{"id":11185,"date":"2016-07-30T22:51:00","date_gmt":"2016-07-30T17:51:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=11185"},"modified":"2016-07-30T22:51:00","modified_gmt":"2016-07-30T17:51:00","slug":"cavid-cabbarli-cahdada-qalan-ot-baglamasi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=11185","title":{"rendered":"Cavid Cabbarl\u0131 – “Cahdada qalan ot ba\u011flamas\u0131”"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"cavid<\/a>(hekay\u0259)<\/b>

1997-ci ilin iyun ay\u0131 idi. \u0130ki g\u00fcn idi ki, ot m\u00f6vs\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc bitirmi\u015fdik. Cahdada (yer ad\u0131) qalan otu da pres ba\u011flatd\u0131racaqd\u0131q.\u00a0<\/b>
Da\u011f yeri oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ild\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 q\u0131\u015f ehtiyat\u0131n\u0131 haz\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131q. K\u0259ndd\u0259 h\u0259r k\u0259sin otlaq sah\u0259si var idi. Aprelin birind\u0259n ham\u0131 \u00f6z otlaq sah\u0259sini qoruyur, may\u0131n iyirmi be\u015find\u0259n sonra b\u00fct\u00fcn k\u0259nd camaat\u0131 ot y\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131na s\u0259f\u0259rb\u0259r olurdu. Da\u011f yerind\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey d\u0259miy\u0259 \u015f\u0259raitind\u0259 yeti\u015fir. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 f\u00fcrs\u0259ti qa\u00e7\u0131rmaq q\u0131\u015fda ciddi \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 \u00fczl\u0259\u015fm\u0259k dem\u0259k idi.\u00a0<\/span>
Mal-qaran\u0131 yerb\u0259yer etdik, danalar\u0131 t\u00f6vl\u0259d\u0259 in\u0259kl\u0259ri d\u0259 t\u00f6vl\u0259nin qaba\u011f\u0131nda yer\u0259 b\u0259rkidilmi\u015f m\u0131xlara ba\u011flad\u0131q. Qoyun-quzunu da \u0259traf\u0131na d\u0259mir tor \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015f (setka) p\u0259y\u0259y\u0259 sald\u0131q. Bir-birimiz\u0259 yard\u0131m ed\u0259r\u0259k anam\u0131n d\u0259mir vedr\u0259d\u0259 g\u0259tirdiyi su il\u0259 \u0259l-aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 yuyub, ev\u0259 ke\u00e7dik.\u00a0<\/span>
Evmizin i\u015f\u0131qlanmas\u0131 da q\u0259rib\u0259 idi. Elektirik lampas\u0131ndan sa\u00e7an i\u015f\u0131q \u015f\u00fcalar\u0131 ota\u011f\u0131n \u00e7itl\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259dilmi\u015f v\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 h\u00fcnd\u00fcr olmayan divarlar\u0131nda r\u0259qs edirdi. Ham\u0131m\u0131z barda\u015f qurub G\u00f6rki n\u0259n\u0259min \u00f6z \u0259ll\u0259ri il\u0259 toxudu\u011fu, r\u0259ngi g\u00f6z qama\u015fd\u0131ran kilimin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 s\u0259rilmi\u015f g\u00fcll\u00fc s\u00fcfr\u0259nin \u0259traf\u0131nda oturduq.\u00a0<\/span>
Bir do\u011fmal\u0131q, bir uym vard\u0131 burada. H\u0259nd\u0259si fiqurlara ox\u015fayan nax\u0131\u015flarla b\u0259z\u0259dilmi\u015f klimin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki g\u00fcll\u00fc s\u00fcfr\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259ndir \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yinin bu\u011fda r\u0259ngin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015f\u0131b dadl\u0131 qoxusu il\u0259 can\u0131ma hopurdu.\u00a0<\/span>
