{"id":16097,"date":"2020-11-27T14:49:59","date_gmt":"2020-11-27T10:49:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=16097"},"modified":"2020-11-27T14:52:17","modified_gmt":"2020-11-27T10:52:17","slug":"nadir-%c9%99zh%c9%99ri-bu-m%c9%99n%c9%99m-cirkinl%c9%99rin-boyugu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=16097","title":{"rendered":"Nadir \u018fzh\u0259ri – \u201cBu m\u0259n\u0259m \u00e7irkinl\u0259rin b\u00f6y\u00fcg\u00fc\u201d"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"Nadir-Ezheri<\/a><\/strong><\/p>\n

C\u0259nubi Az\u0259rbaycan \u018fd\u0259biyyat\u0131…<\/p>\n

Tap\u0131lmayan s\u0259rxo\u015f<\/strong><\/p>\n

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Nec\u0259 oldu\u011fumu sorma,
\nm\u0259ni bay\u0131rlarda ya\u011f\u0131\u015f g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb
\nv\u0259 bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n pasportas\u0131n itirmi\u015f bir yabanc\u0131 t\u0259k
\nt\u0259l\u0259sir\u0259m getm\u0259y\u0259.
\nNec\u0259 oldu\u011fumu sorma,
\nsanki i\u00e7imd\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 gedir birisi,
\nm\u0259nd\u0259 bir nisgil,
\nm\u0259nd\u0259 bir \u00f6l\u0259n var, q\u0131rx\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xmay\u0131r!
\nNec\u0259 oldu\u011fumu sorma,
\nm\u0259nd\u0259 bir f\u0259rari ya\u015fay\u0131r…<\/p>\n

Gahdan gec\u0259l\u0259r beynimd\u0259ki da\u011flarda-da\u015flarda
\nat\u0131\u015f\u0131r,
\ntutu\u015fur,
\ngahdan yuxudan oyad\u0131r m\u0259ni,
\nsigar istir!<\/p>\n

Nec\u0259 oldu\u011fumu sorma<\/p>\n

d\u0259niz \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 i\u00e7gi qutusu!
\nM\u0259n\u0259 ey tap\u0131lmayan s\u0259rxo\u015f,
\nm\u0259n\u0259 ey tap\u0131lmayan dostum,
\nbarda\u011f\u0131ndan bir qurtum,
\nsiqar\u0131ndan bir n\u0259f\u0259s saxla…<\/p>\n

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\u201cBuyurun g\u00f6z\u0259l d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nl\u0259rim\u201d kitab\u0131ndan \u20132009<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

Gec\u04d9 c\u04d9nablar\u0131!<\/strong><\/p>\n

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Gec\u04d9 c\u04d9nablar\u0131n\u0131 saymad\u0131\u011f\u0131m saatlard\u0131<\/p>\n

xiyabanda qatill\u04d9rimi axtar\u0131ram!<\/p>\n

Kas\u0131blar can verir<\/p>\n

v\u04d9 d\u00f6l\u04d9tlil\u04d9r[1] arxay\u0131n intiharda!<\/p>\n

Bu \u00e7eyn\u04d9-t\u00fcp\u00fcr hayat\u0131<\/p>\n

gec\u04d9 c\u04d9nablar\u0131na ithaf ed\u04d9c\u04d9y\u04d9m<\/p>\n

qatill\u04d9rimi x\u04d9f\u04d9l\u04d9y\u04d9c\u04d9y\u04d9m<\/p>\n

v\u04d9 d\u04d9d\u04d9 yand\u0131raca\u011fam s\u04d9siml\u04d9<\/p>\n

\u0259kilm\u04d9[2] k\u04d9lm\u04d9 \u04d9kilm\u04d9!<\/p>\n

t\u04d9\u015frifin olsun<\/p>\n

gec\u04d9 c\u04d9nablar\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fczd\u04d9ndi!<\/p>\n

g\u00f6z g\u00f6z\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u00fcr<\/p>\n

\u00e7\u04d9ndi \u2026<\/p>\n

Xiyabanda qatill\u04d9rimi axtar\u0131ram!<\/p>\n

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\u201cYelena\u201d Kitab\u0131ndan bir\u00a0 par\u00e7a – 2010<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u2026<\/p>\n

