{"id":16196,"date":"2021-01-08T00:53:22","date_gmt":"2021-01-07T20:53:22","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=16196"},"modified":"2021-01-08T00:53:22","modified_gmt":"2021-01-07T20:53:22","slug":"natavan-m%c9%99likova-s%c9%99h%c9%99r-hekay%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=16196","title":{"rendered":"Natavan M\u0259likova &#8211; S\u018fH\u018fR (hekay\u0259)"},"content":{"rendered":"<ul>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\"><a href=\"http:\/\/kultur.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/01\/WhatsApp-Image-2021-01-08-at-00.39.29.jpeg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignleft wp-image-16197 size-medium\" src=\"http:\/\/kultur.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/01\/WhatsApp-Image-2021-01-08-at-00.39.29-236x300.jpeg\" alt=\"WhatsApp Image 2021-01-08 at 00.39.29\" width=\"236\" height=\"300\" \/><\/a>\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0(real hekay\u0259)<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0S\u0259h\u0259r yenic\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131.Arti\u011f g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin \u015f\u0259f\u0259ql\u0259ri \u0259traf\u0131 isidirdi.O,yatma\u011fa deyil aya\u011fa qalxma\u011fa \u00fcst\u00fcnl\u00fck verdi.Nazl\u0131 xan\u0131m yata\u011f\u0131ndan qalx\u0131b h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 endi.. T\u0259miz k\u0259nd havas\u0131n\u0131 ciy\u0259rl\u0259rin\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi,\u0259trafa g\u00f6z\u00fcdolusu n\u0259z\u0259r yetirdi.H\u0259y\u0259ti diqq\u0259tl\u0259 seyr ed\u0259n Nazl\u0131 xan\u0131m qollu-budaql\u0131 f\u0131nd\u0131q a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fm\u0259yi q\u0259rara ald\u0131.Findiq a\u011fac\u0131ndan q\u0259rib\u0259 taq-taq s\u0259si g\u0259lirdi,o a\u011faca qiqq\u0259tl\u0259 baxdi,a\u011facd\u0259l\u0259n findiqlar\u0131 dimdiyil\u0259 q\u0131r\u0131b yer\u0259,y\u0259ni torpa\u011f\u0131 \u00fcz\u0259tin\u0259 atirdi.O, bir anliq fikir\u0259 getdi b\u0259s na\u011f\u0131llarda a\u011facd\u0259l\u0259ni,a\u011faclar\u0131n h\u0259kimi adlandirdilar.Amma o g\u00f6zl\u0259rim \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 n\u0259q\u0259d\u0259r findiqlar\u0131 m\u0259hv edir, dem\u0259li a\u011facd\u0259l\u0259nin h\u0259kimliyi bundan ibar\u0259t imi\u015f.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0O h\u0259r il istirah\u0259t etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, bu k\u0259nd\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259rdi.H\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n do\u011fulub boya-ba\u015fa \u00e7atd\u0131\u011f\u0131, bu k\u0259nd Nazl\u0131 xan\u0131ma h\u0259r zaman \u00e7ox do\u011fma g\u0259l\u0259rdi.O, k\u0259ndd\u0259 ya\u015fayan insanlar\u0131 \u00e7ox sev\u0259r, bu insanlar Nazl\u0131 xan\u0131ma z\u0259hm\u0259tke\u015f bal ar\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rlad\u0131rd\u0131lar.\u00c7\u00fcnki onlar yay f\u0259slind\u0259 z\u0259hm\u0259tke\u015f ar\u0131lar kimi\u00a0 \u00e7al\u0131\u015far, q\u0131\u015f f\u0259slind\u0259 \u00f6z z\u0259hm\u0259tl\u0259rinin b\u0259hr\u0259sini \u015firin-\u015firin yeyirdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0K\u0259ndd\u0259 c\u0259mi bir ay istirah\u0259t etm\u0259k bu\u00a0 xan\u0131ma \u00e7ox xo\u015f g\u0259l\u0259r,ruhu yenil\u0259n\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0Onlar\u0131n evl\u0259ri y\u00fcks\u0259k da\u011flar\u0131n \u0259hat\u0259sind\u0259 yerl\u0259\u015firdi,h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib \u0259traf\u0131 seyr etm\u0259kd\u0259n,t\u0259bi\u0259tin yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu f\u00fcs\u00fcnkar g\u00f6z\u0259lliy\u0259 baxmaqdan g\u00f6zl\u0259ri yorulmazd\u0131.Ona el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki,h\u00fcnd\u00fcrm\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li bir binada\u00a0 \u0259yl\u0259\u015f\u0259rk \u0259traf\u0131 seyr edirdi.Onlar\u0131n h\u0259y\u0259tl\u0259ri\u00a0 birinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259nin pill\u0259k\u0259nlar\u0131ndan ba\u015flayaraq\u00a0 pill\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 be\u015finci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259y\u0259 \u00a0 \u00e7\u0131xma\u011f\u0131 xatirlad\u0131rd\u0131,\u00e7\u00fcnki zaman\u0131nda s\u0131ld\u0131r\u0131m qayalar\u0131 yar\u0131b o qayalar aras\u0131nda ev tikmi\u015fdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0O bir saata yax\u0131n idi f\u0131nd\u0131q a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib,\u015firin x\u0259yallara dalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.Onun d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 son ver\u0259n ecazkar\u00a0 qad\u0131n s\u0259si oldu.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0-Sabah\u0131n\u0131z xeyir!<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-Xo\u015f g\u0259lmi\u015fsiniz!<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">Nazli xan\u0131m, bu s\u0259sin sehrin\u0259 heyran olub geri \u00e7evrildi,bu g\u00f6z\u0259l s\u0259sin sahib\u0259sini g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc an onun nitqi tutuldu.Zorla \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 alma\u011f\u0131 bacaran Nazl\u0131 xan\u0131m:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-Aqib\u0259tiniz xeyir!<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-Siz d\u0259, xo\u015f g\u0259ldiniz ,-s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k aya\u011fa qalxmaq ist\u0259di,amma g\u0259l\u0259n qonaq onun aya\u011fa qalxmas\u0131na izin verm\u0259di.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0-Narahat olmay\u0131n,uzaqdan,y\u0259ni bizim h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259n g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, burada \u0259yl\u0259\u015fibsiniz,d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm s\u0259h\u0259r-s\u0259h\u0259r s\u00fcd i\u00e7m\u0259k insan sa\u011flaml\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, \u00e7ox faydal\u0131d\u0131r,,\u00a0 siz\u0259 yeni sa\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f in\u0259k s\u00fcd\u00fc v\u0259 qat\u0131q g\u0259tirdim.Bu arada tan\u0131\u015f olaq:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-M\u0259nim adim S\u0259h\u0259rdir,m\u0259n gedim, m\u0259lum k\u0259nd h\u0259yat\u0131, \u00e7oban in\u0259kl\u0259ri\u00a0 otarma\u011fa aparmal\u0131d\u0131r,onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn t\u0259l\u0259sm\u0259liy\u0259m,in\u0259kl\u0259r\u00a0 s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259 vaxt\u0131nda qat\u0131lmal\u0131d\u0131r,yubansam in\u0259kl\u0259r bu g\u00fcn evd\u0259 qalmal\u0131d\u0131rlar.Y\u0259qin ki,bir d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259rik,-s\u00f6yl\u0259di,g\u0259tirdiyi s\u00fcd v\u0259 qat\u0131\u011f bankalar\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 verib,evl\u0259rin\u0259 getm\u0259k, \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn t\u0259l\u0259sdi.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0S\u00fcd v\u0259 qat\u0131q dolu bankalar\u0131 ondan alark\u0259n diqq\u0259tl\u0259 onun \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259sin\u0259 baxd\u0131m,onun qap-qara olan \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259si q\u0131r\u0131\u015f-q\u0131r\u0131\u015f idi,amma g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 bir par\u0131lt\u0131 var idi,o g\u00f6zl\u0259r onun ya\u015famaq \u00fcmidi il\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nan bir qad\u0131n oldu\u011funu g\u00f6st\u0259rirdi.Onun \u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259 baxma\u011f\u0131 bacarmad\u0131m,avqust ay\u0131 olmas\u0131na baxmayaraq\u00a0 \u0259ll\u0259ri m\u0259n\u0259 \u015faxtal\u0131-boranl\u0131 q\u0131\u015f f\u0259slini xat\u0131rlatd\u0131.