{"id":11661,"date":"2018-12-05T18:33:19","date_gmt":"2018-12-05T14:33:19","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=11661"},"modified":"2018-12-05T18:33:19","modified_gmt":"2018-12-05T14:33:19","slug":"fazil-s%c9%99nan-sonuncu-n%c9%99gm%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=11661","title":{"rendered":"Fazil S\u0259nan – SONUNCU N\u018f\u011eM\u018f"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"15977301_1856966671238510_1121668767748174714_n\"<\/a>Xeyli vaxt idi ki, afi\u015falar vurulmu\u015fdu. Konsertin ba\u015flanaca\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcn\u00fc s\u0259birsizlikl\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. Lap qabaq c\u0259rg\u0259y\u0259 bilet d\u0259 alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/em><\/strong>
\nGec\u0259l\u0259r yata\u011fa gir\u0259nd\u0259 saatlarla onunla \u00abs\u00f6hb\u0259t\u00bb edirdi. Onu sevdiyini, evl\u0259nm\u0259k ist\u0259diyini d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 elan ets\u0259 d\u0259, m\u00fcsb\u0259t bir cavab ala bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u0130ki ild\u0259n art\u0131q idi ki, gec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259lind\u0259n alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Qarabaqara k\u00f6l-g\u0259 kimi arxas\u0131nca s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u00d6z-\u00f6zl\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r danlay\u0131rd\u0131 ki, \u0259l \u00e7\u0259ksin, yen\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yi, hissi onun arxas\u0131nca s\u00fcr\u00fckl\u0259yirdi. Q\u0259ti bir cavab vermirdi. M\u00fc\u0259mmal\u0131 cavablar\u0131, isti bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 il\u0259 \u00abg\u0259l-g\u0259l\u00bb deyirdi. Hiss edirdi ki, sevir, amma n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn etiraf etmir, n\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 dilin\u0259 g\u0259tirmir onu ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bilmirdi. \u0130ki ild\u0259 bu m\u00fc\u0259mman\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 ayd\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131ra bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi.<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

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\nA\u00e7\u0131q havada bayram konserti verilirdi. M\u0259sud da getmi\u015fdi konsert\u0259. Lap qabaqda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi. M\u00fc\u011f\u0259nnil\u0259r bir-birini \u0259v\u0259z edirdi. G\u00f6z\u0259l yay gec\u0259sind\u0259 oxunan mah-n\u0131lar topla\u015fanlara g\u00f6z\u0259l bir ovqat b\u0259x\u015f edirdi. Apar\u0131c\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n: \u00ab\u00c7\u0131x\u0131\u015f edir g\u0259nc v\u0259 istedadl\u0131 m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nni M\u0259tan\u0259t V\u00fcqarl\u0131\u00bb dem\u0259si M\u0259sudda bir maraq yaratd\u0131. Ha fikirl\u0259\u015fdi, bel\u0259 bir m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nnini xat\u0131rlaya bilm\u0259di. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, s\u0259hn\u0259y\u0259 ilk g\u0259li\u015fidir, fikri il\u0259 s\u0259hn\u0259y\u0259 diqq\u0259t k\u0259sildi. Bir azdan orta boylu, qara sa\u00e7lar\u0131 a\u011f \u00e7iyinl\u0259rin\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f, \u015faftal\u0131 \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259yi r\u0259ngind\u0259 s\u0259hn\u0259 paltar\u0131 geyinmi\u015f bir q\u0131z\u0131n s\u0259hn\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xmas\u0131 topla\u015fanlar aras\u0131nda s\u00fckut yaratd\u0131. G\u0259nc q\u0131z bir anl\u0131\u011fa g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259r qara g\u00f6zl\u0259ri il\u0259 arxada ayaq \u00fcst\u0259 dayananlar\u0131 s\u00fczd\u00fc v\u0259 qabaq c\u0259rg\u0259y\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r yetir\u0259nd\u0259 bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 t\u0259sad\u00fcf\u0259n M\u0259sudun bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 il\u0259 toqqu\u015fdu. Q\u0131z\u0131n dodaqlar\u0131ndan ke\u00e7\u0259n x\u0259fif t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm d\u0259yirmi