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<\/a><\/p>\nY\u0259qin sizd\u0259 d\u0259 bel\u0259di, yola sald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z v\u0259 yaxud arxada qalan h\u0259r \u015fey \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir q\u0259ribs\u0259m\u0259k hissi ya\u015fay\u0131r\u0131q. Y\u0259ni m\u0259n \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn dem\u0259k olar ki, son ill\u0259rind\u0259 daha \u00e7ox q\u0259ribs\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fam. X\u00fcsusil\u0259 do\u011fuldu\u011fum torpaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn… d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015f dostlar\u0131m, do\u011fmalar\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn… g\u00f6r\u0259 bilm\u0259diyim yerl\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn… \u0259laq\u0259 qura bilm\u0259diyim h\u0259mfikirl\u0259rim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn… bir d\u0259 t\u0259bii ki, itirdiyim zaman \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn… Bax, bu m\u0259nada dostlardan, do\u011fmalardan, oxuculardan 60 ya\u015f\u0131mla ba\u011fl\u0131 e\u015fitdiyim, ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m, oxudu\u011fum b\u00fct\u00fcn xo\u015f s\u00f6zl\u0259r m\u0259ni bir az da \u00e7ox k\u00f6vr\u0259ldib, m\u0259ni bir az da \u00e7ox q\u0259ribliy\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kibdir…<\/span><\/p>\n H\u0259l\u0259 orta m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 oxuyanda k\u0259ndimizd\u0259 ya\u015fca \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u0259r\u0259 bir q\u0259rib\u0259 maraqla, n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rl\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131m. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, filank\u0259sin 60 ya\u015f\u0131 var, 70 ya\u015f\u0131 var, 90 ya\u015f\u0131 var… V\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, bu 60-\u0131, 70-i, 80-ni nec\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131blar, nec\u0259 ya\u015famaq olar? \u0130ndi h\u0259min o d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259m\u0259, o m\u00fcnasib\u0259tim\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, daxil\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n utan\u0131ram, \u00f6z sad\u0259l\u00f6hvl\u00fcy\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc q\u0131nay\u0131ram. S\u0259n dem\u0259, ya\u015famaq olurmu\u015f. Do\u011frudur, k\u0259ndimd\u0259 bar\u0259sind\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fcm adamlar h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n ya\u015fay\u0131blar o ill\u0259ri. M\u0259n is\u0259 bu 60 ilin d\u00fcz 28 ilini a\u011fr\u0131-ac\u0131yla, xatir\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259, h\u0259sr\u0259tl\u0259, nisgill\u0259, nec\u0259 dey\u0259rl\u0259r, tikan \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131m, daha do\u011frusu, m\u00f6vcud oldum. \u00c7\u00fcnki g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc a\u00e7anda g\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259rimin ham\u0131s\u0131ndan uzaq d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 k\u00f6n\u00fcll\u00fc yox, silah g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u0259… yaralar\u0131mdan qan axa-axa… V\u0259 indi b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259-d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 60-\u0131n nec\u0259 g\u0259lib ke\u00e7diyind\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rsiz\u0259m dey\u0259 bilmir\u0259m. \u00c7\u00fcnki dediyim h\u0259min zaman k\u0259siyi s\u0259h\u0259ri m\u0259n\u0259 kiprikl\u0259riml\u0259 a\u00e7maq, gec\u0259ni da\u011f\u0131 arana da\u015f\u0131maq i\u015fg\u0259nc\u0259si ya\u015fad\u0131bd\u0131. H\u0259tta el\u0259 anlar olub ki, “bu g\u00fcn sondu, bu g\u00fcn h\u0259r \u015fey bit\u0259r!