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<\/a>–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 D\u00fcn\u0259n ax\u015fam \u00e7ox insan\u0131n m\u0259nas\u0131z adland\u0131ra bil\u0259c\u0259yi bir m\u00f6vzuda \u00e7ox dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131q. M\u00fczakir\u0259 etdik. M\u00fcbahis\u0259 etdik. S\u00f6hb\u0259tin ax\u0131r\u0131 \u0259m\u0259lli ba\u015fl\u0131 fikir ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na q\u0259d\u0259r gedib \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. S\u0259fa il\u0259 ne\u00e7\u0259 ildir dostluq edirdik, lakin bu q\u0259d\u0259r m\u00fcbahis\u0259 edib, h\u0259tta inci\u015fdiyimiz olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. D\u0259y\u0259rdimi anlams\u0131z bir s\u0259b\u0259b ucundan bu q\u0259d\u0259r vaxt, enerji, \u0259s\u0259b v\u0259 fikir s\u0259rf etm\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259zdi ax\u0131. Ancaq, h\u0259min ax\u015fam bunun f\u0259rqind\u0259 deyildik. \u0130kimiz d\u0259 n\u0259yin bahas\u0131na olursa olsun, dediyimizi dem\u0259k hay\u0131nda idik. \u0130kimiz d\u0259 bir birimiz\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc isbat etm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131q sanki. Biz bir- birimizi \u00e7ox ist\u0259yirdik. Bir birimizin d\u0259y\u0259rlisiydik. Ancaq, b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar, b\u0259li sadaland\u0131\u011f\u0131m b\u00fct\u00fcn amill\u0259r bir \u2013 birimizi didi\u015fdirm\u0259y\u0259, danlama\u011fa, q\u0131sqanma\u011fa, pax\u0131llama\u011fa mane olmurdu. S\u0259fa h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 – \u015eahmurad s\u0259nin daha yax\u015f\u0131 dostun var – dey\u0259rdi. M\u0259n d\u0259 ona, yox, s\u0259nin dostun m\u0259nimkind\u0259n daha yax\u015f\u0131 adamd\u0131r dey\u0259rdim. \u00dcmumilikd\u0259 biz yax\u015f\u0131 insanlar idik. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n m\u0259n, \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131 dost idim. He\u00e7 vaxt, amma he\u00e7 bir vaxt ona pislik g\u0259lm\u0259sin\u0259 yol verm\u0259zdim. Bu da t\u0259sdiq edir ki, m\u0259n ona h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 – m\u0259nim kimi sirda\u015f\u0131n var, get Allah\u0131na \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr oxu dem\u0259kl\u0259 he\u00e7 d\u0259 haqs\u0131zl\u0131q v\u0259 ya \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc b\u0259y\u0259nmi\u015flik etmirdim. Ol s\u0259b\u0259bd\u0259n ki, h\u0259r \u015fey bir yana qals\u0131n m\u0259nim kimi dostu bu zaman\u0259d\u0259 tan\u0131maq, tapmaq, qazanmaq h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n d\u0259 m\u00fc\u015fk\u00fcl i\u015fdir. Bu \u015fans h\u0259r k\u0259s\u0259 n\u0259sib olmaz. S\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn can\u0131 odur ki, d\u00fcn\u0259n ax\u015famdan b\u0259ri y\u0259ni el\u0259 indinin \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u0259 biz k\u00fcs\u00fcl\u00fcy\u00fck.\u00a0 M\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil, yazmayacam. Z\u0259ng d\u0259 etm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m.\u00a0 Qoy \u00f6z\u00fc el\u0259sin. \u00c7\u00fcnki m\u0259n d\u00fcz\u0259m. O m\u00f6vzuda m\u0259n d\u00fcz dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m. O is\u0259, inad etdi, m\u0259nas\u0131z inad\u0131n\u0131 yeridib \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 yanl\u0131\u015f dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bil\u0259 – yanl\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 yeritm\u0259yin hay\u0131nda idi. Ancaq, bir \u015fey etiraf edim, bu bizim ortaq xasiyy\u0259timizdir.