{"id":14015,"date":"2020-06-07T17:55:10","date_gmt":"2020-06-07T12:55:10","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=14015"},"modified":"2020-06-07T17:55:10","modified_gmt":"2020-06-07T12:55:10","slug":"xaliq-r%c9%99himli-s%c9%99h%c9%99rd%c9%99n-g%c9%99l%c9%99n-usaq","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=14015","title":{"rendered":"Xaliq R\u0259himli – “\u015e\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n u\u015faq”"},"content":{"rendered":"

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( xatir\u0259 -povest)<\/p>\n

-Art\u0131q adamlar d\u00fc\u015fs\u00fcnl\u0259r ,tez olun, tez olun , qatar yola d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr ,-dey\u0259 s\u0259sini ba\u015f\u0131na atan vaqon b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7isi tutuqu\u015fu kimi eyni s\u00f6zl\u0259ri t\u0259krarlaya-t\u0259krarlaya vaqonun bu ba\u015f\u0131ndan o ba\u015f\u0131na ,o ba\u015f\u0131ndan bu ba\u015f\u0131na add\u0131mlaya -add\u0131mlaya \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n olsa v\u0259zif\u0259 borcunu yerin\u0259 yetirirdi.\u00a0 M\u0259nim o zamank\u0131 hal\u0131ma uy\u011fun olmayan bu s\u0259s indinin \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u0259 harda qatar g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259ms\u0259 qulaqlar\u0131mda \u0259ks -s\u0259da verir. Bu s\u0259s q\u0259d\u0259r, bu s\u0259sin ifad\u0259 el\u0259diyi h\u0259min o “tez olun ,qatardan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn”-\u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131\u015f\u0131 q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259n\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n k\u0259sil\u0259n ikinci bir ifad\u0259 tapmaq \u00e7\u0259tindi.\u00c7\u00fcnki, qatardan d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259li olanlardan biri d\u0259 anam idi .M\u0259ni-yeddi ya\u015fl\u0131\u00a0 o\u011flunu hans\u0131sa qohumumuzla k\u0259nd\u0259 yola sal\u0131rd\u0131. Qatar t\u0259rp\u0259n\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 qat\u0131rd\u0131 ki,\u00a0 dar\u0131xmay\u0131m, a\u011flamay\u0131m. Lakin h\u0259min vaxt bu m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyildi. M\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r toplasam da bacarm\u0131rd\u0131m.Yava\u015f -yava\u015f yeddi ya\u015fl\u0131 u\u015faqdan bir \u0259l\u00e7im qara buluda \u00e7evrilirdim. Amma var g\u00fcc\u00fcml\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m ki,he\u00e7 olmasa anam qatardan d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc tox tutum , o m\u0259nim a\u011flama\u011f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259sin. Ona s\u00f6z vermi\u015fdim ki ,a\u011flamayacam. K\u0259nd\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131b babama ,n\u0259n\u0259m\u0259 nec\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131rsa\u00a0 el\u0259c\u0259 d\u0259 qulluq ed\u0259c\u0259m.Bu s\u00f6zl\u0259r balaca bir u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n ki\u015fi s\u00f6z\u00fcyd\u00fc.V\u0259 ilk d\u0259f\u0259ydi bel\u0259 ki\u015fil\u0259nirdim.U\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131ma \u00fcst\u00fcn g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m.Ya\u015f\u0131mda boyumda al\u0131nmasa da a\u011fl\u0131mda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcmc\u0259md\u0259 buna c\u0259hd edirdim .Nec\u0259 olursa -olsun \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc tox tutmal\u0131yd\u0131m.\u00c7\u00fcnki atam dey\u0259nd\u0259 ki, s\u0259ni k\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259c\u0259yik- he\u00e7 bel\u0259 dar\u0131xma\u011f\u0131m a\u011fl\u0131ma g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015fdi,\u0259ksin\u0259 q\u00fcrur duymu\u015fdum ,taleyim\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n bu \u00f6hd\u0259liyi n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 \u00e7ox asanl\u0131qla boynuma g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm v\u0259 geriy\u0259 yol olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131\u00a0 yax\u015f\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcm -Art\u0131q adamlar tez d\u00fc\u015fs\u00fcn ,tez d\u00fc\u015fs\u00fcn , qatar t\u0259rp\u0259nir,-b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7inin c\u0131r, y\u00f6nd\u0259msiz s\u0259si anamla m\u0259ni son d\u0259f\u0259 \u00fcz -\u00fcz\u0259 ,g\u00f6z -g\u00f6z\u0259 qoydu. Anam \u00fcz\u00fcmd\u0259n \u00f6pd\u00fc v\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcn\u0259- g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcn\u0259 qap\u0131ya t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7evrildi. Dar\u0131xma, babana ,n\u0259n\u0259n\u0259 salam de, ad\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 do\u011frult. Bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri anam g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin i\u00e7in\u0259 baxa -baxa dedi,-g\u00f6rs\u00fcn ki g\u00f6zl\u0259rin dolubmu. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 q\u0259h\u0259rini g\u00fccl\u0259 gizl\u0259dirdi .Hal- haz\u0131rda m\u0259nim yax\u015f\u0131 o\u011flan olma\u011f\u0131m\u0131 s\u00fcbut ed\u0259n h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259n biri d\u0259 h\u0259min anda h\u00f6nk\u00fcrt\u00fcm\u00fc saxlama\u011f\u0131m idi. Anam qatardan d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc . Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saniy\u0259\u00a0 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n bir – birimiz\u0259 baxmaq imkan\u0131 yarand\u0131 . Sonra m\u0259n\u0259 \u0259l el\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131lar. \u018fll\u0259rin say\u0131 \u00e7oxald\u0131. Anam\u0131n,atam\u0131n , bac\u0131m\u0131n ,qarda\u015f\u0131m\u0131n… N\u0259hay\u0259t qatar t\u0259rp\u0259ndi. El\u0259 bil dayanma\u011fa h\u00f6vs\u0259l\u0259si \u00e7atmad\u0131. S\u00fcr\u0259tini yava\u015f- yava\u015f art\u0131rd\u0131.Sanki havada yell\u0259n\u0259n \u0259ll\u0259rin havas\u0131na perrondan uzaqla\u015fd\u0131…Sevinirdim ki , anam\u0131n yan\u0131nda a\u011flamad\u0131m ,onun \u00fcr\u0259yini \u00fczm\u0259dim.Bunu \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck\u00a0 q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 say\u0131rd\u0131m .S\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 durdu\u011fuma sevinirdim .H\u0259min vaxt d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n xo\u015fb\u0259xt u\u015fa\u011f\u0131yd\u0131m .Amma bayaqk\u0131 bir \u0259l\u00e7im buludluqdan \u00e7\u0131xmaya bilm\u0259zdim.Baxmayaraq ki, qatar t\u0259rp\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259 bir az da doldum,dar\u0131xd\u0131m. Q\u0259fil h\u00f6nk\u00fcrt\u00fcm\u0259 limonadla kojik yey\u0259n qohumumuz \u0259m\u0259lli – ba\u015fl\u0131 diksindi.-\u018f, b\u0259 derdin a\u011flamajam ,yek\u0259 o\u011flansan bu n\u0259di \u0259\u0259\u0259…\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc saxlaya bilmirdim.Tulaqulaq papa\u011f\u0131m\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 tutub g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131ma g\u00fcc vermi\u015fdim.Bir \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fck g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259d\u0259 ax\u0131td\u0131m.Papa\u011f\u0131m suyun i\u00e7ind\u0259ydi. El\u0259 bilirdim ucqar da\u011f k\u0259ndin\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259min,babam\u0131n yan\u0131na yox d\u00fcnyan\u0131n h\u0259l\u0259 he\u00e7 kim\u0259 m\u0259lum olmayan uzaq bir n\u00f6qt\u0259sin\u0259 gedirdim.O da, m\u0259nim u\u015faq a\u011fl\u0131mla g\u00f6t\u00fcrs\u0259k ged\u0259r-g\u0259lm\u0259z\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259r bir yer idi.El\u0259 m\u0259niml\u0259 yol yolda\u015f\u0131 olan qohumum da ged\u0259r- g\u0259lm\u0259z adam\u0131na ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131- A bala,\u00a0 olmad\u0131 ax\u0131 ,bu n\u0259 a\u011flamaxd\u0131,yek\u0259 o\u011flansan \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc -g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc sil. G\u00f6t\u00fcr limanaddan i\u00e7 ,kojikd\u0259n ye,k\u0259ndd\u0259 bulardan yoxdu.G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcrd\u00fc .Anam\u0131n son d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm yar\u0131 sevincli ,yar\u0131 k\u0259d\u0259rli \u00fcz\u00fc g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259n getmirdi V\u0259 bilirdim ki g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc \u00f6mr\u00fcm boyu g\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259n getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k .Bir az y\u00fcng\u00fcll\u0259\u015fib \u00a0qohumumuza i\u015far\u0259 el\u0259dim ki ,setkamda anam\u0131n yoluma qoydu\u011fu bi\u015fmi\u015f toyuq var, g\u00f6t\u00fcrs\u00fcn yesin. Qohumum g\u00fcl\u0259 -g\u00fcl\u0259,- toyuq k\u0259ndd\u0259 d\u0259 var, -deyib ,acg\u00f6zl\u00fckl\u0259 kojik\u0259 v\u0259 cemli pera\u015fkil\u0259r\u0259 el\u0259 giri\u015fmi\u015fdi ki ,sanki d\u00fcnyada bunlar\u0131n tay\u0131-b\u0259rab\u0259ri yoxdu . M\u0259nin \u0259hval\u0131m\u0131n onun i\u015ftah\u0131na he\u00e7 bir mane\u00e7iliyi olmasa da a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 mar\u00e7\u0131ldada -mar\u00e7\u0131ldada h\u0259m d\u0259 m\u0259ni ovundurma\u011f\u0131 ,\u00fcr\u0259k-dir\u0259k verm\u0259yi unutmurdu .Yediyini yeyirdi ,dediyini deyirdi,-he\u00e7 yax\u015f\u0131 olmad\u0131 m\u0259n yeyir\u0259m, s\u0259n a\u011flay\u0131rsan…–Bir bax g\u00f6r \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin gej\u0259 i\u015f\u0131xlar\u0131 nej\u0259 yara\u015f\u0131xl\u0131d\u0131. – \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri enin\u0259 uzununa tan\u0131yan kimi g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259n qohumumuz kefd\u0259ydi ,n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7d\u0259 alaca\u011f\u0131 vard\u0131 ,n\u0259 d\u0259 be\u015fd\u0259 ver\u0259c\u0259yi. T\u00fclk\u00fc g\u00f6z\u00fc kimi par\u0131ldayan g\u00f6zl\u0259rini qatar\u0131n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259n \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 zill\u0259y\u0259-zill\u0259y\u0259 cemli perajkil\u0259ri el\u0259 i\u00e7tahla \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc ki ,dey\u0259rdin x\u0259st\u0259liyin\u0259 d\u0259rman tap\u0131l\u0131b\u00a0 yem\u0259s\u0259 bu d\u0259qiq\u0259 bu vaqondaca uzan\u0131b \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259k …G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 n\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259r g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc ,n\u0259 onun i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131, n\u0259 d\u0259 qohumumun acg\u00f6zl\u00fckl\u0259 yediyi cemli pera\u015fkil\u0259r …\u0130ndi m\u0259ni ovundurmaq el\u0259 d\u0259 asan deyildi…Doyunca a\u011flay\u0131b yorulmu\u015fdum.Qatar \u00f6z i\u015find\u0259ydi. S\u00fcr\u0259t g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259r\u0259k\u00a0 ir\u0259lil\u0259yirdi .M\u0259n\u0259 maraql\u0131 idi ki, g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n bu qatarda m\u0259nd\u0259n\u00a0 ba\u015fqa da a\u011flayan varm\u0131. \u018fg\u0259r varsa vay qatar\u0131n hal\u0131na. Bir anl\u0131\u011fa qatar\u0131\u00a0 elektrikl\u0259 deyil, g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131yla h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t ed\u0259n kimi t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr el\u0259dim. M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, qatar\u0131n s\u00fcr\u0259tini art\u0131ran da h\u0259min o g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131d\u0131 ki,dar\u0131xanlar\u0131 m\u0259nzil ba\u015f\u0131na tez \u00e7atd\u0131rs\u0131n.–Qalx , qalx tez ol ,\u00e7aterax az qal\u0131f.-Bu s\u0259si yuxuda e\u015fitdim, amma q\u0259fil ay\u0131landa g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, qohumun s\u0259sidi.V\u0259 n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 ax\u015famnan b\u0259ri onun dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u00f6zl\u0259rd\u0259n yaln\u0131z bu dedikl\u0259ri m\u0259n\u0259 xo\u015f g\u0259ldi.Bu da ola bilsin ki m\u0259ni anamnan ay\u0131ran qatardan yaxam\u0131 qurtarmaq ist\u0259yimd\u0259n ir\u0259li\u00a0 g\u0259lirdi . Qatar\u0131n havas\u0131 \u00e7ox a\u011f\u0131r\u0131yd\u0131. D\u00fcnyan\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn q\u00fcbar\u0131 ,h\u0259sr\u0259ti el\u0259 bil bu vaqonlara dolmu\u015fdu.M\u0259nim d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259yiml\u0259 sanki qatar xeli y\u00fcng\u00fcll\u0259\u015fdi, d\u0259rind\u0259n n\u0259f\u0259s ald\u0131…<\/p>\n

