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\"13996157_1771646869770491_7866455228639968168_o\"<\/a>(\u0130rad\u0259 Aytelin “Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla” \u00a0\u015feirl\u0259r kitab\u0131ndan sonra…)
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…O \u015feird\u0259 a\u011fu\u015funda\u00a0<\/em><\/strong>
\ntir-tir \u0259s\u0259n b\u0259d\u0259nimi,<\/em><\/strong>
\nO d\u0259lic\u0259 \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnl\u0259\u00a0<\/em><\/strong>
\nyormaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn.<\/em><\/strong>
\nO \u015feird\u0259 sevim s\u0259ni \u0259vv\u0259lki t\u0259k<\/em><\/strong>
\nO \u015feird\u0259 s\u0259nin olum.<\/em><\/strong>Bu misralar \u0130rad\u0259 Aytelin \u201cBa\u011f\u0131\u015fla\u201d (Bak\u0131-2015) kitab\u0131ndak\u0131 \u201c\u015eeir yazmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m\u201d adl\u0131 \u015feirind\u0259n n\u00fcmun\u0259dir.
\nM\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t m\u00f6vzusu yazarlar\u0131n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 m\u00fcraci\u0259t etdiyi m\u00f6vzudur. \u0130rad\u0259nin m\u0259h\u0259b-b\u0259t m\u00f6vzusunda yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259r \u2013 ist\u0259r n\u0259sr olsun, ist\u0259r n\u0259zm tamamil\u0259 f\u0259rql\u0259nir. \u0130rad\u0259 c\u0259sar\u0259tli q\u0259l\u0259m sahibidir. M\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t m\u00f6vzusunda yazanlar \u2013 x\u00fcsus\u0259n d\u0259 qad\u0131n yazarlar evin (m\u00f6vzunun) qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n kandar\u0131na (qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na) kimi g\u0259lirl\u0259r, amma c\u0259sar\u0259t edib i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7\u0259 bilmirl\u0259r. \u0130rad\u0259 is\u0259 c\u0259sar\u0259tlidir, ictimai q\u0131naqdan qorxub \u00e7\u0259kinmir v\u0259 birba\u015fa qap\u0131dan i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7ir.
\n\u0130rad\u0259 Aytelin h\u00fcdudsuz hiss v\u0259 duy\u011fular\u0131 s\u0259rh\u0259d tan\u0131m\u0131r. S\u0259rh\u0259d tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn q\u0131na\u011fa v\u0259 kinay\u0259li bax\u0131\u015flara rast g\u0259lir.
\n\u0130rad\u0259 yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda h\u0259yat h\u0259qiq\u0259tl\u0259rin\u0259 daha \u00e7ox sadiqlik \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6st\u0259rir. Bu h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259, reall\u0131\u011fa s\u00f6yk\u0259nm\u0259kl\u0259 oxucunun saqq\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259har\u0259tl\u0259 o\u011furlay\u0131b, onu labirintin\u0259 sala bilir. Oxucu is\u0259 uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t duy\u011fular\u0131n g\u00f6z\u0259lliyinin cazib\u0259sind\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259lib labirintd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f yolu bar\u0259d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259k bel\u0259 ist\u0259mir. Bax, burada poeziya yaran\u0131r. B\u00f6y\u00fck rus t\u0259nqid\u00e7isi V.Q.Belinski deyir: \u201cB\u0259dii \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259rd\u0259 t\u0259qdim edil\u0259n h\u0259yat\u0131n pisliyi d\u0259, yax\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 da eyni d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259ldir, zira o h\u0259qiq\u0259tdir. H\u0259qiq\u0259t harada is\u0259 poeziya da oradad\u0131r\u201d .Yad\u0131ndam\u0131,<\/strong><\/em>
\n\u201cSevir\u0259m\u201d k\u0259lm\u0259sini<\/strong><\/em>
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rin s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259rdi,<\/strong><\/em>
\nDodaqlar\u0131n,<\/strong><\/em>\u00d6p\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rin,
\nEhtiras\u0131n s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259rdi.
\n(\u201cYad\u0131ndam\u0131\u201d s\u0259h.76)\"S\u018fRH\u018fDS\u0130Z<\/a><\/p>\n

