{"id":13263,"date":"2019-10-27T18:40:05","date_gmt":"2019-10-27T14:40:05","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=13263"},"modified":"2019-10-27T18:40:05","modified_gmt":"2019-10-27T14:40:05","slug":"qalib-s%c9%99fah%c9%99tin-sandiq-romanindan-parca","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=13263","title":{"rendered":"Qalib \u015e\u0259fah\u0259tin “Sand\u0131q” roman\u0131ndan par\u00e7a…"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"FB_IMG_1568483423820\"<\/a>Qalib \u015e\u0259fah\u0259t (Ba\u011f\u0131rov Qalib Xanoy o\u011flu) \u2014 \u015fair, nasir, publisist v\u0259 h\u0259kim kimi tan\u0131n\u0131r, Az\u0259rbaycan Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar Birliyinin \u00fczv\u00fcd\u00fcr. Qalib \u015e\u0259fah\u0259t 22 mart 1973- c\u00fc ild\u0259 G\u0259d\u0259b\u0259y rayonunun Parak\u0259nd k\u0259ndind\u0259 ziyal\u0131 ail\u0259sind\u0259 anadan olub. 1990- c\u0131 ild\u0259 h\u0259min k\u0259ndd\u0259 tam orta m\u0259kt\u0259bi bitirib. 1990-c\u0131 ild\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycan K\u0259nd T\u0259s\u0259rr\u00fcfat\u0131 \u0130nistituna daxil olub. U\u015faql\u0131qdan h\u0259kim s\u0259n\u0259tin\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck h\u0259v\u0259si oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259, bu \u0130nstitutdan s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259rini geri g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb v\u0259 1991-ci ild\u0259 N.N\u0259rimanov ad\u0131na Az\u0259rbaycan Tibb Universitetinin 1-ci M\u00fcalic\u0259\u2013proflaktika fakult\u0259sin\u0259 daxil olub, 1997-ci ild\u0259 Tibb Universitetini bitirib. 1999\u20132009-ci ill\u0259rd\u0259 ordu s\u0131ralar\u0131nda xidm\u0259t edib.<\/p>\n

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\u018fl\u0259t v\u0259 F\u00fczuli h\u0259rbi hospitallar\u0131nda \u015f\u00f6b\u0259 r\u0259isi v\u0259zif\u0259sind\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131b. Ehtiyatda olan tibb xidm\u0259ti kapitan\u0131d\u0131r. Hal\u2013haz\u0131rda h\u0259kim\u2013kardioloq v\u0259zif\u0259sind\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r. H\u0259l\u0259 orta m\u0259kt\u0259b ill\u0259rind\u0259n \u0259d\u0259biyyata b\u00f6y\u00fck h\u0259v\u0259si olub. G\u0259d\u0259b\u0259y rayonunun \u201cT\u0259r\u0259qqi\u201d q\u0259zetind\u0259 tez\u2013tez \u015feir v\u0259 m\u0259qal\u0259l\u0259ri i\u015f\u0131q \u00fcz\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcb.
\nQalib \u015e\u0259fa\u0259t t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259lik ill\u0259rind\u0259 d\u0259 yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ox u\u011furla davam etdirib. \u015eeirl\u0259ri “\u018fd\u0259biyyat q\u0259zeti”, “T\u0259bib”, “\u015e\u0259hriyar”, “\u00c7a\u011f” q\u0259zetl\u0259rind\u0259, \u201cUlduz\u201d v\u0259 \u201cAz\u0259rbaycan\u201d jurnallar\u0131nda davaml\u0131 olaraq \u00e7ap olunur. \u015eeirl\u0259ri v\u0259 hekay\u0259l\u0259ri oxucular t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n sevil\u0259-sevil\u0259 oxunur. Onun \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259ri T\u00fcrkiy\u0259d\u0259, Rusiyada n\u0259\u015fr olunub, \u0130randa yeni kitab\u0131 \u00e7apa haz\u0131rlan\u0131r.
\n“C\u0259sar\u0259tli Q\u0259l\u0259m”, “\u0130bn Sina” diplomlar\u0131na layiq g\u00f6r\u00fcl\u00fcb. “M\u0259n\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259k verin” (2010), “\u018fll\u0259rind\u0259ki g\u00f6y\u00fcz\u00fc” (2013), “K\u0131r\u0131k merdiven” (T\u00fcrkiy\u0259, 2017) v\u0259 ba\u015fqa kitablar\u0131 i\u015f\u0131q \u00fcz\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcb.
