{"id":12997,"date":"2019-09-20T12:58:34","date_gmt":"2019-09-20T07:58:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=12997"},"modified":"2020-06-28T17:23:49","modified_gmt":"2020-06-28T12:23:49","slug":"x%c9%99zangul-mocuz%c9%99y%c9%99-oxsar-h%c9%99qiq%c9%99t","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=12997","title":{"rendered":"X\u0259zang\u00fcl – “M\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259y\u0259 ox\u015far h\u0259qiq\u0259t”"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"11892138_1222222917804043_6910032793468251833_n\"<\/a>\u00dclk\u0259r qap\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259pikl\u0259 a\u00e7araq, quca\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131lar\u0131 evin ortas\u0131na t\u00f6kd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Ota\u011f\u0131n bir k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259, dizl\u0259rini qucaqlam\u0131\u015f anas\u0131na baxaraq g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di:<\/p>\n

– G\u00f6r n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r q\u0131j\u0131ltikan, yarp\u0131z, qulan\u00e7ar y\u0131\u011fm\u0131\u015fam. Bu d\u0259qiq\u0259 bi\u015firib yey\u0259rik.<\/p>\n

Ana m\u0259hzun bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 ona zill\u0259di. Z\u0259if s\u0259sl\u0259: – N\u0259 il\u0259 bi\u015fir\u0259k? Ax\u0131, he\u00e7 n\u0259yimiz yoxdur.<\/p>\n

\u00dclk\u0259r \u015fad bir halda: – Suyumuz ki, var. M\u0259n bu d\u0259qiq\u0259 haz\u0131rlaram.<\/p>\n

O, tez qazanda su qaynatd\u0131, q\u0131j\u0131ltikan\u0131 suya basd\u0131, p\u00f6\u015f\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015f g\u00f6y\u00fc s\u00fcz\u0259r\u0259k suyunu \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131, sonra duzlad\u0131. Bir par\u00e7a \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k g\u0259tirib anas\u0131n\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131na qoydu: – S\u0259n \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259kl\u0259 bunu ye, m\u0259n d\u0259 qulan\u00e7ar\u0131 odda bi\u015firim.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 bil \u00dclk\u0259rin sevinci, anaya siray\u0259t etdi. O, \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259 yem\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. \u00dclk\u0259r h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259 qulan\u00e7arlar\u0131 odda kabab ed\u0259r\u0259k, duzlay\u0131r, sevincl\u0259 anas\u0131n\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131na qoyurdu. Ana, ona baxd\u0131qca dir\u00e7\u0259lir, \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 Allaha \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr edirdi. “Allah s\u0259ni m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox g\u00f6rm\u0259sin q\u0131z\u0131m, allah s\u0259ni pis g\u00f6zd\u0259n, pis n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259n, z\u0259h\u0259r dild\u0259n, x\u0259yan\u0259tkar \u0259ld\u0259n saxlas\u0131n. S\u0259n olmasan, m\u0259n \u00f6l\u0259r\u0259m”.<\/p>\n

– Ana, doydun? – dey\u0259r\u0259k \u00dclk\u0259r anas\u0131n\u0131n dizl\u0259rin\u0259 q\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n

– H\u0259, s\u0259n d\u0259 ye, \u00dclk\u0259r balam.<\/p>\n

– M\u0259n doymu\u015fam, ana. \u00d6z\u00fcml\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm, yarp\u0131zla yey\u0259nd\u0259 bilirs\u0259n n\u0259 l\u0259zz\u0259tli olur? Yax\u015f\u0131, s\u0259n dinc\u0259l, m\u0259n getdim ba\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 bell\u0259m\u0259y\u0259.<\/p>\n

– \u00dclk\u0259r, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yorma bala. Onsuz da \u00e7ox ar\u0131qsan, \u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259rs\u0259n. El\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 yem\u0259yimiz yoxdur ki, s\u0259ni tox saxlas\u0131n. Atan bizi yaman yerd\u0259 t\u0259k qoydu. M\u0259n x\u0259st\u0259, s\u0259ns\u0259 d\u00fcn\u0259nki u\u015faq. Qohum-qon\u015fu da adama n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259l tutar? S\u0259n g\u0259r\u0259k \u0259mingild\u0259 qalma\u011fa raz\u0131 olayd\u0131n. Yen\u0259 vaxt\u0131-vaxt\u0131nda bir tik\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k tapard\u0131n. M\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 var, bu g\u00fcn, sabahl\u0131\u011fam.<\/p>\n

\u00dclk\u0259r x\u0259yalland\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259ri yol \u00e7\u0259kdi. Sanki \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yox, ona dedi. Biz ham\u0131dan yax\u015f\u0131 olaca\u011f\u0131q. M\u0259n s\u0259ni saxlayacam. Bu zaman, \u00dclk\u0259r, \u00dclk\u0259r ay bala evd\u0259s\u0259n – Dey\u0259n s\u0259s e\u015fidildi. Bu s\u0259sin dal\u0131nca qap\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. K\u00fcbra xala, \u0259lind\u0259 balaca bir qab i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi. Qab\u0131, anas\u0131na ver\u0259r\u0259k, \u00e7\u0259km\u0259c\u0259di ay G\u00fcls\u00fcm, ye – dedi. \u018fg\u0259r \u00dclk\u0259r bo\u015fsa, dedim bizim quzular\u0131 bir az \u00e7ay k\u0259nar\u0131nda h\u0259rl\u0259sin. U\u015faqlar\u0131n he\u00e7 biri evd\u0259 tap\u0131lm\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Yax\u015f\u0131, \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yini yesin g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259r\u0259m. Yubanma ha, dey\u0259r\u0259k K\u00fcbra xala getdi. G\u0259l birlikd\u0259 yey\u0259k q\u0131z\u0131m, \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 qut olsun. \u00dclk\u0259r yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. Balaca, dayaz qab\u0131n ortas\u0131nda qoyulan x\u00f6r\u0259y\u0259 baxd\u0131. Bu, onun qabaq-cadan veril\u0259n z\u0259hm\u0259t haqq\u0131 idi. K\u00f6n\u00fcls\u00fcz olaraq bir-iki qa\u015f\u0131q yedikd\u0259n sonra, doydum dey\u0259r\u0259k k\u0259nara \u00e7\u0259kildi.<\/p>\n

Di onda get q\u0131z\u0131m, K\u00fcbra xalan s\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259yir.<\/p>\n

