{"id":11222,"date":"2016-12-19T14:24:32","date_gmt":"2016-12-19T10:24:32","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=11222"},"modified":"2016-12-19T14:24:32","modified_gmt":"2016-12-19T10:24:32","slug":"x-%c9%99-z-an-g-u-l-goy-atam-qoy-qizin-olum","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=11222","title":{"rendered":"X \u018f Z AN G \u00dc L – G\u00d6Y ATAM, QOY QIZIN OLUM!…"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"11892138_1222222917804043_6910032793468251833_n\"<\/a>M\u0259ni anlamad\u0131 n\u0259 da\u011f, n\u0259 d\u0259r\u0259,<\/p>\n

N\u0259yi g\u00f6zl\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m m\u0259n \u0259b\u0259s yer\u0259.<\/p>\n

\u00dcz\u00fcm\u00fc tutaraq deyim g\u00f6yl\u0259r\u0259,<\/p>\n

G\u00f6y atam, qoy s\u0259nin g\u00f6y q\u0131z\u0131n olum!<\/p>\n

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H\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7 karvan\u0131na qo\u015fula bildim,<\/p>\n

N\u0259 d\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131\u015f olub g\u00f6yd\u0259n t\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 \u0259z\u0259l g\u00fcnd\u0259n q\u0259md\u0259n tikildim,<\/p>\n

G\u00f6y atam, qoy s\u0259nin g\u00f6y q\u0131z\u0131n olum!<\/p>\n

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G\u00f6y atam, g\u00f6y\u0259r\u0259 bilm\u0259dim, neynim,<\/p>\n

G\u00f6y atam, a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131b, g\u00fclm\u0259di eynim.<\/p>\n

Hey \u00e7al\u0131r ayr\u0131l\u0131q n\u0259\u011fm\u0259si, neynim,<\/p>\n

G\u00f6y atam, qoy s\u0259nin g\u00f6y q\u0131z\u0131n olum!<\/p>\n

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Hicran q\u0131l\u0131nc\u0131yla yaman budand\u0131m,<\/p>\n

D\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc \u00e7ilik-\u00e7ilik yer\u0259 son and\u0131m.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n bel\u0259 do\u011frand\u0131m, bel\u0259 s\u0131nand\u0131m,<\/p>\n

G\u00f6y atam, qoy s\u0259nin g\u00f6y q\u0131z\u0131n olum!<\/p>\n

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T\u0259klik di\u015f q\u0131card\u0131r ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcst\u0259,<\/p>\n

Ah, nec\u0259 inl\u0259yir \u201cK\u0259sm\u0259 \u015fik\u0259st\u0259\u201d.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131rat\u0131m ki\u015fn\u0259yir, Koro\u011flum x\u0259st\u0259,<\/p>\n

G\u00f6y atam, qoy s\u0259nin g\u00f6y q\u0131z\u0131n olum!<\/p>\n

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K\u0259sib yolumuzu kinli yoxu\u015flar,<\/p>\n

Hava \u00e7ox dumanl\u0131, ya\u011f\u0131r ya\u011f\u0131\u015flar.<\/p>\n

Qorxuram t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131ma da\u015flar,<\/p>\n

G\u00f6y atam, qoy s\u0259nin g\u00f6y q\u0131z\u0131n olum!<\/p>\n

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G\u00f6y atam, \u015fim\u015f\u0259y\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259r\u0259m onda,<\/p>\n

Kinli yoxu\u015flar\u0131 yen\u0259r\u0259m onda.<\/p>\n

\u0130ld\u0131r\u0131m olaraq din\u0259r\u0259m onda,<\/p>\n

G\u00f6y atam, qoy s\u0259nin g\u00f6y q\u0131z\u0131n olum!<\/p>\n

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***<\/p>\n

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ALLAH M\u018fN\u0130 DA\u015e EL\u018f…<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

