{"id":13976,"date":"2020-05-22T15:34:43","date_gmt":"2020-05-22T10:34:43","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=13976"},"modified":"2020-05-22T16:33:26","modified_gmt":"2020-05-22T11:33:26","slug":"oz-irad%c9%99sind%c9%99n-qopub-sozun-irad%c9%99sin%c9%99-siginan-irad%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=13976","title":{"rendered":"“\u00d6z irad\u0259sind\u0259n qopub s\u00f6z\u00fcn irad\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131nan \u0130rad\u0259”"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"26168538_1973881102625558_3805349614218759972_n\"<\/a>A\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 deyim ki, qad\u0131n yazarlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 maraql\u0131 olub. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, ki\u015fi yazarlardan f\u0259rqli olaraq, onlar \u00e7ox vaxt\u0131 \u00f6z i\u00e7 d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 tam \u015f\u0259kil\u0259d\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131b qabarda bilmirl\u0259r. Y\u0259qin, bir \u00e7\u0259kin\u0259c\u0259k yerl\u0259ri var! \u00c7ox g\u00fcman ki, bu mentalitetd\u0259n ir\u0259li g\u0259lir. Amma f\u0259rqi yoxdur, \u00fcr\u0259k \u00fcr\u0259kdi, o \u00fcr\u0259yi ham\u0131ya tanr\u0131 verib, g\u0259r\u0259k s\u0259n o \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259 ya\u015faya bil\u0259s\u0259n.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

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M\u0259n bir xan\u0131m yazar haqq\u0131nda s\u00f6hb\u0259t a\u00e7maq ist\u0259yir\u0259m. O, xan\u0131m, tam f\u0259rqli d\u00fcnyaya v\u0259 xarakter\u0259 malikdir. \u0130rad\u0259 Ayteli deyir\u0259m. O, \u0130rad\u0259 Aytel ki, he\u00e7 k\u0259s\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259m\u0259y\u0259n, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 m\u0259xsus bir i\u00e7 d\u00fcnyas\u0131 var. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc hiss etmir ki, onun i\u00e7 d\u00fcnyas\u0131 onu harayasa s\u00fcr\u00fckl\u0259yib, harayasa apar\u0131r. Bu onun q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259sidirmi, ya m\u0259\u011flubiyy\u0259tidirmi? B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bunun f\u0259rqin\u0259 varm\u0131r. El\u0259 f\u0259rqin\u0259 varmasa yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r, \u00e7\u00fcnki, insan\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259ki q\u0131sqancl\u0131q, \u00e7\u0259kin\u0259c\u0259klik s\u0259n\u0259t d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259hvin\u0259 g\u0259tirib \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131r. H\u0259r halda bunu zaman g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259r. Oras\u0131 da var ki, yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131q f\u0259dakarl\u0131q t\u0259l\u0259b edir.<\/span><\/p>\n

Onu da deyim ki, c\u0259sar\u0259tli insanlar\u0131 h\u0259yat\u0131n burul\u011fan\u0131ndan zaman \u00f6z\u00fc qanadlar\u0131na al\u0131b, \u00fcz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b xilas ed\u0259 bilir.<\/span><\/p>\n

O da var ki, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 axtar\u0131\u015fda olan bir xan\u0131md\u0131r.\u00a0<\/span>Yenillik axtara-axtara ya\u015fay\u0131b yarad\u0131r. O, yenillik t\u0259r\u0259fdar\u0131d\u0131r, el\u0259 bir yenillik ki, o yenillik ya\u015fan\u0131la bilsin, ya\u015fant\u0131l\u0131 olsun. M\u0259n onun s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259rini dinl\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, \u015feirl\u0259rinid\u0259 d\u0259, el\u0259 n\u0259srind\u0259 d\u0259 bunun \u015fahidi olmu\u015fam. H\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tamamlay\u0131b \u00f6z\u00fc kimi ola bilib, h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc kimidir. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259n onu ona b\u00f6l\u0259 bilmir\u0259m. Bir n\u00fcans\u0131 da \u00f6n\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kim, bu, m\u0259nim \u00f6z fkirmdir, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259mdir. Bir insan\u0131n ruhundan qopan \u015feir olsun, ya n\u0259sr olsun, bir-birin\u0259 \u00e7ox ox\u015fay\u0131r. \u00c7\u00fcnki, o onun ruhudur, can\u0131d\u0131r. Bu m\u0259nada \u0130rad\u0259nin \u015feiri d\u0259, n\u0259sri d\u0259, onun ruh v\u0259 can ya\u015fant\u0131s\u0131d\u0131r. O ya\u015fant\u0131n\u0131 yaz\u0131r, oldu\u011fu kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r. \u018fsas odur ki, ist\u0259diyi ola bilir, ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131 yams\u0131lam\u0131r.<\/span><\/p>\n

