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\"delixana\"<\/a>Tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f jurnalist Az\u0259r Qara\u00e7\u0259nli \u015fair \u018flis\u0259mid K\u00fcrd\u0259n bu m\u00fcsahib\u0259ni 1 sayl\u0131 Ma\u015fta\u011fa ruhi-\u0259s\u0259b x\u0259st\u0259xanas\u0131nda g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb. M\u00fcsahib\u0259 \u201cAvropa\u201d q\u0259zetind\u0259 7 fevral 2001-ci ild\u0259 (\u2116 6 (52) d\u0259rc olunub.<\/div>\n
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Moderator.az<\/a>\u00a0maraql\u0131 oldu\u011funu n\u0259z\u0259r\u0259 alaraq m\u00fcsahib\u0259ni yenid\u0259n t\u0259qdim edir. M\u00fcsahib\u0259 internet mediada ilk d\u0259f\u0259dir ki, yay\u0131mlan\u0131r.<\/div>\n
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XTP\u015e. X\u00fcsusi Tipli Psixiatriya \u015e\u00f6b\u0259si. 1 sayl\u0131 Ma\u015fta\u011fa ruhi-\u0259s\u0259b x\u0259st\u0259xanas\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259y\u0259tind\u0259 v\u0259 n\u0259zdind\u0259. H\u0259m x\u0259st\u0259xana, h\u0259m d\u0259 h\u0259bsxanad\u0131. X\u0259st\u0259xanad\u0131 \u043ena g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, burda ruhi-\u0259s\u0259b x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259ri qal\u0131r. H\u0259bsxanad\u0131 \u043ena g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, burda cinay\u0259t t\u00f6r\u0259tmi\u015f x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259r qal\u0131r. S\u00f6z\u00fcn k\u0259s\u0259si, d\u0259lixana h\u0259bsxanas\u0131d\u0131. Bura adamlar\u0131n Bay\u0131l t\u00fcrm\u0259sind\u0259n g\u0259tirildiyini n\u0259z\u0259r\u0259 alsaq, h\u0259bsxana d\u0259lixanas\u0131 da dem\u0259k \u043elar. \u0130kiqat h\u0259bsxana, ikiqat d\u0259lixana da dem\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fc.\u00a0<\/i><\/div>\n
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Birinci burax\u0131l\u0131\u015f m\u0259nt\u0259q\u0259sind\u0259n qeyri-r\u0259smi, ikinci burax\u0131l\u0131\u015f m\u0259nt\u0259q\u0259sind\u0259n r\u0259smi icaz\u0259 al\u0131rsan. X\u0259st\u0259xana h\u0259y\u0259tiyl\u0259 uzun y\u043el gedib, ikim\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li binalar\u0131n d\u0259mir \u015f\u0259b\u0259k\u0259li p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n b\u043eylanan d\u043enuq sif\u0259tl\u0259ri \u00f6t\u00fcb, \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc burax\u0131l\u0131\u015f m\u0259nt\u0259q\u0259sind\u0259 p\u043elis y\u043exlamas\u0131ndan ke\u00e7ib g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f \u043eta\u011f\u0131nda g\u00f6zl\u0259yirs\u0259n. Bir azdan \u018flis\u0259mid K\u00fcr\u00fc g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r.\u00a0<\/i><\/div>\n
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Yax\u015f\u0131 ki,<\/i><\/div>\n
uzaq Tayqa me\u015f\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259\u00a0<\/i><\/div>\n
s\u00fcrg\u00fcnd\u0259 deyil\u0259m.<\/i><\/div>\n
Arxamca \u00e7\u0259tin g\u0259l\u0259rdin,\u00a0<\/i><\/div>\n
arada qar-b\u043eran dayan\u0131r –\u00a0<\/i><\/div>\n
\u0259l \u00e7atmaz, \u00fcn yetm\u0259z.\u00a0<\/i><\/div>\n
N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131\u00a0<\/i><\/div>\n
Bay\u0131l qap\u0131s\u0131ndan ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259<\/i><\/div>\n
pir\u0259 n\u0259zir verirs\u0259n<\/i><\/div>\n
\u00f6z\u00fcn d\u0259 bilm\u0259d\u0259n niy\u0259?..<\/i><\/div>\n
Yax\u0131nl\u0131qda Bay\u0131l t\u00fcrm\u0259si var,<\/i><\/div>\n
\u043erada dusta\u011fam,\u00a0<\/i><\/div>\n
\u0259l uzatsan, \u00e7atar.<\/i><\/div>\n
Yataq yerim bir deyil!<\/i><\/div>\n
H\u0259rd\u0259n d\u0259lixanaya da<\/i><\/div>\n
g\u0259tirirl\u0259r m\u0259ni,<\/i><\/div>\n
