{"id":12384,"date":"2019-03-26T15:30:39","date_gmt":"2019-03-26T11:30:39","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=12384"},"modified":"2019-03-26T15:30:39","modified_gmt":"2019-03-26T11:30:39","slug":"sabir-rust%c9%99mxanli-kulqabi-hekay%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=12384","title":{"rendered":"Sabir R\u00fcst\u0259mxanl\u0131 – “K\u00fclqab\u0131” – (hekay\u0259)"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"sabir<\/a>Q\u0259zetd\u0259 i\u015f\u0259 ba\u015flayanda c\u0259mi 21 ya\u015f\u0131m vard\u0131 v\u0259 ilk g\u00fcnl\u0259r zindana d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f kimi dar\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131m, redaksiyada m\u0259n\u0259 uy\u011fun birisi yoxdu, kiml\u0259 oturub duraca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bilmirdim, i\u015f yolda\u015flar\u0131m m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox ya\u015fl\u0131, az qala qoca g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. El\u0259 bilirdim \u0259l\u0259kl\u0259ri \u0259l\u0259nib, x\u0259lbirl\u0259ri g\u00f6yd\u0259 f\u0131rlan\u0131r. Ancaq \u00e7ox ke\u00e7m\u0259di isini\u015fdik, daha do\u011frusu, \u00f6zl\u0259ri m\u0259nim d\u0259st\u0259d\u0259n k\u0259narda qalma\u011f\u0131ma imkan verm\u0259dil\u0259r, m\u0259clisl\u0259rin\u0259 qat\u0131b \u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131dlar\u0131 el\u0259dil\u0259r. Bu “m\u0259clisl\u0259r” d\u0259 \u00e7ox nadir bir i\u015f deyildi. M\u0259tb\u0259\u0259nin havas\u0131 a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131; \u0259lini a\u011fdan qaraya vurmasan da ax\u015fama kimi \u0259ld\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcn. K\u00f6hn\u0259 \u00fcsulla linotip ma\u015f\u0131nlar\u0131nda s\u0259tir-s\u0259tir y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131b \u00f6z\u0259l masalar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 s\u0259hif\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 yerl\u0259\u015fdiril\u0259n yaz\u0131lar, ne\u00e7\u0259 c\u00fcr \u0259m\u0259liyyatdan sonra qur\u011fu\u015fun t\u0259b\u0259q\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 haz\u0131rlanan \u015f\u0259kill\u0259r, h\u0259r h\u0259rf s\u0259hvind\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc yenid\u0259n isti-isti t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n s\u0259tirl\u0259r, korrektura \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn veril\u0259n s\u0259hif\u0259l\u0259rin \u0259lin\u0259-qoluna \u00e7\u0131xan qara r\u0259ngi, y\u0131\u011f\u0131m sexinin n\u0259f\u0259si daraldan qoxusu haql\u0131 olaraq m\u0259tb\u0259\u0259l\u0259ri a\u011f\u0131r \u015f\u0259raiti olan m\u00fc\u0259ssis\u0259l\u0259r siyah\u0131s\u0131na s\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130\u015fcil\u0259r\u0259 h\u0259r g\u00fcn i\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259 s\u00fcd verilirdi.<\/p>\n

Ancaq onlar h\u0259ft\u0259lik q\u0259zetd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yirdil\u0259r v\u0259 m\u0259tb\u0259\u0259d\u0259ki i\u015fl\u0259rini iki g\u00fcn\u0259 bitirirdil\u0259r. C\u00fcm\u0259 ax\u015fam\u0131 v\u0259 c\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259ri s\u0259hif\u0259l\u0259ri oxuyub \u00e7ap sexin\u0259 verirdil\u0259r, \u015f\u0259nb\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0259zet \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u018fll\u0259rini yuyub getm\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131rla\u015fanda publisistika \u015f\u00f6b\u0259sinin m\u00fcdiri Rasim el\u0259-bel\u0259 s\u00f6zaras\u0131 “qur\u011fu\u015funun tozu bizi \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259r, m\u0259tb\u0259\u0259 i\u015f\u00e7isi d\u0259 olmad\u0131q ki, biz\u0259 d\u0259 s\u00fcd versinl\u0259r bo\u011faz\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 t\u0259mizl\u0259y\u0259k. – Sonra bird\u0259n s\u0259sinin ah\u0259ngini d\u0259yi\u015fib – Hara gedirik?” – dedi.<\/p>\n