\nQalib \u015e\u0259fah\u0259tin \u201cSand\u0131q\u201d roman\u0131ndan bir par\u00e7an\u0131 n\u0259srsev\u0259r oxucular \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yay\u0131mlay\u0131ram v\u0259 xat\u0131rlad\u0131ram ki, roman n\u0259\u015fr\u0259 haz\u0131rlan\u0131r. \u018fs\u0259rin bu hiss\u0259sind\u0259 ya\u015fl\u0131 erm\u0259ni qad\u0131n\u0131nin daxili iztirablar\u0131 verilmi\u015f, k\u00f6rp\u0259 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 atas\u0131 t\u00fcrk oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259 oda atan erm\u0259nil\u0259rin v\u0259h\u015filiyi t\u0259svir olunmu\u015fdur. Bu par\u00e7an\u0131 t\u0259qdim etm\u0259kl\u0259 \u201cSand\u0131q\u201d roman\u0131n\u0131n nec\u0259 maraql\u0131 s\u00fcjet v\u0259 kompozisiya \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 quruldu\u011funu n\u0259srsev\u0259rl\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131rmaqd\u0131r.
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\n“SANDIQ” roman\u0131ndan bir par\u00e7a
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\nAnu\u015f xala ax\u015famdan b\u0259ri \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yer tapa bilmirdi, sanki rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0259lind\u0259n al\u0131nm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7ox narahat hiss edirdi. Yuxusu g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n qa\u00e7aq d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Yer\u0131nd\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 kimi o yana, bu yana e\u015f\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015fdi. El\u0259 bil, yata\u011f\u0131na qor dolmu\u015fdu. S\u0259h\u0259ri dirig\u00f6zl\u00fc a\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Beyni zoqqulday\u0131rd\u0131. Can\u0131nda k\u00fct a\u011fr\u0131 hiss edirdi. Yerind\u0259 qurcalan\u0131b deyinm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131:
\n\u2013 Bu n\u0259 b\u0259la idi m\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm, el\u0259 bil, b\u0259d\u0259nim q\u0131r\u0131l\u0131r. Can\u0131m s\u0131z\u0131m-s\u0131z\u0131m s\u0131z\u0131lday\u0131r. Yerimd\u0259n durma\u011fa bel\u0259 taq\u0259tim qalmay\u0131b.
\nSin\u0259sind\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nt\u0131 hiss edirdi. Yerind\u0259 oturub \u0259lini s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nan sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131xd\u0131:
\n\u2013 Daha \u00fcr\u0259yim d\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 baxmaq ist\u0259mir, sanki, yerind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131b \u00e7\u0131xacaq. Ufuldan\u0131b d\u0259rind\u0259n n\u0259f\u0259s ald\u0131: \u2013 Ehhh, g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, m\u0259nim d\u0259 qism\u0259tim bel\u0259 imi\u015f. \u00d6m\u00fcr boyu s\u0259ks\u0259k\u0259 i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u00e7arp\u0131\u015f\u0131b vuru\u015fdum, s\u0259ks\u0259k\u0259 i\u00e7ind\u0259 d\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131m. He\u00e7 vaxt \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 bir rahatl\u0131q, dinclik tapa bilm\u0259dim. Sonralar el\u0259 bildim h\u0259r \u015fey yax\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011fa do\u011fru ged\u0259c\u0259k, s\u0259n dem\u0259, yen\u0259 d\u0259 yan\u0131lm\u0131\u015fam. Yel qanadl\u0131 gah ill\u0259r b\u00f6y\u00fcr-ba\u015f\u0131mda tufan qopard\u0131, o tufandan qorunmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6z qara taleyimin \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n m\u00f6hk\u0259m-m\u00f6hk\u0259m yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b, bir t\u0259h\u0259r d\u00f6z\u00fcb yerimd\u0259 qalma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, gah da ill\u0259rin \u00f6l\u00fcmc\u00fcl sakitliyinin yan\u0131mdan \u00e7ay kimi ax\u0131b getdiyini hiss etdim. Tufan olanda sakitliy\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilib daldeyl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, sakitliyin i\u00e7ind\u0259 dar\u0131xanda tufana t\u0259r\u0259f can at\u0131rd\u0131m. Ke\u015fm\u0259ke\u015fli h\u0259yat m\u0259ni h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00f6z burul\u011fan\u0131nda at\u0131b-tuturdu. N\u0259d\u0259n bel\u0259 oldu\u011funun, niy\u0259 bel\u0259 oldu\u011funun f\u0259rqind\u0259 bel\u0259 ola bilm\u0259dim. Ba\u015f\u0131m el\u0259 bir qatmaqar\u0131\u015f\u0131qlar i\u00e7ind\u0259 oldu ki, he\u00e7 n\u0259d\u0259n z\u00f6vq almaq g\u00fcc\u00fcnd\u0259 deyildim. H\u0259yatda qazan\u0131c\u0131m\u0131n-dir\u0259ncimin n\u0259 oldu\u011funun f\u0259rqind\u0259 ola bilm\u0259dim.