Quzular sevincl\u0259 \u00dclk\u0259rin qaba\u011f\u0131nda oynaq-lay\u0131rd\u0131lar. \u00dclk\u0259r onlara baxd\u0131qca h\u0259zz al\u0131r, \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 \u00fclvi duy\u011fular oyan\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259yat x\u0259yal q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259l idi. H\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259f yam-ya\u015f\u0131l. D\u0259yirman \u00e7ay\u0131 sakit-sakit ax\u0131r v\u0259 el\u0259 bil ki, m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259li, ecazkar bir s\u0259sl\u0259 \u00e7ay n\u0259\u011fm\u0259si oxuyurdu. Bu n\u0259\u011fm\u0259d\u0259n \u00dclk\u0259rin q\u0259lbi riqq\u0259tl\u0259nir v\u0259 n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 bu riqq\u0259td\u0259n, duydu\u011fu l\u0259zz\u0259td\u0259n a\u011flamaq ist\u0259yirdi. \u00dclk\u0259r \u00e7ay\u0131n k\u0259nar\u0131nda oturub, heyr\u0259tl\u0259 ona tama\u015fa edirdi, onunla dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Bu gizli p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131lar onu ehtizaza g\u0259tirir, o, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc qu\u015f t\u0259k y\u00fcng\u00fcl hiss ed\u0259r\u0259k qanadlanmaq ist\u0259yirdi. Yox, yox o, art\u0131q bacarmayacaqd\u0131, atas\u0131 \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qada\u011fan etmi\u015fdi ki, m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n m\u00fcdd\u0259t oxumas\u0131n. Ax\u0131, atas\u0131 \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f q\u0131z oxumaz. Ancaq budu, o d\u00f6zm\u00fcr, q\u0259lbind\u0259ki, \u00fclvi, sirli hissl\u0259ri ifad\u0259 etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn oxumaq ist\u0259yirdi. Bird\u0259n el\u0259 bil ki, \u015f\u0259lal\u0259 canland\u0131, s\u0259s dal\u011fas\u0131 g\u00f6y\u00fcn yeddinci qat\u0131na yay\u0131ld\u0131. O oxuyurdu. Yer\u0259, g\u00f6y\u0259, \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259r\u0259, \u00e7aya, otard\u0131\u011f\u0131 quzulara, \u00e7ay k\u0259nar\u0131ndak\u0131 kol-koslara oxuyurdu. Oxuduqca, s\u0259si qu\u015f t\u0259k, qanad a\u00e7\u0131r, g\u00f6yd\u0259ki G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u0259 sar\u0131 u\u00e7urdu. O, oxuduqca sevincind\u0259n \u00fcf\u00fcq\u00fcn yanaqlar\u0131 q\u0131zard\u0131. S\u0259mada buludlar, bu q\u0131zart\u0131dan daha b\u0259yaz, daha g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fcl\u0259r. \u00c7ay \u00dclk\u0259rin oxumas\u0131na \u00f6z z\u00fcmz\u00fcm\u0259sil\u0259 s\u0259s verirdi.<\/p>\n

\u00dclk\u0259r oxuyurdu. Niy\u0259 h\u0259yat bel\u0259 sirli, sehirlidi ilahi, niy\u0259? Niy\u0259 yaranm\u0131\u015flar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi bir-birin\u0259 ox\u015fam\u0131r? \u00c7ay\u0131n \u00e7ay g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi, g\u00f6y\u00fcn g\u00f6y g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi, g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi, quzular\u0131n k\u00f6rp\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi, insan\u0131n insan g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi, otlar\u0131n ot g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi var. Onlar ayr\u0131-ayr\u0131l\u0131qda olsalar da, birlikd\u0259 daha g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrl\u0259r. Onun u\u015faq t\u0259x\u0259yy\u00fcl\u00fc bundan d\u0259rinl\u0259r\u0259 en\u0259 bilmir, \u0259traf\u0131 heyr\u0259tl\u0259 seyr ed\u0259r\u0259k oxuyurdu.<\/p>\n

Bird\u0259n n\u0259s\u0259 onu bir g\u00fccl\u00fc q\u00fcvv\u0259nin z\u0259hmi basd\u0131. El\u0259 bil yan b\u00f6yr\u00fcnd\u0259 kimins\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259sini hiss etdi. D\u0259rhal \u00e7\u00f6nd\u00fc v\u0259 yerind\u0259c\u0259 dondu. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, y\u00fczl\u0259rl\u0259 par\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 r\u0259ngl\u0259rin qar\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan don geymi\u015f bir ilan, yar\u0131 quyru\u011fu \u00fcst\u0259 q\u0131vr\u0131l\u0131b, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bir metr h\u00fcnd\u00fcrl\u00fckd\u0259 \u00fcf\u00fcqd\u0259n boylanan, h\u0259l\u0259 ki, yatmaq ist\u0259m\u0259y\u0259n g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin z\u0259if, q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 \u015f\u00fcalar\u0131, bu r\u0259ngl\u0259rin \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fckc\u0259, g\u00f6zqama\u015fd\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 r\u0259ngl\u0259rin, \u015f\u0259f\u0259ql\u0259ri oynayan g\u00f6zl\u0259ril\u0259, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 dik tutaraq \u00dclk\u0259r\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u00dclk\u0259r sanki, sehirl\u0259nmi\u015fdi, ilan\u0131n d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli g\u00f6z\u0259lliyinin qaba\u011f\u0131nda \u0259l-qolu ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. T\u0259rp\u0259n\u0259 bilmirdi. G\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi ki, ilan bu saat onu \u00e7alacaq. \u0130lan is\u0259 yerind\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259nmir, \u00dclk\u0259r\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131. Bird\u0259n ilan qo\u015fa, ha\u00e7a dilini \u00e7\u0131xararaq, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yar\u0131m q\u00f6vs \u015f\u0259kili il\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259r\u0259k yalmanma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 bil g\u00f6z\u0259g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259z bir q\u00fcvv\u0259 \u00dclk\u0259r\u0259 anlatd\u0131 ki, ilan onun oxumas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259yir. Bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ilan ona yalvar\u0131r. \u00dclk\u0259rin qorxusu \u00e7\u0259kildi v\u0259 o, yenid\u0259n oxuma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131, ilan o d\u0259qiq\u0259 sakitl\u0259\u015fdi. \u0130ndi \u00dclk\u0259r daha \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n oxuyur, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 he\u00e7 k\u0259sin a\u011fl\u0131na s\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131ra bilm\u0259diyi, el\u0259 t\u0259bii z\u0259ngul\u0259l\u0259r vururdu ki, bu z\u0259ngul\u0259l\u0259rin t\u0259sirind\u0259n adam a\u011flamaq ist\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n

Bird\u0259n, hardansa ay q\u0131z ay \u00dclk\u0259r, quzular xalx\u0131n yerin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ax\u0131, g\u00f6rm\u00fcrs\u0259n? – dey\u0259n s\u0259s ucald\u0131. \u00dclk\u0259r t\u0259la\u015fla aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b quzular t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 boyland\u0131 v\u0259 h\u0259min an ilan yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u00c7\u00f6nd\u00fc, ilan yerind\u0259 yox idi.<\/p>\n