sif\u0259tin\u0259 yay\u0131ld\u0131. Musiqinin m\u00fc\u015fayi\u0259ti il\u0259 mahn\u0131n\u0131n qanadlar\u0131nda u\u00e7ma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Arabir bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 M\u0259sudun bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 il\u0259 toqqu\u015furdu. M\u0259sud \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc unudaraq q\u0131z\u0131 bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 il\u0259 ham\u0131dan gizl\u0259tmi\u015fdi. Mahn\u0131 sona \u00e7atd\u0131. Tama-\u015fa\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n fasil\u0259siz \u0259l \u00e7almalar\u0131 \u00abSa\u011f ol! Sa\u011f ol!\u00bb dem\u0259sin\u0259 cavab olaraq apar\u0131c\u0131 g\u0259nc m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nninin ifas\u0131nda yeni bir mahn\u0131n\u0131n oxunmas\u0131n\u0131 elan etdi. Tama\u015fa\u00e7\u0131 sevgisind\u0259n ruhlanan m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nni s\u0259hn\u0259nin b\u00fct\u00fcn ixtiyar\u0131n\u0131 \u0259lin\u0259 ald\u0131. Mahn\u0131n\u0131n sona \u00e7atmas\u0131 il\u0259 alq\u0131\u015f s\u0259dalar\u0131 yay gec\u0259\u00acsin\u0259 qa-r\u0131\u015faraq uzaqlarda e\u015fidildi. M\u0259sud \u0259traf\u0131na d\u00f6y\u00fckd\u00fc. Arxa c\u0259rg\u0259d\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fmi\u015f xan\u0131m\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259 tutdu\u011fu g\u00fcl buketini g\u00f6rc\u0259k aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131 v\u0259 dedi:
\n\u2013 Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, pulunu verim, o buketi m\u0259n\u0259 verin. T\u0259sad\u00fcfi g\u0259ldiyim\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 g\u00fcl almam\u0131\u015fam.
\n\u2013 Buyurun. El\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259 buketi bu g\u0259nc q\u0131za ver\u0259c\u0259ydim. \u00c7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l oxudu. N\u0259 f\u0259rqi var, ya m\u0259n verdim, ya siz. Al\u0131n, \u2013 dey\u0259 xan\u0131m \u0259lind\u0259ki g\u00fcl buketini M\u0259suda uzatd\u0131. M\u0259sud buketi ald\u0131, \u0259lini cibin\u0259 sald\u0131 ki, buketin pulunu versin.
\n\u2013 Yox, yox, he\u00e7 bir \u015fey laz\u0131m deyil. G\u00fcl satm\u0131rd\u0131m. M\u0259qs\u0259dim hans\u0131 m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nni xo\u015fuma g\u0259ls\u0259, ona ver\u0259c\u0259ydim. H\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n d\u0259, bu g\u0259nc q\u0131z \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131 oxudu. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, s\u0259hn\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r. Amma yax\u015f\u0131 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yi var. Apar\u0131n verin. Halald\u0131 o q\u0131za. H\u0259m d\u0259 siz cavans\u0131n\u0131z. Buketi sizin t\u0259qdim etm\u0259yiniz daha m\u0259qs\u0259d\u0259uy\u011fundu, \u2013 dey\u0259n xan\u0131m\u0131n m\u0259nal\u0131 t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcn\u0259 v\u0259 bax\u0131\u015f\u0131na cavab olaraq M\u0259sud \u00ab\u00c7ox sa\u011f olun! Minn\u0259tdaram\u00bb deyib bu-ket \u0259lind\u0259 s\u0259hn\u0259y\u0259 qalxd\u0131. M\u00fc\u011f\u0259nni art\u0131q s\u0259hn\u0259 arxas\u0131na ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. M\u0259sud qap\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6yd\u00fc. \u0130\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259n e\u015fidil\u0259n \u00abbu\u00acyu-run\u00bb s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7di. \u00c7\u0131x\u0131\u015f ed\u0259n m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nnil\u0259rd\u0259n bir ne\u00e7\u0259si i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259 idi. M\u0259sud ham\u0131n\u0131 salamlay\u0131b \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc ayaq \u00fcstd\u0259 dayanm\u0131\u015f g\u0259nc q\u0131za tutaraq dedi:
\n\u2013 M\u0259tan\u0259t xan\u0131m, \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l oxudunuz. Bu g\u00fcll\u0259r sizin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnd\u00fcr. Bir tama\u015fa\u00e7\u0131 v\u0259 p\u0259r\u0259sti\u015fkar\u0131n\u0131z kimi sizi t\u0259brik edir\u0259m.
