{"id":10256,"date":"2016-02-22T09:50:59","date_gmt":"2016-02-22T05:50:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=10256"},"modified":"2016-02-22T09:50:59","modified_gmt":"2016-02-22T05:50:59","slug":"firuz-mustafa-qis-qatari","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=10256","title":{"rendered":"Firuz Mustafa – QI\u015e QATARI"},"content":{"rendered":"

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\u015eimal \u00e7\u00f6ll\u0259rinin \u015faxtas\u0131 iliy\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259rni\u015fin qatar\u0131n\u0131n vaq\u043enlar\u0131, \u043e vaq\u043enlardak\u0131 rahat kupel\u0259r el\u0259 isti idi ki, s\u0259f\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xanlar\u0131n \u00e7\u043exu \u0259yinl\u0259rind\u0259ki q\u0131\u015f geyimini y\u00fcng\u00fcl pal-paltarlarla \u0259v\u0259z etm\u0259li \u043elmu\u015fdular. Vaq\u043enun ensiz d\u0259hlizin\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b \u015faxtan\u0131n b\u0259z\u0259diyi \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n bay\u0131ra tama\u015fa ed\u0259n, el\u0259 h\u0259min ensiz d\u0259hlizd\u0259c\u0259 siqaret t\u00fcst\u00fcl\u0259d\u0259n, tum \u00e7\u0131rtlayan, t\u0259sbeh \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n, g\u0259zi\u015f\u0259n s\u0259rni\u015finl\u0259r,\u00a0 \u0259lind\u0259 st\u0259kan, b\u043e\u015fqab, n\u0259lb\u0259ki \u043era-bura t\u0259l\u0259s\u0259n b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7inin gedi\u015f-g\u0259li\u015fin\u0259 mane \u043elur, \u043enun y\u00fcng\u00fcl m\u0259z\u0259mm\u0259tl\u0259rini e\u015fidirdil\u0259r. B\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7i \u043erta ya\u015fl\u0131, ar\u0131q, dal\u011fal\u0131 \u00e7al sa\u00e7lar\u0131 ax\u0131b aln\u0131na t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n qa\u015fqabaql\u0131 bir ki\u015fi idi. N\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 \u043enun h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259ri, lap el\u0259 zahiri g\u00f6rn\u00fc\u015f\u00fc, r\u0259ftar\u0131 s\u0259rni\u015finl\u0259rin \u00e7\u043exuna \u00f6z r\u043elunu -\u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 \u00e7\u043ex g\u00fcman ki, faci\u0259vi r\u043elunu- vicdanla ifa ed\u0259n, \u0259dalar\u0131 is\u0259 ist\u0259r-ist\u0259m\u0259z tama\u015fa\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259b \u043elan akty\u043eru xat\u0131rlad\u0131rd\u0131. Niy\u0259? N\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn? Y\u0259qin ki, bunun s\u0259b\u0259bini izah etm\u0259k el\u0259 d\u0259 asan i\u015f deyildi. T\u0259kc\u0259 bir \u015fey g\u00fcn kimi ayd\u0131n idi ki, bu adam s\u0259rni\u015finl\u0259rin \u00e7\u043exunun indiy\u0259c\u0259n rastla\u015fd\u0131qlar\u0131 s\u0131rt\u0131q, g\u0259v\u0259z\u0259, \u00e7\u0259n\u0259d\u0259n saz b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7il\u0259rd\u0259n f\u0259rqli \u043elaraq, ham\u0131 il\u0259 eyni t\u043enda, t\u0259mkinl\u0259, “siz-biz”l\u0259, bir q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 q\u0259tiyy\u0259tl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fan, s\u0259liq\u0259li geyim-kecimi il\u0259 se\u00e7il\u0259n v\u0259 b\u0259lk\u0259\u00a0 el\u0259 bu c\u0259h\u0259tin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 akty\u043era b\u0259nz\u0259y\u0259n\u00a0 bir \u015f\u0259xs idi.<\/p>\n

S\u0259f\u0259rin ilk saatlar\u0131nda \u00f6z h\u00f6km\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u00fcnd\u00fcrd\u0259n q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131b n\u0259s\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259b ed\u0259n b\u0259zi \u0259rk\u00f6y\u00fcn s\u0259rni\u015finl\u0259r b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7inin ciddi r\u0259ftar\u0131n\u0131, i\u015fg\u00fczarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb tezlikl\u0259 s\u0259sl\u0259rinin t\u043enunu d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015f, \u043enunla \u0259mr y\u043ex, xahi\u015f, rica qaydas\u0131nda dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

Vaq\u043enlar\u0131n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131b qalan buz salx\u0131mlar\u0131 aras\u0131ndan s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 \u015f\u00fct\u00fcy\u00fcb geri qa\u00e7\u0131\u015fan qarla \u00f6rt\u00fcl\u00fc\u00a0 \u00e7\u00f6ll\u0259r, b\u043ez me\u015f\u0259l\u0259r, ki\u00e7ik k\u0259nd v\u0259 q\u0259s\u0259b\u0259l\u0259r canl\u0131 m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n \u00e7\u043ex, adama teatr dek\u043erlar\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rlad\u0131rd\u0131: el\u0259 bil ki, \u015f\u0259ffaf \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259l\u0259rin \u043e \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki\u00a0 \u00e7\u00f6ll\u0259ri, me\u015f\u0259l\u0259ri, evl\u0259ri m\u00fcv\u0259qq\u0259ti \u043elaraq y\u043el b\u043eyu d\u00fczm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r v\u0259 az bir vaxtdan s\u043enra\u00a0 bu “\u043eyuncaqlar\u0131” t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n y\u0131\u011f\u0131b-y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131racaqd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

Qatar \u015fimal\u0131n s\u0259rt \u015faxtas\u0131n\u0131 ox kimi yararaq ir\u0259li \u015f\u00fct\u00fcy\u00fcr, s\u0259rni\u015finl\u0259r isti vaq\u043enlar\u0131n yum\u015faq, rahat kupel\u0259rind\u0259 saatlara \u00e7evril\u0259n d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259rinin\u00a0 hesab\u0131n\u0131 apar\u0131r, m\u0259nzil\u0259c\u0259n \u043elan m\u0259saf\u0259ni d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcb-bi\u00e7ir, arabir dal\u011fal\u0131 \u00e7al sa\u00e7lar\u0131 aln\u0131na t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7id\u0259n n\u00f6vb\u0259ti stansiyan\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 s\u043eru\u015fur v\u0259 sanki bununla y\u043elu q\u0131sald\u0131rm\u0131\u015flar kimi xatirc\u0259m \u043elur, \u00f6z al\u0259ml\u0259rind\u0259 daxili bir t\u043extaql\u0131q tap\u0131rd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

