{"id":14114,"date":"2020-06-25T14:29:47","date_gmt":"2020-06-25T09:29:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=14114"},"modified":"2020-06-25T14:29:47","modified_gmt":"2020-06-25T09:29:47","slug":"q%c9%99rib-mehdi-sinmis-kart-video","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=14114","title":{"rendered":"Q\u0259rib Mehdi – “S\u0131nm\u0131\u015f kart” (video)"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"qerib<\/a>Ad\u0259t\u0259n, iki g\u00f6z\u0259llik bir yer\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcr. Ayda xan\u0131mdan is\u0259 Tanr\u0131 l\u00fctf\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259sirg\u0259m\u0259mi\u015f, onu h\u0259m g\u00f6z\u0259l, h\u0259m d\u0259 a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 yaratm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u015e\u00f6b\u0259nin ki\u015fi b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc ona heyran qal\u0131r, qad\u0131n qismi h\u0259s\u0259d apar\u0131rd\u0131. Bu iki silahdan hans\u0131 daha qabar\u0131q g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc? Q\u0259rar verm\u0259k \u00e7\u0259tindi. O, susanda g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi, dan\u0131\u015fanda biliyi, a\u011fl\u0131, z\u0259kas\u0131 \u00f6n\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. Qad\u0131nlar\u0131n \u00e7oxu \u00fczd\u0259 \u00f6zl\u0259rini ikinci s\u0131rada g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc etiraf etmir. Amma bu \u015f\u00f6b\u0259d\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n h\u0259r bir qad\u0131n\u0131n q\u0259lbinin d\u0259rinliyind\u0259n gizli bir arzu ke\u00e7irdi: “Ka\u015f Aydan\u0131n yerind\u0259 m\u0259n olayd\u0131m”. Ya\u015f\u0131ndan as\u0131l\u0131 olmayaraq h\u0259r bir ki\u015finin d\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yinin d\u0259rinliyind\u0259n bu arzunun \u0259ks t\u0259r\u0259fi ke\u00e7irdi: “Ka\u015f Ayda xan\u0131m m\u0259nim olayd\u0131”.<\/p>\n

Ayda xan\u0131m xasiyy\u0259tc\u0259 nikbin adam idi. O, \u0259trafdak\u0131lara da xo\u015f \u0259hval-ruhiyy\u0259 a\u015f\u0131lama\u011f\u0131 bacar\u0131rd\u0131. Ona olunan sor\u011fular\u0131 cavabs\u0131z buraxm\u0131r, g\u0259r\u0259kli m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259rini \u0259sirg\u0259mirdi.<\/p>\n

O, m\u00fctali\u0259ni sevirdi. Daim elmi y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fcn qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131na qal\u0131rd\u0131. Maraql\u0131 m\u0259qal\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 q\u0259zet v\u0259 jurnal s\u0259hif\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, televiziya kanallar\u0131 vaxta\u015f\u0131r\u0131 onu verili\u015fl\u0259rin\u0259 d\u0259v\u0259t edirdi. \u015e\u00f6b\u0259 m\u00fcdiri elmi m\u0259qal\u0259l\u0259rini, ed\u0259c\u0259yi m\u0259ruz\u0259l\u0259ri ona oxutdurur, qeydl\u0259rini n\u0259z\u0259r\u0259 al\u0131rd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcn d\u0259 elmi d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259si vard\u0131 – halaldan halal.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259d\u0259n kadr d\u0259yi\u015fikliyi ba\u015f verdi. G\u00fcnl\u0259rin birind\u0259 \u015f\u00f6b\u0259d\u0259n bir n\u0259f\u0259r getdi, onun yerin\u0259 ba\u015fqa bir n\u0259f\u0259r i\u015f\u0259 q\u0259bul olundu.<\/p>\n