\u018fll\u0259ri ayazl\u0131 q\u0131\u015f g\u00fcnl\u0259rind\u0259 i\u015f g\u00f6r\u0259n qulluq\u00e7u qad\u0131nlar\u0131n \u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259yirdi,\u00e7\u00fcnki o \u0259ll\u0259r \u00e7at-\u00e7at idi.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0O,m\u0259ni t\u0259rk edib ,sakit g\u0259ldiyi kimi sakitc\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getdi,amma o sehrli s\u0259sin ovsunundan qurtula bilmirdim,m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259m aktrisa s\u0259sin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259yirdi bu s\u0259s tembir\u0131.Kim idi bu qad\u0131n,n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi?<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0O,qad\u0131n niy\u0259 bu haldayd\u0131,b\u0259lk\u0259 kimins\u0259 qap\u0131s\u0131nda qulluq\u00e7u i\u015fl\u0259yirdi?amma bura k\u0259nd yeri idi, insanlar qap\u0131lar\u0131nda qulluq\u00e7u saxlama\u011f\u0131 xo\u015flamazd\u0131lar.Bu q\u0259fil\u00a0 g\u0259li\u015fin s\u0259b\u0259bi m\u0259n\u0259\u00a0 sonralar m\u0259lum olacaqd\u0131.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0Bu g\u00fcn k\u0259ndd\u0259 yax\u0131n qohumlardan birinin evind\u0259 ni\u015fan m\u0259clisi vard\u0131,bu m\u0259clis\u0259 h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131mla birg\u0259 m\u0259ni d\u0259 d\u0259v\u0259t etmi\u015fdil\u0259r. Bu k\u0259ndin insanlar\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck r\u0259\u011fb\u0259t b\u0259sl\u0259yirdil\u0259r.Ham\u0131 Nazl\u0131 xan\u0131m\u0131 qonaq sif\u0259tind\u0259 evl\u0259rind\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259yi,\u00a0 toy m\u0259clisl\u0259rind\u0259 i\u015ftirak etm\u0259sinii b\u00f6y\u00fck h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0Ni\u015fan m\u0259clisi ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131,o\u011flan evind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259si olan qonaqlar g\u0259lmi\u015fdil\u0259r,sonda biz d\u0259 m\u0259clis\u0259 ged\u0259si olduq.S\u0259h\u0259r xan\u0131m\u0131 ni\u015fan m\u0259clisind\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm an g\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259 inanmad\u0131m.O\u011flan evind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n insanlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f\u00a0 masa<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u0259traf\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0\u018fynin\u0259 g\u00f6z qama\u015fd\u0131ran toy libas\u0131 geymi\u015f,sa\u00e7lar\u0131na fen \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015fdil\u0259r,s\u00fcbh tezd\u0259n g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm qad\u0131nla,bu qad\u0131n aras\u0131nda olduqca b\u00f6y\u00fck f\u0259rq vard\u0131.Qar\u015f\u0131mda m\u00fck\u0259mm\u0259l,olduqca savadl\u0131 bir qad\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fckd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc q\u0131nad\u0131m,onu qulluq\u00e7u sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 nifr\u0259t etdim.Ni\u015fanlanan o\u011flan\u0131n day\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 idi S\u0259h\u0259r xan\u0131m.H\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 olduqca sanball\u0131 insana b\u0259nz\u0259yirdi,bald\u0131zlar\u0131 \u0259traf\u0131nda f\u0131rlan\u0131rd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0Bu m\u0259clisd\u0259 ba\u015f ver\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 inana bilmirdim,sanki g\u00f6yd\u0259n yer\u0259 enmi\u015f bir m\u0259l\u0259kdi S\u0259h\u0259r xan\u0131m.O\u011flan evind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n insanlar yaln\u0131z onu dinl\u0259yir,onun m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259rin\u0259 qulaq as\u0131rd\u0131lar.S\u00f6z\u00fcn do\u011frusu, bu m\u0259clisd\u0259 bir anl\u0131q olsa bel\u0259 S\u0259h\u0259r xan\u0131ma qibt\u0259 etdim,s\u0259h\u0259r\u00a0 evimizd\u0259 onun hal\u0131na \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fcm \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, \u00e7ox pe\u015fiman olmu\u015fdum,dem\u0259k insana a\u011fl\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qiym\u0259t verirl\u0259rmi\u015f,geyimi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn deyil.Ni\u015fan m\u0259clisi bit\u0259n\u0259d\u0259k onun \u015firin dan\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131na,m\u0259ni ovsunlayan s\u0259sin\u0259 heyranl\u0131qla qulaq as\u0131rd\u0131m.\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc s\u0259lis dani\u015fan bir naqi\u00fc\u0259 qulaq asan kimi hiss edirdim.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0G\u00fcnl\u0259rin bir g\u00fcn\u00fc,\u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u0259yimiz\u0259 bir-iki g\u00fcn qalm\u0131\u015f h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131m Rahim m\u00fc\u0259llim:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-Ax\u015fam \u00fcst\u00fc birg\u0259 gedib Mina xalan\u0131 yoxlayaq,t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 oldu\u011fum zaman onun m\u0259n\u0259 yard\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7ox olubdur.Burada oldu\u011fumuzu bilir,ist\u0259mir\u0259m ki,ya\u015fl\u0131 qad\u0131n m\u0259nd\u0259n incisin,onu yoxlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, \u00fcz\u00fcls\u00fcn.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">M\u0259n is\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc yolda\u015f\u0131ma tutaraq,-ax\u0131 o ail\u0259nin insanlar\u0131n\u0131 tan\u0131m\u0131ram,yad insanlar\u0131n evin\u0259 nec\u0259 gedim-s\u00f6yl\u0259dim.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-Taniyirsan,yad insanlar deyill\u0259r, s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn,s\u00fcd-qat\u0131q g\u0259tir\u0259n S\u0259h\u0259rgil\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259yik dey\u0259- h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131m m\u0259n\u0259 cavab verdi<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">M\u0259n S\u0259h\u0259rin ad\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitdiyim an yolda\u015f\u0131ma onlara getm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, b\u00f6y\u00fck h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259\u00a0 raz\u0131l\u0131q verdim.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u018fvv\u0259lc\u0259 ma\u011fazaya getdik, qonaq ged\u0259c\u0259yimiz ail\u0259y\u0259 aparmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn,\u00a0 laz\u0131m olan \u0259rzaqlar\u0131 ald\u0131q v\u0259 ma\u011fazadan birba\u015fa onlar\u0131n evin\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259si olduq.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0Onlar\u0131n evi olduqca m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259li,s\u0259fal\u0131 yerd\u0259 yerl\u0259\u015firdi,bir yan\u0131 me\u015f\u0259,bir yandan \u00e7ay ax\u0131r,sanki m\u0259\u015fhur istirah\u0259t m\u0259rk\u0259zin\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdik.K\u0259nardan diqq\u0259ti c\u0259lb ed\u0259n ev saraya b\u0259nz\u0259yirdi,\u00fc\u00e7m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li ev m\u00fcasir d\u0259bl\u0259 tikilmi\u015fdi,bu evi k\u0259nardan seyr etm\u0259k bel\u0259 insana xo\u015f g\u0259lirdi.D\u0259bd\u0259b\u0259li,m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259li evin daxilind\u0259 ba\u015f ver\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259ki bix\u0259b\u0259rdim.