\nYataqda oturub ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 k\u00fcs\u00fcl\u00fc adam kimi \u00f6n\u0259 \u0259ymi\u015fdi. \u018flini sif\u0259tind\u0259 g\u0259zdirib aln\u0131n\u0131 ovu\u015fdururdu. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yell\u0259yib d\u0259rind\u0259n k\u00f6ks \u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc:
\n\u2013 H\u0259\u0259\u0259, dem\u0259k bel\u0259! \u018fvv\u0259li yax\u015f\u0131 g\u0259tirm\u0259y\u0259n\u0131n, ax\u0131r\u0131n\u0131n da yax\u015f\u0131 olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259k \u0259b\u0259s imi\u015f… Onsuz da, m\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259ld\u0259n bir g\u00fcn-g\u00fczaran g\u00f6rm\u0259dim. N\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lim yax\u015f\u0131 oldu, n\u0259 d\u0259 ki, ax\u0131r\u0131m. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 qa\u00e7aqa\u00e7da, qovhaqovda oldum. \u00d6z\u00fcmd\u0259 he\u00e7 c\u00fcr\u0259 dinclik, rahatl\u0131q tapa bilm\u0259d\u0131m. Ke\u00e7mi\u015fin k\u00fcl\u00fcnd\u0259 e\u015f\u0259l\u0259nm\u0259k m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox a\u011f\u0131r g\u0259ldi. Ha \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, ha vuru\u015fdum, bu g\u0259rginliyin, bu a\u011fr\u0131-ac\u0131nin i\u00e7ind\u0259 itib-batmay\u0131m, onu da bacarmad\u0131m ki, bacarmad\u0131m… Ke\u00e7mi\u015f h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 add\u0131mbaadd\u0131m m\u0259ni t\u0259qib el\u0259di, qarabaqara m\u0259ni izl\u0259di. Ke\u00e7mi\u015fl\u0259 \u00e7arp\u0131\u015fa-\u00e7arp\u0131\u015fa, vuru\u015fa-vuru\u015fa g\u0259lib bu ya\u015fa \u00e7atd\u0131m. Bu vicdans\u0131z da son vaxtlar lap m\u0259ni c\u0131z\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131r. Adamda insaf yax\u015f\u0131 \u015feydir. Bir insaf\u0131n, m\u00fcrv\u0259tin olsun! He\u00e7 olmasa, s\u0259n imkan ver\u0259ydin, bu qoca ya\u015f\u0131mda \u00f6ld\u00fcy\u00fcm yerd\u0259 \u00f6l\u0259ydim.
