{"id":15681,"date":"2020-07-01T13:56:25","date_gmt":"2020-07-01T08:56:25","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=15681"},"modified":"2020-07-01T13:56:25","modified_gmt":"2020-07-01T08:56:25","slug":"aynur-masimovat%c9%99mkin-bir-h%c9%99yat-hekay%c9%99si","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=15681","title":{"rendered":"Aynur Masimova(T\u0259mkin) &#8211; &#8220;Bir h\u0259yat hekay\u0259si&#8221;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/kultur.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/06\/106093961_3632010576812594_3135517810024660122_o-e1593263013236.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignleft size-medium wp-image-14130\" src=\"http:\/\/kultur.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/06\/106093961_3632010576812594_3135517810024660122_o-e1593263013236-300x276.jpg\" alt=\"106093961_3632010576812594_3135517810024660122_o\" width=\"300\" height=\"276\" \/><\/a>(hekay\u0259)<\/p>\n<p>Bir zamanlar n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 v\u0259 c\u0259zbediciydi.Bir zamanlar indi baxma\u011fa qorxdu\u011fu \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 nec\u0259 m\u0259ftunluqla tama\u015fa edirdi.Bir zamanlar alma yanaqlar\u0131na,badam\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 ,g\u00f6z\u0259l \u0259ndam\u0131na qad\u0131nlar bel\u0259 heyranl\u0131qla ,q\u0131sqan\u00e7l\u0131qla baxard\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130ndi sur\u0259tl\u0259 qocalan \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259sind\u0259 bayaqk\u0131 g\u00f6z\u0259llikd\u0259n yaln\u0131z badam\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259ri qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.\u018fn \u00e7ox qorxdu\u011fu amans\u0131z x\u0259st\u0259lik onun \u0259n xo\u015f hissl\u0259rini,ya\u015fama \u00fcmidl\u0259rini \u0259lind\u0259n alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.O yaln\u0131z analiz cavablar\u0131n\u0131 ald\u0131qda h\u0259yat\u0131n n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259l oldu\u011funu ,g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin yeri-yurdu nec\u0259 h\u0259rar\u0259tl\u0259 isitdiyini ,h\u0259r d\u0259qiq\u0259nin qiym\u0259tli oldu\u011funu anlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.Ki\u00e7ik t\u0259sad\u00fcfl\u0259 n\u0259y\u0259 d\u00fc\u00e7ar oldu\u011funu \u00f6yr\u0259ndikd\u0259 o an,o d\u0259qiq\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey m\u0259hv olmu\u015fdu.Sabaha -g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259 olan \u00fcmidl\u0259ri s\u00f6n\u0259r\u0259k \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra x\u0131rda bir k\u00f6z buraxm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.V\u0259 h\u0259min an qoca anas\u0131na,\u00fc\u00e7 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n hal\u0131na yanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.He\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilmirdi s\u0259b\u0259bini ,amma i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u0259rin\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 m\u0259na ver\u0259 bilm\u0259diyi bir nifr\u0259t yaranaraq b\u0259d\u0259nini \u00e7ul\u011falam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.\u00dcsyan etmi\u015fdi ,a\u011flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.Anas\u0131ndan ,q\u0131zlar\u0131ndan gizl\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k d\u0259rdini i\u00e7ind\u0259 saxlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.O, h\u0259yatdan doymam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.Amma amans\u0131z f\u0259l\u0259k b\u0259xtin\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm f\u0259rman\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7oxdan bel\u0259 yazm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.Son \u00fcmidi -k\u00fcl i\u00e7ind\u0259 k\u00f6z\u0259r\u0259n k\u00f6z d\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259ki h\u0259kiml\u0259rin r\u0259yind\u0259n sonra tamamil\u0259 s\u00f6n\u00fcb yox olmu\u015fdu.X\u0259z\u0259rin sahilind\u0259 f\u0259ryad edib o ki var a\u011flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.S\u0259si