H\u0259qiq\u0259t budur. Bu hissl\u0259r ham\u0131ya ta\u00acn\u0131\u015fd\u0131r. Onda sual olunur: \u015fairi n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn q\u0131nay\u0131rlar? \u018fn \u00e7ox da \u201c\u00d6l\u00fcm g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k\u201d \u015feirin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259… Bu \u015feird\u0259 \u015fair b\u00f6\u00acy\u00fck bir povestin material\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259har\u0259tl\u0259 53 misra v\u0259 2 s\u0259hif\u0259d\u0259 ver\u0259 bilib. Arxas\u0131nca s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259n bahal\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131na oturan qad\u0131n ma\u015f\u0131n sahibi il\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f olur. H\u0259tta yalanlar da uydurur, \u201c\u0259rim m\u0259ni at\u0131b\u201d, \u201canam x\u0259st\u0259dir\u201d deyir. Yalan dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259qiq\u0259t qad\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr.
\nH\u0259r bir insan\u0131n i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 bir h\u0259qiq\u0259t var. H\u0259min h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259n\u0259n \u015fair oxu-cusunu qad\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7 d\u00fcnyas\u0131 il\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f edir. Oteld\u0259 \u201cdolu \u015f\u0259rab butulkalar\u0131n\u0131 bo\u015faltd\u0131qca dey\u0259n, g\u00fcl\u0259n sevin\u0259nin bir azdan faci\u0259si ba\u015flay\u0131r. Ki\u015finin kobud \u0259ll\u0259ri qad\u0131n\u0131n dara\u011fa bel\u0259 q\u0131sqand\u0131\u011f\u0131 tell\u0259rin\u0259 toxunduqca tell\u0259ri g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. \u0130yl\u0259n\u0259n, qoxuyan n\u0259f\u0259si yanaqlar\u0131na, bo\u011faz\u0131na, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259, g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 toxunduqca, qad\u0131n\u0131n varl\u0131 ki\u015finin vars\u0131z b\u0259d\u0259nin\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259n \u0259ll\u0259ri, sevgi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ar-\u00e7at olan dodaqlar\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr.
\nHissl\u0259rin\u0259 hakim ola bilm\u0259y\u0259n oxucu qad\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131na g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 t\u00f6k\u00fcr. \u015e\u0259rab\u0131n t\u0259siri il\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcb, sevin\u0259n qad\u0131n h\u0259qiq\u0259t duy\u011fusundan yaxa qurtara bilmir. T\u0259dric\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc itir\u0259n qad\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn intim duy\u011fular\u0131n\u0131 oxucu g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 soyundurur:<\/p>\n

Sonra…
\nAyaqlar\u0131m
\nBahal\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n
\nVarl\u0131 sahibinin
\nsol \u00e7iynini bir az da \u0259y\u0259c\u0259k,
\nQ\u0131\u015fq\u0131racam,
\n\u0130nl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m,
\nHayq\u0131racam.
\nSonra…
\nBahal\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n
\nVarl\u0131 sahibinin bahal\u0131
\nsiqaretini yand\u0131r\u0131b
\nEyn\u0259n onun kimi \u00e7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259m.
\nCiy\u0259rl\u0259rim (el\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm kimi)
\n\u0130lk g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc a\u011fu\u015funa alacaq.
\nAy\u0131lacam v\u0259…
\n\u00d6z\u00fcm g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259m.
\nAh… n\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l!
\nUraaaa!!!!
\n\u00d6l\u00fcm g\u00f6z\u00fcmn\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k!<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

\u0130rad\u0259nin duy\u011fular\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259rh\u0259dsiz oldu\u011funu g\u00f6rd\u00fck. Do\u011frudan intim duy\u011fular \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0131lpaqcas\u0131na verilibdir. Amma g\u00f6z\u0259l, \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l bir \u0259s\u0259r yarad\u0131l\u0131bd\u0131r. Etiraf ed\u0259k ki, bu, \u0130rad\u0259nin q\u0259l\u0259minin ecazkarl\u0131\u011f\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Uzun sa\u00e7\u0131n qucaqlay\u0131b, t\u00f6k\u00fcb q\u0259ddi-<\/strong><\/em>
\nb\u00fcl\u0259ndind\u0259n,<\/strong><\/em>
\nT\u00f6k\u00fcb misli-b\u0259n\u0259v\u015f\u0259 iyl\u0259m\u0259k h\u0259r bir\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>
\nk\u0259m\u0259ndind\u0259n.<\/strong><\/em>
\nYaxas\u0131n \u00e7ak edib, k\u00f6ks\u00fcn \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>
\nba\u011fu b\u0259ndind\u0259n,<\/strong><\/em>
\n\u018fmib doyunca \u015firin a\u011f m\u0259m\u0259nin\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>
\n\u015f\u0259hdi-q\u0259ndind\u0259n,<\/strong><\/em>
\nQoyub bir l\u0259hz\u0259 ba\u015f, yatmaq\u00a0<\/strong><\/em>
\ngiriban\u0131n buca\u011f\u0131nda.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