Tez el\u0259 , n\u0259 fikirr\u0259\u015fers\u0259n \u00e7\u0259m\u0259d\u0259nin b\u00f6yr\u00fcnn\u0259n tut t\u00fc\u015f\u00f6r\u0259k.Cemli pera\u015fkil\u0259r\u0131n ax\u0131r\u0131na \u00e7\u0131xan qohumun s\u0259si m\u0259ni x\u0259yallardan ay\u0131rd\u0131.Qatardan d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck .Qohumum bir xeyli limonad al\u0131b apar\u0131rd\u0131. Ki\u00e7ik o\u011flu deyibmi\u015f ki ,-ay qa\u011fa m\u0259n\u0259 Bak\u0131dan \u00e7oxlu limonadnan\u00a0 kojik al g\u0259tir.\u00a0 Zavall\u0131 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n x\u0259b\u0259ri yoxdu ki ,qa\u011fas\u0131 ona ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 kojikl\u0259rin dibin\u0259 \u00e7oxdan da\u015f at\u0131b.Bir- iki d\u0259n\u0259 qala ,ya qalmaya .S\u0259h\u0259r saat alt\u0131 olard\u0131. Hava i\u015f\u0131qla\u015fmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131 .\u00d6z\u00fcmd\u0259 bir y\u00fcng\u00fcll\u00fck hiss el\u0259dim .El\u0259 bil b\u00fct\u00fcn a\u011fr\u0131 ac\u0131lar\u0131m qatarla getdi.Amma bird\u0259n- bir\u0259 yen\u0259 dar\u0131xd\u0131m .T\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n o qatarla n\u0259 vaxtsa \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 evimiz\u0259 qay\u0131daca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.Lakin bu c\u00fcr d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259k h\u0259l\u0259 \u00e7ox tez idi.M\u0259ni ir\u0259lid\u0259 yeni h\u0259yat g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi,- k\u0259nd h\u0259yat\u0131…<\/p>\n

\u018f, a bala tez -tez g\u0259l aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fcm\u0259 ,-aftobusa \u00e7ata bilm\u0259s\u0259k\u00a0 g\u0259r\u0259k\u00a0 burada qal\u0131f aj-susuz veyill\u0259n\u0259k,D\u0259ll\u0259rd\u0259n G\u0259d\u0259b\u0259y\u0259 avtobus savax -savax geder,- bunu da k\u0259nd qohumum dem\u0259yib kim dey\u0259siydi…<\/p>\n

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Rayon m\u0259rk\u0259zin\u0259 \u00e7atanda hava yenic\u0259 i\u015f\u0131qlanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. E\u015fitdiyim\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 yollar b\u0259rbadd\u0131 k\u0259nd\u0259 getm\u0259k \u00e7\u0259tindi . Ki\u00e7ik Qaramurad k\u0259ndin\u0259 birt\u0259h\u0259r getm\u0259k olur .Oradan o yana m\u0259nim d\u0259d\u0259 -baba yurdum \u018fli- \u0130smay\u0131l k\u0259ndin\u0259 is\u0259 gedib \u00e7\u0131xmaq o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 asan m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 deyil .X\u00fcsus\u0259n ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011fanda qara pal\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259k olmur. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r “buksavat “olar, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yolda ma\u015f\u0131n s\u00f6n\u0259r .Ki\u00e7ik Qaramurada q\u0259d\u0259r “qruzavoy”un “kuza”s\u0131nda g\u0259ldik. Yax\u015f\u0131 ki,c\u0131r\u0131q da olsa \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00e7ad\u0131r\u0131 var idi .Yoxsa k\u00fcl\u0259k bizi birt\u0259h\u0259r el\u0259y\u0259ridi .El\u0259y\u0259rdi dey\u0259nd\u0259 ki ,qohumun vecin\u0259 deyildi ,he\u00e7 t\u00fck\u00fc d\u0259 t\u0259rp\u0259nmirdi. El\u0259 bil ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n kuzas\u0131nda yox Brejnyevin \u00e7aykas\u0131nda gedirdi .H\u0259rd\u0259n \u0259lini papa\u011f\u0131na apar\u0131rd\u0131 ki ,\u00e7ad\u0131r\u0131 allad\u0131b aras\u0131ndan ke\u00e7\u0259n k\u00fcl\u0259k v\u0131z\u0131llatmas\u0131n .Arada m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6z qoyurdu ,g\u00f6r\u00fcm nec\u0259y\u0259m .\u015eit -\u015fit g\u00fcl\u0259 -g\u00fcl\u0259 -h\u0259 bajo\u011flu n\u0259t\u0259ridi i\u015fd\u0259r,yollar\u0131n d\u0259rdind\u0259n buralarda avtabuz zad olmor haaa .Biz bel\u0259c\u0259 zulum \u00e7\u0259ker\u0259k .-Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131\u00a0 bir az aral\u0131 tut \u00e7\u0259n\u0259n “borta” d\u0259ym\u0259sin, -dedi .Amma sif\u0259tind\u0259ki \u015fit g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc\u00a0 bel\u0259 tez getm\u0259di.Q\u0131rsaqq\u0131z olub \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131. N\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 qohumum s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc deyil, g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc cox uzad\u0131rd\u0131. V\u0259 o \u015fit ,eyb\u0259c\u0259r g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n qovunca , dibin\u0259 da\u015f at\u0131nca \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 haldan -hala d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc .H\u0259min vaxt onun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 o g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 atmil\u00e7\u0259yi\u00a0 qonsayd\u0131 i\u015fi daha rahat olard\u0131 .Bir \u015fill\u0259yl\u0259 vurub ax\u0131r\u0131na \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131 .Neyn\u0259m\u0259k olar ki ,\u00f6mr\u00fcn hans\u0131sa ilind\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259 z\u0259r\u0259rli v\u0259rdi\u015f kimi bu s\u00fcni dingi\u015f g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u0259 ad\u0259t el\u0259mi\u015fdi .El\u0259 bil \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki ,\u00fcz\u00fc bir az da el\u0259 o saxta g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259\u0259ziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kir ,eyb\u0259c\u0259r hala d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr .Qohumumun Royon m\u0259rk\u0259zind\u0259n ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 zorrama g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc Ki\u00e7ikQaramurad k\u0259ndind\u0259 bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 yoxa \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.- O da\u011flar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00f6rs\u0259nmi,yax\u015f\u0131-yax\u015f\u0131 bax ,k\u0259ndimiz o da\u011flar\u0131n \u0259t\u0259yind\u0259di -az qal\u0131f \u00e7aterax ,-dey\u0259 qohumum m\u0259ni m\u0259lumatland\u0131rma\u011f\u0131 da unutmad\u0131 .V\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn arxas\u0131nca yen\u0259 \u015fit -\u015fit g\u00fcld\u00fc .Bu saxta ,\u015fit g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f onun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yen\u0259 eyb\u0259c\u0259r hala sald\u0131 .\u00d6z\u00fcm\u0259 s\u00f6z verdim ki daha ona baxmay\u0131m —Ora g\u0259r\u0259k taksiyn\u0259n ged\u0259k,avtobus zad getmer,-dey\u0259n qohumumun\u00a0 batm\u0131\u015f s\u0259si g\u00fccl\u0259 e\u015fidilirdi .Quyuda bo\u011fulan adam\u0131n s\u0259sin\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131 .Ax\u015famnan i\u00e7diyi buz kimi limonadlar \u00f6z i\u015fini g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc .A\u011fz\u0131nnan s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc qurtarmam\u0131\u015f taksi s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcs\u00fc\u00a0 \u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 el\u0259 cumdu ki ,-dedim indi bizi bas\u0131b d\u00f6y\u0259c\u0259k .\u018fli -\u0130smay\u0131la apararsanm\u0131 ,dem\u0259kl\u0259- qohumum \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 nigaran qald\u0131\u011f\u0131 batm\u0131\u015f s\u0259sini qald\u0131rma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131 amma bir f\u0259rq el\u0259m\u0259di. Taksi s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcl\u0259rinin ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 halda n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 bu balacaboy, t\u00f6sm\u0259r\u0259k,\u00fcst qabaq di\u015fl\u0259rinin ikisi q\u0131z\u0131l olan o\u011flan\u0131 tan\u0131ya bilm\u0259di .Kimin o\u011flusan deyib -soru\u015fma\u011fa da h\u0259v\u0259si olmad\u0131 ,onsuz da s\u0259si s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 baxm\u0131rd\u0131.T\u00f6sm\u0259r\u0259k s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc, -“m\u0259nim bu g\u00f6y g\u00f6zl\u0259rim \u00fcsd\u0259” ni el\u0259 dedi ki,-\u00a0 guya g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin g\u00f6y olmas\u0131n\u0131n bir ba\u015fa m\u0259tl\u0259b\u0259 d\u0259xli varm\u0131\u015f. Villisd\u0259 yerb\u0259yer olduq. \u00dcr\u0259yimd\u0259 dedim ki ,Allah d\u0259rb\u0259d\u0259rind\u0259n saxlas\u0131n.U\u015fa\u011fa ox\u015far s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc ata minirmi\u015f kimi\u00a0 s\u00fckan arxas\u0131na d\u0131rma\u015fd\u0131. Bir g\u00f6z q\u0131rp\u0131m\u0131nda motoru i\u015f\u0259 sald\u0131. \u0130lk bax\u0131\u015fdan m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki ,o ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcrm\u00fcr s\u00fckan\u0131n alt\u0131nda e\u015f\u0259l\u0259nir, n\u0259s\u0259 axtar\u0131r ,\u00f6z -\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 at\u0131l\u0131b d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr ,u\u015faqla\u015f\u0131r .Amma bir az yol ged\u0259nd\u0259n sonra g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, yox zal\u0131m balas\u0131 i\u015finin ustas\u0131ym\u0131\u015f.Onun o v\u0259ziyy\u0259t\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259sinin x\u0259takar\u0131 yollar imi\u015f.Yol boyu\u00a0 villis n\u0259rild\u0259yirdi, ulay\u0131rd\u0131 c\u00fcrb\u0259c\u00fcr s\u0259sl\u0259r \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131rd\u0131 .\u00c7ala -\u00e7uxura d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fckc\u0259 ,sa\u011fa -sola at\u0131ld\u0131qca ba\u015f\u0131m az qal\u0131rd\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7ad\u0131r\u0131n\u0131 de\u015fib \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xs\u0131n .\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc saxlaya bilmirdim . Ma\u015f\u0131nda tutmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yer qalmayan qohumum -m\u0259nd\u0259n d\u0259 b\u0259rk yap\u0131\u015f -dey\u0259\u00a0 \u0259lav\u0259 t\u0259dbir\u0259 \u0259l atd\u0131 ki, ilk \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259rd\u0259n g\u00f6z\u00fcm k\u0259ll\u0259m\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xmas\u0131n…<\/p>\n

Ya\u011f\u0131\u015fl\u0131 bir pay\u0131z g\u00fcn\u00fcyd\u00fc. Villis k\u0259nd m\u0259kt\u0259binin yan\u0131nda dayand\u0131. Yol b\u0259rbad oldu\u011fundan g\u00fcney\u0259 babamgil\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 qalxmad\u0131 .D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb \u0259\u015fyalar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fck .Qohum dedi ki ,m\u0259n bax o t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259 oloram ,\u0259mb\u0259 ged\u0259k s\u0259ni bavana n\u0259n\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259fil verem\u00a0 \u00fcr\u0259yim rahat olsun, amanat u\u015faxsan .Olar indi s\u0259nin yolunu\u00a0 g\u00f6zd\u00f6r. Qohumu e\u015fidirdim, amma g\u00f6z\u00fcm \u0259ks t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 qay\u0131tmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn pal\u00e7\u0131qda d\u00f6vr\u0259 vuran vilisd\u0259ydi. Pal\u00e7\u0131q ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n dam\u0131na q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 .Markas\u0131ndan, modelind\u0259n \u0259s\u0259r \u0259lam\u0259t qalmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bir anl\u0131\u011fa \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0131n g\u00fcl kimi asvalt\u0131n\u0131, t\u0259r- t\u0259miz ma\u015f\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rlad\u0131m .Amma k\u00f6vr\u0259lm\u0259yin yeri deyildi…<\/p>\n

A bala tez -tez g\u0259l, \u0259ya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131na bax, pal\u00e7\u0131\u011fa girm\u0259, – bildiyiniz kimi yen\u0259 d\u0259 qohumun s\u0259si idi. Hans\u0131 ki ,bir azdan onunla vidala\u015facaqd\u0131m Baxmayaraq ki birg\u0259 yol g\u0259lmi\u015fdik, m\u0259n\u0259 b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7ilik el\u0259mi\u015fdi. Allaha ac\u0131q getm\u0259sin bu adamnan he\u00e7 xo\u015fum g\u0259lmirdi…<\/p>\n

