{"id":13452,"date":"2019-11-19T15:26:43","date_gmt":"2019-11-19T11:26:43","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=13452"},"modified":"2019-11-19T15:26:43","modified_gmt":"2019-11-19T11:26:43","slug":"mansur-r%c9%99gb%c9%99toglu-il%c9%99-irad%c9%99-aytelin-zaman-noqt%c9%99si","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=13452","title":{"rendered":"Mansur R\u0259\u011fb\u0259to\u011flu il\u0259 \u0130rad\u0259 Aytelin zaman n\u00f6qt\u0259si…"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"75354936_440009186659873_1973548124030894080_n<\/a>Mansur R\u0259\u011fb\u0259to\u011flu: G\u0259ncl\u0259rimiz rahat deyil – xo\u015fb\u0259xt deyil, g\u0259rgindir, intihara meyllidir.\u00bb<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

\u201c\u0130nsan el\u0259 bir varl\u0131qd\u0131r ki, d\u0259yirman kimi h\u0259r \u015feyi \u00f6z yadda\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kib x\u0131rdalayaraq ist\u0259diyi formaya salma\u011fa meyllidir. \u018fg\u0259r bel\u0259 bir g\u00fcc insan\u0131n yadda\u015f\u0131nda yox \u0259lind\u0259dirs\u0259 – Tanr\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fc kimi yaratmaq v\u0259 da\u011f\u0131tmaq g\u00fcc\u00fcnd\u0259dirs\u0259, zamana tabe olmadan h\u0259r \u015feyi \u00f6z ehtiras\u0131n\u0131n qurban\u0131na \u00e7evirm\u0259k ist\u0259yir. Lakin insan t\u0259kc\u0259 zaman \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 h\u00f6kmranl\u0131q ed\u0259 bilmir, sonda zaman\u0131n h\u00f6km\u00fcn\u0259 ba\u015f \u0259yib s\u0259hn\u0259ni t\u0259rk edir. Zaman h\u0259r \u015feyi udur, insan\u0131 bel\u0259\u2026\u201d Bud\u0259f\u0259ki qona\u011f\u0131m ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131n az olmas\u0131na baxmayaraq, \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7ox qaba\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259n, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u0259n bir istedad adam\u0131, \u00a0Mansur R\u0259\u011fb\u0259to\u011fludur.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Salam, istedad\u0131na inand\u0131\u011f\u0131m, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 g\u00fcv\u0259ndiyim g\u0259nc dostum, Mansur! Nec\u0259s\u0259n?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Salam, \u0130rad\u0259 xan\u0131m. T\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr edir\u0259m xo\u015f s\u00f6zl\u0259riniz\u00e7\u00fcn. H\u0259l\u0259 ki, ya\u015famaq\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0259b\u0259bl\u0259r tapa bilir\u0259m, bel\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259bl\u0259r tapa bilirs\u0259ns\u0259, h\u0259r \u015fey qaydas\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bil\u0259r. \u00dcmid edir\u0259m ki, siz d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z.<\/p>\n

– \u00c7ox yax\u015f\u0131yam, sevdikl\u0259riml\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fanda daha yax\u015f\u0131 oluram. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 s\u0259n m\u0259nd\u0259n m\u00fcsahib\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fcs\u0259n. S\u0259ninl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmaq ruhumu sakitl\u0259dib. \u0130ndi m\u0259n suallar ver\u0259c\u0259m, bu hiss s\u0259n\u0259 nec\u0259 siray\u0259t edir?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– S\u00f6z\u00fcn a\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 m\u00fcsahib\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fcm bir insan\u0131n bir g\u00fcn m\u0259n\u0259 suallar \u00fcnvanlayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259mirdim. Bu, m\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn g\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259z oldu, bir az q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u0259ldi m\u0259n\u0259. \u00c7\u00fcnki m\u00fcsahib\u0259 ver\u0259c\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r n\u0259 i\u015f g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc bilmir\u0259m, h\u0259r halda bunu sizin m\u0259n\u0259 olan h\u00f6rm\u0259tiniz kimi q\u0259bul edir\u0259m ki, bu da qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131ql\u0131d\u0131r. Siz\u0259 buna g\u00f6r\u0259 ancaq t\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr ed\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– T\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr, \u0259ziz insan. S\u0259ni m\u0259n ilk d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259rli ziyal\u0131m\u0131z Elman C\u0259f\u0259rlinin t\u0259qdimat\u0131nda tan\u0131m\u0131\u015fam v\u0259 zaman-zaman sevgimi qazanm\u0131san. Bax, Elman m\u00fc\u0259llim dedim, s\u0259n d\u0259 t\u0259rifl\u0259 bizim Elman C\u0259f\u0259rlini…<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Elman C\u0259f\u0259rliy\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259llim dey\u0259 m\u00fcraci\u0259t edir\u0259m. \u00c7\u00fcnki m\u0259tbuata yeni g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 bel\u0259 des\u0259k, \u0259limd\u0259n tutub yazma\u011fa \u00f6yr\u0259d\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259n biri d\u0259 o olub. Universiteti yeni bitirmi\u015fdim, n\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yimi, haradan ba\u015flayaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 bilmlmirdim, sad\u0259c\u0259 h\u0259v\u0259sliydim, s\u0259hvl\u0259rim kifay\u0259t q\u0259d\u0259rdi. “Olaylar” q\u0259zetind\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f oldum Elman m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259, \u00f6yr\u0259tdi m\u0259ni, \u00e7ox vaxt s\u0259hv yazanda \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 vurmad\u0131, s\u0259hv yazd\u0131m ba\u015fa sald\u0131, daha yaz\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 atmad\u0131, h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259ndirdi, bu g\u00fcn m\u0259tbuatda bir \u015feyl\u0259r ed\u0259 bilir\u0259ms\u0259, bunu borclu oldu\u011fum insanlardan biri d\u0259 odur.<\/p>\n