<\/p>\nAmma v\u0259 lakin, n\u0259 olur olsun, bel\u0259 lap bils\u0259m ki, onunla bar\u0131\u015faraq Nobel ala bil\u0259r\u0259m. Yen\u0259 d\u0259 m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyildi. M\u0259n yazmayacam \u2013 dem\u0259yi \u00e7ox ist\u0259y\u0259rdim, lakin dey\u0259 bilmir\u0259m, \u00e7\u00fcnki Nobel \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn onu \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259 d\u0259 dirild\u0259 d\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m. \u0130ndi is\u0259 \u00f6ls\u0259 d\u0259 yazmayacam. H\u0259 budu, ya\u015f\u0131l i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 da yan\u0131r.\u00a0 Onlaynd\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259yir ki, yazam. Yazmayacam. B\u0259lk\u0259 yazam?! B\u0259sdir \u015eahmurad, b\u0259sdir, adam ol! N\u0259 yazas\u0131san ist\u0259yirs\u0259n lap sabaha q\u0259d\u0259r yans\u0131n ya\u015f\u0131l i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 yazmamal\u0131san. \u018fslind\u0259, m\u00fcbahis\u0259l\u0259r m\u0259n\u0259 bir \u015fey qazand\u0131r\u0131r. Onunla h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 dala\u015fd\u0131qdan sonra a\u011fl\u0131ma yeni- yeni \u015feyl\u0259r, zadlar g\u0259lir v\u0259 maraql\u0131 yaz\u0131lar yaz\u0131ram.
\nH\u0259 etiraf edir\u0259m. B\u0259li. Biz bir \u2013 birimizd\u0259n bu m\u0259qs\u0259d \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn istifad\u0259 edirik. O da m\u0259nd\u0259n istifad\u0259 edir. M\u0259n bizi ona g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00e7ox sevir\u0259m ki, bir \u2013 birimiz\u0259 he\u00e7 zaman yalan demirik. Ki\u015fi kimi \u0259laq\u0259miz var. \u0130stifad\u0259 ed\u0259nd\u0259 deyirik istifad\u0259 etdik. M\u0259hz buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259, t\u0259qdir\u0259layiq \u0259laq\u0259mizin oldu\u011fu q\u0259na\u0259tind\u0259y\u0259m.
\nBu n\u0259 c\u00fcml\u0259 idi qurdum. Lap bo\u015fbo\u011faz d\u00f6vl\u0259t adamlar\u0131na b\u0259nz\u0259dim. B\u0259z\u0259kli \u2013d\u00fcz\u0259kli i\u00e7i bo\u015f c\u00fcml\u0259l\u0259r qurmaqla m\u0259\u015f\u011fuldurlar. Vallah he\u00e7 q\u0259na\u0259t s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn m\u0259nas\u0131n\u0131 da bilmirl\u0259r, m\u0259n is\u0259 bilir\u0259m.
\n\u201cYa\u011f\u0131\u015f el\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, nitqim tutuldu. He\u00e7 n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fa bilm\u0259dim. \u0130\u00e7imd\u0259n bir yekexana d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 ke\u00e7di, bu \u0259nd\u0259r t\u0259bi\u0259t m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259sini v\u0259sf etm\u0259k x\u0259yal\u0131 a\u011fl\u0131mdan \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259, \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259n a\u011fl\u0131ma do\u011fru var g\u0259l ets\u0259 d\u0259, bir \u015fey al\u0131nmad\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259rimi qama\u015fd\u0131ran g\u00f6z\u0259llik, bununla kifay\u0259tl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k beynimi d\u0259 qama\u015fd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bu g\u00f6z\u0259llik beynimi o q\u0259d\u0259r keyl\u0259\u015fdirdi ki, az<\/p>\n
