{"id":14057,"date":"2020-06-14T14:35:26","date_gmt":"2020-06-14T09:35:26","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=14057"},"modified":"2020-07-05T20:47:17","modified_gmt":"2020-07-05T15:47:17","slug":"nusab%c9%99-%c9%99s%c9%99d-m%c9%99mm%c9%99dli-qara-kvadrat","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=14057","title":{"rendered":"N\u00dc\u015eAB\u018f \u018fS\u018fD M\u018fMM\u018fDL\u0130 – QARA KVADRAT"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"Yanvar<\/a><\/p>\n

(hekay\u0259)<\/p>\n

Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. Pi\u015fik miyolday\u0131rd\u0131. Zuleyxa \u0259lind\u0259ki \u00a0kitab\u0131 kresloya qoyub, durub qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131. Pi\u015fik d\u0259rhal soyuducuya t\u0259r\u0259f qa\u00e7d\u0131 v\u0259 yen\u0259 miyouldama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131\u2014yem\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. Zuleyxa soyuducunun qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b dedi:<\/p>\n

–Bax, ay M\u0259stan , g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n soyuducumuz\u00a0 bo\u015fdu. M\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259nin kimi \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr yem\u0259k yemir\u0259m. Ancaq qara q\u0259hv\u0259, su i\u00e7ir\u0259m. He\u00e7 \u00e7ay\u0131m\u0131z da qalmay\u0131b.<\/p>\n

Zuleyxa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc ki, bu korona virus pandemiyas\u0131 qurtaranda m\u00fctl\u0259q M\u0259stana xo\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yem\u0259kl\u0259ri alacaq\u2014kolbasa, cocis, konservl\u0259r v\u0259 pi\u015fik yem\u0259kl\u0259ri alacaq. \u0130ndi Zuleyxa he\u00e7 evd\u0259n k\u0259nara \u00e7\u0131xa bilmir\u2014karantindir. Onun ya\u015f\u0131 art\u0131q yetmi\u015fi ke\u00e7ib. Karantind\u0259n qabaq he\u00e7 olmasa qon\u015fusu Z\u0259r\u0259ngizd\u0259n n\u0259s\u0259 alma\u011f\u0131 xahi\u015f edirdi. \u00dc\u00e7 g\u00fcn qabaq Z\u0259r\u0259ngiz B\u00f6y\u00fck Ba\u011fmanda ya\u015fayan qoca anas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na getmi\u015fdi. Zuleyxa fikirl\u0259\u015fdi ki g\u0259r\u0259k ona he\u00e7 olmasa pi\u015fik \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yem\u0259k v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7or\u0259k pendir ald\u0131rayd\u0131.<\/p>\n

D\u00fcn\u0259n Zuleyxa evind\u0259n xeyli aral\u0131da yerl\u0259\u015f\u0259n maeket\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131, k\u00fcl\u0259k \u0259sirdi v\u0259 onun q\u0131sa a\u011f sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 da\u011f\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131. O, add\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131 yeyinl\u0259dirdi ki, ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n alt\u0131nda \u00e7ox islanmas\u0131n. Yolda bir inni-cinni yox idi. Sanki, d\u00fcnya b\u00fcs b\u00fct\u00fcn da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, insanlar qeyb\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015fdi. Zuleyxan\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yini bir xof\u00a0 b\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. Adams\u0131z k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259, illahda ki, ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011fanda, k\u00fcl\u0259k \u0259s\u0259nd\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r qorxunc g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Zuleyxan\u0131n getdiyi yolun qurtaraca\u011f\u0131nda polis ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Zuleyxan\u0131n market\u0259 \u00e7atmas\u0131na lap az qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bu m\u0259qam d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u00a0 ki\u00a0 ka\u015f polisl\u0259r onu g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259l\u0259r, Zuleyxa da d\u0259rhal market\u0259 daxil olub pi\u015fiyi v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yem\u0259k alar. Ancaq polis onu g\u00f6rd\u00fc,\u00a0 v\u0259 ona yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b kimliyini g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259yi t\u0259l\u0259b etdi. Zuleyxa \u00f6z \u0259ll\u0259riyl\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259ltdiyi\u00a0 maskan\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sal\u0131b dedi;–Ba\u015f\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fcm o\u011ful qoy market\u0259 ke\u00e7im.<\/p>\n

–Olmaz, ana. Qanun \u00e7ox s\u0259rtdir. Ona tabeh olmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Zuleyxa geri d\u00f6nd\u00fc. Sa\u00e7lar\u0131 b\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn islanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.\u00a0 Polisin ona ana dem\u0259yi \u00f6r\u0259yini titr\u0259tdi. \u201cAy Allah, ay Allah m\u0259n bu s\u00f6z\u00fc e\u015fitm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131xm\u0131\u015fam….qoy ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu g\u00fcnl\u0259r \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 g\u00fcnl\u0259ri \u00a0olsun, ancaq m\u0259m yen\u0259 d\u0259 ana s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc e\u015fidim\u201d<\/p>\n

Z\u0259r\u0259ngiz demi\u015fdi ki \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn\u0259 qay\u0131dacaq. Bu g\u00fcn art\u0131q \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr. \u018fg\u0259r qay\u0131tsayd\u0131 he\u00e7 olmasa ondan\u00a0 xahi\u015f ed\u0259rdi ki, ona bir d\u0259 pi\u015fiy\u0259 \u0259rzaq als\u0131n. Zuleyxa masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki ald\u0131\u011f\u0131\u00a0 t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u0259 baxd\u0131\u2014indi pul ona adi ka\u011f\u0131z kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u00dcst\u00fc \u015f\u0259killi ka\u011f\u0131z idi, v\u0259ssalam. Aynadan h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 baxd\u0131\u2014iki otaql\u0131 balaca evin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda c\u0259mi bir al\u00e7a a\u011fac\u0131 vard\u0131. N\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 bu a\u011fac h\u0259l\u0259 \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259m\u0259mi\u015fdi. Z\u0259r\u0259ngizgilin al\u00e7a a\u011fac\u0131 art\u0131q \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259mi\u015fdi.\u00a0 A\u011fac\u0131n bir buda\u011f\u0131 da bar\u0131dan Zuleyxan\u0131n h\u0259y\u0259tin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc. O fikirl\u0259\u015fdi ki,ata-anas\u0131 ya\u015fayanda, h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 balaca l\u0259kl\u0259r\u0259 pomidor, xiyar, g\u00f6y\u0259rti \u0259kilirdi. Zuleyxa onda \u00e7ox sevinirdi. Sonradaan, az qala otuz be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131mda Faiqin evin\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259, ilk vaxtlar onun b\u00f6y\u00fck evind\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yer tapa bilmirdi\u2014Qnun m\u0259nzilind\u0259 royal, b\u00f6y\u00fck kitabxana var idi. H\u0259y\u0259t d\u0259 b\u0259srar\u0259ngiz g\u00fcll\u0259rl\u0259, Zuleyxan\u0131n \u00e7ox sevdiyi yas\u0259m\u0259n v\u0259 pionlarla dolu idi. O, bel\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259lliy\u0259, bel\u0259 geni\u015fliy\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tin v\u0259rdi\u015f edirdi. \u0130lk v\u0259 yegan\u0259 evlad\u0131 F\u0259rid do\u011fulanda\u00a0 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n xo\u015fb\u0259xt qad\u0131n\u0131 sand\u0131. Onda Zuleyxa G\u0259nc\u0259 musiqi kollencind\u0259 fortepiano \u00a0m\u00fc\u0259llimi i\u015fl\u0259yirdi. Burada h\u0259r k\u0259s onun taleyin\u0259 qibt\u0259 edirdi.<\/p>\n