Gec\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fc,<\/p>\n

G\u00f6y\u00fcn \u00fcz\u00fc g\u00f6y<\/p>\n

qara q\u0259lbli adamlar\u0131n qara \u00fcz\u00fc kimi qara.<\/p>\n

Tu\u011fyan ed\u0259n duy\u011fular\u0131m,<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yimi yora-yora,<\/p>\n

\u00c7alxalay\u0131r yen\u0259 m\u0259ni…<\/p>\n

M\u0259n n\u0259\u00e7iy\u0259m, kim\u0259m ax\u0131?<\/p>\n

\u0130nsanamm\u0131, canl\u0131yamm\u0131,<\/p>\n

\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259y\u0259mmi, yoxsa \u00e7ayam?<\/p>\n

B\u0259lk\u0259 el\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fqayam…<\/p>\n

T\u0259pikl\u0259nmi\u015f d\u00fcz\u0259m b\u0259lk\u0259,<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yimi s\u00f6k\u0259-s\u00f6k\u0259,<\/p>\n

\u015eumlay\u0131blar \u015fumluq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n c\u00fcc\u0259rm\u0259k ist\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m,<\/p>\n

\u0130lahinin yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131,<\/p>\n

A\u011fac kimi, bu\u011fda kimi.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n saxlamaq ist\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m,<\/p>\n

T\u0259r\u0259zid\u0259 \u00f6z \u00e7\u0259kimi.<\/p>\n

\u00d6z\u00fcl\u00fcm\u0259 c\u0131r dey\u0259r\u0259k,<\/p>\n

Calaq-calaq calay\u0131blar.<\/p>\n

Allah m\u0259ni,<\/p>\n

ancaq bel\u0259 bar say\u0131blar.<\/p>\n

Calanm\u0131\u015fam,<\/p>\n

cala\u011f\u0131mda d\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcbd\u00fc yad \u00fcr\u0259yi.<\/p>\n

Tam\u0131m dad\u0131b calaq dad\u0131,<\/p>\n

Ad\u0131m olub calaq ad\u0131.<\/p>\n

H\u0259rd\u0259n-h\u0259rd\u0259n p\u00f6hr\u0259l\u0259nib<\/p>\n

o calaqdan ayr\u0131laraq,<\/p>\n

\u0130st\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m \u00f6z\u00fcm kimi,<\/p>\n

P\u00f6hr\u0259l\u0259nim, nehr\u0259l\u0259nim…<\/p>\n

C\u0131r dey\u0259r\u0259k \u00f6z k\u00f6k\u00fcmd\u0259n qopar\u0131blar,<\/p>\n

M\u0259n\u0259 olub \u00f6zg\u0259 k\u00f6k\u00fc k\u00f6k\u00fcm kimi.<\/p>\n

Gen d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m \u00f6z soyumdan,<\/p>\n

Ba\u015f a\u00e7m\u0131ram, tanr\u0131m, h\u0259l\u0259 bu oyundan…<\/p>\n

\u0130st\u0259mir\u0259m, ist\u0259mir\u0259m yek\u0259 olmaq,<\/p>\n

Yek\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 \u201ctik\u0259\u201d olmaq…<\/p>\n

T\u0259zd\u0259n m\u0259ni calaq edin \u00f6z k\u00f6k\u00fcm\u0259,<\/p>\n

Duymal\u0131yam \u00f6z qoxumu,<\/p>\n

G\u00f6rm\u0259liy\u0259m \u00f6z yuxumu.<\/p>\n

Bu arzuma yetirm\u0259s\u0259n,<\/p>\n

Allah, m\u0259ni bo\u015fluq el\u0259,<\/p>\n

Da\u015fl\u0131q el\u0259…<\/p>\n

El\u0259 da\u015f ki, Az\u0131x kimi evi olsun.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 da\u015f ki,<\/p>\n

aln\u0131nda da\u015f tarixi adlanan<\/p>\n

bir yaz\u0131 olsun.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 da\u015f ki,<\/p>\n

