{"id":10445,"date":"2016-03-15T14:45:09","date_gmt":"2016-03-15T10:45:09","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=10445"},"modified":"2016-03-15T14:45:09","modified_gmt":"2016-03-15T10:45:09","slug":"mirz%c9%99-ibrahimovun-h%c9%99yat-yoldasi-il%c9%99-m%c9%99ktublasmalari-yazicinin-arxivind%c9%99n","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=10445","title":{"rendered":"Mirz\u0259 \u0130brahimovun h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 m\u0259ktubla\u015fmalar\u0131 – Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n arxivind\u0259n"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"sara\"<\/a><\/p>\n

M\u0259nim \u0259ziz m\u0259l\u0259yim Sara!<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong>Siz platformada g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259z olduqda m\u0259ni q\u0259rib\u0259 bir yaln\u0131zl\u0131q hissi v\u0259 h\u00fczn b\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. H\u0259rgah v\u0259zif\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 borc olmasayd\u0131, tozlu vaqondan yer\u0259 at\u0131laraq s\u0259ninl\u0259 birlikd\u0259 sakit evimiz\u0259 qay\u0131dard\u0131m.
\nUzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda duraraq uzaqlarda q\u0131rp\u0131nan lamp\u0131\u00e7kalara bax\u0131b, x\u0259yala dalm\u0131\u015fam.
\nBir daha bu \u015feyl\u0259r \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 qay\u0131tmayaca\u011fam. Qoy m\u0259nim l\u0259k\u0259l\u0259rim, m\u0259nim vicdan\u0131m\u0131 a\u011fr\u0131ts\u0131n, h\u0259rgah s\u0259ni xo\u015fb\u0259xt ed\u0259 bilm\u0259s\u0259m, bu \u0259zablar\u0131 daha y\u00fcng\u00fcl ke\u00e7ir\u0259r\u0259m….
\nD\u00fcn\u0259n gec\u0259ni \u00e7ox narahat yatm\u0131\u015fam. H\u0259r saatda ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 ay\u0131laraq \u201cbura harad\u0131r?\u201d dey\u0259 konduktorun \u00fcst\u0259 qa\u00e7m\u0131\u015fam. S\u0259h\u0259r Tovuza \u00e7atan kimi R\u0259sula rast g\u0259ldim. Mehmanxanaya getdik. \u0130kimiz \u00e7ox da l\u0259yaq\u0259tli olmayan bir ki\u00e7ik otaqday\u0131q. S\u0259h\u0259r bu m\u0259ktubu ba\u015flad\u0131m. Lakin raykomdan g\u0259ldil\u0259r ki, \u201ckolxozlara ged\u0259k\u201d, ona g\u00f6r\u0259 m\u0259ktub yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q qald\u0131. \u015eaml\u0131q deyil\u0259n da\u011f rayonu kolxozlar\u0131na getdik. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259l, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r s\u0259fal\u0131 yerl\u0259rdir. Saat 12-d\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xan, saat 8-d\u0259 ev\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131q. Raykomda m\u0259kt\u0259blil\u0259r m\u0259niml\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u00fcll\u0259r, \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rl\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdil\u0259r. B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar insan\u0131 o q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259y\u0259cana sal\u0131r ki…
\nEl\u0259 raykomdan da s\u0259n\u0259 teleqram yazd\u0131m. Ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 telefonla dan\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131ma c\u0259hd etdims\u0259, bir \u015fey \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131. H\u0259rgah h\u0259r g\u00fcn s\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259ng ed\u0259 bilm\u0259s\u0259m, m\u0259ni m\u0259hzur tut.
\nBu g\u00fcnki t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcrat\u0131m olduqca m\u00fcx\u0259ff\u0259f (ixtisar edilmi\u015f – t\u0259rtib\u00e7i) v\u0259 z\u0259ngindir. T\u0259bi\u0259tin g\u00f6z\u0259llikl\u0259ri v\u0259 buradak\u0131 adamlar\u0131n saf s\u0259mimiyy\u0259ti m\u0259ni heyran etmi\u015fdir.
\nM\u0259ktub \u00e7ox uzand\u0131, Saracan. Onsuz da hissl\u0259rimi yazmaqla bitm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdir!..
\n…R\u0259sul s\u0259n\u0259 salam g\u00f6nd\u0259rir. M\u0259nd\u0259n anana, \u018fsk\u0259r\u0259 v\u0259 evd\u0259kil\u0259rin ham\u0131s\u0131na salam de. \u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m s\u0259ni, Saracan.
\nS\u0259nin Mirz\u0259n<\/p>\n

Sevimli Saram!<\/strong>
\n\u00a0<\/strong>
\nBu m\u0259ktubu s\u0259n\u0259 raykomdan yola \u00e7\u0131xmaq \u0259r\u0259f\u0259sind\u0259 yaz\u0131ram. D\u00fcn\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc pamb\u0131q kolxozlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259zdik. Ax\u015fam rayonda aqronomlar\u0131n m\u00fc\u015favir\u0259sini ke\u00e7irmi\u015fik. Gec\u0259 saat 12-y\u0259 do\u011fru fiziki v\u0259 sa\u011flam yor\u011funluqla ev\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131b, da\u015f kimi yatm\u0131\u015f\u0131q. Bu g\u00fcn s\u0259h\u0259r s\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259ng ed\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. Rza Nigarla dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Xahi\u015f etdim s\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259ng etsinl\u0259r. V\u0259ziyy\u0259timiz yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. Ax\u015fam sakitlikl\u0259ri zaman\u0131 \u00e7ox dar\u0131x\u0131r v\u0259 s\u0259ni el\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m ki… Yox, yaln\u0131z ax\u015fam sakitlikl\u0259ri deyil, h\u0259r an, h\u0259r d\u0259qiq\u0259 s\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259k arzusu il\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131ram. S\u0259n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 m\u0259nim q\u0259lbimin i\u00e7ind\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rsan, \u0259zizim.
\nBu saat biz Rza il\u0259 da\u011f rayonunun Ki\u015fmi\u015fli adlanan kolxozuna yola \u00e7\u0131xaca\u011f\u0131q. Deyirl\u0259r ki, gec\u0259ni rayona qay\u0131tmaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmayacaqd\u0131r. Oralara yol \u00e7ox uzaqd\u0131r…
\n…Burada g\u0259lib mane olurlar, Saracan. Saracan, bu s\u0259tirl\u0259r b\u00f6y\u00fck s\u0259hran\u0131n balaca bir ni\u015fan\u0259sini s\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131ra bil\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259rmi? G\u0259ldil\u0259r ki, ged\u0259kmi? M\u0259ktubu burada k\u0259sdim. Qalan m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259ri d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn bilirs\u0259n. \u018fsg\u0259r\u0259, mamaya v\u0259 ham\u0131s\u0131na salam.
\n\u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m s\u0259ni, m\u0259nim Saram.<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim \u0259zizim, m\u0259nim m\u0259l\u0259yim Sara!<\/strong>
\n\u00a0<\/strong>
\nS\u0259nd\u0259n ayr\u0131ld\u0131qdan sonrak\u0131 k\u0259d\u0259rin d\u0259rinliyind\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fmayaca\u011fam. Onsuz da m\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259rli \u015feyl\u0259r v\u0259 \u00fcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, k\u0259d\u0259r haqq\u0131nda yazmama\u011fa s\u00f6z vermi\u015f\u0259m. Lakin, k\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131n lab\u00fcd bir \u0259hat\u0259si olaraq qal\u0131rsa, onun haqq\u0131nda susmaq olarm\u0131? \u0130ctimai k\u0259d\u0259rd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131ram, Saracan, \u00e7\u00fcnki bu c\u0259h\u0259td\u0259n ya\u015f\u0131dlar\u0131n v\u0259 m\u00fcasirl\u0259rin xo\u015fniyy\u0259t \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131lanlar\u0131ndanam. M\u0259n el\u0259 bir k\u0259d\u0259rd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131ram ki, o ayr\u0131l\u0131qdan, insan ruhunun \u0259b\u0259di d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259n arzular\u0131ndan dig\u0259r bir arzulara do\u011fru h\u0259ris h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259td\u0259n do\u011fan k\u0259d\u0259rdir. Bu k\u0259d\u0259ri ki\u00e7icik bir \u00fcmid bir sevinc\u0259 \u00e7evirir ki, onun h\u00fcdudu olmay\u0131r.
\nSara, bu g\u00fcn davam g\u0259tir\u0259 bilm\u0259yib S\u0259m\u0259d\u0259 (S\u0259m\u0259d Vur\u011funa – red.) teleqram vurdum. S\u0259h\u0259r telefonu g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb siz\u0259 z\u0259ng etdim. Halbuki, evd\u0259 he\u00e7 k\u0259s olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilirdim. G\u00f6z\u0259l ill\u00fcziyalar bel\u0259, insana \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 t\u0259s\u0259lli ola bil\u0259r. D\u00fcn\u0259n ax\u015fam \u018fsg\u0259rl\u0259 filarmoniyada idik. \u015eostakovi\u00e7in V Simfoniyas\u0131na qulaq asd\u0131q. Bu g\u00fcn ax\u015fam m\u0259n, C\u0259m\u015fid, \u018fsg\u0259r ba\u011fa gedib, yen\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131q. G\u0259lc\u0259k s\u0259nin teleqram\u0131n\u0131 ald\u0131m. O q\u0259d\u0259r \u015fad oldum ki! Ba\u011fdan qovun g\u0259tirmi\u015fik. \u0130ndi onu yedik. \u018fsg\u0259r tar \u00e7al\u0131r. N\u0259 \u00e7alsa yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r? \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, \u201c\u015eik\u0259st\u0259\u201d.
\n\u0130ki g\u00fcnd\u00fcr Bak\u0131n\u0131n istisi son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 artm\u0131\u015fd\u0131r. D\u00fcn\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131nda, ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259rk\u0259n Qulama \u201cb\u0259rk ba\u015f\u0131m a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131r\u201d dedim. Sonra \u201cSaran\u0131n yeri bilinir, Qulam\u201d dedikd\u0259, o \u201cel\u0259 ba\u015f a\u011fr\u0131n\u0131n da s\u0259b\u0259bi odur\u201d dey\u0259r\u0259k cavab verdi.
\nM\u0259nim Saram, do\u011frudan da, sizin yeriniz bilinir. \u018fsg\u0259r d\u0259 dar\u0131x\u0131r. Lakin o daha davaml\u0131d\u0131r, bunu bildirmir. M\u0259n is\u0259… bu c\u0259h\u0259td\u0259n q\u00fcsurluyam. Dem\u0259k olar ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259yat\u0131mda hissl\u0259r m\u0259n\u0259 qalib g\u0259lmi\u015fdir.
\nSaracan, h\u0259l\u0259 \u201cM\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t\u201d \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259 bilmir\u0259m, ba\u015flamam\u0131\u015fam. Lakin, dey\u0259s\u0259n, qan\u0131m qaynamaqdad\u0131r. Yax\u0131nda ba\u015flaya bil\u0259r\u0259m. \u0130\u015fl\u0259r, i\u015fl\u0259r o q\u0259d\u0259rdir ki… Ham\u0131ya salam, Saracan, ham\u0131ya. Ana da, s\u0259n d\u0259 dar\u0131xmay\u0131n. Biz \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc yax\u015f\u0131 hiss edirik. V\u0259 siz\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l istirah\u0259t dil\u0259yirik. Rzaya, Nigara, S\u0259m\u0259d\u0259 salam.
\n\u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m s\u0259ni, m\u0259nim Saram.
\nH\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 s\u0259nin Mirz\u0259n<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim Saram, pak v\u0259 t\u0259miz Saram!<\/strong>
\n\u00a0<\/strong>
\n\u201c\u00dcr\u0259k bir x\u0259zin\u0259dir, o el\u0259 bir x\u0259zin\u0259dir ki, n\u0259 sat\u0131lar, n\u0259 d\u0259 sat\u0131n al\u0131nar. O ancaq havay\u0131 verilir, ba\u011f\u0131\u015flan\u0131r\u201d.
\nFlober<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim m\u0259ktublar\u0131m s\u0259n\u0259 ruhumun ehtiyac\u0131 olaraq yaz\u0131lacaqd\u0131r. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 ara-s\u0131ra s\u0259n\u0259 verdiyim s\u00f6z\u00fc pozmu\u015f olursam incim\u0259, v\u0259fas\u0131zl\u0131q z\u0259nn etm\u0259…
\n…Bu g\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fcm a\u011f\u0131r d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 dolu olmu\u015fdur. \u018fvv\u0259la, sizin Kislovodskid\u0259 pis qar\u015f\u0131land\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 e\u015fitdikd\u0259 \u00e7ox pis oldum. \u0130nsanlar\u0131n ya\u011fl\u0131 dill\u0259ri adam\u0131n z\u0259hl\u0259sini t\u00f6k\u00fcr. Bir az bundan qabaq \u018fv\u0259z b\u00fct\u00fcn v\u0259ziyy\u0259ti m\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259ql etdi. H\u0259tta S\u0259m\u0259d Vur\u011fun – m\u0259nim s\u0259mimiyy\u0259t v\u0259 dostlu\u011funa bu q\u0259d\u0259r inand\u0131\u011f\u0131m S\u0259m\u0259d Vur\u011fun b\u00f6yl\u0259 sizi qar\u015f\u0131lama\u011fa da g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015fdir. H\u0259yat\u0131m boyu m\u0259niml\u0259 b\u00f6yl\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259rin (v\u0259 bundan daha d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli \u015feyl\u0259rin) \u015fahidi oldu\u011fum halda, yen\u0259 d\u0259 u\u015faqcas\u0131na h\u0259qiqi ideal dostlu\u011fa inand\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259n axmaq deyil\u0259mmi? Qoy bel\u0259 olsun. Saf q\u0259lb v\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 x\u0259yal bizi \u00e7ox \u015feyl\u0259rd\u0259n m\u00fcdafi\u0259 edir.
\n…Bu g\u00fcn raykomda da b\u0259rk davam\u0131z olmu\u015fdur. \u0130dar\u0259d\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259yim h\u0259r g\u00fcn qeyri-m\u00fcmk\u00fcn hala g\u0259lir. C\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m\u0259 ged\u0259nl\u0259r kimi, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc zorlay\u0131b ora gedir\u0259m. M\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn m\u0259suliyy\u0259ti duyaraq x\u00fcsusiyy\u0259tini anlay\u0131ram. Lakin ax\u0131 h\u0259r\u0259nin bir \u015fey\u0259 bacar\u0131\u011f\u0131 vard\u0131r. M\u0259n i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn laz\u0131m olan \u00e7ox keyfiyy\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259n m\u0259hrumam. T\u0259bi\u0259t bu c\u0259h\u0259td\u0259n m\u0259ni kas\u0131b yaratm\u0131\u015fd\u0131r. G\u0259r\u0259k laz\u0131m g\u0259ldikd\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u0259ym\u0259yi, min d\u0259n\u0259 \u201clakinl\u0259rd\u0259n\u201d ibar\u0259t c\u00fcml\u0259l\u0259r qurma\u011f\u0131, susma\u011f\u0131, daxild\u0259ki qan at\u0259\u015fini s\u00f6nd\u00fcrm\u0259yi, h\u0259tta, yaltaqlanma\u011f\u0131 bel\u0259 bacarasan. B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar m\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yaban\u00e7\u0131d\u0131r. Bu is\u0259 \u00e7oxlar\u0131n\u0131n xo\u015funa g\u0259lm\u0259yir. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 \u015f\u0259xsi mundirin\u0259 toxundu\u011fum bir adam m\u0259nim \u201ckommunist\u0259 layiq olmayan h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rim\u201d m\u0259zmununda raykomda m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 qoymu\u015fdur. Rus demi\u015fk\u0259n \u201cboq snimi\u201d, qoy n\u0259 bilirl\u0259rs\u0259 el\u0259sinl\u0259r.
\nM\u0259n is\u0259 bizim c\u0259miyy\u0259t, bizim partiyan\u0131n \u0259dal\u0259tlilik v\u0259 bu b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259 inan\u0131ram. Saracan, b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar s\u0259ni az da olsa narahat etm\u0259sin. \u00c7\u00fcnki h\u0259yat m\u00fcbariz\u0259dir…
\n…Bir t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n d\u0259 m\u0259n bel\u0259 adamlara, \u00f6z daxili m\u0259nas\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yalan\u00e7\u0131, quru s\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259 gizl\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan adamlara minn\u0259tdaram. \u00c7\u00fcnki onlar m\u0259ni daha art\u0131q yazma\u011fa, ehtirasla m\u00fcbariz\u0259 etm\u0259y\u0259 vadar edirl\u0259r… Yuxar\u0131da s\u00f6zl\u0259rini yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m Flober g\u00f6r n\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l deyir. \u201cH\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259tl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olay\u0131m. O, xalqlardan, tac v\u0259 \u015fahlardan y\u00fcks\u0259kdir. O \u0259b\u0259didir v\u0259 \u015fahl\u0131q taxt\u0131nda ilhamla y\u00fcks\u0259lir…\u201d
\nSaracan, baqi q\u0259lbim sakitl\u0259\u015fir. Sanki qar\u015f\u0131mda oturub b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 dinl\u0259yirs\u0259n v\u0259 m\u0259n rahat oluram…
\n…Saracan, siz\u0259 neft m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sini burada dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fam. G\u00fcman edir\u0259m ki, orada sizi rahatl\u0131qla t\u0259min etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yax\u0131n g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 ka\u011f\u0131z g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259r\u0259m. M\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, Saracan, sabah s\u0259nin adresin\u0259 min manat pul teleqrafla g\u00f6nd\u0259rir\u0259m. He\u00e7 bir \u015fey\u0259 ehtiyac hiss etm\u0259yin. Bu saat \u018fsg\u0259rl\u0259 C\u0259m\u015fid o biri otaqda n\u0259rd oynay\u0131rlar. Yax\u015f\u0131y\u0131q. \u0130stil\u0259r\u0259 d\u0259 al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f\u0131q. M\u0259n ax\u015famlar\u0131 evd\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olma\u011f\u0131m\u0131 q\u0259rara alm\u0131\u015fam. Anaya, q\u0131zlara salam s\u00f6yl\u0259. Nigara salam. Z\u0259nn edir\u0259m ki, o s\u0259n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 yolda\u015f olar. Ba\u015fqalar\u0131ndan is\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm su i\u00e7mir. A\u011famo\u011flan\u0131n keyfi nec\u0259dir? Ham\u0131s\u0131na salam. M\u0259ktub yaz.
\n\u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m s\u0259ni m\u0259nim \u00fcmidim.
\nS\u0259nin Mirz\u0259n<\/p>\n