\nQ\u0259fild\u0259n d\u0259rin x\u0259yaldan ayr\u0131ld\u0131. Dediyi s\u00f6zd\u0259n yuxu g\u00f6r\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f kimi diksin\u0131b sif\u0259tini tur\u015futdu:
\n\u2013 Yox, yox, h\u0259l\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcb-el\u0259m\u0259yim. S\u00f6z yox, \u00f6lm\u0259kd\u0259n-zaddan qoruxmuram. M\u0259nim qorxum ba\u015fqa \u015feydi. \u00d6l\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259k insan kimi \u00f6l\u0259s\u0259n. Dey\u0259s\u0259n, o da m\u0259n\u0259 qism\u0259t olmayacaq. \u00d6l\u0259nin yax\u0131n\u0131, simsar\u0131 yan\u0131nda olar, \u00e7\u0259tin vaxt\u0131nda \u0259lind\u0259n, aya\u011f\u0131ndan tutar, amma m\u0259nim yan\u0131mda he\u00e7 k\u0259sim yoxdu. El\u0259 sahibsiz kimi bir \u015fey\u0259m. \u00d6l\u00fcb-el\u0259s\u0259m, lap biab\u0131r\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q olar, bil\u0259n d\u0259 olmaz ki, m\u0259n \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m, ya sa\u011fam. Bu xaraba qalm\u0131\u015f evd\u0259 indi \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n ba\u015fqa kimim var ki, m\u0259nim?.. Allah bilir, o da n\u0259 vaxt g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k, ya g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. Bu \u0259c\u0259l d\u0259 \u00e7ox k\u0259mf\u00fcrs\u0259tdi, vaxt, v\u0259d\u0259 tan\u0131m\u0131r. \u00c7a\u011fr\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f qonaq kimi kefi ist\u0259y\u0259n vaxt g\u0259lib adam\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcr, q\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na girir, ya da beyq\u0259fil g\u0259lib yaxas\u0131ndan yap\u0131\u015f\u0131r. \u00c7al\u0131\u015f, yaxan\u0131 \u018fzray\u0131l\u0131n \u0259lin\u0259 verm\u0259, el\u0259 ki, yaxandan yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131, daha \u0259l \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n deyil. He\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc toxtama\u011fa macal verm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k…
\nOna el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi a\u011fr\u0131dan beyni bu andaca partlay\u0131b parampar\u00e7a olacaq, \u00fcz\u00fc \u00fcst\u0259 yer\u0259 s\u0259r\u0259l\u0259n\u0259c\u0259k. B\u0259d\u0259nind\u0259 soyuq t\u0259r hiss etdi. Soyuqlam\u0131\u015f adam kimi titim-titim titr\u0259yirdi. \u018flini aln\u0131nda, sif\u0259tind\u0259 g\u0259zdirdi. Sa\u011f ovcu il\u0259 aln\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259rini sildi. Yerind\u0259n durmaqdan qorxurdu. Qorxurdu ki, durub birc\u0259 add\u0131m atsa, \u00fcr\u0259yi q\u0259fl\u0259t\u0259n dayanacaq, Allah bilir, ondan sonra aqib\u0259ti nec\u0259 olacaq?
\nGec\u0259 ha ist\u0259mi\u015fdi yat\u0131b g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 als\u0131n, b\u0259lk\u0259 olub-ke\u00e7\u0259nl\u0259ri yad\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xara, yata bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi. G\u00f6zl\u0259rini yummaqdan qorxmu\u015fdu. Bir azca g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 yuxu ged\u0259n kimi anan\u0131n f\u0259ryad\u0131, ah-nal\u0259si qula\u011f\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 u\u011fulday\u0131rd\u0131. El\u0259 bil, beyni de\u015fil\u0259c\u0259kdi, s\u0259s iti al\u0259t kimi beynin\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yirdi. O anlar kino lent\u0131 kimi g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndan canlan\u0131rd\u0131.
\nDivar\u0131n k\u00fcnc\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0131s\u0131lm\u0131\u015f ana k\u00f6rp\u0259 q\u0131zc\u0131qaz\u0131 k\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u0259 bas\u0131b, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 k\u00f6rp\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f \u0259yib ilan dili \u00e7\u0131xararaq yalvar\u0131rd\u0131. He\u00e7 kim anan\u0131n yalvar\u0131\u015f\u0131na m\u0259h\u0259l qoymurdu. Ana yalvard\u0131qca i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259 olan bir ne\u00e7\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259r \u2013 i\u00e7kid\u0259n kefl\u0259nmi\u015f saqqall\u0131 adamlar q\u0259h-q\u0259h \u00e7\u0259kib g\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. Birisi s\u0259sinin tonunu qald\u0131r\u0131b deyirdi:
\n\u2013 Bunun murdar s\u0259si beynimizi apard\u0131. S\u0259sini biryolluq bat\u0131rmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r. Daha biz n\u0259yi g\u00f6zl\u0259yirik?