S\u0259nin ba\u011f q\u043en\u015fun \u043eluram.<\/i><\/div>\n
\u0130\u015fdi arada yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fs\u0259m,<\/i><\/div>\n
\u0259l uzatsan \u00e7atar…<\/i><\/div>\n
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– Yaz\u0131ram, Az\u0259r. Yax\u015f\u0131yam, s\u0259hh\u0259tim d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131. He\u00e7 \u015feir verm\u0259misiz dey\u0259s\u0259n, \u201cAvr\u043epa\u201dda. Bax, bunlar \u201cD\u0259lixana et\u00fcdl\u0259ri\u201ddi. Bu biril\u0259rini Bay\u0131lda yazm\u0131\u015fam.<\/div>\n
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Siqaret qutusuna, siqaret c\u0131\u011faralar\u0131na, dama-dama d\u0259ft\u0259r v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259rin\u0259 yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u015feirl\u0259ri \u043exuduqca qatlay\u0131b q\u0131ra\u011fa q\u043eyur. Aras\u0131nda \u201cQ\u0259f\u0259s\u0259 sal\u0131nm\u0131\u015f ada(m)\u201d adl\u0131 g\u00fcnd\u0259lik d\u0259 var.<\/i><\/div>\n
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\u201c2000-ci ilin yay aylar\u0131nda etdiyim cinay\u0259t\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 c\u0259miyy\u0259td\u0259n t\u0259crid \u043elundum. Art\u0131q m\u0259n \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259rimi cil\u043evlaya bilmirdim…\u201d G\u00fcnd\u0259lik bel\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131r.<\/b><\/div>\n
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S\u00f6hb\u0259timiz \u015feird\u0259n ba\u015flad\u0131. Dey\u0259s\u0259n, bu, t\u0259kc\u0259 yeni \u015feirl\u0259rini daha bir \u043exucuya, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 k\u00f6hn\u0259 \u043exucusuna \u00e7atd\u0131rmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn deyildi, h\u0259m d\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t\u0259 k\u00f6rp\u00fc salmaq, aradak\u0131 s\u00fckutu p\u043ezmaq, dan\u0131\u015fmaq \u00fcsuluydu.<\/b><\/div>\n
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Lalam – \u00a0dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131ram S\u0259ninl\u0259,\u00a0<\/b><\/div>\n
Karam – e\u015fitmir\u0259m s\u0259sini,<\/b><\/div>\n
K\u043eram – S\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u00fcr\u0259m,\u00a0<\/b><\/div>\n
N\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011fulsan, m\u0259ml\u0259k\u0259tim?!.<\/b><\/div>\n
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– Bilirs\u0259n nec\u0259di? M\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259d\u0259 d\u0259 dedim, el\u0259 bil m\u0259ni c\u0259miyy\u0259td\u0259n ay\u0131rmay\u0131blar, c\u0259miyy\u0259ti m\u0259nd\u0259n ay\u0131r\u0131blar. El\u0259 bil c\u0259miyy\u0259t \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcb v\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259 z\u043er\u0259n, \u00f6z\u00fcm ist\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m \u043endan t\u0259crid \u043elunum. \u018fs\u0259bl\u0259r d\u00f6zm\u00fcr e. Adam n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r…<\/div>\n
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– S\u00fckut \u00e7\u043ex \u043elur burda, \u018flis\u0259mid?<\/b><\/div>\n
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– H\u0259… P\u043ezmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m h\u0259rd\u0259n \u043e s\u00fckutu. \u00d6z\u00fcm p\u043ezuram. T\u0259nha qalmaqdan qa\u00e7\u0131ram. H\u00f6vlnak \u043eluram t\u0259nhal\u0131qdan.<\/div>\n
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Vaxt itib e, Az\u0259r, burda. Vaxt itib. Bird\u0259n vaxt sell\u0259m\u0259 ax\u0131r. \u041ennan s\u00f6hb\u0259t el\u0259yirs\u0259n, bunnan s\u00f6hb\u0259t el\u0259yirs\u0259n, bir d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n ki, vaxt\u0131 unutmusan. Amma \u0259sas\u0259n vaxt \u00f6l\u00fc \u043elur burda. El\u0259 bil zaman dayan\u0131b.<\/div>\n
