{"id":12015,"date":"2019-01-18T13:26:51","date_gmt":"2019-01-18T09:26:51","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=12015"},"modified":"2019-01-18T13:26:51","modified_gmt":"2019-01-18T09:26:51","slug":"x%c9%99lil-adigoz%c9%99l-m%c9%99nim-n%c9%99f%c9%99sim-buzmus-buz-kim%c9%99-gulum-dedim-soldu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=12015","title":{"rendered":"X\u0259lil Ad\u0131g\u00f6z\u0259l – “M\u0259nim n\u0259f\u0259sim buzmu\u015f, buz, Kim\u0259 “g\u00fcl\u00fcm” dedim, soldu”"},"content":{"rendered":"
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“H\u0259yat\u0131n m\u0259cazi m\u0259nas\u0131” <\/span><\/span><\/strong><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u00a0<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Qar\u0131\u015f\u0131b yuxular\u0131m, itib xeyirim, \u015f\u0259rim,<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Hal\u0131m qar\u0131\u015f\u0131b yen\u0259, m\u0259nd\u0259ki hal hal deyil.<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Div a\u011fz\u0131na atma\u011fa qurban\u0131q, \u0259zizl\u0259rim,<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Havay\u0131 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z n\u0259f\u0259s d\u0259 halal deyil.<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u00a0<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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“Tanr\u0131 minl\u0259r i\u00e7ind\u0259n niy\u0259 m\u0259ni se\u00e7ibdir?”<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Yuxuda g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m ki, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 su verir\u0259m.<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Barma\u011f\u0131m yar\u0131yacan gicgah\u0131ma ke\u00e7ibdir,<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Durub \u00fcz\u00fc qibl\u0259y\u0259, g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 su verir\u0259m.<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u00a0<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Biri sin\u0259md\u0259n bas\u0131r, biri ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 \u0259yir,<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Han\u0131 m\u0259nim bir g\u00f6z\u00fcm, niy\u0259 qolum yoxdur ki?<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Tanr\u0131 m\u0259ni \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r, d\u0259li \u015feytan qal deyir,<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Niy\u0259 m\u0259nim getm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015fqa yolum yoxdur ki?<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u00a0<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u018fqr\u0259bl\u0259r yor\u011fun d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, taq\u0259ti qalmay\u0131bd\u0131r,<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Azad olmaq qulluqdan, i\u015f i\u015fd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131d\u0131r.<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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M\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 o s\u0259bird\u0259n he\u00e7, q\u0259ti qalmay\u0131bd\u0131r,<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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M\u0259ni d\u0259 q\u0131namay\u0131n, v\u0259rdi\u015fd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131d\u0131r.<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u00a0<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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E\u015f\u015f\u0259k dam\u011falay\u0131ram, ham\u0131 iy\u0259 dayan\u0131b,<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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G\u00f6z\u00fcm dikilib qal\u0131b “\u015feytanl\u0131q d\u00f6ym\u0259si”n\u0259.<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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D\u00fcnya niy\u0259 f\u0131rlanm\u0131r, zaman niy\u0259 dayan\u0131b,<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Kimin barma\u011f\u0131 d\u0259yib pauza d\u00fcym\u0259sin\u0259?<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u00a0<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u015e\u0259had\u0259t barma\u011f\u0131md\u0131r gicgah\u0131m\u0131n silah\u0131,<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc yollarda quru can da\u015f\u0131y\u0131r\u0131q.<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc s\u0131xanda su \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rsa, \u0130lahi,<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Niy\u0259 damar\u0131m\u0131zda su yox, qan da\u015f\u0131y\u0131r\u0131q?<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u00a0<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Deyirl\u0259r o d\u00fcnyada qaynar qazan qaynay\u0131r,<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Qorxudan saralm\u0131\u015f\u0131q, b\u0131\u00e7aq vursan, qan \u00e7\u0131xmaz.<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 “d\u0259c\u0259l u\u015faq” m\u0259rc\u0259 oyun oynay\u0131r:<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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“G\u00f6r\u0259k, kim kimi y\u0131xar, g\u00f6r\u0259k, kim kimi y\u0131xmaz”<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u00a0<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Q\u0131z\u011f\u0131n bir oyun gedir, “Ya Qaralar, Ya A\u011flar”<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u00c7irm\u0259l\u0259yib qolunu bir ne\u00e7\u0259 “igid”, “qo\u00e7aq”<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Yen\u0259 yuxu g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m, siz\u0259 b\u0259d x\u0259b\u0259rim var:<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u0130\u00e7imd\u0259n bir s\u0259s deyir: “Qaralar uduzacaq!”