{"id":11166,"date":"2016-06-26T22:07:20","date_gmt":"2016-06-26T17:07:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=11166"},"modified":"2016-06-26T22:07:21","modified_gmt":"2016-06-26T17:07:21","slug":"umit-yasar-isikhan-ask-ve-inat","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=11166","title":{"rendered":"\u00dcmit Ya\u015far I\u015f\u0131khan &#8211; A\u015fk ve \u0130nat"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><a href=\"http:\/\/kultur.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/02\/umit-yashar.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignright wp-image-1082 size-medium\" src=\"http:\/\/kultur.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/02\/umit-yashar-300x199.jpg\" alt=\"umit yashar\" width=\"300\" height=\"199\" \/><\/a>B\u00fcy\u00fcl\u00fc bir sayfadan ge\u00e7ti hayat.<\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\">Hi\u00e7 de\u011fi\u015fmeyen bir gecenin \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131 aras\u0131nda kalan masallar\u0131n son deminden y\u00fckselen t\u00fcts\u00fclerin kokusunu boynunda bir muska gibi as\u0131yordu zaman.<\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\">Biz \u00e7ocuktuk o uzun \u00f6yk\u00fcde anlat\u0131lan. Biz kavu\u015fan ve ayr\u0131land\u0131k her anlat\u0131c\u0131n\u0131n soka\u011f\u0131m\u0131zdan ge\u00e7ti\u011finde. H\u0131r\u00e7\u0131n \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n hi\u00e7 bitmeyece\u011fini sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 oyunun i\u00e7indeydik. Yaral\u0131yd\u0131k, a\u00e7 ve susuz ko\u015fturan a\u015f\u0131klar\u0131n en k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fc\u011f\u00fcyd\u00fck. Nerden geldi\u011fimizi ve ne istedi\u011fimizi bilmeden bekledik birbirimizi. Hi\u00e7 gelmeyece\u011fini sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z sevgilinin ayak seslerini duyar gibi heyecanland\u0131k k\u00f6\u015fe ba\u015flar\u0131nda.<\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\">Ne \u00e7abuk b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fck birbirimizin ad\u0131yla\u2026<\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\">Ne \u00e7abuk ayr\u0131ld\u0131 ellerimiz. Ve sustuk kendi yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131za\u2026<em>\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>b\u00fct\u00fcn y\u0131llar\u0131ma dem vurup oturdum masa ba\u015f\u0131na can<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>mevsimler de\u011fi\u015fti, yapraklardan bir bahar indi ayaklar\u0131na<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>\u015fimdi uzak s\u0131n\u0131rlar, \u015fimdi uzak bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131n<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>hangi bulut getirir seni, hangi g\u00fcvercin kanat taksam<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>\u00e7ekip gitsem nereye\u2026 g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc korkun\u00e7 yaln\u0131zl\u0131k<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>sal\u0131n\u0131r ay \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir \u00fclkede ya\u011fmur tanesi sa\u00e7lar\u0131ndan<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\">Kendi hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n \u00e7ocuk g\u00f6zlerini hep birbirimize saklad\u0131k. Sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n tarand\u0131\u011f\u0131 ayna, seni bekleyen sokaklar\u0131n uzun sessizli\u011fi ve aniden patlayan f\u0131rt\u0131nan\u0131n pe\u015finden ko\u015fan ayak sesleri. Geliyordun\u2026Hay\u0131r hay\u0131r\u2026 Gidiyordun\u2026<\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\">Ne zaman geldin r\u00fcyalar\u0131ma\u2026 Ne zaman k\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131 kalemi a\u015fk\u0131n ve sen neden sustun ilk bulu\u015fmam\u0131zda. O sen miydin, arkanda kalan ellerini de al\u0131p g\u00f6t\u00fcren\u2026<\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\">Ko\u015fun \u00e7ocuklar\u2026 Ko\u015fun \u00e7ocuklar\u2026<\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>ellerini b\u0131raksam g\u00f6zlerim seninle, y\u00fcre\u011fim ve b\u00fct\u00fcn zaman<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>mercan olurum, bulut olurum, g\u00fcvercin olurum bu zul\u00fcm a\u015fk\u0131mad\u0131r<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>dev bir \u00e7ocuk olurum, ayaklar\u0131m\u0131 kurtarsam, dilimi<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>h\u00fccreleri