Bu, ba\u015fqa bir n\u0259f\u0259r subayl\u0131q-sultanl\u0131q b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fcn yuxar\u0131 qat\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015fayan Cabir adl\u0131 bir o\u011flan idi. \u015e\u00f6b\u0259 \u0259sg\u0259ri xidm\u0259t\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131lanlar\u0131n h\u0259kim komissiyas\u0131n\u0131 and\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. “H\u0259kiml\u0259rin” s\u0131nay\u0131c\u0131 n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rind\u0259n ke\u00e7m\u0259k \u00e7ox vaxt aparmad\u0131. R\u0259y m\u00fcsb\u0259t oldu. Cabir boy-buxununa, sa\u011flaml\u0131\u011f\u0131na, elmi potensial\u0131na, tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131qlar\u0131 yerin\u0259 yetirm\u0259k bacar\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 xidm\u0259t\u0259 yararl\u0131 say\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n

Cabir v\u0259zif\u0259sini d\u0259 bildi, alaca\u011f\u0131 maa\u015f\u0131 da. Lakin g\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259d\u0259n d\u0259li bir hiss, buna “sevda” deyirl\u0259r, onun \u00e7iyinl\u0259rin\u0259 qazanc\u0131 \u0259zab olan bir v\u0259zif\u0259 d\u0259 qoydu. O, sanki na\u011f\u0131l d\u00fcnyas\u0131ndan g\u0259lmi\u015f kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n Ayda xan\u0131ma bir k\u00f6n\u00fcld\u0259n min k\u00f6n\u00fcl\u0259 a\u015fiq oldu.<\/p>\n

Bu sevgi Cabir\u0259 n\u0259 v\u0259d edirdi? Ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131, yoxsa, sad\u0259c\u0259, a\u015fiq-m\u0259\u015fuqluq? K\u0259sdir\u0259 bilmirdi.\u00a0 Sevgi duman\u0131 i\u00e7ind\u0259 yolunu itirmi\u015fdi. Birc\u0259 onu bilirdi ki, Ayda xan\u0131mla bir yerd\u0259 olmaq ist\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n

Ayda xan\u0131m da ki, ya he\u00e7 n\u0259yi g\u00f6rm\u00fcrd\u00fc, ya da h\u0259r \u015feyi g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. Ancaq o, \u0259vv\u0259lki t\u0259mkinini pozmur, \u015fahan\u0259 qad\u0131nl\u0131q q\u00fcrurunu qoruyurdu.<\/p>\n

Cabir bunu ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc. Sevgi sava\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u0259ks\u0259r\u0259n ki\u015fil\u0259r ba\u015flay\u0131r. Dem\u0259li, gec-tez s\u0259rh\u0259d pozulacaq v\u0259 Cabir bu c\u0259sar\u0259tli add\u0131m\u0131 atacaqd\u0131. K\u00f6n\u00fcl f\u0259thi onun ad\u0131na yaz\u0131lacaqd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Cabir c\u0259sar\u0259tl\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259 guya onu g\u00f6rm\u00fcr, ba\u015fqa qad\u0131nlara t\u0259rifi bol komplimentl\u0259r ya\u011fd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. T\u0259z\u0259, cavan i\u015f\u00e7inin diqq\u0259tini, m\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259tini y\u00fcks\u0259k qiym\u0259tl\u0259ndir\u0259n xan\u0131mlar qar\u015f\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 t\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcrl\u0259rini bildirir, h\u0259zz duy\u011fusu s\u0259mas\u0131nda qanad \u00e7al\u0131rd\u0131lar. Bel\u0259 hallarda kompliment ustas\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ucu il\u0259 d\u0259 olsun, at\u0259\u015find\u0259n yand\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259xluqa sar\u0131 baxm\u0131rd\u0131: “M\u0259ni yand\u0131ran\u0131 cavabs\u0131z qoymayaca\u011fam. M\u0259n d\u0259 onu “r\u0259qibl\u0259rini” qald\u0131rmaqla yand\u0131raca\u011fam. Yaz\u0131\u011fam ax\u0131, qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131q saxlas\u0131n, qoy m\u0259n d\u0259 add\u0131m at\u0131m”.<\/p>\n

Ayda xan\u0131m Cabir t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n ya\u011fd\u0131r\u0131lan bu xo\u015fniyy\u0259tli atmacalara \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259t vermirdi.<\/p>\n