H\u0259yatda \u00fcmid v\u0259 p\u0259nah\u0131m<\/strong>
\nM\u0259nim \u0259ziz Saram!<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u201cNi\u00e7in \u0259zilib da\u011f\u0131l\u0131rsan
\ns\u0259n ey insan\u0131n b\u0259d\u0259ni?!..\u201d
\nHamlet<\/p>\n

Bu s\u0259tirl\u0259ri yazark\u0259n bilaixtiyar g\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259n ya\u015f ax\u0131r, Saracan. A\u011flay\u0131ram… Q\u0259lbin d\u0259rin riqq\u0259til\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131ram. M\u0259n \u00f6mr\u00fcmd\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 d\u0259f\u0259 a\u011flam\u0131\u015fam. Anam \u00f6ld\u00fckd\u0259, atam\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 ba\u015fs\u0131z qald\u0131\u011f\u0131m zaman v\u0259 day\u0131m m\u0259ni evind\u0259n qovdu\u011fu g\u00fcn. Budur, indi d\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131ram.
\nQ\u0259lbimd\u0259 el\u0259 bir k\u0259d\u0259r, el\u0259 bir k\u0259d\u0259r var ki, bu k\u0259d\u0259r n\u0259d\u0259ndir, n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnd\u00fcr, bilmir\u0259m.
\n\u0130ndi gec\u0259 saat 12-dir. \u0130ki \u0259qr\u0259b biri-birinin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 durmu\u015fdur. \u0130nsan\u0131n \u00f6mr\u00fc d\u0259 bel\u0259dir. \u018fqr\u0259bl\u0259r i\u015fl\u0259yir v\u0259 birl\u0259\u015firl\u0259r. Saat 12-ni vurur. V\u0259 biz h\u0259yatla vidala\u015faraq, k\u0259rt\u0259nk\u0259l\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 yem oluruq.
\nBu g\u00fcn balkona \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259n h\u0259zin musiqi il\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fc apar\u0131rd\u0131lar, \u00f6rt\u00fckl\u00fc. Qabaqda onun \u015f\u0259kli gedirdi. Onu \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rl\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259mi\u015fdil\u0259r. Tabutun i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259, arxadan onun simas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. \u0130lahi, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tlidir. Bu zaman bir u\u015faq sevincl\u0259 k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259nin bu t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n qa\u00e7araq o biri t\u0259r\u0259fin\u0259 ke\u00e7di. H\u0259m d\u0259 d\u00fcz tabutun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndan ke\u00e7di. Yaz\u0131q… \u0130nsan h\u0259yat\u0131na yaz\u0131q!..
\n\u2026T\u0259klik insan\u0131 daha q\u0259sdli d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 s\u00f6vq edir.
\nSaracan, bu g\u00fcn m\u0259nim m\u00fcavinimin yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 aparm\u0131\u015flar. O, ax\u015fam idar\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. \u00d6l\u00fc kimi idi. O m\u0259n\u0259 bu bar\u0259d\u0259 dem\u0259di. El\u0259 bilir ki, m\u0259n bilm\u0259yir\u0259m. M\u0259n d\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t a\u00e7mad\u0131m. M\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259rk\u0259n onun kabinetin\u0259 baxd\u0131m. Qaranl\u0131q otaqda ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qollar\u0131 aras\u0131na alaraq \u00fcr\u0259k par\u00e7alayan bir v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 oturmu\u015fdu. Q\u0259lbim par\u00e7a-par\u00e7a oldu. Budur m\u0259nim z\u0259ifliyim. H\u0259yat \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, praktik f\u0259aliyy\u0259t \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yaramazl\u0131q v\u0259 b\u0259db\u0259xt\u0259m. Budur, d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nimi bel\u0259 \u0259zilmi\u015f, a\u011flar halda g\u00f6rd\u00fckd\u0259 h\u0259r bir \u015feyi ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131ram. \u00dcr\u0259yim k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259 vurur. Saracan, d\u00fcnyada insan faci\u0259sind\u0259n daha v\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli n\u0259 ola bil\u0259r? Ha\u00e7an insanlar insan kimi ya\u015fayacaqlar, yer \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n x\u0259yan\u0259t, al\u00e7aql\u0131qlar g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcl\u0259c\u0259k, tam s\u0259ad\u0259t, do\u011fruluq, s\u0259daq\u0259t v\u0259 \u0259dal\u0259t hakim olacaqd\u0131r, Saracan?
\nSaracan, bu g\u00fcn i\u015fd\u0259n sonrak\u0131 iki saat \u0259rzind\u0259 q\u0259zetl\u0259r\u0259 baxm\u0131\u015fam. \u201c\u0130nternatsionalnaya literatura\u201d jurnal\u0131nda Volterin m\u0259ktublar\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 b\u0259zi \u015feirl\u0259r oxumu\u015fam. \u0130lahi, biz n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r cahilik. D\u00fcnyadan, b\u00f6y\u00fck b\u0259\u015f\u0259r kulturas\u0131 x\u0259zin\u0259sind\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rsizik. Saracan, qoy m\u0259nim hal\u0131m s\u0259n\u0259 siray\u0259t etm\u0259sin. Deyil\u0259n d\u0259rd y\u00fcng\u00fcll\u0259\u015fir. Haman jurnalda g\u00f6z\u0259l bir \u015fer oxumu\u015fam. \u0130ngilisc\u0259d\u0259n t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259. G\u00f6r n\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259ldir:
\nYesli v bratskoy moqile
\nZaroyut menya qde-nebud
\nLyubvi moyey ne zabud…
\n\u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m s\u0259ni, Saracan.
\nAnaya, q\u0131zlara salam.
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131mla s\u0259nin Mirz\u0259n<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim sevimli Saram!<\/strong>
\n\u00a0<\/strong>
\n\u0130ndi s\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xacaq g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f haqq\u0131nda.
\nDiqq\u0259t yetirir\u0259m. G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f! G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f! Onun n\u0259 oldu\u011funu bilirs\u0259nmi? O olmasayd\u0131, n\u0259 qandak\u0131 bu at\u0259\u015f, n\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259td\u0259ki bu ehtiras, n\u0259 fikird\u0259ki bu parlaql\u0131q, bu k\u0259skinlik olard\u0131. O olmasayd\u0131, biz ham\u0131m\u0131z b\u00f6y\u00fck bir buzluq al\u0259mind\u0259 donub ged\u0259rdik. H\u0259l\u0259 m\u0259n t\u0259bi\u0259tl\u0259ri etibaril\u0259 \u201csoyuq\u201d yarad\u0131lanlardan dan\u0131\u015fmay\u0131ram, vay onlar\u0131n hal\u0131na…
\n…S\u0259nin m\u0259ktublar\u0131n\u0131 kravat\u0131m\u0131n yan\u0131ma qoymu\u015fam. D\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 oxuyuram. Ax\u0131 ay\u0131n 18-d\u0259n m\u0259n i\u015f\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131ram. Malyariya atama od vurub. H\u0259kiml\u0259rin dediyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, \u0259s\u0259b x\u0259st\u0259liyi d\u0259 vard\u0131r. B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar s\u0259ni narahat etm\u0259sin. Kefim \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. Bir iyn\u0259 vurmu\u015flar. H\u0259r g\u00fcn d\u0259rman q\u0259bul edir\u0259m. Sabah\u0131 da evd\u0259 qal\u0131b o birisi g\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xaca\u011fam. H\u0259kiml\u0259rin dediyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 ay yar\u0131m, iki ay m\u0259n\u0259 m\u00fcalic\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131r (\u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259, s\u0259nin yan\u0131nda). Bu g\u00fcn Ordubadi yolda\u015f Ba\u011f\u0131rovun (Mir C\u0259f\u0259r Ba\u011f\u0131rov – red.) yan\u0131na getmi\u015fdi. O, m\u0259nim x\u0259st\u0259liyimi dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131r. Ba\u011f\u0131rov ay yar\u0131m m\u0259n\u0259 m\u0259zuniyy\u0259t verm\u0259l\u0259rini tap\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131r (Bil\u0259s\u0259n ki o n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259ssas adamd\u0131r!) Bel\u0259likl\u0259, sessiyadan sonra ay\u0131n 25-d\u0259 Kislovodskiy\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xaca\u011fam. \u018fn geci avqustun \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259 orada olaram. Ah, s\u0259ninl\u0259 n\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00fcnl\u0259r ke\u00e7ir\u0259c\u0259yiz.
\n…\u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m s\u0259ni, Saracan. Anaya v\u0259 q\u0131zlara salam. Adil\u0259y\u0259 degin\u0259n bizi says\u0131n… a.
\nS\u0259nin, ancaq s\u0259nin Mirz\u0259n<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim Saram!<\/strong>
\n\u00a0<\/strong>
\nD\u00fcn\u0259n s\u0259nin m\u0259ktubunu ald\u0131m. D\u00fcn\u0259n d\u0259 aya\u011fa durmu\u015fam. Sessiyaya getmi\u015fdim. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc xeyli z\u0259if hiss edir\u0259m. Bir \u00e7ox x\u0131rda\u00e7\u0131 adamlar\u0131n \u0259s\u0259bil\u0259\u015fdirici v\u0259 pay\u0131z mil\u00e7\u0259yi kimi z\u0259hl\u0259t\u00f6k\u00fcc\u00fc h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rin\u0259 baxmayaraq \u0259hval\u0131m yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. D\u00fcn\u0259n ax\u015fam sessiya \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn flarmoniyada konsert t\u0259\u015fkil etmi\u015fdik. \u018fsg\u0259rl\u0259 \u00c7\u0259m\u015fid v\u0259 m\u0259n getmi\u015fdik. Sonradan yolda\u015f Ba\u011f\u0131rov g\u0259ldi v\u0259 m\u0259n onlardan ayr\u0131lmal\u0131 oldum. Yolda\u015f Ba\u011f\u0131rov m\u0259n\u0259 \u201ctez ol, m\u00fcalic\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x get\u201d dedi. Bel\u0259likl\u0259, yax\u0131n g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. Konsert saat bir\u0259 yax\u0131n qurtard\u0131. B\u00fct\u00fcn bu m\u00fcdd\u0259t bizi yolda\u015f Ba\u011f\u0131rov buraxmay\u0131r, m\u00fcxt\u0259lif m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259r haqq\u0131nda dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. B\u00fct\u00fcn dan\u0131\u015f\u0131qlardan sonra h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi m\u0259nd\u0259 y\u00fcks\u0259k \u0259hval-ruhiyy\u0259 \u0259m\u0259l\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi v\u0259 m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 deyirdim: Az\u0259rbaycan xalq\u0131 bel\u0259 bir q\u0259hr\u0259man o\u011ful yeti\u015fdirdiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn f\u0259xr ed\u0259 bil\u0259r, onun n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259ssas, k\u0259skin a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131, m\u0259rd v\u0259 q\u0259hr\u0259man adam oldu\u011funu t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr ed\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n, Saracan.
\nKonsertin sonunda m\u0259n papa (Sara xan\u0131m\u0131n atas\u0131 tarz\u0259n Qurban Pirimov – red.) il\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. \u201c\u00c7ox ar\u0131qlam\u0131san\u201d dey\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 m\u00fcraci\u0259t etdi. Bir q\u0259d\u0259r s\u00f6hb\u0259td\u0259n sonra o getdi. Biz \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k yeyib ev\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131q.
\nBu g\u00fcnl\u0259r Bak\u0131, \u00e7ox da isti ke\u00e7m\u0259yir. Buna baxmayaraq indi, \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259, Kislovodski daha yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. D\u00fcn\u0259n ax\u015fam biri m\u0259nd\u0259n soru\u015fur ki, istirah\u0259t \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn doktorlar haran\u0131 m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t g\u00f6r\u00fcrl\u0259r? M\u0259n \u201cKislovodski\u201d dedikd\u0259, o \u201caf\u0259rin doktorlara\u201d dedi. \u201cBu h\u0259m fiziki, h\u0259m d\u0259 ruhi m\u00fcalic\u0259 olar…\u201d Do\u011frudan da, bel\u0259dir, Saram, m\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n kimi yazma\u011fa ba\u015flayaca\u011fam. S\u0259ninl\u0259 \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l vaxt ke\u00e7irm\u0259y\u0259, \u0259yl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 v\u0259 yazma\u011fa vaxt \u00e7atar. H\u0259rgah Kislovodskid\u0259 ba\u015flamasam, sonra \u00e7\u0259tin olar. S\u0259ni o q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m ki, sanki bir ild\u0259n \u00e7oxdur ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f\u0131q. Tezlikl\u0259 m\u0259n isti q\u0259lbimi Saran\u0131n \u201csoyuq\u201d \u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259 ver\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m.
\nAdil\u0259nin otkr\u0131tkas\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 lap l\u0259zz\u0259t verib. Sa\u011f olun. Mamaya, Tamaraya, Adil\u0259y\u0259 salam.
\n\u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m, m\u0259nim Saram.
\nS\u0259nin Mirz\u0259n<\/p>\n