II<\/p>\n

O vaxtdan ne\u00e7\u0259 ill\u0259r ke\u00e7mi\u015f, \u00dclk\u0259r b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f, duzlu bir g\u00f6z\u0259l\u0259 \u00e7evrilmi\u015fdi. Onun badam\u0131, uzunsov, gur kiprikli g\u00f6zl\u0259rin qurulu\u015fu, m\u0259sumlu\u011fu il\u0259 k\u00f6rp\u0259 c\u00fcy\u00fcr g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. Uca qam\u0259tli, inc\u0259 beli, r\u0259ssamlar\u0131n \u00e7\u0259kdiyi miniatur g\u00f6z\u0259ll\u0259ri xat\u0131rlad\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259, sehirli bir i\u015f\u0131q yan\u0131r, b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259sini i\u015f\u0131qland\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Bu anlarda onun g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 bax\u0131b, sars\u0131lmamaq b\u00f6y\u00fck h\u00fcn\u0259r t\u0259l\u0259b edirdi. Bu is\u0259 insan q\u00fcvv\u0259sind\u0259n xaric idi.<\/p>\n

O, indi t\u0259s\u0259rr\u00fcfatda i\u015fl\u0259yir, anas\u0131 G\u00fcls\u00fcm\u00fc saxlay\u0131rd\u0131. Ana da art\u0131q qap\u0131-bacada h\u0259rl\u0259nirdi.<\/p>\n

\u00dclk\u0259ri indi ba\u015fqa al\u0259m c\u0259zb ets\u0259 d\u0259, o g\u00fcn\u00fc, ilanla g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc g\u00fcn\u00fc he\u00e7 vaxt yad\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xara bilmirdi.<\/p>\n

H\u0259rd\u0259n ilan yuxusuna girir, d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi il\u0259 onu sars\u0131d\u0131r, b\u0259z\u0259n d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn x\u0259yal q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rladan bir cavana \u00e7evrilir ona xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik, u\u011furlu g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259d edirdi.<\/p>\n

\u00dclk\u0259r q\u0259lbi il\u0259 t\u0259k idi, x\u0259yallar\u0131 idi onun h\u0259md\u0259mi. B\u0259z\u0259n x\u0259yallar\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n qurtulanda, kas\u0131b otaqlar\u0131nda t\u0259k qalanda \u00f6z h\u0259zin \u00fcr\u0259k n\u0259\u011fm\u0259l\u0259rini k\u00f6m\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 h\u0259min anlar\u0131n birind\u0259, \u00dclk\u0259r h\u0259zin, k\u00f6vr\u0259k bir k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259 oxuyanda, otaqda onu bir h\u0259nirti ald\u0131. O, h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 boyland\u0131, he\u00e7 n\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259di. Yen\u0259 oxuma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Ancaq hiss etdi ki, s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259ri eym\u0259nir. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b tavana baxd\u0131 v\u0259 qurudu. T\u0259bii qar\u011f\u0131larla \u00f6rt\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f tavan\u0131n ne\u00e7\u0259 yeri \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcb t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcr. O yerl\u0259rin birind\u0259, ne\u00e7\u0259 il bundan qabaq g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc ilan ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 uzadaraq ona bax\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u00dclk\u0259r q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rmaq ist\u0259di, s\u0259si \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131. Bir t\u0259h\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 alaraq e\u015fiy\u0259 qa\u00e7d\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc qap\u0131da h\u0259rl\u0259n\u0259n G\u00fcls\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 sald\u0131. Ana, ilan – dey\u0259 bildi.<\/p>\n

Anas\u0131 t\u0259la\u015fla onu \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Han\u0131?<\/p>\n

– Evd\u0259, otaqda tavanda.<\/p>\n

– Ola bilm\u0259z.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcls\u00fcm qorxa-qorxa i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi v\u0259 bir azdan s\u0259si g\u0259ldi.<\/p>\n

– B\u0259s, han\u0131 ay q\u0131z. Yoxsa yuxu g\u00f6rm\u00fcs\u0259n. \u00dclk\u0259r ehtiyatla i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7ib, tavana baxd\u0131, ilan yox idi.<\/p>\n

– Yox, yox, m\u0259n g\u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, odey tavan\u0131n aras\u0131ndan bax\u0131rd\u0131. U\u015faq vaxt\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm ilan idi.<\/p>\n

– N\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm ilan, hans\u0131 ilan? N\u0259 say\u0131qlay\u0131rsan?<\/p>\n

\u00dclk\u0259r, h\u0259r \u015feyi anas\u0131na dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ana fikirli-fikirli<\/p>\n

– Qorxma, ilan s\u0259nin s\u0259sin\u0259 vurulub, ondan biz\u0259 x\u0259ta t\u00f6r\u0259m\u0259z. Bir oxu g\u00f6r\u00fcm, b\u0259lk\u0259 yen\u0259 g\u0259ldi.<\/p>\n

\u00dclk\u0259r oxuma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. G\u00fcls\u00fcm tavana \u00dclk\u0259r g\u00f6st\u0259rdiyi yer\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131. He\u00e7 n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bird\u0259n G\u00fcls\u00fcm k\u00fcnc t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 baxd\u0131 v\u0259 h\u0259min anda bo\u011faz\u0131 qurudu. Tavan\u0131n k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259ki tir\u0259 sar\u0131laraq he\u00e7 vaxt g\u00f6rm\u0259diyi, e\u015fitm\u0259diyi, g\u00f6z qama\u015fd\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 g\u00f6rk\u0259mil\u0259 bir ilan ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131raraq \u00dclk\u0259r\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00fcls\u00fcm \u0259lini uzadaraq \u00dclk\u0259ri silk\u0259l\u0259di v\u0259 \u0259lil\u0259 ilan\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259rdi. O, s\u0259sini k\u0259sdi. Bu an ilan dilini \u00e7\u0131xararaq yalmanma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Oxu q\u0131z\u0131m, o, s\u0259nin oxuma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259yir. \u00dclk\u0259r oxuma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. \u0130lan sakitl\u0259\u015fdi. \u00dclk\u0259r xeyli oxuduqdan sonra dayand\u0131. \u0130lan sivril\u0259r\u0259k qar\u011f\u0131lar\u0131n aras\u0131nda yox oldu.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcls\u00fcml\u0259, \u00dclk\u0259r rahat n\u0259f\u0259s alaraq bir-birl\u0259rin\u0259 baxd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 bu vaxt qoca bir arvad, qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7araq i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi. \u00dclk\u0259rin sif\u0259ti s\u0259rt k\u00f6rk\u0259m ald\u0131. Onun Nazl\u0131 qar\u0131dan xo\u015fu g\u0259lmirdi. O vaxt, bu vaxt ha\u00e7an g\u0259ldi, onlar\u0131n kas\u0131b g\u00fcz\u0259ranlar\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015flar\u0131na \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131r, qanlar\u0131n\u0131 qarald\u0131rd\u0131. O, yen\u0259 d\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259n kimi ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Siz\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n kimi damarlar\u0131mda qan\u0131m donur. Bel\u0259 d\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131\u015f olar? Bel\u0259 d\u0259 ev olar? H\u0259r yan y\u0131rt\u0131q, s\u00f6k\u00fck. Aaz, insan deyilsiz? Bu n\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fc, bu n\u0259 g\u00fcz\u0259rand\u0131? Xalx\u0131n adama ox\u015famazlar\u0131 ya\u011f i\u00e7ind\u0259 b\u00f6yr\u0259k kimi b\u0259sl\u0259nir. Bu c\u00fcr su sonas\u0131 kimi q\u0131z bu y\u0131rt\u0131q evin k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259 \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcr. O dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qca \u00dclk\u0259r r\u0259ng verib, r\u0259ng al\u0131r, di\u015fi ba\u011f\u0131rsa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sirdi.<\/p>\n