\n\u2013 \u00c7ox sa\u011f olun. Minn\u0259tdaram. M\u0259tan\u0259t ona t\u0259r\u0259f uza\u00ac\u00acd\u0131lm\u0131\u015f g\u00fcll\u0259ri ald\u0131 v\u0259 bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 M\u0259sudun ona zill\u0259nmi\u015f bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131nda ili\u015fib qald\u0131. Tan\u0131d\u0131. H\u0259min bax\u0131\u015flar idi. Qabaq c\u0259rg\u0259d\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fmi\u015f o\u011flan\u0131n bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131. Q\u0131z\u0131n uzun qara kirpikl\u0259ri raz\u0131l\u0131q \u0259lam\u0259ti olaraq enib-qalxd\u0131.
\n\u2013 \u0130lk s\u0259hn\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131zd\u0131? M\u0259sud imkandan istifad\u0259 ed\u0259r\u0259k q\u0131z\u0131 yax\u0131ndan tan\u0131maq ist\u0259di.
\n\u2013 B\u0259li, ilk \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f\u0131md\u0131r. M\u0259sudun iti, n\u00fcfuzedici ba-x\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndan sif\u0259ti p\u00f6rtd\u00fc v\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131, sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcll\u0259rin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 \u0259ydi. G\u00fcll\u0259rin xo\u015f \u0259trini sin\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi.
\n\u2013 Siz\u0259 u\u011furlar dil\u0259yir\u0259m.
\nM\u0259sud otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Apar\u0131c\u0131 q\u0131za yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131 v\u0259 M\u0259tan\u0259t haqda laz\u0131mi m\u0259lumatlar\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

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\nM\u0259tan\u0259tl\u0259 olan ilk tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131qdan iki ild\u0259n art\u0131q bir vaxt ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. Bu ill\u0259rd\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 M\u0259sud qarabaqara onu izl\u0259mi\u015f, arxas\u0131nca k\u00f6lg\u0259 kimi s\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. M\u00fc\u011f\u0259nni kimi M\u0259tan\u0259tin \u015f\u00f6hr\u0259ti g\u00fcnd\u0259n-g\u00fcn\u0259 daha da art\u0131rd\u0131. Albomlar\u0131, klipl\u0259ri burax\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. M\u0259sud sponsorluq etm\u0259yi t\u0259k-lif ets\u0259 d\u0259, M\u0259tan\u0259t he\u00e7 c\u00fcr raz\u0131la\u015fmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ba\u015f a\u00e7a bil-mirdi q\u0131zdan. D\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 evl\u0259nm\u0259k t\u0259klif etmi\u015fdi. Amma, M\u0259tan\u0259t raz\u0131la\u015fmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. M\u0259tan\u0259t n\u0259 q\u0259ti M\u0259sudu r\u0259dd edirdi, n\u0259 d\u0259 \u00abS\u0259ni sevir\u0259m\u00bb deyirdi. Bu sevdadan \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259yi qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na m\u0259qs\u0259d qoysa da, M\u0259sud \u00f6z hissl\u0259ri il\u0259 bacara bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi. M\u0259tan\u0259tin he\u00e7 bir ba\u015fqa adamla m\u00fcnasib\u0259ti olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tam y\u0259qinl\u0259\u015fdir\u0259n M\u0259\u00acsud bu m\u00fc-\u0259mmal\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n sirrind\u0259n ba\u015f a\u00e7a bil\u00acmirdi. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 M\u0259sudun: \u00abS\u0259ni sevir\u0259m, b\u0259s s\u0259n nec\u0259?\u00bb\u2026 sual\u0131na M\u0259tan\u0259t bir cavab verirdi:
\n\u2013 S\u0259ni dost kimi sevir\u0259m, \u00e7ox ist\u0259yir\u0259m.
