{"id":12263,"date":"2019-01-29T20:04:32","date_gmt":"2019-01-29T16:04:32","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=12263"},"modified":"2019-01-29T20:04:32","modified_gmt":"2019-01-29T16:04:32","slug":"turac-hilal-m%c9%99n-oz-seirl%c9%99rim%c9%99-s%c9%99p%c9%99l%c9%99n%c9%99n-qadinam","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=12263","title":{"rendered":"Turac Hilal – “M\u0259n \u00f6z \u015feirl\u0259rim\u0259, S\u0259p\u0259l\u0259n\u0259n qad\u0131nam”"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"26239769_148370635947284_5564958448932359990_n\"<\/a>\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

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Dey<\/strong>\u0259<\/strong>s<\/strong>\u0259<\/strong>n ki… <\/strong><\/p>\n

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Bir diz ola ba\u015f qoyub dar\u0131xasan,<\/p>\n

Bir \u0259l ola yaran \u00fcst\u0259 s\u0131xasan,<\/p>\n

Bir yol ola Tanr\u0131yacan \u00e7\u0131xasan,<\/p>\n

Dey\u0259s\u0259n ki, di at m\u0259ni g\u00f6y\u00fcnd\u0259n.<\/p>\n

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D\u0259rd dir\u0259n\u0259 s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259, g\u00fcl\u0259s\u0259n,<\/p>\n

Min il yan\u0131b, d\u00f6nm\u0259y\u0259s\u0259n k\u00fcl\u0259 s\u0259n.<\/p>\n

C\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259md\u0259n bet\u0259r n\u0259 var bil\u0259s\u0259n,<\/p>\n

Dey\u0259s\u0259n ki, di g\u00f6nd\u0259r bet\u0259rind\u0259n.<\/p>\n

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Ruhun candan, can\u0131n bez\u0259\u0259lind\u0259n,<\/p>\n

K\u00fcfr ed\u0259s\u0259n \u015feytan qa\u00e7a \u015f\u0259rind\u0259n.<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u0131xarasan d\u00fcnyan\u0131 m\u0259hv\u0259rind\u0259n,<\/p>\n

Dey\u0259s\u0259n ki, di qov m\u0259ni evind\u0259n.<\/p>\n

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Bir diz ola ba\u015f qoyub dar\u0131xasan,<\/p>\n

Bir \u0259l ola yaran \u00fcst\u0259 s\u0131xasan,<\/p>\n

Bir yol ola Tanr\u0131yacan \u00e7\u0131xasan,<\/p>\n

Dey\u0259s\u0259n ki, di at m\u0259ni g\u00f6y\u00fcnd\u0259n.<\/p>\n

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Uyub d<\/strong>\u0259<\/strong>li <\/strong>\u015f<\/strong>eytana<\/strong><\/p>\n

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Uyub d\u0259li \u015feytana, bir d\u0259lilik ed\u0259s\u0259n,<\/p>\n

Dar\u0131xan “G\u00fcnah”\u0131n\u0131 ovutma\u011fa ged\u0259s\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Ged\u0259s\u0259n, l\u0259n\u0259tl\u0259rin qopub cazib\u0259sind\u0259n,<\/p>\n

Diksin\u0259 “G\u00fcnah”\u0131n da q\u0259fil qap\u0131 s\u0259sind\u0259n.<\/p>\n

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Ged\u0259s\u0259n, lap x\u0259b\u0259rsiz, g\u0259li\u015fin\u0259 mat qala.<\/p>\n

\u00c7a\u015fq\u0131n bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131yla \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259\u00e7at sala.<\/p>\n

Ged\u0259s\u0259n, a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131, ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 alasan,<\/p>\n

Dizl\u0259rin\u0259 titr\u0259m\u0259, can\u0131na od salasan.<\/p>\n

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Dey\u0259s\u0259n, s\u0259n deyildin “Sevirs\u0259ns\u0259, g\u0259l” – dey\u0259n?<\/p>\n

Dey\u0259s\u0259n, bax, g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m can \u00fcz\u0259n, \u00fcr\u0259k yey\u0259n.<\/p>\n

B\u0259b\u0259yimi saraldan, ciy\u0259rimi s\u00f6k\u0259n k\u0259s!<\/p>\n

Sin\u0259m\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131 olub, n\u0259f\u0259sim\u0259\u00e7\u00f6k\u0259n k\u0259s!<\/p>\n

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\u018fyil, boynundan \u00f6p\u00fcm, boyuna vuruldu\u011fum.<\/p>\n

