{"id":11922,"date":"2019-01-06T14:54:02","date_gmt":"2019-01-06T10:54:02","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=11922"},"modified":"2019-01-06T14:54:02","modified_gmt":"2019-01-06T10:54:02","slug":"yegan%c9%99-q%c9%99hr%c9%99manova-sevdamizin-m%c9%99l%c9%99yi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=11922","title":{"rendered":"Yegan\u0259 Q\u0259hr\u0259manova – Sevdam\u0131z\u0131n m\u0259l\u0259yi"},"content":{"rendered":"
\n

\"Yegan\u0259<\/a>Sevdam\u0131z\u0131n m\u0259l\u0259yi<\/strong><\/p>\n

Sevdam\u0131z\u0131n m\u0259l\u0259yi,
\nax\u0131 harda qalm\u0131san?
\nYollar\u0131nm\u0131 ba\u011flan\u0131b?
\nNiy\u0259 s\u0259ssiz-s\u0259mirsiz,
\nboynub\u00fck\u00fck durmusan?<\/p>\n

Sevdam\u0131z\u0131n m\u0259l\u0259yi,
\nqay\u0131t, getm\u0259 uza\u011fa,
\nBir az ovut q\u0259lbimi,
\nH\u0259sr\u0259t, hicran p\u0259rd\u0259sin
\n\u00e7\u0259kib tulla q\u0131ra\u011fa.
\nBir az ke\u00e7mi\u015fd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f,
\nBir az \u00f6y\u00fcd ver m\u0259n\u0259.
\nBir azca t\u0259s\u0259llim ol,
\ndill\u0259n, d\u0259rdl\u0259\u015f, harayla,
\nbir az \u00fcmid ver m\u0259n\u0259,<\/p>\n

Sevdam\u0131z\u0131n m\u0259l\u0259yi,
\nniy\u0259 yax\u0131n g\u0259lmirs\u0259n?
\nYoxsa s\u0259n d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc
\nm\u0259nim kimi hey su\u00e7lu,
\nHey g\u00fcnahkar bilirs\u0259n?
\nS\u0259n ki m\u0259nim sirda\u015f\u0131m,
\nS\u0259n ki t\u0259k \u015fahidims\u0259n.
\nS\u0259n ki son g\u00fcman yerim,
\nson t\u0259s\u0259llim, p\u0259nah\u0131m,
\ninam\u0131m, \u00fcmidims\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Sevdam\u0131z\u0131n m\u0259l\u0259yi,
\nK\u0259nar g\u0259zm\u0259, yax\u0131n g\u0259l,
\nsil g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131.
\nYa Onu qaytar m\u0259n\u0259,
\nya da al, apar m\u0259ni,
\nQovu\u015fdur \u0259b\u0259dilik,
\nAt hicran\u0131n da\u015f\u0131n\u0131,
\nAt hicran\u0131n da\u015f\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

S\u0259nin i\u015f ota\u011f\u0131n<\/p>\n

\u0130ll\u0259rl\u0259 h\u0259sr\u0259tin \u00e7\u0259kdiyim otaq,
\nBudur qar\u015f\u0131ndayam,
\ng\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m, ax\u0131r.
\n\u018fll\u0259rim uzan\u0131b
\nqap\u0131na sar\u0131,
\nAyaqsa yerimir,
\ndayan\u0131b bax\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u0130ll\u0259rl\u0259 h\u0259sr\u0259tin \u00e7\u0259kdiyim otaq,
\nM\u0259ni niy\u0259
\nbel\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131lay\u0131rsan?
\nN\u0259dir bu soyuqluq,
\nn\u0259dir bu s\u00fckut,
\nNiy\u0259 dil-a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131
\nq\u0131f\u0131llay\u0131rsan?..
\nDurub astanada
\ns\u0259ssizc\u0259, sakit
\nG\u00f6zd\u0259n ke\u00e7irir\u0259m
\ni\u015f ota\u011f\u0131n\u0131.
\nQ\u0259mli n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rl\u0259
\ns\u00fcz\u00fcb d\u00f6rd yan\u0131,
\nAstaca g\u0259zir\u0259m
\nbo\u015f ota\u011f\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u0130ll\u0259rl\u0259 h\u0259sr\u0259tin \u00e7\u0259kdiyim otaq
\n\u0130ndi el\u0259 bil ki
\n\u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 g\u0259lir.
\nBoylanan h\u0259r kitab,
\nbaxan h\u0259r varaq
\nSanki k\u00fcsk\u00fcn-k\u00fcsk\u00fcn
\nOnu g\u00f6zl\u0259yir.
\nBir yanda q\u0259l\u0259ml\u0259r,
\nbir yanda d\u0259ft\u0259r,
\n\u00dcst-\u00fcst\u0259 y\u0131\u011fd\u0131\u011f\u0131
\ncild-cild l\u00fc\u011f\u0259tl\u0259r,
\nG\u00f6r nec\u0259 h\u0259sr\u0259tl\u0259
\ndikib g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc,
\nKitablar, jurnallar intizardad\u0131r,
\nH\u0259r\u0259si bir yanda
\nincik bax\u0131\u015fla
\nSanki dil\u0259 g\u0259lib
\n\u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r m\u0259ni,
\nSoru\u015fur:
\n“Sahibim
\nax\u0131 hardad\u0131r?”<\/p>\n