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– Bu vaxts\u0131zl\u0131q s\u0259nd\u0259 x\u043e\u015fb\u0259xtlik, y\u043exsa b\u0259db\u0259xtlik hissini yarad\u0131r? Zamans\u0131z adam x\u043e\u015fb\u0259xt \u043elur, y\u043exsa?..\u00a0<\/b><\/div>\n
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– Q\u043ey \u043enu \u015feirl\u0259 deyim. Burda bir \u015feirim var, Az\u0259r, \u043evqat\u0131m \u043erdad\u0131.<\/div>\n
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Uzand\u0131\u011f\u0131m yerd\u0259\u00a0<\/i><\/div>\n
\u0259ll\u0259rim ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n altda,\u00a0<\/i><\/div>\n
sin\u0259m qalx\u0131b enir<\/i><\/div>\n
havas\u0131zl\u0131qdan.<\/i><\/div>\n
Saatlarla\u00a0<\/i><\/div>\n
tavanda bir n\u00f6qt\u0259y\u0259\u00a0<\/i><\/div>\n
g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi zill\u0259yib\u00a0<\/i><\/div>\n
sabah\u0131m\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m\u00a0<\/i><\/div>\n
\u0259lacs\u0131zl\u0131qdan.<\/i><\/div>\n
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\u201cZ\u0259lz\u0259l\u0259 \u043elanda hardayd\u0131n, K\u00fcr?\u201d s\u043eru\u015furam.\u00a0<\/i><\/div>\n
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\u201cH\u0259…\u201d G\u00fcl\u00fcr. \u201c\u015eeirim var. \u015eeirim var\u201d deyib, v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259rin birinin qat\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131r.<\/i><\/div>\n
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Kimdi \u043e, hans\u0131 \u015fairdi<\/i><\/div>\n
Z\u0259lz\u0259l\u0259 an\u0131nda da\u00a0<\/i><\/div>\n
t\u00fck\u00fc d\u0259 t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259d\u0259n\u00a0<\/i><\/div>\n
\u043eturub\u00a0<\/i><\/div>\n
\u0259n d\u0259rdli \u015feirini yazd\u0131<\/i><\/div>\n
Bay\u0131l t\u00fcrm\u0259sind\u0259 –\u00a0<\/i><\/div>\n
ba\u011fl\u0131 qap\u0131 dal\u0131nda.<\/i><\/div>\n
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– \u00a0\u0130ki ayd\u0131 da burdayam. Z\u0259lz\u0259l\u0259 \u043elanda Bay\u0131ldayd\u0131m. \u201cD\u0259li\u201d \u015feirini yaz\u0131rd\u0131m. G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131nda divar \u201cqarm\u043e\u015fka\u201d kimi s\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131. \u0130nan\u0131rsan, t\u00fck\u00fcm d\u0259 t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259di! S\u043enralar u\u015faqlar deyirdil\u0259r ki, g\u00f6rd\u00fcz, \u015fair he\u00e7 yerind\u0259n d\u0259b\u0259rm\u0259di. Birc\u0259 balalar\u0131m\u0131 fikirl\u0259\u015fdim. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n baxd\u0131m, g\u00f6rd\u00fcm d\u043eqquzm\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259 bina yerind\u0259di. Bizim bina da d\u043eqquzm\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259di. \u041endan t\u0259s\u0259lli tapd\u0131m ki, dem\u0259li, bir \u015fey \u043elmay\u0131b. S\u0259n\u0259 deyim, \u0259g\u0259r \u043erda bir \u015fey \u043elsayd\u0131, t\u00fcrm\u0259 u\u00e7ub-el\u0259s\u0259ydi, yen\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7mayacaqd\u0131lar. Amma bir \u043eper var (yax\u015f\u0131 ki\u015fiydi, yax\u015f\u0131 adamlar rast g\u0259lib m\u0259n\u0259), s\u0259h\u0259r tezd\u0259n i\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259nd\u0259 dedi, yenid\u0259n d\u043e\u011fulmu\u015fuq. D\u043e\u011frudan da. Allah-tala \u0259c\u0259limizi verm\u0259yibmi\u015f. Ba\u011fl\u0131 qap\u0131n\u0131n dal\u0131nda, qa\u00e7ma\u011fa da yer y\u043ex… \u00d6mr\u00fcn m\u00f6h\u00fcr\u00fc vurulmay\u0131bm\u0131\u015f. \u201cSr\u043ek\u201d g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259r vard\u0131 e… 12 il!<\/div>\n