Bu qur\u011fu\u015fun, s\u00fcd s\u00f6hb\u0259ti t\u0259z\u0259 deyildi. Onsuz da h\u0259r m\u0259tb\u0259\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fc bir b\u0259han\u0259 tap\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. “Can\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 q\u0131zd\u0131rmasaq bu hava bizi q\u0131rar!”, “Bu g\u00fcn Arifin ad g\u00fcn\u00fcd\u00fcr”, “\u0130sa yax\u015f\u0131 Qarayaz\u0131 \u00e7ax\u0131r\u0131 g\u0259tirib…”, “Telman\u0131n tut ara\u011f\u0131ndan i\u00e7misiniz? Ara\u011f deyil e, bombad\u0131r”. Bir s\u00f6zl\u0259, b\u0259han\u0259 qurtaran deyildi. Kimins\u0259 ad g\u00fcn\u00fc, kimins\u0259 ail\u0259sin\u0259 yeni k\u00f6rp\u0259nin g\u0259li\u015fi, bayramlar, toylar… \u018fsas, ustad Vidadi demi\u015f: bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259zablar\u0131n\u0131 kef\u0259 \u00e7evirm\u0259kdir…<\/p>\n

T\u0259l\u0259b\u0259likd\u0259n sonra \u00e7ox canl\u0131 bir h\u0259yat ba\u015flanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bu h\u0259ft\u0259 t\u0259klif \u0130sadan g\u0259ldi. Bir g\u00fcn \u00f6nc\u0259 m\u0259nim yan\u0131mda olmu\u015fdu v\u0259 k\u0259ndd\u0259n g\u00f6nd\u0259rilmi\u015f sovqat\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. “Altay\u0131n qald\u0131\u011f\u0131 yer bura yax\u0131nd\u0131r, yem\u0259k-i\u00e7m\u0259yi d\u0259 boldur. B\u0259lk\u0259 ora ged\u0259k?”. Bax\u0131\u015flar m\u0259n\u0259 do\u011fru \u00e7evrildi. Aralar\u0131nda yeniydim, h\u0259l\u0259 xasiyy\u0259timi v\u0259 \u0130san\u0131n t\u0259klifin\u0259 nec\u0259 yana\u015faca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bilmirdil\u0259r. S\u00f6z yox, bu c\u00fcr h\u00f6rm\u0259tli adamlar\u0131n v\u0259 i\u015f yolda\u015flar\u0131m\u0131n m\u0259nim kiray\u0259 qald\u0131\u011f\u0131m m\u0259nzil\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131n\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fck etimad say\u0131rd\u0131m v\u0259 \u0130san\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259dim. “G\u00f6z\u0259l t\u0259klifdir”. Sonra zarafatla \u0259lav\u0259 etdim: “H\u0259r halda q\u0259biristanl\u0131qdan yax\u015f\u0131 olar”.\u00a0 G\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r, n\u0259y\u0259 i\u015far\u0259 etdiyimi bilirdil\u0259r. \u00c7\u00fcnki m\u0259tb\u0259\u0259d\u0259n sonra bazarl\u0131q edib sakit yer axtaranda bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 m\u0259tb\u0259\u0259nin b\u00f6yr\u00fcnd\u0259ki y\u0259hudi q\u0259biristan\u0131na getmi\u015fdik. S\u0259liq\u0259li, ya\u015f\u0131ll\u0131qlar aras\u0131nda gizl\u0259nmi\u015f m\u0259zarlardan birini tap\u0131b, yan\u0131ndak\u0131 masan\u0131, oturaca\u011f\u0131 t\u0259mizl\u0259yib s\u00fcfr\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131q. Yolda\u015flardan kims\u0259 “indi bizi yaln\u0131z vertolyotla tapmaq olar”, – dey\u0259 se\u00e7diyimiz yerin m\u0259clis \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r uy\u011funlu\u011funa i\u015far\u0259 vurmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

Orda ba\u015f ver\u0259n bir \u0259hvalat is\u0259 l\u0259tif\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7evrilmi\u015fdi. Bel\u0259 m\u0259clisl\u0259rin d\u0259yi\u015film\u0259z masab\u0259yi ustad \u015fair Qabildi. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 yen\u0259 h\u00fcnd\u00fcrd\u0259, ya\u015f\u0131ll\u0131qlar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 gizl\u0259nmi\u015f bir q\u0259bir tap\u0131b yan\u0131ndak\u0131 masada s\u00fcfr\u0259 a\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131q. Qabil d\u0259 eyni y\u00fcks\u0259k m\u0259cls ilham\u0131 il\u0259 s\u00f6z deyir, ham\u0131n\u0131 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Be\u015f v\u0259 ya alt\u0131 n\u0259f\u0259r idik. M\u0259clisn ax\u0131r\u0131nda Qabil m\u00fc\u0259llim ilhamla, xo\u015f ovqatla m\u0259clisi yekunla\u015fd\u0131rmaq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 bird\u0259n a\u015fa\u011f\u0131dan, yerin alt\u0131ndan s\u0259s g\u0259ldi. Kims\u0259 onu \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131: “Qabil m\u00fc\u0259llim”. Qabilin r\u0259ngi a\u011fard\u0131, sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 yar\u0131da k\u0259sib \u0259trafa boyland\u0131, sonra bizim sakitliyimizi g\u00f6r\u00fcb sakitl\u0259\u015fdi v\u0259 sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 davam etdirdi. Bir azdan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131dan yen\u0259 s\u0259s g\u0259ldi: “Qabil m\u00fc\u0259llim!”.<\/p>\n