Astaca bir add\u0131m
\nat\u0131b ir\u0259li,
\nStul arxas\u0131nda
\ndonub qalm\u0131\u015fam.
\nDikib \u00e7antas\u0131na
\nn\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rimi
\nQ\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 bo\u011fulub,
\nq\u0259m\u0259 dalm\u0131\u015fam.<\/p>\n

\u0130ll\u0259rl\u0259 h\u0259sr\u0259tin \u00e7\u0259kdiyim otaq,
\nCavab ver, duy
\nq\u0259lbin hayq\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131.
\nAx\u0131 m\u0259n g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m,
\nO, niy\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131r,
\nniy\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131lam\u0131r sevdal\u0131s\u0131n\u0131?<\/p>\n

\u0130ll\u0259rl\u0259 h\u0259sr\u0259tin \u00e7\u0259kdiyim otaq,
\nNiy\u0259 \u00fcmidimi
\npu\u00e7 eyl\u0259yirs\u0259n?
\nNiy\u0259 qoymursan ki,
\nduyum s\u0259sini,
\nM\u0259n\u0259 “g\u00fcl\u00fcm” dey\u0259n
\nxo\u015f k\u0259lm\u0259sini?
\nM\u0259n Onu g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259
\ng\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m ax\u0131.
\nNiy\u0259 x\u0259yal\u0131m\u0131
\nhe\u00e7 eyl\u0259yirs\u0259n?
\nAx\u0131 n\u0259 deyim m\u0259n
\nindi r\u0259smin\u0259?
\nNec\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259yim ki, niy\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m?
\n\u018fhdim\u0259 sadiq\u0259m dey\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u0130ll\u0259rl\u0259 h\u0259sr\u0259tin \u00e7\u0259kdiyim otaq,
\nS\u00fckuta dalm\u0131san niy\u0259 bel\u0259c\u0259?..
\nNiy\u0259 birc\u0259 k\u0259lm\u0259
\ncavab vermirs\u0259n,
\nNiy\u0259 qurumusan, niy\u0259 bel\u0259c\u0259?
\n\u0130ndi m\u0259n burdayam,
\nO is\u0259 yoxdur…
\nN\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r s\u0259ssizc\u0259
\ndayanaq, baxaq?
\nCavab ver, cavab ver,
\nO, niy\u0259 yoxdur?
\nCavab ver,
\nh\u0259sr\u0259tin \u00e7\u0259kdiyim otaq,
\nCavab ver, s\u00f6yl\u0259 ki,
\nO, niy\u0259 yoxdur?!
\nCavab ver, s\u00f6yl\u0259 ki,
\nO, niy\u0259 yoxdur?<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

S\u0259nsiz m\u0259n d\u0259 ya\u015fam\u0131ram!<\/strong><\/p>\n

S\u0259nsiz m\u0259n d\u0259 ya\u015fam\u0131ram,
\nRuhsuz qala bil\u0259r\u0259mmi?
\nAd\u0131n dilimin \u0259zb\u0259ri
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimd\u0259n sil\u0259r\u0259mmi?!<\/p>\n

D\u0259rd \u0259l\u0259nir d\u00f6rd yan\u0131mdan,
\nQ\u0259m, k\u0259d\u0259r ya\u011f\u0131r hal\u0131mdan,
\nD\u0259rdl\u0259\u015fdiyim x\u0259yal\u0131ndan
\nUzaq dura bil\u0259r\u0259mmi?!<\/p>\n

Ah\u0131m y\u00fcks\u0259lir g\u00f6yl\u0259r\u0259,
\nHey qar\u011faram kor taley\u0259,
\nYalvar\u0131ram \u201d\u00f6l\u00fcm\u201d dey\u0259
\nS\u0259nsiz qala bil\u0259r\u0259mmi?!<\/p>\n

Durub yollar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u0259,
\nYand\u0131m ah\u0259st\u0259-ah\u0259st\u0259,
\nH\u0259r h\u0259ft\u0259 m\u0259zar\u0131n \u00fcst\u0259
\nA\u011flamasam, d\u00f6z\u0259r\u0259mmi?!<\/p>\n

Ya\u015faram, \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015fd\u0259n bet\u0259r,
\nN\u0259 g\u00fcn ke\u00e7\u0259r, n\u0259 ay bit\u0259r,
\nDaha h\u0259sr\u0259t, hicran yet\u0259r,
\nS\u0259nl\u0259 qala bil\u0259r\u0259mmi?<\/p>\n