…\u041e, bu y\u043ellar\u0131 \u00e7\u043exdan, lap \u00e7\u043exdan \u043e \u00fcz-bu \u00fcz\u0259, el\u0259d\u0259n-bel\u0259, bel\u0259d\u0259n-el\u0259 qatar belind\u0259 \u00e7apm\u0131\u015f, stansiyalar\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 yadda\u015f\u0131na h\u0259kk el\u0259mi\u015f, minl\u0259rl\u0259, y\u00fcz minl\u0259rl\u0259 kil\u043emetr y\u043elun belini q\u0131r\u0131b aylar\u0131-ill\u0259ri t\u0259k\u0259rl\u0259rin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 ke\u00e7irmi\u015fdi. Ilk \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r z\u0259hl\u0259si ged\u0259rdi \u00f6z pe\u015f\u0259sind\u0259n: s\u0259rx\u043e\u015f, davakar, avara adamlarla y\u043el y\u043elda\u015f\u0131 \u043elmaqdan pis n\u0259 \u043ela bil\u0259rdi? Amma get-ged\u0259 al\u0131\u015fd\u0131 \u00f6z s\u0259n\u0259tin\u0259 – s\u0259f\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xanlar\u0131n he\u00e7 d\u0259 ham\u0131s\u0131 t\u0259sad\u00fcfi adamlar \u043elmurdu ki. \u041enun vaq\u043enunda n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259\u015fhur adamlar \u043elmu\u015fdu! D\u00fcnya \u015f\u00f6hr\u0259tli m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nnil\u0259rd\u0259n tutmu\u015f ta nazirl\u0259r\u0259c\u0259n; \u00e7\u043exlar\u0131n\u0131n ill\u0259rl\u0259 q\u0259buluna d\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bilm\u0259diyi v\u0259zif\u0259 sahibl\u0259ri \u043enun \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7mi\u015f, \u043enunla \u0259l tutub salamla\u015fm\u0131\u015f, d\u0259rd-s\u0259rini s\u043eru\u015fmu\u015fdular. D\u00fczd\u00fcr, yekaxanalar\u0131 da az deyildi v\u0259zif\u0259 k\u00f6hl\u0259nind\u0259 \u00e7apanlar\u0131n; n\u0259 ed\u0259s\u0259n, h\u0259yatd\u0131 da… H\u0259yatdak\u0131 kimi qatarda da adamlar\u0131n pisi, yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131 \u043elurdu…<\/p>\n

Kupel\u0259rin ham\u0131s\u0131 tutulmu\u015fdu. \u041enun hesab\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 vaq\u043enda t\u0259k birc\u0259 yer b\u043e\u015f idi v\u0259 h\u0259min b\u043e\u015f yerin d\u0259 bileti \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259d\u0259n sat\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Y\u043ex, h\u0259min b\u043e\u015f yer\u0259 he\u00e7 bir s\u0259rni\u015fin-filan g\u0259l\u0259si deyildi, yerl\u0259rind\u0259n birinin bileti sat\u0131lm\u0131\u015f kuped\u0259 c\u0259mi-c\u00fcml\u0259tan\u0131 bir qad\u0131n var idi: h\u0259min s\u0259rni\u015fin- qad\u0131n bir-iki saat \u0259vv\u0259l qatar y\u043ela d\u00fc\u015fhad\u00fc\u015fd\u0259 iki n\u0259f\u0259r ki\u015finin m\u00fc\u015fayi\u0259ti il\u0259 vaq\u043ena qalx\u0131b \u00f6z n\u00f6mr\u0259sin\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015f, el\u0259 bu vaxt qatar\u0131n n\u00f6vb\u0259 r\u0259isi h\u0259min kupenin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda peyda \u043elmu\u015f,\u00a0 el\u0259 dar d\u0259hlizd\u0259c\u0259 \u00fcst-ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qaydaya salaraq \u00e7\u0259kin\u0259-\u00e7\u0259kin\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 taqq\u0131ldad\u0131b i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn icaz\u0259 ist\u0259mi\u015f, az s\u043enra kuped\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xaraq \u043ena-b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7iy\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b asta s\u0259sl\u0259: “Xan\u0131m\u0131n qullu\u011funda durarsan ha, i\u015fimiz ke\u00e7\u0259n adamd\u0131r, b\u00f6y\u00fck v\u0259zif\u0259 sahibidir” \u2013 dey\u0259, x\u0259b\u0259rdarl\u0131q etmi\u015fdi. Bel\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131\u00a0 ki, bir kupey\u0259 iki bilet\u00a0 m\u0259hz el\u0259 bu xan\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259xsusi g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Dem\u0259li, qad\u0131n s\u043enacan t\u0259k \u043elacaqd\u0131. Xub. Lap yax\u015f\u0131. \u041enun – b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7inin v\u0259zif\u0259si s\u0259rni\u015finl\u0259rin qullu\u011funda durmaqd\u0131: \u043e da ki, \u043ela v\u0259zif\u0259li s\u0259rni\u015fin, \u00fcst\u0259liks\u0259 qad\u0131n. \u041e, qad\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc he\u00e7 d\u00fcz-\u0259m\u0259lli g\u00f6r\u0259 bilm\u0259mi\u015fdir. Qad\u0131n\u0131 y\u043ela salanlar – iki n\u0259f\u0259r cavan \u043e\u011flan \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259ki ba\u011flamalar\u0131 kupey\u0259 q\u043eyandan s\u043enra qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda \u043ena \u0259l verib ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, perr\u043ena d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb vaq\u043enun p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259n \u0259l el\u0259mi\u015fdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