–G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n Faiq m\u00fc\u0259llim\u00a0 bunun n\u0259yini al\u0131b? O c\u00fcr g\u00f6z\u0259l o\u011flan kollecmizd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l q\u0131zlar\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fcrd\u00fcm\u00fc?\u00a0 E\u015fitmi\u015fik ki, ki\u015fi qad\u0131ndan b\u00f6y\u00fck olar, qad\u0131n yox, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 ya\u015f b\u00f6y\u00fck.<\/p>\n

Arxas\u0131nca deyil\u0259n bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri Zuleyxa e\u015fidirdi, p\u0259rt olurdu, ancaq e\u015fitdikl\u0259rini e\u015fitm\u0259m\u0259zliy\u0259 vururdu. He\u00e7 t\u00f6vr\u00fcn\u00fc pozmadan bu i\u015f yolda\u015flar\u0131yla dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 Zuleyxa Faiqd\u0259n soru\u015fmu\u015fd\u00fc\u2014kollecimizd\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259l v\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259n cavan q\u0131zlar var, s\u0259n niy\u0259 m\u0259ni se\u00e7din?.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n s\u0259nin q\u0259lbini, ruhunu sevdim. S\u0259n Qara Qarayevin \u201cadajiosonu\u201d \u00e7alanda, siman b\u00fcs b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u0259yi\u015firdi. \u00dcz\u00fcn qeyri-adi g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Faiq onu qucaqlad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Faiq kollecd\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259riyy\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259llimim idi<\/p>\n

–B\u0259s s\u0259n niy\u0259 piano\u00e7ular\u0131n m\u00fcsabiq\u0259sind\u0259 i\u015ftirak etm\u0259yibs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

–M\u0259ni he\u00e7 vaxt m\u00fcsabiq\u0259y\u0259 buraxm\u0131rld\u0131lar. \u018fksin\u0259, hans\u0131sa t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259hkim edib deyirdil\u0259r\u2014bu u\u015faq qalib \u00e7\u0131xmal\u0131d\u0131. Bu s\u0259nin s\u0259yind\u0259n v\u0259 bacar\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan as\u0131l\u0131d\u0131. T\u0259l\u0259b\u0259miz d\u0259 istedadl\u0131d\u0131.<\/p>\n

Onda Zuleyxa t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259si il\u0259 \u00c7aykovskinin iyun Barkarolas\u0131n\u0131 haz\u0131rlad\u0131.T\u0259l\u0259b\u0259si laureat oldu. T\u00fcnzal\u0259 adl\u0131 bu q\u0131z \u00e7ox istedadl\u0131 idi. Z\u00fcleyxa i\u015fl\u0259diyi m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259 m\u00fcxt\u0259liv m\u00fcsabiq\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 haz\u0131rlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Qalib \u00e7\u0131xan\u0131 da olurdu, \u00e7\u0131xmayan\u0131 da.<\/p>\n

Bir t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259si d\u0259 Bak\u0131da ke\u00e7iril\u0259n piano\u00e7ular m\u00fcsabiq\u0259sinin laureat\u0131 oldu. Onda t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259si Fikr\u0259t \u018fmirovun \u201cPrel\u00fcd\u00fcn\u00fc\u201d \u00e7alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Z\u00fcleyxan\u0131n bir t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259si d\u0259 Tbilisid\u0259 ke\u00e7iril\u0259n Zaqavqaziya piano\u00e7ular\u0131n\u0131n m\u00fcsabiq\u0259sinin qalibi oldu. U\u015fa\u011f\u0131n valideyinl\u0259ri ondan \u00e7ox xahi\u015f etdil\u0259r ki Zuleyxa da onlarnan getsin Tbilisiy\u0259\u2014sizin yan\u0131n\u0131zda u\u015faq o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 h\u0259n\u0259canlanmaz. Bizim ma\u015f\u0131nla ged\u0259r. Onda Zuleyxa bilmirdi ki, Tbilisiy\u0259 getm\u0259yin\u0259 nec\u0259 pe\u015fiman olacaq. \u018fg\u0259r bils\u0259ydi getm\u0259zdi.<\/p>\n

\u201cYox yen\u0259 ged\u0259rdim, he\u00e7 olmasa o\u011flumun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rdum. Iki k\u0259lm\u0259 olsa bel\u0259 onnan s\u00f6hb\u0259t etdim\u201d<\/p>\n

Sad\u0259c\u0259, Zuleyxa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, Amerikadan Tbilisiy\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n o\u011flu Tbilisid\u0259n c\u0259mi 200 km aral\u0131 olan G\u0259nc\u0259y\u0259–anas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na he\u00e7 olmasa \u00a0bir g\u00fcnl\u00fck, ya yar\u0131m g\u00fcnl\u00fck, lap bir saatl\u0131q g\u0259l\u0259 bilm\u0259zdimi?<\/p>\n

Onda \u015e\u0259hlan\u0131n valideyinl\u0259ri Tbilisid\u0259ki restoranlar\u0131n birind\u0259 \u015e\u0259hlan\u0131n q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259sini qeyd edirdil\u0259r. Z\u00fcleyxaya h\u0259dsiz minn\u0259tdarl\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 bildirirdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

–Bu q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 \u015e\u0259hlan\u0131n \u00f6z q\u0259l\u0259b\u0131\u0259sidi. O, \u00e7ox istedadl\u0131 q\u0131zd\u0131r. Bird\u0259 ki \u015e\u0259hla bizim musiqimiz\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259r verm\u0259yi bacard\u0131.Qara Qarayevin\u201d adajiosunun\u201d bu q\u0259d\u0259r s\u0259n\u0259t adamlar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 ifa olunmas\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fck sevincdir. Siz fikir verdiniz, ham\u0131 ayaq \u00fcst\u0259 alq\u0131\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131 \u201cAdajionu\u201d, \u015e\u0259hlan\u0131. \u015e\u0259hlan\u0131n atas\u0131 \u0259yilib Z\u00fcleyxan\u0131n \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n \u00f6pd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Bird\u0259n Z\u00fcleyxan\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri onlara t\u0259r\u0259f g\u0259l\u0259n o\u011fluna sata\u015fd\u0131. O\u011flunu ne\u00e7\u0259 il idi g\u00f6rm\u00fcrd\u00fc. O\u011flunun u\u011furlar\u0131 bar\u0259d\u0259 h\u0259rd\u0259n q\u0259zetl\u0259rd\u0259, sosial \u015f\u0259b\u0259k\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 oxuyurdu. Q\u0259lbi g\u00fcrur hissi il\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