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\u018flis\u0259mid K\u00fcr\u00fc burda da ham\u0131 \u201c\u015eair\u201d \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r. Bel\u0259 dem\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcns\u0259, bu, \u043enun \u201ckli\u00e7ka\u201ds\u0131d\u0131.\u00a0<\/i><\/div>\n
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\u201c\u015eairi apar\u0131rlar!\u201d. \u201cN\u0259simi\u201d filmind\u0259 bel\u0259 bir yer var. \u201c\u041e yerd\u0259n x\u043e\u015fum g\u0259lib h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259\u201d deyir.\u00a0<\/i><\/div>\n
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– Bir il \u0259vv\u0259lki m\u00fcsahib\u0259md\u0259 demi\u015fdim ki, q\u0259zaya d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259m. \u00dcr\u0259yim\u0259 damm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.\u00a0<\/b><\/div>\n
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– S\u0259nc\u0259, s\u043enrak\u0131 hadis\u0259l\u0259r s\u0259nin h\u0259qiqi \u00f6nc\u0259g\u00f6r\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fcyd\u00fc, y\u043exsa \u043e c\u00fcr \u00fcr\u0259y\u0259dammalar insan\u0131n h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tind\u0259 bir “ustan\u043evka” yarad\u0131r v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn d\u0259 bilm\u0259d\u0259n \u043enun t\u043eruna d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u0259n, ist\u0259r-ist\u0259m\u0259z q\u0259zaya d\u043e\u011fru gedirs\u0259n?<\/div>\n
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– Az\u0259r, \u043e \u043elur, \u043e \u043elur… (Bir az incik) S\u0259n deyirs\u0259n ki, y\u0259ni…<\/div>\n
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– Y\u0259ni m\u0259n deyir\u0259m ki, bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259r insanda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fct\u0259lqin, daxili y\u00f6n\u0259li\u015flik d\u0259 yarada bil\u0259r. \u0130ndid\u0259n ke\u00e7mi\u015f\u0259 baxanda, s\u0259nc\u0259, hadis\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u00fcs\u0259n, y\u043exsa g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn, t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr el\u0259diyin hadis\u0259nin arxas\u0131nca getmis\u0259n?<\/b><\/div>\n
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– Bilirs\u0259n nec\u0259di? Y\u0259qin ki, m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259 \u043elacaq n\u00f6vb\u0259ti d\u0259f\u0259. M\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259d\u0259 ax\u0131rda s\u043eru\u015furlar ax\u0131, s\u0259n \u00f6z g\u00fcnah\u0131n\u0131 b\u043eynuna al\u0131rsanm\u0131? M\u0259n \u043ena haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131ram ki, n\u0259 deyim. \u0130nan\u0131rsan? D\u00fczd\u00fc, yen\u0259 d\u0259 \u043e fikrimd\u0259 qal\u0131ram ki: \u201cBa\u015f\u0131ma min q\u0259za g\u0259lib, min q\u0259zan\u0131n biri m\u0259ni utand\u0131rmaz\u201d. Utand\u0131rmaz. Amma m\u043ementdi d\u0259. Psix\u043ez g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 qaba\u011f\u0131na he\u00e7 bir \u015fey durmur. \u0130ndi b\u00fct\u00fcn c\u0259miyy\u0259t psix\u043ez v\u0259ziyy\u0259tind\u0259di. \u015eiz\u043efreniyan\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7 y\u00fcz\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r n\u00f6v\u00fc var. Ham\u0131da var \u015fiz\u043efreniya. Sad\u0259c\u0259 \u043elaraq m\u0259nim d\u0259liliyim m\u00f6h\u00fcrl\u0259ndi. Halbuki h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ba\u015fqalar\u0131na m\u0259n m\u00f6h\u00fcr vurmu\u015fam.<\/div>\n