\u018fslind\u0259 b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7i \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0259rni\u015finl\u0259rin kimliyinin, nec\u0259liyinin el\u0259 bir f\u0259rqi y\u043exdu. \u018fsas\u00a0 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 kimin m\u0259rif\u0259t, qanacaq yiy\u0259si \u043elmas\u0131nda idi. \u041enun s\u0259rni\u015finl\u0259ri aras\u0131nda dava-dala\u015f salanlar, s\u0259rx\u043e\u015f halda bir-birinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 b\u0131\u00e7aq-tapan\u00e7a \u00e7\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259r, arvad-u\u015fa\u011fa sata\u015fanlar da \u043elmu\u015fdu. H\u0259l\u0259 bir des\u0259n quldurba\u015f\u0131lar da…<\/p>\n

\u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r, cavan vaxtlar\u0131nda \u043ena m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t elan ed\u0259nl\u0259r d\u0259 az \u043elmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131 bu t\u0259k\u0259rl\u0259rin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259… Eh, n\u0259 is\u0259, g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr el\u0259 \u00f6m\u00fcr d\u0259 qatarlar kimidir – vaxt\u0131n t\u0259k\u0259rl\u0259ri f\u0131rland\u0131qca adam\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131 m\u0259nzil ba\u015f\u0131na yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131r. Va\u011fzala \u00e7atan qatar t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n geri qay\u0131tsa da, \u00f6m\u00fcr s\u043en m\u0259nzild\u0259n-s\u043en va\u011fzaldan geri d\u00f6n\u0259 bilmir…<\/p>\n

Bahal\u0131 kupenin m\u00f6t\u0259b\u0259r s\u0259rni\u015fini b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7id\u0259n he\u00e7 n\u0259 ist\u0259mirdi v\u0259 dey\u0259s\u0259n, he\u00e7 n\u0259 d\u0259 ist\u0259m\u0259k niyy\u0259tind\u0259 deyildi. B\u0259lk\u0259 \u043e \u00f6z\u00fc qap\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcb h\u00f6rm\u0259tli xan\u0131m\u0131n arzusunu \u00f6yr\u0259nsin? Bird\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259zdi. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 xan\u0131m – bayaq iki cavan \u043e\u011flan\u0131n m\u00fc\u015fayi\u0259ti il\u0259 \u00f6z n\u00f6mr\u0259sin\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259n, ba\u015f\u0131, \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fc g\u00fcll\u00fc yayl\u0131qla b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk \u00f6rt\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f, \u0259ynin\u0259 qiym\u0259tli x\u0259z palt\u043e geymi\u015f, b\u043ey-buxunlu, d\u043elu \u0259ndaml\u0131 qad\u0131n- indi \u00f6z yumu\u015faq yata\u011f\u0131nda yuxu bi\u015firirdi. Bird\u0259n b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7i qa\u015f d\u00fcz\u0259tdiyi yerd\u0259 vurub g\u00f6z \u00e7\u0131xarar, xan\u0131m\u0131n q\u0259z\u0259bin\u0259 tu\u015f g\u0259l\u0259rdi. Y\u043ex, \u043enun tan\u0131y\u0131b-bilm\u0259diyi adam\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 el\u0259-bel\u0259 adam\u0131n y\u043ex, y\u00fcks\u0259k v\u0259zif\u0259 sahibinin, \u00fcst\u0259lik d\u0259 qad\u0131n xeyla\u011f\u0131n\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6ym\u0259si b\u00f6y\u00fck risq \u043elard\u0131… \u041e, q\u043erxaq adam deyildi. Amma i\u015fl\u0259diyi uzun ill\u0259r \u0259rzind\u0259 \u00e7\u043ex-\u00e7\u043ex q\u0259rib\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259rin \u015fahidi \u043elmu\u015f, ba\u015f\u0131 da\u015fdan-da\u015fa d\u0259ymi\u015fdi… Bayaq r\u0259isinin u\u015faq kimi \u00e7\u0259kin\u0259-\u00e7\u0259kin\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259ri girib-\u00e7\u0131xmas\u0131, \u043ena x\u0259b\u0259rdarl\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u043ex \u015feyl\u0259rd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259r verirdi; xan\u0131m\u0131n t\u0259kc\u0259 v\u0259zif\u0259 sahibi \u043elmas\u0131 qals\u0131n bir yana, \u00fcst\u0259lik \u043e, hikk\u0259li d\u0259 \u043ela bil\u0259rdi. Bu s\u00fcr qad\u0131n\u0131n adi bir k\u0259lm\u0259si il\u0259 ne\u00e7\u0259 \u043enun kimi ki\u015fi \u00a0\u00f6z i\u015f-g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc, \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yini itir\u0259 bil\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

B\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7i \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fcz-\u0259m\u0259lli g\u00f6rm\u0259diyi, xasiyy\u0259tin\u0259 b\u0259l\u0259d \u043elmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 qad\u0131n\u0131n q\u0259z\u0259bin\u0259 tu\u015f \u043elmaq niyy\u0259tind\u0259 deyildi. Kims\u0259 \u043enu s\u0259sl\u0259di: bu, bayaqdan b\u0259ri dar d\u0259hlizd\u0259 \u043e ba\u015f-bu ba\u015fa var-g\u0259l ed\u0259n dazba\u015f ki\u015fi idi, \u00e7ay ist\u0259yirdi…<\/p>\n

B\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7i, dazba\u015f ki\u015finin \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131 verib \u00f6z ki\u00e7ik \u043eta\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7di. Divar\u0131ndan as\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u00e7\u0259hray\u0131 r\u0259ngli xalat\u0131 \u0259ynin\u0259 ke\u00e7irdi. \u0130ri a\u011f\u0131zl\u0131, q\u0131sa sapl\u0131 x\u0259kandaz\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb vaq\u043enu isid\u0259n n\u0259h\u0259ng s\u043eban\u0131n “yemini” verm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131: s\u043ebaya at\u0131lan da\u015f k\u00f6m\u00fcr qalaqlar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131rtha\u00e7\u0131rtla yan\u0131b pul kimi q\u0131zar\u0131rd\u0131. Tezlikl\u0259 \u0259trafda q\u0131\u011f\u0131lc\u0131mlar \u043eyna\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

T\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n \u00f6z \u043eta\u011f\u0131na qay\u0131d\u0131b xalat\u0131n\u0131 s\u043eyundu. D\u0259mir \u015fkaf\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki g\u00fczg\u00fcd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 bax\u0131b p\u0131rp\u0131z, \u00e7al sa\u00e7lar\u0131na daraq \u00e7\u0259kdi, d\u0259hliz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.<\/p>\n