ben y\u0131kaca\u011f\u0131m sevgimle ve umudumla b\u00fct\u00fcn yery\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\">\u00d6nce \u00e7evremize bak\u0131yorduk sonra birbirimizin g\u00f6zlerine. Saklan\u0131yorduk, duygular\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n k\u00f6\u015fe kapmaca oynad\u0131\u011f\u0131 sokaklar\u0131n en tenhada kalan\u0131n\u0131 se\u00e7erdik birbirimizin s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ellerimizden ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda. Hayat ve biz acemi oyunculard\u0131k\u2026<\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\">Ka\u00e7amak dokunu\u015flar\u0131n \u00fcrpertisini gece yar\u0131lar\u0131na kadar ta\u015f\u0131rd\u0131k. Hi\u00e7 oyunca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z olmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 birbirimizden ba\u015fka. Sar\u0131lmak ve tekrar sar\u0131lmak istemenin kom\u015fu g\u00fcnah\u0131yla ayr\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131k pencereden. Gitmemeliydin\u2026 Ve giderken beni de g\u00f6t\u00fcrmemeliydin, a\u011fac\u0131n yapraklar\u0131n\u0131, suyun r\u00fczgar\u0131n\u0131, tren gar\u0131ndaki \u00e7ocuklar\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>i\u015fte orman b\u0131raksam ellerim s\u0131cak \u0131rmaklar<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>al\u0131r\u0131m b\u00fct\u00fcn umutlar\u0131 seninle, her kavgada her cephede g\u00fcl<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>s\u0131rt\u0131mda doyumsuz \u00e7ocuk g\u00f6zleri gen\u00e7li\u011fimin<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>ans\u0131z\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcr\u00fcm, ans\u0131z\u0131n \u00e7\u0131lg\u0131n ve s\u00fcrg\u00fcn<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\">Saati miydi\u2026 Zaman\u0131 m\u0131yd\u0131 bu kadar erken gitmenin. Tam da sabaha birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn kala\u2026 Ben hangi a\u011fac\u0131n yapra\u011f\u0131! Sen hangi kediydin dola\u015fan sokaklarda. Ne \u00e7abuk ge\u00e7ti trenin penceresinden bize ayr\u0131lan kitap.<\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\">Ah biz sevgili miydik\u2026 Biz\u00a0 pamuk \u015fekeri satan\u00a0 bulu\u015fmalar\u0131n\u00a0 kokusunu\u00a0 bir daha ki s\u0131cakl\u0131\u011fa adayan biz miydik\u2026 Ah gittin\u2026 Arkanda bir mektubun kapanmayan zarflar\u0131nda binlerce yaral\u0131 s\u00f6zc\u00fck b\u0131rakarak. \u015eimdi zaman \u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor, ge\u00e7ti\u011fimiz sokaklardan.<\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>\u015fimdi g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fc i\u00e7inde bir kent ya\u015f\u0131yorum, beton y\u0131\u011f\u0131nlar\u0131ndan betona d\u00fc\u015ferek<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>\u015fimdi ki\u015fneyen \u00e7arklar\u0131n di\u015fleri aras\u0131nda \u00f6l\u00fcleri koyacak yer yok<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>\u015fimdi bir \u00e7ocuk sana delice tutkun, sana delice hasret<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>\u015fimdi eyl\u00fcl karas\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131na tetik sustu, g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcyor<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>\u015fimdi \u00fc\u015f\u00fcyen ceplerimde ellerimi saklayarak bir deniz k\u0131y\u0131s\u0131nda<\/strong><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\">Son \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 dalgalar\u0131na veren denizin pe\u015finden gitti mart\u0131lar. Kanatlar\u0131nda kurumu\u015f yaralar\u0131n\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131y\u0131p att\u0131lar kumsal\u0131n g\u00fcn bat\u0131m\u0131na. Sana do\u011fru ko\u015fan \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n ellerinde sen vard\u0131n. Ben vard\u0131m, uykusuz ve siyah sa\u00e7l\u0131.<\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>geri d\u00f6nsen, gitmeden \u00f6nceki alanlar\u0131n soluk y\u00fczl\u00fc yollar\u0131na<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>ve dal\u0131p gitsem \u00e7o\u011falm\u0131\u015f ellerimle sevda tayfas\u0131y\u0131m<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>ve seni g\u00f6rsem<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>ve yeniden d\u00f6nsem uzam\u0131\u015f sakal\u0131mla militan suskunlu\u011fuma<\/strong><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\">Hep suskundu zaman saatlerde. Hep bir \u00e7ocuk beklerdi gevrek f\u0131r\u0131n\u0131n\u0131n susam yang\u0131n\u0131nda ve bek\u00e7iler ge\u00e7erdi ya\u015fl\u0131 elleriyle g\u00f6zlerini silerek.