Bac\u0131m\u0131n (k\u0259ndimizd\u0259 anaya bac\u0131 deyirik) qazan\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259si sakitliyi pozdu. Bac\u0131m h\u0259r kasaya bir \u0259d\u0259d kartof , ki\u00e7ik toyuq \u0259ti v\u0259 bolluca su t\u00f6k\u00fcr, d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc bac\u0131m da biz\u0259 paylay\u0131rd\u0131. Otaqda qa\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131n kasalara \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131laraq \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131\u011f\u0131 cingiltid\u0259n v\u0259 anam\u0131n \u201csuyuna \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k do\u011fray\u0131b, doyunca yeyin\u201d k\u0259lm\u0259sind\u0259n ba\u015fqa n\u0259s\u0259 e\u015fidilmirdi. Birc\u0259 qa\u011fam\u0131n (k\u0259ndimizd\u0259 ataya qa\u011fa deyirl\u0259r) kasas\u0131nda toyu\u011fun sin\u0259 hiss\u0259si g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bac\u0131m toyu\u011fun bud v\u0259 sin\u0259sini qa\u011fama verirdi h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259.\u00a0<\/span>
Qa\u011fam kasan\u0131 qaba\u011f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kdi, \u201cd\u00f6ri\u0259l\u0259mi\u201dnd\u0259 bec\u0259rdiyimiz qaraq\u0131l\u00e7\u0131q bu\u011fdas\u0131ndan d\u0259yirmanda \u00fcy\u00fctd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fcz undan anam\u0131n k\u0259rm\u0259 il\u0259 t\u0259ndird\u0259 bi\u015firdiyi \u0259tirli \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yi par\u00e7alara b\u00f6l\u00fcb, kasaya t\u00f6kd\u00fc. Qa\u011fam\u0131n bir g\u00f6z\u00fc qa\u015f\u0131qda bir g\u00f6z\u00fc elektirik lampas\u0131nda idi. O, bu davran\u0131\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 ham\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n bildiyimiz bir \u015feyi dem\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi\u2026\u00a0<\/span>
G\u00fcn \u0259rzind\u0259 k\u0259ndimiz\u0259 iki saat elektirik enerjisi verilirdi. S\u0259h\u0259r saat alt\u0131dan yeddiy\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r, bir d\u0259 ax\u015fam iyirmid\u0259n iyirmi bir\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r. Bir qayda olaraq b\u00fct\u00fcn k\u0259nd camaat\u0131 ax\u015fam yem\u0259yi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bu vaxt s\u00fcfr\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>
Bac\u0131m ki\u00e7ik qarda\u015f\u0131ma ikinci d\u0259f\u0259 yem\u0259yin suyundan t\u00f6k\u00fcb, \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc bac\u0131ma \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc tutdu: \u201cyem\u0259k qutard\u0131, kim doymasa qoyun pendirind\u0259n, cam\u0131\u015f qat\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan g\u0259tir yesin\u201d dedi. \u0130ki dilim pendir g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb t\u0259ndir \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yinin aras\u0131na basd\u0131m. Tik\u0259ni a\u011fz\u0131ma qoyub bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 \u00e7eyn\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259n sonar uddum. Bir st\u0259kan Da\u015fbulaq suyundan ba\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0259kib, divara \u00e7\u00f6yk\u0259ndim.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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Bac\u0131lar\u0131m s\u00fcfr\u0259ni y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b ortal\u0131\u011f\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131lar. Qa\u011fam qaz t\u00fck\u00fcnd\u0259n haz\u0131rlanm\u0131\u015f q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 xaral\u0131 bal\u0131\u015fa dirs\u0259kl\u0259nib \u00e7ay st\u0259kan\u0131n\u0131 qaba\u011f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kdi. Bir qurtum \u00e7ay i\u00e7ib \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259n\u0259 tutdu: \u201cBala, \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr olsun ki, otu y\u0131\u011f\u0131b qutard\u0131q. Ki\u00e7ik qarda\u015flar\u0131n yava\u015f-yava\u015f me\u015f\u0259d\u0259n q\u0131\u015f odunumuzu da\u015f\u0131yarlar. \u018fl\u0259sg\u0259r\u0259 demi\u015f\u0259m, paltarlar\u0131n\u0131 haz\u0131rla, sabah Ma\u015fta\u011faya ged\u0259c\u0259k, s\u0259ni d\u0259 aparacaq. Get, bir az i\u015fl\u0259. He\u00e7 olmasa d\u0259rs a\u00e7\u0131lana q\u0259d\u0259r q\u0259nd-\u00e7ay pulumuzu qazanarsan. Bu\u011fda \u0259kinin\u0259 d\u0259 xeyli vaxt qal\u0131b\u201d.<\/span>
