{"id":12390,"date":"2019-04-02T14:57:56","date_gmt":"2019-04-02T09:57:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=12390"},"modified":"2019-04-02T14:59:27","modified_gmt":"2019-04-02T09:59:27","slug":"bilal-alarli-faiq-balab%c9%99yli-yagisdan-sonra","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=12390","title":{"rendered":"Bilal Alarl\u0131 – “Faiq Balab\u0259yli \u2013 Ya\u011f\u0131\u015fdan sonra”"},"content":{"rendered":"
\"bilal<\/a>\u015eeir ya\u015fant\u0131d\u0131r, hans\u0131 hiss s\u0259ni t\u0259rp\u0259dirs\u0259, silk\u0259l\u0259yirs\u0259, onu \u015feir\u0259 g\u0259tirirs\u0259n. El\u0259 \u015feir var ki, yaz\u0131rsan, daxili narahatl\u0131qlar\u0131na son qoyur, bir s\u00f6zl\u0259, stress da\u011f\u0131d\u0131r. Misralar\u0131n\u0131n ilk hayq\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131 sevgid\u0259n do\u011fur. V\u00fcsaldan \u00e7ox hicran\u0131 olan sevgi! Hara \u00e7at\u0131r bu haray, s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc dediyin adam s\u0259ni e\u015fitmirs\u0259?! Bax onda \u015fair \u0259lini yell\u0259yib, “Eh, ayr\u0131l\u0131q, n\u0259 yamansan\u201d deyir. Ayr\u0131l\u0131q bitmir ki, bitmir, b\u0259z\u0259n bu hicran\u0131 \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 bir \u00f6m\u00fcr b\u0259s etmir. S\u0259n\u0259 da\u011f \u00e7\u0259kir, d\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kir, ham\u0131n\u0131n d\u0259rdin\u0259 \u015f\u0259rik olursan v\u0259 bir g\u00fcn g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n ki, qo\u015fulubsan bir ax\u0131na, sel s\u0259ni apar\u0131r, m\u0259cras\u0131na s\u0131\u011fmayan \u00e7aylardan ke\u00e7ib d\u0259niz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rsan. G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n ki, bu d\u0259niz d\u0259 s\u0259n d\u0259rdd\u0259dir, onun da a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131 i\u00e7in\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcb. D\u00f6zm\u00fcr, d\u0259niz d\u0259 d\u00f6zm\u00fcr onu sev\u0259nl\u0259rin a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131na. “K\u0259silm\u0259y\u0259n h\u0259y\u0259can fiti\u201d \u00e7al\u0131n\u0131r, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n kar olmu\u015f qulaqlar\u0131n\u0131 y\u0131rtmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7al\u0131n\u0131r. \u015eairin q\u0259l\u0259mi, qapanm\u0131\u015f qulaqlara d\u0259nizin a\u011f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131r.\u00a0<\/strong><\/em><\/div>\n
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\u00a0Sonra \u015fah\u0259 qalxan dal\u011falar \u00f6z m\u0259cras\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kilir. G\u00fcnl\u00fc-g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fli g\u00fcnl\u0259r ba\u015flay\u0131r, h\u0259yat sevgisi i\u015f\u0131q sa\u00e7\u0131r, misra-misra nura boyan\u0131r. Bax, onda “S\u0259n\u0259 yaz\u0131lan \u015feirl\u0259r\u201di ham\u0131 oxuyur, ham\u0131 el\u0259 bilir ki, bu \u015feirl\u0259r el\u0259 ona yaz\u0131l\u0131b. Bu \u015feir d\u00fcnyas\u0131d\u0131r, “Burda dar\u0131xmaq olmaz\u201d, h\u0259tta h\u0259yata barmaql\u0131qlar arxas\u0131ndan boylansan da! S\u0259sin, s\u00f6z\u00fcn, avaz\u0131n “Bay\u0131ldan bay\u0131ra\u201d qu\u015f kimi qanad a\u00e7\u0131b u\u00e7ur.