<\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>seni almaya gelmi\u015f gibi beklerdim k\u00f6\u015felerde<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>seni \u00f6zlemi\u015f gibi bakard\u0131m penceresi yok<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>y\u0131rt\u0131lan bir foto\u011fraf renklerini a\u011flad\u0131 g\u00f6rmedi\u011fin duvarlarda<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\">Sustum. Y\u00fczy\u0131ll\u0131k sesleri unuttum \u015fark\u0131lar\u0131n i\u00e7inden. B\u00fct\u00fcn ku\u015flar\u0131n kanatlar\u0131n\u0131\u2026 Suyun en son rengini ve \u015fekerin ac\u0131da kalan iz. B\u00fct\u00fcn yurtseverlerin mar\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u0131sl\u0131kla \u00e7alan \u00e7ocuk. Gittin\u2026<strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>\u00f6l\u00fcrsek can..<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>\u00f6l\u00fcrsek s\u0131rayla \u00f6lelim<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>bir dost s\u00fcrs\u00fcn ayak izlerimizi\u00a0<\/strong><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\">B\u00f6yle ba\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 a\u015fk\u0131m\u0131zdaki \u00f6yk\u00fc. B\u00f6yle uzad\u0131 \u015fiir ve g\u00f6kten d\u00fc\u015fen \u00fc\u00e7 elman\u0131n masallar\u0131. Birden bire ya\u011fmur ve birden bire \u00e7ocuklar daha do\u011fmadan \u00f6ld\u00fc.<strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>gittin, ellerini ver koynumda silah\u0131m olsun<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>gittin, y\u00fcre\u011fini ver sevdama kitap<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>demir s\u0131ca\u011f\u0131 ayr\u0131l\u0131k da\u011flara ve a\u015fka<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\"><strong>sevgi\u00a0 \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ku\u015flar konsun\u2026<\/strong><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\">Ama asla sana, ho\u015f\u00e7a kal demeyece\u011fim.<\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\">Geldi\u011fin g\u00fcnk\u00fc g\u00f6mle\u011fimi saklay\u0131p parmak u\u00e7lar\u0131ndan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 kendimi at\u0131p \u00f6lmeyece\u011fim. Ve b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7ocuklar sana inat u\u00e7urtmalar\u0131n ka\u011f\u0131t helvas\u0131nda g\u00f6zlerini ta\u015f\u0131y\u0131p g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcne de vermeyece\u011fim. Ve \u0130zmir uykular\u0131nda bekleyen \u00e7ocuk\u2026 \u0130nat i\u015fte hep bekleyece\u011fim.<\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #111111;\">\n<p class=\"bawpvc-ajax-counter\" data-id=\"11166\">Yaz\u0131ya 1001 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>B\u00fcy\u00fcl\u00fc bir sayfadan ge\u00e7ti hayat. Hi\u00e7 de\u011fi\u015fmeyen bir gecenin \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131klar\u0131 aras\u0131nda kalan masallar\u0131n son deminden y\u00fckselen t\u00fcts\u00fclerin kokusunu boynunda bir muska gibi as\u0131yordu zaman. Biz \u00e7ocuktuk o uzun \u00f6yk\u00fcde anlat\u0131lan. Biz kavu\u015fan ve ayr\u0131land\u0131k her anlat\u0131c\u0131n\u0131n soka\u011f\u0131m\u0131zdan ge\u00e7ti\u011finde. H\u0131r\u00e7\u0131n \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n hi\u00e7 bitmeyece\u011fini sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 oyunun i\u00e7indeydik. Yaral\u0131yd\u0131k, a\u00e7 ve susuz ko\u015fturan a\u015f\u0131klar\u0131n en k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fc\u011f\u00fcyd\u00fck. Nerden geldi\u011fimizi [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":1082,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[6],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11166"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=11166"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11166\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11167,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11166\/revisions\/11167"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/1082"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=11166"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=11166"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=11166"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}