Yaxud:<\/p>\n

Yaxas\u0131n\u0131n ba\u011f\u00fc b\u0259ndin \u00fcz\u0259s\u0259n,<\/strong><\/em>
\n\u00c7\u0259ng\u0259l\u0259yib a\u011f m\u0259m\u0259sin \u0259z\u0259s\u0259n,<\/strong><\/em>
\n\u018fl uzad\u0131b ba\u015f b\u0259z\u0259yin pozasan,<\/strong><\/em>
\nH\u0259r birin bir yana atasan d\u00fcr\u00fcst.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

V\u0259 yaxud:<\/p>\n

Vaqif deyir, yalvar yara, k\u00f6nl\u00fcn al,<\/strong><\/em>
\nBir bus\u0259 dil\u0259yib, boynuna qol sal,<\/strong><\/em>
\nAra x\u0259lv\u0259t ik\u0259n etm\u0259 qeyl\u00fc-qal,<\/strong><\/em>
\nTez ol, \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 can\u0131m, naz vaxt\u0131 deyil.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

Nec\u0259 ola bilir ki, XVIII \u0259srd\u0259 M.P.Vaqif bu c\u00fcr intim \u015feirl\u0259ri il\u0259 bir \u0259d\u0259bi m\u0259kt\u0259b yarada bilir v\u0259 ham\u0131 onu sev\u0259-sev\u0259 oxuyur, t\u0259bli\u011f edir, amma \u0130rad\u0259 Aytel\u0259 dodaq b\u00fcz\u00fcrl\u0259r. \u00dc\u00e7 \u0259sr bundan \u00f6nc\u0259 Vaqifin \u015feirl\u0259ri il\u0259 m\u00fcqayis\u0259d\u0259 XXI \u0259srd\u0259 \u0130rad\u0259 Aytel ism\u0259tli deyir. \u0130ntibah d\u00f6vr\u00fcn\u00fcn dahi r\u0259ssamlar\u0131 Rembrandt\u0131n \u201cDanaya\u201d, Velaskesin \u201cVenera g\u00fczg\u00fcy\u0259 baxark\u0259n\u201d, Busenin \u201cT\u0259s\u0259lli ver\u0259n Venera\u201d, Tintorettonun \u201cS\u00fcd yolunun yaranmas\u0131\u201d r\u0259sm \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259rind\u0259 t\u0259svir olunan \u00e7\u0131lpaq qad\u0131n \u015f\u0259kill\u0259ri d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259v\u0259zsiz s\u0259n\u0259t \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259ri hesab oluna bilir v\u0259 t\u0259rbiy\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259nfi t\u0259sir g\u00f6st\u0259rmir, amma \u0130rad\u0259nin yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 real t\u0259svirl\u0259rd\u0259 \u00e7oxlar\u0131 q\u00fcsur axtar\u0131r.