<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00a0Ordan, barmaql\u0131qlar aras\u0131ndan bir \u0259l\u00e7im g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, g\u00f6zl\u0259rin \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259n buludlar \u00f6t\u00fcr kino lentind\u0259 \u00f6td\u00fcy\u00fc kimi… Amma ha boylan\u0131rsan, \u00e7ox sevdiyin d\u0259nizi g\u00f6rm\u00fcrs\u0259n, “Ya\u015f\u0131l yuxulu d\u0259niz\u201d el\u0259 yuxular\u0131na da girir, n\u0259 \u0259lin \u00e7at\u0131r, n\u0259 d\u0259 toxuna bilirs\u0259n. \u00dcr\u0259yin a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131r, a\u00e7\u0131b bax\u0131rlar, b\u0259lk\u0259, \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259ki a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259l\u0259r, amma kims\u0259 bilmir ki, a\u011fr\u0131lar g\u00f6z\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcr, onun a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ancaq \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n bilir:<\/div>\n
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\u00a0\u015eirinliyimd\u0259n b\u0259hs etdiniz el\u0259,<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u00e7\u0259kdiyim ac\u0131dan x\u0259b\u0259r tutmad\u0131n\u0131z.<\/div>\n
\u00a0G\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fc z\u0259h\u0259r ed\u0259n<\/div>\n
\u00a0x\u0259st\u0259liyin ad\u0131 \u015f\u0259k\u0259r oldu.<\/div>\n
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\u00a0S\u0259ni g\u00fcn d\u00f6y\u00fcr, quruyub qal\u0131rsan, ya\u011f\u0131\u015f tutur, islan\u0131b \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rsan, \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rsan, \u0259lin \u00fcr\u0259yinin ba\u015f\u0131nda! Zaman etibars\u0131z, insanlar v\u0259fas\u0131z! Ya\u011f\u0131r \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259rd ya\u011f\u0131\u015flar\u0131, a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131-ac\u0131s\u0131 misra-misra \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r can\u0131ndan! “Ya\u011f\u0131\u015fdan sonra\u201d \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131rsan ki, g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, s\u0259nd\u0259n n\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr?! H\u0259r ya\u011f\u0131\u015f damlas\u0131 s\u00f6z\u0259 \u00e7evrilmi\u015f bir ya\u015fant\u0131d\u0131r, o ya\u011f\u0131\u015f damlas\u0131 ki, \u00f6mr\u00fcn boyu fikrini islad\u0131b, hissini n\u0259m saxlay\u0131b, s\u0259ni quruma\u011fa, t\u00fck\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 qoymay\u0131b:<\/div>\n
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\u00a0Ax\u015famk\u0131 ya\u011f\u0131\u015fdan sonra<\/div>\n
\u00a0do\u011fan g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin istisin\u0259<\/div>\n
\u00a0boy ver\u0259c\u0259k yamya\u015f\u0131l otlar.<\/div>\n
\u00a0Torpa\u011f\u0131n ba\u011fr\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k,<\/div>\n
\u00a0ya\u015faya bil\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259rin\u0259<\/div>\n
\u00a0inanacaqlar,<\/div>\n
\u00a0aldanacaqlar…<\/div>\n
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\u00a0Kims\u0259 bilmir, s\u0259n kims\u0259n \u0259slind\u0259! \u015eeirini oxuyanlar, s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc dey\u0259nl\u0259r s\u0259ni yax\u015f\u0131 tan\u0131m\u0131rlar. Tan\u0131mayacaqlar da! Amma s\u0259n \u00fcz \u00e7evirmirs\u0259n s\u0259nd\u0259n \u00fcz \u00e7evir\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 d\u0259! Susursan, \u0259lin Tanr\u0131ya da \u00e7atm\u0131r, s\u0259ni \u00e7\u0259tin e\u015fidir:<\/div>\n
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\u00a0N\u0259 deyim s\u0259n\u0259, \u0130lahi,<\/div>\n
