{"id":15832,"date":"2020-07-21T17:54:30","date_gmt":"2020-07-21T12:54:30","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=15832"},"modified":"2020-07-21T17:54:30","modified_gmt":"2020-07-21T12:54:30","slug":"nihat-piriyev-vicdan-s%c9%99sli-hekay%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=15832","title":{"rendered":"Nihat Piriyev – Vicdan (s\u0259sli hekay\u0259)"},"content":{"rendered":"
\"nihat<\/a>…gec\u0259 saat iki olmas\u0131na r\u0259\u011fm\u0259n G\u00fcl\u0259r h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 yerind\u0259 narahat bir \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 o yan-bu yana qurcalan\u0131r, he\u00e7 c\u00fcr rahatl\u0131q tapa bilmirdi. Bayaqdan b\u0259ri g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc dikdiyi ay da art\u0131q p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015fdi. \u018fslind\u0259, \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi bu m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259y\u0259. U\u015faqlar\u0131 rahatlay\u0131b, saatlarla p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 dikilm\u0259y\u0259, b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fcn, b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6mr\u00fcn m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259sini h\u0259r gec\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn t\u0259krar-t\u0259krar d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259tmi\u015fdi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc. He\u00e7 bir m\u0259nas\u0131 olmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bil\u0259-bil\u0259. Bu minvalla n\u0259 az n\u0259 \u00e7ox, d\u00fcz\u00a0 be\u015f il \u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. V\u0259 bu be\u015f il\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131 s\u0131\u011fd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki… T\u0259kba\u015f\u0131na birc\u0259-birc\u0259 atlatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 o qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131.<\/div>\n
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H\u0259y\u0259t qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259sinin e\u015fidilm\u0259si narahat simas\u0131nda \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n asl\u0131 olmadan q\u0259rib\u0259 bir rahatl\u0131q yaratd\u0131. Yata\u011f\u0131ndan qalx\u0131b, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 boyland\u0131. Hikm\u0259t divardan tuta-tuta yar\u0131 ixtiyari, yar\u0131 qeyri-ixtiyari s\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259y\u0259-s\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 ev\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f g\u0259lirdi. G\u00fcl\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bu m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259 d\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f idi. G\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 ev\u0259 gec saatda g\u0259lm\u0259si, g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 bu \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259si onu daha t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndirmirdi. D\u00fcz be\u015f ildir ki, davam ed\u0259n bu evlilik iki u\u015faq xaricind\u0259 bu v\u0259 bunun kimi s\u0259b\u0259bl\u0259rd\u0259n dolay\u0131 sad\u0259c\u0259 ka\u011f\u0131z \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259t k\u0259sb edirdi. V\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 g\u00f6z yummas\u0131na, susmas\u0131na da s\u0259b\u0259b el\u0259 m\u0259hz o iki u\u015faq idi. Fuad v\u0259 D\u0259niz.<\/div>\n
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\u00dc\u015f\u00fcm\u0259sin dey\u0259 \u00e7iynin\u0259 y\u00fcng\u00fcl bir \u015fey at\u0131b, d\u0259hliz\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/div>\n
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– yen\u0259 i\u00e7mis\u0259n, h\u0259? He\u00e7 olmasa u\u015faqlar\u0131 fikirl\u0259\u015f, Fuad 1-\u0259 kimi s\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259yib…<\/div>\n
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G\u00fcl\u0259ri e\u015fitm\u0259zd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n Hikm\u0259t ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bulaya-bulaya birt\u0259h\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc hamama sald\u0131. V\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi hamam\u0131n divar\u0131ndan as\u0131lan d\u0259yi\u015fik paltarlar\u0131, m\u0259hr\u0259bas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb, bundan m\u0259mnunluq duyar \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rtd\u00fc. G\u00fcl\u0259r is\u0259 art\u0131q n\u0259s\u0259 dem\u0259yin m\u0259nas\u0131z oldu\u011funu ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, yenid\u0259n yataq ota\u011f\u0131na qay\u0131td\u0131. Hikm\u0259tin hamamdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, divandaca yuxuya ged\u0259c\u0259yini bilirdi.<\/div>\n