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0H\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 daxil oldu\u011fumuz an m\u0259n buraya g\u0259ldiyim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, \u00e7ox pe\u015fiman oldum.Bizim onlara g\u0259ldiyimizi g\u00f6r\u0259n insanlar bir anl\u0131q donub biz\u0259 baxd\u0131lar.Bu insanlar \u0259trafa sanki m\u0259nfi enerji yay\u0131rd\u0131lar.Ail\u0259d\u0259 ya\u015fayan insanlar\u0131n \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 m\u00fcsb\u0259t aura yox idi,onlar\u0131n \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259sin\u0259 baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131m an q\u0259lbim \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fc.Bu insanlar\u0131n \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259sind\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f deyil,k\u0259d\u0259r ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0Ev sahibl\u0259ri\u00a0 biz\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b &#8220;Xo\u015f g\u0259lmi\u015fsiniz&#8221; s\u00f6yl\u0259dil\u0259r.Biz hamimiz h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 bir masa arxas\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdik.Evin ya\u015fl\u0131 valideyinl\u0259ri ata v\u0259 ana,S\u0259h\u0259r,h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 \u015eamil iki azya\u015fl\u0131 q\u0131z biziml\u0259 birg\u0259 eyni masa arxas\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0Sentiyabr ay\u0131,soyuq hava insanlardan ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m m\u0259nfi enerji il\u0259 birl\u0259\u015f\u0259r\u0259k m\u0259ni \u00e7ox \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcrd\u00fc. Az zaman ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259n sonra bir qad\u0131n \u00e7ay g\u0259tirdi,\u00e7aylar\u0131 masa \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259n qadin i\u015fini bitirdikd\u0259n sonra, m\u0259nim yan\u0131mda olan bo\u015f stulda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi,israrla,-\u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 i\u00e7in,- s\u00f6yl\u0259di.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0M\u0259n bu qad\u0131n\u0131 bu evin,bu ail\u0259nin b\u00f6y\u00fck q\u0131z\u0131 sand\u0131m,d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm ki,atas\u0131 evin\u0259 qonaq g\u0259lib v\u0259 S\u0259h\u0259r xan\u0131ma yard\u0131m edir.Qad\u0131n\u0131n israr\u0131ndan sonra \u00e7ay\u0131 i\u00e7m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, st\u0259kan\u0131 \u0259lim\u0259 ald\u0131m,amma \u00e7ay buz kimi soyuq idi, bir-iki qurtum \u00e7ay i\u00e7dikd\u0259n sonra -\u00e7ox sa\u011f olun-s\u00f6yl\u0259dim.Buraya qonaq g\u0259ldiyim, \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn q\u0259lbimd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u00e7ox q\u0131nay\u0131rd\u0131m.Qad\u0131n st\u0259kan-n\u0259lb\u0259kini masa \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259n y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131raraq birg\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdiyimiz masan\u0131 t\u0259rk etdi.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0Bir az zaman ke\u00e7dikd\u0259n sonra ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011fma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.S\u0259h\u0259r m\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-Burada \u0259yl\u0259\u015fm\u0259, ged\u0259k biziml\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015f,-s\u00f6yl\u0259di.M\u0259n aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b S\u0259h\u0259rin arxas\u0131nca ged\u0259si oldum.Bayaqki qad\u0131n geni\u015f v\u0259 h\u00fcnd\u00fcr talvar alt\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fmi\u015f,kartof soyurdui,m\u0259n\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ki\u00e7ik bir stul t\u0259qdim etdi.Qad\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259n\u0259 tutaraq:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-S\u0259ni ilk d\u0259f\u0259 Bak\u0131da R\u0259hman \u0259minin d\u0259fn m\u0259rasimind\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm,bir masa arxas\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdik.Bir az s\u00f6hb\u0259t d\u0259 etmi\u015fdik,bu k\u0259ndin insanlar\u0131 sizi \u00e7ox sevirl\u0259r,biz qad\u0131nlar siz\u0259 g\u00f6yd\u0259n enmi\u015f m\u0259l\u0259k kimi n\u0259z\u0259r yetiririk-s\u00f6yl\u0259di.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0M\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc qad\u0131na tutaraq:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-Siz bu ail\u0259nin q\u0131z\u0131s\u0131n\u0131zm\u0131?-dey\u0259 sual verdim.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0Qad\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 baxadi v\u0259 b\u0259xt\u0259v\u0259r-b\u0259xt\u0259v\u0259r g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-Xeyir,m\u0259n \u015eamilin birinci h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131yam,S\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259 biz ikimiz g\u00fcn\u00fcy\u00fck,biz y\u0259ni m\u0259nl\u0259 \u00f6vladlar\u0131m \u00e7ox zaman\u00a0 Bak\u0131da ya\u015fay\u0131r\u0131q. K\u0259nd\u0259 yenic\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fik,ay\u0131n axr\u0131 yen\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 qay\u0131das\u0131y\u0131q-s\u00f6yl\u0259di.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">Qad\u0131n n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131sa art\u0131q m\u0259n onu e\u015fitmirdim.Az qal\u0131rd\u0131 \u00fcr\u0259yim dayans\u0131n,\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc idar\u0259 etm\u0259yi bacarm\u0131rd\u0131m,ayaqlar\u0131m bel\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 baxm\u0131rdi,tir-tir titr\u0259yirdim.S\u0259h\u0259rin ya\u015fl\u0131 qad\u0131n \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259sin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259y\u0259n \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259si bo\u015fu-bo\u015funa q\u0131r\u0131\u015fmay\u0131b,m\u0259n ni\u015fan m\u0259clisind\u0259 S\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 qibt\u0259 etdiyim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcm-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 nifr\u0259t etdim.\u0130nsanlar ikili oynama\u011f\u0131 nec\u0259 bacar\u0131rlar Allah\u0131m,ni\u015fan m\u0259clisind\u0259 maniken kimi b\u0259z\u0259dilmi\u015f S\u0259h\u0259r v\u0259 bu g\u00fcn evd\u0259\u00a0 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm S\u0259h\u0259r.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0Ni\u015fan m\u0259clisind\u0259 insanlar S\u0259h\u0259rin verdiyi g\u00f6st\u0259ri\u015fl\u0259r\u0259 \u0259m\u0259l edirdil\u0259r, amma bu evd\u0259,bu ail\u0259d\u0259 \u00a0 az ya\u015fl\u0131 u\u015faqdan bir f\u0259rqi yox idi S\u0259h\u0259r &#8220;xan\u0131m\u0131n&#8221;.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0-C\u00fcc\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 d\u0259n verm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r,in\u0259kl\u0259r g\u0259ldi onlara su verm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r,qazlar,\u00f6rd\u0259kl\u0259r h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259yibl\u0259r.S\u0259h\u0259r s\u0259n n\u0259 edirs\u0259n,niy\u0259 he\u00e7 bir i\u015f vaxt\u0131nda yerin\u0259 yetirilmir?<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">S\u0259h\u0259r is\u0259 bir kibrit \u00e7\u00f6p\u00fcn\u0259\u00a0 b\u0259nz\u0259yirdi,bir d\u0259qiq\u0259 olsun bel\u0259 dayanm\u0131rd\u0131,amma bu ail\u0259d\u0259\u00a0 bir insan onun g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc i\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259n raz\u0131 deyildi.