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\"163413_146525868735886_4645178_n\"<\/a>F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r el\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, yen\u0259\u00a0 b\u00fct\u00fcn gec\u0259ni \u00e7imir el\u0259m\u0259mi\u015f, kirpik-kirpiy\u0259 vurmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. El\u0259 yenic\u0259 yuxuya getm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi ki, a\u011fart\u0131 satan qad\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259si beynin\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259di: – Qat\u0131q var! Qat\u0131\u0131\u0131q!!! T\u0259z\u0259 s\u00fcd var! T\u0259z\u0259 s\u00fc\u00fc\u00fcd!!!<\/p>\n

Arvad g\u00f6zl\u0259rini acmam\u0131\u015f a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131:<\/p>\n

– S\u0259sin bats\u0131n, s\u0259s yiy\u0259si! –\u00a0 yor\u011fan\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259nara tullay\u0131b, yerinin i\u00e7ind\u0259c\u0259 oturdu: – El\u0259 bil, bo\u011faz\u0131n\u0131 gavah\u0131nla de\u015fibl\u0259r batm\u0131\u015f\u0131n! – g\u0259rn\u0259\u015fib tez-t\u0259l\u0259sik \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 catd\u0131rd\u0131:<\/p>\n

-A\u011f\u0259z, nolub, n\u00f6\u015f ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131rsan s\u0259h\u0259r-s\u0259h\u0259rin\u0259? Qoysana g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 alaq!<\/p>\n

– F\u0259rid\u0259 xala, qaymaq kimi qat\u0131\u011f\u0131m, yax\u015f\u0131 s\u00fcd\u00fcm var. K\u0259ndd\u0259n indic\u0259 g\u0259tirmi\u015f\u0259m. Qald\u0131r\u0131m yuxar\u0131?<\/p>\n

– A\u011f\u0259z, s\u00fcd\u00fcn d\u0259, qat\u0131\u011f\u0131n da g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 girsin el\u0259. K\u0259ndd\u0259n qat\u0131q satma\u011fa g\u0259lmis\u0259n, yoxsa camaat\u0131 d\u0259li el\u0259m\u0259y\u0259?<\/p>\n

Qat\u0131qc\u0131 ona m\u0259h\u0259l qoymadan \u00fcc\u00fcnc\u00fc m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259ki m\u0259nzilinin p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 c\u0131xaran g\u0259lin\u0259 \u00fcz tutub, onun sual\u0131n\u0131 cavablad\u0131:<\/p>\n

– H\u0259, h\u0259, g\u00f6nd\u0259r g\u0259lib apars\u0131n. Banka da g\u00f6nd\u0259r.<\/p>\n

G\u0259lin u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 qat\u0131q dal\u0131nca h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kildi. F\u0259rid\u0259 xala: – G\u0259l aaz, g\u0259l, bunlara ba\u015f qo\u015fsan, g\u0259r\u0259k bunlar\u0131n tay\u0131 olasan! – \u00a0dey\u0259 otaqda \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n ba\u015fqa guya kims\u0259 varm\u0131\u015f kimi \u015fikay\u0259tl\u0259ndi, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259ni \u0259s\u0259bi h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259 \u00f6rt\u00fcb, ota\u011fa d\u00f6nd\u00fc. Amma qap\u0131ya catmam\u0131\u015f p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin \u00f6z \u00e7\u0259r\u00e7iv\u0259sin\u0259 d\u0259yib, yenid\u0259n a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n qat\u0131q\u00e7\u0131 yad\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131:<\/p>\n

– Topal olasan s\u0259ni, a\u011f\u0259z, ehmal \u00f6rts\u0259n\u0259! \u00a0– dey\u0259 geri qay\u0131td\u0131.<\/p>\n

Televizoru yand\u0131r\u0131b, m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7di, \u00e7aydan\u0131 qaz\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu. S\u0259h\u0259r yem\u0259yini haz\u0131rlayanacan \u00e7aydan qaynad\u0131. \u00c7ay\u0131n d\u0259m almas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 s\u0259bri n\u0259 g\u0259zirdi – iki st\u0259kan \u00e7ay s\u00fcz\u00fcb, ota\u011fa gay\u0131td\u0131. Televizorun qaba\u011f\u0131nda oturub, harasa t\u0259l\u0259sirmi\u015f kimi qaynar cay\u0131 \u00fcfl\u0259y\u0259-\u00fcfl\u0259y\u0259 i\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131:<\/p>\n

– \u0130\u00e7, i\u00e7, indic\u0259 yem\u0259yimiz d\u0259 haz\u0131r olar. – St\u0259kan\u0131 \u015faqq\u0131lt\u0131yla n\u0259lb\u0259kiy\u0259 qoydu. Qalx\u0131b m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7di. Tavadak\u0131 ya\u011f z\u0259if qaz\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 art\u0131q \u0259rimi\u015fdi. Iki yumurtan\u0131 tavaya \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131b, \u00e7alma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131:<\/p>\n

– Ay q\u0131z, bu biz\u0259 b\u0259s el\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k? \u00a0– \u00f6z sual\u0131na \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 cavab verdi: – B\u0259simizdir, \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259, b\u0259simizdir, at deyilik, d\u0259v\u0259 deyilik. B\u0259s el\u0259r, h\u0259l\u0259 des\u0259n, art\u0131q da qalar…<\/p>\n

Qap\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcld\u00fc. Dilb\u0259riydi, qon\u015fusu:<\/p>\n

– \u00c7\u00f6r\u0259y\u0259 gedir\u0259m, s\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 al\u0131m?<\/p>\n

Suala cavab verm\u0259d\u0259n geri qay\u0131td\u0131, televizorun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n pulqab\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, yenid\u0259n giri\u015f qap\u0131s\u0131na t\u0259r\u0259f add\u0131mlad\u0131:<\/p>\n

– Alanda bax ha, qara-quras\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131b g\u0259tirm\u0259!<\/p>\n

Min yeddi y\u00fcz \u0259lli manat ay\u0131r\u0131b Dilb\u0259r\u0259 verdi. Dilb\u0259r pulu g\u00f6t\u00fcrs\u0259 d\u0259, qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0259kilm\u0259yib, sual dolu g\u00f6zl\u0259rini F\u0259rid\u0259 xalaya dikmi\u015fdi. Arvad qon\u015funun n\u0259 ist\u0259diyini d\u0259rhal anlad\u0131:<\/p>\n

– H\u0259, z\u0259ng el\u0259mi\u015fdi, qurban oldu\u011fum. Ax\u015fam saat on ikid\u0259. El\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259c\u0259 yatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q ki, z\u0259ng g\u0259ldi. Amma gecikdik. Biz telefona catanacan z\u0259ng k\u0259sildi. – F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 uydurdu: – Orda, ax\u0131, bizd\u0259n bir saat soora ax\u015fam olur. El\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 o vaxtlar z\u0259ng edir \u00a0qurban oldu\u011fum.<\/p>\n

Dilb\u0259r qon\u015fusunun s\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 inanmad\u0131. Bayaqdan \u0259lind\u0259 saxlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 pulu \u00e7antas\u0131na qoyub, bir s\u00f6z dem\u0259d\u0259n pill\u0259l\u0259ri d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. F\u0259rid\u0259 xala qon\u015fusunun ona inanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, a\u015fa\u011f\u0131dak\u0131 m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259 g\u00f6zd\u0259n it\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yerind\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259yib, onun ard\u0131nca baxd\u0131. Bir yandan inams\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 Dilb\u0259rd\u0259n inciyir, o biri yandan da qon\u015funu inand\u0131ra bilm\u0259diyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc\u00a0 q\u0131nay\u0131rd\u0131. Ax\u0131, ax\u015fam saat on ikid\u0259, do\u011frudan da, z\u0259ng g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Amma bu da var ki, z\u0259ng ed\u0259nin Nazim olub-olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmirdi. Yad\u0131ndayd\u0131, bir ne\u00e7\u0259 il qabaq da Nazim ona el\u0259 t\u0259xmin\u0259n h\u0259min vaxt z\u0259ng el\u0259mi\u015fdi – gec\u0259 saat on ikid\u0259. \u0130ndiki kimi yad\u0131ndayd\u0131, el\u0259 bil indic\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar, s\u0259si h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 qulaqlar\u0131ndan getmirdi. O\u011flunun uzaqdan g\u0259l\u0259n x\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 s\u0259si sanki indic\u0259 q\u0131r\u0131lacaqm\u0131\u015f kimi telefon telinin i\u00e7ind\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259r\u0259k g\u0259lirdi. Nazim anas\u0131na orada evl\u0259ndiyini deyir, i\u015fl\u0259rinin yax\u015f\u0131 getdiyind\u0259n, yax\u015f\u0131 doland\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259ni is\u0259 daha \u00e7ox o\u011flunun can sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 v\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259 g\u0259lini maraqland\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Nazimin \u00e7ox dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa imkan\u0131 olmasa da, anas\u0131n\u0131n butun suallar\u0131na cavab vermi\u015fdi. F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259nmi\u015fdi ki, g\u0259lininin ad\u0131 Tatyanad\u0131r, amma o\u011flu onu Tanya \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259ldir, onun d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fc kimi – sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n, g\u00f6yg\u00f6z yox, a\u011fb\u0259niz, qaraqa\u015f-qarag\u00f6z, qarasa\u00e7d\u0131r…<\/p>\n

…Sonra o\u011flunun s\u0259si k\u0259sildi. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 el\u0259 vaxtda k\u0259sildi ki, yaz\u0131q arvad Nazim\u0259 \u00f6z hal\u0131ndan, \u0259hval\u0131ndan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r, v\u0259ziyy\u0259tinin yax\u015f\u0131 oldu\u011funu, t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00fcn\u00fcn ona b\u0259sdi deyinc\u0259n \u00e7atd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, he\u00e7 n\u0259d\u0259n korluq \u00e7\u0259km\u0259diyini, t\u0259kc\u0259 o\u011ful xiff\u0259ti el\u0259diyini deyirdi… X\u0259tt k\u0259sildiyind\u0259n Nazim anas\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259rini e\u015fitmirdi, amma F\u0259rid\u0259 xala bunun f\u0259rqind\u0259 deyildi, dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Ona el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, o\u011flu anas\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259r s\u00f6z\u00fc, h\u0259r k\u0259lm\u0259sini yan\u011f\u0131yla, hava kimi, su kimi ciy\u0259rl\u0259rin\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kir. O h\u0259tta f\u00fcrs\u0259t tap\u0131b, qon\u015fular\u0131yla mehriban doland\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, qon\u015fular\u0131n h\u0259r g\u00fcn Nazimi az\u0131 \u0259lli d\u0259f\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r ald\u0131qlar\u0131ndan da dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131…<\/p>\n

Nazimin son z\u0259ngind\u0259n bir ne\u00e7\u0259 ay sonra F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 o\u011flundan m\u0259ktub ald\u0131. M\u0259ktub da el\u0259 eyni m\u0259zmundayd\u0131, birc\u0259 ata olmas\u0131 t\u0259z\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259rdi. Nazim Tanyayla, q\u0131z\u0131 F\u0259rid\u0259yl\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdirdiyi \u015f\u0259kli d\u0259 anas\u0131na g\u00f6nd\u0259rmi\u015fdi. Bir d\u0259 \u0259lli dollar pul…<\/p>\n

…Yan\u0131q qoxusu arvad\u0131 x\u0259yaldan ay\u0131rsa da, m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sm\u0259di. \u018fslind\u0259, buna m\u0259tb\u0259x dem\u0259k d\u00fcz deyildi. \u0130yirmi il qabaq r\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 getmi\u015f \u0259ri m\u0259tb\u0259xi yataq ota\u011f\u0131, yataq ota\u011f\u0131n\u0131\u00a0 qonaq ota\u011f\u0131 el\u0259mi\u015f, m\u0259tb\u0259xi is\u0259 birotaql\u0131 m\u0259nzilin balkonuna ke\u00e7irmi\u015fdi…<\/p>\n

Stola d\u00fczd\u00fcy\u00fc st\u0259kanlar\u0131 \u00a0– \u00a0\u00f6z st\u0259kan\u0131n\u0131 da, dolu qalm\u0131\u015f o biri st\u0259kan\u0131 da g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, asta add\u0131mlarla qaz pe\u00e7ini s\u00f6nd\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259 getdi. M\u0259tb\u0259xin tavan\u0131 t\u00fcst\u00fcd\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcrd\u00fc. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259ni a\u00e7d\u0131 ki, evin havas\u0131 b\u0259lk\u0259 bir az d\u0259yi\u015fsin. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc unutdu\u011fundan \u00e7ay dolu st\u0259kan\u0131 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 nec\u0259 atmas\u0131ndan x\u0259b\u0259ri olmad\u0131. P\u0259nc\u0259rinin altl\u0131\u011f\u0131na dayaqland\u0131. T\u00fcst\u00fc \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259n\u0259c\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259k, sonra t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n qay\u011fanaq bi\u015firm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi ki, a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259 ya\u015fayan Nis\u0259nin s\u0259sini e\u015fitdi:<\/p>\n

– \u00c7ay\u0131 niy\u0259 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na t\u00f6k\u00fcrs\u0259n, ay kaftar?!<\/p>\n

N\u0259 dediyini anlamad\u0131:<\/p>\n

– N\u0259 deyirs\u0259n, ay q\u0131z? \u2013 dey\u0259 sanki qula\u011f\u0131n\u0131 Nis\u0259nin dodaqlar\u0131na yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 dart\u0131nd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Deyir\u0259m korsan, \u00e7ay\u0131 niy\u0259 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na t\u00f6k\u00fcrs\u0259n?! – Nis\u0259 daha da co\u015fdu. F\u0259rid\u0259 xala \u00e7a\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, \u00e7ay\u0131 \u0259l\u00fczyuyana yox, h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 atd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 indi anlad\u0131. Amma \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc s\u0131nd\u0131rmad\u0131:<\/p>\n

– Aaz, yeri, aaz, yeri o yana! Ordan bura ba\u011f\u0131rmaqdansa, yeri u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qurula! G\u00f6r\u00fcm el\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n bats\u0131n! – Qon\u015funun s\u0259sini e\u015fitm\u0259sin dey\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kildi: – G\u0259l az, g\u0259l, g\u0259l b\u0259ri, bu da adam olub! A\u011fr\u0131m \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259! Qar\u011fa da \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc qu\u015f bilir!.. – Qay\u011fanaq bi\u015firm\u0259yi d\u0259 unudub, \u00a0qonaq ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7di. \u015eaqq\u0131lt\u0131yla televizorun kanal\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdi. Amma oturma\u011fa macal tapmam\u0131\u015f qap\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcld\u00fc.<\/p>\n