E\u015f\u015f\u0259yin s\u0259si k\u0259ndi ba\u015f\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. K\u0259ndin haras\u0131nda dayan\u0131rsan dayan eyn\u0259n o m\u0259zlum heyvan\u0131n s\u0259sini e\u015fid\u0259c\u0259kdin.K\u0259ndin bu ba\u015f\u0131nda anq\u0131ran e\u015f\u015f\u0259yin s\u0259sin\u0259 k\u0259ndin o biri ba\u015f\u0131ndk\u0131 e\u015f\u015f\u0259k m\u00fctl\u0259q s\u0259s verm\u0259liydi S\u0259s- s\u0259s\u0259 qar\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.\u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc d\u0259 peyda oldusa, birl\u0259\u015fib H\u0259m\u0259dana meydan oxuyurdular.\u00a0 Adamlar bu s\u0259s\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdil\u0259r. M\u0259n\u0259 is\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u0259lirdi .Tamam \u00f6zg\u0259 bir al\u0259m\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm.O boyda \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n bir \u00e7imdik d\u0259 \u0259s\u0259r \u0259lam\u0259t yoxuydu. N\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 ilk d\u0259f\u0259 bu k\u0259ndd\u0259 da\u011flar m\u0259n\u0259 xo\u015f g\u0259ldi ,k\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fc ox\u015fad\u0131.Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b da\u011flara baxma\u011f\u0131mla e\u015f\u015f\u0259yin s\u0259sinin k\u0259silm\u0259si bir oldu.Allah\u0131n e\u015f\u015f\u0259y\u0259 verdiyi bu\u0259cayib s\u0259sd\u0259n k\u0259ndin ba\u015f\u0131 dinc\u0259ldi .Ba\u015fqa heyvanlar\u0131n, qu\u015flar\u0131n s\u0259si rahat e\u015fidildi.S\u0259n dem\u0259 e\u015f\u015f\u0259yin s\u0259si k\u0259ndd\u0259ki b\u00fct\u00fcn s\u0259sl\u0259ri m\u00fcv\u0259qq\u0259ti d\u0259 olsa bat\u0131r\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. H\u0259tta bir-birini \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rmaq ist\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259r bel\u0259 e\u015f\u015f\u0259yin s\u0259sinin k\u0259silm\u0259sini s\u0259birsizlikl\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirl\u0259r .Bu heyvan\u0131n anq\u0131rma qrafikini d\u0259 he\u00e7 kim bilmir. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 bu s\u0259sl\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmaq i\u015f\u0131qforun q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k kimi bir \u015feydi.G\u00f6zl\u0259 ki,ya\u015f\u0131l i\u015f\u0131q yanacaq.Amma a\u011fl\u0131n \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 getm\u0259sin .Burdak\u0131 q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 i\u015f\u0131q h\u0259l\u0259m-h\u0259l\u0259m s\u00f6n\u0259si deyil… G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f yava\u015f -yava\u015f\u00a0 da\u011flar\u0131n arxas\u0131ndan boylan\u0131rd\u0131 . Zirv\u0259d\u0259 alat-alat duman g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u0130raq e\u015f\u015f\u0259kd\u0259n ,bu el\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259ydi ki ,yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 olsayd\u0131m daha maraql\u0131 t\u0259svirl\u0259r ver\u0259rdim .Sonra bil\u0259c\u0259kdim ki ,m\u0259ni bu k\u0259ndd\u0259 dar\u0131xma\u011fa qoymayan h\u0259m d\u0259\u00a0 g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fli, dumanl\u0131 da\u011flard\u0131.Yeri g\u0259lmi\u015fk\u0259n deyim ki ,k\u0259ndimizin g\u00f6z\u0259lliyin\u0259 ilk g\u00fcnd\u0259n heyran oldum. \u00d6z -\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 sirv\u0259si buludlara dir\u0259n\u0259n bu \u0259z\u0259m\u0259tli da\u011flar\u0131n n\u0259 vaxt yarand\u0131\u011f\u0131 haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. D\u00fczl\u0259rin, d\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rin, me\u015f\u0259l\u0259rin ,\u00e7aylar\u0131n nec\u0259 \u0259m\u0259l\u0259 g\u0259ldiyi m\u0259nim u\u015faq mara\u011f\u0131ma s\u0259b\u0259b oldu .Bel\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259rsiz relyefin,g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi il\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131 yerind\u0259n oynadan t\u0259bi\u0259tin memar\u0131 \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259siz ki ,Allah olub. Bu insan\u0131n i\u015fi deyil. \u0130nsan\u0131n i\u015fi odur ki Allah\u0131n yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015f\u0259raitd\u0259n insan kimi istifad\u0259 edib g\u00f6z\u0259l \u00f6m\u00fcr ya\u015faya bilsin. \u0130nsanlar bu k\u0259nd\u0259 n\u0259 vaxt, hans\u0131 y\u00fczillikd\u0259 ,hans\u0131 tayfadan g\u0259lib bu haqda tarixi -nadir dan\u0131\u015f\u0131b ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 yormaq ist\u0259mir\u0259m .Sad\u0259c\u0259 k\u0259ndd\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259 \u0259min oldum ki k\u0259nd\u00e7il\u0259rimiz buraya Allah\u0131n m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t bildiyi \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l bir vaxtda, g\u00f6z\u0259l bir y\u00fczillikd\u0259 ,g\u00f6z\u0259l bir tayfadan g\u0259lib .Buran\u0131n adamlar\u0131 Allaha yax\u0131nd\u0131lar .Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 yox ki ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131 m\u0259kan yer s\u0259thind\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 min metr y\u00fcks\u0259klikd\u0259 yerl\u0259\u015fir v\u0259 g\u00f6y\u0259 bir az da yax\u0131nd\u0131r, -xeyr ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki ,bu insanlar\u0131n q\u0259lbi Allahla d\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcr v\u0259 bu balaca k\u0259ndd\u0259 \u015f\u0259r -x\u0259ta \u00e7ox nadir hallarda ba\u015f verir. N\u0259n\u0259mn\u0259n c\u0259nn\u0259t\u00a0 haqq\u0131nda bilib e\u015fitdikc\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcn\u0259 k\u0259ndimiz g\u0259lirdi. \u00c7\u00fcnki c\u0259nn\u0259t\u0259 xas olan n\u0259 varsa ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259ndimizd\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m .Ad\u0259ml\u0259 H\u0259vvadan tutmu\u015f ta c\u0259nn\u0259t almalar\u0131na q\u0259d\u0259r. Amma k\u0259nd\u00e7il\u0259rimiz n\u0259fsini qoruyand\u0131lar. Allah\u0131n q\u0259z\u0259bind\u0259n qorxurlar.Aralar\u0131ndak\u0131 \u015feytan\u0131 vaxt\u0131nda\u00a0 tap\u0131b l\u0259n\u0259tl\u0259yib,da\u015flaya bilirl\u0259r v\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 olsun \u015feytan\u0131n onlar\u0131 azd\u0131rd\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m .Q\u0259na\u0259tim budur ki ,Ad\u0259ml\u0259 H\u0259vva c\u0259nn\u0259td\u0259n qovulanda el\u0259 bu k\u0259nd\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcbl\u0259r v\u0259 Allah\u0131n q\u0259z\u0259bin\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259kl\u0259rind\u0259n m\u00f6hk\u0259mc\u0259 pe\u015fman olublar .N\u0259fsin, tamah\u0131n da\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bird\u0259f\u0259lik at\u0131blar. Burdan da bel\u0259 anlamaq olur ki\u00a0 ,yer \u00f6vladlar\u0131 olan k\u0259nd\u00e7il\u0259rim g\u00f6yd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n Ad\u0259ml\u0259 H\u0259vvan\u0131n qeydsiz-\u015f\u0259rtsiz m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s \u015f\u0259c\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259ndil\u0259r. M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir\u00a0 ,da\u011fa – da\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259kd\u0259ns\u0259 k\u0259ndimizin tarixini bu c\u00fcr t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr el\u0259m\u0259k daha maraql\u0131 v\u0259 a\u011flabatand\u0131…<\/p>\n

Ay Sir\u0259fil \u0259mi\u00a0 ,Sir\u0259fil \u0259mi heeey -q\u0259fil q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rma\u011f\u0131yla qohumumun s\u0259sinin a\u00e7\u0131lma\u011f\u0131 bir oldu .Dedim indi ,bu c\u00fcr xo\u015fa g\u0259lm\u0259z, y\u00f6nd\u0259msiz ,t\u00fck\u00fcrp\u0259d\u0259n s\u0259s\u0259 qorxudan he\u00e7 kim evd\u0259n \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xmaz .Amma qohumun\u00a0 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rma\u011f\u0131yla \u0130srafil babam\u0131n qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 a\u00e7mas\u0131 bir oldu. S\u0259n dem\u0259 oturub m\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259yirmi\u015fl\u0259r. \u0130ki g\u00fcn \u0259vv\u0259l ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fanl\u0131 m\u0259ktubda m\u0259nim k\u0259nd\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259yim, orada qal\u0131b oxuma\u011f\u0131m, onlara k\u00f6m\u0259k edib layiqli bir n\u0259v\u0259 olaca\u011f\u0131m bar\u0259d\u0259 atam\u00a0 yerli -yataql\u0131 yazm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 .K\u00f6m\u0259ksiz ya\u015fayan babam v\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259m bu \u015fanl\u0131 m\u0259ktubda yaz\u0131lanlardan m\u0259mnun olmu\u015fdular. Bu m\u0259mnunlu\u011fu m\u0259n ilk bax\u0131\u015fdanca babam\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.\u00a0 M\u0259mnunlu\u011fun s\u0259b\u0259bkar\u0131 olma\u011f\u0131mla f\u0259xr el\u0259dim.<\/p>\n

Sir\u0259fil \u0259mi, al\u0131n, n\u0259v\u0259nizi m\u0259nn\u0259n sa\u011f salamat t\u0259fil al\u0131n .Amanat\u0131n n\u0259 dem\u0259k oldu\u011funu yax\u015f\u0131 biler\u0259m. A\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 u\u015faxd\u0131 ,s\u00f6z\u0259 baxand\u0131. Yol yolda\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 da yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131 .Z\u0259rr\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r\u00a0 m\u0259ni incitm\u0259di .Allah sizi ona ,onu da siz\u0259 \u00e7ox g\u00f6rm\u0259sin .M\u0259ni \u00fcz\u00fcrl\u00fc hesaf el\u0259yin gedem .-Bunlar qohumun m\u0259nn\u0259n ba\u011fl\u0131 nitq\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259r sonuncu\u00a0 s\u00f6zl\u0259riydi.Bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rd\u0259n sonra Bak\u0131dan k\u0259nd\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259n\u0259 b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7ilik el\u0259y\u0259n qohumuma bird\u0259n -bir\u0259 qan\u0131m qaynad\u0131 , yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u0259ldi ,–Ke\u00e7 i\u00e7\u0259ri bir ist\u0259kan \u00e7ay i\u00e7 ,yeng\u0259n t\u0259z\u0259 s\u00fcd bi\u015firb – babam t\u0259kidl\u0259 qohumumu ev\u0259 d\u0259v\u0259t el\u0259di.- Yox ,\u00fcz vurma ay \u0259mi \u015eahmal\u0131 yolumu g\u00f6zd\u00f6r .H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 m\u0259n Bak\u0131ya gedif g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 lumnat deef ,lumnat e\u015fider Gedem onu da s\u00f6y\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u00f6m , lumnatdar\u0131n\u0131 verem i\u00e7sin…<\/p>\n