\n\u2013 Bu, n\u0259 dem\u0259kdir? Hara deyir\u0259m, gedirs\u0259n, he\u00e7 bir add\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259nsiz, m\u0259n\u0259 m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t etm\u0259d\u0259n atm\u0131rsan, amma \u00abS\u0259ni sevir\u0259m\u00bb dey\u0259 bilmirs\u0259n? G\u00f6r iki ild\u0259n art\u0131qd\u0131r ki, s\u0259nin arxanca k\u00f6lg\u0259 kimi s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m. Niy\u0259 utan\u0131rsan? \u0130st\u0259mirs\u0259n, den\u0259n s\u0259nl\u0259 m\u0259nimki tutmaz. M\u0259n d\u0259 gedim axtar\u0131m tay\u0131m\u0131 tap\u0131b, ail\u0259 qurum.
\nM\u0259sud incikliyini bildirib ayr\u0131lmaq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259, M\u0259tan\u0259t tez M\u0259sudun sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131lar, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 onun sin\u0259sin\u0259 qoyub a\u011f \u0259ll\u0259ri il\u0259 qara sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131\u011fallayar v\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin i\u00e7in\u0259 bax\u0131b dey\u0259rdi:
\n\u2013 Hara gedirs\u0259n, m\u0259nim h\u0259yat\u0131m? M\u0259n s\u0259nsiz bir g\u00fcn d\u0259 ya\u015faya bilm\u0259r\u0259m. H\u0259l\u0259 s\u0259n ba\u015fqas\u0131 il\u0259 evl\u0259nm\u0259kd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan. Amma bir \u015feyi bil ki, m\u0259n s\u0259ni sev\u0259 bil-m\u0259r\u0259m. \u0130st\u0259mir\u0259m s\u0259ni sevib b\u0259db\u0259xt el\u0259yim. Bildinmi? \u2013 dey\u0259n M\u0259tan\u0259tin yana\u011f\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 M\u0259sudun sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259nmi\u015f sif\u0259tin\u0259 damc\u0131la\u00acd\u0131qca g\u0259n-cin bir az \u0259vv\u0259lki incikliyi yaddan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r v\u0259 dinm\u0259z-s\u00f6y\u00acl\u0259-m\u0259z yenid\u0259n M\u0259\u00acta\u00acn\u0259tin \u0259sirin\u0259 \u00e7evrilirdi.
\nM\u0259\u00acta\u00acn\u0259t tez-tez televiziya kanallar\u0131n\u0131n qona\u011f\u0131 olurdu. G\u0259nc, \u00e7ox populyar m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nni kimi \u00abBir sevginin tarix\u00e7\u0259si\u00bb verili\u015fin\u0259 qonaq \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar M\u0259tan\u0259ti. Apar\u0131c\u0131n\u0131n bir \u00e7ox sual\u00aclar\u0131na cavab ver\u0259n g\u0259nc m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nni b\u0259zi suallar\u0131 cavabland\u0131rmaqdan boyun qa\u00e7\u0131ra bilm\u0259di.
\n\u2013 M\u0259tan\u0259t xan\u0131m, \u00e7ox g\u0259ncsiniz. \u018fsl sevib-sevil\u0259n vaxt\u0131n\u0131zd\u0131r. H\u0259m \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l, h\u0259m d\u0259 ham\u0131n\u0131n q\u0259bul etdiyi bir m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nnisiniz. He\u00e7 sevmisinizmi? \u2013 apar\u0131c\u0131 m\u00fcsa-hibinin sualdan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc itirdiyini g\u00f6r\u00fcb ver\u0259c\u0259yi cavaba diqq\u0259t k\u0259sildi.
\n\u2013 Yox, sevm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.
\nApar\u0131c\u0131 dedi:
\n\u2013 Nec\u0259? H\u0259l\u0259 sevm\u0259misiniz? \u00c7ox maraql\u0131d\u0131r. \u0130nand\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcr cavab\u0131n\u0131z. Sizin kimi bir g\u00f6z\u0259lin \u00fcr\u0259\u00acyini ox\u015fayan he\u00e7 olmay\u0131bd\u0131r?