Bu d\u0259f\u0259 Qabil h\u0259y\u0259can\u0131n\u0131 gizl\u0259d\u0259 bilm\u0259di, biz\u0259 bax\u0131b Bak\u0131 l\u0259hc\u0259si il\u0259 “Al\u0259, siz d\u0259 e\u015fid\u00fcrs\u00fcz?”, – dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

\u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, e\u015fitmi\u015fdik. Bunu gizl\u0259tm\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyildir. T\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 bir-birimizin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z anda q\u0259bri d\u00f6vr\u0259l\u0259y\u0259n hasar\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131 v\u0259 bir n\u0259f\u0259r i\u015f paltar\u0131nda, \u00fcst\u00fc toz-torpaql\u0131 i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi. \u00dcz\u00fcn\u00fc Qabil m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259 tutub bizi g\u00f6rm\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f kimi ona m\u00fcraci\u0259t el\u0259di.<\/p>\n

– Salam \u0259leyk\u00fcm, Qabil m\u00fc\u0259llim. H\u0259y\u0259can\u0131m\u0131z da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, bayaq s\u0259s yerin alt\u0131ndan g\u0259lmi\u015fdis\u0259 d\u0259 indi qar\u015f\u0131m\u0131zda k\u0259f\u0259nli birisi yox, canl\u0131 adam dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Qabil m\u00fc\u0259llimin cavab\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n:<\/p>\n

– M\u0259n s\u0259nin qon\u015funam da, Qabil m\u00fc\u0259llim, tan\u0131mad\u0131n? Q\u0259bir qazanam. Dedil\u0259r t\u0259cili qaz\u0131lmal\u0131, sabah s\u0259h\u0259r tezd\u0259n\u0259 haz\u0131r olmal\u0131d\u0131r. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 qaranl\u0131\u011fa d\u00fc\u015fs\u0259m d\u0259, dedim qurtar\u0131m sonra gedim. Bilirs\u0259n, m\u0259n d\u0259 \u015feir yaz\u0131ram. \u0130st\u0259yirs\u0259n birini s\u0259n\u0259 oxuyum?<\/p>\n

Bayaqdan susub q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259 ona baxan Qabil, bird\u0259n tapan\u00e7a kimi a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n

– R\u0259hm\u0259tliyin o\u011flu, gec\u0259nin bu vaxt\u0131 q\u0259biristanl\u0131q \u015feir oxumaq yeridi? Bayaqdan \u00fcr\u0259k-g\u00f6b\u0259yimi yemi\u015f\u0259m, deyir\u0259m g\u00f6r\u0259n yerin alt\u0131ndan kimdi m\u0259ni \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r. Bunun dal\u0131nca m\u0259clis \u0259hlinin q\u0259hq\u0259h\u0259si d\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcl\u0259rin s\u00fckutunu pozmu\u015fdur.<\/p>\n

M\u00fcbahis\u0259y\u0259 yer qalmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.Yol\u00fcst\u00fc x\u0131rda bazarl\u0131qdan sonra m\u0259nim ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m m\u0259nzil\u0259 g\u0259ldik. \u0130n\u015faat\u00e7\u0131lar prospektind\u0259 Qa\u011fay\u0131 adl\u0131 kooperativ ev \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l binalar\u0131ndan biriydi v\u0259 kiray\u0259ni\u015fin oldu\u011fum m\u0259nzild\u0259 oturub yeyib-i\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259 v\u0259 dinc\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259 h\u0259r c\u00fcr \u015f\u0259rait vard\u0131. Gec\u0259d\u0259n xeyli ke\u00e7\u0259n\u0259d\u0259k oturduq v\u0259 i\u015f yolda\u015flar\u0131m bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 m\u0259nim haqq\u0131mda bad\u0259 qald\u0131rd\u0131lar. D\u00fcz\u00fc, q\u0131sa m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc onlar\u0131n dediyi \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 tan\u0131tma\u011f\u0131m \u00fcr\u0259yimi sevincl\u0259 doldururdu.<\/p>\n