son m\u0259qamda<\/p>\n

yumru\u011fuyla qaya de\u015f\u0259n m\u0259rd o\u011fulu,<\/p>\n

At oynadan<\/p>\n

q\u0131z\u0131 olsun.<\/p>\n

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***<\/p>\n

N E Y L \u018f Y \u0130 M<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

Yen\u0259 niy\u0259 d\u00fcnyam da\u011f\u0131ld\u0131, allah,<\/p>\n

Ba\u015f\u0131ma d\u0259rd, \u0259l\u0259m y\u0131\u011f\u0131ld\u0131, allah,<\/p>\n

Hicran\u0131m h\u0259sr\u0259t\u0259 da\u011f oldu, allah,<\/p>\n

D\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m z\u00fcl\u00fcm\u0259, \u00f6ld\u00fcm, neyl\u0259yim…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

G\u0259libdi pay\u0131z\u0131m, n\u0259 qal\u0131b q\u0131\u015fa,<\/p>\n

Bu pay\u0131z \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm qar\u011f\u0131\u015fa,<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yimd\u0259n sa\u00e7lar\u0131ma qar d\u00fc\u015f\u0259r,<\/p>\n

\u00c7ar\u0259sizdi d\u0259rdim, bildim, neyl\u0259yim…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Yaman inan\u0131rd\u0131m, inamm\u0131 q\u0131rd\u0131n,<\/p>\n

Bilmirs\u0259n bu hal\u0131m nec\u0259 a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131,<\/p>\n

El\u0259 bil g\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259n ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131,<\/p>\n

Bu da\u015flar alt\u0131nda qald\u0131m, neyl\u0259yim…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bu yolu bilirdim m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s, ulu,<\/p>\n

Yarpa\u011f\u0131m t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr, \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259yim solur,<\/p>\n

Q\u0259lbim bu nisgild\u0259n k\u00f6vr\u0259lib, dolur,<\/p>\n

Sa\u00e7\u0131m\u0131 k\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259r yoldu, neyl\u0259yim…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

M\u0259n el\u0259 bildim ki, d\u00fcz\u0259 meyarsan,<\/p>\n

D\u0259rdli gec\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 \u015firin r\u00f6yasan,<\/p>\n

Ba\u015fdan aya\u011fad\u0259k yalan, riyasan,<\/p>\n

Ax\u0131r n\u0259tic\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259ldim, neyl\u0259yim…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bel\u0259 yarad\u0131bd\u0131 m\u0259ni yaradan,<\/p>\n

G\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n pay al\u0131r g\u00f6yl\u0259rim h\u0259r an,<\/p>\n

\u0130ld\u0131r\u0131m olaraq g\u00f6yd\u0259 hayq\u0131rram,<\/p>\n

Odumu da\u011flara sald\u0131m, neyl\u0259yim…<\/p>\n

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***<\/p>\n

E T \u0130 R A F<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

M\u0259n qalm\u0131\u015fam bu meydanda t\u0259kb\u0259t\u0259k,<\/p>\n

\u00d6mr\u00fcm el\u0259 \u00e7alxalan\u0131rnehr\u0259 t\u0259k,<\/p>\n

G\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259ki ayran\u0131m\u0131 K\u00fcr\u0259 t\u00f6k,<\/p>\n

K\u00fcr\u0259 s\u0131\u011fm\u0131r a\u015f\u0131b-da\u015f\u0131r, ay allah!<\/p>\n

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Da\u015f a\u011fac\u0131n tili\u015fk\u0259si sevincim,<\/p>\n

Yorulmu\u015fam t\u00fck\u0259nibdir lap g\u00fcc\u00fcm,<\/p>\n

X\u0259zan ay\u0131, s\u0259nd\u0259n yaman incidim,<\/p>\n

\u0130ncikliyim g\u00f6y dola\u015f\u0131r, ay allah!<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