Yaln\u0131z x\u0259yallar\u0131mda, boyuyla bir durdu\u011fum.<\/p>\n

Bir d\u0259 barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131n d\u0259lisiy\u0259m, bilirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

S\u0259nsiz m\u0259n milyon ilin \u00f6l\u00fcs\u00fcy\u0259m, bilirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

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S\u0259siyl\u0259 sevi\u015fdiyim, ax\u0131 demi\u015fdim s\u0259n\u0259<\/p>\n

P\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131na d\u00f6zm\u00fcr\u0259m, el\u0259 “g\u0259l” dem\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259.<\/p>\n

Uyub d\u0259li \u015feytana, el\u0259 indi g\u0259l\u0259r\u0259m,<\/p>\n

Doda\u011f\u0131nda do\u011fulub, qollar\u0131nda \u00f6l\u0259r\u0259m!<\/p>\n

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Bu na<\/strong>\u011f\u0131<\/strong>l bit<\/strong>\u0259<\/strong>n deyil. <\/strong><\/p>\n

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Bu na\u011f\u0131l bit\u0259n deyil,<\/p>\n

H\u0259l\u0259 ne\u00e7\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fcm var.<\/p>\n

G\u0259l, g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n \u00f6p\u00fcm,<\/p>\n

Ayr\u0131l\u0131q var, \u00f6l\u00fcm var.<\/p>\n

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Ruhum g\u00f6y\u0259 sovrulur,<\/p>\n

Cismimi torpaq udur.<\/p>\n

Ba\u011fr\u0131na bas bir anl\u0131q…<\/p>\n

\u0130lahi, c\u0259nn\u0259t budur?!<\/p>\n

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N\u0259f\u0259simi boynunun,<\/p>\n

\u018ftrin\u0259 qurban k\u0259sim.<\/p>\n

Nec\u0259 dua edim ki,<\/p>\n

Yetsin Tanr\u0131ya s\u0259sim?<\/p>\n

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Bilirs\u0259n nec\u0259 s\u00f6n\u00fcr,<\/p>\n

Ciy\u0259rind\u0259n yananlar?<\/p>\n

Bilirs\u0259n nec\u0259 olur,<\/p>\n

\u00d6l\u00fcmd\u0259n yarananlar?<\/p>\n

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H\u0259r gec\u0259, milyon d\u0259f\u0259<\/p>\n

C\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259md\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259rs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Didib yaralar\u0131n\u0131,<\/p>\n

\u00d6z qan\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7\u0259rs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

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Dar\u0131xan \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n,<\/p>\n

Yan\u0131q qoxusu g\u0259l\u0259r.<\/p>\n

S\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259r \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259<\/p>\n

D\u0259rdin ilant\u0259k m\u0259l\u0259r.<\/p>\n

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Pay\u0131zda yarpaqlarla,<\/p>\n

Sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 t\u00f6k\u0259rs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Baharda yollar\u0131na,<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259rini \u0259k\u0259rs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

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Bils\u0259n n\u0259dir yox olmaq,<\/p>\n

Yaranmaq\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6l\u0259rdin.<\/p>\n

Bils\u0259n… hardan bil\u0259s\u0259n,<\/p>\n

M\u0259n olsayd\u0131n bil\u0259rdin…<\/p>\n

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Yad<\/strong>\u0131<\/strong>ndam<\/strong>\u0131<\/strong>…<\/strong><\/p>\n

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Yad\u0131ndam\u0131, sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131 daray\u0131b,<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259rdim, k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259mizd\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259s\u0259n.<\/p>\n

S\u0259ni ham\u0131 sevib, \u0259zizl\u0259y\u0259rdi,<\/p>\n

M\u0259nd\u0259n he\u00e7 kim soru\u015fmazd\u0131, – nec\u0259s\u0259n?<\/p>\n

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Yad\u0131ndam\u0131, sizd\u0259, ocaq yananda,<\/p>\n

Kor olard\u0131 x\u0259yallar\u0131m t\u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fanda na\u011f\u0131llar,<\/p>\n

Ay batard\u0131, g\u00fcn do\u011fard\u0131\u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259.<\/p>\n

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Yad\u0131ndam\u0131, bir g\u00fcn bizim itimiz<\/p>\n

Tutdu s\u0259ni, m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259y\u0259 qal d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc<\/p>\n

Anan: “\u0130tl\u0259r, it saxlamaz!” – s\u00f6yl\u0259di,<\/p>\n

Bax, o g\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 xal d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

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Arzular\u0131m – \u0259tc\u0259 s\u0259r\u00e7\u0259 balas\u0131,<\/p>\n

