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<\/a>\u00c7inar\u0259 \u00d6mray<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n<\/p>\n
Ax\u015fam h\u00fccuma ke\u00e7irik<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Qon\u015fu arvadlar\u0131 n\u0259n\u0259min beynini doldurmu\u015fdu ki, yax\u0131nl\u0131qda yerl\u0259\u015f\u0259n fabrikin bo\u015f otaqlar\u0131ndan birin\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcn, qa\u00e7q\u0131ns\u0131n\u0131z, siz\u0259 he\u00e7 kim he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259z.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Onda bibimin birotaql\u0131 ba\u011f evind\u0259 qal\u0131rd\u0131q. N\u0259n\u0259m ota\u011f\u0131 p\u0259rd\u0259 il\u0259 b\u00f6lm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Bel\u0259c\u0259, n\u0259n\u0259m ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n kimi \u201cevrika\u201d havas\u0131yla g\u0259linl\u0259ri m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259d\u0259n hal\u0131 el\u0259di:<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131n, ax\u015fam h\u00fccuma ke\u00e7irik!..<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Babam \u0259vv\u0259l-\u0259vv\u0259l raz\u0131 olmad\u0131: \u201cBir az s\u0259br el\u0259, arvad, – dedi, – onsuz da bir-iki aya qay\u0131d\u0131r\u0131q\u201d. N\u0259n\u0259m: \u201cEvi yem\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yik ha, qay\u0131danda qoyub ged\u0259c\u0259yik d\u0259\u201d, – deyib, babam\u0131 yola g\u0259tirdi.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n O g\u00fcn el\u0259 gec\u0259yn\u0259n k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc \u00e7at\u0131b, h\u0259min fabrikd\u0259 l\u00f6vb\u0259r sald\u0131q. \u00dc\u00e7 otaq idi. D\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259si, tavan\u0131, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259si yoxdu. Quruca divar… Bizim d\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259nin bir \u00e7anta pal-paltar\u0131, yor\u011fan-d\u00f6\u015f\u0259yi, \u00fc\u00e7 d\u0259mir \u00e7arpay\u0131m\u0131z, h\u0259r\u0259nin d\u0259 bir bo\u015fqab\u0131 vard\u0131, v\u0259ssalam.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n H\u0259\u2026 bir d\u0259 humanitar yard\u0131mlar: be\u015f paket quru lobya, bir d\u0259 yard\u0131m adyallar\u0131. N\u0259n\u0259m adyallar\u0131 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 tutdu. Gec\u0259ni qald\u0131q. Bibim el\u0259 h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259 sil-s\u00fcp\u00fcr el\u0259yirdi ki!.. Yer torpaq oldu\u011fundan sulay\u0131b s\u00fcp\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc. N\u0259n\u0259m quru divara xal\u00e7a asd\u0131, \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 Mirs\u0259di a\u011fan\u0131n \u015f\u0259klini as\u0131b dedi ki, bu \u015f\u0259kil burdad\u0131rsa, bizi bu evd\u0259n he\u00e7 kim \u00e7\u0131xarda bilm\u0259z!<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Sabah\u0131 fabrikin yiy\u0259si g\u0259ldi, bir az s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259t oldu. Babam \u00e7ox utan\u0131rd\u0131. Ora icaz\u0259siz y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ar\u0131na g\u0259lirdi. Amma n\u0259n\u0259m \u0259lind\u0259 s\u00fcp\u00fcrg\u0259 ev\u0259 el\u0259 yiy\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015fdi ki, day hara \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131!<\/p>\n <\/p>\n O ev bizim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259r \u015fey idi: arxa, dayaq, \u00fcmid, p\u0259nah yuvas\u0131… N\u0259n\u0259m deyirdi, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 qaralt\u0131 oldusa, b\u0259simizdi, onsuz da qay\u0131daca\u011f\u0131q.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Az ke\u00e7m\u0259mi\u015f babam p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259ki adyallar\u0131 s\u00f6k\u00fcb, m\u00fc\u015f\u0259mb\u0259 vurdu, yer\u0259 linoleum sald\u0131q, divarlar\u0131 suvad\u0131q.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n \u018fmim m\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259 idi. QRAD qur\u011fusu da\u015f\u0131yan ma\u015f\u0131n s\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bir g\u00fcn balas\u0131 ev\u0259 qay\u0131danda n\u0259n\u0259m \u00e7ox sevinmi\u015fdi. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fd\u0259 itirdiyi dostlar\u0131ndan dan\u0131\u015fard\u0131 \u0259mim. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 kim\u0259s\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, b\u0259s filank\u0259si g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131nda vurdular, yaz\u0131q el\u0259 yerind\u0259c\u0259 ke\u00e7indi, ba\u015fqa bir yolda\u015f\u0131m\u0131z m\u0259cbur olub onun ayaqqab\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b, geyindi yal\u0131n aya\u011f\u0131na. Bu \u0259hvalat m\u0259ni xeyli fikr\u0259 sald\u0131. U\u015faq idim. Deyirdim, g\u00f6r\u0259n, \u00f6l\u0259n \u0259sg\u0259r r\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 ayaqyal\u0131n nec\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259k? R\u0259hm\u0259t harad\u0131 ki? Bird\u0259n ora ged\u0259nd\u0259 aya\u011f\u0131na \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 batar, neyl\u0259y\u0259r? Di g\u0259l bu haqda he\u00e7 kimd\u0259n he\u00e7 n\u0259 soru\u015fmad\u0131m.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n N\u0259n\u0259m h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 m\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k alma\u011fa apar\u0131rd\u0131. O vaxt upuzun, ilan kimi q\u0131vr\u0131lan \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k n\u00f6vb\u0259l\u0259ri olurdu. Yan\u0131nda u\u015faq g\u00f6r\u00fcb n\u0259n\u0259mi n\u00f6vb\u0259siz burax\u0131rd\u0131lar. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 on-on be\u015f \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k al\u0131rd\u0131q.