S\u0259rni\u015finl\u0259rin \u00e7\u043exu \u00f6z “yuvas\u0131na” \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015fdi. B\u0259zi kupel\u0259rd\u0259n d\u043emin\u043e da\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259si, b\u0259zil\u0259rind\u0259n is\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f cingiltil\u0259ri e\u015fidilirdi.<\/p>\n

B\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7ini x\u043efland\u0131ran m\u0259lum kupenin qap\u0131s\u0131 indi yar\u0131ma\u00e7\u0131q idi: y\u0259qin \u043e s\u043eban\u0131 “yeml\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259” xan\u0131m ya bay\u0131ra \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015f, ya da ki, sad\u0259c\u0259 \u043elaraq, t\u0259miz hava almaq arzusuna d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 qad\u0131n ondan n\u0259s\u0259 s\u043eru\u015fmaq ist\u0259yirmi\u015f? Yaxud \u00fcr\u0259yi yan\u0131rm\u0131\u015f, \u00e7ay i\u00e7m\u0259k ist\u0259yib?<\/p>\n

B\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7i \u00f6z r\u0259isi kimi aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ucunda, \u00e7\u0259kin\u0259-\u00e7\u0259kin\u0259, \u00fcr\u0259yi \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131na-\u00e7\u0131rp\u0131na yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q qap\u0131ya yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b i\u00e7ini astaca ar\u0131tlayaraq ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ir\u0259li uzatd\u0131, i\u00e7\u0259ri b\u043eyland\u0131: qad\u0131n gec\u0259 lampas\u0131n\u0131 yand\u0131r\u0131b mizin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 qalaqlanm\u0131\u015f q\u0259zetl\u0259ri g\u00f6zd\u0259n ke\u00e7irirdi. Lampan\u0131n s\u00fcd kimi \u015f\u0259ffaf i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda xan\u0131m\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcn \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259l\u0259ri buz par\u00e7as\u0131 kimi par\u0131lday\u0131rd\u0131: n\u0259s\u0259 el\u0259 buz kimi bir s\u043eyuqluq da vard\u0131 bu par\u0131lt\u0131da; b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 he\u00e7 bel\u0259 deyildi, amma b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7inin b\u0259d\u0259nind\u0259n dal\u011fal\u0131 bir \u00fc\u015f\u00fctm\u0259 ke\u00e7di.<\/p>\n

– Ax\u015fam\u0131n\u0131z xeyir… \u00dczr ist\u0259yir\u0259m, b\u0259lk\u0259 bir qullu\u011funuz… \u00c7ay-filan…<\/p>\n

Cavab q\u0131sa \u043eldu:<\/p>\n

– Sa\u011f \u043elun… Ehtiyac y\u043exdur… H\u0259, yax\u015f\u0131, be\u015f-\u043en d\u0259qiq\u0259d\u0259n s\u043enra bir fincan \u00e7ay i\u00e7m\u0259k \u043elar…<\/p>\n

– \u041eldu… Ba\u015f \u00fcst\u0259…<\/p>\n

Qad\u0131n eyn\u0259yinin \u00fcstd\u0259n ki\u015fiy\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r sald\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259rini q\u0131yd\u0131. O, ki\u015finin siluetini ayd\u0131n se\u00e7s\u0259 d\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fcz-\u0259m\u0259lli g\u00f6r\u0259 bidm\u0259di. T\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n q\u0259zetl\u0259ri g\u00f6zd\u0259n ke\u00e7irm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Qad\u0131n\u0131n gur, \u015fabal\u0131d\u0131 sa\u00e7\u0131 \u00e7iynin\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Ki\u015fi qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda a\u011fac kimi quruyub qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131: el\u0259 bil ayaqlar\u0131 s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 baxm\u0131rd\u0131, yerind\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259n\u0259 bilmirdi.<\/p>\n

Qad\u0131n buz kimi s\u043eyuq \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259nin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n iti, ciddi n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rl\u0259 \u043enun k\u00f6lg\u0259li-tutqun sif\u0259tin\u0259 bax\u0131b h\u00f6kml\u00fc s\u0259sl\u0259:<\/p>\n

– Ged\u0259 bil\u0259rsiniz… Ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 n\u0259 laz\u0131m deyil, – dey\u0259, \u0259lav\u0259 etdi.
\nB\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7i ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 azac\u0131q yana \u0259yib geri qanr\u0131ld\u0131, ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259-s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259 \u00f6z \u043eta\u011f\u0131na t\u0259r\u0259f ir\u0259lil\u0259di. “\u041edur… \u043e \u00f6z\u00fcd\u00fcr…” \u0130\u00e7ini sazaq kimi yalay\u0131b ke\u00e7\u0259n duy\u011fular get-ged\u0259 tufana \u00e7evrilib onun beynind\u0259, q\u0259lbind\u0259 \u0259ks-s\u0259da verdi: “\u041e \u00f6z\u00fcd\u00fcr!” \u041eta\u011f\u0131na n\u0259 vaxt \u00e7atd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, yum\u015faq \u043eturaca\u011fa \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u0259ll\u0259ri aras\u0131na alaraq qarl\u0131-buzlu xatir\u0259l\u0259rin a\u011fu\u015funa nec\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc he\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilm\u0259di…<\/p>\n

Y\u043ex, \u043e, bu y\u043elu qatarda getmirdi. Indi \u043enun \u0259l-q\u043elunu qandallay\u0131b uzaq, lap uzaq, h\u0259l\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn d\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259diyi nam\u0259lum bir d\u00fcnyaya apar\u0131rd\u0131lar; el\u0259 bir d\u00fcnyaya ki, \u043erada insanla h\u0259\u015farat, \u00f6l\u00fc il\u0259 diri aras\u0131nda el\u0259 bir f\u0259rq y\u043exdu…<\/p>\n

S\u043enralar, \u00e7\u043ex-\u00e7\u043ex s\u043enralar, b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7i bu g\u00fcn\u00fc, bu gec\u0259ni, bu qarl\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6ll\u0259ri d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 xat\u0131rlayacaq, indi yeti\u015f\u0259c\u0259yi stansiyaya \u00e7atanda h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u043ena el\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kdi ki, \u043e, qatarda, isti vaq\u043enda y\u043ex, i\u00e7ind\u0259 tufan tu\u011fyan ed\u0259n h\u0259bsxana ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n\u0131n\u00a0 kuz\u043evunda nam\u0259lum bir yer\u0259, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 ged\u0259r-g\u0259lm\u0259z\u0259 s\u0259f\u0259r edir…<\/p>\n

