{"id":11024,"date":"2016-05-21T21:48:31","date_gmt":"2016-05-21T16:48:31","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=11024"},"modified":"2016-05-21T21:48:31","modified_gmt":"2016-05-21T16:48:31","slug":"nihat-c%c9%99brayil-danismadan-susmaq","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=11024","title":{"rendered":"Nihat C\u0259bray\u0131l &#8211; Dan\u0131\u015fmadan susmaq&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/kultur.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/02\/12369249_1653238691615621_6315567466564557225_n.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignleft size-medium wp-image-10239\" src=\"http:\/\/kultur.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/02\/12369249_1653238691615621_6315567466564557225_n-300x300.jpg\" alt=\"12369249_1653238691615621_6315567466564557225_n\" width=\"300\" height=\"300\" \/><\/a><strong><em>Yaln\u0131zl\u0131q qorxum vard\u0131 m\u0259nim. Utand\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan kims\u0259y\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259diyim yaln\u0131zl\u0131q. Bird\u0259n e\u015fid\u0259n olar, bird\u0259n la\u011fa qoyarlar m\u0259ni dey\u0259, s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259dim kims\u0259y\u0259. \u018fslind\u0259, qorxdu\u011fum la\u011fa qoyulmaq deyildi ki. M\u0259n yaln\u0131z qoyulmaqdan qorxurdum. E\u015fid\u0259n olar v\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259n h\u0259yat\u0131mdak\u0131 h\u0259r k\u0259si alar g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259r. Hans\u0131 \u015feytan s\u0259s apard\u0131sa, ilk qorxumu atam\u0131 itirdiyimd\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131m. Yaln\u0131zl\u0131k lay divar kimi \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc \u00fcz\u0259rim\u0259 v\u0259 qula\u011f\u0131ma p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131 \u201cqorxma h\u0259l\u0259 bu haras\u0131d\u0131, s\u0259n ki\u015fis\u0259n, m\u00f6hk\u0259m ol\u201d dedi yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n o \u0259srarl\u0131 s\u0259si. G\u00f6zl\u0259rimi silib, \u201ch\u0259yata davam\u201d dedim. N\u0259 davamm\u0131\u015f amma. M\u0259n bu yaln\u0131zl\u0131q qorxumu gizl\u0259tdikc\u0259 bir az daha yaln\u0131z qald\u0131m. Yaln\u0131zl\u0131q \u0259lini qolunu sallaya-sallaya evimin ba\u015f t\u0259r\u0259fin\u0259 ke\u00e7di. Sonra izn bel\u0259 almadan \u00e7ay\u0131m\u0131 soyutdu, ist\u0259yib-ist\u0259m\u0259diyimin f\u0259rqin\u0259 bel\u0259 varmadan yata\u011f\u0131ma uzand\u0131, h\u0259md\u0259 boylu boyunca. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rimi ba\u011flatd\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 yaln\u0131zl\u0131q. M\u0259nim ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m evl\u0259rin he\u00e7 vaxt c\u00fct a\u00e7ar\u0131 olmad\u0131. Yem\u0259kl\u0259rin ilk loxmas\u0131 h\u0259r zaman \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259 qald\u0131.. <\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Aci dil asi q\u0259rib bir adam etdi m\u0259ni yaln\u0131zl\u0131q. Amma haqq\u0131na da girm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m. M\u0259n\u0259 yem\u0259k bi\u015firm\u0259yi, ev silm\u0259yi paltar yuma\u011f\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259tdi. Amma n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 onda \u201cyek\u0259 ki\u015fis\u0259n, bu n\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259rdi g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n?\u201d dem\u0259di yaln\u0131zl\u0131q. B\u0259z\u0259n sevgilim, b\u0259z\u0259n anam\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Gec\u0259l\u0259r dostum, ya da qarda\u015f\u0131m oldu yaln\u0131zl\u0131q. S\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 durdu ki\u015fi kimi: \u201ch\u0259l\u0259 bu haras\u0131d\u0131r?\u201d dedi h\u0259r \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fc\u015f\u00fcmd\u0259. M\u0259n d\u0259 zamanla yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131ma da onun v\u0259dl\u0259rin\u0259 d\u0259 al\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. \u0130ndi bu qarl\u0131 havada a\u011fl\u0131ma h\u0259l\u0259 bu haras\u0131d\u0131rlar g\u0259ldi, g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259dim v\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259mi sanki bir d\u0259 a\u00e7mayaca\u011famm\u0131\u015f kimi m\u00f6hk\u0259mc\u0259 ba\u011flad\u0131m. Ayaqqab\u0131m\u0131 geyin\u0259-geyin\u0259 \u201che\u00e7 yer\u0259 t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259, bir \u00e7ay qoy, g\u0259lir\u0259m\u201d deyib \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m.<\/p>\n<p>Bu qar\u0131n \u015f\u0259r\u0259fin\u0259 i\u00e7ilir, deyilmi YALNIZIQ\u2026<\/p>\n<p class=\"bawpvc-ajax-counter\" data-id=\"11024\">Yaz\u0131ya 1020 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Yaln\u0131zl\u0131q qorxum vard\u0131 m\u0259nim. Utand\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan kims\u0259y\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259diyim yaln\u0131zl\u0131q. Bird\u0259n e\u015fid\u0259n olar, bird\u0259n la\u011fa qoyarlar m\u0259ni dey\u0259, s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259dim kims\u0259y\u0259. \u018fslind\u0259, qorxdu\u011fum la\u011fa qoyulmaq deyildi ki. M\u0259n yaln\u0131z qoyulmaqdan qorxurdum. E\u015fid\u0259n olar v\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259n h\u0259yat\u0131mdak\u0131 h\u0259r k\u0259si alar g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259r. Hans\u0131 \u015feytan s\u0259s apard\u0131sa, ilk qorxumu atam\u0131 itirdiyimd\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131m. Yaln\u0131zl\u0131k lay divar kimi \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc \u00fcz\u0259rim\u0259 v\u0259 qula\u011f\u0131ma p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131 [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[6],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11024"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=11024"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11024\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11025,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11024\/revisions\/11025"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=11024"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=11024"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=11024"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}