{"id":13994,"date":"2020-05-29T23:00:34","date_gmt":"2020-05-29T18:00:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=13994"},"modified":"2020-05-29T23:00:34","modified_gmt":"2020-05-29T18:00:34","slug":"gulnar%c9%99-acalova-nar-cic%c9%99yi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=13994","title":{"rendered":"G\u00dcLNAR\u018f ACALOVA – “NAR \u00c7\u0130\u00c7\u018fY\u0130”"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"43554495_1765332543592539_7632602303165366272_n\"<\/a>\u00a0 H\u00f6rm\u0259tli kultur.az! 1967-ciild\u0259 G\u00fcrc\u00fcstanRespublikas\u0131n\u0131nBor\u00e7al\u0131 mahal\u0131ndado\u011fulan, Bolnisid\u0259 ortam\u0259kt\u0259bi, Tiflisd\u0259 is\u0259 A.S. Pu\u015fkinad\u0131naD\u00f6vl\u0259tPedaqoji \u0130nstitutunfilologiafak\u00fclt\u0259sinibitir\u0259nd\u0259nsonraail\u0259 v\u0259ziyy\u0259tiil\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 RusiyaFederativRespublikas\u0131n\u0131nBelqorod \u015f\u0259h\u0259rind\u0259 ya\u015fayanAcalovaG\u00fclnar\u0259 \u0130brahimq\u0131z\u0131 bizimm\u00fcst\u0259qil \u00f6lk\u0259mizl\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0131xtell\u0259rl\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259nba\u011fl\u0131d\u0131r. \u00dc\u00e7 ail\u0259libac\u0131s\u0131 v\u0259 ki\u00e7iko\u011flu, alitibbt\u0259hsilliR\u0259\u015fadBak\u0131daya\u015fay\u0131bi\u015fl\u0259yirl\u0259r.\u00a0 G\u00fclnar\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n \u201cNar \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yi\u201d imzas\u0131ylah\u0259mAz\u0259rbaycan, h\u0259md\u0259 rusdill\u0259rind\u0259 yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015feirv\u0259 essel\u0259rim\u00fcxt\u0259lif \u00f6lk\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259, oc\u00fcml\u0259d\u0259nrespublikam\u0131zdavaxta\u015f\u0131r\u0131 olaraqi\u015f\u0131q \u00fcz\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259kd\u0259dir. G\u00fclnar\u0259 xan\u0131m \u0259d\u0259biyarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 davametdirm\u0259kl\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131, \u00a0xaricd\u0259 ya\u015fayansoyda\u015flar\u0131m\u0131zlabirlikd\u0259 nankorqon\u015fular\u0131m\u0131z\u0131ni\u00e7 \u00fczl\u0259rininif\u015faolunmas\u0131ndav\u0259 xalq\u0131m\u0131z\u0131nhaqqi\u015finint\u0259bli\u011find\u0259 d\u0259 m\u00fch\u00fcmroloynayan \u0259nf\u0259alziyal\u0131 qad\u0131nlardanbirihesabolunur. \u0130st\u0259rdimki, bizimMing\u0259\u00e7evird\u0259ki \u0259d\u0259bial\u0259ml\u0259 d\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 olanG\u00fclnar\u0259 Acalovan\u0131nd\u0259rginiz\u0259 \u00fcnvanlad\u0131\u011f\u0131mbirne\u00e7\u0259 yaz\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 oxucularat\u0259qdimed\u0259siniz.<\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 <\/em>Siz<\/em>\u0259, \u0259<\/em>d<\/em>\u0259<\/em>bi<\/em>d<\/em>\u0259<\/em>rginizin<\/em> \u0259<\/em>m<\/em>\u0259<\/em>kda<\/em>\u015f<\/em>lar<\/em>\u0131<\/em>na<\/em>h<\/em>\u00f6<\/em>rm<\/em>\u0259<\/em>t<\/em>v<\/em>\u0259 <\/em>ehtiramla<\/em>:\"3\"<\/a><\/em><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u0130<\/em>smay<\/em>\u0131<\/em>l<\/em> \u0130<\/em>manzad<\/em>\u0259, <\/em>AYB<\/em>–<\/em>nin<\/em>Ming<\/em>\u0259\u00e7<\/em>evir<\/em>b<\/em>\u00f6<\/em>lm<\/em>\u0259<\/em>sinin<\/em>s<\/em>\u0259<\/em>dri<\/em><\/p>\n