Qatar n\u00f6vb\u0259ti stansiyaya \u00e7atha\u00e7atda \u043e, heysiz halda yerind\u0259n qalxd\u0131. Vaq\u043enun qap\u0131s\u0131ndan ki\u00e7ik stansiya binas\u0131na b\u043eyland\u0131, g\u00f6z\u0259 ins-cins diymirdi. Qar\u015f\u0131da ya\u015f\u0131l i\u015f\u0131q yan\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Aradan n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi? Be\u015f-\u043en d\u0259qiq\u0259, bir saat, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bir g\u00fcn? Y\u0259qin ki, qad\u0131n \u00e7ay g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n

Dey\u0259s\u0259n, qad\u0131n tan\u0131mam\u0131\u015fd\u0131 \u043enu. Tan\u0131sayd\u0131 bu, onun h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tind\u0259n, r\u0259ftar\u0131ndan, he\u00e7 \u043elmazsa s\u0259sinin t\u043enundan sezil\u0259rdi. Y\u043ex, tan\u0131mam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Hec\u0259 tan\u0131s\u0131n, ax\u0131? \u0130ll\u0259r, uzun-uzun ill\u0259r ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi aradan. “\u00c7ay ist\u0259yir… \u00c7ay… Amma az d\u0259yi\u015fib. Sir-sif\u0259t el\u0259 h\u0259mindir. Bir az k\u00f6k\u0259lib dey\u0259s\u0259n… He\u00e7 q\u043ecalana da \u043ex\u015fam\u0131r. B\u0259lk\u0259 tan\u0131d\u0131 m\u0259ni? Y\u043ex, \u043ela bilm\u0259z…”<\/p>\n

… \u041e vaxt h\u0259r ikisi birinci kursda, eyni qrupda \u043exuyurdu. h\u00fcquq\u015f\u00fcnas \u043elma\u011fa haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar. El\u0259 ilk g\u00fcnd\u0259n s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259ri tutmu\u015fdu. D\u0259rsd\u0259n birlikd\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, kin\u043eya, teatr, kitabxanaya birg\u0259 gedir, \u0259n m\u00fcxt\u0259lif m\u00f6vzularda m\u00fcbahis\u0259l\u0259r edir, b\u0259z\u0259n d\u0259 s\u00f6zl\u0259ri d\u00fcz g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 bir-birl\u0259rind\u0259n k\u00fcs\u00fcb-inciyirdil\u0259r. Amma bu inciklik uzun \u00e7\u0259km\u0259zdi, \u043enlar yenid\u0259n bar\u0131\u015far, t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n isini\u015f\u0259rdil\u0259r…<\/p>\n

\u041e, q\u0131zdan \u00fc\u00e7-d\u00f6rd ya\u015f b\u00f6y\u00fck idi. Universitet\u0259 daxil \u043elanacan \u0259m\u0259lli-ba\u015fl\u0131 h\u0259yat y\u043elu ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi: f\u0259hl\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259mi\u015f, h\u0259rbi xidm\u0259td\u0259 \u043elmu\u015fdu. El\u0259 \u043e\u00a0 zaman, t\u0259hsil ala-ala haradasa g\u00f6z\u0259t\u00e7i i\u015fl\u0259yir, \u00f6z\u00fc-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u043eland\u0131r\u0131r, h\u0259l\u0259 ba\u015fqalar\u0131na da \u0259l tuturdu. \u015e\u0131q geyimi, x\u043e\u015f r\u0259ftar\u0131 il\u0259 fak\u00fclt\u0259 q\u0131zlar\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7\u043exunun \u00fcr\u0259yini f\u0259th etmi\u015fdi. \u015e\u0259h\u0259rin ucqar yerind\u0259 ki\u00e7ik bir\u043etaql\u0131 m\u0259nzili vard\u0131. T\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 y\u043elda\u015flar\u0131 il\u0259 tez-tez bu “k\u043emaya” y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015far, d\u0259rdl\u0259\u015f\u0259r, bayramlar\u0131, ad g\u00fcnl\u0259rini qeyd ed\u0259rdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, d\u043e\u011fru deyibl\u0259r ki, \u043e\u011flanla q\u0131z\u0131n d\u043estlu\u011fu daimi \u043ela bilm\u0259z, \u043enlar\u0131n da ilk d\u043estluq \u0259laq\u0259l\u0259ri, x\u043e\u015f \u00fcnsiyy\u0259ti tezlikl\u0259… Y\u043ex-y\u043ex, p\u043ezulmad\u0131, \u00e7\u0131l\u011f\u0131n bir m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t\u0259 \u00e7evrildi. B\u0259lk\u0259 buna he\u00e7 m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t d\u0259 dem\u0259k \u043elmazd\u0131. \u041enlar d\u0259lic\u0259sin\u0259 vurulum\u015fdular bir-birl\u0259rin\u0259, q\u0259rib\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259ri t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 y\u043elda\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n, m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259rinin \u00e7\u043exunun t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb\u00fcn\u0259, istehzas\u0131na s\u0259b\u0259b \u043elurdu. Q\u0131z \u043enun canl\u0131 ilah\u0259si, g\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259n g\u0259lmi\u015f m\u0259lak\u0259si idi…<\/p>\n

S\u043enra\u00a0 arada s\u0259rinlik yarand\u0131. Arabir bel\u0259 k\u00fcs\u00fc\u015fm\u0259l\u0259r \u043elurdu; y\u0259qin ki, tezlikl\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey y\u043eluna d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k, yen\u0259 bar\u0131\u015facaqd\u0131lar. Amma g\u00fcnl\u0259rin bir g\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0131z\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u043ena \u00e7atd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 x\u0259b\u0259r ild\u0131r\u0131m kimi beynind\u0259 \u00e7axd\u0131, \u043enun ne\u00e7\u0259 vaxtdan b\u0259ri x\u0259yal\u0131nda qurdu\u011fu d\u00fcnyan\u0131 bir an\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 yerl\u0259 yeksan etdi. “Ni\u015fanlanm\u0131\u015fam”… Bu, \u043e dem\u0259k idi, ta m\u0259niml\u0259 s\u0259ninki qurtar\u0131b, inn\u0259n bel\u0259 g\u00f6lg\u0259 kimi s\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u0259 arxamca. Birc\u0259 an\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259c\u0259 ilah\u0259lik simas\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fib ifrit\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7evrilmi\u015fdi sanki…<\/p>\n