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Hikm\u0259t \u00fc\u00e7 qarda\u015fdan \u0259n ki\u00e7iyi idi. B\u00f6y\u00fck qarda\u015flar\u0131 ali t\u0259hsil alsalar da onun oxuma\u011fa mara\u011f\u0131 az idi. Atas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259-i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259 art\u0131q orta m\u0259kt\u0259bi bitir\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131n i\u015fin tamam\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259nims\u0259mi\u015fdi. Z\u0259rg\u0259r idi atas\u0131. Hikm\u0259tin s\u0259n\u0259t\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rdiyi h\u0259dsiz maraq atas\u0131n\u0131 onu oxutmaq sevdas\u0131ndan d\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259 bilmi\u015fdi. Tezlikl\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin \u0259sas t\u0259labatl\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131l ma\u011fazalar\u0131ndan t\u0259klif alan Hikm\u0259t i\u015fini biznes\u0259 \u00e7evirm\u0259yi bacard\u0131. G\u00fcl\u0259ri Hikm\u0259t\u0259 atas\u0131 m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t bilmi\u015f v\u0259 o da s\u0131rf atas\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 4 il m\u00fcnasib\u0259td\u0259 oldu\u011fu N\u0259rminl\u0259 ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 atas\u0131na qar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xmaq ist\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259 xeyri olmam\u0131\u015f v\u0259 n\u0259tic\u0259d\u0259 G\u00fcl\u0259rl\u0259 evl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259cbur olmu\u015fdu.<\/div>\n
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Hikm\u0259td\u0259n f\u0259rqli olaraq, G\u00fcl\u0259r bir h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 kimi v\u0259zif\u0259l\u0259rini layiqinc\u0259 yerin\u0259 yetirir, Hikm\u0259tin ona qar\u015f\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn etinas\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6z yumurdu. \u00c7\u00fcnki art\u0131q o, qad\u0131n olmaqla yana\u015f\u0131, h\u0259m d\u0259 bir ana idi, h\u0259m d\u0259 bir valideyn idi. Bu valideynlik m\u0259suliyy\u0259tini, \u0259slind\u0259, Hikm\u0259t d\u0259 d\u0259rk edirdi, amma o, G\u00fcl\u0259r\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 he\u00e7 n\u0259 hiss etmirdi. He\u00e7 n\u0259. H\u0259tta h\u00f6rm\u0259t hissi d\u0259 yava\u015f-yava\u015f aradan qalxma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131. Ki bunu h\u0259r g\u00fcn k\u00f6yn\u0259yind\u0259 qalan dodaq boyas\u0131, ya da f\u0259rqli qad\u0131n \u0259tirl\u0259ri g\u00f6st\u0259rirdi.<\/div>\n
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Fuad\u0131n d\u00f6rd, D\u0259nizin is\u0259 iki ya\u015f\u0131 vard\u0131. H\u0259l\u0259lik ail\u0259ni ail\u0259 kimi qoruyan bu iki u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 idi. Onlar\u0131n yem\u0259k-i\u00e7m\u0259yi, geyimi, u\u015faq qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131 v\u0259 s. G\u00fcl\u0259rin g\u00fcnd\u0259lik ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qatmas\u0131na kifay\u0259t ed\u0259n s\u0259b\u0259bl\u0259r idi.<\/div>\n
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Bu g\u00fcn Hikm\u0259tl\u0259 evlilikl\u0259rinin 5 ili tamam olurdu. D\u00fcz\u00fc, bunu Hikm\u0259t\u0259 n\u0259 c\u00fcr dey\u0259c\u0259yini bir xeyli fikirl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 ehtiyac yox idi v\u0259 b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 Hikm\u0259t art\u0131q bu tarixd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rdar idi kimi suallar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 biryolluq q\u0259rar ver\u0259 bilmirdi. Amma h\u0259r halda bu tarixi onun yad\u0131na salmal\u0131 idi.<\/div>\n
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S\u0259h\u0259r Hikm\u0259t \u0259l-\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yuyub, masaya g\u0259l\u0259n\u0259 kimi G\u00fcl\u0259r s\u00fcfr\u0259ni art\u0131q haz\u0131r el\u0259mi\u015fdi. O, s\u0259h\u0259r yem\u0259yini yediyi bir vaxtda, G\u00fcl\u0259r d\u0259 guya qab yuyurmu\u015f kimi bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259 sonra ola bil\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259ri g\u00f6t\u00fcr qoy edir, yaxud da \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ala bil\u0259c\u0259yi olas\u0131 cavablara haz\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131. St\u0259kan\u0131n n\u0259lb\u0259ki il\u0259 t\u0259mas\u0131n\u0131n say\u0131ndan art\u0131q son qurtumlar\u0131n oldu\u011funu hesablad\u0131. Yava\u015f-yava\u015f \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc toparlad\u0131. Hikm\u0259t d\u0259 masadan art\u0131q qalxm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n a\u00e7arlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb qap\u0131ya t\u0259r\u0259f ged\u0259nd\u0259, G\u00fcl\u0259r qorxusuna qalib g\u0259lm\u0259yi bacard\u0131:<\/div>\n