Qa\u011fam\u0131n bu s\u00f6z\u00fc lap \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259n idi. Sinif yolda\u015f\u0131m Mahir ke\u00e7\u0259n il Ma\u015fta\u011faya getmi\u015fdi. Ma\u015fta\u011fada qul bazar\u0131nda olanlardan, f\u0259hl\u0259l\u0259rin d\u0259niz\u0259 getm\u0259yind\u0259n el\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, bir g\u00fcn d\u0259 k\u0259ndd\u0259 qalmaq ist\u0259mirdim.\u00a0<\/span>
El\u0259 bil qa\u011fam n\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, \u201cbax s\u0259n\u0259 ciddi tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131ram, bird\u0259n d\u0259niz\u0259 ged\u0259rs\u0259n, s\u0259n \u00fczm\u0259yi bacarm\u0131rsan, bo\u011fularsan\u201d dedi. Yox, yox narahat olma m\u0259nim d\u0259nizd\u0259 n\u0259 i\u015fim var?! Ancaq i\u015fimi g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259m, he\u00e7 \u0259lav\u0259 pul da x\u0259rcl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m – deyib qa\u011fam\u0131 arxay\u0131n etm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m ki, fikrind\u0259n da\u015f\u0131nmas\u0131n.\u00a0<\/span>
Bac\u0131m qa\u011famla s\u00f6hb\u0259timi e\u015fid\u0259n kimi \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc qa\u011fama tutdu: Ay ki\u015fi, o, h\u0259l\u0259 u\u015faqd\u0131. Onun a\u011f\u0131r i\u015fd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259li vaxt\u0131 deyil. \u00d6z\u00fc el\u0259 da\u015f boydad\u0131r, da\u015fa nec\u0259 g\u00fcc\u00fc \u00e7atacaq? \u018fl\u0259sg\u0259r d\u0259 k\u0259mf\u00fcrs\u0259t adamd\u0131, usag\u0131 ax\u015fama q\u0259d\u0259r heyd\u0259n salacaq. He\u00e7 olmasa yeddinci sinifi bitirsin sonra g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259rs\u0259n. Ac\u0131m\u0131zdan \u00f6lm\u00fcr\u00fck ki. U\u015fa\u011f\u0131n yem\u0259yi, paltar\u0131, rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131 var. Onlar\u0131 kim ed\u0259c\u0259k?<\/span>
Qa\u011fam ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sal\u0131b g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7in\u0259 ax\u0131d\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131rd\u0131: El\u0259 bilirs\u0259n m\u0259n onun f\u0259hl\u0259liy\u0259 getm\u0259sini ist\u0259yir\u0259m? B\u0259s n\u0259 edim? On bir ba\u015f ail\u0259ni saxlamaq olmur. G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n, b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131ram, s\u0259n d\u0259 \u0259kinl\u0259, mal-qara il\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olursan. Amma yen\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131ra bilmirik. Bir toyu\u011fu on bir ba\u015f ail\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn iki d\u0259f\u0259y\u0259 bi\u015firirs\u0259n. Yax\u015f\u0131, getm\u0259sin, u\u015faq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7\u0259tin olar.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Tez aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f kimi g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m: Ay qa\u011fa m\u0259nim taylar\u0131m ke\u00e7\u0259n ild\u0259n i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 gedir. \u018fhliman \u0259minin o\u011flu C\u0259m\u015fid m\u0259nd\u0259n bir il balacad\u0131, iki g\u00fcn \u0259vv\u0259l Ma\u015fta\u011faya gedib. Eldar\u0131n o\u011flu \u018ffqan da gedib. Siz m\u0259ni he\u00e7 rayona buraxm\u0131rs\u0131z. \u0130caz\u0259 verin gedim, bacarmasam qay\u0131daram, i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259r\u0259m.<\/div>\n

