{"id":12593,"date":"2019-04-14T00:49:11","date_gmt":"2019-04-13T19:49:11","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=12593"},"modified":"2019-04-14T00:49:11","modified_gmt":"2019-04-13T19:49:11","slug":"ceyhun%c9%99-mehman-kec%c9%99m-kuc%c9%99nizd%c9%99n-bir-payiz-gunu-ur%c9%99yin-surusub-ovcuna-dus%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=12593","title":{"rendered":"Ceyhun\u0259 Mehman – “Ke\u00e7\u0259m k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259nizd\u0259n bir pay\u0131z g\u00fcn\u00fc, \u00fcr\u0259yin s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, ovcuna d\u00fc\u015f\u0259”."},"content":{"rendered":"

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Bu ayr\u0131l\u0131q y\u00fck olurmu s\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259,<\/p>\n

\u018fzablar\u0131m sol \u00e7iynini \u0259yirmi?<\/p>\n

G\u00f6r\u0259n m\u0259ni bitir\u0259n bu suallar,<\/p>\n

S\u0259nin birc\u0259 cavab\u0131na d\u0259yirmi?!<\/p>\n

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N\u0259 dem\u0259dim, s\u0259n\u0259, “unut”, “ayr\u0131laq”,<\/p>\n

N\u0259 dem\u0259dim, “d\u0259li kimi sev m\u0259ni”.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6r\u0259n yen\u0259 t\u00f6vb\u0259 edib gec\u0259l\u0259r,<\/p>\n

G\u00fcnd\u00fczl\u0259ri pozursanmi t\u00f6vb\u0259ni?!<\/p>\n

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Fikirl\u0259rin qar\u0131\u015f\u0131rm\u0131 ara bir,<\/p>\n

X\u0259yallar\u0131n yen\u0259 duyuq d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrm\u00fc?!<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim burda itirdiyim yuxular,<\/p>\n

S\u0259nin orda yast\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 de\u015firmi?!<\/p>\n

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Qa\u00e7maq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn gec\u0259l\u0259ri kabusdan,<\/p>\n

Verirs\u0259nmi yuxularda n\u0259zir s\u0259n?!<\/p>\n

Bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n soyunurmu \u0259ksimi<\/p>\n

Yoxsa yen\u0259 ham\u0131da m\u0259n g\u0259zirs\u0259n?!<\/p>\n

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Bir u\u015faq \u0259l edir xatir\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n,<\/p>\n

El\u0259 uzaqlardan boylan\u0131r h\u0259rd\u0259n.<\/p>\n

M\u0259ni o u\u015fa\u011fa qaytar,\u0130lahi.<\/p>\n

O u\u015faq \u0259lind\u0259 bir ovuc dua,<\/p>\n

T\u0259k s\u0259n\u0259 boylanir, s\u0259n\u0259 \u0259l a\u00e7\u0131r,<\/p>\n

T\u00f6k\u00fcb \u0259t\u0259yind\u0259n \u00fcmidl\u0259rini<\/p>\n

Ya\u011fmura,r\u00fczgara qo\u015fulub,qa\u00e7\u0131r<\/p>\n

Yarpaqdan\u00a0 h\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc o evciyini,<\/p>\n

K\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259r da\u011f\u0131d\u0131b, yell\u0259r sovurub.<\/p>\n

Hardasa itirib g\u0259linciyini,<\/p>\n

U\u015faq yadda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qay\u011f\u0131lar yorub.<\/p>\n

M\u0259ni o u\u015fa\u011fa qaytar, \u0130lahi<\/p>\n

Qaytar tapa bilim g\u0259linciyini.<\/p>\n

Hardasa y\u0131x\u0131l\u0131b qanayib dizi<\/p>\n

Yaras\u0131n\u0131 sar\u0131b,bas\u0131m\u00a0 ba\u011fr\u0131ma,<\/p>\n

d\u00fcz\u0259ldim q\u0131r\u0131lan yell\u0259nc\u0259yini.<\/p>\n

B\u00fcz\u00fcb doda\u011f\u0131n\u0131, dinib, dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131r<\/p>\n

K\u00f6rp\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yini q\u0259h\u0259r bo\u011facaq.<\/p>\n

Y\u0131\u011f\u0131b g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 susduqlar\u0131n\u0131-<\/p>\n