– Ali t\u0259hsilli, pe\u015f\u0259kar jurnalists\u0259n. Jurnalistika s\u0259ni se\u00e7di, ya s\u0259n jurnalistikan\u0131?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– H\u0259l\u0259 lap ki\u00e7ik ya\u015flar\u0131mdan yazma\u011fa meylli idim, d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc sinifd\u0259n x\u0131rda hekay\u0259l\u0259r, na\u011f\u0131llar oxuma\u011fa ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. H\u0259yat\u0131n g\u00f6rm\u0259diyim t\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259ri, insanlar\u0131n x\u0259yal d\u00fcnyalar\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 maraql\u0131 g\u0259lirdi, \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259 bunlar\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fckc\u0259 hiss edirdim. Bir x\u0259lv\u0259t\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilib na\u011f\u0131llar, hekay\u0259l\u0259r uydururdum v\u0259 ya ad\u0131n\u0131 qoya bilm\u0259diyim janrda bir \u015feyl\u0259r yaz\u0131rd\u0131m. Gizl\u0259dirdim bunlar\u0131, adam i\u00e7in\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xara bilmirdim, s\u00f6z\u00fcn a\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131 he\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 adam i\u00e7in\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xa bilmirdim, el\u0259 bu g\u00fcn d\u0259… G\u00fcn\u00fcm \u0259ks\u0259r hiss\u0259si evimizin zirz\u0259misind\u0259, yaxud insan\u0131n \u0259l \u00e7atmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerl\u0259rd\u0259 ke\u00e7irdi \u2013 \u00e7ay k\u0259nar\u0131ndan, \u00e7ardaqda, me\u015f\u0259d\u0259, da\u011fda… Bu yerl\u0259rd\u0259 oxuyurdum, yaz\u0131rd\u0131m. Amma bunlar\u0131 insan i\u00e7in\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xarma\u011fa utan\u0131rd\u0131m. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 hekay\u0259mi \u0259d\u0259biyyat m\u00fc\u0259llimim\u0259 oxudum, bu m\u0259nim ilk h\u0259y\u0259can\u0131m idi, oxudu, b\u0259y\u0259ndi, k\u00f6vr\u0259lmi\u015fdi d\u0259. Bu q\u0259d\u0259rini g\u00f6zl\u0259mirdim. Bu, m\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259v\u0259s oyatd\u0131. Zaman-zaman yaz\u0131ya mara\u011f\u0131m daha da artd\u0131, daha \u00e7ox yazmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yegan\u0259 se\u00e7im jurnalistika idi, bunu da b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259nd\u0259 bildim. M\u0259qs\u0259dim jurnalistika olanda art\u0131q n\u0259 yazaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131n f\u0259rqi yox idi, buna g\u00f6r\u0259 ciddi-c\u0259hdl\u0259 bu sah\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m. Ax\u0131rda m\u0259qs\u0259dim\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131m, burdan o t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 n\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yimi is\u0259 bilmir\u0259m, indi yax\u015f\u0131 jurnalist\u0259m, ya yox \u2013 bilmir\u0259m, bunu ya m\u0259n g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259c\u0259m, ya da zaman\u0131n h\u00f6km\u00fcn\u0259 ba\u015f \u0259yib s\u0259hn\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xaca\u011fam.<\/p>\n