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fcm fikir do\u011fru idi o,bu evd\u0259,bu ail\u0259d\u0259 qara qulluq\u00e7u idi,ni\u015fan m\u0259clisind\u0259 m\u0259cburiyy\u0259td\u0259n i\u015ftirak edirdi,\u00e7\u00fcnki b\u00f6y\u00fck g\u00fcn\u00fc(\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259)ni\u015fan m\u0259clisin\u0259 \u00e7ata bilm\u0259yib,ma\u015f\u0131n yolda xarab olubmu\u015f.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0\u0130ndi anlad\u0131m bu ail\u0259nin insanlar\u0131 nec\u0259 d\u0259 maskalanma\u011f\u0131 bacar\u0131rd\u0131lar,c\u0259miyy\u0259t i\u00e7ind\u0259 S\u0259h\u0259ri nec\u0259 qiym\u0259tli edirdil\u0259r,h\u0259r m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259ti ondan al\u0131rd\u0131lar. g\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259rim art\u0131q m\u0259ni yorurdu,iki reall\u0131\u011f\u0131n ikisini d\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259riml\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm, bu haqda ba\u015fqa insanlar dan\u0131\u015fsa idil\u0259r insanlar\u0131 q\u0131nayard\u0131m,S\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 pax\u0131ll\u0131q edirl\u0259r s\u00f6yl\u0259rdim.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0Art\u0131q ayaqlar\u0131m bel\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 baxm\u0131rd\u0131, bir aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, dig\u0259rini yer\u0259 bas\u0131rd\u0131m,m\u0259nim bu hal\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259riyl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259n qad\u0131n:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0-Nazl\u0131,bac\u0131 siz\u0259 n\u0259 oldu ax\u0131 bayaqdan bu halda deyildiniz?<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0M\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc qad\u0131na tutaraq:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-M\u0259n rayonda b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m,evimizd\u0259 he\u00e7 bir vaxt in\u0259k,qoyun olmay\u0131bd\u0131r,\u00a0 S\u0259h\u0259rin \u00e7\u0259kdiyi \u0259ziyy\u0259tl\u0259r\u00a0 m\u0259ni diri g\u00f6zl\u00fc m\u0259hv etdi, m\u0259n bu \u0259zablara qatla\u015faraq ya\u015fayan insani ilk d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259riml\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm,ba\u015fqa bir insan s\u00f6yl\u0259s\u0259ydi o,insan\u0131 ke\u00e7mi\u015fd\u0259n g\u0259lmi\u015f insan sanard\u0131m,inanm\u0131ram m\u0259n tezlikl\u0259 sa\u011flaml\u0131\u011f\u0131ma qovu\u015fam, bu realli\u011fi izl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259nim d\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcm yoxdur.Sonra \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc S\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 tutaraq:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0-\u0130ncim\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259n,s\u0259n\u0259 \u0259ziyy\u0259tim birind\u0259 m\u0259n verim ,yolda\u015f\u0131ma s\u00f6yl\u0259,evimiz\u0259 ged\u0259k, m\u0259n \u00e7ox \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcr\u0259m,-s\u00f6yl\u0259dim.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0O,ecazkar s\u0259si il\u0259:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-Yem\u0259k haz\u0131rlay\u0131r\u0131q,yem\u0259k yeyin ondan sonra ged\u0259rsiniz,-dedi.M\u0259n is\u0259 ona etiraz\u0131m\u0131 bildirdim:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0-yox,s\u0259n s\u00f6yl\u0259 o,m\u0259nim bel\u0259 hallar\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6z\u0259l anlay\u0131r,ev\u0259 getm\u0259yimiz \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, etiraz etm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdir.\u00c7\u00fcnki q\u0259bul ed\u0259c\u0259yim d\u0259rmanlar\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259mi\u015fdim, g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcz kimi,m\u0259n sizinl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdim,bel\u0259 hal\u0131m d\u0259rmans\u0131z ke\u00e7\u0259n deyildir.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0El\u0259 bu zaman az ya\u015fl\u0131 q\u0131z u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0-xala sizi \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131rlar,eviniz\u0259 gedirsiniz,- s\u00f6yl\u0259di.Q\u0131zdan bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri e\u015fitdiyim anda aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131m v\u0259 onlarla sa\u011folla\u015f\u0131b, bir daha bu ,ail\u0259y\u0259 qonaq sif\u0259tind\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 q\u0259rar ver\u0259r\u0259k o evi,o ail\u0259ni t\u0259rk etm\u0259yi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm,h\u0259l\u0259 ail\u0259nin b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u0259ri il\u0259 sa\u011folla\u015f\u0131b ayr\u0131lmal\u0131ydim..<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0Ail\u0259nin dig\u0259r \u00fczvl\u0259ril\u0259\u00a0 vidala\u015f\u0131b onlar\u0131n h\u0259y\u0259tl\u0259rini t\u0259rk etdik,yol boyu evl\u0259r\u0259 bax\u0131r v\u0259 h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131mdan bu evl\u0259rin sahibl\u0259ri haqda m\u0259lumat al\u0131rd\u0131m.El\u0259 bu an qar\u015f\u0131m\u0131za h\u00fcnd\u00fcr s\u0259liq\u0259 il\u0259 tikilmi\u015f\u00a0 bir ev \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131, bu ev m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259m tikili olmas\u0131 il\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131 g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi il\u0259 k\u00f6n\u00fcll\u0259ri ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131.Evin g\u00f6z\u0259lliyind\u0259n g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc ala bilmirdim.Bu ev m\u0259n\u0259\u00a0 bir anl\u0131q \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 tikilmi\u015f villalar\u0131 xat\u0131rlatd\u0131. O ev\u0259 diqq\u0259tl\u0259 baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n yolda\u015f\u0131m:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0-Bu ev S\u0259h\u0259rin atas\u0131n\u0131n evidir,-s\u00f6yl\u0259di.S\u0259h\u0259r ad\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kildiyi an yen\u0259 m\u0259ni titr\u0259m\u0259 tutdu, bu hallar m\u0259nd\u0259\u00a0 \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259\u015fdiyim an ba\u015f verirdi.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0Yolda\u015f\u0131m \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 baxmadan:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-S\u0259ni, o ail\u0259y\u0259 qonaq kimi aparmaqda b\u00f6y\u00fck s\u0259hv\u0259 yol verdim Nazl\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fcm g\u0259ldiyim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, \u00e7ox pe\u015fimanam,-dedi.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0-\u0130ll\u0259rdir o,ail\u0259 il\u0259 yax\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131m yoxdur,sanki insanl\u0131\u011flar\u0131n\u0131 itiribl\u0259r,g\u00f6yd\u0259n ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011f\u0131r amma qona\u011f\u0131 ev\u0259 d\u0259v\u0259t etmirl\u0259r.