Qa\u011fam ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, \u0130randan qa\u00e7aq yolla g\u0259tirdiyimiz q\u0259ndi st\u0259kana sal\u0131b dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131na qoydu. Ancaq m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, o \u00e7ay i\u00e7m\u0259k ist\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259 st\u0259kana g\u00fcc\u00fc \u00e7atmayacaq q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00fccs\u00fczd\u00fc.\u00a0<\/span>
Bac\u0131m\u0131n bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 is\u0259 qa\u011fam\u0131n \u0259yilmi\u015f ba\u015f\u0131nda vaxts\u0131z a\u011farm\u0131\u015f sa\u00e7lar\u0131nda ili\u015fib qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. A\u011f sa\u00e7larla ana bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n toqqu\u015fdu\u011fu yerd\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 titr\u0259d\u0259c\u0259k n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259r\u0259 \u015fahid oldum sanki. Aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131m, bir az uca s\u0259sl\u0259: M\u0259n sabah f\u0259hl\u0259liy\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259m. \u0130caz\u0259 verm\u0259s\u0259niz gizlin qa\u00e7acam \u2013 dedim. N\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259rini g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n otaqdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131d\u0131m.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

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\u00c7ox halsz idim. \u00d6mr\u00fcmd\u0259 iki d\u0259f\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131na minmi\u015fdim. Benzin iyi taq\u0259td\u0259n salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Yol boyu \u00fcr\u0259yim qalxm\u0131\u015f, ba\u015f\u0131m gic\u0259ll\u0259nmi\u015f v\u0259 haldan d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. Yol qutarmaq bilmirdi. \u0130karusun l\u0259ng getm\u0259si d\u0259 m\u0259ni h\u00f6vs\u0259l\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131rd\u0131. Ev g\u00f6r\u0259n kimi \u018fl\u0259sg\u0259r \u0259mid\u0259n \u201cMa\u015fta\u011faya \u00e7atd\u0131q\u201d soru\u015furdum. O da, ac\u0131qlan\u0131r, t\u0259hqiredici bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131yla ac\u0131-ac\u0131 bax\u0131rd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>
N\u0259hay\u0259t be\u015f saatdan sonra Bak\u0131ya \u00e7atd\u0131q. Yol yor\u011funlu\u011fumu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fc bir anda yox etdi. Na\u011f\u0131llar al\u0259min\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc z\u0259nn edirdim. Q\u0131z Qalas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131ndan ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 \u018fl\u0259sg\u0259r \u0259mi bulvar\u0131 v\u0259 Q\u0131z Qalas\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rdi. O zaman \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 bir az t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm qondu. Yol bolu \u018fl\u0259sg\u0259r \u0259minin \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki d\u0259yi\u015fk\u0259n v\u0259 ac\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015f m\u0259ni pe\u015fman el\u0259mi\u015fdi. An\u0131 t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fc f\u00fcrs\u0259t bilib Bak\u0131 haqq\u0131nda suallar soru\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m. Sullar\u0131ma yar\u0131 ciddi, yar\u0131 zarafat cavab ver\u0259n \u018fl\u0259sg\u0259r \u0259minin m\u0259niml\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 qa\u011fama verdiyi s\u00f6z\u00fc tutmayaca\u011f\u0131na \u0259minliyim art\u0131rd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>