\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m. Lakin Tanr\u0131 irad\u0259si h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n v\u0259 h\u0259r k\u0259sd\u0259n g\u00fccl\u00fc oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259, m\u0259nim \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131\u011f\u0131m q\u0259rar, m\u0259nim inand\u0131\u011f\u0131m n\u0259tic\u0259 havada qal\u0131bd\u0131…<\/span><\/p>\n V\u0259 m\u0259n indi bu 60 ya\u015f\u0131n notlar\u0131 \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc k\u00f6kl\u0259s\u0259m d\u0259 60-\u0131n i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259ki 28 daha g\u00fccl\u00fcd\u00fcr. Onun s\u0259si daha b\u0259rk \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r… onun \u00f6tk\u0259mliyi daha \u00e7ox hiss olunur. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259:<\/span><\/p>\n \n \n \u0130ndi<\/span><\/p>\n \u0259lim \u00e7\u0259n\u0259d\u0259,<\/span><\/p>\n g\u00f6zl\u0259rim p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259,<\/span><\/p>\n x\u0259yal\u0131m uzaqlarda…<\/span><\/p>\n s\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n<\/span><\/p>\n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getmi\u015f\u0259m<\/span><\/p>\n lap yax\u015f\u0131 etmi\u015f\u0259m \u2013<\/span><\/p>\n bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n…<\/span><\/p>\n Tu\u011fdayam<\/span><\/p>\n qur\u015fa\u011fa q\u0259d\u0259r<\/span><\/p>\n qar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 –<\/span><\/p>\n da\u011fdayam…<\/span><\/p>\n ist\u0259yir\u0259m<\/span><\/p>\n qar kimi<\/span><\/p>\n x\u0131\u015fmalayam zaman\u0131…<\/span><\/p>\n saxlayam<\/span><\/p>\n barmaqlar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131nda!<\/span><\/p>\n \u0130st\u0259yir\u0259m qayalardan salla\u015fan<\/span><\/p>\n buz s\u0131ras\u0131nda<\/span><\/p>\n yer tutmaq,<\/span><\/p>\n unudulmaq<\/span><\/p>\n s\u0259nd\u0259n ba\u015fqa<\/span><\/p>\n ham\u0131n\u0131!<\/span><\/p>\n Amma<\/span><\/p>\n bir Allah g\u00f6r\u00fcr<\/span><\/p>\n bir d\u0259 s\u0259n<\/span><\/p>\n harda oldu\u011fumu<\/span><\/p>\n bu qar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259<\/span><\/p>\n h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131r\u0131qlara bo\u011fuldu\u011fumu…<\/span><\/p>\n … \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259<\/span><\/p>\n \u0259slind\u0259<\/span><\/p>\n d\u00f6rd divardan ibar\u0259t<\/span><\/p>\n dib\u00e7\u0259kd\u0259 ya\u015famaq<\/span><\/p>\n m\u00f6vcud olmaqd\u0131…<\/span><\/p>\n Tu\u011fda \u2013<\/span><\/p>\n qur\u015fa\u011fa q\u0259d\u0259r<\/span><\/p>\n qar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259<\/span><\/p>\n buz-da\u015f olmaq<\/span><\/p>\n ya\u015famaqd\u0131, ya\u015famaq…<\/span><\/p>\n \u0130ndi \u0259l \u00e7\u0259n\u0259d\u0259<\/span><\/p>\n g\u00f6z p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259<\/span><\/p>\n ad g\u00fcn\u00fcmd\u0259<\/span><\/p>\n s\u00fcfr\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131nda<\/span><\/p>\n oturub<\/span><\/p>\n geri qay\u0131tma\u011f\u0131m\u0131<\/span><\/p>\n g\u00f6zl\u0259yir<\/span><\/p>\n sakitc\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131m<\/span><\/p>\n h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259…<\/span><\/p>\n<\/div>\n \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n \n \n ***<\/span><\/p>\n \n Yeni ilin birinci h\u0259ft\u0259si ba\u015fa \u00e7atd\u0131. \u018fslind\u0259 bu t\u0259qvim d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259yidi. Yen\u0259 h\u0259min i\u015fl\u0259ri g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u00fck… yen\u0259 h\u0259min yollardan ke\u00e7ib gedirik… yen\u0259 \u0259limizd\u0259 bazar z\u0259nbili, meyv\u0259- t\u0259r\u0259v\u0259z k\u00f6\u015fk\u00fcn\u0259, \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k d\u00fckan\u0131na \u00fcz tuturuq… Dey\u0259c\u0259ksiniz ki, min ill\u0259rdi bu bel\u0259di, bel\u0259 d\u0259 olacaq. Amma s\u0259brli olsan\u0131z, m\u0259nim d\u0259, sizin d\u0259 bildiyiniz h\u0259min o ger\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 iyn\u0259 ucu boyda bir \u0259lav\u0259 ed\u0259rdim. Dey\u0259rdim ki, min ill\u0259rin h\u0259qiq\u0259tinin zamana, c\u0259miyy\u0259t\u0259 