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D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fcmd\u0259n d\u0259 h\u00fcnd\u00fcr ,ucaboy babam m\u0259ni boyu b\u0259rab\u0259ri qald\u0131rd\u0131 aln\u0131mdan \u00f6pd\u00fc . M\u0259n\u0259 bir anl\u0131\u011fa el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki,\u00a0 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm o \u015fah da\u011f\u0131n\u0131n qoynundayam .Babam boy -buxunu, v\u00fcqar\u0131 ,\u0259z\u0259m\u0259tli bax\u0131\u015f\u0131yla\u00a0 da\u011flara \u00e7ox ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259n ona ilk d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f kimi bax\u0131rd\u0131m . \u018fvv\u0259l g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc hesaba qata bilmirdim ,xat\u0131rlam\u0131rd\u0131m.Bir iki d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259kl\u0259 iki ya\u015f\u0131nda u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n yad\u0131nda babam nec\u0259 qala bil\u0259rdi .<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259m B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 qar\u0131 babamnan boyca balaca idi . Babam m\u0259ni onun quca\u011f\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc. N\u0259n\u0259m m\u0259ni ba\u011fr\u0131na basd\u0131, \u00fcz\u00fcmd\u0259n doyunca \u00f6pd\u00fc.- Daha s\u0259n bizim o\u011flumuzsan, -dedi .H\u0259y\u0259candan ,sevincd\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yinin d\u00f6y\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc hiss el\u0259dim. \u00dcz\u00fcn\u00fcn nuru \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131. N\u0259n\u0259mn\u0259n k\u0259klikotu \u0259tri, yarp\u0131z \u0259tri ,da\u011f \u0259tri, \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k \u0259tri ,bir s\u00f6zl\u0259 k\u0259nd \u0259tri g\u0259lirdi\u00a0 Uzaq yol g\u0259ldiyimi n\u0259z\u0259r\u0259 al\u0131b yax\u0131ca \u00e7ay d\u0259ml\u0259mi\u015fdi ,s\u00fcd bi\u015firmi\u015fdi .Yumurtalar\u0131 ,tavan\u0131 haz\u0131r qoymu\u015fdu ki m\u0259n \u00e7atanda qay\u011fanaq el\u0259sin.-\u015e\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 n\u0259 var ,n\u0259 yox qarda\u015f\u0131n bac\u0131n nec\u0259di – babam s\u00f6hb\u0259t\u0259 yol sald\u0131 .-Yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131lar baba ,ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n siz\u0259 salamlar\u0131 var,-dedim. Qatarda pis yatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m ,\u00e7ox yor\u011funuydum .Bunu babam da hiss el\u0259di v\u0259 suallar\u0131 k\u0259sdi.N\u0259n\u0259m\u0259,- tez haz\u0131rla onun \u00e7ay-\u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yini qoy yesin yats\u0131n , dinc\u0259lsin Qon\u015fu u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259si -k\u00fcy\u00fc h\u0259y\u0259ti ba\u015f\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.\u015e\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n o\u011flan\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdil\u0259r.M\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 maraql\u0131yd\u0131 onlar\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259k .Amma yor\u011funlu\u011fum bu g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fc t\u0259xir\u0259 sald\u0131.Bird\u0259n -bir\u0259 d\u0259li bir dar\u0131xmaq da bu yandan.H\u00f6nk\u00fcrt\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00fccl\u0259 saxlad\u0131m .Yatma\u011fa yerim haz\u0131r idi . \u00dcz\u00fcqoylu yast\u0131\u011fa uzanma\u011f\u0131mla a\u011flama\u011f\u0131m\u0131 gizl\u0259tm\u0259yim bir oldu. Buna \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 sevindim .\u0130lk g\u00fcnd\u0259n a\u011flay\u0131b,s\u0131zlama\u011f\u0131mla babam\u0131n,n\u0259n\u0259min kefin\u0259 so\u011fan do\u011framaq \u00a0z\u0259hl\u0259sini t\u00f6km\u0259k ,ist\u0259mirdim.\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 alma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Bir az yerb\u0259yer olanda sonra n\u0259n\u0259m m\u0259ni qohumlarla ,qon\u015fularla tan\u0131\u015f el\u0259di.K\u0259ndd\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259 a\u011fsaqqal\u0131ndan ,a\u011fbir\u00e7\u0259yind\u0259n h\u00f6rm\u0259t v\u0259 ehtiram g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.\u0130srafilin n\u0259v\u0259sidir ,onlara k\u00f6m\u0259k el\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lib ,halal olsun bu u\u015fa\u011fa ,-s\u00f6zl\u0259rini ayr\u0131 -ayr\u0131 adamlardan tez -tez e\u015fidirdim .Bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rd\u0259n ist\u0259r -ist\u0259m\u0259z q\u00fcrurlan\u0131rd\u0131m , dar\u0131xma\u011f\u0131n da\u015f\u0131n\u0131 atma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m.Qohumlardan s\u00f6hb\u0259t d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fk\u0259n m\u0259n bir ail\u0259ni x\u00fcsusi qeyd etm\u0259liy\u0259m .Atam\u0131n \u0259misi o\u011flu \u0130lyas \u0259mimgill\u0259 yax\u0131n qon\u015fu\u00a0 idik .Me\u015f\u0259b\u0259yi i\u015fl\u0259yirdi .M\u0259n dar\u0131xma\u011f\u0131n da\u015f\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259m d\u0259 onlar\u0131n say\u0259sind\u0259\u00a0\u00a0 atm\u0131\u015fam.\u018fmimin yolda\u015f\u0131 Asiya xala m\u0259ni \u00f6z u\u015faqlar\u0131ndan se\u00e7m\u0259yib.H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 onlar\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131ndan g\u00fcl\u0259r\u00fczl\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131lanm\u0131\u015fam U\u015faqlar\u0131 il\u0259 bac\u0131 qarda\u015f olmu\u015fam.\u00c7\u00f6r\u0259kl\u0259rini yemi\u015f\u0259m, \u00e7aylar\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7mi\u015f\u0259m ,yell\u0259nc\u0259kl\u0259rind\u0259 yell\u0259nmi\u015f\u0259m , u\u015faqlar\u0131yla be\u015f -da\u015f oynam\u0131\u015fam.Baxmayaraq n\u0259n\u0259m dey\u0259rdi ki ,qon\u015fuya \u00e7ox getm\u0259 ,onlarda yem\u0259k yem\u0259,- acd\u0131n ,g\u0259l evimiz\u0259 .Amma olmurdu.Onlar yem\u0259k yedikl\u0259ri zaman m\u0259n qa\u00e7\u0131b evimiz\u0259 getm\u0259k\u00a0 ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 u\u015faqlar qolumdan tutub dart\u0131rd\u0131lar,-hara gedirs\u0259n ,yem\u0259k yem\u0259s\u0259n qoymar\u0131q getm\u0259y\u0259 -deyirdil\u0259r.Utana-utana yeyirdim…<\/p>\n

Ana n\u0259n\u0259m G\u00fclab arvad\u0131n da m\u0259n\u0259 olan haqq\u0131n\u0131 itir\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m.K\u0259ndin ba\u015f\u0131nda ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. D\u00fczd\u00fc onlarda az- az qal\u0131rd\u0131m.H\u0259m d\u0259 babam\u0131n tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131 bel\u0259ydi ki ,he\u00e7 kimd\u0259 qalma ,hara gets\u0259n ax\u015fam\u00a0 ev\u0259 g\u0259l .H\u0259rd\u0259n bu tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131 pozurdum.Bu da m\u0259n\u0259 baha ba\u015fa g\u0259lirdi .\u00dcz\u00fcm\u00fc danlay\u0131rd\u0131.Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 yer\u0259 dikirdim, g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi d\u00f6y\u00fcrd\u00fcm .-Amanat u\u015faqsan,qalma he\u00e7 yanda ,y\u0131x\u0131larsan, qorxarsan ,atana ,anana n\u0259 cavab ver\u0259rik bizi i\u015f\u0259 salma,-dey\u0259rdi. .A\u011flamaq d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7atanda u\u015faqlarla oynama\u011fa g\u00f6nd\u0259rirdi Sonra dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda n\u0259s\u0259 deyinirdi ,daha m\u0259n onlar\u0131 e\u015fitmirdim.M\u0259nim kiml\u0259rd\u0259s\u0259 qalma\u011f\u0131m\u0131 he\u00e7 c\u00fcr q\u0259bul ed\u0259 bilmirdi…G\u00fclab n\u0259n\u0259m\u0259 yor\u011fa G\u00fclab dey\u0259rdil\u0259r.K\u0259ndd\u0259 onun yeri\u015fin\u0259 he\u00e7 kim \u00e7ata bilmirdi .H\u0259tta son g\u00fcnl\u0259rin\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r o yeri\u015fini qoruyub saxlaya bildi. Baxmayaraq ki ya\u015f\u0131 doxsan\u0131 \u00f6tm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc .\u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r h\u0259rd\u0259n day\u0131m onu \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259nd\u0259\u00a0 qarda\u015f\u0131m Xanlar deyirdi ki, m\u0259n\u00a0 g\u0259zm\u0259y\u0259 aparmayacam, b\u0259rk gedir ,\u00e7ata bilmir\u0259m caamatdan utan\u0131ram .Bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 o c\u00fcr yeri\u015fl\u0259 itmi\u015fdi g\u00fccl\u0259 tapd\u0131q.B\u0259li n\u0259n\u0259m k\u0259nd adam\u0131yd\u0131. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 m\u0259ni d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 f\u0131st\u0131q y\u0131\u011fma\u011fa aparm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 .Yek\u0259 \u00e7ad\u0131r\u0131 a\u011fac\u0131n alt\u0131na s\u0259rirdik, m\u0259nd\u0259n bir az b\u00f6y\u00fck o\u011flanlar qu\u015f kimi ucaboy a\u011fac\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131lar .\u00c7\u0131rp ki ,\u00e7\u0131rpasan .El\u0259 bil g\u00f6yd\u0259n dolu ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.Q\u0131\u015fda pe\u00e7in yan\u0131nda q\u0131zarm\u0131\u015f kartof diliml\u0259ri il\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131 qovrulmu\u015f fist\u0131\u011f\u0131n da dad\u0131 bir ba\u015fqayd\u0131 …<\/p>\n

Qay\u0131daq k\u0259nd\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259yim\u0259 .Bir az geciks\u0259k\u00a0 d\u0259 babam m\u0259nim m\u0259kt\u0259b m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259mi h\u0259ll el\u0259di.M\u0259kt\u0259bin direktoru alic\u0259nabl\u0131q n\u00fcmayi\u015f etdirdi:<\/p>\n

-Yusifinmi o\u011fludu ? Allah saxlas\u0131n \u018flimizd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259ni \u0259sirg\u0259m\u0259rik<\/p>\n

Babam da \u00f6z t\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fc bildirdi<\/p>\n

T\u0259bii ki ,k\u0259ndd\u0259 \u00e7ox adam\u0131 tan\u0131m\u0131rd\u0131m .M\u0259n k\u00f6rp\u0259yk\u0259n atam\u0131n i\u015fi il\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259dar\u00a0 Bak\u0131ya k\u00f6\u00e7m\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck .Yeddi ya\u015f\u0131m olmas\u0131na baxmayaraq\u00a0 he\u00e7 yeddi qohum tan\u0131m\u0131rd\u0131m.Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 tan\u0131d\u0131qca bir -bir onlardan utan\u0131rd\u0131m .<\/p>\n

Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r \u00fczl\u0259rin\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131- yax\u015f\u0131 bax, sonra kim kimdi yad\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xacaq -dey\u0259 qon\u015fumuzun o\u011flu m\u0259ni h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259ndirirdi. Amma m\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259 qohum tan\u0131maq zorunda deyildim .Anamnan ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 kimi g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdim B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlara baxmayaraq k\u0259ndimizin g\u00f6z\u0259lliyin\u0259 heyran olmu\u015fdum.K\u0259nd\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259yim pay\u0131za t\u0259sad\u00fcf el\u0259m\u0259sin\u0259 baxmayaraq h\u0259r \u015fey m\u0259n\u0259 yeni v\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc.Balaca bir k\u0259ndd\u0259\u00a0 qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131z maraql\u0131 h\u0259yat ya\u015fan\u0131rd\u0131.Funklyordan bulvardan, sirkd\u0259n \u0259s\u0259r \u0259lam\u0259t olmasa da \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 m\u0259xsus tragikomik \u0259hvalatlar\u0131yla ,maraql\u0131 hadis\u0259l\u0259riyl\u0259 z\u0259ngin olan bu k\u0259nd\u0259\u00a0 yava\u015f -yava\u015f \u00f6yr\u0259\u015firdim.Babam\u0131n ayamas\u0131 Pedan \u0130srafil idi .Yek\u0259 \u0130srafil d\u0259 dey\u0259rdil\u0259r Lakin bu Yek\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fc he\u00e7 d\u0259 yek\u0259xanal\u0131q dem\u0259k deyidi. Da\u011flar kimi uca, v\u00fcqarl\u0131 anlam\u0131na g\u0259lirdi. Boy buxunundan \u0259lav\u0259 h\u0259m d\u0259, h\u0259r \u015feyin yek\u0259si onunlayd\u0131 -s\u00f6z\u00fcn, q\u00fcrurun, halall\u0131\u011f\u0131n. ..Az dan\u0131\u015fard\u0131 .Adamlar\u0131 dinl\u0259y\u0259rdi hannan -hana bir -iki s\u00f6z dey\u0259rdi, ya dem\u0259zdi.\u00c7oxunu da \u0259lini yell\u0259m\u0259kl\u0259 yola verirdi .M\u0259n onun fikirl\u0259rini \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n oxuya bilirdim .Ac\u0131ql\u0131 olanda g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcrd\u00fcm. N\u0259n\u0259m deyirdi ,h\u0259l\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259 get bir az oyna ,baban\u0131n hirsi soyusun sonra g\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259n. Onu hirsli g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259k el\u0259mirdim…Gec\u0259l\u0259r tez -tez n\u0259n\u0259m yuxuda a\u011flayard\u0131 .Bu hadis\u0259 m\u0259ni lap qorxudurdu .Yor\u011fan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0259kib ayaqlar\u0131m\u0131 qarn\u0131ma y\u0131\u011f\u0131b tir -tir \u0259sirdim .N\u0259n\u0259m el\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131b a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131 ki ,sanki yuxuda deyil a\u00e7\u0131q a\u015fgarcana evimiz\u0259 girib n\u0259n\u0259min \u0259tini \u015fi\u015f\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kirdil\u0259r .\u00d6z\u00fc hiss el\u0259m\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259si \u00e7ox b\u0259dheyb\u0259t \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131 .N\u0259zar\u0259td\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xan, hiss olunmayan ,yaln\u0131z yuxunun ixtiyar\u0131nda olan s\u0259s bundan art\u0131q olmazd\u0131 ki.Bu ara babam\u0131n ac\u0131ql\u0131 ,gur s\u0259si gec\u0259nin qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131na meydan oxuyurdu.-A\u011f\u0131z ay B\u0259n\u00f6y\u015f\u0259 nooldu oyan , oyan u\u015fax qorxdu a q\u0131vlas\u0131z ,adam\u0131 pe\u015fman el\u0259m\u0259 ,oyan …N\u0259n\u0259m e\u015fitmirdi \u00f6z i\u015find\u0259ydi ,h\u0259l\u0259ki q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131 .Ax\u0131rda babam yata\u011f\u0131ndan qalx\u0131b onusilk\u0259l\u0259yirdi .N\u0259n\u0259m h\u00f6vlnak g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131 , bir az \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra ,-n\u0259 olmu\u015fdu niy\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131n- dey\u0259 yuxusu qa\u00e7m\u0131\u015f babam ac\u0131ql\u0131 -ac\u0131ql\u0131 soru\u015furdu .- He\u00e7 n\u0259 ,g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki ,bir yek\u0259 at arxas\u0131n\u0131 b\u00f6yr\u00fcm\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259yib, t\u0259rp\u0259ns\u0259m t\u0259pikl\u0259 vuracaq.Q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131m adamlar\u0131 haraya \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131m. M\u0259n bu hadis\u0259ni izl\u0259y\u0259- izl\u0259y\u0259 yerimd\u0259 donub qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Daha do\u011frusu \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc yuxulu\u011fa vurmu\u015fdum.Ay\u0131q oldu\u011fumu v\u0259 qorxdu\u011fumu bildirm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdim.-Ka\u015f el\u0259 at vurayd\u0131 s\u0259ni ,-dey\u0259n babam s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn arxas\u0131nca ata ,at\u0131n yiy\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7ox da z\u0259if olmayan s\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r ya\u011fd\u0131rd\u0131.Sonralar bu hal ,\u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259mn\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 olmayaraq t\u0259krarlan\u0131rd\u0131 Yen\u0259 babam\u0131n sor\u011fu -sual\u0131 ,yen\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259bkar\u0131n \u00fcnvan\u0131na gec\u0259 s\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259ri… Bir qorxum var idi ki, babam olmasa m\u0259n t\u0259k neyn\u0259r\u0259m. Qorxudan qan -ba\u011f\u0131r olaram.El\u0259 d\u0259 oldu babam\u0131n d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259sind\u0259n daha \u00e7ox\u00a0 n\u0259n\u0259min yuxuda q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rmas\u0131 il\u0259 \u00fcz- \u00fcz\u0259 dayanaca\u011f\u0131m m\u0259ni yaman qorxudurdu , can\u0131m\u0131 vahim\u0259 bas\u0131rd\u0131.D\u00fczd\u00fc bu bar\u0259d\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259m m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259skinlik vermi\u015fdi ki,- m\u0259n yuxuda q\u0131\u015fq\u0131randa qorxma yava\u015fca qolumnan tut ay\u0131lacam .Bir -iki d\u0259f\u0259 b\u0259rk h\u0259y\u0259canlansam da n\u0259n\u0259min bu qeyri -adi mistik v\u0259rdi\u015fin\u0259 yava\u015f -yava\u015f \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fdim .Babam\u0131n yor\u011fan\u0131n alt\u0131nda e\u015fitdiyim d\u00fcrl\u00fc -d\u00fcrl\u00fc s\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259ri yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. L\u0259n\u0259t \u015feytana dedim…<\/p>\n

