{"id":16084,"date":"2020-11-23T18:54:10","date_gmt":"2020-11-23T14:54:10","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=16084"},"modified":"2020-11-23T18:54:10","modified_gmt":"2020-11-23T14:54:10","slug":"akif-abbasov-ananin-ur%c9%99yin%c9%99-ged%c9%99n-yol","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=16084","title":{"rendered":"AK\u0130F ABBASOV – ANANIN \u00dcR\u018fY\u0130N\u018f GED\u018fN YOL"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"ANANIN<\/a>(povest)
\nElmira xo\u015fb\u0259xt idimi, b\u0259db\u0259xt idimi? Bilm\u0259k olmurdu. N\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131-ac\u0131s\u0131 vard\u0131sa, a\u00e7\u0131b-a\u011fartm\u0131rd\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc o yer\u0259 qoymurdu. B\u0259zil\u0259ri onu q\u0131nay\u0131rd\u0131lar, amma \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc o yer\u0259 qoymurdu. Bir qula\u011f\u0131ndan al\u0131b, o biri qula\u011f\u0131ndan \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bir d\u0259 insan a\u011flay\u0131b-s\u0131z\u0131ldamaqla n\u0259 qazan\u0131r, n\u0259y\u0259 nail olur ki? D\u0259rdinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259rd g\u0259lir. \u018flini bu g\u00fcn d\u00fcnyadan \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259n, yediyin-i\u00e7diyin d\u0259 z\u0259h\u0259r olur. H\u0259r\u0259nin bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 t\u0259rzi var. Biri s\u0259ni ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, o biri dodaq b\u00fcz\u00fcr, \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fcs\u00fc \u015f\u0259b\u0259d\u0259 qo\u015fur, ba\u015fqas\u0131 qeyb\u0259t edir v\u0259 ilax\u0131r.
\n\u0130nsan \u00f6z taleyind\u0259n kim\u0259s\u0259 \u015fikay\u0259tl\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259 \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 halda ba\u015fqalar\u0131n\u0131n ona yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u0259lir. Bu da n\u0259yi d\u0259yi\u015fir?
\nElmira bel\u0259 ac\u0131malar\u0131 ist\u0259mir, \u00f6z\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn t\u0259hqir say\u0131rd\u0131. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 tox tuturdu. Problemi olanda da, \u00e7\u0259tinliy\u0259, dara d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259. Haqq\u0131nda kims\u0259 xo\u015fag\u0259lm\u0259z s\u00f6z dan\u0131\u015fa bilm\u0259zdi. \u00c7\u00fcnki buna \u0259sas verm\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u015e\u0259r\u0259fini, l\u0259yaq\u0259tini h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 qorumu\u015fdu.
\nB\u0259s niy\u0259 onu q\u0131nay\u0131rd\u0131lar? N\u0259 g\u00fcnah\u0131n sahibi idi? He\u00e7 bir g\u00fcnah\u0131 yox idi. N\u0259d\u0259s\u0259 su\u00e7lu oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259 q\u0131namay\u0131rd\u0131lar onu. \u018fr\u0259 getm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi, el\u00e7i d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nl\u0259ri bir-bir qap\u0131dan qaytar\u0131rd\u0131.
\nY\u0259ni Elmira bu vaxta q\u0259d\u0259r evd\u0259 oturub qalm\u0131\u015f, \u0259r\u0259 getm\u0259mi\u015fdi? Art\u0131q iyirmi s\u0259kkiz ya\u015f\u0131 vard\u0131. \u018frd\u0259 olmu\u015fdu, iki ya\u015f\u0131nda bir o\u011flu da vard\u0131. \u018fri d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdiyind\u0259n dul qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 s\u00f6z vermi\u015fdi ki, yenid\u0259n ail\u0259 qurmas\u0131n, b\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6vlad\u0131na h\u0259sr etsin, onu ayaq \u00fcst\u0259 qoysun. U\u015faq kimd\u0259ns\u0259 minn\u0259t g\u00f6rm\u0259sin. Ana f\u0259dakarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda h\u0259r \u015fey acizdir! Ana Allah\u0131n, t\u0259bi\u0259tin yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0259n m\u00fck\u0259mm\u0259l, \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l s\u0259n\u0259t \u0259s\u0259ridir!
\nAmma cavan ik\u0259n Elmiran\u0131n ail\u0259 s\u0259ad\u0259tind\u0259n m\u0259hrum olmas\u0131, yenid\u0259n \u0259r\u0259 getm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259m\u0259si d\u0259 yax\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131, do\u011fmalar\u0131n\u0131 a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131, onlara \u0259ziyy\u0259t verirdi.
\nBa\u015fqalar\u0131 Elmiran\u0131n vecin\u0259 deyildi. Birc\u0259 ata-anas\u0131n\u0131n ahlar\u0131na d\u00f6z\u0259 bilmir, \u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 d\u0259 bacara bilmirdi. Fikri q\u0259ti idi: \u0259r\u0259 getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. Birincid\u0259n yar\u0131d\u0131 ki, ikincid\u0259n g\u00fcn g\u00f6rs\u00fcn? Taleyin bu g\u0259rdi\u015find\u0259 ortada qalan bir odur, bir d\u0259 balaca F\u0259rid. Allah-taala do\u011fma atas\u0131n\u0131 F\u0259rid\u0259 \u00e7ox g\u00f6rd\u00fcs\u0259, \u00f6geyi he\u00e7 laz\u0131m da deyil!
\nElmira ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131ndan yar\u0131mad\u0131. \u0130yirmi alt\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131nda ik\u0259n \u0259rini itirdi. Bir \u00fcz\u00fc q\u0131z, bir \u00fcz\u00fc g\u0259lin qald\u0131. T\u0259s\u0259llisi F\u0259rid oldu. N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki, o vard\u0131!
\nElmira h\u00fcnd\u00fcr boylu, m\u00fct\u0259nasib \u0259ndaml\u0131, g\u00f6z\u0259l-g\u00f6y\u00e7\u0259k bir qad\u0131n idi. Subay olanda \u00e7oxlar\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259rd\u0259 salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, indi dul ik\u0259n yen\u0259 ne\u00e7\u0259sinin \u00fcr\u0259yini yerind\u0259n oynad\u0131rd\u0131!
\nO zamanlar \u015eahmar\u0131 se\u00e7di, ona k\u00f6n\u00fcl verdi. \u015eahmar da \u015eahmar idi. Q\u0259dd-qam\u0259tli, enli k\u00fcr\u0259kli, p\u0259l\u0259ng bil\u0259kli g\u0259nc idi. Q\u0131zlar da onun h\u0259sr\u0259tini \u00e7\u0259kirdil\u0259r. Yax\u015f\u0131 ya\u015fay\u0131r, yax\u015f\u0131 dolan\u0131rd\u0131lar. Bir-birin\u0259 g\u00fcld\u0259n a\u011f\u0131r s\u00f6z dem\u0259zdil\u0259r. M\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259r yax\u015f\u0131 olanda, \u0259r-arvad bir-birini ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259, bir-birin\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259t ed\u0259nd\u0259, qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131ql\u0131 g\u00fcz\u0259\u015ft olanda naraz\u0131l\u0131q \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259sas yaranm\u0131r. \u015eahmar\u0131n anas\u0131 \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m da m\u0259d\u0259ni qad\u0131n idi, g\u0259linini o\u011flundan ay\u0131rm\u0131r, Elmiran\u0131n x\u0259trini \u00e7ox ist\u0259yirdi. Elmira da yax\u015f\u0131 g\u0259lin kimi bu h\u00f6rm\u0259t\u0259 layiq idi. \u00d6z l\u0259yaq\u0259ti, \u00f6z m\u0259rif\u0259ti, \u00f6z t\u0259rbiy\u0259si il\u0259. Qay\u0131nana da sa\u011f olsun ki, g\u0259lininin yax\u015f\u0131 m\u0259ziyy\u0259tl\u0259rini g\u00f6r\u00fcb qiym\u0259tl\u0259ndirirdi.
\nElmira h\u0259yat\u0131ndan, ail\u0259sind\u0259n, \u0259rind\u0259n raz\u0131 idi. Ata-anas\u0131 da dir\u0259yi idi.
\nElmira u\u015faq g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. Bu x\u0259b\u0259rd\u0259n evd\u0259 ham\u0131 \u015fadyana idi. Onu qay\u011f\u0131 v\u0259 n\u0259vazi\u015fl\u0259 \u0259hat\u0259 etmi\u015fdil\u0259r. K\u00f6rp\u0259nin g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k h\u0259yat\u0131, sa\u011flaml\u0131\u011f\u0131 ana b\u0259tnind\u0259 olark\u0259n anan\u0131n h\u0259y\u0259can v\u0259 t\u0259\u015fvi\u015f ke\u00e7irm\u0259m\u0259sind\u0259n, qan\u0131n\u0131n bo\u015f yer\u0259 qaralmamas\u0131ndan \u00e7ox as\u0131l\u0131d\u0131r. Allaha \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr, h\u0259r \u015fey qaydas\u0131nda idi!
\n\u0130lk naraz\u0131l\u0131q, inciklik ax\u0131r ki, ba\u015f verdi. Elmira qad\u0131n m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259txanas\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b ev\u0259 getm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn avtobus dayanaca\u011f\u0131nda dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Taksiy\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc minm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi. T\u0259k olanda he\u00e7 vaxt taksiy\u0259 oturmazd\u0131. Mar\u015frut avtobusunu g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. H\u0259kim m\u00fcayin\u0259 edib demi\u015fdi ki, h\u0259r \u015fey qaydas\u0131ndad\u0131r, k\u00f6rp\u0259nin v\u0259ziyy\u0259ti yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r, yeyib yatma, \u00e7ox h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259td\u0259, tez-tez t\u0259miz havada ol, a\u011f\u0131r \u015fey qald\u0131rma. \u015eir\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 \u00fcst\u00fcnl\u00fck ver. Elmira bunu h\u0259kimsiz d\u0259 bilirdi. \u00d6z\u00fc yar\u0131mh\u0259kim idi. \u0130nstitutda t\u0259hsil alark\u0259n tibbi bilikl\u0259rin \u0259saslar\u0131ndan d\u0259rs ke\u00e7mi\u015fdil\u0259r. Bundan ba\u015fqa, hamil\u0259lik d\u00f6vr\u00fcn\u0259 aid kitablar oxuyurdu. \u00c7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, yaz\u0131lanlara, h\u0259kimin dedikl\u0259rin\u0259 \u0259m\u0259l el\u0259sin.
\nArada \u00e7a\u011fan\u0131 hiss edirdi. \u0130ndi d\u0259 qarn\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6y\u0259cl\u0259yirdi. Elmira g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yib \u0259lini qarn\u0131na apard\u0131 v\u0259 d\u0259rhal da g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc doda\u011f\u0131nda dondu. G\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc s\u0259hn\u0259d\u0259n m\u00fct\u0259\u0259ssir oldu. Qar\u015f\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259 bir ma\u015f\u0131n dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Onlar\u0131n ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 idi. \u015eahmar di\u015fini a\u011farda-a\u011farda bir qad\u0131n\u0131n qolundan tutub ma\u015f\u0131na mindirirdi. Dem\u0259kl\u0259, dan\u0131\u015fmaqla deyil, insan\u0131n h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259ti, bu v\u0259 ya dig\u0259r v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc aparmas\u0131 onun m\u0259qs\u0259dini, m\u0259ram\u0131n\u0131 ifad\u0259 edir. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r haqq qazand\u0131rma\u011fa, \u201cm\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 el\u0259 deyil, bel\u0259dir\u201d dem\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsa da,
\nElmira h\u0259l\u0259 ax\u015fam \u015eahmara demi\u015fdi ki, sabah h\u0259kim\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259k. O is\u0259, \u201cM\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, s\u0259ni apara bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. \u0130\u015fd\u0259 olmal\u0131yam, t\u0259dbirimiz var. T\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf edir\u0259m, amma m\u0259ni ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f. Taksi il\u0259 ged\u0259rs\u0259n\u201d \u2013 demi\u015fdi. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259, Elmiran\u0131n taksiy\u0259 minm\u0259diyini bildiyi halda ona bel\u0259 t\u0259klif etmi\u015fdi.
\nElmira onu ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u201cN\u0259 etm\u0259li, i\u015f adam\u0131d\u0131r. Yan\u0131m\u0131 k\u0259sdirib durmal\u0131 deyil ki… Avtobusla ged\u0259r\u0259m\u201d, -dey\u0259 \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.
\nAmma bu nec\u0259 olur? Elmira \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn vaxt tapa bilm\u0259diyi halda, ba\u015fqa qad\u0131n\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131nda g\u0259zdirirdi.
\nElmira fikir verib g\u00f6rd\u00fc ki, \u015eahmar ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 i\u015fl\u0259diyi m\u00fc\u0259ssis\u0259y\u0259 sar\u0131 deyil, tamam \u0259ks istiqam\u0259t\u0259 s\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bu onun \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259rini daha da art\u0131rd\u0131. Q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259nm\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259, \u015eahmar\u0131n h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259ti \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259, x\u0259trin\u0259 d\u0259ydi. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 al\u0131b avtobusa qalxd\u0131. Ona yer verdil\u0259r. \u018fyl\u0259\u015fdi. Dilxor olsa da, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 ala bildi. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 evd\u0259 s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259t salmayacaqd\u0131 ki…
\nEv\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m g\u0259linin q\u0131r\u0131m\u0131ndan ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki, Elmiran\u0131n hal\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 deyil. Qorxuya d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Tez:
\n-H\u0259kim n\u0259 dedi? U\u015fa\u011f\u0131n v\u0259ziyy\u0259ti nec\u0259dir?
\nElmira \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc toplay\u0131b sif\u0259tin\u0259 i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 bir t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm verm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131:
\n-Yax\u015f\u0131l\u0131qd\u0131r. U\u015faq normal inki\u015faf edir.
\n\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m:
\n-B\u0259s el\u0259 is\u0259, kefin niy\u0259 yoxdur? \u2013 dey\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r ald\u0131.
\nElmira h\u0259qiq\u0259ti dem\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259di:
\n-Yor\u011funluqdand\u0131r y\u0259qin.
\n\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m diqq\u0259tl\u0259 onun sif\u0259tin\u0259 baxd\u0131:
\n-Q\u0131z\u0131m, m\u0259nd\u0259n s\u00f6z gizl\u0259tm\u0259. Yor\u011funluq bir b\u0259han\u0259dir. He\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rin var? S\u0259n evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xanda bel\u0259 deyildin, \u0259hval\u0131n yax\u015f\u0131 idi. \u0130ndi bahar buludu kimi dolub durmusan. M\u0259n\u0259 d\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc de: h\u0259kim n\u0259 deyib? N\u0259 olub? Get-ged\u0259 r\u0259ngin d\u0259 qaral\u0131r. N\u0259 ba\u015f verib? X\u0259trin\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259n olub yoxsa? Ax\u0131 niy\u0259 m\u0259ni qoymad\u0131n s\u0259ninl\u0259 gedim?
\nElmira qay\u0131nanas\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7ox narahat oldu\u011funu, \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259diyini g\u00f6r\u00fcb h\u0259qiq\u0259ti s\u00f6yl\u0259di.
\nBu d\u0259f\u0259 \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n r\u0259ngi qarald\u0131:
\n-Q\u0131z\u0131m, fikir verm\u0259, bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259ri \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 salma. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 fikirl\u0259\u015f. \u015eahmar g\u0259l\u0259r, a\u015f\u0131n\u0131-suyunu ver\u0259r\u0259m.
\nElmira tez \u0259l-aya\u011fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc:
\n-Anacan, s\u0259n Allah, a\u00e7\u0131b a\u011fartma. Evd\u0259 s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259t yaranar. B\u0259lk\u0259 orta ciddi bir \u015fey yoxdur. Niy\u0259 onun da qan\u0131n\u0131 qaraldaq?!
\n\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m Elmiran\u0131 sakitl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn:
\n-B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259n dey\u0259ndir. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr tan\u0131\u015f xan\u0131m imi\u015f, rast g\u0259lib. \u015eahmar da m\u0259nliyin\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131rmay\u0131b ki, alt\u0131nda ma\u015f\u0131n ola-ola onu m\u0259nzil ba\u015f\u0131na \u00e7atd\u0131rmas\u0131n. N\u0259 bilm\u0259k olar?! D\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u015eahmar\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fc yax\u015f\u0131 bilir, s\u0259n d\u0259 deyirs\u0259n soru\u015fmay\u0131m.
\nElmira tez:
\n-Bel\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 olar, – dedi.
\n… Ax\u015fam d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Elmira yataqda uzanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 Qap\u0131n\u0131n z\u0259ngi s\u0259sl\u0259ndi. \u015eahmar idi. Aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b onu qar\u015f\u0131lamaq ist\u0259di. \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m Elmiran\u0131 qabaqlad\u0131. Elmira qay\u0131nanas\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259sini e\u015fidib ayaq saxlad\u0131.
\n-O\u011flum, s\u0259n yava\u015f-yava\u015f h\u0259ddini a\u015f\u0131rsan ha. Yolda\u015f\u0131n ikicanl\u0131d\u0131r. Ona deyirs\u0259n h\u0259kim\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn get, i\u015fim var. M\u0259lum olur ki, h\u0259min vaxt yoldan ke\u00e7\u0259nin birini ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131na mindirib Allah bilir hara apar\u0131rsan. Bunu nec\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259k?
\n-Bilirs\u0259n, ana…
\n\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m h\u0259dsiz \u0259s\u0259bi idi, sakitl\u0259\u015fmirdi:
\n-He\u00e7 n\u0259 bilmir\u0259m, bilm\u0259k d\u0259 ist\u0259mir\u0259m. Bu s\u0259nin ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 q\u0259l\u0259tin olsun. Su sonas\u0131 kimi arvad\u0131n\u0131 onun-bunun aya\u011f\u0131na verm\u0259. S\u0259nin yolda\u015f\u0131n yol ged\u0259nd\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcb onun ard\u0131nca bax\u0131r, onun h\u0259sr\u0259tind\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcrl\u0259r, s\u0259n is\u0259 kimin is\u0259 dal\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, ona quyruq bulay\u0131rsan. Ay\u0131b olsun s\u0259n\u0259!
\n\u015eahmar udqundu. Cavab\u0131 l\u0259ngidi. Sonra:
\n-Anacan…
\n\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m ona dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa imkan verm\u0259di:
\n-N\u0259 anacan? Utanm\u0131rsan? Hamil\u0259 qad\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259kim\u0259 avtobusla yola sal\u0131rsan…
\nQula\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7, yax\u015f\u0131 e\u015fit. M\u0259n s\u0259nin t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 deyil, g\u0259linimin t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259y\u0259m. A\u011fl\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131na y\u0131\u011f. S\u00f6z ver.
\n\u015eahmar t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259:
\n-N\u0259y\u0259 s\u00f6z verim?
\n-Bildiyin\u0259.
\nO\u011flunun key-key baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m ayd\u0131nl\u0131q g\u0259tirdi:
\n-Bir d\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259t etm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259.
\n\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n danla\u011f\u0131ndan sonra \u015eahmar \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc danlad\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00f6yd\u00fc: \u201cAnam d\u00fcz deyir. M\u0259n g\u00f6r n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r z\u00f6vqs\u00fcz heyvanam ki, arvad\u0131m\u0131n \u0259lin\u0259 su t\u00f6km\u0259y\u0259 bel\u0259 layiq olmayan qad\u0131nlar\u0131n yan-y\u00f6r\u0259sind\u0259 dolan\u0131r, onlarla oturub-dururam. Yen\u0259 d\u0259rd yar\u0131d\u0131r, arvad\u0131ndan g\u00f6z\u0259l ola, cazib\u0259dar ola, dey\u0259s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc saxlaya, n\u0259fsimi \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. Yoxsa… M\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 des\u0259l\u0259r yeri var. Elmiran\u0131 ist\u0259y\u0259n, onun d\u0259rdind\u0259n \u00f6l\u0259n ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u0259nc vard\u0131. Polis r\u0259isinin o\u011flu, ma\u011faza, univermaq m\u00fcdiri, z\u0259rg\u0259r… Onlara he\u00e7 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ucu il\u0259 d\u0259 baxmad\u0131. M\u0259ni se\u00e7di. Baxmayaraq ki, bir h\u0259sir idim, bir d\u0259 M\u0259mm\u0259dn\u0259sir. Bu da m\u0259nim ona verdiyim qiym\u0259t! Sabah y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131b atas\u0131 evin\u0259 gets\u0259, \u00fcz\u00fcm d\u0259 olmayacaq dal\u0131nca yollan\u0131b geri qaytarma\u011fa. Odur ki, g\u0259r\u0259k \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131ram, a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 aparam. Bir d\u0259 el\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259tl\u0259r el\u0259m\u0259y\u0259m!
\n\u015eahmar \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 \u00fcz tutub ota\u011fa ke\u00e7di. Elmira sakitc\u0259 oturub televizora bax\u0131rd\u0131. \u015e\u00f6vk\u0259t \u018fl\u0259kb\u0259rovan\u0131n konserti idi. \u015eahmar asta add\u0131mlarla yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b arxadan onun boynunu qucaqlad\u0131: \u201c
\n-Ema, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 haqq qazand\u0131rmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn he\u00e7 n\u0259 demir\u0259m. M\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla!
\nElmira d\u00f6n\u00fcb \u0259rin\u0259 baxd\u0131. Onun iri, piyal\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 sonsuz k\u0259d\u0259r gizl\u0259nmi\u015fdi. N\u0259 dindi, n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Elmiran\u0131n \u0259hval\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n \u015eahmar da pis oldu, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 ac\u0131\u011f\u0131 tutdu. N\u0259 is\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi ki, Elmira imkan verm\u0259di:
\n-\u015eahmar, m\u0259nim bu d\u00fcnyada he\u00e7 n\u0259d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm yoxdur. Say\u0131lma\u011fa, h\u00f6rm\u0259t\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131m var. \u0130st\u0259mir\u0259m t\u0259hqir olunum, al\u00e7ald\u0131l\u0131m. S\u0259n\u0259 d\u00f6z\u00fcr\u0259m. Amma h\u0259r \u015feyin bir h\u0259ddi var. \u00c7al\u0131\u015f o h\u0259ddi ke\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259s\u0259n.
\nEvd\u0259ki s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259t bununla qurtard\u0131. \u015eahmar ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sal\u0131b i\u015fl\u0259ri il\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Ticar\u0259t\u0259 qo\u015fulmu\u015fdu. Rusiyadan, \u00c7ind\u0259n, Pol\u015fadan, Dubaydan, T\u00fcrkiy\u0259d\u0259n dostlar\u0131n\u0131n g\u0259tirdikl\u0259ri mallar\u0131 obyektl\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Tezlikl\u0259 pulland\u0131. Amma pulla b\u0259rab\u0259r ev\u0259 i\u00e7ki iyi d\u0259 g\u0259tirirdi. Restoranlardan y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fm\u0131rd\u0131. Birc\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259r yem\u0259yini evd\u0259 yeyirdi. O da t\u0259l\u0259sm\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259. \u015e\u0259n, deyib-g\u00fcl\u0259n olmu\u015fdu. Elmira onun x\u0259trin\u0259 d\u0259ymirdi. \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m da:
\n-B\u0259nd olma, ki\u015fi yeyib-i\u00e7\u0259r d\u0259! T\u0259ki yaman i\u015fl\u0259r\u0259 qo\u015fulmas\u0131n!
\nElmira arada:
\n-\u015eahmar, az i\u00e7, – deyirdi. -Bu z\u0259hrmarda n\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u00fcs\u0259n bilmir\u0259m. Ondan kim xeyir g\u00f6r\u00fcb ax\u0131? \u018fn yax\u015f\u0131 halda qara ciy\u0259ri s\u0131radan \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131r.
\n\u015eahmar:
\n-N\u0259d\u0259n narahatsan bilmir\u0259m? – dedi.
\n-Ev\u0259 gec g\u0259lirs\u0259n. \u0130\u00e7\u0259rs\u0259n, birisi il\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcn \u00e7\u0259p g\u0259l\u0259r, \u0259lind\u0259n x\u0259ta \u00e7\u0131xar. H\u0259l\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 demir\u0259m. \u0130\u00e7ib s\u00fckan arxas\u0131nda oturursan. Q\u0259za t\u00f6r\u0259d\u0259r, bizi yaman g\u00fcn\u0259 qoyarsan.
\n\u015eahmar onun s\u00f6zl\u0259rini q\u0259rib\u00e7iliy\u0259 sal\u0131rd\u0131:
\n-Ema, des\u0259m inanmazsan. \u0130\u00e7kili ma\u015f\u0131n s\u00fcr\u0259nd\u0259 ay\u0131q vaxtdak\u0131ndan daha say\u0131q v\u0259 diqq\u0259tli oluram.
\nElmira n\u0259 deyirdis\u0259, \u015eahmar bir \u015fey fikirl\u0259\u015fib cavab verir, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 haqq qazand\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131.
\n* * *
\nG\u00fcnl\u0259r \u00f6td\u00fc. \u015eahmar qumara, narkotik madd\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 qur\u015fand\u0131, danlaq yiy\u0259si oldu. Ax\u0131rda da \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259hv el\u0259di.
\n\u0130ndi Elmira ata evind\u0259 idi. \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m da d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi. O\u011flunun \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u0259 tabla\u015fmad\u0131. Elmira iki ya\u015fl\u0131 o\u011flu F\u0259ridi b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcrd\u00fc. Ay par\u00e7as\u0131 kimi u\u015faq idi. Elmira d\u0259rdli, k\u0259d\u0259rli olsa da, \u0259vv\u0259lki t\u0259rav\u0259tini saxlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ala v\u0259 piyal\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u00fc, \u015fux yeri\u015fli, qara sa\u00e7l\u0131, qara qa\u015fl\u0131, q\u0259ddi-qam\u0259tli, i\u015fv\u0259li-nazl\u0131, iyirmi s\u0259kkiz ya\u015fl\u0131 xan\u0131m idi. Baxan onun q\u0131z, yaxud g\u0259lin oldu\u011funu ay\u0131rd ed\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi. \u0130\u015f yerind\u0259, m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259d\u0259, \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259, qohum-\u0259qr\u0259bada h\u0259sr\u0259tini \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n \u00e7ox idi. Onun dul v\u0259 u\u015faql\u0131 oldu\u011funu bil\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 geri \u00e7\u0259kilm\u0259k ist\u0259mir, onunla evl\u0259nm\u0259k fikrind\u0259 olduqlar\u0131n\u0131 bildirirdil\u0259r. Ata-anas\u0131 da Elmiran\u0131n yenid\u0259n ail\u0259 qurmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259yirdi. O is\u0259, da\u015f at\u0131b ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 tutur, deyirdi ki, \u0259r\u0259 getm\u0259k ist\u0259mir, bundan sonra h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 o\u011fluna h\u0259sr ed\u0259c\u0259k.
\nYaz\u0131q ata, taz\u0131q ana! G\u0259l indi buna d\u00f6z! \u00d6vlad yolunda n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r probleml\u0259r olurmu\u015f? \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 t\u00fck\u0259nm\u0259k bilmir. Birini h\u0259ll edirs\u0259n, ba\u015fqa birisi meydana g\u0259lir. Bu q\u0131z\u0131 \u0259r\u0259 ver\u0259 bils\u0259ydil\u0259r, d\u0259rdl\u0259ri olmazd\u0131. Q\u0131z da t\u0259rslik edir, inad\u0131ndan d\u00f6nm\u00fcr. N\u0259 atan\u0131 e\u015fidirdi, n\u0259 d\u0259 anan\u0131.
\nElmira elmi institutda \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. \u015e\u00f6b\u0259 m\u00fcdirinin g\u00f6z\u00fc onu tutmu\u015fdu. N\u0259 zaman idi, ona g\u00f6z qoyurdu. Q\u0259na\u0259ti bel\u0259 idi ki, \u0259xlaq\u0131na, oturu\u015funa-duru\u015funa, davran\u0131\u015f-r\u0259ftar\u0131na, qanaca\u011f\u0131na s\u00f6z ola bilm\u0259z. T\u0259rbiy\u0259si, s\u00f6z\u00fc, \u0259m\u0259li d\u00fcz idi. Dul olsa da, yen\u0259 birisinin \u00e7\u0131ra\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yand\u0131rma\u011fa layiq idi, yax\u015f\u0131 g\u0259lin olard\u0131. Amma \u015f\u00f6b\u0259 m\u00fcdiri bunu da e\u015fitmi\u015fdi ki, Elmira he\u00e7 kim\u0259 k\u00f6n\u00fcl vermir, el\u00e7il\u0259ri qap\u0131dan qaytar\u0131r.
\nElmiran\u0131n anas\u0131 da burada i\u015fl\u0259yirdi. Amma ba\u015fqa-ba\u015fqa \u015f\u00f6b\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 idil\u0259r. \u015e\u00f6b\u0259 m\u00fcdiri ax\u0131rda q\u0259rara ald\u0131 ki, q\u0131z\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 deyil, onun anas\u0131 Maral xan\u0131mla s\u00f6hb\u0259t el\u0259sin. G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r.
\n-Maral xan\u0131m, q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131z Elmiradan \u00e7ox raz\u0131yam. \u0130\u015fli-g\u00fccl\u00fc, a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131-kamall\u0131d\u0131r. \u0259xlaq\u0131 g\u00f6z\u0259l, \u00f6z\u00fc g\u00f6z\u0259l! \u018frini itirdiyind\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rim var. Cavand\u0131r, t\u0259rav\u0259tlidir. Gec-tez ail\u0259 qurmal\u0131d\u0131r. Bilirsiniz m\u0259n d\u0259 arvad\u0131m\u0131 itirmi\u015f\u0259m. Amma h\u0259yat davam el\u0259m\u0259lidir. \u00d6l\u0259ni n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7ox ist\u0259s\u0259n d\u0259, onunla \u00f6lm\u0259k olmur. Bu, g\u00fcnahd\u0131r.
\nMaral xan\u0131m t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 ona baxd\u0131: \u201cBu ki\u015fi n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r? N\u0259 olsun duldur, ba\u015fs\u0131zd\u0131r? Q\u0131z\u0131m da\u011f v\u00fcqarl\u0131, da\u011f g\u00f6vd\u0259li, \u015fir \u00fcr\u0259kli cavan o\u011flanlar\u0131 b\u0259y\u0259nib \u0259r\u0259 getmir, atas\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131nda ki\u015fiy\u0259 raz\u0131l\u0131q ver\u0259c\u0259k? N\u0259 olsun s\u0259nin yan\u0131nda i\u015fl\u0259yir. \u0130\u015f\u00e7in oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259 ona t\u0259sir ed\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n? G\u00fcn\u00fc bu g\u00fcn direktorun yan\u0131na gedib dey\u0259r\u0259m q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n \u015f\u00f6b\u0259sini d\u0259yi\u015fsin. Bu ki\u015fi dey\u0259s\u0259n x\u0259rifl\u0259yib. \u0130\u015ftahas\u0131na bax. M\u0259n bunu bir a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 adam bilirdim…\u201d
\n\u015e\u00f6b\u0259 m\u00fcdiri s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 davam etdi:
\n-H\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 itirm\u0259yin n\u0259 dem\u0259k oldu\u011funu m\u0259n \u00f6z t\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259md\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 bilir\u0259m.
\nMaral xan\u0131m \u00e7ox t\u0259sirl\u0259nmi\u015fdi. \u015e\u00f6b\u0259 m\u00fcdiri il\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259tin, onun t\u0259klifinin yersiz oldu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u00fcb aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131. F\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r s\u00f6z dem\u0259kd\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc zorla saxlad\u0131. F\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim qolundan tutub onu stulda oturtdu:
\n-S\u0259brin olsun. M\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc dem\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m….
\nMaral xan\u0131m daxil\u0259n \u0259s\u0259bil\u0259\u015fdiyini, art\u0131q \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 ala bilm\u0259diyini ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb s\u0259rt:
\n-E\u015fidir\u0259m, – dedi.
\nMaral xan\u0131m su sonas\u0131 kimi g\u00f6z\u0259l-g\u00f6y\u00e7\u0259k, tovuz qu\u015fu kimi yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 bu ki\u015finin yata\u011f\u0131nda he\u00e7 c\u00fcr t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr ed\u0259 bilmirdi. T\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259nd\u0259 is\u0259, \u00fcr\u0259yi qalx\u0131rd\u0131!
\nOnun \u0259hval\u0131n\u0131n d\u0259yi\u015fdiyini F\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim d\u0259 hiss etdi, lakin s\u00f6hb\u0259tini yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q qoymad\u0131:
\n-Y\u0259qin e\u015fitmisiniz, m\u0259nim o\u011flum Fuad i\u015f adam\u0131d\u0131r.