Ki\u00e7ik v\u0259 t\u0259mirsiz otaqda d\u00f6rd k\u00f6hn\u0259 d\u0259mir \u00e7arpay\u0131 var idi. Ota\u011fa gir\u0259nd\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259rinin istisi adam\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 buxar kimi d\u0259yirdi. \u00c7arpay\u0131lar\u0131n aras\u0131nda bir adam\u0131n g\u00fccl\u0259 uzana bil\u0259c\u0259yi yer qal\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fl\u0259sg\u0259r \u0259mi oran\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259rib dedi: bir \u015fey at\u0131b, uzanarsan burda, \u201ckrovatlar\u201d \u201czanitdi\u201d.\u00a0<\/span>
Hava qaral\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 n\u0259f\u0259r daxil oldu. \u018fl\u0259sg\u0259r \u0259mi onlarla salamla\u015f\u0131b, g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u018flini m\u0259n\u0259 uzad\u0131b dedi: sizin ev i\u015fl\u0259rini g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 adam g\u0259tirmi\u015f\u0259m.\u00a0<\/span>
Onlardan biri \u0259lind\u0259ki z\u0259nbili m\u0259n\u0259 uzad\u0131b -apar, sosiskalar\u0131 qaynat, pomidor, xiyar\u0131 da do\u011fra, s\u00fcfr\u0259ni haz\u0131rla biz d\u0259 yuyunub g\u0259lirik. G\u00f6r\u0259k, n\u0259 bacar\u0131rsan \u2013dedi.<\/span>
O vaxta q\u0259d\u0259r sosiskan\u0131n n\u0259 oldu\u011funu bilmirdim, he\u00e7 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdim d\u0259. Z\u0259nbili al\u0131b n\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yimi \u018fl\u0259sg\u0259r \u0259mid\u0259n soru\u015fdum. A\u011fz\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259ni dey\u0259, dey\u0259 n\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yimi ba\u015fa sald\u0131: Ay k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck, bilmirs\u0259ns\u0259, niy\u0259 g\u0259lirdin? Bura ba\u011f\u00e7ad\u0131? Bax, \u00f6yr\u0259n bir d\u0259f\u0259 deyir\u0259m. sabahdan n\u0259yis\u0259 s\u0259hv ets\u0259n it balas\u0131 kimi tapdalayaca\u011fam.<\/span>
S\u00fcfr\u0259 haz\u0131r oldu. M\u0259n \u0259limi uzadana q\u0259d\u0259r sosiskalar yoxa \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. He\u00e7 zaman g\u00f6rm\u0259diyim bir \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 ara\u011f\u0131 bo\u015faltd\u0131lar. Sonra h\u0259r\u0259si bir \u00e7arpay\u0131ya uzan\u0131b xoruldama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131lar.\u00a0<\/span>
Yer\u0259 at\u0131b \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 uzanma\u011fa he\u00e7 n\u0259 tapmad\u0131m. H\u0259m d\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259ri \u00e7ox isti idi. A\u011fcaqanadlar\u0131n s\u0259si il\u0259 xorultu s\u0259si c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259mi xat\u0131rlad\u0131rd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>
\u018fl\u0259sg\u0259r \u0259minin t\u0259piyi q\u0131\u00e7\u0131ma d\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi a\u00e7d\u0131m. Qap\u0131n\u0131n gir\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259 oturdu\u011fum yerd\u0259 yuxu tutmu\u015fdu. Geyinib f\u0259hl\u0259 bazar\u0131na getdik. H\u0259r\u0259nin \u0259lind\u0259 bir ba\u011flama g\u0259zi\u015firdi. \u018fl\u0259sg\u0259r \u0259mi uca s\u0259sl\u0259 dedi: Ay u\u015faqlar, balaca s\u00fcd\u0259m\u0259r qo\u015fublar m\u0259n\u0259. Ona uy\u011fun i\u015f olsa deyin, g\u00f6nd\u0259rim.\u00a0<\/span>