\nQay\u0131daq do\u011fma m\u00f6vzumuza. \u0130rad\u0259nin poeziyas\u0131nda yarad\u0131lm\u0131\u015f qad\u0131n \u201csur\u0259tl\u0259ri\u201d \u2013 lirik m\u0259nl\u0259rin ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 bir x\u0259tt \u0259traf\u0131nda birl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fcr. Bu qad\u0131nlar\u0131n \u00e7oxu \u201c\u00d6l\u00fcm g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k\u201d \u015feirind\u0259ki obraz kimi tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131 adamla gedib \u0259yl\u0259nir, kef \u00e7\u0259kir v\u0259 sonra pe\u015fman olur, \u00f6z\u00fc \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 nifr\u0259t edir, \u00f6z\u00fc \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n iyr\u0259nir. Burada oxucu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir m\u0259qam qaranl\u0131q qal\u0131r; bu qad\u0131n\u0131 yad ki\u015fil\u0259rin qoynuna atan ehtirasd\u0131r, yoxsa ehtiyacd\u0131r? M\u00fc\u0259llif bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 toxunmur. Bel\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcl\u00fcr ki, bu qad\u0131nlar ehtiraslar\u0131n\u0131n \u0259siridirl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Evli ki\u015fini sevm\u0259k<\/em><\/strong>
\n\u0130st\u0259yin\u0259 kor olmaq,<\/em><\/strong>
\nOnun a\u011fu\u015fundaca<\/em><\/strong>
\nDar\u0131ld\u0131qca dar\u0131lmaq,<\/em><\/strong>
\nQ\u0131naqlardan,<\/em><\/strong>
\nQorxulardan qa\u00e7a-qa\u00e7a<\/em><\/strong>
\n\u00d6z i\u00e7ind\u0259 itm\u0259kdir.<\/em><\/strong>
\nEvli ki\u015fini sevm\u0259k<\/em><\/strong>
\nSon n\u0259f\u0259sini bel\u0259 ver\u0259mm\u0259y\u0259n<\/em><\/strong>
\nX\u0259st\u0259nin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 p\u0259nah\u0131,<\/em><\/strong>
\nBir qad\u0131n\u0131n ah\u0131,<\/em><\/strong>
\nB\u0259d\u0259nini vicdan\u0131ndak\u0131<\/em><\/strong>
\nA\u011fr\u0131ya satmaq,<\/em><\/strong>
\nEvli ki\u015fini sevm\u0259k<\/em><\/strong>
\nDiri-diri \u00f6lm\u0259k,<\/em><\/strong>
\n\u00d6lm\u0259k…<\/em><\/strong>
\n\u00d6lm\u0259kdir!<\/em><\/strong>
\n(\u201cEvli ki\u015fini sevm\u0259k\u201d)<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