– \u201cSaman \u00e7\u00f6pl\u0259ri ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 de\u015fib \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar \u2013 yadda\u015f\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259n boylan\u0131rd\u0131lar. Sonra bu saman \u00e7\u00f6pl\u0259ri c\u00fcc\u0259rdil\u0259r, daha do\u011frusu uzand\u0131lar. Uzaqda g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n da\u011flar yan\u0131b bir topa k\u00fcl\u0259 \u00e7evrilmi\u015fdi, \u0259trafda r\u0259ngi olan yegan\u0259 \u015fey bu sar\u0131 saman \u00e7\u00f6pl\u0259ri idi. N\u0259 ba\u015f verdiyini anlamdan binalar\u0131, k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259ri, a\u011faclar\u0131, s\u0259mas\u0131 v\u0259 torpa\u011f\u0131 paslanm\u0131\u015f d\u0259mird\u0259n olan \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 peyda oldum\u201d. Bir essend\u0259 oxumu\u015fam. S\u0259nin m\u00fc\u015fahid\u0259n, t\u0259svirin, sujeti qurmaq bacar\u0131\u011f\u0131n, \u00fcslubun, b\u0259dii z\u00f6vq\u00fcn \u0259d\u0259biyyatda at oynadanlar\u0131n \u00e7oxlar\u0131ndan y\u00fcks\u0259kd\u0259dir. N\u0259d\u0259n ham\u0131 kimi s\u0259n d\u0259 romanlar, kitablar, t\u0259qdimatlar iddias\u0131nda deyils\u0259n?\"77224373_419428588751329_6075030248607449088_n\"<\/a><\/strong><\/p>\n

– \u018fd\u0259biyyata sevgim bu g\u00fcn\u00fcn m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259si deyil. U\u015faq vaxt\u0131 el\u0259 bilirdim b\u00fct\u00fcn yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n, \u015fairl\u0259rin ham\u0131s\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcb. Balaca bir k\u0259nd idi, kitablar\u0131n da ham\u0131s\u0131 Sovetd\u0259n qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, \u0259lim\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259ni oxuyurdum, amma bu \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259ri yazanlar\u0131 ara\u015fd\u0131rm\u0131rd\u0131m, beynimd\u0259 onlar\u0131n \u00f6ld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259 inam vard\u0131. Anam da kitab oxuyan idi, he\u00e7 ondan da soru\u015fmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. \u018flim\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259n kitab\u0131 da zirz\u0259miy\u0259 da\u015f\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131m, gizli bir kitabxana yaratm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, dedim ax\u0131 adam i\u00e7ind\u0259 oxuma\u011fa utan\u0131rd\u0131m, el\u0259 bilirdim kitab oxumaq da nam\u0259hr\u0259m bir i\u015fdir, kims\u0259 n\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fdiyimi duyacaq m\u0259n kitab oxuyanda \u2013 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 ver\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. O vaxtla h\u0259l\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131m az idi, m\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259n yeni \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q, amma uzaqlardan toplar\u0131n s\u0259sl\u0259ri e\u015fidilirdi \u2013 c\u0259bh\u0259 bir add\u0131ml\u0131qda idi. Ya buna g\u00f6r\u0259, ya da ba\u015fqa s\u0259b\u0259bd\u0259n i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131 fasi\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 verirdil\u0259r, i\u015f\u0131q s\u00f6nd\u00fcm\u00fc neft lampas\u0131n\u0131n k\u0259skin qoxusu evi b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fc. Amma m\u0259n bu qoxunu sevirdim. Bir d\u0259 odun sobas\u0131 vard\u0131, odunlar yananda sobadan g\u0259l\u0259n s\u0259si d\u0259 sevirdim. \u00c7\u00fcnki bunlar m\u0259ni kitab oxuma\u011fa s\u00fcr\u00fckl\u0259yirdi. Evin \u0259n k\u00fcnc yerin\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilib g\u00f6r\u0259 bildiyim q\u0259d\u0259r oxuma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m, amma gizl\u0259d\u0259-gizl\u0259d\u0259. \u0130ndi o g\u00fcnd\u0259n bu g\u00fcn\u0259 dem\u0259k olar he\u00e7 n\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259yib. \u0130ndi adam i\u00e7ind\u0259 oxuya bilir\u0259m, amma yazmaq m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sind\u0259 yen\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kinir\u0259m, ara-s\u0131ra yazd\u0131qlar\u0131mdan \u00fcz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131ram, \u00e7\u0131xarmad\u0131qlar\u0131m \u00e7oxdur, h\u0259l\u0259 ki, bu m\u0259nada o x\u0259cal\u0259tli u\u015fa\u011fam.<\/p>\n