Bir d\u0259f\u0259 t\u0259rif ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan sonra (qad\u0131nlar t\u0259rif ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan qorunmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7\u0259tir\u0259 ehtiyac duymurlar) Ayda xan\u0131m\u0131n yan\u0131ndan ke\u00e7\u0259n Cabir p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131 il\u0259 dedi:<\/p>\n

– Narahat olmay\u0131n, dedikl\u0259rimin he\u00e7 biri siz\u0259 aid deyil.<\/p>\n

Ayda ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b cavan o\u011flan\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259ri m\u00fcqabilind\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259di, sad\u0259c\u0259, mehribancas\u0131na g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcnd\u00fc. Bu dilsiz t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcn birc\u0259 m\u0259nas\u0131 vard\u0131: “Yalan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131b \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yorma, bilir\u0259m, deyil\u0259nl\u0259rin ham\u0131s\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 aiddir”.<\/p>\n

Cabir m\u0259qam d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 Ayda xan\u0131m\u0131 bir an i\u00e7ind\u0259 s\u00fcz\u00fcr v\u0259 bu an qad\u0131n b\u0259d\u0259ninin cazib\u0259si, uyarl\u0131 bi\u00e7imi onu tilsim\u0259 sal\u0131rd\u0131. Dodaqlar\u0131na \u015fir\u0259 axtaran ar\u0131 acg\u00f6zl\u00fcy\u00fc il\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131: “\u0130lahi, bu bal p\u0259t\u0259yinin tam\u0131na baxmaq m\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259sib olacaqm\u0131?”. Qad\u0131n hissiyyat\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u0259 bax\u2026 H\u0259min anda Ayda xan\u0131m dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259rp\u0259dirdi.<\/p>\n

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Pozalar insan g\u00f6z\u0259lliyinin s\u0259rgisidir. Ayda xan\u0131m oturanda g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Ayaq \u00fcst\u0259 duranda g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi bir az da art\u0131rd\u0131. Yeriy\u0259nd\u0259 dolu q\u0131\u00e7lar\u0131 tamam ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 Cabir eyhamla n\u0259yis\u0259 anlatmaq ist\u0259di:<\/p>\n

– M\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00fccl\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcc\u00fcl\u00fck qabiliyy\u0259ti var. Divar\u0131n bu t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n baxanda o t\u0259r\u0259fini g\u00f6r\u0259 bilir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– El\u0259mi?! – bu bir k\u0259lm\u0259 Ayda xan\u0131m\u0131n deyil\u0259n\u0259 reaksiyas\u0131 idi. Sonra daxili d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259mman\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131m\u0131 il\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful oldu: “O, paltar\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n baxsa da, \u00e7\u0131lpaq b\u0259d\u0259nimin nec\u0259liyini g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc n\u0259z\u0259rim\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131r. O, add\u0131m-add\u0131m ir\u0259lil\u0259yir. T\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131r. Onu s\u0131nd\u0131rmadan durdurmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r. Bird\u0259n m\u0259ni d\u0259 \u00f6z alovuna yand\u0131rar, k\u0259l\u0259fin dola\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7maq m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmaz”.<\/p>\n