\nMaral xan\u0131m\u0131n bu bar\u0259d\u0259 m\u0259lumat\u0131 yox idi, h\u0259tta onun o\u011flunun olmas\u0131ndan bix\u0259b\u0259r idi. Amma cand\u0259rdi ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259rp\u0259dib onun s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc t\u0259sdiq el\u0259di.
\n-Fuad\u0131n burada m\u0259nzili, ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131, obyektl\u0259ri var. \u00d6z\u00fc Sankt-Peterburqda ya\u015fay\u0131r, orada i\u015fl\u0259yir. Orada da evi-e\u015fiyi, ba\u011f evi, \u015firk\u0259ti, xidm\u0259ti v\u0259 \u015f\u0259xsi ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 var. Cavan o\u011fland\u0131r. Sizin q\u0131zdan bir-iki ya\u015f b\u00f6y\u00fck olar. Allah \u00f6l\u0259nl\u0259riniz\u0259 r\u0259hm\u0259t el\u0259sin. Bir ild\u0259n bir az art\u0131qd\u0131r ki, onun h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 da torpa\u011fa tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131l\u0131b. \u0130ki-\u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015flar\u0131nda bir o\u011flu var. Fuad o\u011fluna ana, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u00f6m\u00fcr-g\u00fcn yolda\u015f\u0131 axtar\u0131r. Sizin q\u0131z\u0131 ona m\u0259n ni\u015fan vermi\u015f\u0259m. Uzaqdan da olsa Elmiran\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb, b\u0259y\u0259nib.
\nMaral xan\u0131m\u0131n \u0259hval\u0131 d\u0259rhal d\u0259yi\u015fdi. Sif\u0259tin\u0259 xo\u015f bir t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm qondu: \u201cBu h\u00f6vs\u0259l\u0259, t\u0259mkin v\u0259 s\u0259bir n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 \u015feymi\u015f! Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, a\u011f\u0131ls\u0131zl\u0131q el\u0259m\u0259dim. Az qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 di\u015fimin dibind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xan\u0131 F\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llimin c\u0259md\u0259yin\u0259 d\u00f6\u015f\u0259yim. Bu r\u00fcsvay\u00e7\u0131l\u0131qdan yax\u015f\u0131 qurtard\u0131m! Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 deyirl\u0259rmi\u015f ki, o insan g\u00fccl\u00fcd\u00fcr ki, q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259n\u0259n zaman \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 ala bilir!
\n-F\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim, q\u0131z\u0131m a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 v\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l q\u0131zd\u0131r, amma bir xo\u015fag\u0259lm\u0259z xasiyy\u0259ti var: inadkard\u0131r, n\u0259 billah el\u0259yirik, onu fikrind\u0259n da\u015f\u0131nd\u0131ra bilmirik. Deyir ikinci d\u0259f\u0259 ail\u0259 qurmayaca\u011fam.
\nF\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim:
\n-Bilm\u0259k olmaz, Maral xan\u0131m. Onlar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcr\u0259k, qoy s\u00f6hb\u0259t etsinl\u0259r. Tutar -n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131, tutmaz… daha bizlik deyil. Amma m\u0259n \u0259min\u0259m ki, s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259ri al\u0131nacaq. Fuad da yax\u015f\u0131 o\u011fland\u0131r, i\u015f bacarand\u0131r, tay-tu\u015flar\u0131ndan geri qalm\u0131r.
\nMaral xan\u0131m F\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llimin t\u0259klifini \u0259ri Rasim\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131rd\u0131. Rasim fikr\u0259 getdi: \u201c\u018fc\u0259b i\u015f\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u00fck. Bu q\u0131za nec\u0259 t\u0259sir ed\u0259k? Ax\u0131 o, balaca bir u\u015faqla t\u0259k-t\u0259nha n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ya\u015fayacaq?\u201d
\n-Arvad, q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259rsliyini bilirs\u0259n. \u201cYox\u201d deyib durur. Fuad\u0131 da yax\u0131n qoymasa, daha m\u0259n bilmir\u0259m n\u0259 edim. D\u00f6y\u00fclm\u0259li deyil ki \u2013 d\u00f6y\u0259s\u0259n. S\u00f6y\u00fclm\u0259li deyil ki \u2013 s\u00f6y\u0259s\u0259n. Birc\u0259 \u0259lac \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qal\u0131r. B\u0259lk\u0259 insafa g\u0259ldi.
\nMaral xan\u0131m:
\n-H\u0259r halda c\u0259hd ed\u0259k.
\n-El\u0259 is\u0259 Elmira il\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn dan\u0131\u015f. De ki, onun yan\u0131na s\u0259ni m\u0259n g\u00f6nd\u0259rmi\u015f\u0259m. M\u0259n bu izdivaca raz\u0131yam.
\nMaral xan\u0131m aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131. Rasim s\u00f6hb\u0259tini davam etdirdi:
\n-Birc\u0259 Elmiran\u0131 raz\u0131 sala bils\u0259ydik, narahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131za son qoyulard\u0131. Maral, he\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 yer tapm\u0131ram. Bu h\u0259yatda q\u0131z\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259limd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259ni etdim, he\u00e7 n\u0259d\u0259n korluq \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 qoymad\u0131m. Birc\u0259 onu xo\u015fb\u0259xtliy\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131ra bilm\u0259dim. Q\u0131z\u0131ma q\u0131z\u0131ldan taxt yarada bildim, f\u0259q\u0259t b\u0259xt yarada bilm\u0259dim. Budur m\u0259ni yand\u0131ran, alovland\u0131ran, q\u0259tr\u0259-q\u0259tr\u0259 \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259n!
\n-A ki\u015fi, el\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fma. D\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nl\u0259rin \u00f6ls\u00fcn. S\u0259n biz\u0259 – m\u0259n\u0259, q\u0131z\u0131ma, n\u0259v\u0259miz\u0259 laz\u0131msan! Sizsiz bir g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcz d\u0259 olmas\u0131n!
\nMaral xan\u0131m bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri deyib qulaqlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kdi:
\n-D\u0259rdim-azar\u0131n s\u0259ni ist\u0259m\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 getsin, \u00f6mr\u00fcm-g\u00fcn\u00fcm, h\u0259yat\u0131m!
\nRasimin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri ya\u015farm\u0131\u015fd\u0131:
\n-Elmira bizim q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131z olmaqdan savay\u0131, h\u0259m d\u0259 qad\u0131nd\u0131r. Atan\u0131n \u2013 ata yeri, anan\u0131n \u2013 ana yeri var. Qad\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda ki\u015fi olmal\u0131d\u0131r. N\u0259v\u0259m\u0259 ata laz\u0131md\u0131r.
\nMaral xan\u0131m onu sakitl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u018frini qucaqlay\u0131b \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6pd\u00fc:
\n-Ay ki\u015fi, h\u00f6vs\u0259l\u0259ni bas. Ax\u0131r\u0131 yax\u015f\u0131 olar. Bu F\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim pis adam deyil. O\u011flu da atas\u0131na \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r y\u0259qin. Atalar\u0131m\u0131z demi\u015fk\u0259n, \u201cOt k\u00f6k\u00fc \u00fcst\u0259 bit\u0259r\u201d.
\nMaral xan\u0131m \u0259rind\u0259n aralan\u0131b q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n ota\u011f\u0131na sar\u0131 getdi.
\nYaz girmi\u015fdi. Havan\u0131n el\u0259 bil qaz\u0131 al\u0131nm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Daha qarla, \u015faxta v\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131\u015fla insanlar\u0131 qorxutmurdu. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn \u0259rzind\u0259 ya\u011fan ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ara vermi\u015f, g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f s\u0259mada \u00f6z yerini tutmu\u015fdu. Onun \u015f\u00fcalar\u0131 z\u0259if olsa da, adam\u0131n can\u0131n\u0131 q\u0131zd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131.
\nRasim trest r\u0259isi idi. \u015e\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259ti, n\u00fcfuzu vard\u0131. H\u0259l\u0259 bir adam onun qaba\u011f\u0131na \u00e7\u00f6p sala bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u00c7oxuna \u0259l tuturdu. G\u00f6r\u00fcb-g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f, istid\u0259n-soyuqdan \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015f insan adam idi. He\u00e7 n\u0259y\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131 yox idi. Bel\u0259 yerd\u0259 deyirl\u0259r: birc\u0259 donuzu \u0259skik idi.
\n\u0130st\u0259mirdi n\u0259v\u0259si atas\u0131z b\u00f6y\u00fcs\u00fcn. Amma buna da raz\u0131 olmazd\u0131 ki, q\u0131z\u0131 kim\u0259 g\u0259ldi \u0259r\u0259 getsin. S\u00f6hb\u0259t varl\u0131-karl\u0131, ya da kas\u0131b adamdan getmirdi. Q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na m\u0259rif\u0259t sahibi, qanaca\u011f\u0131 olan, ail\u0259sinin q\u0259drini bil\u0259n bir \u015f\u0259xsd\u0259n gedirdi. El\u0259sin\u0259 rast g\u0259l\u0259 bil\u0259rdi ki, ba\u015flayard\u0131 F\u0259ridi burunlama\u011fa, Elmiran\u0131n g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6y \u0259skiy\u0259 b\u00fckm\u0259y\u0259. Onda g\u0259r\u0259k Rasim \u00f6z \u0259ll\u0259ri il\u0259 bo\u011fayd\u0131 o it o\u011flunu! \u00c7\u0259kdikl\u0259rini art\u0131q \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015fdil\u0259r.
\nElmira F\u0259ridi \u00e7arpay\u0131ya uzatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, u\u015faq yats\u0131n. Otaq nisb\u0259t\u0259n isti oldu\u011fundan Elmira yor\u011fan\u0131 bir k\u0259nara qoyub, F\u0259ridin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 nazik bir \u00f6rt\u00fck salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\nMaral xan\u0131m Elmiran\u0131n F\u0259ridi yat\u0131zd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb qap\u0131dan qay\u0131tmaq ist\u0259di. Elmira anas\u0131n\u0131n g\u0259li\u015fini hiss etm\u0259di. F\u0259rid n\u0259n\u0259sini g\u00f6r\u00fcb dik\u0259ldi:
\n-N\u0259n\u0259, n\u0259n\u0259, ay n\u0259n\u0259!
\nElmira \u00e7evrilib baxd\u0131. Maral xan\u0131m \u0259li il\u0259 i\u015far\u0259 etdi ki, narahat olmas\u0131n. Astaca:
\n-Sonra s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259rik, -deyib uzaqla\u015fd\u0131.
\nAz sonra Maral xan\u0131mla Elmira \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 oturmu\u015fdular. Maral xan\u0131m \u015firin dilini i\u015f\u0259 sald\u0131:
\n-Q\u0131z\u0131m, artanla s\u00f6hb\u0259timiz oldu. Bilir\u0259m yen\u0259 bir b\u0259han\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. S\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 diqq\u0259tl\u0259 qulaq as. S\u0259n bizim ciy\u0259rpar\u0259mizs\u0259n. Biz s\u0259nin xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyini ist\u0259yirik. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 iki aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bir ba\u015fma\u011fa dir\u0259yirik. Ax\u0131 n\u0259 vaxta q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259k qalacaqsan?
\nElmira \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259: \u201cB\u0259li, anam yen\u0259 ba\u015flayacaq. K\u00f6hn\u0259 hamam, k\u00f6hn\u0259 tas\u201d.
\nElmira dedi:
\n-T\u0259k niy\u0259 oluram, ana? Allaha \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr g\u00fcl kimi balam. Siz \u2013 s\u0259n, atam, bac\u0131m…
\nElmiran\u0131n Esmira ad\u0131nda bir bac\u0131s\u0131 vard\u0131. \u018frd\u0259 idi. \u0130ki \u00f6vlad\u0131 vard\u0131 \u2013 biri o\u011flan, biri q\u0131z. \u00d6z evl\u0259ri, e\u015fikl\u0259ri, i\u015f yerl\u0259ri… Yax\u015f\u0131 dolan\u0131rd\u0131lar. H\u0259m maddi bax\u0131mdan, h\u0259m d\u0259 m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259rinin kamilliyi bax\u0131m\u0131ndan probleml\u0259ri yox idi.
\nMaral xan\u0131m davam etdi:
\n-Bac\u0131n sar\u0131dan arxay\u0131n\u0131q. S\u0259ns\u0259n bizim yaral\u0131 yerimiz.
\nElmira t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 anas\u0131na baxd\u0131:
\n-M\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 olub ki? Yoxsa siz\u0259 y\u00fck\u0259m?
\nMaral xan\u0131m \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 divan tutdu:
\n-G\u00f6r hara yozursan? M\u0259n n\u0259 deyir\u0259m, s\u0259n n\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015firs\u0259n? Y\u00fck niy\u0259 olursan, q\u0131z\u0131m. \u00d6vlad da valideyn\u0259 y\u00fck olar?
\n-Yen\u0259 n\u0259 olub, ana? S\u00f6zl\u00fc adama ox\u015fay\u0131rsan. \u0130ndi kimdir el\u00e7i g\u0259l\u0259n?
\nQ\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n ri\u015fx\u0259ndl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131 Maral xan\u0131m\u0131 a\u00e7mad\u0131: \u201cBu q\u0131z d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259n deyil. El\u0259 hey \u00f6z dediyini deyir.\u201d
\nMaral xan\u0131m hiss etdi ki, art\u0131q \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259ri tar\u0131ma \u00e7\u0259kilir. Bir ist\u0259di dinm\u0259z-s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259z qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131b \u00e7\u0131xs\u0131n, amma fikirl\u0259\u015fdi ki: \u201cBununla n\u0259y\u0259 nail olacaq? \u00dcst\u0259lik Rasim d\u0259 ona ac\u0131qlanacaq: \u201cEl\u0259 s\u0259n d\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n a\u011f\u0131ldasan!\u201d dey\u0259c\u0259k. Sonra birini o dey\u0259c\u0259k, birini Maral. Ortaya s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259t d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k\u201d
\nOdur ki, Maral xan\u0131m birt\u0259h\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 al\u0131b dedi:
\n-D\u00fcz fikirl\u0259\u015firs\u0259n. el\u00e7i g\u0259lm\u0259k ist\u0259yirl\u0259r.
\nElmira zarafata sald\u0131:
\n-Kim\u0259 el\u00e7i g\u0259lirl\u0259r, s\u0259n\u0259?
\nMaral xan\u0131m\u0131 g\u00fclm\u0259k tutdu:
\n-Ay q\u0131z\u0131m, m\u0259nim hay\u0131m gedib, vay\u0131m qal\u0131b. Neyl\u0259yirl\u0259r m\u0259ni? Tur\u015fuya qoyacaqlar? El\u00e7i s\u0259nin\u00e7in g\u0259lir. G\u0259l biz\u0259 qulaq as. Ax\u0131rda bizi qohum-\u0259qr\u0259ba yan\u0131nda xar el\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. Dey\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r ata-anas\u0131na qulaq asm\u0131r. H\u0259l\u0259 \u201cvalideynl\u0259rini saym\u0131r\u201d dey\u0259nl\u0259r d\u0259 olacaq.
\n-Kimdir ax\u0131 g\u0259l\u0259n?
\nS\u00f6hb\u0259t\u0259 k\u00f6rp\u00fc sald\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan sevin\u0259n Maral xan\u0131m tez cavab verdi:
\n-S\u0259nin \u015f\u00f6b\u0259 m\u00fcdirin F\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim.
\n-F\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim?
\nBu d\u0259f\u0259 Elmiran\u0131 g\u00fclm\u0259k tutdu:
\n-Ay ana, el\u0259 o da s\u0259nin g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259dir. Mostu qa\u00e7\u0131b.
\nMaral xan\u0131m u\u011funub getdi:
\n-Allah s\u0259ni g\u00fcld\u00fcrs\u00fcn! N\u0259 zamand\u0131r bel\u0259 g\u00fclm\u0259mi\u015fdim. \u018fvv\u0259l m\u0259n d\u0259 el\u0259 bilirdim s\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 ist\u0259yir. \u00c7ox b\u0259y\u0259nib s\u0259ni. T\u0259rifl\u0259m\u0259kd\u0259n yorulub-usanm\u0131r, dili a\u011fz\u0131na s\u0131\u011fm\u0131r. Sonra g\u00f6rd\u00fcm yox, s\u0259ni o\u011fluna almaq ist\u0259yir. O\u011fluna.
\nElmira:
\n-Onun o\u011flu var? He\u00e7 bilmirdim. Q\u0131zlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m.
\nMaral xan\u0131m s\u00f6hb\u0259tini davam etdirdi:
\n-O\u011flu oldu\u011funu m\u0259n d\u0259 bilmirdim. S\u0259n dem\u0259, ne\u00e7\u0259 il \u0259vv\u0259l \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b gedib Sankt-Peterburqa. Orada i\u015fl\u0259yir. \u0130\u015f adam\u0131d\u0131r. \u0130mkanlar\u0131 geni\u015fdir.
\nElmira qa\u015f-qaba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sallad\u0131:
\n-Dem\u0259li, m\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fczd\u0259n uzaqla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b Sankt-Peterburqa yola salmaq ist\u0259yirsiniz?
\nMaral xan\u0131m tutuldu:
\n-Q\u0131z\u0131m, \u0259zizim, bu n\u0259 s\u00f6zd\u00fcr? S\u0259n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259, h\u0259r zaman g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131san, g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 olaraq da qalacaqsan!
\nElmir\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn Maral xan\u0131ma pis t\u0259sir etdiyini g\u00f6r\u00fcb onun k\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc ald\u0131:
\n-Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, anacan, zarafat etdim. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr yerin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259di. O Fuad bu vaxta q\u0259d\u0259r n\u0259 \u0259c\u0259b evl\u0259nm\u0259yib?
\nMaral xan\u0131m dedi:
\n-Evli olub. Onun da F\u0259rid ya\u015f\u0131nda bir o\u011flu var. Fuad\u0131n da arvad\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcb. Ac\u0131 olsa da, taleyiniz bir-birin\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131r. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 Allah\u0131n i\u015fidir. \u0130st\u0259yir sizi qovu\u015fdursun. Bu da \u015f\u0259kli. F\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim verib.
\nElmira \u015f\u0259kli al\u0131b baxd\u0131:
\n-Pis o\u011flan deyil Allah qism\u0259tini yetirsin, – deyib \u015f\u0259kli anas\u0131na qaytard\u0131.
\nMaral xan\u0131m \u00fcmidini itirdi:
\n-Q\u0131z\u0131m, yen\u0259 t\u0259rslik edirs\u0259n. M\u0259n n\u0259 deyir\u0259m ki? G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn, s\u00f6hb\u0259t edin. B\u0259lk\u0259 xo\u015funa g\u0259ldi.
\nElmira qa\u015f-qaba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 t\u00f6kd\u00fc:
\n-Ana, \u00fcz vurma. M\u0259nim \u0259r\u0259 getm\u0259k fikrim yoxdur.
\nRasim qap\u0131da g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc. Elmira aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131:
\n-Q\u0131z\u0131m, s\u00f6hb\u0259tinizi e\u015fitdim. Anan\u0131 s\u0259nin yan\u0131na m\u0259n g\u00f6nd\u0259rmi\u015f\u0259m. Bu saat s\u0259ni \u0259r\u0259 vermirik ki… G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn, s\u00f6hb\u0259t edin, bir-birinizd\u0259n hal-\u0259hval tutun. Xo\u015funa g\u0259l\u0259r \u2013 g\u0259l\u0259r, g\u0259lm\u0259z \u2013 g\u0259lm\u0259sin. S\u0259ni m\u0259cbur el\u0259m\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yik ki… H\u0259, n\u0259 deyirs\u0259n?
\nElmira susdu. Atas\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131nd\u0131rmaq ist\u0259mirdi. Odur ki:
\n-Yax\u015f\u0131, ata, siz dey\u0259n olsun. Amma bir \u015f\u0259rtl\u0259. Ba\u015fqa yerd\u0259 yox, bizim m\u0259nzild\u0259, sizin yan\u0131n\u0131zda onunla dan\u0131\u015fmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m.
\nRasim:
\n-Nec\u0259 ist\u0259yirs\u0259n, q\u0131z\u0131m, -dedi.
\nMaral xan\u0131m F\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259 z\u0259ng edib m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni anlatd\u0131.
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\nElmiran\u0131n x\u0259yal\u0131 \u00f6t\u0259n g\u00fcnl\u0259r\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131. K\u00f6rp\u0259 d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Ba\u015f\u0131na f\u0131rf\u0131ra kimi dolan\u0131rd\u0131lar. \u015eahmar daha \u0259vv\u0259lki kimi ili\u015fib qalm\u0131r, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ev\u0259 tez \u00e7atd\u0131rma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Daha evd\u0259n i\u00e7ki iyi g\u0259lmirdi. Ata olmu\u015fdu. Elmira ona o\u011ful b\u0259x\u015f etmi\u015fdi. Elmiran\u0131 qollar\u0131 aras\u0131na al\u0131r, \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259rq edir, sonra \u0259yilib m\u0131\u015f\u0131l-m\u0131\u015f\u0131l yatan F\u0259rid\u0259 bax\u0131r, baxd\u0131qca doymaq bilmirdi. K\u00f6rp\u0259 oyaq olanda quca\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb g\u0259zi\u015fir, \u0259lind\u0259n yer\u0259 qoymaq bilmirdi. F\u0259rid k\u0259lm\u0259si dilind\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcrd\u00fc. Harada otururdusa F\u0259ridd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.
\n\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n da sevinci a\u015f\u0131b-da\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Zarafat deyildi. N\u0259n\u0259 olmu\u015fdu. \u015eahmar ev\u0259, ail\u0259sin\u0259 daha \u00e7ox ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\nF\u0259q\u0259t \u015feytan he\u00e7 zaman sakit dayan\u0131b-durmur. \u0130nsan\u0131n q\u0259lbin\u0259, beynin\u0259 girir, a\u011fl\u0131n\u0131 \u0259lind\u0259 al\u0131r. Nec\u0259 oldusa \u015eahmar \u015feytana yolda\u015f oldu, onun buyru\u011fu il\u0259 oturub-durma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. U\u015fa\u011f\u0131n ail\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259li\u015find\u0259n bir ne\u00e7\u0259 ay, daha s\u0259hih des\u0259k, alt\u0131 ay \u00f6tm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u015eahmar yen\u0259 i\u00e7kiy\u0259 qur\u015fanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, kefd\u0259-damaqda idi. Yen\u0259 ev\u0259 gec g\u0259lirdi. H\u0259tta b\u0259z\u0259n he\u00e7 g\u0259lmirdi d\u0259. Kef m\u0259clisl\u0259ri t\u00fck\u0259nm\u0259k bilmirdi. S\u0259n dem\u0259, h\u0259min ey\u015f-i\u015fr\u0259t m\u0259clisl\u0259rind\u0259 qad\u0131nlar da olurmu\u015f. B\u0259z\u0259n yolda\u015flar\u0131 ev\u0259 \u015eahmar\u0131n le\u015fini g\u0259tirirdil\u0259r. Bel\u0259 anlarda onun dili s\u00f6z tutmurdu, pall\u0131-paltarl\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc at\u0131rd\u0131 \u00e7arpay\u0131ya v\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131 xoruldama\u011fa.
\n\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m deyinir, s\u00f6yl\u0259nirdi. Elmira is\u0259, susurdu. S\u0259sini i\u00e7in\u0259 sal\u0131b ata-anas\u0131na da bir s\u00f6z demirdi. Onlar\u0131 d\u0259rd\u0259 salmaq, rahatl\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 pozmaq ist\u0259mirdi. R\u0259fiq\u0259l\u0259ri z\u0259ng ed\u0259nd\u0259 s\u00f6zaras\u0131 \u015eahmar\u0131 da yada sal\u0131r, onu qad\u0131nlarla g\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259rini Elmiraya \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131lar.
\nBel\u0259 anlarda \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m:
\n-R\u0259fiq\u0259l\u0259rinin s\u00f6zl\u0259rini qulaq ard\u0131na vur. S\u0259nin pax\u0131ll\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kirl\u0259r. \u018frin, evin-e\u015fiyin, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n. O H\u00fcsniyy\u0259 gedib \u00f6z d\u0259rdini \u00e7\u0259ksin. D\u00f6z\u00fcb alt\u0131 ay, \u0259rd\u0259 qalmad\u0131. S\u0259lim\u0259 d\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259m ya\u015f\u0131ndad\u0131r, h\u0259l\u0259 \u0259r\u0259 getm\u0259yib.
\n\u015eahmar\u0131n yolunu g\u00f6zl\u0259dikl\u0259ri bir ax\u015fam Elmira \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc saxlaya bilm\u0259yib dedi:
\n-Anacan, \u015eahmar daha a\u011f el\u0259yir.
\n\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m hal\u0131n\u0131 pozmadan:
\n-Q\u0131z\u0131m, fikir verm\u0259, -dedi. -Ki\u015fi xeyla\u011f\u0131d\u0131r. Ki\u015fi yeyib-i\u00e7\u0259r d\u0259, g\u0259z\u0259r d\u0259. Bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259ri \u00e7ox da \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 salma. \u00dcr\u0259yin\u0259 xal d\u00fc\u015f\u0259r. M\u0259nim ki\u015fim el\u0259 bilirs\u0259n dinc otururdu?
\nElmira quca\u011f\u0131nda F\u0259rid t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb v\u0259 heyr\u0259tl\u0259 qay\u0131nanas\u0131na bax\u0131rd\u0131: \u201cNec\u0259 y\u0259ni fikir verm\u0259? Bir zaman deyirdi: \u201cKi\u015fi yeyib-i\u00e7\u0259r d\u0259\u201d. \u0130ndi is\u0259, \u201cKi\u015fi g\u0259z\u0259r d\u0259\u201d \u2013 deyir.
\nSon zamanlar \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m \u00e7ox d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi. O\u011flunun t\u0259r\u0259fini saxlay\u0131rd\u0131.
\n-U\u015fa\u011f\u0131na bax. Fikrini bo\u015f-bo\u015f \u015feyl\u0259r\u0259 y\u00f6n\u0259ltm\u0259. Xan\u0131m\u0131n borcu \u0259rin\u0259 xidm\u0259t etm\u0259k, onun qullu\u011funda durmaq, s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc e\u015fitm\u0259kdir! Qad\u0131n\u0131n v\u0259zif\u0259si \u0259rinin i\u015fl\u0259rin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fmaq, onu izl\u0259m\u0259k deyil! Qad\u0131n n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ba\u015f\u0131a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 olsa, h\u00f6rm\u0259ti-izz\u0259ti \u00e7ox olar!
\nElmira mat-m\u0259\u0259tt\u0259l qal\u0131rd\u0131: \u201cBu arvad n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r?\u201d
\nElmira bu ev\u0259 g\u0259lin g\u0259ldiyi g\u00fcn \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m: \u201cXo\u015fuma g\u0259lirs\u0259n, – dedi. \u2013\u201cG\u00f6z\u0259l-g\u00f6y\u00e7\u0259k, yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 g\u0259lins\u0259n. \u0130\u015fli-g\u00fccl\u00fc. O\u011fluma yara\u015f\u0131rsan. Amma qiym\u0259tini birini do\u011fandan sonra ver\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m!
\nU\u015faq do\u011fuldu. G\u00fcnl\u0259r ke\u00e7di. \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m bir g\u00fcn Elmiran\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n-g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6p\u00fcb:
\n-N\u0259, vaxt yeti\u015fdi, – dedi. -S\u0259nin qiym\u0259tini verm\u0259k olar. S\u0259n m\u0259nim xan\u0131m g\u0259linims\u0259n! Budur s\u0259n\u0259 veril\u0259n qiym\u0259t \u2013 \u201cXan\u0131m g\u0259lin!\u201d
\nH\u0259min gec\u0259 \u015eahmar g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131. Ert\u0259si g\u00fcn ax\u015fam\u00fcst\u00fc qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b \u015faqraq s\u0259sl\u0259 v\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 olmay\u0131bm\u0131\u015f kimi:
\n-Bu da m\u0259n! \u2013 dedi.
\n\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131mla Elmiradan s\u0259s \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb:
\n-Vacib i\u015fim vard\u0131. Mal dal\u0131nca getmi\u015fdim.
\nElmira \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc saxlaya bilm\u0259di:
\n-Hans\u0131 mal\u0131n dal\u0131nca getdiyind\u0259n az-\u00e7ox x\u0259b\u0259rimiz var!
\n\u015eahmar tutuldu, bilm\u0259di n\u0259 desin, sonra \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 al\u0131b:
\n-Ba\u015flama, – dedi v\u0259 o biri ota\u011fa ke\u00e7di. F\u0259rid yat\u0131rd\u0131. A\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u0259yilib xeyli o\u011fluna baxd\u0131. Onu \u00f6pm\u0259kd\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00fccl\u0259 saxlad\u0131. U\u015faq h\u0259l\u0259 balaca idi. \u00d6pm\u0259k m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t deyildi.
\n\u015eahmar \u015falvar\u0131n\u0131, k\u00f6yn\u0259yini d\u0259yi\u015fib g\u0259ldi, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc Elmiraya tutub dedi:
\n-Geyin, ged\u0259k bir az hava alaq.
\n-N\u0259 hava? U\u015fa\u011f\u0131n oyanan vaxt\u0131d\u0131r. \u018fynini d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259liy\u0259m, \u0259mizdirm\u0259liy\u0259m.
\n\u015eahmar ayaqqab\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n ba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flaya-ba\u011flaya:
\n-S\u0259n geyin, u\u015fa\u011fa anam baxar, – dedi.
\n\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m s\u00f6hb\u0259t\u0259 qo\u015fuldu:
\n-\u018frin d\u00fcz deyir. B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00f6rd divar aras\u0131ndasan. Bu divarlar s\u0259ni s\u0131xm\u0131r? \u00c7\u0131x bir az g\u0259z-dolan, eynin a\u00e7\u0131ls\u0131n, bay\u0131r-baca g\u00f6r.
\nElmira boyun qa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131:
\n-Yox e, ay ana, indi u\u015faq oyanacaq, a\u011flayacaq…
\n\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131 ota\u011fa sar\u0131 boylanaraq arxay\u0131nl\u0131qda dedi:
\n-Narahat olma, m\u0259n baxaram, yem\u0259yini qoy…
\nElmira boyun qa\u00e7\u0131rmaqda idi:
\n-Bird\u0259n a\u011flayar, sakitl\u0259\u015fm\u0259k bilm\u0259z. Sizi d\u0259 incid\u0259r.
\n\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m \u0259lini yell\u0259di:
\n-Eh, incid\u0259r – incid\u0259r. N\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck i\u015f olar? N\u0259v\u0259m deyil?
\nElmira boyun qa\u00e7\u0131rmaqda idi:
\n-H\u0259m d\u0259 yem\u0259k qoymaqla i\u015f d\u00fcz\u0259lmir. G\u0259r\u0259k \u0259mizdirim.
\nMaral xan\u0131m da t\u0259kidli idi:
\n-Dedim ki narahat olma. U\u015faq b\u00f6y\u00fctm\u0259mi\u015fik? A\u011flamaqla u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n z\u0259ri t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fcr. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qataram.
\n\u015eahmar s\u00f6hb\u0259tin uzand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb:
\n-Yax\u015f\u0131, siz bir q\u0259rara g\u0259lin, m\u0259n d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259. Ma\u015f\u0131nda g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m.
\nElmiran\u0131n sakitl\u0259\u015fm\u0259diyini g\u00f6r\u0259n \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131n g\u00fcz\u0259\u015ft\u0259 getdi:
\n-Yax\u015f\u0131, F\u0259ridi \u0259mizdirib sonra ged\u0259rs\u0259n.
\nEl\u0259 d\u0259 oldu.
\nBir az \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri g\u0259zib-dolanandan sonra g\u0259lib \u201c\u00c7anaqqala\u201d restoran\u0131na \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131lar. Restoran\u0131n h\u0259y\u0259ti ya\u015f\u0131ll\u0131q idi. H\u0259y\u0259t-bacan\u0131 sulam\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Yay ay\u0131 olsa da, buraya \u00fcr\u0259kox\u015fayan s\u0259rinlik \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Restoran\u0131n geni\u015f \u0259razisi vard\u0131. M\u00fc\u015ft\u0259ril\u0259r\u0259 yay v\u0259 q\u0131\u015f salonlar\u0131 xidm\u0259t edirdi. Xidm\u0259t s\u0259viyy\u0259si y\u00fcks\u0259k oldu\u011fundan, \u0259yl\u0259nc\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259r c\u00fcr \u015f\u0259rait yarad\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan ya\u015f-q\u0131\u015f \u201c\u00c7anaqqala\u201dda adam \u0259lind\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259k olmurdu. Tez-tez toy \u015f\u0259nlikl\u0259ri, ziyaf\u0259tl\u0259r, ad g\u00fcnl\u0259ri, ni\u015fan m\u0259clisl\u0259ri ke\u00e7irilirdi. Ail\u0259vi dinc\u0259lm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 m\u00fcnasib idi. Bir n\u00f6v restoran d\u0259bd\u0259 idi.