–\u00c7ox \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr, Allay\u0131m balam xo\u015fb\u0259xtdi. Heyif, u\u015faqlar\u0131 yoxdur. Yolda\u015f\u0131 da bizimkil\u0259rd\u0259ndi,\u00a0 1979-cu ild\u0259 valedeyinl\u0259ri T\u0259brizd\u0259n Amerikaya k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcb. F\u0259r\u0259h F\u0259rid kimi Harvard\u0131 bitirib. \u00c7ox \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr , Allah \u00f6z\u00fcn balam\u0131, ail\u0259sini P\u0259nahinda saxla.<\/p>\n

–Ana s\u0259n m\u0259ni tan\u0131mad\u0131n?<\/p>\n

–\u0130ndi tan\u0131d\u0131m.<\/p>\n

F\u0259rid onun \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n, boynundan \u00f6p\u00fcrd\u00fc, a\u011f-appaq q\u0131sa vurulmu\u015f sa\u00e7lar\u0131na s\u0131\u011fal \u00e7\u0259kirdi. Z\u00fcleyxa a\u011flamaq ist\u0259yirdi, lakin yan\u0131ndaki adamlara g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tox tutma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n bu g\u00fcn G\u0259nc\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259k ist\u0259dim, ancaq imkan olmad\u0131\u2014r\u0259smi t\u0259dbirl\u0259r, indi d\u0259 dostumun ad g\u00fcn\u00fcd\u00fcr, g\u0259lm\u0259m\u0259k olmazd\u0131. Yax\u015f\u0131 ki,s\u0259ni burda g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. \u0130ki saatdan sonra t\u0259yyar\u0259m Va\u015fimqtona \u00a0u\u00e7ur. M\u0259n indi Aeroportda olmal\u0131yam.<\/p>\n

Sanki anas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259\u015f\u0259n insanlar\u0131 indi g\u00f6rd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

–Ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n anam\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm h\u0259y\u0259canland\u0131m. Sizn\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bilm\u0259dim.<\/p>\n

–Olan i\u015fdir, \u015e\u0259hlan\u0131n atas\u0131 F\u0259ridin \u0259lini s\u0131xd\u0131. Z\u00fcleyxa m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259d\u0259n xahi\u015f etdik ki, bizn\u0259n getsin Tbilisiy\u0259. \u0130ndi q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n bu g\u00fcnk\u00fc m\u00fcsabiq\u0259d\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259sini qeyd \u00a0edirik.<\/p>\n

–T\u0259brik edir\u0259m. B\u00f6y\u00fck u\u011furlar dil\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

–Sa\u011f olun. Biz bilmirdik ki, Zuleyxa m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259nin bel\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l o\u011flu var,–dedi \u015e\u0259hlan\u0131n atas\u0131.<\/p>\n

F\u0259rid anas\u0131n\u0131n balaca \u00e7antas\u0131na pul qoydu. Yen\u0259 anas\u0131n\u0131 qucaqlay\u0131b.<\/p>\n

–M\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n, t\u0259yyar\u0259min vaxt\u0131na az qal\u0131b.<\/p>\n

F\u0259rid geriy\u0259 baxmadan qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. O, \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdiyi masa arxas\u0131ndan iki n\u0259f\u0259r cavan ki\u015fi d\u0259 F\u0259ridin arxas\u0131nca \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Sonra Z\u00fcleyxa ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 masaya s\u00f6yk\u0259yib h\u00f6nk\u00fcrt\u00fc il\u0259 a\u011flad\u0131. Onun b\u00fct\u00fcn v\u00fccudu titr\u0259yirdi. \u015e\u0259hla da valideynl\u0259ri d\u0259;<\/p>\n

–Z\u00fcleyxa m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259 sakit olun, ham\u0131 biz\u0259 bax\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u015e\u0259hla ona su verdi.<\/p>\n

–M\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n….\u00d6z\u00fcmd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 olmad\u0131. O\u011flumu \u00e7oxdan g\u00f6rm\u00fcrd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

Z\u00fcleyxa yen\u0259 d\u0259 a\u011flad\u0131. O, art\u0131q he\u00e7 kimi g\u00f6rm\u00fcrd\u00fc, e\u015fitmirdi. M\u0259n balam\u0131 az qala tan\u0131mad\u0131m. M\u0259n o\u011flumnan s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. Dar\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m ax\u0131 onsuz. Ondan ba\u015fqa m\u0259nim he\u00e7 kimim yoxdu. Ham\u0131 olsayd\u0131 bel\u0259, yen\u0259 d\u0259 F\u0259rid t\u0259kdi m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. Z\u00fcleyxa do\u011frudan da bu d\u00fcnyada q\u0259rib kimi idi. Valideynl\u0259rini h\u0259l\u0259 cavanl\u0131qda, r\u0259fiq\u0259l\u0259rini, qohumlar\u0131n\u0131 ill\u0259r ke\u00e7diqc\u0259 itirdi. O \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xanda bir tan\u0131\u015f sima g\u00f6rm\u00fcrd\u00fc. Art\u0131q bu il\u00a0 kollecd\u0259n d\u0259 i\u015fd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. \u00a0Daha do\u011frusu t\u0259z\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n m\u00fcdir onu yan\u0131na \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131b dedi;<\/p>\n

–M\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259, siz\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck h\u00f6rm\u0259timiz var, ancaq qanuna g\u00f6r\u0259 siz id\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xmal\u0131s\u0131z. Altm\u0131\u015f be\u015f ya\u015fdan sonra sizi i\u015fd\u0259 saxlamaq ixtiyar\u0131m yoxdu. Lakin konkursa ged\u0259n t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259yl\u0259 kollecd\u0259\u00a0 m\u0259\u015fqul ola bil\u0259rsiz.<\/p>\n

Z\u00fcleyxa d\u0259rhal \u0259rz\u0259sini yas\u0131b m\u00fcdirin qaba\u011f\u0131na qoyub, qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Onun \u00fcr\u0259yi sizilday\u0131ld\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259ri alatoranl\u0131q g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. \u201cM\u0259ni makulatura kimi \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 tullad\u0131lar. M\u0259n art\u0131q he\u00e7 kim\u0259 laz\u0131m deyim. He\u00e7 Allaha da laz\u0131m deyil\u0259m. Laz\u0131m olsayd\u0131m yan\u0131na aparard\u0131\u201d….<\/p>\n

