u00e7 n\u0259 vermirl\u0259r. Valideyn d\u0259 daha n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 buraya qoysun. F\u0259rli yem\u0259k yox, laz\u0131m olan avadanl\u0131q yox. \u00d6z\u0259l qurumlar\u0131n\u0131 da \u0259lin\u0259 gir\u0259v\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. U\u015faq ba\u011f\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7oxusunu al\u0131b ofis\u0259, bara, kafey\u0259 \u00e7evirdil\u0259r. Olan-qalan is\u0259 i\u015f\u00e7i il\u0259 doludur. Yen\u0259 sinif m\u00fc\u0259llimi olsayd\u0131, bir \u0259ncam q\u0131lard\u0131q. S\u0259n allah, ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla. \u0130mkan d\u00fc\u015f\u00acs\u0259, x\u0259b\u0259r g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259r\u0259m.
\nCavad aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b xudahafizl\u0259\u015fdi, kor-pe\u015fman k\u0259nd\u0259 qay\u0131t\u00acd\u0131. \u00d6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259: \u00ab\u018fziz\u0259 indi dey\u0259c\u0259k, g\u00f6rd\u00fcn, day\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u0259ziyy\u0259t verm\u0259. Bizimki bel\u0259 g\u0259tirib\u00bb.
\n\u018fziz\u0259 day\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n yeri\u015find\u0259n, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn ifad\u0259sind\u0259n ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki, o, \u0259li bo\u015f qay\u0131d\u0131b. Cavad \u018fziz\u0259nin \u00fcmidini q\u0131rmamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259qiq\u0259ti dem\u0259di:
\n– Q\u0131z\u0131m, bir az g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259li olacaqsan \u2026 Amma sinif m\u00fc\u0259llimi olsayd\u0131n, problem yox idi.
\nBunu e\u015fid\u0259n \u018fziz\u0259 tez ota\u011fa ke\u00e7ib \u0259lind\u0259 bir diplom geri qay\u0131t\u00acd\u0131:
\n– Day\u0131, o diplomu da alm\u0131\u015fam.
\nOnun zarafat etdiyini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259n Cavad da zarafata sald\u0131:
\n– Nec\u0259 y\u0259ni alm\u0131san? Sat\u0131rd\u0131lar?
\n\u018fziz\u0259 ciddi:
\n– Do\u011fru s\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u00fcr, day\u0131. Bak\u0131da U\u015faq ba\u011f\u00e7as\u0131nda i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259-i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259 ixtisas d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259 institutunda bir il kurs ke\u00e7mi\u015f\u0259m. Bu da diplomum.<\/p>\n

Cavad al\u0131b baxd\u0131. Sevinc\u0259k:
\n– S\u0259ni xo\u015f x\u0259b\u0259r olasan, q\u0131z\u0131m. Ac\u0131ndan m\u0259d\u0259m s\u0131yr\u0131l\u0131r. Nahar edib ged\u0259r\u0259m Adil m\u00fc\u0259llimin yan\u0131na \u2026<\/p>\n

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\u018fziz\u0259 uza\u011fa getm\u0259li olmad\u0131. K\u0259ndd\u0259ki m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 ona i\u015f verildi. Sinif m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259rind\u0259n biri t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Cavad\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131 Nazil\u0259 d\u0259 onun d\u0259rs dediyi sinifd\u0259 oxuyurdu. Bu vaxta q\u0259d\u0259r Nazil\u0259 ona \u00ab\u018fziz\u0259 bac\u0131\u00bb deyirdi. Bibisi q\u0131z\u0131 \u0259lin\u0259 jurnal al\u0131b sinf\u0259 gir\u0259nd\u0259n b\u0259ri o, Nazil\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u00fc\u0259llim oldu v\u0259 daha evd\u0259 onu \u00ab\u018fziz\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259\u00bb \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.