Onu da deyim ki, \u0130rad\u0259 yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda tam qad\u0131nd\u0131r. Qad\u0131n hissl\u0259ri il\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131r, qad\u0131n hissl\u0259ri il\u0259 yaz\u0131b yarad\u0131r. \u0130rad\u0259nin qad\u0131n haqq\u0131nda oxuduqlar\u0131n\u0131, e\u015fitdikl\u0259rini, g\u00f6r\u00fcb duyduqlar\u0131n\u0131, v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ke\u00e7irdiyi hissl\u0259ri q\u0259lbinin s\u00fczg\u0259cind\u0259n ke\u00e7irib \u015feir \u00e7\u0259l\u0259ngi yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259n bu \u015feirind\u0259 daha ayd\u0131n, daha s\u0259lis g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m. Onu da deyim, qad\u0131n ist\u0259kd\u0259n yo\u011frulmasa da butunu ist\u0259kl\u0259rin ba\u015f\u0131nda durur.<\/span><\/p>\n

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\u0130st\u0259kd\u0259n yo\u011frulsan da,<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

\u0130st\u0259kl\u0259 do\u011fulmad\u0131n.<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

O q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7ox idi arzun<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Arzundaca bo\u011fuldun!<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Yum! Yum g\u00f6zl\u0259rini, qad\u0131n!<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

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Qad\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7 d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259m\u0259xsus t\u0259rzd\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131r. Qad\u0131n arzusu, qad\u0131n ist\u0259yi n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r b\u00f6y\u00fck, ali olsa da bir o q\u0259d\u0259r o ist\u0259y\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 bigan\u0259lik, laqeydlik g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. Bu \u015feir h\u0259r \u015feyi \u00f6z\u00fc dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r, \u00f6z deyir, sad\u0259c\u0259 oxucudan bu a\u011fr\u0131n\u0131, ac\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259rk edib duymaq t\u0259l\u0259b olunur. Y\u0259qin ki, h\u0259r k\u0259s \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259m\u0259xsus d\u0259rk edib, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259m\u0259xsus duyacaq. \u015eeir \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l sonluqla bitir. Qad\u0131n vuqar\u0131n\u0131, ucal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, b\u00fct\u00fcn ucal\u0131qdan ucada g\u00f6r\u00fcr \u0130rad\u0259.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Dola\u015fd\u0131r b\u0259mb\u0259yaz buxa\u011f\u0131na…<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

– Ana!<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Yen\u0259…<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Bala s\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7evril,<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Bala n\u0259f\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0259ril…<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

S\u0259ril!<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

S\u0259ril!<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

T\u0259kc\u0259 \u00f6z aya\u011f\u0131na s\u0259rilm\u0259!<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Ayaqlama c\u0259nn\u0259ti!<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