uy\u011funla\u015fmas\u0131 biz\u0259 bel\u0259 bir fikir s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259k imkan\u0131 verir ki, guya he\u00e7 n\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259yib tarixin t\u0259qvim s\u0259hif\u0259sind\u0259n ba\u015fqa. Yox, g\u0259lin raz\u0131la\u015faq ki, bu t\u0259qvim \u0259hval\u0131m\u0131zda da, s\u0259hh\u0259timizd\u0259 d\u0259, lap el\u0259 bazar z\u0259nbilimizd\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6st\u0259rir. Sad\u0259c\u0259, biz eyni harmoniyan\u0131n, eyni hadis\u0259l\u0259rin i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zdan bunu hiss etmirik, ya da hiss etm\u0259k ist\u0259mirik. Bax, ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 biz h\u0259r birimiz ayr\u0131-ayr\u0131l\u0131qda v\u0259 yaxud toplum hal\u0131nda “n\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fib?\u201d sual\u0131n\u0131 etinas\u0131zl\u0131qla qar\u015f\u0131lay\u0131r v\u0259 yola da veririk… B\u00fct\u00fcn bu dedikl\u0259rimi, bu yazd\u0131qlar\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcm-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 bir sual olaraq zaman-zaman \u00fcnvanlam\u0131\u015fam. 60 ya\u015f\u0131n tamam\u0131nda is\u0259 onu daha k\u0259skin bir \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 tu\u015flad\u0131m. V\u0259 onda birm\u0259nal\u0131 \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 d\u0259rk etdim ki, s\u0259n dem\u0259, t\u0259qviml\u0259rin yuvarlaq olan m\u0259qamlar\u0131, y\u0259ni onun insana \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fclm\u0259si h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc m\u0259qamlar qoyur qar\u015f\u0131ya. Bax, \u015f\u0259xs\u0259n m\u0259n 60 illikl\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 qurdu\u011fum x\u0259yal\u0131, etdiyim dualar\u0131, ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131m\u0131, g\u00f6zl\u0259ntil\u0259rimi v\u0259 b\u00fct\u00f6vl\u00fckd\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 olan m\u00fcnasib\u0259ti m\u0259hz bu zaman k\u0259siyind\u0259, m\u0259hz bu do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259 yet\u0259rinc\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, duydum, ya\u015fad\u0131m. \u00c7evr\u0259md\u0259 olanlar\u0131n \u00e7evr\u0259sind\u0259 oldu\u011funu v\u0259 yaxud olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Diqq\u0259t, sevgi y\u00f6n\u0259ltdiyim k\u0259sl\u0259rin m\u0259n\u0259 diqq\u0259t v\u0259 sevgil\u0259rin olub-olmad\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 da ayd\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131m. \u00dcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, dayand\u0131\u011f\u0131m m\u00fcst\u0259vid\u0259 c\u0259miyy\u0259t \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, ail\u0259m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, dostlar\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, Allah \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, h\u0259m d\u0259 s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn kim oldu\u011fumu d\u0259rk etdim. G\u00f6rd\u00fcm v\u0259 q\u0259bul etdim ki, m\u0259nim bu m\u0259ml\u0259k\u0259td\u0259, bu c\u0259miyy\u0259td\u0259, bu camiy\u0259d\u0259, bu kollektivd\u0259 yerim hardad\u0131… m\u0259n\u0259 olan m\u00fcnasib\u0259tin ol\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259rdi… v\u0259 \u00fcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, m\u0259n bu dedikl\u0259rim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn kim\u0259m?! H\u0259r halda, sual\u0131n v\u0259 yaxud da fikrin yozumu h\u0259r k\u0259sin \u00f6z ixtiyar\u0131ndad\u0131. M\u0259n tam m\u0259nada anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m is\u0259 odur ki, iki aya\u011f\u0131n ola-ola bir aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 dayanmaq h\u0259m \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259, h\u0259m d\u0259 s\u0259ni bu formaya, bu \u015f\u0259kl\u0259 salanlara ac\u0131 bir g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc, istehzand\u0131. S\u0259n dem\u0259, bu h\u0259yat\u0131n \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck m\u00fckafat\u0131 el\u0259 onun istehzas\u0131 imi\u015f. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 ilin ilk \u015feirini yazanda a\u011fl\u0131ma bu fikir g\u0259ldi.<\/span><\/p>\n \n \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Bu da bir b\u0259lli tarix \u2013<\/span><\/p>\n Bu da dinc\u0259ldiyim yer…<\/span><\/p>\n \u0130ll\u0259rin ayr\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u2013<\/span><\/p>\n M\u0259nim inc\u0259ldiyim yer…<\/span><\/p>\n \n \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Arxada \u00e7ox xatir\u0259<\/span><\/p>\n Kim yaza, kim bitir\u0259…<\/span><\/p>\n M\u0259ni \u00e7\u0259tin g\u0259tir\u0259 –<\/span><\/p>\n Ba\u015fda cin g\u0259ldiyim yer…<\/span><\/p>\n \n \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Sevgim haqq ver\u0259n z\u00fcl\u00fcm<\/span><\/p>\n Soyumay\u0131b h\u0259l\u0259 k\u00fcl\u00fcm…<\/span><\/p>\n Saxlayan deyil, g\u00fcl\u00fcm \u2013<\/span><\/p>\n M\u0259nl\u0259 kin g\u0259ldiyim yer…<\/span><\/p>\n \n \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n B\u0259li, h\u0259yat\u0131n ger\u00e7\u0259k \u00fcz\u00fc he\u00e7 n\u0259yin geri d\u00f6nm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yidi. H\u0259tta \u00e7ay\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sib \u00f6nc\u0259d\u0259n axm\u0131\u015f sular\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fc geri qaytarmaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi, ill\u0259ri, aylar\u0131, g\u00fcnl\u0259ri d\u0259 geri s\u0259sl\u0259m\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcns\u00fczd\u00fc. Sad\u0259c\u0259, biz o \u00f6t\u00fcb ged\u0259nl\u0259ri xatir\u0259 \u015f\u0259klind\u0259, xatir\u0259 bi\u00e7imind\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259l\u0259yirik, yenil\u0259yirik. V\u0259 h\u0259tta h\u0259rd\u0259n h\u0259min o xatir\u0259ni dan\u0131\u015fanda. g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz \u00f6n\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259nd\u0259 deyirik ki, “el\u0259 bil d\u00fcn\u0259n idi, a\u011faca d\u0131rma\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, qoyun-quzu dal\u0131nca qa\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, da\u011f \u00e7ay\u0131nda \u00e7imdiyimiz g\u00fcnl\u0259r…\u201d. Dilimizd\u0259ki “el\u0259 bil\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fc h\u0259m t\u0259s\u0259llidi, h\u0259m d\u0259 t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf. Bununla \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc ovuduruq… bununla d\u00fcn\u0259nimizd\u0259n m\u00f6hk\u0259m-m\u00f6hk\u0259m yap\u0131\u015f\u0131r\u0131q… V\u0259 el\u0259 bilirik ki, bunu tutub saxlayaca\u011f\u0131q. Amma…<\/span><\/p>\n H\u0259r k\u0259s\u0259 b\u0259llidir ki, bu g\u00fcn\u00fcn real m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259si iqtisadi v\u0259 sosial probleml\u0259rdi. Biz o q\u0259d\u0259r bu probleml\u0259 y\u00fckl\u0259nirik ki, m\u0259n\u0259vi a\u015f\u0131nmam\u0131z hiss olunmur. Biz\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, h\u0259r \u015fey yerind\u0259di. Sad\u0259c\u0259 \u00e7atmayan maddi ehtiyaclard\u0131. Amma…<\/span><\/p>\n Amma d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fcz \u015f\u0259rait, qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m h\u0259ms\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259r b\u0259z\u0259n s\u0259viyy\u0259 bax\u0131m\u0131ndan maddiyyat\u0131 \u00fcst\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 bilir. V\u0259 onda maddiyyat u\u011frunda \u00e7arp\u0131\u015fmam\u0131zdan s\u0131x\u0131l\u0131r\u0131q, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc q\u0131nay\u0131r\u0131q. H\u0259tta n\u0259l\u0259ri unutdu\u011fumuzu, n\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n yan ke\u00e7diyimizi yadda\u015f\u0131m\u0131za yaz\u0131b onlarla m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u00fck. T\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf ki, bu da bir an \u00e7\u0259kir… t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf ki, yen\u0259 \u00e7ax-\u00e7ax \u00f6z i\u015fini g\u00f6r\u00fcr. M\u0259n d\u0259 el\u0259 bu 60 illik m\u0259qam\u0131n v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259rini \u00e7evirdikc\u0259 h\u0259min o unutduqlar\u0131m, yan\u0131ndan ke\u00e7dikl\u0259rim \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 susdum. Bu da bir n\u00f6v \u00fczrxahl\u0131\u011f\u0131m idi \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn-\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n. N\u0259 is\u0259…<\/span><\/p>\n H\u0259, b\u00fct\u00fcn olanlar\u0131n v\u0259 ya\u015fananlar\u0131n i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 h\u0259r an m\u0259niml\u0259 \u00e7iyin-\u00e7iyin\u0259 dayanan, m\u0259ni t\u0259rk etm\u0259y\u0259n v\u0259 daha \u00e7ox s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131m hissl\u0259r var ki, onlar\u0131 m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 zaman-zaman s\u00f6z\u0259, misraya \u00e7evirmi\u015f\u0259m. V\u0259 bel\u0259c\u0259, d\u0259rdimi, sevincimi \u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259, q\u0259l\u0259miml\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. H\u0259tta 60 ya\u015f\u0131m\u0131n ilk \u015feirind\u0259 d\u0259 o d\u0259rdl\u0259ri, o q\u0259ml\u0259ri unutmaq a\u011fl\u0131ma g\u0259lm\u0259yib. \u018fksin\u0259, yazm\u0131\u015fam ki:<\/span><\/p>\n \n \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n K\u0259d\u0259rim dil-dil \u00f6t\u00fcr<\/span><\/p>\n Ay bitm\u0259d\u0259n il \u00f6t\u00fcr…<\/span><\/p>\n El\u0259 bil b\u00fclb\u00fcl \u00f6t\u00fcr \u2013<\/span><\/p>\n Yaralar\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcst\u0259…<\/span><\/p>\n \n \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n G\u00f6z\u00fcn dibi bulan\u0131r<\/span><\/p>\n Kiprikl\u0259rim sulan\u0131r…<\/span><\/p>\n D\u0259rd ilan t\u0259k dolan\u0131r \u2013<\/span><\/p>\n Yaralar\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcst\u0259…<\/span><\/p>\n \n \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Haqqa a\u00e7\u0131q \u0259l uzun<\/span><\/p>\n Yoxdu yuyan \u0259l, \u00fcz\u00fcn…<\/span><\/p>\n Bir qom b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 d\u00fcz\u00fcn \u2013<\/span><\/p>\n Yaralar\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcst\u0259….<\/span><\/p>\n \n \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n ***<\/span><\/p>\n \n B\u0259li, ilin \u0259vv\u0259li v\u0259 yaxud da \u00f6t\u0259n ilin sonu… B\u00fct\u00fcnl\u00fckl\u0259 bunlar\u0131 \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 g\u0259tirib bir m\u00fcst\u0259vid\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcr\u0259nd\u0259 ilk a\u011fl\u0131ma g\u0259l\u0259n bu oldu ki, ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131m al\u0131n yaz\u0131md\u0131, taleyimdi. V\u0259 m\u0259n bu al\u0131n yaz\u0131ma, bu taleyim\u0259 \u0259sir d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m. Onun naz\u0131yla oynamaq, onun y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k boynumun haqq\u0131d\u0131. V\u0259 dem\u0259li, bu taleyin, bu yaz\u0131n\u0131n i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 da, z\u00fclm\u0259ti d\u0259 qa\u00e7\u0131lmazd\u0131. V\u0259 bir d\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m 60 ilin he\u00e7 olmasa bir h\u0259ft\u0259si, lap el\u0259 bir g\u00fcn\u00fc insanl\u0131\u011fa, \u0259traf\u0131mda olanlara yax\u015f\u0131 n\u0259s\u0259 veribs\u0259, dem\u0259li, 60-\u0131n al\u0131n yaz\u0131s\u0131 olmas\u0131 sevindiricidi.<\/span><\/p>\n O ki, qald\u0131 s\u0259n\u0259… S\u0259n d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn ki, bu 60 ilin kinoversiyas\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131 s\u0259ns\u0259n. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259:<\/span><\/p>\n \n \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n He\u00e7 kim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00fcz\u00fclm\u0259<\/span><\/p>\n \u00dcr\u0259yini sev, ya\u015fat…<\/span><\/p>\n M\u0259n c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m yol\u00e7usu \u2013<\/span><\/p>\n S\u0259n bu g\u00f6l\u0259 bir da\u015f at…<\/span><\/p>\n \n \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Duy\u011fular\u0131n, dincliyin<\/span><\/p>\n \u00d6mr\u00fcn\u0259 nax\u0131\u015f olsun…<\/span><\/p>\n \u0130sland\u0131\u011f\u0131n – sevincd\u0259n \u2013<\/span><\/p>\n \u00c7il\u0259n\u0259n ya\u011f\u0131\u015f olsun.<\/span><\/p>\n \n \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n N\u0259 qa\u015flar\u0131n \u00e7at\u0131ls\u0131n<\/span><\/p>\n N\u0259 doda\u011f\u0131n b\u00fcz\u00fcls\u00fcn…<\/span><\/p>\n Qar\u015f\u0131na \u00e7a\u015f\u0131b \u00e7\u0131xan \u2013<\/span><\/p>\n K\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fc \u00fcz\u00fcls\u00fcn…<\/span><\/p>\n \n \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Tut \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc Tanr\u0131ya<\/span><\/p>\n M\u0259l\u0259k \u0259ll\u0259rini a\u00e7…<\/span><\/p>\n C\u0259nn\u0259t\u0259 q\u0259lbin boyda \u2013<\/span><\/p>\n S\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn d\u0259 i\u015f\u0131q sa\u00e7…<\/span><\/p>\n \n \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n He\u00e7 kim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00fcz\u00fclm\u0259…<\/span><\/p>\n \u00d6z d\u00fcnyan\u0131 se\u00e7, ya\u015fa!<\/span><\/p>\n \u00dcr\u0259yini \u00f6z\u00fcnl\u0259 –<\/span><\/p>\n G\u00f6t\u00fcr, ba\u015fa ke\u00e7, ya\u015fa!..<\/span><\/p>\n \n \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n H\u0259, m\u0259nim 60 ya\u015f\u0131m\u0131n oxuculara, “\u018fdal\u0259t\u201d\u0259 n\u0259 verdiyini, oxuculara v\u0259 “\u018fdal\u0259t\u201d\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r g\u0259r\u0259kli oldu\u011fumu bilmir\u0259m. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bu bar\u0259d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259yim d\u0259 yersizdi. Amma m\u0259n \u0259limi \u00fcr\u0259yimin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoyub deyir\u0259m ki, oxucular\u0131 da, “\u018fdal\u0259t\u201di d\u0259 \u00e7ox sevir\u0259m. Qar\u015f\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259f \u00f6z se\u00e7imind\u0259 s\u0259rb\u0259stdi…<\/span><\/p>\n \n \n “\u018fdal\u0259t q\u0259zeti”<\/span><\/p>\n Yaz\u0131ya 479 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Onun 28-i m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00fcc g\u0259ldi Y\u0259qin sizd\u0259 d\u0259 bel\u0259di, yola sald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z v\u0259 yaxud arxada qalan h\u0259r \u015fey \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir q\u0259ribs\u0259m\u0259k hissi ya\u015fay\u0131r\u0131q. Y\u0259ni m\u0259n \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn dem\u0259k olar ki, son ill\u0259rind\u0259 daha \u00e7ox q\u0259ribs\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fam. X\u00fcsusil\u0259 do\u011fuldu\u011fum torpaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn… d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015f dostlar\u0131m, do\u011fmalar\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn… g\u00f6r\u0259 bilm\u0259diyim yerl\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn… \u0259laq\u0259 qura bilm\u0259diyim h\u0259mfikirl\u0259rim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn… bir d\u0259 t\u0259bii […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":4132,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1,3,21],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11944"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=11944"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11944\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11945,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11944\/revisions\/11945"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/4132"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=11944"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=11944"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=11944"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}