\nFatma arvad\u0131n sevindiyind\u0259n u\u00e7ma\u011fa qanad\u0131 yox idi. \u018fziz\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r ert\u0259 oyan\u0131r, idman edir, yuyunub yem\u0259yini yedikd\u0259n sonra g\u00fczg\u00fcn\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131nda dayan\u0131r, \u00fcst-ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qaydaya sal\u0131r, sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0259liq\u0259 il\u0259 daray\u0131rd\u0131. O, ke\u00e7irdiyi iztirablardan, \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u0259rd\u0259n sonra \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 ala bilmi\u015fdi. Bir m\u00fc\u0259llim kimi \u00f6z m\u0259suliyy\u0259tini ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u015eagirdl\u0259ri \u00f6z balalar\u0131 kimi sev\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 and i\u00e7mi\u015fdi. U\u015faqlara eyni m\u00fcnasib\u0259t b\u0259sl\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n, onlara bir \u00f6vlad kimi yana\u015fmadan m\u00fc\u0259llimlik etm\u0259k olmaz. M\u00fc\u0259llim qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131, k\u0259d\u0259rini, incikliyini sinif ota\u011f\u0131na apara bilm\u0259z. \u015eagirdl\u0259r m\u00fc\u0259llimd\u0259n g\u00fcl\u0259r \u00fcz, qay\u011f\u0131, m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t, n\u0259vazi\u015f, bilik g\u00f6zl\u0259yir. \u018fziz\u0259 bunu da bilirdi ki, u\u015faqlar\u0131 sevm\u0259k azd\u0131r, h\u0259m d\u0259 onlara t\u0259l\u0259bkarl\u0131q da g\u00f6st\u0259rilm\u0259lidir. T\u0259kc\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t \u0259sas\u0131nda u\u015faqlar\u0131 t\u0259rbiy\u0259l\u0259ndirm\u0259k olmaz. A\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 v\u0259 d\u00fczg\u00fcn t\u0259l\u0259bkarl\u0131q t\u0259lim-t\u0259rbiy\u0259 i\u015find\u0259 \u0259sasd\u0131r. Lakin \u018fziz\u0259 bunu da ayd\u0131n ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, t\u0259l\u0259bkarl\u0131q he\u00e7 d\u0259 quru r\u0259smiyy\u0259t\u00e7ilik deyil. O, day\u0131s\u0131 Cavada verdiyi s\u00f6z\u0259 sadiq qalaraq, d\u0259rdl\u0259rini b\u00fck\u00fcb bir k\u0259nara qoymu\u015fdu. Fatma arvad da q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n i\u015f\u0259 h\u0259v\u0259sini, u\u015faqlara ba\u011fland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 f\u0259alla\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, valideynl\u0259rin, direktorun ondan raz\u0131l\u0131q etdikl\u0259rini g\u00f6r\u00fcb d\u0259rd-s\u0259rini unudurdu. O el\u0259 bil \u0259lini bu d\u00fcnyadan \u00fczm\u00fc\u015f, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm dil\u0259y\u0259n d\u00fcn\u0259nki Fatma deyildi.
\nBac\u0131s\u0131 il\u0259 bac\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fcn\u00fc-g\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u0259yi\u015fdiyini g\u00f6r\u0259n Cavad da \u015fadlan\u0131r, b\u0131\u011falt\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yirdi. Bu fani-d\u00fcnyada \u0259n yax\u0131n qohumlar\u0131ndan birc\u0259 bac\u0131s\u0131 Fatma qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Onun bu ax\u0131r g\u00fcnl\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259rki v\u0259ziyy\u0259ti, ail\u0259 faci\u0259si Cavada d\u0259rd olmu\u015fdu. Bir d\u0259 ki, divar\u0131n o tay\u0131nda ata bir, ana bir \u0259zizinin d\u0259rd \u00e7\u0259kdiyini g\u00f6r\u0259-g\u00f6r\u0259 nec\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt olmaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fcr Cavad sevinirdi. \u018fzizl\u0259ri, n\u0259hay\u0259t, \u00f6zl\u0259rini \u0259l\u0259 ala bildikl\u0259ri \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn onun da kefi k\u00f6k\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Deyir-g\u00fcl\u00fcr, bac\u0131s\u0131 il\u0259 zarafatla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.