O uza\u011f\u0131n yet\u0259mmir\u0259m \u00fcn\u00fcn\u0259,<\/p>\n

M\u0259n vuruldum, g\u00fcl\u00fcm, g\u00fcnl\u0259r g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u0259,<\/p>\n

Heyif bu\u011fda o yeti\u015f\u0259n d\u0259nin\u0259,<\/p>\n

Zir-zibil\u0259 tay qar\u0131\u015f\u0131r, ay allah!<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u00d6l\u00fcm tez-tez diriliym\u0259 pay verir,<\/p>\n

V\u00fcsal des\u0259m Hicran m\u0259n\u0259 pay verir,<\/p>\n

S\u0131n\u0131q q\u0259lbi \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 tay bilir,<\/p>\n

Od q\u0259lbiml\u0259 od yara\u015f\u0131r, ay allah!<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

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Ke\u00e7\u0259mmir\u0259m, k\u00f6rp\u00fcs\u00fc yox o \u00e7ay\u0131n,<\/p>\n

Bir yel ola bu d\u00fcnyadan qa\u00e7ayd\u0131m,<\/p>\n

M\u00fc\u015fk\u00fcl i\u015f\u0259 asan yollar a\u00e7ayd\u0131m,<\/p>\n

Da\u011f q\u0259mimd\u0259n da\u011flar \u00e7a\u015far, ay allah!<\/p>\n

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***<\/p>\n

DA\u011eLAR K\u00d6M\u018fK ET!<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

Bezikmi\u015f\u0259m intizar\u0131n s\u0259brin\u0259,<\/p>\n

D\u00f6n\u00fcb k\u00f6nl\u00fcm \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f \u00fcmid q\u0259brin\u0259,<\/p>\n

\u018fzab\u0131m\u0131n qiym\u0259ti n\u0259, q\u0259dri n\u0259,<\/p>\n

Da\u011flar, m\u0259ni a\u011fu\u015funa al dedim.<\/p>\n

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N\u0259 vaxtad\u0259k d\u0259n yerin\u0259 sovrulum?<\/p>\n

N\u0259 vaxtad\u0259k hicran olum qovrulum?<\/p>\n

Q\u0131c olaraq ilan kimi q\u0131vr\u0131l\u0131m,<\/p>\n

Da\u011flar, m\u0259ni a\u011fu\u015funa al dedim.<\/p>\n

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Haqq qu\u015fuyam, tap\u0131lmazd\u0131r itiyim,<\/p>\n

Ke\u00e7ilm\u0259zdir yolum \u00fcst\u0259 g\u0259diyim,<\/p>\n

Bu qism\u0259tdir, qism\u0259tim\u0259 n\u0259 deyim,<\/p>\n

Da\u011flar, m\u0259ni a\u011fu\u015funa al dedim.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bir qorxudan lap \u00fcr\u0259yim qalanar,<\/p>\n

Haqq bildiyim bird\u0259n d\u00f6n\u0259r yalana,<\/p>\n

Onda s\u00f6z\u00fcm alovlanar, dil yanar,<\/p>\n

Da\u011flar, m\u0259ni a\u011fu\u015funa al dedim.<\/p>\n

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N\u0259 zal\u0131mm\u0131\u015f yollar\u0131m\u0131 k\u0259s\u0259nim,<\/p>\n

M\u0259ni yaman k\u00fcsd\u00fcr\u00fcbd\u00fc k\u00fcs\u0259nim,<\/p>\n

Aman vermir sevinc i\u00e7im s\u00fcsl\u0259nim,<\/p>\n

Da\u011flar, m\u0259ni a\u011fu\u015funa al dedim.<\/p>\n

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H\u0259sr\u0259t olub pal-paltar\u0131m, b\u0259z\u0259yim,<\/p>\n