C\u0259miyy\u0259td\u0259 ba\u015f al\u0131b ged\u0259n bu c\u00fcr intim duy\u011fular\u0131 \u00e7oxlar\u0131 g\u00f6rs\u0259 d\u0259, ya yan\u0131ndan laqeydc\u0259sin\u0259 ke\u00e7ir, ya da \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 c\u0259sar\u0259t tap\u0131b dey\u0259 bilmir. Burada \u0130rad\u0259 c\u0259sar\u0259ti dada yeti\u015fir. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 nec\u0259 yeni tap\u0131nt\u0131larla, yeni t\u0259\u015fbehl\u0259rl\u0259…<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00d6zg\u0259 \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u0259 nax\u0131\u015f olaraq<\/em><\/strong>
\n\u00d6z \u00f6mr\u00fcnd\u0259 \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcm\u0259k…<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259l deyilib.\u00a0<\/em><\/strong>
\n\u201cBir gec\u0259lik ov\u201d \u015feirind\u0259 at\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir qa\u00acd\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcsyan\u0131n\u0131 \u2013 qisas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u00fck.\u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Ay adamlar,<\/em><\/strong>
\nAy ki\u015fil\u0259r!<\/em><\/strong>
\nSevgilim m\u0259ni at\u0131b!<\/em><\/strong>
\nG\u0259lin,<\/em><\/strong>
\nG\u0259lin as\u0131n m\u0259ni \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259n!<\/em><\/strong>
\nB\u0259d\u0259nimi nu\u015f eyl\u0259yin!<\/em><\/strong>
\nSa\u00e7lar\u0131mda tumar izi,<\/em><\/strong>
\nDoda\u011f\u0131mda h\u0259rar\u0259t var…<\/em><\/strong>
\n…Nu\u015f eyl\u0259yin sevgilimin<\/em><\/strong>
\n\u00fcrk\u0259k-\u00fcrk\u0259k<\/em><\/strong>
\nToxundu\u011fu b\u0259d\u0259ni d\u0259.<\/em><\/strong>
\nParam-par\u00e7a edin m\u0259ni<\/em><\/strong>
\nAc qurd kimi<\/em><\/strong>
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259riniz par\u0131ldas\u0131n bir tik\u0259lik,<\/em><\/strong>
\nBir gec\u0259lik ov \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259<\/em><\/strong>
\n…\u00dcr\u0259yim\u0259 ba\u015f qo\u015fmay\u0131n!<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Qad\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259n a\u011f\u0131r c\u0259za sevdiyi adam t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n at\u0131lmas\u0131d\u0131r. Ehtiras alovunda q\u0131vr\u0131lan qad\u0131n sevgilisinin \u00fcrk\u0259k-\u00fcrk\u0259k toxundu\u011fu b\u0259d\u0259ninin \u015f\u0259rab kimi i\u00e7ilm\u0259sini ist\u0259yir. \u201cG\u00f6zl\u0259riniz par\u0131ldas\u0131n bir tik\u0259lik, bir gec\u0259lik ov \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259\u201d misralar\u0131 oxucu g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 savannalarda \u015firl\u0259rin k\u00f6rp\u0259 \u0259likl\u0259ri par\u00e7alayandan sonra dili il\u0259 dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131 yalad\u0131qdan sonra g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin m\u0259\u015f\u0259l kimi yanmas\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. Sonda \u201c…\u00dcr\u0259yim\u0259 ba\u015f qo\u015fmay\u0131n!\u201d dem\u0259si il\u0259 pe\u015fman\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bildirir bir az bundan \u0259vv\u0259l ba\u015fqalar\u0131n\u0131n quca\u011f\u0131na at\u0131lma\u011fa haz\u0131r qad\u0131n. \u00c7\u00fcnki dili il\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yi ortaq m\u0259xr\u0259c\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259 bilmir. \u00dcr\u0259k m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tin\u0259 sadiqdir. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 deyir ki, \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 ba\u015f qo\u015fmay\u0131n.
\n\u015eeird\u0259 \u0130rad\u0259nin ehtiras\u0131 il\u0259 yarad\u0131c\u0131 t\u0259f\u0259kk\u00fcr\u00fc bir-birini tamamlay\u0131r. \u0130rad\u0259nin \u015feirl\u0259rind\u0259 at\u0131lan qad\u0131n d\u0259li bir ehtirasla x\u0259yan\u0259ti il\u0259 qisas al\u0131r v\u0259 ay\u0131l\u0131b \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 pe\u015fman\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q hissi ke\u00e7irir. Maraql\u0131d\u0131r ki, \u0130rad\u0259nin qad\u0131nlar\u0131na nifr\u0259t etm\u0259k olmur. Adam h\u0259min qad\u0131nla birg\u0259 onun d\u0259rdin\u0259 \u015f\u0259rik \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r v\u0259 sonda qad\u0131n\u0131n pe\u015fman\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 t\u00f6k\u00fcr.
\nAx\u0131 n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn sev\u0259n bir qad\u0131n\u0131n taleyi b\u0259xt \u00fcz\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc G\u0259nc\u0259 \u00e7ay\u0131na atandan \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00acm\u00fcr.
\n\u201cG\u0259nc\u0259 \u00e7ay\u0131\u201d \u015feirind\u0259 taleyind\u0259n olan gileyi bel\u0259 bildirir:<\/p>\n