– Ged\u0259k, g\u00f6r\u0259k Dilb\u0259r biz\u0259 nec\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k g\u0259tirib.<\/p>\n

G\u0259l\u0259n po\u00e7talyonuydu. \u00a0F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 bir s\u00f6z dem\u0259yib, d\u00fcz onun g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin i\u00e7in\u0259 bax\u0131r, n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259yini g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. Art\u0131q bir ne\u00e7\u0259 iliydi ki, yaz\u0131q arvad po\u00e7talyondan he\u00e7 n\u0259 soru\u015fmur, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki cavab\u0131 e\u015fid\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n qorxurdu. Bu el\u0259 po\u00e7talyonun da \u00fcr\u0259yinc\u0259ydi. \u201cYoxdur\u201d deyib qan qaraltmaqdansa, susmaq yax\u015f\u0131yd\u0131. K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 rastla\u015fanda da bir-birinin yan\u0131ndan yad adamlar kimi sivi\u015fib \u00f6t\u00fcr, \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar ki, bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 toqqu\u015fmas\u0131n. Amma bu onlara el\u0259 d\u0259 asan ba\u015fa g\u0259lmirdi. Sual dolu n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259r alt\u0131nda ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sal\u0131b ke\u00e7m\u0259k po\u00e7talyon \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r a\u011f\u0131r\u0131yd\u0131sa, onu bel\u0259 m\u0259zlum g\u00f6rm\u0259k d\u0259 F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tin g\u0259lirdi.<\/p>\n

Amma po\u00e7talyon \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259n sonra F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 ayaq saxlay\u0131b, onun ard\u0131nca baxmaqdan, k\u00f6ks \u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259kd\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc saxlaya bilmirdi. Po\u00e7talyon is\u0259 qar\u0131n\u0131n n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rini a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fck kimi k\u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 hiss etdiyind\u0259n xeyli uzaqla\u015fandan sonra bel\u0259 geri boylanma\u011fa c\u0259sar\u0259t etmirdi\u2026<\/p>\n

\u2026G\u00f6zl\u0259rini ev sahib\u0259sinin n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rind\u0259n yay\u0131nd\u0131rmaqda s\u00fckut ona b\u0259han\u0259 oldu. \u00dcz\u00fcn\u00fc Dilb\u0259rgilin qap\u0131s\u0131na t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7evirib soru\u015fdu:<\/p>\n

– Bunlar evd\u0259 yoxdular?<\/p>\n

F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 deyildi, sanki ruhu cismind\u0259n qopub, g\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259 p\u0259rvaz edirdi. Po\u00e7talyonun n\u0259 dediyini bel\u0259 e\u015fitm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Bu ne\u00e7\u0259 ild\u0259 birinci\u00a0 d\u0259f\u0259ydi ki, po\u00e7talyon onun qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcrd\u00fc. H\u0259y\u0259candan b\u00fct\u00fcn b\u0259d\u0259ni tir-tir \u0259sir, \u00fcr\u0259yi az qala yerind\u0259n qopacaqm\u0131\u015f kimi u\u00e7um-u\u00e7um u\u00e7unurdu. Po\u00e7talyon onun qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6yd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259 pe\u015fman olmu\u015fdu. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc itirdiyind\u0259n n\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yini, v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259n nec\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmirdi.<\/p>\n

A\u015fa\u011f\u0131 m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259n ayaq s\u0259sl\u0259ri e\u015fidildi v\u0259 bir an ke\u00e7m\u0259di ki, Dilb\u0259r d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259nin pill\u0259l\u0259rini buruldu. Onun bu g\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259z g\u0259li\u015fi h\u0259r ikisini \u00e7\u0131x\u0131lmaz v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259n qurtard\u0131. Po\u00e7talyon sevinc\u0259k Dilb\u0259rin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na y\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fc:<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Dilb\u0259r xala, siz\u0259 \u0130cra Hakimiyy\u0259tind\u0259n m\u0259ktub var! \u2013 dey\u0259 \u0259lini \u00e7antas\u0131na atd\u0131. Dilb\u0259r m\u0259ktubu alar-almaz po\u00e7talyonun ayaq s\u0259sl\u0259ri art\u0131q birinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259n g\u0259lirdi…<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Can\u0131n yans\u0131n s\u0259nin, can\u0131n! \u2013 F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 Dilb\u0259ri g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n, qap\u0131n\u0131 da a\u00e7\u0131q qoyub, ota\u011fa qay\u0131td\u0131. Dilb\u0259r d\u0259 onu narahat el\u0259m\u0259di.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00c7\u00f6r\u0259yi dolab\u00e7an\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydum \u2013 dedi: – Yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 se\u00e7mi\u015f\u0259m, arxay\u0131n ol.<\/p>\n

Qon\u015fu qap\u0131n\u0131 astaca arxas\u0131nca \u00e7\u0259kib getdi. F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 kreslodan qalx\u0131b, aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259-\u00e7\u0259k\u0259 yenid\u0259n televizora yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. Televizorda n\u0259 getdiyinin f\u0259rqin\u0259 varmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi hans\u0131 kanala \u00e7evirdiyinin d\u0259 f\u0259rqind\u0259 deyildi. T\u0259ki evd\u0259n s\u0259s g\u0259lsin. O\u011flu, g\u0259lini v\u0259 n\u0259v\u0259sinin birg\u0259 \u015f\u0259klini televizorun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki saata dayam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u015e\u0259kli g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, yerin\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131, amma yerind\u0259 q\u0259rar tutmad\u0131. Qalx\u0131b servanta yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131, siyirm\u0259ni \u00e7\u0259kdi, axtar\u0131b-axtar\u0131b, \u00a0o\u011flunun bir ne\u00e7\u0259 il bundan qabaq g\u00f6nd\u0259rdiyi m\u0259ktubu tapd\u0131. Z\u0259rfi a\u00e7a-a\u00e7a g\u0259lib, kresloya \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

\u201cSalam ana, biz yax\u015f\u0131y\u0131q\u201d – ilk d\u0259f\u0259 m\u0259ktubun bu ilk c\u00fcml\u0259sini oxuyanda \u201cBiz\u201d n\u0259dir, \u0259? \u00a0– dey\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nmi\u015fdi. Amma d\u0259rhal da yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki, bu bar\u0259d\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 m\u0259ktubu oxumam\u0131\u015f x\u0259b\u0259r tutub – o\u011flunun bir ne\u00e7\u0259 ay qabaqk\u0131 z\u0259ngind\u0259n, bir d\u0259 m\u0259ktubu a\u00e7an kimi g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc \u015f\u0259kild\u0259n. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r o\u011flu ona \u015f\u0259kil g\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259zdi. M\u0259ktubunda da ancaq \u201cm\u0259n\u201d yazar, yaln\u0131z \u00f6z ad\u0131ndan dan\u0131\u015fard\u0131. \u0130ndi art\u0131q \u201cbiz\u201d\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

\u201c\u0130st\u0259yir\u0259m ki, s\u0259n d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 olasan\u201d.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Yax\u015f\u0131yam, qurban olum, m\u0259n d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131yam!<\/p>\n

\u201cAnacan, gec m\u0259ktub yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131ma g\u00f6r\u0259 m\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla. Ax\u0131, m\u0259n h\u0259rb\u00e7iy\u0259m. \u0130xtiyar\u0131m \u00f6z \u0259limd\u0259 deyil\u201d.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Allah ba\u011f\u0131\u015flas\u0131n, bala! T\u0259ki sa\u011f-salamat ol, el\u0259 bu m\u0259n\u0259 b\u0259sdir.<\/p>\n

\u201cAnacan, bu \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn Tanyad\u0131r. \u018fsil ad\u0131 Tatyanad\u0131r. Amma Tanya deyirik\u201d. Oxuma\u011fa aram verib, dig\u0259r \u0259lind\u0259 tutdu\u011fu \u015f\u0259kl\u0259 baxd\u0131:<\/p>\n

– El\u0259 bil he\u00e7 xaxol deyil bu Tanya. G\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n, qa\u015f\u0131ndan, sif\u0259tind\u0259n g\u00f6r nec\u0259 d\u0259 bizimkil\u0259r\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u201cAnacan, Tanya komandirimin q\u0131z\u0131d\u0131r. Onlar da m\u0259nim kimi g\u0259lm\u0259dirl\u0259r. Ukraynadan g\u0259libl\u0259r. Onun da atas\u0131 h\u0259rbi m\u0259kt\u0259bi qurtarandan sonra burada qal\u0131b. El\u0259 burada da evl\u0259nib\u201d.<\/p>\n

Yenid\u0259n oxuma\u011fa ara verdi. \u018flind\u0259ki \u00a0\u015f\u0259kli g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n xeyli aral\u0131 tutub, diqq\u0259tl\u0259 baxma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Arvad yax\u0131ndan yax\u015f\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fcrd\u00fc. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 m\u0259ktubu el\u0259 bel\u0259c\u0259 uzaq tutub, \u00a0oxuma\u011fa davam el\u0259di. Amma ka\u011f\u0131za baxmadan – m\u0259ktubda yaz\u0131lanlar\u0131 o q\u0259d\u0259r oxumu\u015fdu ki, art\u0131q \u0259zb\u0259r bilirdi:<\/p>\n

\u201cBu g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz is\u0259 balaca F\u0259rid\u0259dir. M\u0259n onu \u201cAnam\u201d dey\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131ram\u201d.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Anam dey\u0259n dilin\u0259 qurban!<\/p>\n

\u201cAnacan, balaca F\u0259rid\u0259, do\u011frudan da, s\u0259n\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131r. \u0130ndid\u0259n bilinir ki, b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259nin kimi boylu-buxunlu, g\u00f6z\u0259l olacaq\u201d.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Boooy, d\u00fcz deyir, az, az, vallah, \u00a0g\u00f6r m\u0259n\u0259 nec\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131r eee. Bax, bax – kim\u0259s\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rirmi\u015f kimi \u015f\u0259kli yana cevirdi. – G\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 bax, burnuna, qa\u015f\u0131na, sif\u0259tin\u0259 bax h\u0259l\u0259 s\u0259n Allah! \u00a0Sa\u00e7lar\u0131 da el\u0259 u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131mda oldu\u011fu kimi q\u0131vr\u0131m- q\u0131vr\u0131md\u0131r. Eyn\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259m, eyn\u0259n,.. yaradan\u0131na qurban!..<\/p>\n

Telefon z\u0259ng \u00e7ald\u0131. R\u0259fiq\u0259si ona i\u015f tapd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 deyirdi. F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 dar\u0131xmas\u0131n, ba\u015f\u0131 qar\u0131\u015fs\u0131n dey\u0259 r\u0259fiq\u0259si Xan\u0131mdan ona i\u015f tapmas\u0131n\u0131 xahi\u015f el\u0259mi\u015fdi. Xan\u0131m xala da Politologiya institutunun yataqxanas\u0131nda ona i\u015f tapm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Giri\u015fd\u0259 oturub g\u0259lib-ged\u0259nl\u0259ri qeyd\u0259 alacaq, a\u00e7arlar\u0131 otaq yiy\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 ver\u0259c\u0259k, yataqxanadak\u0131 nizam-intizama n\u0259zar\u0259t ed\u0259c\u0259kdi.<\/p>\n

\u015e\u0259kli televizorun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259, z\u0259rfi d\u0259 qaytar\u0131b \u00f6z yerin\u0259 qoydu. T\u0259l\u0259sdiyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 yox, m\u0259ktubu oxuyub bitirm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259diyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259. M\u0259ktubu oxumaqdan ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 z\u00f6vq\u00fcn bitm\u0259sini ist\u0259mir, g\u00fcnd\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 \u0259lin\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrs\u0259 d\u0259, he\u00e7 vaxt ax\u0131ra q\u0259d\u0259r oxumurdu. Q\u0259fil z\u0259ng d\u0259 bir b\u0259han\u0259 oldu…<\/p>\n

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\u0130lk i\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7ox dar\u0131xd\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 ke\u00e7di. \u018fvv\u0259lc\u0259 komendantla tan\u0131\u015f oldu, sonra R\u0259him ki\u015fi, sonra yataqxana, daha sonra da t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259. \u018fslind\u0259, yataqxanada t\u0259kc\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259l\u0259r qalm\u0131rd\u0131lar. Burda yurd-yuvalar\u0131ndan did\u0259rgin d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n qa\u00e7q\u0131nlar da, evi olmayan institut m\u0259zunlar\u0131 v\u0259 aspirantlar da, h\u0259tta hans\u0131 yollarla g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259lum olmayan alver\u00e7il\u0259r d\u0259 var\u0131yd\u0131. Bir s\u00f6zl\u0259, al\u0259m bir-birin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, it yiyi\u0259sini tan\u0131m\u0131rd\u0131. F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u00fc g\u0259l\u0259n q\u0131zlar\u0131n da yataqxanada ya\u015famalar\u0131yd\u0131…<\/p>\n

Arvad R\u0259him ki\u015fiy\u0259 tez b\u0259l\u0259d oldu. N\u00f6vb\u0259ni t\u0259hvil g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259nd\u0259 bir saat, t\u0259hvil ver\u0259nd\u0259 is\u0259 onca d\u0259qiq\u0259 bir yerd\u0259 olmalar\u0131 arvada kifay\u0259t el\u0259di ki, R\u0259him ki\u015fini \u0259m\u0259lli-ba\u015fl\u0131 tan\u0131s\u0131n: \u201cZal\u0131m o\u011flu el\u0259 bil z\u0259h\u0259r tulu\u011fudur, g\u0259tirib burda qoyublar ki, g\u0259l\u0259n- ged\u0259nin kefin\u0259 so\u011fan do\u011fras\u0131n\u201d.<\/p>\n