\nAnu\u015f xala diqq\u0259tini toplay\u0131b sif\u0259tini tur\u015futdu:
\n\u2013 Bu, o al\u00e7aq Vartanyan\u0131n s\u0259sidir. El\u0259 biryolluq s\u0259nin s\u0259sin batayd\u0131, m\u0259n d\u0259 bu m\u00fcsib\u0259tl\u0259ri g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259ydim, \u2013 dey\u0259r\u0259k doda\u011f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda deyindi.
\nBa\u015fqa biris\u0131 h\u0131r\u0131ldaya-h\u0131r\u0131ldaya deyirdi:
\n\u2013 Ara, g\u0259r\u0259k d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n\u0131n f\u0259ryad\u0131ndan, ah-nal\u0259sind\u0259n l\u0259zz\u0259t ala bil\u0259s\u0259n. Qoy \u00f6z\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131r-ba\u011f\u0131r sal\u0131r sals\u0131n. Ha, hha, ha. Ara, onu da ona \u00e7ox g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n? Bilirs\u0259n, onun o eyb\u0259c\u0259r s\u0259si m\u0259nim ruhumu nec\u0259 sakitl\u0259\u015fdirir, nec\u0259 l\u0259zz\u0259t al\u0131ram.
\nDi\u015fl\u0259rini a\u011fard\u0131b h\u0131r\u0131lday\u0131rd\u0131:
\n\u2013 Haa, ha! Hardan bil\u0259s\u0259n ki? G\u0259r\u0259k duyumun olsun ki, onu duyasan. Ara, bilirs\u0259n, nec\u0259 z\u00f6vq\u00fcm\u00fc ox\u015fay\u0131r o murdar s\u0259s. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 t\u00fcrk\u00fcn murdar s\u0259sini e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 t\u0259la\u015f ke\u00e7irib diksinirdim, b\u0259d\u0259nim \u00fcrp\u0259\u015firdi, amma bu d\u0259f\u0259 el\u0259 z\u00f6vq al\u0131ram ki! \u018fn m\u0259lah\u0259tli, h\u0259zin musiqi s\u0259si bel\u0259 bu eyb\u0259c\u0259r s\u0259s q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259nim ruhuma sakitlik g\u0259tir\u0259 bilm\u0259z. Off, nec\u0259 l\u0259zz\u0259t al\u0131ram! D\u0259ym\u0259! D\u0259ym\u0259! Qoy yalvars\u0131n h\u0259l\u0259! G\u00f6r\u0259k bu yalvar\u0131b yaxarmaq ona n\u0259 ver\u0259c\u0259k?
\nAnu\u015f xala g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc bir n\u00f6qt\u0259y\u0259 zill\u0259y\u0259b kinoya bax\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi deyindi: \u201cBu da o itsif\u0259t M\u0131k\u0131rt\u0131\u00e7yand\u0131, \u2013 dedi: \u2013 \u0130t o\u011flu el\u0259 it sif\u0259tind\u0259dir. Onun h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tind\u0259n, oturu\u015fundan-duru\u015fundan murdarl\u0131q ya\u011f\u0131r. O q\u0259d\u0259r murdar xasiyy\u0259ti var ki, adam axtar\u0131r bir yerind\u0259n it kimi qaps\u0131n. Onu yax\u015f\u0131 tan\u0131y\u0131ram, bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 Zorikl\u0259 biz\u0259 d\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Onda da bel\u0259c\u0259 saqqalda idi. Dey\u0259s\u0259n, el\u0259 bu h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 saqqalda olur. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 o murdar sif\u0259tini gizl\u0259tm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn saqqal saxlay\u0131r. Amma he\u00e7 f\u0259rq el\u0259mir, \u0259ksin\u0259, saqqal onun o murdar sif\u0259tini bir az da eyb\u0259c\u0259rl\u0259\u015fdirir. Ondan el\u0259 o vaxtdan z\u0259hl\u0259m gedir. \u00d6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7ox raz\u0131, yek\u0259xana dan\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 var idi. H\u0259m d\u0259 haraya q\u0259d\u0259r des\u0259n h\u0259yas\u0131z\u0131n biridi\u201d.