Gec\u0259 saat on bird\u0259 ayr\u0131lark\u0259n redaksiyan\u0131n \u0259n say\u011f\u0131l\u0131 \u0259m\u0259kda\u015flar\u0131ndan olan v\u0259 \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259ri \u00e7oxdan oxucular aras\u0131nda \u015f\u00f6hr\u0259tl\u0259nmi\u015f Qorxmaz m\u00fc\u0259llim ayaq saxlad\u0131. “S\u0259n burada t\u0259k qal\u0131rsan?”. El\u0259 bildim “burada t\u0259k nec\u0259 qal\u0131rsan?”- dem\u0259k ist\u0259yir…<\/p>\n

Qorxmaz m\u00fc\u0259llim sa\u00e7lar\u0131na yenic\u0259 d\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f, s\u0259liq\u0259li geyim-kecimiyl\u0259 se\u00e7il\u0259n, \u00e7ox dan\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131 sevm\u0259y\u0259n, zahir\u0259n s\u0259rt v\u0259 soyuqqanl\u0131 bir adam idi. Lakin dostlar\u0131 aras\u0131nda olanda zarafatlar\u0131, atmacalar\u0131 uc-uca calan\u0131rd\u0131. \u015euxlu\u011fu onu ya\u015f\u0131ndan g\u0259nc v\u0259 ucaboylu g\u00f6st\u0259rirdi.<\/p>\n

A\u011f\u0131r adam olmas\u0131, x\u0131rda s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259r\u0259 qo\u015fulmamas\u0131, redaksiyaya g\u0259tiril\u0259n \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259r\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259bkarl\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u0259r bazar ert\u0259si sonuncu n\u00f6mr\u0259nin m\u00fczakir\u0259si zaman\u0131 \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fc, bi\u00e7ili r\u0259yl\u0259ri il\u0259 \u0259m\u0259kda\u015flar\u0131n \u00fcmumi fikrini idar\u0259 etm\u0259si , d\u00fcr\u00fcstl\u00fcy\u00fc v\u0259 prinsipiall\u0131\u011f\u0131 onu q\u0259zetin sevil\u0259n, n\u00fcfuzlu i\u015f\u00e7il\u0259rind\u0259n birin\u0259 \u00e7evirmi\u015fdi. \u00dcst\u0259lik, il yar\u0131mda, iki ild\u0259n bir ortaya \u00e7\u0131xan h\u0259r yeni roman v\u0259 ya povesti \u0259d\u0259bi m\u00fchitd\u0259 hadis\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7evril\u0259r, aylarla davam ed\u0259n m\u00fczakir\u0259 m\u00f6vzusu olard\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u015fin sonunda, daha do\u011frusu, m\u0259clissiz g\u00fcnl\u0259rimizin birind\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131b otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xanda yan otaqdan m\u0259ni \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131:<\/p>\n

– Sabah evd\u0259s\u0259n?<\/p>\n

– B\u0259li, evd\u0259 olacam.<\/p>\n

– Qonaq-qara g\u00f6zl\u0259mirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

– Yox! He\u00e7 kimi g\u00f6zl\u0259mir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

H\u0259l\u0259 ki suallar\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259nas\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcrd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

– Saat 3-d\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 qonaq g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259m. – Sonra yum\u015faq bir t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u0259 d\u0259qiql\u0259\u015fdirdi, – g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yik.<\/p>\n

Qocaman h\u0259mkar\u0131m\u0131z M\u0259mm\u0259d \u018fkb\u0259r demi\u015f, “donlu\u011fumuzu” iki g\u00fcn \u00f6nc\u0259 alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q.<\/p>\n

– Yem\u0259y\u0259, i\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259 n\u0259 haz\u0131rlay\u0131m? – dey\u0259 soru\u015fdum…<\/p>\n

– Yeyib g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yik, \u00e7ay i\u00e7\u0259rik.<\/p>\n