Q\u0259fl\u0259t\u0259n onun a\u011fl\u0131na n\u0259s\u0259 g\u0259ldi, q\u0131m\u0131\u015faraq oxuma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Qar\u0131 s\u0259sini k\u0259s\u0259r\u0259k ona baxd\u0131 v\u0259 yenid\u0259n donquldanma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Eehh, bunun n\u0259 eynin\u0259 xalx\u0131n q\u0131zlar\u0131 ail\u0259 qurub, ev, e\u015fik sahibi olublar, bu da h\u0259l\u0259 oxuyur.<\/p>\n

\u00dclk\u0259r onu silk\u0259l\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259sdi, oxuya-oxuya \u0259lil\u0259 tavan\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259rdi. Nazl\u0131 qar\u0131 ayaq \u00fcst\u0259 dayana bilm\u0259yib dizi \u00fcst\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc v\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259-s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259 bir t\u0259h\u0259r bay\u0131ra \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bay\u0131rdan onun, – ay camaat k\u00f6m\u0259k edin – s\u0259si e\u015fidildi. G\u00fcls\u00fcm il\u0259 \u00dclk\u0259r g\u00fcld\u00fcl\u0259r. Bir azdan bir ne\u00e7\u0259 qon\u015fu il\u0259 birlikd\u0259 Nazl\u0131 qar\u0131 i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi v\u0259 tavan\u0131 onlara g\u00f6st\u0259rdi. O dey, bax, orada idi, \u0259jdaha boyda ilan idi. S\u00f6k\u00fcn, da\u011f\u0131d\u0131n, tap\u0131n, \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcn – dedi.<\/p>\n

\u00dclk\u0259r g\u00fcl\u0259r\u0259k, n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan Ay Nazl\u0131 n\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 ilan, y\u0259qin g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcb?<\/p>\n

– Aaz, s\u0259n \u0259linl\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259din?<\/p>\n

– Yox, \u0259\u015fi ilan n\u0259 g\u0259zirdi?<\/p>\n

– Ay allah, ay q\u0131z ax\u0131, ilan\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 s\u0259n g\u00f6st\u0259rdin?<\/p>\n

– M\u0259n ilan g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– Daha s\u0259n\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcm yoxdur. Sizd\u0259n qorxmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r. Siz g\u0259r\u0259k bu saat hay-k\u00fcy salayd\u0131n\u0131z. Atalar\u0131n m\u0259s\u0259lidir. \u0130lan\u0131n a\u011f\u0131na da, qaras\u0131na da l\u0259n\u0259t. Yox, yox, sizd\u0259 \u015feytan i\u015fi var. Qon\u015fular sirli-sirli bir-birinin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 bax\u0131b, \u00e7iyinl\u0259rini \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r\u0259k da\u011f\u0131l\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

\u00dclk\u0259rin ecazkar, qaynar v\u0259 s\u0259mimi s\u0259sinin sora\u011f\u0131 h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 yay\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. El aras\u0131nda s\u00f6z g\u0259zirdi ki, onun s\u0259si h\u0259tta ilan\u0131 bel\u0259 ovsunlay\u0131r. K\u0259ndin v\u0259 ba\u015fqa qon\u015fu k\u0259ndl\u0259rin cavanlar\u0131n da \u00dclk\u0259r\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 h\u00f6rm\u0259t v\u0259 gizli bir maraq oyanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Onun s\u0259sini, h\u0259tta azac\u0131q z\u00fcmz\u00fcm\u0259sini e\u015fitm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc oda-k\u00f6z\u0259 vuranlar var idi. Bununla birlikd\u0259 onun s\u00f6z\u00fc-s\u00f6hb\u0259ti k\u0259ndin qeyb\u0259t q\u0131ran, ara arvadlar\u0131n\u0131n da dilind\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bir d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcn \u00dclk\u0259r onlar\u0131n yan\u0131ndan ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259, ona atmaca at\u0131r, \u015f\u0259b\u0259d\u0259 qo\u015furdular.<\/p>\n

– B\u0131y az bu \u015fah o\u011flu \u015fah Abbas\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131 kimi yeriy\u0259n o dil\u0259n\u00e7i, dul G\u00fcls\u00fcm\u00fcn yetim\u00e7\u0259si deyilmi?<\/p>\n

– S\u0259n allah, y\u0259ni bu cavanlar\u0131n yuxusunu \u0259lind\u0259n alan, ilan ovsunlayan q\u0131zd\u0131r?<\/p>\n

– Yax\u015f\u0131 az, qoy oturaq, bu kifirin n\u0259yi cavanlar\u0131 d\u0259rd\u0259 sal\u0131r. Adic\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrl\u0259r ki, yiy\u0259siz \u015feydi, istifad\u0259 etm\u0259k ist\u0259yirl\u0259r<\/p>\n

– Az, a balam n\u0259yiniz var, n\u0259 ist\u0259yirsiniz qoyun xalx\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6z yolunnan getsin v\u0259 s. bu kimi s\u00f6zl\u0259r \u00dclk\u0259rin heysiyy\u0259tin\u0259 toxunur, daxilind\u0259n ac\u0131 t\u00fcst\u00fc kimi ke\u00e7\u0259n n\u0259 is\u0259 bo\u011faz\u0131na toplan\u0131r, dilini qovu\u015fdurub a\u011fz\u0131nda k\u00f6s\u00f6v edirdi. Onun pislikl\u0259rd\u0259n uzaq, t\u0259miz q\u0259lbi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 olan bu m\u00fcnasib\u0259ti ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcr, hardasa b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131n g\u00fcnah\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. Y\u0259qin m\u0259nim h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rim y\u00fcng\u00fclsayaqd\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 bilm\u0259d\u0259n s\u0259hv h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t edir\u0259m. Y\u0259qin o g\u00fcn\u00fc toyda, o cavana gizlic\u0259 baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 duyublar? Deyirl\u0259r ki, yetim\u00e7\u0259nin k\u00f6nl\u00fcnd\u0259n g\u00f6r kiml\u0259r ke\u00e7ir. Ah, m\u0259n n\u0259 pis q\u0131zam, dey\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 divan qururdu.<\/p>\n