\nSol k\u00fcncd\u0259 y\u00fcks\u0259klikd\u0259n \u015f\u0259lal\u0259 s\u0259s qopara-qopara ax\u0131b hovuza t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. Harada su varsa \u2013 orada h\u0259yat var. T\u0259p\u0259nin ba\u015f\u0131nda da\u011f ke\u00e7isi boynunu dik tutaraq \u0259traf\u0131 seyr edir, qonaqlara g\u00f6z qoyurdu. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, s\u00f6hb\u0259t h\u0259qiqi \u015f\u0259lal\u0259d\u0259n, \u0259sl da\u011f ke\u00e7isind\u0259n getmirdi. Restoran\u0131n yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6z\u0259l m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131 ki, bu da qonaqlara xo\u015f ovqat b\u0259x\u015f edirdi.
\n\u201c\u00c7anaqqala\u201ddan \u00e7\u0131xandan sonra \u015eahmar ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 dar bir m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259y\u0259 s\u00fcrd\u00fc. Elmira key-key onun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131. \u015eahmar zarafata sald\u0131:
\n-N\u0259 bax\u0131rsan? S\u0259ni qa\u00e7\u0131rm\u0131\u015fam.
\nBayaqdan aln\u0131 d\u00fcy\u00fcnl\u0259nmi\u015f Elmira g\u00fclm\u0259kd\u0259n u\u011funub getdi:
\n-Y\u0259ni deyirs\u0259n t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n ba\u015flay\u0131r\u0131q?
\nBu d\u0259f\u0259 \u015eahmar\u0131 g\u00fclm\u0259k tutdu. Sonra n\u0259f\u0259sini d\u0259rib:
\n-Yox, \u0259zizim, bir d\u0259f\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f\u0131q, \u00f6l\u0259n\u0259 kimi davam ed\u0259c\u0259k!
\nElmira ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259n yan-y\u00f6r\u0259y\u0259 baxaraq soru\u015fdu:
\n-Burada n\u0259 i\u015fimiz?
\n\u015eahmar \u015faqraq s\u0259sl\u0259:
\n-G\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m s\u0259n\u0259 ni\u015fan \u00fcz\u00fcy\u00fc al\u0131m… \u2013 dedi.
\nElmiran\u0131 g\u00fclm\u0259k tutdu:
\n-B\u0259s dedin bir d\u0259f\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f\u0131qsa… \u0130ndi d\u0259 deyirs\u0259n t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n ni\u015fanlanaq, t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n evl\u0259n\u0259k.
\n\u015eahmar ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 saxlay\u0131b arxa oturaca\u011fa sar\u0131 boyland\u0131. Elmiraya \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc tutaraq:
\n-Ema, \u0259zizim, -dedi. -F\u0259rid anadan olanda s\u0259ni d\u00fcz \u0259m\u0259lli-ba\u015fl\u0131 t\u0259brik ed\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. \u018flim a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 idi. \u0130ndi d\u00fcz\u0259lib. \u0130st\u0259yir\u0259m h\u0259diyy\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fcn b\u0259y\u0259nib se\u00e7\u0259s\u0259n.
\nElmira \u0259trafa g\u00f6z g\u0259zdirdi. Ma\u015f\u0131ndan bir az aral\u0131da iki o\u011flan u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 tuman\u00e7aq oynay\u0131rd\u0131. Bir g\u0259lin \u0259lind\u0259 d\u00f6rdayaq bir h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b o biri h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 girdi. \u0130ki ki\u015fi n\u0259rd taxtan\u0131 dizl\u0259rinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoyub z\u0259r at\u0131rd\u0131.
\n– Bu dar m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259d\u0259 univermaq, ya da q\u0131z\u0131l ma\u011fazas\u0131 haradad\u0131r?
\n\u015eahmar \u0259li il\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rdi:
\n-Z\u00fcmr\u00fcd xan\u0131m\u0131n evind\u0259. \u0130nan\u0131rsan onun ordan-burdan, y\u0259ni o \u00f6lk\u0259d\u0259n, bu \u00f6lk\u0259d\u0259n x\u0259lv\u0259ti g\u0259tirdiyi brilyant qa\u015fl\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fckl\u0259rin, s\u0131r\u011falar\u0131n yerini he\u00e7 n\u0259 verm\u0259z. \u015e\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259ki q\u0131z\u0131l ma\u011fazalar\u0131nda, univermaqlar\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131l-g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f sat\u0131lan \u015f\u00f6b\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 h\u0259min yara\u015f\u0131qda, b\u0259z\u0259k-d\u00fcz\u0259kd\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fck v\u0259 s\u0131r\u011falar \u00e7\u0259tin tap\u0131lar.
\nElmira etiraz\u0131n\u0131 bildirdi:
\n-\u015eahmar, b\u0259lk\u0259 laz\u0131m deyil. B\u0259dx\u0259rclik niy\u0259 laz\u0131m? Q\u0259d\u0259rinc\u0259 zin\u0259t \u015feyl\u0259rim var. \u00dcz\u00fcy\u00fcm d\u0259, s\u0131r\u011falar\u0131m da, qolbaq v\u0259 bil\u0259rzikl\u0259rim, g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f k\u0259m\u0259rim var. Ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u0259r ged\u0259k. U\u015faq sar\u0131dan nigaranam. A\u011flamaqdan \u00fcr\u0259yi \u00e7atlar.
\n\u015eahmar q\u0259h-q\u0259h\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi:
\n-Anam\u0131 tan\u0131m\u0131rsan. U\u015fa\u011fa baxmaqda, ona qulluq g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259kd\u0259 tay\u0131-b\u0259rab\u0259ri yoxdur. Oynad\u0131b da, \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131 da verib, yem\u0259yini d\u0259. Gedib g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n yat\u0131r. Di d\u00fc\u015f.
\nElmira yerind\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259di:
\n-He\u00e7 ist\u0259mir\u0259m ax\u0131.
\n\u015eahmar onun qolundan tutub ma\u015f\u0131ndan d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259yin\u0259 \u00f6z k\u00f6m\u0259yini g\u00f6st\u0259rdi:
\n-\u0130st\u0259rs\u0259n, \u00e7oxun n\u0259 ziyan\u0131?
\nZamr\u00fcd xan\u0131m onlar\u0131 \u00e7ox mehribanl\u0131qla v\u0259 g\u00fcl\u0259r\u00fczl\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr \u015eahmarla \u00e7oxdan\u0131n tan\u0131\u015f\u0131 idi. \u015eahmar Elmiran\u0131 t\u0259qdim etdi. Tan\u0131\u015f oldular. Z\u00fcmr\u00fcd xan\u0131m onlar\u0131 otaqlardan birin\u0259 apard\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fc m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7di. Tez s\u00fcfr\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. Ortaya \u00e7ay, m\u00fcr\u0259bb\u0259 v\u0259 \u015firniyyatlar g\u0259ldi. \u015eahmar dil-a\u011f\u0131z el\u0259di:
\n-Z\u00fcmr\u00fcd xan\u0131m\u0131m \u00e7ay s\u00fcfr\u0259sind\u0259n olmaz!
\nZ\u00fcmr\u00fcd xan\u0131m g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di:
\n-Nu\u015f olsun! \u2013 deyib yen\u0259 yoxa \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.
\nElmira d\u00f6n\u00fcb \u015eahmara baxd\u0131. \u015eahmar bunu bel\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc: \u201cM\u0259nim \u00e7ay s\u00fcfr\u0259m pis olur b\u0259y\u0259m?\u201d
\nOdur ki, asta s\u0259sl\u0259:
\n-Bu t\u0259rif el\u0259 \u015feydir ki, xo\u015f ovqat v\u0259 mehribanl\u0131q yarad\u0131r. M\u0259nd\u0259n n\u0259 gedir? Qoy t\u0259rifl\u0259yim d\u0259… S\u0259nin \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda bunun \u00e7ay\u0131 he\u00e7 n\u0259dir. S\u0259n g\u0259tirib qaba\u011f\u0131ma adi qaynar su da qoysan, onu \u00e7ay bilib b\u0259h-b\u0259hl\u0259, l\u0259zz\u0259tl\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259r\u0259m. S\u0259n hara, bunlar hara?!
\nZ\u00fcmr\u00fcd xan\u0131m i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi. Balaca bir \u00e7antan\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b qa\u015f-da\u015f\u0131 ortaya t\u00f6kd\u00fc. H\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n d\u0259 \u0259v\u0259zi olmayan zin\u0259t \u015feyl\u0259ri idi. Elmira yaqut, mirvari, z\u00fcmr\u00fcd v\u0259 brilyant qa\u015fl\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fckl\u0259rin, s\u0131r\u011falar\u0131n, bil\u0259rzik v\u0259 qolba\u011f\u0131n g\u00f6z\u0259lliyin\u0259 heyran oldu. Bilm\u0259di ki, hans\u0131na baxs\u0131n, hans\u0131n\u0131 se\u00e7sin. Bir-birind\u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l idil\u0259r. Z\u00fcmr\u00fcd xan\u0131m g\u00f6st\u0259rdikc\u0259 Elmira lal-dinm\u0259z bax\u0131r, fikrini bildirmirdi. \u015eahmar:
\n-Ema, bax, \u00fcr\u0259yin ist\u0259y\u0259ni g\u00f6t\u00fcr. Qorxma, pulum var, borclu qalmaram.
\nElmira bax\u0131r, lakin he\u00e7 birin\u0259 \u0259l uzatm\u0131rd\u0131. Bunu g\u00f6r\u0259n \u015eahmar onlardan bir ovuc g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb:
\n-Z\u00fcmr\u00fcd xan\u0131m, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yorma. Emadan olsa, g\u0259r\u0259k sabaha q\u0259d\u0259r burada oturaq. Evd\u0259 k\u00f6rp\u0259 u\u015faq qoyub g\u0259lmi\u015fik. Qoy bunlar\u0131 apar\u0131m ev\u0259, arxay\u0131nl\u0131qla baxs\u0131n. Hans\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259r, onun pulunu ver\u0259r\u0259m, qalanlar\u0131n\u0131 da g\u0259tirib qaytararam.
\nZ\u00fcmr\u00fcd xan\u0131m inams\u0131z halda \u015eahmara baxd\u0131. Zin\u0259t \u015feyl\u0259ri xeyli pul dem\u0259k idi. \u0130t\u0259-bata, dola\u015f\u0131\u011fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bil\u0259rdi.
\n\u015eahmar onun t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcd el\u0259diyini g\u00f6r\u00fcb x\u0259b\u0259r ald\u0131:
\n-Yoxsa inanm\u0131rsan, etibar el\u0259mirs\u0259n?
\nZ\u00fcmr\u00fcd xan\u0131m:
\n-H\u0259r halda burada baxsayd\u0131n\u0131z, burada se\u00e7s\u0259ydiniz \u2013 yax\u015f\u0131 olard\u0131.
\n\u015eahmar onun inam\u0131n\u0131 qazanmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn:
\n-Bir-iki saata burdayam, – dedi.
\nZ\u00fcmr\u00fcd nar-na\u00e7ar raz\u0131la\u015fd\u0131:
\n-\u00dc\u00e7 saat vaxt\u0131n\u0131z var.
\nMa\u015f\u0131n asfalt yolla \u015f\u00fct\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u015eahmar qiym\u0259tli qa\u015f-da\u015flar\u0131 Elmiran\u0131n ovcuna basm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\n-Bir az asta s\u00fcr.
\nElmiran\u0131n s\u0259si idi.
\n-Ba\u015f \u00fcst\u0259.
\nBu da \u015eahmar\u0131n s\u0259si idi.
\nTelefon z\u0259ngi g\u0259ldi. \u015eahmar cavab verdi:
\n-Yolday\u0131q.
\nSonra ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259d\u0259n Elmiraya:
\n-Anamd\u0131r, soru\u015fur n\u0259 vaxt g\u0259lirik? \u2013dedi. Sonra siqaret \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b yand\u0131rd\u0131.
\nElmira:
\n-\u015eahmar, \u0259zizim, yen\u0259 siqaretin iyini verdin m\u0259n\u0259.
\n\u015eahmar dinm\u0259di.
\n-Can\u0131na yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131n g\u0259lmir? Niy\u0259 siqaret \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259n? Bir d\u0259rdin-s\u0259rin var?
\n-Eh, Ema, ara\u011fa yox dem\u0259k olur, amma bu siqaret el\u0259 z\u0259hrimard\u0131r ki, \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fdin, t\u0259rgitm\u0259k \u00e7\u0259tindir.
\n-Azalt, sonra at.
\n\u015eahmar siqaret\u0259 d\u0259rini bir qullab vurdu:
\n-Deyirs\u0259n d\u0259. Siqaret el\u0259 \u015feydir ki, q\u0259fil qurtaranda, s\u0259ni d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n qap\u0131s\u0131na apar\u0131r.
\nElmira yad\u0131na sald\u0131:
\n-Elektron siqaret \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b. O g\u00fcn televiziyada reklam edirdil\u0259r. Siqaret \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 onu \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259n, sonra siqaretd\u0259n zindi-z\u0259hl\u0259n gedir.
\n-Xeyri yoxdur. Bu el\u0259 zibildir ki… \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc saxlaya bilmirs\u0259n. H\u0259, o elektron siqareti \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r t\u0259rifl\u0259yirdil\u0259r. \u0130ndi deyirl\u0259r, o, siqaretd\u0259n d\u0259 ziyanl\u0131, h\u0259tta t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259lidir.
\nElmira s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn t\u0259sirsiz qald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb soru\u015fdu:
\n-B\u0259s indi n\u0259 ed\u0259k? S\u0259nd\u0259n n\u0259 vaxta q\u0259d\u0259r araq-siqaret iyi g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k? Pal-paltar\u0131na da hopur. M\u0259cbur olub paltarlar\u0131n\u0131 eyvana at\u0131ram ki, iyi da\u011f\u0131ls\u0131n. S\u0259n hiss el\u0259mirs\u0259n, amma bizim ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131z \u00e7atlay\u0131r.
\n\u015eahmar \u0259lind\u0259ki siqareti ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259n k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 ataraq:
\n-Evd\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b eyvanda \u00e7\u0259kir\u0259m, bir el\u0259 m\u0259nzil\u0259 yay\u0131lm\u0131r, – dedi. -Amma i\u015fd\u0259 ota\u011fa gir\u0259n-gir\u0259n \u201cN\u0259 \u00e7ox siqaret \u00e7\u0259kmis\u0259n\u201d, – deyir. Lap danlaq yiy\u0259si olmu\u015fam. Amma deyirl\u0259r bunun da bir \u00e7ar\u0259si var. Amma baha ba\u015fa g\u0259lir.
\nElmira tez:
\n-Olsun, t\u0259ki t\u0259rgid\u0259s\u0259n.
\n-S\u0259rf el\u0259mir.
\n-Niy\u0259?
\n-Deyirl\u0259r bir qutu siqaret al\u0131rsan…
\n-H\u0259\u0259…
\n-Birini g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb yand\u0131r\u0131r, qalanlar\u0131n\u0131 qutu qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q qolun getdikc\u0259 tullay\u0131rsan. \u00dcr\u0259yin siqaret ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 yen\u0259 gedirs\u0259n ma\u011fazaya. Bir qutu al\u0131rsan. Birini \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259n, qutu qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q yerd\u0259 qalanlar\u0131n\u0131 at\u0131rsan zibil ye\u015fiyin\u0259. Bu hesabla bilirs\u0259n g\u00fcn \u0259rzind\u0259 siqaret\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r pul verm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r? Bir anbar. G\u0259r\u0259k qazanc\u0131n\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 siqaret\u0259 ver\u0259s\u0259n. m\u0259cbur olub siqaret\u0259 \u201c\u0259lvida\u201d deyirs\u0259n.
\n\u015eahmar\u0131n siqaretd\u0259n \u0259l g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259k fikrind\u0259 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n Elmiran\u0131n sif\u0259tin\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259r k\u00f6lg\u0259si \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc:
\n-Bilmir\u0259m, ax\u0131r bir \u015fey fikirl\u0259\u015fib qurtar bu z\u0259hrimarla. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131n g\u0259lsin. A\u011f ciy\u0259rl\u0259rin qurum ba\u011flayacaq. Damarlar\u0131n tutulacaq. \u00dcr\u0259yin a\u011fr\u0131yacaq.
\n\u015eahmar yen\u0259 zarafata sald\u0131:
\n-Yax\u015f\u0131, bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni h\u0259ll el\u0259dik. Ke\u00e7\u0259k ikinci m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259y\u0259?
\nElmira t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 soru\u015fdu:
\n-\u0130kinci m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 n\u0259dir?
\n-Y\u0259ni deyir\u0259m \u00f6z\u00fcn nec\u0259s\u0259n?
\n-\u015e\u00fck\u00fcr Allaha! Yax\u015f\u0131yam. S\u0259n pis v\u0259rdi\u015fl\u0259rind\u0259n yaxa qurtarsan, \u0259ntiq\u0259 olar. S\u0259n d\u0259 olarsan yax\u015f\u0131 o\u011flan!
\n-N\u0259dir xo\u015funa g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259n?
\n-S\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n bir quranl\u0131q s\u00f6z dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r\u0131q. \u0130ndi soru\u015fursan n\u0259dir xo\u015fuma g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259n. Yor\u011fan-d\u00f6\u015f\u0259kd\u0259n d\u0259 araq, siqaret iyi g\u0259lir. M\u0259n he\u00e7. N\u0259 anan\u0131, n\u0259 d\u0259 F\u0259ridi fikirl\u0259\u015firs\u0259n.
\n-H\u0259\u0259…
\n-Bir d\u0259…
\n-N\u0259 bird\u0259? Saxlama, de.
\n-Bir d\u0259 qad\u0131nlar\u0131n dal\u0131nca d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259yini y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131r. M\u0259ni nec\u0259 al\u00e7altd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259 bel\u0259 g\u0259tirmirs\u0259n.
\nBu s\u00f6z \u015eahmar\u0131 tutdu. Elmira ilk d\u0259f\u0259 idi ki, onunla bu m\u00f6vzuda bel\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131q dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, b\u0131\u00e7aq art\u0131q s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259 dir\u0259nmi\u015fdi. O h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131.
\n\u015eahmar ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n s\u00fcr\u0259tini azaltmadan d\u00f6n\u00fcb arxaya Elmiraya baxd\u0131. \u015eahmar \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fdi: \u201cBu bin\u0259vaya da \u0259zab verir\u0259m\u201d. Bir s\u00f6z dem\u0259yib ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7evirdi.
\nTind\u0259n q\u0259fil bir ma\u015f\u0131n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Qabaq oturacaqda, s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fcn yan\u0131nda bir o\u011flan u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 da oturmu\u015fdu. \u0130ki-\u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015flar\u0131ndayd\u0131. \u015eahmar tez s\u00fckan\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u0259rdi ki, toqqu\u015fmas\u0131nlar. Ma\u015f\u0131n s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 gedib iri g\u00f6vd\u0259li a\u011faca \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131ld\u0131. Z\u0259rb\u0259 s\u0259rt idi. O biri ma\u015f\u0131n aradan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.
\n\u018ftrafdak\u0131 adamlar ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u0259traf\u0131na y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n xurd-x\u0259\u015fil olma\u011f\u0131 bir yana qals\u0131n, \u00f6zl\u0259ri d\u0259 yaman v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 idil\u0259r.
\nElmira arxa oturacaqda hu\u015fsuz v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u015eahmar\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131 z\u0259rbl\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n qabaq \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259sin\u0259 d\u0259ydiyind\u0259n partlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Qan onu apar\u0131rd\u0131. S\u00fckan sin\u0259sini d\u0259 \u0259zmi\u015fdi.
\n\u015eahmar\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131ndan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. Ayaq \u00fcst\u0259 g\u00fccl\u0259 dururdu. Tez \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n arxa qap\u0131s\u0131na do\u011fru atd\u0131. Elmiran\u0131 \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f bilib nal\u0259 qopard\u0131, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131na \u00e7\u0131rpma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.
\nT\u0259cili tibbi ma\u015f\u0131n g\u0259ldi. Onlar\u0131 x\u0259st\u0259xanaya apard\u0131lar. H\u0259r ikisin\u0259 tibbi yard\u0131m g\u00f6st\u0259rildi. Elmira \u00e7arpay\u0131da uzanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259l\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Sol \u0259li sanki kilidl\u0259nmi\u015fdi. H\u0259kim, tibb bac\u0131s\u0131 n\u0259 billah etdil\u0259rs\u0259, \u0259lini a\u00e7a bilm\u0259dil\u0259r. Ovcunda n\u0259 is\u0259 tutmu\u015fdu.
\nAz sonra \u015eahmar g\u0259ldi. H\u0259kiml\u0259rd\u0259n \u00f6yr\u0259nmi\u015fdi ki, Elmiran\u0131n v\u0259ziyy\u0259ti t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259li deyil. Odur ki, \u015eahmar toxtam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\nH\u0259kiml\u0259 tibb bac\u0131s\u0131 palatadan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131lar.
\n\u015eahmar ir\u0259li yeriyib \u00e7arpay\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131ndak\u0131 stulda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi. Elmiran\u0131n b\u0259nzi a\u011farm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. G\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yummu\u015fdu. Bir damla ya\u015f donub yana\u011f\u0131nda qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259nirti hiss ed\u0259r\u0259k g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7d\u0131. \u015eahmar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di. Lakin g\u00f6z\u00fc onun ba\u015f\u0131ndak\u0131 sar\u011f\u0131ya sata\u015fanda sif\u0259tin\u0259 q\u00fcss\u0259, q\u0259m v\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc.
\n\u015eahmar onun \u0259lind\u0259n tutdu. Ba\u015f\u0131ndak\u0131 qanl\u0131 sar\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259r\u0259k:
\n-Bo\u015f \u015feydir. Sa\u011fal\u0131b ged\u0259c\u0259k. Nec\u0259s\u0259n? \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc nec\u0259 hiss edirs\u0259n? Bilir\u0259m u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 soru\u015facaqsan, yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r, \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131. Bir az var gedibl\u0259r. Anam s\u0259nin yan\u0131na F\u0259ridi d\u0259 g\u0259tirmi\u015fdi.
\n\u015eahmar \u0259yilib Elmiran\u0131 \u00f6pd\u00fc. H\u0259r ikisi bir a\u011f\u0131zdan \u201d\u015e\u00fck\u00fcr!\u201d dedi. \u015eahmar Elmiran\u0131n, Elmira da \u015eahmar\u0131n v\u0259ziyy\u0259tini n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259 tutaraq \u201d\u015e\u00fck\u00fcr!\u201d deyirdil\u0259r.
\n-Nec\u0259s\u0259n?
\n-Yax\u015f\u0131, b\u0259s s\u0259n?
\n-M\u0259n d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131.
\n-\u018flini niy\u0259 a\u00e7m\u0131rsan? \u018fzilib?
\nElmiran\u0131n yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. V\u0259 \u0259lini a\u00e7d\u0131. Z\u00fcmr\u00fcd xan\u0131m\u0131m verdiyi, \u015eahmar\u0131n da ma\u015f\u0131nda Elmiran\u0131n ovcuna basd\u0131\u011f\u0131 qa\u015f-da\u015flar idi. Q\u0259za ba\u015f ver\u0259nd\u0259 qoruyub saxlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\n\u015eahmar d\u0259rind\u0259n n\u0259f\u0259s ald\u0131. Bu qa\u015f-da\u015flar\u0131 axtar\u0131b tapmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Ma\u015f\u0131n tamam s\u0131radan \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, bu da\u015f-qa\u015flar\u0131n bir yerd\u0259 iyirmi-otuz min manatdan \u00e7ox d\u0259y\u0259ri vard\u0131. \u015eahmar bu q\u0259d\u0259r pulu tap\u0131b Z\u00fcmr\u00fcd xan\u0131ma verm\u0259li idi. Amma haradan, nec\u0259 taps\u0131n? Qay\u0131natas\u0131na \u2013 Rasim\u0259 g\u00fcman\u0131 g\u0259lirdi. Amma gedib ondan pul ist\u0259m\u0259yi \u015f\u0259nin\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131ra bilmirdi.
\nElmira \u015eahmar\u0131 xilas etmi\u015fdi.
\n\u015eahmar Elmiran\u0131 \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259rq etdi:
\n-H\u0259yat\u0131m, \u00f6mr\u00fcm-g\u00fcn\u00fcm!
\n-U\u015faq nec\u0259dir?
\n-Yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. Anas\u0131ndan \u00f6tr\u00fc dar\u0131x\u0131b.
\nElmiran\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri doldu. Yerind\u0259 dik\u0259ldi. \u015eahmar:
\n-H\u0259kiml\u0259r icaz\u0259 verib. Bir azdan durub geyin\u0259rs\u0259n. Ev\u0259 ged\u0259rik.
\nH\u0259min b\u0259db\u0259xt hadis\u0259d\u0259n sonra \u015eahmar \u00e7ox d\u0259yi\u015fdi. Ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259mir etdirdi. Bo\u015f vaxtlar\u0131nda ail\u0259si il\u0259 birlikd\u0259 olur, \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131, F\u0259ridi, Elmiran\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131na mindirib \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131rd\u0131. \u00c7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, onlar\u0131n g\u00fcnl\u0259ri xo\u015f ke\u00e7sin.
\nF\u0259rid \u0259yl\u0259nc\u0259 m\u0259rk\u0259zl\u0259rind\u0259 olanda salon boyu qa\u00e7\u0131r, at\u0131l\u0131b-d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, c\u00fcrb\u0259c\u00fcr ma\u015f\u0131nlara, yell\u0259n\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259r\u0259 minir, oynamaqdan doymurdu.
\n\u015eahmar i\u00e7kini azaltm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, siqareti atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ad g\u00fcnl\u0259rind\u0259, toy m\u0259clisl\u0259rind\u0259, qonaql\u0131qlarda, ziyaf\u0259tl\u0259r zaman\u0131 az miqdarda i\u00e7ki i\u00e7irdi. Ma\u015f\u0131nla olanda is\u0259, dilin\u0259 spirtli i\u00e7ki vurmurdu.
\n\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m da, Elmira da sevinirdi. \u015ead idil\u0259r. Elmira \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn x\u0259z g\u00f6d\u0259k\u00e7\u0259, yeni toy v\u0259 g\u0259zinti paltarlar\u0131, uzunbo\u011faz q\u0131\u015f ayaqqab\u0131s\u0131, \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yun palto alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. F\u0259rid\u0259 g\u0259ldikd\u0259 is\u0259, pal-paltar\u0131n\u0131n say\u0131-hesab\u0131 yox idi. Birini \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b o birini geyindirirdil\u0259r. Tez-tez \u0259ynini d\u0259yi\u015firdil\u0259r. Maral xan\u0131m q\u0131z\u0131na yax\u015f\u0131, bahal\u0131 cehiz qo\u015fdu\u011fundan mebell\u0259r\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u015eahmar\u0131n fikri-zikri evind\u0259-e\u015fiyind\u0259 idi: \u201cPul-paran\u0131 it\u0259-qurda, hara g\u0259ldi s\u0259p\u0259l\u0259m\u0259kd\u0259ns\u0259, ail\u0259m\u0259 x\u0259rcl\u0259yim\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc.
\nAvtomobil q\u0259zas\u0131 zaman\u0131 Elmiran\u0131n g\u00f6st\u0259rdiyi f\u0259dakarl\u0131\u011f\u0131, da\u015f-qa\u015f\u0131 qoruyub ona \u00e7atd\u0131rmas\u0131n\u0131 \u015eahmar he\u00e7 c\u00fcr unuda bilmir, onun bu h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tin\u0259 y\u00fcks\u0259k d\u0259y\u0259r verirdi. Arada geyinib-ke\u00e7inib qay\u0131natas\u0131gil\u0259 gedirdil\u0259r. Rasiml\u0259 Maral xan\u0131m onlar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 \u0259ld\u0259n-ayaqdan gedirdil\u0259r. Maral xan\u0131m, \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m, bir d\u0259 Elmira m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259 \u00e7ay, yem\u0259k haz\u0131rlay\u0131r, s\u00f6hb\u0259t edir, Rasiml\u0259 \u015eahmar da d\u0259rdl\u0259\u015fir, n\u0259rd oynay\u0131rd\u0131lar.
\n\u018fsas m\u00f6vzu F\u0259rid idi. S\u00f6hb\u0259t n\u0259d\u0259n gedirdis\u0259, ax\u0131rda g\u0259lib F\u0259ridin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. Onun oturu\u015fu-duru\u015fu, h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259ri, dan\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u00f6hb\u0259t m\u00f6vzusu idi. F\u0259ridd\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259ri gedirdi. F\u0259rid d\u0259 mehriban, istiqanl\u0131, qan\u0131 \u015firin u\u015faq idi. Kim qolunu a\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131sa ona sar\u0131 qanadlan\u0131rd\u0131. F\u0259ridl\u0259 says\u0131z-hesabs\u0131z \u015f\u0259kil \u00e7\u0259kdirmi\u015fdil\u0259r. H\u0259min \u015f\u0259kill\u0259ri, video \u00e7\u0259kili\u015fl\u0259ri bir-birl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rirdil\u0259r.
\nRasiml\u0259 Maral xan\u0131m\u0131n da onlara g\u0259li\u015fi toy-bayram olurdu. Ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr d\u0259 ola bilm\u0259zdi. Bir-biri il\u0259 k\u00fcs\u00fcl\u00fc olan, yola getm\u0259y\u0259n, bir-birinin qaras\u0131nca a\u00e7\u0131b-k\u0259s\u0259n qudalar\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k olmur.
\nBax bel\u0259c\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey xo\u015f v\u0259 sakit axarla gedirdi. \u015eahmar\u0131n yenid\u0259n yolunu azmas\u0131na q\u0259d\u0259r.
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\nYen\u0259 kiml\u0259r\u0259s\u0259 qo\u015fulmu\u015fdu. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 pis qo\u015fulmu\u015fdu. A\u011fl\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ndan alm\u0131\u015f, t\u0259sir alt\u0131na salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. \u018fvv\u0259lki pis v\u0259rdi\u015fl\u0259rin\u0259 qay\u0131tm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. He\u00e7 kimi e\u015fitmirdi. S\u00f6z dey\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131: \u201cU\u015fa\u011fam ba\u015f\u0131ma a\u011f\u0131l qoyursunuz?\u201d \u0130\u00e7ki, siqaret bir yana qals\u0131n, qumara, narkotik\u0259 qur\u015fanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\nBel\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259rin birind\u0259 Elmira \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131ma dedi:
\n-Ana, \u015eahmar \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259hv edir. Qurban olum, qoyma. Qaba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 al. Yalvar\u0131ram.
\n\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m \u0259vv\u0259l dinm\u0259di. Bunu \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcr, i\u00e7ini yeyirdi. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 o\u011flu m\u00f6hk\u0259m ili\u015fmi\u015fdi. He\u00e7 \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131ml\u0131q da deyildi. O, o\u011flunun hal\u0131na yan\u0131r, amma \u0259lind\u0259n bir i\u015f g\u0259lmirdi. \u015eahmar adame\u015fitm\u0259z olmu\u015fdu. \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n fikir-x\u0259yaldan \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259ri korlanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Aman-zaman bir o\u011flu vard\u0131. O da bel\u0259, bu g\u00fcnd\u0259. Elmiran\u0131n \u015eahmardan \u015fikay\u0259tl\u0259nm\u0259si \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n xo\u015funa g\u0259lm\u0259di. Qeyri-ixtiyari:
\n-S\u0259n d\u0259 \u0259l \u00e7\u0259k! \u2013 dey\u0259 s\u0259sini qald\u0131rd\u0131. \u2013M\u0259n n\u0259 hayda, s\u0259n n\u0259 hayda! O s\u0259n, o da \u0259rin! M\u0259niml\u0259 i\u015finiz olmas\u0131n! D\u0259rdim \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 b\u0259sdir! T\u0259qsirin \u00e7oxu s\u0259nd\u0259dir! Mal kimi oturmusan. \u018frini y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131ra bilmirs\u0259n. Bir arvad kimi h\u00f6km\u00fcn yoxdur. Bir qad\u0131n kimi o q\u0259d\u0259r acizs\u0259n ki, \u0259rinin g\u00f6z\u00fc orda-burdad\u0131r.