Essel<\/em>\u0259<\/em>r<\/em><\/p>\n

DA\u015e \u00dcR\u018fK<\/p>\n

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Ayd\u0131n bir yay gec\u0259si idi. G\u00fclnar h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259ki g\u00fcnl\u00fcy\u00fcn alt\u0131nda oturub sa\u00e7lar\u0131na tumar \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n s\u0259rin mehd\u0259n xo\u015fallan\u0131rd\u0131. Dinc\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259rin bir qismi \u00e7ay i\u00e7\u0259-i\u00e7\u0259 br-biri il\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259\u015fir, dig\u0259rl\u0259ri televizorda x\u0259b\u0259rl\u0259r\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131lar. Qaranl\u0131q qat\u0131la\u015fd\u0131qca yor\u011funluq duyanlar yava\u015f-yava\u015f \u00f6z otaqlar\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kilirdil\u0259r. G\u00fclnar \u00a0t\u0259k qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. O, t\u0259nhal\u0131\u011f\u0131 sevm\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, h\u0259rd\u0259n t\u0259k qal\u0131b d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 dalma\u011f\u0131 sevirdi. Bel\u0259 anlarda \u00f6z al\u0259min\u0259 qap\u0131l\u0131b \u015firin x\u0259yallar s\u0259lt\u0259n\u0259tini qona\u011f\u0131 olurdu. \u018ftrafdak\u0131 sakitliyi c\u0131rc\u0131ramalar \u00f6z \u015f\u0259n n\u0259\u011fm\u0259l\u0259ri il\u0259 pozurdular. El\u0259 bil Yaradan onlar\u0131 gec\u0259nin \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259m\u0259xsus qaranl\u0131q, lal al\u0259minin cans\u0131x\u0131c\u0131 olmamas\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yaratm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. G\u00fclnar c\u0131rc\u0131ramalar\u0131n xoruna qulaq as\u0131r, t\u0259bi\u0259tin bu g\u00f6z\u0259l m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259n z\u00f6vq al\u0131rd\u0131.
\n\u00dcz\u00fcm talvar\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259n ortas\u0131nda b\u00f6y\u00fck bir \u00e7\u0131raq as\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Asta-asta \u0259s\u0259n k\u00fcl\u0259k onu h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259tirir, i\u015f\u0131\u011fa u\u00e7ub g\u0259lmi\u015f p\u0259rvan\u0259l\u0259r is\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rag\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na f\u0131rlan\u0131rd\u0131lar, sanki c\u0131rc\u0131ramalar\u0131n \u00e7al\u0131b-oxuma\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6z\u0259l r\u0259qs havas\u0131na r\u0259qqaslar \u00e7\u0131ra\u011f\u0131n \u0259traf\u0131nda s\u00fcz\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. Gec\u0259 bir xeyirxah sehirbaz kimi G\u00fclnar\u0131n t\u0259nhal qalmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259m\u0259diyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ona \u00f6z m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259rini g\u00f6st\u0259rib q\u00fcss\u0259l\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259, q\u0259ml\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 imkan verm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi v\u0259 tilsimli, valehedici al\u0259min\u0259 qonaq eliyirdi. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 p\u0259rvan\u0259l\u0259rin \u00f6zl\u0259rini i\u015f\u0131\u011fa qurban verdiyini g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 q\u00fcss\u0259 q\u0131rovu \u00e7\u00f6k\u0259n G\u00fclnar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 bir \u00e7avabs\u0131z sual do\u011furdu: \u201cNiy\u0259?..<\/p>\n