\nTeleviziyada oyun havalar\u0131 verilirdi. Qarmonda G\u00fclbahar \u00e7al\u0131rd\u0131. Onun barmaqlar\u0131 qarmonun \u015firmay\u0131 dill\u0259rin\u0259 toxunduqca k\u00f6n\u00fcl ox\u015fayan, insanda nikbin \u0259hval oyadan musiqi \u00e7\u0259l\u0259ngi \u0259trafa s\u0259p\u0259l\u0259nirdi. Ekranda tez-tez ifa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n \u015f\u0259n, xo\u015fb\u0259xt simas\u0131, g\u00fcl\u0259r \u00fcz\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Cavad bac\u0131s\u0131 il\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 ota\u011fa \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131b qol g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb oynama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Oynaya-oynaya \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 Fatman\u0131n, sonra \u018fziz\u0259nin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda dayand\u0131. Fatma arvad onun \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131\u015f\u0131na qo\u015fuldu. R\u0259qs havas\u0131 s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. O, ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 d\u0259f\u0259 n\u0259 vaxt bel\u0259c\u0259 r\u0259qs etdiyini xat\u0131rlam\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fziz\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 utan\u0131b oynamaqdan boyun qa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131. Nazil\u0259 il\u0259 day\u0131s\u0131 arvad\u0131 Nabat\u0131n da oynama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb o da qollar\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131rd\u0131.
\nR\u0259qs havas\u0131 bit\u0259nd\u0259n sonra Cavad \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u018fziz\u0259y\u0259 tutaraq:
\n– G\u00fclbahar\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcn? Sif\u0259ti i\u015f\u0131q sa\u00e7\u0131r, g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik oxunurdu. El\u0259 bilirs\u0259n onu haldan \u00e7\u0131xaran yoxdur? El\u0259 bilirs\u0259n onun d\u0259rdi azd\u0131r? Amma o deyib-g\u00fclm\u0259yi, \u015f\u0259rl\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fm\u0259yi bacar\u0131r. G\u00f6r nec\u0259 b\u0259xtiyar idi. Bu, onu g\u00f6st\u0259rir ki, onu m\u0259\u011flub etm\u0259k he\u00e7 d\u0259 asan deyil. Q\u0131z\u0131m, s\u0259n d\u0259 h\u0259yatda nikbin ol. Xo\u015fb\u0259xt olma\u011f\u0131 bacar. H\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n t\u0259sirl\u0259nm\u0259. \u0130nsan g\u0259r\u0259k h\u0259r \u015feyi \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 salmaya. Nadan\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259, h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 t\u0259sirl\u0259nib \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xmaya. Hissin yox, a\u011fl\u0131n h\u00f6km\u00fcn\u0259 qulaq asa. H\u0259yatda bir q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 ars\u0131z olmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r. Pis x\u0259b\u0259r e\u015fitdins\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc e\u015fitm\u0259m\u0259zliy\u0259 vur, pisi g\u00f6rd\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259m\u0259zliy\u0259 vur. H\u0259dsiz h\u0259ssas adam \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u0259 balta \u00e7al\u0131r.