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Babam \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 ilk d\u0259f\u0259 t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00fcn\u00fc alanda bir tay un alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, bir kilo da alma. Kiloya d\u00f6rd sar\u0131 alma girmi\u015fdi. Dedi, \u0130ran almas\u0131d\u0131. Birini n\u0259n\u0259m\u0259 verdi: \u201cS\u0259n bunu \u00c7inarla b\u00f6l, ye\u201d. Qalan \u00fc\u00e7 alman\u0131 d\u0259 g\u0259linl\u0259r\u0259 verdi ki, u\u015faqlarla b\u00f6ls\u00fcnl\u0259r. Sonra ke\u00e7ib h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 oturdu. Dal\u0131nca \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m, g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259smalla sildiyini sezdim. M\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u00fcb g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di. \u201cNolub, baba, s\u0259n\u0259 alma \u00e7atmad\u0131, ona g\u00f6r\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131y\u0131rsan?\u201d. U\u011funub getdi: \u201cYox, q\u0131z\u0131m, g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, onu \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131rd\u0131m\u201d, – dedi.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Almalar\u0131 yey\u0259nd\u0259n sonra n\u0259n\u0259m g\u0259linl\u0259r\u0259 dedi ki, durum, yuxa bi\u015fir\u0259k, al\u0131nma \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259kl\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131rmaq olmur. H\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 sac qurub yuxa sald\u0131lar. Oca\u011f\u0131n qoxusu h\u0259r yana yay\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Pendirimiz olmazd\u0131, n\u0259n\u0259m d\u0259 dey\u0259rdi ki, pendiri neynirsiz, \u015forla \u201cSana\u201d ya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131randa ham\u0131s\u0131ndan urvatl\u0131 olur. Ya\u011fla qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u015for bankas\u0131n\u0131 da, termosu da sac\u0131n yan\u0131na qoyard\u0131. Oca\u011f\u0131n qoxusuna qon\u015fu u\u015faqlar topla\u015fard. N\u0259n\u0259m yuxaya ox\u015fayan \u0259ll\u0259ril\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259sin\u0259 bir d\u00fcrm\u0259k d\u00fcz\u0259ld\u0259rdi. Lap C\u0131rtdan\u0131n na\u011f\u0131l\u0131ndak\u0131 kimi… D\u00fcrm\u0259k yey\u0259n u\u015faqlardan kim topunu m\u0259n\u0259 oynama\u011fa verm\u0259zdis\u0259, dey\u0259rdim, tez el\u0259, n\u0259n\u0259min d\u00fcrm\u0259yini qaytar.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n D\u0259mir \u00e7arpay\u0131lar\u0131n setkas\u0131 bo\u015falm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 dey\u0259, babam alt\u0131na iri taxtalar qoymu\u015fdu. Bizim ail\u0259miz – ata-anam, qarda\u015f-bc\u0131lar\u0131m ham\u0131s\u0131 Rusiyada idi. M\u0259n n\u0259n\u0259mgild\u0259 qal\u0131rd\u0131m. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 \u0259mimin u\u015faqlar\u0131ndan \u00e7ox m\u0259nim qay\u011f\u0131ma qal\u0131rd\u0131lar. D\u0259mir \u00e7arpay\u0131n\u0131n birind\u0259 m\u0259n yat\u0131rd\u0131m. \u00c7ox xo\u015fb\u0259xt idim.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Bir g\u00fcn b\u0259la g\u0259ldi; ham\u0131ya n\u0259s\u0259 qa\u015f\u0131nma x\u0259st\u0259liyi d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. N\u0259 b\u0259la idis\u0259, b\u00fct\u00fcn \u015f\u0259h\u0259r tutmu\u015fdu… Ya da b\u00fct\u00fcn qa\u00e7q\u0131nlar… Biz\u0259 a\u011f-uzun qablarda s\u00fcd r\u0259ngli qat\u0131 m\u0259hlul paylad\u0131lar. O vaxt ikinci sinifd\u0259 oxuyurdum. \u00d6z d\u0259rman\u0131m\u0131 d\u0259mir \u00e7arpay\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda gizl\u0259dirdim. A\u011f, uzun qab idi. \u00dcst\u00fcn\u0259 “\u018fl vuran\u0131n \u0259li qurusun” yazm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. \u018fmim oxuyub xeyli g\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Bir g\u00fcn d\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259n gur, uzun sa\u00e7\u0131mda evimiz\u0259 bit g\u0259tirmi\u015fdim. N\u0259n\u0259m ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 dizinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoyub bitimi t\u0259mizl\u0259yirdi. Sonra dedil\u0259r ki, neftl\u0259 yusan, ke\u00e7\u0259r.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n H\u0259min \u0259r\u0259f\u0259d\u0259 sinfimizd\u0259 neft eras\u0131 ba\u015flad\u0131; otaqlar\u0131 n\u00f6y\u00fct iyi b\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc…<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Fabrik\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7d\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fcz vaxtlard\u0131. Nahara oturmu\u015fduq. Bird\u0259n h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z adamlar girdi. O\u011flanlardan birinin \u00e7iynind\u0259 qara-iri n\u0259s\u0259 vard\u0131, q\u0131z is\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259 balaca qara toppuz tutmu\u015fdu. O toppuz da \u015fnurla o\u011flan\u0131n \u00e7iynind\u0259kin\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131yd\u0131. Handan-hana anlad\u0131m ki, bu, mikrofonla kamerad\u0131r. N\u0259n\u0259mi, babam\u0131 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131lar. Nec\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rs\u0131z, nec\u0259 dolan\u0131rs\u0131z? Tez n\u0259n\u0259min yan\u0131ndan qa\u00e7\u0131b \u00e7arpay\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda, qara suvaql\u0131 divardak\u0131 mismardan s\u0259liq\u0259 il\u0259 as\u0131lm\u0131\u015f t\u0259z\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259b yubkam\u0131 geyinib g\u0259ldim; kameraya q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259liydim. Xaricd\u0259ki h\u0259mya\u015f\u0131dlar\u0131ma g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259c\u0259kdil\u0259r ax\u0131. \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 i\u015f\u0131qdan onda qama\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rim.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n 6 ya\u015f\u0131mdan qa\u00e7q\u0131nl\u0131q h\u0259yat\u0131, onun qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131, \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmazl\u0131qlar\u0131, m\u0259hrumiyy\u0259tl\u0259ri i\u00e7ind\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcm. Amma bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 olsun \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc bitmi\u015f, t\u00fck\u0259nmi\u015f hiss el\u0259m\u0259dim. \u018fksin\u0259, t\u00fck\u0259nm\u0259d\u0259n xo\u015fb\u0259xt idim.