\nAna g\u00f6yn\u0259y\u0259-g\u00f6yn\u0259y\u0259 yalvar-yaxar edir:
\n\u2013 Allah\u0131n\u0131z varsa, sizi and verir\u0259m o bir olan Allaha, balamdan uzaq durun, balama toxunmay\u0131n! M\u0259ni \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcn, lap diri-diri odda yand\u0131r\u0131n, tik\u0259-tik\u0259 do\u011fray\u0131n, nec\u0259 ist\u0259yirsiniz, i\u015fg\u0259nc\u0259 verin, o k\u00f6rp\u0259dir, ona yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z g\u0259lsin, birc\u0259 ona d\u0259ym\u0259yin, toxunmay\u0131n!
\nYaz\u0131q q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz sanki a\u011flamaqdan da qorxurdu. G\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7ind\u0259 gizl\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Anas\u0131n\u0131n f\u0259ryad\u0131n\u0131, ah-nal\u0259sini e\u015fitdikc\u0259 balaca q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz kuklas\u0131n\u0131 sin\u0259sin\u0259 bas\u0131b \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc anas\u0131n\u0131n k\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. Sanki bununla t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259d\u0259n qorunurmu\u015f kimi h\u0259m \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc, h\u0259m d\u0259 kuklas\u0131n\u0131 gizl\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Zorik:
\n\u2013 Daha bunu heyvan kimi m\u0259l\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259 ehtiyac yoxdu, \u2013 deyib i\u00e7ki stolunun arxas\u0131ndan durur, di\u015fl\u0259rini a\u011farda-a\u011farda anaya yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131r: \u2013 T\u00fcrk\u0259 aman verm\u0259k olmaz, t\u00fcrk\u00fcn k\u00f6k\u00fcn\u00fc qaz\u0131maq laz\u0131md\u0131r, \u2013 deyib anan\u0131n quca\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 k\u00f6rp\u0259ni dart\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r. \u00dcz\u00fcn\u00fc onlar t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 tutub di\u015fini a\u011fardaraq deyir:
\n\u2013 G\u0259r\u0259k bu t\u00fcrk k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc anas\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131nda diri-diri yand\u0131rasan ki, a\u011f\u0131llar\u0131 ba\u015flar\u0131na g\u0259lsin.
\nAnu\u015f xala yen\u0259 \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 deyinm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131: \u201cAx\u0131, bu k\u00f6rp\u0259nin n\u0259dir g\u00fcnah\u0131? O, bu ya\u015fda n\u0259 bilir d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n\u00e7\u0259lik n\u0259 olan \u015feydir? Sizin b\u0259dnam niyy\u0259tinizd\u0259n n\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259ri var?! N\u0259 bilsin ki, kim hans\u0131 niyy\u0259tl\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131r. Bu k\u00f6rp\u0259cik hardan bilsin ki, Qaraba\u011f kimin olub, indi kimin olmal\u0131d\u0131r? Niy\u0259, n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u00fcharib\u0259 edirl\u0259r?\u201d \u2013 Ufuldan\u0131b ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yell\u0259di: \u2013 \u201cU\u015fa\u011f\u0131n \u00f6z u\u015faql\u0131q d\u00fcnyas\u0131 var, onu parampar\u00e7a ed\u0259ni Allah da ba\u011f\u0131\u015flamaz\u201d.
\nXeyli vaxt idi ki, fikr\u0259 getmi\u015fdi. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bir azca qald\u0131r\u0131b deyindi:
\n\u2013 B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 el\u0259 \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck g\u00fcnah m\u0259nimkidir?! \u2013 deyib sif\u0259tini tur\u015futdu: \u2013 Ka\u015f ki, vaxt\u0131, v\u0259d\u0259ni geri qaytarmaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olayd\u0131. \u00c7al\u0131\u015fard\u0131m ki, \u00e7ox \u015feyi yenid\u0259n qurub yarad\u0131m, amma t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf ki, \u00e7ox-\u00e7ox gecdir. N\u0259 zaman\u0131 geri qay\u0131tmaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil, n\u0259 d\u0259 ki, buna \u00f6m\u00fcr v\u0259fa el\u0259m\u0259z.