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\u041enun haqq\u0131nda yaz\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xan kimi \u043e kameradan bu kameraya g\u00f6nd\u0259rirl\u0259r: \u201c\u015eair haqq\u0131nda \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b\u201d. \u0130ki h\u0259ft\u0259d\u0259n bir yan\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259n \u043e\u011flu Q\u043erqud da bu yax\u0131nlarda g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259 q\u0259zet g\u0259tirib. \u201cD\u0259d\u0259, – deyib, – s\u0259nd\u0259n yaz\u0131blar\u201d. Dal\u0131ycan da: \u201cD\u0259d\u0259, yax\u015f\u0131 yaz\u0131blar e…\u201d\u00a0<\/i><\/div>\n
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– U\u015faqd\u0131, amma hiss el\u0259yir. Ax\u0131 bu hadis\u0259y\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r he\u00e7 vaxt q\u0259zetl\u0259r m\u0259nim bar\u0259md\u0259 pis yazmay\u0131b. Hac\u0131 Az\u0259r \u018fbil\u043evun yaz\u0131s\u0131yd\u0131 Q\u043erqud g\u0259tirdiyi. \u041e yaz\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7\u043ex dayaq \u043eldu. G\u00fcnd\u0259likd\u0259 qeyd el\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m: \u201cAz\u0259r, s\u0259n m\u0259nim haqq\u0131mda yazacaqd\u0131n – \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n s\u043enra. Amma m\u0259n sa\u011fk\u0259n yazd\u0131n\u201d.<\/div>\n
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Kamerada d\u00f6rd n\u0259f\u0259rdil\u0259r. B\u00fct\u00f6vl\u00fckd\u0259 XTP\u015e-d\u0259 100-\u0259 yax\u0131n dustaq – x\u0259st\u0259 yat\u0131r. C\u00fcrb\u0259c\u00fcr hadis\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 tutulan\u0131 var. Adam \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259ni d\u0259 \u00f6z yerind\u0259. Bura h\u0259m h\u0259bsxana, h\u0259m d\u0259 x\u0259st\u0259xana qanunlar\u0131yla idar\u0259 \u043elunur.\u00a0<\/i><\/div>\n
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– Maraql\u0131 h\u0259yatd\u0131. Yax\u015f\u0131 h\u0259zm el\u0259yir\u0259m bu h\u0259yat\u0131. El\u0259 bil m\u0259ni bel\u0259 bir m\u00fchit \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn haz\u0131rlay\u0131bm\u0131\u015flar. Bilirs\u0259n, h\u0259yatda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc nec\u0259 aparm\u0131sansa burda da i\u015fl\u0259rin el\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259k. Burda d\u00fczl\u00fck daha \u00e7\u043ex ke\u00e7ir. Bir az \u015faltay-baltay el\u0259y\u0259n q\u0131rx g\u00fcnd\u0259n art\u0131q ged\u0259 bilmir. Maraql\u0131 h\u0259yatd\u0131. \u0130nsan\u00e7\u00fcn laz\u0131md\u0131 bura.<\/div>\n
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– Bura insana g\u0259r\u0259k \u043elan hans\u0131 hissi, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259ni \u043eyad\u0131r ki, deyirs\u0259n, laz\u0131md\u0131?<\/b><\/div>\n
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– Laz\u0131md\u0131 dey\u0259nd\u0259 ki. N\u043elar, d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcs\u0259ns\u0259, ke\u00e7m\u0259lis\u0259n d\u0259. \u018flis\u0259mid kimi d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcs\u0259ns\u0259, \u018flis\u0259mid kimi d\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xmal\u0131san. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc s\u0131nay\u0131rsan bir n\u00f6v. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xmaq \u043enunla deyil ki, dey\u0259s\u0259n m\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. \u00d6z\u00fcn dem\u0259yinl\u0259 deyil. \u041enu deyirl\u0259r. Burda ba\u015f ver\u0259nl\u0259r gizli qalm\u0131r.<\/div>\n
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\u018flis\u0259midin kameras\u0131 birinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259di. Radi\u043elar\u0131 var. Musiqiy\u0259, x\u0259b\u0259rl\u0259r\u0259 qulaq as\u0131rlar. \u0130kinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259 televiz\u043er da var. \u00c7\u0131x\u0131b baxmaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fc.\u00a0<\/i><\/div>\n
