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B\u00f6y\u00fck H\u00fcseyn Cavidin\u00a0 \u00a0i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 xatir\u0259sin\u0259 …\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0 <\/strong>Bir h\u0259ft\u0259d\u0259n sonra premyerad\u0131r. Niluf\u0259r \u00e7ox h\u0259y\u0259can ke\u00e7irirdi. Sanki s\u0259hn\u0259y\u0259 birinci d\u0259f\u0259dir \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. Art\u0131q \u00fc\u00e7 ildir ki, teatrda i\u015fl\u0259yir, bir ne\u00e7\u0259 u\u011furlu \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f\u0131 olub. Urfan\u0131n bu teatrda birinci i\u015fi idi. \u2013 H\u00fcseyn Cavidin \u015feirl\u0259ri \u0259sas\u0131nda monotama\u015fa yaratm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Rolda Niluf\u0259r idi. Ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 \u015feiri dey\u0259nd\u0259, zal aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131, ictimai bax\u0131\u015fa g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259r tama\u015fan\u0131 t\u0259rifl\u0259dil\u0259r, b\u00f6y\u00fck Cavidin xatir\u0259sinin \u0259b\u0259diya\u015far oldu\u011funu dedil\u0259r, Niluf\u0259rin fitri istedad sahibi olmas\u0131ndan dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar, Niluf\u0259r\u0259 qucaq-qucaq g\u00fcl verildi. Rejissorun i\u015fi layiqinc\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259ndirildi.<\/p>\n

Ax\u015fam ev\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259nd\u0259, Urfan \u015fampan a\u00e7d\u0131, soyuducudan meyv\u0259 v\u0259 \u015fokolad \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131.
\n\u2013 T\u0259brik edir\u0259m, \u0259la al\u0131nd\u0131.
\nUrfan onu \u00f6pd\u00fc, ba\u011fr\u0131na basd\u0131, el\u0259 bil s\u0259ma yer\u0259 endi, al\u0259m g\u00f6y qur\u015fa\u011f\u0131na d\u00f6nd\u00fc. S\u0259nsiz ya\u015faya bilm\u0259r\u0259m, m\u0259nim alag\u00f6z m\u0259l\u0259yim \u2013 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131 Urfan.
\n– M\u0259n d\u0259.
\nHe\u00e7 biri yata bilm\u0259di. Niluf\u0259r durub \u015fampan dolu q\u0259d\u0259hl\u0259r\u0259 \u015fokolad q\u0131r\u0131b atd\u0131.
\n\u2013 S\u0259n\u0259tin \u015f\u0259r\u0259fin\u0259, \u2013 dedi Urfan. Otaq g\u00fcll\u0259rin \u0259trin\u0259 q\u0259rq olmu\u015fdu. \u201cAllah\u0131m, m\u0259ni etdiyin yax\u015f\u0131l\u0131qlara layiq el\u0259\u201d \u2013 beynind\u0259n ke\u00e7irtdi Niluf\u0259r.
\n\u201cAllah\u0131m, m\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k ol \u2013 bu g\u00fcn s\u0259h\u0259r qad\u0131n m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259txanas\u0131ndan e\u015fitdiyim x\u0259b\u0259ri Urfana dey\u0259 bilim\u201d.
\nUrfan evl\u0259ndikl\u0259ri ilk g\u00fcnd\u0259n ona demi\u015fdi \u2013 m\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt ist\u0259m\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m bizim u\u015fa\u011f\u0131m\u0131z olsun.
\nNiluf\u0259r g\u00f6zl\u0259rini bir anl\u0131q yumub \u2013 bizim \u00f6vlad\u0131m\u0131z olacaq.., \u2013 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7d\u0131. Urfan\u0131n simas\u0131 bir anda d\u0259yi\u015fdi.
\n\u2013 M\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 evl\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259n b\u0259ri demi\u015f\u0259m, deyir\u0259m \u2013 biz\u0259 u\u015faq laz\u0131m deyil. Biz s\u0259n\u0259t yaratmal\u0131y\u0131q \u2013 bu d\u00fcnyada izimiz qals\u0131n. S\u0259yah\u0259t\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xaq, d\u00fcnyan\u0131 g\u0259z\u0259k \u2013 \u0259n m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259m r\u0259sm qalereyalar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259k, d\u00fcnya \u015f\u00f6hr\u0259tli musiqi\u00e7il\u0259ri dinl\u0259y\u0259k. U\u015faq bizi ya\u015fama\u011fa qoymayacaq (\u00fcr\u0259yi gizild\u0259di). Onun qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131, gec\u0259 a\u011flamaqlar\u0131 imkan verm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k ki, biz \u00f6z i\u015fimizl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olaq. Fikirl\u0259\u015f, bu yaz\u0131q u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 hans\u0131 d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259tirirs\u0259n? \u2013 M\u00fcharib\u0259, r\u0259zal\u0259t, gradlar, bombalar at\u0131lan d\u00fcnyayam\u0131? Yaz\u0131q deyilmi? Urfan dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qca b\u0259nizi a\u011far\u0131rd\u0131, onun b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00f6rk\u0259mi \u0259zab ifad\u0259 edirdi.