\u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259dir bel\u0259 ail\u0259 il\u0259 bir araya g\u0259lirdim,\u015eamil m\u0259nim sinif yolda\u015f\u0131m olubdur.S\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 baxd\u0131qca,onun ac\u0131 taleyini seyr etdikc\u0259 q\u0259lbim a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131.Bu q\u0131z n\u0259 a\u011f\u0131lla \u015eamill\u0259 evl\u0259ndi,m\u0259n onu h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 anlaya bilmir\u0259m.D\u00fczd\u00fcr, o zaman art\u0131q biz k\u0259ndd\u0259n k\u00f6\u00e7m\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck,amma m\u00fc\u0259mma dolu,sirli bir evlilik idi bu evlilik.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0Biz evimiz\u0259 g\u0259ldik, o ax\u015fam s\u00fcbh\u0259d\u0259k yatmad\u0131m, bir an olsun bel\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 yuxu getm\u0259di.S\u0259h\u0259rin in\u0259kl\u0259rin arxas\u0131nca qa\u00e7ma\u011f\u0131,ya\u015fl\u0131 qaynanas\u0131n\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n tutaraq onu zorla ayaqyoluna g\u0259tirm\u0259si,o ayaqyolundan \u00e7\u0131xanad\u0259k,in\u0259kl\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, qo\u015fa vedr\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 su g\u0259tirm\u0259si g\u00f6zl\u0259rim \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259n getmirdi, h\u0259m\u0259n ax\u015fam sanki bir qad\u0131n\u0131n \u0259zab dolu h\u0259yat\u0131ndan b\u0259hs ed\u0259n bir film izl\u0259mi\u015fdim..O ail\u0259d\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259rimi bir an olsun bel\u0259 unuda bilmirdim.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0Sanki qaranliq gec\u0259 inada d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc bitib-t\u00fck\u0259nm\u0259k bilmirdi. M\u0259n h\u0259sr\u0259tl\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259rin a\u00e7\u0131lmas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yir,qarab\u0259xt S\u0259h\u0259rin b\u0259lal\u0131 talehind\u0259n m\u0259lumat ala bil\u0259c\u0259yim insan\u0131n kim olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm.Allah\u0131m insan\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n yuxu nec\u0259 qa\u00e7ar,yuxusuz qalma\u011f\u0131 insan nec\u0259 bacarar.\u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 yuxusuz gec\u0259 ke\u00e7irm\u0259yi S\u0259h\u0259r xan\u0131m b\u0259x\u015f etdi m\u0259n\u0259.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0H\u0259m\u0259n g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra iki g\u00fcn x\u0259st\u0259 yatd\u0131m,aya\u011fa qalxma\u011fa,add\u0131m atma\u011fa g\u00fcc\u00fcm yetmirdi.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0H\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131m m\u0259ni o ail\u0259y\u0259 qonaq apard\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0131nay\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0Ert\u0259si g\u00fcn\u00a0 m\u0259ni h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259n S\u0259h\u0259r yen\u0259 &#8220;h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131ndan&#8217; izin al\u0131b ax\u015fam\u00fcst\u00fc biz\u0259 s\u00fcd-qat\u0131q g\u0259tirmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0Onu g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm an g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 i\u015f\u0131q g\u0259ldi,tez aya\u011fa qalxmaq ist\u0259dim,amma bacara bilm\u0259dim,S\u0259h\u0259rin \u0259zabl\u0131 talehi m\u0259ni ill\u0259rin x\u0259st\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7evirmi\u015fdi sanki.M\u0259ni bu halda g\u00f6r\u0259n S\u0259h\u0259r yana-yana a\u011flama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-M\u0259nim bir-iki saatl\u0131q \u0259zabl\u0131 taleyimi seyr etm\u0259k,ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rinizl\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259k,sizi yataq x\u0259st\u0259si etdi?<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0Ne\u00e7\u0259 il\u0259rdir ki, m\u0259n bu \u0259zab\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kir\u0259m,ne\u00e7\u0259 ill\u0259rdir ki,m\u0259n bu c\u0259faya qatlan\u0131ram.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0M\u0259n q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259 onun \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259sin\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r sald\u0131m:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-Niy\u0259?<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-Bu \u0259zab\u0131 \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 s\u0259ni vadar ed\u0259n n\u0259dir? S\u0259n ya\u015famaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, bu \u0259zabl\u0131 yolu n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn se\u00e7mis\u0259n!!!<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0-S\u0259ni qoruyan atan,anan,bac\u0131n,qarda\u015f\u0131n yoxdurmu?<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">M\u0259nim bu hal\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n S\u0259h\u0259r:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-Siz \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc yormay\u0131n,siz\u0259 s\u00fcd,qat\u0131qla birg\u0259 dov\u011fa da bi\u015firib g\u0259tirmi\u015f\u0259m,\u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 dov\u011fa i\u00e7in sonra b\u00fct\u00fcn olanlar\u0131 siz\u0131nl\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m,- s\u00f6yl\u0259di,aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7di,onun arxas\u0131nca baxaraq q\u0259lbim par\u00e7aland\u0131<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-Allah\u0131m,bu bi\u00e7ar\u0259nin\u00a0 g\u00fcnah\u0131 n\u0259dir ,n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, bu q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259zablar \u00e7\u0259kir?-s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u00e7ox yorurdum.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0S\u0259h\u0259r \u00e7ay d\u0259ml\u0259mi\u015f,m\u00fcr\u0259bb\u0259,limon g\u0259tirmi\u015fdi.O, \u00e7ay\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 zorla i\u00e7irdi,m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra o,ke\u00e7mi\u015fini m\u0259nl\u0259 payla\u015fd\u0131:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-Bizim ail\u0259 haqda dan\u0131\u015fmaq,sizi m\u0259lumatland\u0131rmaq m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tin g\u0259lir.Atam v\u0259 anam h\u0259r ikisi ali t\u0259hsilli idirl\u0259r. H\u0259r ikisi\u00a0 k\u0259nd x\u0259st\u0259xanas\u0131nda h\u0259kim i\u015fl\u0259yirdil\u0259r.Bir-biril\u0259rini sev\u0259r\u0259k ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131 qurmu\u015fdular. \u00c7ox b\u00f6y\u00fck ail\u0259 deyildik, iki bac\u0131 v\u0259\u00a0 bir qarda\u015f.Onlar bu k\u0259nd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u00a0 t\u0259yinatla g\u0259lmi\u015fdil\u0259r.Qohum- \u0259qr\u0259balar\u0131 yox idi,u\u015faq evind\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r.Ail\u0259nin b\u00f6y\u00fck \u00f6vlad\u0131 m\u0259n b\u0259xti qara\u00a0 idim.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0M\u0259nim on be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131m olanda valideyinl\u0259rim d\u00fcnyalar\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdil\u0259r.Onlar\u0131 rayon m\u0259rk\u0259zin\u0259 toya \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar,Rayonun M\u0259rk\u0259zi X\u0259st\u0259xanas\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f h\u0259kiminin \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131n toyuna getmi\u015fdil\u0259r v\u0259 geri qay\u0131dark\u0259n avtomobil q\u0259zas\u0131 n\u0259tic\u0259sind\u0259 h\u0259r ikisi d\u00fcnyalar\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdil\u0259r.Bel\u0259c\u0259 ail\u0259nin b\u00fct\u00fcn a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259nim \u00fcz\u0259rim d\u0259 qald\u0131.Z\u0259rif \u00e7iyinl\u0259rim\u0259 yeniyetm\u0259 ya\u015flar\u0131mda a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fckl\u0259r y\u00fckl\u0259ndi.Yalniz qon\u015fumuz ya\u015fl\u0131 qad\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 yard\u0131m ed\u0259rdi,gec\u0259l\u0259r m\u0259nl\u0259 birg\u0259 yatard\u0131.