\nM\u0259tan\u0259t q\u0131zard\u0131:
\n\u2013 Yox, m\u0259n he\u00e7 kim\u0259 \u00abS\u0259ni sevir\u0259m\u00bb dem\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.
\n\u2013 Yax\u015f\u0131 siz\u0259 e\u015fqini elan ed\u0259n varm\u0131?
\n\u2013 B\u0259li, var.
\n\u2013 Xo\u015funuza g\u0259lmir, dey\u0259 sevmirsiniz? Yoxsa, ka-s\u0131b o\u011fland\u0131r? Apar\u0131c\u0131 g\u00fcld\u00fc.
\n\u2013 Xo\u015fuma g\u0259lir. \u0130mkanl\u0131 da o\u011fland\u0131r.
\n\u2013 Sizin bu cavab\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 n\u0259 c\u00fcr ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259k? Apar\u0131c\u0131 t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u0259 M\u0259tan\u0259t\u0259 baxd\u0131.
\n\u2013 N\u0259 c\u00fcr ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc dey\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m. Onu dey\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m ki, m\u0259n he\u00e7 kim\u0259 \u00abS\u0259ni sevir\u0259m\u00bb dem\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.
\n\u2013 Yax\u015f\u0131, repertuar\u0131n\u0131zda m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t m\u00f6vzusunda mahn\u0131lar \u00e7oxluq t\u0259\u015fkil edir. H\u0259m d\u0259 oxu\u00acdu\u011funuz mahn\u0131-larda bir h\u0259sr\u0259t, ba\u00acxa-baxa yanmaq duy\u011fusu \u0259ks olunur. Bilm\u0259k olarm\u0131 h\u0259min mahn\u0131lar\u0131 kimin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn oxuyursunuz?
\nApar\u0131c\u0131 g\u0259nc m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nninin cavablar\u0131nda n\u0259 is\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131l-mam\u0131\u015f s\u0259hif\u0259l\u0259ri oxumaq arzusu il\u0259 yenid\u0259n m\u00fcsahibin\u0259 diqq\u0259t k\u0259sildi.
\n\u2013 M\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn mahn\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 bir adam \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn oxuyuram v\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 d\u0259 onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn oxuya\u00acca\u011fam. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 s\u0259hn\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xanda ancaq onu g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m. O, m\u0259ni b\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla sevir. Bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n xo\u015fb\u0259xt adam\u0131 hesab edi\u00acr\u0259m. O m\u0259niml\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131r. H\u0259yat\u0131ndan art\u0131q sevir m\u0259ni. M\u0259n is\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt ona dem\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m ki, s\u0259ni sevir\u0259m.
\n\u2013 Niy\u0259 demirsiniz? \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc saxlaya bilm\u0259y\u0259n apar\u0131c\u0131 s\u0259sinin tonunu qald\u0131rmaqla sanki o\u011flan\u0131n cavabs\u0131z m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tin\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yi yand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi.
\n\u2013 Ona \u00abS\u0259ni sevir\u0259m\u00bb dem\u0259kl\u0259 onu b\u0259d\u00acb\u0259xt etm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m! \u2013 dey\u0259n M\u0259tan\u0259tin bulud kimi dolmu\u015f qara g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n damlalar yanaqlar\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 yuvarla-naraq nazik, yumru a\u011f \u00e7\u0259n\u0259sinin alt\u0131nda iki h\u0259sr\u0259tin yan-\u011f\u0131s\u0131 kimi bir-birin\u0259 qovu\u015furdu.