\nH\u0259l\u0259 ki, gec deyil s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn q\u0259rar verm\u0259lis\u0259n. M\u0259n \u00f6z fikrimi dedim, – bo\u011fuq s\u0259sl\u0259 dedi Urfan.
\n\u2013 M\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt u\u015fa\u011f\u0131m\u0131 m\u0259hv etm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m, \u2013 Niluf\u0259r pal-paltar\u0131n\u0131, kosmetik, gigiyenik \u0259\u015fyalar\u0131n\u0131 z\u0259nbil\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131b, qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Urfan onu saxlamad\u0131. Niluf\u0259r teatr\u0131n qocaman aktyoru olan atas\u0131n\u0131n evin\u0259 getdi. G\u0259nc\u0259nin m\u0259rk\u0259zind\u0259 yerl\u0259\u015f\u0259n ikim\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li k\u0259rpi\u00e7 \u201cAktyor evind\u0259\u201d yerl\u0259\u015f\u0259n m\u0259nzill\u0259ri Niluf\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259n \u0259ziz, \u0259n do\u011fma idi.
\nHe\u00e7 sorma hal\u0131m\u0131, yaral\u0131yam m\u0259n
\n\u015e\u0259n olmaz bir daha viran\u0259 k\u00f6nl\u00fcm.
\nVarl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 s\u0131xan bir y\u0131\u011f\u0131n he\u00e7likd\u0259n
\nSanki bir \u015fey sorar divan\u0259 k\u00f6nl\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

Atas\u0131 onu qucaqlad\u0131. Niluf\u0259rin ayaz\u0131m\u0131\u015f \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n duydu ki, n\u0259s\u0259 \u00e7ox ciddi hadis\u0259 ba\u015f verib. Ki\u015finin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri ya\u015fard\u0131.
\nBu an Niluf\u0259r atas\u0131na \u00e7ox ac\u0131d\u0131. Haqq\u0131 varm\u0131 onu bu ah\u0131l \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259ndirsin?
\nNiluf\u0259r atas\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259k birc\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 a\u011flayan g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. 16 il qabaq, Yeni il ax\u015fam\u0131 idi. Anas\u0131n\u0131 10 g\u00fcn idi ki, d\u0259fn el\u0259mi\u015fdil\u0259r. Alt\u0131 ya\u015fl\u0131 Niluf\u0259r otaqlar\u0131 g\u0259zirdi \u2013 anas\u0131n\u0131 axtar\u0131rd\u0131. Anas\u0131n\u0131n gec\u0259 k\u00f6yn\u0259yini \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 tutub otaqdan ota\u011fa ke\u00e7irdi, sanki anas\u0131n\u0131n \u0259trini bu paltardan al\u0131rd\u0131, paltar do\u011frudan da h\u0259l\u0259 anas\u0131n\u0131n \u0259trini saxlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Atas\u0131 Niluf\u0259ri quca\u011f\u0131na ald\u0131.
\n\u2013 Anan buralarda deyil, bala, anan art\u0131q g\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259dir.
\n\u2013 G\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259 d\u0259 teatr var?
\nAnas\u0131 teatra ged\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 Niluf\u0259ri d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 apar\u0131rd\u0131. S\u0259hn\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xanda, qrim ota\u011f\u0131nda qoyurdu u\u015fa\u011f\u0131. O da s\u0259s el\u0259mirdi.
\n\u2013 O burda olsa, m\u0259n\u0259 yolka qurard\u0131n?
\n\u2013 M\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 m\u00fctl\u0259q yolka quracam, quzu balam.
\n\u2013 B\u0259 anam g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k?
\n\u2013 O, \u00e7ox uzaqdad\u0131r. Biz n\u0259 vaxtsa onun yan\u0131na ged\u0259c\u0259yik.
\n\u2013 M\u0259n indi ist\u0259yir\u0259m, lap \u00e7ox ist\u0259yir\u0259m, onun yan\u0131na getm\u0259yi.
\nAtas\u0131 susdu. Ax\u015fam olmas\u0131na baxmayaraq, onu geyindirib \u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 ba\u011flanmam\u0131\u015f bazara \u2013 \u015fam a\u011fac\u0131 alma\u011fa apard\u0131.
\nEv\u0259 qay\u0131dandan sonra a\u011fac\u0131 g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f\u00fc ka\u011f\u0131za b\u00fck\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f porta\u011fal, nar\u0131nc, alma il\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259di. Ke\u00e7\u0259n il arvad\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259liq\u0259yl\u0259 qutuya qoyub zirz\u0259miy\u0259 apard\u0131\u011f\u0131 oyuncaqlara \u0259l vura bilm\u0259zdi. El\u0259 bilirdi ki, bu oyuncaqlar onun \u0259ll\u0259rini yand\u0131rar.
\nSonra \u0259l telefonunda musiqi qurdu \u2013 Brams\u0131n \u201cMacar r\u0259qsini\u201d Niluf\u0259rin \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n tutub r\u0259qs etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131.
\n\u201c\u00dcr\u0259yin par\u00e7a-par\u00e7a olsa da, balan\u0131n x\u0259trin\u0259 oyna\u201d.
\nNiluf\u0259r ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b onun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxanda, \u0259sdi \u2013 atas\u0131 a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya onunla r\u0259qs edirdi.