– G\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u015f\u00e7il\u0259rl\u0259 m\u0259saf\u0259li dolanan bu s\u0259rt v\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259tli adam\u0131n m\u0259nim kiray\u0259 m\u0259nzilim\u0259 t\u0259k g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yi \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 m\u0259ni t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndirdi. Ayd\u0131nd\u0131r ki, o, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yik dey\u0259nd\u0259 yan\u0131nda qad\u0131n olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259 tuturdu, yoxsa kiml\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yini adla dey\u0259rdi. \u0130\u015fd\u0259n sonrak\u0131 m\u0259clisl\u0259rimizd\u0259 bel\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259r \u00e7ox olurdu. He\u00e7 kim sirrini gizli saxlaya bilm\u0259zdi. Amma Qorxmaz m\u00fc\u0259llim i\u00e7ini a\u00e7\u0131b t\u00f6k\u0259n adam deyil, x\u0131rda atmacalarla m\u00fcnasib\u0259tini bildirib bu s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259n yan ke\u00e7\u0259rdi. Onu g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 qad\u0131n s\u00f6hb\u0259tini y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131lar, \u00e7\u0259kinirdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Y\u0259qin, etibar\u0131n\u0131 qazanm\u0131\u015f yegan\u0259 i\u015f yolda\u015f\u0131 idim; ya da ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m yerin uy\u011funlu\u011fu burda rol oynam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ert\u0259si g\u00fcn deyil\u0259n vaxtda qap\u0131n\u0131n z\u0259ngi \u00e7al\u0131nd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Qara, uzun palto geyinmi\u015f, ba\u015f\u0131na ona uy\u011fun \u015flyapa qoymu\u015f Qorxmaz m\u00fc\u0259llim bu g\u00f6rk\u0259md\u0259 detektiv filml\u0259rin q\u0259hr\u0259manlar\u0131na b\u0259nz\u0259yirdi. Yan\u0131nda \u00f6z\u00fc kimi ucaboylu, z\u0259rif bir xan\u0131m dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

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– Buyurun! – deyib, onlar\u0131 i\u00e7\u0259ri d\u0259v\u0259t etdim. Paltolar\u0131n\u0131 asma\u011fa k\u00f6m\u0259k el\u0259dim. Qonaq ota\u011f\u0131nda, masan\u0131n \u0259traf\u0131nda oturdular, \u00e7ay s\u00fcz\u00fcb g\u0259tirdim. Sonra Qorxmaz m\u00fc\u0259llimi m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 d\u0259v\u0259t etdim. Soyuducunu a\u00e7\u0131b “burada Allah\u0131n verdiyind\u0259n n\u0259 varsa istifad\u0259 ed\u0259 bil\u0259rsiniz” dedim. “S\u0259n narahat olma!” – dedi. M\u0259n onun cavab\u0131n\u0131 “bizi n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r tez t\u0259k buraxsan, o q\u0259d\u0259r yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r” kimi ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

Getm\u0259y\u0259 yer tapmayanda, dostlara m\u00f6htac olanda ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za g\u0259l\u0259n i\u015fl\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

Yenid\u0259n masa arxas\u0131nda, xan\u0131m\u0131n yan\u0131nda oturdu. G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc yay\u0131nd\u0131rma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsam da, i\u015f yolda\u015f\u0131m\u0131n sevgilisinin g\u00f6z\u0259lliyini g\u00f6rm\u0259m\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyildi. G\u00f6z qama\u015fd\u0131ran t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fc v\u0259 iri g\u00f6zl\u0259ri il\u0259 eynil\u0259 T\u00fcrkan \u015eoraya b\u0259nz\u0259yirdi. Qorxmaz m\u00fc\u0259llimin h\u0259r s\u00f6z\u00fc, h\u0259r h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tini gizl\u0259dilm\u0259si m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmayan bir ehtiram v\u0259 say\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131lay\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Paltomu geyinib \u00e7\u0131xmaq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 Qorxmaz m\u00fc\u0259llim “k\u00fclqab\u0131n varm\u0131?” soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim siqaret \u00e7\u0259km\u0259diyimi bilirdi. Amma g\u0259lib-ged\u0259n yolda\u015flar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131 bu t\u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fcn tutqulusu idil\u0259r. Onlar da\u011f\u0131l\u0131b ged\u0259nd\u0259n sonra p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259ri saatlarla a\u00e7\u0131q qoyurdum ki, z\u0259h\u0259rin iyi da\u011f\u0131ls\u0131n. \u00d6z\u00fcmd\u0259n icad etdiyim bir x\u0259b\u0259rdarl\u0131q da k\u00f6m\u0259k etm\u0259mi\u015fdi. K\u00fclqab\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 qoydu\u011fum ka\u011f\u0131zda r\u0259ngli flomastrla “m\u0259n dostlar\u0131m\u0131n k\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m!” yazm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Faci\u0259li, eyni zamanda g\u00fclm\u0259li x\u0259b\u0259rdarl\u0131qd\u0131… Ancaq g\u0259l\u0259n dostlar bu ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131 ehmalca g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb k\u0259nara qoyur v\u0259 k\u00fclqab\u0131n\u0131 k\u00fcll\u0259 doldurma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131lar. \u00c7ar\u0259siz qal\u0131b n\u0259 vaxtsa m\u0259n\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flanm\u0131\u015f bu a\u011f\u0131r, b\u00fcllur k\u00fclqab\u0131n\u0131 dolabda gizl\u0259tmi\u015fdim. Qorxmaz m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259 bir s\u00f6z dem\u0259d\u0259n qab\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydum. O da siqaretini, kibritini k\u00fclqab\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na qoydu, sanki onlardan xilas olmaq ist\u0259yirdi, sonra qalx\u0131b qap\u0131dan m\u0259ni yola sald\u0131. “A\u00e7ar qals\u0131n sizd\u0259, i\u015fd\u0259 ver\u0259rsiz, m\u0259nim \u00f6z a\u00e7ar\u0131m var; yataqxanada g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm var, saat 9-da g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m” – dedim.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di.<\/p>\n