\nElmira heyr\u0259tl\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131lan g\u00f6zl\u0259rini onun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 dikib bir xeyli lal-dinm\u0259z dayand\u0131. Hiss el\u0259di ki, dodaqlar\u0131 \u0259sir: \u201cS\u0259n dem\u0259, b\u00fct\u00fcn bu hadis\u0259l\u0259rin s\u0259b\u0259bkar\u0131 m\u0259n imi\u015f\u0259mmi\u015f! Bir g\u00f6r ha\u201d.
\nElmira sakitc\u0259 yerind\u0259n qalx\u0131b o biri ota\u011fa ke\u00e7di. F\u0259rid oyanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Onun yanlar\u0131n\u0131 yudu, qurulad\u0131, \u0259ynini d\u0259yi\u015fib yedirtdi.
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\n\u015eahmar bu g\u00fcn \u00e7ox qan\u0131qara halda ev\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. N\u0259 billah el\u0259dil\u0259rs\u0259, s\u0259b\u0259bini a\u00e7\u0131b dem\u0259di. Eyvana \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b siqareti-siqaret\u0259 calad\u0131. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 tez F\u0259ridi g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259rdi. U\u015faq oyaq idis\u0259, quca\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb ba\u015f\u0131 \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 qald\u0131rar, \u015firin dill\u0259 dindir\u0259r, onun a\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xan q\u0131r\u0131q, rabit\u0259siz s\u00f6zl\u0259rin h\u0259r birind\u0259n sonsuz f\u0259r\u0259h hissi ke\u00e7irir, \u00f6p\u00fcb ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. Yatm\u0131\u015f olsayd\u0131, tez o biri ota\u011fa ke\u00e7ib doyunca ona tama\u015fa edib \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6p\u0259rdi. Bu g\u00fcn F\u0259rid he\u00e7 yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259di. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rinin p\u0259nc\u0259sind\u0259n qopa bilirdi ki?!
\nN\u0259 hadis\u0259 ba\u015f vermi\u015fdi?
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\n\u0130\u015fd\u0259 oturmu\u015fdu. Z\u0259ng g\u0259ldi. Mobil telefonun ekran\u0131na baxd\u0131. \u00dclk\u0259r idi. \u00dclk\u0259rl\u0259 \u00e7ox g\u00fcn ke\u00e7irmi\u015fdi. X\u0131rda bi\u00e7imli, maml\u0131-matan q\u0131z idi. Albal\u0131 r\u0259ngli dodaqlar\u0131 vard\u0131. \u015eahmar \u0259vv\u0259l el\u0259 bilirdi ki, q\u0131z dodaqlar\u0131na r\u0259ng \u00e7\u0259kir, sonra g\u00f6rd\u00fc ki, yox, t\u0259biidir, dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6z r\u0259ngidir.
\n\u015eahmar bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t idi ki, q\u0131zlarla, qad\u0131nlarla \u0259laq\u0259l\u0259rini k\u0259sib, sidq-\u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259 ail\u0259sin\u0259 ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\nBir ist\u0259di \u00dclk\u0259r\u0259 cavab verm\u0259sin. \u00d6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259: \u201cM\u0259ni q\u0131nay\u0131rlar. Oturmu\u015fam yerimd\u0259. N\u0259 olsun, \u0259l \u00e7\u0259kmirl\u0259r. \u0130ndi bu z\u0259ng edir, sabahda, birisi g\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u0259 S\u0259kin\u0259, G\u00fclbac\u0131, Q\u0259m\u0259r qula\u011f\u0131m\u0131 d\u0259ng ed\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r. \u018f\u015fi dey\u0259r\u0259m i\u015fim var, ya da dey\u0259r\u0259m \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 deyil\u0259m\u201d.
\nBu fikirl\u0259 telefonun d\u00fcym\u0259sini basd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc bilm\u0259m\u0259zliy\u0259 vurdu:
\n-Kimdir?
\n-\u00dclk\u0259rdir. M\u0259g\u0259r telefonda ad\u0131m yaz\u0131lmay\u0131b?
\n-Fikir verm\u0259dim. Xo\u015f g\u00f6rd\u00fck! Nec\u0259s\u0259n? N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131, n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131, \u015fad oldum.
\n-Hardasan? \u0130tirib-axtarm\u0131rsan.
\n-Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, g\u00f6z\u0259l, ba\u015f\u0131m qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q idi. \u0130\u015f-g\u00fcc imkan verir ki?! Bir az ba\u015f\u0131m ay\u0131ls\u0131n, z\u0259ngl\u0259\u015f\u0259rik.
\nBel\u0259 dem\u0259kl\u0259 \u00dclk\u0259ri ba\u015fdan el\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. Lakin \u00dclk\u0259r bu tezlikl\u0259 ondan ayr\u0131lmaq fikrind\u0259 deyildi, n\u0259 is\u0259 s\u00f6zl\u00fc adama ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. Odur ki, xudahafizl\u0259\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 imkan verm\u0259di:
\n-G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259liyik. Vacib s\u00f6z\u00fcm var. h\u0259r n\u0259 i\u015fin varsa, bir k\u0259nara qoy.
\n-N\u00f6mr\u0259mi haradan \u00f6yr\u0259nmis\u0259n?
\n\u015eahmar telefonunun n\u00f6mr\u0259sini d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi ki, qad\u0131nlardan uzaq olsun. Amma dostlar\u0131n\u0131n, qohumlar\u0131n, i\u015fi il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 \u015f\u0259xsl\u0259rin n\u00f6mr\u0259l\u0259rini yadda\u015fa k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Tan\u0131\u015f q\u0131zlar\u0131n, qad\u0131nlar\u0131n n\u00f6mr\u0259l\u0259rini d\u0259 yazm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, kimin z\u0259ng etdiyini bilsin. Laz\u0131m g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 cavab ver\u0259c\u0259kdi, laz\u0131m bilm\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 yox. \u018fks t\u0259qdird\u0259 onlardan kims\u0259 z\u0259ng ets\u0259ydi, bilm\u0259yib cavab ver\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc i\u015f\u0259 sala bil\u0259rdi.
\nAmma n\u0259 xeyri? \u00dclk\u0259r onun n\u00f6mr\u0259sini \u00f6yr\u0259nmi\u015fdi. Odur ki, \u015eahmar\u0131n sual\u0131na bel\u0259c\u0259 d\u0259 cavab verdi:
\n-Axtaran tapar. N\u00f6mr\u0259ni d\u0259yi\u015fmis\u0259n ki, s\u0259ni tapa bilm\u0259yim?
\n-N\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan. Telefonumu itirmi\u015fdim. \u0259lacs\u0131z qal\u0131b t\u0259z\u0259 telefon ald\u0131m, yeni n\u00f6mr\u0259 verdil\u0259r.
\n-K\u0259s\u0259si, harada, n\u0259 zaman g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259k?
\n-N\u0259 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259dir, dey\u0259 bilm\u0259zs\u0259n?
\n-Telefon s\u00f6hb\u0259ti deyil. Amma h\u00f6km\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259liyik. Unutma.
\nQ\u0131z h\u00f6kml\u00fc dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259m d\u0259 el\u0259 bil meydan oxuyurdu.
\n\u015eahmar \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259: \u201cBuna n\u0259 olub?\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fdi.
\n-Ucundan-qula\u011f\u0131ndan de, g\u00f6r\u00fcm n\u0259 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259dir? \u00dcr\u0259yimi partlatma.
\n-Dey\u0259c\u0259m. Saat on ikid\u0259 \u201c\u0130\u00e7\u0259ri\u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u201d metro stansiyas\u0131n\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259k.
\n\u015eahmar cavab verm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi ki, \u00dclk\u0259r dan\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 k\u0259sdi.
\nMaraq \u015eahmara g\u00fcc g\u0259ldiyind\u0259n taksiy\u0259 oturub metro stansiyas\u0131na sar\u0131 s\u00fcrd\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u00d6z ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259mird\u0259 idi. Ma\u015f\u0131ndan d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259mi\u015f g\u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 axtar\u0131b \u00dclk\u0259ri tapd\u0131. G\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u00fcn eyn\u0259yi a\u011fac\u0131n k\u00f6lg\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131b durmu\u015fdu. \u018fvv\u0259lki kimi t\u0259rav\u0259tli v\u0259 \u015fux idi. \u0259ynin\u0259 dizd\u0259n bir azca yuxar\u0131 \u00e7\u0259hray\u0131 don geyinmi\u015fdi. Dabans\u0131z \u00e7\u0259hray\u0131 tuflil\u0259rd\u0259 idi. Fikirli, qa\u015fqabaql\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u015eahmar ma\u015f\u0131ndan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb \u00dclk\u0259r\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. \u0259l verib \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6pd\u00fc.
\n-Burada niy\u0259? Ged\u0259k kafey\u0259.
\n\u201cQ\u0131z\u0131lg\u00fcl\u201d kafesind\u0259 \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdil\u0259r.
\n-\u00c7ay, kofe, yoxsa dondurma il\u0259 \u015eampan \u015f\u0259rab\u0131?
\n-\u015eampan olmaz. \u0130\u00e7mir\u0259m. Hava istidir. Kofed\u0259n d\u0259 ke\u00e7di. \u00c7ay m\u00fcr\u0259bb\u0259 il\u0259.
\nSifari\u015f g\u0259ldi.
\n-E\u015fidir\u0259m, n\u0259 is\u0259 vacib s\u00f6z\u00fcn var.
\n\u00dclk\u0259r s\u00f6hb\u0259t\u0259 nec\u0259 ba\u015flayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilm\u0259diyind\u0259n bir anl\u0131\u011fa susdu. Lakin lal-dinm\u0259z oturma\u011fa g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015fdi. S\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc dem\u0259li idi:
\n-U\u015fa\u011fa qalm\u0131\u015fam.
\n\u015eahmar\u0131 el\u0259 bil ild\u0131r\u0131m vurdu. \u201cBu n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r? Birc\u0259 bu \u00e7atm\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259r \u015feyin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n q\u0259l\u0259m \u00e7ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir zamanda bu n\u0259 s\u00f6z idi e\u015fidirdi?! U\u015fa\u011fa qal\u0131b-qal\u0131b da. m\u0259n\u0259 niy\u0259 e\u015fitdirir? Do\u011fur \u2013 gedib do\u011fsun, abort etdirir \u2013 gedib el\u0259tdirsin. M\u0259n h\u0259kim, ya mama\u00e7ayam ki, s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259n\u0259 deyir?
\n\u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc o yer\u0259 qoymay\u0131b:
\n-T\u0259brik edir\u0259m. \u00d6vlad\u0131n yox idi, daha n\u0259 ist\u0259yirs\u0259n?!
\n-U\u015faq b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259nd\u0259 atas\u0131n\u0131 soru\u015facaq.
\n-Soru\u015facaq \u2013 dey\u0259rs\u0259n. Kimdir o k\u00f6p\u0259k o\u011flu? \u00c7\u0131xs\u0131n meydana.
\n-Meydandan qa\u00e7\u0131b ax\u0131.
\n-\u0130st\u0259mirs\u0259n, abort el\u0259, can\u0131n qurtars\u0131n. Borc pul laz\u0131md\u0131r? Pulsuz abort el\u0259m\u0259zl\u0259r.
\n-M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 pulda deyil.
\n-B\u0259 n\u0259d\u0259dir?
\n-U\u015fa\u011f\u0131n atas\u0131 ir\u0259li durmal\u0131d\u0131r. U\u015faqdan imtina etm\u0259k fikrim yoxdur.
\n-O it o\u011fluna z\u0259ng et, de g\u0259lib yetimin\u0259 yiy\u0259 dursun. Burada \u00e7\u0259tin n\u0259 var ki?
\n-Onda ir\u0259li dur.
\n\u015eahmar\u0131n dili topuq \u00e7ald\u0131:
\n-Kim? M\u0259n?
\n-B\u0259li, s\u0259n. U\u015faq s\u0259nd\u0259ndir.
\n-N\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilirs\u0259n?! Bura bax, gedib orda-burda u\u015faq d\u00fcz\u0259ltdirib indi m\u0259nim \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 at\u0131rsan?
\n-El\u0259 deyil, ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 d\u0259f\u0259 s\u0259ninl\u0259 olmu\u015fam. S\u0259nd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015fdim. S\u0259nd\u0259n sonra x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259nm\u0259dim. Bil\u0259nd\u0259 ki, u\u015fa\u011fa qalm\u0131\u015fam, ba\u015flad\u0131m s\u0259ni axtarma\u011fa, g\u00f6rd\u00fcm dey\u0259n olmad\u0131.
\n-Bura bax, s\u0259ninl\u0259 m\u00fcqavil\u0259m vard\u0131 ki, u\u015fa\u011fa qalasan? Qalmayayd\u0131n! Q\u0259l\u0259t el\u0259m\u0259dim ki, bir-iki d\u0259f\u0259 s\u0259ninl\u0259 yax\u0131nl\u0131q etdim. Ba\u015fqalar\u0131 nec\u0259, m\u0259n d\u0259 el\u0259. Yat\u0131b-dururdun \u2013 pulunu al\u0131rd\u0131n. Y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn alt\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xandan sonra \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259n\u0259 s\u0131r\u0131maq ist\u0259yirs\u0259n? M\u0259n ail\u0259liy\u0259m. Arvad\u0131m, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131m var. q\u0259mi\u015fini m\u0259nd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259k.
\n\u015eahmar aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131. \u00dclk\u0259r onun qolundan tutub oturtdu:
\n-Zil\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xma. M\u0259n s\u0259nd\u0259n d\u0259 b\u0259rk q\u0131\u015fq\u0131raram. Amma yad\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xarma. M\u0259n q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rsam, daha pis olacaq. Evin, ail\u0259n d\u0259 da\u011f\u0131lacaq.
\n-\u00dclk\u0259r m\u0259ni ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f. Bu ola bilm\u0259z. M\u0259nim ail\u0259mi da\u011f\u0131tma. S\u0259ninl\u0259 ke\u00e7irdiyim o xo\u015f g\u00fcnl\u0259ri indi niy\u0259 burnumdan t\u00f6k\u00fcrs\u0259n? abort el\u0259, qurtars\u0131n getsin. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r pul deyirs\u0259n \u2013 verim.
\n-\u015eahmar, m\u0259n fahi\u015f\u0259 deyil\u0259m. Do\u011frudur, s\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ki\u015fil\u0259rl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m. Amma s\u0259n\u0259 rast g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra bir ki\u015finin bel\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 \u0259li d\u0259ym\u0259yib.
\n-\u0130nsafs\u0131z olma, h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131 z\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259m\u0259!
\nBu d\u0259f\u0259 \u00dclk\u0259r aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131:
\n-Do\u011fmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m.
\n\u015eahmar onun qolundan yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131:
\n-\u018fyl\u0259\u015f, h\u0259l\u0259 q\u0259rara g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015fik. U\u015faq ne\u00e7\u0259 ayl\u0131qd\u0131r?
\n-\u00dc\u00e7 ayl\u0131q.
\n-Abort etdir\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n. M\u0259n\u0259 qulaq as.
\n-M\u0259n q\u0259ti q\u0259rara g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m. S\u0259nin soy ad\u0131n, s\u0259nin ad\u0131n da u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n ya\u015f ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131nda yaz\u0131lacaq.
\n\u015eahmar bilm\u0259di ba\u015f\u0131na n\u0259 \u00e7ar\u0259 q\u0131ls\u0131n:
\n-M\u0259n n\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259t el\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, ilahi!
\n-Yata\u011f\u0131ma gir\u0259nd\u0259 bunu fikirl\u0259\u015f\u0259ydin.
\n\u00dclk\u0259r durub \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. \u015eahmar xeyli m\u00fcdd\u0259t yerind\u0259 donub qald\u0131.
\n\u00c7ayla dolu fincanlar i\u00e7ilm\u0259mi\u015f qalm\u0131\u015f, m\u00fcr\u0259bb\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 \u0259l d\u0259yilm\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u015eahmar sifari\u015fin pulunu \u00f6d\u0259yib kafed\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.
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\n\u0130ndi \u015eahmar partlaya-partlaya, \u00e7atlaya-\u00e7atlaya qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Gec-tez bu sirr a\u00e7\u0131lacaqd\u0131. Onda Elmiran\u0131n, anas\u0131n\u0131n, Rasim ki\u015fi il\u0259 Maral xan\u0131m\u0131m \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 mec\u0259 baxacaqd\u0131? Onlara n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259kdi? \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc nec\u0259 t\u0259miz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xaracaqd\u0131? \u00dcst\u0259lik F\u0259ridin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 h\u0259sr\u0259t qalacaqd\u0131. Elmira y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131b atas\u0131 evin\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259k, \u0259lacs\u0131zl\u0131qdan \u00dclk\u0259ri bu ev\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259kdi. \u00d6vlad\u0131n\u0131 taleyin h\u00f6km\u00fcn\u0259 buraxmayacaqd\u0131 ki?!
\n\u015eahmar eyvandan \u00e7\u0259kilm\u0259k bilmirdi. Ham\u0131 yatandan sonra paltar\u0131n\u0131 soyunub ehmalca \u00e7arpay\u0131ya uzand\u0131. Elmira yuxulam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, nizamla n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131rd\u0131. O, s\u0259daq\u0259tli, v\u0259fal\u0131, alic\u0259nab, t\u0259rbiy\u0259li, ism\u0259tli, mehriban, g\u00f6z\u0259l xan\u0131m idi. Z\u0259rr\u0259c\u0259 su\u00e7u yox idi ki, narahat\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 olsun. Aln\u0131 bir balaca d\u00fcy\u00fcnl\u0259nmi\u015fdi. Bu da s\u0259b\u0259bsiz deyildi. \u018fri qan\u0131qara qay\u0131tm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. D\u0259rdini d\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 narahat idi. Narahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131 da h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u015eahmar g\u0259tirirdi.
\n\u015eahmar\u0131n yuxusu \u0259r\u015f\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015fdi. \u00dclk\u0259r ba\u015f\u0131na i\u015f a\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u015eahmar Elmiraya yax\u0131nla\u015fma\u011fa, onun b\u0259d\u0259nin\u0259 toxunma\u011fa da utan\u0131rd\u0131, x\u0259cal\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kirdi. Bu qad\u0131na layiq ola bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ona \u0259zab vermi\u015f, q\u0259lbin\u0259 toxunmu\u015fdu. \u0130ndi hans\u0131 \u00fczl\u0259 onu qucaqlas\u0131n, \u201cqad\u0131n\u0131m m\u0259nim\u201d, \u201cSevgilim m\u0259nim\u201d, \u201c\u00f6m\u00fcr-g\u00fcn yolda\u015f\u0131m m\u0259nim\u201d desin?! Ax\u0131 Elmira ondan xahi\u015f etmi\u015fdi: \u201cM\u0259ni s\u0131nd\u0131rma, l\u0259yaq\u0259timi, m\u0259nliyimi al\u00e7altma\u201d. O da s\u00f6z vermi\u015fdi. S\u00f6z\u0259, anda bel\u0259 \u0259m\u0259l ed\u0259rl\u0259r?
\n\u015eahmar yerind\u0259 qurcalan\u0131r, yuxuya ged\u0259 bilmirdi. \u0259m\u0259ll\u0259rinin ac\u0131s\u0131-a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 bir-bir \u00fcz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131.
\nElmira oyan\u0131b: \u201cNiy\u0259 yatm\u0131rsan, \u0259zizim?\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu. \u201cNiy\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yini bo\u015fald\u0131b sakitl\u0259\u015fmirs\u0259n?\u201d
\n\u015eahmar:
\n-Yat, \u0259zizim, yat, ciddi bir \u015fey yoxdur. \u0130\u015fd\u0259 y\u00fcng\u00fclvari anla\u015f\u0131lmazl\u0131q olub. Sabah yoluna qoyulacaq, – deyib Elmiran\u0131 qucaqlad\u0131.
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\nN\u00f6vb\u0259ti g\u00fcn s\u0259h\u0259r a\u00e7\u0131lar-a\u00e7\u0131lmaz \u015eahmar geyinib evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Ya\u015fl\u0131 qad\u0131n h\u0259y\u0259ti s\u00fcp\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u015eahmar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb \u0259l saxlad\u0131. \u015eahmar qad\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 baxmamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yana \u00e7evirib, salam verib tez \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7di. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 onunla rastla\u015fanda bel\u0259 edirdi. Deyil\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, bu qad\u0131n\u0131n yaman g\u00f6zl\u0259ri vard\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259rin ki, g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 sata\u015fd\u0131, o g\u00fcn i\u015fin u\u011fursuz olurdu.
\nH\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 kimisi s\u0259h\u0259r idman\u0131 il\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful idi, kimisi ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sdirmi\u015fdi, ora-buras\u0131na bax\u0131rd\u0131. \u015eahmar pay-piyada yolun a\u011fz\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. H\u0259y\u0259canl\u0131 v\u0259 h\u0259m d\u0259 narahat idi. S\u0259h\u0259r erk\u0259n yataqdan qalxma\u011f\u0131 da s\u0259b\u0259bsiz deyildi. Elmiran\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 dik baxa bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi. Parkda g\u0259zib saat doqquza qalm\u0131\u015f i\u015f yerin\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kdi. \u0130\u015f yerind\u0259 d\u0259 vaxt\u0131ndan \u0259vv\u0259l g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi. Tez g\u0259lm\u0259yinin s\u0259b\u0259bi il\u0259 maraqlanacaqd\u0131lar. Kim\u0259 is\u0259 hesabat, yaxud izahat verm\u0259kd\u0259n xo\u015fu g\u0259lmirdi. S\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259t yaratmaq ist\u0259mirdi. O \u00fcmidini \u00fczm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Q\u0131z\u0131n onunla insafs\u0131z davranma\u011f\u0131na, onun s\u00f6zl\u0259rini qulaq ard\u0131na vurmaqda davam ed\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 inanm\u0131rd\u0131.
\n-H\u0259, \u00dclk\u0259rcan, sabah\u0131n xeyir. Nec\u0259s\u0259n? S\u0259nd\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc lap dar\u0131xd\u0131m.
\n\u00dcik\u0259r s\u00f6z alt\u0131nda qalmad\u0131. \u0130stehza il\u0259:
\n-Hiss olunur. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 z\u0259ng etmirdin?
\n\u015eahmar tutuldu. \u00dclk\u0259r haql\u0131 idi: \u201cHe\u00e7 a\u011fl\u0131ma g\u0259lm\u0259yib. G\u0259r\u0259k birinci m\u0259n z\u0259ng ed\u0259ydim, q\u0131z g\u00f6r\u0259ydi ki, ona m\u00fcnasib\u0259td\u0259 laqeyd deyil\u0259m. Amma i\u015f-i\u015fd\u0259n ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. Sonras\u0131n\u0131 fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259k, i\u015fl\u0259ri yoluna qoymaq laz\u0131m idi. Amma \u00dclk\u0259r da\u015f\u0131 \u0259t\u0259yind\u0259n t\u00f6k\u0259c\u0259kdimi? U\u015faq m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sini ortaya at\u0131b. B\u0259lk\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 ba\u015fqa m\u0259qs\u0259di var. Bird\u0259n yap\u0131\u015far yaxamdan ki, al m\u0259ni. Qoyurlar ki, insan kimi ya\u015fayaq?! \u00d6z\u00fcm\u0259 yenic\u0259 qay\u0131tm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m ki, u\u015faq m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259si meydana g\u0259ldi. Bura bax, b\u0259lk\u0259 u\u015faq m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259si qondarmad\u0131r?! M\u0259nd\u0259n k\u00fclli-miqdarda pul qoparmaq, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259n\u0259 s\u0131r\u0131maq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn b\u0259han\u0259dir. B\u0259lk\u0259 ortada u\u015faq yoxdur. Bunu yoxlamaq olar. Apararam S\u0259id\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n yan\u0131na. Dey\u0259r\u0259m: g\u00f6r bu q\u0131z u\u015fa\u011fa qal\u0131b? Ne\u00e7\u0259sini abort etdirmi\u015f\u0259m. S\u0259id\u0259 xan\u0131m sirr saxlayand\u0131r. A\u011fz\u0131ndan indiy\u0259d\u0259k art\u0131q s\u00f6z \u00e7\u0131xmay\u0131b. Dayan, dayan, \u00dclk\u0259ri onun yan\u0131na aparanda, x\u0259lv\u0259ti S\u0259id\u0259 xan\u0131ma dey\u0259r\u0259m, \u0259g\u0259r u\u015fa\u011fa qal\u0131bsa, buna bir iyn\u0259 vur, yaxud d\u0259rman ver, qoy r\u0259dd el\u0259sin u\u015fa\u011f\u0131. B\u0259s bird\u0259n \u00dclk\u0259r yoxlamaya getm\u0259di? Getm\u0259z, \u00f6z\u00fc bil\u0259r! M\u0259n d\u0259 dey\u0259r\u0259m, day \u00f6z i\u015findir, m\u0259n getdim, xudahafiz! Yax\u015f\u0131, bird\u0259n getdi, m\u0259lum oldu hamil\u0259dir, iyn\u0259ni qoymad\u0131 vurma\u011fa, d\u0259rman\u0131 atmad\u0131, b\u0259s onda? Ya da S\u0259id\u0259 xan\u0131m qorxub iyn\u0259 vurmad\u0131, d\u0259rman da verm\u0259di. H\u0259\u0259… Ax\u0131rda ba\u015f\u0131m \u015fi\u015fib qazana d\u00f6n\u0259c\u0259k. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259k olar? \u0130nsan add\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259r\u0259k d\u00fcz ata. Aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ki, \u0259yri qoydun, bir q\u0259mb\u0259rqulu \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, ba\u015f\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131r. Bu itin q\u0131z\u0131 il\u0259 pe\u015fman olub be\u015f-on d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. \u0130ndi meydan sulay\u0131r, m\u0259ni h\u0259d\u0259l\u0259yir\u201d.
\n\u00dclk\u0259r dayan\u0131b bax\u0131rd\u0131. \u015eahmar \u00f6z al\u0259mind\u0259 idi.
\n-Niy\u0259 dinmirs\u0259n?
\n\u015eahmar diksindi. \u0130ndi yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki, ax\u0131 o, \u00dclk\u0259rl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Fikir-x\u0259yal onu el\u0259 b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcb ki, q\u0131z yad\u0131ndan tamam \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b.
\n-H\u0259\u0259…
\n\u00dclk\u0259r:
\n-Deyir\u0259m, dar\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn z\u0259ng etmirdin?
\n-Yox, niy\u0259 ki?! Z\u0259ng etm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim, amma s\u0259n m\u0259ni qabaqlad\u0131n.
\n-Z\u0259ng etm\u0259k fikrin vard\u0131sa, b\u0259s niy\u0259 dayan\u0131b durdun?
\n-A\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131, c\u0259sar\u0259t etmirdim. Dedim, qoy ac\u0131\u011f\u0131n soyusun.
\n-Ac\u0131\u011f\u0131m soyuyan deyil. Amma m\u0259n h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n s\u0259nd\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc dar\u0131xm\u0131\u015fam.
\n\u015eahmar sevindi. \u201cDey\u0259s\u0259n yum\u015fal\u0131b. Kefi d\u0259 sazd\u0131r. Bundan istifad\u0259 etm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r. M\u0259nd\u0259n hay\u0131f \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. Ne\u00e7\u0259 ayd\u0131r itirib-axtarmam\u0131\u015f, hal-\u0259hval tutmam\u0131\u015fam. Kim olsa, ac\u0131\u011f\u0131 tutar da. qad\u0131nd\u0131r. Ki\u015fisizdir. T\u0259k dar\u0131x\u0131r, dinc\u0259lm\u0259k ist\u0259yir. Yalvar-yaxar edib u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sald\u0131rma\u011f\u0131 boynuna qoyaram.
\n\u00dclk\u0259rin:
\n-Yax\u015f\u0131 yem\u0259k bi\u015firmi\u015f\u0259m. S\u0259bzi plov, yarpaq dolmas\u0131…Konyak\u0131m da var, -dem\u0259si \u015eahmar\u0131n \u00e7ox \u015fadland\u0131rd\u0131.
\n\u00dclk\u0259r \u015eahmar\u0131n konyak\u0131 sevdiyini bilirdi.
\n-S\u0259ni qonaq \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131ram! G\u0259l, oturaq. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259rd\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi.
\n\u015eahmar\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn narahat\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 yoxa \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, h\u0259tta u\u015faq m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sini d\u0259 unutmu\u015fdu. Sevincind\u0259n qanad a\u00e7\u0131b u\u00e7urdu. \u00dclk\u0259r dili il\u0259 dedi: \u201cG\u0259l, oturaq. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259rd\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi\u201d. \u00dclk\u0259rli g\u00fcnl\u0259ri \u015eahmar\u0131n yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Bel\u0259c\u0259 yeyib-i\u00e7\u0259r, hamamlan\u0131b, yata\u011fa uzanard\u0131lar. B\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcnya onlar\u0131n olard\u0131.
\n\u015eahmar\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn dilxor\u00e7ulu\u011fu \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi: \u201cBel\u0259 yum\u015falarsan! Y\u0259qin abort etdirm\u0259y\u0259 raz\u0131d\u0131r. Amma pula ehtiyac\u0131 var. olsun. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r des\u0259, tap\u0131b ver\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. T\u0259ki bu b\u0259ladan qurtar\u0131m\u201d.
\n\u015eahmar cavab verm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi ki, \u00dclk\u0259r onu qabaqlad\u0131:
\n-Bir ma\u015f\u0131na \u0259yl\u0259\u015f, tez g\u0259l. G\u00f6zl\u0259yir\u0259m.
\n\u015eahmar aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259mird\u0259 idi. Taksiy\u0259 minib yola d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.
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\nF\u0259rid art\u0131q b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Ya\u015f yar\u0131m\u0131 ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. Elmira da u\u015fa\u011fa qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130kinci \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. \u015e\u0259k\u0259r x\u0259st\u0259liyi \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131 haldan salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bir az h\u0259y\u0259canlanan, yaxud hirsl\u0259n\u0259n kimi \u015f\u0259k\u0259ri k\u0259ll\u0259-\u00e7arxa \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. F\u0259rid g\u00f6zl\u0259rini Elmiran\u0131n qarn\u0131na zill\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k:
\n-Ana gonbul olub, – deyirdi.
\nBel\u0259 anlarda \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m:
\n-B\u0259s n\u0259n\u0259?
\n-N\u0259n\u0259 gonbul deyil. Ana \u00e7oxlu yem\u0259k yeyir, ona g\u00f6r\u0259 gonbuldur. N\u0259n\u0259 s\u00f6z\u0259 baxm\u0131r, yem\u0259k yemir, b\u00f6y\u00fck q\u0131z olmayacaq.
\n\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m n\u0259n\u0259sinin bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rini e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 f\u0259r\u0259hl\u0259nir:
\n-N\u0259n\u0259 dilini yesin, – deyirdi.
\n-Yox, n\u0259n\u0259. Dilimi yes\u0259n, nec\u0259 dan\u0131\u015faram?
\nSakitc\u0259 dayan\u0131b qay\u0131nanas\u0131 il\u0259 o\u011flunun dialoquna qulaq asan Elmira da xo\u015f hal olur, sevinci k\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0131\u011fm\u0131rd\u0131:
\n-Ay m\u0259nim a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 o\u011flum! \u2013 deyirdi.
\nF\u0259rid onun \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 deyil\u0259nl\u0259ri imkan tap\u0131b n\u0259n\u0259sin\u0259 v\u0259 anas\u0131na qaytar\u0131rd\u0131.
\nM\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259 idil\u0259r. \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0259m kartof soyur, Elmira d\u00f6y\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f \u0259td\u0259n kotlet haz\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131. \u015eahmar s\u00f6z vermi\u015fdi ki, bu g\u00fcn ev\u0259 tez g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k. Onun n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 b\u0259rk dilxor olmas\u0131 ham\u0131n\u0131n qan\u0131n\u0131 qaraltm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u015eahmar\u0131 he\u00e7 bel\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdil\u0259r. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 qap\u0131laraq bir s\u00f6z demir, \u0259hval\u0131n\u0131n n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn poz\u011fun oldu\u011funu a\u00e7\u0131b-a\u011fartm\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130nsan \u00f6z d\u0259rdini b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 nec\u0259 olmasa y\u00fcng\u00fcll\u0259\u015fir.
\nF\u0259rid televizorun qaba\u011f\u0131nda oturub cizgi filmin\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131:
\n\u00c7\u0259r\u0259 gedir\u0259m, \u00e7\u00fcr\u0259 gedir\u0259m,
\nS\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 var hara gedir\u0259m?