\u0259vv\u0259l \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 verdiyim s\u00f6z\u00fc unuttum v\u0259 ona mesaj yazd\u0131m:<\/p>\n
\u201c T\u0259cili bay\u0131ra \u00e7\u0131x, tez ol, n\u0259 i\u015fin var burax bay\u0131ra \u00e7\u0131x.\u201d\u00a0 Bir d\u0259qiq\u0259 q\u0131rx iki saniy\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015f olmas\u0131na r\u0259\u011fm\u0259n cavab g\u0259lm\u0259di. Eyvana \u00e7is\u0259l\u0259y\u0259n ya\u011f\u0131\u015f damlac\u0131qlar\u0131 telefonumun ekran\u0131na nax\u0131\u015f salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. D\u0259li q\u0131z, indi ciddi \u2013 ciddi k\u00fcsd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn cavab yazm\u0131r, ancaq \u0259min\u0259m ki, indi o da eyvandad\u0131r v\u0259 bu ecazkar s\u0259hn\u0259y\u0259 tama\u015fa edir. Y\u00fcz faiz \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b. H\u0259tta \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 m\u0259ni xat\u0131rlay\u0131b g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yir. Can\u0131m, d\u0259li dostum m\u0259nim \u2013 deyir. Kim bilir onun da beyni kilidl\u0259nib b\u0259lk\u0259. N\u0259s\u0259 yazmaq ist\u0259yir, ilhamlanmaq ist\u0259yir, lakin bacarm\u0131r. Ah n\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l, m\u0259n\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259n ilham p\u0259risi s\u0259n\u0259 he\u00e7 g\u0259lm\u0259sin q\u0259l\u0259m dostum.
\nD\u0259h\u015f\u0259t, sad\u0259c\u0259 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tverici bir g\u00f6z\u0259llikl\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131ya idim. O vaxt dilim s\u00f6z tutmasa da, indi siz\u0259 t\u0259svir ed\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m. Buludlar \u2013 q\u0131z\u0131l\u0131, b\u0259yaz v\u0259 mavi buludlar qar\u0131nlan\u0131b yer\u0259 do\u011fru sallanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. O q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259l d\u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r ki, d\u00fcnyaca m\u0259h\u015fur r\u0259ssam\u0131n f\u0131r\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131n izl\u0259rini, izl\u0259rin qoxusunu hiss ed\u0259 bilirdin. Sanki o i\u015fini yenic\u0259 bitirmi\u015fdir. Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011f\u0131r, hava a\u00e7\u0131q idi. Damc\u0131lar par- par par\u0131lday\u0131rd\u0131. Sanard\u0131n ki, g\u00f6yd\u0259n ya\u011f\u0131\u015f yox balaca i\u015f\u0131qc\u0131qlar ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 sayr\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar. \u018flimi damc\u0131lar\u0131n alt\u0131na tutdum. Ki\u00e7ik z\u0259rr\u0259 boyda i\u015f\u0131qlar \u0259limd\u0259 birl\u0259\u015fib, ovcumun i\u00e7ind\u0259 r\u0259ngl\u0259r \u015f\u0259nliyind\u0259n ibar\u0259t i\u015f\u0131q topu yarad\u0131rd\u0131. Qu\u015flar\u0131n he\u00e7 biri daldalanmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yer axtarm\u0131rd\u0131. Bu ya\u011f\u0131\u015f onlar\u0131 yenid\u0259n yarad\u0131r kimi idi.\u00a0 Bir ala qar\u011fa h\u0259y\u0259tin ortas\u0131nda da\u015f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 uzan\u0131b ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Fikir verdim, qar\u011fan\u0131n h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rind\u0259 kobudluqdan \u0259s\u0259r qalmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Biraz c\u0259hd ed\u0259r\u0259k onu b\u00fclb\u00fcl\u0259 d\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259tm\u0259k \u00e7\u0259tin olmazd\u0131.