Cabir hiss edirdi ki, onun Ayda xan\u0131ma m\u00fcnasib\u0259ti birt\u0259r\u0259flidir. Ancaq i\u015f yolda\u015f\u0131na olan sevgisini sakitl\u0259\u015fdir\u0259 bilmirdi. H\u0259m d\u0259 ona el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, y\u00fcks\u0259k keyfiyy\u0259tl\u0259r\u0259 malik olan bu g\u00f6z\u0259l xan\u0131m onun d\u0259y\u0259rini d\u0259qiq ver\u0259n bir b\u0259yl\u0259 \u00f6m\u00fcrda\u015f olmal\u0131d\u0131r. Bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259r olub ke\u00e7mi\u015f, h\u0259r \u015fey arxada qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Y\u0259qin, inc\u0259 z\u00f6vql\u00fc xan\u0131m \u00f6m\u00fcr sevdas\u0131nda s\u0259hv\u0259 yol verm\u0259mi\u015f, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 layiq yar se\u00e7mi\u015fdi. Cabir c\u0259hd ets\u0259 d\u0259, reall\u0131\u011f\u0131 q\u0259bul ed\u0259 bilmirdi. G\u00fclm\u0259li d\u0259 olsa, Aydan\u0131n ail\u0259li olmas\u0131 fikri il\u0259 bar\u0131\u015fm\u0131rd\u0131. Halbuki, ham\u0131 bilirdi ki, Ayda xan\u0131m\u0131n Vasif adl\u0131 \u0259ri, iki \u00f6vlad\u0131 vard\u0131. Qad\u0131n se\u00e7imind\u0259n, h\u0259yat\u0131ndan o q\u0259d\u0259r raz\u0131 idi ki, bu xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik, vaxt\u0131n onu ya\u015fl\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259sin\u0259 “icaz\u0259” vermirdi. Cabir bu halda da Aydan\u0131 q\u0131z kimi t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr edir, b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcn c\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 onu ancaq \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yara\u015fd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. O, Aydan\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xt ail\u0259si il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259n yay\u0131n\u0131r, d\u0259rhal ota\u011f\u0131 t\u0259rk edib bay\u0131ra \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. Beynind\u0259ki fikir k\u00fcl\u0259k s\u00fcr\u0259til\u0259 v\u0131y\u0131lday\u0131rd\u0131: “M\u0259n yalanlara inanm\u0131ram, s\u0259n subaysan. \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 s\u0259nin qap\u0131n\u0131n z\u0259ngini m\u0259nim el\u00e7il\u0259rim s\u0259sl\u0259ndir\u0259c\u0259k. Kim n\u0259 deyir-desin, onlar “h\u0259” cavab\u0131 il\u0259 geri qay\u0131dacaqlar. Bunu m\u0259n\u0259 s\u0259nin bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n deyir”.<\/p>\n

Cabir d\u00f6zm\u0259di, bir toy m\u0259rasimind\u0259 bunu Aydaya a\u00e7\u0131qca dedi. \u0130\u015f yolda\u015flar\u0131ndan birinin \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131n toy m\u0259clisi idi. \u015e\u00f6b\u0259 \u00fczvl\u0259rinin ham\u0131s\u0131 ail\u0259likc\u0259 m\u0259rasimd\u0259 i\u015ftirak edirdi. \u00c7al\u0131b-oynay\u0131r, \u015f\u0259nl\u0259nirdil\u0259r. Tamada qo\u015fa sa\u011fl\u0131qlar\u0131 bir-birinin ard\u0131nca d\u00fcz\u00fcrd\u00fc. Vasif m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259 Ayda xan\u0131m\u0131n \u015f\u0259r\u0259fin\u0259 deyil\u0259n sa\u011fl\u0131q daha t\u0259mt\u0259raql\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259ndi. Xo\u015fb\u0259xt c\u00fctl\u00fck r\u0259qs\u0259 d\u0259v\u0259t edildi. \u0130\u015f yolda\u015flar\u0131 da onlara qo\u015fuldu. \u00c7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 d\u0259 olsa, Cabir d\u0259 r\u0259qs ed\u0259n d\u0259st\u0259y\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130\u00e7kili idi. Yar\u0131ms\u0259rxo\u015flu\u011fu s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc dem\u0259y\u0259 ona k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259c\u0259kdi. F\u00fcrs\u0259tl\u0259yib el\u0259 r\u0259qs zaman\u0131, el\u0259 o gurultuda \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259ni Ayda xan\u0131ma dedi:<\/p>\n