Uca boylu, qara v\u0259 qal\u0131n b\u0131\u011fl\u0131 bir \u015f\u0259xs biz\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. Salam verib, m\u0259n\u0259 \u0259l uzatd\u0131: ist\u0259yirs\u0259n ged\u0259k m\u0259niml\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259. Y\u00fcng\u00fcl i\u015fdi. Gedib h\u0259y\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259n zibil ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131na zibil y\u0131\u011faca\u011f\u0131q.\u00a0<\/span>
Ax\u0131 m\u0259n he\u00e7 yeri tan\u0131m\u0131ram, nec\u0259 qay\u0131daram \u2013 dey\u0259 dill\u0259ndim. M\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259t dolu bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 zill\u0259yib bir q\u0259d\u0259r baxd\u0131. N\u0259s\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fib, narahat olma hara des\u0259n ora apar\u0131b ma\u015f\u0131nla qoyacam \u2013 dedi.\u00a0<\/span>
\u018fl\u0259sg\u0259r tez s\u00f6hb\u0259t\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131: \u018flm\u0259rdan , g\u0259r\u0259k bunu tez g\u0259tir\u0259s\u0259n, biz\u0259 h\u0259m d\u0259 yem\u0259k haz\u0131rlamal\u0131d\u0131r.<\/span>
\u018flm\u0259rdan k\u0259skin bax\u0131\u015flarla \u018fl\u0259sg\u0259r\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc tutdu: S\u0259n n\u0259 zaman adam olacaqsan? O\u011flun boyda usaga \u0259ziyy\u0259t verm\u0259k ki\u015filik deyil. H\u0259m d\u0259 onu y\u0259qin s\u0259n\u0259 \u0259man\u0259t edibl\u0259r. \u0130st\u0259s\u0259 \u00f6z yan\u0131mda saxlayacam, s\u0259nin kimi o\u011fra\u015fa u\u015faq etibar etm\u0259zl\u0259r. \u018fl\u0259sg\u0259r haqq\u0131nda deyil\u0259nl\u0259ri cani-dild\u0259n q\u0259bul edirmi\u015f kimi h\u0131r\u0131ldama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>
Tez ir\u0259li yeridim: \u018flm\u0259rdan \u0259mi, sizinl\u0259 getm\u0259y\u0259 v\u0259 sizinl\u0259 qalma\u011fa raz\u0131yam, dedim.<\/span>
Ma\u015fta\u011fan\u0131 g\u0259zib bir-bir qap\u0131lar\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 saxlay\u0131r, m\u0259n d\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131ndak\u0131 zibill\u0259ri ma\u015f\u0131na y\u00fckl\u0259yirdim. Ma\u015f\u0131n doldu. Kabinkada oturdum. \u018flm\u0259rdan \u0259mi ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 i\u015f\u0259 sal\u0131b zibilxanaya t\u0259r\u0259f ged\u0259c\u0259yimizi bildirdi. Bir az getdikd\u0259n sonra ya\u015f\u0131m\u0131 v\u0259 hardan oldu\u011fumu soru\u015fdu.\u00a0<\/span>
Sonra \u00e7ox ehtiyatla valideyinl\u0259rimd\u0259n s\u00f6z sald\u0131. Atam\u0131n, anam\u0131n ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, ail\u0259mizin b\u00f6y\u00fck oldu\u011funu v\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yib atama yard\u0131m etm\u0259k ist\u0259diyimi dedim. \u018flini ba\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0259kib dill\u0259ndi: Af\u0259rin, s\u0259n qo\u00e7aq o\u011flansan. Amma valideynl\u0259rin s\u0259ni g\u0259r\u0259k \u018fl\u0259sg\u0259r\u0259 etibar etm\u0259m\u0259ydil\u0259r. N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki m\u0259n\u0259 rast g\u0259ldin. Yoxsa \u018fl\u0259sg\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fc kimi alka\u015flar\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131na y\u0131\u011f\u0131b s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259l\u0259r ed\u0259c\u0259kdi, he\u00e7 a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259tirm\u0259zs\u0259n. \u0130\u015fimiz qurtarandan sonar ged\u0259rik m\u0259nim yan\u0131mda qalarsan. Atana da x\u0259b\u0259r g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259rik, narahat olmaz. M\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259nin kimi \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m. M\u0259nim atam da yox idi. G\u00fcv\u0259ndiyim bir n\u0259n\u0259m, bir d\u0259 day\u0131m var idi. Onu da \u015f\u0259rl\u0259yib h\u0259bs el\u0259dil\u0259r. Bax indi h\u0259r \u015feyim var. S\u0259nin kimi iki o\u011flum da var.\u00a0<\/span>