Q\u0259lbim, ruhum, g\u00f6z\u0259l Saram!<\/strong>
\n\u00a0<\/strong>
\nBu g\u00fcn i\u015fd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259r\u0259k yatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. S\u0259nin t\u0259klifl\u0259rini g\u0259tirdil\u0259r. M\u0259nim s\u0259hh\u0259timi soru\u015fursan. Qeydim\u0259 qalma\u011f\u0131n m\u0259ni \u00e7ox \u015fad etdi. Lakin yen\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc s\u00f6y- m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m. M\u0259n ki\u00e7ik bir ba\u015fa\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 boyl\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 yazmaqla g\u00f6r s\u0259ni n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r narahat etmi\u015f\u0259m. G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n ki, m\u0259n n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fclm\u0259mi\u015f h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t edir\u0259m. Teleqram vuraca\u011fam v\u0259 bu m\u0259ktubu yola salaca\u011fam.
\n…\u0130ndi is\u0259 gedir\u0259m. Yax\u0131n g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 Kislovodskiy\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. Camal\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131 sessiyaya qar\u0131\u015f\u0131b. Tezlikl\u0259 h\u0259ll olunar.
\nS\u0259m\u0259dl\u0259 bir az dala\u015fd\u0131q v\u0259 yen\u0259 bar\u0131\u015fd\u0131q. Ax\u0131, o, qeyri-adi v\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck bir talantd\u0131r. H\u0259rgah bizd\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 qabiliyy\u0259t varsa, o, do\u011frudan da talantd\u0131r. O, t\u0259p\u0259d\u0259n – d\u0131rna\u011fa hissdir, duy\u011fudur. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259qiqi s\u0259n\u0259tkard\u0131r. Bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259n onu sevir v\u0259 \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 g\u0259ldikd\u0259 h\u0259r hanki bir ac\u0131\u011f\u0131 ona ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131ram.
\nU\u015faqlara, anaya, Nigara (Nigar R\u0259fib\u0259yli – red.) salam, Saracan. S\u0259ni m\u0259nim ehtiram\u0131mla \u00f6p\u00fcr\u0259m…
\nS\u0259nin Mirz\u0259n<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim Saram!<\/strong>
\n\u00a0<\/strong>
\nNe\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr ki, \u201cbu g\u00fcn yola \u00e7\u0131xaca\u011fam\u201d dey\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 m\u0259ktub yaza bilm\u0259yir\u0259m. H\u0259r g\u00fcn bu v\u0259 dig\u0259r s\u0259b\u0259b \u00e7\u0131xma\u011fa mane olur. \u0130ki d\u0259f\u0259 bilet alm\u0131\u015fam, lakin yenid\u0259n geri qaytarma\u011fa m\u0259cbur olmu\u015fuq. S\u0259m\u0259d d\u0259 ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn bizi g\u00f6zl\u0259di v\u0259 n\u0259hay\u0259t, bu gec\u0259 yola \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r. Saracan, sabah \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259siz biz d\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131q. \u018fsg\u0259r t\u0259mamil\u0259 azad olunmu\u015fdur. M\u0259nim i\u015fim is\u0259 Allaha qal\u0131b.
\nB\u0259rk yor\u011funam. \u00d6l\u00fcmc\u00fcl halda yor\u011funam. Dinc\u0259lm\u0259k, h\u0259m mehn\u0259t, h\u0259m ruh\u0259n dinc\u0259lm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yan\u0131na t\u0259l\u0259sir\u0259m, Saram.
\nTezlikl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259yik.
\nH\u0259nuz ehtiram\u0131mla \u00f6p\u00fcr\u0259m.
\nS\u0259nin Mirz\u0259n<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim \u0259zizim Saram!<\/strong>
\n\u00a0<\/strong>
\n\u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc g\u00fcnd\u00fcr ki, Moskvadayam. B\u00f6y\u00fck s\u0259sli-k\u00fcyl\u00fc Moskvada. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259m geni\u015f v\u0259 iri h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259 dolu olan k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r. Ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n v\u0259 tramvay\u0131n s\u0259sl\u0259rinin k\u0259sildiyi bir an yoxdur. Qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q, m\u00fcxt\u0259lif s\u0259sl\u0259r. Qar\u015f\u0131da Xalq Komissarlar Sovetinin b\u00f6y\u00fck, \u0259z\u0259m\u0259tli binas\u0131 y\u00fcks\u0259lir. H\u00fcnd\u00fcr binan\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 bayraq yell\u0259nir. M\u0259n d\u0259 sessiyadan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 qaba\u011f\u0131nda oturur, q\u0259rib v\u0259 \u00e7ox zaman narahatl\u0131qla dolu anla\u015f\u0131lmaz hissl\u0259rl\u0259 yuxar\u0131dak\u0131 m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 bax\u0131ram. Son g\u00fcnl\u0259r m\u0259nd\u0259 he\u00e7 zaman g\u00f6rm\u0259diyim bir hiss oyanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131r: Bax, bax, sanki bu sa\u0259t bir \u015fey olacaq. Kitab oxuyuram, \u00fcr\u0259yim eyni hissl\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131r. S\u00f6hb\u0259t edir\u0259m yen\u0259. Bir s\u0259tir d\u0259 yaza bilmir\u0259m. Fikrim \u00e7ox da\u011f\u0131n\u0131qd\u0131r, \u00e7ox. T\u0259ht\u0259l\u015f\u00fcur bir \u015fey, bir hiss, h\u0259m d\u0259 qorxuya b\u0259nz\u0259r bir hiss m\u0259ni \u0259b\u0259di iztirab i\u00e7ind\u0259 saxlay\u0131r. H\u0259rd\u0259m \u201chanki zamanda ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn, kim oldu\u011funu d\u0259rk et!\u201d dey\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc danlay\u0131ram. B\u0259z\u0259n h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n bu v\u0259 ya dig\u0259r hadis\u0259 m\u0259ni d\u0259rin, \u00e7ox d\u0259rin h\u0259y\u0259cana sal\u0131r. Lakin heyhat! Bu el\u0259 tez ke\u00e7ir ki… Yen\u0259 bayaqk\u0131 duy\u011fu. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc analiz etm\u0259y\u0259, \u00f6gr\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131ram. Tapd\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu olur ki v\u0259ziyy\u0259tim ziddiyy\u0259tlidir, bu is\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259 qeyri-m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259nlik, h\u0259tta \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 etimads\u0131zl\u0131q t\u00f6r\u0259dir. S\u0259n bil\u0259s\u0259n ki, bu \u00fcz\u0259rim\u0259 qoyulan na\u00e7alnik v\u0259zif\u0259si m\u0259ni nec\u0259 m\u0259hv edir. Bir yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 olaraq m\u0259hv edir. Min c\u00fcr yollar, min c\u00fcr d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 m\u00fcnasib g\u0259l\u0259n v\u0259ziyy\u0259tl\u0259 bar\u0131\u015fma\u011fa can at\u0131ram. He\u00e7 \u015fey \u00e7\u0131xmay\u0131r. M\u0259nim \u00e7ox pis t\u0259bi\u0259tim vard\u0131r. Oyanan bir fikri, do\u011fulan bir \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259ni he\u00e7 bir zaman \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m! Bu m\u0259nim i\u015fd\u0259n qorxma\u011f\u0131mdan deyildir. \u0130raq! Bu ondand\u0131r ki, qar\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131xan h\u0259r h\u0259yat hadis\u0259si, h\u0259r kitab m\u0259nim beynimd\u0259 yeni bir dram\u0131, yeni bir d\u00fcj\u00fcn sujeti do\u011furur. Hissl\u0259r patetik bir \u015f\u0259kil al\u0131r, fikirl\u0259r a\u011facda d\u0259ymi\u015f \u0259rik kimi q\u0131zar\u0131r v\u0259… v\u0259 yazmaq imkan\u0131 vaxt olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan unudulub gedir. Bu m\u0259n\u0259 \u0259zab verir. N\u0259 is\u0259. Bu yazd\u0131qlar\u0131m \u00e7\u0259kdikl\u0259rimin mind\u0259 birisini ifad\u0259 etm\u0259yir. Oxuduqda dilin kas\u0131bl\u0131\u011f\u0131na t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb edir v\u0259 \u201cbu sarsaqlamalar n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u201d dey\u0259 yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131ma da pe\u015fiman oluram.
\nBo\u015f vaxtlar\u0131mda Didronu oxuyuram. Onun fikirl\u0259ri m\u0259nd\u0259 drama haqq\u0131nda yeni anlay\u0131\u015f oyad\u0131r. M\u00fcmk\u00fcn olsa, t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcrat\u0131m\u0131 xatir\u0259 d\u0259ft\u0259rim\u0259 yazaca\u011fam.
\nSessiya, dey\u0259s\u0259n, ay\u0131n 18-d\u0259n tez bitm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdir. \u018fsg\u0259r \u018fli V\u0259liyevi g\u00f6rs\u0259 ona desin b\u0259lk\u0259 putyovkan\u0131n vaxt\u0131n\u0131 20-n\u0259 el\u0259y\u0259 bildi. Olmasa, eybi yoxdur. H\u0259l\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259 icaz\u0259 ver\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r-verm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r bilmir\u0259m. H\u0259r halda g\u0259l\u0259r\u0259m.
\nG\u0259z, m\u0259nim Saram. H\u0259yata \u015firin v\u0259 sevimli n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rl\u0259 bax. Qoy Didro biz\u0259 yolda\u015f olsun. Bu d\u00fcnya \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259ldir, oldu\u011fca g\u00f6z\u0259ldir. M\u0259nim anla\u015f\u0131lmaz k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259rimi is\u0259 g\u0259nc Verterin d\u0259lilikl\u0259ri dey\u0259 q\u0259bul et v\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla.
\nAnaya, \u018fsg\u0259r\u0259 v\u0259 q\u0131zlara salam.
\n\u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m s\u0259ni.
\nS\u0259nin Mirz\u0259n<\/p>\n

