{"id":10802,"date":"2016-04-05T17:54:20","date_gmt":"2016-04-05T12:54:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=10802"},"modified":"2016-04-05T17:54:20","modified_gmt":"2016-04-05T12:54:20","slug":"esmira-m%c9%99hiqizi-yasli-erm%c9%99ni-qadinin-v%c9%99hsiliyi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=10802","title":{"rendered":"Esmira M\u018fH\u0130QIZI — Ya\u015fl\u0131 erm\u0259ni qad\u0131n\u0131n v\u0259h\u015filiyi\u2026"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"Esmira_Mehiqizi\"<\/a><\/p>\n

Atam\u0131n i\u015f yerinin yan\u0131ndak\u0131 q\u0259s\u0259b\u0259d\u0259 5-6 ya\u015flar\u0131nda bir o\u011flan u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 itmi\u015fdi. K\u00fcr \u00e7ay\u0131na yax\u0131n oldu\u011fundan o u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 dal\u011f\u0131clar \u00e7ayda axtar\u0131r, qam\u0131\u015fl\u0131qda g\u0259zirdi. Bir s\u00f6zl\u0259, adamlar h\u0259r yerd\u0259 o u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 axtar\u0131rd\u0131.<\/strong><\/p>\n

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Biz onda \u00e7ox u\u015faq idik. Atam h\u0259r ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 deyirdi ki, g\u00f6zl\u0259rim h\u0259r yerd\u0259 o u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 axtar\u0131r. U\u015faqlar da bu axtar\u0131\u015fda b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u0259rd\u0259n geri qalm\u0131rd\u0131. Binam\u0131z\u0131n zirz\u0259misin\u0259 bax\u0131r, dama \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, kimin g\u00fcman\u0131 hara g\u0259lir ora g\u00f6z yetirirdi, amma u\u015faq tap\u0131lm\u0131rd\u0131. O aralar b\u00fct\u00fcn valideynl\u0259r u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 az burax\u0131r v\u0259 balalar\u0131na \u00f6zl\u0259ri n\u0259zar\u0259t edirdil\u0259r. U\u015faqlar da \u015f\u0259r qar\u0131\u015fmam\u0131\u015f ev-e\u015fiy\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131, y\u0259ni ham\u0131da bir qorxu vard\u0131. H\u0259m d\u0259 b\u0259zi nadinc u\u015faqlar\u0131 olan valideynl\u0259rin \u0259lin\u0259 gir\u0259v\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc sanki. U\u015faqlar\u0131 qorxuzurdular ki, \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 u\u015faq o\u011frusu var.<\/p>\n

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V\u0259\u2026n\u0259hay\u0259t el\u0259 bir g\u00fcn g\u0259ldi ki\u2026ham\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t b\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. He\u00e7 dem\u0259 bu it\u0259n o\u011flan u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 qon\u015fular\u0131nda ya\u015fayan qoca bir erm\u0259ni qad\u0131n\u0131 o\u011furlay\u0131b, evind\u0259 i\u015fg\u0259nc\u0259 verirmi\u015f. Siranu\u015f adl\u0131 bu qar\u0131 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u00e7arpay\u0131ya ba\u011flay\u0131b, \u00fct\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0131zd\u0131r\u0131b sin\u0259sin\u0259, k\u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 da\u011f bas\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. H\u0259m d\u0259 erm\u0259ni dilind\u0259 n\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259 dey\u0259-dey\u0259. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 o u\u015faq el\u0259c\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcb ged\u0259c\u0259kdi, he\u00e7 kim d\u0259 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n nec\u0259 oldu\u011funu bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi. \u00c7\u00fcnki\u00a0 K\u00fcrd\u0259 u\u015faq da bo\u011fulub \u00f6l\u00fcrd\u00fc, b\u00f6y\u00fck d\u0259\u2026 Bizim m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 oxuyan Allahverdi adl\u0131 o\u011flan\u0131n K\u00fcrd\u0259 bo\u011fuldu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u0259n olsa da, onun da meyidi tap\u0131lm\u0131rd\u0131 ki, tap\u0131lm\u0131rd\u0131. Y\u0259ni bu balaca o\u011flan\u0131 da ham\u0131 el\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259kdi. El\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259ydil\u0259r ki, bu u\u015faq da K\u00fcrd\u0259 ax\u0131b gedib. V\u0259 \u00fcmid ed\u0259c\u0259kdil\u0259r ki, bir g\u00fcn haradansa suyun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xacaq.<\/p>\n