– O vaxta biz ged\u0259rik.<\/p>\n

Qorxmaz m\u00fc\u0259llimin s\u0259liq\u0259-sahman\u0131n\u0131 bilirdim. Ax\u015fam ev\u0259 qay\u0131danda bunun bir daha \u015fahidi oldum. H\u0259r \u015fey m\u0259nim qoyub getdiyim kimi idi. Birc\u0259 k\u00fclqab\u0131da\u00a0 iki siqaret s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. N\u0259y\u0259 toxunmu\u015fdularsa, yen\u0259 s\u0259liq\u0259yl\u0259 qaytar\u0131b yerin\u0259 qoymu\u015fdular.<\/p>\n

Ert\u0259si g\u00fcn a\u00e7ar\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 qaytaranda \u00fcz\u00fc g\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bu minn\u0259tdarl\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0259v\u0259z ed\u0259n bir ovqat idi. H\u0259r s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc, h\u0259r add\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcb-bi\u00e7\u0259n i\u015f yolda\u015f\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u00fcn\u0259nki g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6n\u0259mli oldu\u011funu bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndan sezm\u0259k \u00e7\u0259tin deyildi. V\u0259 bu ovqat g\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 davam etdi. \u0130ki h\u0259ft\u0259 sonra yen\u0259 “n\u0259 vaxt qonaq q\u0259bul ed\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n?”, – dey\u0259 soru\u015fanda cavab \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 a\u00e7ar\u0131 ona uzatd\u0131m. G\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259di.<\/p>\n

– Yox, \u00f6z\u00fcn evd\u0259 olanda g\u0259l\u0259rik, – dedi.<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn sonra g\u0259ldil\u0259r. Yeni e\u015fq\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f g\u0259ncl\u0259r kimi \u00fczl\u0259rind\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt bir ifad\u0259 vard\u0131. Art\u0131q bu m\u0259nzil onlara tan\u0131\u015f idi v\u0259 x\u00fcsusi dil-a\u011f\u0131z el\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ehtiyac duymurdular. Yen\u0259 ortaya \u00e7ay g\u0259tirdim v\u0259 xudahafizl\u0259\u015fib qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. Ancaq k\u00fclqab\u0131n\u0131 tap\u0131b masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoyma\u011f\u0131 da unutmad\u0131m.\u00a0 Ax\u015fam k\u00fclqab\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259mizl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ehtiyac qalmad\u0131. Dostum siqaret \u00e7\u0259km\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u00d6z dediyi kimi, siqaret m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sin\u0259 pay\u0131z x\u0259z\u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 bu i\u015f\u0259 x\u00fcsusi bir m\u0259rasim kimi baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilirdim. Yar\u0131m saat siqaretsiz otura bilm\u0259zdi. Bo\u015f k\u00fclqab\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6z m\u0259ntiqi var idi. Dem\u0259li, s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259ri \u015firin olub v\u0259 siqaret yada d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259yib.<\/p>\n

Bel\u0259likl\u0259, o g\u00fcnd\u0259n ba\u015flayaraq k\u00fclqab\u0131 onlar\u0131n m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259rinin g\u00fczg\u00fcs\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7evrildi.<\/p>\n

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Bu m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259rin onun hans\u0131sa \u0259s\u0259rin\u0259 m\u00f6vzu olaca\u011f\u0131na \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259 etmirdim. Y\u0259qin, ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu m\u0259nzild\u0259 d\u0259 bir rahatl\u0131q b\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik havas\u0131 vard\u0131. Bir g\u00fcn Qorxmaz m\u00fc\u0259llim “niy\u0259 evl\u0259nmirs\u0259n, qald\u0131\u011f\u0131n m\u0259nzil yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r, kiray\u0259 qalanda n\u0259 olar?”.<\/p>\n