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\u00d6z aya\u011f\u0131na da s\u0259rilib ayaqlama c\u0259nn\u0259ti, -deyir. Bu onun i\u00e7ind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n bir hiss, duy\u011fudur. M\u0259n onu b\u00fct\u00fcn hisl\u0259ri il\u0259, duy\u011fular\u0131 il\u0259 tan\u0131y\u0131ram, ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m. O \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n uzaqla\u015f\u0131b \u00f6zg\u0259l\u0259\u015f\u0259 bilmir, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 uzaqla\u015f\u0131b haraya q\u0259d\u0259rs\u0259 gedib \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r bil\u0259r, amma yen\u0259 g\u0259lib \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 tap\u0131r, n\u0259 olmaq, nec\u0259 olmaq ist\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259 yen\u0259 d\u0259 g\u0259lib \u00f6z\u00fc olur. \u018ftraf\u0131nda dolanan hadis\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n, g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc, hiss etdiyi, ilham ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u0259r \u00fcns\u00fcrd\u0259n b\u0259hrl\u0259nm\u0259yi bacar\u0131r. Amma onu bilmir\u0259m ilhams\u0131z vaxtlar\u0131 olur, ya olmur. Onu dey\u0259 bilir\u0259m ki, h\u0259r bir yazar \u00f6z d\u00f6vr\u00fcn\u00fcn, zaman\u0131n ya\u015fant\u0131lar\u0131na g\u00fczg\u00fc tutur.<\/span><\/p>\n

O, qad\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7 d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131n hissl\u0259rini a\u00e7a bilir v\u0259 c\u0259sar\u0259tl\u0259 dem\u0259k q\u00fcdr\u0259tin\u0259 malikdir.<\/span><\/p>\n

Bu \u015feir tam f\u0259rqli yana\u015fmad\u0131r, qad\u0131n hayq\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131, haray\u0131 var. Qad\u0131nda intiqam hissi ba\u015f qald\u0131r\u0131r. “\u00d6l\u00fcm g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k\u201d\u015feirind\u0259n bu par\u00e7aya diqq\u0259t yetir\u0259k.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Bax, indi bayaqdan<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

b\u0259ri arxamca s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259n<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

bu bahal\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131na \u0259yl\u0259\u015f\u0259c\u0259m!<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Qap\u0131n\u0131n boyuna \u0259y\u0131l\u0259n kimi<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Qam\u0259tim g\u00f6z\u00fcmn\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k!<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Sonra bahal\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

varl\u0131 sahibi il\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f olacam.<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Bu qad\u0131n q\u00fcrurunun s\u0131nmas\u0131 deyilmi? O q\u00fcrur s\u0131nd\u0131sa bu f\u0259lak\u0259t\u0259 \u00e7evrilmirmi?<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Bahal\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Varl\u0131 sahibinin bahal\u0131 siqaretini yand\u0131r\u0131b<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Eyn\u0259n onun kimi \u00e7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259m.<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Ciy\u0259rl\u0259rim (el\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm kimi)<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

\u0130lk g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc a\u011fu\u015funa alacaq.<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Ay\u0131lacam v\u0259…<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00d6z\u00fcm g\u00f6z\u00fcmn\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259m.<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Ah.. n\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l.<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Uraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00d6l\u00fcm g\u00f6z\u00fcmn\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k!<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

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B\u0259li, bu qad\u0131n intiqam\u0131d\u0131r, qisas\u0131d\u0131r. Qoy onu da qeyd edim ki, qad\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259viyyat\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn ucal\u0131qdan ucada dayan\u0131r. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 onu ucal\u0131qda g\u00f6rm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r. Qad\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259viyyat\u0131n\u0131n al\u00e7almas\u0131 c\u0259miyy\u0259tin al\u00e7almas\u0131d\u0131r, ayaqlar alt\u0131na at\u0131lmas\u0131d\u0131r. \u00d6l\u00fcm ali hisdir, onu qad\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n sald\u0131nsa, o h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n, h\u0259r \u015feyind\u0259n; – varl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan da, yoxlu\u011fundan da imtina ed\u0259c\u0259k. Bu, bir qad\u0131n usyankarl\u0131\u011f\u0131d\u0131r, h\u0259tta, o m\u0259qamda, birinci \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

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\u0130rad\u0259nin hekay\u0259si d\u0259 \u015feir kimidi. Ruhu eynidir. Adam\u0131 silk\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 bilir. Birini \u015feir dilind\u0259 deyir, ba\u015fqa birisini hekay\u0259. Hekay\u0259l\u0259ri d\u0259 sanki z\u00fcmz\u00fcm\u0259 edir. “Yetim laylalar\u201d hekay\u0259sind\u0259n bir par\u00e7aya diqq\u0259t ed\u0259k: “Birazdan a\u011fxalatl\u0131lar \u00e7oxald\u0131. Onlar t\u0259l\u0259sir, vurnuxur, onun \u00fcr\u0259yini qaytarmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar. “\u00dcr\u0259yin\u0259\u201d iyn\u0259 vurdular, d\u00f6y\u00fcnd\u00fcrm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u00fcni n\u0259f\u0259s verdil\u0259r a\u00e7mad\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini \u00fcr\u0259yi. Onun b\u0259d\u0259nind\u0259n qopdu\u011fu, \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn a\u011flamad\u0131, hayq\u0131rmad\u0131 \u00fcr\u0259yi. Susdu\u2026 susdu!\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n