Evin\u0259 do\u011fru ged\u0259–ged\u0259 s\u0259ssiz\u2014s\u0259ssiz a\u00f6lay\u0131rd\u0131. He\u00e7 k\u0259s ona m\u0259h\u0259l qoymurdu. H\u0259r\u0259nin \u00f6z problemi var.<\/p>\n

Z\u00fcleyxan\u0131 k\u0259d\u0259rli xatir\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n \u015e\u0259hlan\u0131n anas\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259ri ay\u0131rd\u0131\u2014Sa\u011f olun m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259, \u015e\u0259hlan\u0131n haz\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q qoymad\u0131z.<\/p>\n

–\u015e\u0259hla istedadl\u0131 q\u0131zd\u0131r.<\/p>\n

–Siz \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l anas\u0131z, bu c\u00fcr o\u011ful b\u00f6y\u00fctd\u00fcn\u00fcz. Z\u00fcleyxa k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di. Fikirl\u0259\u015fdi ki F\u0259ridin oxuyub , boya-ba\u015fa \u00e7atmas\u0131nda M\u00fcn\u0259vv\u0259r xan\u0131m\u0131n m\u00fcst\u0259sna xidm\u0259ti olub. O da, \u0259ri d\u0259 ADAU-da professor idil\u0259r iqtisad kafedres\u0131nda. T\u0259k o\u011fullar\u0131n\u0131 itir\u0259nd\u0259 F\u0259ridin 12 ya\u015f\u0131 bard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Onlar otel\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131lar. Z\u00fcleyxa ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7\u0259n kimi, a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0131nad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201c\u00f6z\u00fcm deyirdim ax\u0131, t\u0259ki balam x\u00f6\u015fb\u0259xt olsun, he\u00e7 m\u0259ni axtar\u0131b-itirm\u0259sin.\u201d<\/p>\n

Yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki, F\u0259rid babas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259fn edib Amerikaya qay\u0131danda yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 evl\u0259rin\u0259 bax\u0131b demi\u015fdi; –Ana, indi n\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259m var, n\u0259 d\u0259 babam, s\u0259n bu b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u00fckd\u0259 evi neynirs\u0259n? Ya\u015fin da art\u0131q ke\u00e7ib. M\u0259n evi satmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m. M\u0259n\u0259 orda pul laz\u0131m olacaq.<\/p>\n

F\u0259rid evi satd\u0131. Z\u00fcleyxa da \u00f6z atas\u0131n\u0131n indi\u00a0 xaraba qalm\u0131\u015f balaca t\u0259mirsiz evin\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7d\u00fc. Do\u011fuldu\u011fu, boya-ba\u015fa \u00e7atd\u0131\u011f\u0131 evd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yad hiss etdi. Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, onu tan\u0131yan qon\u015fular\u0131 var idi. \u018fg\u0259r Faiq dursayd\u0131 he\u00e7 x\u00f6\u015fb\u0259xtlik \u00e7a\u011flar\u0131n\u0131n o evi sat\u0131lmazd\u0131. F\u0259rid atas\u0131na \u00e7ox ba\u011fl\u0131 idi. Yen\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yi gizild\u0259di\u2014ay Allah onlar n\u0259c\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt idil\u0259r. O d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc ki, M\u00fcn\u0259vv\u0259r xan\u0131m da \u018fv\u0259z m\u00fc\u0259llim d\u0259 ona qar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7ox diqq\u0259tli idil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Yad\u0131ndad\u0131r, Z\u00fcleyxan\u0131n \u00a0hamil\u0259liyi t\u0259sdikl\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 \u00a0\u018fv\u0259z m\u00fc\u0259llim \u015fampan a\u00e7d\u0131, M\u00fcn\u0259vv\u0259r xan\u0131m masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 meyv\u0259, \u015firniyyat d\u00fczd\u00fc \u018fv\u0259z m\u00fc\u0259llim;<\/p>\n

–G\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k n\u0259v\u0259mizin \u015f\u0259r\u0259fin\u0259, qoy q\u0259d\u0259ml\u0259ri evimiz\u0259 u\u011fur g\u0259tirsin.<\/p>\n

Onda n\u0259 \u018fv\u0259z m\u00fc\u0259llim, n\u0259 d\u0259 M\u00fcn\u0259vv\u0259r xan\u0131m bilmirdil\u0259r ki, onlar\u0131 son m\u0259nzil\u0259–\u201cS\u0259biskar q\u0259bristan\u0131na F\u0259rid yola salacaq. Onlar\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcml\u0259rini e\u015fidib, d\u0259rhal Va\u015finqtondan Bak\u0131ya, sonra da G\u0259nc\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k. M\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259yin dey\u0259c\u0259k anas\u0131na. Onda F\u0259rid Harvard\u0131 yenic\u0259 bitirmi\u015fdi, M\u00fcsabiq\u0259 yolunnan \u0259n n\u00fcfuzlu, maa\u015f\u0131 y\u00fcks\u0259k v\u0259zif\u0259y\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi Va\u015finqtonda. M\u00fcn\u0259vv\u0259r xan\u0131m \u018fv\u0259z m\u00fc\u0259llimd\u0259n yeddi ay sonra d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdi. \u00d6mr\u00fcnd\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt he\u00e7 k\u0259s\u0259 qibt\u0259 etm\u0259y\u0259n Z\u00fcleyxa onlar\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u0259 h \u0259s\u0259d apard\u0131—onlar Faigin yan\u0131na Z\u00fcleyxadan qabaq getdil\u0259r. Bir ild\u0259 F\u0259rid iki d\u0259f\u0259 G\u0259nc\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259ldi\u2014baba, n\u0259n\u0259sini son m\u0259nzil\u0259 yola sald\u0131.<\/p>\n

H\u0259l\u0259 indiy\u0259 kimi o s\u0259hn\u0259 Z\u00fcleyxan\u0131n d\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259di. \u0130ndi Z\u00fcleyxa o evin yan\u0131ndan ke\u00e7\u0259 bilmir, q\u0259h\u0259r onu bo\u011fma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131r. Kiml\u0259rs\u0259 ayr\u0131 adamlar o evin i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yand\u0131r\u0131r, o \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131 pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259rl\u0259 ev\u0259 qalx\u0131rlar. N\u0259 is\u0259….ke\u00e7mi\u015fi qaytarmaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olsayd\u0131, Z\u00fcleyxa birinci Faiqi qaytarard\u0131. O, kollecd\u0259, v\u0259 pedaqoji texnikumda i\u015fini at\u0131b m\u00fcharib\u0259y\u0259 getm\u0259s\u0259ydi onda h\u0259yat bamba\u015fqa olard\u0131. Onda Faiq n\u0259 Z\u00fcleyxaya, n\u0259 d\u0259 ata-anas\u0131na dem\u0259di ki, o bir qrup k\u00f6n\u00fcll\u00fc il\u0259 \u015eu\u015fa u\u011frunda vuru\u015fma\u011fa gedir. \u018fg\u0259r des\u0259ydi, onda Z\u00fcleyxa onun ayaqlar\u0131na d\u00f6\u015f\u0259n\u0259rdi, qoymazd\u0131 Faiq getsin.M\u00fcharib\u0259, azadl\u0131q \u2013ham\u0131s\u0131 ritorika, pafosdur.<\/p>\n