Anan q\u0131rd\u0131 qanad\u0131n\u0131, it yedi.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n o g\u00fcnd\u0259n daramad\u0131m sa\u00e7\u0131m\u0131,<\/p>\n

Kim g\u00f6rd\u00fcs\u0259, bu q\u0131z d\u0259lidir dedi.<\/p>\n

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Qad<\/strong>\u0131<\/strong>nam <\/strong><\/p>\n

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M\u0259n \u00f6z \u015feirl\u0259rim\u0259,<\/p>\n

S\u0259p\u0259l\u0259n\u0259n qad\u0131nam.<\/p>\n

F\u0131rt\u0131nalar qoynunda,<\/p>\n

L\u0259p\u0259l\u0259n\u0259n qad\u0131nam.<\/p>\n

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Doda\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7at\u0131ndan,<\/p>\n

H\u0259zz alan d\u0259li d\u0259 m\u0259n.<\/p>\n

C\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259mind\u0259 yanan<\/p>\n

Yegan\u0259\u00f6l\u00fc d\u0259 m\u0259n.<\/p>\n

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S\u0259nin\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0259rh\u0259dl\u0259ri<\/p>\n

S\u00f6kd\u00fcr\u0259 d\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n

S\u0259ni dizl\u0259rin \u00fcst\u0259<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u00f6kd\u00fcr\u0259 d\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n

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S\u0259nd\u0259n sonra do\u011fuldum,<\/p>\n

S\u0259nd\u0259n \u00f6nc\u0259\u00f6l\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n

B\u00fct\u00fcn olmazlar\u0131 “Ol!” –<\/p>\n

Edib, yen\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n

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M\u0259n \u00f6z \u00fcmidl\u0259rimi,<\/p>\n

Bo\u011fan qatil qad\u0131nam.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcnah\u0131n\u0131n qoynundan,<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u0131xan batil qad\u0131nam.<\/p>\n

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Sussam, s\u0259sim Tanr\u0131n\u0131n,<\/p>\n

Qulaqlar\u0131na \u00e7atar.<\/p>\n

S\u0259ni yerin\u0259\u00e7\u0259k\u0259r,<\/p>\n

M\u0259ni g\u00f6y\u00fcnd\u0259n atar!<\/p>\n

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M\u0259n \u015feytan\u0131 aldad\u0131b,<\/p>\n

\u0130blisi ram ed\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Ya s\u0259nd\u0259n e\u015fq d\u00fcz\u0259ldib,<\/p>\n

Ya da adam ed\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n

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G<\/strong>\u0259<\/strong>l <\/strong><\/p>\n

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\u00c7ox pis yuxu g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m,<\/p>\n

it s\u0259siydi s\u0259sim, g\u0259l.<\/p>\n

S\u0259n\u0259 qurban demi\u015f\u0259m<\/p>\n

\u0259ll\u0259rimi, – k\u0259sim, g\u0259l!<\/p>\n

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B\u0259sdir oynad\u0131n, doy da,<\/p>\n

m\u0259n\u0259 tutdu\u011fun toyda…<\/p>\n

Burnunun ucu boyda<\/p>\n

dar\u0131x m\u0259n\u00e7\u00fcn, b\u0259sim, g\u0259l.<\/p>\n

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N\u0259 getdi, m\u0259nd\u0259n getdi…<\/p>\n

Bitdi, bu na\u011f\u0131l bitdi…<\/p>\n

G\u0259lee, m\u0259ni t\u0259rk etdi<\/p>\n

\u0259n sonuncu k\u0259sim, g\u0259l!<\/p>\n

Yaz\u0131ya 1005 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u00a0                   Dey\u0259s\u0259n ki…   Bir diz ola ba\u015f qoyub dar\u0131xasan, Bir \u0259l ola yaran \u00fcst\u0259 s\u0131xasan, Bir yol ola Tanr\u0131yacan \u00e7\u0131xasan, Dey\u0259s\u0259n ki, di at m\u0259ni g\u00f6y\u00fcnd\u0259n.   D\u0259rd dir\u0259n\u0259 s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259, g\u00fcl\u0259s\u0259n, Min il yan\u0131b, d\u00f6nm\u0259y\u0259s\u0259n k\u00fcl\u0259 s\u0259n. C\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259md\u0259n bet\u0259r n\u0259 var bil\u0259s\u0259n, Dey\u0259s\u0259n ki, di […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":12264,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[15,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12263"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=12263"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12263\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12265,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12263\/revisions\/12265"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/12264"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=12263"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=12263"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=12263"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}