{"id":15839,"date":"2020-07-22T11:31:55","date_gmt":"2020-07-22T06:31:55","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=15839"},"modified":"2020-07-22T11:31:55","modified_gmt":"2020-07-22T06:31:55","slug":"m%c9%99sum-gec%c9%99-hekay%c9%99-els%c9%99n-ismayil","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=15839","title":{"rendered":"\u201cM\u018fSUM\u201d GEC\u018f (hekay\u0259) – EL\u015e\u018fN \u0130SMAYIL"},"content":{"rendered":"

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\u201cM\u018fSUM\u201d GEC\u018f<\/strong><\/h3>\n

(hekay\u0259)<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

Art\u0131q onun he\u00e7 bir \u015fans\u0131 qalmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnki el\u0259 bir yola girmi\u015fdi ki, oradan geri d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f yox idi. Daxili iztirab, ruhi sars\u0131nt\u0131… v\u0259 s. – bir s\u00f6zl\u0259 hal-haz\u0131rda duydu\u011fu he\u00e7 bir hiss onu xilas etmir, el\u0259 hey \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 davam edirdi…<\/p>\n

\u0130ndi sevdiyi anas\u0131n\u0131n qollar\u0131nda olmaq, onun \u00f6z\u0259l qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131, n\u0259vazi\u015fini duymaq, astadan qula\u011f\u0131na p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131yla s\u00f6yl\u0259diyi \u015firin s\u00f6zl\u0259ri e\u015fitm\u0259k… H\u0259, bir d\u0259 onu tez-tez d\u00f6ys\u0259 d\u0259 do\u011fma atas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259k, s\u0259sini e\u015fitm\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259l x\u0259yallar\u0131 vard\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n…<\/p>\n

Amma g\u0259l g\u00f6r ki, tale, qism\u0259t, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 Tanr\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fc bu g\u0259nc q\u0131za nec\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259zabl\u0131, d\u00f6z\u00fclm\u0259z bir oyun oynam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Yaz\u0131q q\u0131z sevm\u0259diyi, \u0259sla arzulamad\u0131\u011f\u0131, onunla birlikd\u0259 olma\u011f\u0131 x\u0259yal\u0131na bel\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259diyi yad bir ki\u015fi il\u0259 yataqda idi. 15 ya\u015fl\u0131 G\u00fcl\u0259rin a\u011fl\u0131nda evlilik yox idi. \u00c7\u00fcnki ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 b\u00f6lg\u0259nin insanlar\u0131n\u0131n murdar d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259sin\u0259 r\u0259\u011fm\u0259n, o bir q\u0131z u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 idi \u2013 b\u0259li: u\u015faq…<\/p>\n

H\u0259r d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259siyl\u0259 tamam\u0259n f\u0259rqli bir d\u00fcnyada ya\u015famaq ist\u0259y\u0259n q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz indi sanki qorxulu bir m\u0259xluqun \u0259sirin\u0259 \u00e7evrilmi\u015fdi. Ke\u00e7\u0259n h\u0259r saniy\u0259, h\u0259r d\u0259qiq\u0259 onun\u00e7\u00fcn duydu\u011fu c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m \u0259zab\u0131n\u0131 daha d\u0259rinl\u0259\u015fdirir, sonsuz bir u\u00e7uruma do\u011fru apar\u0131rd\u0131…<\/p>\n

Baxmayaraq ki, a\u011fu\u015funda ruh\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fcy\u00fc, sanki \u0259zabla can verdiyi bu ki\u015fi d\u0259 ona el\u0259 bir yad adam say\u0131lm\u0131rd\u0131 (onlar qohum idil\u0259r), amma yaz\u0131q q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz h\u0259r \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131\u015fda \u00fcr\u0259yinin, q\u0259lbinin, ruhunun \u2013 b\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n nec\u0259 \u0259zabla, \u0259ziyy\u0259tl\u0259 m\u0259hv oldu\u011funu d\u0259rind\u0259n hiss edirdi. N\u0259 olsun ki, bu ki\u015fi d\u0259 onu sevirdi (sevdiyini z\u0259nn edirdi), n\u0259 olsun ki, xasiyy\u0259t v\u0259 \u015f\u0259xsi keyfiyy\u0259t anlam\u0131nda yax\u015f\u0131 adam idi. N\u0259 olsun ki…<\/p>\n