G\u00f6z-g\u00f6z oldu \u00fcr\u0259yimin \u00f6z\u0259yi,<\/p>\n

Yamaq tutmur, nec\u0259 tikim, g\u00f6z\u0259yim?<\/p>\n

Da\u011flar, m\u0259ni a\u011fu\u015funa al dedim.<\/p>\n

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***<\/p>\n

D A \u015e L A R<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

El\u0259 bil ki, \u015fumluq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259kilib,<\/p>\n

Da\u011f d\u00f6\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 da\u015f toxumu s\u0259pilib,<\/p>\n

Da\u015f toxumdan da\u015f c\u00fcc\u0259rib, dik\u0259lib,<\/p>\n

Da\u015f \u0259kind\u0259n nec\u0259 ke\u00e7im, ay allah!<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Tapdalanmaz, da\u015f \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 izl\u0259r var,<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259kl\u0259r\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fmayan s\u00f6zl\u0259r var,<\/p>\n

Etibardan su i\u00e7mi\u015fdir d\u00fcz ilqar,<\/p>\n

Bu peyman\u0131 nec\u0259 i\u00e7im, ay allah!<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Olumdumu, qal\u0131md\u0131m\u0131 bu da\u015flar,<\/p>\n

Yoxu\u015fummu, yolumdumu bu da\u015flar,<\/p>\n

Al\u0131n yaz\u0131m, ulumdumu bu da\u015flar,<\/p>\n

Bu tarixi nec\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131m, ay allah!<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Biri deyir, oxu m\u0259ni taley\u0259m,<\/p>\n

Biri deyir, \u00e7al\u0131nmam\u0131\u015f bir ney\u0259m,<\/p>\n

Biri deyir, s\u0259n\u0259 yaman g\u0259r\u0259y\u0259m,<\/p>\n

Bu da\u015flardan nec\u0259 qa\u00e7\u0131m, ay allah!<\/p>\n

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G\u00f6z g\u0259zdirdim qatlayaraq dizimi,<\/p>\n

Da\u015f i\u00e7ind\u0259 b\u0259lk\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259m izimi,<\/p>\n

Bu n\u0259h\u0259ngl\u0259r aras\u0131nda \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u2013<\/p>\n

X\u0259zang\u00fcl\u00fc nec\u0259 se\u00e7im, ay allah!<\/p>\n

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***<\/p>\n

VER M\u018fN\u0130M \u201cQ\u018fTL G\u00dcN\u00dcM\u00dc\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n

(Yusif S\u0259m\u0259do\u011fluna)<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n k\u0259l\u0259find\u0259,<\/p>\n

d\u00fcy\u00fcnl\u0259ndim d\u00fcy\u00fcn kimi.<\/p>\n

H\u0131\u00e7q\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131m taleyimd\u0259,<\/p>\n

deyilm\u0259y\u0259n deyim kimi.<\/p>\n

Bo\u011fazlad\u0131m arzular\u0131m\u0131,<\/p>\n

g\u00f6z \u00f6n\u00fcmd\u0259 qoyun kimi.<\/p>\n

Bu d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259li\u015fimi,<\/p>\n

sand\u0131m h\u0259r an oyun kimi.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7\u0259rimd\u0259 tufan \u0259sdi, boran qopdu,<\/p>\n

Bu tufan\u0131 gizl\u0259tm\u0259k\u00e7\u00fcn,<\/p>\n

c\u00f6hr\u0259m \u00fcst\u0259 bir qondarma g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f yapd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

T\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fc a\u011flama\u011fa calaq etdim,<\/p>\n

H\u0259rd\u0259n-h\u0259rd\u0259n,<\/p>\n

su \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi bulaq etdim.<\/p>\n

G\u0259ncliyimi ba\u015flayanda,<\/p>\n

Ah\u0131ll\u0131\u011f\u0131m ayaq tutub yerind\u0259,<\/p>\n

Cavanl\u0131\u011f\u0131m sin\u0259m \u00fcst\u0259 suvaq \u00e7\u0259kdi \u00f6z qan\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