\n\u201cT\u0131q-t\u0131q xan\u0131m\u201d g\u00f6st\u0259rilirdi. Cizgi filmin\u0259 baxandan sonra F\u0259rid anas\u0131na yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b sual\u0131 sual dal\u0131nca verm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131:
\n-T\u0131q-t\u0131q xan\u0131m niy\u0259 suya d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc?
\n-Si\u00e7an b\u0259y niy\u0259 T\u0131q-t\u0131q xan\u0131m\u0131 evd\u0259 qoyub toya getmi\u015fdi?
\n-T\u0131q-t\u0131q xan\u0131mla Si\u00e7an b\u0259y bar\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar?
\nElmira m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259 i\u015fini g\u00f6r\u0259-g\u00f6r\u0259 arada h\u00f6vs\u0259l\u0259 il\u0259 F\u0259ridin suallar\u0131na cavab verirdi. He\u00e7 zaman onun x\u0259trin\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259zdi. Suallar\u0131na cavab alandan sonra F\u0259rid n\u0259n\u0259sin\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131:
\n-Kotleti kimin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bi\u015firirs\u0259n?
\n-Ata g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k, oturub \u015fam ed\u0259c\u0259yik.
\n-Ata gec g\u0259lir, ata g\u0259lmir. O g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 m\u0259n yat\u0131ram. Ata niy\u0259 ev\u0259 gec g\u0259lir?
\nF\u0259rid art\u0131q \u015eahmar\u0131n h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rin\u0259 \u00f6z m\u00fcnasib\u0259tini bildirm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\n\u015eam yem\u0259yi art\u0131q haz\u0131r idi. \u00c7oban salat\u0131 d\u00fcz\u0259ltm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131lar. \u00c7\u00f6r\u0259yi diliml\u0259r\u0259 ay\u0131r\u0131b \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259kqab\u0131na d\u00fczd\u00fcl\u0259r.
\nElmiran\u0131n mobil telefonu s\u0259sl\u0259ndi. N\u00f6mr\u0259siz z\u0259ng idi. Kim ola bil\u0259rdi? Telefondak\u0131 h\u0259y\u0259canl\u0131 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Ki\u015fi s\u0259si idi:
\n-\u015eahmar\u0131n anas\u0131, ya da h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 laz\u0131md\u0131r.
\n-E\u015fidir\u0259m, h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131d\u0131r.
\n-Bac\u0131, Sumqay\u0131t yolunda b\u0259db\u0259xt hadis\u0259 ba\u015f verib. \u015eahmar\u0131n avtomobili q\u0259za t\u00f6r\u0259dib. Ma\u015f\u0131n xurd-x\u0259\u015fil olub, \u00f6z\u00fc is\u0259 ondan bet\u0259r.
\nElmira qulaqlar\u0131na inanmad\u0131. Donub qald\u0131. \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m telefon z\u0259ngind\u0259n sonra g\u0259linin \u0259hval\u0131n\u0131n qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb \u0259l-aya\u011fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc:
\n-\u015eahmard\u0131r? Yen\u0259 bir i\u015fi \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b?
\nElmiran\u0131n s\u0259ssiz-s\u0259mirsiz dayand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, r\u0259nginin k\u0259tan kimi a\u011fard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb onun da sif\u0259tin\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm r\u0259ngi \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc. \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m Elmiraya sar\u0131 g\u0259lib onu qucaqlad\u0131:
\n-N\u0259 olub, q\u0131z\u0131m, des\u0259n\u0259.
\nElmira:
\n-\u015eahmar q\u0259zaya u\u011fray\u0131b. H\u0259lak olub, – deyib tir-tap yer\u0259 s\u0259rildi.
\n\u201c\u00d6l\u00fcb\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc e\u015fid\u0259n kimi \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n da \u00fcr\u0259yi gedib onun yan\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. F\u0259rid onlara bax\u0131b bir \u015fey ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259di. Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n bac\u0131s\u0131 R\u0259fiq\u0259 onlarda idi. Eyvanda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib hava al\u0131rd\u0131. F\u0259rid qorxmu\u015f v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 onun yan\u0131na qa\u00e7d\u0131:
\n-R\u0259fiq\u0259 xala, anamla n\u0259n\u0259m \u00f6ld\u00fc, – deyib g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 ax\u0131td\u0131.
\nR\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m qa\u00e7araq ota\u011fa girdi. Onlar\u0131 yerd\u0259 s\u0259r\u0259li g\u00f6r\u00fcb t\u0259cili yard\u0131ma z\u0259ng etdi.
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\nElmira x\u0259st\u0259xanada g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7d\u0131. \u018ftrafa baxd\u0131: \u201cBura harad\u0131r? Burada n\u0259 g\u0259zir?\u201d ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki, x\u0259st\u0259xanadad\u0131r. Bilm\u0259di ki, buraya n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259tirilib. Qar\u0131n nahiy\u0259sind\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131 hiss edirdi. \u0259lini qarn\u0131na apard\u0131. D\u0259h\u015f\u0259t i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 dik at\u0131ld\u0131. Q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131na h\u0259kim, bir d\u0259 R\u0259fiq\u0259 g\u0259ldi. R\u0259fiq. Tez onu qucaqlad\u0131:
\n-Sakitl\u0259\u015f, qorxulu bir \u015fey yoxdur. \u015e\u00fck\u00fcr Allaha!
\n-B\u0259s…
\nR\u0259fiq\u0259 ona s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tamamlama\u011fa imkan verm\u0259di:
\n-K\u00f6rp\u0259ni itirdin, \u0259ziz bac\u0131. Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 x\u0259t\u0259r toxunmay\u0131b. Ema, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 al.
\nElmira h\u0259y\u0259can v\u0259 t\u0259\u015fvi\u015fl\u0259:
\n-M\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 olub?
\nBir anl\u0131\u011fa fikirl\u0259\u015fib yad\u0131na salma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131:
\n-Z\u0259ng g\u0259ldi. \u00d6z\u00fcmd\u0259n getmi\u015f\u0259m. K\u00f6rp\u0259ni itirdim? Telefonda dedil\u0259r \u015eahmar \u00f6l\u00fcb. Aman Allah! Bu n\u0259 c\u0259zad\u0131r m\u0259n\u0259 verirs\u0259n?! \u015eahmar da yoxdur, k\u00f6rp\u0259m d\u0259…
\nBird\u0259n uca s\u0259sl\u0259:
\n-B\u0259s F\u0259rid han\u0131? \u2013 dey\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r ald\u0131.
\n-Narahat olma.
\nBu zaman Rasiml\u0259 Maral xan\u0131m, yanlar\u0131nda F\u0259rid i\u00e7\u0259ri girdil\u0259r. Maral xan\u0131n tez \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc Elmiran\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 atd\u0131, dal\u0131nca da F\u0259rid. F\u0259ridin yan\u0131ql\u0131 s\u0259si e\u015fidildi:
\n-Ana, anacan! S\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 olub?
\nR\u0259fiq\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Elmira F\u0259ridi ba\u011fr\u0131na basd\u0131:
\n-O\u011flum, narahat olma, anan yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r.
\nElmira ata-anas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb k\u00f6vr\u0259ldi. A\u011flama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. F\u0259rid d\u0259 ona qo\u015fuldu.
\nMaral xan\u0131m qollar\u0131n\u0131 geni\u015f a\u00e7araq h\u0259r ikisini \u2013 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 n\u0259v\u0259sini qucaqlad\u0131:
\n-Elmira, toxta, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 qorxutma. H\u00f6vs\u0259l\u0259li ol.
\nElmira itirdiyi k\u00f6rp\u0259sind\u0259n atas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda s\u00f6z a\u00e7maqdan utan\u0131b \u015eahmar\u0131 soru\u015fdu:
\nRasim:
\n-Q\u0131z\u0131m, \u0259l\u0259k-f\u0259l\u0259k el\u0259dil. Ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259km\u0259diyim, z\u0259ng edib soru\u015fmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m x\u0259st\u0259xana qalmay\u0131b. \u015eahmar ya\u011fl\u0131 \u0259pp\u0259k olub yoxa \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b. G\u00f6rd\u00fcm dey\u0259n yoxdur. Ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n\u0131 da bel\u0259 olub, bilinmir. \u00c7ox q\u0259rib\u0259dir. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcn d\u0259, ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n\u0131n da izini itiribl\u0259r. Polisl\u0259r aya\u011fa qalx\u0131blar, \u00f6l\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc, dirisini tapacaqlar. S\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259ng ed\u0259n adam ya\u015fl\u0131 idi, yoxsa cavan?
\n-S\u0259si ay\u0131rd el\u0259m\u0259k olur ki, ay ata. B\u0259z\u0259n cavan adam\u0131n s\u0259si qoca s\u0259sin\u0259, qoca adam\u0131n s\u0259si cavan s\u0259sin\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131r. M\u0259nc\u0259, orta ya\u015fl\u0131 idi.
\nRasim h\u0259kim\u0259 sar\u0131 d\u00f6n\u00fcb:
\n-N\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015firsiniz?
\n-V\u0259ziyy\u0259t normald\u0131r, ev\u0259 apara bil\u0259rsiniz. Amma qay\u0131nanas\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259lik x\u0259st\u0259xanada qalmal\u0131 olacaq.
\nElmira:
\n-Ona n\u0259 olub?
\n-Ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 x\u0259b\u0259rd\u0259n hal\u0131 pisl\u0259\u015fib.
\nElmiraya dem\u0259dil\u0259r ki, \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n \u015f\u0259k\u0259ri o q\u0259d\u0259r qalx\u0131b ki, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri tutulub. R\u0259fiq\u0259 indi onun yan\u0131nda idi.
\nH\u0259kiml\u0259r n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r deyirdil\u0259rs\u0259, R\u0259fiq\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yalvar\u0131b-yaxar\u0131rd\u0131sa \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m aram olmur, s\u0131z\u0131lday\u0131r, a\u011flay\u0131r, o\u011flundan \u00f6tr\u00fc ah-uf edirdil\u0259r.
\nR\u0259fiq\u0259 onu sakitl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131:
\n-Bac\u0131m, can\u0131m, bir z\u0259ng\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 ikiniz d\u0259 d\u00f6\u015f\u0259ndiniz. He\u00e7 bilinmir kim idi z\u0259ng ed\u0259n, hans\u0131 m\u0259qs\u0259dl\u0259 z\u0259ng \u00e7al\u0131b, qarn\u0131n\u0131n azar\u0131 n\u0259 olub. B\u0259lk\u0259 el\u0259 \u015eahmar\u0131n d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259ni olub. B\u0259lk\u0259 \u015eahmara he\u00e7 n\u0259 olmay\u0131b.
\n-Nec\u0259 y\u0259ni he\u00e7 n\u0259 olmay\u0131b? B\u0259s el\u0259 is\u0259 niy\u0259, n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0259s-sora\u011f\u0131 yoxdur. Ev\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259yib. M\u0259n d\u0259, Elmira da x\u0259st\u0259xanaya d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u00fck. Ba\u015f\u0131 \u0259lind\u0259 olsayd\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7atd\u0131rard\u0131. M\u0259n\u0259 d\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc de, \u015eahmar\u0131 harada d\u0259fn el\u0259diniz? He\u00e7 olmasa atas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda basd\u0131rd\u0131n\u0131zm\u0131?
\n-Ay bac\u0131, n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan? N\u0259 d\u0259fn, n\u0259 basd\u0131rmaq? \u015eahmardan bir x\u0259b\u0259r var ki? Rasim qarda\u015f d\u00fcz\u00fc-d\u00fcnyan\u0131 bir-birin\u0259 vurub. G\u00f6rd\u00fcm dey\u0259n yoxdur. H\u0259min g\u00fcn h\u0259min saatda Sumqay\u0131t yolunda avtomobil q\u0259zas\u0131 da olmay\u0131b.
\n\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m dik\u0259ldi:
\n-Olmay\u0131b? B\u0259s bin\u0259va o\u011flumun ba\u015f\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259n n\u0259 g\u0259lin? Y\u0259qin \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcb d\u0259niz\u0259, \u00e7aya, d\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 at\u0131blar ki, izi-tozu qalmas\u0131n. Q\u0259za m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sini d\u0259 yalan-palandan d\u00fcz\u0259ldibl\u0259r.
\n-\u00d6ld\u00fcrs\u0259ydil\u0259r, a\u00e7\u0131b-a\u011fartmazd\u0131lar.
\n-G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr \u00f6ld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 q\u0259sd\u0259n deyibl\u0259r ki, yan\u0131b-t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259k. D\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nli imi\u015f b\u0259db\u0259xt o\u011flum. Yetim qoyub getdi, m\u0259ni d\u0259 a\u011flar qoydu. Balam vay!
\n\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m q\u0131yya \u00e7\u0259kdi. H\u0259kim \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yetirdi:
\n-Yen\u0259 bu xan\u0131ma n\u0259 olub? \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc h\u0259lak ed\u0259c\u0259k. Biz \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r\u0131q \u015f\u0259k\u0259rini salaq, bu da \u0259ksin\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 divan tutaraq \u015f\u0259k\u0259rini qald\u0131r\u0131r.
\nH\u0259kim \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131ma m\u00fcraci\u0259tl\u0259 dedi:
\n-Xan\u0131m sakitl\u0259\u015fin. Biz sizi ayaq \u00fcst\u0259 qald\u0131rma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r\u0131q, siz is\u0259 \u0259ziyy\u0259timizi yer\u0259 vurursunuz.
\n\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m:
\n-\u015eahmar\u0131m \u0259limd\u0259n ged\u0259nd\u0259n sonra \u015f\u0259k\u0259rimin a\u015fa\u011f\u0131, yaxud yuxar\u0131 olmas\u0131n\u0131n bir m\u0259nas\u0131 varm\u0131? Bel\u0259 sa\u011f qalmaqdansa, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm arzulay\u0131ram.
\nH\u0259kim ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bulayaraq getdi. R\u0259fiq\u0259 bac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131xd\u0131. O da b\u0259rk k\u00f6vr\u0259lmi\u015fdi:
\n-Bac\u0131, sakitl\u0259\u015f. \u0130n\u015fallah s\u0259n\u0259 xo\u015f x\u0259b\u0259r ver\u0259r\u0259m. \u00d6z\u00fcn yax\u015f\u0131 bilirs\u0259n, \u015eahmar \u0259hli-kef adamd\u0131r, ba\u015f\u0131 Allah bilir harada qar\u0131\u015f\u0131b. Ola bilsin he\u00e7 Bak\u0131da deyil, hans\u0131sa rayona gedib. M\u0259nim \u00fcr\u0259yim \u00e7ox sakitdir.
\nR\u0259fiq\u0259 Elmiran\u0131n u\u015faq itirdiyini bac\u0131s\u0131na dem\u0259di. \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n hal\u0131 lap xarabla\u015fard\u0131.
\nH\u0259kim g\u0259ldi:
\n-G\u0259lini ev\u0259 buraxd\u0131q. Sabah da s\u0259ni ev\u0259 yazar\u0131q. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 fikir ver.
\nRasiml\u0259 \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m yanlar\u0131nda F\u0259rid i\u00e7\u0259ri girdil\u0259r. F\u0259rid n\u0259n\u0259sinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 y\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fc:
\n-N\u0259n\u0259, can n\u0259n\u0259!
\n\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m dik\u0259lib onu ba\u011fr\u0131na basd\u0131, \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n, g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6pd\u00fc, k\u00f6vr\u0259ldi.
\nElmira da g\u0259ldi, \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6p\u00fcb hal-\u0259hval tutdu.
\nErt\u0259si g\u00fcn \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131 da ev\u0259 yazd\u0131lar. Bir yandan o\u011flunun \u00f6ld\u00fc-qald\u0131 x\u0259b\u0259rinin olmamas\u0131, dig\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n, i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 d\u00fcnyaya h\u0259sr\u0259t qalmas\u0131 onu \u00fcz\u00fcrd\u00fc.
\nAran\u0131 Turana apar\u0131r, Turan\u0131 Arana g\u0259tirirdi. Yem\u0259kd\u0259n-i\u00e7m\u0259kd\u0259n d\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\nElmira da \u0259li qoynunda otaqda f\u0131rlan\u0131r, \u0259li i\u015f\u0259 yatm\u0131rd\u0131.
\n(ard\u0131 var)
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\n\u015eahmar harada idi? Niy\u0259 ondan s\u0259s-soraq \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131rd\u0131? \u00d6lm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, yoxsa sa\u011f idi? \u00d6lm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcs\u0259, niy\u0259 yeri tap\u0131lm\u0131rd\u0131? Sa\u011f idis\u0259, b\u0259s niy\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcrd\u00fc? Niy\u0259 yeri b\u0259lli deyildi?
\nBu suallar Rasimin d\u0259, \u015eahmar\u0131n da ail\u0259sinin rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 pozmu\u015fdu. X\u0259st\u0259xanalar, morqlar, a\u011facl\u0131qlar, g\u00f6zd\u0259n uzaq yerl\u0259r, h\u0259tta zibillikl\u0259r d\u0259 \u0259l\u0259k-f\u0259l\u0259k edilmi\u015fdi. \u015eahmar\u0131n telefonu s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Soru\u015fulmayan, dindirilm\u0259y\u0259n adam, dost-tan\u0131\u015f qalmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Taksi il\u0259 deyil, \u00f6z ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 getmi\u015fdi. Hara getmi\u015fdi? N\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn getmi\u015fdi? Niy\u0259 qay\u0131tmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131? Bu n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f idi ki, o ged\u0259n olmu\u015fdu. Suallar \u00e7ox idi. Cavab\u0131 da yox. Polisl\u0259r d\u0259 h\u0259\u015fird\u0259 idil\u0259r. Axtar\u0131rd\u0131lar.
\nR\u0259fiq\u0259 demi\u015fk\u0259n, \u015eahmar is\u0259, \u00f6z kefind\u0259 idi. \u00dclk\u0259rin qar kimi a\u011f yata\u011f\u0131nda uzan\u0131b xumarlan\u0131rd\u0131. \u00dc\u00e7 g\u00fcn ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. \u015eahmar g\u00f6y\u00fcn yeddinci qat\u0131nda idi. He\u00e7 bilmirdi ki, ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr burdad\u0131r. El\u0259 z\u0259nn edirdi ki, indi g\u0259lib, bir azdan durub evin\u0259-e\u015fiyin\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259k. Qutab sifari\u015f vermi\u015fdi. F\u0259ridl\u0259 oynaya-oynaya qutab\u0131n\u0131 yey\u0259c\u0259k.
\nG\u0259lin geriy\u0259 qay\u0131daq.
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\n\u015eahmar pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259ri d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb ofisin qap\u0131s\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131nda dayand\u0131. \u201cAx\u0131r ki zal\u0131m\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131 insafa g\u0259ldi. Ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr ola da bilm\u0259zdi. \u00dclk\u0259ri bir dostu onunla tan\u0131\u015f el\u0259mi\u015fdi: \u201cYax\u015f\u0131 cand\u0131r! Giri\u015fs\u0259n, \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n\u201d.
\n\u00dclk\u0259r h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n can alan g\u00f6z\u0259l idi. Oturub-durma\u011fa d\u0259y\u0259rdi. \u018frind\u0259n ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ba\u015flad\u0131lar g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259. \u015eahmar onu saxlay\u0131rd\u0131. Ad g\u00fcnl\u0259rind\u0259, bayramlarda ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u0259diyy\u0259l\u0259r bir yana qals\u0131n, cib x\u0259rcliyi d\u0259 verir, bazarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 edir, \u0259yin-ba\u015f sar\u0131dan korluq \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 qoymurdu. Amma sonradan q\u0131zdan soyudu. Ail\u0259 borcu, evd\u0259kil\u0259rin t\u0259nbehi onu d\u00fcz yola qay\u0131tma\u011fa m\u0259cbur el\u0259di. H\u0259m d\u0259 \u00dclk\u0259r tez-tez sar\u0131 sim\u0259 vururdu. \u0130\u015ftahas\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fck idi. \u015eahmar\u0131n evli oldu\u011funu bil\u0259-bil\u0259 ail\u0259sind\u0259n soyudub ona \u0259r\u0259 getm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. \u015eahmar\u0131n Elmiran\u0131 bo\u015famas\u0131 is\u0259 m\u00fcmk\u00fcns\u00fcz idi. \u201c\u0130p\u0259k kimi, \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k kimi arvad\u0131m var. N\u0259silli, n\u0259cab\u0259tli ail\u0259d\u0259ndir. M\u0259n\u0259 s\u0259daq\u0259tlidir. Ail\u0259sinin x\u0259trin\u0259 \u015eahmar\u0131n yaramaz h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rin\u0259 d\u0259 d\u00f6z\u00fcr. G\u00fcl kimi o\u011flum var\u201d.
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcb-bi\u00e7\u0259n \u015eahmar ax\u0131rda q\u0259rara ald\u0131 ki, \u00dclk\u0259rd\u0259n uzaq dursun. Amma n\u0259 olsun? \u00dclk\u0259r bildiyini el\u0259mi\u015fdi. Ona s\u00fcrpriz haz\u0131rlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bel\u0259 gets\u0259, bu q\u0131zdan he\u00e7 zaman yaxa qurtara bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k! Arada \u00dclk\u0259ri onunla tan\u0131\u015f ed\u0259n dostunu l\u0259n\u0259tl\u0259yirdi. O olmasayd\u0131, bu \u00dclk\u0259r\u0259 haradan rast g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k, ili\u015f\u0259c\u0259kdi?!
\n\u00dclk\u0259rl\u0259 he\u00e7 c\u00fcr evl\u0259n\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi! Lap Elmira il\u0259 bo\u015fansalar da. dostu dili il\u0259 demi\u015fdi: \u201cN\u0259 zamand\u0131r onunla g\u0259zib-dolan\u0131ram. Art\u0131q doymu\u015fam. Bir az da s\u0259n g\u00fcn ke\u00e7ir. Xo\u015funa g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k. Pe\u015fman olmazsan.
\nArxay\u0131n olmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u015eahmar soru\u015fmu\u015fdu: \u201cProblem yaradan deyil ki?\u201d
\nDostu cavab\u0131nda demi\u015fdi: \u201cYox, narahat olma\u201d.
\n\u0130ndi bel\u0259sini evin\u0259 nec\u0259 buraxasan? Yan\u0131na sal\u0131b hara aparasan? El\u0259-bel\u0259 olar. Bir m\u0259\u015fuq\u0259 kimi. Arvad kimi yox. O dey\u0259c\u0259k \u201cbununla kefl\u0259r g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m\u201d, bu s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k \u201che\u00e7 bilirs\u0259n n\u0259 cand\u0131r!\u201d. \u015eahmar da bu fahi\u015f\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 arvad edib. Bel\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259kdil\u0259r. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 dem\u0259s\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259, ard\u0131nca dan\u0131\u015facaqd\u0131lar. Ondan sonra \u0259lac ona qal\u0131r ki, ba\u015f\u0131na l\u0259\u00e7\u0259k ba\u011flayasan.
\n\u00dclk\u0259r i\u015fv\u0259-nazla \u015eahmar\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131. \u0259tirl\u0259nmi\u015fdi. \u018fynin\u0259 uzun xalat geyinmi\u015fdi. Xalat\u0131n yuxar\u0131dan iki d\u00fcym\u0259si, a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 hiss\u0259d\u0259n d\u0259 bir d\u00fcym\u0259si a\u00e7\u0131q idi. Qar kimi a\u011f sin\u0259si g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u0130r\u0259li yeriyib \u015eahmar\u0131n boynuna sar\u0131ld\u0131. \u015eahmar\u0131n b\u0259d\u0259nin\u0259 xo\u015f bir istilik yay\u0131ld\u0131. Dodaqlar g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.
\nD\u00fcnyan\u0131n naz-nem\u0259ti s\u00fcfr\u0259y\u0259 d\u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Ke\u00e7ib \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdil\u0259r. \u00dclk\u0259r \u015fampan \u015f\u0259rab\u0131n\u0131 q\u0259d\u0259hl\u0259r\u0259 s\u00fczd\u00fc. Bad\u0259ni qald\u0131r\u0131b aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131. G\u0259lib \u015eahmar\u0131n yan\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi. \u015eahmar \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259: \u201cB\u0259 o g\u00fcn deyirdi i\u00e7ki i\u00e7mir. B\u0259han\u0259si d\u0259 b\u0259tnind\u0259ki idi. \u0130ndi bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 n\u0259 oldu buna?\u201d
\nBad\u0259l\u0259ri toqqu\u015fdurdular. \u015eahmar:
\n-S\u0259nin sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131na!
\n\u00dclk\u0259r d\u0259 \u00f6z n\u00f6vb\u0259sind\u0259 bad\u0259ni bir q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 yuxar\u0131 qald\u0131raraq:
\n-S\u0259nin sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131na! \u2013 dedi.
\n\u015eahmar \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc: \u201cYax\u015f\u0131 m\u0259qamd\u0131r. Bu g\u00fcn i\u015fl\u0259ri yoluna qoyaca\u011fam, in\u015fallah.
\n\u015eahmar \u015f\u0259rab\u0131 son damlas\u0131na q\u0259d\u0259r i\u00e7ib, \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcn salx\u0131m\u0131ndan bir gil\u0259 qopar\u0131b a\u011fz\u0131na qoydu.
\n\u00dclk\u0259r \u015f\u0259rab\u0131 doda\u011f\u0131na vurub, i\u00e7m\u0259di. Q\u0259d\u0259hi stolun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu. Bir-birin\u0259 sar\u0131l\u0131b, bir-birini \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259rq ed\u0259r\u0259k nahar etdil\u0259r. \u015eahmar h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 bad\u0259ni qald\u0131r\u0131b sa\u011fl\u0131q dey\u0259r\u0259k i\u00e7ir, sonra \u00e7\u0259r\u0259z \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 \u00dclk\u0259rin dodaqlar\u0131ndan \u00f6pm\u0259kl\u0259 \u015f\u0259rab\u0131n ac\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 r\u0259dd edirdi.
\n\u015eahmar i\u00e7s\u0259 d\u0259, \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, h\u0259ddini a\u015fmas\u0131n, m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni el\u0259 bu g\u00fcn \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcb arxay\u0131n evin\u0259 d\u00f6ns\u00fcn.
\n-N\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015firdin?
\nBunu \u00dclk\u0259r soru\u015fdu.
\n-S\u0259nin bar\u0259nd\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m. S\u0259n ill\u0259r, aylar \u00f6td\u00fckc\u0259 daha da g\u00f6z\u0259ll\u0259\u015firs\u0259n.
\nBunu da \u015eahmar dedi.
\n\u00dclk\u0259rin xalat\u0131n\u0131n \u0259t\u0259yi yana d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n a\u011fappaq q\u0131\u00e7\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131qda qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u015eahmar \u0259lini onun q\u0131\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu. \u00dclk\u0259r al\u0131\u015f\u0131b-yan\u0131rd\u0131.
\n-G\u00f6z\u0259llikd\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 tay ola bilm\u0259z!
\n\u00dclk\u0259r g\u00f6zl\u0259rini s\u00fczd\u00fcr\u0259r\u0259k:
\n-El\u0259 is\u0259 niy\u0259 dayanm\u0131san? Qoy bu g\u00f6z\u0259llik h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259lik s\u0259nin olsun!
\n\u015eahmar \u0259lini \u00e7\u0259kdi:
\n-H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259lik?
\n-Y\u0259ni deyir\u0259m qurtaraq bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni.
\n\u015eahmar sevinc\u0259k:
\n-H\u0259, el\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259 bu fikird\u0259y\u0259m.
\n\u00dclk\u0259r \u015fad:
\n-Evl\u0259n\u0259k, qurtars\u0131n getsin!
\n\u015eahmar\u0131n hal\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdi: \u201dBu q\u0131z el\u0259 \u00e7ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7al\u0131r\u201d.
\n-Nec\u0259 y\u0259ni evl\u0259n\u0259k? M\u0259n evliy\u0259m. Ail\u0259m var, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131m var.
\n\u00dclk\u0259r:
\n-Ail\u0259n yen\u0259 olacaq, – deyib \u0259lini qarn\u0131na apard\u0131. \u2013U\u015fa\u011f\u0131n da olacaq!
\n-\u00dclk\u0259r, s\u0259n d\u00fcz deyirs\u0259n. M\u0259n ne\u00e7\u0259 m\u00fcdd\u0259tdir, s\u0259ninl\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259ni k\u0259smi\u015fdim. Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm ki, bu, yax\u015f\u0131 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t deyil. \u0259laq\u0259mizi b\u0259rpa ed\u0259k, yen\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259k. N\u0259 zaman ist\u0259s\u0259n, m\u0259n s\u0259nin h\u00fczurunda haz\u0131r olaram.
\n\u00dclk\u0259r istehzal\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yi\u015fl\u0259 dedi:
\n-M\u0259n t\u0259sad\u00fcfi g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rin t\u0259r\u0259fdar\u0131 deyil\u0259m. \u0130st\u0259yir\u0259m ki, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 yan\u0131mda olasan. Oyna\u015f-m\u0259\u015fuq kimi yox, bir \u0259r kimi!
\n\u015eahmar sar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 uddu: \u201cYox, bu q\u0131zla m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259ri yoluna qoymaq he\u00e7 d\u0259 asan ba\u015fa g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. Bu i\u015fd\u0259n r\u00fcsvay\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q iyi g\u0259lir. Bu q\u0131z evimd\u0259, ail\u0259md\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck m\u0259r\u0259k\u0259 do\u011furacaq. Ail\u0259mi da\u011f\u0131dacaq. Bu q\u0131z m\u0259ni m\u0259hv ed\u0259c\u0259k. \u00dclk\u0259r\u0259 rast g\u0259l\u0259n yerd\u0259 q\u0131\u00e7\u0131m q\u0131r\u0131layd\u0131!
\n-\u00dclk\u0259r, can\u0131m, \u00fcr\u0259yim, m\u0259ni ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f. -\u015eahmar\u0131n dili topuq \u00e7ald\u0131. \u2013\u0130st\u0259yirs\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn g \u00fcn\u00fc birim s\u0259nin ba\u011f\u0131nda, ba\u011f\u00e7anda. Telind\u0259n bir t\u00fck qopar\u0131b yand\u0131ran kimi qullu\u011funda haz\u0131r olum. Lap na\u011f\u0131llarda deyildiyi kimi! S\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 h\u0259diyy\u0259 deyirs\u0259ns\u0259, al\u0131m. Lap \u0259r-arvad kimi ya\u015fayaq, amma ail\u0259mi bura qatma, ail\u0259m\u0259 toxunma! Qohum-\u0259qr\u0259bam var, dost-tan\u0131\u015f\u0131m var. dem\u0259sinl\u0259r birisin\u0259 uyub ail\u0259sini atd\u0131.
\n\u00dclk\u0259rin kefi pozuldu:
\n-Bax, g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n?! \u00d6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc if\u015fa edirs\u0259n. M\u0259n\u0259 birisi kimi bax\u0131rsan. S\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 bir diqq\u0259t el\u0259: \u201cbirisin\u0259 uyub ail\u0259sini atd\u0131\u201d. Bunu dey\u0259nl\u0259r h\u0259m d\u0259 s\u0259nin s\u00f6zl\u0259rin b\u00f6y\u00fcr-ba\u015f\u0131na \u201cfahi\u015f\u0259nin birisin\u0259 uyub\u201d s\u00f6zl\u0259rini d\u0259 art\u0131racaqlar, h\u0259\u0259? S\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn d\u0259 bel\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015firs\u0259n.
\n\u015eahmar \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 haqq qazand\u0131rmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn:
\n-Yox, yox, el\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259mirdim, – dedi. -Deyir\u0259m y\u0259ni m\u0259ni al\u00e7altma.
\n\u00dclk\u0259r:
\n-M\u0259n is\u0259 \u00f6mr\u00fcm boyu fahi\u015f\u0259 olaraq qal\u0131m? Budur s\u0259nin m\u0259ntiqin? Bir var dey\u0259s\u0259n \u0259rimi g\u00f6zl\u0259yir\u0259m, \u201cbu m\u0259nim \u0259rimdir. Bir d\u0259 var dey\u0259s\u0259n: oyna\u015f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yir\u0259m, m\u0259nim m\u0259\u015fuqumdur. G\u0259lib m\u0259nim i\u015fim\u0259 bax\u0131b getsin. B\u0259s s\u0259n m\u0259ni t\u0259hqir etmirs\u0259n, al\u00e7altm\u0131rsan?
\n-Niy\u0259 el\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015firs\u0259n? Qohum-\u0259qr\u0259badan birini taparam, alar s\u0259ni, evin d\u0259 olar, ail\u0259n d\u0259, \u0259rin d\u0259.