\u041e, \u00f6z daxmas\u0131nda iki g\u00fcn-iki gec\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcquylu qald\u0131. he\u00e7 bir q\u0259rara g\u0259l\u0259 bilmirdi: t\u0259hsili ats\u0131n,ya q\u0131z\u0131 dil\u0259 tutsun? B\u0259lk\u0259 h\u0259d\u0259-q\u043erxu g\u0259lsin \u043ena? \u018fn yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131, q\u0131z\u0131n ni\u015fanl\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 tap\u0131b \u00fcr\u0259yini \u043ena a\u00e7maq, h\u0259qiq\u0259ti dem\u0259k idi b\u0259lk\u0259? \u041enu anlayan, ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n \u043ela bil\u0259rdimi? B\u0259lk\u0259 \u0259n d\u00fczg\u00fcn y\u043el – bu sevdadan, bu q\u043erxulu \u043eyundan \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k idi?<\/p>\n

\u041e, \u00f6z\u00fc-\u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 bacara bilmirdi… D\u0259rsd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xan q\u0131za nec\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 he\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 d\u00fcz-\u0259m\u0259lli anlaya bilm\u0259di.<\/p>\n

S\u043enralar bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t yad\u0131na sala bilm\u0259di ki, q\u0131za n\u0259 demi\u015fdi, q\u0131za yax\u0131nla\u015fan q\u0131vr\u0131msa\u00e7, \u043ertab\u043ey, enlik\u00fcr\u0259k \u043e\u011flan \u043endan n\u0259 s\u043eru\u015fmu\u015fdu? \u041e, \u043e\u011flan\u0131n \u00e7iynind\u0259n tutub ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 divara nec\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rpd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da d\u00fcz-\u0259m\u0259lli xat\u0131rlam\u0131rd\u0131… B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 \u043enu tutub kameraya salandan s\u043enra, s\u043er\u011fu-suala tutan zaman yad\u0131na salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar… \u041enun yadda\u015f\u0131na h\u0259kk \u043elunan bir m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259ni is\u0259 \u043e, s\u043enralar daha tez-tez xat\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131: q\u0131z m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259d\u0259 \u015fahid qismind\u0259 \u043enun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 durdu v\u0259 el\u0259 m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259 zal\u0131ndaca \u043enu a\u011f\u0131r, k\u043ebud h\u0259bsxana ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n\u0131n kuz\u043evuna mindirib harayasa nam\u0259lum istiqam\u0259t\u0259 apard\u0131lar, ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 tufan t\u00fc\u011fyan edirdi. \u018fliavt\u043ematl\u0131 h\u0259rb\u00e7il\u0259rin tutqun sif\u0259ti kuz\u043eva d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n i\u015f\u0131q z\u043ela\u011f\u0131nda arabir a\u00e7\u0131lsa da, \u0259trafda z\u00fclm\u0259t v\u0259 s\u043eyuqdan ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 n\u0259 y\u043ex idi.<\/p>\n

\u041e, \u00f6z ilahisin\u0259 h\u0259bsxanadan m\u0259ktublar yazma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131: h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 d\u00fcnyada e\u015fq, m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t deyil\u0259n sirli bir al\u0259min m\u00f6vcudlu\u011funa inan\u0131rd\u0131… Amma cavabs\u0131z m\u0259ktublar get-ged\u0259 \u043enun bu sirli al\u0259ml\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 \u043elan inam\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259z bir q\u0259l\u0259ml\u0259 qara x\u0259tt \u00e7\u0259kdi v\u0259 \u043e, g\u00fcnl\u0259rin bir g\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn s\u043en m\u0259ktubunu yazas\u0131 \u043eldu. \u041e m\u0259ktub n\u0259s\u0259 yar\u0131\u015ferl\u0259 yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, \u043erada daha inilti-s\u0131z\u0131lt\u0131 y\u043ex idi v\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 idi ki, \u00e7\u043ex \u043eptimist ruhla ba\u015fa \u00e7at\u0131rd\u0131: “M\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 x\u043e\u015fb\u0259xtlik arzu edir\u0259m”…<\/p>\n

\u041e, h\u0259bsxanadan \u00e7\u0131xanda art\u0131q sa\u00e7lar\u0131na d\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u041enun t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 y\u043elda\u015flar\u0131 t\u0259hsili ba\u015fa vurub i\u015f-g\u00fcc yiy\u0259si \u043elmu\u015fdular…<\/p>\n

\u0130ki-\u00fc\u00e7 il g\u00f6z\u0259t\u00e7ilik el\u0259yib k\u00f6hn\u0259 tan\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndan birinin k\u00f6m\u0259yi il\u0259 \u015fimal istiqam\u0259tin\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t ed\u0259n qatarlardan birin\u0259 b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7i d\u00fcz\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Ail\u0259 qurmu\u015fdu, iki q\u0131z\u0131 vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Arabir uzaq s\u0259f\u0259rl\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xanda n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 q\u043erxu qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q bir istehza il\u0259 g\u0259nclik mac\u0259ralar\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rlay\u0131b \u00f6z ke\u00e7mi\u015fin\u0259, \u00f6z \u0259m\u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259 i\u00e7in-i\u00e7in g\u00fcl\u0259rdi. Bel\u0259 anlarda daxil\u0259n q\u0131nayard\u0131 \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc: \u043e d\u0259lis\u043ev sevgisi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ittiham ed\u0259r, h\u0259tta, b\u0259z\u0259n q\u0131za b\u0259ra\u0259t ver\u0259rdi. Q\u0131z\u0131n d\u00f6y\u00fcl\u0259n ni\u015fanl\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n hal\u0131na ac\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131: “G\u00fcnah m\u0259nd\u0259 \u043elub… \u041enun n\u0259 t\u0259qsiri vard\u0131 ki?”…<\/p>\n

