{"id":13734,"date":"2020-03-11T23:07:13","date_gmt":"2020-03-11T19:07:13","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=13734"},"modified":"2020-03-11T23:12:56","modified_gmt":"2020-03-11T19:12:56","slug":"esqin-son-umid-seirl%c9%99r","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=13734","title":{"rendered":"E\u015fqin – “Son \u00fcmid” (\u015feirl\u0259r)"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"20200303_203121\"<\/a>(Yeni imza….)<\/span><\/p>\n

Pay\u0131z m\u0259ni dar\u0131xd\u0131r\u0131r, \u0130lahi!<\/p>\n

Q\u0259ribliyim sanki yen\u0259 qal\u0131bd\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Sevinc add\u0131m-add\u0131m \u00f6t\u00fcr yan\u0131mdan,<\/p>\n

Arzular\u0131m \u00e7iskin-\u00e7\u0259n\u0259 qal\u0131bd\u0131r.<\/p>\n

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N\u0259 zal\u0131mm\u0131\u015f bu \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fc d\u00fcz\u0259ld\u0259n,<\/p>\n

Bir \u00f6m\u00fcr ki, d\u00fcz \u00e7\u0131xmay\u0131b y\u00fcz \u0259ld\u0259n…<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim b\u0259xtim bel\u0259 g\u0259lib \u0259z\u0259ld\u0259n,<\/p>\n

Sabahlar\u0131m min d\u00fcn\u0259n\u0259 qal\u0131bd\u0131r.<\/p>\n

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Ax\u0131 nec\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131m, gedim xo\u015f yer\u0259?<\/p>\n

B\u0259sdi ruhum, b\u0259sdir, m\u0259nd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f yer\u0259.<\/p>\n

\u00dcmidl\u0259ri x\u0259rcl\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m bo\u015f yer\u0259<\/p>\n

O \u00fcmidd\u0259n birc\u0259 d\u0259n\u0259 qal\u0131bd\u0131r.<\/p>\n

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Uzaqla\u015fd\u0131n m\u0259nd\u0259n yen\u0259 y\u00fcz qar\u0131\u015f,<\/p>\n

Bu taleyim, vallah, m\u0259n\u0259 q\u0131\u015fd\u0131-q\u0131\u015f…<\/p>\n

Gah borand\u0131, gah tufand\u0131, gah ya\u011f\u0131\u015f,<\/p>\n

Son \u00fcmidim s\u00f6n\u0259-s\u00f6n\u0259 qal\u0131bd\u0131r.<\/p>\n

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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 S\u0259n <\/strong><\/p>\n

Bilmirdin n\u0259 vaxtsa a\u011flayacaqsan ,<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim g\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259 ya\u015f qoyanda s\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Sevgi qalas\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259n t\u0259k tik\u0259rdim<\/p>\n

Yad\u0131n yuvas\u0131na da\u015f qoyanda s\u0259n.<\/p>\n

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\u018fll\u0259rin \u0259claf\u0131n kobud \u0259lind\u0259 ,<\/p>\n

Bir zaman solacaq t\u0259rav\u0259tin d\u0259 ,<\/p>\n

H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131lar tutur sin\u0259md\u0259,<\/p>\n

\u00d6zg\u0259 sin\u0259sin\u0259 ba\u015f qoyanda s\u0259n.<\/p>\n

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O s\u0259ni t\u0259rk edib g\u00f6zl\u0259rin ya\u015fda<\/p>\n

Nec\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131m , deyir ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla,<\/p>\n

Bilmirdin \u0259ll\u0259rin qalacaq bo\u015fda ?<\/p>\n

E\u015fqinin \u00fcr\u0259yin bo\u015f qoyanda s\u0259n.<\/p>\n

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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 G\u00fcnahs\u0131zlar\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