\n-Sonra arada x\u0259lv\u0259ti, \u0259rimin g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc o\u011furlay\u0131b ehtiras\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcrm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yan\u0131ma g\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259n: H\u0259\u0259…
\n-G\u0259lm\u0259r\u0259m, yax\u015f\u0131.
\n-Yox, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. Bir \u0259r kimi.
\n-\u0130\u015f\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259dik.
\n-U\u015fa\u011f\u0131na yiy\u0259 durursan, durmursan?
\n-T\u0259rslik el\u0259m\u0259. Ged\u0259k h\u0259kim\u0259, sald\u0131r u\u015fa\u011f\u0131. Bununla da h\u0259r \u015fey qurtar\u0131b getsin.
\n-S\u0259n d\u0259 ilim-ilim it\u0259s\u0259n? He\u00e7 n\u0259 bel\u0259 sad\u0259c\u0259 qurtar\u0131b getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k!
\n\u015eahmar\u0131n a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259ldi:
\n-Onda molla il\u0259 k\u0259bin k\u0259sdir\u0259k.
\n-Yox, nikah ba\u011flayaq. S\u0259n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131, s\u0259daq\u0259tli arvad olaram, s\u00f6z verir\u0259m. X\u0259yan\u0259t ets\u0259m, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 k\u0259s\u0259rs\u0259n. Dilimd\u0259n iltizam ver\u0259r\u0259rm.
\n\u00dclk\u0259r xalat\u0131n\u0131n d\u00fcym\u0259l\u0259rini a\u00e7d\u0131, b\u00fct\u00fcn b\u0259d\u0259ni a\u00e7\u0131qda qald\u0131. Altdan da he\u00e7 n\u0259 geym\u0259mi\u015fdi.
\n-Bel\u0259 b\u0259d\u0259nd\u0259n imtina edirs\u0259n?
\n\u015eahmar aya\u011fa qalxmaq ist\u0259di. \u00dclk\u0259r qoymad\u0131:
\n-S\u00f6hb\u0259timizi bitirm\u0259mi\u015fik. Yax\u015f\u0131 konyak\u0131m var, frans\u0131z.. s\u0259n\u0259 s\u00f6z vermi\u015fdim. Unudub m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259 qoymu\u015fam, m\u0259n d\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. \u0130ndi q\u0131z\u0131\u015f\u0131b bir-birimiz\u0259 a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131zdan g\u0259l\u0259ni deyirik i\u00e7\u0259k, s\u00f6hb\u0259timizi davam etdir\u0259k.
\n-Yax\u015f\u0131.
\n\u00dclk\u0259r m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7di. M\u0259cm\u0259yid\u0259 konyak \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259si v\u0259 konyak dolu iki bad\u0259 g\u0259tirdi. Q\u0259d\u0259hl\u0259rd\u0259n birini \u015eahmara uzatd\u0131:
\n-M\u0259nim sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131ma i\u00e7, a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 q\u0131z olaca\u011fam.
\nBunu e\u015fid\u0259n \u015eahmar\u0131n daxilind\u0259 bir \u00fcmid q\u0131\u011f\u0131lc\u0131m\u0131 yand\u0131. Konyak\u0131 i\u00e7di az sonra yava\u015f-yava\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259ri yumuldu. \u00dclk\u0259r qollar\u0131ndan tutub onu yata\u011fa sar\u0131 apard\u0131. Soyundurdu v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 xalat\u0131n\u0131 bir t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 tullad\u0131.
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\nR\u0259fiq\u0259 \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131 \u0259lind\u0259n tutub otaqda g\u0259zdirirdi. F\u0259rid, ad\u0259ti \u00fczr\u0259 sakitc\u0259 oyuncaqlar\u0131 il\u0259 oynay\u0131rd\u0131. Elmira da m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259 idi.
\nDomofonun z\u0259ngi s\u0259sl\u0259ndi. Elmira qap\u0131ya yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b d\u0259st\u0259yi qald\u0131rd\u0131:
\n-Kimdir?
\n-Ema, m\u0259n\u0259m.
\n\u015eahmar\u0131n s\u0259si idi. Elmira qulaqlar\u0131na inanmad\u0131. Bir d\u0259 soru\u015fdu:
\n-Kimdir?
\n-\u015eahmard\u0131r.
\nElmira qeyri-ixtiyari:
\n-\u015eahmard\u0131r, -deyib d\u00fcym\u0259ni basd\u0131. Blokun qap\u0131s\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. \u015eahmar binaya daxil oldu.
\n\u201c\u015eahmard\u0131r\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc e\u015fid\u0259n \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m haldan-hala d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc:
\n-Can bala, g\u0259l\u0259n ayaqlar\u0131na qurban. G\u0259l m\u0259ni \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n qurtar! M\u0259nzilin qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b g\u00f6zl\u0259dil\u0259r. Lift dayand\u0131, \u015eahmar g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc. \u015eahmar evd\u0259ki d\u0259yi\u015fiklikl\u0259ri d\u0259rhal sezdi. R\u0259fiq\u0259 \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n qolundan tutmu\u015fdu. Anas\u0131n\u0131n yeri\u015fi l\u0259ng idi. Kor adamlar kimi \u0259ll\u0259rini qaba\u011fa uzad\u0131b \u015eahmar\u0131 axtar\u0131rd\u0131. \u015eahmar \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc anas\u0131na do\u011fru atd\u0131:
\n-Ana, anacan! S\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 olub? De.
\n-Ay bala, anana olan-olub. De g\u00f6r\u00fcm, s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 olmu\u015fdu. Bar\u0131 sa\u011f-salamatsan?
\nBunu dey\u0259n xalas\u0131 R\u0259fiq\u0259 idi.
\n\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m \u0259ll\u0259rini \u015eahmar\u0131n sir-sif\u0259tind\u0259, b\u0259d\u0259nind\u0259 g\u0259zdirdi:
\n-\u015e\u00fck\u00fcr, sa\u011f-salamatsan.
\n\u015eahmar Elmiraya sar\u0131 getdi. Ondak\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fikliyi d\u0259 d\u0259rhal g\u00f6rd\u00fc v\u0259 yerind\u0259 dondu:
\n-B\u0259…
\nElmira a\u011flad\u0131:
\n-K\u00f6rp\u0259ni itirdik…
\n\u015eahmar ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131n s\u0259b\u0259bkar\u0131 odur.
\nF\u0259rid dayan\u0131b bax\u0131rd\u0131. \u015eahmar ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qucaqlay\u0131b h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tsiz dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sonra ir\u0259li yeriyib F\u0259ridi quca\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb \u00f6pd\u00fc:
\n-Nec\u0259s\u0259n, o\u011flum?
\n-Yax\u015f\u0131yam, ata. Harada idin? Anam s\u0259nd\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc \u00e7ox a\u011flad\u0131, ar\u0131qlad\u0131. N\u0259n\u0259m d\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. Rasim baba il\u0259 Maral n\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 bizd\u0259 idil\u0259r. T\u0259k s\u0259n yox idin. Hara getmi\u015fdin? N\u0259n\u0259ml\u0259 anam dolma bi\u015firmi\u015fdil\u0259r. S\u0259n g\u0259lm\u0259din, dolma qald\u0131, yem\u0259dik. S\u0259n g\u0259lm\u0259diyin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 anam, sonra da n\u0259n\u0259m yer\u0259 y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131lar. H\u0259kiml\u0259r g\u0259lib onlar\u0131 apard\u0131lar.
\nF\u0259rid dil bo\u011faza qoymurdu. \u015eahmar susurdu. Rasim m\u00fc\u0259llim z\u0259ng etmi\u015fdi, Elmira il\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Rasim m\u00fc\u0259llim deyirdi:
\n-Polisl\u0259r s\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259ng ed\u0259n adam\u0131n telefon n\u00f6mr\u0259sini tap\u0131blar. Amma itmi\u015f, yaxud o\u011furluq telefondan z\u0259ng edilib. Telefon sahibinin polis\u0259 \u0259riz\u0259si d\u0259 var. h\u0259min hadis\u0259d\u0259n iki g\u00fcn \u0259vv\u0259l \u0259riz\u0259 yaz\u0131b ki, telefonum o\u011furlan\u0131b. Yen\u0259 d\u0259 bilinm\u0259di ki, z\u0259ng kimin z\u0259ngidir.
\nElmira ax\u0131ra q\u0259d\u0259r qulaq as\u0131b dedi:
\n-Ata, \u015eahmar g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.
\n-G\u0259ldi? N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131. G\u00f6z\u00fcn ayd\u0131n, q\u0131z\u0131m! \u0130ndi ananla m\u0259n d\u0259 g\u0259lir\u0259m.
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\nHam\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fc \u015eahmarda idi. Onun n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259yini, bu \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcnd\u0259 harada oldu\u011funu bilm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdil\u0259r. \u015eahmar is\u0259 susurdu. Gah yuyunur, gah paltar\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fir, gah da \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0131rxmaqla \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259\u015f\u011ful g\u00f6st\u0259rirdi.
\n\u0130ndi Rasim m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259 \u00fczb\u0259\u00fcz oturmu\u015fdular:
\n-Ay o\u011ful, din, dan\u0131\u015f. \u00dc\u00e7 g\u00fcn \u0259vv\u0259l bir ma\u015f\u0131na oturub harasa getmis\u0259n. Bir saat ke\u00e7m\u0259mi\u015f ev\u0259 z\u0259ng edib Elmiraya deyibl\u0259r ki, s\u0259nin mindiyin ma\u015f\u0131n q\u0259zaya u\u011fray\u0131b, s\u0259n d\u0259 h\u0259lak olmusan.
\n\u015eahmar q\u0259ddini d\u00fcz\u0259ltdi: \u201cBu n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r?!\u201d
\n-Bu x\u0259b\u0259ri e\u015fid\u0259n kimi \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri tutulub, Elmira da yer\u0259 y\u0131x\u0131l\u0131b, u\u015faq da t\u0259l\u0259f olub. Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, xalan evd\u0259 imi\u015f. Bir \u0259lc\u0259 u\u015faq – F\u0259rid d\u0259li olard\u0131. T\u0259k-t\u0259nha n\u0259 eyl\u0259y\u0259 bil\u0259rdi?! R\u0259fiq\u0259nin z\u0259ngind\u0259n sonra t\u0259cili yard\u0131m ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259lib onlar\u0131 x\u0259st\u0259xanaya apar\u0131b.
\n\u015eahmar \u00dclk\u0259rin \u0259lind\u0259n qurtarandan b\u0259ri hey fikirl\u0259\u015firdi ki, bu ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fc harada oldu\u011funu yax\u0131nlar\u0131na nec\u0259 izah ed\u0259c\u0259k? A\u011fl\u0131na bir \u015fey g\u0259lmirdi.
\n-Polisl\u0259r axtar\u0131\u015f elan etmi\u015fdil\u0259r.
\nBu s\u00f6z \u015eahmara \u00e7ox pis t\u0259sir etdi: \u201dG\u00f6r i\u015f n\u0259 h\u0259dd\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131b. \u018flacs\u0131zl\u0131qdan polis i\u015f\u0259 qar\u0131\u015f\u0131b\u201d.
\nRasim m\u00fc\u0259llim g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 ki, \u015eahmar ba\u015f\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259n s\u00f6z a\u00e7maq ist\u0259mir, o da d\u0259rin\u0259 getm\u0259di.
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\nErt\u0259si g\u00fcn \u015eahmar oyan\u0131b yuyundu. S\u0259h\u0259r yem\u0259yin\u0259 oturanda \u00dclk\u0259r onun ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qataraq yen\u0259 ona d\u0259rman ver\u0259r\u0259k, yat\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, durub evin\u0259 getm\u0259sin. Ax\u015fam da el\u0259c\u0259. Bu minvalla \u015eahmar\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn m\u0259nzilind\u0259 saxlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259l\u0259 bu azm\u0131\u015f kimi Elmiraya z\u0259ng vuraraq, demi\u015fdil\u0259r ki, \u015eahmar avtomobil q\u0259zas\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, h\u0259lak olub.
\nBununla \u015eahmar\u0131n ail\u0259sind\u0259 qan\u0131qara\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q yaratmaq, onu zor-b\u0259la il\u0259 d\u0259 olsa, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 ba\u011flamaq, ail\u0259sini da\u011f\u0131tmaq ist\u0259yirdi.
\n\u015eahmar arada m\u0259nzili t\u0259rk etm\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 \u00dclk\u0259r sirk\u0259ni g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259r\u0259k, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259yi il\u0259 \u015eahmar\u0131 qorxudur, h\u0259d\u0259l\u0259yirdi. Ax\u0131rda \u015eahmar bir yol tap\u0131b onun \u0259lind\u0259n qurtula bildi.
\nM\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 onun d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r idi. Ba\u015f\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259r azm\u0131\u015f kimi \u00fcst\u0259lik Elmira b\u0259tnind\u0259ki k\u00f6rp\u0259ni salm\u0131\u015f, anas\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri tutulmu\u015fdu. Rasim m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259 Maral xan\u0131n onun yoxa \u00e7\u0131xma\u011f\u0131ndan x\u0259b\u0259r tutmu\u015fdular. Bundan ba\u015fqa, ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn idi ki, polisl\u0259rin d\u0259 dincliyi yox idi. N\u0259 olsun \u015eahmar tap\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131?! Lap yax\u015f\u0131. \u0130ndi onu \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131b sor\u011fu-suala tutacaqd\u0131lar: harada idin? Kiminl\u0259 idin? Ev\u0259 niy\u0259 g\u0259lmirdin?
\nFikird\u0259n-x\u0259yaldan \u015eahmar\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131 partlay\u0131rd\u0131. Ham\u0131 onun n\u0259 zaman dil\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yini g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. O is\u0259 susurdu. Bunu g\u00f6r\u0259n Rasim m\u00fc\u0259llim Maral xan\u0131ma g\u00f6z-qa\u015fla ba\u015fa sald\u0131 ki, durub geyinsin. Elmira bir x\u0259b\u0259r \u00f6yr\u0259ns\u0259, onsuz da anas\u0131na dey\u0259c\u0259kdi. Amma Elmira evind\u0259ki h\u0259r s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259ti d\u0259 anas\u0131na \u00e7atd\u0131rm\u0131rd\u0131. Bo\u015f yer\u0259 onlar\u0131n qan\u0131n\u0131 qaraltmaq ist\u0259mirdi. Adam\u0131n bel\u0259 g\u0259lini ola!
\nAx\u015fam d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. F\u0259ridi yat\u0131rtd\u0131lar. \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131 ota\u011f\u0131na apard\u0131lar. R\u0259fiq\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 ki, burada \u2013 bac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda qal\u0131rd\u0131. \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n g\u00f6zd\u0259n olmas\u0131 onu a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131.
\nElmira \u015eahmara m\u00fcraci\u0259tl\u0259:
\n-\u00c7aydan, yem\u0259kd\u0259n n\u0259 ist\u0259yirs\u0259n? \u2013 dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu.
\n\u201cYox\u201d cavab\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131b o da \u00f6z ota\u011f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kildi. Telefon s\u0259sl\u0259ndi. O idi. \u00dclk\u0259r idi. Cavab verm\u0259yib, telefonu qapad\u0131. \u00dclk\u0259rl\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259ri tutmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131: \u201cG\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kd\u0259 m\u0259ni n\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yir? Bu \u00dclk\u0259r m\u0259nd\u0259n \u0259l \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n zibil deyil. B\u0259s polisl\u0259r?! Sabah saat 10-da polis idar\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131blar. Bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni a\u00e7\u0131b-a\u011fartmaq olmaz. B\u0259s r\u0259is\u0259 n\u0259 deyim, el\u0259 deyim ki, yaxamdan \u0259l \u00e7\u0259ksinl\u0259r. Amma inand\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 d\u0259lil olmal\u0131d\u0131r. B\u0259s n\u0259yi b\u0259han\u0259 g\u0259tirim? N\u0259riman prokurorluqda i\u015fl\u0259yir. Sinif yolda\u015f\u0131m olub. \u00c7oxdand\u0131r g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcr\u00fck. M\u0259ni pis qar\u015f\u0131lamaz. Gedim d\u0259rdimi ona dan\u0131\u015f\u0131m, bir yol g\u00f6st\u0259rsin. H\u0259m d\u0259 polis r\u0259isin\u0259 tap\u015f\u0131rs\u0131n ki, m\u0259ni \u00e7ox da \u00e7\u0259k-\u00e7evir\u0259 salmas\u0131nlar. Bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259nin alt\u0131ndan bir da\u015f, \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u0259 bir a\u011f\u0131r da\u015f qoysunlar!.
\nB\u0259s evd\u0259kil\u0259r\u0259 n\u0259 desin? Tutaq ki, polisl\u0259r \u0259l \u00e7\u0259kdil\u0259r. \u00d6l\u00fcm yox, itim yox. B\u0259s \u00dclk\u0259r? Ondan yaxa qurtara bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. \u0130ki ay, \u00fc\u00e7 ay, ax\u0131r ki, u\u015faq do\u011fulacaq. \u0130ndi n\u0259 var ki? Onda b\u00fct\u00fcn al\u0259m m\u0259nim \u0259m\u0259limd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259r tutacaq. Bu insan adl\u0131 m\u0259xluqun niy\u0259 bir damar\u0131 bo\u015fdur? Niy\u0259 haqq\u0131n s\u0259sin\u0259 qulaq asm\u0131r, \u015feytan \u0259m\u0259lin\u0259 uyur? \u015eeytan onu yoldan \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131r. Elmiran\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 yamanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u0259yib ki, ona bu q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259zab verir\u0259m?! Rasim m\u00fc\u0259llim d\u0259, Maral xan\u0131m da ip\u0259k kimi adamlard\u0131r. M\u0259nim \u0259m\u0259ll\u0259rim\u0259 g\u00f6z yumurlar. Q\u0131zlar\u0131n\u0131n, n\u0259v\u0259l\u0259rinin x\u0259trin\u0259. Bu n\u0259 i\u015fdir d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm? Bu q\u0131z n\u0259 b\u0259laym\u0131\u015f , bilm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. \u0130nad edib durur ki, yox, do\u011faca\u011fam, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131na yiy\u0259 dur. Al\u0259mi bir-birin\u0259 qataca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 deyir. Ba\u015f\u0131ma haran\u0131n k\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00fc t\u00f6k\u00fcm? \u0130nsan\u0131n yol verdiyi b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259m\u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259 onu ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k olur. Birc\u0259 o\u011furluqda bu arvad m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259si adama \u00e7ox x\u0259cal\u0259t g\u0259tirir. O\u011furluq hallar\u0131n\u0131n da bir \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f yolu olur \u2013 imkans\u0131zl\u0131qdan edib o\u011furlu\u011fu. B\u0259s arvadbazl\u0131\u011fa n\u0259 ad ver\u0259s\u0259n, d\u0259rdini kim\u0259 dey\u0259s\u0259n. dem\u0259lidir ki? N\u0259 is\u0259…
\nYataq ota\u011f\u0131n\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131q qap\u0131s\u0131ndan i\u00e7\u0259ri boyland\u0131. Elmira yata\u011f\u0131 d\u00fcz\u0259ldirdi. Sonra g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259z oldu. Gec\u0259 lampas\u0131 yand\u0131. Elmira \u015fifonerin qaba\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7ib \u00fcst paltar\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fib, gec\u0259 k\u00f6yn\u0259yini geydi.
\n\u015eahmar indi hans\u0131 \u00fczl\u0259 gedib yata\u011fa girsin. Elmiran\u0131n yan\u0131nda uzans\u0131n. D\u00fcn\u0259n \u00dc\u0131k\u0259rin qollar\u0131 aras\u0131nda idi. Onunla g\u00fcn ke\u00e7irirdi. Bu g\u00fcn d\u0259 g\u0259lib arvad\u0131 il\u0259 yats\u0131n? Bu b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u00fckd\u0259 h\u0259ngam\u0259d\u0259n sonra buna hans\u0131 h\u0259dd\u0259, h\u00fcququ, ixtiyar\u0131 vard\u0131? \u00d6z-\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n iyr\u0259ndi. G\u00fcl kimi arvad\u0131n\u0131 nec\u0259 d\u0259 aya\u011fa verir.
\nEyvana \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b siqaretini yand\u0131rd\u0131. \u015e\u0259h\u0259r yat\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00f6yd\u0259 ulduzlar sayr\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. X\u0259fif meh xo\u015f s\u0259rinlik g\u0259tirirdi. Amma \u015eahmar bu s\u0259rinliyi hiss etmirdi. B\u0259d\u0259ni od tutub yan\u0131rd\u0131: \u201cBu i\u015fl\u0259rin ax\u0131r\u0131 nec\u0259 olacaq? Ax\u0131rda nec\u0259 qurtaracaq?\u201d
\nG\u00f6yd\u0259 bir ulduz axd\u0131. \u015eahmar onu g\u00f6r\u00fcb lap dilxor oldu: \u201cBu, pis \u0259lam\u0259tdir! Vallah \u00f6z\u00fc saxlas\u0131n!\u201d
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\nH\u0259qiq\u0259td\u0259 n\u0259 ba\u015f vermi\u015fdi? \u00dclk\u0259r konyaka yuxu d\u0259rman\u0131 qatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u015eahmar yuxulayan kimi aparm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 \u00e7arpay\u0131ya. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 girmi\u015fdi yan\u0131na. Bunu, art\u0131q demi\u015fik. \u015eahmar\u0131n mobil telefonunu s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcb gizl\u0259tmi\u015fdi. Odur ki, ona z\u0259ngl\u0259r \u00e7atm\u0131rd\u0131.
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\nTelefon z\u0259ngi g\u0259ldi. Mobil telefonunu \u015falvar\u0131n\u0131n dal cibin\u0259 qoymu\u015fdu. \u00c7\u0131xar\u0131b baxd\u0131. \u00dclk\u0259rin z\u0259ngi idi. \u201cS\u0259h\u0259rin g\u00f6z\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f n\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259rdir? Gec\u0259 yatmay\u0131b-n\u0259dir\u201d.
\n\u015eahmar cavab verdi.
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\nSabah prokurorlu\u011fa ged\u0259c\u0259kdi. Bir i\u015fin dal\u0131na ged\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259k i\u015f-i\u015f olsun, bir adam\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7anda da g\u0259r\u0259k \u0259rkl\u0259, \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259 a\u00e7asan! Yoxsa…
\nM\u0259rdanzad\u0259 \u015eahmar\u0131 s\u0259mimiyy\u0259tl\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131, xo\u015f dill\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131:
\n-Hardasan? \u0130tib-batm\u0131san.
\n\u015eahmar onun g\u00f6st\u0259rdiyi yerd\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi. M\u0259rdanzad\u0259 d\u0259 ke\u00e7ib onunla \u00fczb\u0259qz qoyulmu\u015f stulda \u0259tl\u0259\u015fdi:
\n-Nec\u0259s\u0259n? Rasim m\u00fc\u0259llim nec\u0259dir?
\n\u015eahmar onun suallar\u0131na s\u0131x\u0131la-s\u0131x\u0131la cavab verirdi. M\u0259rdanzad\u0259 \u015eahmar\u0131n s\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb:
\n-Bura bax, n\u0259 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259dir? Birba\u015fa m\u0259tl\u0259b\u0259 ke\u00e7, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259yi gizl\u0259tm\u0259. Bacard\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z k\u00f6m\u0259yi ed\u0259rik. Bu iki-\u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn\u00fc harada olmusan?
\n\u015eahmar n\u0259 ki, var dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Tay-tu\u015f idil\u0259r, n\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kin\u0259c\u0259kdi?
\n-Deyir u\u015fa\u011fa qalm\u0131\u015fam, abort da etdirm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. Qalm\u0131\u015fam odla su aras\u0131nda.
\n-D\u0259li. El\u0259 bu \u00e7atm\u0131rd\u0131. B\u0259lk\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 aldad\u0131r, he\u00e7 u\u015faq-mu\u015faq yoxdur, pul qoparmaq ist\u0259yir? \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc yorma. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r pul ist\u0259yirs\u0259 ver, ba\u015f\u0131ndan el\u0259.
\n-Bu bar\u0259d\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259timiz olub. Pula yax\u0131n durmur. Fikrind\u0259 q\u0259tidir. Do\u011fmaq ist\u0259yir. Guya h\u0259kim buna deyib ki, abort el\u0259s\u0259n, bir daha u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n olmayacaq. H\u0259m d\u0259 deyir onu al\u0131m, u\u015fa\u011fa yiy\u0259 durum.
\n-H\u0259, \u0259zizim, yaman ili\u015fmis\u0259n. Ay zal\u0131m, oturub-duranda da el\u0259sini se\u00e7\u0259s\u0259n g\u0259r\u0259k ki, sonradan ba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u011fritmas\u0131n, s\u0259ni r\u00fcsvay el\u0259m\u0259sin. \u0130ndi \u00e7oxlar\u0131 bir i\u015f g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 bunu m\u0259qs\u0259dl\u0259 edir. N\u0259, bu ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fc harada olmusan? \u00d6ld\u00fc x\u0259b\u0259rin \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b.
\n\u015eahmar olan\u0131 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sonra \u0259lav\u0259 etdi:
\n-Dedim ki, y\u0259qin fikrind\u0259n da\u015f\u0131n\u0131b. \u0130ki-\u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn onun m\u0259nzilind\u0259 yat\u0131b qalm\u0131\u015fam. Z\u0259ng edib m\u0259nim q\u0259zaya d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc bildiribl\u0259r. X\u0259b\u0259r o q\u0259d\u0259r sars\u0131d\u0131c\u0131 olub ki, arvad\u0131m u\u015fa\u011f\u0131, aman is\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 itirib.
\n-Rasim m\u00fc\u0259llimin bu arvad m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sind\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259ri var?
\n-Yoxdur. Bunu a\u00e7\u0131b dey\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m. Onun bilm\u0259sinin qorxusu yoxdur. Elmira x\u0259b\u0259r tutsa m\u0259ni at\u0131b ged\u0259c\u0259k. Ona b\u0259l\u0259d\u0259m, q\u00fcrurludur, bel\u0259 t\u0259hqir\u0259 tabla\u015fmaz. S\u0259lim, m\u0259n arvad\u0131m\u0131 bo\u015fay\u0131b onu ala bilm\u0259r\u0259m. H\u0259m d\u0259 bu \u00dclk\u0259rl\u0259 subay olsayd\u0131m bel\u0259, evl\u0259n\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m. \u00dcz\u00fc \u00fczl\u0259r g\u00f6r\u00fcb.
\n-S\u0259ni ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m.
\nProkuror aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131, \u015eahmar da durdu.
\n-Yax\u015f\u0131, burdan durub gedirs\u0259n polis r\u0259isinin yan\u0131na. Z\u0259ng edib tap\u015f\u0131raca\u011fam ki, s\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k etsin.
\nG\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb ayr\u0131ld\u0131lar.
\n\u015eahmar k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259ri dola\u015f\u0131b, n\u0259hay\u0259t, polis idar\u0259sin\u0259 g\u0259ldi. R\u0259isin yan\u0131nda bir n\u0259f\u0259r vard\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259li oldu. Ax\u0131r ki, g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r. Polis r\u0259isi onu mehribanl\u0131qla qar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131:
\n-H\u0259, bilir\u0259m, M\u0259rdanzad\u0259 deyib. Bu n\u0259 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259dir? Yoxa \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131n. Bel\u0259 i\u015f tutarlar? Z\u0259ng d\u0259 ed\u0259 bilmirdin?
\n\u015eahmar hiss el\u0259di ki, t\u0259r onu bas\u0131r. Cib d\u0259smal\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131. Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, r\u0259is onun bu v\u0259ziyy\u0259tini g\u00f6rm\u0259di. H\u0259s\u0259nli stolun siyirm\u0259sind\u0259n bir ka\u011f\u0131z \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b z\u0259ngin d\u00fcym\u0259sini basd\u0131. Katib\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi:
\n-Bu ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131 mayor S\u0259limova ver.
\nQ\u0131z \u00e7\u0131xmaq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259:
\n-Bizim\u00e7in \u00e7ay g\u0259tir, -dedi.
\nQ\u0131z ota\u011f\u0131 t\u0259rk etdi, az sonra iki fincan \u00e7ayla i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi.
\n-H\u0259, dan\u0131\u015f.
\n\u015eahmar ba\u015f\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259ri dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Polis r\u0259isi:
\n-M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 ayd\u0131nd\u0131r, – dedi. \u2013\u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n kimi s\u0259n\u0259 yuxu d\u0259rman\u0131 verirmi\u015f. Mobil telefonunu da s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcb ki, z\u0259ngl\u0259r g\u0259lm\u0259sin. Yax\u015f\u0131, qarda\u015f, durub-oturanda \u0259m\u0259li saleh adam tapa bilmirdin?!
\n\u015eahmar ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sald\u0131.
\n-Dem\u0259li, bu yolla s\u0259ni evind\u0259n, ail\u0259nd\u0259n soyudub, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc s\u0259n\u0259 s\u0131r\u0131maq ist\u0259yir?
\n-B\u0259li.
\n-O \u2013 o olsun, biz d\u0259 biz. \u018fg\u0259r o yalan-palan uydurub bu oyunlar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131rsa, d\u0259rsini ver\u0259c\u0259yik. El\u0259 t\u0259dbir g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259yik ki, \u00f6z hay\u0131na qalar.
\n-Fikriniz n\u0259dir?
\n-\u00dclk\u0259ri \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131b sor\u011fu-suala tutaca\u011f\u0131q. O, m\u00fcayin\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259ril\u0259c\u0259k. U\u015faq m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sini uydurubsa, boyun qa\u00e7\u0131racaq. Amma \u0259g\u0259r ola bil\u0259r ki, do\u011frudan da hamil\u0259dir.
\n\u015eahmar\u0131n r\u0259ngi a\u011fard\u0131.
\n-Ba\u015fqas\u0131ndan u\u015fa\u011fa qala bil\u0259r. M\u00fcayin\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rs\u0259 ki, o hamil\u0259dir, deanka etdir\u0259rik. S\u0259n\u0259 \u015f\u0259r atd\u0131\u011f\u0131 a\u015fkarlansa, bo\u011faz\u0131na \u00e7\u00f6k\u0259rik. Bu, bir. \u0130kincisi, s\u0259ni ne\u00e7\u0259 m\u00fcdd\u0259t evind\u0259 dustaq edib. Bu, bilirs\u0259n n\u0259dir? Adam o\u011furlu\u011fu. Bunun da ayr\u0131ca c\u0259zas\u0131 var. \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fcs\u00fc, ail\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259ng etdirib s\u0259nin \u00f6ld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc x\u0259b\u0259r veribl\u0259r. Bu x\u0259b\u0259rd\u0259n sonra anan\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri tutulub, h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131n u\u015faq sal\u0131b. Bu da bir cinay\u0259t. Z\u0259ng ed\u0259ni d\u0259 tapaca\u011f\u0131q. O da boynuna alacaq onu kim \u00f6yr\u0259dib. Bel\u0259likl\u0259, s\u0259nin \u00dclk\u0259rin \u00fc\u00e7 madd\u0259 il\u0259 cinay\u0259t m\u0259suliyy\u0259tin\u0259 c\u0259lb olunacaq.
\nPolis r\u0259isi dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qca \u015eahmar\u0131n r\u0259ngi-ruhu \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259lirdi:
\n-M\u0259n m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259nin bu q\u0259d\u0259r yo\u011funla\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259m\u0259zdim. \u0130\u015f uzand\u0131qca, Rasim m\u00fc\u0259llim, qay\u0131nanam, h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131m, anam, xalam h\u0259qiq\u0259ti bil\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r.
\n-Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni g\u0259r\u0259k xo\u015fluqla h\u0259ll ed\u0259k. B\u0259lk\u0259 s\u0259nd\u0259n pul qoparmaq fikri var. ona g\u00f6r\u0259 bu oyunu \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131r.
\n-Yox, pul m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259si deyil. Pul t\u0259klif el\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Yax\u0131n qoymay\u0131b.
\n-Bilirs\u0259n n\u0259 var? S\u0259nin ona q\u0259pik-quru\u015fun laz\u0131m deyil. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, o b\u00f6y\u00fck m\u0259bl\u0259\u011f\u0259 \u00fcmid edir.
\nRasim fikr\u0259 getdi:
\n-M\u0259nd\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck m\u0259bl\u0259\u011f haradan?
\n-Rasim m\u00fc\u0259llimin qay\u0131natan oldu\u011funu bilir?
\n-Bilir.
\n-Ayd\u0131nd\u0131r. Onun imkanl\u0131 oldu\u011fundan x\u0259b\u0259ri var. Bilir ki, b\u0259d ayaqda onun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qa\u00e7acaqsan.