– \u0130stedadl\u0131lar, se\u00e7il\u0259nl\u0259r h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 adamlardan qa\u00e7\u0131r. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 deyilir ki, istedadl\u0131n\u0131 qoruyun, istedads\u0131z nec\u0259 olsa \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc qoruyacaq. El\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bel\u0259, “x\u0259cal\u0259tli” qalma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259yir\u0259m. N\u0259 Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, s\u0259nin kimi g\u0259ncl\u0259rimiz var. Mansur, s\u0259nc\u0259, bug\u00fcnk\u00fc g\u0259ncliyin \u0259n \u00e7ox n\u0259y\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131 var?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Sosial-iqtisadi probleml\u0259rinbug\u00fcnk\u00fc g\u0259ncliy\u0259 mane oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m. H\u0259min qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131n h\u0259lsizliyi onlar\u0131 ya d\u0259liy\u0259, ya ab\u0131rs\u0131za, ya da meyit\u0259 \u00e7evirir. G\u0259ncl\u0259rimiz rahat deyil – xo\u015fb\u0259xt deyil, g\u0259rgindir, intihara meyllidir. Ail\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 ba\u015fqlar\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6vladlar\u0131 olmaq ist\u0259y\u0259n n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r u\u015faq b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcr, onlar da sabah bizim boyda olanda bizd\u0259n f\u0259rql\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. \u0130ndi f\u00fcrs\u0259tl\u0259ri olsa, h\u0259min u\u015faqlar \u00f6z atalar\u0131n\u0131 asanl\u0131qla d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259 bil\u0259r. Probleml\u0259rimiz kifay\u0259t q\u0259d\u0259rdir, bunu h\u0259r k\u0259s g\u00f6r\u00fcr. Amma g\u0259ncl\u0259rimiz d\u0259 sanki \u00f6zl\u0259rini inki\u015faf etdirm\u0259k ist\u0259mirl\u0259r, m\u00fcbariz\u0259 aparmaq ist\u0259mirl\u0259r, tez ruhdan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrl\u0259r. El\u0259 u\u015faql\u0131qdan bizi a\u011flama\u011fa, bir \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 \u00fczl\u0259\u015finmi, \u0259linin arxas\u0131nca tatamiy\u0259 vurub m\u0259\u011flubiyy\u0259tl\u0259 raz\u0131la\u015fma\u011fa \u00f6yr\u0259dibl\u0259r. G\u0259ncl\u0259rimiz bu l\u0259n\u0259tin i\u00e7ind\u0259n \u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00e7\u0131xmal\u0131, ruhdan d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259m\u0259lidir. Hikm\u0259t Hac\u0131zad\u0259nin sevdiyim bir s\u00f6z\u00fc var, deyir, \u00fcmidin yoxdursa, \u00fcmidsiz d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f. Bizim g\u0259ncl\u0259r\u0259 \u00fcmidsiz d\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fs\u0259, balaca bir m\u00fcbariz\u0259 ruhu laz\u0131md\u0131r. Onlar\u0131 \u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n ba\u015fqa kims\u0259 xilas ed\u0259 bilm\u0259z, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc xilas etm\u0259y\u0259n\u0259 kims\u0259 qurtarm\u0131r.<\/p>\n

– Qay\u011f\u0131larla \u0259hat\u0259lis\u0259n? Y\u0259ni \u00f6z\u0259l h\u0259yat\u0131nda.<\/strong><\/p>\n

– \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259 var, amma bunlar h\u0259ll olunacaq, bunu da m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm h\u0259ll etm\u0259liy\u0259m. Kim olursan-ol qay\u011f\u0131lardan bird\u0259f\u0259lik xilas olmaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil. \u018fg\u0259r bu d\u00fcnyada Bill Qeyts\u0259ns\u0259, \u00f6z milyardlar\u0131n\u0131n qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n, yox, bu d\u00fcnyada can\u0131 h\u0259r bir avtomobilin t\u0259k\u0259rin\u0259 ili\u015f\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259k adi bir s\u00fcp\u00fcrg\u0259\u00e7is\u0259ns\u0259 o s\u00fcp\u00fcrg\u0259nin qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. Y\u0259ni bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259d\u0259 s\u0259nin insan kimliyinin f\u0259rqi yoxdur.<\/p>\n