Bu zaman o, tamamil\u0259 daxilin\u0259 qapan\u0131r, adamlardan uzaq qa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131. Arzusunu, ist\u0259yini, naraz\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, f\u0259ryad\u0131n\u0131 n\u0259\u011fm\u0259sin\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259yib, bununla \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lli tap\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Dan yeri yenic\u0259 s\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr. S\u0259h\u0259r gec\u0259nin qoynundan \u00e7\u0131xma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. \u00dclk\u0259r \u00fcr\u0259yinin n\u0259\u011fm\u0259sinin s\u0259sin\u0259 oyand\u0131. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc ki, el\u0259 indi gedim t\u00fct\u00fcn d\u0259rim. Camaat g\u0259l\u0259n\u0259d\u0259k xeyli y\u0131\u011faram. B\u0259lk\u0259 bu yay xeyli pul toplay\u0131b, evimizi qaydaya sald\u0131raq. G\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131na r\u0259ngl\u0259nmi\u015f, s\u0259liq\u0259li evl\u0259ri g\u0259ldi. Bu x\u0259yal\u0131n sevinciyl\u0259 aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131 v\u0259 bir azdan t\u00fct\u00fcn sah\u0259sin\u0259 yolland\u0131. \u00dclk\u0259r b\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla yuxudan yenic\u0259 oyanan t\u0259bi\u0259tin g\u00f6z\u0259lliyini, t\u0259mizliyini duyurdu. O, add\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131 atd\u0131qca c\u0131\u011f\u0131rlarda bit\u0259n kol-koslar, otlar onun ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 qucaqlay\u0131r, sevinc ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 ayaqlar\u0131na t\u00f6k\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. Bu t\u0259masdan \u00dclk\u0259r diksinir, b\u0259d\u0259nind\u0259n soyuq ri\u015f\u0259 ke\u00e7ir, o h\u0259yacanlan\u0131r, k\u00f6nl\u00fcnd\u0259 riqq\u0259tli duy\u011fular oyan\u0131rd\u0131. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bu an\u0131n ke\u00e7irdiyi hissl\u0259r uzun, yuxulu \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u0259rin ham\u0131s\u0131na b\u0259rab\u0259r idi.<\/p>\n

O, t\u00fct\u00fcn sah\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131, bir azca nimda\u015f, t\u0259miz paltarlar\u0131n\u0131 t\u00fct\u00fcn sah\u0259sind\u0259n qorumaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n k\u00f6hn\u0259, yamaql\u0131 paltar geydi, sa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 yayl\u0131qa m\u00f6hk\u0259m-m\u00f6hk\u0259m sar\u0131d\u0131. Sah\u0259y\u0259 girib t\u00fct\u00fcn d\u0259rm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. O, \u015fir\u0259li, sar\u0131mt\u0131l-ya\u015f\u0131l t\u00fct\u00fcn yarpaqlar\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259rdi\u015fan\u0259 bir h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259 d\u0259rdikc\u0259 qeyri-m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n, sehirl\u0259 bir musiqi ritmi yaran\u0131r, onun s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259rini oynad\u0131rd\u0131. \u015eaq-\u015faq, \u015f\u0131q-\u015f\u0131q, \u015f\u0131q-\u015faq, \u015faq-\u015faraq.<\/p>\n

\u00dclk\u0259r bu ritm\u0259 uy\u011fun oxuma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Oxuya-oxuya, i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259-i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259 \u00f6z d\u00fcnyas\u0131na qap\u0131ld\u0131. O d\u00fcnyaya ki, orda n\u0259 pax\u0131ll\u0131q, n\u0259 riyakarl\u0131q, n\u0259 d\u0259 yalana yer var idi. O d\u00fcnyaya ki, o d\u00fcnya da d\u00fcny\u0259vi arzular qol-qanad a\u00e7\u0131b g\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259 s\u00fcz\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u0130nsan\u0131 ya\u015fama\u011fa, yaratma\u011fa, yax\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011fa s\u0259sl\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n

Bird\u0259n b\u00f6yr\u00fcnd\u0259 \u015f\u0131qq\u0131lt\u0131 e\u015fitdi. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259ndd\u0259 birinci nifr\u0259t el\u0259diyi, ona pis n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259ril\u0259 g\u00f6z verib, i\u015f\u0131q verm\u0259y\u0259n yek\u0259p\u0259r, nataraz g\u00f6vd\u0259li Nadirin qollar\u0131 aras\u0131nda g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Az qald\u0131 \u00fcr\u0259yi partlas\u0131n, \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131, qurtara bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yini g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259, q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rmaq ist\u0259di. Yek\u0259p\u0259rin kobud \u0259ll\u0259ri a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 qapad\u0131. O, nifr\u0259t el\u0259diyi bu qollar\u0131n aras\u0131nda \u0259zabla \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131. Qollar getdikc\u0259, k\u0259lb\u0259tin kimi onu s\u0131x\u0131r, ayaqlar\u0131 yerd\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. O, nifr\u0259t el\u0259diyi bu adama yalvarma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

– M\u0259nim ism\u0259tim\u0259 toxunma, yalvar\u0131ram. M\u0259ni m\u0259hv etm\u0259.<\/p>\n

Cavab \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 onu iyr\u0259ndir\u0259n t\u0259maslar al\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u00dclk\u0259r \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131na-\u00e7\u0131rp\u0131na heyd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc hiss edir, g\u00fccs\u00fczl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259rk etdikc\u0259 bu iyr\u0259nc m\u0259xluqa daha da nifr\u0259t edirdi. Bird\u0259n yek\u0259p\u0259r Nadir v\u0259h\u015fi bir b\u00f6y\u00fcrt\u00fc il\u0259 onu qollar\u0131 aras\u0131ndan buraxd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u00dclk\u0259r, canavar \u0259lind\u0259n qurtarm\u0131\u015f kimi geri s\u0131\u00e7ray\u0131b qa\u00e7maq ist\u0259rk\u0259n, qorxu dolu iniltiy\u0259 geri \u00e7evrildi. G\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259 onu sars\u0131td\u0131.<\/p>\n