\n\u2013 D\u0259d\u0259, niy\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131rsan?
\n\u2013 He\u00e7, g\u00f6z\u00fcm a\u011fac\u0131n buda\u011f\u0131na d\u0259ydi.
\nBu m\u0259qam qap\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcld\u00fc. Qon\u015funun o\u011flu Urfan \u0259lind\u0259 pirojnalar d\u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f bo\u015fqabla i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi, Niluf\u0259r \u00e7ox sevindi.
\n\u2013 Xo\u015f g\u0259ldin, bala.
\n\u2013 Yeni iliniz m\u00fcbar\u0259k, \u018fl\u0259sk\u0259r \u0259mi. Nec\u0259s\u0259n Nika?
\n\u2013 \u00c7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l yolkan var, Nika.
\nUrfan\u0131n 13-14 ya\u015f\u0131 olard\u0131. G\u0259nc\u0259 \u00fczr\u0259 \u015fahmat \u00e7empionu idi. Niluf\u0259r\u0259 \u015fahmat oynama\u011f\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259dirdi. Urfan\u0131n da ata-anas\u0131 aktyor idil\u0259r. G\u0259nc\u0259d\u0259ki \u201caktyor evi\u201d adland\u0131r\u0131lan k\u0259rpic binan\u0131n 2-ci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259sind\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131lar. Niluf\u0259rin atas\u0131yla dost idil\u0259r.
\n\u2013 Sabah \u015fahmat oynayar\u0131q? \u2013 soru\u015fdu Niluf\u0259r.
\n\u2013 Sabah biz Bak\u0131ya gedirik. Atam Azdramada i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k.
\nNiluf\u0259rin balaca \u00fcr\u0259yi yerind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xacaqd\u0131 el\u0259 bil. Onda Niluf\u0259r bilmirdi ki, Urfan bir d\u0259 ne\u00e7\u0259 ill\u0259rd\u0259n sonra G\u0259nc\u0259y\u0259 qay\u0131dacaq. Qay\u0131dandan 1-2 ay sonra 15-20 adamla teatr\u0131n yax\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 kafed\u0259 Niluf\u0259rl\u0259 evl\u0259nm\u0259yini qeyd ed\u0259c\u0259k. Urfan onun \u00f6m\u00fcr-g\u00fcn yolda\u015f\u0131 olacaq.
\nYeni il ax\u015fam\u0131 Urfan\u0131n valideynl\u0259ri d\u0259 onlara d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Bir az s\u00f6hb\u0259t edib vidala\u015fd\u0131lar.
\nS\u0259h\u0259r ged\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259sini e\u015fid\u0259n Niluf\u0259ri g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 bo\u011furdu.
\n\u2013 Anam da uza\u011fa getdi, Urfan da getdi \u2013 a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya dedi Niluf\u0259r.
\nM\u0259n ist\u0259mir\u0259m Urfan da g\u00f6yl\u0259r\u0259 getsin. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6y\u0259 bax\u0131ram anam\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259 bilmir\u0259m. Urfan\u0131 da g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m. G\u00f6yl\u0259r pisdir. Onda o, bilmirdiki ill\u0259r ke\u00e7\u0259c\u0259k, o, \u0130nc\u0259s\u0259n\u0259t Universitetini bitirib, atas\u0131yla birg\u0259 teatrda i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259 m\u0259hz burada Urfanla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k.
\nO, Urfan\u0131 ne\u00e7\u0259 ill\u0259rd\u0259n sonra teatrda g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Deyirdil\u0259r ki, Bak\u0131dan g\u0259l\u0259n rejissor G\u0259nc\u0259 teatr\u0131nda Cavidin \u0259s\u0259rini qoyacaq.
\nOnda rejissoru t\u0259qdim etdikd\u0259n sonra Niluf\u0259rin i\u015fd\u0259 qal\u0131b-qalmamas\u0131 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259si kollektivin m\u00fczakir\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\n\u0130clasdan \u00f6nc\u0259 teatr\u0131n direktoru Niluf\u0259ri atas\u0131yla birg\u0259 kabinetin\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131b demi\u015fdi. Bu s\u00f6hb\u0259t aram\u0131zda qals\u0131n. \u0130clasa g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259r el\u0259 bilirl\u0259r m\u0259n s\u0259ni i\u015fd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xardacam. \u0130nanm\u0131ram hans\u0131ndasa qeyr\u0259t ola, m\u0259n\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xa, iclasda s\u0259ni t\u0259rifl\u0259y\u0259.