Z\u00fcleyxan\u0131n \u00f6mr\u00fc t\u0259n yar\u0131ya b\u00f6l\u00fcnd\u00fc\u20141993 il\u0259 kimi v\u0259 ondan sonra. 1993-c\u00fc ilin may\u0131nda G\u0259nc\u0259 h\u0259rbi komissarl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan Z\u00fcleyxaya z\u0259ng etdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

–Bu Faiq H\u00fcseylinin evidir?<\/p>\n

–B\u0259li.<\/p>\n

–Siz onun n\u0259yisiz?<\/p>\n

–H\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131<\/p>\n

–Xan\u0131m, onu bura g\u0259tiribl\u0259r, \u015f\u0259h\u0259r h\u0259rbi komissarl\u0131\u011f\u0131na. G\u0259lin onu ev\u0259 apar\u0131n.<\/p>\n

Qurban olum, Allah bu n\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck xo\u015fb\u0259xtlikdir– B\u0259s niy\u0259 g\u0259lin apar\u0131n dedil\u0259r?<\/p>\n

Tez \u018fv\u0259z \u00a0m\u00fc\u0259llim d\u0259, Z\u00fcleyxa da taksi saxlay\u0131b h\u0259rbi komissarl\u0131\u011fa getdil\u0259r. M\u00fcn\u0259vv\u0259r xan\u0131m plov bi\u015firm\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0259rd\u0131. A\u011fl\u0131na bel\u0259 g\u0259lmirdi ki, o\u011flu onun \u00fcr\u0259yi, g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0259lil qay\u0131dacaq evin\u0259.<\/p>\n

\u018fv\u0259z m\u00fc\u0259llim v\u0259 Z\u00fcleyxa h\u0259rbi komissarl\u0131\u011fa \u00e7atan kimi soru\u015fdular\u2014Faiq H\u00fcseynli hardad\u0131?<\/p>\n

–M\u0259n burdayam, ata\u2014Faiqin bo\u011fuq s\u0259si e\u015fidildi. Burada xeyli insan vard\u0131. Bu insan selinin i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u018fv\u0259z m\u00fc\u0259llim yen\u0259 Faiqin s\u0259sini e\u015fitdi.<\/p>\n

–M\u0259n burdayam, ata. \u018fv\u0259z m\u00fc\u0259llim d\u0259, Z\u00fcleyxa da s\u0259s g\u0259l\u0259n t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 getdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Faiqi iri, k\u00f6hn\u0259\u00a0 kresloda otuzdurmu\u015fdular. Onun h\u0259r iki aya\u011f\u0131 dizd\u0259n a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 yox idi. \u018fv\u0259z m\u00fc\u0259llim h\u00f6nk\u00fcrd\u00fc, onu quca\u011f\u0131na ald\u0131. Onlar\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n taksiy\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdil\u0259r. \u00dc\u00e7\u00fc d\u0259 arxada yerl\u0259\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

M\u00fcnn\u0259v\u0259r xan\u0131m onun ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6p\u00fcr\u2014B\u00fct\u00fcn a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 g\u0259lsin, o\u011ful \u2013 deyirdi. F\u0259rid d\u0259 a\u011flad\u0131. O da \u0259yilib atas\u0131n\u0131n aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6pd\u00fc. Sonra ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 onun sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131b, x\u0131s\u0131n-x\u0131s\u0131n a\u011flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cT\u0259ki quru n\u0259f\u0259sin g\u0259lsin, t\u0259ki s\u0259sin g\u0259lsin qurban olum. \u00d6l\u0259n\u0259 kimi s\u0259nin qullu\u011funda duracam. \u0130n\u015faallah protez sifari\u015f ver\u0259rik. T\u0259ki sa\u011f ol, qurban olum. Atan\u0131n, anan\u0131n yan\u0131nda m\u0259n s\u0259ni \u00f6p\u0259 bilmir\u0259m. Utan\u0131ram onlardan….\u201d\u2014\u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 deyirdi Z\u00fcleyxa<\/p>\n

Atas\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259r\u0259k;<\/p>\n

—S\u0259n niy\u0259 bel\u0259 oldun o\u011ful?<\/p>\n

–Minaya d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck, ata<\/p>\n

–T\u0259ki can\u0131n sa\u011f olsun, o\u011ful. M\u00fcharib\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm– itimdir. \u0130nsan h\u0259r d\u0259rd\u0259 al\u0131\u015f\u0131r o\u011ful. D\u0259rd, a\u011fr\u0131 s\u0259nin ayr\u0131lmaz bir hiss\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7evrilir\u2014\u00d6mr\u00fc boyu s\u0259nn\u0259n qal\u0131r\u2014\u018fv\u0259z m\u00fc\u0259llim siqaret yand\u0131rd\u0131. \u00a0Ax\u015fam Z\u00fcleyxa Faiqi \u00e7imizdirdi, onun dizind\u0259n yuxar\u0131 qalan ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131\u00a0 \u00f6p\u00fcrdu , onun yaralar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131na q\u0259rq edirdi. Faiq\u00a0 onun sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

–A\u011flama. A\u011flama\u011fa haqq\u0131m\u0131z yoxdur. Bizim ax\u0131 F\u0259ridimiz var.<\/p>\n

Sonra \u00a0\u018fv\u0259z m\u00fc\u0259llim o\u011fluna protez, \u0259l arabas\u0131 ald\u0131. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn sonra Faiq \u00f6z i\u015f yerin\u0259 qay\u0131tmaq isd\u0259di. \u018fvv\u0259l musiqi kollecin\u0259\u00a0 getdi. Onu h\u0259r an F\u0259rid m\u00fc\u015faih\u0259t\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0edirdi. Faiq n\u0259 atas\u0131n\u0131, n\u0259 anas\u0131n\u0131, n\u0259 d\u0259 Z\u00fcleyxan\u0131 qoymurdu onnan getm\u0259y\u0259.<\/p>\n

–M\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc yax\u015f\u0131 hiss edir\u0259m. H\u0259m d\u0259 o\u011flumnan g\u0259zm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Kollecin direktoru hal-\u0259hval tutandan sonra soru\u015fdu;<\/p>\n

— Xeyir ola?<\/p>\n

–\u0130\u015fim\u0259 qay\u0131tmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

M\u00fcdir Faiqin ayaqlar\u0131na baxd\u0131. Sonra \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259;<\/p>\n

–Bu ayaqlarla nec\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259qs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