\n-Rasim m\u00fc\u0259llim bu bar\u0259d\u0259 bils\u0259, m\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259pik d\u0259 verm\u0259z. O h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 deyib: inki\u015faf\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, ail\u0259nin rifah\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131rsa, \u0259l tutum. M\u0259n\u0259 g\u00fcv\u0259n\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n. H\u0259ll\u0259m-q\u0259ll\u0259m i\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259n m\u0259n uza\u011fam. M\u0259n\u0259 \u00fcmid el\u0259m\u0259.
\n-Bura bax, b\u0259lk\u0259 onu \u00f6yr\u0259d\u0259n var?!
\n-\u00d6yr\u0259d\u0259n? Kim? A\u011fl\u0131ma kim is\u0259 g\u0259lmir.
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\n\u00dclk\u0259r polis r\u0259isinin q\u0259bulunda idi.
\n-Buyurun, \u0259yl\u0259\u015fin.
\n\u00dclk\u0259r oturdu.
\n-Yax\u015f\u0131, bu n\u0259 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259dir? Adam o\u011furlu\u011fu bilirsinizmi, cinay\u0259tdir?
\n-Hans\u0131 adam o\u011furlu\u011fundan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z, r\u0259is?
\n-\u015eahmar\u0131 dil\u0259 tutub ev\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f, sonra \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn evind\u0259n buraxmam\u0131san.
\n-Yaland\u0131r. Onunla m\u00fcnasib\u0259timiz var. Z\u0259ng edib ki, siz\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m. M\u0259n d\u0259 demi\u015f\u0259m: buyur. G\u0259lib \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn bizd\u0259 qonaq qal\u0131b, sonra da durub gedib. D\u00f6y\u00fclm\u0259yib, s\u00f6y\u00fclm\u0259yib, z\u0259d\u0259si yox, yaral\u0131 yeri yox. Bu n\u0259 ki\u015filikdir? G\u0259lib g\u00f6r n\u0259yin \u015fikay\u0259t\u00e7isi olub?!
\n-Amma yaman dedin ha.
\n-M\u0259n qad\u0131n xeyla\u011f\u0131. Sizin dediyiniz kimi, z\u0259if cinsin n\u00fcmay\u0259nd\u0259si. O boyda ki\u015fini nec\u0259 o\u011furlaya bil\u0259rdim? G\u0259ldi yedi-i\u00e7di, yatd\u0131, durdu. Arada dedim evd\u0259 narahat olarlar. Dedi: ev\u0259 getm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m, bezmi\u015f\u0259m. Ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131ndan n\u0259 is\u0259 naraz\u0131 idi. He\u00e7 getm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi. M\u0259cbur g\u00f6nd\u0259rmi\u015f\u0259m.
\nR\u0259is \u00dclk\u0259rin m\u0259ntiqin\u0259 heyran oldu:
\n-Yax\u015f\u0131, s\u0259n n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn evin\u0259 z\u0259ng etdirib demisiniz ki, avtomobil q\u0259zas\u0131 ba\u015f veriv, \u015eahmar da h\u0259lak olub.
\n-Kim, m\u0259n? M\u0259n z\u0259ng etdirmi\u015f\u0259m? N\u0259yim\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131r bu? Burada m\u0259ntiq g\u00f6rm\u00fcr\u0259m. \u018fksin\u0259, ist\u0259yirdim \u015eahmar durub evin\u0259 getsin. \u00d6z\u00fc getmirdi.
\n-Do\u011frudur, telefon n\u00f6mr\u0259si v\u0259 s\u0259s s\u0259nin deyil. Amma ad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kdiyiniz m\u0259ntiq \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259ni s\u0259nin \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 g\u0259tirir. Niy\u0259 m\u0259hz o, yoxa \u00e7\u0131xan vaxt onun ail\u0259sin\u0259 bel\u0259 b\u0259d x\u0259b\u0259r verilir?
\n-R\u0259is, bu, bir qanunauy\u011funluqdur. Sad\u0259c\u0259 hadis\u0259l\u0259r \u00fcst-\u00fcst\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb. Hans\u0131sa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259ni ail\u0259sini sars\u0131tmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ona bel\u0259 xo\u015fag\u0259lm\u0259z mesaj g\u00f6nd\u0259rib. Sad\u0259c\u0259 bu, \u015eahmar\u0131n biz\u0259 g\u0259ldiyi g\u00fcn\u0259 t\u0259sad\u00fcf edib. H\u0259min z\u0259ng\u0259 g\u0259ldikd\u0259, m\u0259n g\u00fcnahkar deyil\u0259m.
\n-Dem\u0259li, burada s\u0259nin \u0259lin yoxdur?!
\n-Q\u0259tiyy\u0259n.
\n-Tutaq ki, raz\u0131la\u015fd\u0131q. B\u0259s n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn onu buraxm\u0131rd\u0131n\u0131z. Zorla ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb qa\u00e7\u0131b.
\n-N\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259n qa\u00e7\u0131rmay\u0131n ki, m\u0259n onun m\u0259nzilin\u0259 getm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, yaxud da i\u015f yerind\u0259n, k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259n bir ma\u015f\u0131na mindirib onu qa\u00e7\u0131rmam\u0131\u015fam. \u00d6z aya\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 oynar-g\u00fcl\u0259r m\u0259nim m\u0259nzilim\u0259 g\u0259lib. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn qal\u0131b, sonra da \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b gedib. M\u0259n dul qad\u0131nam. Dostla, yolda\u015fla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259, evimd\u0259 qonaq q\u0259bul etm\u0259y\u0259 ixtiyar\u0131m var. m\u0259nim m\u0259nzilimd\u0259 \u015eahmara zor t\u0259tbiq olunmay\u0131b. Biz \u00e7oxdan\u0131n dostu, yolda\u015f\u0131y\u0131q. Uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u00fck. H\u0259m d\u0259 bizim u\u015fa\u011f\u0131m\u0131z var. O, b\u0259tnimd\u0259ki k\u00f6rp\u0259min atas\u0131d\u0131r.
\n\u00dclk\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fc g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259.
\n-U\u015faq ne\u00e7\u0259 ayl\u0131qd\u0131r?
\n-Bunun m\u0259nas\u0131 varm\u0131?
\n-Ax\u0131 siz xeyli m\u00fcdd\u0259t bir yerd\u0259 olmam\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z. U\u015faq nec\u0259 ola bil\u0259r?
\n-Siz bunu bilm\u0259y\u0259 bil\u0259rsiniz. H\u0259m d\u0259 m\u0259nim yox, onun dedikl\u0259rini \u0259sas g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz.
\n-S\u0259ni m\u00fcayin\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259li olaca\u011fam.
\n-Hans\u0131 \u0259sasla? \u015eikay\u0259t var? \u018friz\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m.
\n-\u018friz\u0259 yoxdur.
\n-G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz, \u015fikay\u0259t yoxdursa, ixtiyar\u0131n\u0131z \u00e7atm\u0131r.
\n-\u018friz\u0259 ola bil\u0259r.
\n\u00dclk\u0259r istehza il\u0259 g\u00fcld\u00fc:
\n-T\u0259\u015fkil ed\u0259c\u0259ksiniz? \u018friz\u0259 olanda m\u00fcayin\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259rsiniz.
\n-Yax\u015f\u0131.
\n-\u018friz\u0259 olan kimi, onun h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131na s\u0259rg\u00fcz\u0259\u015ftl\u0259rimizi dan\u0131\u015faram.
\n-Bunu etm\u0259zs\u0259n.
\n-Niy\u0259 ki?! Haqq\u0131m var. O, k\u00f6rp\u0259min atas\u0131d\u0131r.
\n-Olmayan k\u00f6rp\u0259nin?
\n-Siz art\u0131q m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259zyiq edirsiniz.
\n-S\u0259n ail\u0259 da\u011f\u0131tmaqda ittiham oluna bil\u0259rs\u0259n.
\n\u00dclk\u0259r aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131:
\n-\u0130caz\u0259nizl\u0259 gedim.
\n–S\u00f6hb\u0259timiz bitm\u0259di. S\u0259ninl\u0259 bir daha g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259yik.
\n-Sa\u011fl\u0131q olsun.
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\nRasim m\u00fc\u0259llim \u015eahmar\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn i\u015fd\u0259ki kabinetin\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131:
\n-Ay o\u011ful, bu n\u0259 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259dir?
\n\u015eahmar q\u0131pq\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 oldu:
\n-Rasim m\u00fc\u0259llim, m\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n, bir s\u0259hvdir, olub. Amma xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, Maral xala il\u0259 Elmira x\u0259b\u0259r tutmas\u0131n. U\u015faq m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sini yalandan ortaya at\u0131b. Xeyli m\u00fcdd\u0259tdir onunla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. U\u015faq m\u0259nd\u0259n olsayd\u0131, \u00e7oxdan do\u011fulmu\u015fdu. Bunun hamil\u0259liyi h\u0259l\u0259 he\u00e7 o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 bilinmir. M\u0259n\u0259 \u015f\u0259r at\u0131r.
\n-M\u0259qs\u0259di n\u0259dir?
\n-Bilmir\u0259m.
\n-M\u00fcst\u0259ntiq d\u00fcz deyir. S\u0259nd\u0259n \u00e7oxlu pul qoparmaq ist\u0259yir can\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259n. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r pul ist\u0259yirs\u0259, verim, yaxandan \u0259l \u00e7\u0259ksin.
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\nPolis r\u0259isi \u00dclk\u0259ri \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rtd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00dclk\u0259r \u00f6t\u0259n d\u0259f\u0259 r\u0259isin kabinetin\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259kli girmi\u015fdi. B\u0259zi orqan i\u015f\u00e7il\u0259rinin xasiyy\u0259tin\u0259, i\u015f t\u0259rzin\u0259 b\u0259l\u0259d idi. Onlarla qorxa-qorxa dan\u0131\u015fanda adam\u0131 daha \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259k-\u00e7evir\u0259 sal\u0131r, tutmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u015fi, yol verm\u0259diyi h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259ti d\u0259 boyununa qoyurdular. \u015e\u0259r d\u0259 at\u0131rd\u0131lar. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 s\u00f6z vermi\u015fdi ki, diriba\u015f olacaq. R\u0259isin kabinetind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xandan sonra onu a\u011flamaq tutdu. Bir t\u0259h\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc saxlad\u0131. \u0259trafda polisl\u0259r g\u0259zir, s\u00f6hb\u0259t edirdil\u0259r. Onu g\u00f6z\u00fc ya\u015fl\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259l\u0259rini ist\u0259mirdi. Bir q\u0259d\u0259r uzaqla\u015fandan sonra bir oturacaqda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 ax\u0131td\u0131. \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259ri tar\u0131ma \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015fdi, a\u011flamaqla sakitl\u0259\u015f\u0259c\u0259kdi. Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bilmirdi ki, \u015eahmar niy\u0259 gedin ondan \u015fikay\u0259t edib. \u00dclk\u0259r ona n\u0259 demi\u015fdi ki? Sad\u0259c\u0259 bildirmi\u015fdi ki, ondan u\u015fa\u011fa qal\u0131b, arvad\u0131n\u0131 bo\u015fay\u0131b onu als\u0131n. \u0130st\u0259mir ki, do\u011fulacaq u\u015faq atas\u0131z b\u00f6y\u00fcs\u00fcn. Burada n\u0259 var ki? Bundan \u00f6tr\u00fc utan\u0131n yer\u0259 girmir, gedib birinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 be\u015fini n\u0259dir, on be\u015fini d\u0259 qoyub polis\u0259 \u015fikay\u0259t edib. M\u0259ni adam o\u011furlu\u011funda, Elmiran\u0131n u\u015faq salmas\u0131nda, \u015eahmar\u0131n anas\u0131n\u0131n kor olmas\u0131nda su\u00e7lay\u0131rlar. G\u00f6r \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc nec\u0259 tap\u015f\u0131rd\u0131b ki, \u00dclk\u0259ri m\u00fcst\u0259ntiq, sah\u0259 m\u00fcv\u0259kkili deyil, \u015f\u0259xs\u0259n polis r\u0259isinin \u00f6z\u00fc sor\u011fu-suala tutdu. \u201cAmma m\u0259n d\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259m ha. R\u0259isi mat qoydum. Soru\u015fdum ki, \u201c\u0259riz\u0259 varm\u0131? \u018fg\u0259r \u015fikay\u0259t yoxdursa, hans\u0131 \u0259sasla m\u0259ni dindirirsiniz?\u201d \u0130ndi nec\u0259 olacaq? R\u0259is y\u0259qin \u015eahmar\u0131n \u0259riz\u0259sini al\u0131b. H\u00fcquq m\u00fchafiz\u0259 orqan\u0131na n\u0259 var ki?! T\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259rd\u0259n hans\u0131 birini ist\u0259s\u0259, ist\u0259r haql\u0131 olsun, ist\u0259rs\u0259 d\u0259 su\u00e7lu, g\u00fcnahland\u0131ra bilir. Bir yol tap\u0131r. G\u00f6rm\u0259dimmi do\u011fulacaq u\u015faq qald\u0131 bir k\u0259narda, r\u0259is ba\u015flad\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn t\u0259qsirl\u0259ri m\u0259nim boynuma qoyma\u011fa\u201d.
\n\u00dclk\u0259r ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, bu d\u0259f\u0259 r\u0259isl\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259kli dan\u0131\u015fa bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. H\u00f6km\u0259n onu ginekoloqun yan\u0131na, sonra da DNK testin\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259c\u0259k. DNK g\u00f6st\u0259rs\u0259 ki, u\u015faq \u015eahmardan deyil, o zaman ondan t\u0259l\u0259b ed\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n atas\u0131n\u0131n kim oldu\u011funu desin. U\u015faq ba\u015fqas\u0131ndan olsa, \u00dclk\u0259r\u0259 cinay\u0259t i\u015fi a\u00e7\u0131lacaq. \u015eahmara \u015f\u0259r atd\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259.
\nVaxta az qal\u0131rd\u0131. R\u0259is \u00dclk\u0259ri g\u00fcnorta saat 3-\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rtd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Saat bird\u0259, ad\u0259t\u0259n nahara ged\u0259r, saat 2-d\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131b i\u015f ba\u015f\u0131nda olard\u0131. R\u0259is \u00dclk\u0259rl\u0259 \u00f6t\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc yada sald\u0131: \u201cAmma bu \u015eahmar da az a\u015f\u0131n duzu deyil.. ha. Deyirik g\u0259r\u0259k o q\u0131za ba\u015f qoymayayd\u0131n. Amma \u00f6z aram\u0131zd\u0131r, ona nec\u0259 ba\u015f qoymayasan. Ke\u00e7m\u0259li deyil ha. H\u0259m d\u0259 di\u015fli q\u0131zd\u0131r. Az qala m\u0259ni divara dir\u0259mi\u015fdi: !R\u0259smi \u015fikay\u0259t varm\u0131?\u201d
\nR\u0259isin i\u015far\u0259si il\u0259 \u00dclk\u0259r \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi.
\n-Deyir\u0259m vaxt itirm\u0259y\u0259k. \u0130ndi n\u0259 deyirs\u0259n? S\u0259ni ginekoloqa, sonra da DNK testin\u0259 yollay\u0131mm\u0131?
\n\u00dclk\u0259r yax\u015f\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, bu r\u0259is d\u0259 \u015eahmar kimi ona inanm\u0131r. R\u0259is bu kimi i\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259 sa\u00e7 a\u011fartm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00dclk\u0259r kim\u0259 k\u0259l\u0259k g\u0259lirdi? Ax\u0131rda \u00f6z\u00fc g\u00fcnahkar \u00e7\u0131xacaqd\u0131. Q\u0131z qeyri-ixtiyari s\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f s\u00f6yd\u00fc:
\n-\u018fclaf k\u00f6p\u0259k o\u011flu! M\u0259ni i\u015f\u0259 sald\u0131!
\nR\u0259is diqq\u0259t k\u0259sildi:
\n-Kimi s\u00f6y\u00fcrs\u0259n? \u015eahmar\u0131?
\n\u00dclk\u0259r tez \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 ald\u0131:
\n-Yox, ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n.
\n\u0130nadkarl\u0131q g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259zdi. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 \u015fikay\u0259t \u0259riz\u0259sinin verilib-verilm\u0259diyini soru\u015fmay\u0131b aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131.
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\n\u00dclk\u0259r xeyli miqdarda pul qopar\u0131b \u015eahmar\u0131 rahat buraxd\u0131. Bu, \u015eahmara d\u0259rs oldu, yan\u0131b-yax\u0131ld\u0131. \u0130nsanlar\u0131 tan\u0131maq olmazm\u0131\u015f. D\u00fcz deyirl\u0259rmi\u015f. \u00dclk\u0259r i\u00e7 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6st\u0259rdi. Asan yolla \u0259lin\u0259 pul ke\u00e7irib, \u201cJeep\u201d ma\u015f\u0131n, M\u0259rd\u0259kanda \u0259la t\u0259mirli ev v\u0259 hovuzu da olan ba\u011f evi ald\u0131. Onu \u00f6yr\u0259d\u0259n \u015f\u0259xs d\u0259 ortaya \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Bu, \u015eahmar\u0131n \u00f6z m\u00fcavini idi. \u00dclk\u0259rl\u0259 onu tan\u0131\u015f ed\u0259n S\u0259m\u0259d. S\u0259n dem\u0259, \u00dclk\u0259ri \u00f6yr\u0259dibmi\u015f ki, \u015fahmar\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 dursun, onu \u015firk\u0259td\u0259n uzaqla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b onun yerini tutsun. \u00dclk\u0259rin qazanc\u0131 da o olacaqd\u0131 ki, m\u00fcavin v\u0259zif\u0259sini icra ed\u0259c\u0259kdi. U\u015faq s\u00f6hb\u0259ti d\u00fcz-do\u011fru idi, amma \u015eahmardan yox, S\u0259m\u0259dd\u0259n imi\u015f.
\nS\u0259m\u0259d ist\u0259tin\u0259 nail olmad\u0131, i\u015f yerini d\u0259 itirdi, \u00dclk\u0259r u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 do\u011fub t\u0259k b\u00f6y\u00fctm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Abort da etdir\u0259 bil\u0259rdi, sonralar u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131n olmayaca\u011f\u0131ndan qorxmu\u015fdu. H\u0259kim bu bar\u0259d\u0259 onu x\u0259b\u0259rdar el\u0259mi\u015fdi.
\nRasim m\u00fc\u0259llim a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 v\u0259 t\u0259dbirli adam idi. K\u00fcr\u0259k\u0259nin\u0259 d\u0259st\u0259k durmu\u015fdu. Bu i\u015fl\u0259r qurtarandan sonra \u015eahmara demi\u015fdi:
\n-Bundan bel\u0259 onlara ba\u015f qo\u015fma. N\u0259 S\u0259m\u0259d\u0259, n\u0259 d\u0259 \u00dclk\u0259r\u0259. El\u0259 bil o \u0259hvalat da ba\u015f verm\u0259yib. Bir da\u015f altdan, bir da\u015f \u00fcstd\u0259n. Bir d\u0259, ay o\u011ful, daha u\u015faq deyils\u0259n. Pul c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m\u0259, i\u015fl\u0259rini yoluna qoydu. Amma el\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259r var k\u0131, bir-birin\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 pul da adam\u0131n dad\u0131na \u00e7atm\u0131r. U\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131, anan da g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin nurunu itirdi. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 anl\u0131\u011fa \u015f\u0259hvan\u0259 n\u0259fsini s\u00f6nd\u00fcrm\u0259k, t\u0259min etm\u0259k namin\u0259 onlardan m\u0259hrum olma\u011fa d\u0259y\u0259rdimi? M\u0259n ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, s\u0259ninl\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131q dan\u0131\u015f\u0131ram. Amma m\u0259cburam. Olub-ke\u00e7\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259n n\u0259tic\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar. Bunu ed\u0259 bils\u0259n, udan da s\u0259n olacaqsan. Yalan-palan, f\u0131r\u0131ldaq, \u015fantajla n\u0259y\u0259 is\u0259 nail olmaq h\u0259v\u0259sind\u0259 olanlar\u0131n ax\u0131r\u0131 yoxdur. Gec-tez pe\u015fman olurlar. B\u0259z\u0259n h\u0259tta h\u0259yatlar\u0131n\u0131 bel\u0259 itirirl\u0259r.
\nH\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n bel\u0259 oldu. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259nizk\u0259nar\u0131ndak\u0131 restoranlar\u0131n birind\u0259 m\u00f6hk\u0259m yeyib-i\u00e7\u0259n v\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131na \u0259yl\u0259\u015f\u0259n \u00dclk\u0259r r\u0259fiq\u0259si il\u0259 birg\u0259 q\u0259zaya u\u011frad\u0131. S\u0259m\u0259d d\u0259 n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 onlarla imi\u015f. R\u0259fiq\u0259l\u0259r h\u0259yatlar\u0131n\u0131, S\u0259m\u0259d is\u0259, q\u0131\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 itirdi. Balaca Sevda bir daha u\u015fa\u011fa qalmayaca\u011f\u0131ndan qorxan anas\u0131 \u00dclk\u0259rd\u0259n m\u0259hrum qald\u0131. S\u0259m\u0259d u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 evin\u0259 g\u0259tirdi. U\u015fa\u011fa baxmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir qulluq\u00e7u tutdu.
\n\u015eahmar \u00dclk\u0259rl\u0259 S\u0259m\u0259din faci\u0259sin\u0259 sevinm\u0259di. Yaln\u0131z t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf etdi. U\u015fa\u011fa yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u0259ldi.
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\n\u015eirk\u0259td\u0259 \u015eahmar\u0131n i\u015fl\u0259ri d\u00fcz g\u0259tirmirdi. \u0130flasa u\u011fram\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Rasim m\u00fc\u0259llim ist\u0259m\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, \u201cba\u011f\u0131\u015flam\u0131\u015fam\u201d des\u0259 d\u0259, \u015eahmar qay\u0131natas\u0131na d\u0259y\u0259n ziyan\u0131 \u2013 verdiyi pulu geri qaytarmaq ist\u0259yirdi. Odur ki, he\u00e7 kim\u0259 qulaq asmad\u0131. X\u0259st\u0259 anas\u0131n\u0131, cavab arvad\u0131n\u0131, balaca F\u0259ridi burada qoyub yolda\u015flar\u0131na qo\u015fulub Sankt-Peterburqa yola d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Burada alverl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful idil\u0259r. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 g\u00fcn-g\u00fcz\u0259ran\u0131 d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra \u00f6z\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn kiray\u0259 m\u0259nzil tutdu v\u0259 Elmira il\u0259 F\u0259ridi d\u0259 bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 g\u0259tirdi.
\nA\u011fl\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131nda i\u015fl\u0259yirdi.
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\nDolan\u0131\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131 yax\u015f\u0131 idi. \u015eahmar qazanc\u0131ndan geriy\u0259 d\u0259 at\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259r ay anas\u0131na da pul g\u00f6nd\u0259rirdi. Amma bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 \u015eahmar\u0131n g\u0259liri \u00e7oxald. O, bunun s\u0259b\u0259bini i\u015fl\u0259rini yax\u015f\u0131 getm\u0259si iol\u0259 izah edirdi. F\u0259q\u0259t pis g\u00fcn\u00fcn sonu oldu\u011fu kimi, s\u0259n dem\u0259, yax\u015f\u0131 g\u00fcnl\u0259rin d\u0259 sonu yeti\u015f\u0259 bil\u0259rmi\u015f. V\u0259 yeti\u015fdi d\u0259…
\nElmiran\u0131n yalvar\u0131\u015flar\u0131na baxmayaraq, \u015eahmar yen\u0259 yolunu azd\u0131. Kef m\u0259clisl\u0259ri ara vermirdi. Vaxt olurdu ki, bir g\u00fcn, iki g\u00fcn ev\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u00fcrd\u00fc. Elmira balaca F\u0259ridl\u0259 yad yerd\u0259 d\u00f6rd divar aras\u0131nda qal\u0131rd\u0131. Divarlar da, m\u00fchit d\u0259 onu s\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. Yuxusu \u0259r\u015f\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015fdi. Ax\u015famlar ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qatmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn y\u0131r-y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015f edir, paltar yuyur, yem\u0259k haz\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131. B\u0259z\u0259n s\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6zl\u0259rini televizora zill\u0259yirdi.
\nH\u0259yat g\u00f6z\u0259l oldu\u011fu kimi, b\u0259z\u0259n canc\u0131x\u0131c\u0131, h\u0259tta d\u00f6z\u00fclm\u0259z olurmu\u015f. A\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259n fikirl\u0259rd\u0259n az qal\u0131rd\u0131 d\u0259li olsun. Bu q\u0259dim \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin onun xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyin\u0259 son qoyaca\u011f\u0131, \u0259rini \u0259lind\u0259n alaca\u011f\u0131 bar\u0259d\u0259 qorxunc x\u0259yallara qap\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. D\u0259rdini i\u00e7in\u0259 salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ata-anas\u0131, \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m tez-tez z\u0259ng edir, hal-\u0259hval tuturdular. Onlara he\u00e7 n\u0259 demir, onlarda narahat\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q yaratmama\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 \u00fcmidini itirm\u0259mi\u015fdi. G\u00fcnl\u0259rin birind\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyin yoluna d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 inam yaratma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. \u00dcmid ba\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u0259min g\u00fcn\u00fcn n\u0259 zaman g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yini is\u0259 bilmirdi. Sad\u0259c\u0259 buna \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc inand\u0131rmaq ist\u0259yirdi. \u00dcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, o g\u00fcn g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kdimi? Bilmirdi. G\u00fcc\u00fc g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131na \u00e7at\u0131rd\u0131: \u201cG\u0259r\u0259k buraya g\u0259lm\u0259m\u0259ydim. Sankt-Peterburqda g\u0259lm\u0259kl\u0259 \u015eahmar\u0131n \u0259l-qolu daha da a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Burada ona s\u00f6z dey\u0259n, i\u015fin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fan yox idi. T\u0259kc\u0259 Elmira idi ki, onun da s\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259t vermir, dedikl\u0259rini qulaq ard\u0131na vururdu.
\n\u015eahmar son g\u00fcnl\u0259r \u00e7ox \u0259s\u0259bi idi. Ev\u0259 gec g\u0259lir, dinib-dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131rd\u0131. S\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r oturur, eyvana \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b siqareti siqaret\u0259 calay\u0131rd\u0131. Suallar\u0131n he\u00e7 birin\u0259 cavab vermirdi. Daha ev\u0259 pul da g\u0259tirmirdi. B\u00fck\u00fcb bir k\u0259nara qoyduqlar\u0131ndan x\u0259rcl\u0259yirdil\u0259r. Bu v\u0259ziyy\u0259ti g\u00f6r\u0259n Elmira \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259: \u201cDey\u0259s\u0259n yen\u0259 ili\u015fib, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 \u00e7ox pis. Allah, s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn k\u00f6m\u0259yimizd\u0259 dur. M\u0259n he\u00e7, bu u\u015fa\u011fa r\u0259hmin g\u0259lsin!\u201d
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\n\u015eahmar bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn idi ki, ev\u0259 g\u0259lmirdi. Elmira daha bilmirdi ki, d\u0259rdini kim\u0259 desin. Ah-zar edirdi. Onu sor\u011fu-suala tutan o\u011fluna:
\n-Bala, a\u011flam\u0131ram, so\u011fan soymu\u015fam, ondand\u0131r, – deyirdi.
\nF\u0259rid \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k bilmirdi:
\n-Anacan, so\u011fan\u0131 g\u00fcnorta soyurdun ax\u0131. X\u00f6r\u0259k bi\u015fir\u0259nd\u0259. H\u0259l\u0259 ac\u0131s\u0131 getm\u0259yib?
\nElmira daha ucadan h\u00f6nk\u00fcr\u0259r\u0259k onu ba\u011fr\u0131na basd\u0131:
\n-\u00c7ox pis so\u011fan idi, h\u0259, balas\u0131, he\u00e7 ac\u0131s\u0131 getmir, – deyirdi.
\n-B\u0259s atam harada qald\u0131? M\u0259n bilir\u0259m, atam g\u0259l\u0259n kimi a\u011flama\u011f\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259s\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n.
\n\u015eahmar\u0131n h\u0259rd\u0259n bir-iki g\u00fcn ev\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259diyi g\u00fcnl\u0259r olurdu. Amma \u0259vv\u0259lki g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259n f\u0259rqli olaraq bu g\u00fcn n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 Elmira \u00e7ox narahat idi, sakitl\u0259\u015fm\u0259k bilmirdi. A\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131na g\u0259ldiyind\u0259n hiss edirdi ki, n\u0259 is\u0259 xo\u015fag\u0259lm\u0259z bir hadis\u0259 ba\u015f verib. Ata-anas\u0131na deyib onlar\u0131n da qan\u0131n\u0131 qaraltmaq ist\u0259mirdi. Polis\u0259 d\u0259 dey\u0259 bim\u0259zdi. Bir d\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcn, g\u0259ldi \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. H\u0259m d\u0259 polis\u0259 des\u0259ydi, \u015eahmar \u00e7ox pis \u0259s\u0259bil\u0259\u015f\u0259r, h\u0259tta Elmiraya \u0259l d\u0259 qald\u0131rard\u0131.
\n\u015e\u0259nb\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fc saat on iki olard\u0131. Qap\u0131n\u0131n z\u0259ngi \u00e7al\u0131nd\u0131. F\u0259rid tez qap\u0131ya qa\u00e7d\u0131:
\n-Ay ana, anacan, atam, atam g\u0259ldi.
\nElmira narahat halda \u0259rinin g\u0259li\u015fini g\u00f6zl\u0259diyind\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u00fckd\u0259n baxmadan qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131. G\u0259l\u0259n \u015eahmar deyildi. \u0130ki ki\u015fi qap\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131nda dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Biri \u015eahmar\u0131n \u015f\u0259rikl\u0259rind\u0259n idi. O birini tan\u0131m\u0131rd\u0131. \u015e\u0259rik:
\n-Olar?
\nElmira \u00e7\u0259kilib onlara yol verdi. Ke\u00e7ib \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdil\u0259r. F\u0259rid \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u015eahmar\u0131n \u015f\u0259rikin\u0259 tutaraq soru\u015fdu:
\n-\u015eakir \u0259mi, b\u0259s atam han\u0131?
\n\u015e\u0259rik:
\n-O\u011flum, s\u0259n o biri ota\u011fa ke\u00e7.
\nF\u0259rid anas\u0131na baxd\u0131. Elmira ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n i\u015far\u0259si il\u0259 bildirdi ki, deyil\u0259n\u0259 \u0259m\u0259l etsin.
\nF\u0259rid qon\u015fu ota\u011fa do\u011fru getdi. Elmiran\u0131n ayaq \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 quruyub qald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015f\u0259xs:
\n-Siz \u0259yl\u0259\u015fin, – dedi.
\nElmira oturdu. Pis x\u0259b\u0259rl\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131lar. \u201cY\u0259qin tutublar\u201d -dey\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fdi. \u201cYek\u0259 ki\u015fidir, he\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qoyulmur. Ha de, ha ba\u015fa sal, ha g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ax\u0131t\u201d.
\n-\u015eahmar yolda\u015flar\u0131na at\u0131b, odur ki, onu saxlay\u0131blar.
\nElmiran\u0131n h\u0259y\u0259canland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n \u015f\u0259rik:
\n-Narahat olma, buraxacaqlar.
\nBayaqdan n\u0259f\u0259sini udan Elmira \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259ldi. \u015e\u0259rik s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 davam etdi:
\n– Amma \u015f\u0259rtl\u0259ri var, g\u0259r\u0259k \u0259m\u0259l ed\u0259.
\nElmira baxd\u0131.
\n-D\u0259ymi\u015f ziyan\u0131 tez bir zamanda \u00f6d\u0259m\u0259lidir. Yoxsa h\u0259yat\u0131 il\u0259 vidala\u015facaq. S\u0259n d\u0259 onu ba\u015fa sal.
\nG\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259r getdil\u0259r.
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\nArt\u0131q \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc g\u00fcn idi ki, \u015eahmar ev\u0259 g\u0259lmirdi. Soraq ver\u0259n yox idi. Elmira F\u0259ridi u\u015faq ba\u011f\u00e7as\u0131na qoyub taksiy\u0259 oturdu v\u0259 polis idar\u0259sin\u0259 s\u00fcrd\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u00c7atanda iki n\u0259f\u0259r onun qaba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sdi:
\n-\u015eahmardan x\u0259b\u0259r bilm\u0259k ist\u0259yirs\u0259ns\u0259, ma\u015f\u0131na \u0259yl\u0259\u015f.
\n\u018fyl\u0259\u015fdi. Ma\u015f\u0131n uzaqla\u015fd\u0131. idi.