\n\u2013 M\u0259n s\u0259ni he\u00e7 vaxt i\u015fd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xartmayacam. \u018fvv\u0259la \u00f6z\u00fcn istedadl\u0131, a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 q\u0131zsan, ikinci s\u0259n xatirini \u00e7ox ist\u0259diyim ki\u015finin q\u0131z\u0131san. Sad\u0259c\u0259, ist\u0259yir\u0259m \u00f6z\u00fcn yax\u0131ndan tan\u0131yasan h\u0259mkarlar\u0131n\u0131. H\u0259m d\u0259 bu iclasdan sonra b\u0259lk\u0259 m\u0259suliyy\u0259t hissin artar. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259klif olunan rollardan imtina etm\u0259k olar? N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r teatra t\u0259qdim olunan pyesl\u0259r\u0259 pis dem\u0259k olar? Ax\u0131rda s\u0259n rolsuz qalacaqsan. El\u0259 bilirs\u0259n xo\u015fuma g\u0259lir onuncu d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259li m\u00fc\u0259llifl\u0259rin pyesl\u0259rini q\u0259bul el\u0259m\u0259k? Plan doldurmal\u0131y\u0131q, teatra tama\u015fa\u00e7\u0131 c\u0259lb etm\u0259liyik. O m\u00fc\u0259llifl\u0259r biz\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n m\u0259nada k\u00f6m\u0259k edirl\u0259r.
\nTeatr\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn apar\u0131c\u0131 aktyorlar\u0131, rejissorlar\u0131 iclasa topla\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. T\u0259z\u0259 rejissor da onlar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 idi. Niluf\u0259r onu tan\u0131mad\u0131.
\n\u201cAllah\u0131m m\u0259ni s\u0131nd\u0131rma, ist\u0259mir\u0259m bu adamlar m\u0259ni pisl\u0259sin\u201d.
\nDirektorun kabinetind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xandan sonra atas\u0131na yalvard\u0131:
\n\u2013 D\u0259d\u0259, qurban olum, s\u0259n iclasa g\u0259lm\u0259. Onsuz da m\u0259ni i\u015fd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xarmayacaqlar. Yalvar\u0131ram, g\u0259lm\u0259 iclasa.
\n\u2013 M\u0259n teatr\u0131n h\u0259y\u0259tind\u0259 olacam. Ev\u0259 bir yerd\u0259 qay\u0131dar\u0131q.
\n\u2013 Oldu, Niluf\u0259r u\u015faql\u0131qdak\u0131 kimi onun boynuna sar\u0131ld\u0131, \u00f6pd\u00fc.
\nBu bir \u015foudur, d\u0259d\u0259 \u2013 deyib iclasa getdi.
\nDirektor iclas\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131q elan el\u0259di. Yeni rejissoru t\u0259qdim etdi. Rejissor cavan v\u0259 yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc, ancaq sa\u00e7lar\u0131 a\u011f-appaq idi.
\nHardasa g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m onu, \u2013 beynind\u0259n ke\u00e7irtdi Niluf\u0259r.
\nDirektor ke\u00e7di Niluf\u0259rin teatrda qal\u0131b-qalmamas\u0131 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sin\u0259.
\n\u0130lk s\u00f6z\u00fc d\u00fcn\u0259n evl\u0259rind\u0259 \u00e7ay i\u00e7ib, atas\u0131yla n\u0259rd oynayan rejissor ald\u0131.
\n\u2013 Hesab edir\u0259m ki, Niluf\u0259r xan\u0131m teatr kollektivin\u0259 pis n\u00fcmun\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rir \u2013 rollardan imtina etm\u0259kl\u0259. N\u0259dir, biz m\u00fc\u0259llifl\u0259ri teatrdan k\u00fcsd\u00fcrm\u0259liyik? Olmaz bel\u0259.
\nSonra 60 ya\u015f\u0131nda yenic\u0259 \u0259m\u0259kdar artist ad\u0131 alan Sonya xan\u0131m co\u015fdu:
\n\u2013 H\u0259l\u0259 ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 tama\u015fada o c\u00fcr insan Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n f\u0259xri olan o adam Niluf\u0259r\u0259 g\u00fcl d\u0259st\u0259si ba\u011f\u0131\u015flad\u0131. N\u0259 olar, \u2013 h\u0259r g\u00fcl\u00fc y\u00fczl\u00fck dollara b\u00fckm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Niy\u0259 o b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u00fckd\u0259 d\u0259st\u0259ni yer\u0259 tullad\u0131? \u00d6z\u00fc ist\u0259mirdi, paylayayd\u0131 ehtiyac\u0131 olanlara.
\nNiluf\u0259ri h\u0259qar\u0259t hissi b\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. O, do\u011frudan da o g\u00fcl d\u0259st\u0259sini \u0259lin\u0259 alanda, el\u0259 bildi ki, \u0259ll\u0259ri kimins\u0259 istifad\u0259 olunmu\u015f d\u0259smal\u0131na d\u0259ydi. Biixtiyar g\u00fcll\u0259ri yer\u0259 sald\u0131.
\nH\u0259min m\u0259qamda Sonya xan\u0131m
\n\u2013 O c\u00fcr varl\u0131 adam d\u0259rdind\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcr, s\u0259n d\u0259 onun g\u00fcll\u0259rini yer\u0259 tullay\u0131rsan…
\n\u2013 Varl\u0131 ki\u015finin m\u0259\u015fuq\u0259si olmaqdansa, kas\u0131b ki\u015finin halal arvad\u0131 olmaq daha \u015f\u0259r\u0259flidir.
\n\u2013 Ax\u0131rda ac\u0131ndan \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n \u2013 deyib Sonya xan\u0131m ondan uzaqla\u015fd\u0131.