\n\u018fziz\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, iztirab, q\u0259m-q\u00fcss\u0259sini d\u0259fn edib yeni h\u0259yata ba\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131. \u00d6l\u0259nl\u0259 \u00f6lm\u0259k olmazd\u0131. \u018fzab ver\u0259nin \u0259zablar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7iynin\u0259 al\u0131b da\u015f\u0131maq \u2013 taleyin h\u00f6km\u00fcn\u0259 boyun \u0259ym\u0259k dem\u0259k olard\u0131. \u018fziz\u0259 var\u0131 yox ed\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn, insan\u0131 iztiraba s\u00fcr\u00fckl\u0259y\u0259n pisliyin, xeyr\u0259 q\u0259nim k\u0259sil\u0259n \u015f\u0259rin ac\u0131\u011f\u0131na sevinir, \u015f\u0259nl\u0259nirdi. Zaman, \u015f\u0259rait onu ay\u0131q-say\u0131q olma\u011fa s\u0259sl\u0259yirdi: \u00abAldanma s\u00f6zl\u0259r\u0259\u2026\u00bb Daha he\u00e7 kim onu aldada bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi. Daha he\u00e7 vaxt \u015firin s\u00f6zl\u0259r\u0259, yalana b\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015f v\u0259dl\u0259r\u0259 aldanmayacaqd\u0131.
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H\u0259t\u0259m ki\u015finin yen\u0259 kefi k\u00f6kd\u00fcr. K\u0259l\u0259-k\u00f6t\u00fcr taxtan\u0131 r\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259y\u0259-r\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 z\u00fcm-z\u00fcm\u0259 edirdi:<\/p>\n

G\u0259l m\u0259n\u0259 s\u0259n naz eyl\u0259m\u0259,
\nDe, g\u00f6r\u00fcm, neyl\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m?!<\/p>\n

O, \u018fziz\u0259ni g\u00f6rc\u0259k belini dik\u0259ltdi. T\u0259k g\u00f6z\u00fc h\u0259d\u0259q\u0259sind\u0259 f\u0131rland\u0131. \u015e\u00fc\u015f\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fc h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fck\u00fcb dururdu.
\n– M\u00fc\u0259llim, qurban olum. \u00c7a\u015f\u0131b bizim arvad\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n inciy\u0259rs\u0259n ha?! Vallah k\u0259lm\u0259 k\u0259sm\u0259r\u0259m. Bir q\u0259l\u0259tdir, el\u0259yib. Ax\u015fam malcan \u00e7\u0131rpm\u0131\u015fam. U\u015faqd\u0131r oxumay\u0131b \u0130ki vermis\u0259n. Lap \u0259c\u0259b el\u0259mis\u0259n. Can\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xs\u0131n. \u00dcr\u00fcbl\u00fckd\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259ld\u0259rs\u0259n. Eh, m\u00fc\u0259llim, q\u0259m yem\u0259. Q\u0131r\u0131lan toyuq olsun, it\u0259n qoyun, \u00f6l\u0259n arvad, cahanda k\u0259ll\u0259 sa\u011f olsun. Y\u0259ni bala, dem\u0259yim odur ki, oxuyan \u2013 oxuyacaq\u2026 O he\u00e7. Oxumayan da oxumayacaq. O da he\u00e7. M\u0259rif\u0259tli u\u015faq \u0259l\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259z, t\u0259rbiy\u0259d\u0259n k\u0259l\u0259 \u2013 k\u00f6t\u00fcr olan da ki\u2026 o he\u00e7 .