Onlar bir-birini uzun ill\u0259rdir tan\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131lar. Ancaq q\u0131z he\u00e7 vaxt bu o\u011flana (do\u011fma xalas\u0131 o\u011fluna) arzular\u0131n\u0131n v\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyinin sahibi g\u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 baxmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sad\u0259c\u0259 baxa bilmirdi. \u00c7\u00fcnki o u\u015faq idi. U\u015faq… He\u00e7 vaxt onu \u0259r namiz\u0259di kimi g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Tez-tez g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fs\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259 (\u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r sad\u0259c\u0259 qohum kimi), \u0259sla ona sevgili kimi ba\u011flanmam\u0131\u015f, yax\u0131n adam kimi \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Bir s\u00f6zl\u0259, yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131, boylu-buxunlu olmas\u0131na baxmayaraq, bu o\u011flan he\u00e7 vaxt q\u0131z\u0131n ist\u0259yind\u0259, arzusunda, x\u0259yal\u0131nda, t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u0259 olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. X\u00fcsus\u0259n d\u0259 onunla bir yataqda olmaq… sad\u0259c\u0259 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t idi…<\/p>\n

Bu yerd\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259n bir tarixi s\u00f6z yada d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Ke\u00e7mi\u015f k\u0259nd adamlar\u0131 aradabir u\u011fursuzlu\u011fa d\u00fc\u00e7ar olanda Tanr\u0131dan, Yaradandan \u0259l \u00fcz\u0259nd\u0259 ona qar\u015f\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fck bir \u00fcsyan hissiyl\u0259: \u201cqism\u0259timi yazan yerd\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259min q\u0131r\u0131layd\u0131, Allah!\u201d dey\u0259, ah-nal\u0259 ed\u0259rdil\u0259r. B\u0259li. Onlar\u0131 haradasa anlamaq olard\u0131. Bel\u0259 v\u0259ziyy\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259 insan\u0131n inam\u0131 it\u0259 bilir, ruh\u0259n yaln\u0131zla\u015fan, q\u0259ddarla\u015fan adam qorxunc bir heyvana \u00e7evrilir sanki. D\u0259rdin, \u0259zab\u0131n mutasiyaya u\u011fratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 heyvan…<\/p>\n

D\u0259rd, b\u0259la hissind\u0259n uzaq olan v\u0259 ancaq \u015f\u0259xsi m\u0259nafe g\u00fcnd\u0259nl\u0259rs\u0259 \u00f6l\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r v\u0259 \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra da ancaq bir adla xat\u0131rlan\u0131rlar: \u201cheyvan\u201d. El\u0259l\u0259ri \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn o ad bel\u0259 \u00e7oxdur v\u0259 h\u0259tta yaz\u0131q heyvanlara t\u0259hqir say\u0131l\u0131r o k\u0259sl\u0259r\u0259 \u201cheyvan\u201d dem\u0259k…<\/p>\n

O\u011flan q\u0131z\u0131 \u00e7ox sevirdi. U\u015faql\u0131qdan ona m\u00f6hk\u0259m ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ya\u015flar\u0131 artd\u0131qca valideynl\u0259ri d\u0259 (bac\u0131lar) bir-birin\u0259 tamam ba\u015fqa g\u00f6zl\u0259 (quda kimi) baxma\u011fa ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f, el aras\u0131nda m\u0259\u015fhur olan bir ifad\u0259 – \u201c\u00f6zg\u0259y\u0259 verinc\u0259 el\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm alaram\u201d kimi k\u00f6hn\u0259, pas atm\u0131\u015f fikirl\u0259r duman\u0131na q\u0259rq olmu\u015fdular (yen\u0259 d\u0259 valideyn diktaturas\u0131 \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131n \u201cyax\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131\u201d ist\u0259m\u0259k ad\u0131 alt\u0131nda davam edir, bu g\u0259ncl\u0259r kimi y\u00fczl\u0259rl\u0259 minl\u0259rl\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yin b\u0259db\u0259xt ail\u0259l\u0259ri yaran\u0131rd\u0131. Sonra da deyirl\u0259r, son zamanlar niy\u0259 bo\u015fanmalar\u0131n say\u0131 art\u0131b.)…<\/p>\n