Qohumlarla tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011fa ba\u015flayanda bibim o\u011flu \u018fliy\u0259 daha \u00e7ox isini\u015fdim .B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 ona g\u00f6r\u0259ydi ki, bir ya\u015fdayd\u0131q v\u0259 bir sinifd\u0259 bir partada otururduq. O q\u0259d\u0259r mehribanla\u015fd\u0131q dostla\u015fd\u0131q ki, baxmayaraq hal -haz\u0131rda Bak\u0131da taksi xidm\u0259ti il\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olur m\u0259n onu yen\u0259 \u015fagird sif\u0259tind\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m .El\u0259 bilir\u0259m yen\u0259 d\u0259 otuz q\u0259piklik pa\u00e7ka pe\u00e7enyesini \u00e7antas\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131b m\u0259nn\u0259n yar\u0131 b\u00f6l\u0259c\u0259k, iki “iris” konfeti varsa birini m\u0259n\u0259 ver\u0259c\u0259k, inadkarl\u0131\u011f\u0131ma baxmay\u0131b qolumdan darta- darta\u00a0 evl\u0259rin\u0259 aparacaq .Atas\u0131 C\u0259lil ki\u015fi m\u0259nn\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259m\u0259xsus g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k, hal -\u0259hval tutacaq.Atam\u0131n k\u0259nd\u0259 niy\u0259 gec -gec g\u0259lm\u0259sini soru\u015facaq. Mina bibim tez x\u0259ng\u0259l qazan\u0131n\u0131 pe\u00e7in \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoyacaq . Q\u0131z\u0131 P\u0259ri qurud \u0259z\u0259c\u0259k .\u018ftraf\u0131ma topla\u015fan u\u015faqlar bir az \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f -dey\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r. Amma bu dar macalda \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa \u00e7\u0259tinlik \u00e7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259m. \u00c7\u00fcnki anam yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k ,k\u00f6vr\u0259l\u0259c\u0259m \u018fhval\u0131m\u0131 hiss el\u0259yib bu v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259n m\u0259ni Mina bibim \u00e7\u0131xaracaq:<\/p>\n

–Nahaq \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n s\u00f6z sald\u0131n\u0131z .Apar\u0131n onu e\u015f\u015f\u0259y\u0259 mindirin kefi a\u00e7\u0131ls\u0131n- dey\u0259c\u0259k…<\/p>\n

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K\u0259nd h\u0259yat\u0131na uy\u011funla\u015fmaq\u00a0 \u00e7\u0259tin olsa da, geriy\u0259 yol yox idi .Bu m\u0259nim d\u00fcz aln\u0131m\u0131n ortas\u0131na yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. U\u015faqlar, qon\u015fular ,qohumlar, n\u0259n\u0259m babam h\u0259r c\u0259hdl\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar ki ,m\u0259n dar\u0131xmay\u0131m. H\u0259tta n\u0259n\u0259m deyirdi,- i\u015f g\u00f6rm\u0259 ,\u0259lini a\u011fdan qaraya vurma, amma dar\u0131xma, a\u011flama.S\u0259n dar\u0131xanda m\u0259nim d\u0259 \u0259lim i\u015f\u0259 yatm\u0131r, bilmir\u0259m neyn\u0259yim. .N\u0259n\u0259min s\u00f6zl\u0259rin m\u0259nim u\u015faq q\u0259lbim\u0259 t\u0259sir el\u0259yirdi ,xeyli \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259nirdim.D\u00fcnyan\u0131n t\u0259kc\u0259 dar\u0131xmaqdan, s\u0131zlamaqdan ibar\u0259t olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yava\u015f- yava\u015f anlay\u0131rd\u0131m .Onu da anlay\u0131rd\u0131m ki \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n bura basa -basa g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m ki ,bu bin\u0259va qocalar\u0131n z\u0259hl\u0259sini t\u00f6k\u0259m, kefl\u0259rin\u0259 so\u011fan do\u011fray\u0131m. Anas\u0131ndan ayr\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nl\u0259r azd\u0131m\u0131 .B\u0259s b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259nd\u0259 \u0259sg\u0259r gets\u0259m neyn\u0259r\u0259m.Orada ana \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 tank\u0131 qucaqlay\u0131rlar… Bel\u0259c\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm -\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 t\u0259skinlik verirdim, a\u011f\u0131l verirdim.V\u0259 bu m\u0259nd\u0259 \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131 al\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131.Allah bir yandan dar\u0131xmaq verirdis\u0259 bir yandan da d\u00f6z\u00fcm ,s\u0259br, t\u0259mkin verirdi . Daha a\u011flamayacam -deyirdim .G\u00fcnd\u00fczl\u0259r m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131m qar\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. D\u0259rsd\u0259n sonra ev tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131qlar\u0131 il\u0259 m\u0259\u011ful olurdum. Babam deyirdi, s\u0259nin biz\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259yin yax\u015f\u0131 oxuma\u011f\u0131nd\u0131. Yax\u015f\u0131 oxu ki, atan\u0131n, anan\u0131n yan\u0131nda bizim d\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcz a\u011f olsun<\/p>\n

H\u0259l\u0259 ki,m\u0259n\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn bu t\u0259skinlikl\u0259rin xeyri yox idi .Bir balaca t\u0259kl\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6z evimiz yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc. Anam\u0131n -bax gedib orada da a\u011flama haaa,- dem\u0259yini xat\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131m. Amma \u0259n \u00e7ox yad\u0131mda qalan qatarda anam\u0131n dopdolu g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n yana\u011f\u0131na s\u00fcz\u00fclm\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259s\u0259n g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 idi ki ,anam onu g\u00fccl\u0259 saxlay\u0131rd\u0131.Bilirdim ki, qatar uzaqla\u015fandan sonra\u00a0 m\u00fctl\u0259q bir k\u0259nara \u00e7\u0259kilib doyunca a\u011flayacaq, \u00fcr\u0259yini bo\u015faldacaq. \u00c7\u00fcnki o h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 ,- s\u0259ni ham\u0131dan \u00e7ox ist\u0259yir\u0259m,- deyirdi .Bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259r yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 m\u0259n n\u0259 “yek\u0259 ki\u015fi “ola bilirdim ,n\u0259 d\u0259 d\u00f6z\u00fcml\u00fc o\u011flan. He\u00e7 kim g\u00f6rm\u0259sin dey\u0259 evimizin arxas\u0131ndak\u0131 v\u0259l\u0259s a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n dibin\u0259 q\u0131s\u0131l\u0131b doyun\u00e7a a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131m. M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki ,bu n\u0259h\u0259ng a\u011fac\u0131n yarpaqlar\u0131 pay\u0131z f\u0259sli olmas\u0131ndan deyil, m\u0259nim miskin ,q\u0259rib g\u00f6rk\u0259mim\u0259 qo\u015fulub saral\u0131rd\u0131 Saralm\u0131\u015f enli yarpaqlar bir- bir \u00e7iynim\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc, sanki bu dilsiz- a\u011f\u0131zs\u0131z a\u011fac m\u0259ni ovundurma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131, -tut\u00a0 bu yarpaqlar\u0131 ,g\u00f6zl\u0259rini sil,- deyirdi. Bu n\u0259h\u0259ng a\u011fac\u0131n alt\u0131na yayda s\u0259rinl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259, deyib -g\u00fclm\u0259y\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131blar. \u0130ndi is\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n q\u0259rib bir u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n buran\u0131 a\u011fla\u015fmaya d\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259si bu dilsiz- a\u011f\u0131zs\u0131z a\u011fac\u0131 da kor- pe\u015fman el\u0259mi\u015fdi H\u0259r g\u00fcn balaca v\u00fccudumla onun iri g\u00f6vd\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131m ,h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131ra- h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131ra budaqlar\u0131ndak\u0131 qu\u015flara bax\u0131rd\u0131m,baxa-baxa da -b\u0259xt\u0259v\u0259r ba\u015flar\u0131na dar\u0131xm\u0131rlar, a\u011flam\u0131rlar i\u015fl\u0259ri -pe\u015f\u0259l\u0259ri c\u0259h -c\u0259h vurmaqd\u0131, -dey\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015firdim. Qu\u015flara\u00a0 \u0259m\u0259lli – ba\u015fl\u0131 pax\u0131ll\u0131\u011f\u0131m tuturdu. Bu a\u011facda qu\u015f qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q\u00a0 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 bir do\u011fmal\u0131q hiss edirdim M\u0259nim d\u00f6n\u00fcb qu\u015f olma\u011f\u0131m m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi ,n\u0259 qu\u015flar, n\u0259 d\u0259 v\u0259l\u0259s a\u011fac\u0131 da d\u00f6n\u00fcb adam olas\u0131 deyildi .N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki ,ola bilm\u0259zdil\u0259r .\u00c7\u00fcnki m\u0259n h\u0259min anlarda adamlardan qa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131m. Da\u015fla ,a\u011facla \u0259ll\u0259\u015firdim , onlarla ba\u015f- ba\u015fa qalmaq ist\u0259yirdim ,t\u0259nhal\u0131qdan k\u00f6m\u0259k umurdum.O boyda k\u0259ndin adamlar\u0131n\u0131 qoyub t\u0259nhal\u0131qdan ,a\u011facdan, da\u015fdan t\u0259skinlik umma\u011f\u0131m m\u0259nim \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u0259lirdi…<\/p>\n