g\u0259ldikc\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131rmaq,d\u00fcnyan\u0131 m\u0259hv\u0259rind\u0259n qopartmaq ist\u0259mi\u015fdi.G\u00fcl\u0259n \u00fczl\u0259ri,sev\u0259n g\u0259ncl\u0259ri ,n\u0259v\u0259sini g\u0259zdir\u0259n n\u0259n\u0259l\u0259ri g\u00f6rd\u00fckd\u0259 i\u00e7ini yand\u0131ran d\u0259rdi can\u0131n\u0131 bir az da yand\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.N\u0259 demi\u015fdil\u0259rs\u0259 ,etmi\u015fdi.Ancaq son n\u0259tic\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n sonra bir \u00fcmid qalmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tam \u00e7\u0131lpaql\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 anlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>\u0130nsana oturub \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259k b\u0259lk\u0259 a\u011f\u0131rdan da a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.O ,aylar\u0131,g\u00fcnl\u0259ri,h\u0259ft\u0259l\u0259ri ,saat v\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259ri say\u0131r v\u0259 h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 i\u00e7ind\u0259 yeni v\u0259 yeni ba\u011flar\u0131n qopdu\u011funu ,heyinin get-ged\u0259 z\u0259ifl\u0259diyini hiss edirdi.B\u0259z\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259k ,bu fiziki v\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259vi a\u011fr\u0131dan qurtarmaq ist\u0259yir,ancaq q\u0131zlar\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259zlum bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 \u0259l-qolunu bo\u015fald\u0131r ,onlar\u0131 bir az da art\u0131q g\u00f6r\u0259r\u0259k qoxular\u0131n\u0131 ruhuna hopdurmaq ist\u0259yirdi.Doymam\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki ,\u00f6vlad \u0259trind\u0259n ,ana n\u0259vazi\u015find\u0259n .<\/p>\n<p>Gec\u0259l\u0259r h\u0259r dey\u0259n yuxu tapmaz,\u0259g\u0259r yuxlayard\u0131sa da \u00f6l\u00fcm qorxusuyla h\u00f6vlank ay\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131.\u00d6m\u00fcr adl\u0131 bir hissl\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm adl\u0131 \u0259zab\u0131n aras\u0131nda m\u0259saf\u0259l\u0259r q\u0131sald\u0131qca ya\u015fama\u011fa h\u0259v\u0259si daha da \u00e7oxal\u0131rd\u0131.O indi di\u015fiyl\u0259-d\u0131rna\u011f\u0131yla h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 tutunaraq \u00f6lm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi.B\u0259z\u0259n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na \u00e7\u0131xan h\u0259r h\u0259kimd\u0259n yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b ,&#8221;m\u0259ni \u00f6lm\u0259y\u0259 qoymay\u0131n&#8221;-dey\u0259 yalvarmaq ist\u0259yirdi.H\u0259r gec\u0259 bir m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259 olmas\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yaradana dua edirdi.Amma yox&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Zaman yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.Bar\u0131\u015fmal\u0131 olmu\u015fdu q\u0259d\u0259riyl\u0259.Bir zaman \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 insanlarla bir arada olma\u011fa c\u0259hd g\u00f6st\u0259rir,xeyr\u0259 -\u015f\u0259r\u0259 gedirdi.<\/p>\n<p>G\u00fccl\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259s ala-ala son borcunu verm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn add\u0131mlay\u0131rd\u0131.D\u00fcnyan\u0131n ki borc deyilmi?<\/p>\n<p>Dey\u0259n-g\u00fcl\u0259n h\u0259r k\u0259s donub qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.Qar\u015f\u0131lar\u0131ndak\u0131n\u0131n o oldu\u011funu anlad\u0131qda tik\u0259l\u0259r bo\u011fazda qalaraq h\u0259r k\u0259si m\u0259yus etmi\u015fdi.Bir-iki ay bundan \u00f6nc\u0259 insanlar\u0131 m\u0259ftun ed\u0259n o g\u00f6z\u0259l qad\u0131n\u0131n b\u0259nizi a\u011farm\u0131\u015f,vicudu \u0259yilmi\u015fdi.G\u00fccl\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259sini d\u0259rdi.Bu i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 ,b\u00f6y\u00fck zal\u0131n \u00e7il\u00e7\u0131raqlar\u0131ndan s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcb g\u0259l\u0259n nur art\u0131q ona he\u00e7 n\u0259 demirdi.P\u0259h-p\u0259hl\u0259 yeyil\u0259n yem\u0259kl\u0259r onda i\u015ftah yaratm\u0131rd\u0131.Bir zamanlar s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n o \u015faqraq musiqil\u0259r beynin\u0259,ruhuna t\u0259sir etmirdi.Bu deyib -g\u00fcl\u0259n insanlar tamamil\u0259 ona yad idil\u0259r.Onun a\u011fr\u0131 -ac\u0131s\u0131ndan bix\u0259b\u0259r idil\u0259r.