Q\u00fcdr\u0259t, G\u00fcl\u0259rd\u0259n ya\u015fca \u00e7ox b\u00f6y\u00fck idi: \u0259n az 10 ya\u015f f\u0259rq vard\u0131 aralar\u0131nda. Ancaq di g\u0259l ki, he\u00e7 birinin ail\u0259, evlilik haqq\u0131nda normal bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259si yox idi. Q\u00fcdr\u0259t tikintid\u0259 f\u0259hl\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yir, bo\u015f vaxtlar\u0131nda is\u0259 t\u00fcfeyli h\u0259yat s\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u0130\u015fi-g\u00fcc\u00fc ancaq k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc q\u0131zlar\u0131n, qad\u0131nlar\u0131n arxas\u0131nca d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k v\u0259 qazand\u0131\u011f\u0131 be\u015f-on manat\u0131 i\u00e7kiy\u0259, qumara verm\u0259k idi. B\u0259li. \u015e\u0259h\u0259rin b\u0259zi yerl\u0259rind\u0259 qanunsuz ki\u00e7ik qumarxanalar f\u0259aliyy\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259rirdi.<\/p>\n

H\u00fcquq-m\u00fchafiz\u0259 orqanlar\u0131 tez-tez o yerl\u0259ri a\u015fkarlay\u0131b haqq\u0131nda t\u0259dbir g\u00f6rs\u0259 d\u0259, b\u0259z\u0259n f\u0259aliyy\u0259ti v\u0259 xisl\u0259tiyl\u0259 d\u00f6vl\u0259t\u0259, d\u00f6vl\u0259t\u00e7iliy\u0259 x\u0259yan\u0259t ed\u0259n b\u0259zi m\u0259murlar kirli planlar\u0131yla \u201csudan quru \u00e7\u0131xma\u011f\u0131\u201d bacar\u0131rd\u0131lar. Amma t\u0259bii ki, h\u0259r z\u00fclm\u00fcn sonu oldu\u011fu kimi, h\u0259r cinay\u0259tkar\u0131n da bir sonu var \u2013 h\u0259bsxana (el aras\u0131nda ona \u201cqoduqluq\u201d deyirdil\u0259r \u2013 \u00e7\u00fcnki el\u0259 cinay\u0259tkarlara bu ad \u00e7ox yara\u015f\u0131rd\u0131: qoduq)…<\/p>\n

Q\u00fcdr\u0259tin \u015f\u0259hv\u0259tl\u0259 yanan g\u00f6zl\u0259ri G\u00fcl\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m ke\u015fik\u00e7isini xat\u0131rlad\u0131rd\u0131. Ancaq bu yaz\u0131q q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r xat\u0131rlama\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131sa da, c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r b\u00f6y\u00fck g\u00fcnah sahibi oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcrd\u00fc. H\u0259m d\u0259 ki, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n n\u0259 g\u00fcnah\u0131 olacaqd\u0131 ki… B\u0259li. O u\u015faq idi, u\u015faq…<\/p>\n

G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr q\u0131z\u0131n atas\u0131 Ziyad ki\u015fi ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bacana\u011f\u0131yla quda olmaq arzusu azya\u015fl\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 pu\u00e7 etm\u0259kd\u0259n daha \u00fcst\u00fcn idi onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. Bo\u015f vaxtlar\u0131nda \u201cn\u0259rd \u00e7empionu\u201d olmaq kimi \u201cb\u00f6y\u00fck h\u00fcn\u0259r\u0259\u201d sahib olan Ziyad, qudas\u0131 Mehdinin ya\u011f fabrikind\u0259 n\u0259zar\u0259t\u00e7i i\u015fl\u0259yirdi. B\u0259li. Fabrik m\u00fcd\u00fcr\u00fc olan bacana\u011f\u0131n\u0131n idar\u0259sind\u0259 sad\u0259c\u0259 \u201cn\u0259zar\u0259t\u00e7i\u201d v\u0259zif\u0259sin\u0259 yiy\u0259l\u0259n\u0259 bil\u0259n Ziyad\u0131n hirsi, hikk\u0259si q\u0259d\u0259r b\u00f6y\u00fck x\u0259yallar\u0131 v\u0259 planlar\u0131 var idi. Quda olandan sonra sanki n\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259 Ziyad\u0131n \u201c\u0259lind\u0259ki kartlar\u201d b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259c\u0259kdi. El\u0259dir ki var. Ziyad ki\u015fi \u00f6z azya\u015fl\u0131 \u2013 m\u0259kt\u0259bli q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 \u0259r\u0259 verm\u0259kl\u0259 \u015f\u0259xsi n\u00fcfuzunu art\u0131rma\u011f\u0131 planla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131…<\/p>\n