\nBir vaxtlar t\u00fcrkl\u0259rd\u0259n e\u015fitdiyi misal yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. El\u0259 d\u00fcz deyirl\u0259r, dedi: \u201c\u0130lan z\u0259h\u0259ri k\u0259rt\u0259nk\u0259l\u0259d\u0259n al\u0131r, amma insan\u0131n b\u0259d\u0259nin\u0259 z\u0259h\u0259ri ilan yeridir, k\u0259rt\u0259nk\u0259l\u0259 yox\u201d. He\u00e7 n\u0259yi gizl\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaq laz\u0131m deyil, h\u0259r \u015feyi etiraf etm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r. Burda m\u0259nim d\u0259 g\u00fcnah\u0131m \u00e7oxdur. El\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn erm\u0259ni analar\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fcnah\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fckd\u00fcr. Vaxt\u0131nda d\u00fczg\u00fcn t\u0259rbiy\u0259 vers\u0259ydik, t\u0259bli\u011fat\u0131 ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr aparsayd\u0131q, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bu faci\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 he\u00e7 yol a\u00e7\u0131lmazd\u0131. Bunun k\u00f6k\u00fcnd\u0259 biz erm\u0259ni qad\u0131nlar\u0131n t\u00fcrk ki\u015fil\u0259rin\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 intiqam hissi dayan\u0131r. Amma m\u0259qs\u0259dimizi gizl\u0259ts\u0259k d\u0259, ist\u0259kl\u0259rimizi h\u0259yata ke\u00e7ir\u0259 bilirik. H\u0259l\u0259 ba\u015fqalar\u0131 bir yana, m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm boynuma al\u0131ram, amma neyl\u0259yim ki, a\u00e7\u0131b-a\u011farda bilmir\u0259m. Bizim t\u00fcrk ki\u015fil\u0259rin\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 nifr\u0259timizd\u0259n qaynaqlan\u0131r h\u0259r \u015fey. D\u00fczd\u00fc, \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 onlara qar\u015f\u0131 sevgi hissl\u0259rimiz ba\u015f qald\u0131r\u0131r, b\u00f6y\u00fck e\u015fq ya\u015fay\u0131r\u0131q. Aram\u0131zda n\u0259l\u0259r olmur, n\u0259l\u0259r ba\u015f vermir? Hans\u0131 duy\u011fular i\u00e7imizd\u0259 ba\u015f qald\u0131rm\u0131r? Sonra da aram\u0131z pozulanda bu sevgi hissi bir andaca nifr\u0259t\u0259 \u00e7evrilir. Onu da d\u00fcz deyibl\u0259r, \u201csevgi il\u0259 nifr\u0259t aras\u0131nda bir add\u0131m yol var\u201d. El\u0259 ki, aram\u0131zdak\u0131 k\u00f6rp\u00fc q\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131, s\u0259nin ayaqlar\u0131n hans\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259 \u2013 nifr\u0259t t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259mi, sevgi t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259mi qal\u0131bsa, ba\u015flay\u0131rsan el\u0259 o t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n add\u0131mlama\u011fa. Nifr\u0259t t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n ba\u015flad\u0131nsa, b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcb-b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcb i\u00e7ind\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck bir da\u011f olcaq. Bel\u0259 bir faci\u0259l\u0259r\u0259, b\u0259lalara g\u0259tirib \u00e7\u0131xaracaq.
\nU\u015faq anan\u0131n k\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0131s\u0131l\u0131r, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 anan\u0131n sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131r. Zorik onu anan\u0131n sin\u0259sind\u0259n qoparma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r. U\u015faq ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 anas\u0131n\u0131n k\u00f6ks\u00fcnd\u0259 gizl\u0259dib aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n arxas\u0131 il\u0259 Zoriki it\u0259l\u0259yib a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya: \u2013 Get, get, d\u0259ym\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259, \u2013 deyir. Zorik t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 baxmama\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r.
\nAnu\u015f xala yen\u0259 ofuldan\u0131b deyinir:
\n\u2013 Yaz\u0131q, yaz\u0131q k\u00f6rp\u0259, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 anas\u0131n\u0131n k\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131b gizl\u0259nm\u0259kl\u0259 el\u0259 bilir, bu qani\u00e7\u0259nin \u0259lind\u0259n qurtula bil\u0259c\u0259k. Neyl\u0259sin m\u0259sum k\u00f6rp\u0259, g\u00fcv\u0259n\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259yi ba\u015fqa bir etiraz \u015f\u0259kli yoxdur, arxalanma\u011fa arxas\u0131 yoxdur. Bu m\u0259sum k\u00f6rp\u0259 qani\u00e7\u0259n\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr nec\u0259 etiraz ed\u0259 bil\u0259r? Etiraz\u0131n\u0131 aya\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 it\u0259l\u0259m\u0259kl\u0259 bildirir.