<\/p>\n<p>O is\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yer\u0259 zill\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k x\u0259yallar\u0131yla vuru\u015furdu.Yaln\u0131z b\u0259yl\u0259-g\u0259lin zala daxil olduqda s\u00f6vq-t\u0259bii ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131rd\u0131.&#8221;Allah qo\u015fa qar\u0131ts\u0131n ,bir yast\u0131qda qocals\u0131nlar.Allah vaxts\u0131z ayr\u0131l\u0131qla,\u00e7ar\u0259siz x\u0259st\u0259likl\u0259 onlar\u0131 s\u0131namas\u0131n&#8221;-dey\u0259 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131.Niy\u0259 &#8220;Allah xo\u015fb\u0259xt etsin &#8220;\u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 &#8220;bir yast\u0131qda qocals\u0131nlar&#8221; &#8220;dedi?Niy\u0259?Niy\u0259?-dey\u0259 \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc sual ya\u011fd\u0131rd\u0131.Niy\u0259 d\u0259 yox.M\u0259g\u0259r bu onun \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck arzusu deyildimi?Onun arzular\u0131,\u00fcmidl\u0259ri yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.\u0130st\u0259mirdi daha kims\u0259 \u00f6m\u00fcr yolunda yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q qals\u0131n.<\/p>\n<p>Zorla aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131.Son d\u0259f\u0259 az -\u00e7ox tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u0259r k\u0259s\u0259 bir t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm b\u0259x\u015f ed\u0259r\u0259k ,hafiz\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 d\u0259rin iz buraxaraq \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getdi.<\/p>\n<p>Lakin he\u00e7 k\u0259s o t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcn arxas\u0131nda gizl\u0259n\u0259n \u00fcmidsiz g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259 bilm\u0259di.Qad\u0131n kirpikl\u0259rin\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131b qalan g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 i\u00e7ind\u0259 salonu t\u0259rk etdi.V\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn sonra qorxusunu ke\u00e7irtdiyi \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 qucaq a\u00e7araq ,onunla \u00e7arpazla\u015faraq doymad\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u0259yata vida etdi.Bir \u015fey\u0259 t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcfl\u0259ndi.S\u0259n dem\u0259 \u00f6m\u00fcr \u00e7ox q\u0131sa ,amma cox da \u015firinmi\u015f.V\u0259 o ,bu \u015firinliyi h\u0259r add\u0131mda ac\u0131ya \u00e7evir\u0259r\u0259k tanr\u0131n\u0131n \u0259man\u0259t verdiyi h\u0259yat\u0131 bo\u015funa h\u0259d\u0259r edibmi\u015f.B\u0259z\u0259n bitir\u0259 bilm\u0259diyi aylar ,ill\u0259r,saatlar bir d\u0259qiq\u0259d\u0259 ,bir anda q\u0131salaraq \u0259ld\u0259n ged\u0259 bilirmi\u015f.<\/p>\n<p class=\"bawpvc-ajax-counter\" data-id=\"15681\">Yaz\u0131ya 442 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>(hekay\u0259) Bir zamanlar n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 v\u0259 c\u0259zbediciydi.Bir zamanlar indi baxma\u011fa qorxdu\u011fu \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 nec\u0259 m\u0259ftunluqla tama\u015fa edirdi.Bir zamanlar alma yanaqlar\u0131na,badam\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 ,g\u00f6z\u0259l \u0259ndam\u0131na qad\u0131nlar bel\u0259 heyranl\u0131qla ,q\u0131sqan\u00e7l\u0131qla baxard\u0131. \u0130ndi sur\u0259tl\u0259 qocalan \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259sind\u0259 bayaqk\u0131 g\u00f6z\u0259llikd\u0259n yaln\u0131z badam\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259ri qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.\u018fn \u00e7ox qorxdu\u011fu amans\u0131z x\u0259st\u0259lik onun \u0259n xo\u015f hissl\u0259rini,ya\u015fama \u00fcmidl\u0259rini \u0259lind\u0259n alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.O yaln\u0131z analiz cavablar\u0131n\u0131 ald\u0131qda h\u0259yat\u0131n n\u0259 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