Art\u0131q onlar tamam\u0259n \u00e7\u0131lpaq idil\u0259r. Q\u00fcdr\u0259tin fiziki g\u00fcc\u00fc v\u0259 \u201cki\u015filiyi\u201d G\u00fcl\u0259rin alt paltar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xara bilm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yet\u0259rli olmu\u015fdu…<\/p>\n

21-ci \u0259srd\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 orta \u0259srl\u0259rin k\u00f6hn\u0259lmi\u015f v\u0259 nec\u0259 dey\u0259rl\u0259r, \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f t\u0259f\u0259kk\u00fcr\u00fcyl\u0259 ya\u015fayan insanlar\u0131n d\u0259rdi-s\u0259ri ancaq onun-bunun arvad\u0131n\u0131n geyimini, f\u0259aliyy\u0259tini g\u00fcdm\u0259k, qon\u015funun ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 yeni ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131, t\u0259z\u0259 telefonu v\u0259 s. \u0259\u015fyalar\u0131 m\u00fczakir\u0259 etm\u0259k, aradabir: \u201chay\u0131f deyildi SSR\u0130\u201d dey\u0259r\u0259k, yeri g\u0259ldi-g\u0259lm\u0259di indiki d\u00f6vr\u00fc, insanlar\u0131 t\u0259nqid etm\u0259k idi. H\u0259min t\u0259f\u0259kk\u00fcr\u0259 sahib olan insanlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn f\u0259rqi yox idi, kimin n\u0259 arzusu, n\u0259 x\u0259yal\u0131, n\u0259 plan\u0131 var. Sanki yer k\u00fcr\u0259si s\u0131rf bu iki-\u00fc\u00e7 d\u0259l\u0259duzun \u0259traf\u0131nda d\u00f6n\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u201cVorzakon\u201d qanunlar\u0131yla ya\u015fayan v\u0259 \u00f6z ail\u0259sind\u0259n \u0259ks\u0259r hallarda x\u0259b\u0259ri olmayan \u201cxalx\u0131n ki\u015fil\u0259ri\u201d ba\u015fqalar\u0131n\u0131n nikahl\u0131 arvadlar\u0131n\u0131n, m\u0259kt\u0259bli q\u0131zlar\u0131n\u0131n \u201cqeyr\u0259tini \u00e7\u0259kir\u201d, h\u0259r m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259ni \u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn x\u00fcsusi bir \u201crespublika\u201d elan etmi\u015fdil\u0259r…<\/p>\n

Son anda narahatl\u0131q hissin\u0259 qap\u0131lan q\u0131z anas\u0131 Leyla gec\u0259ni yata bilm\u0259di v\u0259 \u0259rini t\u0259cili sur\u0259td\u0259 yuxudan oyatd\u0131. Deyin\u0259-deyin\u0259 oyanan Ziyad h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n nigaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 n\u0259inki g\u00f6rm\u0259di. H\u0259l\u0259 bir sevinc \u201cn\u0259r\u0259siyl\u0259\u201d otaqdan enib bu \u00f6z\u0259l g\u00fcn\u00fc bir daha qeyd etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. Toyda xeyli spirtli i\u00e7ki q\u0259bul ets\u0259 d\u0259, yuxudan oyanmas\u0131 onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yeni bir b\u0259han\u0259 idi. Qad\u0131n\u0131n nigaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ki\u015finin vecin\u0259 olmad\u0131 v\u0259 o s\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r el\u0259 hey i\u00e7di…<\/p>\n