Zaman ke\u00e7dikc\u0259 yava\u015f- yava\u015f a\u011flama\u011f\u0131n da\u015f\u0131n\u0131 at\u0131rd\u0131m, k\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259\u015firdim Yaln\u0131z \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n m\u0259ktub g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n- g\u0259l\u0259n\u0259 bir az dar\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131m. Po\u00e7talyon Yol\u00e7u ki\u015fi insanlarla mehriban davranard\u0131 .Ondan as\u0131l\u0131 olsayd\u0131 ham\u0131ya m\u0259ktub paylayard\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n raz\u0131 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b evin\u0259 ged\u0259rdi .O \u015fanl\u0131 m\u0259ktublar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki adlar\u0131\u00a0 bir -bir oxuyanda h\u0259y\u0259candan dizl\u0259rim \u0259s\u0259rdi .Bax indi m\u0259nim ad\u0131m \u00e7\u0131xacaq dey\u0259- dey\u0259 acg\u00f6zl\u00fckl\u0259 pa\u00e7talyonun \u0259lin\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131m .Ad\u0131m \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259n\u0259 m\u0259ktub ayda bir d\u0259f\u0259 g\u0259ls\u0259 d\u0259 yen\u0259\u00a0 h\u0259r g\u00fcn g\u00f6zl\u0259rim pa\u00e7talyonun \u0259lind\u0259ydi. Bird\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259r, n\u0259 bilm\u0259k olar deyib po\u00e7talyon Yol\u00e7unun \u00e7\u0259n\u0259sinin alt\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sdirirdim. Amma onun \u00e7\u0259n\u0259sinin alt\u0131ndan m\u0259ktub \u00e7\u0131xas\u0131 deyildi .M\u0259ktub \u00f6z vaxt\u0131nda g\u0259lirdi \u0130\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 anam\u0131n \u015f\u0259kli olanda daha \u00e7ox k\u00f6vr\u0259lirdim .Onun bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 qatardak\u0131 g\u00f6rk\u0259mi il\u0259 tutu\u015fdururdum .Hiss edirdim ki ,o da m\u0259nim kimi\u00a0 \u00e7ox k\u00f6vr\u0259lmir, xeyli toxtay\u0131b.\u00d6z\u00fcm – \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lli verirdim…Yava\u015f-yava\u015f \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lli verm\u0259yim al\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131.\u00c7\u00fcnki bilirdim ki he\u00e7 kim i\u015fini g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc at\u0131b m\u0259nim k\u00f6vr\u0259lm\u0259yimi g\u00fcd\u00fcb ba\u015f\u0131ma s\u0131\u011fal \u015f\u0259k\u0259n deyil V\u0259 k\u0259ndd\u0259 he\u00e7 bo\u015f adam da tapmaq \u00e7\u0259tin idi. H\u0259min vaxt kalxoz kartofu y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131 . H\u0259r g\u00fcn s\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n ax\u015fama kimi \u0259m\u0259k g\u00fcn\u00fc ad\u0131yla evin\u0259 kolxozun hesab\u0131na on- onbe\u015f kilo q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 p\u0259t\u0259k kartofu g\u0259tir\u0259n yor\u011fun k\u0259nd adam\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b m\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259si \u00e7\u0259tin m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ydi. Ham\u0131s\u0131 \u00f6z i\u015find\u0259 g\u00fcc\u00fcnd\u0259ydi. M\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 k\u0259nd\u0259 g\u0259ldiyim ilk g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 ist\u0259mirdim kims\u0259 a\u011flama\u011f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6rs\u00fcn.B\u00fct\u00fcn c\u0259hdiml\u0259 dar\u0131xma\u011f\u0131n da\u015f\u0131n\u0131 atma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m.Odur ki,\u00a0 iki i\u015fi bird\u0259n boynuma g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm h\u0259m\u00a0 k\u00f6vr\u0259lirdim h\u0259m d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm -\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lli verirdim .S\u00f6z yox ki, zaman ke\u00e7dikc\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lli qalib g\u0259lirdi…<\/p>\n

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B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259m t\u0259p\u0259d\u0259n d\u0131rna\u011fa folklor bilicisi idi. M\u0259nim o k\u0259ndd\u0259 dar\u0131xma\u011f\u0131m\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 alan s\u0259b\u0259bl\u0259rd\u0259n biri d\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259min h\u0259r g\u00fcn m\u0259n\u0259 bir na\u011f\u0131l s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259si idi. H\u0259tta m\u0259n sonralar universitetd\u0259 t\u0259hsil alark\u0259n \u015fifahi xalq \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u0131 f\u0259nnini \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259 m\u00fctl\u0259qdir ki, n\u0259n\u0259mi xat\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131m.V\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259min bu f\u0259nn\u0259n nec\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l d\u0259rs ke\u00e7\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259yini d\u0259 iftixarla x\u0259yal\u0131mda canland\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131m.Onu auditoriyada folklordan m\u0259ruz\u0259 ed\u0259n m\u00fc\u0259llim kimi t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr el\u0259yirdim v\u0259 bu m\u0259n\u0259\u00a0 xo\u015f g\u0259lirdi .\u00c7\u00fcnki n\u0259n\u0259m bu sah\u0259d\u0259 \u00e7ox z\u0259ngin idi. Fikir ver\u0259rdim – c\u0259hr\u0259 \u0259yirm\u0259yin , \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k bi\u015firm\u0259yin, yer \u015fumlama\u011f\u0131n, bula\u011fa getm\u0259yin ,\u0259kin -\u0259km\u0259yin -h\u0259r birinin \u00f6z bayat\u0131s\u0131 var idi.Na\u011f\u0131llar ,l\u0259tif\u0259l\u0259r dig\u0259r janrlar da \u00f6z yerind\u0259 .H\u0259tta bir d\u0259f\u0259 in\u0259yimiz s\u00fcd\u00fcn\u00fc verm\u0259di. N\u0259n\u0259m bir bayat\u0131 z\u00fcmz\u00fcm\u0259 el\u0259di v\u0259 el\u0259 h\u0259min an a\u011fappaq s\u00fcd t\u0259p\u0259l in\u0259yin yelnind\u0259n bu\u011flana-bu\u011flana \u015f\u0131rha\u015f\u0131r vedr\u0259y\u0259 axma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. \u0130n\u0259yin \u00fcz\u00fc g\u00fcld\u00fc ,kefi a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. M\u0259n in\u0259yimizl\u0259 f\u0259xr el\u0259dim. Onun boynunu tumarlad\u0131m, t\u0259p\u0259l aln\u0131ndan \u00f6pd\u00fcm. \u0130n\u0259k in\u0259kliyinn\u0259n m\u0259nim bu ev\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259 g\u0259ldiyimi anlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131 . T\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc bir az da art\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130n\u0259yin g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259m\u0259si m\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 \u00e7ox adamlar\u0131n g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u0259n daha t\u0259bii v\u0259 saf g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc. Ad\u0131n\u0131 vura\u011fan qoymu\u015fdular amma bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259ni vurmad\u0131.Onu da deyim ki ,az da olsa t\u0259rsliyi vard\u0131. S\u0259h\u0259r -s\u0259h\u0259r me\u015f\u0259y\u0259 \u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259 aparard\u0131m.Orada heyvan \u00e7ox oldu\u011fundan ot z\u0259if olurdu.Ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, in\u0259k m\u0259nd\u0259n qabaq qa\u00e7\u0131b g\u0259lib .H\u0259y\u0259td\u0259ki yoncal\u0131qda he\u00e7 n\u0259 olmam\u0131\u015f kimi ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sal\u0131b \u015firin- \u015firin otlay\u0131r. Hans\u0131 ki, h\u0259min ot bi\u00e7ilib q\u0131\u015fa saxlanmal\u0131d\u0131. N\u0259n\u0259m h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131, – bax n\u0259 bad\u0259 in\u0259yi g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n buraxasan ,yoncan\u0131n ax\u0131r\u0131na \u00e7\u0131xacaq.Onun bu tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 qula\u011f\u0131mda s\u0131r\u011fa el\u0259s\u0259m d\u0259, in\u0259yin yoncan\u0131 \u0259lahidd\u0259 bir i\u015ftahla yem\u0259sin\u0259 maraqla bax\u0131rd\u0131m .Yaz\u0131q heyvan\u0131n bir g\u00f6z\u00fc m\u0259nd\u0259ydi ,bir g\u00f6z\u00fc yoncada. Ad\u0259ti \u00fczr\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi dey\u0259m ki ,-oha -oha ay \u00e7\u0259r d\u0259ymi\u015f ,tez ol \u00e7\u0131x burdan, tez ol.Yoncan\u0131n ax\u0131r\u0131na \u00e7\u0131xsan, pay\u0131n\u0131 indid\u0259n yes\u0259n b\u0259s q\u0131\u015fda n\u0259 yey\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n , deyib \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u0259 bir -iki \u00e7ubuq ili\u015fdir\u0259m.Amma in\u0259yimiz yan\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131 .Da\u015fdan s\u0259s \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131 m\u0259nn\u0259n yox.\u0130n\u0259yi qovma\u011fa g\u00fcc\u00fcm \u00e7atm\u0131rd\u0131 .A\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 deyim -q\u0131ym\u0131rd\u0131m. U\u015faq a\u011fl\u0131mla bu hadis\u0259ni \u00f6z- \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n qovulan adam kimi \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcrd\u00fcm .H\u0259rd\u0259n a\u011fz\u0131ndak\u0131 otu \u00e7eyn\u0259y\u0259- \u00e7eyn\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b yaz\u0131q- yaz\u0131q \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 baxmas\u0131 \u00fcr\u0259yimi bir az da yum\u015fald\u0131rd\u0131 ,\u0259limi qolumu soyudurdu yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b boynunu tumarlay\u0131rd\u0131m .Sanki in\u0259k dilind\u0259,-s\u0259ni m\u0259n\u0259 Allah yetirib, -deyirdi ,v\u0259\u00a0 m\u0259nim n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ona q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ma m\u0259h\u0259tt\u0259l qalmas\u0131n\u0131 da u\u015faq f\u0259hmiml\u0259 hiss el\u0259yirdim.Bir g\u00f6z\u00fc yoncadayd\u0131, bir g\u00f6z\u00fc m\u0259nd\u0259. B\u0259lk\u0259 el\u0259 bu h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tim\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 sat\u0131lana q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259p\u0259l in\u0259k m\u0259n\u0259 kinli baxmad\u0131 ,\u015f\u0131llaq atmad\u0131 ,buynuz g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259di . N\u0259 bilm\u0259k olar …\u0130n\u0259yin qaba\u011f\u0131na dayan\u0131rd\u0131m,-n\u0259di ,n\u0259di babam\u00a0 g\u00f6rm\u0259sin. M\u0259n bu t\u0259m\u0259nnada ik\u0259n bird\u0259n babam var g\u00fcc\u00fc il\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131, -ay Xaliq, ay Xaliq \u0259 ,a bala qov in\u0259yi ordan ,qov, b\u0259 s\u0259n bilmirs\u0259nmi in\u0259yi orada otarmaq olmaz , q\u0131\u015fda n\u0259 yey\u0259c\u0259\u0259\u0259k?…El\u0259 bil in\u0259yi yox m\u0259ni\u00a0 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n dur\u011fuzurdular,qovurdular. \u0130n\u0259k m\u0259nim \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259, bax\u0131rd\u0131 ,m\u0259n in\u0259yin Dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131 dili il\u0259 yalaya -yalaya,quyrugunu yell\u0259y\u0259 -y\u0259ll\u0259y\u0259 s\u0259ssiz-s\u0259mirsiz yoncal\u0131qdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnki babam\u0131n s\u0259sini \u0259zb\u0259r tan\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131.O s\u0259sd\u0259 g\u00fcz\u0259\u015ft deyil\u0259n \u015fey yox idi.O s\u0259si e\u015fid\u0259n kimi ot bo\u011faz\u0131nda qal\u0131rd\u0131,\u00f6sk\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc… B\u00fct\u00fcn bu maraql\u0131 m\u0259qamlar k\u0259nd h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 daha da ,do\u011fmala\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u0130ll\u0259r ke\u00e7dikc\u0259 k\u0259nd\u0259\u00a0 \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fdim. H\u0259tta B\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259m\u0259 ana dey\u0259 m\u00fcraci\u0259t edirdim.Bu m\u00fcraci\u0259t ona \u00e7ox xo\u015f g\u0259lirdi, s\u0259n m\u0259nim sonbe\u015fiyims\u0259n -deyirdi.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259min s\u00f6yl\u0259dikl\u0259rind\u0259n:<\/p>\n

Er v\u0259 arvad yola getmirl\u0259r. Arvad \u0259rini ba\u015f\u0131ndan \u0259km\u0259y\u0259 f\u00fcrs\u0259t axtar\u0131r. \u00c7ox fikirl\u0259\u015fir. Ax\u0131rda qon\u015fuda t\u0259z\u0259 do\u011fulmu\u015f u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 guya ox\u015fatmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ev\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259r\u0259k\u00a0 yuxuya getmi\u015f \u0259ri Hacal\u0131n\u0131n ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131na qoyur v\u0259 tez yerin\u0259 uzanaraq \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yuxulu\u011fa vurur. Az ke\u00e7mir u\u015faq a\u011flay\u0131r.\u00a0 Hacal\u0131 s\u0259s\u0259\u00a0 h\u00f6vlnak yuxudan oyan\u0131r v\u0259 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259r\u0259k h\u0259yacanla arvad\u0131n\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259yir – Arvad, ay arvad dur tez el\u0259 – u\u015fa\u011f\u0131m olub. Arvad \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc o yer\u0259 qoymur- H\u0131, h\u0131… qoysana yataq, ki\u015fi d\u0259 he\u00e7 do\u011farm\u0131…\u00a0 – Dur, dur m\u0259n biyab\u0131r oldum, daha\u00a0 bu k\u0259ndd\u0259 qala bilm\u0259r\u0259m deyib t\u0259l\u0259sik evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b gedir. Arvad plan\u0131n u\u011furlu al\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131na sevinir v\u0259 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sahibin\u0259 qaytar\u0131r. Bu hadis\u0259nin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n xeyli vaxt ke\u00e7ir. Hacal\u0131 q\u00fcrb\u0259t eld\u0259 b\u0259rk dar\u0131x\u0131r. Q\u0259rara g\u0259lir ki gedim k\u0259nd\u0259 \u011f\u00f6r\u00fcm v\u0259ziyy\u0259t nec\u0259dir.Bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni bil\u0259n varm\u0131\u00a0\u00a0 K\u0259ndin k\u0259nar\u0131na\u00a0 \u00e7atanda g\u00f6r\u00fcr ki, iki ki\u015fi torpaq \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 m\u00fcbahis\u0259 el\u0259yir. Gizlic\u0259 onlara qulaq as\u0131r.\u00a0 Biri deyir- bu yer atam \u00f6l\u0259n g\u00fcnd\u0259n m\u0259nimdi,\u00a0 o biri deyir – s\u0259n n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan bu yer Hacal\u0131 do\u011fan ilind\u0259n m\u0259nimdi. Hacal\u0131 bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri e\u015fidir geri d\u00f6n\u00fcr v\u0259 bir daha do\u011fma k\u0259ndin\u0259 qay\u0131tm\u0131r….<\/p>\n