D\u00fcnyan\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f sirrl\u0259rinin qaba\u011f\u0131nda acizliyini hiss el\u0259diyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn sual\u0131na cavab ist\u0259yirdi. Ona el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, bu g\u00fcn ona m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259r g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259n Gec\u0259, sirrini ver\u0259c\u0259k. Amma\u2026<\/p>\n

K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 q\u0259h-q\u0259h\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kib g\u00fcl\u0259n cavanlar\u0131n s\u0259si G\u00fclnar\u0131 x\u0259yallardan ay\u0131ltd\u0131. Onlar y\u0259qin kluba, \u0259yl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 gedirdil\u0259r. Qalx\u0131b darvaza qap\u0131s\u0131ndan \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Bir az aral\u0131da d\u0259niz g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u00dcr\u0259yind\u0259n sahild\u0259 oturub q\u00fcrub ed\u0259n G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u0259 baxmaq ke\u00e7di. \u018ftrafa g\u00f6z g\u0259zdirdi, gec idi, amma el\u0259 bil onu hans\u0131sa bir ilahi q\u00fcvv\u0259 var g\u00fcc\u00fc il\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kib d\u0259niz\u0259 sar\u0131 apard\u0131. Daxild\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n hissl\u0259rinin \u0259siri olmu\u015f kimi asta-asta d\u0259niz\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f y\u00f6n\u0259ldi. O, g\u00fcnortadan isinmi\u015f qumun \u00fcst\u00fcyl\u0259 asta add\u0131mlarla gedir, sanki onun n\u0259hay\u0259t g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xmas\u0131na sevin\u0259n l\u0259p\u0259l\u0259r yal\u0131n ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6p\u00fcr, arxas\u0131nca qumun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259d\u0259 sald\u0131\u011f\u0131 izl\u0259ri yuyurdular. G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f art\u0131q tam q\u00fcrub el\u0259mi\u015fdi. Bu m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l d\u0259 olsa, n\u0259d\u0259s\u0259 G\u00fclnar\u0131n al\u0259mind\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131n sonu kimi q\u0259lbin\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259r k\u00f6lg\u0259si sal\u0131rd\u0131. \u00dcf\u00fcq\u00fcn g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259z davam\u0131 is\u0259 yeni bir h\u0259yat idi…
\nO, isti qumun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 dizl\u0259rini qucaqlay\u0131b oturmu\u015fdu. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 q\u0259ribs\u0259yibq\u0259lbind\u0259 t\u0259nhal\u0131q hissi duyanda bel\u0259c\u0259 oturub ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 dizl\u0259rin\u0259 qoyard\u0131. \u0130ndis\u0259 onun bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 d\u0259nizin \u00fcmmans\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131na dikilmi\u015fdi. D\u0259niz sakit idi, h\u0259rd\u0259n-bird\u0259n sahil\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n balaca bir dal\u011fa G\u00fclnar\u0131n aya\u011f\u0131na qum at\u0131r, sonra da yuyub apar\u0131r\u0131d\u0131, el\u0259 bil k\u00f6rp\u0259 u\u015faq kimi onunla oynamaq ist\u0259yirdi. Yen\u0259 Aslan g\u0259lib durmu\u015fdu g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259. Ne\u00e7\u0259 ill\u0259rd\u0259n b\u0259ri itirdiyi yegan\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259ti, yegan\u0259 ist\u0259yi…<\/p>\n

Onu yad\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xarmaq ist\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259 yadda\u015f\u0131 m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tin\u0259 v\u0259fal\u0131 yar olub unuda bilmirdi. \u201cG\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n hardad\u0131? Nec\u0259di? Yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259mmi bar\u0131?..\u201d Sual- sual\u0131n dal\u0131ca gedirdi. O, dal\u011falara bax\u0131r, sanki dal\u011falardan bir cavab g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n axan ya\u015f damc\u0131lar\u0131 d\u0259nizin suyuna qovu\u015fdu. Bir d\u0259rin ah qopdu sin\u0259sind\u0259n. P\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131 il\u0259 sanki dal\u011falarla dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi sakitc\u0259:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Hardasan? \u2013 dedi.<\/p>\n