\u018fziz Sarac\u0131\u011f\u0131m!<\/strong>
\n\u00a0<\/strong>
\nBu g\u00fcn s\u0259kkiz g\u00fcnd\u00fcr ki, s\u0259n evimizd\u0259 yoxsan. M\u0259n h\u0259r g\u00fcn t\u0259k-t\u0259nha ev\u0259 g\u0259ldiyim zaman sanki suyu qurumu\u015f d\u0259yirmana, \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259ri solmu\u015f, b\u00fclb\u00fcl\u00fc susmu\u015f ba\u011fa girir\u0259m. El\u0259 bir yaln\u0131zl\u0131q, el\u0259 bir t\u0259nhal\u0131q hissi m\u0259ni bo\u011fur ki… \u0130lk g\u00fcnl\u0259ri daha demir\u0259m. \u0130ndi is\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259n m\u0259nd\u0259 el\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259, el\u0259 anla\u015f\u0131lmaz duy\u011fular oyan\u0131r ki, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc unuduram. S\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r i\u015fd\u0259 oluram. \u0130\u015fin a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn bilirs\u0259n. Daha \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259rin yaramaz bir hala g\u0259ldiyini t\u0259krar edir\u0259m. \u018fs\u0259bil\u0259\u015fdirici haldan \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131c\u0131, heyr\u0259tamiz yaramazl\u0131qlar, k\u00fctl\u00fckl\u0259r, al\u00e7aql\u0131qlar h\u0259r g\u00fcn qar\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r (bilmir\u0259m bunu n\u0259 il\u0259 ifad\u0259 edim?). B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlardan sonra ev\u0259 g\u0259lir\u0259m. Qap\u0131lar, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259r ba\u011fl\u0131. B\u0259z\u0259n a\u011flamaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Sakit oturub, el\u0259 bel\u0259c\u0259 sakitan\u0259 anlamaq … yen\u0259? Bilmir\u0259m. S\u0259n is\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr ki, bir teleqram v\u0259 ya m\u0259ktubu da art\u0131q bilirs\u0259n. Olsun. K\u00f6hn\u0259l\u0259r demi\u015fk\u0259n, s\u0259ni \u00f6z \u201cAllah\u0131na\u201d tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131ram. H\u0259r g\u00fcn po\u00e7ta qutular\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7maqdan yoruldum. Bir \u015fey \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131. \u018fsg\u0259r g\u0259l\u0259r, ka\u011f\u0131z g\u0259tir\u0259r dey\u0259 \u00fcmid etdim. O da olmad\u0131 (h\u0259tta \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn olaraq g\u0259lm\u0259sin\u0259 baxmayaraq, bir telefon dan\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan ba\u015fqa indiy\u0259 kimi \u018fsg\u0259rin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.) M\u0259n \u0259ksini g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdim. M\u0259n ged\u0259nd\u0259 el\u0259 ayr\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yazaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdim. M\u0259n el\u0259 bilirdim ki, dostlar\u0131n incikliyi tez ke\u00e7ir v\u0259 unudulur. Bu da m\u0259nim d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fcm kimi \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131.
\nN\u0259 is\u0259, Sarac\u0131\u011f\u0131m, b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 m\u0259n pis bir x\u0259yal kimi unutma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131ram. S\u0259nin is\u0259 \u00e7ox \u0259ntiq\u0259 xasiyy\u0259tin var, \u00e7ox \u0259ntiq\u0259!
\n\u018fsg\u0259rl\u0259 birc\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 telefonla dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fam. Evd\u0259 az olur. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr ki, i\u015fl\u0259yir. Bu g\u00fcnl\u0259r m\u0259nim d\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259rim \u00e7ox qar\u0131\u015f\u0131qd\u0131r. Yoruluram. \u201cM\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t\u201d (M.\u0130brahimovun 1941-ci ild\u0259 tamamlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 pyesin ad\u0131d\u0131r) yerind\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259yir. Bu, \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259 d\u0259rddir.
\nSiz ged\u0259nd\u0259n Bak\u0131da havalar \u00e7ox tez-tez d\u0259yi\u015fir. H\u0259tta b\u0259z\u0259n soyuq da olur. Papa ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 z\u0259ng vurub. Deyir, g\u0259l kabab bi\u015firim. M\u0259n d\u0259 sa\u011f ol dedim.
\nFikrim iyulun sonlar\u0131nda g\u0259lm\u0259kdir. G\u00f6r\u0259k i\u015fl\u0259r n\u0259 \u015f\u0259kil al\u0131r. Mamaya salam de. \u00d6z k\u0259d\u0259rinl\u0259 onu da m\u00fcxt\u0259lif fikirl\u0259r\u0259 salma. Qoy orada kin v\u0259 \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n t\u0259miz v\u0259 pak olsun. D\u00fcnyada \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck s\u0259ad\u0259t v\u0259 ruhun pakl\u0131kdad\u0131r.
\nSa\u011f ol, m\u0259nim Saram, \u00f6p\u00fcr\u0259m s\u0259ni.
\nS\u0259nin Mirz\u0259n<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim Saram!<\/strong>
\n\u00a0<\/strong>
\nD\u00fcn\u0259n telefonla dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qdan sonra bir q\u0259d\u0259r sakit olmu\u015fam. Yoxsa o q\u0259d\u0259r dar\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131m ki… H\u0259r g\u00fcn \u00fc\u00e7-d\u00f6rd d\u0259f\u0259 yuxudan ay\u0131l\u0131ram. M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki. yan\u0131mdasan. Ay\u0131l\u0131b yeri axtar\u0131ram. Sonra uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t yuxuya ged\u0259 bilmir\u0259m.
\nAy\u0131n 2-d\u0259, m\u0259n, \u018fsg\u0259r, B\u00fclb\u00fcl ba\u011fa getmi\u015fdik. Bir az sahild\u0259 g\u0259zib R\u0259sulgil\u0259 (R\u0259sul Rza – red.) getdik. G\u00fcnorta \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yini orada yedik. Nigar d\u00f6n\u0259-d\u00f6n\u0259 soru\u015furdu. G\u0259tir ver, ota\u011f\u0131n bir hiss\u0259sind\u0259 o qalar, bir hiss\u0259sind\u0259 s\u0259n. M\u0259n is\u0259 ayr\u0131ca ba\u011f tutmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m. S\u0259n ki, m\u0259nim xasiyy\u0259timi az-\u00e7ox (t\u0259mamil\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 yox!) bilirs\u0259n:
\nO g\u00fcn ba\u011fdan daha a\u011f\u0131r bir h\u0259sr\u0259t hissi il\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131m. M\u0259nim Pir\u015fa\u011f\u0131da ba\u011f axtarma\u011f\u0131m s\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u00fc g\u0259lir. \u018fntiq\u0259 Sarac\u0131qsan. Pir\u015fa\u011f\u0131da ba\u011f tapmaq daha asand\u0131r. Oran\u0131n havas\u0131 v\u0259 sakitliyi m\u0259n\u0259 daha xo\u015f g\u0259lir. \u00dcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, bunun \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259ti yoxdur. Harada ist\u0259s\u0259n, orada tutar\u0131q. \u0130ndi papaya (Qurban Pirimov – red.) z\u0259ng edib dey\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. Bak\u0131da havalar tez-tez d\u0259yi\u015fir. Ay\u0131n 24-d\u0259n ax\u015fam t\u0259r\u0259fi ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011f\u0131r. H\u0259l\u0259 tamam bir i\u015f olmad\u0131.
\nMamaya salam de. \u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m.
\nS\u0259nin Mirz\u0259n<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim ceyran Sar\u0131\u00e7kam!<\/strong>
\n\u00a0<\/strong>
\nBu g\u00fcn ka\u011f\u0131z yoxlu\u011fundan atkritkalara yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131n m\u0259ktublar\u0131 ald\u0131m. O q\u0259d\u0259r sevindim ki. Sevinm\u0259k he\u00e7 \u00e7ox d\u0259rin rahatl\u0131q duyuram. D\u00fcn\u0259n gec\u0259ni he\u00e7 yata bilm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Lakin daha lunatikl\u0259r\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m, s\u0259rs\u0259m avamlara ox\u015fay\u0131ram. H\u0259r gec\u0259 6-7 d\u0259f\u0259 oyan\u0131ram. D\u00fcn\u0259n x\u00fcsus\u0259n rahats\u0131z yatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Gec\u0259ni \u018fsg\u0259r, m\u0259n v\u0259 \u018fdil bir yerd\u0259 idik. M\u00fcxt\u0259lif s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259r el\u0259mi\u015fik. N\u0259hay\u0259t, biri-birini aldadan \u0259r-arvadlardan dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131q. S\u00f6z yox ki, misallar tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z adamlardan idi… D\u00fcnya q\u0259rib\u0259dir.
\nPis n\u0259f\u0259s, irad\u0259sizlik v\u0259 ruhun poz\u011funlu\u011fu insan\u0131n \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck f\u0259lak\u0259tidir. D\u00fcnyada ruhunu ba\u015fqa birin\u0259 ver\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259n d\u0259 r\u0259zil v\u0259 al\u00e7aq adam ola bil\u0259rmi? \u0130st\u0259r ki\u015fi, ist\u0259r qad\u0131n olsun, m\u0259nc\u0259 birdir.
\nSaracan, h\u0259l\u0259 S\u00fcleymandan bir x\u0259b\u0259r yoxdur. Ay\u0131n 5-d\u0259, xalq yarad\u0131c\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n i\u015ftirak\u0131 il\u0259 d\u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f konserti partiya v\u0259 h\u00f6kum\u0259t r\u0259hb\u0259rl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rilm\u0259si \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, bizi Moskvaya g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259c\u0259k. Yolda\u015f Ba\u011f\u0131rov da orada olacaqd\u0131r. (Saracan, yax\u0131nlarda gen\u0259 yan\u0131nda idim. Ki\u015fi m\u0259ni o q\u0259d\u0259r l\u0259k\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n saxlay\u0131r ki… \u201cHe\u00e7 bir ata \u00f6z o\u011flunu, m\u0259n s\u0259ni ist\u0259y\u0259n q\u0259d\u0259r, ist\u0259m\u0259z. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6zl\u0259. S\u0259ni aldada bil\u0259rl\u0259r\u201d-deyirdi. B\u0259lk\u0259, bundan sonra Kislovodskiy\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259m. Onda sizin g\u0259lm\u0259niz v\u0259 ya qalma\u011f\u0131n\u0131z m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sini h\u0259ll ed\u0259rik. M\u0259nc\u0259, Saracan, pula q\u0131sqanmayaraq iki otaql\u0131 yax\u015f\u0131 bir ev tutsan\u0131z pis olmaz N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ist\u0259yirl\u0259r verin. A\u011f\u0131ll\u0131-ba\u015fl\u0131 v\u0259 \u015f\u0259raitlikl\u0259 dinc\u0259lin. M\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 rahat olaq.
\nS\u0259n d\u0259 h\u0259r g\u00fcn yaz, Sar\u0131\u00e7ka… \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 istirah\u0259t el\u0259. Kitablar oxu. Musiqi il\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful ol. S\u0259nin qutular\u0131n\u0131 tapm\u0131\u015fam. G\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259r\u0259m. Bu sa\u0259t Bak\u0131da b\u0259rk k\u00fcl\u0259kdir. Tozdan g\u00f6z a\u00e7maq olmur. Amma d\u00fcn\u0259n isti adam\u0131 yorurdu. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259 Bak\u0131ya g\u0259lm\u0259nizi, s\u0259ni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259 orada qalman\u0131z\u0131 ist\u0259yir\u0259m. G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n, insan nec\u0259 eqoistdir. Amma m\u0259n yen\u0259 s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn xo\u015f olsun ist\u0259yir\u0259m.
\nMamaya salam de. \u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m s\u0259ni.
\nS\u0259nin Mirz\u0259n<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim \u0259ziz m\u0259l\u0259yim, ceyran Sarac\u0131\u011f\u0131m!<\/strong>
\n\u00a0<\/strong>
\nD\u00fcn\u0259n ax\u015fam g\u0259lib Moskvaya \u00e7atd\u0131m. M\u0259ni \u201cNov\u0131y Moskva\u201d adlanan otel\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rdil\u0259r. Orada bizimkil\u0259rd\u0259n he\u00e7 k\u0259si g\u00f6rm\u0259yib \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m v\u0259 taksiy\u0259 oturub \u201cMoskva\u201dya g\u0259ldim. N\u00f6mr\u0259 yoxdur. Gec\u0259ni \u00dczeyirgild\u0259 (\u00dczeyir Hac\u0131b\u0259yov – red.) qalm\u0131\u015fam. M\u0259lek\u0259 xan\u0131m v\u0259 \u00dczeyir m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7oxlu h\u00f6rm\u0259t edib utand\u0131rd\u0131lar. Bu g\u00fcn n\u00f6mr\u0259 axtarmaqla m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olmu\u015fam. 9-cu m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259nin m\u00fcdiri s\u00f6z verib.
\nBak\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131xar-\u00e7\u0131xmaz yol uzunu \u00e7oxlu fikirl\u0259\u015fib, min c\u00fcr hallar ke\u00e7irdim. N\u0259hay\u0259t, Leninqrada getm\u0259yi q\u0259rara ald\u0131m. Bu g\u00fcn s\u0259h\u0259r s\u0259n\u0259 teleqram vuranda m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259ktub yazd\u0131m. B\u0259lk\u0259, m\u0259nim oraya getm\u0259yim z\u0259ruri olmad\u0131. O zaman getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. M\u0259n bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 il\u0259 s\u0259nin fikrini yormaq ist\u0259m\u0259zdim. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 bunu s\u0259n\u0259 yazanda daxili bir iztirab ke\u00e7irir\u0259m. Ancaq bu son d\u0259f\u0259 olsun. M\u0259n bu b\u00f6y\u00fck g\u00fcnah\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda ancaq birc\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259 t\u0259skinlik tap\u0131ram. B\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259yat\u0131m boyu s\u0259n\u0259 layiq yolda\u015f olma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015faca\u011fam. S\u0259n bilirs\u0259n ki, m\u0259nim ail\u0259y\u0259 bax\u0131\u015f\u0131m x\u00fcsusidir v\u0259 ba\u015fqalar\u0131ndan se\u00e7ilir. Saf, t\u0259miz, h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s ail\u0259, iki \u00fcr\u0259yin \u0259n d\u0259rin v\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131ql\u0131 sevgi \u0259sas\u0131nda birl\u0259\u015fm\u0259sidir. H\u0259r g\u00fcn daha da \u015fidd\u0259tl\u0259n\u0259n, daha da at\u0259\u015fin olan m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tim, q\u0259lbim s\u0259n\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 d\u0259rind\u0259n ba\u011fland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bildirir.
\nSaracan, qoy x\u0131rda, ke\u00e7\u0259ri, yaramaz \u00e7irkablar, g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259 pozulmaz l\u0259k\u0259l\u0259r \u015f\u0259klini almas\u0131n. Biri-birimizi ba\u011f\u0131\u015flama\u011f\u0131 v\u0259 bel\u0259likl\u0259, sevm\u0259yi bacaraq.
\nSevdan\u0131n hal\u0131 m\u0259ni \u00e7ox maraqland\u0131r\u0131r. Daha do\u011frusu, narahat edir. H\u0259r g\u00fcn bir c\u00fcr yuxu g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m. S\u0259n n\u0259 t\u0259h\u0259rs\u0259n ? O biri d\u0259limiz s\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox \u0259ziyy\u0259t vermir ki? S\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 Bak\u0131ya m\u0259ktub yaz. M\u0259n qay\u0131dana q\u0259d\u0259r g\u0259lib s\u0259nin m\u0259ktubunu g\u00f6r\u00fcm. M\u00fctl\u0259q yazma\u011f\u0131 unutma. Yoxsa, Bak\u0131ya g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 s\u0259nd\u0259n bir \u015fey almasam, pis olaram.
\nSevda il\u0259 olan \u015f\u0259klini yan\u0131mda g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m, dar\u0131xanda bax\u0131r v\u0259 balas\u0131 il\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131ram.
\nG\u0259lm\u0259yimd\u0259n qabaq \u018fsg\u0259rl\u0259 Tamara haqq\u0131nda dan\u0131\u015fmaq ist\u0259dim. Lakin imkan olmad\u0131. N\u0259 t\u0259h\u0259rdirl\u0259r?
\nYolda Didronun IV tomunu oxumu\u015fam. X\u00fcsusil\u0259, \u201cJak fatalist v\u0259 onun a\u011fas\u0131\u201d (Bu \u0259s\u0259ri 1973-c\u00fc ild\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 al\u0131b – red.) adl\u0131 roman\u0131 xo\u015fuma g\u0259ldi. \u201cRamonun qarda\u015f\u0131 o\u011flu\u201dnu (Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 bu \u0259s\u0259ri 17 il\u0259 (1762-1779) yazm\u0131\u015fd\u0131r – red.) t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259 el\u0259m\u0259k fikrind\u0259y\u0259m. Pay\u0131zda birlikd\u0259 t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259ni ba\u015flayar\u0131q. Bu il s\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259r v\u0259 yava\u015f-yava\u015f s\u0259rb\u0259stc\u0259sin\u0259 bel\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259r\u0259 ba\u015flaya bil\u0259rs\u0259n. Bu \u0259s\u0259rin t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259si \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u0131m\u0131z \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ox qiym\u0259tli bir z\u0259hm\u0259t olar.
\nM\u0259ktubu \u00e7ox t\u0259l\u0259sik v\u0259 \u0259lveri\u015fsiz bir \u015f\u0259raitd\u0259 yaz\u0131ram. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 c\u00fcml\u0259l\u0259r v\u0259 fikirl\u0259r qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q, anla\u015f\u0131lmaz \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r. S\u0259n\u0259 yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n anla\u015f\u0131laca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilir v\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lli tap\u0131ram.
\n\u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m s\u0259ni, m\u0259nim Saram. Sevdan\u0131 m\u0259nim a\u011fz\u0131mla \u00f6p…
\nMamaya v\u0259 u\u015faqlara salam.
\nS\u0259nin Mirz\u0259n<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim \u0259ziz Saram!<\/strong>
\n\u00a0<\/strong>
\nMoskvaya g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n bir s\u0259tirlik d\u0259 \u015fey almam\u0131\u015fam. X\u00fcsusil\u0259, Sevdan\u0131n v\u0259 sizin son v\u0259ziyy\u0259tiniz m\u0259ni narahat edir. D\u00fcn\u0259n teleqram vurmu\u015fam, (ikinci d\u0259f\u0259) yen\u0259 cavab yoxdur. O biri gec\u0259 s\u0259ni v\u0259 Sevdan\u0131 yuxuda g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m. Sevda tan\u0131nmayacaq d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259 z\u0259ifl\u0259mi\u015fdi. Son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 narahatam. S\u0259n is\u0259 he\u00e7 bir \u015fey yazmama\u011f\u0131 q\u0259rara alm\u0131san. V\u0259 do\u011frusu, m\u0259n bunu y\u00fcz c\u00fcr izah edir\u0259m. N\u0259hay\u0259t, \u00f6z\u00fcm \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn t\u0259s\u0259lli verib bir n\u0259tic\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lir\u0259m ki, y\u0259qin ba\u015f\u0131soyuqluqdan yazmay\u0131rsan.
\nN\u0259 etm\u0259li? \u0130nsan\u0131n taleyi bel\u0259dir. B\u00f6y\u00fckd\u0259n tutmu\u015f ki\u00e7iy\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yer \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 ill\u00fcziyas\u0131z, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc aldatmadan ya\u015fayan bir adam yoxdur. Ancaq d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259si var. B\u0259zil\u0259ri t\u0259mamil\u0259 yalana qur\u015fan\u0131b ya\u015fay\u0131r v\u0259 onu \u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 t\u0259bi\u0259t edirl\u0259r. B\u0259zil\u0259ri \u00f6zl\u0259rini aldad\u0131r v\u0259 bunu ancaq m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n t\u0259s\u0259lli v\u0259 ya z\u00f6vq al\u0131ncaya q\u0259d\u0259r davam etdirirl\u0259r. \u00dcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, bunsuz insan\u0131n istirah\u0259tini, ruhi sakitlikliyini t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr etm\u0259k \u00e7\u0259tindir. Fikr\u0259t yax\u015f\u0131 deyib ki,
\nAzm\u0131 bir \u015f\u0259fad\u0131r aldanmaq da…
\nSaracan, gec\u0259 telefonla \u018fsg\u0259rl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Bir q\u0259d\u0259r rahat oldum. Odur ki, guya s\u0259n tap\u015f\u0131rm\u0131san ki, teleqram vursun. O da \u00f6z\u00fcn bilirs\u0259n ki, h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t el\u0259y\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r il g\u0259lib t\u0259hvil olur. N\u0259 is\u0259, Sarac\u0131\u011f\u0131m, h\u0259r gah dar\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131n zamanlar olursa, m\u0259ni d\u0259 xatirin\u0259 sal v\u0259 yaz.
\nSessiya yax\u015f\u0131 gedir. Bel\u0259 ki, tarixi hadis\u0259l\u0259rdir. D\u00fcn\u0259n Moldov respublikas\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259\u015fkili haqq\u0131ndak\u0131 qanunu q\u0259bul etdik. Bu g\u00fcn Litvan\u0131n v\u0259 ya Latviyan\u0131n m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sin\u0259 baxaca\u011f\u0131q. M\u0259nim \u00fcr\u0259yim b\u00f6y\u00fck s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcr: tezlikl\u0259 C\u0259nubi Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n n\u00fcmay\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259rini Kremlin i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 saray\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. Tezlikl\u0259 \u015e\u0259rq xalqlar\u0131 da \u00f6z azadl\u0131qlar\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn buraya g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r. Tezlikl\u0259 firdovsil\u0259rin, x\u0259yyamlar\u0131n, fikr\u0259tl\u0259rin (T\u00fcrk \u015fairi Tofiq Fikr\u0259t (1867-1915) – red.) v\u0259t\u0259nl\u0259ri d\u0259 azad olacaqd\u0131r.
\nH\u0259l\u0259 sessiyadan \u00e7\u0131xanda, Saracan, bu fikirl\u0259r m\u0259nim ba\u015f\u0131mda qaynay\u0131r, b\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131ma hakim olur. M\u0259n bu x\u0259yallar\u0131m\u0131 sevimli bir u\u015faq kimi b\u0259sl\u0259yir. \u0259zizl\u0259yir\u0259m.
\nSaracan, Moskvada havalar olduqca s\u0259rindir. Bel\u0259 ki, penc\u0259kl\u0259 az qal\u0131r ki, \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u0259k. D\u00fcn\u0259n K\u0259nd T\u0259s\u0259rr\u00fcfat s\u0259rgisin\u0259 getmi\u015fik (\u00dczeyirgil il\u0259). H\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fi g\u0259zir\u0259m, s\u0259n yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u0259n. Yan\u0131mda olma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Moskvan\u0131n el\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l vaxt\u0131d\u0131r. N\u00f6mr\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lir\u0259m. S\u0259nin oturub m\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259diyin zamanlar yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Eybi yoxdur, sa\u011fl\u0131q olsa yen\u0259 bir yerd\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259rik. \u0130nsan ke\u00e7irdiyi d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259rin \u015firinliyini h\u0259sr\u0259t zamanlar\u0131nda ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, m\u0259nim Saram.
\nD\u00fcn\u0259n ax\u015fam v\u0259 bu g\u00fcn s\u0259h\u0259r yolda\u015f Ba\u011f\u0131rov m\u0259ni \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. M\u00fcxt\u0259lif m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259r haqq\u0131nda dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131. B\u0259zi g\u00f6st\u0259ri\u015fl\u0259r verdi. Sessiya qurtaran kimi Bak\u0131ya g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. \u0130lkin istirah\u0259t g\u00fcn\u00fc \u00c7uxuryurdda olaram. H\u0259rgah bir ehtiyac\u0131n varsa, yaz, g\u0259tir\u0259r\u0259m.
\n\u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m s\u0259ni \u00e7oxlu-\u00e7oxlu.
\nS\u0259nin Mirz\u0259n.<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim ceyran Sarac\u0131\u011f\u0131m!<\/strong>
\n\u00a0<\/strong>
\n\u0130ki g\u00fcnd\u00fcr ki, Bak\u0131da partiya aktivinin iclas\u0131 olur. Bu g\u00fcn iclasdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b yava\u015f-yava\u015f Kommunist k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259si il\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 en\u0259rk\u0259n qeyri-ixtiyari olaraq ke\u00e7\u0259n g\u00fcnl\u0259r g\u00f6z \u00f6n\u00fcmd\u0259 canland\u0131. O g\u00fcnl\u0259r ki, haman bu k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 duraraq siz g\u00f6zd\u0259n itib ged\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259sr\u0259tli bax\u0131\u015flarla ard\u0131n\u0131zca baxard\u0131m. Budur, ilk tan\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fumuz g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259n birisind\u0259 sizi tramvay yolundan ke\u00e7\u0259rk\u0259n \u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259k ist\u0259rk\u0259n Valid\u0259nin qarda\u015fil\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fumuz v\u0259 bizim geri qay\u0131td\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z yer burad\u0131r. Budur \u201cTorqov\u0131\u201d k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259si sakit bir gec\u0259d\u0259 sizd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rsiz halda ged\u0259r\u0259k dal\u0131n\u0131zca baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131m d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259r. B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar, Saracan, romantik bir x\u0259yal kimi g\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259 canlan\u0131r, n\u0259 is\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 bir arzu \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259 ba\u015f qald\u0131r\u0131r. K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259ni doldurmu\u015f adamlar x\u0259yal\u0131mda qeyb olurk\u0259n \u201cz\u00fcmz\u00fcm\u0259\u201d el\u0259y\u0259-el\u0259y\u0259 evimiz\u0259 do\u011fru g\u0259lir\u0259m. Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n xan\u0131m b\u00fclb\u00fcl\u00fc Nat\u0259van\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259ri yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr:
\nS\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r dedim r\u0259hm q\u0131l m\u0259n\u0259 getm\u0259
\nG\u0259l indi g\u00f6r ki, f\u0259raq\u0131n sal\u0131b n\u0259 hal\u0259 m\u0259ni !
\nN\u0259 vaxtad\u0259k q\u0259m-hicrind\u0259 ahu-zar \u00e7\u0259kim ?
\nT\u0259r\u0259hh\u00fcm il\u0259 g\u0259tir s\u0259n d\u0259 bir x\u0259yal\u0259 m\u0259ni,
\n(son misraya yax\u015f\u0131 bax, Saracan!)
\nSaracan, bu saat i\u015fl\u0259r yaman a\u011f\u0131rla\u015f\u0131b. M\u0259suliyy\u0259t art\u0131bd\u0131r. M\u0259n sabah oraya yola \u00e7\u0131xmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Sabah da M\u0259rk\u0259zi Komit\u0259nin plenumu a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r. B\u0259lk\u0259 ay\u0131n 15-d\u0259 qurtard\u0131. Lap gec\u0259 saat 2-d\u0259 olsa, \u00e7\u0131xaca\u011f\u0131q. Qurtarmasa, bilmir\u0259m n\u0259 t\u0259h\u0259r olacaq. M\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m, ya yox, bilmir\u0259m. Ancaq, h\u0259r halda, \u018fsg\u0259r g\u0259l\u0259r. \u0130\u015fl\u0259r v\u0259 hadis\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 yaz\u0131m. Hal\u0131m k\u00f6\u00e7d\u0259n uzaq d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n, yolunu itirib t\u0259k qalan bir adam\u0131n hal\u0131 kimidir. M\u0259n k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 do\u011fru can atd\u0131qca yol m\u0259ni daha da uzaqlara apar\u0131r. \u00d6mr\u00fcml\u0259, h\u0259yat\u0131mla ba\u011fl\u0131 oldu\u011fum k\u00f6\u00e7d\u0259n, \u0259d\u0259biyyat karvan\u0131ndan h\u0259r g\u00fcn bir az aral\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m.
\nN\u0259 olacaq? Bilmir\u0259m. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r qaba\u011fa bax\u0131ramsa, xo\u015f bir t\u0259sad\u00fcf\u0259 \u00fcmid ba\u011flamaqdan ba\u015fqa yol g\u00f6rm\u00fcr\u0259m. H\u0259yat is\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck bir d\u0259yirman da\u015f\u0131 kimi h\u0259rl\u0259nir. Ona qar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xan, qaba\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7\u0259n n\u0259 varsa, \u0259zib da\u011f\u0131d\u0131r. B\u00f6y\u00fck bir d\u0259yirman da\u015f\u0131 kimi, Saracan! Yaratmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn is\u0259 t\u0259bi\u0259tin \u00f6z\u00fc bel\u0259 sakitliy\u0259 m\u00f6htacd\u0131r.
\nBu gurultu v\u0259 hay-k\u00fcy i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 yazmaq, yaratmaq m\u0259hal i\u015fdir. Ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcrat\u0131 bel\u0259 d\u0259rk etm\u0259y\u0259 macal tapm\u0131rsan.
\nN\u0259 is\u0259, Saracan, h\u0259rd\u0259n bir m\u0259ni yad\u0131na sal. Yaz g\u00f6r\u00fcm do\u011frudan da yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259mmi? Bu s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir \u015fey olmasa da, m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn b\u00f6y\u00fck m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259dir. Yaz.
\nM\u0259ktubumu oxuyanda h\u0259r halda \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 z\u0259if d\u0259 olsa, xo\u015f bir hiss oyanarsa, Sevdan\u0131 \u00f6p v\u0259 m\u0259ni yad\u0131na sal.
\n\u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m s\u0259ni.
\nS\u0259nin Mirz\u0259n<\/p>\n