<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u00a0<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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“Xo\u015fb\u0259xt ol”<\/span><\/span><\/strong><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u00a0<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u0130st\u0259yirs\u0259n bir d\u0259 s\u0131na,<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Q\u0259lb ki \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 deyil s\u0131na,<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u00dcr\u0259yimin qap\u0131s\u0131na<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Bir top atd\u0131n, dedim: qoldu!<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u00a0<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Bu top d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259z h\u0259r aya\u011fa,<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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D\u00fc\u015f\u0259r b\u0259xt\u0259v\u0259r aya\u011fa,<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Durdum birt\u0259h\u0259r aya\u011fa,<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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“Bir \u015fey olmaz”-dedim, yoldu…<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u00a0<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Olanlar m\u0259n\u0259 olmu\u015fdu,<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 duman alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131,<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u00dcmidim s\u0259n\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131,<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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“S\u0259br et” -dedin, dedim: oldu!<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u00a0<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Bu n\u0259 top idi qovurdum?<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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M\u0259n ki sad\u0259c\u0259 sevirdim,<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u00dcz\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00f6y\u0259 \u00e7evirdim,<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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“N\u0259 ba\u015f verir”-dedim, noldu?!<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u00a0<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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El\u0259 “e\u015fq” d\u0259 s\u00f6z imi\u015f, s\u00f6z,<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Deyil\u0259nl\u0259r d\u00fcz imi\u015f, d\u00fcz,<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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M\u0259nim n\u0259f\u0259sim buzmu\u015f, buz,<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Kim\u0259 “g\u00fcl\u00fcm” dedim, soldu.<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u00a0<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Bu n\u0259 yoldu, n\u0259 c\u0131\u011f\u0131rd\u0131?<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Deyim “Xo\u015fb\u0259xt ol?” Ax\u0131rd\u0131!<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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M\u0259nim n\u0259f\u0259sim a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131,<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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Bir d\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcn dedim, oldu!<\/span><\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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\u00a0<\/span><\/div>\n<\/div>\n
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“H\u0259yat\u0131n m\u0259cazi m\u0259nas\u0131” \u00a0 Qar\u0131\u015f\u0131b yuxular\u0131m, itib xeyirim, \u015f\u0259rim, Hal\u0131m qar\u0131\u015f\u0131b yen\u0259, m\u0259nd\u0259ki hal hal deyil. Div a\u011fz\u0131na atma\u011fa qurban\u0131q, \u0259zizl\u0259rim, Havay\u0131 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z n\u0259f\u0259s d\u0259 halal deyil. \u00a0 “Tanr\u0131 minl\u0259r i\u00e7ind\u0259n niy\u0259 m\u0259ni se\u00e7ibdir?” Yuxuda g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m ki, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 su verir\u0259m. Barma\u011f\u0131m yar\u0131yacan gicgah\u0131ma ke\u00e7ibdir, Durub \u00fcz\u00fc qibl\u0259y\u0259, g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 su verir\u0259m. \u00a0 Biri sin\u0259md\u0259n bas\u0131r, biri […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":12016,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[15,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12015"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=12015"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12015\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12017,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12015\/revisions\/12017"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/12016"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=12015"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=12015"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=12015"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}