\nM\u0259n az sonra f\u0259rqin\u0259 vard\u0131m ki, bu par\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 damc\u0131c\u0131qlar\u0131n s\u0259b\u0259bi g\u00f6y qur\u015fa\u011f\u0131 idi. B\u0259li, sehrli bir c\u00fct \u0259l g\u00f6y qur\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 undan yum\u015faq par\u00e7alay\u0131b, d\u0259n\u0259l\u0259yib dam\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n aras\u0131na s\u0259pmi\u015fdi. Bu damc\u0131lar yarpaqlar\u0131n g\u00fcll\u0259rin \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fckc\u0259 daha m\u0259ftunedici bir \u015fey ba\u015f verir, behi\u015ft qoxusu \u0259traf\u0131 a\u011fu\u015funa al\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin \u015f\u00fcalar\u0131 uzaqlara dikil\u0259n nazl\u0131 yar bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rlad\u0131rd\u0131. Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f h\u0259sr\u0259td\u0259n yor\u011fun bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 r\u0259qs\u0259 d\u0259v\u0259t edir, \u00f6z z\u00fcmz\u00fcm\u0259sinin m\u00fc\u015fay\u0259ti alt\u0131nda g\u00f6z\u0259l q\u0131z\u0131n bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 il\u0259 d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l r\u0259qsini edir. Yor\u011fun d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n dayanmas\u0131na imkan verm\u0259d\u0259n n\u00f6vb\u0259ti r\u0259qs\u0259 ke\u00e7irdi.\u00a0 \u00a0Sanki, c\u0259nn\u0259ti ovalay\u0131b yer \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rmi\u015fdil\u0259r. S\u00f6y\u00fcd a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n budaqlar\u0131ndan daml\u0131lar sapa d\u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f c\u0259vahir par\u00e7alar\u0131 kimi sallan\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130ndiy\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r he\u00e7 g\u00f6rm\u0259diyim r\u0259ngl\u0259rd\u0259 al \u2013 ya\u015f\u0131l k\u0259p\u0259n\u0259kl\u0259r u\u00e7u\u015furdu. Bir az sonra art\u0131q k\u0259p\u0259n\u0259kl\u0259r damc\u0131larla yar\u0131\u015facaq q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7ox idil\u0259r. Yox yox, k\u0259p\u0259n\u0259kl\u0259r damc\u0131larla yar\u0131\u015fm\u0131rd\u0131lar. Aman Allah\u0131m, bu nec\u0259 m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259 idi, min bir r\u0259ngd\u0259 b\u0259rq vuran damlalar yer\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fanda z\u0259r qanadl\u0131 min bir r\u0259ngli , m\u00fcxt\u0259lif \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fc k\u0259p\u0259n\u0259kl\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7evrilmi\u015fdil\u0259r. Ala pi\u015fik h\u0259y\u0259tin bir t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 iki p\u0259nc\u0259sinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qalx\u0131b ikisini yuxar\u0131 qald\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Marki ( \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f itimin balas\u0131 ) pi\u015fiy\u0259 bax\u0131r,\u00a0 g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n ya\u015f ax\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130ki ilan, elektrik dir\u0259yin\u0259 v\u0259 bir biril\u0259rin\u0259 sarma\u015f dola\u015f olmu\u015fdular. Biri ya\u015f\u0131l, dig\u0259ri is\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131l\u0131 r\u0259ngd\u0259 idi.
\nBird\u0259n ilan vurmu\u015fa d\u00f6nd\u00fcm, bu ba\u015f ver\u0259nl\u0259r, t\u0259bi\u0259tin bu hal\u0131?!<\/p>\n
\u201c Aman Tanr\u0131m. Allah\u0131m bu s\u0259ns\u0259n, s\u0259ns\u0259n Allah\u0131m. N\u0259hay\u0259t ki, n\u0259hay\u0259t ki g\u0259ldin! Allah\u0131m n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r dinl\u0259ndirdin ruhumu. Allah\u0131m n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259ls\u0259n! Bilirdim, bir g\u00fcn g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yini bilirdim m\u0259n, ya\u011f\u0131\u015fla g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 \u0259min idim. T\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr edir\u0259m Allah\u0131m, n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki g\u0259ldin! N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki, hiss ettim s\u0259ni! B\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131ma i\u015fl\u0259din. Allah\u0131m s\u0259n nec\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259ls\u0259n! Sevgiy\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259yirs\u0259n, c\u0259nn\u0259td\u0259n