H\u00f6rm\u0259tli Saracan!<\/strong>
\n\u00a0<\/strong>
\nBu g\u00fcn s\u0259h\u0259r T\u0259briz\u0259 g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131q. \u018fvv\u0259l \u018fsg\u0259rl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck. Sa\u011f-salamatd\u0131r. Kefi yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc biz va\u011fzalda qald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zdan h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bir yerd\u0259 olmu\u015fuq. \u0130ndi g\u00fcn batm\u0131\u015f v\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ay \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. M\u0259n \u018fsg\u0259rgilin idar\u0259sind\u0259 oturub bu m\u0259ktubu s\u0259n\u0259 yaz\u0131ram. Gec\u0259ni d\u0259 el\u0259 va\u011fzalda, vaqonumuzda yataca\u011f\u0131q. Sabahdan \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 gedib q\u0259zet\u0259nin i\u015fl\u0259ril\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olaca\u011f\u0131q. Saracan, b\u00fct\u00fcn fikir v\u0259 x\u0259yal\u0131m sizin yan\u0131n\u0131zdad\u0131r. Siz fikir-flan el\u0259m\u0259yin. H\u0259r i\u015f yax\u015f\u0131 bit\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259 yen\u0259 bir yerd\u0259 s\u0259ad\u0259tli g\u00fcnl\u0259r ke\u00e7ir\u0259c\u0259yiz. Ayd\u0131n v\u0259 Sevdadan mu\u011fayat ol. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 bax. Maman\u0131 dar\u0131xma\u011fa qoyma.
\nH\u0259rgah bu m\u0259ktub papagil oradan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131nca s\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7atsa, m\u0259nim g\u00f6z d\u0259rmanlar\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259yi unutma. Reseptl\u0259r yad\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, evd\u0259 qal\u0131bd\u0131r. Birini \u201cKommunist\u201d k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259sind\u0259ki \u201cm\u0259\u015fhur\u201d aptekd\u0259, o birini bizim le\u00e7komissiyan\u0131n aptekin\u0259 vermi\u015f\u0259m. Bir d\u0259 ki, \u018fsg\u0259rin tar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259yi yad\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xarma.
\n\u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m s\u0259ni \u0259zizim. \u201cEvimin taxt\u0131, k\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fcn baxt\u0131\u201d \u0259ziz arvad\u0131m v\u0259 sevimli dostum.
\nHam\u0131ya salam. \u0130.Mirz\u0259
\nH\u0259l\u0259lik, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 s\u0259nin \u0130.M<\/p>\n