\n\u2013 Bu verili\u015fin adl\u0131-sanl\u0131 qonaqlar\u0131 \u00e7ox olubdu. On-lar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131ndan ist\u0259diyim cavablar\u0131 ala bilmi\u015f\u0259m. Dem\u0259k olar ki, n\u0259 m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, n\u0259 d\u0259 tama\u015fa\u00e7\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qa-ranl\u0131q s\u0259hif\u0259 qalmay\u0131b. Etiraf edim ki, ilk d\u0259f\u0259dir sizin kimi bir qona\u011f\u0131m\u0131z olur. G\u0259nc olman\u0131za baxmayaraq, \u00e7ox m\u00fc\u0259mmal\u0131 cavablar verdiniz. M\u0259n sizin cavablardan bir \u015fey ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. \u00c7ox suallar\u0131m\u0131n cavab\u0131 qaranl\u0131q qald\u0131. Y\u0259qin ki, n\u00f6vb\u0259ti g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rin birind\u0259 qa\u00acranl\u0131q qalan s\u0259hif\u0259l\u0259ri i\u015f\u0131qland\u0131rma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015far\u0131q. H\u0259l\u0259lik xudahafizl\u0259\u015firik, g\u0259l\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r\u0259 kimi.
\nApar\u0131c\u0131 fikrini yekunla\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131. Verili\u015fi \u0259vv\u0259ld\u0259n so-na kimi izl\u0259y\u0259n M\u0259sud apar\u0131c\u0131n\u0131n dediyi kimi bir \u015fey ba-\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259di. Dumanl\u0131 fikirl\u0259r qoynunda n\u0259 vaxt yuxuya getdiyini bilm\u0259di.<\/p>\n

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\nAx\u015fam M\u0259tan\u0259tin solo konserti idi. Biletl\u0259r ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn \u0259vv\u0259l sat\u0131l\u0131b qurtarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. M\u0259sud g\u00fcnd\u00fczd\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck bir s\u0259b\u0259t g\u00fcl al\u00acm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. G\u00fcll\u0259rin aras\u0131na bir z\u0259rf d\u0259 qoymu\u015fdu. Z\u0259rfin i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131l\u0131 r\u0259ngd\u0259 yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f: \u00abM\u0259n s\u0259ni sevir\u0259m! \u00dcr\u0259yinin d\u00f6y\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u0259ri mahn\u0131lar\u0131nda hiss olunan, amma \u201cS\u0259ni sevir\u0259m\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc dey\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259n M\u0259tan\u0259t \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn!
\nH\u00f6rm\u0259tl\u0259, fanat\u0131n\u0131z M\u0259sud\u00bb s\u00f6zl\u0259ri d\u0259 var idi.
\nMa\u015f\u0131ndan d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n M\u0259sud ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n arxas\u0131ndak\u0131 s\u0259b\u0259ti g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb qap\u0131lar\u0131 ba\u011flad\u0131. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi, qabaqda birinci c\u0259rg\u0259d\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi. G\u00fcl s\u0259b\u0259tini d\u0259 yan\u0131na qoymu\u015fdu. G\u0259lib \u0259yl\u0259\u015f\u0259nl\u0259r s\u0259b\u0259t\u0259 maraqla bax\u0131rd\u0131lar. B\u00fc-t\u00fcn yerl\u0259r tutulmu\u015fdu. Ayaq \u00fcst\u0259 duranlar, \u0259lav\u0259 stul g\u0259-tirib oturanlar da var idi. Televiziya i\u015f\u00e7il\u0259ri laz\u0131mi i\u015fl\u0259ri g\u00f6r\u00fcb qurtarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Konsert canl\u0131 olaraq televiziyada g\u00f6st\u0259ril\u0259c\u0259kdi.
\nS\u0259hn\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. Apar\u0131c\u0131 m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nni haqq\u0131nda giri\u015f s\u00f6z\u00fc s\u00f6yl\u0259yib repertuar\u0131 elan etdi. Musiqinin s\u0259dalar\u0131 alt\u0131nda mikrofona yax\u0131nla\u015fan M\u0259tan\u0259t tama\u015fa\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n alq\u0131\u015f\u0131na cavab olaraq minn\u0259t\u00acdarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bildirdi. Qabaq c\u0259rg\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6z g\u0259zdirdi. M\u0259sudu h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki yerind\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcb bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 il\u0259 salamlad\u0131. Bir azdan t\u0259z\u0259 tikdirdiyi sar\u0131 r\u0259ngli s\u0259hn\u0259 pal-tar\u0131nda oxudu\u011fu xalq mahn\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n qanadlar\u0131nda \u00f6z d\u00fcnyas\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kildi. O d\u00fcnyada bir M\u0259tan\u0259t var idi v\u0259 bir d\u0259 M\u0259sud. Oxuyurdu M\u0259tan\u0259t. Oxuma\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 ne\u00e7\u0259 il ca-vabs\u0131z qalan M\u0259sudun \u00abS\u0259ni sevir\u0259m\u00bb s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 cavab ve-rirdi. Yanan \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 sanki su \u00e7il\u0259yirdi M\u0259sudun.