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n N\u0259n\u0259m g\u0259linl\u0259r\u0259 deyirdi ki, itir\u0259-itir\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fik: evimizi, k\u0259ndimizi, qohumlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131, heyvanlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131… G\u0259lin, \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259ki t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc itirm\u0259y\u0259k bar\u0131…<\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n Tale cehizi<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Siz\u0259 bir hekay\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmaq, daha do\u011furusu, yazmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Esnad\u0131n hekay\u0259sini. Balaca Esnadla Dilar\u0259nin.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Dilar\u0259 5-ci sinifd\u0259 oxuyur. M\u00fc\u0259lliminin dilil\u0259 des\u0259k, sinfin g\u00f6z b\u0259b\u0259yidir. \u00c7ox savadl\u0131, dilli-dilav\u0259r q\u0131zd\u0131. Sinf\u0259 yoxlama g\u0259ls\u0259, b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00f6zl\u0259r, \u00fcmidl\u0259r ona dikil\u0259r.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Bunu yadda\u015f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n bir k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259 saxlay\u0131n, siz\u0259 Esnaddan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131m. Allah haqq\u0131, b\u0259lk\u0259 g\u00fclm\u0259kd\u0259n \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259ksiz. Esnad bac\u0131s\u0131 \u018fsm\u0259rl\u0259 ekzdi. Dilar\u0259yl\u0259 d\u0259 bir sinifd\u0259 oxuyurlar. H\u0259l\u0259 birinci sinifd\u0259yk\u0259n m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259 bunlar\u0131 bir q\u0131z-bir o\u011flan oturdurmu\u015f, Dilar\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259 Esnad d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb. O vaxt Esnad\u0131n qabaq di\u015fl\u0259ri yoxmu\u015f, m\u0131r\u0131qm\u0131\u015f. Dilar\u0259 d\u0259 oturub z\u0131r-z\u0131r a\u011flay\u0131b.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n M\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259:<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Dilar\u0259, q\u0131z\u0131m, niy\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131rsan?<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – M\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259 m\u0259n bunu ist\u0259mir\u0259m. Di\u015fl\u0259ri yoxdu.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Ay q\u0131z, el\u0259 i\u00e7 vurdun, el\u0259 bil, s\u0259ni ona \u0259r\u0259 veririk. Yoxdu, yoxdu da (m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fc bir az kobud dediyinin f\u0259rqin\u0259 var\u0131b, sonra Dilar\u0259nin k\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131)\u2026<\/p>\n <\/p>\n El\u0259 o g\u00fcnd\u0259n parta yolda\u015f\u0131 olmu\u015fdular. Sinif\u2013sinif b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fckc\u0259, Esnad\u0131n di\u015fl\u0259ri d\u0259 \u00e7xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 sinfin yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 o\u011flanlar\u0131ndan biri olmu\u015fdu. H\u0259tta dey\u0259s\u0259n Dilar\u0259y\u0259 a\u015fiq d\u0259 olmu\u015fdu. B\u0259li, u\u015faql\u0131q…<\/p>\n <\/p>\n \u018fsm\u0259rl\u0259 Dilar\u0259 \u0259n yax\u0131 r\u0259fiq\u0259 idil\u0259r. Bir g\u00fcn u\u015faqlardan kims\u0259 Esnaddan Dilar\u0259y\u0259 nam\u0259 g\u0259tirmi\u015fdi. Nam\u0259d\u0259 \u0259yri, s\u0259liq\u0259siz x\u0259tl\u0259 bel\u0259 yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131:<\/p>\n \u201cDilar\u0259, bilir\u0259m, m\u0259nd\u0259n xo\u015fun g\u0259lmir. H\u0259l\u0259 biz balaca olanda di\u015fl\u0259rim\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 a\u011flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131n. M\u0259niml\u0259 oturmaq ist\u0259m\u0259mi\u015fdin. Amma m\u0259nim el\u0259 o vaxtdan s\u0259nd\u0259n xo\u015fum g\u0259lir. Anamgil d\u0259 s\u0259ni \u00e7ox ist\u0259yirl\u0259r. Allah haqq\u0131, d\u00fcz deyir\u0259m. \u0130nanm\u0131rsan, \u018fsm\u0259rd\u0259n soru\u015f. He\u00e7 kim\u0259 dem\u0259, amma m\u0259n s\u0259ni sevir\u0259m. \u018fsm\u0259r\u0259 d\u0259 dem\u0259, qurban olum. \u0130mza: Esnad\u201d.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Dilar\u0259 oxuyub q\u0131zarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. El\u0259 p\u0259rt olmu\u015fdu ki! Ona el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi, m\u0259kt\u0259bin \u0259n t\u0259rbiy\u0259siz q\u0131z\u0131 odur, ya da ham\u0131 bilir bu \u0259hvalat\u0131, bu g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra ham\u0131 ona pis baxacaq. Bu an b\u00fct\u00fcn i\u00e7i il\u0259 Esnaddan z\u0259hl\u0259si gedirdi. M\u0259ktubu c\u0131rd\u0131, sonra he\u00e7 kim oxumas\u0131n dey\u0259, ka\u011f\u0131z par\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131 cibin\u0259 qoyub h\u0259y\u0259tl\u0259rind\u0259ki zibil ye\u015fiyin\u0259 atd\u0131.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n \u0130ki parta yolda\u015f\u0131 art\u0131q bir-biri il\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n olmu\u015fdu. Dilar\u0259 onu dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131rm\u0131rd\u0131, h\u0259tta bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t \u018fsm\u0259rl\u0259 d\u0259 aras\u0131 avaz\u0131m\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n ***<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – \u00d6mray bac\u0131, bir d\u0259qiq\u0259 dayan. Burda s\u0259hf dedin. M\u0259n \u018fsm\u0259rl\u0259 ona g\u00f6r\u0259 soyuqla\u015fmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. \u018fsm\u0259r bil\u0259-bil\u0259 qarda\u015f\u0131na m\u0259ktub yazmaqda k\u00f6m\u0259k etmi\u015fdi. O m\u0259nim r\u0259fiq\u0259m idi. Bunu etm\u0259m\u0259liydi ax\u0131. H\u0259m d\u0259 \u018fsm\u0259r bu s\u00f6hb\u0259ti G\u00fcnel\u0259 d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 aram\u0131z d\u0259ymi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Ay da-a, indiki u\u015faqlar\u0131n da bel\u0259 \u00fcz\u0259 durma\u011f\u0131 olmaya da. Q\u0131z\u0131m, s\u0259n m\u0259nim q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131msan. M\u0259n s\u0259ni yarad\u0131ram, \u018fsm\u0259rl\u0259 niy\u0259 k\u00fcsd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259nd\u0259n yxa\u015f\u0131 bil\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n?