Q\u00fcdr\u0259t G\u00fcl\u0259r\u0259 \u201ch\u00fccum etm\u0259y\u0259\u201d haz\u0131rla\u015fan anda, bayaqdan \u00e7ar\u0259siz q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz kimi sad\u0259c\u0259 a\u011flams\u0131n\u0131b taleyin\u0259 i\u00e7d\u0259n-i\u00e7\u0259 \u00fcsyan ed\u0259n q\u0131z biranda n\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcs\u0259 d\u0259, yataqdan c\u0259ld k\u0259nara s\u0131\u00e7rad\u0131. V\u0259 \u00e7arpay\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131ndaki su barda\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u0259lin\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. Onsuz da s\u0259rxo\u015fluqdan g\u00f6z\u00fc dumanlanan Q\u00fcdr\u0259t onun su i\u00e7m\u0259k ist\u0259diyini z\u0259nn edib geri \u00e7\u0259kildi. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saniy\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yib yenid\u0259n \u00f6z \u201covuna\u201d do\u011fru h\u00fccuma ke\u00e7\u0259c\u0259kdi. Ancaq h\u0259r \u015fey onun ist\u0259diyi kimi olmad\u0131…<\/p>\n

M\u0259kt\u0259b ill\u0259rinin ilk vaxtlar\u0131ndan ta indiy\u0259n\u0259d\u0259k G\u00fcl\u0259r ancaq bir \u015fey haqq\u0131nda ciddi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc \u2013 t\u0259hsil al\u0131b h\u0259kim olmaq. U\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131n ilk \u00e7a\u011flar\u0131nda e\u015fitdiyi, qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 v\u0259ziyy\u0259tl\u0259r bir m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259n sonra onu bu arzuya yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. B\u0259zi insanlar\u0131n ehtiyac \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n h\u0259kim\u0259 ged\u0259 bilm\u0259diyi ger\u00e7\u0259yi t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcfl\u0259r olsun ki, g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn reall\u0131\u011f\u0131 idi. X\u00fcsus\u0259n d\u0259 ad\u0131 \u201c\u00f6z\u0259l\u201d olan klinikalar. Sanki o\u011furlu\u011fun, adam soyma\u011f\u0131n m\u00fcasir \u00fcsulu idi onlar. B\u0259li. Adi bir yoxlan\u0131\u015f 40-50 manat, \u201cuzi\u201d \u0259n az 50 manat v\u0259 s…<\/p>\n

Demokratik bir sistemd\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259r zaman q\u00fcsurlar v\u0259 \u0259ng\u0259ll\u0259r olur. Ancaq b\u0259zi m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259r sanki qoca \u015e\u0259rqin taleyin\u0259 yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Maddi s\u0131x\u0131nt\u0131lardan daha \u00e7ox sosial-psixoloji v\u0259ziyy\u0259tl\u0259r xalqlar\u0131 inki\u015fafa deyil, g\u00fcn\u00fc-g\u00fcnd\u0259n m\u0259hv\u0259 do\u011fru apar\u0131rd\u0131. Bu m\u00f6vzularda \u00f6lk\u0259mizin qon\u015fu d\u00f6vl\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259n daha yax\u015f\u0131 v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 oldu\u011funu n\u0259z\u0259r\u0259 alarsaq, Yax\u0131n \u015f\u0259rq v\u0259 b\u0259zi Asiya d\u00f6vl\u0259tl\u0259rinin durumu haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259k olduqca t\u00fck\u00fcrp\u0259rdici idi… 21-ci \u0259sr olmas\u0131na baxmayaraq, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 bir \u00e7ox yerl\u0259rd\u0259 yeni do\u011fulan k\u00f6rp\u0259l\u0259rin cinsiyy\u0259t problemi (o\u011flan v\u0259 ya q\u0131z olmas\u0131) qalmaqda idi. V\u0259 s\u0131rf bu kimi m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 onlarla ail\u0259 da\u011f\u0131l\u0131r, y\u00fczl\u0259rl\u0259 arzular, x\u0259yallar ger\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259\u015fm\u0259d\u0259n pu\u00e7 olub gedirdi…<\/p>\n