N\u00f6vb\u0259ni t\u0259hvil g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259nd\u0259 onun k\u00f6m\u0259yin\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131 oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir saat qan\u0131n\u0131n qaralmas\u0131na m\u0259cburuydusa, t\u0259hvil ver\u0259nd\u0259 bel\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259y\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131 yoxuydu. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 R\u0259him ki\u015fi yataqxanan\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131ndan i\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259n kimi y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131. El\u0259 bil evd\u0259 do\u011fma adam\u0131n\u0131 bax\u0131ms\u0131z qoyub g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Amma R\u0259him ki\u015fi onun yataqxanan\u0131 bel\u0259 tez t\u0259rk etm\u0259sin\u0259 raz\u0131 olmad\u0131. A\u00e7arlardan tutmu\u015f s\u00fcp\u00fcrg\u0259l\u0259r\u0259, koridordak\u0131 stol-stuldan tutmu\u015f hamam ota\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 avadanl\u0131qlara q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259r \u015feyi bir-bir yoxlay\u0131b t\u0259hvil ald\u0131. Sonra da \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn t\u0259rtib el\u0259diyi jurnal\u0131 qollay\u0131b, arvaddan \u0259l \u00e7\u0259kdi. Yataqxanadan \u00e7\u0131xanda F\u0259rid\u0259 xalan\u0131n \u00e7iynind\u0259n el\u0259 bil a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fck g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Yeyin add\u0131mlarla d\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259n t\u0259nha qoydu\u011fu evin\u0259, m\u0259nzilind\u0259 t\u0259k buraxd\u0131\u011f\u0131 x\u0259yali r\u0259fiq\u0259sinin yan\u0131na t\u0259l\u0259sirdi. D\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yi onlar\u0131n yan\u0131nda qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259tta gec\u0259 uzunu kims\u0259siz m\u0259nzilin\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 z\u0259ng edib, cavabs\u0131z siqnallar\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u00fc s\u0259sin\u0259 qulaq asm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sanki uzun-uzad\u0131 d\u00fcy\u00fcld\u0259y\u0259n bu siqnallardan m\u0259nzilinin n\u0259f\u0259sini duymu\u015f, x\u0259yali r\u0259fiq\u0259sind\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259r tutmu\u015fdu…<\/p>\n

– Salam, aaz \u00a0– \u00e7iyin \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 el\u0259 giri\u015fd\u0259c\u0259 dolab\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoyub, i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7di. Qonaq ota\u011f\u0131nda, yataq ota\u011f\u0131nda, m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259 xeyli dola\u015fandan sonra t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n d\u0259hliz\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131. Aral\u0131 saxlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 qap\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flay\u0131b, i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259n kilidl\u0259di. Paltosunu \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b, as\u0131lqana ke\u00e7irdi.<\/p>\n

– G\u0259l, g\u0259l, yem\u0259yimizi haz\u0131rlayaq \u00a0– m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 adlad\u0131. Qaz\u0131 yand\u0131rmazdan qabaq p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259ni a\u00e7\u0131b, h\u0259y\u0259ti n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259n ke\u00e7irdi. U\u015faqlar \u00e7antalar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259-s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 gedirdil\u0259r. Universitetd\u0259 rus dilind\u0259n d\u0259rs dey\u0259n Tahir m\u00fc\u0259llim h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 durub, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n boylanan h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131na n\u0259s\u0259 tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131qlar verir, ev d\u0259llal\u0131 i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n Xanlar cib d\u0259ft\u0259r\u00e7\u0259sini varaqlaya-varaqlaya h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 var-g\u0259l el\u0259yirdi…<\/p>\n

…\u0130ki st\u0259kan \u00e7ay s\u00fcz\u00fcb, el\u0259 m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259c\u0259 divara s\u00f6yk\u0259diyi ensiz stolun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259sini h\u0259m bay\u0131r, h\u0259m d\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259ri t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n silib t\u0259mizl\u0259di. K\u0259tili alt\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kib, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda oturdu. Bir g\u00f6z\u00fc h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131 n\u0259lb\u0259kiy\u0259 s\u00fcz\u00fcb, \u00fcfl\u0259y\u0259-\u00fcfl\u0259y\u0259 i\u00e7di.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Bax aa, bazarl\u0131q el\u0259m\u0259k yad\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b! \u00a0– qalx\u0131b deyin\u0259-deyin\u0259 soyuducuya yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Yumurtam\u0131z qal\u0131bm\u0131?<\/p>\n

Soyuducunun g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 iki yumurta qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. O, ad\u0259t\u0259n iki n\u0259f\u0259rlik bazarl\u0131q el\u0259diyi kimi yumurtan\u0131 da h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 c\u00fct al\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– B\u0259simizdir\u00a0 – yumurtalar\u0131 qoydu\u011fu al\u00fcminium qazan\u00e7aya krantdan su al\u0131b, qaz\u0131 yand\u0131rd\u0131, qazan\u00e7an\u0131 qaz\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu. \u00a0St\u0259kanlar\u0131 yaxalay\u0131b, yenid\u0259n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin qaba\u011f\u0131nda oturdu. Ax\u015fam\u0131 yatmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan yem\u0259yini yeyib, yataq ota\u011f\u0131na kec\u0259c\u0259kdi. Amma n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259smirdi. Yumurtalar haz\u0131r olandan sonra bir xeyli qazanda qald\u0131. Handan-hana \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259lib, yumurtalardan birini qaba\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 bo\u015fqaba qoydu. Bir g\u00f6z\u00fc h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 uzun-uzad\u0131 stolun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00f6y\u0259cl\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k \u0259zdi.<\/p>\n

– G\u0259lm\u0259di, yox, y\u0259qin bir i\u015fi \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b – F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 qat\u0131qsatan qad\u0131n\u0131n g\u0259li\u015fini g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. Saat doqquzu ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. Ad\u0259ti \u00fczr\u0259 o, doqquza i\u015fl\u0259mi\u015f art\u0131q m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259d\u0259 olard\u0131. Arvad onun s\u0259sin\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi. \u018fslind\u0259 qat\u0131qsatan\u0131n s\u0259si g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015f F\u0259rid\u0259 xala oyanar, amma o, \u201cqat\u0131q vaaar, t\u0259z\u0259 qat\u0131\u0131\u0131q!\u201d \u00a0– dey\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259y\u0259 s\u0259s salmay\u0131nca, yata\u011f\u0131ndan qalxmazd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Yumurtan\u0131 bol-bol duzlay\u0131b, \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259ksiz yedi. Stolun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki yumurta qab\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131randa yeyilm\u0259mi\u015f ikinci yumurtan\u0131 da qab\u0131qlarla birlikd\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, zibil vedr\u0259sin\u0259 atd\u0131. Saat art\u0131q ona qal\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Ged\u0259k, aaz, ged\u0259k yataq, bu g\u0259l\u0259n\u0259 ox\u015fam\u0131r \u2013 qat\u0131qsatan\u0131n daha g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 \u0259min olunca yataq ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7di…<\/p>\n

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R\u0259him ki\u015fi qap\u0131dan i\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259n kimi saat\u0131na baxd\u0131 – doqquza \u00fc\u00e7 d\u0259qiq\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yirdi. F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 d\u00fcz \u00fc\u00e7 d\u0259qiq\u0259 gecikmi\u015fdi. R\u0259him ki\u015fi n\u00f6vb\u0259 yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259z\u0259 oldu\u011funu n\u0259z\u0259r\u0259 almad\u0131:<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Gecikirs\u0259n aaa,.. arvad, gecikirs\u0259n! \u00c7al\u0131\u015f, i\u015f\u0259 vaxt\u0131nda g\u0259l!<\/p>\n

F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 bilirdi ki, \u00e7ox gecikib. \u00c7\u00fcnki evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xmam\u0131\u015f p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin qaba\u011f\u0131nda bir xeyli durub, h\u0259y\u0259ti seyr etmi\u015f, sonra da h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 l\u0259ngimi\u015fdi. N\u0259 sirriydis\u0259, qat\u0131qsatan\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xa bilmirdi. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 bil\u0259-bil\u0259 ki, onun g\u0259li\u015fin\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 az\u0131ndan onbe\u015f-iyirmi d\u0259qiq\u0259 var…<\/p>\n

F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259qiq adam\u0131yd\u0131, saat-zad g\u0259zdirm\u0259yi sevm\u0259z, vaxt\u0131 saats\u0131z da bil\u0259r, h\u0259tta yuxudan ist\u0259diyi vaxt durma\u011f\u0131 bel\u0259 bacarard\u0131. D\u00fcn\u0259n ax\u015famacan ar\u0131n-arxay\u0131n yatm\u0131\u015f, ax\u015fam\u00e7a\u011f\u0131 is\u0259 d\u00fcz saat alt\u0131da yata\u011f\u0131ndan qalx\u0131b, qon\u015fusu Dilb\u0259r\u0259 ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015fdi. Qap\u0131n\u0131n kandar\u0131ndaca s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdil\u0259r. F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 uzaq s\u0259f\u0259rd\u0259n qay\u0131d\u0131bm\u0131\u015f kimi evd\u0259 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir g\u00fcn \u0259rzind\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 n\u0259 yenilikl\u0259r oldu\u011fuyla maraqlanm\u0131\u015f, m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259d\u0259ki b\u00fct\u00fcn tan\u0131d\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 bir-bir soru\u015fmu\u015fdu. Dilb\u0259r d\u0259 hesabat verirmi\u015f kimi qon\u015fusunun b\u00fct\u00fcn suallar\u0131na t\u0259l\u0259sm\u0259d\u0259n cavab vermi\u015f, sonra is\u0259 F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259nin i\u015fiyl\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fc suallara ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259l-\u0259vv\u0259l k\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u0259 yatmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015feyl\u0259rd\u0259n ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f, R\u0259him ki\u015fid\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f, d\u00fcn\u0259n t\u0259z\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fu d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 R\u0259him ki\u015fi haqq\u0131nda \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n n\u0259l\u0259ri \u00a0ke\u00e7irmi\u015fdis\u0259, ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 oldu\u011fu kimi dilin\u0259 g\u0259timi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

…O\u011flunun m\u0259ktubunu oxuma\u011fa d\u00fcn\u0259n qald\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerd\u0259n davam etdi.<\/p>\n

\u201cAnam\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn m\u0259nas\u0131n\u0131 Tanyaya da ba\u015fa salm\u0131\u015fam. O u\u015fa\u011fa \u00f6z dill\u0259rin\u0259 uy\u011fyn \u201cAnna\u201d deyir.<\/p>\n

– Anam, Anam… Anna, – dey\u0259 F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 yenid\u0259n sol \u0259lind\u0259ki \u015f\u0259kli sif\u0259tind\u0259n xeyli uzaqla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b, gah el\u0259, gah da bel\u0259 tutaraq, iyn\u0259 saplay\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi diqq\u0259tl\u0259 baxma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Anna, Anna… \u00a0el\u0259c\u0259 Nazimin u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131d\u0131 ki durub. \u2013 Qalx\u0131b servant\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n ail\u0259 albomunu g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc, axtar\u0131b Nazimin bir ne\u00e7\u0259 u\u015faql\u0131q \u015f\u0259klini tapd\u0131. Annan\u0131n \u015f\u0259klini ortada qoydu, Nazimin \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rini onun \u0259traf\u0131na d\u00fczd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

– Bax, bax, aazz, eyn\u0259n Nazimdir, eyn\u0259n! \u2013 dey\u0259 kreslonun bir k\u00fcnc\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131. Sanki kims\u0259 \u00e7iyniyl\u0259 ona toxunub, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn baxmas\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir q\u0259d\u0259r k\u0259nara \u00e7\u0259kilm\u0259sini xahi\u015f edirdi.<\/p>\n

– Ox\u015fay\u0131r? – soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

– Ox\u015fay\u0131r da s\u00f6zd\u00fcr – cavab da verdi. – El\u0259 bil lap bir almad\u0131r, yar\u0131 b\u00f6l\u00fcbl\u0259r – p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259rini \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rd\u0259n ay\u0131rmadan m\u0259ktubu oxuma\u011fa davam el\u0259di: \u201c Qaynatam da, dostlar\u0131m da F\u0259rid\u0259ni Anna \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131rlar. Amma h\u0259rd\u0259n \u201cFarda\u201d da deyirl\u0259r. \u201cAnam\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn m\u0259nas\u0131n\u0131 bildiyind\u0259n qaynatam\u0131n ona \u201cmam\u0131\u00e7ka\u201d dem\u0259kd\u0259n d\u0259 xo\u015fu g\u0259lir\u201d…<\/p>\n

…F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 R\u0259him ki\u015finin az qala onun g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 soxdu\u011fu saat\u0131n\u0131n \u0259qr\u0259bl\u0259rinin s\u0259kkizi c\u0259mi \u00fc\u00e7 d\u0259qiq\u0259 ke\u00e7diyini g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc saxlaya bilm\u0259di:<\/p>\n

– Gecikirs\u0259n, gecikirs\u0259n, alt\u0131ayl\u0131q-zadsan b\u0259y\u0259m?! \u00dc\u00e7 d\u0259qiq\u0259 gec gets\u0259n, x\u0259nc\u0259rinin qa\u015f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259z ki!<\/p>\n

R\u0259him ki\u015fi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 bab adama rast g\u0259ldiyini g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259ti uzatmaq ist\u0259m\u0259di:<\/p>\n

– Yax\u015f\u0131, yax\u015f\u0131, ay arvad, s\u00f6z g\u00fcl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259, m\u0259nim s\u0259ninl\u0259 \u00e7\u0259n\u0259 d\u00f6ym\u0259y\u0259 vaxt\u0131m yoxdur. G\u0259l, n\u00f6vb\u0259ni t\u0259hvil g\u00f6t\u00fcr \u2013 dey\u0259 dizl\u0259rin\u0259 dayaqlan\u0131b, aya\u011fa durdu. D\u00fcn\u0259n t\u0259hvil g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, qol \u00e7\u0259kdiyi kimi, bu g\u00fcn d\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyi birc\u0259-birc\u0259 t\u0259hvil verib, jurnal\u0131 F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259nin qaba\u011f\u0131na it\u0259l\u0259di. Stolun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki kitab\u0131 siyirm\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131\u011f\u0131 komandir portfelin\u0259, portfeli d\u0259 yem\u0259k g\u0259tirdiyi \u0259l \u00e7antas\u0131na qoydu.<\/p>\n