\n\u018fziz\u0259nin doda\u011f\u0131 qa\u00e7d\u0131. H\u0259t\u0259m ki\u015finin g\u00f6z\u00fc h\u0259d\u0259q\u0259sind\u0259 f\u0131rland\u0131. \u015e\u00fc\u015f\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fc is\u0259 ad\u0259ti \u00fczr\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fck\u00fcb qald\u0131. Bu g\u00f6z q\u0131rx be\u015f il idi ki, bel\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fck\u00fcrd\u00fc. S\u00f6yl\u0259yirl\u0259r, H\u0259t\u0259m ki\u015fi (\u015fagirdl\u0259r ona H\u0259t\u0259m m\u00fc\u0259llim deyirdil\u0259r) u\u015faqk\u0259n d\u0259c\u0259lmi\u015f. Toyuq-c\u00fcc\u0259y\u0259 dinclik verm\u0259zmi\u015f. Ax\u0131rda xoruzun zaval\u0131na g\u0259lib, vurub g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc t\u00f6k\u00fcb. Amma, insaf\u0259n, H\u0259t\u0259m ki\u015fi yax\u015f\u0131 adamd\u0131. \u0130\u015f bil\u0259n, yerini qanan. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259rr\u00fcfat m\u00fcdiri, y\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fc demi\u015fk\u0259n, \u00abzavxoz\u00bb i\u015fl\u0259yirdi. Adam\u0131 min dill\u0259 dindirir. \u00d6z\u00fcnd\u0259n he\u00e7 kimi incik salmaz. Amma bir n\u00f6qsan\u0131 var ki, o da d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259n deyil. Y\u0259ni s\u0259h\u0259r, ax\u015fam, g\u00fcnorta araq gill\u0259tm\u0259yi var. \u00c7ox olsa, he\u00e7 \u00abuf\u00bbda dem\u0259z. \u00c7\u0259k\u0259r ba\u015f\u0131na. Amma sa\u011f olsun. \u0130\u00e7m\u0259yini b\u00fcruz\u0259 ver\u0259n deyil. N\u0259 xadim\u0259l\u0259r qanar i\u00e7m\u0259yini, n\u0259 d\u0259 \u015fagirdl\u0259r. M\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259r bir az arif adamlard\u0131r. H\u0259t\u0259m ki\u015fi ba\u015flasa a\u011f\u0131r-a\u011f\u0131r:<\/p>\n

Harda olsam g\u0259l\u0259r\u0259m\u2026
\nT\u0259ki s\u0259n s\u0259sl\u0259 m\u0259ni,<\/p>\n

– oxuma\u011fa dem\u0259k y\u00fcz \u0259lli qram i\u00e7ib. Yox, \u0259g\u0259r dingild\u0259y\u0259-dingild\u0259y\u0259:
\nG\u0259l m\u0259n\u0259 s\u0259n naz eyl\u0259m\u0259,
\nDe, g\u00f6r\u00fcm, neyl\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, – oxuma\u011fa, dem\u0259k az\u0131 iki y\u00fcz qram vurub.
\n\u018fziz\u0259 dedi:
\n– H\u0259t\u0259m ki\u015fi, m\u0259n d\u00fczl\u00fck t\u0259r\u0259fdar\u0131yam. M\u0259qs\u0259dims\u0259 u\u015faqlara t\u0259lim-t\u0259rbiy\u0259 verm\u0259k. \u0130st\u0259mir\u0259m \u018fkr\u0259m\u0259 minn\u0259tl\u0259 qiym\u0259t yaz\u0131m. Bundan kar a\u015fmaz. G\u0259r\u0259k qiym\u0259ti \u00f6z\u00fc ala. Onunla \u0259lav\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olaca\u011fam. Proqram material\u0131n\u0131 bacard\u0131\u011f\u0131m q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259nims\u0259d\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. Bu, \u00e7ox vaxt aparacaq. Amma n\u0259tic\u0259sind\u0259n, \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259 yox ki, f\u0259r\u0259hl\u0259n\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. Ba\u011fban ba\u011fa bax\u0131b q\u00fcrr\u0259l\u0259n\u0259r, H\u0259t\u0259m ki\u015fi.