Anan\u0131n \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck ya\u015fant\u0131s\u0131 \u00f6vlad sevgisidir. \u00d6vlad\u0131na olan m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259ti, ist\u0259yi q\u0259d\u0259r o \u0259ziyy\u0259t\u0259 qatla\u015f\u0131r, o \u0259ziyy\u0259ti \u00e7\u0259kdikc\u0259 ana anala\u015f\u0131r, m\u00fcq\u0259d\u0259sl\u0259\u015fir. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259kimliyimd\u0259n ir\u0259li g\u0259lir, bilmir\u0259m, onu deyim ki, h\u0259r bir qad\u0131n\u0131n anal\u0131q hissiyat\u0131n\u0131 qad\u0131nl\u0131q hissiyat\u0131 \u00fcst\u0259l\u0259yir, bax, onda ana daha da m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259sl\u0259\u015fir. O da var ki… m\u0259n onu \u00e7ox g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m. Onu g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m ki, k\u00f6rp\u0259 q\u0131zc\u0131\u011fazlar, h\u0259l\u0259 \u00e7ox k\u00f6rp\u0259 olsalar da k\u00fcklac\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 m\u00fcq\u0259d\u0259sl\u0259\u015fdirib, \u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 ana hissiyat\u0131, ana duy\u011fular\u0131 yarad\u0131b ya\u015fad\u0131rlar.<\/span><\/p>\n

N\u0259srd\u0259n d\u00f6n\u00fcb yen\u0259 poeziyaya \u00fcz tutdum, \u00e7\u00fcnki a\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131m m\u00f6vzunu \u2013 ana-bala m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259sliyinin tamam\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259hz bu \u015feird\u0259 – “Q\u0259rib\u0259m\u201d \u015feirind\u0259 tapd\u0131m:<\/span><\/p>\n

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M\u0259ni do\u011fan \u00f6geyim,<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

G\u00f6yn\u0259m\u0259 g\u00f6y\u00fcm-g\u00f6y\u00fcm,<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Su\u00e7uyam Yerin, G\u00f6y\u00fcn,<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Dolan gend\u0259, q\u0259rib\u0259m.<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

A balam\u0131n b\u0259l\u0259yi,<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Yer, s\u0259nn\u0259ndir dil\u0259yim,<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

A\u00e7 k\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u00fc g\u0259l\u0259yim,<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

M\u0259n bu t\u0259nd\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259m.<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

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\u0130st\u0259kd\u0259n yo\u011frulsan da,<\/p>\n

\u0130st\u0259kl\u0259 do\u011fulmad\u0131n.<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

O q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7ox idi arzun<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Arzundaca bo\u011fuldun!<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00d6vlad h\u0259sr\u0259ti il\u0259 ya\u015fayan anan\u0131n ke\u00e7irdiyi hisl\u0259r, arzular bu \u015feirin dili il\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259nilir.<\/span><\/p>\n

Anan\u0131n \u00f6zl\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259 bala il\u0259 d\u0259rl\u0259\u015fm\u0259si kimi, balan\u0131n da ana il\u0259 d\u0259rl\u0259\u015fm\u0259si, q\u0259lbin\u0259, ruhuna bir xo\u015f ovqat b\u0259x\u015f etm\u0259si anlar\u0131 olur.<\/span><\/p>\n

B\u0259s \u00f6vlad\u0131n anaya ba\u011fl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 nec\u0259? o m\u0259hr\u0259m hissl\u0259r\u0259l\u0259 yana\u015fmaq nec\u0259? G\u0259lin onda, m\u00fc\u0259llifin anas\u0131na xitab\u0259n yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu \u015feirini d\u0259 dinl\u0259y\u0259k:<\/span><\/p>\n