Dey\u0259 bilm\u0259dim ki, evl\u0259nm\u0259s\u0259m d\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt\u0259m v\u0259 o xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik h\u0259r g\u00fcn sizin d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131ndad\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Dey\u0259 bilm\u0259dim ki, bu m\u0259nzild\u0259 sizi t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndir\u0259n s\u0259liq\u0259-sahman m\u0259nim i\u015fim deyil. Bax el\u0259 indic\u0259 d\u0259hlizd\u0259n \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7\u0259n, sanki yerim\u0259y\u0259n, u\u00e7an, uzun sa\u00e7lar\u0131 k\u00fcr\u0259yini d\u00f6y\u0259cl\u0259y\u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l q\u0131z, m\u0259nim kiray\u0259 qald\u0131\u011f\u0131m m\u0259nzilin yara\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131, havas\u0131, suyudur. \u0130\u015f\u00e7il\u0259rl\u0259 k\u0259lm\u0259 k\u0259sm\u0259y\u0259n, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7evirib kim\u0259s\u0259 baxmayan bu q\u00fcrurlu q\u0131z m\u0259nim ota\u011f\u0131ma g\u0259l\u0259n kimi d\u0259yi\u015filir, deyib-g\u00fcl\u00fcr, dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r, y\u0131\u011f\u0131b-y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r, paltarlar\u0131m\u0131 yuyur, el\u0259 bil bu evin sahibi v\u0259 m\u0259nim halalca arvad\u0131md\u0131r. Dey\u0259 bilm\u0259dim ki, k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xanda adamlar\u0131n boy-buxununa heyranl\u0131qla baxd\u0131qlar\u0131 bu g\u00f6z\u0259llik ilah\u0259si m\u0259nim \u0259n yax\u0131n sirda\u015f\u0131md\u0131r. Kiray\u0259 m\u0259nzilimin a\u00e7arlar\u0131ndan biri d\u0259 ondad\u0131r. M\u0259ni yuxudan oyatmamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qap\u0131n\u0131n z\u0259ngini \u00e7alm\u0131r. H\u0259r g\u00fcn sabah erk\u0259n i\u015f\u0259 getm\u0259zd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l evl\u0259rind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b \u00f6nc\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259kir. S\u0259h\u0259rin \u015firin yuxusunda qap\u0131n\u0131 n\u0259 vaxt a\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, n\u0259 vaxt soyundu\u011funu hiss el\u0259mir\u0259m. Yor\u011fan\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b yan\u0131ma uzanan v\u0259 uzanan kimi d\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 sar\u0131lan q\u0131z\u0131n k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259n g\u0259tirdiyi soyuqluqdan diksinir\u0259m. A\u011fz\u0131m\u0131 a\u00e7ma\u011fa imkan verm\u0259d\u0259n qula\u011f\u0131ma “donmu\u015fam, isit m\u0259ni”, – deyir. B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131 bir yuxuya b\u0259nz\u0259yir. \u00c7\u00fcnki i\u015f yolda\u015flar\u0131m\u0131n salam\u0131n\u0131 bel\u0259 minn\u0259tl\u0259 alan v\u0259 Bak\u0131n\u0131n nadir g\u00f6z\u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n olan bu q\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259d\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 a\u015fiq olaca\u011f\u0131na v\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcd etm\u0259d\u0259n h\u0259r g\u00fcn t\u0259klif g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n quca\u011f\u0131ma cuma bil\u0259c\u0259yi \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 d\u0259 inand\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcr. Amma bu bel\u0259dir v\u0259 az qala, q\u0131z\u0131n redaksiyaya g\u0259ldiyi ilk g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259n ba\u015flayan bu m\u00fcnasib\u0259ti Allahdan ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 kim bilmir. Amma dey\u0259s\u0259n, redaktorumuz \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015fdi. \u00c7\u00fcnki n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ba\u015fqa m\u0259qal\u0259l\u0259r olsa da m\u0259nim yaz\u0131m\u0131n ham\u0131dan tez haz\u0131r olmas\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259hz bu makina\u00e7\u0131 q\u0131zla ba\u011fl\u0131 oldu\u011funu hiss el\u0259mi\u015fdi. H\u0259tta ilk d\u0259f\u0259 bizim \u015f\u00f6b\u0259y\u0259 aidiyy\u0259ti olmayan yaz\u0131lar\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 verib “\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 tap\u015f\u0131r, qoy bunlar\u0131 tez haz\u0131rlas\u0131n!” dey\u0259nd\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nmi\u015fdim. “Bunun m\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 d\u0259xli var?” dem\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 onun \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f v\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n m\u0259nim bir s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc iki el\u0259m\u0259diyini sezdiyini anlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Ancaq n\u0259 f\u0259rqi? Qoy b\u00fct\u00fcn redaksiya bilsin. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir g\u00f6z\u0259lik r\u0259mzi v\u0259 o ill\u0259r uzunu arzusunda oldu\u011fum bir xan\u0131m idi. Qarda\u015f\u0131 tutulandan sonra ehtiyac \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n universiteti yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q qoyub i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259cbur olmas\u0131 onu \u00f6z zirv\u0259sind\u0259n endirm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Yaza-yaza h\u0259mkarlar\u0131m\u0131n s\u0259hvl\u0259rini tutur v\u0259 b\u0259zil\u0259rinin yaz\u0131lar\u0131ndak\u0131 dayazl\u0131qdan gileyl\u0259nirdi. Laz\u0131m olsa b\u00fct\u00fcn \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 car \u00e7\u0259kib “bax\u0131n, bu q\u0131z m\u0259nim sevgilimdir” dey\u0259 bil\u0259rdim. Amma indi Qorxmaz m\u00fc\u0259llim bu m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rsiz idi v\u0259 m\u0259nzilimizd\u0259ki s\u0259liq\u0259ni m\u0259nim ad\u0131ma yaz\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Onun sevdiyi xan\u0131mla ara-s\u0131ra biz\u0259 qonaq g\u0259lm\u0259sin\u0259 v\u0259rdi\u015f el\u0259mi\u015fdim. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r s\u0131x-s\u0131x g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. Az qala h\u0259r h\u0259ft\u0259. Ail\u0259 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 ciddi yana\u015fan, evin\u0259, yolda\u015f\u0131na ba\u011fl\u0131 olan bip insan\u0131n, bu gizli e\u015fqinin hardan qaynaqland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, hardan ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmirdim. Bizim evimizd\u0259 ke\u00e7irdiyi g\u00fcnl\u0259rin ovqat\u0131n\u0131 i\u015fd\u0259 m\u00fc\u015fahid\u0259 etm\u0259k \u00e7\u0259tin deyildi. \u00c7\u00fcnki h\u0259min g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 o deyib-g\u00fcl\u0259n, \u015f\u0259n bir adama \u00e7evrilir, i\u015fd\u0259n sonrak\u0131 m\u0259clisl\u0259rimizin \u0259sas s\u0259b\u0259bkar\u0131 olurdu. Sonra ya bu g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r seyr\u0259ldi, ya da onlar ba\u015fqa yerd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. Amma n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259, h\u0259r g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rind\u0259n sonra k\u00fclqab\u0131da s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcl\u0259n siqaretl\u0259r art\u0131rd\u0131. K\u00fcld\u0259n n\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n? Siqaret k\u00f6t\u00fckl\u0259ri \u00e7oxald\u0131qca dostumdan nigaran\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131m da art\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00fcnl\u0259rin birind\u0259 k\u00fclqab\u0131n\u0131 siqaret k\u00f6t\u00fckl\u0259riyl\u0259 dolu g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Bundan sonra Qorxmaz m\u00fc\u0259llim m\u0259nd\u0259n n\u0259 vaxt evd\u0259 olaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 soru\u015fmad\u0131…<\/p>\n

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Q\u0259zetd\u0259 i\u015f\u0259 ba\u015flayanda c\u0259mi 21 ya\u015f\u0131m vard\u0131 v\u0259 ilk g\u00fcnl\u0259r zindana d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f kimi dar\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131m, redaksiyada m\u0259n\u0259 uy\u011fun birisi yoxdu, kiml\u0259 oturub duraca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bilmirdim, i\u015f yolda\u015flar\u0131m m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox ya\u015fl\u0131, az qala qoca g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. El\u0259 bilirdim \u0259l\u0259kl\u0259ri \u0259l\u0259nib, x\u0259lbirl\u0259ri g\u00f6yd\u0259 f\u0131rlan\u0131r. Ancaq \u00e7ox ke\u00e7m\u0259di isini\u015fdik, daha do\u011frusu, \u00f6zl\u0259ri m\u0259nim d\u0259st\u0259d\u0259n k\u0259narda qalma\u011f\u0131ma imkan verm\u0259dil\u0259r, m\u0259clisl\u0259rin\u0259 qat\u0131b \u00f6z […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[5,16,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12384"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=12384"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12384\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12385,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12384\/revisions\/12385"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=12384"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=12384"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=12384"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}