–M\u0259n el\u0259 bilirdim siz adamlar\u0131 i\u015f\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259nd\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131na bax\u0131rs\u0131z, aya\u011f\u0131na yox,–Faiq qoltuq a\u011faclar\u0131na s\u00f6yk\u0259nib getdi.<\/p>\n

Ert\u0259si g\u00fcn Faiq humanitar kollec\u0259 \u00fcz tutdu. Kollecin direktoru ona eyni sual\u0131 verdi<\/p>\n

\u2014S\u0259n bu ayaqnan nec\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n?<\/p>\n

–El\u0259 bildim \u00a0siz insalar\u0131n qabiliyy\u0259tin\u0259 bax\u0131rs\u0131z, ayaqlana yox.<\/p>\n

Faiq d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc \u00a0ki ayaqlar\u0131 \u015eu\u015fada qal\u0131b. O \u015eu\u015fan\u0131 \u00e7ox sevirdi. Bu sevgi ona anas\u0131ndan ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. Atas\u0131ndan da Faiq\u0259 Nax\u00e7\u0131vana olan sevgisi ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. Faiq xat\u0131rlad\u0131 ki, onlar Nax\u00e7\u0131vana t\u0259k birc\u0259 yol getdil\u0259r. \u015e\u0259rurun S\u0259rxanl\u0131 k\u0259ndind\u0259 \u018fv\u0259z m\u00fc\u0259llimin qarda\u015f\u0259 gild\u0259 qonaq qald\u0131lar. Onda F\u0259rid balaca idi. Faiq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bu yerl\u0259r do\u011fma, \u0259ziz idi. Sanki o burada do\u011fulmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

M\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 oxuyan zaman Faiqin yay t\u0259till\u0259ri h\u0259m\u0259\u015f\u0259 \u015eu\u015fada ke\u00e7irdi. Burada ana n\u0259n\u0259si \u015e\u0259k\u0259rin da\u011f\u0131n ba\u015finda ke\u00e7\u0259n \u0259srd\u0259n qalm\u0131\u015f m\u00fclk\u00fc var idi. Faiq h\u0259r g\u00fcn \u015eu\u015fal\u0131 qoyumlar\u0131n\u0131n u\u015faqlar\u0131 il\u0259 \u0130sa bula\u011f\u0131na, c\u0131d\u0131r d\u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 gedirdi, burada\u00a0 at \u00e7ap\u0131rd\u0131, m\u00fcxt\u0259lif oyunlar oynay\u0131rd\u0131lar. F\u0259rid d\u0259 balaca olanda, Z\u00fcleyxa da ail\u0259 l\u0259 birg\u0259 \u015eu\u015faya gedirdil\u0259r. Ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 d\u0259f\u0259 1987 \u2013ci ild\u0259\u00a0 \u015e\u0259k\u0259r n\u0259n\u0259si r\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6zl\u0259rini \u015eu\u015faya \u00e7atd\u0131rd\u0131lar. Faiqin a\u011flama\u011f\u0131n\u0131 dayand\u0131rmaq olmurdu. M\u00fcn\u0259vv\u0259r xan\u0131m v\u0259 \u018fv\u0259z m\u00fc\u0259llim onu sakitl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131ld\u0131lar. Onlar bir daha \u015eu\u015faya qy\u0131tmad\u0131lar.\u00a0 Bir d\u0259f\u0259 Faiq n\u0259n\u0259sini yuxuda g\u00f6rd\u00fc. N\u0259n\u0259si 70-ci ill\u0259rd\u0259 atdan y\u0131x\u0131l\u0131b \u00f6l\u0259n \u0259rinin, yani Faiqin babas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 dil deyib a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. Faiq ona yax\u0131nla\u015fmaq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259si onu yax\u0131n qoymurdu. Bird\u0259n \u015e\u0259k\u0259r n\u0259n\u0259si qalx\u0131b, cavan q\u0131z kimi y\u00fcy\u00fcr\u00fcb onun ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 qucaqlad\u0131.<\/p>\n

–Ayaqlar\u0131na qurban olum, bala, \u00e7oxmu a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131r ayaqlar\u0131n? B\u00fct\u00fcn a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 g\u0259lsin.<\/p>\n

Faiq yiuxudan s\u0259rs\u0259m oyand\u0131. Fikirl\u0259\u015fdi ki,\u00a0 indi \u015eu\u015fada d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r gedir. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259sinin q\u0259bri u\u00e7ub da\u011f\u0131l\u0131b….Onda Faiq \u015eu\u015faya m\u00fcharib\u0259y\u0259 getm\u0259yi q\u0259rar verdi.<\/p>\n

Onun r\u0259ngi a\u011fappaq olmu\u015fdu. F\u0259rid gec\u0259ni yata bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi.\u00a0 Qula\u011f\u0131nda kollec direktorlar\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259ri s\u0259sl\u0259nirdi.<\/p>\n

–S\u0259n bu ayaqlarnan nec\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n? Faiqin \u00fcr\u0259yi q\u0259z\u0259bd\u0259n, \u00e7\u0259ktiyi \u0259zabdan a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131. O, yataqdan qalx\u0131b, \u00f6z \u0259lil arabas\u0131na \u0259yl\u0259\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259di.<\/p>\n

–S\u0259n hara haz\u0131rla\u015fd\u0131n\u00a0 gurban olum?\u2014soru\u015fdu Z\u00fcleyxa v\u0259 d\u0259rhal yata\u011f\u0131ndan qalxd\u0131.<\/p>\n

–Bir az hava almaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Z\u00fcleyxa ona pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k etdi. Bir daha Z\u00fcleyxa yata\u011f\u0131na girm\u0259di. Aarabada g\u0259z\u0259n Faiq \u0259lini ba\u011fdaki g\u00fcll\u0259r\u0259 uzatd\u0131.\u00a0 \u018fli onlara \u00e7atmad\u0131. Z\u00fcleyxa onu art\u0131q yuxudan oyanm\u0131\u015f F\u0259ridl\u0259 birg\u0259 ev\u0259 qald\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u018fv\u0259z m\u00fc\u0259llim v\u0259 M\u00fcn\u0259vv\u0259r xan\u0131m art\u0131q i\u015f\u0259 haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar. Faiq divardan as\u0131lm\u0131\u015f Malevi\u00e7in \u201cQara kvadrat\u201d\u0131na baxd\u0131. Bu \u0259s\u0259rin sur\u0259tini ona r\u0259ssam dostu ba\u011f\u0131\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.\u00a0 Zuleyxa bu \u0259s\u0259ri xo\u015flam\u0131rd\u0131, ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcrd\u00fc, he\u00e7 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k d\u0259 ist\u0259mirdi. Faiq bir xeyli \u201cQara kvadrata\u201d baxd\u0131\u2014el\u0259 m\u0259nim indiki taleyimdir,– dedi. Arabas\u0131n\u0131 yataq ota\u011f\u0131na s\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc ki, alaca\u011f\u0131 c\u00fczi pensiya he\u00e7 onun d\u0259rmanlar\u0131n\u0131n pulu deyil, o valideyinl\u0259rin\u0259 \u00a0arxa olmaq \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 onlara m\u00f6htacm\u0131 olsun? Ya Z\u00fcleyxaya, h\u0259yat\u0131ndan \u00e7ox sevdiyi qad\u0131na m\u00f6ytacm\u0131 olsun? Bu r\u0259zillik olard\u0131. O\u00a0 bel\u0259 ya\u015faya bilm\u0259z. e\u015fitdiyi s\u00f6zl\u0259ri sanki beynini doy\u0259cl\u0259yirdi. Bu ayaql\u0259 nec\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n.<\/p>\n