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Bir d\u0259li sevdaya d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m, ana,<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

\u0130ntihar sevdas\u0131na!<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Amma<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Q\u0131ym\u0131ram s\u0259nin \u00fcr\u0259yinin bir par\u00e7as\u0131na,<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Q\u0131ym\u0131ram s\u0259n\u0259!<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Bax, ana,<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Birc\u0259 can\u0131mnan ba\u015fqa<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

he\u00e7 n\u0259yim yoxdu.<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Onu da borcluyam S\u0259n Tanr\u0131ma!<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Bilir\u0259m, onsuz da qatil\u0259m!<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

M\u0259nli arzular\u0131n\u0131n,<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

\u0130st\u0259kl\u0259rinin,<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

S\u0259n\u0259 ver\u0259m\u0259diyim n\u0259v\u0259l\u0259rinin “qatili”!<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

\u0130ndi d\u0259<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

balan\u0131n qatili olmaqdan qorxuram!<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Ana!<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

S\u0259nin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6zl\u0259yir\u0259m!<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Ba\u015f\u0131mdak\u0131 bu sevdan\u0131n xatirin\u0259!<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla!!!<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

\u015eeirin yaran\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fc kimi, \u0130rad\u0259 onu da yax\u015f\u0131 bilir ki, analar \u00f6vlad \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259l\u0259r \u00e7\u0259kir, hans\u0131 \u0259zablardan ke\u00e7irl\u0259r. H\u0259min ya\u015fant\u0131lar \u015feird\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131q \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259 bilir.<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Onu duyan \u00f6vlad, onun n\u0259l\u0259r \u00e7\u0259kdiyini ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n q\u0259l\u0259m sahibi, b\u00fct\u00fcn a\u011fr\u0131 v\u0259 ac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 unudub onun arzular\u0131 il\u0259 hesabla\u015fma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r. Ax\u0131, analar\u0131n arzuzu, ist\u0259yi q\u0259d\u0259r, pak, m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s arzu dal\u0131nca qa\u00e7maq m\u00fcmkin deyil. Ana ist\u0259yi insan\u0131 butun d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n; x\u00fcsus\u0259n insan\u0131n q\u0259lbind\u0259 q\u0259fl\u0259t\u0259n yurd sala bil\u0259n b\u0259d d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n xilas ed\u0259 bilir. “D\u0259d\u0259 Qorqud\u201dda deyildiyi kimi, “get \u00f6vlad\u0131m, tanr\u0131 k\u00f6m\u0259yin olsun. B\u00fct\u00fcn yollar s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn a\u00e7\u0131q olacaq\u201d.<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Onu da deyim ki, anan\u0131n g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 he\u00e7 n\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259k olmur. \u00c7ox g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m insanlar k\u00f6vr\u0259k vaxtlar\u0131nda anas\u0131 il\u0259 r\u00fch\u0259n, x\u0259yal\u0259n d\u0259rdl\u0259\u015fir, \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 rahatl\u0131q tap\u0131r. Bu \u015feir ham\u0131 kimi \u0130rad\u0259nin d\u0259 x\u0259yal\u0259n anas\u0131 il\u0259 d\u0259rdl\u0259\u015fm\u0259sidir.<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Bu \u015feird\u0259n sonra onu dey\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m ki, duy\u011fular\u0131nla, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rinl\u0259 , ac\u0131lar\u0131nla, \u015firinl\u0259rinl\u0259 ana arzular\u0131na s\u0131\u011f\u0131nmaq h\u0259yatda \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l nem\u0259tdir, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131 ac\u0131d\u0131r, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xtlikdir. Bax\u0131r kim nec\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bilir. Ham\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb dey\u0259 bil\u0259r.<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

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\u00d6z\u00fc kimi sevgisind\u0259 d\u0259 safd\u0131r, alidir, pakd\u0131r, m\u00fcq\u0259d\u0259sdir. O, sevgini k\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131b ham\u0131dan gizl\u0259dib, ham\u0131dan qoruyub, sevgini ilahil\u0259\u015fdir\u0259 bilir. Sevgi na\u011f\u0131l\u0131 \u015feirind\u0259 deyildiyi kimi.<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