Zibili bo\u015fald\u0131b yem\u0259kxanaya getdik. Sanki \u018flm\u0259rdan \u0259mi iki g\u00fcn ac oldu\u011fumu hiss etmi\u015fdi. Onun b\u00fct\u00fcn davran\u0131\u015f\u0131 v\u0259 s\u0259mimiyy\u0259ti m\u0259nd\u0259 \u00fcmid yarad\u0131rd\u0131. O, \u00f6z pay\u0131n\u0131 da m\u0259n\u0259 verdi. Sonra cibind\u0259n bir \u015firvan (y\u00fcz min manat, o d\u00f6v\u00fcrd\u0259 manat \u00e7ox d\u0259y\u0259rsiz idi) \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b cibim\u0259 basd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>
Art\u0131q on g\u00fcn idi ki, bel\u0259 davam edirdi. \u018flm\u0259rdan \u0259mi qa\u011famla da dan\u0131\u015f\u0131b, arxay\u0131n etmi\u015fdi.\u00a0<\/span>
H\u0259min g\u00fcn i\u015fd\u0259n sonra harasa getm\u0259liydi \u018flm\u0259rdan \u0259mi. Zibili bo\u015fald\u0131b, avtobus dayanaca\u011f\u0131na g\u0259ldik. \u0130ki dondurma ald\u0131, birini m\u0259n\u0259 verib avtobusla m\u0259ni yola salaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bildirdi. Bu zaman avtobus g\u0259ldi. \u018flm\u0259rdan \u0259mi s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcy\u0259 m\u0259ni tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131b, yol pulumu verdi v\u0259 X\u0259yal\u0131n (Ma\u015fta\u011fada yer ad\u0131) yan\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259yimi, buralar\u0131 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 dedi.\u00a0<\/span>
He\u00e7 zaman dondurma yem\u0259mi\u015fdim. Dondurmaya bir di\u015f vurdum. \u00c7ox soyuq oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn di\u015fl\u0259rim dondu. \u018flimd\u0259 saxlay\u0131nb isinm\u0259sini g\u00f6zl\u0259dim.\u00a0<\/span>
Avtobusda ham\u0131 burnunu tutub m\u0259nd\u0259n uzaqla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Amma o q\u0259d\u0259r adam var idi ki, durma\u011fa bel\u0259 yer yox idi. Bir \u0259limd\u0259 paltar ba\u011flamas\u0131, bir \u0259limd\u0259 d\u0259 dondurma bir t\u0259h\u0259r ayaq\u00fcst\u0259 dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m.\u00a0<\/span>
Qula\u011f\u0131m\u0131n dibin\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259n sill\u0259nin t\u0259sirind\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131m gic\u0259ll\u0259ndi. Ard\u0131nca yumruq, t\u0259pik z\u0259rb\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n s\u0259ntirl\u0259yib yer\u0259 y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131m.\u00a0<\/span>
Camaat s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcd\u0259n t\u0259l\u0259b edirdi ki, avtobusu saxlas\u0131n v\u0259 m\u0259ni yer\u0259 ats\u0131n. \u018fslind\u0259 n\u0259 ba\u015f verdiyini anlam\u0131rd\u0131m. Camaat\u0131n t\u0259l\u0259bi m\u0259ni daha \u00e7ox qorxuya salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. He\u00e7 bir yeri tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn azaca\u011f\u0131mdan qorxurdum. Bir t\u0259h\u0259r aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131m. N\u0259 ba\u015f verdiyini indi anlad\u0131m. \u018flimd\u0259ki dondurma \u0259riyib ki\u015finin ba\u015f\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f v\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 qad\u0131n\u0131n da \u00fcst-ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bula\u015fd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