Bir \u015feyi anlamam it\u0259 , pi\u015fiy\u0259
\nBiz heyvan ismini vermi\u015fik niy\u0259?
\nBir halda d\u00fcnyada kamildi insan
\nNiy\u0259 biz onlara vurmu\u015fuq ziyan ?
\nFilin s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259s\u0259ydik g\u0259r\u0259k ,
\nN\u0259 var \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259ld\u0259k b\u0259z\u0259k .
\nMe\u015f\u0259d\u0259 can ver\u0259n yaral\u0131 ceyran ,
\n\u00d6ld\u00fcr\u00fcb d\u00fcnyada b\u0259y\u0259m bir insan ?
\nHeyvanlar haql\u0131d\u0131r , \u0259lbt\u0259d\u0259 -\u0259lb\u0259t
\nS\u0259n dem\u0259 yoximi\u015f bizd\u0259 m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259t .
\nNiy\u0259 biz b\u00fclb\u00fcl\u00fc s\u0131xaq q\u0259f\u0259sd\u0259 ?
\n\u018fg\u0259r \u00f6l\u00fcr\u00fcks\u0259 \u00bb Azadl\u0131q \u00bb \u00fcst\u0259.
\n\u018fyilm\u0259z v\u0259fas\u0131z g\u00fcl\u00fcn e\u015fqin\u0259 ,
\nTikanlar \u00fcst\u0259dir azadl\u0131q yen\u0259.
\n\u018fg\u0259r inki\u015faf ets\u0259k q\u0259lbd\u0259ki hisd\u0259,
\nVicdan b\u00f6y\u00fctm\u00fc\u015f\u00fck q\u0259lbimiz \u00fcst\u0259.
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rim \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 b\u0259db\u0259xt bir qoca ,
\nH\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t eyl\u0259di \u00bb ya\u015f\u0131ndan uca \u00bb
\n\u018fyilib o yerd\u0259n g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb da\u015f\u0131 ,
\nVurmaq ist\u0259yirdi g\u00fcnahs\u0131z qu\u015fu
\nK\u0259nardan izl\u0259yib biraz bu hay\u0131,
\nD\u00f6zm\u0259dim , ax\u0131rda s\u00f6yl\u0259dim day\u0131,
\nO da\u015f\u0131 atma\u011fa verm\u0259 s\u0259n q\u0259rar ,
\nQu\u015funda d\u00fcnyada ya\u015fam haqq\u0131 var.
\nOlmazsa Yerd\u0259 heyvanlar \u0259g\u0259r,
\n\u0130nsanlar \u00e7\u0259k\u0259rl\u0259r t\u0259klikd\u0259n k\u0259d\u0259r.
\nEy E\u015fqin , bu haqda yazd\u0131n ki\u00e7ik s\u00f6z,
\nG\u0259lin d\u00fcnyam\u0131z\u0131 qoruya\u011f\u0131n biz.!<\/p>\n

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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 *****\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <\/strong><\/p>\n

Hardasa , nam\u0259lum bir ada yax\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda
\nQ\u0259zaya u\u011fram\u0131\u015f g\u0259mi kimi
\n\u00c7oxdan t\u0259rk edilmi\u015f\u0259m.
\nBoz r\u0259ngli havalarda
\nK\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259r ,
\nYa\u011f\u0131\u015flar ,
\nM\u0259ni \u00e7ox d\u00f6y\u00fcb .
\nYarpaqlar\u0131m \u00e7oxdan torpaq olub ,
\nMam\u0131rlam\u0131\u015f budaqlar\u0131m
\nQ\u0131r\u0131q \u2013 q\u0131r\u0131q ,
\nX\u0131rda \u2013x\u0131rda ,
\nEnir yer\u0259 .
\nArt\u0131q quruma\u011f\u0131n vaxt\u0131d\u0131r.
\nOnsuz s\u0259n d\u0259 m\u0259ni t\u0259miz unutmusan
\nK\u00f6hn\u0259 \u015f\u0259kill\u0259r\u00a0 kimi
\nGec –\u00a0 gec
\nYad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m.
\nT\u0259k buludun n\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131 olar ki ?
\nTopa halda bu d\u00fcnyaya ya\u011fmasa…<\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0 Yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131m Qad\u0131\u0131n<\/strong><\/p>\n

S\u0259n k\u0259d\u0259rli dan\u0131\u015fma ,<\/p>\n

Sevinc s\u0259nd\u0259n inciy\u0259r .<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u00fcnki , bizim sevinci ..<\/p>\n

\u00c7oxdan tutub q\u0259m , k\u0259f\u0259r.<\/p>\n

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S\u0259ni qucaqlayanda<\/p>\n

Ulduzlar kimi m\u0259nd\u0259n…<\/p>\n

Anlay\u0131rd\u0131m uzaqsan ,<\/p>\n

H\u0259r s\u0259maya baxanda.<\/p>\n

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Deyirs\u0259n daha b\u0259sdi ,<\/p>\n

Olaq \u00f6zm\u00fczd\u0259n uzaq<\/p>\n

Biz ki , bir olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131q ,<\/p>\n

Ax\u0131 nec\u0259 ayr\u0131laq ?<\/p>\n

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Amma yen\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck<\/p>\n

A\u011fr\u0131 g\u0259lmit i\u00e7im\u0259<\/p>\n

I\u015fl\u0259nmi\u015f \u015feyl\u0259ri<\/p>\n

Xo\u015flam\u0131ram incim\u0259<\/p>\n

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S\u0259ni \u00e7ox sev\u0259rdim<\/p>\n