Gec\u0259nin z\u00fclm\u0259t dolu bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 aras\u0131nda g\u00f6yd\u0259 sayr\u0131\u015fan ulduzlar\u0131n \u00e7\u0131l\u011f\u0131n r\u0259qsini g\u00f6rm\u0259k olurdu. Haradasa bir Avropa diyar\u0131nda \u2013 bir malikan\u0259d\u0259 m\u0259\u015fhur italyan b\u0259st\u0259kar\u0131 Antonio Vivaldinin \u201c6 violon\u00e7el \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn konsert\u201d \u0259s\u0259ri s\u0259sl\u0259nm\u0259kd\u0259 idi. Orada insanlar nec\u0259 d\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt v\u0259 qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131z g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. Amma h\u0259r g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259n bax\u0131\u015f\u0131n alt\u0131nda sanki q\u0259ddar v\u0259 art\u0131q s\u0131x\u0131nt\u0131ndan partlama\u011fa haz\u0131r bir \u00fcr\u0259yin sahibi yat\u0131rd\u0131. Oradaki insanlar\u0131n qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131 \u00e7ox f\u0259rqli m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259r idi. Ancaq elitan Avropal\u0131 da bir zamanlar \u015e\u0259rqd\u0259n daha ac\u0131nacaql\u0131 v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 idi. Sad\u0259c\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc-\u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 m\u00fcbariz\u0259 apararaq, sava\u015faraq, v\u0259t\u0259nda\u015f m\u00fcharib\u0259l\u0259ri g\u00f6r\u0259r\u0259k \u0259srl\u0259rl\u0259 m\u0259nfi x\u00fcsusiyy\u0259tl\u0259rind\u0259n ar\u0131nm\u0131\u015f v\u0259 art\u0131q m\u00fcasir d\u00fcnyada n\u00fcmun\u0259 hal\u0131na g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. B\u0259li. Avropa bunu uzunm\u00fcdd\u0259tli m\u00fcbariz\u0259 v\u0259 inam hissiyl\u0259 ed\u0259 bilmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

\u015e\u0259rqd\u0259 is\u0259 \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 halda olan el\u0259 m\u00fcst\u0259qil T\u00fcrk d\u00f6vl\u0259tl\u0259ri idi. Baxmayaraq ki, onlar da min il \u00f6nc\u0259 \u0259r\u0259bin, fars\u0131n murdar ideologiyas\u0131na m\u0259hkum edilmi\u015f, din ad\u0131 alt\u0131nda, \u201c\u0259xlaq prinsipl\u0259ri\u201d b\u0259han\u0259siyl\u0259 \u0259slind\u0259 \u0259xlaqs\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa d\u00fc\u00e7ar edilmi\u015fdi. B\u0259li. \u018fr\u0259b v\u0259 fars m\u00fcxt\u0259lif adlarla, m\u00fcxt\u0259lif b\u0259han\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 \u015e\u0259rqi \u00f6z murdar ya\u015fant\u0131lar\u0131 v\u0259 ideologiyalar\u0131n\u0131n qurban\u0131na \u00e7evirmi\u015fdil\u0259r. Bu g\u00fcnk\u00fc bir \u00e7ox sosial m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259nin tarixi k\u00f6k\u00fc m\u0259hz Sasanil\u0259r v\u0259 Xilaf\u0259t d\u00f6vr\u00fcn\u0259 dayan\u0131rd\u0131. \u00d6z\u0259llikl\u0259 d\u0259 r\u00fc\u015fv\u0259t…<\/p>\n