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0Qarda\u015f\u0131m m\u0259nd\u0259n ki\u00e7ik idi,ali m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 daxil oldu,oran\u0131 bitirdikd\u0259n sonra \u0259sg\u0259r getdi v\u0259 \u0259sg\u0259rlikd\u0259n geri qay\u0131tmad\u0131,\u00f6z ixtisas\u0131 \u00fczr\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 deyil, h\u0259rbi\u00e7i olma\u011fa \u00fcst\u00fcnl\u00fck verdi.Sevdiyi q\u0131z bu k\u0259ndd\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131,toyuna g\u0259ldiyi zaman, dig\u0259r h\u0259rbi\u00e7i dostu onunla birg\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi.H\u0259m\u0259n o\u011flan ki\u00e7ik\u00a0 bac\u0131ma a\u015fiq olur v\u0259 evimizd\u0259 ki\u00e7ik qonaql\u0131q t\u0259\u015fkil ed\u0259r\u0259k bac\u0131m\u0131 h\u0259m\u0259n o\u011flana \u0259r\u0259 verdik.Onlar bac\u0131-qarda\u015f h\u0259yat yolda\u015flar\u0131yla birg\u0259 Rusiyaya k\u00f6\u00e7d\u00fcl\u0259r, bu g\u00fcn bel\u0259 orada ya\u015fay\u0131rlar.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0M\u0259n bi\u00e7ar\u0259 artiq evd\u0259 t\u0259k-t\u0259nha ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131m,art\u0131q ya\u015f\u0131m \u00f6tm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc,qarda\u015f\u0131m Rusiyadan pul g\u00f6nd\u0259rir m\u0259n atam\u0131n evini daha da geni\u015fl\u0259ndir,d\u0259b\u0259 uy\u011fun t\u0259mir etdirirdim,bir d\u0259f\u0259 olsun n\u0259 \u00f6zl\u0259ri g\u0259lirdil\u0259r,n\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259ni \u00f6z yanlar\u0131na d\u0259v\u0259t edirdil\u0259r.Art\u0131q ya\u015f\u0131 \u00f6tm\u00fc\u015f q\u0131zla kim evl\u0259n\u0259rdi kim?<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0M\u0259nim kimi yanm\u0131\u015f,qapqara olmu\u015f bir q\u0131zla evl\u0259nm\u0259yi he\u00e7 bir insan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcrd\u00fc,n\u0259 olsun insanlar\u0131 ovsunlayan s\u0259sim vard\u0131,ilk \u00f6nc\u0259 insana,\u0259l\u0259xsus qad\u0131na g\u00f6z\u0259llik laz\u0131m idi,s\u0259si sonda e\u015fidirdil\u0259r..Bird\u0259 k\u0259nd yerind\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259,valideyinsiz q\u0131zla kim o\u011flunu evl\u0259ndir\u0259rdi,he\u00e7 kim,hami \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131,arxal\u0131,dayaql\u0131 adam\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131 il\u0259 evl\u0259ndirm\u0259yi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc,m\u0259nim kimi yetiml\u0259 deyil.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0Art\u0131q m\u0259n\u0259 dul ki\u015fil\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, el\u00e7i g\u0259lirdil\u0259r,h\u0259tta dul ki\u015fil\u0259rin \u00e7oxlar\u0131 bel\u0259 m\u0259ni b\u0259y\u0259nmirdil\u0259r, bel\u0259 oldu\u011fu zaman \u00f6z\u00fcm-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 yaln\u0131z bunu s\u00f6yl\u0259yirdim:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-&#8220;\u00f6l S\u0259h\u0259r \u00f6l!!!!&#8230;&#8221;<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0Qon\u015fuluqda ya\u015fayan Telli xalan\u0131n g\u0259lini d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi,o o\u011flunu m\u0259nl\u0259 evl\u0259ndirm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi,el\u00e7ilik \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, m\u0259nim yan\u0131ma \u00e7\u0259kinm\u0259d\u0259n Telli xala\u00a0 \u00f6z\u00fc g\u0259lmi\u015fdi, s\u00f6z\u00fcn do\u011frusu raz\u0131l\u0131q verm\u0259yi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm, o\u011flu Murad sovxozda s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc i\u015fl\u0259yirdi,olduqca yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131,mehriban insan idi,iki ki\u00e7ik \u00f6vlad\u0131 vard\u0131,biri o\u011flan,dig\u0259ri q\u0131z,birinin iki,o,birinin d\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131 var idi.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0M\u0259n bu u\u015faqlara \u0259sil ana kimi qay\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259yi bacarard\u0131m,ax\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 yetim idim,ba\u015f-ba\u015fa verib o, u\u015faqlarla birlikd\u0259 firavan \u00f6m\u00fcr s\u00fcr\u0259rdim,amma bu ist\u0259y\u0259 mane olan insan tap\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0Bu el\u00e7ilikd\u0259n yaln\u0131z \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259nin, y\u0259ni \u015eamilin\u00a0 h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n x\u0259b\u0259ri var idi.\u00c7\u00fcnki onlar\u0131n evi il\u0259 bizim ev yana\u015f\u0131 idi,h\u0259m d\u0259 \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 il\u0259 m\u0259n \u00e7ox yax\u0131n r\u0259fiq\u0259 idik.D\u00fczd\u00fcr o bizim k\u0259ndd\u0259n deyildi,amma biri-birimiz\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7ox yax\u0131n v\u0259 s\u0259mimi m\u00fcnasib\u0259timiz vard\u0131.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0H\u0259m\u0259n ax\u015fam \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 biz\u0259 g\u0259ldi o s\u00f6zl\u00fc adama ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131, hiss edirdim ki,q\u0259lbind\u0259n\u00a0 ke\u00e7\u0259nl\u0259ri s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 c\u00fcr\u0259t etmir,n\u0259hay\u0259t dil\u0259 g\u0259ldi:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-S\u0259n Tellinin o\u011flu il\u0259 n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131 qurursan?Bizim o\u011flumuz olmur,g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n be\u015f q\u0131z \u00f6vlad\u0131m\u0131z var, bundan sonra m\u0259n d\u00fcnyaya \u00f6vlad g\u0259tirm\u0259yi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcr\u0259m,\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz d\u0259 burada,y\u0259ni k\u0259ndd\u0259 ya\u015fam\u0131r\u0131q,yaln\u0131z yayda istirah\u0259t \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259lirik,bir ay ya\u015fay\u0131b yen\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 evimiz\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131r\u0131q.G\u0259l s\u0259ni \u015eamill\u0259 evl\u0259ndirim, bir o\u011flunuz olar k\u0259ndd\u0259ki ev-e\u015fik,var-d\u00f6vl\u0259t s\u0259n\u0259 v\u0259 d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259yin o\u011fluna qalar.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0Ham\u0131ya b\u0259llidir ki,\u00a0 rayonda be\u015f ki\u015fi varsa onun biri \u015eamildir,onun bir s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc iki ed\u0259n olmaz,qaba\u011f\u0131nda qulluq\u00e7ular i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k,s\u0259n d\u0259 d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259yin o\u011fluna baxaraq,firavan \u00f6m\u00fcr s\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n,b\u00fct\u00fcn k\u0259nd camaat\u0131 \u015eamilin h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 oldu\u011fun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, s\u0259nin xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyin\u0259 h\u0259s\u0259d aparacaq.