Onun s\u0259sinin vur\u011funu olan h\u0259min ilan, yek\u0259p\u0259r Nadirin b\u0259d\u0259nin\u0259 dolan\u0131b, onu s\u0131x\u0131r, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 dik tutub d\u00fcz onun g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 baxaraq, ha\u00e7a dilini ac\u0131qla oynad\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u00dclk\u0259r donub qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Nadir yalvar\u0131\u015fla, qorxu dolu g\u00f6zl\u0259rini ona zill\u0259yib, imdad dil\u0259yirdi. Bu an hiss el\u0259di ki, bir azdan Nadirin son n\u0259f\u0259sidir. O, bu fikird\u0259n diksin\u0259r\u0259k g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131yla, ilana yalvarma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Burax bu heyvan\u0131, ay Allah\u0131n insan ilan\u0131. S\u0259n \u00f6z h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tinl\u0259 insana, bu nataraz is\u0259 \u00f6z h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259til\u0259 canavara ox\u015fay\u0131r. Burax onu, Allah xatirin\u0259, qoy \u00f6z \u0259m\u0259li \u00f6z ba\u015f\u0131nda \u00e7atlas\u0131n. O \u00f6ls\u0259, m\u0259n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 onun \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00fcnahkar hiss ed\u0259c\u0259m. Burax,… burax… \u00dclk\u0259r h\u00f6nk\u00fcrt\u00fc il\u0259 a\u011flama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. \u0130lan yava\u015f-yava\u015f Nadirin b\u0259d\u0259nind\u0259n s\u0131yr\u0131l\u0131b d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc v\u0259 Nadirin iki add\u0131ml\u0131\u011f\u0131nda quyru\u011fu \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 dik\u0259ldib, b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi il\u0259 ona bax\u0131b, meydan oxuma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Nadir dal-dal\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259r\u0259k, bird\u0259n qa\u00e7d\u0131 v\u0259 briqadir R\u00fcst\u0259ml\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Ay\u0259, a xalas\u0131 g\u00f6y\u00e7\u0259k, n\u0259 yaman h\u0259yacanl\u0131san, s\u0259h\u0259rin g\u00f6z\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f burda n\u0259 veyill\u0259nirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

Nadir cavab verm\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k, s\u00fcr\u0259tli add\u0131mlarla ir\u0259lil\u0259di. Onun bu hal\u0131ndan \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259y\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n R\u00fcst\u0259m at\u0131n\u0131n belin\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b sah\u0259y\u0259 boyland\u0131. \u00dclk\u0259rin heysiz torpaq \u00fcst\u0259 oturmas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb, bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fcy\u00fcnl\u0259di. Bir az fikirl\u0259\u015fdikd\u0259n sonra, ikrahla a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fcz\u0259r\u0259k \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0131za sar\u0131 – tfu s\u0259nin qeyr\u0259tin\u0259 dedi.<\/p>\n

O g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra \u00dclk\u0259rin g\u00fcn\u00fc qara geydi. Bu qara paltarl\u0131 g\u00fcn \u00dclk\u0259rin \u00fcr\u0259yini s\u0131x\u0131r, onu g\u00fcnahland\u0131r\u0131r d\u00fcnya g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 qaral\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Dedi-qodular, qeyb\u0259tl\u0259r qol-qanad a\u00e7\u0131b onun ba\u015f\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 h\u0259rl\u0259nirdi.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131zlar onu g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 bir-birin\u0259 g\u00f6z vururaq deyirdil\u0259r: M\u0259n, oba\u015fdan t\u00fct\u00fcn y\u0131\u011fma\u011f\u0131 sevir\u0259m, \u00e7\u00fcnki onda he\u00e7 bir \u015fahid, filan olmur – s\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00dclk\u0259rin q\u0259lbini da\u011f-da\u011f edir, haldan-hala sal\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

O, adamlar\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r, bu adamlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00fcnaha batm\u0131\u015f, nat\u0259miz hesab edirdi.<\/p>\n

B\u0259li, o l\u0259k\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015fdi. Nataraz Nadir onu qucaqlam\u0131\u015f, murdar n\u0259f\u0259si \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yalay\u0131b murdarlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259r onun q\u0259lbini yorur, i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259n oyulurdu. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcn gizli d\u00fcnyas\u0131nda \u0259zizl\u0259diyi o cavan\u0131n x\u0259yal\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 qonaq g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 diksinir v\u0259 o x\u0259yal\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131nda x\u0259cal\u0259tind\u0259n duz kimi \u0259riyirdi. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ona layiq olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla duyurdu, g\u0259r\u0259k o, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc qoruyayd\u0131. Ax\u0131, n\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 ehtiyat\u0131 \u0259ld\u0259n verib, t\u0259k t\u0259nha t\u00fct\u00fcn sah\u0259sin\u0259 yolland\u0131. N\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259? Dem\u0259li, o yelbeyindir, a\u011f\u0131ls\u0131zd\u0131r. O, t\u0259mizliyini qoruya bilm\u0259di. Bu anda o xilaskar \u00f6l\u00fcm haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr, anas\u0131 G\u00fcls\u00fcm\u00fcn yetim bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc qovurdu. \u00dclk\u0259r na\u0259lac halda \u0259lil\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc tutaraq h\u00f6nk\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc. A\u011flaya-a\u011flaya d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, Allah\u0131n ilan\u0131 da daha onun g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcr. \u0130lan da onu ba\u011f\u0131\u015flaya bilmir.<\/p>\n

\u00dclk\u0259r bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259r i\u00e7ind\u0259 qovrulark\u0259n nataraz Nadir d\u0259 rahatl\u0131q bilmirdi, bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259 a\u011fu\u015funda \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nan b\u0259d\u0259ninin g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi oda d\u00f6n\u0259r\u0259k yor\u011fan-d\u00f6\u015f\u0259yin\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr, onu s\u0259h\u0259r\u0259d\u0259k yatma\u011fa qoymurdu. Bu hissl\u0259rin qaba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ilan\u0131n z\u0259hmi d\u0259 ala bilmirdi.<\/p>\n

O, bu hissl\u0259rin \u0259lind\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc hiss ed\u0259r\u0259k \u00dclk\u0259rgil\u0259 el\u00e7i g\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259yi q\u0259rara ald\u0131.<\/p>\n

El\u00e7il\u0259r minn\u0259t qoya-qoya G\u00fcls\u00fcm arvada dedil\u0259r: O\u011flumuz deyir ki, ad\u0131m\u0131z \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, qoy can\u0131m\u0131z da bir yerd\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xs\u0131n.<\/p>\n

\u00dclk\u0259r d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259ldi. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc sanki, \u0259jdahan\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda hiss etdi. Yox, yox, o, \u00f6lm\u0259y\u0259 raz\u0131d\u0131r, ancaq Nadirin arvad\u0131 olma\u011fa yox.<\/p>\n