d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259ls\u0259n Tanr\u0131m, s\u0259n biz\u0259 v\u0259d edil\u0259n c\u0259nn\u0259td\u0259n d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259ls\u0259n! Sevir\u0259m s\u0259ni Allah\u0131m, hiss edir\u0259m v\u0259 sevir\u0259m s\u0259ni! Bu q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259l d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259mi\u015fdim s\u0259ni, bu q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259miz, sevinc dolu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259mi\u015fdim s\u0259ni. Allah\u0131m, bax bax g\u00f6r \u00fcr\u0259yim sin\u0259min divarlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131b bay\u0131ra \u00e7\u0131xmaq ist\u0259yir, o da s\u0259ni ya\u015famaq ist\u0259yir. Yen\u0259 g\u0259l Allah\u0131m! L\u00fctf\u0259n, s\u0259n\u0259 and verir\u0259m i\u00e7imd\u0259 do\u011furdu\u011fun hissl\u0259r\u0259 yen\u0259 g\u0259l ! S\u0259fa, g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n S\u0259fa da g\u00f6r\u0259 bildimi? \u201c<\/em><\/p>\n Telefonum yox olmu\u015fdu. \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri girdim, ev telefonundan z\u0259ng vurdum cavab verm\u0259di.\u00a0 \u0130nternetd\u0259n S\u0259faya yazd\u0131m. T\u0259cili cavab ver \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259m s\u0259ni, g\u00f6rd\u00fcnm\u00fc olanlar\u0131? S\u0259fa yax\u015f\u0131 s\u0259n d\u00fcz idin cavab ver m\u0259n\u0259… Yen\u0259 d\u0259 m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmad\u0131. D\u0259li dostumdan he\u00e7 bir \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 s\u0259s \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131. Bay\u0131ra \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. Getm\u0259mi\u015fdi. O m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259m varl\u0131q h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 yer \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ydi. K\u0259p\u0259n\u0259kl\u0259rin r\u0259ngi g\u00f6z al\u0131rd\u0131. N\u0259 is\u0259, l\u0259n\u0259t \u015feytana deyib, q\u0259l\u0259mimi \u0259lim\u0259 ald\u0131m, mil\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 fikir verm\u0259d\u0259n, bir g\u00f6z\u00fcm bay\u0131rda yazma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m. D\u0259qiq xat\u0131rlam\u0131ram ancaq, dey\u0259s\u0259n z\u0259ncil\u0259rl\u0259 v\u0259 irqi ayr\u0131se\u00e7kilikl\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 yaz\u0131rd\u0131m. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r vaxt ke\u00e7di bilmir\u0259m, bir d\u0259 S\u0259fan\u0131n s\u0259ni qula\u011f\u0131ma g\u0259ldi.\u00a0 Ad\u0131m\u0131 onun dilind\u0259n hardasa buralarda e\u015fidirdim. Sanki p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lday\u0131rd\u0131. Bay\u0131ra \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. Tanr\u0131y\u0131 n\u0259f\u0259siml\u0259 birlikd\u0259 i\u00e7im\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdim. S\u0259s yen\u0259 qula\u011f\u0131mda idi. S\u0259fa idi v\u0259 ona qulaq asmam\u0131 ist\u0259yirdi. Yaz\u0131ya 835 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" (hekay\u0259) –\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 D\u00fcn\u0259n ax\u015fam \u00e7ox insan\u0131n m\u0259nas\u0131z adland\u0131ra bil\u0259c\u0259yi bir m\u00f6vzuda \u00e7ox dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131q. M\u00fczakir\u0259 etdik. M\u00fcbahis\u0259 etdik. S\u00f6hb\u0259tin ax\u0131r\u0131 \u0259m\u0259lli ba\u015fl\u0131 fikir ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na q\u0259d\u0259r gedib \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. S\u0259fa il\u0259 ne\u00e7\u0259 ildir dostluq edirdik, lakin bu q\u0259d\u0259r m\u00fcbahis\u0259 edib, h\u0259tta inci\u015fdiyimiz olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. D\u0259y\u0259rdimi anlams\u0131z bir s\u0259b\u0259b ucundan bu q\u0259d\u0259r vaxt, enerji, \u0259s\u0259b v\u0259 fikir […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10980"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=10980"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10980\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":10981,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/10980\/revisions\/10981"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=10980"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=10980"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=10980"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