\u00dcst\u00fcmd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n qoxuya g\u00f6r\u0259 q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259n\u0259n s\u0259rni\u015finl\u0259r bu h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259ti b\u0259han\u0259 edib, m\u0259ni d\u00f6y\u00fcr, s\u00f6y\u00fcr s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrm\u0259sini t\u0259l\u0259b edirdil\u0259r: it iysi ver\u0259n bu usag\u0131 niy\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fcs\u0259n mar\u015fruta? D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrt r\u0259dd el\u0259, biz rahat getm\u0259k ist\u0259yirik. Yetimliyini ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck, \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n iyr\u0259nc qoxuya, h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rin\u0259 n\u0259 deyirs\u0259n?<\/span>
S\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc d\u0259 \u018flm\u0259rdan \u0259mini tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn susma\u011fa \u00fcst\u00fcnl\u00fck verirdi. H\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n \u00e7ox insanlar\u0131n bu q\u0259d\u0259r q\u0259ddar davran\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan xoflanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m\u2026\u00a0<\/span>
Amma bilmir\u0259m n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin \u00f6n\u00fcn\u0259 G\u00f6rki n\u0259n\u0259min toxudu\u011fu klim g\u0259ldi. Bird\u0259 Cahadda qalan ot ba\u011flamas\u0131. K\u0259nd\u0259 qa\u00e7maq, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc var g\u00fcc\u00fcml\u0259 o ot ba\u011flamalar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 atmaq ist\u0259yirdim\u2026<\/span>
H\u0259min hadis\u0259d\u0259n d\u00fcz 15 il ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. Qa\u011famla, bac\u0131m\u0131 Bak\u0131da \u00f6z ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131mla xeyli g\u0259zdirdikd\u0259n sonra ev\u0259 d\u00f6nd\u00fck. \u018flm\u0259rdan \u0259mi d\u0259 ax\u015fam qona\u011f\u0131m\u0131z idi\u2026<\/span><\/p>\n

Yaz\u0131ya 1203 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

(hekay\u0259)1997-ci ilin iyun ay\u0131 idi. \u0130ki g\u00fcn idi ki, ot m\u00f6vs\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc bitirmi\u015fdik. Cahdada (yer ad\u0131) qalan otu da pres ba\u011flatd\u0131racaqd\u0131q.\u00a0Da\u011f yeri oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ild\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 q\u0131\u015f ehtiyat\u0131n\u0131 haz\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131q. K\u0259ndd\u0259 h\u0259r k\u0259sin otlaq sah\u0259si var idi. Aprelin birind\u0259n ham\u0131 \u00f6z otlaq sah\u0259sini qoruyur, may\u0131n iyirmi be\u015find\u0259n sonra b\u00fct\u00fcn k\u0259nd camaat\u0131 ot y\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131na s\u0259f\u0259rb\u0259r olurdu. Da\u011f […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11185"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=11185"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11185\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11187,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11185\/revisions\/11187"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=11185"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=11185"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=11185"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}