– Diqq\u0259tli ol! – dey\u0259 son tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 verib, yataqxanadan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259nin diqq\u0259tini onun komandir \u00e7antas\u0131 c\u0259lb el\u0259mi\u015fdi. Nazim h\u0259rbi m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 oxuyandan b\u0259ri h\u0259rb\u00e7il\u0259r\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259tl\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131r, b\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259rbi verili\u015fl\u0259r\u0259 maraqla bax\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259rb\u00e7i \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259n sonra R\u0259him ki\u015fiy\u0259 d\u0259 mara\u011f\u0131 yarand\u0131. Komendant g\u0259l\u0259n kimi onu R\u0259him ki\u015fi bar\u0259d\u0259 sor\u011fu-suala tutdu. M\u0259lum oldu ki, R\u0259him ki\u015fi do\u011frudan da h\u0259rb\u00e7i olub, \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn otuz ilini rus ordusunda xidm\u0259t edib, polkovnik r\u00fctb\u0259sin\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r y\u00fcks\u0259lib, t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xandan sonra v\u0259t\u0259n\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131b, dar\u0131xmas\u0131n dey\u0259 yataqxanada n\u00f6vb\u0259t\u00e7i d\u00fcz\u0259lib. Komendant\u0131n dediyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, i\u015f\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259ldiyi el\u0259 ilk g\u00fcnd\u0259n yataqxanada h\u0259rbi qayda-qanun, s\u0259liq\u0259- s\u0259hman yaratma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131b. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 t\u0259bi\u0259tc\u0259 s\u0259rt v\u0259 son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 ciddi olan bu adam\u0131 ilk vaxtlar he\u00e7 k\u0259s sevm\u0259yib, amma sonralar hal\u0131na-xasiyy\u0259tin\u0259 b\u0259l\u0259d olduqca, daxil\u0259n n\u0259cib, \u00fcr\u0259yiyum\u015faq, sad\u0259 v\u0259 \u0259n ba\u015fl\u0131cas\u0131 da m\u0259rdan\u0259 oldu\u011funu bildikc\u0259 ham\u0131 ona q\u0259lb\u0259n ba\u011flan\u0131b. Komendant\u0131n dediyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, o, m\u0259hz R\u0259him ki\u015finin say\u0259sind\u0259 yataqxanada qayda-qanun yarada bilib.<\/p>\n

…F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259y\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, n\u00f6vb\u0259 yolda\u015f\u0131 gecikir, amma R\u0259him ki\u015fi vaxt\u0131nda g\u0259ldi. Arvad bu g\u00fcn n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 ev\u0259 getm\u0259y\u0259 he\u00e7 t\u0259l\u0259smirdi. Komendant\u0131n d\u00fcn\u0259nki s\u00f6hb\u0259tind\u0259n sonra n\u00f6vb\u0259 yolda\u015f\u0131yla daha \u00e7ox \u00fcnsiyy\u0259td\u0259 olmaq, daha \u00e7ox s\u00f6hb\u0259t el\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. Bir n\u00f6v onda o\u011flunu g\u00f6r\u00fcr, o\u011flunun qocal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 R\u0259him ki\u015finin simas\u0131nda t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr edirdi. Amma R\u0259him ki\u015fi ona s\u00f6hb\u0259t \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u015f\u0259rait yaratmad\u0131. Sanki bu ki\u015fiyl\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 h\u0259r \u015fey m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n bir plan \u00e7\u0259r\u00e7iv\u0259sind\u0259 getdi: proseduraya uy\u011fun olaraq avadanl\u0131q, s\u0259liq\u0259-s\u0259hman t\u0259hvil verilib, t\u0259hvil g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcld\u00fc; jurnala qol \u00e7\u0259kildi; F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 da g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, qap\u0131n\u0131 bay\u0131r t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n ba\u011flad\u0131; R\u0259him ki\u015finin yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcrat \u00a0alt\u0131nda yataqxanadan uzaqla\u015fd\u0131. S\u0131x\u0131nt\u0131dan qurtulsun dey\u0259 i\u015f yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 unutmaq ist\u0259yirdi ki, qat\u0131qsatan yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Dilb\u0259r onun d\u00fcn\u0259n d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259diyini demi\u015fdi. Ev\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sdi ki, b\u0259lk\u0259, bu g\u00fcn qat\u0131qsatandan bir x\u0259b\u0259r tuta.<\/p>\n

Pay\u0131z \u00e7oxdan qurtarm\u0131\u015f, q\u0131\u015fdan da xeyli ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. Amma n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0131\u015f\u0131n g\u0259ldiyi hiss olunmur, havalar yazda oldu\u011fu kimi g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fli, isti ke\u00e7irdi. F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi. H\u0259tta onunla q\u0131saca s\u00f6hb\u0259ti d\u0259 olurdu.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 H\u0259, g\u0259lmis\u0259n?! Sabah\u0131n xeyir, sabah\u0131 g\u0259tirdiyin yerd\u0259 – sonra da giley\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259rdi:<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Noolard\u0131 ki, bir g\u00fcn m\u0259nimkil\u0259ri d\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259s\u0259n – p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259ri a\u00e7\u0131b, kimis\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259ri burax\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi xo\u015fg\u0259ldin ed\u0259rdi:<\/p>\n

– G\u0259l g\u00f6r\u00fcm, g\u0259l, xo\u015f g\u0259ldin!..<\/p>\n

Bu g\u00fcn bozumtul bir bulud G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi arxas\u0131nda gizl\u0259ts\u0259 d\u0259, \u0259l-aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 y\u0131\u011fa bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u00a0Amma \u015fimaldan bir-birinin ard\u0131nca axan buludlar g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin s\u0259mada b\u0259rq vuran sa\u00e7aqlar\u0131n\u0131 da Bak\u0131ya \u00e7ox g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fs\u0259 aray\u0131b-axtar\u0131b azac\u0131q da olsa \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 bir \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f yeri tap\u0131r, q\u0131z\u0131l r\u0259ngli \u015f\u00f6l\u0259l\u0259rini X\u0259z\u0259r\u0259, Bak\u0131n\u0131n q\u0259dimi binalar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 yay\u0131rd\u0131…<\/p>\n

F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 q\u0131\u015f, yaz dem\u0259z, istiy\u0259, soyu\u011fa baxmaz, yataqdan qalxan kimi h\u0259r g\u00fcn m\u0259tb\u0259xin h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 baxan p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rini a\u00e7ar, otaqlar\u0131n balkona t\u0259r\u0259f olan qap\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 aral\u0131 qoyub, evin havas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259rdi. Sonra da aynab\u0259ndd\u0259 oturub, saatlarla h\u0259y\u0259ti seyr ed\u0259r, \u00f6z x\u0259yali r\u0259fiq\u0259siyl\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259rdi. \u018fslin\u0259 qalsa, n\u0259n\u0259nin x\u0259yal\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259hsulu olan r\u0259fiq\u0259si el\u0259 onun \u00f6z\u00fc, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, qara\u00e7uxas\u0131 idi. Amma h\u0259r kim olur-olsun, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc onsuz t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr ed\u0259 bilmirdi. B\u00fct\u00fcn m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 onunla m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259\u015f\u0259r, h\u0259r i\u015find\u0259 onu n\u0259z\u0259r\u0259 alar, h\u0259tta bazarl\u0131q ed\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 b\u0259y\u0259nib-b\u0259y\u0259nm\u0259diyini soru\u015far, onunla hesabla\u015fard\u0131. Ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015feyi qaytaranda da – yox, yox, xo\u015fumuza g\u0259lm\u0259di. Bu, biz\u0259 uy\u011fun deyil \u2013 dey\u0259 iki n\u0259f\u0259rin ad\u0131ndan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. B\u0259z\u0259n d\u0259 ona \u00a0hirsl\u0259n\u0259r, qar\u011f\u0131\u015f ed\u0259r, bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t onunla dan\u0131\u015fmaz, k\u00fcs\u00fc saxlar, amma bu \u00e7ox da uzun \u00e7\u0259km\u0259zdi. El\u0259 h\u0259min o q\u0259z\u0259bli d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 bel\u0259 bar\u0131\u015fma\u011fa b\u0259han\u0259 axtarar, f\u00fcrs\u0259t tapan kimi b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcnahlar\u0131 onun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 y\u0131x\u0131b, ax\u0131rda da, – yax\u015f\u0131, g\u0259l bar\u0131\u015faq!, – dey\u0259 s\u00fclh elan ed\u0259rdi…<\/p>\n

… Ev\u0259 gir\u0259n kimi p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259ri a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f, amma onu h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdi. O, F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 televizoru yand\u0131r\u0131nca g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Amma n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 ad\u0259ti \u00fczr\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131b m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259ni oyatm\u0131r, m\u00fc\u015ft\u0259ril\u0259rini s\u0259sl\u0259mirdi, el\u0259 bil fa\u011f\u0131r\u0131n s\u0259si batm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00c7antas\u0131ndak\u0131 s\u00fcd, qat\u0131q dolu bankalar\u0131 s\u0259kinin q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131na d\u00fcz\u00fcb, \u0259lini aln\u0131na qoyub, yuxar\u0131 m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Aazz, s\u0259si batm\u0131\u015f, noolub, s\u0259sin niy\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131r? \u00a0– F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb\u00fcn\u00fc gizl\u0259m\u0259di. Arvad\u0131n sual\u0131na qat\u0131qsatan cavab verm\u0259di.<\/p>\n

– F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259, bir \u015fey laz\u0131md\u0131r, g\u0259tirim? \u2013 dey\u0259 suala sualla cavab verdi. Arvad qat\u0131qsatan\u0131n \u0259hval\u0131ndak\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fikliyi d\u0259rhal hiss etdi – x\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 s\u0259si g\u00fccl\u0259 e\u015fidilirdi. Sual\u0131na cavab almaqda inad g\u00f6st\u0259rdi:<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Aazz, n\u0259yindir? G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 bir t\u0259h\u0259r d\u0259yirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 He\u00e7, F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259, soyuqlam\u0131\u015fam bir az.<\/p>\n

M\u00fc\u015ft\u0259ril\u0259ri qat\u0131qsatana yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131lar. Onlar \u00f6z alverl\u0259rini edib qurtar\u0131nca F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kilm\u0259di. Qat\u0131qsatan yerd\u0259 qalan bankalar\u0131 \u00e7antas\u0131na qoyub, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yuxar\u0131 tutdu:<\/p>\n

– Yax\u015f\u0131, F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259, gedim g\u00f6r\u00fcm qalanlar\u0131n\u0131 da o biri m\u0259hl\u0259d\u0259 sata bilir\u0259m – dey\u0259 dolu \u00e7antalar\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131rd\u0131. Amma bir-iki add\u0131m atmam\u0131\u015f ba\u015f\u0131 gic\u0259ll\u0259ndi, \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 yer\u0259 qoyub, dizl\u0259rin\u0259 dayaqland\u0131 v\u0259 el\u0259 \u0259yili v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259c\u0259 qald\u0131. N\u0259f\u0259si \u00e7atm\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi acg\u00f6zl\u00fckl\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131rd\u0131. S\u00fcd alaca\u011f\u0131 F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259nin sanki indi yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc:<\/p>\n

– Aazz, hara t\u0259l\u0259sirs\u0259n? B\u0259s, m\u0259n s\u00fcd alacaqd\u0131m ax\u0131 – dey\u0259 ucadan s\u0259sl\u0259ndi. Qat\u0131qsatan yer\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcb, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7\u0259pin\u0259 yuxar\u0131 tutdu:<\/p>\n

– Ne\u00e7\u0259 kiloluq ist\u0259yirs\u0259n? – soru\u015fdu. F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259ft\u0259d\u0259 bir, ya da iki d\u0259f\u0259 a\u011fart\u0131 alard\u0131. Onda da qat\u0131qsatan \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259c\u0259 qoyub, bankalar\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259y\u0259, m\u00fc\u015ft\u0259risinin m\u0259nzilin\u0259 qald\u0131rard\u0131. Bu g\u00fcn onun a\u011fart\u0131 almaq niyy\u0259ti yoxuydu, sad\u0259c\u0259, qat\u0131qsatana ac\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan onun v\u0259ziyy\u0259tini y\u00fcng\u00fcll\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi:<\/p>\n

– Dayan, dayan, \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u00fc\u015f\u0259r\u0259m. Onsuz da \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259y\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259kdim – arvad g\u0259nc q\u0131z \u00e7evikliyi il\u0259 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 y\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fc. Qat\u0131qsatan \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda yer\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcb g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 d\u00fcz onun\u00a0 g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin i\u00e7in\u0259 baxd\u0131. Yaz\u011f\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n sanki alov \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131 – q\u0131pq\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 q\u0131zarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Arvad onunla \u00fczb\u0259\u00fcz c\u00f6m\u0259ltm\u0259 oturub, \u0259linin arxas\u0131n\u0131 qat\u0131qsatan\u0131n aln\u0131nda g\u0259zdirdi:<\/p>\n

– S\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 oldu, ay q\u0131z? Q\u0131zd\u0131rma s\u0259ni apar\u0131r ki! – \u0259lini qat\u0131qsatan\u0131n \u00e7iyinl\u0259rind\u0259n s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcr\u00fcb, onun \u0259ll\u0259rini ovuclar\u0131na ald\u0131:<\/p>\n

– N\u0259 olub s\u0259n\u0259, bu hal\u0131nla k\u00fcc\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcs\u0259n? Evind\u0259 otursana!<\/p>\n

Qat\u0131qsatan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc s\u0131nd\u0131rmad\u0131:<\/p>\n

– Eh, F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259, evd\u0259 oturanda daha da a\u011f\u0131rla\u015f\u0131ram. M\u0259n qripi el\u0259 ayaq \u00fcst\u0259 ke\u00e7irir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– Dur, dur, q\u0131z, ged\u0259k ev\u0259, zo\u011fal m\u00fcr\u0259bb\u0259siyl\u0259 bir st\u0259kan \u00e7ay i\u00e7ib ged\u0259rs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Qat\u0131qsatan h\u0259l\u0259 mal\u0131n\u0131 x\u0131r\u0131d el\u0259m\u0259mi\u015fdi dey\u0259 etiraz ets\u0259 d\u0259, F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259di, qolundan tutub, t\u0259kidl\u0259 yuxar\u0131 qald\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259n kimi h\u0259l\u0259 ayaqqab\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 soyunmam\u0131\u015f:<\/p>\n

– S\u0259nin ad\u0131n n\u0259dir, q\u0131z? – dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

– Tahir\u0259 – dey\u0259 qat\u0131qsatan paltosunu soyunmadan ev sahib\u0259sinin ard\u0131nca i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7di. F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 ona oturmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yer g\u00f6st\u0259rib, m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7di:<\/p>\n

– Ay q\u0131z, Sahir\u0259, el\u0259 buna g\u00f6r\u0259 iki g\u00fcn\u00fcyd\u00fc ki, g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcrd\u00fcn? – m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259n F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259nin e\u015fidildi. Bir d\u0259qiq\u0259 ke\u00e7m\u0259di ki, bir \u0259lind\u0259 \u00e7ayla dolu st\u0259kan, o bir \u0259lind\u0259 m\u00fcr\u0259bb\u0259qab\u0131 ota\u011fa qay\u0131td\u0131. Tahir\u0259 onun sual\u0131na cavab verm\u0259mi\u015f ev sahib\u0259sinin s\u0259hvini d\u00fcz\u0259ltdi:<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Sahir\u0259 yox, F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259, Tahir\u0259.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 N\u0259.. Sahir\u0259?.. H\u0259, h\u0259, el\u0259 Sahir\u0259 deyir\u0259m d\u0259…<\/p>\n