\n-\u015eahmar\u0131 buraxd\u0131lar?
\nAr\u0131q v\u0259 uzun ki\u015fi ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yell\u0259di. Elmira key-key baxd\u0131. \u201cY\u0259ni n\u0259 ba\u015f verib?\u201d
\nH\u0259min \u015f\u0259xs:
\n-Onu aradan g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcbl\u0259r.
\nElmiran\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri h\u0259d\u0259q\u0259sind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.
\n-Nec\u0259 y\u0259ni aradan g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcbl\u0259r? Hara apar\u0131blar?
\nAr\u0131q v\u0259 uzun ki\u015fini g\u00fclm\u0259k tutdu:
\n-He\u00e7 yer\u0259 aparmay\u0131blar.
\nBir anl\u0131\u011fa susub s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 davam etdi:
\n-\u00d6ld\u00fcr\u00fcbl\u0259r.
\nElmira nal\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi:
\n-Vay, evim y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131!
\n-\u015eahmar biz\u0259 at\u0131b. Bu i\u015fd\u0259 aldatmaq ba\u011f\u0131\u015flan\u0131lm\u0131r. Biz d\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flamad\u0131q.
\nElmiran\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yi getdi. \u00dcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00f6y\u0259cl\u0259yib, su verib onu ay\u0131ltd\u0131lar.
\n-\u015eikay\u0259t-filan olmayacaq. Birinci u\u015faq yoxa \u00e7\u0131xacaq…
\nElmira g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 ax\u0131td\u0131.
\n-\u018frim hardad\u0131r?
\n-O d\u00fcnyada.
\n-Harada d\u0259fn olunub?
\n-Biz x\u0259b\u0259rdarl\u0131q etdik. G\u0259r\u0259k dilini dinc qoyasan. \u015eahmar\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm x\u0259b\u0259ri, tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131n adamlar bar\u0259d\u0259, bizim i\u015fimiz bar\u0259d\u0259 he\u00e7 kim\u0259 birc\u0259 k\u0259lm\u0259 demirs\u0259n. Polis\u0259 m\u00fcraci\u0259t etm\u0259yin is\u0259, t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259lidir. N\u0259 burada, n\u0259 d\u0259 orada \u2013 Az\u0259rbaycanda a\u011fz\u0131ndan bir k\u0259lm\u0259 s\u00f6z \u00e7\u0131xmamal\u0131d\u0131r. \u015eahmar\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259rin yoxdur. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc, o\u011flunu, ata-anan\u0131 fikirl\u0259\u015f. O adamlar\u0131n \u0259ll\u0259ri uzundur ax\u0131r\u0131n\u0131za \u00e7\u0131xa bil\u0259rl\u0259r. Birinci o\u011flundan ba\u015flayacaqlar. \u018fvv\u0259lc\u0259 onu \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 s\u0259nin g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda. S\u0259ni \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259 ehtiyac olmayacaq. U\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131n nec\u0259 bo\u011fularaq \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yin partlayacaq. Odur ki, s\u0259ssiz-s\u0259mirsiz buradan, bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x, get. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r tez yola d\u00fc\u015fs\u0259n, xeyrin\u0259 olar. S\u0259nin\u00e7in v\u0259 o\u011flun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bilet al\u0131nacaq. Bir daha x\u0259b\u0259rdarl\u0131q edirik a\u011fz\u0131ndan bir k\u0259lm\u0259 s\u00f6z qa\u00e7\u0131rsan… N\u0259 ba\u015f ver\u0259c\u0259yini art\u0131q bilirs\u0259n. Bayaq dedik. Biz icra\u00e7\u0131y\u0131q. Narko\u015fefin tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yerin\u0259 yetiririk. N\u0259bad\u0259 Bak\u0131ya qay\u0131dandan sonra bu i\u015fi qurdalayasan. Unutma ki, onun \u0259ll\u0259ri uzundur, \u00e7ox uzun. D\u00fcnyan\u0131n hans\u0131 gu\u015f\u0259si olursa-olsun \u00e7at\u0131r. H\u0259tta da\u011flara, d\u0259nizl\u0259r\u0259, okeanlara, c\u0259ng\u0259llikl\u0259r\u0259 kimi. Dili uzunluq el\u0259s\u0259n, \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n ba\u015fqalar\u0131n\u0131 da oda ata bil\u0259rs\u0259n. Biz x\u0259b\u0259rdarl\u0131q el\u0259dik. S\u0259n d\u0259 a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 ol. Oyunu oynayanda d\u00fcz oynamaq laz\u0131md\u0131r. \u015eahmar \u00f6z g\u00fcnah\u0131n\u0131n qurban\u0131 oldu.
\nElmira g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 gedib F\u0259ridi u\u015faq ba\u011f\u00e7as\u0131ndan g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc, ev\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131b \u00e7amadanlar\u0131n\u0131 y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131rma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

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\nElmira el\u0259 h\u0259min g\u00fcn Bak\u0131ya yola d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Soru\u015fanlara: \u201c\u015eahmar qalmal\u0131 oldu. M\u00f6hk\u0259m m\u0259\u015f\u011fuldur. \u0130\u015fi \u00e7oxdur\u201d \u2013 deyirdi. Bel\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, \u00fcr\u0259yi qan a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131: \u201cAz dedik, \u00e7ox dedik. He\u00e7 birimizi e\u015fitm\u0259di. Ax\u0131r ki balam\u0131 yetim qoydu. G\u00f6r nec\u0259 tale ya\u015fad\u0131. Yeri-yurdu da bilinmir. \u00d6l\u00fc olsa da, bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t diri kimi ya\u015fayacaq. Sonra onun yoxlu\u011funa \u00f6yr\u0259\u015f\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r\u201d.
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\n\u0130ll\u0259r ke\u00e7di. \u015eahmardan x\u0259b\u0259r \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131. G\u00f6rd\u00fcm dey\u0259n olmad\u0131. Onun yoxlu\u011funa ax\u0131r ki, al\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. \u0130tkin d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fc bildirilirdi. N\u0259 dirisi, n\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcs\u00fc tap\u0131ld\u0131. \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m o\u011flunun d\u0259rdind\u0259n d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdi. Elmira valideynl\u0259rin\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131.
\nElmira \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131, \u0259zizl\u0259rini yad\u0131na sal\u0131b narkobaronun adamlar\u0131 il\u0259 olan s\u00f6hb\u0259ti he\u00e7 kim\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131b dem\u0259di. Onlar da Elmiran\u0131 rahat buraxd\u0131lar. Bir d\u0259 ki, polis\u0259 n\u0259 dey\u0259ydi?! Tapa bils\u0259ydil\u0259r tapard\u0131lar. Mafiya \u00f6z i\u015fini el\u0259 t\u0259miz qururdu ki, iz\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bilmirdil\u0259r.
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\nMaral xan\u0131m\u0131n s\u0259si Elmiran\u0131 x\u0259yallar\u0131n\u0131n p\u0259nc\u0259sind\u0259n ay\u0131rd\u0131:
\n-Q\u0131z\u0131m, \u0259ynini d\u0259yi\u015f, \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 paltarlar\u0131ndan birini geyin.
\nElmira zarafata sald\u0131:
\n-Nec\u0259 bilirs\u0259n? B\u0259lk\u0259 g\u0259linlik paltar\u0131 geyim? Fata da qoyum?
\nMaral xan\u0131m p\u0259rt oldu:
\n-Biz s\u0259nin xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259ll\u0259\u015firik, s\u0259n is\u0259 m\u0259ni dolay\u0131rsan, atana qulaq asm\u0131rsan. Q\u0131z\u0131m, ay\u0131b deyil?
\nElmira durub anas\u0131n\u0131 qucaqlad\u0131:
\n-X\u0259tirin\u0259 d\u0259ydims\u0259, ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla. N\u0259 edim, ana, s\u00f6hb\u0259t etm\u0259y\u0259, zarafatla\u015fma\u011fa bir adam yoxdur. Atam b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc i\u015fd\u0259, F\u0259rid d\u0259 balaca. G\u00fcc\u00fcm s\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131r.
\nMaral xan\u0131m\u0131n \u0259lin\u0259 gir\u0259v\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc:
\n-Ay q\u0131z\u0131m, el\u0259 biz d\u0259 bunun\u00e7un \u0259ll\u0259\u015firik d\u0259. S\u0259n\u0259 qulaq yolda\u015f\u0131 laz\u0131md\u0131r.
\nElmira \u0259lini yell\u0259di:
\n-Eh, ana, birincid\u0259n \u0259lim bala batd\u0131, bundan da do\u015faba batar.
\n\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xan\u0131m \u0259ll\u0259rini onun \u00e7iyinl\u0259rin\u0259 qoyaraq:
\n-Dur geyin,- dedi, -bir azdan F\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llimin o\u011flu \u2013 Fuad g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k. Qoy s\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131b hay\u0131l-may\u0131l olsun!
\nHaz\u0131rl\u0131q g\u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. S\u00fcfr\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u015eirniyyat stolu idi. Rasiml\u0259 Maral el\u0259 bil iyn\u0259 \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 oturmu\u015fdular. G\u00f6zl\u0259ri televizorda olsa da, fikirl\u0259ri-x\u0259yallar\u0131 Elmira il\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful idi, g\u0259l\u0259n qonaq haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. Elmiran\u0131n cavab\u0131n\u0131n onlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259ti b\u00f6y\u00fck idi. O, yerb\u0259yer olsayd\u0131, \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259ri yerin\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259rdi. Onlar bu g\u00fcn var idil\u0259r, sabah yox. Elmiran\u0131n g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yi is\u0259 qabaqda idi. T\u0259k o\u011flan u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 t\u0259nha Elmiran\u0131n g\u00fcn\u00fc-g\u00fcz\u0259ran\u0131 sonralar nec\u0259 olacaqd\u0131? Bu idi Rasimi narahat ed\u0259n, rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 pozan.
\nQap\u0131n\u0131n z\u0259ngi \u00e7al\u0131nd\u0131. Rasiml\u0259 Maral xan\u0131m yerl\u0259rind\u0259n qalxd\u0131lar. F\u0259rid sakitc\u0259 divanda oturmu\u015fdu. Ona ba\u015fa salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar ki, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 apars\u0131n. O da s\u00f6z vermi\u015fdi. U\u015faq sad\u0259l\u00f6vhl\u00fcy\u00fc il\u0259.
\nQap\u0131n\u0131 Rasim a\u00e7d\u0131. Fuad bir \u0259lind\u0259 iri bir g\u00fcl d\u0259st\u0259si, o biri \u0259lind\u0259 h\u0259diyy\u0259l\u0259r olan \u00e7anta i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi. G\u00fcll\u0259ri Maral xan\u0131ma verdi. Sa\u011f \u0259li bo\u015fald\u0131. V\u0259 h\u0259min \u0259lini qaba\u011fa uzad\u0131b Rasiml\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.
\nOna yer g\u00f6st\u0259rdil\u0259r. Elmira da ayaq \u00fcst\u0259 idi. Rasim ona salam verib \u0259yl\u0259\u015f\u0259nd\u0259n sonra Elmira da oturdu.
\nF\u0259rid divanda lal-dinm\u0259z \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib oyuncaqlar\u0131 il\u0259 oynay\u0131rd\u0131.
\nRasim hal-\u0259hval tutdu, atas\u0131n\u0131 soru\u015fdu. F\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llimd\u0259n raz\u0131l\u0131q etdi. Onlar\u0131n s\u00f6hb\u0259t etdikl\u0259rini g\u00f6r\u0259n Elmira qalx\u0131b m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7di. Anas\u0131na k\u00f6m\u0259k etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Maral xan\u0131m d\u00f6n\u00fcb q\u0131z\u0131na baxd\u0131. Bu, \u201cH\u0259, o\u011flan nec\u0259dir?\u201d dem\u0259k idi. Elmira \u00e7iyinl\u0259rini \u00e7\u0259kdi. Maral xan\u0131m:
\n-Daha a\u011f el\u0259m\u0259. Bundan yax\u015f\u0131 namiz\u0259d ola bilm\u0259z, – dedi. \u2013M\u0259nim xo\u015fuma g\u0259ldi.
\nElmira:
\n-H\u0259, pis o\u011flan deyil, – dedi.
\nMaral xan\u0131m sevindi. Q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n ax\u0131r ki, insafa g\u0259ldiyind\u0259n \u00e7ox \u015fad oldu. Elmira anas\u0131n\u0131n s\u00fczd\u00fcy\u00fc \u00e7ay\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb ota\u011fa ke\u00e7di. Fincanlardan birini atas\u0131n\u0131n, dig\u0259rini Fuad\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na qoydu, h\u0259m d\u0259 hiss etdi ki, Fuad altdan-altdan onu s\u00fcz\u00fcr. Elmira geri d\u00f6nm\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 Maral xan\u0131m da \u0259lind\u0259 iki fincan i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi.
\n-\u018fyl\u0259\u015f, q\u0131z\u0131m.
\nElmira oturdu. Maral xan\u0131m da fincan\u0131n birini q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n, o birini \u00f6z qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na qoydu v\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi. Elmira F\u0259rid\u0259 m\u00fcraci\u0259tl\u0259:
\n-O\u011flum \u00e7ay ist\u0259yirs\u0259n? \u2013 dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu.
\nF\u0259rid s\u00f6zl\u0259ri s\u0131nd\u0131ra-s\u0131nd\u0131ra:
\n-\u00c7ay ist\u0259mir\u0259m, su i\u00e7ir\u0259m… dey\u0259 cavab verdi.
\nElmira durub F\u0259rid\u0259 su g\u0259tirdi.
\nRasim s\u00f6hb\u0259tcil idi. Qona\u011f\u0131 dar\u0131xma\u011fa qoymurdu. \u00d6z sor\u011fu-sual\u0131 il\u0259 Fuad\u0131 da h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259tirmi\u015fdi. O, h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259 \u00f6z i\u015fl\u0259rind\u0259n, imkanlar\u0131ndan, u\u011furlar\u0131ndan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Cavan olsa da tez bir zamanda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259t v\u0259 n\u00fcfuz qazanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\nElmira h\u0259l\u0259 onu \u00f6yr\u0259nirdi. Dan\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131na, geyimin\u0259-ke\u00e7imin\u0259, s\u00fcfr\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131nda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc aparma\u011f\u0131na, m\u00fcraci\u0259tl\u0259rin\u0259, nitqin\u0259, suallara verdiyi cavablara diqq\u0259t yetirirdi. H\u0259r \u015fey \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fc-bi\u00e7ili idi.
\nFuad z\u00f6vql\u0259 geyinmi\u015fdi, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc s\u0259rb\u0259st, ciddi, alic\u0259nab v\u0259 n\u0259zak\u0259tli apar\u0131rd\u0131. Nitqi ayd\u0131n v\u0259 rabit\u0259li idi.
\nMaral xan\u0131m n\u0259yis\u0259 b\u0259han\u0259 el\u0259yib Rasimi qon\u015fu ota\u011fa \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fslind\u0259 onlar Fuadla Elmiran\u0131n t\u0259klikd\u0259 qalmas\u0131na \u015f\u0259rait yarad\u0131rd\u0131lar. Cavanlar t\u0259xmin\u0259n 25-20 d\u0259qiq\u0259 t\u0259klid\u0259 qal\u0131b s\u00f6hb\u0259t etdil\u0259r. Onlar\u0131 maraqland\u0131ran m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 aid suallar verirdil\u0259r. Elmira institutda hans\u0131 v\u0259zif\u0259d\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r, n\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olur, dissertasiya m\u00f6vzusu g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcbm\u00fc, ara\u015fd\u0131rmalar\u0131 n\u0259y\u0259 aiddir, i\u015f\u0259 n\u0259y\u0259 gedib-g\u0259lir, n\u0259yi xo\u015flay\u0131r, istirah\u0259t g\u00fcnl\u0259rind\u0259 n\u0259 edir? B\u0259s Fuad n\u0259 il\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011fuldur, Sankt-Peterburqda ya\u015famaqda davam ed\u0259c\u0259k, yoxsa y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131b g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k? Ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u00fcy\u0259 buradad\u0131r?
\nSuallar\u0131 t\u00fck\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259 Fuad m\u0259tl\u0259b\u0259 ke\u00e7di:
\n-G\u0259li\u015fimin m\u0259qs\u0259di s\u0259n\u0259 b\u0259llidir. \u0130st\u0259yir\u0259m m\u0259n\u0259 \u0259r\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259s\u0259n.
\nElmira susurdu.
\n-Q\u0259rar\u0131n n\u0259 oldu? El\u00e7il\u0259rimi g\u00f6nd\u0259rim?
\nElmira:
\n-Q\u0259rar\u0131m\u0131 sabah F\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259 dey\u0259r\u0259m.
\nFuad onun cavab\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259bii sayd\u0131: ilk g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u0259ridir, y\u0259qin utan\u0131r. N\u0259 olar, s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc atama desin. T\u0259ki cavab\u0131 m\u00fcsb\u0259t olsun.
\nBu zaman Rasiml\u0259 Maral xan\u0131m g\u0259ldil\u0259r. Fuad:
\n-M\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n, gedim, – deyib aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131.
\nRasiml\u0259 Maral xan\u0131m onu yola sald\u0131lar. Elmira divana sar\u0131 gedib F\u0259ridi quca\u011f\u0131na ald\u0131, \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u00f6n\u0259-d\u00f6n\u0259 \u00f6pd\u00fc. F\u0259rid d\u0259 anas\u0131na sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Elmira:
\n-Bir daha g\u00f6st\u0259rdin ki, m\u0259nim a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 balamsan. Sakitc\u0259 oturdun, oyuncaqlar\u0131nla oynad\u0131n. Qonaq g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc bel\u0259 apar.
\nElmira k\u00f6vr\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Rasimin i\u015far\u0259si il\u0259 Maral xan\u0131m q\u0131z\u0131na yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259r ikisini qucaqlayaraq:
\n-Q\u0131z\u0131m, Fuada n\u0259 cavab verdin?
\nElmira dinm\u0259di. Maral xan\u0131m tez bir zamanda xo\u015f x\u0259b\u0259r e\u015fidib \u0259rini mu\u015ftuluqlamaq ist\u0259yirdi. Elmira anas\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ox intizarda qoymad\u0131:
\n-Cavab\u0131 sabah F\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m.
\nMaral xan\u0131m dal\u0131n-dal\u0131n geri \u00e7\u0259kildi. Mat\u0131-mutu qurumu\u015fdu. P\u0259rt halda Rasimin yan\u0131na gedib Elmiran\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259rini ona \u00e7atd\u0131rd\u0131. Rasim:
\n-\u0130\u015fin olmas\u0131n, – dedi. -Q\u0131z\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7ox da d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259k. G\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259k. qoy \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcb-bi\u00e7ib q\u0259ti q\u0259rara g\u0259lsin. M\u0259nc\u0259, Fuad\u0131 b\u0259y\u0259nib. Q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n fikri \u0259sasd\u0131r. \u201cH\u0259\u201d d\u0259 dey\u0259 bil\u0259r, \u201cyox\u201d da. Amma onu t\u0259l\u0259sdirm\u0259. Bu h\u0259yat onundur, se\u00e7im d\u0259 onun olmal\u0131d\u0131r. \u00c7\u0259kdiyini onsuz da \u00e7\u0259kib.
\nMaral xan\u0131m onu ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Fikirl\u0259\u015fdi ki, \u0259ri d\u00fcz deyir.
\nElmira F\u0259ridi d\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb \u00f6z ota\u011f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kildi v\u0259 oradan \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131. S\u0259h\u0259r d\u0259 tezd\u0259n durub i\u015f\u0259 getdi.
\nF\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim ad\u0259ti \u00fczr\u0259 i\u015f\u0259 tez g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. \u00d6z k\u00fcrs\u00fcs\u00fcnd\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib yaz\u0131b-pozurdu. \u0130\u015f\u00e7il\u0259r h\u0259l\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015fdil\u0259r. F\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim tez yerind\u0259n qalxd\u0131:
\n-Q\u0131z\u0131m, sabah\u0131n xeyir. Nec\u0259s\u0259n?
\n-Yax\u015f\u0131yam, sa\u011f olun. Siz nec\u0259siniz?
\n-Dua\u00e7\u0131nam. \u0130n\u015fallah h\u0259r \u015fey g\u00f6z\u0259l olacaq. Fuad a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131-kamall\u0131 o\u011fuldur. Oturu\u015funu-duru\u015funu bil\u0259ndir. \u0130\u015find\u0259 ciddidir. Ail\u0259canl\u0131d\u0131r.
\nElmira susurdu.
\n-M\u00fcasir adamd\u0131r. He\u00e7 bir probleminiz olmayacaq. Burada da, orada da eviniz olacaq. Rus dilini d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 bilirs\u0259n. Sankt-Peterburqda i\u015f\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259n. \u0130st\u0259s\u0259n lap Fuad\u0131n yan\u0131nda i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259rs\u0259n. Buraya g\u0259lib-getm\u0259k d\u0259 problem olmayacaq. T\u0259yyar\u0259 il\u0259 iki-\u00fc\u00e7 saatl\u0131q yoldur. Dar\u0131xanda g\u0259lib burada qalarsan, valideynl\u0259rinl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259rs\u0259n, bizd\u0259 qalarsan. Daha bunlar \u00f6z i\u015findir. \u018fliniz\u0259-aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131za dola\u015fan olmayacaq. \u00d6z \u0259liniz, \u00f6z ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131z olacaq. H\u0259, indi n\u0259 deyirs\u0259n. E\u015fitdim cavab\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 bildir\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. El\u00e7il\u0259ri n\u0259 zaman g\u00f6nd\u0259rim?
\nElmiran\u0131n qa\u015f-qaba\u011f\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131rd\u0131:
\n-F\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim, t\u0259l\u0259sm\u0259yin. Siz\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcm var.
\n-Buyur, q\u0131z\u0131m.
\n-Dedikl\u0259riniz \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l. Fuad xo\u015fuma g\u0259ldi.
\nF\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim xo\u015fhal oldu. \u0130st\u0259yin\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131\u011f\u0131na sevindi. \u00d6vlad\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259rifind\u0259n hans\u0131 valideynin xo\u015fu g\u0259lm\u0259z?
\nElmira s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 davam etdi:
\n-Amma ona \u0259r\u0259 getm\u0259k fikrim yoxdur.
\nF\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llimi t\u0259r basd\u0131. Qulaqlar\u0131na inanmad\u0131: \u201cDo\u011fru deyirl\u0259rmi\u015f. Bu n\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 q\u0131zd\u0131r. Fuad kimi bir o\u011fula \u201cyox\u201d deyir\u201d.
\nF\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim aln\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259rini silib dedi:
\n-Ne\u00e7\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n o\u011flumda g\u00f6z\u00fc var. Amma Fuad onlar\u0131n he\u00e7 birin\u0259 meyl salmad\u0131. G\u00f6z\u00fc s\u0259ni tutdu. M\u0259n d\u0259 ist\u0259yir\u0259m g\u0259linim olasan.
\nElmiran\u0131n doda\u011f\u0131na ac\u0131 t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm qondu:
\n-F\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim, siz\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck h\u00f6rm\u0259tim var. A\u011fsaqqal\u0131m\u0131zs\u0131n\u0131z. D\u00fcnya g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f adams\u0131n\u0131z. Siz\u0259 bir sual\u0131m var?
\n-Buyur, q\u0131z\u0131m.
\n-F\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim, sizc\u0259, anan\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 yol haradan g\u0259lir?
\nF\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim \u00e7a\u015fd\u0131. N\u0259 cavab ver\u0259c\u0259yini bilm\u0259di. Onsuz da tutulub durmu\u015fdu. Fikrini toplamaya. Elmira \u00f6z\u00fc dedi:
\n-Anan\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 yol \u00f6vlad sevgisind\u0259n, \u00f6vlad\u0131na olan d\u0259rin m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259td\u0259n gedir!
\nF\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim onunla raz\u0131la\u015fd\u0131:
\n-Do\u011fru deyirs\u0259n, q\u0131z\u0131m. Sual\u0131n q\u0259fil oldu\u011fundan \u00e7a\u015f\u0131b qald\u0131m. Fikrimi toplaya bilm\u0259dim ki, cavab verim. Bununla n\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259yirs\u0259n?
\nElmira \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 stolun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoyub dill\u0259ndi:
\n-El\u0259 is\u0259, m\u0259n deyim, siz \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz n\u0259tic\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131n.
\nF\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim ke\u00e7ib yerind\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi, Elmiraya i\u015far\u0259 etdi ki, o da otursun. Elmira da stolun arxas\u0131na ke\u00e7di. F\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim diqq\u0259t k\u0259sildi.
\n-Fuad g\u0259ldi, bir saatdan bir q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7ox evimizd\u0259 oldu. \u00d6z i\u015find\u0259n, u\u011furlar\u0131ndan dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131, atamla, anamla, m\u0259niml\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t el\u0259di. \u0130lk bax\u0131\u015fda m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131 t\u0259sir ba\u011f\u0131\u015flad\u0131. H\u0259tta son anlara q\u0259d\u0259r taleyimi onunla ba\u011flayaca\u011f\u0131ma q\u0259rar vermi\u015fdim. Amma Fuad \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 hiss etm\u0259d\u0259n h\u0259r \u015feyi alt-\u00fcst el\u0259di.
\nF\u0259rhad\u0131n mara\u011f\u0131 artd\u0131:
\n-Niy\u0259, q\u0131z\u0131m? O\u011flumun n\u0259yi, hans\u0131 c\u0259h\u0259ti xo\u015funa g\u0259lm\u0259di.
\n-Bayaq siz\u0259 sual verdim. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259nin k\u00f6k\u00fc o sualdad\u0131r. Fuad g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 o\u011flum divanda oturmu\u015fdu. Ax\u0131ra q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 dinm\u0259zc\u0259 yerind\u0259 qald\u0131, Arada qona\u011fa t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 bax\u0131r, onun mara\u011f\u0131nda olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb, oyuncaqlar\u0131 il\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qat\u0131rd\u0131. Fuad \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getdi. Amma n\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259, n\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259, n\u0259 d\u0259 bizd\u0259 oldu\u011fu m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259 o\u011fluma diqq\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259di, ona sar\u0131 baxmad\u0131. N\u0259 onu dindirdi, n\u0259 d\u0259 bir xo\u015f s\u00f6z dedi. Sanki o yoxmu\u015f. Ax\u0131 o m\u00f6vcud idi, m\u0259nim o\u011flum idi. M\u0259nim bir param, bir hiss\u0259m idi. Bu nec\u0259 olur? M\u0259n\u0259 el\u00e7i d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, \u00f6vlad\u0131ma is\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259l qoymur. Biz k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259, bay\u0131rda, n\u0259qliyyatda, ictimai yerl\u0259rd\u0259 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z bir u\u015faq g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 bel\u0259 onu dindirir, \u0259zizl\u0259yir, \u00f6p\u00fcr, \u201cAllah saxlas\u0131n!\u201d deyirik. M\u0259n Fuada raz\u0131l\u0131q verm\u0259li olsam, o\u011flumu atmayaca\u011fam, yaxud ata-anam\u0131n yan\u0131nda qoymayacaq, onu da \u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 aparaca\u011fam. \u0130ndi siz deyin. Fuad indid\u0259n m\u0259nim o\u011flumu g\u00f6rm\u0259m\u0259zliy\u0259 vurursa, b\u0259s sabah nec\u0259 olacaq? M\u0259n indid\u0259n, ilk andan, ilk g\u00fcnd\u0259n bu laqeydlik, bigan\u0259lik, saymamazl\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259ms\u0259, niy\u0259 n\u0259tic\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xarmamal\u0131yam? Tutaq ki, evl\u0259ndik. Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t birg\u0259 h\u0259yat s\u00fcr\u0259nd\u0259n sonra evimizd\u0259 \u201cm\u0259nim o\u011flum\u201d, \u201cs\u0259nin o\u011flun\u201d s\u00f6hb\u0259ti ba\u015flayacaq. O zaman m\u0259nim o\u011fluma yox, \u00f6z o\u011fluna \u00f6n\u0259m ver\u0259c\u0259k. onun t\u0259r\u0259fini saxlayacaq, m\u0259nim \u00fcr\u0259yimi s\u0131nd\u0131racaq. G\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00fcnl\u0259rin birind\u0259, y\u0259ni u\u015faqlar b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259nd\u0259 bel\u0259 bir m\u00fcnasib\u0259tin n\u0259tic\u0259si olaraq, y\u0259qin Fuad o\u011flumu m\u0259cbur ed\u0259c\u0259k ki, onun o\u011flunun ayaqqab\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 silsin. Sonra da o\u011flumu \u00f6z o\u011flunun s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcs\u00fc t\u0259yin ed\u0259c\u0259k. Fuada \u201cyox\u201d cavab\u0131m\u0131n k\u00f6k\u00fcnd\u0259, F\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim, bax bunlar durur.
\nF\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim dem\u0259y\u0259 s\u00f6z tapmad\u0131. Donub yerind\u0259 qald\u0131. O\u011fluna ac\u0131\u011f\u0131 tutmu\u015fdu. P\u0259rt halda:
\n-Fuad d\u00fcz h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t el\u0259m\u0259yib. S\u0259hvini d\u00fcz\u0259lts\u0259 nec\u0259?
\n-Yox, F\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim, bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259ri kims\u0259 dey\u0259nd\u0259n sonra d\u00fcz\u0259ltmirl\u0259r. \u0130nsan\u0131n \u00f6z qan\u0131nda, xisl\u0259tind\u0259 olmal\u0131d\u0131r. Bu g\u00fcn bu s\u0259hvini d\u00fcz\u0259ldirs\u0259, sabah kim bilir, bundan bet\u0259r hans\u0131 q\u00fcsura yol ver\u0259c\u0259k!
\n-Q\u0131z\u0131m, b\u0259lk\u0259…
\n-Yox, F\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim, gecdir, \u00e7ox gec! Q\u0259rar\u0131m q\u0259tidir. O\u011flun bir d\u0259f\u0259 yetim qal\u0131b, yetimliyini ona hiss etdirmirik. \u0130kinci d\u0259f\u0259 boynu b\u00fck\u00fck qalacaq. Bu, yetim olmaqdan daha pisdir. Ham\u0131 m\u0259nd\u0259n soru\u015fur: \u201cCavan, g\u00f6z\u0259l q\u0131zsan. \u0130st\u0259y\u0259nin \u00e7oxdur. Niy\u0259 \u0259r\u0259 getmirs\u0259n? Bax buna g\u00f6r\u0259! Bu m\u00fcnasib\u0259t\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259! O\u011flumu yad \u0259lin\u0259 verm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m, \u00f6z\u00fcm t\u0259rbiy\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. M\u0259nim bundan sonrak\u0131 xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyim, s\u0259ad\u0259tim, sevincim onunla ba\u011fl\u0131d\u0131r. Onu xo\u015fb\u0259xt el\u0259y\u0259 bils\u0259m, \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 b\u0259xtiyar olaca\u011fam! Bax bel\u0259, F\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim. M\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n. Anan\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 yol h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n ana sevgisind\u0259n ba\u015flan\u0131r!
\nF\u0259rhad m\u00fc\u0259llim dem\u0259y\u0259 s\u00f6z tapmad\u0131. Amma n\u0259 is\u0259 dem\u0259li idi. N\u0259hay\u0259t, yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc:
\n-Allah o\u011flunu s\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox g\u00f6rm\u0259sin! S\u0259n m\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fcmd\u0259n d\u0259 a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 q\u0131z imi\u015fs\u0259n! Heyf. Xo\u015fb\u0259xt olun!
\nO, siqaret yand\u0131r\u0131b \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.
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(povest) Elmira xo\u015fb\u0259xt idimi, b\u0259db\u0259xt idimi? Bilm\u0259k olmurdu. N\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131-ac\u0131s\u0131 vard\u0131sa, a\u00e7\u0131b-a\u011fartm\u0131rd\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc o yer\u0259 qoymurdu. B\u0259zil\u0259ri onu q\u0131nay\u0131rd\u0131lar, amma \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc o yer\u0259 qoymurdu. Bir qula\u011f\u0131ndan al\u0131b, o biri qula\u011f\u0131ndan \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bir d\u0259 insan a\u011flay\u0131b-s\u0131z\u0131ldamaqla n\u0259 qazan\u0131r, n\u0259y\u0259 nail olur ki? D\u0259rdinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259rd g\u0259lir. \u018flini bu g\u00fcn d\u00fcnyadan \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259n, yediyin-i\u00e7diyin d\u0259 z\u0259h\u0259r olur. H\u0259r\u0259nin […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16,14,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16084"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=16084"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16084\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":16086,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16084\/revisions\/16086"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=16084"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=16084"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=16084"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}