\u018fziz Saracan!<\/strong>
\n\u00a0<\/strong>
\nAy\u0131n 6-s\u0131nda sa\u011f-salamat v\u0259 he\u00e7 bir \u0259ziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259km\u0259d\u0259n g\u0259lib Tehrana \u00e7atd\u0131q. Bizi aerodromda \u00e7ox t\u0259nt\u0259n\u0259 il\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131lar. Ayaq yal\u0131n, \u00e7\u0131r-\u00e7\u0131lpaq, l\u00fct, yoxsul qarda\u015flar bizim g\u0259li\u015fimizd\u0259n \u00e7ox \u015fadlan\u0131r v\u0259 sevinirl\u0259r.
\nSovet \u0130ttifaq\u0131na onlar\u0131n m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259ti, do\u011frudan da s\u00f6zs\u00fcz s\u0259mimidir. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc a\u011f\u0131r h\u0259yat v\u0259 ehtiyacdan qurtulu\u015f v\u0259 \u00fcmidi bizim m\u0259ml\u0259k\u0259td\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrl\u0259r.
\nTehran \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l \u015f\u0259h\u0259rdir. H\u00fcnd\u00fcr a\u011faclar\u0131 \u00e7oxdur. Asfaltl\u0131 k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259ri var. Eyni zamanda \u00e7irkli, u\u00e7uq v\u0259 tozlu evl\u0259r v\u0259 k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259 olduqca \u00e7oxdur. \u00dcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, ziddiyy\u0259tl\u0259rl\u0259 dolu bir \u015f\u0259h\u0259r…T\u0259f\u0259rr\u00fcat\u0131 uzundur.
\nSaracan !
\nMama nec\u0259dir? Ondan \u00e7ox nigaranam. S\u0259n nec\u0259s\u0259n, t\u0259k n\u0259 c\u00fcr ba\u015f \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131rsan? U\u015faqlar y\u0259qin s\u0259ni \u00e7ox incidir.
\nBu m\u0259ktub s\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7atsa, bacarsan \u018fh\u0259d vasit\u0259sil\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 cavab yaz. M\u0259nd\u0259n t\u0259mamil\u0259 arxay\u0131n olun. H\u0259l\u0259lik Tehranday\u0131q. Sonra ba\u015fqa \u015f\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259yik. Sol\u0131\u00e7ka yen\u0259d\u0259mi \u00e7ox a\u011flay\u0131r? U\u015faqlar\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 m\u0259nim t\u0259r\u0259fimd\u0259n m\u00f6hk\u0259mc\u0259 \u00f6p. Ayd\u0131na \u00e7ox ac\u0131qlanmay\u0131n, onlara de ki, a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 olsunlar.
\nHam\u0131ya salam.
\n\u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m. S\u0259nin Mirz\u0259n
\nSaracan!
\nPapaya, mamaya v\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131na m\u0259nd\u0259n x\u00fcsusi salam dey\u0259rs\u0259n…
\nM\u0259nd\u0259n he\u00e7 narahat olmay\u0131n. Sizd\u0259n ba\u015fqa bir fikrim yoxdur.
\nSaracan, s\u0259ni v\u0259 balalar\u0131 \u00e7oxlu-\u00e7oxlu \u00f6p\u00fcr\u0259m.
\nSizin Mirz\u0259<\/p>\n

Saracan!<\/strong><\/p>\n

\nM\u0259ktubunu ald\u0131m. U\u015faqlar\u0131n \u015f\u0259klini g\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259kd\u0259 lap yax\u015f\u0131 i\u015f g\u00f6rm\u00fcs\u0259n. Sev\u0131\u00e7ka k\u00f6p\u0259kq\u0131z\u0131 niy\u0259 el\u0259 qa\u015f-qaba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sallay\u0131b. Ayd\u0131n balas\u0131 da lap a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 olub. \u0130kisi olan \u015f\u0259kli yaz\u0131 stolumun qaba\u011f\u0131na, Ayd\u0131n\u0131n \u015f\u0259klini kravat\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcst\u0259 asm\u0131\u015fam. H\u0259r g\u00f6r\u0259n \u201cqiyam\u0259t q\u0131zd\u0131r\u201d deyir. M\u0259nd\u0259 deyir\u0259m ki, h\u0259l\u0259 ondan qiyam\u0259ti d\u0259 var…(amma \u00f6z aram\u0131zd\u0131r Sev\u0131\u00e7kaya he\u00e7 \u00e7atmaz…) Sol\u0131\u00e7ka b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcrm\u00fc, k\u00f6k\u0259lirmi? Yen\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n gedir ya yox?
\nSaracan, burada soyuqlar ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131r. H\u0259tta iki g\u00fcn b\u0259rk kul\u0259k \u0259sib qar-ya\u011f\u0131\u015f da ya\u011fd\u0131. \u0130ndi bir balaca m\u00fcla- yimdir. Ota\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda pe\u00e7 yand\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan yerimiz isti olur. Bilmir\u0259m Bak\u0131da siz nec\u0259siniz ? Evimizd\u0259 pe\u00e7l\u0259r yan\u0131rm\u0131? G\u00f6zl\u0259, u\u015faqlar\u0131 soyu\u011fa verm\u0259.
\nEldar b\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259n salam de. Anas\u0131na da, atas\u0131na da. De ki, tez b\u00f6y\u00fcs\u00fcn. Yek\u0259 o\u011flan olsun. Burada i\u015fl\u0259r getdikc\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131\u015f\u0131r v\u0259 m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259bl\u0259\u015fir. Ancaq xarici radiolar\u0131n dedikl\u0259ri 90% yalan v\u0259 uydurmad\u0131r. Qulaq asmay\u0131n.
\nB\u0259lk\u0259, bu yax\u0131nlarda bir Bak\u0131ya g\u0259ldim. Onda g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259rik. \u201cNakam m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t\u201d yaz\u0131lmaqdad\u0131r. Onun \u00e7ap olunmu\u015f hiss\u0259l\u0259rini s\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rir\u0259m. S\u0259n d\u0259 vaxt tap\u0131b i\u015fl\u0259. M\u0259n bel\u0259 q\u0259na\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m vaxt\u0131 tutub saxlamayanda o \u00e7ox b\u0259rk qa\u00e7\u0131r v\u0259 he\u00e7 bir az da buraxm\u0131r. Odur ki, heka- y\u0259 d\u0259 olsa yaz\u0131ram. Piano \u00e7alanda h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 m\u0259ni yad\u0131na sal. Bil ki, h\u0259r g\u00fcn saat 11-d\u0259n sonra (gec\u0259) m\u0259nd\u0259 burada t\u0259k oturub yaz\u0131r v\u0259 \u00e7al\u011f\u0131na qulaq as\u0131ram. Mamaya, papaya, Adil\u0259y\u0259, Tamaraya, \u018fsg\u0259r\u0259, Nimtaca, Balaki\u015fiy\u0259 salam de.
\nU\u015faqlar\u0131 \u00f6p.
\nS\u0259nin Mirz\u0259n<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim \u0259ziz Saram!<\/strong>
\n\u00a0<\/strong>
\nSa\u011f-salamat g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 teleqramla x\u0259b\u0259r vermi\u015f\u0259m. \u0130ndi nec\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 v\u0259 v\u0259ziyy\u0259timi m\u00fcf\u0259ss\u0259l olaraq bildirir\u0259m.
\n1947-ci ild\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m sanatoriyada oluram. O zaman bu sanatoriya balaca h\u0259y\u0259t-bax\u00e7adan, iki balaca evd\u0259n ibar\u0259t idi. \u0130ndi sanatoriya \u00e7ox b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcr. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n uzun v\u0259 \u00e7ox z\u0259ngin kurjuva p\u0259rd\u0259l\u0259r as\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, h\u0259m adi reproduktor, h\u0259m d\u0259 radio cihaz\u0131 var. Yorulanda g\u00f6z\u0259l konsertl\u0259r\u0259 qulaq as\u0131ram. Azca \u0259vv\u0259l Var\u015favadan \u015eopenin \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259rini verirdil\u0259r. B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar s\u0259ni yad\u0131ma sal\u0131r. Deyir\u0259m \u00e7atmayan birc\u0259 m\u0259nim Saramd\u0131r. \u0130n\u015fallah, g\u0259l\u0259n d\u0259f\u0259 daha m\u0259zuniyy\u0259timi el\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m ki, (yayda) sizinl\u0259 bir yerd\u0259 istirah\u0259t ed\u0259 bilim.
\nM\u00fcalic\u0259 v\u0259 i\u015fim haqq\u0131nda: d\u00fcn\u0259n h\u0259kim baxd\u0131. Bu g\u00fcn s\u0259h\u0259r m\u0259d\u0259 \u015fir\u0259sini v\u0259 qan g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. Analiz ed\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r. Sabahdan pal\u00e7\u0131q vannalar\u0131na ba\u015flay\u0131ram. 4 v\u0259 17 n\u00f6mr\u0259li Yessentuki i\u00e7ir\u0259m. Narzan vannalar\u0131n\u0131 saxlay\u0131ram Kislovodskiy\u0259. G\u0259l\u0259n g\u00fcnd\u0259n \u201cMayak\u201d stolumun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259dir. Yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m hiss\u0259l\u0259ri bir d\u0259 oxuyur v\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m. Yava\u015f-yava\u015f fikrim, x\u0259yal\u0131m, hissiyat\u0131m sujetin i\u00e7in\u0259 daxil olur. Q\u0259hr\u0259manlar\u0131m m\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131rlar. M\u0259n onlar\u0131n \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259, n\u0259f\u0259sl\u0259rini duyma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131ram.
\nBel\u0259 gets\u0259, bir be\u015f-alt\u0131 g\u00fcn sonra zor yazma\u011fa giri\u015f\u0259r\u0259m…
\n…Balas\u0131, u\u015faqlar bar\u0259d\u0259 son s\u00f6zl\u0259rimi yad\u0131na sal: onlar\u0131n u\u015faql\u0131qdan, t\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259sizlikd\u0259n, bilm\u0259zlikd\u0259n do\u011fan h\u0259r c\u00fcr\u0259 s\u0259hv v\u0259 yanl\u0131\u015f add\u0131mlar\u0131 s\u0259ni dar\u0131xd\u0131rmas\u0131n. H\u0259r \u015fey d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259r. S\u0259brli olma\u011f\u0131m\u0131z birinci \u015f\u0259rtdir. Sevda v\u0259 Solmaz q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 s\u0259n\u0259 tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131ram, s\u0259ni d\u0259 Ayd\u0131na. De ki, ham\u0131s\u0131 anas\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fcl balalar\u0131 olsun, ona layiq olsunlar!
\n\u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m s\u0259ni, m\u0259nim Saram. \u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m balalar\u0131, siz d\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 m\u00fcv\u0259ff\u0259qiyy\u0259t arzu edin. \u201cMayak\u201d i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 olsun!
\nS\u0259nin Mirz\u0259n<\/p>\n

