{"id":10238,"date":"2016-02-20T19:06:06","date_gmt":"2016-02-20T15:06:06","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=10238"},"modified":"2016-02-20T23:15:27","modified_gmt":"2016-02-20T19:15:27","slug":"nihat-c%c9%99brayil-s%c9%99sini-bu-ev%c9%99-h%c9%99bs-etdim","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=10238","title":{"rendered":"Nihat C\u0259bray\u0131l – S\u0259sini bu ev\u0259 h\u0259bs etdim"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"12369249_1653238691615621_6315567466564557225_n\"<\/a>B\u0259z\u0259n musiqil\u0259r k\u00f6m\u0259k etmir, b\u0259z\u0259n Dostoyevski d\u0259 maraqs\u0131z olur. \u0130\u015fd\u0259n yor\u011fun-ar\u011f\u0131n d\u00f6nd\u00fcy\u00fcm gec\u0259l\u0259ri deyir\u0259m. Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, i\u015f var\u2026 S\u0259s-k\u00fcy,dost-tan\u0131\u015f i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u00f6rt-bas olur bu t\u0259kliyim. Bir d\u0259 bunun gec\u0259si var\u2026 Ev\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u0259si. Ev\u2026 Y\u0259qin ki, ill\u0259rdi \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131b-vuru\u015fub \u0259ld\u0259 etm\u0259k ist\u0259diyimiz xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyin bir ad\u0131 da Evdir. Evi olmayana s\u0259rs\u0259ri s\u0259fil, n\u0259 bilim, daha n\u0259 adlarda qoyuruq. \u00c7\u00fcnki bizd\u0259n f\u0259rqlidi. \u00c7\u00fcnki onun gec\u0259l\u0259r getm\u0259y\u0259 evi yoxdu. Bununla ovuduruq \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc, bunla f\u0259rqimizi hiss edirik. Evl\u0259nm\u0259k s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn k\u00f6k\u00fcnd\u0259 bel\u0259 \u201cev\u201d qurulub. Amma bir d\u0259 g\u0259l g\u00f6r ki, b\u0259z\u0259n b\u0259zil\u0259ri \u201cYen\u0259 d\u0259 ev\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259m… yen\u0259 soyuq otaq, d\u0259md\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f \u00e7ay, d\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259n qalma makaronlu sup… T\u0259l\u0259m-t\u0259l\u0259sik g\u00f6d\u0259k\u00e7\u0259mi \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b atacam \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc sizin \u00e7arpay\u0131, m\u0259nimkimil\u0259rin is\u0259 bo\u015fluq dediyi yer\u0259 v\u0259 yen\u0259 S\u018fN g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n a\u011fl\u0131ma t\u0259l\u0259m-t\u0259l\u0259sik. Xatir\u0259l\u0259r t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259c\u0259k ortal\u0131\u011fa. H\u0259r yerd\u0259n s\u0259sin g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k, g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn d\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k divarlar\u0131ma evim dolub da\u015facaq s\u0259nl\u0259. Evim \u201cev\u201dolacaq. M\u0259n \u201cbo\u015fluqdan\u201d qalx\u0131b ke\u00e7ib \u0259l \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc yuyacam, g\u00fczg\u00fcy\u0259 bax\u0131b deyin\u0259c\u0259m yen\u0259 uzand\u0131 saqqal\u0131m, vaxt tap\u0131b d\u0259ll\u0259y\u0259 getm\u0259li oldu\u011fumu xat\u0131rladacaqsan m\u0259n\u0259. Sonra ke\u00e7ib \u00e7ay d\u0259ml\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m x\u0259yal\u0131nsa \u201ci\u015fl\u0259rin nec\u0259 ke\u00e7di\u201d soru\u015facaq g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k v\u0259 eyni inadkarl\u0131qla\u2026 Amma anlay\u0131ram v\u0259 anlayacaq q\u0259d\u0259r ya\u015fland\u0131m. Bu evin daha ev olmayaca\u011f\u0131n, m\u0259n h\u0259r g\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc o bo\u015fluga ataca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 anlayacaq q\u0259d\u0259r ya\u015fland\u0131m. <\/span><\/p>\n