\nAna k\u00f6rp\u0259ni bir az da ba\u011fr\u0131na s\u0131x\u0131r. O, k\u00f6rp\u0259ni zorla anan\u0131n sin\u0259sind\u0259n qopar\u0131r. K\u00f6rp\u0259 ucadan \u00e7\u0131\u011fr\u0131b-ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131r. Zorik k\u00f6rp\u0259nin k\u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b \u0259lind\u0259 sallaya-sallaya oca\u011f\u0131n yan\u0131na g\u0259lir. \u00dcz\u00fcn\u00fc anaya t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7evirib di\u015fl\u0259rini a\u011farda-a\u011farda: \u2013 \u201cSiz t\u00fcrk it u\u015fa\u011f\u0131na h\u0259l\u0259 bu da azd\u0131r\u201d deyib u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 yanan oca\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7\u0259risin\u0259 at\u0131r. K\u00f6rp\u0259 q\u0131z u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131r-ba\u011f\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131 anan\u0131n f\u0259ryad\u0131na qar\u0131\u015f\u0131b beynind\u0259 u\u011fulday\u0131rd\u0131, onu rahat buraxm\u0131rd\u0131.
\nYata\u011f\u0131nda oturub Zorikin qaras\u0131yca deyindi:
\n\u2013 Ger\u00e7\u0259kd\u0259n bunun i\u00e7\u0259risi \u015feytan xisl\u0259ti il\u0259 dopdolu imi\u015f. Bunda insanl\u0131q ad\u0131ndan bir \u015fey qalmay\u0131b. E\u015fitmi\u015fdim, amma inana bilmirdim, deyirdil\u0259r, \u015feytan adam\u0131n i\u00e7\u0259risin\u0259 girib m\u0259l\u0259yi qovur. Ondan sonra h\u0259min adam \u015feytanla t\u0259mas qurur. \u015eeytan h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r ki, onu pis yola, pis \u0259m\u0259l\u0259 \u00e7\u0259ksin. \u015eeytan\u0131n \u0259m\u0259lin\u0259 uyan adam \u015feytandan da bet\u0259r olur. Bunun bu b\u0259d \u0259m\u0259ll\u0259rinin d\u0259 \u015fahidi oldum. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 anas\u0131 oldu\u011fum \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bu b\u0259d \u0259m\u0259ll\u0259ri o\u011fluma yara\u015fd\u0131rm\u0131rd\u0131m, ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 inanma\u011f\u0131m g\u0259lmirdi. Daha inam\u0131m bir\u0259-be\u015f artd\u0131. O, nifr\u0259t\u0259 layiqdir. Bel\u0259 olmasayd\u0131, o, bu \u0259m\u0259ll\u0259ri t\u00f6r\u0259tm\u0259zdi.
\n\u2013Bu n\u0259 m\u00fcsub\u0259tdi! \u0130nsan olan k\u0259s bu q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 q\u0259ddar, qani\u00e7\u0259n olarm\u0131? Vicdan\u0131 olan, qan\u0131nda, can\u0131nda bir balaca insanl\u0131qdan pay\u0131 olan bu v\u0259h\u015filiyi t\u00f6r\u0259d\u0259 bil\u0259rmi?
\nKa\u015f o kitab\u0131 he\u00e7 oxumayayd\u0131m. He\u00e7 bu m\u00fcsib\u0259td\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rim olmayayd\u0131. Onun bel\u0259 bir v\u0259h\u015fi oldu\u011funu he\u00e7 bilm\u0259y\u0259ydim. B\u0259lk\u0259 onda rahat olard\u0131m. \u00d6l\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 rahat \u00f6l\u0259rdim. Bilmir\u0259m, m\u0259n niy\u0259 o kitab\u0131 \u0259lim\u0259 al\u0131b oxudum, o kitab n\u0259d\u0259n m\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 c\u0259kdi, o kitab haradan \u0259lim\u0259 ke\u00e7di! \u0130nd\u0259n sonra bel\u0259 bir \u0259m\u0259lin sahibi olan insan\u0131 m\u0259n nec\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flaya bil\u0259r\u0259m?…<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n

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