<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – \u00d6mray bac\u0131, b\u0259s yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 h\u0259qiq\u0259ti dem\u0259li deyil? Ax\u0131 h\u0259qiq\u0259t m\u0259n dey\u0259n kimidi. El\u0259 dedin, guya m\u0259n kitab-zad oxumam\u0131\u015fam he\u00e7.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Onda m\u0259n susum, s\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f. Olar?<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – H\u0259 niy\u0259 olmur. M\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 aid olanlar\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcm dan\u0131\u015f\u0131m, qalanlar\u0131n\u0131 da s\u0259n yaz.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Yax\u015f\u0131, m\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 maraql\u0131d\u0131. Arada suallar verib m\u00fcdaxil\u0259 ed\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m d\u0259, h\u0259?<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Fikrimi yay\u0131nd\u0131rma amma. Bilirs\u0259n d\u0259, sual ver\u0259n kimi dem\u0259k ist\u0259dikl\u0259rim yad\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Yax\u015f\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131m, yax\u015f\u0131. (\u0130ndi g\u0259l q\u0259\u015f\u015f el\u0259m\u0259\u2026)<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – H\u0259-\u0259, oxucu, bunu m\u0259n yaz\u0131ram: Dilar\u0259. \u0130ndi m\u0259n 5-ci sinifd\u0259 yox, 11-d\u0259 oxuyuram. \u00d6mray bac\u0131 siz\u0259 m\u0259nim 5-ci sinifd\u0259ki \u0259hvalat\u0131m\u0131 yaz\u0131r. M\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, h\u0259r k\u0259s taleyin\u0259 ancaq \u00f6z\u00fc m\u00fcdaxil\u0259 ed\u0259 bil\u0259r. Ya sakit dayan\u0131b \u0259traf\u0131ndak\u0131lar\u0131n, c\u0259miyy\u0259tin s\u0259ni, taleyini idar\u0259 etm\u0259sin\u0259 izn verm\u0259lis\u0259n, ya da \u00f6z fikrin olmal\u0131d\u0131r. \u00d6z taleyini \u00f6z\u00fcn yazma\u011f\u0131 bacarmal\u0131san. Bir s\u00f6zl\u0259, fal\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n sa\u0259d\u0259t v\u0259din\u0259 \u00fcmid b\u0259sl\u0259m\u0259m\u0259lis\u0259n. \u00c7\u0259tin d\u0259 olsa, \u00f6z a\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131n izl\u0259 add\u0131mlamal\u0131san. \u0130ndi siz\u0259 \u00f6z \u0259hvalat\u0131m\u0131 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131m, y\u0259ni bu hekay\u0259nin m\u0259nim pay\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n hiss\u0259sini, qalan\u0131n m\u00fc\u0259llif \u00f6z\u00fc dan\u0131\u015far.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n \u00d6mray bac\u0131 d\u00fcz deyir, Esnad, \u0259slind\u0259, bizim sinfin \u0259n yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131s\u0131yd\u0131, amma m\u0259ni d\u0259rsl\u0259rd\u0259n ba\u015fqa n\u0259s\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcrm\u00fcrd\u00fc. H\u0259m d\u0259 o ya\u015f\u0131m deyildi ax\u0131. Anam da, qon\u015fular da kimins\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131 kimis\u0259 sev\u0259nd\u0259 onlar haqda el\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, el\u0259 bilirdim, kimis\u0259 sevm\u0259k t\u0259rbiy\u0259sizlikdir. El\u0259 bilirdim, Esnad m\u0259ni sevdis\u0259, qon\u015fular\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n dilind\u0259 art\u0131q m\u0259n olaca\u011fam bu g\u00fcnd\u0259n. H\u0259tta bir anl\u0131q utand\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan anam\u0131n h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bilm\u0259m\u0259yini g\u0259tirdim g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131na. Bilirsiz, bizd\u0259 yay gec\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 binam\u0131z\u0131n arvadlar\u0131 h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr; o ad\u0131n\u0131 da bilm\u0259diyim, bar verm\u0259y\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck a\u011fac\u0131n alt\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib gec\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259n\u0259c\u0259n s\u00f6hb\u0259t edirl\u0259r. H\u0259rd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, o a\u011fac da bunlar\u0131n dilin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bar vermir. Yoxsa onun da haqq\u0131nda olmaz\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259r dan\u0131\u015farlar. Anamla m\u0259n d\u0259 bir az dinm\u0259z-s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259z oturub, \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131q ev\u0259. Sonra anam deyirdi ki, Allah d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nimi d\u0259 bunlar\u0131n dilin\u0259 salmas\u0131n. O xalalar ne\u00e7\u0259 ail\u0259ni da\u011f\u0131d\u0131b, ne\u00e7\u0259 q\u0131z \u0259r\u0259 vermi\u015fdil\u0259r, bir bils\u0259z. M\u0259hl\u0259mizin milli m\u0259clisi idi o a\u011fac\u0131n alt\u0131. \u0130nsanlar haqda b\u00fct\u00fcn q\u0259rarlar orda verilirdi, b\u00fct\u00fcn m\u0259lumatlar orda b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Ay Dilar\u0259, hara gedib \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131n? Ax\u0131 m\u0259n, sad\u0259c\u0259, Esnadla ba\u011fl\u0131 bir \u0259hvalat\u0131 dan\u0131\u015facaqd\u0131m, v\u0259ssalam. S\u0259nin \u00fcr\u0259yin lap doluymu\u015f ki. Yeri g\u0259lmi\u015fk\u0259n, o a\u011fac\u0131n alt\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 yaman maraql\u0131 g\u0259ldi a.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – \u00d6mray bac\u0131, h\u0259, dey\u0259s\u0259n, m\u0259n d\u0259 hekay\u0259 yazacam. \u00c7\u00fcnki o q\u0259d\u0259r maraql\u0131 hekay\u0259tl\u0259r var o a\u011fac\u0131n alt\u0131nda. Bel\u0259 \u201c\u0259lini yell\u0259s\u0259n, \u0259llisi\u201d kimi. H\u0259-\u0259, davam edim m\u0259n.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n \u018fsm\u0259rd\u0259n d\u0259 ona g\u00f6r\u0259 incimi\u015fdim ki, niy\u0259 dilini dinc qoymay\u0131b. Bird\u0259n bizim m\u0259hl\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7atsa o s\u00f6z? Bir ax\u015fam da m\u0259ni m\u00fczakir\u0259y\u0259 qoysalar? Anam\u0131 t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr etdikc\u0259 d\u0259li olurdum. U\u015faql\u0131q a\u011fl\u0131. Esnadla bel\u0259 davam edirdik. K\u00fcs\u00fcl\u00fc.