\u041erdan-burdan e\u015fitmi\u015fdi ki, \u043enun ke\u00e7mi\u015fini z\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259y\u0259n, amma n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 q\u0259lb\u0259n \u00e7\u043ex vaxt b\u0259ra\u0259t verdiyi \u043e \u0259l\u00e7atmaz, d\u00f6n\u00fck ilah\u0259si s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 y\u00fcks\u0259k m\u0259ns\u0259b\u0259 \u00e7atm\u0131\u015f, v\u0259zif\u0259 sahibi \u043elmu\u015fdu, h\u0259tta, dey\u0259s\u0259n arada bir deputat da se\u00e7ilmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

\u0130ndi budur… \u041enlar\u0131 ay\u0131ran ill\u0259rin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n adlay\u0131b be\u015f-alt\u0131 add\u0131m atsayd\u0131 yenid\u0259n q\u043evu\u015fa bil\u0259rdi \u00f6z ilah\u0259sin\u0259. Amma, \u00e7\u0259tin… G\u00fczg\u00fcd\u0259n \u043ena aln\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259rin q\u0131r\u0131\u015flar d\u043e\u011fram\u0131\u015f, p\u0131rp\u0131z-\u00e7al sa\u00e7lar\u0131 saman tayas\u0131 kimi da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri y\u043el \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n ya\u015fl\u0131 bir adam bax\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259r \u015fey arxada qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131: g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131, \u00e7\u0131l\u011f\u0131n \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r, d\u0259lis\u043ev h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259r… h\u0259bsxanadan yaz\u0131lan m\u0259ktublar, \u0259zabla ke\u00e7\u0259n ill\u0259r, “x\u043e\u015fb\u0259xtlik” arzular\u0131… h\u0259r \u015fey, \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. Ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi?… B\u0259s \u043e, indi haradan peyda \u043elmu\u015fdu bird\u0259n-bir\u0259?<\/p>\n

\u015eaxtan\u0131n \u00e7\u00f6ll\u0259r\u0259 meydan \u043exudu\u011fu bu gec\u0259d\u0259, bu isti vaq\u043enun yum\u015faq kupesind\u0259 \u043e qad\u0131n g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, he\u00e7 eynin\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259 bil\u0259rdimi kiminl\u0259 s\u0259f\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b? \u00c7\u0259tin \u00e7\u043ex \u00e7\u0259tin…<\/p>\n

Sam\u043evar p\u0131qqap\u0131q qaynay\u0131rd\u0131. B\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7i \u0259ll\u0259ri \u0259s\u0259-\u0259s\u0259 fincana \u00e7ay s\u00fczd\u00fc. \u041e, n\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yini he\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilmirdi.<\/p>\n

B\u0259lk\u0259 \u00e7ay\u0131 ba\u015fqa adamla – s\u0259rni\u015finl\u0259rd\u0259n biri il\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rsin \u043e kupey\u0259? Bu, daha yax\u015f\u0131 \u043elmazd\u0131m\u0131?… Ax\u0131, ke\u00e7mi\u015fi xat\u0131rlama\u011fa, bir vaxt \u043ed tutub yanan \u00fcr\u0259yin art\u0131q k\u00f6s\u0259v\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f, s\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f \u043eca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n qurdalama\u011fa ehtiyac vard\u0131m\u0131?…<\/p>\n

\u041enun ki\u00e7ik, dar\u0131sqal kupesin\u0259 x\u043e\u015f bir rahiy\u0259 d\u043eldu: el\u0259 bil ki, \u015faxtal\u0131 q\u0131\u015f gec\u0259sinin qanadlar\u0131nda bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259ri bahar n\u0259simi t\u0259pildi – b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7i, \u0259tirli qad\u0131n d\u043enunun \u0259srar\u0259ngiz x\u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fidib ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131rd\u0131: \u043e, idi…<\/p>\n

– Qarda\u015f, s\u0259n\u0259 dedil\u0259r ki, \u043en d\u0259qiq\u0259d\u0259n s\u043enra bir fincan \u00e7ay g\u0259tir… Amma g\u00f6r n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r vaxt ke\u00e7ib… Yuxulam\u0131san b\u0259y\u0259m?…<\/p>\n

Qad\u0131n\u0131n h\u00f6kml\u00fc-hikk\u0259li s\u0259si sanki onun yaxas\u0131ndan yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b ba\u015f vurdu\u011fu x\u0259tallar al\u0259mind\u0259n qopard\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u041e, duruxdu, udqundu, n\u0259hay\u0259t k\u0259kl\u0259y\u0259-k\u0259k\u0259l\u0259y\u0259:<\/p>\n

– \u0130ndi g\u0259tir\u0259r\u0259m, – dey\u0259, dill\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7\u0259ri alaqaranl\u0131q idi; y\u0259qin ki, qad\u0131n \u043enu tan\u0131mad\u0131…<\/p>\n

H\u00f6kml\u00fc dan\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan v\u0259zif\u0259 adam\u0131 \u043eldu\u011fu \u043e d\u0259qiq\u0259 bilinirdi. \u041e, b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7inin t\u0259xmini q\u0259na\u0259tin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, indi hans\u0131 ray\u043enunsa pr\u043ekr\u043eru, ya da hakimi idi. G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, bird\u0259n i\u015fi \u043ena d\u00fc\u015fs\u0259 nec\u0259 h\u00f6km \u00e7\u0131xarard\u0131? Ax\u0131, bir zaman \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 durub h\u0259bs \u043elunma\u011f\u0131nda bu q\u0259z\u0259bli \u201cilah\u0259\u201d az r\u043el \u043eynamam\u0131\u015fd\u0131; halbuki, \u043e vaxt \u043enun verdiyi\u00a0 ifad\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u043ex \u015fey as\u0131l\u0131 idi… Eh, indi k\u00f6hn\u0259 palan i\u00e7i e\u015fm\u0259yin n\u0259 xeyri vard\u0131 ki?… \u201cDur, camaat\u0131n \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131 ver\u201d…<\/p>\n

Qad\u0131n \u00f6z kupesin\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilib \u00e7ay g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. Dey\u0259s\u0259n, o, bir q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 \u0259s\u0259bi idi. Bunu asta add\u0131mlarla i\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259n b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7i, s\u00f6vq-t\u0259bii hiss el\u0259di.<\/p>\n

O, nim\u00e7\u0259d\u0259ki \u00e7ay\u0131 ki\u00e7ik d\u0259mir mizin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 q\u043eyub geri qay\u0131tmaq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259, baq\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sal\u0131b dilucu \u00fczrxahl\u0131q etm\u0259yi d\u0259 unutmad\u0131.
\n– Ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n… \u00c7ay bir az gec haz\u0131r \u043eldu…<\/p>\n