Yollar\u0131na k\u0259s\u0259k vars\u0131n,<\/strong><\/em>
\nQollar\u0131nda qaya dursun,<\/strong><\/em>
\nSin\u0259nd\u0259 qoy f\u0259l\u0259k qursun<\/strong><\/em>
\nToru, toru, G\u0259nc\u0259 \u00e7ay\u0131!<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

\u0130rad\u0259nin qad\u0131n q\u0259hr\u0259manlar\u0131 \u00f6z duy\u011fular\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131 c\u0259miyy\u0259tin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 t\u0259rzind\u0259n \u00e7ox y\u00fcks\u0259kd\u0259 dayan\u0131rlar. \u201cQad\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131 duyub ya\u015famaqdan ibar\u0259tdir\u201d (V.Q.Beliski) k\u0259lam\u0131n\u0131n prizmas\u0131ndan yana\u015fd\u0131qda, \u0130rad\u0259nin q\u0259hr\u0259manlar\u0131 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yin qad\u0131nlar\u0131d\u0131r. Bu qad\u0131nlar onlar\u0131 sev\u0259n ki\u015fil\u0259rin titr\u0259k ki\u015fi \u0259ll\u0259rinin, alovlu ki\u015fi n\u0259f\u0259sinin, ehtirasl\u0131 ki\u015fi \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rinin, q\u00fcvv\u0259tli ki\u015fi qollar\u0131n\u0131n, \u201csevir\u0259m\u201d dey\u0259n ki\u015fi \u00fcr\u0259yinin h\u0259sr\u0259tind\u0259dirl\u0259r.
\n\u201cYuxuna g\u0259ldimmi\u201d \u015feirind\u0259 deyildiyi kimi:<\/p>\n

Bu gec\u0259 son k\u0259z a\u011flad\u0131m s\u0259nin\u00e7\u00fcn…<\/em><\/strong>
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimin \u00e7at\u0131nnan yol al\u0131b<\/em><\/strong>
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259n damc\u0131-damc\u0131,<\/em><\/strong>
\nGil\u0259-gil\u0259 s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fcn.<\/em><\/strong>
\n…G\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131m ba\u015fqa bir \u00fcr\u0259y\u0259 s\u0131z\u0131rd\u0131.<\/em><\/strong>
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimin qan\u0131n\u0131 qann\u0131 tutan\u00a0<\/em><\/strong>
\nh\u0131\u00e7q\u0131r\u0131qlar\u0131m<\/em><\/strong>
\nHoylatd\u0131 s\u0131zd\u0131\u011f\u0131 yeri,<\/em><\/strong>
\n\u00d6ld\u00fcm diri-diri…<\/em><\/strong>
\nS\u00f6yl\u0259,<\/em><\/strong>
\nBu gec\u0259 yuxuna g\u0259ldimmi bar\u0131?<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

\u0130rad\u0259nin qad\u0131n q\u0259hr\u0259manlar\u0131 yaran\u0131\u015fca m\u00fcbahis\u0259li qad\u0131nlard\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Dinsiz\u0259m!<\/strong><\/em>
\nY\u00f6ns\u00fcz\u0259m!<\/strong><\/em>
\nDaha s\u0259ni sevmir\u0259m!<\/strong><\/em>
\n(\u201cYaman d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015f\u0259m\u201d)<\/p>\n

S\u00f6z verir, daha he\u00e7 kimi sevm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. Dinsizdir, y\u00f6ns\u00fczd\u00fcr, h\u0259r n\u0259dis\u0259 s\u0259ni sevmir. Q\u0259tiyy\u0259tl\u0259 deyir!<\/p>\n

Z\u0259m-z\u0259m i\u00e7ib durulmu\u015fam,<\/strong><\/em>
\n\u00d6z M\u0259kk\u0259m\u0259 burulmu\u015fam,<\/strong><\/em>
\nM\u0259n b\u0259nd\u0259n\u0259 yar olmu\u015fam,<\/strong><\/em>
\n\u018ffv et, Tanr\u0131m, \u0259fv et m\u0259ni!<\/strong><\/em>
\n(\u201c\u018ffv et\u201d)
\n\u2013 deyib, Ulu Yaradandan g\u00fcnahlar\u0131n\u0131n ba\u011f\u0131\u015flanmas\u0131n\u0131 xahi\u015f edir. \u015eeirin son b\u0259ndind\u0259 i\u00e7ind\u0259ki h\u0259qiq\u0259ti bo\u011fa bilmir \u015fair v\u0259 sevgisiz ya\u015faya bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yini anlay\u0131r. Yuxar\u0131da t\u00f6vb\u0259 ed\u0259n \u015fair sonda etiraf edir:<\/p>\n

