{"id":15947,"date":"2020-08-26T17:08:27","date_gmt":"2020-08-26T12:08:27","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=15947"},"modified":"2020-08-26T17:08:27","modified_gmt":"2020-08-26T12:08:27","slug":"ucurum-aysel-fikr%c9%99tin-yeni-hekay%c9%99si","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=15947","title":{"rendered":"U\u00e7urum \u2013 Aysel F\u0130KR\u018fT\u0130N yeni hekay\u0259si"},"content":{"rendered":"
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U\u00e7urumun k\u0259nar\u0131nda dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. He\u00e7 zaman atmazd\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc.Yaln\u0131z qorxma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m, bird\u0259n aya\u011f\u0131 b\u00fcdr\u0259y\u0259r y\u0131x\u0131lar.Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qatmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yan\u0131ma \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131m.bax g\u00f6r n\u0259 deyir\u0259m\u2026<\/h3>\n

Arxaya \u00e7\u00f6n\u0259nd\u0259 onu balaca, he\u00e7 n\u0259 anlamayan u\u015fa\u011fa b\u0259nz\u0259tdim.\u0130st\u0259dim onu qucaqlay\u0131m he\u00e7 kim\u0259 verm\u0259yim daha. Yaz\u0131q balam deyim s\u0259n bu d\u00fcnyada m\u0259nsiz n\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. Yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki bu adam m\u0259ni d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259r\u0259 it\u0259l\u0259yib. Arxada ne\u00e7\u0259 ay\u0131n d\u0259h\u015f\u0259ti x\u0259st\u0259liyi var. Onda s\u0131\u011f\u0131nmal\u0131q \u00fcz qalmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Tez -tez g\u00f6zl\u0259rini m\u0259nd\u0259n qa\u00e7\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Ba\u015fqa adlar\u0131n, duy\u011fular\u0131n, insanlar\u0131n havas\u0131ndan h\u0259l\u0259 ay\u0131lmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Kimis\u0259 xat\u0131rlay\u0131b g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Adam hardasa xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyini tapanda geri d\u00f6nm\u0259k ist\u0259mir. G\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sel etmi\u015fdi, g\u00fcnahlar\u0131n\u0131 yuyurdu dey\u0259s\u0259n, s\u0259ssizlik idi. \u018ftrafda \u00f6l\u00fc sakitliyi var idi, \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r. Ya da Allah bizi gizl\u0259\u0131mi\u015fdi. Bu ayr\u0131l\u0131q ax\u0131 n\u0259 olan \u015feydi ki m\u0259n bunu h\u0259l\u0259m- h\u0259l\u0259m anlaml\u0131rd\u0131m. Niy\u0259 ax\u0131 Allah Ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ma ya\u011f\u0131\u015f kimi d\u00f6y\u00fcrd\u00fc.a\u011fr\u0131 kimi verirdi.Bunun ba\u015fqa yolu yoxdumu.Ba\u015fqa daha i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259fi yoxdu ki. Han\u0131 biz insan idik yei g\u00f6y\u00fc f\u0259th ed\u0259n. N\u0259 oldu ax\u0131 biz\u0259 bel\u0259 quzuya d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f\u00fck.
\n\u00dczs\u00fcz idi bax indi d\u0259, bu g\u00fcn d\u0259 xat\u0131rlamal\u0131q \u00fcz\u00fc yad\u0131mda deyil.i\u00e7imd\u0259 kinl\u0259, qorumaq hissin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f bir do\u011fmal\u0131q g\u0259zirdi.sevgi deyildi.\u00dcr\u0259yim buland\u0131. Adam d\u0259rdi d\u0259 doqurmu\u015f dey\u0259s\u0259n. B\u00fct\u00fcn bu hissl\u0259rd\u0259n brd\u0259f\u0259lik qurtulmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259l\u0259r verm\u0259zdim indi.Bir qolumu k\u0259ssinl\u0259r, bir aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131,heyf ki xatir\u0259l\u0259ri silib atmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259m\u0259liyyat k\u0259\u015fv olunmay\u0131b h\u0259l\u0259. Tibbin insan h\u0259yacan v\u0259 duy\u011fulariyla m\u00fcbariz\u0259si ibtidai sinif s\u0259vyy\u0259sind\u0259dir.\u0130nsanlar psixoloji g\u0259rginlikd\u0259n intihar edir, h\u0259r g\u00fcn \u00f6l\u00fcr dirilir,\u018ftraf\u0131n\u0131n x\u0259b\u0259ri olmadan canl\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fc kimi dola\u015f\u0131r.susur.bir birini \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcr.d\u00fcnyada n\u0259l\u0259r olur. Yax\u015f\u0131 edirs\u0259n dedim qoru \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259nd\u0259n .i\u015fdi \u0259limd\u0259n x\u0259ta \u00e7\u0131xar, yaz\u0131qsan ax\u0131 s\u0259n. S\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

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\nEl\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131rmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m dedi\u2026 g\u00f6y\u0259 baxd\u0131.\u00a0 \u0130nsan ba\u011f\u0131rmaq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6y\u0259 niy\u0259 baxs\u0131n ax\u0131.