Uzaqda silah s\u0259sl\u0259ri,\u00fcst\u0259lik \u0131ld\u0131r\u0131m
\n\u00fc\u00e7 p\u0131\u00e7aq f\u0131rlan\u0131rd\u0131 saatlar\u0131m\u0131zda
\nya\u011fmur ax\u015fam camlar\u0131n\u0131 c\u0131nq\u0131ldad\u0131rk\u0259n
\nayr\u0131lmaq vaxt\u0131yd\u0131,b\u0259lk\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f(\u0131)r\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131q…
\naln\u0131ndan \u00f6pd\u00fcm,aln\u0131ndan
\nyatay yelk\u0259nidi doda\u011f\u0131n v\u0259 m\u0259n
\nsevgi “Kristof Kolomb”u ola(n)mam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m!
\ndal\u011faland\u0131r dodaqlar\u0131m\u0131 bayra\u011f\u0131nd\u0131,dedin…!
\nuzaqda silah s\u0259sl\u0259ri,\u00fcst\u0259lik \u0131ld\u0131r\u0131m
\ndal\u011faland\u0131 doda\u011flar,dalbadal dal\u011faland\u0131 doda\u011flar
\nv\u0259 yeld\u0259 son k\u0259z \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131q birbirimizi
\nv\u0259 yeld\u0259 son k\u0259z \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131m:Yelena…x…!
\nyax\u0131nda silah s\u0259sl\u0259ri,\u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259 \u0131ld\u0131r\u0131m
\nbilirdin anda verdiyim adlar\u0131 yel yitir\u0259c\u0259k
\nbilirdin \u0259ld\u0259 sigaret satacaq “Kristof Kolomb”!
\nbilirdin odsuz \u00e7\u0259r\u015f\u0259nb\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 \u00e7irik[3]donacaq
\ns\u0259n amma \u00f6pd\u00fcn v\u0259 dal\u011faland\u0131 bayra\u011f\u0131m\u0131z
\ns\u0259n amma ya\u015fatd\u0131n doda\u011flar\u0131ndak\u0131 yelk\u0259nl\u0259ri
\ns\u0259n amma \u00e7\u0259r\u015f\u0259nb\u0259ni bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131nda qabartd\u0131n
\n\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259nmi\u015f s\u0259nin bayra\u011f\u0131n,\u00fcst\u0259lik
\nYelena!
\ndodaqlar\u0131nda q\u0131z\u0131l meydan durur!<\/p>\n

\u2026<\/p>\n

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\u201cM\u0259chul heca\u201d Kitab\u0131ndan (Donuq \u015feir tarzi) – 2012<\/strong><\/p>\n

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\u2026<\/p>\n

\u2026<\/p>\n

S\u0259nd\u0259n sonra kef kifs\u0259di<\/p>\n

\u015faraplar pe\u015faba getdi<\/p>\n

\u00dcz\u00fcml\u00fckl\u0259r \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 durdu<\/p>\n

D\u0259lilsiz darixiram<\/p>\n

kim oldu\u011funu bilmir\u0259m<\/p>\n

S\u0259ni ad g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259 unuduram<\/p>\n

S\u0259n t\u0259rs bir ya\u015fam unuduldu\u011funda varsan ey m\u0259chul h\u0259r n\u0259yim<\/p>\n

Ke\u015fke sussaydim v\u0259 he\u00e7 bir k\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259 a\u011fiz a\u00e7masaydim<\/p>\n

S\u0259n bir damla g\u00f6z ya\u015finda tanrilarimi bo\u011fdun<\/p>\n

M\u0259nis\u0259 ax\u015famlari aynalara daradim<\/p>\n

B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 he\u00e7 bir \u015fey olmami\u015f kimi g\u00f6zl\u0259rimizi sildik<\/p>\n

Ke\u015fke sevm\u0259s\u0259ydim sanki bir qatilin anasiyam<\/p>\n

M\u0259ni l\u0259’n\u0259tl\u0259r\u0259 yolcu ed\u0259n<\/p>\n

M\u0259ni qur\u015fun kimi yolcu ed\u0259n<\/p>\n

He\u00e7 bir zada \u00e7arpmadan qur\u015fun t\u0259k m\u0259ni yolcu ed\u0259n<\/p>\n