\nOxuyurdu M\u0259tan\u0259t! Bu oxumaqda \u00f6z d\u0259rdin\u0259 d\u0259r-man axtar\u0131rd\u0131. Dey\u0259 bilm\u0259dikl\u0259rini oxudu\u011fu xalq mah\u00acn\u0131-s\u0131 il\u0259 deyirdi.
\nOxuyurdu M\u0259tan\u0259t! Qara g\u00f6zl\u0259ri il\u0259 M\u0259suda bax\u0131b oxuyurdu. Bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131nda bir yalvar\u0131\u015f, bir s\u0131z\u0131lt\u0131, he\u00e7 kimin g\u00f6r\u0259 bilm\u0259diyi bir f\u0259ryad var idi.
\nM\u0259suda zill\u0259n\u0259n qara g\u00f6zl\u0259rd\u0259 bir yalvar\u0131\u015f vard\u0131. Bu bax\u0131\u015flarda, bu yalvar\u0131\u015fda i\u00e7ini titr\u0259d\u0259n bir \u00fcsyankar-l\u0131q da hiss olunurdu, Yaradana. Oxudu\u011fu mahn\u0131 il\u0259 \u00fcs-yan edirdi, Yaradana. Bu asikarl\u0131qda, bu \u00fcsyankarl\u0131qda bu s\u00f6z\u00fc deyirdi:
\n\u2013 M\u0259n s\u0259nin\u0259m M\u0259sud, amma s\u0259nin ola bilmir\u0259m!
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcnyadan t\u0259crid olunmu\u015f M\u0259sud s\u0259hn\u0259d\u0259 sar\u0131 r\u0259ngli, z\u0259rif bir k\u0259p\u0259n\u0259yin u\u00e7u\u015funu g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. Hardan-sa, \u00e7ox uzaqdan qula\u011f\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259n musiqinin s\u0259dalar\u0131 il\u0259 birg\u0259 sar\u0131 r\u0259ngli k\u0259p\u0259\u00acn\u0259yin ona do\u011fru can atmas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6-r\u00fcrd\u00fc. K\u0259p\u0259n\u0259k ona \u00e7atma\u011fa az qalm\u0131\u015f q\u0259fl\u0259t\u0259n \u0259s\u0259n k\u00fcl\u0259k k\u0259p\u0259n\u0259yi ondan uzaqla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131.
\nSalonun \u0259l \u00e7almas\u0131 v\u0259 alq\u0131\u015f s\u0259sl\u0259ri M\u0259sudu salona qaytard\u0131. \u018fll\u0259rind\u0259 g\u00fcl d\u0259st\u0259l\u0259ri olan tama\u015fa\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n \u0259lin-d\u0259n s\u0259hn\u0259d\u0259 t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyildi. R\u0259ngb\u0259r\u0259ng g\u00fcll\u0259r s\u0259hn\u0259ni a\u011fz\u0131na alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\nS\u0259hn\u0259d\u0259 tama\u015fa\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n seyr\u0259ldiyini g\u00f6r\u0259n M\u0259sud s\u0259b\u0259ti \u0259lin\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb s\u0259hn\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. M\u0259tan\u0259t s\u0259b\u0259ti al\u0131b yer\u0259 qoydu. G\u00fcll\u0259rin aras\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n z\u0259rfi tez g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb a\u00e7d\u0131 v\u0259 oxudu. Yan\u0131nda dayan\u0131b ona baxan M\u0259sudu g\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259d\u0259n qucaqlay\u0131b sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131b \u00f6pd\u00fc v\u0259 dedi:
\n\u2013 M\u0259n s\u0259ni sevir\u0259m!..