G\u00fcl\u0259r \u0259s\u0259bd\u0259n v\u0259 hikk\u0259d\u0259n partlamaq h\u0259ddin\u0259 \u00e7atan v\u0259 ona fasil\u0259siz olaraq ba\u011f\u0131ran Q\u00fcdr\u0259ti dinl\u0259mirdi. Ota\u011f\u0131n bir k\u00fcnc\u00fcn\u0259 \u201cs\u0131\u011f\u0131nm\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u201d. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259 bel\u0259 ke\u00e7dikd\u0259n sonra ba\u015f\u0131 yaral\u0131 olan q\u00fcdr\u0259t xeyli qan itirdiyinin f\u0259rqin\u0259 var\u0131b hals\u0131zla\u015fd\u0131. \u018flind\u0259 par\u00e7alanm\u0131\u015f bardaq tutan G\u00fcl\u0259r is\u0259 el\u0259 hey a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130ndi o, qurtuldu\u011funu v\u0259 yaxud daha b\u00f6y\u00fck bir b\u0259lan\u0131n i\u00e7in\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc y\u0259qin ed\u0259 bilmirdi. Q\u00fcdr\u0259tin b\u0259nizi ke\u00e7\u0259n h\u0259r saniy\u0259 daha \u00e7ox saral\u0131r v\u0259 t\u0259dric\u0259n o, hu\u015funu itirirdi.<\/p>\n

Q\u00fcdr\u0259t tamamil\u0259 hu\u015fsuz hala d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb yer\u0259 s\u0259rildikd\u0259n sonra \u00e7ar\u0259siz G\u00fcl\u0259r an\u0131n \u015fokundan n\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yini bilm\u0259d\u0259n yata\u011f\u0131na g\u0259ldi. \u0130ndi onun beynind\u0259 says\u0131z-hesabs\u0131z fikirl\u0259r dola\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcnd\u0259n savay\u0131 ail\u0259sini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz. Bundan sonra n\u0259 olacaqd\u0131, n\u0259l\u0259r olacaqd\u0131…<\/p>\n

B\u00fct\u00fcn azya\u015fl\u0131 g\u0259linl\u0259rin nal\u0259si, qar\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131 sanki o gec\u0259ni ittiham edirdi. B\u00fct\u00fcn pislikl\u0259r gec\u0259nin ad\u0131na yaz\u0131ld\u0131 o g\u00fcn… B\u0259li, z\u00fclm \u0259hlinin g\u00fcnahlar\u0131 da gec\u0259nin boynuna at\u0131ld\u0131… V\u0259 gec\u0259 \u00f6z m\u0259sumlu\u011funu isbat ed\u0259 bilm\u0259d\u0259n yava\u015f-yava\u015f bitirdi – ba\u015f ver\u0259n h\u0259r cinay\u0259tin bir m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259n sonra unudulmas\u0131 kimi…<\/p>\n

G\u00fcl\u0259r qanl\u0131 yor\u011fan-d\u00f6\u015f\u0259yin\u0259 sar\u0131l\u0131b uyumaq v\u0259 sanki yuxudaym\u0131\u015f kimi b\u00fct\u00fcn olanlar\u0131 unutmaq ist\u0259yirdi. Art\u0131q g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 da qurumu\u015fdu. N\u0259f\u0259si daral\u0131rd\u0131. Yuxu da \u00f6z s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc deyirdi. \u00c7\u00fcnki saat n\u0259 az n\u0259 \u00e7ox 4-d\u0259n ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. Sonda h\u0259r \u015feyin ya\u015f\u0131 olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259r\u0259k yuxuya getdi G\u00fcl\u0259r. Q\u00fcdr\u0259tin s\u0259ssiz b\u0259d\u0259ni is\u0259 bundan sonrak\u0131 g\u00fcn haqq\u0131nda d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli fikirl\u0259r yarad\u0131rd\u0131…<\/p>\n

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\u201cM\u018fSUM\u201d GEC\u018f (hekay\u0259) Art\u0131q onun he\u00e7 bir \u015fans\u0131 qalmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnki el\u0259 bir yola girmi\u015fdi ki, oradan geri d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f yox idi. Daxili iztirab, ruhi sars\u0131nt\u0131… v\u0259 s. – bir s\u00f6zl\u0259 hal-haz\u0131rda duydu\u011fu he\u00e7 bir hiss onu xilas etmir, el\u0259 hey \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 davam edirdi… \u0130ndi sevdiyi anas\u0131n\u0131n qollar\u0131nda olmaq, onun \u00f6z\u0259l qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131, n\u0259vazi\u015fini duymaq, astadan qula\u011f\u0131na […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[5,6,11,16,14,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15839"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=15839"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15839\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":15842,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15839\/revisions\/15842"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=15839"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=15839"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=15839"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}