\u018fzizim Mirz\u0259m!<\/strong>
\n\u00a0<\/strong>
\nOktyabr\u0131n 8-d\u0259 yazm\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fun m\u0259ktubu ald\u0131m. Sanatoriyada yax\u015f\u0131 \u015f\u0259raitl\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259 v\u0259 dinc\u0259l. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7ox da yorma. Bilirs\u0259n ki, yor\u011funlu\u011fun n\u0259tic\u0259si nec\u0259 olur. Sa\u011flam b\u0259d\u0259nl\u0259 qocalanda da yazmaq olar.
\n(\u00c7ox d\u0259rman i\u00e7m\u0259. Vannalardan sonra \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc soyuqdan g\u00f6zl\u0259) \u00d6z\u00fcm d\u0259, u\u015faqlar da yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. Bizd\u0259n arxay\u0131n ol. Balalar\u0131n \u00f6z f\u0259aliyy\u0259tind\u0259dirl\u0259r. Aparat almaq m\u00fcnasib\u0259til\u0259 s\u0259ni t\u0259brik edir\u0259m. G\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rimizi daha \u00f6z\u00fcn \u00e7\u0259k\u0259rs\u0259n.
\nH\u0259l\u0259lik sa\u011f ol. \u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m s\u0259ni, m\u0259nim Mirz\u0259m.
\n\u201cMayak\u201d\u0131n da i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 olaca\u011f\u0131na \u0259min\u0259m.
\nBizim ail\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7oxlu salam.
\nS\u0259nin Saran. 11.X.55<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim \u0259ziz Saram!<\/strong>
\n\u00a0<\/strong>
\n17-d\u0259 yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131n m\u0259ktubu ald\u0131m. Sa\u011f ol, balas\u0131, Primovlar\u0131n s\u00f6z m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sind\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r x\u0259sis olduqlar\u0131n\u0131 bildiyim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0259nin bu q\u0259d\u0259r tez-tez m\u0259ktub yazma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ox qiym\u0259tl\u0259ndirir\u0259m. Yaz \u0259zizim, \u00e7\u00fcnki sizd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n h\u0259r bir c\u00fcml\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259kdir. M\u0259nim Saram, art\u0131q t\u0259mamil\u0259 i\u015f\u0259 giri\u015fmi\u015f\u0259m. D\u00fcn\u0259n roman\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn bir f\u0259slini qurtard\u0131m. \u0130ndi \u201cMayak\u201d\u0131n q\u0259hr\u0259manlar\u0131 m\u0259ni m\u00fchasir\u0259y\u0259 alm\u0131\u015flar. Ota\u011f\u0131mda oturub h\u0259r\u0259si bir pozada m\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131r. Biri oyandan, biri bu yandan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r. Leyla xan\u0131m is\u0259 (m\u0259nim Saram kimi) sakit v\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r-a\u011f\u0131r k\u0259narda durub bax\u0131r v\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yimi h\u0259rar\u0259tl\u0259 doldurur. Gec\u0259 yuxuma da girirl\u0259r. \u0130ndi bir daha ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m ki, yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131qda t\u0259n\u0259ff\u00fcs n\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck bir b\u0259db\u0259xtlikdir. H\u0259r g\u00fcn, h\u0259r g\u00fcn yazmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r, he\u00e7 olmazsa \u00fc\u00e7-d\u00f6rd saat. Burada m\u0259n el\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fam ki, h\u0259kiml\u0259r v\u0259 \u015f\u0259fq\u0259t bac\u0131lar\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc al\u0131b deyirl\u0259r b\u0259sdir, bir az da havaya \u00e7\u0131x. Ancaq baxma, g\u00fcnd\u0259 az\u0131 iki sa\u0259t havada oluram. Yorulmuram, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc yax\u015f\u0131 hiss edir\u0259m. Birc\u0259 sizi, m\u0259nim \u0259ziz Saram\u0131 v\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259 bir az dar\u0131x\u0131ram. El\u0259 bilir\u0259m ki, qaba\u011f\u0131mdak\u0131 iki ay sizi m\u0259nd\u0259n ay\u0131ran, bitm\u0259z-t\u00fck\u0259nm\u0259z uzun bir yoldur…
\nSaracan, \u201cBakrabo\u00e7i\u201d v\u0259 \u201cKommunist\u201din neft s\u0259nayesin\u0259 aid m\u0259qal\u0259l\u0259r \u00e7ap olunan b\u00fct\u00fcn n\u00f6mr\u0259l\u0259rini el\u0259 o g\u00fcn m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259r (h\u0259m istismara, h\u0259m qazmaya, h\u0259m d\u0259 elmi t\u0259dqiqata aid) indilik 11 oktyabr tarixli \u201cKommunist\u201d, 13 v\u0259 14 oktyabr tarixli \u201cBak.rabo\u00e7\u201dini g\u00f6nd\u0259r. Bir d\u0259 16-da hans\u0131sa material var idi (neft\u0259 aid) onu da g\u00f6nd\u0259r. M\u0259n dey\u0259n materiallar \u0259sas\u0259n 3-4-c\u00fc s\u0259hif\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 \u00e7ap olunur, b\u0259z\u0259n d\u0259 birinci s\u0259hif\u0259d\u0259. Bel\u0259 materiallar m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox laz\u0131md\u0131r. Z\u0259hm\u0259t \u00e7\u0259k, \u00e7\u0131xan kimi bax v\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259r.
\nPapan\u0131n yubileyinin ke\u00e7irildiyini bilir\u0259m. Teleqram vurmu\u015fdum. Y\u0259qin alm\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z. Eyb etm\u0259z, bir d\u0259 vuraram.
\nU\u015faqlara g\u0259ldikd\u0259, \u0259min\u0259m ki, s\u0259n bacar\u0131qla, s\u0259brl\u0259 onlar\u0131 d\u00fcz yola istiqam\u0259tl\u0259ndirirs\u0259n. Qay\u0131dandan sonra bu z\u0259hm\u0259tini bir q\u0259d\u0259r azaldaca\u011f\u0131ma s\u00f6z verir\u0259m. Onlar\u0131 \u00f6p, m\u0259nim Saram. Qohumlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131na salam de.
\n\u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m s\u0259ni, \u0259zizim.
\nS\u0259nin Mirz\u0259n<\/p>\n

\u018fziz Mirz\u0259m!<\/strong>
\n\u00a0<\/strong>
\n21-d\u0259 yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131n m\u0259ktubu ald\u0131m. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 m\u0259ktubun g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 el\u0259 o d\u0259qiq\u0259 cavab yaz\u0131ram. Daha bu da bir x\u0259st\u0259lik oldu ki?
\nRoman\u0131n bir f\u0259slini qurtarma\u011f\u0131n m\u0259ni sevindirir. Q\u0259hr\u0259manlar\u0131n s\u0259ni m\u00fchasir\u0259y\u0259 alma\u011f\u0131 yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. Ancaq \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yoracaqd\u0131r. \u0130\u015fl\u0259m\u0259yin m\u0259ni narahat edir. Bilirs\u0259n ki, \u00e7ox x\u0259st\u0259likl\u0259r yor\u011funluqdan \u0259m\u0259l\u0259 g\u0259lir. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u0259 iki yox, \u00fc\u00e7 saat g\u0259zm\u0259lis\u0259n.
\nBizim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131xma. \u0130\u015fl\u0259rimiz \u00f6z qaydas\u0131 il\u0259 gedir. Papan\u0131n yubleyi 30-da ke\u00e7iril\u0259c\u0259k. Teleqram\u0131n\u0131 alm\u0131\u015f\u0131q. Sa\u011f ol. Yubiley gec\u0259si Solmaz\u0131n \u00e7alma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 dedil\u0259r. M\u0259n icaz\u0259 verm\u0259dim (B\u00fclb\u00fcl papaya z\u0259ng vurub x\u0259b\u0259r vermi\u015fdir. O gec\u0259 Polad oxuyacaq). Yubiley papan\u0131nd\u0131r v\u0259 bizim o gec\u0259d\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131z bir az y\u00fcng\u00fcl olar, el\u0259 deyilmi? \u018fsg\u0259r, \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259, Nimtac xan\u0131m\u0131n r\u0259hb\u0259rliyi il\u0259 yubiley gec\u0259sind\u0259n sonra papagil\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 dedi. Papa buna raz\u0131 olmad\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnki b\u00f6yl\u0259 bir y\u0131\u011f\u0131nca\u011f\u0131n evd\u0259 ke\u00e7irilm\u0259si m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil. Papan\u0131n xasiyy\u0259tini bilmirs\u0259nmi? Hay-k\u00fcy xo\u015funa g\u0259lmir. 26-da Eldar\u0131n anadanolmas\u0131 m\u00fcnasib\u0259til\u0259 \u018fsg\u0259rgil\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259yik. Bizim yolda\u015f\u0131n il do\u011fumunu is\u0259 29-da ke\u00e7ir\u0259c\u0259yik.
\nBak\u0131da havalar bu g\u00fcnd\u0259n s\u0259rinl\u0259ndi.
\nMirz\u0259m, 22-d\u0259 \u018fziz (\u018fziz \u015e\u0259rif – red.) u\u015faqlar\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259ldi. S\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7oxlu salam\u0131 var. Bir ayl\u0131q anas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na getdi (g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259nmi anas\u0131n\u0131 nec\u0259 \u00e7ox ist\u0259yir.) \u018fg\u0259r m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t g\u00f6rs\u0259n \u018fziz qay\u0131danda Mariya Arkadiyevnaya bir banka varenya g\u00f6nd\u0259rim. O s\u0259n\u0259 bir banka varenya v\u0259 malinovka g\u00f6nd\u0259rmi\u015fdi.
\nPapa, \u018fsg\u0259r, Tamara, Adil\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7oxlu salam deyir. Tan\u0131yanlardan s\u0259n\u0259 salam var.
\n\u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m s\u0259ni, m\u0259nim \u0259zizim.
\nKe\u00e7\u0259n gec\u0259 otaqda t\u0259k bir saat \u00e7alm\u0131\u015fam. Divanda s\u0259nin yerin bo\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Ancaq m\u0259n \u00e7ald\u0131qca el\u0259 bil s\u0259n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi g\u0259zirdin.(Balas\u0131, dey\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n, Saraya n\u0259 olub, d\u0259li olmam\u0131san ki?)
\nS\u0259nin Saran.<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim \u0259ziz Saram!<\/strong>
\n\u00a0<\/strong>
\nBu m\u0259ktubum s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u00f6zn\u0259nilm\u0259z oldu\u011fu q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259, m\u0259nc\u0259, sevindirici olacaqd\u0131r. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 bel\u0259dir ki, m\u0259n noyabr\u0131n 5-d\u0259 u\u00e7ub Bak\u0131ya qay\u0131tma\u011f\u0131 q\u0259rara alm\u0131\u015fam. Bunun da bir ne\u00e7\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259bi var: biriunci budur ki, do\u011frusu, s\u0259nsiz v\u0259 u\u015faqlars\u0131z m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox a\u011f\u0131r ke\u00e7ir, getdikc\u0259 dar\u0131xma\u011f\u0131m art\u0131r, onlara \u00e7atd\u0131r ki, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc cism\u0259n pis hiss etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131ram, yuxusuzluq \u0259m\u0259l\u0259 g\u0259lir v\u0259 sair\u0259. Bilir\u0259m ki, s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 orada \u00e7\u0259tin olur. \u0130kinci s\u0259b\u0259b odur ki, roman el\u0259 v\u0259ziyy\u0259t\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131r ki, m\u0259n g\u0259r\u0259k Bak\u0131da olam: ara-s\u0131ra m\u0259d\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 ged\u0259m, h\u0259m q\u0259hr\u0259manlar\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc tez-tez g\u00f6r\u0259m, h\u0259m d\u0259 onlar\u0131n \u015f\u0259raiti g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131nda olsun. Ax\u0131, m\u0259n naturadan yazan, h\u0259yatda ancaq hiss edib duydu\u011fumdan dan\u0131\u015fan bir yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131yam. \u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc s\u0259b\u0259b d\u0259 odur ki, do\u011frusu, bu quru i\u015f \u015f\u0259raiti m\u0259ni yorur, s\u0259s-k\u00fcy v\u0259 sair\u0259. Adamlar\u0131n niy\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcrs\u0259n, niy\u0259 kinoya g\u0259lm\u0259din, niy\u0259 konsertd\u0259 yox idin v\u0259 sair\u0259 suallar\u0131na cavab verm\u0259kd\u0259n yorulmu\u015fam. Bel\u0259likl\u0259 ay\u0131n 5-d\u0259 m\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259, \u0259zizim. Evimizd\u0259 oturaraq, m\u0259zuniyy\u0259tin ikinci ay\u0131n\u0131 da evd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259r\u0259m. M\u0259nc\u0259, o daha s\u0259m\u0259r\u0259li olar. H\u0259r halda, noyabr, dekabr aylar\u0131nda roman\u0131 \u0259sas\u0259n qurtararam sa\u011fl\u0131q olsa bir az da i\u015fl\u0259yib, aprel ay\u0131nda jurnalda \u00e7ap etdir\u0259r\u0259m. Orada s\u0259nin m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259rin d\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259r.
\nBalalar\u0131 \u00f6p. Ay\u0131n birin\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r n\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz var yaz\u0131n. Birind\u0259n sonra m\u0259ktub g\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259yin. 4-d\u0259 teleqram vuraram.
\n\u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m s\u0259ni, m\u0259nim Saram
\nS\u0259nin Mirz\u0259n<\/p>\n

\u018fzizim Mirz\u0259!<\/strong><\/p>\n

\nSalam!
\n26-dak\u0131 m\u0259ktubunu ald\u0131m. M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, orada qalma\u011f\u0131n h\u0259r c\u0259h\u0259td\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, m\u0259n ist\u0259rdim ki, bir d\u0259qiq\u0259m d\u0259 s\u0259nsiz olmas\u0131n. Ancaq yazmaq da laz\u0131m oldu\u011fundan b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlara d\u00f6zm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r. H\u0259m d\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259n yolda\u015flardan geri qalmamal\u0131san. Bura g\u0259ls\u0259n, s\u0259ni h\u0259r d\u0259qiq\u0259 narahat ed\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r. \u0130\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn arams\u0131z telefon z\u0259ngl\u0259ri. Hay-k\u00fcy yarayarm\u0131?
\nBizd\u0259n arxay\u0131n ol. U\u015faqlardan n\u0259 yaz\u0131m, g\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259n, g\u00f6r\u0259rs\u0259n. M\u0259ktubu yazark\u0259n Solmaz d\u0259rsini haz\u0131rlay\u0131r. Sevda n\u0259 is\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131r, yeni mahn\u0131 b\u0259st\u0259l\u0259yir. Ayd\u0131n yolda\u015f da s\u0259nin ota\u011f\u0131nda yatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131r. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi he\u00e7 bir d\u0259rs yoxdur. Doyunca yuxusunu alandan sonra caza qulaq asacaqd\u0131r.
\nD\u00fcn\u0259n papan\u0131n yubileyi ke\u00e7di. G\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 \u0259trafl\u0131 dan\u0131\u015far\u0131q. Olduqca g\u00f6z\u0259l d\u00fcz\u0259ltmi\u015fdil\u0259r.
\nJurnal\u0131n 9-10-cu n\u00f6mr\u0259sini g\u00f6nd\u0259rdim.
\n\u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m s\u0259ni, m\u0259nim Mirz\u0259m
\nS\u0259nin Saran<\/p>\n

P.S.<\/strong>\u00a0Balas\u0131, b\u0259lk\u0259, Ayd\u0131na tap\u015f\u0131rasan ki, t\u0259k \u00e7ox bir yer\u0259 getm\u0259sin. Ancaq bilm\u0259sin ki, m\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 yazm\u0131\u015fam. Guya idar\u0259d\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r veribl\u0259r. \u018fvv\u0259ld\u0259n m\u0259nim s\u0259hvim olubdur. T\u0259k g\u0259zm\u0259yi yax\u015f\u0131 deyildir.<\/p>\n