Tanr\u0131n\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259tta ciddi<\/p>\n

Olmayanlar\u0131 sevm\u0259k<\/p>\n

M\u0259nd\u0259 k\u00f6hn\u0259 ad\u0259tdi.<\/p>\n

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Rusiyaya ged\u0259n yol 1999 cu il<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

Sa\u011f ol deyib , v\u0259t\u0259nd\u0259n<\/p>\n

Atam\u0131n arxas\u0131nca ….<\/p>\n

Uzaq bir yola d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm ,<\/p>\n

Bir qaranl\u0131q qatarda .<\/p>\n

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Pul olmad\u0131 kupey\u0259<\/p>\n

On\u00e7\u00fcn ald\u0131q plaskart<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259m , babamdan \u00f6tr\u00fc<\/p>\n

Dar\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131m h\u0259r saat.<\/p>\n

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Gah i\u015f\u0131q yan\u0131b \u2013 s\u00f6n\u00fcr<\/p>\n

Arada bala k\u0259s\u0259y\u0259n<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u00f6r\u0259k o\u011furlayanda<\/p>\n

Qorxurdum d\u00fcz\u00fc b\u0259z\u0259n.<\/p>\n

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Sevmirdim bu s\u0259f\u0259ri<\/p>\n

A\u011flay\u0131b ist\u0259yirdim ,<\/p>\n

\u201c Tetrisd\u0259ki \u201c ma\u015f\u0131nlar<\/p>\n

Qaytars\u0131n m\u0259ni geri .<\/p>\n

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B\u0259lk\u0259 var tan\u0131\u015flar\u0131m<\/p>\n

D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259siyl\u0259 bax\u0131b ,<\/p>\n

Yad insanlar tap\u0131rd\u0131<\/p>\n

Ancaq s\u0259rt bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131m<\/p>\n

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Betonkaya \u00e7at\u0131\u0131rd\u0131q<\/p>\n

Biz art\u0131q add\u0131m \u2013 add\u0131m<\/p>\n

H\u0259tta dar\u0131xmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ,<\/p>\n

S\u0259birsiz dar\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

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Var idi orda bayraq<\/p>\n

\u00dc\u00e7r\u0259ngli formada<\/p>\n

Amma onda yox idi<\/p>\n

N\u0259 ulduz , n\u0259 ay para .<\/p>\n

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Art\u0131q h\u0259qiq\u0259t idi<\/p>\n

Qar\u015f\u0131mda yeni d\u00fcnya<\/p>\n

Bilirdim , V\u0259t\u0259n\u0259 qal\u0131b ,<\/p>\n

M\u0259nd\u0259n \u00e7ox-\u00e7ox uzaqda.<\/p>\n

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B\u0259z\u0259n durnalarla<\/p>\n

El\u0259 salam deyib , ancaq ..<\/p>\n

Bilirdim ki , bu qu\u015flar<\/p>\n

Bizl\u0259rd\u0259 olmur qonaq .<\/p>\n

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G\u0259ldiyim resl\u0259r \u00fcst\u0259<\/p>\n

M\u0259n u\u015faq a\u011f\u0131l\u0131yla<\/p>\n

\u0130st\u0259yirdim hey qa\u00e7am<\/p>\n

\u00dcz\u00fc el\u0259 – obaya.<\/p>\n

Yaz\u0131ya 1635 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

(Yeni imza….) Pay\u0131z m\u0259ni dar\u0131xd\u0131r\u0131r, \u0130lahi! Q\u0259ribliyim sanki yen\u0259 qal\u0131bd\u0131r. Sevinc add\u0131m-add\u0131m \u00f6t\u00fcr yan\u0131mdan, Arzular\u0131m \u00e7iskin-\u00e7\u0259n\u0259 qal\u0131bd\u0131r.   N\u0259 zal\u0131mm\u0131\u015f bu \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fc d\u00fcz\u0259ld\u0259n, Bir \u00f6m\u00fcr ki, d\u00fcz \u00e7\u0131xmay\u0131b y\u00fcz \u0259ld\u0259n… M\u0259nim b\u0259xtim bel\u0259 g\u0259lib \u0259z\u0259ld\u0259n, Sabahlar\u0131m min d\u00fcn\u0259n\u0259 qal\u0131bd\u0131r.   Ax\u0131 nec\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131m, gedim xo\u015f yer\u0259? B\u0259sdi ruhum, b\u0259sdir, m\u0259nd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f yer\u0259. \u00dcmidl\u0259ri x\u0259rcl\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m bo\u015f […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[15,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13734"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=13734"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13734\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":13738,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13734\/revisions\/13738"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=13734"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=13734"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=13734"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}