Tez-tez e\u015fitdiyim bir s\u00f6z vard\u0131 \u201cki\u015fil\u0259r u\u015faq kimidi\u201d. H\u0259r n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r boynumuzdan atsaq da, bel\u0259di qad\u0131n. Biz ki\u015fil\u0259r n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r h\u00fcnd\u00fcrboy, iri c\u00fcss\u0259li, kobud, g\u00fccl\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcns\u0259k d\u0259, \u201c\u0259l-\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yu g\u0259l yem\u0259k ye, bu k\u00f6yn\u0259yin \u00e7irklidi d\u0259yi\u015f ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131 geyin, gir i\u00e7\u0259ri, hava soyuqdu\u201d dey\u0259n bir s\u0259s\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131m\u0131z var. Getdiyimiz h\u0259r yerd\u0259n, h\u0259tta ba\u015fqa \u015f\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259rd\u0259n d\u00f6n\u00fcb g\u0259l\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259yimiz bir \u201cev\u201d\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131m\u0131z var. Q\u0259rib\u0259 m\u0259xluquq biz Qad\u0131n..s\u0259n soydugun meyv\u0259nid\u0259 bir ayr\u0131 lezzetl\u0259 yeyirik, s\u0259nin qoydu\u011fun qanunlara uyub s\u0259nin d\u00fcz\u0259nin\u0259 \u00f6y\u0259r\u015firik.Ya da ac\u0131-ac\u0131 s\u00f6zl\u0259r s\u0259rf edib q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131b ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131b incid\u0259rik s\u0259ni, amma \u0259min olariq k\u00fcsm\u0259diyind\u0259n. Bel\u0259c\u0259 u\u015faqla\u015far koskoca ki\u015fil\u0259r sevdikl\u0259ri qad\u0131n yan\u0131nda.. H\u0259r \u015feyi etiraf etdim, Qad\u0131n\u2026 Amma s\u0259n getdin. Getm\u0259k bir \u00fcsyand\u0131, getm\u0259k bir sava\u015f\u2026 bunun qazanan\u0131 var, m\u0259\u011flub olan\u0131 var. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 \u00e7ald\u0131n, qazand\u0131n agl\u0131nca. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, ba\u015fqa bir divar\u0131 ev etm\u0259y\u0259 getdin. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, \u0259ksi oldu he\u00e7 bir divar\u0131 q\u0131zd\u0131rmad\u0131 n\u0259f\u0259sin, he\u00e7 xo\u015fb\u0259xt olmad\u0131n b\u0259lk\u0259. Yen\u0259 d\u0259 bir ki\u015fini d\u00f6rd divara \u0259man\u0259t etm\u0259k adil olmad\u0131, Qad\u0131n. S\u0259n getdiyind\u0259 anlamad\u0131n bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 bir ki\u015fi evsiz, bir ev n\u0259f\u0259ssiz qald\u0131. S\u0259n unutdun bunun q\u0131\u015f\u0131 var soyugu var x\u0259st\u0259liyi var bunun..bir d\u0259 bo\u015flu\u011fu var h\u0259r g\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n bir par\u00e7a atsamda dolmayan bo\u015flu\u011fu. <\/span><\/p>\n

\u0130ndi k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259-s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259 ged\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn ki\u015fil\u0259r m\u0259n\u0259m, tikilm\u0259y\u0259n suvanmayan d\u00f6rd divarlar\u0131 ev etm\u0259y\u0259ns\u0259 s\u0259ns\u0259n, Qad\u0131n. <\/span><\/p>\n

P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rin p\u0259rd\u0259sini, saatlar\u0131n \u0259qr\u0259bini, otaqlar\u0131 i\u015f\u0131g\u0131n\u0131 itirdiyi evd\u0259 bir adam h\u0259r gec\u0259 bo\u015fluqda d\u0259rin bir yuxuya gedir. \u018fll\u0259rin\u0259 sa\u011fl\u0131q, Qad\u0131n, g\u00f6z\u0259l bo\u015fluqdu… <\/span><\/p>\n

\u0130ndi o evin p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259n bax\u0131ram qaranli\u011fa..Cox \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131m \u00e7abalad\u0131m s\u0259ni unutma\u011f\u0131, yerin\u0259 ba\u015fqa birini qoyma\u011f\u0131 d\u0259n\u0259dim.. olmad\u0131. S\u0259n getdikc\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcn i\u00e7imd\u0259, b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcn \u0259lim\u0259, ovcuma \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 s\u0131\u011fmad\u0131n, bir g\u00fcn evim\u0259 s\u0131gmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n kimi. B\u00f6y\u00fctd\u00fcy\u00fcm s\u0259ni b\u00f6y\u00fck bir nifr\u0259t\u0259 \u00e7evirdim. A\u00e7d\u0131m qap\u0131n\u0131, qovdum evimd\u0259n xatir\u0259ni. Arxas\u0131nca atd\u0131m bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131, g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc, s\u0259sini\u2026 sonra d\u0259rin bir n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131b atd\u0131m \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u00e7arpay\u0131ya\u2026 Amma unutmad\u0131m. M\u0259n sevgimi sevdim,, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini divardan asd\u0131m ya\u015fad\u0131m… Bug\u00fcn\u0259c\u0259n ya\u015fad\u0131msa, bil ki, qatd\u0131m ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131\u2026 s\u0259nsizlikl\u0259<\/span><\/p>\n

Yaz\u0131ya 874 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

B\u0259z\u0259n musiqil\u0259r k\u00f6m\u0259k etmir, b\u0259z\u0259n Dostoyevski d\u0259 maraqs\u0131z olur. \u0130\u015fd\u0259n yor\u011fun-ar\u011f\u0131n d\u00f6nd\u00fcy\u00fcm gec\u0259l\u0259ri deyir\u0259m. Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, i\u015f var\u2026 S\u0259s-k\u00fcy,dost-tan\u0131\u015f i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u00f6rt-bas olur bu t\u0259kliyim. Bir d\u0259 bunun gec\u0259si var\u2026 Ev\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u0259si. Ev\u2026 Y\u0259qin ki, ill\u0259rdi \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131b-vuru\u015fub \u0259ld\u0259 etm\u0259k ist\u0259diyimiz xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyin bir ad\u0131 da Evdir. Evi olmayana s\u0259rs\u0259ri s\u0259fil, n\u0259 bilim, daha n\u0259 adlarda qoyuruq. \u00c7\u00fcnki […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[6],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10238"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=10238"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10238\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10246,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10238\/revisions\/10246"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=10238"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=10238"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=10238"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}