– Deyirs\u0259n ki, “h\u0259r \u015fey q\u00fcsurlar\u0131yla g\u00f6z\u0259ldir” \u0130nsanda \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck q\u00fcsur n\u0259dir? V\u0259 Mansurun \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck q\u00fcsuru n\u0259dir?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– \u00c7exovun sevdiyim bir s\u00f6z\u00fc var \u2013 h\u0259yat\u0131 d\u0259rk etm\u0259k bir nem\u0259tdir. \u0130nsanlar\u0131 q\u00fcsurlar\u0131yla q\u0259bul etm\u0259k h\u0259yat\u0131 d\u0259rk etm\u0259k dem\u0259kdir. \u0130nsanlar\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdirm\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil, \u0259g\u0259r bir insan \u00f6z q\u00fcsurunu g\u00f6st\u0259ribs\u0259, bunun bir s\u0259b\u0259bi m\u00fctl\u0259q var. Adi bir x\u0259yan\u0259ti g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259k, bir insan yalan dan\u0131\u015fanda, x\u0259yan\u0259t ed\u0259nd\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc m\u00fcdafi\u0259 etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn o q\u0259d\u0259r b\u0259han\u0259l\u0259r v\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259bl\u0259r g\u0259tirir ki, amma m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 ba\u015fqas\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 insan bu q\u0259d\u0259r anlay\u0131\u015fl\u0131 ola bilmir. Y\u0259ni insan ba\u015fqalar\u0131n\u0131 da \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n anlamal\u0131d\u0131r, \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n yola \u00e7\u0131xaraq onlar\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259lidir. H\u0259yat\u0131 d\u0259rk ed\u0259n insan q\u00fcsurlar\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 kims\u0259d\u0259n \u015fikay\u0259t ed\u0259, ondan \u00fcz d\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259 bilm\u0259z. \u00c7\u00fcnki bu h\u0259yat kimins\u0259 ba\u015f rolunu oynad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir film deyil, h\u0259r k\u0259s \u00f6z h\u0259yat\u0131nda ba\u015f roldad\u0131r. Yeddi milyard ba\u015f\u0131n oldu\u011fu bir d\u00fcnyada ya\u015fay\u0131r\u0131q, bir o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 q\u00fcsur var. Bunu ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k o q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u0259tin olmamal\u0131d\u0131r. \u018fg\u0259r s\u0259n q\u00fcsurlu oldu\u011fun halda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc sevm\u0259kd\u0259n imtina ed\u0259 bilmirs\u0259ns\u0259, bu anlay\u0131\u015f\u0131 ba\u015fqas\u0131na da g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n. M\u0259nim q\u00fcsurlar\u0131mdan biri s\u0259b\u0259bsiz yer\u0259 utancaql\u0131\u011f\u0131md\u0131r, insan i\u00e7in\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xmaqda \u00e7\u0259tinlik \u00e7\u0259kir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– Xeyyam \u00c7\u0259l\u0259bi – dostumuz deyir: \u201cf\u0259ls\u0259fi fikirl\u0259rl\u0259 dolu ba\u015f sahibidir Mansur\u201d. Art\u0131q \u0259hat\u0259n s\u0259nin f\u0259rqliliyini v\u0259 z\u0259kan\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr, q\u0259bul edir. M\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259nin altyap\u0131l\u0131 fikirl\u0259rin\u0259 heyranam. \u00d6z\u00fcnd\u0259n v\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131ndan \u00e7ox ir\u0259lid\u0259s\u0259n. Deyirs\u0259n ki, \u201czamana g\u00fcc\u00fc \u00e7atmayan insan h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00f6z yadda\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 oynay\u0131r<\/em>\u201d. Yadda\u015f\u0131nla \u00e7ox oynay\u0131rsan, bunu yaz\u0131lar\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m. H\u00f6kmranlara \u2013 zaman\u0131 idar\u0259 ed\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 yadda\u015f he\u00e7mi g\u0259r\u0259k deyil?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Yadda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 qurdalanan insan buradan ke\u00e7mi\u015fd\u0259n ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 n\u0259 tapm\u0131r. Ke\u00e7mi\u015fin\u0259 ili\u015f\u0259n insan is\u0259 ir\u0259li g\u00f6zl\u0259ri a\u00e7\u0131q ged\u0259 bilm\u0259z. Onlar yadda\u015f qurdlar\u0131d\u0131r, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ini \u0259l\u0259k-v\u0259l\u0259k edib ke\u00e7mi\u015fin\u0259 i\u015f\u0131q tutma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r \u2013 \u00f6z ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n k\u00f6lg\u0259si is\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 k\u00f6lg\u0259 sal\u0131r. \u0130r\u0259liy\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcba\u011fl\u0131 gedirl\u0259r. Amma zamana h\u00f6kmranl\u0131q ed\u0259nl\u0259r \u2013 zaman\u0131 tarix\u0259 \u00e7evir\u0259nl\u0259r \u00f6z ke\u00e7mi\u015fl\u0259rini unudanlard\u0131r, daha do\u011frusu \u00f6z g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259rin\u0259 projektoru lap gerid\u0259n sal\u0131rlar. Yadda\u015f onlara g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yi qoruyub saxlamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn laz\u0131md\u0131r, ke\u00e7mi\u015fi yox.<\/p>\n