Haray sald\u0131, dad apard\u0131,<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yimi qopard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Neynim ax\u0131,<\/p>\n

\u0130smarlad\u0131m \u0130nkir-Minkir d\u00fcnyas\u0131na,<\/p>\n

f\u0259ryad\u0131m\u0131 \u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Dedim m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rsinl\u0259r,<\/p>\n

Onlar \u201cQ\u0259tl g\u00fcn\u00fc\u201dm\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Verin m\u0259n\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcm\u00fc, \u201cQ\u0259tl g\u00fcn\u00fc\u201dm\u00fc,<\/p>\n

G\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131,<\/p>\n

qaynadaca\u011fam \u201cQaynar qazan\u201dda.<\/p>\n

Vidala\u015f\u0131b<\/p>\n

bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n yetim\u00e7\u0259si X\u0259zanla<\/p>\n

\u201cQaynar qazan\u201d da \u00e7im\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m,<\/p>\n

bi\u015f\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m, qaynayaca\u011fam:-Qan yuyacam,<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00d6z ruhumun qan\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

U\u00e7uracam yuvas\u0131n\u0131, qan\u0131n\u0131,<\/p>\n

Qoy X\u0259zanla birg\u0259 ruhum da \u00f6ls\u00fcn…<\/p>\n

Bird\u0259f\u0259lik ac\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 qoy ruhum bilsin.<\/p>\n

Neyn\u0259yir\u0259m bel\u0259 \u201cruhu\u201d?<\/p>\n

Milyon ill\u0259r bundan qabaq,<\/p>\n

ruhu olub bir nakam\u0131n,<\/p>\n

O, nakam\u0131n, odu, ah\u0131,<\/p>\n

Nakam ruhu,<\/p>\n

Bakir\u0259 qala-qala.<\/p>\n

Minl\u0259rl\u0259 X\u0259zang\u00fcl ola-ola,<\/p>\n

Sonra kimins\u0259 ruhu olacaq.<\/p>\n

D\u00fcnya boyda ah\u0131 olacaq…<\/p>\n

\u00d6yr\u0259d\u0259r\u0259m haray\u0131m\u0131, \u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fc,<\/p>\n

Verin m\u0259n\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcm\u00fc, \u201cQ\u0259tl g\u00fcn\u00fc\u201dm\u00fc…<\/p>\n

\u018fs\u0259bilikl\u0259 s\u00fcm\u00fcr\u00fcl\u0259n papirosun t\u00fcst\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc<\/p>\n

O t\u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fcn istisini<\/p>\n

\u0130lk\u0259k edib bo\u011faz\u0131ma,<\/p>\n

O t\u00fcst\u00fcd\u0259n, o istid\u0259n as\u0131lacam,<\/p>\n

Eheyyy… Hardasan? \u2013 dey\u0259 s\u0259s olacam<\/p>\n

Eheyyy… e\u015fidirs\u0259n?…<\/p>\n

\u00c7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131ram qibl\u0259gah\u0131m\u0131, dinimi,<\/p>\n

\u201cQ\u0259tl g\u00fcn\u00fc\u201dm\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Sinir\u0259c\u0259m \u201cQ\u0259tl g\u00fcn\u00fc\u201dm\u00fc,<\/p>\n

qurtaqurtla i\u00e7il\u0259n dadl\u0131 su kimi<\/p>\n

Arzu kimi.<\/p>\n

Eheyyy e\u015fidirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

Ver m\u0259nim \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcm\u00fc,<\/p>\n

\u201cQ\u0259tl g\u00fcn\u00fc\u201dm\u00fc.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

HAQQ S\u0130RR\u0130Y\u018fM<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bu nec\u0259 alovdu d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm, ay allah,<\/p>\n