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0M\u0259n Nazl\u0131 onun s\u00f6yl\u0259dikl\u0259rini sonad\u0259k dinl\u0259y\u0259 bilm\u0259dim,onu dinl\u0259m\u0259k m\u0259ni diri g\u00f6zl\u00fc m\u0259hv edirdi:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0-Ax\u0131 s\u0259n, azya\u015fl\u0131 q\u0131z deyildin,\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259nin s\u00f6yl\u0259dikl\u0259rin\u0259 nec\u0259 inand\u0131n,\u015firin dil\u0259 aldan\u0131b\u00a0 \u015eamil\u0259 nec\u0259 getdin v\u0259 bel\u0259c\u0259 &#8220;b\u0259xt\u0259v\u0259rl\u0259rin b\u0259xt\u0259v\u0259ri&#8221; oldun?M\u0259nim s\u00f6yl\u0259dikl\u0259rimi dinl\u0259y\u0259n S\u0259h\u0259ri a\u011flamaq tutdu:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-N\u0259 ed\u0259 bil\u0259rdim ki,k\u0259nd yeri, t\u0259k-t\u0259nha ya\u015famaq asan idimi? Daha yorulmu\u015fdum,\u015eamil \u0259n yax\u0131n qon\u015fumuz idi,onunla evl\u0259n\u0259rdims\u0259 arxam daya\u011f\u0131m olard\u0131 dey\u0259 raz\u0131l\u0131q verdim,amma bilmirdim ki,m\u0259n b\u0259xti qara,bu evliliy\u0259 raz\u0131l\u0131q verm\u0259kl\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 quyu qaz\u0131ram.\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 m\u0259ni evl\u0259rin\u0259 apard\u0131\u011f\u0131 gec\u0259 yer-g\u00f6y sanki l\u0259rz\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259ldi,s\u00fcbh\u0259d\u0259k k\u00fcl\u0259k,ild\u0131r\u0131m,ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ham\u0131s\u0131 biri-birin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131,yer-g\u00f6y bel\u0259 etiraz etdi ,amma m\u0259n b\u0259xti qara he\u00e7 n\u0259 anlamad\u0131m ki,anlamad\u0131m.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0Bu el\u00e7ilikd\u0259n \u015eamil bi\u00e7ar\u0259n\u0131n x\u0259b\u0259ri yoxmu\u015f,m\u0259ni g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc an g\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259di, art\u0131q b\u00fct\u00fcn k\u0259nd,b\u00fct\u00fcn insanlar bu hadis\u0259d\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rdar idil\u0259r,y\u0259ni m\u0259ni \u015eamil \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259tirdikl\u0259rind\u0259n.\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc bil\u0259r\u0259kd\u0259n k\u0259ndd\u0259 hamini bu \u0259hvalatdan x\u0259b\u0259rdar edibmi\u015f<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0\u0130ll\u0259r \u00f6t\u0259nd\u0259n sonra biz bir ail\u0259 olduq,art\u0131q m\u0259n hamil\u0259ydim,ham\u0131 h\u0259sr\u0259tl\u0259 d\u00fcnyaya o\u011flan u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259yim g\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi,amma s\u0259n sayd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 say g\u00f6r zal\u0131m f\u0259l\u0259k n\u0259l\u0259r say\u0131r.Doqquz aydan sonra u\u015faq d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259ldi,lakin do\u011fulan u\u015faq d\u00fcnyaya diri deyil \u00f6l\u00fc g\u0259ldi,bu u\u015faq o\u011flan deyil,\u00f6z\u00fcm kimi qapqara bir q\u0131z u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 idi.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0Bu q\u0131z u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 Allah bel\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox g\u00f6rd\u00fc,alard\u0131m quca\u011f\u0131ma,o evi t\u0259rk edib atam evind\u0259 ya\u015fayard\u0131m,insanlar m\u0259nim savad\u0131ma heyran idil\u0259r,o,q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz\u0131 c\u0259miyy\u0259t \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn savadl\u0131 bir evlad yeti\u015fdir\u0259rdim, amma n\u0259 edim &#8220;Ana&#8221; ad\u0131 da\u015f\u0131maqdan bel\u0259 R\u0259bbim m\u0259ni m\u0259hrum eyl\u0259di.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0M\u0259n yen\u0259 onun s\u00f6yl\u0259dikl\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00f6z\u0259 bilm\u0259dim,s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259s\u0259si oldum:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0-Bundan, sonra s\u0259nin qara g\u00fcnl\u0259rin ba\u015flad\u0131\u00a0 h\u0259,ax\u0131 s\u0259n bu add\u0131m\u0131 nec\u0259 atd\u0131n,\u00f6lm\u0259yib diri olan bir qad\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131na \u0259r\u0259 getm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, nec\u0259 raz\u0131l\u0131q verdin?<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0Gec\u0259yl\u0259 arvad\u0131 s\u0259ni \u0259ri \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, qad\u0131n olma\u011fa apar\u0131r v\u0259 onlar\u0131n evin\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131\u011f\u0131n zaman g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n ki,ki\u015fi arvad\u0131n\u0131n oynad\u0131\u011f\u0131 oyundan bix\u0259b\u0259rdir,hans\u0131 s\u0259b\u0259bd\u0259n geri,atan\u0131n evin\u0259 qay\u0131tm\u0131rd\u0131n??<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0M\u0259n ni\u015fan m\u0259clisind\u0259 s\u0259nin a\u011fl\u0131na heyran oldum,ax\u0131 bu qad\u0131n\u0131n haz\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 t\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 s\u0259n nec\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcn,s\u0259nin s\u00f6yl\u0259dikl\u0259rind\u0259n bel\u0259 n\u0259tic\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r ki,s\u0259n d\u00fcnyaya o\u011flan u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 g\u0259tirs\u0259 idin, o, qad\u0131n u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 s\u0259nin \u0259lind\u0259n alacaqd\u0131,\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 atan evin\u0259 yollayacaqd\u0131.R\u0259bbin bel\u0259 s\u0259ni qoruyub s\u0259n\u0259 o\u011flan deyil,\u00f6l\u00fc qiz u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 b\u0259x\u015f edib,amma s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc qoruya bilm\u0259yibs\u0259n.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0Biz o gec\u0259 sizin evd\u0259n geri d\u00f6nd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fcz zaman s\u0259nin atan evini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm,hans\u0131 s\u0259b\u0259bd\u0259n \u015eamilin evini t\u0259rk edib atan evind\u0259 ya\u015fam\u0131rsan?<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-Nazl\u0131,bac\u0131m,m\u0259n o evd\u0259 t\u0259k-t\u0259nha ya\u015faya bilm\u0259r\u0259m, bu z\u0259man\u0259d\u0259 t\u0259k-t\u0259nha ya\u015famaq olduqca \u00e7\u0259tindir..K\u0259ndd\u0259 ham\u0131 bilir ki,h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131m var.M\u0259ni o evd\u0259n yaln\u0131z \u00f6l\u00fcm ay\u0131ra bil\u0259r,Allah\u0131 ba\u015flar\u0131 \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259yib m\u0259ni o evd\u0259n qovarlarsa o zaman o evi t\u0259rk ed\u0259r\u0259m.\u00c7\u00fcnki k\u0259nd yerind\u0259 t\u0259nha qad\u0131na pis g\u00f6zl\u0259 bax\u0131rlar,q\u0131zl\u0131q d\u00f6vr\u00fc il\u0259,qad\u0131nl\u0131q d\u00f6vr\u00fc eyni deyildir.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0-Eh,S\u0259h\u0259r,S\u0259h\u0259r, m\u0259n s\u0259ni g\u00f6z\u0259l anlay\u0131ram sahibsiz bir insan\u0131 kim qovar evind\u0259n,bir qar\u0131n yem\u0259k yey\u0259rs\u0259n,s\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n ax\u015fam\u0259d\u0259k qara qulluq\u00e7u kimi \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsan, bu h\u0259yatd\u0131rm\u0131?<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0Bu b\u0259la h\u0259r zaman m\u0259nim yaral\u0131 yerimdir,bir qar\u0131n yem\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qap\u0131larda n\u00f6k\u0259r\u00e7ilik ed\u0259n bac\u0131lar\u0131n qarda\u015flar\u0131, siz n\u0259l\u0259r d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz,ax\u0131 siz bir atan\u0131n,bir anan\u0131n \u00f6vladlar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z?