Tahir\u0259 onu ba\u015fa sala bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yini, buna h\u00f6vs\u0259l\u0259sinin \u00e7atmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb, sual\u0131n cavab\u0131na ke\u00e7di:<\/p>\n

– Yox, ay F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259, yox. T\u0259ki el\u0259 x\u0259st\u0259 oldu\u011fum \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259ydim.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0 Aazz, n\u0259 olub b\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259? \u00a0\u2013 ev sahib\u0259si ona daha da yax\u0131n oturdu.<\/p>\n

– Erm\u0259nil\u0259r,.. erm\u0259nil\u0259r qarda\u015f\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcbl\u0259r, F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259! \u00a0\u2013 el\u0259 bil g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 ovcunun i\u00e7ind\u0259ydi.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 N\u0259\u0259, qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcbl\u0259r?!<\/p>\n

Tahir\u0259 anlatd\u0131 ki, erm\u0259nil\u0259r tez-tez Qaraba\u011f\u0131n k\u0259ndl\u0259ri,\u00a0 rayonlar\u0131na silahl\u0131 h\u00fccumlar edir, \u0259haliy\u0259 divan tutur, var-yoxlar\u0131n\u0131 \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n al\u0131b apar\u0131rlar. Onlara qar\u015f\u0131 \u0259liyal\u0131n, t\u0259sad\u00fcfi halda ov t\u00fcf\u0259ngiyl\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xan az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131lar\u0131 is\u0259 rus h\u0259rb\u00e7il\u0259rinin k\u00f6m\u0259kliyi il\u0259 qan\u0131na q\u0259ltan edirl\u0259r. Bir d\u0259f\u0259, iki d\u0259f\u0259, ax\u0131r\u0131 Tahir\u0259nin qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259bri t\u00fck\u0259nir, \u00a0k\u0259nd cavanlar\u0131ndan ki\u00e7ik bir d\u0259st\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259ldir ki, k\u0259ndl\u0259rini erm\u0259ni quldurlar\u0131ndan qorusunlar…<\/p>\n

Tahir\u0259 sakitl\u0259\u015fm\u0259k bilmirdi. Erm\u0259nil\u0259rin t\u00f6r\u0259tdiyi cinay\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qca daha da co\u015fur, g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sel kimi t\u00f6k\u00fcrd\u00fc. Ev sahib\u0259si a\u011flay\u0131b y\u00fcng\u00fcll\u0259\u015fsin dey\u0259 qona\u011f\u0131 sakitl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259y\u0259 c\u0259hd g\u00f6st\u0259rmir, onun dedikl\u0259rin\u0259 heyr\u0259t i\u00e7ind\u0259 qulaq as\u0131rd\u0131. Inana bilmirdi ki, bu g\u00fcn o\u011flunun da xidm\u0259t etdiyi, R\u0259him ki\u015finin \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc qoydu\u011fu rus ordusu erm\u0259nil\u0259rl\u0259 birl\u0259\u015fib, az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131lara qar\u015f\u0131 bel\u0259 \u0259dal\u0259tsizliy\u0259 yol ver\u0259 bil\u0259r..<\/p>\n

Tahir\u0259 \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7m\u0259d\u0259n aya\u011fa durdu, sanki bura d\u0259rdini dem\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 onu saxlamad\u0131, amma s\u00fcd-qat\u0131\u011f\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259yini dedi. D\u0259rhal da \u0259l \u00e7antas\u0131ndan pul \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b, Tahir\u0259nin etiraz\u0131na baxmayaraq, ald\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131n haqq\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6d\u0259di. \u0130\u015f g\u00fcnl\u0259rini Tahir\u0259y\u0259 bildirib, bundan sonra qalan mal\u0131n\u0131 yataqxanaya g\u0259tirm\u0259sini t\u0259klif etdi. \u00d6z\u00fc sat\u0131b, pulunu ert\u0259si g\u00fcn ver\u0259c\u0259kdi…<\/p>\n

Yuxusu qa\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131, yem\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi. D\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259n stolun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 qalan \u015f\u0259kill\u0259ri g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, kart paylay\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi b\u00f6lm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Nazimin h\u0259l\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 olanda h\u0259rbi formada \u00e7\u0259kdirdiyi \u015f\u0259kill\u0259ri yana\u015f\u0131 d\u00fczd\u00fc. O\u011flunun \u015f\u0259kli t\u0259k, o\u011flunun \u015f\u0259kli bir \u00a0ne\u00e7\u0259 dostuyla birlikd\u0259, bir d\u0259 o\u011flunun\u00a0 da s\u0131rada durdu\u011fu alay,\u00a0 o\u011flu rus \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259riyl\u0259 birlikd\u0259… \u00a0Bak\u0131n\u0131n k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 y\u00fczl\u0259rl\u0259 g\u00fcnahs\u0131z insan\u0131 qan\u0131na q\u0259ltan ed\u0259n \u201chumanist\u201d sovet ordusu! Qaraba\u011fda erm\u0259nil\u0259rin t\u00f6r\u0259tdikl\u0259ri says\u0131z-hesabs\u0131z cinay\u0259tl\u0259r\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259n, erm\u0259ni d\u0259yirman\u0131na su t\u00f6k\u0259n sovet ordusu…<\/p>\n

Nazim h\u0259l\u0259 lap u\u015faql\u0131qdan \u0259sg\u0259r olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 deyir, b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fckc\u0259 komandir, sonralar is\u0259 general olma\u011f\u0131 arzulay\u0131rd\u0131. Onun bu arzusuna atas\u0131 da, F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 sevinirdil\u0259r. \u018fn \u00e7ox ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, o, h\u0259rb\u0259 v\u0259t\u0259ni qorumaq m\u0259qs\u0259diyl\u0259 maraq g\u00f6st\u0259rirdi. Amma onun inand\u0131\u011f\u0131, b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u0259ncliyini, bacar\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259sr etdiyi ordu indi erm\u0259ni quldurlar\u0131na k\u00f6m\u0259k edir, v\u0259t\u0259nini d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n\u0259 sat\u0131rd\u0131…<\/p>\n

\u201cAnacan, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 g\u0259linc\u0259, m\u0259n d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131yam. \u0130\u015fl\u0259rim d\u0259 lap \u0259la gedir. \u0130ndi art\u0131q rota komandiriy\u0259m, r\u00fctb\u0259m d\u0259 kapitand\u0131r\u201d.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ka\u015f n\u0259 komandir olayd\u0131n, n\u0259 d\u0259 kapitan. \u018fsg\u0259r olayd\u0131n, o\u011flum, s\u0131ravi \u0259sg\u0259r. Amma v\u0259t\u0259nd\u0259, Az\u0259rbaycanda olayd\u0131n…<\/p>\n

\u201cAnacan, m\u0259n\u0259 burada \u00e7ox qay\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259rirl\u0259r. Yax\u015f\u0131 bir h\u0259rb\u00e7i, savadl\u0131 m\u00fct\u0259x\u0259ssis kimi h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259t edirl\u0259r\u201d.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Hans\u0131 h\u00f6rm\u0259td\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan, ay o\u011ful, ay s\u0259n\u0259 qurban olum?! El\u0259 s\u0259nin ordunun \u0259liyl\u0259 Bak\u0131n\u0131n k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rini qana boyamad\u0131larm\u0131?!<\/p>\n

\u201cKomandirl\u0259rim d\u0259 m\u0259nim g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yim\u0259 inan\u0131rlar. \u0130n\u015fallah, tezlikl\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131nda g\u0259nc bir general g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n\u201d.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ka\u015f, general yox, \u0259sg\u0259r g\u00f6r\u0259ydim, o\u011ful, adi, s\u0131ravi \u0259sg\u0259r. Amma l\u0259yaq\u0259tli, v\u0259t\u0259ninin qeyr\u0259tini c\u0259km\u0259yi bacaran, yeri g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 onun u\u011frunda \u00f6lm\u0259y\u0259 layiq olan, buna c\u0259sar\u0259ti \u00e7atan m\u0259rd bir \u0259sg\u0259r! – g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sildi.<\/p>\n

\u201cAnacan, yax\u0131n g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 xaric\u0259 ezamiyy\u0259t\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259m. \u018fsg\u0259rl\u0259rimizi xarici \u00f6lk\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcrm\u0259liyik\u201d.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ka\u015f, s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn d\u0259 \u00f6z v\u0259t\u0259nin\u0259 qay\u0131dayd\u0131n…<\/p>\n

\u201cOla bilsin ki, bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t s\u0259ninl\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259 saxlaya bilm\u0259yim. Dar\u0131xma, Allah qoysa, qay\u0131dan kimi z\u0259ng ed\u0259c\u0259m\u201d.<\/p>\n

– Allah qoysun, can bala, Allah qoysun. Amma qurban oldu\u011fum n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t bilmir, bizi s\u0131na\u011fa \u00e7\u0259kir\u2026<\/p>\n

Qap\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcld\u00fc. G\u0259l\u0259n Dilb\u0259riydi. F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 gec\u0259ni i\u015fd\u0259 oldu\u011fundan yatmasa da, b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc yatmaq fikri yoxuydu. \u018fvv\u0259l qon\u015fusuyla, sonra x\u0259yali r\u0259fiq\u0259siyl\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t el\u0259di. He\u00e7 vaxt \u015fikay\u0259tl\u0259nm\u0259diyi taleyind\u0259n, he\u00e7 v\u0259d\u0259 gileyl\u0259nm\u0259diyi o\u011flundan naraz\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bildirdi. A\u011flad\u0131. Yetmi\u015f illik h\u0259yat\u0131nda he\u00e7 k\u0259sin g\u00f6rm\u0259diyi g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 ax\u0131td\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

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R\u0259him ki\u015fiyl\u0259 art\u0131q dostla\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Ke\u00e7mi\u015f h\u0259rb\u00e7i daha F\u0259rid\u0259 xala i\u015f\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n kimi n\u00f6vb\u0259ni t\u0259hvil verib ev\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259smir, oturub az\u0131 yar\u0131m saat s\u00f6hb\u0259t el\u0259yir, \u00f6z h\u0259yat\u0131ndan, ke\u00e7mi\u015fd\u0259n-ke\u00e7\u0259c\u0259kd\u0259n \u00a0dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc haqq\u0131nda, o\u011flu bar\u0259d\u0259 R\u0259him ki\u015finin b\u00fct\u00fcn suallar\u0131na h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259 cavab verir, Nazimin tez-tez z\u0259ng el\u0259diyind\u0259n, m\u0259ktubu m\u0259ktuba calad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, h\u0259r ay\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda ona pul g\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259sind\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. S\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259rinin ba\u015f\u0131-aya\u011f\u0131 z\u0259man\u0259nin d\u00f6n\u00fckl\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n \u015fikay\u0259tiydi. R\u0259him ki\u015fi sovet ordusunun erm\u0259nil\u0259rl\u0259 birg\u0259 Qaraba\u011fda t\u00f6r\u0259tdikl\u0259rin\u0259 he\u00e7 c\u00fcr inana bilmir, 20 Yanvarda Bak\u0131da ba\u015f ver\u0259n hadis\u0259l\u0259ri anla\u015f\u0131lmazl\u0131q adland\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Etiraf etm\u0259y\u0259 c\u0259sar\u0259ti \u00e7atmasa da, h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 rus ordusuna verdiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn q\u0259lbinin d\u0259rinlikl\u0259rind\u0259 ba\u015f qald\u0131rm\u0131\u015f t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf hissi g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n ayd\u0131nca oxunurdu.<\/p>\n

Son g\u00fcnl\u0259r daha s\u0259liq\u0259li geyinir, sanki ac\u0131q verirmi\u015f kimi h\u0259rbi xidm\u0259td\u0259 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 medallar\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn simvollar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 tax\u0131rd\u0131. Getdikc\u0259 daha da qaraqabaqla\u015f\u0131r, tez-tez \u00fcr\u0259yini tuturdu. Amma he\u00e7 vaxt he\u00e7 n\u0259d\u0259n \u015fikay\u0259tl\u0259nmir, \u00fcr\u0259yinin a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 boynuna alm\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

…R\u0259him ki\u015fi F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7ox ay\u0131q yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 demi\u015f, amma g\u00f6z\u00fca\u00e7\u0131q yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 dem\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u0130ndi onu bel\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259, arvad R\u0259him ki\u015finin o vaxt el\u0259 bel\u0259c\u0259, g\u00f6z\u00fca\u00e7\u0131q yatmas\u0131n\u0131 n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259 tutdu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Amma t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb etdi. Ad\u0259ti \u00fczr\u0259 F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r R\u0259him ki\u015fi tam haz\u0131r olar, foyed\u0259 var-g\u0259l ed\u0259-ed\u0259 onu g\u00f6zl\u0259r, n\u00f6vb\u0259 yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ayaq \u00fcst\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131layard\u0131. Amma n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 indi oturdu\u011fu stulun s\u00f6yk\u0259n\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 y\u00fcng\u00fclc\u0259 dayaqlan\u0131b, \u0259ll\u0259rini d\u0259 \u015fagird kimi stolun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qo\u015fa qoymu\u015f, n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rini tavanda m\u0259chul bir n\u00f6qt\u0259y\u0259 zill\u0259yib, g\u00f6z\u00fca\u00e7\u0131q yatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 ne\u00e7\u0259 vaxt\u0131n narahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131na, yor\u011funlu\u011funa tab g\u0259tirm\u0259yib, n\u0259hay\u0259t, ki\u015finin el\u0259 i\u015f ba\u015f\u0131ndaca yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n, oyad\u0131b onu narahat el\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259di. Cantas\u0131n\u0131 astaca stulun ciyinliyin\u0259 kecirib, R\u0259him ki\u015finin \u00f6yr\u0259tdiyi qayda \u00fczr\u0259 n\u00f6vb\u0259ni q\u0259bul etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. H\u0259r \u015fey qaydas\u0131ndayd\u0131. S\u0259ssizc\u0259 g\u0259lib, n\u00f6vb\u0259 yolda\u015f\u0131yla \u00fczb\u0259\u00fcz oturdu. \u201cG\u00f6r nec\u0259 yor\u011fundur ki, h\u0259l\u0259m-h\u0259l\u0259m oyana bilmir\u201d – dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