\nSonya xan\u0131mdan sonra daha 2-3 n\u0259f\u0259r \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f etdi. Niluf\u0259rin yek\u0259xanal\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, nizam-intizama riay\u0259t etm\u0259diyind\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar.
\nOnun qulaqlar\u0131 sanki tutulmu\u015fdu. Niluf\u0259r\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn bu yer adl\u0131 planetd\u0259 o, qoca atas\u0131yla tam t\u0259nhad\u0131rlar. D\u00fcnyada he\u00e7 k\u0259s\u0259 g\u00fcv\u0259n\u0259 bilm\u0259zl\u0259r.
\nOnda Niluf\u0259r a\u011flad\u0131. Barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 didirdi ki, a\u011flamas\u0131n, ancaq g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n biixtiyar ya\u015f ax\u0131rd\u0131.
\n\u201cN\u0259 yaman r\u0259zil g\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm\u201d. Bu adamlar d\u00fcn\u0259n\u0259 kimi \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcb m\u0259ni t\u0259rifl\u0259yirdil\u0259r. \u0130ndi n\u0259 oldu bunlara?<\/p>\n

\u0130ssiz bir yuvan\u0131n qoynunda daim
\nQ\u0259rib bir qu\u015f kimi a\u011flar m\u0259nliyim
\nP\u0259k k\u00fcsk\u00fcn\u0259m, bilm\u0259m n\u0259l\u0259r s\u00f6yl\u0259yim
\nQald\u0131 h\u0259r sevgiy\u0259 bigan\u0259 k\u00f6nl\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

Urfan g\u00f6zl\u0259rini Niluf\u0259rd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kmirdi. Onu d\u0259rhal tan\u0131d\u0131. O \u0259ll\u0259rini masa alt\u0131nda gizl\u0259d\u0259n bu q\u0131za baxanda \u00fcr\u0259yi titr\u0259di. Sanki buz ba\u011flam\u0131\u015f q\u0259lbi isinm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131.
\nNika… Niluf\u0259r. H\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb g\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259 anas\u0131n\u0131 axtaran alag\u00f6zl\u00fc balaca q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz. \u018flac\u0131 olsayd\u0131, Urfan onu el\u0259 bu an ba\u011fr\u0131na basar, onu ham\u0131dan, h\u0259r k\u0259sd\u0259n, h\u0259tta d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u015f\u0259rind\u0259n hifz ed\u0259rdi.
\nNiluf\u0259r qulaqlar\u0131na dolmu\u015f k\u00fcy i\u00e7ind\u0259 Urfan\u0131n s\u0259sini e\u015fitdi.
\n\u2013 H\u0259r \u015fey ayd\u0131nd\u0131r. M\u0259n H\u00fcseyn Cavidin \u015ferl\u0259ri \u0259sas\u0131nda monotama\u015fa haz\u0131rlayacam v\u0259 rolu Niluf\u0259r xan\u0131ma verir\u0259m.
\nQurba\u011fa g\u00f6l\u00fcn\u0259 sanki da\u015f atd\u0131lar. Direktor Niluf\u0259r\u0259 baxd\u0131. Sanki bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131yla soru\u015furdu \u2013 G\u00f6rd\u00fcn bunlar\u0131n sif\u0259tini?
\nSonra t\u0259z\u0259 rejissor Niluf\u0259r\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131 \u2013 Nika… Niluf\u0259r… S\u0259n m\u0259ni tan\u0131mad\u0131n? Urfanam…
\n\u2013 Ay Allah, ay Allah, g\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259 inana bilmir\u0259m… Urfan…
\nUrfan onu \u00e7iynind\u0259n qucaqlad\u0131.
\n\u2013 Ail\u0259 qurmam\u0131san ki?
\n\u2013 H\u0259l\u0259 alan olmay\u0131b.
\n\u0130kisid\u0259 g\u00fcld\u00fc.
\nUrfan onun didilmi\u015f barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Bir barma\u011f\u0131 qanam\u0131\u015fd\u0131 el\u0259 bil.
\nPill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259ri birg\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r. Arxadan direktorun s\u0259sini e\u015fitdi.
\n\u2013 \u0130kiniz\u0259 d\u0259 u\u011furlar arzulay\u0131ram.
\nNiluf\u0259r d\u0259, Urfan da h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 skamyada \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib siqaret \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n \u018fl\u0259sk\u0259r ki\u015fiy\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131lar. Urfan ona \u0259l uzad\u0131b g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.
\n\u2013 Ma\u015fallah, Alen Delona ox\u015fay\u0131rsan.
\n\u2013 Yox, \u018fl\u0259sk\u0259r \u0259mi, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131ram.
\n\u2013 Valideynl\u0259rin nec\u0259dir?
\n\u2013 Yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131rlar, sa\u011f olun.
\n\u2013 \u00c7ox \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr, \u00e7ox \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

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Niluf\u0259r ged\u0259nd\u0259n sonra Urfan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 bir q\u0259d\u0259h araq s\u00fczd\u00fc. \u0130\u00e7di. \u0130st\u0259yirdi ki, ba\u015f\u0131 dumanlans\u0131n, he\u00e7 n\u0259yi, he\u00e7 kimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259sin. Ancaq n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 m\u0259hz i\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn \u0259n ac\u0131 g\u00fcn\u00fc yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc. H\u0259min g\u00fcn ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00f6m\u00fcr piltim-piltim burnundan g\u0259ldi. H\u0259min g\u00fcn o, \u00f6mr\u00fcnd\u0259 birinci d\u0259f\u0259 o, Allah yoxdur \u2013 dedi. H\u0259min g\u00fcn o iki balas\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 itirdi.