Ey olmadi\u011fini gizl\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259n<\/p>\n

Dolandir m\u0259ni ba\u015fina dolandir<\/p>\n

A\u015fiq yorulmaz dayir\u0259di<\/p>\n

M\u0259n s\u0259ssizlik h\u0259nd\u0259s\u0259si oxudum<\/p>\n

M\u0259n bo\u015fluqlar me’mariyam<\/p>\n

\u015e\u0259kill\u0259r\u0259 \u015fok ver\u0259n bir fele\u015f<\/p>\n

Darisqalliqlarda s\u0259n\u0259 yer saxlayan<\/p>\n

M\u0259n pe\u015fmanliq profes\u00f6riyam<\/p>\n

Hava he\u00e7 d\u0259 isti d\u0259yil<\/p>\n

S\u0259ninl\u0259 he\u00e7 islanmadi\u011fimiz ya\u011fi\u015flari t\u0259rl\u0259yir\u0259m<\/p>\n

O g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259ki boylu boya h\u0259r yana da\u011filir<\/p>\n

Ba\u015fim firlanir<\/p>\n

H\u0259r zad dayir\u0259di<\/p>\n

G\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k d\u0259 xatir\u0259di<\/p>\n

Yeni \u015eeirl\u0259rd\u0259n<\/p>\n

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\u0130\u015f\u011fal\u00e7\u0131ya!<\/strong><\/p>\n

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Q\u0259z\u0259bsiz vururam s\u0259ni,q\u0259z\u0259bsiz!<\/p>\n

\u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc sevinc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn mubariz\u0259 apar\u0131ram<\/p>\n

k\u0259lm\u0259d\u0259n ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 silahi sevmir\u0259m<\/p>\n

v\u0259 s\u00f6zl\u0259rin d\u0259 yaras\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flay\u0131ram<\/p>\n

bu sava\u015f,<\/p>\n

bu \u00f6l\u00fcm m\u0259nd\u0259n d\u0259yil.<\/p>\n

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s\u0259n \u00d6l\u00fcml\u0259 h\u0259r yerd\u0259 \u201dselfi\u201d \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259n!<\/p>\n

V\u0259 mazarl\u0131\u011flarda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6st\u0259rirs\u0259n<\/p>\n

s\u0259n cinay\u0259t \u015founun sonuncu p\u0259rd\u0259sis\u0259n<\/p>\n

bu sava\u015f,<\/p>\n

bu \u00f6l\u00fcm m\u0259nd\u0259n d\u0259yil,<\/p>\n

Qarab\u011fdan \u00e7\u0259kil!<\/p>\n

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 <\/p>\n[1]Varl\u0131<\/p>\n[2]Qa\u00e7ma<\/p>\n[3]Grilla<\/p>\n

Yaz\u0131ya 528 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

C\u0259nubi Az\u0259rbaycan \u018fd\u0259biyyat\u0131… Tap\u0131lmayan s\u0259rxo\u015f   Nec\u0259 oldu\u011fumu sorma, m\u0259ni bay\u0131rlarda ya\u011f\u0131\u015f g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb v\u0259 bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n pasportas\u0131n itirmi\u015f bir yabanc\u0131 t\u0259k t\u0259l\u0259sir\u0259m getm\u0259y\u0259. Nec\u0259 oldu\u011fumu sorma, sanki i\u00e7imd\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 gedir birisi, m\u0259nd\u0259 bir nisgil, m\u0259nd\u0259 bir \u00f6l\u0259n var, q\u0131rx\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xmay\u0131r! Nec\u0259 oldu\u011fumu sorma, m\u0259nd\u0259 bir f\u0259rari ya\u015fay\u0131r… Gahdan gec\u0259l\u0259r beynimd\u0259ki da\u011flarda-da\u015flarda at\u0131\u015f\u0131r, tutu\u015fur, gahdan yuxudan […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[15,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16097"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=16097"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16097\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":16100,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16097\/revisions\/16100"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=16097"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=16097"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=16097"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}