– Dur, dur, ay ki\u015fi, dur, gedib evd\u0259 rahatca yatarsan \u2013 narahat olma\u011fa ba\u015flayan F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131yla s\u0259sl\u0259ndi. Ki\u015fid\u0259n bir s\u0259s \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131n ucunda x\u0259fifc\u0259 onun sin\u0259sin\u0259 toxundu:<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 R\u0259him ki\u015fi, ay R\u0259him ki\u015fi!..<\/p>\n

R\u0259him ki\u015fi sanki heyk\u0259liydi – sin\u0259sini azca ir\u0259li verib, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 dik tutmu\u015f, buz kimi soyuq g\u00f6zl\u0259rini tavana dikmi\u015fdi. F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 xoflanma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131:<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 R\u0259him, R\u0259him! – dey\u0259 yerind\u0259 dik\u0259ldi, ir\u0259li dart\u0131l\u0131b, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini ki\u015finin azac\u0131q n\u0259md\u0259n par-par parlayan, art\u0131q r\u0259ngini itirm\u0259kd\u0259 olan g\u00f6y g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin i\u00e7in\u0259 zill\u0259di:<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 R\u0259him, s\u0259nn\u0259n d\u00f6y\u00fcl\u0259m, R\u0259him?.. Aaa.. bu ki\u015fiy\u0259 n\u0259 oldu?! \u2013 penc\u0259yinin yaxal\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan tutub silk\u0259l\u0259di. Daya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 itiribmi\u015f kimi R\u0259him ki\u015finin boynu arxaya axd\u0131, qollar\u0131 stolun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, yanlar\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 onun art\u0131q \u00e7oxdan h\u0259yat ni\u015fan\u0259sini itirmi\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin d\u0259rinliyind\u0259n bir \u00f6l\u00fc boyland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 R\u0259him… R\u0259him! \u2013 oturaca\u011fa \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc. \u018fll\u0259rini a\u011fz\u0131na bas\u0131b, lal bir h\u00f6nk\u00fcrt\u00fcyl\u0259 a\u011flad\u0131… R\u0259him ki\u015fi \u0259sl h\u0259rb\u00e7i kimi ayaq \u00fcst\u0259, i\u015f ba\u015f\u0131nda, m\u0259\u011frurcas\u0131na \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Bir azdan sonra komendant g\u0259ldi. Yataqxanan\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn sakinl\u0259ri birinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259ki foyey\u0259 ax\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. T\u0259cili yard\u0131m ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Ki\u015fini ehmalca stuldan qald\u0131r\u0131b, x\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 uzatd\u0131lar. F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b, onun b\u00f6yr\u00fcnd\u0259c\u0259 c\u00f6m\u0259ltm\u0259 oturdu. Titr\u0259k \u0259ll\u0259rini x\u0259fifc\u0259 aln\u0131ndan sif\u0259tin\u0259 do\u011fru s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcr\u00fcb, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini qapad\u0131. Penc\u0259yinin \u00e7iyinl\u0259rini dart\u0131b, yerin\u0259 otuzdurdu. G\u00f6mg\u00f6y\u00a0 damarlar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015f \u0259ll\u0259rini sin\u0259sin\u0259, yaxal\u0131\u011f\u0131na do\u011fru s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcrd\u00fc. Xidm\u0259tl\u0259ri m\u00fcqabilind\u0259 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 medallar\u0131n\u0131n simvollar\u0131n\u0131 yerind\u0259 rahlad\u0131…<\/p>\n

H\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 sovet ordusuna h\u0259sr etmi\u015f, polkovnik r\u00fctb\u0259sin\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r y\u00fcks\u0259lmi\u015f R\u0259him ki\u015finin \u00f6m\u00fcr yolu bel\u0259 sona yetdi. Q\u00fcdr\u0259tin\u0259 v\u0259 \u0259dal\u0259tin\u0259 inand\u0131\u011f\u0131 orduda xidm\u0259td\u0259n q\u00fcrur duyan rus \u0259sg\u0259rinin \u00f6mr\u00fc Az\u0259rbaycan Politologiya institutunun yataqxanas\u0131nda bitdi…<\/p>\n

…V\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini g\u00f6z\u00fc yolda qalm\u0131\u015f, o\u011flu rus ordusunda xidm\u0259t ed\u0259n, onun getdiyi yolu ged\u0259n bir rus ordusu zabitinin az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131 anas\u0131 qapad\u0131…<\/p>\n

…Tabutunu is\u0259 az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131larla birlikd\u0259 m\u00fcxt\u0259lif respublikalardan Az\u0259rbaycana oxuma\u011fa g\u0259lmi\u015f t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259l\u0259r qald\u0131rd\u0131…<\/p>\n

F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 i\u015fd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xmaq haqq\u0131nda \u0259riz\u0259 vermi\u015fdi. O, d\u0259rdl\u0259rini unutmaq, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131rmaq m\u0259qs\u0259diyl\u0259 i\u015f\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259lmi\u015fdi, amma \u0259ksin\u0259 oldu. Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki, evd\u0259 oturub \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn, x\u0259yali r\u0259fiq\u0259sinin, o\u011flunun, qon\u015fular\u0131n\u0131n, ki\u00e7ik m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259sinin fikrini \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k b\u00fct\u00fcn c\u0259miyy\u0259tin d\u0259rdini \u00e7\u0259km\u0259kd\u0259n daha asand\u0131r… Komendant\u0131n \u0259riz\u0259ni q\u0259bul edib- \u00a0etm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 baxmayaraq, q\u0259ti fikrini bildirib, yataqxanan\u0131 t\u0259rk etdi.<\/p>\n

\u201cS\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn burnumun ucu g\u00f6yn\u0259yir, anacan! S\u0259n\u0259 qurban olum, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc qoru!..\u201d<\/p>\n

…Qap\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcld\u00fc. F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 sonuncu c\u00fcml\u0259l\u0259ri bitirm\u0259yib, m\u0259ktubu stolun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu. G\u0259l\u0259n po\u00e7talyonuydu. Yaz\u0131q arvad qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131na pe\u015fman oldu. O daha po\u00e7talyondan he\u00e7 n\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259mir, amma h\u0259r onu g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259n sonra bir g\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259 bilmirdi. Bir s\u00f6z dem\u0259d\u0259n qap\u0131n\u0131n kandar\u0131nda durub, po\u00e7talyonun n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259yini, indi kimi soru\u015faca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. Po\u00e7talyonunsa sanki dili tutulmu\u015fdu, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri od tutub yan\u0131r, bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 alov sa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131. Titr\u0259k \u0259lind\u0259ki m\u0259ktubu bir q\u0259d\u0259r ir\u0259li uzad\u0131b:<\/p>\n

– F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259, F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259, F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259! \u2013 s\u0259sl\u0259ndi. Daha bir s\u00f6z dey\u0259 bilm\u0259di. F\u0259rid\u0259 xala onun ya\u015fdan dolmu\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259, \u0259lind\u0259ki m\u0259ktuba bax\u0131b, qeyri-ixtiyari bir add\u0131m geri atd\u0131:<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M\u0259ktub, m\u0259ktub kim\u0259dir?! – x\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259 soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

– Nazimd\u0259ndir, F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259, Nazimd\u0259n!<\/p>\n

Yerind\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259di. \u00c7\u00f6hr\u0259sind\u0259 ca\u011flayan sevinc bir andaca ciddi ifad\u0259 ald\u0131. Sanki adi, h\u0259r g\u00fcn ba\u015f ver\u0259n hadis\u0259 ba\u015f vermi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Sa\u011f ol, o\u011ful, sa\u011f ol! \u00a0\u2013 quruca dedi.<\/p>\n

Po\u00e7talyon m\u0259ktubu F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259nin ovcuna qoydu. Uzaq s\u0259f\u0259rd\u0259n qay\u0131dan atas\u0131n\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131na y\u00fcy\u00fcr\u0259n u\u015faq kimi pill\u0259l\u0259r boyu sevinc\u0259k \u00fcz\u00fc a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 y\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fc. F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rtm\u0259yi bel\u0259 unutdu. Sanki Nazimin \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc sin\u0259sin\u0259 bas\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi m\u0259ktubu k\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131b, ota\u011fa qay\u0131td\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc yetirib, divana \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc. \u00c7iskin havada p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259l\u0259ri boyu \u00fcz\u00fc a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259n \u015f\u0259ffaf \u015feh damlalar\u0131 kimi g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 qapal\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcb titr\u0259y\u0259n yanaqlar\u0131 boyu ax\u0131rd\u0131…<\/p>\n

F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 \u00fcmidini itirm\u0259mi\u015fdi. O\u011flunu n\u0259 vaxtsa g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259, s\u0259sini e\u015fid\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259, n\u0259 vaxtsa onun yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 yeni s\u0259tirl\u0259ri oxuyaca\u011f\u0131na inan\u0131r, amma h\u0259min anlar\u0131 nec\u0259 ya\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr bel\u0259 el\u0259mirdi. Onun fikrinc\u0259, \u0259sl xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyi el\u0259 onda dadacaq, onda bil\u0259c\u0259kdi. V\u0259 onu dadmay\u0131nca, b\u00fct\u00fcn v\u00fccudunda hiss etm\u0259yinc\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyin n\u0259 oldu\u011funu t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259 bilmirdi… T\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr ed\u0259 bilmirdi ki, xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131, az qala yerind\u0259n qopacaq \u00fcr\u0259k \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131, titr\u0259y\u0259n dodaqlar, u\u00e7unan, \u00e7\u0259kisiz v\u00fccudla da ya\u015fana bil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

… – Ana n\u0259dir, anacan?<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ana – insan\u0131 d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259tir\u0259n, ona h\u0259yat ver\u0259n, s\u00fcd ver\u0259n, onu b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u0259n, t\u0259rbiy\u0259l\u0259ndir\u0259n, onun qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n qad\u0131n.<\/p>\n

– V\u0259t\u0259n d\u0259 qad\u0131nd\u0131r? – Nazim a\u011faca \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi balaca \u0259ll\u0259riyl\u0259 anas\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7iyinl\u0259rind\u0259n tutub, quca\u011f\u0131na d\u0131rma\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Yox, o\u011flum, v\u0259t\u0259n v\u0259t\u0259ndir. V\u0259t\u0259n do\u011fulub boya-ba\u015fa \u00e7atd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u00f6lk\u0259, \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u0259zdiyimiz torpaq, bar\u0131ndan, b\u0259h\u0259rind\u0259n yediyimiz, qanunlar\u0131na tabe oldu\u011fumuz m\u0259ml\u0259k\u0259tdir! V\u0259t\u0259n \u00e7ox \u015feydir, o\u011flum, evimiz d\u0259 v\u0259t\u0259ndir, h\u0259y\u0259timiz d\u0259 v\u0259t\u0259ndir, m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259miz d\u0259 v\u0259t\u0259ndir, \u015f\u0259h\u0259rimiz d\u0259…<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M\u0259kt\u0259bimiz d\u0259? \u00a0– Nazim anas\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259sib sual verdi.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, Nazim, m\u0259kt\u0259bimiz d\u0259, h\u0259tta sinif ota\u011f\u0131m\u0131z da v\u0259t\u0259ndir.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 B\u0259s, m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259m deyir ki, v\u0259t\u0259n anad\u0131r?, – bu s\u00f6hb\u0259t h\u0259l\u0259 o\u011flu birinci sinifd\u0259 oxuyanda olmu\u015fdu. O zaman Nazim g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259, e\u015fitdiyi h\u0259r s\u00f6z\u0259 min bir sual qo\u015far, ist\u0259diyi cavab\u0131 almay\u0131nca, anas\u0131ndan \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259zdi. Amma anas\u0131n\u0131n verdiyi cavablarla kifay\u0259tl\u0259nm\u0259z, ax\u015fam atas\u0131 ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n kimi eyni suallar\u0131 ona da ver\u0259rdi. Cavablar m\u00fcxt\u0259lif olduqda is\u0259 \u201c- b\u0259s, anam bel\u0259 deyir, b\u0259s, atam bel\u0259 deyir?\u201d – dey\u0259 h\u0259r ikisini m\u0259h\u015f\u0259r aya\u011f\u0131na c\u0259k\u0259rdi…<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 B\u0259li, o\u011flum, v\u0259t\u0259n d\u0259 ana kimi, ana da v\u0259t\u0259n kimi m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir-birin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259yirl\u0259r. El\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259r var ki, onu insana yaln\u0131z ana ver\u0259 bil\u0259r, el\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259r d\u0259 var ki, yaln\u0131z v\u0259t\u0259n. Ana s\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259yat, d\u00f6\u015f\u00fcnd\u0259n s\u00fcd verdiyi kimi, v\u0259t\u0259n d\u0259 k\u00f6ks\u00fcnd\u0259, sin\u0259sind\u0259 yer verir, hava verir, su verir\u2026<\/p>\n

Bax, v\u0259t\u0259n d\u0259, ana da buna g\u00f6r\u0259 m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259sdir, \u0259zizdir. Amma biz onlar\u0131 t\u0259m\u0259nnas\u0131z sevm\u0259liyik!..<\/p>\n

F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 bir q\u0259d\u0259r hissiyyata qap\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Amma ax\u015fam atas\u0131 Nazim\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyi daha sad\u0259 yolla ba\u015fa salma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

\u201cSalam, anacan!\u201d – F\u0259rid\u0259 xala bu s\u00f6z\u00fc bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 oxudu. Amma g\u00f6zl\u0259rini ya\u015f tutdu\u011fundan ard\u0131n\u0131 oxuya bilm\u0259di. Ard\u0131 Nazimin u\u015faql\u0131q simas\u0131nda yenid\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 canland\u0131.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Anacan, \u0259sg\u0259r olmaq yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r, milis?<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 H\u0259r ikisi yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r, o\u011flum.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 B\u0259s, alim?<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Alim d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 B\u0259s, atam deyir ki, el\u0259 h\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fc \u0259sg\u0259rdir?<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 D\u00fczd\u00fcr, Nazim, v\u0259t\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259si bir c\u00fcr xidm\u0259t edir. Alim d\u0259 \u00f6z elmi il\u0259. O da elm sah\u0259sind\u0259 v\u0259t\u0259nin \u0259sg\u0259ridir.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Yox, ana, m\u0259n avtomatl\u0131 \u0259sg\u0259r olmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m!, \u2013 dey\u0259 x\u0259yal\u0131nda canland\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nl\u0259ri g\u00fcll\u0259l\u0259yirmi\u015f kimi oyuncaq avtomat\u0131yla at\u0259\u015f a\u00e7a-a\u00e7a qa\u00e7\u0131b, dostlar\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na getdi.<\/p>\n