\nM\u0259n el\u0259 u\u015faql\u0131qdan bel\u0259y\u0259m h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f yolu tap\u0131ram. Ax\u0131rda m\u00fctl\u0259q biri g\u0259lib xilas edir na\u011f\u0131ldak\u0131 kimi. \u00e7ox d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm ..ya\u015famaq yerin\u0259 bel\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm.
\nSusub k\u00fcsk\u00fcn g\u00f6zl\u0259rini m\u0259n\u0259 zill\u0259di .Bilmir\u0259m niy\u0259, el\u0259 indi burda anlad\u0131m ki. M\u0259n bu adam\u0131n can\u0131na z\u0259h\u0259r kimi i\u015fl\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m .bu insan z\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259nib.Anlam\u0131ram bu q\u0259d\u0259r qay\u011f\u0131n\u0131n bu insan can\u0131nda z\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 nec\u0259 d\u00f6nd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc.
\nD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm buna m\u00fctl\u0259q indi in\u0259k sa\u011fan bir q\u0131z laz\u0131md\u0131,d\u00fcnyadan x\u0259b\u0259rsiz. B\u0259lk\u0259 o q\u0131z\u0131n qoydu\u011fu qat\u0131qlar onu dirild\u0259c\u0259k . Can\u0131ndak\u0131 z\u0259h\u0259ri yuyub aparacaq.m\u0259n s\u0259b\u0259b\u0259m \u00e7ar\u0259 yox. Bu yeni rolumdan \u00fc\u015f\u0259ndim.\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc pis hiss etdim.Z\u00fclm\u00fcn sonu yoxmu\u015f.
\ns\u00f6zl\u0259r a\u011fz\u0131ndan t\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fc.
\nG\u0259l s\u0259n m\u0259ni it\u0259l\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm can\u0131n qutars\u0131n. Bir k\u0259lm\u0259 s\u00f6zd\u0259n qorxan insan durdu\u011fum yerd\u0259 m\u0259ni cani etm\u0259kd\u0259n qorxmur dey\u0259 susdum.Allah da g\u00f6yd\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc.Mistik bir s\u0131\u00e7ray\u0131\u015fla aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131m. Bu yerin bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 yad oldu\u011funu he\u00e7 bu q\u0259d\u0259r hiss etm\u0259mi\u015fdim.insan g\u0259r\u0259k \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc qoruma\u011f\u0131 t\u0131sba\u011fadan \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259.d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 b\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u0259k \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcr adam\u0131. M\u0259n bu adam\u0131 daha g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdim.o is\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131na yeni q\u0259d\u0259m qoyan \u015fad Allah b\u0259nd\u0259siydi . Ged\u0259c\u0259kdi \u00f6z \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259 s\u00fcdd\u0259n qat\u0131qdan yeyib yatma\u011fa, g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi. O yen\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi,.yaralar\u0131 saqalacaqd\u0131, h\u0259yat sa\u011faldacaqd\u0131 onu. Od qalad\u0131 dey\u0259, t\u0259ndiri yand\u0131rd\u0131 dey\u0259, bir s\u00f6z dedi dey\u0259 \u00f6y\u00fcn\u0259c\u0259kdil\u0259r onunla. Onu m\u0259nim kimi g\u00f6r\u0259n olmayacaqd\u0131. M\u0259nis\u0259 onun son g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm. \u0130lk do\u011fuldu\u011fu kimi ac\u0131z, qorxaq \u00c7ar\u0259siz bir insan idi v\u0259ssalam. Ba\u015f\u0131na s\u0131\u011fal \u00e7\u0259kib dey\u0259s\u0259n get bala get ya\u015fa.yaln\u0131\u015fl\u0131qla s\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259tdim,bir q\u0259l\u0259tdi etmi\u015f\u0259m ke\u00e7 g\u00fcnah\u0131mdan. H\u0259l\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259ri yoxdu guya. Bu adam m\u0259nim h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131n t\u0259n ortas\u0131nda ist\u0259diyi kimi nec\u0259 var g\u0259l edir. El\u0259 g\u0259zir ki el\u0259 bil atas\u0131n\u0131n xarabas\u0131d\u0131r. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rim\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcnd\u00fcm. El\u0259 sevindi ki el\u0259 bildi daha ba\u011f\u0131\u015flad\u0131m onu. Ba\u015flad\u0131 yeni h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z\u0259lliyindn \u0259fsan\u0259l\u0259r dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa . Bir g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259m\u0259kl\u0259 a\u00e7d\u0131 t\u00f6kd\u00fc i\u00e7ini.m\u0259nsizlik g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131 d\u00fcnyaya.