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M\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259n t\u0259til\u0259 burax\u0131landa evimiz\u0259 ged\u0259rdim. Qarda\u015f\u0131m Xanlar g\u00fcl\u00fcb dey\u0259rdi ki caamat yayda k\u0259nd\u0259 da\u011flara istirah\u0259t\u0259 gedir s\u0259n is\u0259 isti qaynar \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131rsan.\u018flb\u0259tt\u0259 bu zarafata g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259m\u0259kl\u0259 cavab verirdim.Deyirdim ki da\u011flarda d\u0259niz olmur.M\u0259n d\u0259 d\u0259nizd\u0259 \u00e7imm\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lir\u0259m.Bel\u0259c\u0259 bir birimizin x\u0259trin\u0259 d\u0259ymirdik Nec\u0259 olmasa qarda\u015f idik.<\/p>\n

M\u0259kt\u0259b a\u00e7\u0131lana yax\u0131n yen\u0259 bir tan\u0131\u015f k\u0259nd\u00e7i tap\u0131b m\u0259ni t\u0259nt\u0259n\u0259 il\u0259 k\u0259nd\u0259 yola salard\u0131lar .Yen\u0259 qatar, yen\u0259 vaqon b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7isinin c\u0131r, xo\u015fa g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259n s\u0259si .Amma n\u00f6vb\u0259ti ill\u0259rd\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259q d\u0259 dar\u0131xm\u0131rd\u0131m. El\u0259 bil ilk d\u0259f\u0259 k\u0259nd\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259 n\u0259yi var ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u011flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. N\u00f6vb\u0259ti s\u0259f\u0259rl\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 qalmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.Sanki dibind\u0259 oturub a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m v\u0259l\u0259s a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7iynim\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n sar\u0131 yarpaqlar\u0131\u00a0 g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131\u00a0 qurutmu\u015fdu.Yava\u015f -yava\u015f\u00a0 yek\u0259 o\u011flan olurdum. H\u0259m d\u0259 dar\u0131xanda da\u011flardan utan\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

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K\u0259nd\u0259 g\u0259ldiyim ili pay\u0131z\u0131n sonlar\u0131nda b\u0259rk dar\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n babam na\u0259lac qal\u0131b m\u0259n\u0259 e\u015f\u015f\u0259k almaq q\u0259rar\u0131na g\u0259ldi.Saratovka k\u0259ndind\u0259 yerl\u0259\u015f\u0259n heyvan bazar\u0131 il\u0259 k\u0259ndimiz aras\u0131nda\u00a0 xeyli m\u0259saf\u0259 var .Piyada yola d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck. Babam, qon\u015fumuz v\u0259 m\u0259n.T\u0259xmin\u0259n saat yar\u0131m yol getdik .Bura rayonun \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck heyvan bazar\u0131 say\u0131l\u0131r.Se\u00e7ib sonalay\u0131b q\u0131rx manata bir e\u015f\u015f\u0259k ald\u0131q.Babam dedi ki yorulmusan s\u0259n e\u015f\u015f\u0259y\u0259 min, biz d\u0259 yava\u015f -yava\u015f arxanca g\u0259l\u0259k.E\u015f\u015f\u0259yin a\u011fl\u0131na n\u0259 g\u0259ldis\u0259 bird\u0259n-bir\u0259\u00a0 soncuxlama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.F\u0259ras\u0259tini g\u00f6st\u0259rirmi\u015f kimi dal ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 c\u00fctl\u0259yib bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 arxas\u0131n\u0131 yuxar\u0131 tullad\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7evirdi, a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131,di\u015fl\u0259rini a\u011fartd\u0131. Yen\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 oyundan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 ,\u015fit\u0259ndi .Sanki n\u0259y\u0259 qadir oldu\u011funu s\u0259rgil\u0259yirdi.El\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcvay heyvan deyildi. Qon\u015fumuz bunu m\u0259xsusi olaraq se\u00e7mi\u015fdi. Babam\u0131n dediyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 k\u0259ndd\u0259 ondan yax\u015f\u0131 e\u015f\u015f\u0259k tan\u0131yan yox idi. Amma onun m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259ti il\u0259 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z e\u015f\u015f\u0259k ilk d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yax\u015f\u0131 aparm\u0131rd\u0131 . B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 qabaqdang\u0259lmi\u015flik el\u0259yirdi ki, onunla pis r\u0259ftar el\u0259m\u0259y\u0259k .B\u0259li qabaqdan g\u0259lmi\u015flik el\u0259yirdi -” \u018fg\u0259r e\u015f\u015f\u0259y\u0259ms\u0259 bacard\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 ed\u0259c\u0259m.Batd\u0131\u011f\u0131m pal\u00e7\u0131\u011fa bir d\u0259 girm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yimi siz insanlar bizd\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 bilirsiz, “-e\u015f\u015f\u0259yin ciddi v\u0259 m\u0259nal\u0131 bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndan bunlar\u0131 oxumaq olard\u0131.-To\u015f -to\u015f, -dem\u0259yiml\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6y\u0259 qald\u0131r\u0131b di\u015fl\u0259rini bir d\u0259 a\u011fartd\u0131 v\u0259 yerind\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259ndi.\u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259ydi e\u015f\u015f\u0259y\u0259 minirdim. Yax\u015f\u0131 ki palannan bir yerd\u0259 satm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar .\u018fvv\u0259lc\u0259 qorxdum .Sonra bir az ged\u0259nn\u0259n sonra \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fdim .Bunu da e\u015fitmi\u015fdim ki ,e\u015f\u015f\u0259kd\u0259n y\u0131x\u0131lmaq atdan y\u0131x\u0131lmaqdan bet\u0259rdi .Bu s\u0259b\u0259bd\u0259n d\u0259 palan\u0131n qa\u015f\u0131ndan b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk yap\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m.\u00d6nc\u0259 heyvana yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u0259ldi,d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259dim .Babamdan ,qon\u015fudan utand\u0131m.\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc o q\u0259d\u0259r s\u0131xd\u0131m ki, guya e\u015f\u015f\u0259y\u0259\u00a0 a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131q az d\u00fc\u015fs\u00fcn.T\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf ki ,e\u015f\u015f\u0259k m\u0259nim bu humanist h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259timi anlam\u0131rd\u0131. O h\u0259l\u0259 bilmirdi ki ,bel\u0259 bir m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259tli m\u00fc\u015ft\u0259rinin \u0259lin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb v\u0259 \u00e7ox g\u00fcman ki, z\u00fcl\u00fcml\u00fc h\u0259yat\u0131 arxada qal\u0131rd\u0131.K\u0259ndin gir\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259 -a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fck\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n azm\u0131\u015f kimi ,yek\u0259p\u0259r ki\u015finin pal\u00e7\u0131ql\u0131 ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b d\u00fcbar\u0259 e\u015f\u015f\u0259y\u0259 belin\u0259 a\u015f\u0131rmas\u0131 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259caib g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc.Bu orta ya\u015fl\u0131 e\u015f\u015f\u0259yin soncuq atmas\u0131,ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 silk\u0259l\u0259y\u0259-silk\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 iri a\u011f di\u015fl\u0259rini g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259si ,a\u00e7\u0131q-ayd\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 xox g\u0259lm\u0259si y\u0259qin ki , bir mesaj, idi x\u0259b\u0259rdarl\u0131q idi.Y\u0259ni “m\u0259ni incitm\u0259kd\u0259n \u0259l \u00e7\u0259kin ,g\u00fcc\u00fcm \u00e7atan q\u0259d\u0259r y\u00fckl\u0259yin.\u018fvv\u0259lki sahibim kimi y\u00fck\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 minib iri \u00e7\u0259km\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 qarn\u0131m\u0131n alt\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6y\u0259cl\u0259m\u0259yin, boynumu bizl\u0259m\u0259yin ,quyru\u011fumu ,qulaqlar\u0131m\u0131 dartmay\u0131n”…Bunlar m\u0259nim q\u0259na\u0259tim\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 e\u015f\u015f\u0259yin yek\u0259 titr\u0259y\u0259n dodaqlar\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xan s\u00f6zl\u0259r idi ,baxmayaraq ki k\u0259ndimizd\u0259 bu fikirl\u0259rin \u0259ksi il\u0259 tez -tez rastla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m. Balaca xotu\u011fu h\u0259tta \u0259rl\u0259 arvad\u0131n minib toya getm\u0259l\u0259rini g\u00f6rm\u0259yim h\u0259min bu qo\u00e7aq e\u015f\u015f\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259timi bir\u0259 be\u015f art\u0131rd\u0131.M\u0259n bu heyvanla i\u015fl\u0259rimizin \u00e7oxunu g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm.Fil\u0259ql\u0259ri belin\u0259 a\u015f\u0131r\u0131b su g\u0259tirirdim,ot y\u00fckl\u0259yirdim,kartof kis\u0259l\u0259ri da\u015f\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131m.Amma y\u00fck\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 minmirdim.Baxmayaraq ki u\u015fa\u011f\u0131yd\u0131m ,el\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259kim yox idi.K\u0259ndd\u0259 heyvan\u0131 incid\u0259n – y\u00fck\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 minib e\u015f\u015f\u0259yi d\u00f6y\u0259cl\u0259y\u0259-d\u00f6y\u0259cl\u0259y\u0259 to\u015f -to\u015f h\u0259 ,yeri g\u00f6r\u0259k ,-dey\u0259n yek\u0259qar\u0131n adamlardan z\u0259ndeyi-z\u0259hl\u0259m gedirdi .N\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 Allah\u0131n bu dilsiz -a\u011f\u0131zs\u0131z heyvan\u0131na yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u0259lirdi T\u0259k bir d\u0259f\u0259 qon\u015funun s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 bax\u0131b iki kis\u0259 kartof \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 kis\u0259 y\u00fckl\u0259dim. \u0130t pe\u015fman\u0131 oldum. Bir az g\u0259lmi\u015fdik ki e\u015f\u015f\u0259yin dizl\u0259ri \u0259sdi ,qatland\u0131 v\u0259 o yer\u0259 oturdu.Tez kis\u0259nin birini a\u00e7\u0131b g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fck.K\u00f6m\u0259kl\u0259\u015fib heyvan\u0131 d\u00f6rd aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qald\u0131rd\u0131q.E\u015f\u015f\u0259yin g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n ya\u015f ax\u0131rd\u0131 .Yaranma\u011f\u0131na pe\u015fman olmu\u015fdu .\u00dcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6y\u0259 tutub d\u0259li kimi anq\u0131rmaq ist\u0259di Amma n\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fdis\u0259 a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi d\u0259 yumdu .G\u00fcman ki yor\u011funuydu, anq\u0131ras\u0131 halda deyildi .Odu -budu bu m\u0259zlum heyvan\u0131 q\u0259d\u0259rind\u0259n art\u0131q y\u00fckl\u0259m\u0259dim.Hal-haz\u0131rda da qon\u015funun paz\u0131na ke\u00e7mi\u015fdim.M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki e\u015f\u015f\u0259yin belind\u0259ki y\u00fckd\u0259n \u00e7ox \u00fcr\u0259yinin y\u00fck\u00fc onu daha \u00e7ox\u00a0 incidirdi .\u00dcr\u0259yind\u0259 insanlar\u0131n Allahs\u0131z h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rin\u0259 nifr\u0259t ya\u011fd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131 .Y\u00fck\u00fc ba\u015faldan kimi \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6y\u0259 tutub a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131\u00a0 ax\u0131racan a\u00e7araq k\u0259ndi ba\u015f\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259n s\u0259sl\u0259 yan\u0131ql\u0131-yan\u0131ql\u0131 anq\u0131rma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da,\u00a0 insanlar aras\u0131nda t\u0259hqir olunmas\u0131 bar\u0259d\u0259 Yaradana \u015fikay\u0259t el\u0259m\u0259k kimi ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcm.Bu t\u0259hqirin tarixi d\u0259 t\u0259xmin\u0259n el\u0259 e\u015f\u015f\u0259kl\u0259rin yaranma tarixi q\u0259d\u0259rdir .Adamlar nadan, k\u00fctbeyin ,anla\u015f\u0131qs\u0131z , b\u00f6y\u00fck -ki\u00e7ik qanmayan v\u0259 bir \u00e7ox antiinsani keyfiyy\u0259tl\u0259r\u0259 malik olanlar\u0131 utanmadan \u00e7\u0259kinm\u0259d\u0259n ,e\u015f\u015f\u0259yin ah\u0131ndan qorxmadan t\u0259hqir edirl\u0259r ,s\u0259n e\u015f\u015f\u0259ks\u0259n -\u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 yek\u0259sinn\u0259n ,-deyirl\u0259r .Ad\u0131n\u0131n- san\u0131n\u0131n ,\u015f\u0259r\u0259f v\u0259 l\u0259yaq\u0259tinin insanlar t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n al\u00e7ald\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131\u00a0 g\u00f6r\u0259n e\u015f\u015f\u0259k el\u0259 e\u015f\u015f\u0259k oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259 onlar\u0131 m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ver\u0259 bilmir ,\u0259srl\u0259rdi t\u0259hqir olunur. K\u0259ndd\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m alt\u0131 il madd\u0259tind\u0259 m\u0259n bu m\u0259zlum heyvan\u0131n d\u00fcr\u00fcstl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc, m\u0259ntiqini, he\u00e7 kim\u0259 yaltaqlanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ,al\u00e7almad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 , f\u0131r\u0131ldaq i\u015fl\u0259rl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ,ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131n haqq\u0131n\u0131 yem\u0259diyini \u00f6z g\u00f6zl\u0259riml\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.H\u0259tta insanlar\u0131n gec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz i\u015fl\u0259tdikl\u0259ri – “E\u015f\u015f\u0259k batd\u0131\u011f\u0131 yer\u0259 bir d\u0259 girm\u0259z”,z\u0259rb -m\u0259s\u0259li d\u0259 ,bu heyvan\u0131n n\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 qadir oldu\u011funun y\u00fczd\u0259 biridir.M\u0259n bir daha bu \u0259zabke\u015f heyvan\u0131n \u0259sl ad\u0131na layiq ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u015fahidi oldum\u00a0 .A\u011fl\u0131 ,d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259si \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc idar\u0259 el\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 b\u0259s edirdi .Alim olas\u0131 deyildi ki…\u0130nsanlar\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131lamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ,onlara e\u015f\u015f\u0259k deyilm\u0259si m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259si u\u015faq a\u011fl\u0131mla m\u0259ni \u00e7ox d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc ,heyvana yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u0259lirdi .E\u015f\u015f\u0259kl\u0259rin \u00f6z adlar\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259hqir siyah\u0131s\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xaracaqlar\u0131 v\u0259\u00a0 b\u0259ra\u0259t alacaqlar\u0131 g\u00fcn y\u0259qin ki n\u0259 vaxtsa olacaq .Bildiyim q\u0259d\u0259r d\u00fcnyada heyvanlar\u0131n h\u00fcququnu qoruyan t\u0259\u015fkilatlar var .Amma e\u015f\u015f\u0259kl\u0259rin ad\u0131ndan\u00a0 kims\u0259 ora m\u00fcraci\u0259t el\u0259m\u0259lidi ki,i\u015f\u0259\u00a0 obyektiv\u00a0\u00a0 bax\u0131ls\u0131n ,h\u00fcquqi qiym\u0259t verilsin. \u0130nsanlara e\u015f\u015f\u0259k dey\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259n az\u0131ndan c\u0259rim\u0259 olunsun.V\u0259 bu c\u0259rim\u0259l\u0259r y\u0131\u011f\u0131laraq t\u0259zminat qaydas\u0131nda e\u015f\u015f\u0259kl\u0259rin maddi rifah\u0131n\u0131n yax\u015f\u0131la\u015fmas\u0131na x\u0259rcl\u0259nsin. Yaz\u0131q e\u015f\u015f\u0259kl\u0259r…<\/p>\n