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– bu g\u00fcn evliliyimizin 5 illiyidi. Fuad da bilir, s\u00f6z vermi\u015f\u0259m ona. Ev\u0259 bir az tez…<\/div>\n
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– bilir\u0259m, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259m!<\/div>\n
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Be\u015f-alt\u0131 saniy\u0259 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n bu dialoq G\u00fcl\u0259ri t\u0259p\u0259d\u0259n d\u0131rna\u011fa kimi t\u0259rl\u0259tmi\u015ftdi. Ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 cavab\u0131n yum\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 ki\u00e7ik d\u0259 olsa t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm yaratd\u0131. V\u0259 bu t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm bu g\u00fcn ax\u015fama kimi davam ed\u0259c\u0259kdi. Bu g\u00fcn onun kefini he\u00e7 n\u0259 pozmayacaq, \u0259n az\u0131ndan bu g\u00fcn!<\/div>\n
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Ax\u015fama yax\u0131n Hikm\u0259t g\u0259ldi. Fuad h\u0259y\u0259t qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnc\u0259, sevinc\u0259k atas\u0131na do\u011fru qa\u00e7ma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. S\u00f6zs\u00fcz ki, Hikm\u0259t d\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131 sevirdi, y\u0259ni bu sevginin G\u00fcl\u0259rl\u0259 ola bil\u0259c\u0259k m\u00fcnasib\u0259t\u0259 he\u00e7 bir d\u0259xli yox idi. \u018fr kimi n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259suliyy\u0259tsiz v\u0259 etinas\u0131z biri olsa da o, bir ata idi v\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131 sevirdi.<\/div>\n
Fuad\u0131 quca\u011f\u0131na al\u0131b, yava\u015f-yava\u015f ev\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. M\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n f\u0259rqli qoxular, ayn\u0259b\u0259din i\u015f\u0131ldayan p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259ri, s\u00fcp\u00fcr\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 tozu yat\u0131rmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn t\u0259z\u0259likc\u0259 \u00e7il\u0259nmi\u015f su v\u0259 dig\u0259r bu kimi haz\u0131rl\u0131qlar G\u00fcl\u0259rin g\u00fcn boyu gec\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn nec\u0259 canf\u0259\u015fanl\u0131q etdiyinin g\u00f6st\u0259ricisi idi. Bu, Hikm\u0259td\u0259 az da olsa t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm yaratd\u0131. El\u0259 bu sual\u0131 da verm\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259b, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, G\u00fcl\u0259rin h\u0259dsiz haz\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 idi.<\/div>\n
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– ev\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131?<\/div>\n
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G\u00fcl\u0259r \u0259lind\u0259ki i\u015fi saxlay\u0131b, cavab verm\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sdi:<\/div>\n
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– h\u0259, bir iki \u015fey yazm\u0131\u015fam…<\/div>\n
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– g\u0259tir!<\/div>\n
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Bazarl\u0131q siyah\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131b, Hikm\u0259t h\u0259y\u0259t qap\u0131s\u0131na do\u011fru ged\u0259nd\u0259, Fuad atas\u0131na \u00e7at\u0131b, onu da \u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 aparmas\u0131n\u0131 xahi\u015f el\u0259di. Hikm\u0259t d\u0259 Fuad\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131.<\/div>\n
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Ata-bala \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259ki siyah\u0131 il\u0259 marketi o ba\u015f-bu ba\u015f g\u0259zm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131lar. Fuad h\u0259dsiz sevincli g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc, \u00e7\u00fcnki bel\u0259 bir g\u0259zinti onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn nadir hallarda ba\u015f verirdi. V\u0259 o h\u0259l\u0259 bilmirdiki az sonra, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, ail\u0259nin xilaskar\u0131na \u00e7evril\u0259c\u0259k.<\/div>\n