\u00d6z\u00fcn yazd\u0131n b\u00f6yl\u0259 yolu,<\/em><\/strong>
\nSevdam Ali, sevdam Ulu,<\/em><\/strong>
\nM\u0259n sevdam\u0131n d\u00f6nm\u0259z qulu,<\/em><\/strong>
\n\u018ffv et, Tanr\u0131m, \u0259fv et m\u0259ni!<\/em><\/strong>
\n(Yen\u0259 orada)
\n
\n\u201cM\u0259n sevdam\u0131n d\u00f6nm\u0259z qulu\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 \u0130rad\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tapmaqla b\u0259rab\u0259r, yarad\u0131c\u0131-l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n d\u00fcsturunu izah edir. Bununla ruhunda yaranm\u0131\u015f g\u0259rginliyi m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259td\u0259 yanmaqda g\u00f6rm\u0259kl\u0259, ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 c\u0259miyy\u0259td\u0259n, h\u0259tta \u00f6z\u00fc-\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n bel\u0259 daha y\u00fcks\u0259kl\u0259r\u0259 qalx\u0131r. Bu \u00fclviyy\u0259t\u0259 y\u00fcks\u0259lm\u0259kd\u0259 \u201cM\u0259nim Tanr\u0131m g\u00f6z\u0259llikdir, qad\u0131nd\u0131r\u201d dey\u0259n Cavidl\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131 dayan\u0131r.
\nKitabda \u201c\u041c\u0259n bir k\u0259nd q\u0131z\u0131yd\u0131\u043c\u201d \u015feiri \u00f6z t\u0259biiliyi v\u0259 s\u00f6zl\u0259rin d\u0259 r\u0259ng \u00e7alarlar\u0131n\u0131n d\u00fcrl\u00fc-d\u00fcrl\u00fc tap\u0131l\u0131b yerin\u0259 qoyulmas\u0131 bax\u0131m\u0131ndan S.B\u0259hlulzad\u0259nin t\u0259bi\u0259t m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rini xat\u0131rlad\u0131r:\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u041c\u0259n bir k\u0259nd q\u0131z\u0131yd\u0131\u043c,<\/strong><\/em>
\n\u00c7\u0259\u043c\u0259nin \u015f\u0435hi \u0259ll\u0259ri\u043cd\u0259,<\/strong><\/em>
\nT\u0435ll\u0259ri\u043cd\u0259,<\/strong><\/em>
\n\u00c7\u0259\u043c\u0259nl\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fc\u043c \u043c\u0259n d\u0259.<\/strong><\/em>
\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015fl\u0259 \u043ey\u0430n\u0430r,<\/strong><\/em>
\nS\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 b\u043ey\u0430n\u0430rd\u0131\u043c.<\/strong><\/em>
\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015f b\u043eyd\u0430<\/strong><\/em>
\n\u00dcr\u0259yi\u043c v\u0430r\u0131yd\u0131 sin\u0259\u043cd\u0259.<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

Bula\u011f\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 t\u0259mizliyi il\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tapan bu k\u0259nd q\u0131z\u0131 nec\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259ldir. Bu q\u0131z qula\u011f\u0131nda qulaqc\u0131q k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 musiqiy\u0259 qulaq as\u0131b, internetl\u0259 oynam\u0131r. Bu k\u0259nd q\u0131z\u0131 \u00e7\u0259m\u0259nd\u0259 \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rl\u0259, k\u0259p\u0259n\u0259kl\u0259rl\u0259 oynay\u0131r. \u00c7ox t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf ki, bu k\u0259nd q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n k\u0259ndd\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259diyi \u00fc\u00e7 alma \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Q\u0131z alman\u0131n arzusu il\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 gets\u0259 d\u0259, t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf ki, o almalar ondan \u00f6t\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Getdikc\u0259 t\u0259mizliyi il\u0259 \u00f6y\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fcz o k\u0259nd q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n yerini \u201cX\u0259yan\u0259tim\u201d tutur:<\/p>\n

\u018fvv\u0259l bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131mla<\/em><\/strong>
\nX\u0259yan\u0259t etdim s\u0259n\u0259,<\/em><\/strong>
\nBir ya\u015f\u0131l g\u00f6zl\u00fcy\u0259 baxd\u0131m.<\/em><\/strong>
\nSonra sa\u00e7lar\u0131mla x\u0259yan\u0259t etdim,<\/em><\/strong>
\nK\u0259sdirdim<\/em><\/strong>
\nBir zamanlar sin\u0259n\u0259<\/em><\/strong>
\nda\u011f\u0131ld\u0131qca<\/em><\/strong>
\nXumar olan tell\u0259ri.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