H\u0259min g\u00fcn \u018fv\u0259z m\u00fc\u0259llim d\u0259, M\u00fcn\u0259vv\u0259r xan\u0131m da i\u015fd\u0259 idil\u0259r. H\u0259r\u0259sinin 6 qo\u015fa saat d\u0259rsl\u0259ri vard\u0131. Z\u00fcleyxa Faiqin sevdiyi\u00a0 bal\u0131q l\u0259v\u0259ngisini bi\u015firib aptek\u0259 yolland\u0131. \u00a0F\u0259rid atas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda qald\u0131. Z\u00fcleyxan\u0131n aptek\u0259 gedib– g\u0259lm\u0259yi he\u00e7 ytar\u0131m saat \u00e7\u0259km\u0259di. Yata\u011f\u0131na uzanm\u0131\u015f Faiq F\u0259rid\u0259–get anana h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259n pion y\u0131\u011f. Onlar a\u00e7\u0131blar.<\/p>\n

–Ba\u015f \u00fcst\u0259, ata, –F\u0259rid qay\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259ri d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, ba\u011f\u00e7aya yolland\u0131. Faiq\u00a0 \u00e7arpay\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na qoyulmu\u015f ki\u00e7ik masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki dol\u00e7adan fincana su t\u00f6k\u00fcb a\u011fr\u0131k\u0259sici d\u0259rmanlar\u0131n bir qutusunu x\u0131\u015fmalay\u0131b a\u011fz\u0131na apard\u0131. Z\u00fcleyxa ev\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259nd\u0259, F\u0259rid a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya onun qaba\u011f\u0131na qa\u00e7d\u0131<\/p>\n

–Ana, \u00a0m\u0259n ist\u0259mir\u0259m ata \u00f6ls\u00fcn!. Ana \u00a0m\u0259n ist\u0259mir\u0259m ata \u00f6ls\u00fcn! \u00a0Tez ol dirilt onu. O, dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131r,\u00a0 n\u0259f\u0259s d\u0259 alm\u0131r. Tez ol.<\/p>\n

Faiqin a\u00e7\u0131q g\u00f6zl\u0259ri divardan as\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u201cQara kvadrata\u201d bax\u0131rd\u0131. \u00a0Z\u00fcleyxa h\u0259r \u015feyi–\u0259traf\u0131, t\u0259cili yard\u0131m ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n\u0131, M\u00fcn\u0259vv\u0259r xan\u0131m\u0131, \u018fv\u0259z m\u00fc\u0259llimi, ba\u015fqa adamlar\u0131, ax\u0131rda g\u0259l\u0259n mollan\u0131 tor i\u00e7ind\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. Hesab etdi ki, art\u0131q onun \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u0259 son qoyuldu….Allah F\u0259ridimi xo\u015fb\u0259xt, uzun \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fc el\u0259sin.<\/p>\n

Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f s\u0259ngim\u0259k bilmirdi. Z\u0259r\u0259ngizgilin h\u0259y\u0259tind\u0259n s\u0259s g\u0259lirdi. H\u0259m d\u0259 el\u0259 bir bal\u0131q q\u0131zard\u0131rd\u0131lar. Z\u00fcleyxa acl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259f etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7aydan\u0131 qaz plit\u0259sinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu. \u00c7aydan qaynayan kimi fincana qaynar su t\u00f6kd\u00fc, udum \u2013udum i\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Qap-qara M\u0259stan onun ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 c\u0131rmaqlay\u0131rd\u0131. Z\u00fcleyxa soyuducunun qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b i\u00e7ini g\u00f6st\u0259rdi;<\/p>\n

–Bax M\u0259stan soyuducumuz bo\u015fdu. Sonra masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki pula baxd\u0131. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u00a0 yax\u015f\u0131 ki, i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n, qaz\u0131n, suyun pulunu vaxt\u0131nda \u00f6d\u0259yib. Yoxsa indi i\u015f\u0131qs\u0131z, qazs\u0131z qalard\u0131. Bird\u0259 masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki pula baxd\u0131\u2014indi pandemiya d\u00f6vr\u00fcnd\u0259 bu pul bir ka\u011f\u0131z par\u00e7as\u0131na d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Qap\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcld\u00fc. Z\u0259r\u0259ngiz idi.<\/p>\n

–Qarda\u015f\u0131m bal\u0131q alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131– dedi Z\u0259r\u0259nqiz\u00a0 \u00fc\u00e7 d\u0259n\u0259sini d\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 verdi. Dedim ikisi biz\u0259 b\u0259sti, birini Z\u00fcleyxa m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259y\u0259 apar\u0131m. N\u0259 var ki iki adam\u0131q\u2014bir ki\u015fi, bir d\u0259 m\u0259n. U\u015faqlar da sa\u011f olsunlar Bak\u0131dad\u0131rlar. Karantin qurtarsayd\u0131 g\u0259l\u0259rdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

–\u0130n\u015faallah g\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259r\u2014yen\u0259 Z\u00fcleyxan\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yi gizild\u0259di. O\u011flu ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr z\u0259ng el\u0259mir. Z\u00fcleyxa ondan nigaran idi.\u00a0 O d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 o\u011fluna z\u0259ng\u00a0 el\u0259mi\u015fdir, ancaq n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 F\u0259rid telefonu a\u00e7m\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130ndi Z\u00fcletxa \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc h\u0259yatda art\u0131q adam olmas\u0131n\u0131, h\u0259r k\u0259s\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259ksiz oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. T\u0259ki balam sa\u011f olsun. M\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bu bir b\u0259xt\u0259v\u0259rlikdi. T\u0259ki F\u0259ridimin evlad\u0131 olsun. O\u011flu ayda bir d\u0259f\u0259 ona 100, bayramlarda 200 dollar pul g\u00f6nd\u0259rirdi. \u00a0Z\u00fcleyxa bu pullar\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn m\u0259kt\u0259b, t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 ill\u0259rind\u0259 \u00e7ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7oxdan k\u00f6kd\u0259n\u00a0 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f \u201cBelarus\u201d pianosunun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 Faiqin \u015f\u0259klinin yan\u0131nda qoyulmu\u015f \u201cQara kvadrat\u0131n\u201d arxas\u0131na \u015f\u0259kilin \u00e7\u0259r\u00e7iv\u0259sinin i\u00e7in\u0259 qoymu\u015fdu. \u201cSabah m\u0259n\u0259 bird\u0259n bir \u015fey olar. Qon\u015fumun \u00fcmidin\u0259mi yerd\u0259n q\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcl\u00fcm? Z\u00fcleyxa iki min dollar pul y\u0131\u011fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Pulun yerini Z\u0259r\u0259ngiz\u0259 demi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