\nOnda Urfan \u0130stanbulda \u201c\u0130blis\u201di qoyurdu. Arvad\u0131n\u0131n u\u015faqlar v\u0259 qarda\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 A\u011fdam\u0131n Quzann\u0131 k\u0259ndin\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259l\u0259ri Xan\u0131m m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259nin 80 illik yubileyin\u0259 getm\u0259sini telefonda e\u015fitdi.
\n\u2013 N\u0259n\u0259m dedi ki, u\u015faqlar\u0131 da g\u0259tirim. \u00c7ox dar\u0131x\u0131b bizsiz. Qarda\u015f\u0131m\u0131n ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131nda ged\u0259c\u0259yik, \u2013 demi\u015fdi h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131.
\nAx\u015fam is\u0259 d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n ac\u0131 x\u0259b\u0259rini e\u015fitdi \u2013 erm\u0259nil\u0259r qrad at\u0131blar ma\u015f\u0131na, ham\u0131 h\u0259lak oldu.
\n\u2013 U… u\u015faqlar?
\n\u2013 Onlar da \u2013 dedi qohumu.
\nOnun 4 ya\u015fl\u0131 o\u011flu, 3 ya\u015fl\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131 k\u00f6s\u00f6v\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r. Arvad\u0131n\u0131 qolundak\u0131 g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f bil\u0259rzikd\u0259n tan\u0131d\u0131.
\nH\u0259min gec\u0259 Urfan\u0131n sa\u00e7\u0131 b\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn a\u011fard\u0131. H\u0259yat dayand\u0131.
\n\u2013 Ata, m\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259nd\u0259 \u0259sk\u0259r olacam, \u2013 deyirdi o\u011flu.
\n\u2013 Ata, m\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259nd\u0259 \u00e7oxlu g\u0259lincik alacam, \u2013 dili t\u0259z\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131lan q\u0131z\u0131 demi\u015fdi.
\nUrfan ke\u00e7\u0259n il Pol\u015fada olanda, Osfensim\u0259, ke\u00e7mi\u015f \u00f6l\u00fcm d\u00fc\u015f\u0259rg\u0259sin\u0259 getdi. Burada yand\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f u\u015faqlar\u0131n ayaqqab\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131, paltarlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Balaca bant ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015f ki\u00e7ik q\u0131z h\u00f6r\u00fckl\u0259rini g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Hu\u015funu itirm\u0259k d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, onu d\u0259rhal kameradan havaya \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131lar, validol verdil\u0259r. O, qaytard\u0131. Bir daha ekskursiyan\u0131 davam etm\u0259k iqtidar\u0131nda deyildi. Ke\u00e7ib avtobusda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi, s\u0259yah\u0259t yolda\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Avtobusda \u00e7oxdan qon\u015fu olduqlar\u0131 balaca q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz\u0131 xat\u0131rlad\u0131. O q\u0131z h\u0259r g\u00fcn ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t s\u0259maya bax\u0131rd\u0131. Urfan ondan soru\u015fmu\u015fdu:
\n\u2013 S\u0259n g\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259 n\u0259 axtar\u0131rsan, Nika?
\n\u2013 Anam\u0131. D\u0259d\u0259m deyir ki, anam g\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259dir.
\n\u2013 Atan d\u00fcz deyir, Nika. Ancaq anan g\u00f6y\u00fcn 7-ci qat\u0131ndad\u0131r. S\u0259n onu g\u00f6r\u0259 bilm\u0259zs\u0259n. Anan \u00f6z\u00fc s\u0259nin yuxular\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k, s\u0259ni sevindir\u0259c\u0259k.
\n\u2013 Anam x\u0259st\u0259 idi ax\u0131. Sonya xala deyir anam x\u0259r\u00e7\u0259ng idi. Ona yuxular\u0131ma g\u0259lm\u0259k \u00e7\u0259tin olmayacaq?
\n\u2013 Yox. Ancaq s\u0259n vaxt\u0131nda yat, d\u0259d\u0259ni incitm\u0259, yax\u015f\u0131?
\nO vaxt Urfan bilmirdi ki, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli d\u0259rdi il\u0259 \u00fczl\u0259\u015f\u0259c\u0259k \u2013 balalar\u0131n\u0131 el\u0259 Quzann\u0131da torpa\u011fa tap\u015f\u0131racaq. Yolda\u015f\u0131na qibt\u0259 edirdi \u2013 o, u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131ndad\u0131r.
\nUrfan\u0131 \u00f6lm\u0259y\u0259 qoymayan art\u0131q qocalm\u0131\u015f valideynl\u0259ri oldu.
\nAllah yoxdur dey\u0259n Urfan indi Allahdan d\u00f6z\u00fcm ist\u0259yirdi.