N\u0259 yana bilir\u0259m, n\u0259 d\u0259 s\u00f6n\u00fcr\u0259m,<\/p>\n

M\u0259n ki, s\u0131naqlardan ke\u00e7dim, ay allah,<\/p>\n

\u00d6z hicran pay\u0131m\u0131 zorla sinirr\u0259m.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Q\u0259lbimin sirda\u015f\u0131 gec\u0259 ay olar,<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259 gur \u00e7ay oldu qay\u011f\u0131lar,<\/p>\n

Dill\u0259ndi n\u0259\u011fm\u0259md\u0259n o lal qayalar,<\/p>\n

N\u0259\u011fm\u0259 buludumdan suya d\u00f6n\u00fcr\u0259m.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u018fzir \u00e7iyinl\u0259rimi y\u00fck \u00fcst\u0259n y\u00fck\u00fcm,<\/p>\n

N\u0259 vaxtad\u0259k h\u0259sr\u0259t adl\u0131 t\u0259r t\u00f6kd\u00fcm,<\/p>\n

Ay h\u0259yan\u0131m, d\u00fcnya ad\u0131l, ya \u0259rkim,<\/p>\n

Hicran \u00fcst\u0259 ney oluram, dinir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Haqq sirriy\u0259m, sirrim he\u00e7 vaxt b\u00f6l\u00fcnm\u0259z,<\/p>\n

Da\u011f \u00fcr\u0259yim da\u011f-da\u011f olar, bilinm\u0259z,<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259rimin q\u0259m suva\u011f\u0131 silinm\u0259z,<\/p>\n

Sirrim deyim haray \u00e7\u0259kir g\u00fcnl\u0259rim.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

He\u00e7 bilmir\u0259m hara s\u00fcr\u00fcm atam\u0131,<\/p>\n

Tapamm\u0131ram haqq bildiyim haqq\u0131m\u0131,<\/p>\n

Dama\u011f\u0131mda g\u00f6zl\u0259diyim haqq tam\u0131,<\/p>\n

Haqq, haqq deyib haqq s\u0259sini \u00fcnl\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

SABAHA M\u018fN\u0130<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

Gec\u0259l\u0259r g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 gec\u0259qu\u015fudur,<\/p>\n

Gec\u0259l\u0259r k\u00f6n\u00fcl\u00fcm\u00fc\u00a0 yaman \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcr,<\/p>\n

Gec\u0259l\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r\u00e7\u00fcn \u201cqara ke\u015fi\u015f\u201ddir,<\/p>\n

S\u00fcbh yeli, qovu\u015fdur sabaha m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

S\u00fcbh yeli, s\u00fcbh yeli, haray\u0131ma g\u0259l,<\/p>\n

S\u00fcbh yeli, ilim\u0259, h\u0259r ay\u0131ma g\u0259l,<\/p>\n

S\u00fcbh yeli, q\u0259lbimin saray\u0131na g\u0259l,<\/p>\n

S\u00fcbh yeli, qovu\u015fdur sabaha m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

T\u0259ntidim bu g\u00fcn\u00fcn gec\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131ndan,<\/p>\n

T\u0259ntidim bu g\u00fcn\u00fcn hicran da\u011f\u0131ndan,<\/p>\n

Qorxuram gec\u0259nin b\u0259d sora\u011f\u0131ndan,<\/p>\n

S\u00fcbh yeli, qovu\u015fdur sabaha m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Buludlu k\u00f6nl\u00fcmd\u0259 ild\u0131r\u0131m \u00e7axd\u0131,<\/p>\n

G\u00f6z\u00fcm kipriyini q\u0259fild\u0259n s\u0131xd\u0131,<\/p>\n

Sabah\u0131n xo\u015f s\u0259si, sora\u011f\u0131 \u00e7oxdu,<\/p>\n

S\u00fcbh yeli, qovu\u015fdur sabaha m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

D\u00fcnya bir \u00fcz\u00fc q\u0131\u015f, biri bahard\u0131,<\/p>\n

D\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc, itimi vard\u0131,<\/p>\n