V\u0259 n\u0259hay\u0259t…<\/p>\n

Sonra b\u0259d\u0259niml\u0259 x\u0259yan\u0259t etdim,
\nS\u0259nin toxunmaqdan qorxdu\u011fun,
\nZ\u0259rif, sevgi dolu b\u0259d\u0259niml\u0259.
\nCismim \u00f6lm\u0259di,
\nRuhum g\u00f6yn\u0259di.
\nBel\u0259c\u0259, x\u0259yan\u0259tkar oldum,<\/span><\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

H\u0259r \u015fey g\u00f6z \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259. Buyur bax!
\nMisralar daxili rabit\u0259 il\u0259 el\u0259 ba\u011flan\u0131b ki, bir-birind\u0259n ay\u0131rmaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil. Fikrini bildirm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259cbursan \u015feirin \u00e7ox hiss\u0259sini qeyd ed\u0259s\u0259n. Biz kitabda bir ne\u00e7\u0259 \u015feirin \u0259sas\u0131nda fikrimizi bildirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131q.
\n\u0130rad\u0259 Aytel yolu he\u00e7 k\u0259sin getm\u0259diyi yoldur. Yol art\u0131q m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259nl\u0259\u015fib. Qal\u0131r bu yolun sonuna \u00e7atmaq. \u0130nan\u0131r\u0131q ki, o, istedad\u0131n\u0131n v\u0259 c\u0259sar\u0259tinin hesab\u0131na yolun sonuna kimi ged\u0259c\u0259kdir.
\nBu xan\u0131m\u0131n yaz\u0131lar\u0131na dodaq b\u00fcz\u0259nl\u0259ri g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 Allahverdi Eminovun \u201cPay\u0131za q\u0259d\u0259r\u201d \u0259s\u0259rinin \u00e7apdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 oxucular\u0131n says\u0131z-hesabs\u0131z t\u0259nqid dolu m\u0259ktublar\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7ap olunmas\u0131 yada d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr.
\n\u0130rad\u0259 xan\u0131m da m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t m\u00f6vzusuna ba\u015fqa bucaqdan yana\u015fmas\u0131 il\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259m\u0259xsus bir yol m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259nl\u0259\u015fdirib. Bu yolda qurbanlar da ola bil\u0259r. V.Q.Belinskinin dediyi kimi: \u201cRuh\u0259n \u015fik\u0259st hadis\u0259l\u0259r al\u0259mind\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259n h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n \u00e7ox b\u00f6y\u00fck m\u00fcst\u0259sna \u015f\u0259xsl\u0259r olur ki, bu m\u00fcst\u0259snal\u0131q onlara h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00e7ox baha oturur v\u0259 onlar \u00f6z \u00fcst\u00fcnl\u00fckl\u0259rinin qurban\u0131 olurlar.\u201d
\nBiz d\u0259 \u0130rad\u0259nin \u00fcst\u00fcnl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u00fck v\u0259 ona inan\u0131r\u0131q.<\/p>\n

Fazil S\u0259nan,
\n“Yeni S\u00f6z\u00e7\u00fc” q\u0259zeti<\/b><\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n

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(\u0130rad\u0259 Aytelin “Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla” \u00a0\u015feirl\u0259r kitab\u0131ndan sonra…) …O \u015feird\u0259 a\u011fu\u015funda\u00a0 tir-tir \u0259s\u0259n b\u0259d\u0259nimi, O d\u0259lic\u0259 \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnl\u0259\u00a0 yormaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. O \u015feird\u0259 sevim s\u0259ni \u0259vv\u0259lki t\u0259k O \u015feird\u0259 s\u0259nin olum.Bu misralar \u0130rad\u0259 Aytelin \u201cBa\u011f\u0131\u015fla\u201d (Bak\u0131-2015) kitab\u0131ndak\u0131 \u201c\u015eeir yazmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m\u201d adl\u0131 \u015feirind\u0259n n\u00fcmun\u0259dir. M\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t m\u00f6vzusu yazarlar\u0131n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 m\u00fcraci\u0259t etdiyi m\u00f6vzudur. \u0130rad\u0259nin m\u0259h\u0259b-b\u0259t m\u00f6vzusunda yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259r \u2013 ist\u0259r n\u0259sr olsun, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[17,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11009"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=11009"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11009\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11695,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11009\/revisions\/11695"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=11009"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=11009"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=11009"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}