Bu an bayaqdan onun ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 yuyan l\u0259p\u0259l\u0259rin i\u00e7ind\u0259 par\u0131t\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. G\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u0259linin arxas\u0131 il\u0259 silib baxanda ba\u011f f\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131 boyda bir “\u00dcr\u0259k” g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Yam-ya\u015f\u0131l, i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 sanki q\u0131rovun almaza b\u0259nz\u0259r parlaq izi d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f da\u015f \u00fcr\u0259k. Bu D\u0259nizinmi pay\u0131 idi, y\u00f6xsa G\u00f6y\u0259rinmi h\u0259diyy\u0259si? B\u0259lk\u0259 m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259si, sirri il\u0259 Gulnarla d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u00fcl\u0259rini b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u0259n Gec\u0259nin onun sual\u0131na cavab\u0131 idi?..
\nG\u00dcN\u018f\u015eIN V\u018fFAS\u0130…<\/p>\n

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Art\u0131q nec\u0259 g\u00fcn idi ki, baharin g\u0259li\u015fi duyulurdu. Torpaq q\u0131\u015f y\u00fck\u00fcnd\u0259n azad oldu\u011fundan rahat n\u0259f\u0259s alma\u011fa ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Yor\u011fanlar\u0131n\u0131 ustl\u0259rind\u0259n atm\u0131\u015f a\u011faclar Bir az utancaq, bir az da q\u0131sqanc q\u0131zlar kimi bir -birini s\u00fcz\u00fcr v\u0259 qam\u0259tl\u0259rini d\u00fcz\u0259ltm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar.
\nAyd\u0131n mavi s\u0259maya sanki \u00e7al\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015fdi. T\u0259bi\u0259td\u0259 bayram ab -havas\u0131 duyulurdu. A\u011faclar\u0131n s\u0131ras\u0131n\u0131 onlar\u0131n h\u0259r birind\u0259n f\u0259rqli bir \u0259rik a\u011fac\u0131 tamamlay\u0131rd\u0131. O sanki G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin par\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131na ham\u0131dan cox sevinirdi. K\u0259nardan baxana el\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259idi ki, a\u011fac qanadlar\u0131n\u0131 goy\u0259 uzad\u0131b G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi qucma\u011fa can atir, G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f \u015f\u00fcalar\u0131n\u0131n tumarlarina xo\u015fallan\u0131b onun il\u0131q n\u0259f\u0259sind\u0259n xumarlan\u0131rd\u0131.\u018frik a\u011fac\u0131 il\u0259 G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin t\u0259mas\u0131 ilk m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tl\u0259rini ya\u015fayan sevgilil\u0259rin g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259yirdi.
\nH\u0259r gec\u0259 a\u011fac hicran s\u0131x\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131 ke\u00e7irir, dan yeri s\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259r-s\u00f6k\u00fclm\u0259z pardaqlan\u0131rd\u0131. \u00d6z ist\u0259yinin istisini sevgilisinin m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tinin b\u0259hr\u0259si bilirdi. Az bir zamanda ya\u015f\u0131l yarpaqlardan bicilmi\u015f goz\u0259l bir libas geydi, \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rinind\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259l\u0259ng h\u00f6rd\u00fc. Amma…
\nN\u0259 bil\u0259ydi, hardan bil\u0259ydi ki, bu bin\u0259va, sevgilisinin v\u0259fas\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u0259 v\u0259d\u0259siz g\u0259lmi\u015f bu baharin sonu bahar bitm\u0259mi\u015f bit\u0259c\u0259k . Hardan bil\u0259ydi ki, “Qarinin borcu” deyil\u0259n bir pay\u0131 olacaq \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn bahar sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda. Bir gec\u0259nin u\u00e7ind\u0259 \u015faxta onun g\u00f6zox\u015fayan \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rini dondurub m\u0259hv etdi, yarpaqlarini b\u00fcr\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcrd\u00fc . A\u011fac\u0131n oz\u00fcn\u0259 arxa sand\u0131\u011fi, v\u0259fasina g\u00fcv\u0259ndiyi G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u0259 olan sevgisinin g\u00fcnah\u0131na d\u00f6nd\u0259rdiyini duyduqca g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n “le\u00e7\u0259k -l\u0259c\u0259k” ya\u015flar s\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc. G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin bigan\u0259liyind\u0259n g\u00fcnd\u0259n-g\u00fcn\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc. Oz oduna yand\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi d\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259rin birind\u0259 sondu …<\/p>\n