\nEklessiast d\u00fcz deyirdi ki, h\u0259r bir insan \u00f6mr\u00fc boyu ya m\u0259n\u0259n, ya cism\u0259n \u00e7arm\u0131xa \u00e7\u0259kilir. Urfan da dara \u00e7\u0259kildi.
\nArt\u0131q ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131n m\u0259nas\u0131 itmi\u015fdi. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, Xocal\u0131da diri-diri yand\u0131r\u0131lan u\u015faqlar, Qaraba\u011fda k\u00f6s\u00f6v\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259n onun u\u015faqlar\u0131 Leninqrad blokadas\u0131nda, Osfensimd\u0259, Xirosimada, Liviyada, \u0130raqda, \u018ffqan\u0131standa, F\u0259l\u0259stind\u0259 bombalar alt\u0131nda \u00f6l\u0259n k\u00f6rp\u0259l\u0259rin \u00f6l\u00fcm estafetini da\u015f\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131lar.
\nNiluf\u0259rin \u201cu\u015fa\u011f\u0131m\u0131z olacaq\u201d s\u00f6zl\u0259ri onu \u015foka sald\u0131. D\u0259rhal k\u00f6s\u00f6v\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259n balalar\u0131 g\u0259ldi g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin q\u0259n\u015f\u0259rin\u0259.
\n\u2013 Yox, o ist\u0259mirdi onun yeni balas\u0131 olsun. Olub itirm\u0259kd\u0259ns\u0259, biryolluq olmas\u0131n.
\nYen\u0259 bad\u0259sini araqla doldurdu. Bu \u00f6l\u00fcm qoxusu ver\u0259n d\u00fcnyayam\u0131 g\u00f6z a\u00e7acaq k\u00f6rp\u0259?
\nAncaq… ancaq haqq\u0131 varm\u0131 Niluf\u0259ri anal\u0131q hissind\u0259n m\u0259hrum etm\u0259y\u0259?
\nYen\u0259 araq i\u00e7di. S\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259y\u0259-s\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 divana sar\u0131 getdi, paltar\u0131n\u0131 soyunmadan divana \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc.
\nSevinc bilm\u0259z bir m\u0259xluqam
\nAhu-zard\u0131r sirda\u015f\u0131m
\nPremyeraya bir h\u0259ft\u0259 qald\u0131. Urfan ictimai bax\u0131\u015f vaxt\u0131 q\u00fcrur ke\u00e7irdi. \u2013 Tam qaranl\u0131q s\u0259hn\u0259d\u0259 projektorun i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 ancaq Cavidin portretinin \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc.
\nZal da, s\u0259hn\u0259 d\u0259 qaranl\u0131q i\u00e7ind\u0259 idi. Ancaq Cavidin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n i\u015f\u0131q \u00f6l\u0259n ulduzlar\u0131n i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131t\u0259k Niluf\u0259rin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc. S\u0259n\u0259tin \u2013 Cavidin i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0259b\u0259di idi.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 vaxtacan \u00e7iynimizd\u0259 g\u0259z\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r ya\u011f\u0131lar?
\nN\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ki, hakimlik var, m\u0259hkumluq var, m\u0259n varam
\nZ\u00fclm\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 \u00fcsyankaram, \u0259zils\u0259m d\u0259 susmaram.<\/p>\n

Zal aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131. Alq\u0131\u015flar s\u0259ngim\u0259k bilmirdi. N\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l gec\u0259 idi…
\nAx\u015fam evd\u0259 Niluf\u0259rin \u201cu\u015fa\u011f\u0131m\u0131z olacaq\u201d s\u00f6zl\u0259ri i\u00e7ini h\u0259l\u0259k-v\u0259l\u0259k el\u0259di. D\u0259rhal q\u0259lbind\u0259 xaos yarand\u0131. Art\u0131q ad\u0259t etdiyi h\u0259yat t\u0259rzi bir qatar kimi relsd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.
\nO, yuxuya getdi. Oyananda ba\u015f\u0131 a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130\u015f\u0259 getm\u0259di. He\u00e7 kimi g\u00f6rm\u0259k, e\u015fitm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259di. Mobil telefonunu s\u00f6nd\u00fcrd\u00fc.
\nD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc ki, y\u0259qin q\u0259lbin\u0259 iblis hakim k\u0259silib. Ac\u0131-ac\u0131 g\u00fcld\u00fc. \u018fg\u0259r iblis olmasayd\u0131 t\u0259kam\u00fcl olmazd\u0131. \u0130nsanlar el\u0259 ibtidai-icma qurulu\u015funda qalard\u0131, apayd\u0131n \u00e7aylar\u0131n k\u0259nar\u0131 il\u0259 g\u0259zib, a\u011faclardan xurma d\u0259rib yey\u0259rdil\u0259r. Allah iblisi yer \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 – – yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 insanlar\u0131n i\u00e7in\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rdi ki, insanlar m\u00fcbariz\u0259 etm\u0259yi bacars\u0131nlar \u2013 xeyirin t\u0259nt\u0259n\u0259si namin\u0259, insanl\u0131q namin\u0259. \u0130blis olmasayd\u0131 he\u00e7 bir elmi k\u0259\u015ffl\u0259r olmazd\u0131.