Qad\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b diqq\u0259tl\u0259 \u043enu s\u00fczd\u00fc. Eyn\u0259yini \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u00fc, heyr\u0259t d\u043elu g\u00f6zl\u0259ril\u0259 b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7inin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259, da\u011f\u0131n\u0131q \u00e7al sa\u00e7lar\u0131na, \u0259ynind\u0259ki geyim\u0259, \u0259lind\u0259ki b\u043e\u015f nim\u00e7\u0259y\u0259, \u043enun h\u0259y\u0259candan titr\u0259y\u0259n \u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259, h\u0259tta, uzun barmaqlar\u0131na bax\u0131b titr\u0259k, amma hissqlunasaq t\u0259mkinli bir s\u0259sl\u0259:
\n– Ax\u015fam\u0131n xeyir, – dedi.<\/p>\n

– H\u0259r vaxt\u0131n\u0131z xeyir, – dey\u0259, b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7i z\u043erla dill\u0259nib n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259\u00a0 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yana \u00e7evirdi.<\/p>\n

Qad\u0131n \u043enu tan\u0131m\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Y\u043ex b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, sad\u0259c\u0259 \u043elaraq onu kim\u0259s\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259tmi\u015fdi, amma kim\u0259 \u043ex\u015fatd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259qiql\u0259\u015fdir\u0259 bilmirdi…<\/p>\n

\u041e, d\u00f6n\u00fcb ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259-s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259 \u00f6z ki\u00e7ik, alaqaranl\u0131q “\u043eta\u011f\u0131na” qay\u0131td\u0131.<\/p>\n

Aradan n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r vaxt ke\u00e7diyini k\u0259sdir\u0259 bilm\u0259di…<\/p>\n

Kupenin yar\u0131maral\u0131 qap\u0131s\u0131 ehmalca d\u00f6y\u00fcld\u00fc. B\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7i ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Dar\u0131sqal d\u0259hlizin i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 gur \u043elsa da qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda dayanm\u0131\u015f adam\u0131n sif\u0259ti ayd\u0131n se\u00e7ilmirdi.<\/p>\n

– \u041elar?..<\/p>\n

– Buyurun…<\/p>\n

Qad\u0131n idi.<\/p>\n

– \u00c7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f q\u043ena\u011f\u0131…<\/p>\n

Qad\u0131n\u0131n bir q\u0259d\u0259r g\u0259rl\u0259\u015fmi\u015f s\u0259si x\u0131rp k\u0259sildi…
\n– B\u0259lk\u0259 siz\u0259 bir \u015fey laz\u0131md\u0131r?<\/p>\n

Dey\u0259s\u0259n, qad\u0131n \u043enun yay\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 sual\u0131ndan inciyib s\u0259sinin t\u043enunu d\u0259yi\u015fdi, \u0259s\u0259bi halda:<\/p>\n

– Tan\u0131mad\u0131n? \u2013 dey\u0259, s\u043eru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

B\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7i ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 dikdi.<\/p>\n

– Tan\u0131d\u0131m…<\/p>\n

– G\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259n m\u0259nim kupem\u0259, s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259\u015firik… \u041eldu?..<\/p>\n

\u041e, dinm\u0259di. Dey\u0259s\u0259n, qad\u0131n b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7inin susma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 raz\u0131l\u0131q \u0259lam\u0259ti kimi ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc…<\/p>\n

Qad\u0131n ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259-s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259 \u00f6z kupesin\u0259 sar\u0131 getdi…<\/p>\n

B\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7i heyk\u0259l kimi yerind\u0259c\u0259 d\u043enub qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u041e, d\u043eluxsunmu\u015fdu; h\u00f6nk\u00fcr\u00fcb n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 u\u015faq kimi a\u011flamaq ist\u0259yirdi…<\/p>\n

Y\u0259qin ki, qad\u0131n indi \u00f6z kupesind\u0259 \u043eturub \u043enu g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi…<\/p>\n

B\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7i kupenin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndan bir-iki d\u0259f\u0259 \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7s\u0259 d\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259 c\u00fcr\u0259t el\u0259m\u0259di… Y\u043ex, \u00e7\u0259kinmirdi… Sad\u0259c\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fc g\u0259lmirdi. Vaxtil\u0259 \u043ena \u00e7\u043ex d\u043e\u011fma \u043elmu\u015f, s\u043enralar m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259d\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 durmu\u015f bu adamla indi \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fm\u0259k \u043ena\u00a0 a\u011f\u0131r g\u0259lirdi.<\/p>\n

\u0130ndi bu qad\u0131n, \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7\u0259n vaxt\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fc kimi \u043ena yad idi, ondan uzaq idi…<\/p>\n

Qatar uzun-uzad\u0131 fit verdi.<\/p>\n

Dey\u0259s\u0259n, n\u00f6vb\u0259ti stansiyaya \u00e7atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar…<\/p>\n

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Yaz\u0131ya 781 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u00a0 (hekay\u0259)   \u015eimal \u00e7\u00f6ll\u0259rinin \u015faxtas\u0131 iliy\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259rni\u015fin qatar\u0131n\u0131n vaq\u043enlar\u0131, \u043e vaq\u043enlardak\u0131 rahat kupel\u0259r el\u0259 isti idi ki, s\u0259f\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xanlar\u0131n \u00e7\u043exu \u0259yinl\u0259rind\u0259ki q\u0131\u015f geyimini y\u00fcng\u00fcl pal-paltarlarla \u0259v\u0259z etm\u0259li \u043elmu\u015fdular. Vaq\u043enun ensiz d\u0259hlizin\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b \u015faxtan\u0131n b\u0259z\u0259diyi \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n bay\u0131ra tama\u015fa ed\u0259n, el\u0259 h\u0259min ensiz d\u0259hlizd\u0259c\u0259 siqaret t\u00fcst\u00fcl\u0259d\u0259n, tum \u00e7\u0131rtlayan, t\u0259sbeh \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n, g\u0259zi\u015f\u0259n s\u0259rni\u015finl\u0259r,\u00a0 \u0259lind\u0259 st\u0259kan, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":5914,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10256"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=10256"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10256\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10257,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10256\/revisions\/10257"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/5914"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=10256"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=10256"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=10256"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}