– \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u0259 b\u00f6htan atmay\u0131n. Siz ail\u0259li deyilsiniz. Siz h\u0259l\u0259 \u0259r\u0259 getm\u0259misiniz. He\u00e7 d\u00fcnyaya u\u015faq da g\u0259tirm\u0259misiniz. Siz M\u0259ry\u0259m kimi bakir\u0259siniz. Sizin taleyiniz m\u0259niml\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131d\u0131r. He\u00e7 kim siz\u0259 m\u0259nim q\u0259d\u0259r d\u00fcr\u00fcst qiym\u0259t ver\u0259 bilm\u0259z. Fikrinizi bilm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Cabiri \u015f\u0259rab dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131, yoxsa Ayda xan\u0131ma b\u0259sl\u0259diyi d\u0259li sevda?! C\u0259sar\u0259t\u0259 bax!.. Bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri dilin\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259kl\u0259 o, sanki g\u00f6yd\u0259 G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi dan\u0131rd\u0131. Ayda xan\u0131m bu m\u0259cnunlu\u011fu nec\u0259 yoluna qoyacaqd\u0131? \u00c7ox \u00e7\u0259km\u0259z bilin\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Ayda xan\u0131m oynaya-oynaya vur\u011fununa dedi:<\/p>\n

– Ham\u0131 oynay\u0131r. Siz d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 oynay\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z\u2026<\/p>\n

Musiqi ara verdi. R\u0259qs ed\u0259nl\u0259r dayand\u0131lar. Ayda xan\u0131m sakitlikd\u0259n istifad\u0259 edib Cabiri \u0259rin\u0259 t\u0259qdim etdi. Xan\u0131m\u0131ndan xeyli ya\u015fl\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n Vasif m\u00fc\u0259llim bu tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131qdan m\u0259mnun oldu\u011funu bildirdi:<\/p>\n

– Tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131za \u015fadam. Ayda xan\u0131m sizin yax\u015f\u0131 i\u015f\u00e7i oldu\u011funuz bar\u0259d\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259k dolusu dan\u0131\u015f\u0131b. M\u0259n ona inand\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn sizi \u00f6z\u00fcm \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn t\u0259rtib etdiyim yax\u015f\u0131 insanlar siyah\u0131s\u0131na daxil edir\u0259m. Subay oldu\u011funuzdan da x\u0259b\u0259rim var. Evl\u0259nm\u0259k fikrin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fs\u0259niz, Ayda xan\u0131mla birlikd\u0259 sizin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn el\u00e7i getm\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131r\u0131q.<\/p>\n

\u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n Cabir qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131na qald\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn Vasif m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259 t\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fc bildirib c\u0259ld onlardan ayr\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ayda q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259sini qeydiyyatdan ke\u00e7ird\u0259n qad\u0131nlardan deyildi. Onu ist\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259r d\u0259, gizlinc\u0259 q\u0131sqancl\u0131q hissin\u0259 qap\u0131lanlar da Ayda xan\u0131m\u0131n ki\u00e7ik kollektiv\u0259 q\u0259lbl\u0259ri ox\u015fayan, qaranl\u0131qlar\u0131 qa\u00e7\u0131ran enerjisind\u0259n faydalan\u0131rd\u0131lar. O, \u015f\u00f6b\u0259nin t\u0259m\u0259nnas\u0131z i\u015f\u0131q sa\u00e7an g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi idi. \u00c7ox \u00e7\u0259km\u0259di bu g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc tez-tez qara buludlar alma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Ayda xan\u0131m d\u0259rdini payla\u015fma\u011f\u0131 sevmirdi. O, bacard\u0131qca bu a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fck\u00fcn alt\u0131na t\u0259k girm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. Ancaq ail\u0259d\u0259 q\u0259fl\u0259t\u0259n ba\u015f ver\u0259nl\u0259r onun d\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc s\u0131na\u011fa \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Art\u0131q onun \u00e7\u0259m\u0259nzara b\u0259nz\u0259y\u0259n sif\u0259tin\u0259 q\u0259m q\u0131rovu ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. Bu ya\u011f\u0131mda qara da \u00e7evrilm\u0259k, buza da d\u00f6nm\u0259k g\u00fcman\u0131 vard\u0131. Bu d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259 ham\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda ba\u015f verirdi. Ba\u015f ver\u0259n d\u0259yi\u015fikliy\u0259 etinas\u0131z qala bilmirdil\u0259r. Cabirin sev\u0259n q\u0259lbi is\u0259 bir h\u0259y\u0259can pill\u0259sind\u0259n dig\u0259r h\u0259y\u0259can pill\u0259sin\u0259 atlan\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ayda xan\u0131m daha sirrin qorunmas\u0131n\u0131 faydas\u0131z sand\u0131, ail\u0259nin \u00fczl\u0259\u015fdiyi xo\u015fag\u0259lm\u0259z hal haqq\u0131nda m\u0259lumat s\u0131zd\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fri Vasif m\u00fc\u0259llim \u00fcr\u0259k x\u0259st\u0259liyin\u0259 m\u00fcbt\u0259la olmu\u015fdu. H\u0259kiml\u0259rin yekdil r\u0259yin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, o, m\u00fctl\u0259q c\u0259rrahiyy\u0259 \u0259m\u0259liyyat\u0131ndan ke\u00e7m\u0259liydi.<\/p>\n