Sara<\/span>
\u00a0<\/span>
\u018fzizim Saracan!<\/strong>
\u00a0<\/strong>
G\u0259ldiyim g\u00fcnl\u0259r\u0259 nisb\u0259t\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131 hiss edir\u0259m. Bel a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131m k\u0259silib. G\u00fcnd\u0259 be\u015f-alt\u0131 saat i\u015fl\u0259yir\u0259m, q\u0259tiyy\u0259n yor\u011funluq hiss etmir\u0259m. \u201cK\u0259nd\u00e7i q\u0131z\u0131\u201d qurtarmaq \u00fczr\u0259dir. D\u00fcn\u0259n 8-ci \u015f\u0259klin ax\u0131r\u0131na \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. Bu g\u00fcn bir d\u0259f\u0259 oxuyub d\u00fcz\u0259ld\u0259c\u0259k, \u0259lav\u0259l\u0259r v\u0259 qeydl\u0259r ed\u0259c\u0259gy\u0259m. B\u0259lk\u0259, el\u0259 bu g\u00fcn 9-cu \u015f\u0259kl\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m. C\u0259mi 10 \u015f\u0259kil olacaq. Art\u0131q m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259r \u015fey ayd\u0131nd\u0131r. El\u0259 bil ki da\u011f\u0131n zirv\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fam v\u0259 oradan b\u00fct\u00fcn c\u0131\u011f\u0131rlar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m. G\u0259r\u0259k 9-10-cu \u015f\u0259kill\u0259ri \u00fc\u00e7-d\u00f6rd g\u00fcn\u0259 qurtaram. Bel\u0259likl\u0259, komediya haz\u0131rd\u0131r, Saracan! M\u0259n bunun \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 \u201cH\u0259yat\u201d v\u0259 \u201cG\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k g\u00fcn\u201d kimi q\u0259rib\u0259 bir daxili h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259 v\u0259 a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131q hiss etm\u0259d\u0259n i\u015fl\u0259dim. El\u0259 bilir\u0259m ki, maraql\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xacaqd\u0131r. Burada h\u0259m komik, h\u0259m d\u0259 lirik \u00fcns\u00fcrl\u0259r \u00fczvi v\u0259hd\u0259t t\u0259\u015fkil edir. S\u0259n bilis\u0259n ki, indiki komediyalar\u0131n \u00e7oxunda d\u0259rin fikir, n\u0259cib duy\u011fular\u0131 ifad\u0259 ed\u0259n insani lirikaya az-az rast g\u0259lm\u0259k olur. Fars\u0131 and\u0131ran bo\u015f v\u0259 m\u0259nas\u0131z h\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131lar \u00e7ox zaman komediyan\u0131n can\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259\u015fkil edir ki, bu da haman janr\u0131n ictimai, t\u0259rbiy\u0259vi \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259tini xeyli azald\u0131r. M\u0259nc\u0259, \u201cK\u0259nd\u00e7i q\u0131z\u0131\u201d bu c\u0259h\u0259td\u0259n bir yenilik t\u0259\u015fkil etm\u0259lidir. H\u0259r halda, m\u0259n onun \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck l\u0259zz\u0259tl\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.<\/span>
\u00a0<\/span>
\u018fziz Saram!\u00a0<\/strong>
\u00a0<\/strong>
Burada havalar yen\u0259 xeyli yax\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131b. A\u011faclar p\u00f6hr\u0259l\u0259nib, qays\u0131 g\u00fcl a\u00e7\u0131b, qu\u015flar\u0131n c\u0259h-c\u0259hi al\u0259mi ba\u015f\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb. Yaz\u0131n g\u0259lm\u0259si n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259l v\u0259 f\u00fcs\u00fcnkard\u0131r! Ba\u011f yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 burnumun ucu g\u00f6yn\u0259yir. Ancaq \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131 sanatoriyad\u0131r. H\u00fcnd\u00fcr yerd\u0259dir. T\u0259p\u0259l\u0259rin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 park, park\u0131n o t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 yamaclar, b\u00fct\u00fcn \u015f\u0259h\u0259r \u015faml\u0131q me\u015f\u0259dir. Q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 da\u015flar, q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f v\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259traf g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. S\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r v\u0259 g\u00fcnbatan \u00e7a\u011f\u0131 bu m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 bax\u0131b t\u0259miz, s\u0259liq\u0259li z\u00f6vql\u0259 d\u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f xiyabanlarda g\u0259zir v\u0259 x\u0259yallara dal\u0131ram. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, \u0259sas\u0259n, q\u0259hr\u0259manlar\u0131mla s\u00f6hb\u0259t edir v\u0259 sonra da g\u0259lib yaz\u0131ram. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 i\u015f b\u00f6yl\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 gedir.<\/span>
Saracan, sizin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, Solmaz v\u0259 Sevda xan\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, Ayd\u0131n bala \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn v\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn Primovlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yaman \u00fcr\u0259yim dar\u0131x\u0131b. Papaya de ki, tezlikl\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. Bir yax\u015f\u0131 \u201cRast\u201d v\u0259 \u201c\u015eur\u201d haz\u0131rlas\u0131n.<\/span>
\u018f\u015fr\u0259fin Moskvadak\u0131 telefonunu v\u0259 adresini m\u0259n\u0259 yazs\u0131n.<\/span>
\u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m s\u0259ni, Saracan. Solmaz\u0131, Sevdan\u0131, Ayd\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259nim doda\u011f\u0131mla \u00f6p. G\u0259lin xan\u0131ma v\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn qohumlar\u0131na salam yetir, h\u0259m d\u0259 at\u0259\u015fin salam!<\/span>
Sizin Mirz\u0259<\/span>
Kislovodski<\/span>
\u00a0<\/span>
\u018fzizim Mirz\u0259m!<\/strong>
\u00a0<\/strong>
M\u0259ktubunu v\u0259 q\u0259zeti ald\u0131m. Q\u0259zetd\u0259ki m\u0259qal\u0259 \u00e7ox xo\u015fuma g\u0259ldi. S\u0259hh\u0259tinin t\u0259dric\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131la\u015fmas\u0131 m\u0259ni \u00e7ox sevindirir. Komediyan\u0131 qurtard\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0259ni t\u0259brik edir\u0259m. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, el\u0259 l\u0259zz\u0259tl\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259diyin \u0259s\u0259r pis olmaz. H\u0259m d\u0259 s\u0259n el\u0259 yaz\u0131rsan, ham\u0131s\u0131 g\u00f6z\u0259ldir.<\/span>
Burada havalar q\u0259rib\u0259 ke\u00e7ir. \u0130ki-\u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn b\u0259rk k\u00fcl\u0259kd\u0259n sonra, iki g\u00fcn q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng yaz havas\u0131 olur. H\u0259r halda, s\u0259n ged\u0259nd\u0259n b\u0259ri havalar xeyli istil\u0259\u015fib. Sevda h\u0259rd\u0259nbir g\u0259lir. Solmaz xan\u0131m mart\u0131n 26-da konsertd\u0259 \u00e7ald\u0131. M\u00fc\u0259llim Solmaz\u0131 xeyli t\u0259rifl\u0259yibdir. H\u0259ft\u0259d\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn he\u00e7 \u00e7almad\u0131\u011f\u0131na baxmayaraq, bel\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l fikir s\u00f6yl\u0259yirl\u0259r. Solmaz xan\u0131m bir az h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259ls\u0259, daha yax\u015f\u0131 olmazm\u0131?<\/span>
Papa v\u0259 \u018fsg\u0259r tez-tez g\u0259lir. B\u00fct\u00fcn ail\u0259 \u00fczvl\u0259rind\u0259n \u00e7oxlu-\u00e7oxlu salam.<\/span>
U\u015faqlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn is\u0259 he\u00e7 dar\u0131xma, vaxta az qal\u0131b. G\u0259lib g\u00f6r\u0259rs\u0259n.<\/span>
\u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m s\u0259ni, s\u0259nin Saran<\/span>
\u00a0<\/span>
M\u0259nim \u0259ziz Saram!<\/strong>
\u00a0<\/strong>
Sa\u011f-salamat g\u0259lib Yaltaya \u00e7atd\u0131m. \u0130ndi yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131q evind\u0259 14 n\u00f6mr\u0259li otaqda oluram. Birinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259dir. \u00c7arpay\u0131, yaz\u0131 stolu, paltar \u015fkaf\u0131, tumbu\u00e7ka v\u0259 \u0259l\u00fczyuyan\u0131 (bu \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r) var. Adama bundan art\u0131q n\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131r? \u00dcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131q evi \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259ldir. Da\u011f\u0131n d\u00f6\u015f\u00fcnd\u0259, \u0259rik, al\u00e7a, alma a\u011faclar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131ndad\u0131r. \u0130ndi bu a\u011faclar g\u00fcl a\u00e7\u0131b, tama\u015fal\u0131 m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259si var, h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259f \u0259tir qoxuyur. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, \u015fam v\u0259 s\u0259rv a\u011faclar\u0131 daha \u00e7oxdur. \u015e\u0259h\u0259r bizim evin c\u0259nubuna d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb. Orada Qara d\u0259nizin mavi sular\u0131 par\u0131lday\u0131r. On d\u0259qiq\u0259y\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 d\u0259niz sahilin\u0259 enm\u0259k olur. Qay\u0131danda ma\u015f\u0131nla g\u0259lir\u0259m. \u00c7\u00fcnki h\u0259m \u00e7ox dikdir, h\u0259m d\u0259 adam \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri g\u0259zib yorulanda, qalxma\u011fa h\u0259v\u0259si olmur. \u0130\u00e7kil\u0259ri d\u0259 \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. N\u0259 des\u0259n, verirl\u0259r. (d\u00fcy\u00fc, bal\u0131q, toyuq v\u0259 sair\u0259). S\u0259nin orada \u00fc\u00e7 manata ald\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131n almalar burada bazarda bir manat otuz q\u0259pikd\u0259n bir manat \u0259lli q\u0259piy\u0259dir. D\u00f6vl\u0259t d\u00fckanlar\u0131nda is\u0259 o c\u00fcr se\u00e7m\u0259 almalar bir manata sat\u0131l\u0131r. Bir az n\u00f6vb\u0259 oldu\u011fundan durub alma\u011fa h\u00f6vs\u0259l\u0259m g\u0259lmir. \u015e\u0259h\u0259r d\u00fckanlar\u0131nda ist\u0259diyin q\u0259d\u0259r a\u011f \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k var. \u00dcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259 buralar \u00e7ox t\u0259miz v\u0259 s\u0259liq\u0259lidir. D\u00fckanlar\u0131nda da n\u0259 ist\u0259s\u0259n rahat almaq olur, Bak\u0131 kimi bas\u0131r\u0131q deyil.<\/span>
\u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, birinci gec\u0259 (buraya ax\u015fam saat 10-da g\u0259lib \u00e7atd\u0131m) \u00e7ox dar\u0131xd\u0131m. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc danlay\u0131rd\u0131m ki, niy\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 h\u0259r c\u00fcr\u0259 \u015f\u0259raitim ola-ola durub evimd\u0259n-e\u015fiyimd\u0259n uzaq d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m, el\u0259 el\u0259mir\u0259m ki, yaz\u0131 saatlar\u0131mda he\u00e7 k\u0259s m\u0259ni narahat etm\u0259sin…<\/span>
…H\u0259r halda… bu g\u00fcn i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fam. \u201cYax\u015f\u0131 adam\u201d\u0131n haz\u0131r hiss\u0259l\u0259rini oxudum, qeydl\u0259rimin bir hiss\u0259sin\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r sald\u0131m. N\u0259 is\u0259, Saracan, bu komediya m\u0259ni \u00e7ox incidir v\u0259 yorur, h\u0259r oxuyanda b\u00f6y\u00fck bir naraz\u0131l\u0131q duyuram. Bunun \u0259sas s\u0259b\u0259bi odur ki, hadis\u0259l\u0259r \u00e7oxdur, tipl\u0259rin taleyi paralel \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 inki\u015faf edir, ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 vahid bir x\u0259tt\u0259 tabe ed\u0259 bilmir\u0259m. \u00d6z\u00fc-\u00f6zl\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259 h\u0259r tip v\u0259 h\u0259r hadis\u0259 m\u0259nas\u0131z deyil, maraql\u0131d\u0131r, lakin bu hadis\u0259 v\u0259 tipl\u0259ri bir yer\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131b vahid bir orqanizm\u0259 \u00e7evir\u0259n f\u0259q\u0259r\u0259 s\u00fctunu m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox z\u0259if g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 hey pozuram, yaz\u0131lan hiss\u0259l\u0259ri k\u0259nara qoyub, pyesi t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n ba\u015flay\u0131ram (pozulan v\u0259 k\u0259nara qoyulan hiss\u0259l\u0259r iki pyesd\u0259n \u00e7oxdur) n\u0259 is\u0259 xo\u015fum g\u0259l\u0259n \u015f\u0259kl\u0259 salmay\u0131nca \u00fcz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xarmayaca\u011fam. \u0130st\u0259diyim\u0259 nail ola bilm\u0259s\u0259m bir k\u0259nara qoyub yeni \u0259s\u0259r ba\u015flayaca\u011fam.<\/span>
Saracan, z\u0259hm\u0259t \u00e7\u0259k Bak\u0131 q\u0259zet\u0259l\u0259rinin m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn maraql\u0131 olan n\u00f6mr\u0259l\u0259rini y\u0131\u011f v\u0259 h\u0259ft\u0259d\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 ( \u015f\u0259nb\u0259 v\u0259 ya bazar g\u00fcnl\u0259ri, \u201c\u018fd\u0259biyyat\u201d q\u0259zet\u0259si al\u0131nandan sonra) m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259r. B\u00fct\u00fcn n\u00f6mr\u0259l\u0259ri v\u0259 h\u0259r g\u00fcn g\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259y\u0259 ehtiyac yoxdur. Ancaq m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn maraql\u0131 olanlar\u0131 h\u0259ft\u0259d\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rs\u0259n, kifay\u0259tdir. M\u0259rk\u0259zi q\u0259zet\u0259l\u0259ri burada al\u0131r\u0131q.<\/span>
\u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m sizi m\u0259nim \u0259zizl\u0259rim<\/span>
Sizin Mirz\u0259<\/span>
Tamara, Nimtac, Adil\u0259 xan\u0131mlara salam s\u00f6yl\u0259. \u00a0ayb.az<\/span><\/p>\n

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