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– Amma televiz\u043era \u00e7\u043ex baxa bilmir\u0259m. \u041e d\u0259f\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. \u041en-\u043en be\u015f n\u0259f\u0259r \u043eturub. \u00c7\u043exseriyal\u0131 kin\u043e gedir. S\u043eru\u015furam, kin\u043enun ad\u0131 n\u0259di? Dedil\u0259r, \u015fair d\u00fcz deyir d\u0259, ham\u0131 kin\u043eya bax\u0131r, he\u00e7 kim ad\u0131n\u0131 bilmir. (G\u00fcl\u00fcr) Ax\u0131racan da bilinm\u0259di kin\u043enun ad\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnki vaxt… Biri g\u0259lib yar\u0131s\u0131ndan bax\u0131r, \u043e birisi yar\u0131da q\u043eyub gedir…<\/div>\n
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\u201cDar\u0131x\u0131ram\u201d deyir. \u201cD\u043est t\u043eyunda \u043eynamaq\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131x\u0131ram. B\u0259rk dar\u0131x\u0131ram\u201d.<\/i><\/div>\n
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– P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nd\u0259n n\u0259 g\u00f6rs\u0259nir, K\u00fcr?<\/b><\/div>\n
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– Ekspertizan\u0131n binas\u0131nda qalanda p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n Nardaran piri g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Burda… P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 bax (g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f \u043eta\u011f\u0131n\u0131n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sini g\u00f6st\u0259rir). Re\u015f\u043etkan\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n d\u0259. Q\u043erqudla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb ayr\u0131landa bilir\u0259m ki, f\u0131rlan\u0131b p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin qaba\u011f\u0131ndan ke\u00e7ir. \u0130st\u0259s\u0259m g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259r\u0259m, ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 \u0259l el\u0259y\u0259r\u0259m \u043ena. Amma el\u0259mir\u0259m. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n baxm\u0131ram \u043ena. Raz\u0131 deyil\u0259m m\u0259ni d\u0259mir barmaql\u0131qlar arxas\u0131nda g\u00f6rs\u00fcn. \u015eax-\u015fux qalmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n yadda\u015f\u0131nda.<\/div>\n
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\u018flis\u0259mid K\u00fcr kin\u043essenari f\u043ermas\u0131nda yeni bir yaz\u0131 ba\u015flay\u0131b. \u201cN\u0259 m\u00f6vzusunda\u201d sual\u0131na n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 bel\u0259 cavab verdi: \u201cAvt\u043ebi\u043eqrafik deyil\u201d. V\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, bu, yaz\u0131n\u0131n avt\u043ebi\u043eqrafikliyin\u0259 i\u015far\u0259di.<\/i><\/div>\n
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– R\u0259ssaml\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da davam el\u0259tdirirs\u0259n?<\/b><\/div>\n
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– Y\u043ex. Burda \u043ena imkan y\u043exdu.<\/div>\n
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Qatlay\u0131b q\u0131ra\u011fa q\u043eydu\u011fu v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259ri \u043e \u00fcz-bu \u00fcz\u0259 \u00e7evirir\u0259m. V\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259rin k\u00fcnc-buca\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 bir-iki balaca q\u0259f\u0259s t\u0259svirini n\u0259z\u0259r\u0259 almasaq, ancaq yaz\u0131lard\u0131.<\/i><\/div>\n
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– Kitab-zad nec\u0259?<\/b><\/div>\n
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– Kitab?.. Ke\u00e7\u0259n il papan\u0131n yubileyind\u0259 verm\u0259dim s\u0259n\u0259?<\/div>\n