H\u00f6nk\u00fcrs\u0259,<\/p>\n

g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n sell\u0259r ya\u011facaq.<\/p>\n

M\u0259ni o u\u015fa\u011fa qaytar,\u0130lahi,<\/p>\n

O u\u015faq g\u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 bax\u0131m d\u00fcnyaya<\/p>\n

Qa\u00e7may\u0131m h\u0259yata q\u0259m yem\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn.<\/p>\n

M\u0259ni o u\u015fa\u011fa qaytar, \u0130lahi.<\/p>\n

Bir d\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sm\u0259yim b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn.<\/p>\n

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Bilirs\u0259n, nec\u0259 olur,<\/p>\n

\u00fcr\u0259yi s\u0259ks\u0259k\u0259li<\/p>\n

g\u00f6zl\u0259ri a\u00e7\u0131q yatmaq?<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yinin s\u0259sind\u0259n,<\/p>\n

ya da \u00f6z n\u0259f\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

diksinib gec\u0259 yar\u0131,<\/p>\n

canb\u0259s\u0259r \u00fcmidl\u0259rl\u0259<\/p>\n

qa\u00e7maq qap\u0131ya sar\u0131…<\/p>\n

bilirs\u0259n nec\u0259 olur,<\/p>\n

Bil\u0259yinin yerin\u0259<\/p>\n

\u00fcmidl\u0259rini k\u0259sm\u0259k?<\/p>\n

b\u00fct\u00fcn x\u0259yallar\u0131n\u0131<\/p>\n

bir gec\u0259d\u0259 do\u011framaq…<\/p>\n

Yada sal\u0131b torpa\u011f\u0131n<\/p>\n

s\u0259nd\u0259n ald\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131,<\/p>\n

bilirs\u0259n ,nec\u0259 olur,<\/p>\n

\u00f6l\u00fcm \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131xmaq?<\/p>\n

q\u0259lbind\u0259 ki, \u00fcsyan\u0131<\/p>\n

duyan olmas\u0131n dey\u0259,<\/p>\n

saxta q\u0259h-q\u0259h\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259<\/p>\n

n\u0259 bilim, daha n\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259,<\/p>\n

\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 rol oynamaq.<\/p>\n

s\u0259n\u0259 aid olan\u0131<\/p>\n

bir su\u00e7 kimi gizl\u0259m\u0259k,<\/p>\n

\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n itgin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb,<\/p>\n

\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n firar etm\u0259k<\/p>\n

bilirs\u0259n, nec\u0259 olur?<\/p>\n

bilirs\u0259n, nec\u0259 olur,<\/p>\n

Q\u0259lbini yola salmaq<\/p>\n

\u00f6zg\u0259sinin k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcnd\u0259.<\/p>\n

Sonra…<\/p>\n

sonra birc\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fcn i\u00e7ind\u0259<\/p>\n

x\u0259yal\u0131n\u0131 bo\u015famaq.<\/p>\n

bilirs\u0259n, nec\u0259 olur,<\/p>\n

s\u0259ni s\u0259nsiz ya\u015famaq?<\/p>\n

bilirs\u0259n, nec\u0259 olur…?<\/p>\n

Bilmirs\u0259n… he\u00e7 bilm\u0259d\u0259…<\/p>\n

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Bir g\u00fcn din\u0259c\u0259k inan,<\/p>\n

q\u0259lbind\u0259 ki, a\u011fr\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

S\u0259ni incitm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k,<\/p>\n

Bu nax\u0259l\u0259f do\u011frular.<\/p>\n

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Bil\u0259nd\u0259 ki, \u0259n do\u011fma,<\/p>\n

\u0259n yax\u0131n, k\u0259sin yoxdur.<\/p>\n

Y\u0259ni intihar ets\u0259n,<\/p>\n

ipini k\u0259s\u0259n yoxdur.<\/p>\n

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Bil\u0259nd\u0259 ki, bu d\u00fcnya,<\/p>\n

H\u0259l\u0259 \u00e7ox d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n

Atmad\u0131\u011fin tilova,<\/p>\n

“Q\u0131z\u0131l bal\u0131q” d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n

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Bil\u0259nd\u0259 ki, s\u0259ninki,<\/p>\n