G\u0259l, s\u0259n\u0259 bir na\u011f\u0131l s\u00f6yl\u0259yim,<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

O na\u011f\u0131l \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn no\u011fulu idi.<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

O na\u011f\u0131lda biri vard\u0131 – o s\u0259ndin,<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

O na\u011f\u0131lda biri yoxdu – o m\u0259ndim.<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

O na\u011f\u0131lda s\u0259n G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fdin, m\u0259n gec\u0259.<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

O na\u011f\u0131lda s\u0259n m\u0259nd\u0259ydin,<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

M\u0259n t\u0259kc\u0259!<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

O, sevgid\u0259 b\u00fcdr\u0259mir, y\u0131x\u0131lm\u0131r, m\u0259rd-m\u0259rdan\u0259 dayan\u0131b \u00f6z sevgisinin qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131 il\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131r.<\/span><\/p>\n

“Ona deyin\u201d \u015feirind\u0259 bu par\u00e7ada deyildiyi kimi.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Ona deyin, verdiyi<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

D\u0259rdi d\u0259 sev\u0259r oldum.<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

G\u00f6z\u00fcm h\u0259r ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

G\u00f6rd\u00fc d\u0259, sev\u0259r oldum.<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

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Q\u0259rib\u0259s\u0259m\u0259k, dar\u0131xmaq insan \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnd\u00fcr, bax\u0131r kimd\u0259 nec\u0259, n\u0259 c\u00fcr<\/span>\u00a0<\/span>dar\u0131xmaq olur. \u0130rad\u0259 dar\u0131xanda Allaha \u00fcz\u00fc tutur, d\u0259rdini u\u00e7a\u00a0<\/span>T<\/span>an\u0131r\u0131 il\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Bu insan\u0131n Allaha s\u0131\u011f\u0131nmas\u0131, Allah\u0131n varl\u0131\u011f\u0131na p\u0259nah g\u0259tirm\u0259sidir. Onda insan ruhu safla\u015f\u0131r, t\u0259mizl\u0259nir, a\u011f v\u0259r\u0259q kimi l\u0259k\u0259siz g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr.<\/span><\/p>\n

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Duam Allaha yetmir,<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

M\u0259n bu dind\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259m.<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Bir q\u0259rib d\u0259 i\u00e7imd\u0259,<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Bir\u0259m mind\u0259, q\u0259rib\u0259m.<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

H\u0259r n\u0259d\u0259n yaz\u0131r yazs\u0131n, onun istifad\u0259 etdiyi material s\u00f6zd\u00fcr, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259rli s\u00f6z. O, s\u00f6zd\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck imar\u0259t yaratma\u011f bacar\u0131r.<\/span><\/p>\n

Ax\u0131rda onu dey\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m ki, s\u00f6z onu el\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kir ,el\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kir ki, \u00f6z irad\u0259sind\u0259n qopub s\u00f6z\u00fcn irad\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131r \u0130rad\u0259.<\/span><\/p>\n

Qalib \u015e\u0259fah\u0259t<\/p>\n

\"qalib\"<\/a><\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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A\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 deyim ki, qad\u0131n yazarlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 maraql\u0131 olub. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, ki\u015fi yazarlardan f\u0259rqli olaraq, onlar \u00e7ox vaxt\u0131 \u00f6z i\u00e7 d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 tam \u015f\u0259kil\u0259d\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131b qabarda bilmirl\u0259r. Y\u0259qin, bir \u00e7\u0259kin\u0259c\u0259k yerl\u0259ri var! \u00c7ox g\u00fcman ki, bu mentalitetd\u0259n ir\u0259li g\u0259lir. Amma f\u0259rqi yoxdur, \u00fcr\u0259k \u00fcr\u0259kdi, o \u00fcr\u0259yi ham\u0131ya tanr\u0131 verib, g\u0259r\u0259k s\u0259n o \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[17,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13976"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=13976"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13976\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":13981,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13976\/revisions\/13981"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=13976"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=13976"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=13976"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}