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Dem\u0259k bel\u0259\u2026u\u015faqlar topla oynayan zaman ehtiyats\u0131zl\u0131q edirl\u0259r, top o erm\u0259ni qad\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259y\u0259tin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. U\u015faqlar balaca taxta hasardan hoppan\u0131b topu g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qad\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259y\u0259tin\u0259 ke\u00e7ir. Bu zaman evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131rt\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259ri e\u015fidilib. Bir u\u015faq a\u011flayaraq yalvar\u0131rm\u0131\u015f ki, el\u0259m\u0259, a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131r\u2026<\/p>\n

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U\u015faqlar\u0131 maraq p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f apar\u0131r. G\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 itkin d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n \u00e7arpay\u0131ya ba\u011fland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 Siranu\u015fun ona i\u015fg\u0259nc\u0259 verdiyini g\u00f6r\u00fcb, d\u0259rhal qa\u00e7\u0131b ham\u0131ya x\u0259b\u0259r veribl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

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Atam deyirdi ki, o qad\u0131n\u0131 \u0259l-qolunu ba\u011flay\u0131b aparanda m\u0259n d\u0259 orada idim. Qar\u0131 v\u0259h\u015fi heyvana d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. G\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc v\u0259 deyirdi ki, siz biz\u0259 genosid el\u0259misiniz, h\u0259l\u0259 bu haras\u0131d\u0131r, g\u00f6r\u00fcn biz siz\u0259 n\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yiyik.<\/p>\n

Bu da erm\u0259ni anas\u0131, erm\u0259ni n\u0259n\u0259si, erm\u0259ni xisl\u0259ti\u2026<\/p>\n

Bu da m\u0259n u\u015faq ik\u0259n erm\u0259nid\u0259n g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm v\u0259 yad\u0131mda qalan \u0259sil h\u0259yat hekay\u0259si. Erm\u0259nil\u0259r m\u0259hz bel\u0259dir. Analar\u0131 da, n\u0259n\u0259l\u0259ri d\u0259, balalar\u0131 da\u2026 Onlar humanist ola bilm\u0259z..<\/p>\n

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Demir\u0259m ki, biz erm\u0259ni u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259k. \u018fsla\u2026biz he\u00e7 onu bacarmar\u0131q da, \u00e7\u00fcnki qan\u0131m\u0131zda, can\u0131m\u0131zda bir u\u015fa\u011fa, bir qocaya \u0259l qald\u0131racaq nifr\u0259t v\u0259 q\u0259z\u0259b dolu hiss g\u00f6rm\u00fcr\u0259m.<\/p>\n

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M\u00fcharib\u0259ni d\u0259 sevmir\u0259m, amma bu olmal\u0131d\u0131r, ba\u015flamal\u0131d\u0131r, haqq\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 qaytarmal\u0131, yaral\u0131 torpaqlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n yaralar\u0131n\u0131 sar\u0131mal\u0131y\u0131q. N\u0259 Siranu\u015flara, n\u0259 Mkrt\u00e7lara, n\u0259 Xorenl\u0259r\u0259 aman olmamal\u0131d\u0131r. Zori Balayanlara, Silva Kaputikyanlara v\u0259 ne\u00e7\u0259 bel\u0259 d\u0131rnaqaeas\u0131 erm\u0259ni ziyal\u0131s\u0131na is\u0259 he\u00e7 aman yox.<\/p>\n

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Unutmayaq ki, Xocal\u0131ya bahar g\u0259lm\u0259lidir\u2026<\/p>\n

Qaraba\u011fda \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259y\u0259n a\u011faclar\u0131n qoxusu n\u0259f\u0259simiz\u0259 dolmal\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

V\u0259\u2026v\u0259\u2026v\u0259<\/p>\n

Bir a\u011fac bahardan n\u0259 ist\u0259y\u0259r ki\u2026<\/p>\n

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Yaz\u0131ya 1106 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Atam\u0131n i\u015f yerinin yan\u0131ndak\u0131 q\u0259s\u0259b\u0259d\u0259 5-6 ya\u015flar\u0131nda bir o\u011flan u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 itmi\u015fdi. K\u00fcr \u00e7ay\u0131na yax\u0131n oldu\u011fundan o u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 dal\u011f\u0131clar \u00e7ayda axtar\u0131r, qam\u0131\u015fl\u0131qda g\u0259zirdi. Bir s\u00f6zl\u0259, adamlar h\u0259r yerd\u0259 o u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 axtar\u0131rd\u0131.     Biz onda \u00e7ox u\u015faq idik. Atam h\u0259r ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 deyirdi ki, g\u00f6zl\u0259rim h\u0259r yerd\u0259 o u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 axtar\u0131r. U\u015faqlar da bu axtar\u0131\u015fda b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u0259rd\u0259n geri […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[6],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10802"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=10802"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10802\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10803,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10802\/revisions\/10803"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=10802"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=10802"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=10802"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}