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Marketd\u0259 bir xeyli dola\u015fd\u0131qdan sonra Hikm\u0259t siyah\u0131ya bir daha g\u00f6z g\u0259zdirib, sat\u0131c\u0131dan so\u011fan \u00e7\u0259km\u0259sini xahi\u015f el\u0259di. Fuad is\u0259 ucadan “yox, so\u011fan alma, ata\u201d- dey\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131raraq, onun dizl\u0259rini qucaqlad\u0131. \u018ftrafa bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saniy\u0259lik s\u00fck\u00fct \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc v\u0259 h\u0259r k\u0259sin diqq\u0259ti ata-bala bunlara y\u00f6n\u0259ldi. G\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259z hal Hikm\u0259ti d\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndirmi\u015fdi v\u0259 o Fuad\u0131n boyu b\u0259rab\u0259rin\u0259 enib soru\u015fdu:<\/div>\n
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– niy\u0259, m\u0259nim balam?<\/div>\n
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-alma, ist\u0259mir\u0259m!<\/div>\n
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– ax\u0131 anan yaz\u0131b, almasam b\u0259s n\u0259 yey\u0259rik?<\/div>\n
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– yox, alma. So\u011fan anam\u0131 a\u011flad\u0131r, h\u0259r g\u00fcn anam a\u011flay\u0131r, m\u0259n soru\u015fanda deyir ki, so\u011fana g\u00f6r\u0259di. Alma, ata, alma, nolar…<\/div>\n
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Fuad atas\u0131n\u0131n dizini qucaqlay\u0131b i\u00e7d\u0259n a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya “alma, alma\u201d – dey\u0259 ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 yer\u0259 d\u00f6y\u0259cl\u0259yirdi. Hikm\u0259t is\u0259 yava\u015f-yava\u015f hal\u0131n\u0131n d\u0259yi\u015fdiyini hiss el\u0259di, udquna bilmir, g\u00f6z qapaqlar\u0131 el\u0259 bil a\u011f\u0131rla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. He\u00e7 c\u00fcr\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xara bilmirdi. Sat\u0131c\u0131n\u0131n “m\u00fc\u0259llim, so\u011fan \u00e7\u0259kim?\u201d – sual\u0131na “yox\u201d – dey\u0259r\u0259k Fuad\u0131 quca\u011f\u0131na al\u0131b, g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sildi.<\/div>\n
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– yax\u015f\u0131, sakitl\u0259\u015f. Almar\u0131q so\u011fan, anan da a\u011flamaz, sakitl\u0259\u015f!<\/div>\n
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Ma\u011fazadan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, ald\u0131qlar\u0131 \u0259rzaqlar\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131na qoyub, ev\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131lar. Yol boyu Hikm\u0259t bu g\u00fcn\u0259 kimi hiss etm\u0259diyi bir a\u011fr\u0131n\u0131 hiss edirdi. Bu, ill\u0259rdir \u00e7iynind\u0259 da\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 lakin he\u00e7 bir v\u0259chl\u0259 onu oyada bilm\u0259y\u0259n vicdan a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 idi. G\u00fcl\u0259ri incitdiyini, ona qar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7ox haqs\u0131zl\u0131q etdiyini, onun z\u0259if t\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259rind\u0259n istifad\u0259 edib, yax\u015f\u0131 \u0259r olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, \u00f6vladlar\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn layiqli bir ata olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yax\u015f\u0131 bilirdi. Amma he\u00e7 k\u0259s ona Fuad\u0131n verdiyi d\u0259rsi verm\u0259mi\u015fdi, ver\u0259 bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Fuad olanlar\u0131 bir g\u00fczg\u00fcy\u0259 \u00e7evir\u0259r\u0259k atas\u0131n\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na qoymu\u015fdu v\u0259 Hikm\u0259t indi \u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 \u00fczb\u0259\u00fcz dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. He\u00e7 vaxt rastla\u015fmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 ya da rastla\u015fmaq ist\u0259m\u0259diyi \u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259.<\/div>\n
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Ma\u015f\u0131n h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fanda Fuad art\u0131q sakitl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi. Ald\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 ev\u0259 da\u015f\u0131yana q\u0259d\u0259r Hikm\u0259t ma\u015f\u0131nda ard-arda 3-4 siqaret t\u00fcst\u00fcl\u0259tdi. Bu 10-15 d\u0259qiq\u0259 \u0259rzind\u0259 o, b\u00fct\u00fcn 5 ili g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131nda canland\u0131r\u0131r v\u0259 \u0259sl h\u0259qiq\u0259ti indi g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/div>\n