\u201cM\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131yam, anacan. Amma s\u0259nin nec\u0259 oldu\u011fundan, sa\u011fm\u0131, x\u0259st\u0259mi, acm\u0131, toxmu oldu\u011fundan x\u0259b\u0259rim yoxdur\u201d.<\/p>\n

– M\u0259n d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131yam, qurban olum, m\u0259n d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131yam. T\u0259ki, s\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 olasan.<\/p>\n

\u201cM\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, anacan, bu m\u0259\u015fum d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 yan\u0131nda ola bilm\u0259diyim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, vaxt\u0131nda s\u0259ninl\u0259 ilgil\u0259n\u0259 bilm\u0259diyim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 sil\u0259 bilm\u0259diyim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn…\u201d<\/p>\n

– Can\u0131m o\u011flum!., – F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259nin bu ya\u015fa q\u0259d\u0259r n\u0259inki a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, h\u0259tta n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 gileyl\u0259ndiyini bel\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259n olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00c7oxlar\u0131 onu da\u015f\u00fcr\u0259kli qad\u0131n kimi tan\u0131y\u0131r, ki\u015fi kimi m\u00f6hk\u0259m irad\u0259 sahibi z\u0259nn edirdi. F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 \u0259n k\u0259d\u0259rli anlar\u0131nda bel\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc m\u00f6hk\u0259m tutar, d\u0259mir irad\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259rdi. \u0130ndi is\u0259 o\u011flunun h\u0259r c\u00fcml\u0259sini oxuduqca, bulaq kimi \u00e7a\u011flayan g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 silir, yaln\u0131z bundan sonra oxuma\u011fa davam ed\u0259 bilirdi.<\/p>\n

\u201cH\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rim var, anacan, h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n. Bak\u0131n\u0131n k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259ki q\u0131r\u011f\u0131ndan, Qaraba\u011fda g\u00fcnahs\u0131z az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131lar\u0131n erm\u0259nil\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fcrl\u00fcm\u0259sind\u0259n, \u0259halinin \u00f6z yurd-yuvas\u0131ndan did\u0259rgin sal\u0131nmas\u0131ndan, erm\u0259nil\u0259rin m\u0259nim d\u0259 xidm\u0259t etdiyim rus ordusunun k\u00f6m\u0259yi il\u0259 v\u0259t\u0259nim\u0259 soxulmas\u0131ndan, v\u0259t\u0259nd\u0259 ba\u015f ver\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn hadis\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n…\u201d<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Bilirs\u0259n, o\u011flum, bilirs\u0259n. Amma, n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 g\u00fcman\u0131 t\u0259kc\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n b\u0259db\u0259xt anan\u0131n yol \u00e7\u0259km\u0259kd\u0259n saralm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259rini h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 yollardan y\u0131\u011fa bilmirs\u0259n. Anan\u0131n h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yi s\u0259ks\u0259k\u0259d\u0259, g\u00f6z\u00fc yolda, qula\u011f\u0131 s\u0259sd\u0259di. H\u0259r qap\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcl\u0259nd\u0259, h\u0259r ayaq s\u0259sl\u0259ri e\u015fidil\u0259nd\u0259, b\u0259lk\u0259 bu g\u0259l\u0259n s\u0259ns\u0259n dey\u0259 k\u00f6nl\u00fc intizardad\u0131!, – h\u00f6nk\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u2013 Buna g\u00f6r\u0259mi oxutdu s\u0259ni, Nazim?!, – h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131r\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 bo\u011fma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u2013Buna g\u00f6r\u0259mi \u0259sg\u0259r olmaq ist\u0259yirdin, o\u011flum?!, \u2013 titr\u0259k barmaqlar\u0131yla a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 qapad\u0131. – Dilin lal olsun, ay q\u0131z, dilin lal olsun! \u2013 Sanki kimd\u0259ns\u0259 utan\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi m\u0259ktubla sif\u0259tini \u00f6rtd\u00fc, kiml\u0259rins\u0259 onu g\u00f6z\u00fcya\u015fl\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259sini ist\u0259mirmi\u015f kimi g\u00f6zl\u0259rini o\u011flundan ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131n arxas\u0131nda gizl\u0259tdi:<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M\u0259nim \u0259sg\u0259r balam, d\u0259rdimi \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r balam!.. \u2013 H\u0131\u00e7q\u0131r\u0131qlar\u0131 k\u0259sildi. Amma m\u0259ktubu sif\u0259tind\u0259n ay\u0131rmad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cM\u0259n yaz\u0131 \u00e7ox sevir\u0259m, amma yaydan da xo\u015fum g\u0259lir. Pay\u0131z da pis deyil, amma pay\u0131z\u0131 sevmir\u0259m, \u00e7\u00fcnki pay\u0131zdan sonra q\u0131\u015f g\u0259lir. Q\u0131\u015f\u0131 is\u0259 he\u00e7 sevmir\u0259m, \u00e7\u00fcnki q\u0131\u015fda \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259rimizin \u0259ll\u0259ri donur. \u00dc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fckl\u0259ri \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn v\u0259t\u0259ni yax\u015f\u0131 qoruya bilmirl\u0259r.\u201d – Bu in\u015fan\u0131 Nazim d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc sinifd\u0259 oxuyanda \u201c\u018fn \u00e7ox sevdiyim f\u0259sil\u201d m\u00f6vzusunda yazm\u0131\u015f, amma bu fikirl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 in\u015fadan \u00fc\u00e7 alm\u0131\u015f, sonra da a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya ev\u0259 g\u0259lib, anas\u0131na \u015fikay\u0259t el\u0259mi\u015fdi. Anas\u0131 etiraz\u0131n\u0131 bildir\u0259nd\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259si Nazimi m\u00f6vzudan k\u0259nara \u00e7\u0131xmaqda, b\u00fct\u00fcn in\u015falarda m\u00f6vzunu \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259 ba\u011flamaqda q\u0131nam\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

\u201cBuna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259, dig\u0259r az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131 zabitl\u0259r d\u0259 rus ordusunda xidm\u0259td\u0259n imtina etmi\u015fik, anacan. Bizim Az\u0259rbaycana d\u00f6nm\u0259yimiz\u0259 mane olurlar, amma he\u00e7 n\u0259y\u0259 baxmayaraq d\u00f6n\u0259c\u0259yik, anacan, m\u00fctl\u0259q d\u00f6n\u0259c\u0259yik! Tezlikl\u0259 ham\u0131m\u0131z d\u00f6n\u0259c\u0259yik. V\u0259t\u0259ni d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nd\u0259n xilas ed\u0259c\u0259k, torpaqlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 azad ed\u0259c\u0259yik!\u201d<\/p>\n

G\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 axd\u0131qca d\u0259rdi azal\u0131r, a\u011fladq\u0131ca y\u00fcng\u00fcll\u0259\u015fir, rahatlan\u0131rd\u0131. Sevinir, f\u0259r\u0259h hissi ke\u00e7irirdi. O\u011flunun onu duymas\u0131ndan, d\u0259rdini bilm\u0259sind\u0259n, yan\u0131na g\u0259lm\u0259k, onu g\u00f6rm\u0259k, yaras\u0131na m\u0259lh\u0259m qoymaq arzusuyla ya\u015famas\u0131ndan q\u00fcrurlan\u0131rd\u0131. F\u0259xr edirdi ki, Nazim kimi o\u011ful b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcb. F\u0259xr edirdi ki, o\u011flu onu darda qoymayacaq.<\/p>\n

\u201cSalamat qal, yegan\u0259 arzum g\u0259lib s\u0259ni sa\u011f-salamat, g\u00fcmrah g\u00f6rm\u0259kdir, anacan! \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc qoru! \u0130n\u015fallah, tezlikl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259yik. O\u011flun Nazim.\u201d<\/p>\n

X\u0259fif, y\u00fcng\u00fcl k\u00fcl\u0259k \u00a0hiss etdi, ard\u0131nca qap\u0131 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131ld\u0131 v\u0259 yaln\u0131z indi yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki, po\u00e7talyondan m\u0259ktubu alandan sonra qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rtm\u0259yi unudub. Qap\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn aya\u011fa qalxanda, q\u0259fil s\u0259br g\u0259tirdi.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Sa\u011flam ol – dey\u0259 yenid\u0259n kresloya \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Sa\u011f ol – ikincini g\u0259tirm\u0259k m\u0259qs\u0259diyl\u0259 d\u00fcy\u00fcnl\u0259mi\u015f ovcunu sin\u0259sin\u0259 d\u00f6ym\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. G\u0259tir\u0259 bilm\u0259yinc\u0259, arxal\u0131g\u0131n\u0131n cibind\u0259n d\u0259smal\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b, \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc sildi, qalx\u0131b qap\u0131n\u0131 kilidl\u0259di.<\/p>\n

Ota\u011fa kec\u0259nd\u0259 hamam ota\u011f\u0131ndan su \u015f\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 e\u015fitdi. Nazimin u\u015faql\u0131q v\u0259 g\u0259nclik ill\u0259rinin b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rinin aras\u0131nda, evin yuxar\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ndan as\u0131lm\u0131\u015f divar saat\u0131na baxd\u0131. Alt\u0131 tamam\u0131yd\u0131. F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 evd\u0259 olanda kran\u0131 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131q qoyard\u0131 ki, su g\u0259l\u0259n kimi \u015f\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitsin. Qalx\u0131b \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 qab-qa\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131, paltarlar\u0131 yuyar, sonra \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 yuyunard\u0131. Hamam ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7di. \u00c7ox \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u0259n olmas\u0131na v\u0259 ad\u0259t\u0259n qaynar suyla yuyunmas\u0131na baxmayaraq, soyuq suyu a\u00e7d\u0131. T\u0259l\u0259sm\u0259d\u0259n soyuq suyun alt\u0131nda yuyunub q\u00fcsul verdi. Hamamdan \u00e7\u0131xan kimi sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 fenl\u0259 qurulayar, sonra qaynar \u00e7ay i\u00e7\u0259rdi. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259smalla y\u00fcng\u00fclc\u0259 qurulamaqla kifay\u0259tl\u0259ndi. \u00c7ay i\u00e7m\u0259k is\u0259 yad\u0131na da d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259di. Qay\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, ayaq v\u0259 \u0259l d\u0131rnaqlar\u0131n\u0131 tutdu. Yataq ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7ib, yata\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131, a\u011flar\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdirdi. Sonra qonaq ota\u011f\u0131na qay\u0131d\u0131b, ail\u0259 albomunu g\u0259tirdi v\u0259 jurnal masas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu.<\/p>\n

– Bu, r\u0259hm\u0259tlik atamd\u0131r! – kimis\u0259 ail\u0259 \u00fczvl\u0259riyl\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f edirmi\u015f kimi bir-bir \u00a0b\u00fct\u00fcn yax\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259qdim etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131: – Bu is\u0259 r\u0259hm\u0259tlik anam! \u2013 Salavat \u00e7evirib, \u00a0p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131yla dua oxudu: – Allah ruhlar\u0131n\u0131 \u015fad el\u0259sin. – Allah k\u0259lam\u0131n\u0131 bitir\u0259n kimi ucadan s\u0259sl\u0259ndi: – Bu da b\u0259db\u0259xt qarda\u015f\u0131m! \u2013 Doluxsundu. B\u00f6y\u00fck qarda\u015f\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 yeniyetm\u0259 ik\u0259n d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi. Sonra is\u0259 G\u0259nc\u0259d\u0259 ya\u015fayan qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 onun ail\u0259 \u00fczvl\u0259rini t\u0259qdim etdi. N\u00f6vb\u0259 qara\u015f\u0131n, nazik b\u0131\u011fl\u0131 v\u0259 g\u00fcl\u0259r\u00fcz, ortaya\u015fl\u0131 bir ki\u015fiy\u0259 \u00e7atanda x\u0259fifc\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yib, \u00a0ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 silk\u0259l\u0259di. Nazimin \u015f\u0259kill\u0259riyl\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259r divardan as\u0131lm\u0131\u015f h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n portretin\u0259 baxd\u0131. H\u0259min portret indi \u0259lind\u0259 tutdu\u011fu \u015f\u0259kild\u0259n k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcr\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Nazim h\u0259l\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 olanda atas\u0131 d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi. \u0130ld\u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r Nazim onun portretini \u00e7\u0259kdirib, divardan asm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Albomu varaq-varaq \u00e7evirib, b\u00fct\u00fcn yax\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131 bir-bir tan\u0131td\u0131. Vidala\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi onlarla birc\u0259-birc\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t el\u0259di. Sonra yen\u0259 Nazimin m\u0259ktublar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, h\u0259r birini bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 oxudu. \u015e\u0259kill\u0259ri s\u0259liq\u0259yl\u0259 albomun i\u00e7in\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131b, servant\u0131n siyirm\u0259sin\u0259, m\u0259ktublar\u0131 da albomun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu…<\/p>\n

Saat art\u0131q on ikini ke\u00e7mi\u015f, \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn bir g\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 d\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. N\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yini bilmirmi\u015f kimi otaqda, m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259 bir xeyli dola\u015f\u0131b, sonra yataq ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7di, \u00e7arpay\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda durub, ani olaraq x\u0259yala dald\u0131.<\/p>\n

– G\u0259l, g\u0259l, q\u0131z, g\u0259l – dey\u0259 giri\u015f qap\u0131s\u0131na t\u0259r\u0259f qay\u0131td\u0131, – qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131q qoysaq, yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r \u2013 kimis\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirmi\u015f kimi q\u0131f\u0131l\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131. Amma qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7may\u0131b, el\u0259c\u0259 \u00f6rt\u00fcl\u00fc saxlad\u0131, qay\u0131d\u0131b m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7di. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin qaba\u011f\u0131nda durub, qaranl\u0131q h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 baxma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Bu xeyli \u00e7\u0259kdi…<\/p>\n

– G\u0259lir\u0259m, g\u0259lir\u0259m! \u2013 dey\u0259 kims\u0259 onu s\u0259sl\u0259yirmi\u015f kimi q\u0259fil fikird\u0259n ay\u0131ld\u0131, aln\u0131n\u0131 soyuq \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259d\u0259n aralay\u0131b arxaya \u00e7evrildi.<\/p>\n