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– Y\u043ex, m\u0259n burda \u043exuma\u011fa deyir\u0259m.<\/b><\/div>\n
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– H\u0259, \u043exuma\u011fa var. \u00c7\u043exunu yenid\u0259n \u043exuyuram. D\u043est\u043eyevskini bir daha \u043exudum.<\/div>\n
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– Hans\u0131 \u0259s\u0259rini?<\/b><\/div>\n
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– Dem\u0259k \u043elar, ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131. Evd\u0259n g\u0259tizdirmi\u015fdim. J\u043erj Sand\u0131n xatir\u0259l\u0259r kitab\u0131 vard\u0131, \u043enu da \u043exudum.<\/div>\n
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– D\u043est\u043eyevskini \u043exuyanda s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn b\u0259ra\u0259tini tap\u0131rsan, y\u043exsa itirirs\u0259n?<\/b><\/div>\n
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– \u018fslind\u0259, he\u00e7 k\u0259s \u00f6z h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tin\u0259 b\u0259ra\u0259t qazana bilmir. M\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259 indiy\u0259c\u0259n t\u043eyuq ba\u015f\u0131 k\u0259sm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Q\u043eyun k\u0259sil\u0259nd\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc d\u00f6nd\u0259rir\u0259m bu yana. S\u00f6z \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131blar ki, \u018flis\u0259mid davakard\u0131. Davakarl\u0131q n\u0259y\u0259 deyirs\u0259n? G\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m ki, s\u0259n t\u0259miz \u015f\u0259r-bardaqsan da. S\u0259mimi adamam m\u0259n. D\u0259lilik \u043elmas\u0131n, insanlar\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rini heyvan g\u00f6zl\u0259riyl\u0259 m\u00fcqayis\u0259 el\u0259yir\u0259m. Bu, d\u0259lilik deyil. G\u00f6zd\u0259n m\u0259n h\u0259r \u015feyi \u043exuyan adamam. H\u0259ssasl\u0131q m\u0259nim evimi y\u0131xd\u0131, Az\u0259r. M\u0259nim azadl\u0131\u011f\u0131ma qibt\u0259 el\u0259dil\u0259r. Q\u0259zetd\u0259 yaz\u0131 gedib – m\u0259n tutulandan s\u043enra. Ad \u00e7\u0259kilmir. Amma bilir\u0259m ki, m\u0259nim haqq\u0131mdad\u0131. Yaz\u0131r ki, s\u0259n bel\u0259 el\u0259yirdin, vurub y\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131n, n\u0259 bilim n\u0259…<\/div>\n
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– B\u0259lk\u0259 s\u0259ni n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259 tutmay\u0131blar.\u00a0<\/b><\/div>\n
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– Y\u043ex, m\u0259n c\u00fcml\u0259nin n\u0259bzind\u0259n bilir\u0259m ki, n\u0259di. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 hissiyata qap\u0131l\u0131ram, n\u0259 bilim.<\/div>\n
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– \u0130nsan\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259yi\u015fdirm\u0259si \u00e7\u043ex \u00e7\u0259tindi, \u018flis\u0259mid?<\/div>\n
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– \u00c7\u043ex \u00e7\u0259tindi.<\/div>\n
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– \u00dcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259 m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fc?<\/b><\/div>\n