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Bir g\u00fcn 8 mart idi, biz d\u0259 \u018fsm\u0259rl\u0259 bar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q art\u0131q. Esnad\u00a0 q\u0131zlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131na kitab h\u0259diyy\u0259 alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259r k\u0259sin partas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu h\u0259diyy\u0259sini, birini d\u0259 m\u0259nim. U\u015faqlar\u0131 \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259ndirm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, h\u0259m d\u0259 ham\u0131ya ald\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259si oldum, amma hiss el\u0259dim ki, m\u0259nim kitab\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 var. He\u00e7 kimi duyuq salmadan kitab\u0131 i\u00e7ind\u0259kiyl\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259r \u00e7antama qoydum. Ev\u0259 \u00e7atar-\u00e7atmaz ota\u011f\u0131ma girib qap\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flad\u0131m, kitab\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131m. Aras\u0131nda uzun, balaca qutu vard\u0131. Qutunu a\u00e7d\u0131m, i\u00e7ind\u0259n \u00fcst\u00fc vilyur par\u00e7ayla \u00f6rt\u00fcl\u00fc ki\u00e7ik torba \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131; \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131l\u0131 h\u0259rifl\u0259rl\u0259 \u201cVersace\u201d yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u018flim \u0259s\u0259-\u0259s\u0259\u00a0 torban\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131m, boya-boy qa\u015flarla b\u0259z\u0259dilmi\u015f sa\u00e7 aksesuar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. \u00d6mr\u00fcmd\u0259 bel\u0259 \u015fey g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdim. \u018flimd\u0259 al\u0131\u015f\u0131b yan\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcrs\u0259n, ota\u011f\u0131 i\u015f\u0131qland\u0131rard\u0131. \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259ydi bel\u0259 bir \u015fey g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Ax\u0131 o, bunu nec\u0259 ala bil\u0259r m\u0259n\u0259? Anam\u00a0 bils\u0259, do\u011frayacaq m\u0259ni. H\u0259m d\u0259 hiss etmi\u015fdim ki, n\u0259dis\u0259, \u00e7ox bahal\u0131 \u015feydi. Tez torbas\u0131na at\u0131b, torban\u0131 da qutuya qoyub \u00e7antamda gizl\u0259tdim. Qorxumdan \u0259sir, sanki b\u00f6y\u00fck bir cinay\u0259t t\u00f6r\u0259tmi\u015f kimiydim. Nec\u0259 edim? Bunu ona nec\u0259 qaytar\u0131m? Anama deyimmi? Yox, anam bils\u0259, \u0259timi \u015fi\u015f\u0259 taxar. \u0130nanm\u0131rs\u0131z? Vallah, billah, simavallah. Ana m\u0259nimdi, b\u0259l\u0259d\u0259m d\u0259. \u201cUf\u201d bel\u0259 dem\u0259z. T\u0259k yol bunu ona bir yolla qaytarmaqd\u0131, v\u0259ssalam.<\/p>\n Sabah\u0131 d\u0259rs\u0259 d\u0259 ancaq bu fikirl\u0259 getdim. Amma n\u0259 Esnad, n\u0259 d\u0259 \u018fsm\u0259r g\u0259lmi\u015fdi d\u0259rs\u0259. Bu a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fck\u00fc \u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 ev\u0259 qaytaras\u0131 oldum. \u00c7antam \u00f6mr\u00fcnd\u0259 bel\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sanki b\u00fct\u00fcn m\u0259hl\u0259nin qad\u0131nlar\u0131 o h\u0259min a\u011facla birg\u0259 \u00e7antamda idi. H\u0259tta b\u0259z\u0259n s\u0259sl\u0259ri d\u0259 g\u0259lirdi qula\u011f\u0131ma.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Yenic\u0259 ev\u0259 \u00e7atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, paltar\u0131m\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015firdim ki, qap\u0131n\u0131n z\u0259ngi \u00e7al\u0131nd\u0131. Anam a\u00e7d\u0131, d\u0259hlizd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n s\u0259s m\u0259n\u0259 do\u011fma s\u0259s idi. \u018fsm\u0259rin s\u0259si…<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Salam xala, Dilar\u0259 evd\u0259di?<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – H\u0259, q\u0131z\u0131m, ke\u00e7in i\u00e7\u0259ri. \u0130ndic\u0259 g\u0259ldi o da, ota\u011f\u0131ndad\u0131.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Halald\u0131 da, s\u0259n d\u0259 deyirs\u0259n, q\u0131z\u0131m var. \u2013 Bu, \u018fsm\u0259rin anas\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259si idi!<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Nolub, ay G\u00fcl\u0259r? Bu n\u0259s s\u00f6zd\u00fc? Ke\u00e7 bir i\u00e7\u0259ri.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Ke\u00e7mir\u0259m, o q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r bura g\u00f6r\u00fcm, q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131!<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. \u018fsm\u0259rl\u0259 anas\u0131 d\u0259hlizd\u0259 dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. G\u00fcl\u0259r xalan\u0131 he\u00e7 bel\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdim. M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 nifr\u0259tl\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131 ki! Aman Allah, neyn\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m ax\u0131 m\u0259n?<\/p>\n <\/p>\n M\u0259ni g\u00f6rc\u0259k lap k\u00fckr\u0259di:<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – He\u00e7 utanm\u0131rsan? Ay\u0131b deyil? Q\u0131z u\u015fa\u011f\u0131san e, s\u0259nin g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yin n\u0259 olacaq, onu bilmir\u0259m. Ay q\u0131z, pis olmu\u015fam s\u0259n\u0259? Balam \u018fsm\u0259rd\u0259n bel\u0259 ay\u0131rmam\u0131\u015fam.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – G\u00fcl\u0259r, nolub ax\u0131? Bir de, m\u0259n d\u0259 bilim. Neyn\u0259yib m\u0259nim q\u0131z\u0131m?<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – H\u0259l\u0259 bir he\u00e7 n\u0259 bilmirmi\u015f kimi soru\u015fursan da? S\u0259n onu o q\u0131z\u0131n olacaq o\u011frudan soru\u015f.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – N\u0259? O\u011fru? S\u0259n n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan, G\u00fcl\u0259r?<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Bilmirs\u0259n, h\u0259? \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, bilm\u0259rs\u0259n d\u0259. Kim g\u0259lib evd\u0259 o\u011furluq etdiyini dey\u0259r ki? \u0130ndi m\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131m, s\u0259n bil. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn qabaq yolda\u015f\u0131m T\u00fcrkiy\u0259d\u0259n s\u0259f\u0259rd\u0259n g\u0259ldi. M\u0259n\u0259 8 Marta bahal\u0131, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u00e7ox bahal\u0131, \u00fcst\u00fc svarovski da\u015flarla b\u0259z\u0259dilmi\u015f sa\u00e7 sanca\u011f\u0131 alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sabah\u0131 s\u0259nin bu \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 mal-mal baxan bu q\u0131z\u0131n biz\u0259 g\u0259ldi \u018fsm\u0259rl\u0259. Dedim, u\u015faqd\u0131lar da, bu da m\u0259nim q\u0131z\u0131m. Ax\u0131 hardan bil\u0259ydim ki, bu t\u0259rbiy\u0259siz he\u00e7 vaxt m\u0259nim q\u0131z\u0131m ola bilm\u0259z?! O ged\u0259nd\u0259n sonra sancaq yoxa \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. \u0130ndi soru\u015f q\u0131z\u0131ndan, desin neyn\u0259yib onu? \u00c7antas\u0131n a\u00e7, yoxla, n\u0259 bilim, ota\u011f\u0131na-zada bax.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Anam he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259d\u0259n ota\u011f\u0131ma ke\u00e7ib \u00e7antam\u0131 g\u0259tirdi, a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b, i\u00e7ini tokd\u00fc G\u00fcl\u0259rl\u0259 \u018fsm\u0259rin qaba\u011f\u0131nda yer\u0259. H\u0259min qutu da mal yiy\u0259sini tan\u0131yan kimi d\u0131\u011f\u0131rlan\u0131b d\u00fcz G\u00fcl\u0259r xalan\u0131n aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131na getdi. G\u00fcl\u0259r xala x\u0259zin\u0259 tapm\u0131\u015f kimi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc qutunun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0259rdi, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri par\u0131ldad\u0131 v\u0259 haql\u0131 oldu\u011funu s\u00fcbut etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn daha da y\u00fcks\u0259k s\u0259sl\u0259:<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Baaxx, g\u00f6rd\u00fcn? S\u0259nin bu ibn\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n o\u011frudu, o\u011fru. G\u00f6rd\u00fcn ki? Bunun can\u0131 bir \u015fey deyil, amma q\u0131z u\u015fa\u011f\u0131d\u0131, bunun sabah\u0131 da var. \u0130ndid\u0259n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131n al, ay bac\u0131. Yoxsa bu q\u0131z s\u0259nin ba\u015f\u0131na h\u0259l\u0259 \u00e7ox oyun a\u00e7acaq\u2026<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Anam sol \u0259li il\u0259 sa\u011f \u0259linin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc ovxalaya\u2013ovxalaya: \u201c\u0130nanm\u0131ram. M\u0259nim q\u0131z\u0131m el\u0259 i\u015f tutmaz. M\u00fctl\u0259q bu i\u015fin i\u00e7ind\u0259 bir i\u015f var. Yox ki, yox, m\u0259nim q\u0131z\u0131m he\u00e7 vaxt el\u0259 \u015fey el\u0259m\u0259z\u201d, – deyirdi, ancaq \u00f6z\u00fc el\u0259 bil \u00e7ox uzaqlardayd\u0131.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Nec\u0259 y\u0259ni etm\u0259z? N\u0259 ab\u0131rs\u0131zd\u0131lar e, ay bac\u0131. G\u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcb, h\u0259l\u0259 yen\u0259 dan\u0131r da.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n M\u0259n is\u0259 a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya: \u201cM\u0259n onu o\u011furlamam\u0131\u015fam\u201d dey\u0259 bilirdim ancaq. Anam\u0131n r\u0259ngi avaz\u0131m\u0131\u015fd\u0131, niy\u0259s\u0259 el\u0259 hey sa\u011f \u0259linin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc ovxal\u0131y\u0131r, \u201cm\u0259nim q\u0131z\u0131m el\u0259m\u0259z. El\u0259m\u0259z m\u0259nim q\u0131z\u0131m. M\u00fctl\u0259q bu i\u015fin i\u00e7ind\u0259 bir i\u015f var\u201d, – deyirdi. G\u00fcl\u0259r xala is\u0259 dayanmadan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r, getm\u0259k bilmir, anam\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n o\u011furlu\u011funu boynuna almas\u0131n\u0131, ya da m\u0259ni d\u00f6ym\u0259sini g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi sanki.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Bu an qap\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcld\u00fc, qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda dayand\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn G\u00fcl\u0259r xala a\u00e7d\u0131 qap\u0131n\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 el\u0259 f\u0259r\u0259hl\u0259 a\u00e7d\u0131 ki, qoy g\u0259l\u0259n kimdis\u0259, o da g\u00f6rs\u00fcn, bilsin hadis\u0259ni, r\u00fcsvay olaq. Ancaq qap\u0131da Esnad g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc. \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259ydi ki, onu g\u00f6rm\u0259yim\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r sevinirdim.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – N\u0259di? S\u0259n n\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lmis\u0259n? Bax sinif yolda\u015f\u0131na. O\u011frudu o. Bunu bizd\u0259n o\u011furlay\u0131b. G\u0259l g\u00f6r, tan\u0131 onu.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Ana, o o\u011fru deyil…<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – K\u0259s s\u0259sini. Nec\u0259 y\u0259ni deyil? Onun \u00e7antas\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 e-e.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – B\u0259s o he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259di?<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Yox, daha n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259k?<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Ana, o\u011fru o deyil, m\u0259n\u0259m. Atam onu s\u0259n\u0259 ver\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. \u00c7ox b\u0259y\u0259nmi\u015fdim. Sonra onu hara qoydu\u011funu g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. \u00c7\u0259km\u0259c\u0259y\u0259 qoydun, ba\u011flay\u0131b, a\u00e7ar\u0131 da bo\u015f g\u00fcldan\u0131n i\u00e7in\u0259 atd\u0131n. M\u0259n 8 Martda q\u0131zlara h\u0259diyy\u0259 kitab alanda \u0259lav\u0259 pulum da qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Siz verdiyiniz m\u0259kt\u0259b pullar\u0131n\u0131 x\u0259rcl\u0259m\u0259yib y\u0131\u011fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm ki, o sancaq Dilar\u0259nin sa\u00e7\u0131nda daha g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00f6rs\u0259n\u0259r. G\u00fcldandan a\u00e7ar\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb \u00e7\u0259km\u0259c\u0259ni a\u00e7d\u0131m, y\u0131\u011fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m pulu ora qoyub qutunu g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm, Dilar\u0259y\u0259 h\u0259diyy\u0259 verdiyim kitab\u0131n i\u00e7in\u0259 qoydum.