Yamanca k\u00f6vr\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m,
\n\u00dcr\u0259yimi k\u00fcsd\u00fcrd\u00fcn.
\nS\u0259n \u00f6z \u0259m\u0259ll\u0259rinl\u0259,
\n\u00dc\u015f\u00fcy\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259
\nSoyuq k\u00fcl\u0259k \u0259sdirdin.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131na s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131m,.
\nDedim… isinnim bir az.
\nNec\u0259 d\u0259 bilm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m,
\nH\u0259r parlayan i\u015f\u0131qdan
\nOcaq olmaz, od olmaz …<\/p>\n


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\nH\u0259rd\u0259n yazda, qan\u0131n qaynayan \u00a0\u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda a\u011f\u0131r q\u0131\u015f paltarlar\u0131ndan can\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 qurtar\u0131b, anam demi\u015f “\u00e7\u0131lpaqlanma\u011fa ” ba\u015flayanda, soyuq d\u0259y\u0259rdi. \u00c7\u00f6ld\u0259 G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f \u015f\u00fcalar\u0131 a\u011faclara, kollara s\u0131\u011fal \u00e7\u0259kib, ya\u015f\u0131l otlar yenic\u0259 oyanm\u0131s torpa\u011f\u0131n t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fct\u0259k g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi ox\u015fayanda q\u0131zd\u0131rma i\u00e7nd\u0259, \u00f6ks\u00fcrm\u0259kd\u0259n s\u0259si batm\u0131\u015f bo\u011faz\u0131 sar\u0131ql\u0131, yor\u011fan-d\u00f6\u015f\u0259yin ixtiyar\u0131nda ixtiyars\u0131z olmaqdan \u00e7\u0259kins\u0259m d\u0259, \u00a0“qorxan g\u00f6z\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6p d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc”.
\n\u0130ndi o xatir\u0259l\u0259r m\u0259n\u0259 yenic\u0259 qaysaq ba\u011flam\u0131\u015f yaran\u0131n yava\u015f -yava\u015f qopar\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 a\u011fr\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015fad\u0131rd\u0131. O zaman qorxdu\u011fum o \u201cyaz azar\u0131” \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn burumun ucu g\u00f6yn\u0259yirdi. “Azar” \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yox, nasaz oldu\u011fum zaman ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m h\u0131ss\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn…
\nGec\u0259 uzunu ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 babam yuxusuna haram qat\u0131b oyanard\u0131, indi anlay\u0131ram ki, he\u00e7 yuxulam\u0131rd\u0131 da. Yata\u011f\u0131ma yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b m\u0259ni yuxudan oyatmamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ehtyatla dodaqla\u0131n\u0131 aln\u0131ma toxundurub bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saniy\u0259 bel\u0259c\u0259 durard\u0131. Sonra da p\u0131c\u0131lt\u0131 il\u0259 n\u0259 is\u0259 deyib barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131n ucunda uzaqla\u015fqrd\u0131 .
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\nSonralar m\u0259n d\u0259 balalar\u0131m\u0131n h\u0259rar\u0259tini bu \u00fcsulla yoxlayanda, ill\u0259rl\u0259 sirli qalan sual\u0131n cavab\u0131n\u0131 alm\u0131\u015fam.
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