\nBird\u0259n bir v\u0131z\u0131lt\u0131 e\u015fitdim. Bir mil\u00e7\u0259k. \u018fliml\u0259 qovalad\u0131m v\u0259 getdiyini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri daxil oldum. Oturub yazmaq ist\u0259yirdim. N\u0259s\u0259 yazmal\u0131yd\u0131m. Mil\u00e7\u0259k d\u0259 m\u0259niml\u0259 daxil oldu. Qovalamaq ist\u0259dim. Sonra bay\u0131rdak\u0131 c\u0259nn\u0259t i\u00e7im\u0259 r\u0259hm yayd\u0131. \u018fs\u0259bim yox oldu. Yax\u015f\u0131 amma, bu ona g\u0259lib qula\u011f\u0131m\u0131n dibind\u0259 v\u0131z\u0131ldamaq haqq\u0131n\u0131 vermirdi ax\u0131.<\/p>\n
\n\u0130\u00e7\u0259ri daxil olub yazma\u011fa davam ettim. Hiss eledim ki, S\u0259fan\u0131n s\u0259si qula\u011f\u0131ma n\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lday\u0131r v\u0259 m\u0259n yaz\u0131rd\u0131m. Mil\u00e7\u0259k ota\u011f\u0131mdan getmirdi. Ax\u015fam\u00fcst\u00fc h\u0259r \u015fey \u0259vv\u0259lki hal\u0131na qay\u0131tm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Tanr\u0131 yen\u0259 d\u0259 bizi t\u0259rk etmi\u015fdi.
\nO g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra S\u0259fadan he\u00e7 x\u0259b\u0259r \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131. B\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6lk\u0259 polisi onu axtar\u0131rd\u0131. Lakin, s\u0259da soraq yox idi. Yazd\u0131m. Yazd\u0131m. Tam 4 ay 18 g\u00fcn gec\u0259l\u0259r boyu yazd\u0131m. S\u0259fan\u0131n s\u0259si qulaqlar\u0131ma p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lday\u0131rd\u0131. Son g\u00fcn anlad\u0131m ki, S\u0259fan\u0131n s\u0259si deyildi, qulaqlar\u0131mdak\u0131, d\u0259li dostum mil\u00e7\u0259k olmu\u015fdu. Onunla bir il \u0259vv\u0259l bu bar\u0259d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131b zarafatla\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q. \u0130nana bilmir\u0259m ger\u00e7\u0259k olmu\u015fdu. Qula\u011f\u0131ma aylard\u0131r p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldayan, diqt\u0259siyl\u0259 yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m, m\u0259niml\u0259 eyni qabdan yem\u0259k yey\u0259n, eyni bardaqdan su i\u00e7\u0259n, r\u0259hmim\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131b gec\u0259l\u0259r g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 yatan S\u0259fa idi.\u00a0 \u00c7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131m yan\u0131ma, niy\u0259 m\u0259niml\u0259 dala\u015fm\u0131rsan, niy\u0259 s\u0259n oldu\u011funu demirs\u0259n ay inad insan dey\u0259 \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131m. Anam h\u00f6vlank ota\u011fa daxil oldu. Qad\u0131n i\u015far\u0259t barma\u011f\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qonmu\u015f mil\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 r\u0259ngi qa\u00e7d\u0131. Y\u00fcz faiz d\u0259li olma\u011fa haz\u0131rla\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Onsuz da anam, S\u0259fa il\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259min alt\u0131nda bir sevgi axtarm\u0131\u015f, indi d\u0259 onun yoxlu\u011fundan ota\u011fa qapanm\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fumu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u00c7\u0131x yax\u015f\u0131yam ana \u2013 dey\u0259 ona \u00e7\u0259mkirdim. S\u0259fa cavab vermirdi. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 dili m\u0259ni par\u00e7alayan q\u0131z indi yaln\u0131z hekay\u0259l\u0259r p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lday\u0131rd\u0131. Par\u00e7a \u2013 par\u00e7a p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lday\u0131r v\u0259 m\u0259n birl\u0259\u015fdirib yaz\u0131rd\u0131m. \u00c7ox \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Onun inad\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131b dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131ra bilm\u0259dim. Bir vaxtdan sonra tamamlanm\u0131\u015f v\u0259 insanlar\u0131 \u015foka salan, \u00e7ox b\u0259y\u0259nil\u0259n roman\u0131m Nobel\u0259 namiz\u0259d g\u00f6st\u0259rildi. \u00c7ox ke\u00e7m\u0259d\u0259n roman\u0131m \u00e7\u0259tinlik \u00e7\u0259km\u0259d\u0259n r\u0259qibl\u0259ri aras\u0131ndan s\u0131yr\u0131laraq m\u00fckafat\u0131 qazand\u0131. \u00d6lk\u0259md\u0259ki b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259d\u0259bi m\u00fckafatlar\u0131, \u00f6lk\u0259md\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131nan b\u00fct\u00fcn alq\u0131\u015flar\u0131 qazand\u0131m. S\u0259fa gah cibimd\u0259, gah \u00e7iynimd\u0259, gah sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131nda dola\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.