\n– N\u0259 deyir\u0259m, m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259. Deyirs\u0259n, y\u0259ni dar\u0131xmay\u0131m?! D\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259r? H\u0259, \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259, d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259r. D\u00fcz\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259n iki \u015feydir: bir d\u0259v\u0259yl\u0259 qozbelin beli, bir d\u0259 H\u0259t\u0259m l\u0259l\u0259nin ba\u015f\u0131\u2026
\n\u018fziz\u0259 g\u00fcld\u00fc: \u00abYaman zarafatc\u0131ld\u0131r bu ki\u015fi\u00bb – , – dey\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fdi. O, m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259r ota\u011f\u0131na sar\u0131 getdi. \u0130\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259kil\u0259rl\u0259 salamla\u015fanda Yav\u0259r m\u00fc\u0259llim (o, \u0259d\u0259biyyat m\u00fc\u0259llimidir) dedi ki, direktoru g\u00f6rs\u00fcn.<\/p>\n

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\u018fziz\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259n sonra H\u0259t\u0259m ki\u015fini fikir g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u0130\u00e7diyi ara\u011f\u0131n el\u0259 bil qaz\u0131 qa\u00e7d\u0131. \u00d6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yini bo\u015faltma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131: \u00abN\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l s\u00f6z i\u015fl\u0259tdi bizim t\u0259p-t\u0259z\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259llim: \u00ab\u018fkr\u0259m\u0259 minn\u0259tli qiym\u0259t yazmaq ist\u0259mir\u0259m. Qiym\u0259ti o \u00f6z\u00fc alacaq\u00bb. Bax, bu, \u0259sl s\u00f6zd\u00fcr. Oldu atan r\u0259hm\u0259tlik. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, ba\u011fban ba\u011f\u0131yla \u00f6y\u00fcn\u0259r. H\u0259l\u0259 lap ba\u011f \u00f6z bar\u0131yla. Ax, bu arvada n\u0259 deyim? Ax\u0131r ki, ipini bir yer\u0259 y\u0131\u011fa bilmir\u0259m. Dey\u0259n g\u0259r\u0259k, ay t\u00fcmb\u0259t\u00fcn olmu\u015fun q\u0131z\u0131. Bax, s\u0259nin n\u0259yin\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259k. M\u0259n boyda z\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131 qal\u0131b bir yanda, k\u0259smis\u0259n m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259nin q\u0259n\u015f\u0259rini ki, b\u0259s m\u0259nim o\u011flumu \u00abpadvalit\u00bb el\u0259mis\u0259n. N\u00f6\u015f aya\u011fa qald\u0131r\u0131b o, q\u0259d\u0259r u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n yan\u0131nda danlam\u0131san. N\u00f6\u015f m\u0259nim o\u011fluma demis\u0259n oxuma\u011f\u0131 bir yana dursun, intizam\u0131 da g\u00f6zl\u0259mirs\u0259n. Yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sinifd\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcb. Ay \u0259bl\u0259hin q\u0131z\u0131, b\u0259s s\u0259nin yetim\u00e7\u0259n xalx\u0131n u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yumru\u011funun alt\u0131na sala bil\u0259r, m\u00fc\u0259llim onu danlaya bilm\u0259z. El\u0259 \u0259rk\u00f6y\u00fcn b\u00f6y\u00fctm\u00fcs\u0259n ki, s\u00f6z dem\u0259k olmur. Cin at\u0131na minir: \u00abNervinniy\u0259m, q\u0131raram ham\u0131n\u0131z\u0131\u2026\u00bb<\/p>\n

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Yaz\u0131ya 1134 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

(\u201cAldanma s\u00f6zl\u0259r\u0259\u201d roman\u0131ndan) S\u0259m\u0259dl\u0259 \u018fziz\u0259nin nigaran\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na is\u0259 do\u011furdan da, \u0259sas vard\u0131. Ail\u0259 t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda idi. Sergeyl\u0259 Samvel \u0259li silahl\u0131 h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 h\u0259rl\u0259nir, g\u0259linin onlara t\u0259slim edil\u0259c\u0259yini g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdil\u0259r. Nizam ki\u015fi \u0259linin i\u015far\u0259si il\u0259 qad\u0131nlara arxa ota\u011fa ke\u00e7m\u0259yi buyurub h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. M\u0259rdi-m\u0259rdan\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc erm\u0259nil\u0259r\u0259 tutub: – Sergey, Samvel, siz d\u0259 silahl\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z, m\u0259n d\u0259. G\u0259lin, qan t\u00f6km\u0259y\u0259k. Onu bilin […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":6147,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10153"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=10153"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10153\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10155,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10153\/revisions\/10155"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/6147"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=10153"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=10153"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=10153"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}