\nSonra yola d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck. Utanaraq m\u0259nas\u0131z uzun uzad\u0131 bir s\u00f6hb\u0259t dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131 . M\u0259lum oldu ki ona bu aralar qulaq asan bir s\u00fcr\u00fc maymaq var.s\u00f6hb\u0259tinin abu havas\u0131ndan bildim ki ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131 itib bu adam\u0131n. N\u0259n\u0259m demi\u015f varaq\u0131 \u00e7evrilib. Vay dedim vay n\u0259 olacaq s\u0259nin ax\u0131r\u0131n. Sa\u011folla\u015fanda \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxmad\u0131m. kK\u00e7mi\u015fd\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 be\u015f inanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m var idi.itm\u0259sin yaz\u0131q olmas\u0131n.getdiyi yerl\u0259r\u0259, ona da \u0259traf\u0131na da yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u0259ldi. \u0130nsan birinci \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc sonra \u0259traf\u0131n\u0131 aldad\u0131r ax\u0131.insan kimi insan idi . Yaln\u0131z obraz kimi des\u0259k pis rolda idi bu d\u0259f\u0259. \u0130st\u0259mirdim onu bel\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcm. utan\u0131rd\u0131m onun yerin\u0259.
\nAzadl\u0131q imi\u015f ayr\u0131l\u0131q.\u00d6z \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f yolu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm ki o an ona yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b arxadan it\u0259l\u0259dim.O da \u00f6lm\u0259di u\u00e7du qanad a\u00e7d\u0131 getdi .
\nFiziki \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc m\u0259n\u0259 laz\u0131m deyildi onun.Bir s\u00fcr\u00fc i\u015fi g\u00fcc\u00fc var idi bu d\u00fcyada .M\u0259n ist\u0259mir\u0259m o s\u00fcd sa\u011fan q\u0131z\u0131n sat\u0131l\u0131 bir t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 yayl\u0131q\u0131 bir t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fs\u00fcn .\u0130st\u0259mirdim, k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259nsin.
\nO m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn onsuzda \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc h\u0259min g\u00fcn, ondan qabaq da, bundan sonra da. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259k\u2026 H\u0259r g\u00fcn \u00f6lm\u0259kd\u0259n usanmayacaq
\nHe\u00e7 m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 sa\u011f deyildim. B\u0259z\u0259n insan\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm s\u0259b\u0259bi sad\u0259 bir s\u0131radan ehtiyats\u0131zl\u0131q olur . Sevgi bildiyim \u0259n al\u00e7aq ehtiyats\u0131zl\u0131qd\u0131r.
\nBir t\u0131sba\u011fa al\u0131m g\u0259r\u0259k. Akvariumda bal\u0131q da pis deyil. Ya bir it . \u0130nsan olmayan n\u0259 varsa g\u00f6z\u0259ldi \u00e7\u00fcnki \u0259slind\u0259 h\u0259yat el\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259ldi ki o g\u00fcn u\u00e7urumdan baxanda g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.
\nU\u00e7urum ..<\/p>\n

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\u00a0\u00a0\u00a05 saat ago U\u00e7urumun k\u0259nar\u0131nda dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. He\u00e7 zaman atmazd\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc.Yaln\u0131z qorxma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m, bird\u0259n aya\u011f\u0131 b\u00fcdr\u0259y\u0259r y\u0131x\u0131lar.Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qatmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yan\u0131ma \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131m.bax g\u00f6r n\u0259 deyir\u0259m\u2026 Arxaya \u00e7\u00f6n\u0259nd\u0259 onu balaca, he\u00e7 n\u0259 anlamayan u\u015fa\u011fa b\u0259nz\u0259tdim.\u0130st\u0259dim onu qucaqlay\u0131m he\u00e7 kim\u0259 verm\u0259yim daha. Yaz\u0131q balam deyim s\u0259n bu d\u00fcnyada m\u0259nsiz n\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. Yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki bu adam m\u0259ni d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259r\u0259 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15947"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=15947"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15947\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":15949,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15947\/revisions\/15949"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=15947"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=15947"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=15947"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}