– S\u0259nin fikirl\u0259rin sad\u0259c\u0259 heyranl\u0131q do\u011furur. Af\u0259rin! Yen\u0259 \u00f6rn\u0259k g\u0259tirdiyim essen\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r salaq. Orada bel\u0259 bir fikir var \u201cYadda\u015f\u0131 olan he\u00e7 bir canl\u0131 azad deyil\u201d . Azadl\u0131q nec\u0259 olur s\u0259nc\u0259?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– \u0130nsan\u0131n x\u0259yal d\u00fcnyas\u0131 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r geni\u015fdirs\u0259, o q\u0259d\u0259r azadd\u0131r. X\u0259yal d\u00fcnyas\u0131 zamans\u0131z v\u0259 nam\u0259lum bir m\u0259kand\u0131r \u2013 insan\u0131n azad oldu\u011fu, ola bildiyi yegan\u0259 m\u0259kan. X\u0259yal qura bilm\u0259y\u0259n, x\u0259yallar\u0131 olmayan insan \u00f6z azadl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan da m\u0259hrumdur.<\/p>\n

– Unutmadan n\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fmis\u0259n?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Fikrimc\u0259, insan \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fmir, d\u00f6z\u00fcr. Y\u0259qin d\u00f6zm\u0259k d\u0259 bir \u00f6yr\u0259nc\u0259klikdir. Vaxtil\u0259 zorla dart\u0131b evd\u0259n \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131rd\u0131lar m\u0259ni \u2013 insan i\u00e7in\u0259. \u0130ndi evd\u0259n k\u0259nara \u00e7\u0131xma\u011fa \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fmi\u015f\u0259m. Bax\u0131ram ki, h\u0259r k\u0259s \u00f6z k\u00f6lg\u0259sini arxas\u0131nca \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcb apar\u0131r, y\u0259ni m\u0259nl\u0259 probleml\u0259ri yoxdur. Amma h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z yadda\u015f\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xma\u011fa \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, h\u0259l\u0259 ki, orada e\u015f\u0259l\u0259nir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– Rauf Q\u0259rib Alag\u00f6z s\u0259nin r\u0259ssaml\u0131q istedad\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6n\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi: \u201cd\u0259h\u015f\u0259t adamd\u0131r Mansur, r\u0259sml\u0259rin\u0259 heyranam!\u201d \u2013 dedi.\u00a0\u00a0 Ba\u015fqa bir dostumuz Araz Yusifli d\u0259 \u201cqeyri adi yazilari v\u0259 r\u0259sml\u0259ri olan bir dost\u201d deyir s\u0259n\u0259. V\u0259 \u201cyax\u0131n zamanlarda s\u0259rgi ke\u00e7irm\u0259k fikri var? M\u0259n\u0259 s\u00f6z verdiyi r\u0259smi n\u0259 zaman g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m?\u201d soru\u015fur…<\/strong><\/p>\n