\n\u2013 N\u0259 Qalileo Qalibey, n\u0259 N\u0259simi, n\u0259 V\u0259t\u0259n, n\u0259 V\u0259t\u0259n u\u011frunda m\u00fccadil\u0259 olmazd\u0131.
\nBu fikirl\u0259rl\u0259 o, k\u00f6s\u00f6v\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f balalar\u0131n\u0131, konservatoriyan\u0131 yenic\u0259 bitirmi\u015f h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na g\u0259tirdi. H\u0259yat\u0131 iki d\u00f6vr\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fcnd\u00fc \u2013 \u0259vv\u0259l v\u0259 onlardan sonra.
\nSonra \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u0259 Niluf\u0259r daxil oldu. H\u0259yat\u0131nda sanki \u015fim\u015f\u0259k \u00e7axd\u0131, leysan ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131 onun q\u0259lbinin a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ovutdu. El\u0259 bil h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6y qur\u015fa\u011f\u0131 i\u015f\u0131qland\u0131rd\u0131.
\nNiluf\u0259rin s\u0259sini e\u015fitdikc\u0259, \u00fcr\u0259yi daha tez-tez vurma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131. A\u011flas\u0131\u011fmaz metamorfoz ba\u015f verirdi. Allah onun \u0259lind\u0259n h\u0259r \u015feyi ald\u0131. Bu bir s\u0131naq idimi? Sonra \u0259v\u0259zind\u0259 Niluf\u0259ri verdi?
\nNiluf\u0259r \u201cu\u015fa\u011f\u0131m\u0131z olacaq\u201d dem\u0259yiyl\u0259 Urfan\u0131n q\u0259lbind\u0259 bir i\u011fti\u015fa\u015f yaratd\u0131. Urfan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yer tapa bilmirdi. \u201cSpazmaqondan\u201d sonra ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 s\u0259ngimi\u015fdi. Otaqda \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rin rayih\u0259si araq iyin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\nPremyeraya h\u0259l\u0259 bir h\u0259ft\u0259 vard\u0131.
\n\u0130ndiki hal\u0131nda Urfan n\u0259 premyeran\u0131, n\u0259 teatr\u0131, n\u0259 d\u0259 Niluf\u0259ri d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi.
\n… G\u00fcnl\u0259r ke\u00e7di. Niluf\u0259r ba\u015fqa tama\u015falarda i\u015ftirak etm\u0259diyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn teatra getmirdi. Sad\u0259c\u0259 Niluf\u0259r i\u015fd\u0259n qay\u0131dan atas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxmaqdan qorxurdu. Atas\u0131 susurdu, dem\u0259k Urfan teatra g\u0259lmir.
\nPremyera g\u00fcn\u00fc Niluf\u0259r ke\u00e7\u0259n d\u0259f\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi uzun qara paltar\u0131n\u0131 geyindi. S\u0259hn\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xmazdan \u0259vv\u0259l p\u0259rd\u0259 arxas\u0131ndan zala baxd\u0131… sonra lojaya.
\nZalda adamlar yava\u015f-yava\u015f yerl\u0259rin\u0259 ke\u00e7irdil\u0259r. Loja bo\u015f idi.
\nUzaqdan atas\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259sini e\u015fitdi. O, kiml\u0259s\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.
\nYen\u0259 lojaya baxd\u0131 \u2013 b\u0259lk\u0259 Urfan lojada \u0259yl\u0259\u015f\u0259r? Ancaq loja h\u0259l\u0259lik bo\u015f idi.
\nNiluf\u0259rin \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 sanki buz doldurdular \u2013 q\u0259lbi \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u015ea\u015fq\u0131n bir yol\u00e7uyam, yolum qaranl\u0131q.
\nYan\u011f\u0131n oldu \u015f\u0259f\u0259q sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u015f\u0131q
\nOf yet\u0259r, vurulmaz bir daha art\u0131q
\nH\u0259r s\u00fczg\u00fcn y\u0131ld\u0131za p\u0259rvan\u0259 k\u00f6nl\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

Niluf\u0259rin ruhu inl\u0259yirdi. Q\u0259rib bir qu\u015f kimi a\u011flar m\u0259nliyim.
\nArt\u0131q birinci z\u0259ng vuruldu. S\u0259hn\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xmas\u0131na d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259r qal\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130ndi ikinci z\u0259ng \u00e7al\u0131nacaq, sonra da \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc…
\nB\u0259lk\u0259 Urfan p\u0259rd\u0259nin a\u00e7\u0131lmas\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k?
\nNiluf\u0259r fikirl\u0259\u015fdi ki, \u0259g\u0259r Urfan bu ax\u015fam g\u0259ls\u0259, onda Niluf\u0259rin \u00f6mr\u00fc g\u00f6y qur\u015fa\u011f\u0131na b\u0259l\u0259n\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259 o, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n xo\u015fb\u0259xt qad\u0131n\u0131 sanacaq. Ancaq… \u0259g\u0259r Urfan g\u0259lm\u0259s\u0259, Niluf\u0259rin h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n \u0259lvanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 it\u0259c\u0259k. O da n\u0259n\u0259l\u0259r demi\u015f sa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n bir ucunu qara, bir ucunu a\u011f h\u00f6r\u00fcb balas\u0131n\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n

SON<\/p>\n