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Ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 sal\u0131b, ev\u0259 qalxd\u0131. G\u00fcl\u0259rin s\u0259si m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259n g\u0259lirdi.<\/div>\n
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– b\u0259s atan so\u011fan almad\u0131?<\/div>\n
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El\u0259 bu vaxt Hikm\u0259t m\u0259tb\u0259xin qap\u0131s\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc. Hikm\u0259tin q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u00f6rk\u0259mi G\u00fcl\u0259ri bir az t\u0259\u015fvi\u015f\u0259 sald\u0131.<\/div>\n
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– Hikm\u0259t, yax\u015f\u0131san?<\/div>\n
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Hikm\u0259t add\u0131m-add\u0131m ona sar\u0131 getm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. G\u00fcl\u0259r mat bir \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 ona bax\u0131r, n\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yini, n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259yini bilmirdi. Hikm\u0259t G\u00fcl\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131b, onun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc iki ovucu aras\u0131na ald\u0131 v\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin i\u00e7in\u0259 baxaraq:<\/div>\n
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– G\u00fcl\u0259r, m\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla!<\/div>\n
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H\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 n\u0259l\u0259rin ba\u015f verdiyini ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259n G\u00fcl\u0259r t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb i\u00e7ind\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc o yan – bu yana qa\u00e7\u0131r\u0131r, tez-tez udqunurdu…<\/div>\n
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– Hikm\u0259t, s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 olub? M\u0259n…<\/div>\n
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– he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259, he\u00e7 n\u0259 soru\u015fma, sad\u0259c\u0259 de ki, m\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131rsan…! Ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 n\u0259!<\/div>\n
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– Hikm\u0259t…<\/div>\n
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He\u00e7 vaxt G\u00fcl\u0259rin g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin i\u00e7in\u0259 baxmayan, be\u015f ild\u0259 onun varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259zd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n Hikm\u0259t indi b\u00fct\u00fcn fikri v\u0259 hissiyat\u0131 il\u0259 onun g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 zill\u0259nmi\u015fdi. Fuad\u0131n “anam h\u0259r g\u00fcn a\u011flay\u0131r, deyir ki, so\u011fana g\u00f6r\u0259di\u201d ifad\u0259si a\u011f\u0131r bir y\u00fck kimi sin\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Bu y\u00fck onu az qala n\u0259f\u0259s alma\u011fa da qoymurdu. \u0130ll\u0259rdir onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn he\u00e7 kim olmayan G\u00fcl\u0259rin indi sad\u0259c\u0259 “ba\u011f\u0131\u015flad\u0131m\u201d k\u0259lm\u0259sin\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131 vard\u0131. Ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 n\u0259y\u0259!<\/div>\n
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– yax\u015f\u0131, sakitl\u0259\u015f, qurban\u0131n olum, sakitl\u0259\u015f. U\u015faqlar qorxacaq, sakitl\u0259\u015f…<\/div>\n
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Hikm\u0259tin pe\u015fman\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n haradan qaynaqlanmas\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, s\u00f6hb\u0259tin n\u0259d\u0259n getdiyini d\u0259rk ed\u0259n G\u00fcl\u0259r onun boynuna sar\u0131l\u0131b h\u00f6nk\u00fcrt\u00fc il\u0259 a\u011flama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131…<\/div>\n
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– yax\u015f\u0131, sakitl\u0259\u015f….sakitl\u0259\u015f… ba\u011f\u0131\u015flad\u0131m, sakitl\u0259\u015f!<\/div>\n
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Fuadsa a\u011flayan bac\u0131s\u0131-D\u0259nizi qucaqlay\u0131b, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131\u011fallaya-s\u0131\u011fallaya astadan p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lday\u0131rd\u0131:<\/div>\n
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– ax\u0131 biz so\u011fan almam\u0131\u015fd\u0131q…<\/div>\n<\/div>\n