– H\u0259r iki dostuma t\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr edir\u0259m. Xo\u015f s\u00f6zl\u0259ri onlar\u0131n \u00f6z g\u00f6z\u0259lliyind\u0259n g\u0259lir. S\u00f6z verdiyim r\u0259sml\u0259ri n\u0259 zaman ist\u0259s\u0259, g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259 bil\u0259r dostum. Pe\u015f\u0259kar r\u0259ssam deyil\u0259m, h\u0259v\u0259skar formada \u00e7\u0259km\u0259yi \u00f6yr\u0259nmi\u015f\u0259m. S\u0131x\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131 d\u00f6n\u0259ml\u0259rd\u0259 bir \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f yolu idi r\u0259sm \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k. Bu, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fct\u0259sdiq idimi, ya ba\u015fqa bir \u015fey \u2013 amma o d\u00f6n\u0259ml\u0259rd\u0259 \u00e7\u0259km\u0259yi \u00f6yr\u0259ndim. B\u00f6y\u00fck \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259r ortaya \u00e7\u0131xarmam\u0131\u015fam, onlara \u201c\u0259s\u0259r\u201d d\u0259 dem\u0259k yek\u0259xanal\u0131q olard\u0131, bu i\u015f\u0259 vaxt ay\u0131rmaq sad\u0259c\u0259 g\u0259rginlikd\u0259n qa\u00e7\u0131\u015fd\u0131r, dey\u0259s\u0259n, bir az da \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fct\u0259s\u0259lli… S\u0259rgi b\u00f6y\u00fck anlay\u0131\u015fd\u0131r, insanlar\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131na \u0259li \u0259t\u0259yind\u0259n uzun \u00e7\u0131xmaq olmaz, ay\u0131b olard\u0131. Amma bu c\u0131zma-qaralar\u0131m dostlar\u0131ma xo\u015f g\u0259libs\u0259, buna g\u00f6r\u0259 onlara ancaq t\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr ed\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– \u015eeir yazm\u0131san he\u00e7?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Onlara \u015feir dem\u0259k olarsa, yazm\u0131\u015fam. Amma \u015feir yazma\u011fa he\u00e7 vaxt h\u0259v\u0259sli olmam\u0131\u015fam, n\u0259sri daha \u00e7ox sevir\u0259m. Bir d\u00f6n\u0259ml\u0259r vard\u0131 ki, b\u0259z\u0259n hissl\u0259rimi \u015feir formas\u0131nda t\u0259svir etm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim, amma ba\u015f tutmurdu. Bacarmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n bir i\u015f\u0259 vaxt ay\u0131rmaq, insan\u0131 yar\u0131yolda qoyur. Baxd\u0131m ki, m\u0259nlik deyil, bir d\u0259 \u0259l vurmad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

– S\u0259nin n\u0259srini oxuyuram sev\u0259-sev\u0259. El\u0259 oxucular\u0131m\u0131za da m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t g\u00f6r\u0259rdim (oxumayanlara). \u018fziz adam, q\u00fcrur insana n\u0259 verir?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Kim dediyini bilmir\u0259m, bel\u0259 bir s\u00f6z var, q\u00fcrurun \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259lind\u0259n bel\u0259 cinay\u0259tin qoxusu g\u0259lir. Lakin s\u0259n haqq bildiyin bir sava\u015f\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259s\u0259ns\u0259, dik dayanmaq s\u0259ni \u00f6z ideallar\u0131na \u00e7atd\u0131ra bil\u0259r – dizl\u0259ri \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 yox, ayaq\u00fcst\u0259. Haqs\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda bir d\u0259f\u0259 b\u00fckd\u00fcy\u00fcn dizi \u00f6z\u00fcn d\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259ld\u0259 bilmirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

– Sevdiyin musiqi janr\u0131 hans\u0131d\u0131r? \u0130\u00e7 d\u00fcnyas\u0131 z\u0259ngin adamlar\u0131n \u00f6z musiqisi olmal\u0131…<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Ruh hal\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fir, b\u0259z\u0259n n\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259ldi qulaq as\u0131ram, \u00e7ox vaxt is\u0259 s\u00f6zs\u00fcz musiqil\u0259ri dinl\u0259yir\u0259m. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, simfoniyalar\u0131. \u018fn sevdiyim b\u0259st\u0259karsa Bethovendir, bizimkil\u0259rd\u0259n Eldar Mansurov. Roku da \u00e7ox dinl\u0259yir\u0259m, m\u00fcmk\u00fcns\u0259 metal rok.<\/p>\n

– \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 n\u0259 zaman sevmis\u0259n? Sevgi s\u0259nin bax\u0131\u015f\u0131nda nec\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr? izah et m\u00fcmk\u00fcns\u0259…<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Orta m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 oxuyanda bir q\u0131za a\u015fiq olmu\u015fdum, on il sevdim onu. Nec\u0259 deyim, qa\u00e7\u0131b \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc adamla dolu qatar\u0131n i\u00e7in\u0259 at\u0131rsan, b\u0259lk\u0259 ona rast g\u0259ldin dey\u0259. B\u0259z\u0259n sevgini h\u0259r g\u00fcn k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k verdiyin k\u00f6p\u0259yin bir g\u00fcn \u0259linin bo\u015f oldu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u00fcb quyruq bulayaraq \u00fcmidsizc\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini s\u0259n\u0259 zill\u0259m\u0259sind\u0259n bilirs\u0259n. Sevgi g\u00f6zl\u0259rin saata dadanmas\u0131d\u0131r v\u0259 ya \u00fcr\u0259yin sferblat\u0131nda f\u0131rlanan b\u00f6y\u00fck bir bo\u015fluq.<\/p>\n