M\u0259n k\u0259ndd\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259 t\u0259xmin\u0259n\u00a0 ayr\u0131 -ayr\u0131 vaxtlarda d\u00f6rd- be\u015f e\u015f\u015f\u0259k ald\u0131q .Maraql\u0131s\u0131 da bu idi ki ,h\u0259min e\u015f\u015f\u0259kl\u0259r \u00e7ox ya\u015fam\u0131rd\u0131lar. Bir ay, \u00fc\u00e7 ay, be\u015f ay …<\/p>\n

Bir s\u0259h\u0259r n\u0259n\u0259m t\u00f6vl\u0259d\u0259n qay\u0131danda b\u0259d x\u0259b\u0259rl\u0259 g\u0259ldi<\/p>\n

— E\u015f\u015f\u0259k \u00f6l\u00fcb, durun g\u00f6r\u00fcn neynirsiz<\/p>\n

Bu x\u0259b\u0259r m\u0259ni he\u00e7 a\u00e7mad\u0131, d\u00fcz\u00fc k\u00f6vr\u0259ldim .Gedib\u00a0 t\u00f6vl\u0259d\u0259 dirisind\u0259n yar\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f e\u015f\u015f\u0259yin le\u015fin\u0259 nec\u0259 baxaca\u011f\u0131m\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. \u0130ndiy\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f ad\u0131nda mil\u00e7\u0259kd\u0259n ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 n\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdim. Mil\u00e7\u0259kd\u0259n sonra \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f e\u015f\u015f\u0259k g\u00f6rm\u0259k m\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 v\u0259 bir az da qorxulu g\u0259lirdi<\/p>\n

-T\u0259rp\u0259n ,tez ol get qon\u015fu Nur\u0259ddini \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r g\u0259lsin k\u00f6m\u0259y\u0259. E\u015f\u015f\u0259yin \u00f6l\u00fcs\u00fc a\u011f\u0131r olur – dey\u0259 babam m\u0259n\u0259 s\u0259sl\u0259ndi<\/p>\n

Nur\u0259ddin gil\u0259 \u00fcz tutdum.\u00a0 Nur\u0259ddin deyil\u0259n bizn\u0259n bazara ged\u0259n qon\u015fu deyildi. Bu e\u015f\u015f\u0259k tayfas\u0131 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259b tayfad\u0131r ki,\u00a0 dirisinin m\u00fct\u0259x\u0259ssisi bir ayr\u0131d\u0131 ,\u00f6l\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fcnk\u00fc is\u0259 bir ayr\u0131 -deyib \u00f6z -\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fdim.<\/p>\n

Babam bizi t\u00f6vl\u0259d\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. \u00dcz\u00fcnd\u0259n hiss olunurdu ki, heyvan\u0131n nec\u0259 n\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259bd\u0259n \u00f6lm\u0259si onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 maraq\u0131 deyildi .\u018fsas m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 iy-qoxu h\u0259y\u0259t -bacan\u0131 basmam\u0131\u015f le\u015fi vaxt\u0131nda t\u00f6vl\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b uzaq bir yer\u0259 aparmaq idi.M\u0259n Nur\u0259ddinin yan\u0131nda dayan\u0131b e\u015f\u015f\u0259yin le\u015fin\u0259 maraqla tama\u015fa edirdim. El\u0259 bil zavall\u0131 heyvan m\u0259n\u0259 tama\u015fa verm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. G\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u0259m\u0259lli- ba\u015fl\u0131 iril\u0259n\u0259r\u0259k\u00a0 tavana zill\u0259nmi\u015fdi.A\u011fz\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131q idi . Yepyek\u0259 di\u015fl\u0259ri a\u011fappaq a\u011far\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 adama el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki ,g\u00fclm\u0259kd\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcb.Qarn\u0131 nec\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131 \u015fi\u015fmi\u015fdi .El\u0259 bil hava vurmu\u015fdular.Ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131n d\u00f6rd\u00fc d\u0259 g\u00f6y\u0259 qalxm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 .Sanki qabaq stolunun ayaqlar\u0131 idi, \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fcn taxtas\u0131 \u00e7atm\u0131rd\u0131. Bel\u0259 vaxtda d\u0259v\u0259si \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f \u0259r\u0259bin d\u0259v\u0259si ,bu e\u015f\u015f\u0259yin yan\u0131nda he\u00e7 n\u0259ydi .M\u0259n d\u0259 \u0259hval\u0131ma g\u00f6r\u0259 \u0259r\u0259bd\u0259n dala qalm\u0131rd\u0131m.Bir g\u00f6z q\u0131rp\u0131m\u0131da h\u0259y\u0259t u\u015faqla doldu.Do\u011frudan da b\u0259d x\u0259b\u0259r tez yay\u0131l\u0131rm\u0131\u015f .Xaliqin e\u015f\u015f\u0259yi \u00f6l\u00fcb,- dey\u0259 bir-birl\u0259rin\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r verirdil\u0259r .Dostlar\u0131ma da e\u015f\u015f\u0259yin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc m\u0259zh\u0259k\u0259, tama\u015fa kimiydi .El\u0259 bilirdil\u0259r ki ,e\u015f\u015f\u0259k zarafat el\u0259yir, yalannan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6l\u00fcl\u00fcy\u0259 vurub .\u0130ndic\u0259 uzand\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerd\u0259c\u0259 a\u011fnayacaq ,el\u0259m\u0259 t\u0259nb\u0259llik aya\u011fa qalxacaq , silkin\u0259c\u0259k ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc sahmana salacaq ,soncuq atacaq, \u015fit\u0259n\u0259c\u0259k , sonra da \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259nd\u0259 tutub var g\u00fcc\u00fcyl\u0259 anq\u0131racaq…T\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf ki, m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 he\u00e7 d\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131n arzulad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi deyildi v\u0259 bu xam x\u0259yallar yaln\u0131z onlar\u0131n a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259 bil\u0259rdi .H\u0259m d\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259min ehtimal\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 e\u015f\u015f\u0259k gec\u0259 \u00e7ox \u0259ziyy\u0259tl\u0259 \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc .T\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n dirilib \u00f6l\u0259si hal\u0131 yoxuydu.\u00c7ox g\u00fcman ki ,sah\u0259d\u0259 xarab kartof yemi\u015fdi.N\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 bu u\u015faqlara e\u015f\u015f\u0259yin dirisind\u0259n \u00e7ox \u00f6l\u00fcs\u00fc daha maraql\u0131yd\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259rini \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f e\u015f\u015f\u0259kd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kmirdil\u0259r.Heyvana \u0259m\u0259lli-ba\u015fl\u0131 yaz\u0131qlar\u0131 g\u0259lirdi. El\u0259 bu e\u015f\u015f\u0259yin d\u0259fnind\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259min o u\u015faqlar v\u0259 be\u015f-on mil\u00e7\u0259k i\u015ftirak el\u0259dil\u0259r ,son m\u0259nzil\u0259 yola sal\u0131rd\u0131lar<\/p>\n

–Ay u\u015faqlaq \u00e7\u0259kilin , \u00e7\u0259kilin ,aral\u0131 durun aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131z e\u015f\u015f\u0259yin alt\u0131nda qalar–qon\u015funun s\u0259si h\u0259m d\u0259 d\u0259fni yekunla\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131<\/p>\n

H\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n d\u0259 e\u015f\u015f\u0259yin le\u015fini t\u00f6vl\u0259d\u0259n s\u00fcr\u00fctl\u0259yib \u00e7\u0131xartmaq z\u00fcl\u00fcm imi\u015f. Kim kimi qar\u011fasa desin ki ,dar t\u00f6vl\u0259d\u0259\u00a0 e\u015f\u015f\u0259yin \u00f6ls\u00fcn. Birt\u0259h\u0259r \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131q ,ata qo\u015fub uzaq \u00e7\u00f6ll\u00fcy\u0259 atd\u0131q ki, qurd ,qu\u015f di\u015fini d\u0259yi\u015fsin. Fikirli ,dal\u011f\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc duyub, babam,–h\u0259 yen\u0259 q\u0259mlis\u0259n g\u0259mil\u0259rin bat\u0131b? E\u015f\u015f\u0259kdi \u00f6l\u00fcb \u00f6l\u00fcb d\u0259\u0259\u0259… Baban \u00f6lm\u0259yib, ki birini d\u0259 alar…<\/p>\n

Davam\u0131 var<\/p>\n

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( xatir\u0259 -povest) -Art\u0131q adamlar d\u00fc\u015fs\u00fcnl\u0259r ,tez olun, tez olun , qatar yola d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr ,-dey\u0259 s\u0259sini ba\u015f\u0131na atan vaqon b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7isi tutuqu\u015fu kimi eyni s\u00f6zl\u0259ri t\u0259krarlaya-t\u0259krarlaya vaqonun bu ba\u015f\u0131ndan o ba\u015f\u0131na ,o ba\u015f\u0131ndan bu ba\u015f\u0131na add\u0131mlaya -add\u0131mlaya \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n olsa v\u0259zif\u0259 borcunu yerin\u0259 yetirirdi.\u00a0 M\u0259nim o zamank\u0131 hal\u0131ma uy\u011fun olmayan bu s\u0259s indinin \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u0259 harda qatar […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":13442,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14015"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=14015"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14015\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":14017,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14015\/revisions\/14017"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/13442"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=14015"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=14015"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=14015"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}