\u00a0 Bu g\u00fcn d\u0259 d\u0259rs\u0259 getm\u0259dim, bilirdim ki, g\u0259tirib qaytaracaq. Bilirdim, bilirdim qaytaraca\u011f\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n G\u00fcl\u0259r xala he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259di, qutunu da g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, p\u0259jm\u00fcrd\u0259 halda qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Anam h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 sa\u011f \u0259lini ovxalayard\u0131. Onu qucaqlad\u0131m. Sonra aralan\u0131b g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn i\u00e7in\u0259 baxd\u0131m, yen\u0259 qucaqlad\u0131m. \u0130kimiz d\u0259 a\u011flad\u0131q.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Dilar\u0259, indi s\u0259n dinl\u0259. Anan\u0131n niy\u0259 el\u0259 etdiyini m\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131m.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Dan\u0131\u015f, \u00d6mray bac\u0131.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – \u0130ll\u0259r \u00f6nc\u0259ydi. Anan da s\u0259nin kimi, s\u0259nd\u0259n d\u0259 balaca, atas\u0131z q\u0131z idi. He\u00e7 vaxt oyunca\u011f\u0131 olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn oyuncaq ya qazan qapa\u011f\u0131 olard\u0131, ya da k\u00f6hn\u0259lmi\u015f adyallar\u0131 b\u00fck\u00fcb g\u0259lincik kimi aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 yat\u0131zd\u0131rmaq. \u018fsm\u0259r kimi onun da bir r\u0259fiq\u0259si var idi. Bir g\u00fcn h\u0259min r\u0259fiq\u0259sigild\u0259 onun oyuncaqlar\u0131 il\u0259 oynay\u0131rd\u0131lar. Bird\u0259n r\u0259fiq\u0259si:<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Sevil, s\u0259n niy\u0259 oyuncaqlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259tirmirs\u0259n ki? H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 m\u0259nim oyuncaqlar\u0131mla oynay\u0131rsan, – dedi.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – M\u0259nim oyunca\u011f\u0131m yoxdu…<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Bu ayaqqablar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n? G\u00f6r n\u0259 q\u0259\u015f\u0259ngdi? Atam al\u0131b m\u0259n\u0259, amma b\u0259y\u0259nmir\u0259m. G\u00f6t\u00fcr, s\u0259n\u0259 verir\u0259m. G\u00f6t\u00fcr, \u00e7\u0259kinm\u0259, onsuz da geyinm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Sanki d\u00fcnyan\u0131 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar Sevil\u0259. U\u015faq sevinci yer\u0259-g\u00f6y\u0259 s\u0131\u011fm\u0131rd\u0131. Onun da t\u0259z\u0259 n\u0259yis\u0259 var idi. Geyinib h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, ayaqqab\u0131s\u0131na toz qonmas\u0131n dey\u0259, az qala aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yer\u0259 vurmadan g\u0259zmi\u015f, sonra da ev\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b t\u0259miz ayaqqab\u0131n\u0131 bir d\u0259 n\u0259m d\u0259smalla silib, s\u0259liq\u0259yl\u0259 c\u00fctl\u0259mi\u015fdi. Yenic\u0259 i\u015fd\u0259n d\u00f6n\u0259n anas\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki sevinci, x\u00f6\u015fb\u0259xtliyi g\u00f6r\u00fcb b\u00fct\u00fcn yor\u011funlu\u011funu, g\u00fcnd\u0259lik qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 unutmu\u015fdu. Rahatlan\u0131b yenic\u0259 oturmu\u015fdular, q\u0131z\u0131ndan bu sevincin s\u0259b\u0259bini soru\u015fmaq ist\u0259yirdi ki, qap\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc: g\u0259l\u0259n qon\u015fu q\u0131z\u0131n anas\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n \u0130ndi sonrak\u0131 s\u00f6hb\u0259ti \u00f6z\u00fcn a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259tir. Esnad\u0131n anas\u0131n\u0131n dedikl\u0259rini yad\u0131na sal.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Ayaqqablar\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcnya da, \u00e7\u0259kdiyi b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259ziyy\u0259ti d\u0259 anan\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. He\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259yib, m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi, qaz\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131 q\u0131zd\u0131r\u0131b Sevilin sa\u011f \u0259lin\u0259 da\u011f basm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Qon\u015fu qad\u0131n\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131rt\u0131 s\u0259si ay\u0131ltm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 sanki. Sevil el\u0259 \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, onun bu f\u0259ryad\u0131na d\u00fcnyan\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn haqs\u0131zl\u0131qlar\u0131 s\u0131\u011f\u0131nm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Qon\u015fu qad\u0131n pe\u015fman olmu\u015fdu:<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Bel\u0259 ed\u0259s\u0259n dey\u0259 dem\u0259dim, vallah. Q\u0131z u\u015fa\u011f\u0131d\u0131. G\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yi var ax\u0131…<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Bu ona \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fck d\u0259rs olar. S\u0259n narahat olma.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Qap\u0131n\u0131n b\u00f6yr\u00fcnd\u0259ki c\u00fctl\u0259nmi\u015f ayaqqablar da sanki utand\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sal\u0131b q\u0131zarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sevilin \u00fcr\u0259yi h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 o ayaqqab\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Qon\u015fu qad\u0131n ayaqqablar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb getdi. O g\u00fcnd\u0259n Sevil oyuncaqlara nifr\u0259tl\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131. He\u00e7 vaxt t\u0259z\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 alanda sevinmirdi, \u0259ksin\u0259, \u0259lind\u0259ki yaras\u0131 a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131. Bir d\u0259 kiminl\u0259s\u0259 dostla\u015fanda. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 yaras\u0131n\u0131n yadda\u015f\u0131 sanc\u0131r, \u201cbax, m\u0259ni yad\u0131na sal\u201d dem\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Bu g\u00fcn bu hadis\u0259 ona h\u0259min g\u00fcn\u00fc xatrlatd\u0131. \u0130ll\u0259r sonra ilk d\u0259f\u0259 sa\u011f \u0259lind\u0259ki o da\u011f bel\u0259 sancd\u0131. Sanc\u0131s\u0131 \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 vurdu. Amma o, anas\u0131n\u0131n yanl\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259krarlamad\u0131. Birc\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131ndan z\u0259li kimi yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b qalm\u0131\u015f bir c\u00fcml\u0259 qulaqlar\u0131n\u0131 de\u015firdi: \u201cAnan\u0131n taleyi q\u0131z\u0131n cehizi imi\u015f!..\u201d<\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n Xan\u0131m, el\u0259m\u0259yin<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n <\/p>\n S\u0259h\u0259r a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r, g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin il\u0131q \u015f\u00fcalar\u0131 p\u0259rd\u0259d\u0259n otaga girm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r. O, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini g\u00fccl\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131r. Ax\u015famdan qalan g\u00fccl\u00fc ba\u015fa\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 imkan vermir. G\u00f6z qapaqlar\u0131n\u0131 ay\u0131r\u0131b otaga g\u00f6z g\u0259zdirir. K\u00f6yn\u0259yi yuyulub \u00fct\u00fcl\u0259nmi\u015f halda stolun ba\u015f\u0131ndan as\u0131l\u0131, \u015falvar\u0131 t\u0259mizl\u0259nib, \u00fct\u00fcs\u00fc adam\u0131 k\u0259sir, tumbas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131k\u0259sici v\u0259 bir bardaq su, bir d\u0259 z\u0259rf var.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n Yata\u011fdan qalx\u0131r, d\u0259rman\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7ib, z\u0259rfi a\u00e7\u0131r:<\/p>\n <\/p>\n \u201c\u018fzizim, s\u0259h\u0259r yem\u0259yin m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259 haz\u0131rd\u0131, m\u0259n bazara gedib g\u0259lir\u0259m. S\u0259ni \u00e7ox sevir\u0259m\u201d.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r fikirl\u0259\u015fir, ancaq ax\u015fam\u0131 he\u00e7 \u00e7\u00fcr xat\u0131rlaya bilmir. \u00c7\u0131x\u0131b m\u0259tb\u0259xt\u0259 getm\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259hlizin da\u011f\u0131n\u0131q oldu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u00fcr. Qonaq ota\u011f\u0131na t\u0259r\u0259f gedir \u2013 ora da t\u00f6r-t\u00f6k\u00fcnt\u00fcd\u00fc, stullar a\u015f\u0131b, g\u00fcldan s\u0131n\u0131b, d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259 da\u011f\u0131n\u0131q… N\u0259 ba\u015f verdiyini anlam\u0131r, m\u0259tb\u0259xt\u0259 ke\u00e7ir. O\u011flu \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib nahar el\u0259yir. \u201cEv niy\u0259 it g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259di? M\u00fcharib\u0259-zad olub\u201d, – soru\u015fur.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n O\u011flu:<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Ata, y\u0259ni he\u00e7 n\u0259 yad\u0131nda deyil?<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Yox. N\u0259 olub ax\u0131, de g\u00f6r\u00fcm.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Ax\u015fam ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 \u00e7ox i\u00e7kiliydin. Ana qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7anda d\u0259hlizd\u0259 y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131n. Sonra anam s\u0259ni s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259-s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259 qonaq ota\u011f\u0131na g\u0259tirdi.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Sonra?<\/p>\n – Sonra s\u0259n hirsl\u0259ndin, stullar\u0131 a\u015f\u0131rtd\u0131n. Sonra qalxmaq istiy\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00fcldan\u0131 s\u0131nd\u0131rd\u0131n.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Sonra?<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Sonra qonaq otag\u0131nda qaytardn, ana t\u0259mizl\u0259di. Sonra da s\u0259ni yata\u011f\u0131na apard\u0131q.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – Anlam\u0131ram, b\u0259s bu \u00fct\u00fcl\u00fc koyn\u0259k, \u015falvar? Agrik\u0259sici\u2026 Su\u2026 Anan\u0131n yazd\u0131qlar\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n <\/p>\n – H\u0259, onu deyirs\u0259n? Biz s\u0259ni ota\u011f\u0131na apard\u0131q. Ana paltar\u0131n\u0131 \u0259ynind\u0259n c\u0131xarma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131, imkan vermirdin. Bird\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc dik\u0259ldib dedin: \u201cXan\u0131m, el\u0259m\u0259yin, m\u0259n evliy\u0259m\u201d.<\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n Yaz\u0131ya 670 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u00c7inar\u0259 \u00d6mray Ax\u015fam h\u00fccuma ke\u00e7irik Qon\u015fu arvadlar\u0131 n\u0259n\u0259min beynini doldurmu\u015fdu ki, yax\u0131nl\u0131qda yerl\u0259\u015f\u0259n fabrikin bo\u015f otaqlar\u0131ndan birin\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcn, qa\u00e7q\u0131ns\u0131n\u0131z, siz\u0259 he\u00e7 kim he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259z. Onda bibimin birotaql\u0131 ba\u011f evind\u0259 qal\u0131rd\u0131q. N\u0259n\u0259m ota\u011f\u0131 p\u0259rd\u0259 il\u0259 b\u00f6lm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Bel\u0259c\u0259, n\u0259n\u0259m ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n kimi \u201cevrika\u201d havas\u0131yla g\u0259linl\u0259ri m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259d\u0259n hal\u0131 el\u0259di: – Haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131n, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10677"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=10677"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10677\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10685,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10677\/revisions\/10685"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=10677"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=10677"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=10677"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}