Anas\u0131 G\u00fcls\u00fcm ilan dili \u00e7\u0131xararaq ona yalvarma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. O, m\u00fctl\u0259q bu i\u015f\u0259 raz\u0131 olmal\u0131d\u0131 ki, bu pis ad \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcls\u00fcn. Onda G\u00fcls\u00fcm d\u0259 elin dinaz\u0131ndan qurtarar, n\u0259v\u0259 sahibi olar. \u00d6l\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 o d\u00fcnyaya rahat ged\u0259r. N\u0259hay\u0259t, o, \u00dclk\u0259ri raz\u0131 sala bildi.<\/p>\n

Toya haz\u0131rl\u0131q gedirdi. \u00dclk\u0259r ni\u015fanland\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcnd\u0259n ta indiy\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r lal kimi h\u0259rl\u0259nir, m\u00fck\u0259dd\u0259r bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 dil deyib a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. Art\u0131q \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra, d\u00fcnyada \u0259n \u00e7ox nifr\u0259t el\u0259diyi adam\u0131n arvad\u0131 olacaq. Onun b\u0259dheyb\u0259t sif\u0259tin\u0259 baxa-baxa yuxuya ged\u0259c\u0259k, s\u0259h\u0259r ay\u0131lan kimi yen\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259ri ilk d\u0259f\u0259 ona baxacaqd\u0131r. O, d\u0259rdin a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 alt\u0131nda inl\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilm\u0259d\u0259n d\u0259yirman \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131n k\u0259nar\u0131na g\u0259ldi.<\/p>\n

\u00c7ay\u0131n n\u0259\u011fm\u0259si ona, \u015fikay\u0259t dolu f\u0259ryad kimi g\u0259ldi. Nec\u0259 ki, d\u00fcn\u0259n onu Nadir qollar\u0131 aras\u0131na alanda, onunda \u00fcr\u0259yi bel\u0259 f\u0259ryad \u00e7\u0259kirdi. G\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131, bulud qaralm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 damc\u0131 ya\u011f\u0131\u015f d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc ki, bu, m\u0259nim g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131md\u0131r, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n torpa\u011f\u0131na, da\u015f\u0131na t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr. O, bu h\u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n s\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 d\u00fcnyan\u0131n e\u015fitm\u0259diyi bir k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259 oxuma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u00d6ld\u00fcrd\u00fc bu q\u0259m, haray,
\n\u00d6l\u00fcr\u0259m, al\u0259m, haray.
\nG\u00f6r\u0259n qism\u0259t olarm\u0131,
\n\u00dcr\u0259kd\u0259n g\u00fcl\u0259m, haray.<\/p>\n

Ba\u011f\u00e7ada g\u00fcl\u00fcm soldu,
\nOd tutan k\u00fcl\u00fcm oldu,
\nM\u0259n g\u00f6yl\u0259ri ist\u0259dim,
\nAyaqda kilim oldum.<\/p>\n

Onun b\u0259nz\u0259rsiz, d\u0259rdl\u0259, \u0259l\u0259ml\u0259 suvar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f s\u0259si, qol, qanad a\u00e7araq, elin ba\u015f\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 \u00e7a\u011flad\u0131. \u0130nsanlar bu s\u0259si e\u015fid\u0259r\u0259k yerl\u0259rind\u0259 dondular. Bu s\u0259s onlar\u0131n iliyin\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259di. Bu anlarda ham\u0131 anlad\u0131 ki, bu s\u0259s, bu s\u0259sin yiy\u0259si t\u0259bi\u0259t t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n yarad\u0131lan m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259di.<\/p>\n

\u00c7ay\u0131n k\u0259nar\u0131nda kol dibind\u0259 gizl\u0259n\u0259n ilan, bu s\u0259sin m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259sind\u0259n tir-tir \u0259sirdi. \u00dclk\u0259r oxuyurdu:<\/p>\n

N\u0259 tez a\u015f\u0131kar oldum
\nOv\u00e7uya \u015fikar oldum.
\nM\u0259n neyl\u0259dim d\u00fcnyaya
\nBel\u0259 g\u00fcnahkar oldum.<\/p>\n

Bu s\u0259sin haray\u0131, \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 \u00dclk\u0259rin m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tini qoruyan cavan\u0131n da qula\u011f\u0131na doldu. O, s\u00f6z a\u00e7a bilm\u0259diyin\u0259, gecikdiyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc danlaya-danlaya o s\u0259sin haray\u0131na u\u00e7du. \u00dclk\u0259rin on add\u0131ml\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, kol dal\u0131nda diz \u00e7\u00f6k\u0259r\u0259k, bu s\u0259sin haray\u0131 il\u0259 birg\u0259 gizlic\u0259 g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 t\u00f6kd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u018fzizim q\u0259md\u0259 qald\u0131
\nDil susdu b\u0259md\u0259 qald\u0131,
\nAy x\u0259b\u0259rsiz sevgilim,
\nE\u015fqin q\u0259lbimd\u0259 qald\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bu zaman \u00dclk\u0259r b\u00fct\u00fcn q\u0259lbiyl\u0259 nifr\u0259t etdiyi adam\u0131n nataraz add\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131n yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 duydu. Onun yax\u0131nla\u015fmas\u0131na imkan verm\u0259d\u0259n, h\u0259yacan i\u00e7ind\u0259 ev\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f qa\u00e7d\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u00dclk\u0259r o\u011flan evind\u0259, g\u0259lin ota\u011f\u0131nda t\u0259kc\u0259, qorxusundan tir-tir \u0259s\u0259r\u0259k g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. G\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi ki, indic\u0259 \u0259jdaha onu kam\u0131na \u00e7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259 \u0259b\u0259di m\u0259hv olacaq. O, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259k-dir\u0259k verir. Nadirin namuslu olma\u011f\u0131n\u0131, onu biab\u0131r\u00e7\u0131l\u0131qdan qurtard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 t\u0259lqin etm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. Lakin \u00fcr\u0259k o dediyini demirdi. Anas\u0131n\u0131n yalvar\u0131\u015fl\u0131 s\u0259si qula\u011f\u0131nda cingild\u0259yirdi. \u00dcz\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc a\u011f et, atan\u0131n ruhunu sevindir.<\/p>\n

Nadir i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi. O, qaba\u011f\u0131nda tir-tir titr\u0259y\u0259n ovunun misilsiz g\u00f6z\u0259lliyind\u0259n sars\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bu g\u00f6z\u0259lin sahibi oldu\u011funa inanm\u0131rd\u0131. O, ovunu quca\u011f\u0131na ald\u0131. \u00dclk\u0259r g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumdu…<\/p>\n

O, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7anda, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc nifr\u0259t el\u0259diyi adam\u0131n a\u011fu\u015funda g\u00f6rd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

– \u00c7ox sa\u011f ol m\u0259nim t\u0259mizim, m\u0259l\u0259yim. Al su i\u00e7, bir az \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l.<\/p>\n

\u00dclk\u0259r bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri e\u015fid\u0259r, e\u015fitm\u0259z \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 n\u0259yins\u0259 q\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hiss etdi, \u0259ll\u0259rini suya uzatd\u0131. H\u0259min d\u0259qiq\u0259 d\u0259 qollar\u0131 yan\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Nadir onun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxaraq d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tl\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Evin adamlar\u0131 i\u00e7\u0259riy\u0259 dolu\u015fdu. T\u0259bi\u0259tin yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0259n nadir m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n biri, \u00f6z t\u0259mizliyini s\u00fcb\u00fct ed\u0259r\u0259k, insanlar\u0131n haqs\u0131z q\u0131na\u011f\u0131ndan yaralanm\u0131\u015f q\u0259lbil\u0259 \u0259b\u0259diyy\u0259t\u0259 qovu\u015fmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

El bu q\u0259fil sora\u011f\u0131 alaraq, \u00f6z saf, t\u0259miz g\u00f6z\u0259lini a\u011flama\u011fa y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ham\u0131 bu c\u0259naz\u0259nin k\u0259nar\u0131nda oturan, arvadlar, evd\u0259, bacada h\u0259rl\u0259n\u0259n ki\u015fil\u0259rin h\u0259r biri bu \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259 bir n\u00f6v \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn g\u00fcnahkar oldu\u011funu d\u0259rk edir, bu vaxts\u0131z gedi\u015fin\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf edir v\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015firdil\u0259r ki, h\u0259l\u0259 y\u00fcz ill\u0259r bel\u0259, ke\u00e7s\u0259 d\u0259, bel\u0259 nadir istedad bu k\u0259nd\u0259 qism\u0259t olmayacaq. Qaranl\u0131q ota\u011f\u0131n birind\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yini ovcu il\u0259 s\u0131xan bir cavan ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yer\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

A\u011fla\u015fman\u0131n \u015firin yerind\u0259 tavandan tapp\u0131lt\u0131yla min bir r\u0259ng\u0259 \u00e7alan bir ilan c\u0259naz\u0259nin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Camaat qorxaraq q\u0131\u015fq\u0131ra-q\u0131\u015fq\u0131ra e\u015fiy\u0259 s\u0259p\u0259l\u0259ndi. Bir az \u00fcr\u0259klil\u0259ri aynadan boyland\u0131. \u0130lan ha\u00e7a dilini \u00e7\u0131xararaq, c\u0259naz\u0259nin d\u00f6rd yan\u0131nda yalmanma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ham\u0131 susmu\u015fdu, arvadlar\u0131n b\u0259zil\u0259ri sakitc\u0259 dizin\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcr, sa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 yolurdu.<\/p>\n

Bird\u0259n heyb\u0259tli, insan\u0131 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t\u0259 salan bir m\u0259l\u0259rti e\u015fidildi. Ham\u0131 qorxudan sarald\u0131. Arvad, ki\u015fi bir-birin\u0259 q\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n

D\u00fcnya g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f Nazim ki\u015fi, dizin\u0259 vuraraq, \u0130land\u0131, m\u0259l\u0259yir dedi.<\/p>\n

Nazim ki\u015fi s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259-s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u0130lan m\u0259l\u0259yirdi. Bu m\u0259l\u0259rtid\u0259n yer, g\u00f6y, dam, da\u015f silk\u0259l\u0259nirdi. Adamlar qorxudan bir-birin\u0259 sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcls\u00fcm arvad zorla camaat\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n qopub, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc i\u00e7\u0259ri sald\u0131. O, c\u0259naz\u0259nin bir t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259, ilansa o biri t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 durdu. O, \u015fiv\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kir, ilan is\u0259 m\u0259l\u0259yirdi. Anan\u0131n s\u0259si il\u0259 ilan\u0131n s\u0259si bir-birin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015faraq, damarlarda qan\u0131 donduran, s\u00f6zl\u0259 ifad\u0259 edil\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259n s\u0259s\u0259 \u00e7evril\u0259r\u0259k adamlar\u0131 q\u0131l\u0131nc kimi k\u0259sirdi. Bu s\u0259sin t\u0259sirind\u0259n ba\u015f al\u0131b qa\u00e7anlar, \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n ged\u0259nl\u0259r oldu. Bir azdan heyd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n anan\u0131n s\u0259si k\u0259sil\u0259r\u0259k yer\u0259 s\u0259r\u0259l\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

Nazim ki\u015fi g\u00f6rd\u00fc ki, ilan m\u0259l\u0259di, m\u0259l\u0259di v\u0259 sonra bird\u0259n bir boy qalxaraq \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc, c\u0259naz\u0259nin yan\u0131nda yer\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rpd\u0131. D\u0259h\u015f\u0259tl\u0259 q\u0131vr\u0131laraq, daha t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259di.<\/p>\n

M\u0259l\u0259rti k\u0259sildi. Nazim ki\u015fi camaata, ilan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fc dedi.<\/p>\n

Ancaq yadda saxlay\u0131n, ilan m\u0259l\u0259y\u0259n yerd\u0259 insan ya\u015famaz. Dem\u0259li, bu k\u0259ndd\u0259 insan ya\u015fam\u0131r. Bizim haqs\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131za g\u00f6r\u0259, bu, biz\u0259 allah t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n veril\u0259n c\u0259zad\u0131. \u0130lan bizd\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 insanm\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n

Bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rd\u0259n sonra Nazim ki\u015fi \u0259ll\u0259ril\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6rt\u0259r\u0259k h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131rd\u0131. Vay-i\u015fv\u0259n k\u0259ndi ba\u015f\u0131na ald\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bu vay \u015fiv\u0259n s\u0259sin\u0259 qara paltar geyinmi\u015f buludlar k\u0259ndin ba\u015f\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259, g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 topla\u015fd\u0131lar. Yand\u0131, yax\u0131ld\u0131 buludlar, oda, \u015fim\u015f\u0259y\u0259 d\u00f6nd\u00fcl\u0259r. Onlar\u0131n ild\u0131r\u0131m h\u00f6nk\u00fcrt\u00fcs\u00fc d\u00fcnyan\u0131 silk\u0259l\u0259di g\u00f6yl\u0259r g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n ya\u015f \u0259l\u0259di. Bu k\u0259ndin adamlar\u0131 t\u0259la\u015fla G\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 bax\u0131b-dedil\u0259r:<\/p>\n

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