Cabir dondan-dona girm\u0259yi bacarm\u0131rd\u0131. O, aral\u0131q say\u0131lacaq bir m\u00f6vqe tutmu\u015fdu. N\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259n\u0259n kimi k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259n\u0259, n\u0259 sevin\u0259n kimi sevin\u0259 bilirdi. Mane\u0259nin aradan qalxma\u011f\u0131 onda m\u0259qs\u0259din\u0259 asan \u00e7atmaq \u00fcmidi yarad\u0131rd\u0131. O, g\u0259lm\u0259kd\u0259 olan \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n Ayda xan\u0131ma do\u011fru \u0259l uzad\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259ti, v\u00fcsala \u00e7atmaq arzusu onu insanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n dar dalan\u0131na do\u011fru it\u0259l\u0259yirdi. Bu dalan\u0131n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259ri olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 da yox idi. Cabir hiss edirdi ki, bu, insani yol deyil. \u018fsl a\u015fiql\u0259r bu yolun yol\u00e7usu olmurlar. Ham\u0131 r\u0259qibi il\u0259, Cabir is\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 g\u00fcl\u0259\u015firdi. \u018fb\u0259s yer\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qalib g\u0259lm\u0259yi \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 saym\u0131rlar. O bunu bacaracaqd\u0131m\u0131?<\/p>\n

Yerli h\u0259kiml\u0259r Vasif m\u00fc\u0259llimin \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 c\u0259rrahiyy\u0259 \u0259m\u0259liyyat\u0131 apard\u0131lar. \u018fm\u0259liyyat u\u011furla n\u0259tic\u0259l\u0259ndi. Ayda xan\u0131m\u0131n g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi yenid\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131. \u0130\u015f yolda\u015flar\u0131 d\u0259st\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fcb x\u0259st\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 getdil\u0259r. Cabirin t\u0259kl\u0259nib d\u0259st\u0259l\u0259ri t\u0259rk etm\u0259yi yolda\u015flarda \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259 oyadard\u0131. Bu \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259 olmas\u0131n dey\u0259 o, var g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc toplay\u0131b Vasif m\u00fc\u0259llimi yoluxma\u011fa ged\u0259n d\u0259st\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n birin\u0259 qo\u015fuldu. Hiss etdi ki, Ayda xan\u0131m da onun h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tind\u0259n raz\u0131 qal\u0131b. Vasif m\u00fc\u0259llim d\u0259 onu g\u00f6r\u00fcb sevindi. H\u0259tta \u0259vv\u0259lki v\u0259dini yada sald\u0131:<\/p>\n

– Bir subay\u0131n\u0131z var, onu evl\u0259ndirm\u0259yin qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131na qalm\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z. Aya\u011fa duran kimi Ayda xan\u0131m\u0131 da yan\u0131ma al\u0131b el\u00e7ilik missiyam\u0131za ba\u015flayaca\u011f\u0131q. Bel\u0259 olmaz ax\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

Arzulananlar, dualar h\u0259kiml\u0259rin z\u0259hm\u0259tin\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259k verirdi. Tanr\u0131n\u0131n da fikri xo\u015fniyy\u0259tli oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn getdikc\u0259 Vasif m\u00fc\u0259llimin v\u0259ziyy\u0259ti yax\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259kiml\u0259rin dedikl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, daha bir ay ke\u00e7\u0259c\u0259k, Vasif m\u00fc\u0259llim i\u015f yerin\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131b v\u0259zif\u0259sini u\u011furla davam etdir\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n