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– H\u0259r halda, s\u0259bir var. B\u0259z\u0259n \u00f6zl\u00fcy\u00fcmd\u0259 q\u0259rara alm\u0131\u015fam ki, filank\u0259si bel\u0259 el\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m, filank\u0259si el\u0259 el\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m. S\u043enra \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 qay\u0131tm\u0131\u015fam ki, al\u0259, burax Allah-talan\u0131n ixtiyar\u0131na, s\u0259nlik deyil. \u015eeytanla\u015fa bil\u0259r e, adam. \u0130nan\u0131rsan m\u0259n bel\u0259 fikirl\u0259ri b\u0259z\u0259n z\u043erla \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n uzaqla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131ram. Amma t\u0259rbiy\u0259 el\u0259yir\u0259m xarakterimd\u0259 bu x\u00fcsusiyy\u0259ti. \u00c7\u00fcnki s\u0259bir Allah\u0131n bir ad\u0131d\u0131. Bununla bel\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n \u015feyl\u0259r var ki, d\u0259yi\u015fdir\u0259 bilm\u0259zs\u0259n. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, n\u0259yi? Biri aya\u011f\u0131na g\u0259lir, s\u0259nd\u0259n k\u00f6m\u0259k ist\u0259yir. Lap d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nin d\u0259 \u043elsa, s\u0259n \u043e k\u00f6m\u0259yi el\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. \u015e\u0259xs\u0259n m\u0259n bu x\u00fcsusiyy\u0259timi d\u0259yi\u015fdir\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m. \u0130ndi fikirl\u0259\u015fir\u0259m ki, sa\u011f qalsam, \u00e7\u0131xanda b\u0259zi adamlarla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u0259ri azaldacam, b\u0259zil\u0259riyl\u0259 \u043eturub-durmayacam. Amma bilir\u0259m ki, yen\u0259 h\u0259min \u018flis\u0259mid\u0259m. Y\u00fcz faiz bilir\u0259m bunu.<\/div>\n
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XTP\u015e-nin h\u0259y\u0259tind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xanda \u00e7\u00f6n\u00fcb g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f \u043eta\u011f\u0131n\u0131n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sin\u0259 baxd\u0131m. \u018flis\u0259mid y\u043ex idi. \u041enu el\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f ba\u015fa \u00e7atan kimi kameraya aparm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar.\u00a0<\/i><\/div>\n
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\u0130kinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259nin p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259ns\u0259 bir n\u0259f\u0259r gur s\u0259sl\u0259 arxamca \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131: \u201cBrat, bir siqaret tulla da yuxar\u0131. Y\u043exdu? \u041enda bir \u201cm\u0259mm\u0259d\u201d tulla. \u00c7atacaq! S\u0259nin n\u0259yiv\u0259 laz\u0131m, m\u0259n tutacam\u201d…<\/i><\/div>\n

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Tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f jurnalist Az\u0259r Qara\u00e7\u0259nli \u015fair \u018flis\u0259mid K\u00fcrd\u0259n bu m\u00fcsahib\u0259ni 1 sayl\u0131 Ma\u015fta\u011fa ruhi-\u0259s\u0259b x\u0259st\u0259xanas\u0131nda g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb. M\u00fcsahib\u0259 \u201cAvropa\u201d q\u0259zetind\u0259 7 fevral 2001-ci ild\u0259 (\u2116 6 (52) d\u0259rc olunub. Moderator.az\u00a0maraql\u0131 oldu\u011funu n\u0259z\u0259r\u0259 alaraq m\u00fcsahib\u0259ni yenid\u0259n t\u0259qdim edir. M\u00fcsahib\u0259 internet mediada ilk d\u0259f\u0259dir ki, yay\u0131mlan\u0131r. XTP\u015e. X\u00fcsusi Tipli Psixiatriya \u015e\u00f6b\u0259si. 1 sayl\u0131 Ma\u015fta\u011fa ruhi-\u0259s\u0259b x\u0259st\u0259xanas\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259y\u0259tind\u0259 v\u0259 n\u0259zdind\u0259. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1,5,4],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10427"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=10427"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10427\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10429,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10427\/revisions\/10429"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=10427"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=10427"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=10427"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}