S\u0259nsiz g\u00fcn\u00fcm ahu-vayda,
\n\u00d6mr\u00fcm bitdi qeyl\u00fc-qalda,
\nM\u0259zar\u0131n\u0131n sol yan\u0131nda
\nTorpaq ola bil\u0259r\u0259mmi?<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f kimi<\/strong><\/p>\n

Ham\u0131ya baxan g\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259 yox,
\n\u00fcr\u0259yimin g\u00f6zl\u0259riyl\u0259 baxd\u0131m S\u0259n\u0259.
\nBax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n \u0259b\u0259dilik
\nqald\u0131 orda.
\nD\u00f6n\u00fcb oldun K\u0259b\u0259 evim,
\n\u00fcr\u0259yimin qibl\u0259gah\u0131 dedim S\u0259n\u0259.
\nS\u0259ni sev\u0259n, S\u0259ni duyan
\nq\u0259lbim oldu.
\n\u015eirin-\u015firin s\u00f6zl\u0259riyl\u0259
\ns\u0259ni h\u0259r an \u0259zizl\u0259y\u0259n
\ndilim deyil, ruhum oldu.
\nYorulmad\u0131m ill\u0259r boyu
\nS\u0259ni sevib ox\u015famaqdan,
\nGec\u0259l\u0259ri-g\u00fcnd\u00fczl\u0259ri
\nyoxlu\u011funda x\u0259yal\u0131nla
\nd\u0259rdl\u0259\u015fm\u0259kd\u0259n, dan\u0131\u015fmaqdan.
\nD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259 ki, n\u0259 zamansa
\nz\u0259ifl\u0259y\u0259r q\u0259lbimd\u0259ki sevgi odu,
\nE\u015fqin s\u00f6nm\u0259z alov kimi
\nsarm\u0131\u015f b\u00fct\u00fcn v\u00fccudumu.
\nQ\u0259lbim yan\u0131r m\u0259\u015f\u0259l kimi,
\nat\u0259\u015f kimi,
\n\u018fb\u0259dilik ya\u015fadacaq
\nbu sevgini
\nS\u0259ma kimi,
\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015f kimi!<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

V\u0259t\u0259n n\u0259\u011fm\u0259si<\/strong><\/p>\n

Q\u00fcrb\u0259t eld\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259
\ng\u00f6r n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r s\u00f6z\u00fcm qald\u0131,
\nYurd h\u0259sr\u0259ti yaxd\u0131 m\u0259ni,
\nn\u0259 s\u0259bir, n\u0259 d\u00f6z\u00fcm qald\u0131,
\nV\u0259t\u0259n adl\u0131 al g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin
\ng\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm qald\u0131.
\nAnam, anam, g\u00f6z\u0259l anam,
\no \u00fc\u00e7r\u0259ngli bayra\u011f\u0131m\u0131
\nqalx\u0131b m\u0259nim yerim\u0259 \u00f6p,
\nAl, a\u00e7 m\u0259nim qollar\u0131m\u0131,
\nO yaral\u0131 V\u0259t\u0259nimi sar\u0131b
\nm\u0259nim yerim\u0259 \u00f6p.<\/p>\n

Yegan\u0259 Q\u0259hr\u0259manova, ADPU-nun dosenti, filologiya \u00fczr\u0259 f\u0259ls\u0259f\u0259 doktoru<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

Yaz\u0131ya 920 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Sevdam\u0131z\u0131n m\u0259l\u0259yi Sevdam\u0131z\u0131n m\u0259l\u0259yi, ax\u0131 harda qalm\u0131san? Yollar\u0131nm\u0131 ba\u011flan\u0131b? Niy\u0259 s\u0259ssiz-s\u0259mirsiz, boynub\u00fck\u00fck durmusan? Sevdam\u0131z\u0131n m\u0259l\u0259yi, qay\u0131t, getm\u0259 uza\u011fa, Bir az ovut q\u0259lbimi, H\u0259sr\u0259t, hicran p\u0259rd\u0259sin \u00e7\u0259kib tulla q\u0131ra\u011fa. Bir az ke\u00e7mi\u015fd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f, Bir az \u00f6y\u00fcd ver m\u0259n\u0259. Bir azca t\u0259s\u0259llim ol, dill\u0259n, d\u0259rdl\u0259\u015f, harayla, bir az \u00fcmid ver m\u0259n\u0259, Sevdam\u0131z\u0131n m\u0259l\u0259yi, niy\u0259 yax\u0131n g\u0259lmirs\u0259n? Yoxsa […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":11926,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1,5,15,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11922"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=11922"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11922\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11927,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11922\/revisions\/11927"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/11926"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=11922"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=11922"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=11922"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}