Yalquzaq t\u0259nhal\u0131\u011f\u0131.<\/p>\n

d\u0259ryaya atacaqsan<\/p>\n

O g\u00fcn q\u0131z\u0131l bal\u0131\u011f\u0131.<\/p>\n

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S\u0259ni incitm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k,<\/p>\n

i\u015fg\u0259nc\u0259l\u0259r z\u00fcl\u00fcml\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Adil\u0259\u015f\u0259c\u0259k inan,<\/p>\n

Ayr\u0131l\u0131qlar, \u00f6l\u00fcml\u0259r..<\/p>\n

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G\u00f6zl\u0259rin dolsa bel\u0259<\/p>\n

h\u00f6nk\u00fcr\u00fcb, susacaqsan.<\/p>\n

B\u00fct\u00fcn pe\u015fmanl\u0131qlar\u0131<\/p>\n

g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n qusacaqsan.<\/p>\n

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Tutacaq \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n<\/p>\n

ke\u00e7mi\u015fin \u0259sa kimi<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u0259kil\u0259c\u0259k \u00e7arm\u0131xa,<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yin “\u0130sa”kimi.<\/p>\n

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D\u0259yi\u015f\u0259 bilm\u0259dins\u0259,<\/p>\n

S\u0259n bu “a\u011f-qara” fonu<\/p>\n

Ba\u011flanacaq perdeler,<\/p>\n

Buda filimin sonu…<\/p>\n

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KE\u00c7\u018fM K\u00dc\u00c7\u018fN\u0130ZD\u018fN…<\/strong><\/p>\n

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Ke\u00e7\u0259m k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259nizd\u0259n bir q\u0131\u015f gec\u0259si,<\/p>\n

ya adi dost kimi, ya tan\u0131\u015f kimi.<\/p>\n

O gec\u0259 yuvandan perik d\u00fc\u015f\u0259s\u0259n,<\/p>\n

yuvas\u0131 da\u011f\u0131lan qaranqu\u015f kimi.<\/p>\n

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Bir “ah” \u00e7\u0259k\u0259s\u0259n ki, g\u00f6yl\u0259r al\u0131\u015fa,<\/p>\n

f\u0259ryad\u0131n d\u00fcnyan\u0131n ucuna d\u00fc\u015f\u0259.<\/p>\n

Ke\u00e7\u0259m k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259nizd\u0259n bir pay\u0131z g\u00fcn\u00fc,<\/p>\n

\u00fcr\u0259yin s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, ovcuna d\u00fc\u015f\u0259.<\/p>\n

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M\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259yi ad\u0259t ed\u0259s\u0259n,<\/p>\n

\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 sevimli bir “pe\u015f\u0259” kimi.<\/p>\n

Ke\u00e7\u0259m k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259nizd\u0259n bir yaz s\u0259h\u0259ri,<\/p>\n

boynunu b\u00fck\u0259s\u0259n b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 kimi.<\/p>\n

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B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcnahlar\u0131n yuyula o g\u00fcn,<\/p>\n

g\u00fcnah\u0131n olmaya, su\u00e7un olmaya.<\/p>\n

Soru\u015fam nec\u0259s\u0259n? – al\u0131\u015fa q\u0259lbin,<\/p>\n

“s\u0259nsiz\u0259m..!” dem\u0259y\u0259 g\u00fcc\u00fcn olmaya.<\/p>\n

Yaz\u0131ya 744 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

                    Bu ayr\u0131l\u0131q y\u00fck olurmu s\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259, \u018fzablar\u0131m sol \u00e7iynini \u0259yirmi? G\u00f6r\u0259n m\u0259ni bitir\u0259n bu suallar, S\u0259nin birc\u0259 cavab\u0131na d\u0259yirmi?!   N\u0259 dem\u0259dim, s\u0259n\u0259, “unut”, “ayr\u0131laq”, N\u0259 dem\u0259dim, “d\u0259li kimi sev m\u0259ni”. G\u00f6r\u0259n yen\u0259 t\u00f6vb\u0259 edib gec\u0259l\u0259r, G\u00fcnd\u00fczl\u0259ri pozursanmi t\u00f6vb\u0259ni?!   Fikirl\u0259rin qar\u0131\u015f\u0131rm\u0131 ara bir, X\u0259yallar\u0131n […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":12594,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[15,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12593"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=12593"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12593\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12595,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12593\/revisions\/12595"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/12594"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=12593"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=12593"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=12593"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}