Pi\u015fik indi d\u0259 masan\u0131n ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 c\u0131rmaqlay\u0131rd\u0131. S\u0259si otaq\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. M\u0259stan da onun kimi \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcnd\u00fcrk\u00fc ac idi. Z\u00fcleyxa Z\u0259r\u0259ngiz g\u0259tirdiyi balaca sudak bal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 M\u0259stan\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131na qoydu. Oz\u00fcn\u0259 yen\u0259 qaynar su t\u00f6kd\u00fc. M\u0259stan a\u011f\u0131z-burnunu yalay\u0131rd\u0131. Pi\u015fik ke\u00e7ib kreslonun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 uzand\u0131.<\/p>\n

F\u0259ridi\u00a0 pandemiya qorxutdu. Uzaqda t\u0259k-t\u0259nha ya\u015fayan anas\u0131na ac\u0131d\u0131. Fikirl\u0259\u015fdi ki anas\u0131n\u0131n ondan ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 k\u0259si yoxdu. F\u0259rid sanki indi ay\u0131ld\u0131\u2014h\u0259r an anas\u0131 koronovirusa\u00a0 yoluxa bil\u0259r. F\u0259rid \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0131nad\u0131. Q\u0259r\u0259k tez-tez z\u0259ng el\u0259m\u0259liydi anas\u0131na. Yollar a\u00e7\u0131q olsayd\u0131 el\u0259 indi bilet al\u0131b anas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na ged\u0259rdi. Sabah anas\u0131 olmaya bil\u0259r ax\u0131…Koronovirus sanki b\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131na hakim k\u0259sildi. D\u0259rhal dostu Az\u0259rbaycana getmi\u015f dostu R\u00fcf\u0259ti tapd\u0131. \u00dcr\u0259yi h\u0259y\u0259candan s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki R\u00fcf\u0259ti tapd\u0131m. \u00a0Bu an Z\u00fcleyxan\u0131n telefonu z\u0259ng \u00e7ald\u0131. O\u011flu idi z\u0259nk ed\u0259n.<\/p>\n

–Ana ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, C\u0259nubi Amerikadayd\u0131m. Ba\u015f\u0131m qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q idi. Ancaq Az\u0259rbaycandan x\u0259b\u0259rim var.\u00d6z\u00fcn nec\u0259s\u0259n ana?<\/p>\n

–\u00d6lum qaba\u011f\u0131nda, yax\u015f\u0131yam. S\u0259nin i\u015fl\u0259rin nec\u0259di?<\/p>\n

–Yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131 ana. \u00c7ox yorulmu\u015fam. Ancaq bu g\u00fcn \u00e7ox sevinmi\u0131\u0259m. N\u0259hay\u0259t, m\u0259n ata oldum, ana. Ekiz q\u0131zlar\u0131m oldu<\/p>\n

–\u00c7ox \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr bala. Adlar\u0131n\u0131 n\u0259 qoydun, F\u0259rid?<\/p>\n

–Z\u00fcleyxa v\u0259 M\u00fcn\u0259vv\u0259r<\/p>\n

–\u00c7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l. Sa\u011f ol bala. Ancaq \u00e7al\u0131\u015f ki, \u00f6z dilimizd\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fs\u0131nlar.<\/p>\n

–M\u00fctl\u0259q, ana. \u0130ki aydan sonra m\u0259zuniyy\u0259t\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131ram, s\u0259nin yan\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259m<\/p>\n

–\u0130n\u015fallah. B\u0259s u\u015faqlar?<\/p>\n

–Onlar\u0131n yan\u0131nda day\u0259, bir d\u0259 F\u0259r\u0259hin anas\u0131 var. Ana, s\u0259n indi evd\u0259s\u0259n?<\/p>\n

–H\u0259, qadan al\u0131m.<\/p>\n

–M\u0259n Canubi Amerikada olanda, orda konfransdayd\u0131m. M\u0259nim dostum R\u00fcf\u0259t Az\u0259rbaycana, G\u0259nc\u0259y\u0259 gedibmi\u015f. X\u0259b\u0259rim olmay\u0131b. O indi G\u0259nc\u0259d\u0259dir. Pandemiyaya g\u00f6r\u0259 bura qay\u0131da bilmir. M\u0259n ona z\u0259ng edib, xahi\u015f etdim ki s\u0259n\u0259 bir ayl\u0131q \u0259rzaq als\u0131n–\u0259t, toyuq, kolbasa, konservl\u0259r, s\u0259n xo\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n his\u0259 verilmi\u015f bal\u0131q, meyv\u0259 — t\u0259r\u0259v\u0259z, bir d\u0259 R\u00fcf\u0259t s\u0259n\u0259 300 dollar pul ver\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n

–Sa\u011f ol bala, z\u0259hm\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kdin.<\/p>\n

–Borcumdu, ana. M\u0259n s\u0259ni \u00e7ox isd\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

— Sa\u011f ol F\u0259rid.<\/p>\n

Bu an bir ki\u015fi qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b \u0259lind\u0259 ba\u011flamalar i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7di.<\/p>\n

–Salam ana. M\u0259n F\u0259ridin dostu R\u00fcf\u0259t\u0259m.<\/p>\n

–Xo\u015f g\u0259ldin o\u011ful. Z\u0259hm\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kdin.<\/p>\n

–He\u00e7 bir z\u0259hm\u0259ti yodur ana. R\u00fcf\u0259t \u0259lind\u0259ki ba\u011flamalar\u0131 v\u0259 z\u0259rfi masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoyub getdi.<\/p>\n

Z\u00fcleyxa a\u00e7\u0131q qap\u0131ya s\u00f6yk\u0259nib xeyli dayand\u0131. Qap\u0131dan d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n i\u015f\u0131q Faiqin v\u0259 \u201cQara kvadrat\u0131n\u201d \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Z\u00fcleyxaya bir an el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki \u201cQara kvadrat\u201d art\u0131q b\u0259yazla\u015fd\u0131. D\u0259rhal gec\u0259 g\u00f6rduy\u00fc yuxunu xat\u0131rlad\u0131. Yuxuda o a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. Onun g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 Malevi\u00e7in \u0259s\u0259rinin ust\u00fcn\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bu \u015f\u0259kil n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 Z\u00fcleyxan\u0131n \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259\u00a0 idi v\u0259 onun g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 \u015f\u0259kilin uz\u0259rin\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fckc\u0259 \u015f\u0259kil a\u011far\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

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