D\u00fcnyan\u0131n m\u0259n kimi yetimi vard\u0131,<\/p>\n

S\u00fcbh yeli, qovu\u015fdur sabaha m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

Q\u0130BL\u018fY\u018f SARI<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bu boyda tan\u0131\u015flar, dostlar i\u00e7ind\u0259,<\/p>\n

\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc t\u0259k t\u0259nha san\u0131ram niy\u0259?<\/p>\n

Sanki ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015fam durna k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcnd\u0259n,<\/p>\n

Bir q\u0259mli ney kimi q\u0259lbim g\u00f6yn\u0259y\u0259r.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

El\u0259 penc\u0259r olub s\u0131x\u0131l\u0131r k\u00f6nl\u00fcm,<\/p>\n

H\u0259r an q\u0259m \u015fill\u0259si d\u0259yir \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259.<\/p>\n

Bu n\u0259 ya\u015famaqd\u0131r n\u0259 d\u0259 ki, \u00f6l\u00fcm,<\/p>\n

Q\u0259rib\u0259lik \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcr \u015fer\u0259, s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Yollara dikilir sor\u011fulu g\u00f6z\u00fcm,<\/p>\n

Dilim d\u00f6n\u00fcb da\u015fa, dan\u0131\u015fa bilmir.<\/p>\n

Aya\u011f\u0131ma h\u0259sr\u0259tdir \u00f6z yolum, izim,<\/p>\n

Odum k\u00fcl olubdur, al\u0131\u015fa bilmir.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

M\u0259nim intizar\u0131m d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259,<\/p>\n

Da\u015fdan-da\u015fa \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131r, soyumur yen\u0259.<\/p>\n

Yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u0259lm\u0259yir \u00f6l\u0259n d\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259,<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u0259kir q\u0131l\u0131nc\u0131n\u0131 o, d\u00f6n\u0259-d\u00f6n\u0259.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

K\u00f6vr\u0259lmi\u015f u\u015fa\u011fa d\u00f6n\u00fcr \u00fcr\u0259yim,<\/p>\n

Dindirs\u0259n, g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n \u0259l\u0259n\u0259r \u0259rkim.<\/p>\n

\u00d6z\u00fcm d\u0259 bilmir\u0259m, tanr\u0131m, neyl\u0259yim,<\/p>\n

Bel\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fck\u00fc m\u0259n nec\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kim?<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bir kims\u0259 tapm\u0131ram d\u0259rdimi dey\u0259m,<\/p>\n

T\u0259p\u0259 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259 bilm\u0259z da\u011flar qubar\u0131.<\/p>\n

F\u0259ryad\u0131 i\u00e7imd\u0259 kamanam, ney\u0259m,<\/p>\n

\u00dcz\u00fcm\u00fc tutmu\u015fam qibl\u0259y\u0259 sar\u0131.<\/p>\n

Yaz\u0131ya 1540 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

M\u0259ni anlamad\u0131 n\u0259 da\u011f, n\u0259 d\u0259r\u0259, N\u0259yi g\u00f6zl\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m m\u0259n \u0259b\u0259s yer\u0259. \u00dcz\u00fcm\u00fc tutaraq deyim g\u00f6yl\u0259r\u0259, G\u00f6y atam, qoy s\u0259nin g\u00f6y q\u0131z\u0131n olum!   H\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7 karvan\u0131na qo\u015fula bildim, N\u0259 d\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131\u015f olub g\u00f6yd\u0259n t\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fcm. El\u0259 \u0259z\u0259l g\u00fcnd\u0259n q\u0259md\u0259n tikildim, G\u00f6y atam, qoy s\u0259nin g\u00f6y q\u0131z\u0131n olum!   G\u00f6y atam, g\u00f6y\u0259r\u0259 bilm\u0259dim, neynim, G\u00f6y atam, a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131b, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[15,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11222"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=11222"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11222\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11224,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11222\/revisions\/11224"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=11222"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=11222"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=11222"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}