\nG\u00fcn g\u0259lib \u00e7atd\u0131, Nobel nitqi s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259li oldu\u011fumu dedil\u0259r. He\u00e7 bel\u0259 bir \u015fey\u0259 haz\u0131rla\u015fmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Axmaqd\u0131rlar. O q\u0259d\u0259r yazm\u0131\u015fam, bir d\u0259 bunlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dan\u0131\u015fmal\u0131yam ?! N\u0259 edim n\u0259 edim, dey\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259ni s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcb s\u0259hn\u0259y\u0259 sald\u0131lar. Alq\u0131\u015flar d\u0259nizin \u015faha qalxan dal\u011fas\u0131n\u0131 an\u0131msad\u0131rd\u0131.
\nBu da m\u0259nim Nobel nitqim : \u201c D\u00fcnyam\u0131z\u0131 sevm\u0259liyik. D\u00fcnyam\u0131z\u0131 sevm\u0259y\u0259 mil\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259ri qorumaqla ba\u015flamal\u0131y\u0131q\u201d.
\nBa\u015f\u0131m\u0131 yell\u0259m\u0259kl\u0259 nitqin bitdiyini,\u00a0 alq\u0131\u015flar g\u00f6zl\u0259diyimi bildirm\u0259k ist\u0259dim. Bir az gec olsa da ba\u015f tutdu. M\u0259ni ayaqda alq\u0131\u015flad\u0131lar. S\u0259ma sa\u011f \u00e7iynimd\u0259, savablar\u0131m\u0131 yazan m\u0259l\u0259kl\u0259 yan-yana oturmu\u015fdu. Ona bax\u0131b g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259dim. M\u00fckafat\u0131 b\u0259rk- b\u0259rk s\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. \u201c
\nEll\u0259rim t\u0259rl\u0259mi\u015fdi. O q\u0259d\u0259r s\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m ki, telefonun izi \u0259limin i\u00e7in\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. 2 yeni mesaj. S\u0259fadan. Mesaj m\u0259tni \u201cg\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259nmi m\u0259n haql\u0131yd\u0131m. Bax- bax divara bax, saat ne\u00e7\u0259dir, v\u0259 s\u0259n bu mesaj\u0131 s\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7atan saatdan da Allah bilir n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r sonra oxuyacaqsan. Dem\u0259li, m\u0259n haql\u0131 idim\u201d
\n\u0130kinci mesaj. Yen\u0259 S\u0259fadan: \u201c \u0130ndi ilk m\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 yazd\u0131m dey\u0259 d\u0259, yek\u0259xanalan\u0131b yay\u0131lma oralara.\u201d
\nCavab yazd\u0131m: \u201c S\u0259ni \u00e7ox, lap \u00e7ox ist\u0259yir\u0259m, m\u0259nim ilham mil\u00e7\u0259yim…\u201d \u00a0Bu s\u00f6zd\u0259n sonra s\u0259fa m\u0259ni \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259k. Amma, p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131qlar\u0131 il\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 roman yazmaq olard\u0131 …<\/p>\n