\u00a0n\u0259 deyim ki, e\u015fid\u0259s\u0259n?<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u018flimi nec\u0259 qald\u0131r\u0131m<\/div>\n
\u00a0\u0259limd\u0259n tuta bil\u0259s\u0259n?<\/div>\n
\u00a0K\u00f6ks\u00fcm\u00fcn alt qat\u0131nda<\/div>\n
\u00a0n\u0259l\u0259r yat\u0131r \u2013 g\u00f6rm\u00fcrl\u0259r, \u0130lahi!<\/div>\n
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\u00a0Ya\u011f\u0131\u015fdan quru \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131sansa, daha qorxusu yoxdu! \u00d6td\u00fc o g\u00fcnl\u0259r ki, s\u0259ni sev\u0259nl\u0259r bel\u0259 s\u0259ni s\u0259n ist\u0259diyin kimi anlam\u0131rd\u0131lar. \u0130ndi sevilm\u0259li ya\u015f\u0131nd\u0131, yeddi kitab\u0131n yol b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7in olub, h\u0259r add\u0131m\u0131n\u0131n, h\u0259r \u0259m\u0259linin s\u00f6zl\u0259 \u015f\u0259klini \u00e7\u0259kib, g\u00f6z ox\u015fay\u0131r. \u018fg\u0259r bu \u00f6m\u00fcr rahatl\u0131q, firavanl\u0131q i\u00e7ind\u0259 ke\u00e7s\u0259ydi, kims\u0259y\u0259 maraql\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259zdi. He\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259 xo\u015f g\u0259lm\u0259zdi, \u00e7\u00fcnki xa\u0131rlamal\u0131 bir \u015fey olmayacaqd\u0131. Amma indi s\u0259ni varaqlamaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m: V\u0259t\u0259n\u0259 a\u011f\u0131 dediyin g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 k\u00f6nl\u00fcnd\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259nl\u0259ri oxuyuram, m\u0259hb\u0259s d\u0259ft\u0259rini a\u00e7\u0131b t\u0259nhal\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u015f\u0259rqisin\u0259 \u00fcz tuturam v\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m, bu kitab\u0131n h\u0259r s\u0259hif\u0259sind\u0259 s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn boylan\u0131rsan, m\u0259n\u0259 s\u0259tir-s\u0259tir b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7ilik edib deyirs\u0259n:\u00a0Xo\u015f g\u0259ldin m\u0259nim yaln\u0131z m\u0259n\u0259 m\u0259xsus olan ya\u011f\u0131\u015fdan sonrak\u0131\u00a0d\u00fcnyama!<\/i><\/div>\n
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\u015eeir ya\u015fant\u0131d\u0131r, hans\u0131 hiss s\u0259ni t\u0259rp\u0259dirs\u0259, silk\u0259l\u0259yirs\u0259, onu \u015feir\u0259 g\u0259tirirs\u0259n. El\u0259 \u015feir var ki, yaz\u0131rsan, daxili narahatl\u0131qlar\u0131na son qoyur, bir s\u00f6zl\u0259, stress da\u011f\u0131d\u0131r. Misralar\u0131n\u0131n ilk hayq\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131 sevgid\u0259n do\u011fur. V\u00fcsaldan \u00e7ox hicran\u0131 olan sevgi! Hara \u00e7at\u0131r bu haray, s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc dediyin adam s\u0259ni e\u015fitmirs\u0259?! Bax onda \u015fair \u0259lini yell\u0259yib, “Eh, ayr\u0131l\u0131q, n\u0259 yamansan\u201d deyir. Ayr\u0131l\u0131q bitmir ki, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":6310,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[17,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12390"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=12390"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12390\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12392,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12390\/revisions\/12392"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/6310"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=12390"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=12390"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=12390"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}