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259z cavabdan M\u0259sudun \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc itirm\u0259si, onu qucaqlam\u0131\u015f z\u0259\u00acrif qollar\u0131n q\u0259fl\u0259t\u0259n bo\u015fal\u00acmas\u0131 v\u0259 \u201cQoyma y\u0131x\u0131l\u0131m\u201d dem\u0259si eyni vaxtda ba\u015f verdi.
\nM\u0259sud g\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259d\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 onun sin\u0259sin\u0259 qoyan M\u0259\u00actan\u0259tin s\u00f6yk\u0259yin\u0259 girdi. Onu c\u0259ld s\u0259hn\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131, ota\u00ac\u011fa apar\u0131b stulda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdirdi.
\nApar\u0131c\u0131 qrafind\u0259n su t\u00f6k\u00fcb q\u0131z\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7il\u0259di v\u0259 t\u0259\u00accili yard\u0131ma z\u0259ng vurdu. \u00dcz\u00fcn\u0259 vurulmu\u015f soyuq sudan g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7an M\u0259tan\u0259t M\u0259sudun g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin i\u00e7in\u0259 baxd\u0131. B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc toplay\u0131b dedi:
\n\u2013 M\u0259n s\u0259ni sevirdim v\u0259 sevir\u0259m. Sevgimi dil\u0259 g\u0259tirib s\u0259ni b\u0259db\u0259xt etm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdim. He\u00e7 bir d\u0259rman k\u00f6-m\u0259k el\u0259y\u0259n deyil, \u2013 dey\u0259n M\u0259\u00actan\u0259t \u0259lini M\u0259sudun sif\u0259-tin\u00acd\u0259 g\u0259zdirdi v\u0259 dedi:
\n\u2013 S\u0259n a\u011flay\u0131rsan? A\u011flama!
\nH\u0259kim M\u0259sudun sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259nmi\u015f x\u0259st\u0259ni yox\u00acla-y\u0131b ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bulad\u0131.
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\nEv\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n M\u0259sud ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 t\u0259z\u0259 q\u0259zetl\u0259ri v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259di. M\u0259tan\u0259tin qara ha\u015fiy\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259n \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259sini g\u00f6rc\u0259k sars\u0131ld\u0131. Xeyli sonra \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259lib nek\u00acroloqda ya-z\u0131l\u00ac\u00acanlar\u0131 oxudu: \u00ab\u0130s\u00actedadl\u0131 g\u0259nc m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nni M\u0259tan\u0259t V\u00fc-qarl\u0131 uzun s\u00fcr\u0259n a\u011f\u0131r x\u0259st\u0259likd\u0259n sonra v\u0259fat et\u00acmi\u015fdir\u00bb.
\nQ\u0259zetin dig\u0259r s\u0259hif\u0259sind\u0259 is\u0259 M\u0259tan\u0259t haq\u00acq\u0131nda \u00abSonuncu n\u0259\u011fm\u0259\u00bb adl\u0131 k\u00f6vr\u0259k bir yaz\u0131 \u00e7ap olunmu\u015fdu.
\n03.12.2015<\/p>\n<\/div>\n

Yaz\u0131ya 450 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Xeyli vaxt idi ki, afi\u015falar vurulmu\u015fdu. Konsertin ba\u015flanaca\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcn\u00fc s\u0259birsizlikl\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. Lap qabaq c\u0259rg\u0259y\u0259 bilet d\u0259 alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Gec\u0259l\u0259r yata\u011fa gir\u0259nd\u0259 saatlarla onunla \u00abs\u00f6hb\u0259t\u00bb edirdi. Onu sevdiyini, evl\u0259nm\u0259k ist\u0259diyini d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 elan ets\u0259 d\u0259, m\u00fcsb\u0259t bir cavab ala bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u0130ki ild\u0259n art\u0131q idi ki, gec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259lind\u0259n alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Qarabaqara k\u00f6l-g\u0259 kimi arxas\u0131nca s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u00d6z-\u00f6zl\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r danlay\u0131rd\u0131 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16,3,21],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11661"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=11661"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11661\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11663,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11661\/revisions\/11663"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=11661"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=11661"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=11661"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}