Bird\u0259n \u015f\u00f6b\u0259d\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259z bir hadis\u0259 ba\u015f verdi. H\u0259r\u0259 \u00f6z i\u015fi il\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful ik\u0259n Ayda xan\u0131m\u0131n k\u00f6m\u0259k uman n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259ri bir-bir i\u015f yolda\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczl\u0259rind\u0259 g\u0259zdi. H\u0259min g\u00fcn ki\u00e7ik kollektivin kefi k\u00f6k idi. Maa\u015flar\u0131 \u00fcnvanlara k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcr\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u0130\u015fd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xan kimi bankomatdan pullar\u0131n\u0131 ala bil\u0259c\u0259kdil\u0259r. Ayda xan\u0131m yolda\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n maa\u015fla ba\u011fl\u0131 sevincl\u0259rin\u0259 qo\u015fula bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi. O, \u0259lind\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 tutmu\u015fdu. Nigaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 o saat hiss etdil\u0259r. Kims\u0259 qaba\u011fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcn\u00fcn s\u0259b\u0259bini soru\u015fdu:<\/p>\n

– Ayda xan\u0131m, itkiy\u0259 m\u0259ruz qalm\u0131\u015f adama ox\u015fay\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z. Yoxsa, xo\u015faglm\u0259z bir hadis\u0259 ba\u015f verib?<\/p>\n

– H\u0259, ba\u015f verib, – dey\u0259 Ayda xan\u0131m sa\u011f \u0259lini ir\u0259li uzatd\u0131, b\u00fck\u00fcl\u00fc ovcunu a\u00e7d\u0131. Orada ikiy\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f maa\u015f kart\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

– Niy\u0259 kart\u0131 bu hala sal\u0131bs\u0131n\u0131z?<\/p>\n

Ayda xan\u0131m ba\u015f ver\u0259ni oldu\u011fu kimi dil\u0259 g\u0259tirdi:<\/p>\n

– \u018fyilib Vasifin ayaqqab\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n ba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131m. Bir d\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm bir \u015fey “x\u0131rt” el\u0259di. Yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Maa\u015f kart\u0131m\u0131 xalat\u0131m\u0131n cibin\u0259 qoymu\u015fdum. \u018flimi at\u0131b g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm. G\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, \u0259yil\u0259nd\u0259 kart t\u0259zyiq\u0259 d\u00f6zm\u0259yib yar\u0131 b\u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fcb. \u0130ndi nec\u0259 olacaq? Hans\u0131 bank onu yenil\u0259\u015fdir\u0259c\u0259k? Do\u011frusu, bunu bilmir\u0259m. Pula ehtiyac\u0131m\u0131z var. S\u0131radan \u00e7\u0131xan kart i\u015fini kim tezlikl\u0259 yoluna qoya bil\u0259r?<\/p>\n

Kollektivin \u0259n cavan i\u015f\u00e7isi Cabir idi. Qeyri-ixtiyari olaraq ham\u0131 Cabirin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131. Cabir buna haz\u0131r kimi dill\u0259ndi. Bu dill\u0259ntid\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259fin g\u00f6zl\u0259diyi m\u0259tl\u0259bd\u0259n – kart d\u0259yi\u015film\u0259sind\u0259n he\u00e7 bir \u0259s\u0259r-\u0259lam\u0259t yox idi:<\/p>\n

– Siz Vasif m\u00fc\u0259llimin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda \u0259yilmi\u015fdiniz?<\/p>\n

\u00c7oxbilmi\u015f Ayda xan\u0131m Cabirin s\u00f6zl\u0259rini n\u0259yis\u0259 ayd\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131racaq adi sual kimi q\u0259bul etdi:<\/p>\n

– H\u0259, m\u0259n onun ayaqqab\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u2026<\/p>\n

Cabir \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 ala bilm\u0259di, kobudlu\u011fa yol verib Ayda xan\u0131m\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259sdi:<\/p>\n