– Bizd\u0259 – Az\u0259rbaycanda azad sevgi varm\u0131? Azad seks n\u0259 dem\u0259kdi s\u0259nc\u0259?\"70536814_2667678143319794_8581348492813795328_n<\/a><\/strong><\/p>\n

– Sevgi h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 azadd\u0131r \u2013 hissl\u0259ri buxovlamaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil. Y\u0259ni duy\u011fular \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131n h\u00f6mranl\u0131q etm\u0259si m\u00fcmk\u00fcns\u00fczd\u00fcr. Sevm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn gizli bir yer laz\u0131m deyil, zat\u0259n bu, insan\u0131n \u0259n gizli yerind\u0259dir \u2013 \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259, oran\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259k he\u00e7 insan\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259 m\u00fcy\u0259ss\u0259r olmur. \u0130nsanlar da bir yolunu tap\u0131b sevirl\u0259r, buna \u0259ng\u0259l olma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fanlar is\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik qatill\u0259ridir. Ba\u015fqalar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 ox\u015fatmaq v\u0259 i\u00e7ind\u0259 oldu\u011fu bataql\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k insan\u0131n t\u0259bi\u0259tind\u0259 var.Azad seksin n\u0259 oldu\u011funu dey\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m, amma kiminl\u0259 g\u0259ldi, harada g\u0259ldi m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni h\u0259ll etm\u0259k deyil. Biz seksd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc azad etm\u0259liyik.<\/p>\n

– S\u0259ni \u00e7ox yordum, bilir\u0259m, inan ki q\u0131ym\u0131ram. H\u0259m d\u0259 s\u0259ninl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmaq o q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259ldir ki… S\u0259liq\u0259li m\u00fcsahibs\u0259n. Cavablar\u0131n maraql\u0131 v\u0259 s\u0259listdir. \u0130lk tam raz\u0131 qald\u0131\u011f\u0131m m\u00fcsahibims\u0259n. Bax, bu zaman\u0131, bu saat\u0131, bu gec\u0259ni dayand\u0131ran bir c\u00fcml\u0259, bir fikir ist\u0259yir\u0259m s\u0259nd\u0259n…<\/strong><\/p>\n

– Bir g\u00fcn adamla dolu s\u0259kil\u0259rin birind\u0259 ona rast g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yik.<\/p>\n

– S\u0259nd\u0259n sonra kiminl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131m\u0131 ist\u0259yirs\u0259n? V\u0259 o adama bir sual verm\u0259k h\u00fcququn var?<\/strong><\/p>\n

– H\u0259mid Piriyevl\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259tiniz \u00e7ox maraql\u0131 olard\u0131. Ondan soru\u015fars\u0131n\u0131z ki, yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 daha \u00e7ox hans\u0131 d\u00f6vr\u00fc qabartmal\u0131d\u0131r, ke\u00e7mi\u015f v\u0259 ya g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k insan haqda yazmal\u0131d\u0131r? Bunun bir \u00f6n\u0259mi varm\u0131?<\/p>\n

– Ba\u015f \u00fcst\u0259, H\u0259mid b\u0259y\u0259 sual\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259mnuniyy\u0259tl\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131raca\u011fam. \u00c7ox minn\u0259tdaram, Mansur, t\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcrl\u0259r s\u00f6hb\u0259t\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259…<\/strong><\/p>\n

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Mansur R\u0259\u011fb\u0259to\u011flu: G\u0259ncl\u0259rimiz rahat deyil – xo\u015fb\u0259xt deyil, g\u0259rgindir, intihara meyllidir.\u00bb \u201c\u0130nsan el\u0259 bir varl\u0131qd\u0131r ki, d\u0259yirman kimi h\u0259r \u015feyi \u00f6z yadda\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kib x\u0131rdalayaraq ist\u0259diyi formaya salma\u011fa meyllidir. \u018fg\u0259r bel\u0259 bir g\u00fcc insan\u0131n yadda\u015f\u0131nda yox \u0259lind\u0259dirs\u0259 – Tanr\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fc kimi yaratmaq v\u0259 da\u011f\u0131tmaq g\u00fcc\u00fcnd\u0259dirs\u0259, zamana tabe olmadan h\u0259r \u015feyi \u00f6z ehtiras\u0131n\u0131n qurban\u0131na \u00e7evirm\u0259k ist\u0259yir. Lakin […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[27],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13452"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=13452"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13452\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":13456,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13452\/revisions\/13456"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=13452"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=13452"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=13452"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}