– G\u0259lir\u0259m, g\u0259lir\u0259m indi! – d\u00f6n\u00fcb bir daha h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 baxd\u0131. P\u0259rd\u0259l\u0259ri daha geni\u015f aralay\u0131b, el\u0259c\u0259 d\u0259 saxlad\u0131.<\/p>\n

– G\u0259lir\u0259m… g\u0259lir\u0259m!.. – g\u00f6zl\u0259rini p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n ay\u0131rmadan arxaya bir add\u0131m atd\u0131. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n sif\u0259ti sapsar\u0131 saralm\u0131\u015f, sanki d\u0259rin bir quyudan baxan, \u0259zab v\u0259 rahatl\u0131q, qorxu v\u0259 arxay\u0131nl\u0131q, h\u0259sr\u0259t v\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t ifad\u0259 ed\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri d\u00fcz g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin i\u00e7in\u0259 zill\u0259nmi\u015f bir qad\u0131n boylan\u0131rd\u0131. A\u011fappaq gec\u0259 k\u00f6yn\u0259yi il\u0259 seyr\u0259lmi\u015f d\u00fcma\u011f sa\u00e7lar\u0131 b\u0259rq vuran bu qad\u0131n onun p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259ki \u0259ksi idi…<\/p>\n

Ota\u011fa ke\u00e7di. N\u0259 etm\u0259k laz\u0131m oldu\u011funu yad\u0131na sal\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi bir xeyli ortal\u0131qdaca vurnuxdu. Servant\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131b, ki\u00e7ik aptek qutusunu g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc v\u0259 yataq ota\u011f\u0131na qay\u0131td\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201c…Birc\u0259 arzum g\u0259lib s\u0259ni sa\u011f-salamat, g\u00fcmrah g\u00f6rm\u0259kdir, anacan\u201d. – O\u011flunun yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 son s\u0259tirl\u0259ri dodaqalt\u0131 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131. \u018fll\u0259rini Allah\u0131n d\u0259rgah\u0131na qald\u0131rib: – M\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259tini o\u011flumdan \u0259sirg\u0259m\u0259, ya R\u0259bbim! G\u00fcnahlar\u0131ndan ke\u00e7! Ona o\u011ful kimi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259y\u0259 r\u00fcsx\u0259t ver!!! \u00a0\u2013 dey\u0259 yalvard\u0131. Nazimi qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f kimi ir\u0259li bir add\u0131m at\u0131b dayand\u0131. G\u00fccl\u0259 e\u015fidil\u0259c\u0259k s\u0259sl\u0259: – M\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, o\u011flum! \u2013 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131: – Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla ki, arzunu yerin\u0259 yetir\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. – G\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumub, \u0259ll\u0259rini sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131xd\u0131: – Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla ki, q\u0131vr\u0131m, \u015f\u0259v\u0259 kimi qapqara sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 bir daha tumarlaya, m\u0259sum g\u00f6zl\u0259rini bir daha \u00f6p\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m, m\u0259nim k\u00f6rp\u0259 \u0259sg\u0259rim!..<\/p>\n

Ustufca qalx\u0131b, qibl\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f qoyulmu\u015f yata\u011f\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 oturdu:<\/p>\n

– R\u0259hm\u0259t qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 a\u00e7, Ya R\u0259bbim! \u2013 \u0259ll\u0259rini qald\u0131r\u0131b, yenid\u0259n dua etdi. Axtar\u0131b dolab\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu\u011fu aptek qutusunun i\u00e7ind\u0259n t\u0259nzif b\u00fckm\u0259sini tapd\u0131, ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b, ba\u015f barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 m\u00f6hk\u0259m-m\u00f6hk\u0259m bir-birin\u0259 ba\u011flad\u0131. K\u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259rini \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc indic\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fdirdiyi yupyum\u015faq d\u00f6\u015f\u0259y\u0259 qoydu. G\u00f6zl\u0259rini qapayan kimi kiprikl\u0259ri aras\u0131ndan bir damla ya\u015f s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcb, gicgahlar\u0131ndan \u00fcz\u00fc a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 diyirl\u0259ndi, a\u011fappaq bal\u0131nca d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb getdikc\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fc… – \u201cBiz rus ordusunda xidm\u0259td\u0259n imtina etmi\u015fik, anacan. Amma bizim Az\u0259rbaycana d\u00f6nm\u0259yimiz\u0259 mane olurlar. He\u00e7 n\u0259y\u0259 baxmayaraq d\u00f6n\u0259c\u0259yik, anacan, m\u00fctl\u0259q d\u00f6n\u0259c\u0259yik. Tezlikl\u0259 ham\u0131m\u0131z d\u00f6n\u0259c\u0259yik. V\u0259t\u0259ni d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nd\u0259n xilas ed\u0259c\u0259k, torpaqlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 azad ed\u0259c\u0259yik…\u201d – g\u00fccl\u0259 e\u015fidil\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259k s\u0259sl\u0259 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131. D\u0259rind\u0259n k\u00f6ks \u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. O\u011flunun s\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 cavab verirmi\u015f kimi: – \u00dcst\u00fcm\u00fc \u00f6rt, o\u011flum! \u2013 dey\u0259 x\u0131r\u0131lday\u0131b, yor\u011fan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kdi. Yor\u011fan \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015fm\u0259sin dey\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259rini \u00f6rt\u00fcy\u00fcn alt\u0131nda ehmalca a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcrd\u00fc. Titr\u0259k bir s\u0259s otaqda x\u0259fif bir musiqi kimi \u0259ks-s\u0259da verdi:<\/p>\n

– \u018f\u015fh\u0259d\u00fc \u0259nla ilah\u0259 ill\u0259llah! \u018f\u015fh\u0259d\u00fc \u0259nn\u0259 M\u00fch\u0259mm\u0259d\u0259n R\u0259sulullah! \u018f\u015fh\u0259d\u00fc \u0259nn\u0259 \u018fmir \u0259l m\u00fcminin\u0259 \u018fliyy\u0259n v\u0259liyyullah!..<\/p>\n

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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Bak\u0131ya az-az t\u0259sad\u00fcf olunan qu\u015fba\u015f\u0131 qar ya\u011f\u0131r, amma yer\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n kimi d\u0259 \u0259riyirdi. T\u0259kc\u0259 s\u0259kil\u0259rd\u0259 adda-budda qar g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Tahir\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r \u00e7antalar\u0131n\u0131 qoya-g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259, s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015fm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ehtiyatla F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259gilin h\u0259y\u0259tin\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sirdi\u2026<\/h1>\n

\u2026N\u0259f\u0259sini d\u0259rm\u0259d\u0259n bankalar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b, bir-bir s\u0259kinin q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131na d\u00fczd\u00fc. \u018flini aln\u0131na qoyub, \u00fcz\u00fc yuxar\u0131, be\u015fm\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li binan\u0131n balkonlar\u0131na boyland\u0131. He\u00e7 k\u0259s g\u00f6z\u0259 d\u0259ymirdi. Dey\u0259s\u0259n, bug\u00fcnk\u00fc qar m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259 sakinl\u0259rinin yuxusuna da ya\u011fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259yi q\u0259rara ald\u0131. Onsuz da ham\u0131 art\u0131q onun g\u0259ldiyini bilirdi. \u0130ndic\u0259 bir-bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, d\u00fcn\u0259n g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fckl\u0259ri bankalar\u0131 qaytaracaq, yenisini g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, \u00a0m\u0259nzill\u0259rin\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259s\u0259c\u0259kdil\u0259r. Amma Tahir\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259 ham\u0131dan \u00e7ox F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259nin g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259sini g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. O bu g\u00fcn he\u00e7 n\u0259 almayacaqd\u0131. Amma p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259 m\u00fctl\u0259q g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259liydi. Sonuncu m\u00fc\u015ft\u0259rini yola salandan sonra – \u201cy\u0259qin evd\u0259 yoxdur\u201d – dey\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n ke\u00e7irdi. Bo\u015f bankalar\u0131 \u00e7antas\u0131na y\u0131\u011f\u0131b, art\u0131q xeyli y\u00fcng\u00fcll\u0259\u015fmi\u015f y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc, avtobus dayanaca\u011f\u0131na t\u0259r\u0259f yeridi. Amma bir ne\u00e7\u0259 add\u0131m at\u0131b dayand\u0131. Yoxlu\u011funa \u0259min olmaq m\u0259qs\u0259diyl\u0259 qanr\u0131l\u0131b, F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259gilin p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 bir d\u0259 boyland\u0131. Arvad ordayd\u0131, a\u011f gec\u0259 k\u00f6yn\u0259yind\u0259, ba\u015f\u0131a\u00e7\u0131q p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259 dayan\u0131b, Tahir\u0259y\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131. \u00c7antalar\u0131 yer\u0259 qoyub, F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259y\u0259 sar\u0131 \u00e7evrildi. O, boynu azca b\u00fck\u00fck, qollar\u0131 qoynunda el\u0259c\u0259 durmu\u015fdu. Tahir\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb etdi. Onun dinib-dan\u0131\u015fmad\u0131\u011f\u0131na, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259ni a\u00e7\u0131b, kimis\u0259 ac\u0131lamad\u0131\u011f\u0131na inana bilm\u0259di. Sanki bunu F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 hiss etdi. Sa\u011f \u0259lini ehmalca yuxar\u0131 qald\u0131rd\u0131, k\u00f6yn\u0259yinin qolu s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb dirs\u0259yin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u018flini x\u0259fifc\u0259 havada yell\u0259di. Tahir\u0259y\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, \u00a0F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259 onu yuxar\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r. \u00c7antalar\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259c\u0259 qoyub, r\u0259fiq\u0259sinin m\u0259nzilin\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sdi…<\/p>\n

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Hava t\u0259z\u0259c\u0259 i\u015f\u0131qla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259rbi s\u0259hra formas\u0131nda olan bir \u0259sg\u0259r pill\u0259l\u0259ri iki-bir, \u00fc\u00e7-bir qalx\u0131b, F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259gilin qap\u0131s\u0131nda dayand\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259ri sevincd\u0259n ya\u015farm\u0131\u015f \u0259sg\u0259r \u0259lini t\u0259l\u0259sik z\u0259ngin d\u00fcym\u0259sin\u0259 basd\u0131, amma qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7an olmad\u0131. \u018fsg\u0259r F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259nin h\u0259l\u0259 yataqda oldu\u011funu z\u0259nn edib, qon\u015fular\u0131 narahat ed\u0259c\u0259yini bel\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259d\u0259n qap\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6ym\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. \u0130\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259n n\u0259 bir s\u0259s, n\u0259 d\u0259 soraq g\u0259lirdi. \u00c7iynind\u0259 \u00e7anta pe\u015fman-pe\u015fman h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. S\u0259kinin q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131nda durub, d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259ki p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 boyland\u0131. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259l\u0259ri qapqarayd\u0131, el\u0259 bil arxa t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n qara p\u0259rd\u0259 asm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f \u00e7\u0131xan kimi ad\u0259t\u0259n \u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l h\u0259min p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259 \u0259ks olunard\u0131. G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin \u00e7\u0131xmas\u0131na is\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 vard\u0131…<\/p>\n

… – N\u0259 \u015f\u0259kli \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259n, Annam?<\/p>\n

– Bu \u015f\u0259klin ad\u0131n\u0131 \u201cF\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259gilin p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259ri\u201d qoymu\u015fam. – Q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz c\u0259kdiyi ev \u015f\u0259klini atas\u0131na uzatd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Ax\u0131, s\u0259n he\u00e7 F\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259nin evini g\u00f6rm\u0259mis\u0259n, q\u0131z\u0131m! \u2013 dey\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n c\u0259kdiyi \u015f\u0259kl\u0259 baxd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– G\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m, ata \u2013 q\u0131z ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 y\u0131r\u011falayaraq sif\u0259tin\u0259 da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259nar el\u0259di. G\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259rini bir daha xat\u0131rlay\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi g\u00f6zl\u0259rini q\u0131y\u0131b, n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rini m\u0259chul n\u00f6qt\u0259d\u0259 c\u0259ml\u0259di: – M\u0259n onu yatanda g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m. \u00a0\u2013\u201c G\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc uzadaraq el\u0259 dedi ki, sanki o p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259r indi d\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin qaba\u011f\u0131ndayd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ata susdu. Ki\u015fi gah heyr\u0259tl\u0259 gah q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rini izl\u0259yir, gah da onun \u00e7\u0259kdiyi \u015f\u0259kl\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131. U\u015fa\u011f\u0131n \u00e7\u0259kdiyi \u015f\u0259kil eyn\u0259n onlar\u0131n Bak\u0131dak\u0131 evl\u0259rinin \u0259ksiydi. Q\u0131z yol \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rini y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b, m\u0259sum bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 atas\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 c\u0259ml\u0259di:<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 S\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 dem\u0259din, ax\u0131, atacan! – atas\u0131n\u0131n dizl\u0259rinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 c\u0131x\u0131b, \u00e7\u0259kdiyi \u015f\u0259kl\u0259 boyland\u0131\u00a0 – ox\u015fay\u0131r?<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ox\u015fay\u0131r, q\u0131z\u0131m, \u00e7ox ox\u015fay\u0131r! – u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 ehmalca dizl\u0259rinin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n endirdi. \u2013 Amma bu d\u0259mir \u0431armaql\u0131qlar art\u0131qd\u0131r. \u2013 Barma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ev \u015f\u0259klinin fonunda geni\u015f planda verilmi\u015f p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u0259zdirdi. Sanki \u00f6z do\u011fma evini g\u00f6r\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f kimi x\u0259yala dald\u0131.<\/p>\n

– B\u0259s, bu kimdir, q\u0131z\u0131m? – \u0259li qoynunda, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n ona incikc\u0259sin\u0259 boylanan a\u011f paltarl\u0131 qad\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Kim, ata, burada hec kim yoxdur\u00a0 – u\u015faq t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb etdi. O \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 ev v\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 n\u0259yi t\u0259svir etm\u0259mi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

N\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rini \u015f\u0259kild\u0259n ay\u0131r\u0131b, heyr\u0259tl\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131… \u0130ndi h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 durub, d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259ki m\u0259nzill\u0259rinin p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi… D\u00fcma\u011f gec\u0259 paltar\u0131nda olan anas\u0131 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin arxas\u0131nda dayan\u0131b, yol c\u0259k\u0259n, incik g\u00f6zl\u0259rini ona dikmi\u015fdi… Bu, h\u0259min qad\u0131n\u0131yd\u0131. Q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n \u201cF\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259gilin p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259ri\u201d adland\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015f\u0259kild\u0259n boylanan qad\u0131n…<\/p>\n

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