– Lap el\u0259 olsun ayaqqab\u0131 ba\u011flamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. M\u0259n buna texniki m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 dey\u0259rdim. Sizin kimi y\u00fcks\u0259kd\u0259 q\u0259rar tutan bir qad\u0131n\u2026 – s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn gerisini zorla saxlad\u0131. O, Ayda xan\u0131ma \u00e7atd\u0131rmaq ist\u0259yirdi ki: “ham\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131n\u0131zda \u0259yilm\u0259li ik\u0259n, siz bir ayaqqab\u0131dan \u00f6tr\u00fc nec\u0259 olur ki, ayaqlara q\u0259d\u0259r enir, \u0259yilirsiniz? Buna he\u00e7 kim, he\u00e7 bir v\u0259chl\u0259 raz\u0131 olmamal\u0131d\u0131r”. Bax bunlar\u0131 dey\u0259 bilm\u0259di h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 a\u015fiqliyind\u0259n \u0259l \u00e7\u0259k\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259n Cabir.<\/p>\n

Ayda xan\u0131m sakit ah\u0259ngl\u0259 sev\u0259n co\u015fqu dolu q\u0259lbin havas\u0131n\u0131 alma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131:<\/p>\n

– \u018fvv\u0259la, x\u0259st\u0259 \u0259rimin qullu\u011funda dayanmaq h\u0259r bir h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 kimi m\u0259nim v\u0259zif\u0259 borcumdan \u00e7ox, v\u0259fa borcumdur. O, u\u015faqlar\u0131m\u0131n atas\u0131, m\u0259nims\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n tac\u0131d\u0131r. Bu tacidar b\u00fct\u00fcn m\u0259nalarda m\u0259ni he\u00e7 vaxt \u0259yilm\u0259y\u0259 qoymay\u0131b. Bu g\u00fcn a\u011f\u0131r v\u0259ziyy\u0259tind\u0259 onun xidm\u0259tind\u0259 durmaqdan – \u0259yilib, ayaqqab\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flamaqdan \u015f\u0259r\u0259f duyuram. M\u0259n\u0259 \u0259yilm\u0259y\u0259 imkan verm\u0259y\u0259nin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda \u0259yilm\u0259k n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 xo\u015fdur! Z\u0259nnimc\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259r ver\u0259n h\u0259r bir ail\u0259li qad\u0131n m\u0259nim m\u00f6vqeyimi payla\u015far.<\/p>\n

B\u0259s kart m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259si nec\u0259 olsun? Q\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f kart m\u0259n\u0259viyyat d\u0259rsini ke\u00e7ib i\u015fini ba\u015fa vurmu\u015fdu. \u0130ndi qal\u0131rd\u0131 texniki c\u0259h\u0259td\u0259n onu \u0259v\u0259zl\u0259m\u0259k. Bunu ham\u0131 Cabird\u0259n umurdu. Sevgi rinqind\u0259 m\u0259\u011flub olmu\u015f Cabiri s\u0131nm\u0131\u015f kartdan \u00e7ox, s\u0131nm\u0131\u015f \u00f6z\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc: “\u015eam\u0131n p\u0259rvan\u0259si \u00e7ox olur. Onlardan biri d\u0259 m\u0259n. Dem\u0259li, Ayda xan\u0131m\u0131 m\u0259nd\u0259n (bizd\u0259n) d\u0259 \u00e7ox sev\u0259n, y\u00fcks\u0259k tutan varm\u0131\u015f. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 o, Vasif m\u00fc\u0259llimi he\u00e7 kim\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fmir”. O, aya\u011fa durub ir\u0259li add\u0131m atd\u0131 v\u0259 s\u0259sl\u0259ndi:<\/p>\n

– Ota\u011f\u0131n havas\u0131 \u00e7ox a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131r. M\u0259n t\u0259miz havaya \u00e7\u0131x\u0131ram. Kart\u0131 da m\u0259n\u0259 verin g\u00f6r\u0259k n\u0259 edirik.<\/p>\n

G\u0259nc\u0259, 15-18 iyun 2018<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0M\u0259nb\u0259: “\u018fd\u0259biyyat q\u0259zeti”<\/p>\n