<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-\u0130nsan\u00a0 bir d\u0259f\u0259 olsun bel\u0259 bac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259z,m\u0259nim bac\u0131m bir qar\u0131n yem\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yad qap\u0131larda n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u00f6k\u0259r\u00e7ilik edir?-s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259z.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0M\u0259n s\u0259nin h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 bir saat \u0259yani seyr etdim,amma\u00a0 \u0259zab dolu h\u0259yata d\u00f6z\u0259 bilm\u0259dim,iki g\u00fcnd\u00fcr yataqdan qalxma\u011f\u0131 bacarm\u0131ram,bu h\u0259yat\u0131 ya\u015famaq olduqca \u00e7\u0259tindir,s\u0259nin h\u0259yat\u0131na kim d\u00f6z\u0259 bil\u0259r,ac\u0131larla dolu o h\u0259yat\u0131 kim q\u0259bul ed\u0259 bil\u0259r yaln\u0131z v\u0259 yaln\u0131z S\u0259h\u0259r xan\u0131m\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fc.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0\u00c7\u00fcnki o milyoner \u015eamilin h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131d\u0131r.Y\u0259ni onun h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 olma\u011f\u0131n b\u0259xt\u0259v\u0259rlik\u00a0 titulunu da\u015f\u0131y\u0131r,bahal\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131na minib harasa gedir, s\u0259nin \u0259zab dolu h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259d\u0259n,bilm\u0259d\u0259n bir anl\u0131q m\u0259n\u00a0 s\u0259n\u0259 qibt\u0259 etmi\u015fdim.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0-\u0130nsan ikinci qad\u0131n olma\u011f\u0131 q\u0259bul ed\u0259r,bilirs\u0259n n\u0259 zaman?- h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fibs\u0259 v\u0259 yaxud da nigahdan ayr\u0131l\u0131blarsa,onlar\u0131 biri-birin\u0259 ba\u011flayan he\u00e7 bir \u0259laq\u0259 yoxdursa,s\u0259n arvad\u0131 il\u0259 bir ail\u0259d\u0259 ya\u015fayan ki\u015fini nec\u0259 v\u0259 hans\u0131 s\u0259b\u0259bd\u0259n q\u0259bul etdin m\u0259n anlam\u0131ram.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u0130kinci qad\u0131n olmaq h\u0259r zaman m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qorxu dolu bir ya\u015fam t\u0259rzi olubdur,bu h\u0259yat\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259k m\u0259n\u0259 olduqca qorxulu g\u0259libdir,onda qalm\u0131\u015f ya\u015famaq ola!<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0.Q\u0131zlar v\u0259 qad\u0131nlar \u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0131 qoruma\u011f\u0131\u00a0 bacar\u0131rlarsa he\u00e7 bir zaman ikinci qad\u0131n olma\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259zl\u0259r.!<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0&#8220;\u00d6gey&#8221; ana olmaq \u00f6z\u00fc bir faci\u0259dir,bu titulu q\u0259bul etm\u0259kl\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u0259 m\u0259zar qazm\u0131\u015f olursunuz.!!<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00d6m\u00fcrl\u00fck q\u0131z ad\u0131n\u0131 da\u015f\u0131maq bu faci\u0259li h\u0259yat\u0131 ya\u015famaqdan daha da \u015f\u0259r\u0259flidir.S\u0259n bir gec\u0259d\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 &#8220;m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259m ada&#8221; sahib oldun S\u0259h\u0259r.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0H\u0259r qad\u0131na bel\u0259 &#8220;xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik&#8221; n\u0259sib olmur, amma s\u0259n h\u0259min gec\u0259 h\u0259m\u00a0 g\u00fcn\u00fc, h\u0259m \u00f6gey ana, h\u0259m d\u0259 qulluq\u00e7u tituluna sahib oldun.Bel\u0259 &#8220;g\u00f6z\u0259l taleh&#8221; \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn kim sevinm\u0259z ki.S\u0259n olduqca g\u00fccl\u00fc qad\u0131nsan,bu \u0259zab dolu h\u0259yata he\u00e7 kim d\u00f6zm\u0259z,lakin s\u0259n d\u00f6z\u00fcrs\u0259n.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0M\u0259n\u0259 bel\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, s\u0259n \u015eamili bitib t\u00fck\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259n m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tl\u0259 sevirs\u0259n.Bu sevgi qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131qs\u0131z olsa bel\u0259, s\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn bu\u00a0 \u0259zablara yaln\u0131z \u015eamil \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qatlan\u0131rsan.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0-Nazl\u0131 xan\u0131m,k\u0259nardan baxan insana d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k\u00a0 h\u0259r zaman asan g\u0259lir bunlar\u0131 ilk d\u0259f\u0259 siz\u0259 etiraf edir\u0259m:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-T\u0259nhal\u0131qdan,kims\u0259zilikd\u0259n,bir sahibim olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan,bu \u0259zablara qatlan\u0131ram.Bu g\u00fcn bel\u0259\u00a0 bac\u0131m v\u0259 qarda\u015f\u0131m Rusiyada ya\u015fay\u0131rlar, m\u0259ns\u0259 burada t\u0259k-t\u0259nha ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131m, gec\u0259l\u0259r itl\u0259r h\u00fcr\u0259nd\u0259,pi\u015fikl\u0259r q\u0259rib\u0259 s\u0259s \u00e7\u0131xaranda qorxudan b\u00fct\u00fcn b\u0259d\u0259nim \u0259sirdi.O zaman he\u00e7 kimin m\u0259n\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131 yox idi.\u0130ndi is\u0259 onlar m\u0259ni yanlar\u0131na s\u0259sl\u0259yir m\u0259n getmir\u0259m,qarda\u015f arvad\u0131,k\u00fcr\u0259k\u0259n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda aciz ya\u015famaq ist\u0259mir\u0259m,bu insanla\u0131n biri ac\u0131lasada,dig\u0259ri \u015firin dill\u0259 dindirir.Y\u0259ni bu ail\u0259d\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259t etm\u0259yi,qay\u011f\u0131ma qalma\u011f\u0131 bacaran insanlar da vard\u0131r.\u015eamil adl\u0131 \u0259rin h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 olmaq m\u0259n\u0259 yetir,m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u00a0 bu ad\u0131n k\u00f6lg\u0259sind\u0259 qorunmaq b\u00f6y\u00fck &#8220;\u015f\u0259r\u0259fdir&#8221;.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0B\u0259li, m\u0259n onu \u00e7ox sevir\u0259m,bu sevgimi yalniz q\u0259lbimd\u0259.qoruyub saxlayiram.\u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc bu sevgini he\u00e7 bir zaman ona etiraf ed\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m.Q\u0259lbimd\u0259 qorudu\u011fun sevgidir m\u0259ni ya\u015fadan,m\u0259n\u0259 c\u00fcr\u0259t ver\u0259n.Zaman g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k \u015eamil ona deyil m\u0259n\u0259 ehtiyac duyacaq,\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259y\u0259 onun yaln\u0131z v\u0259 yaln\u0131z pulu laz\u0131md\u0131r,onu da \u0259ld\u0259 etm\u0259yi \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l bacar\u0131r.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0Yetimin ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131n f\u0259rqi olmaz,Nazl\u0131 xan\u0131m,yetimin ba\u015f\u0131na \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k,qarn\u0131n doydurmaq savabd\u0131r,onu da \u015eamilin ail\u0259si edir,heyvan kimi i\u015fl\u0259dib bir qar\u0131n yem\u0259k verirl\u0259r v\u0259 savablar\u0131n\u0131 qazan\u0131rlar.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0Onun bu cavab\u0131 m\u0259ni \u00e7ox d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcrd\u00fc,oraya, y\u0259ni Rusiyaya gedib bundan bet\u0259r \u0259ziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259kdi,burada b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcb,boya-ba\u015fa \u00e7atd\u0131\u011f\u0131 k\u0259ndd\u0259 ya\u015fama\u011fa \u00f6z\u00fc q\u0259rar verib. Sonda \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc ona tutaraq bel\u0259 bir sualla m\u00fcraci\u0259t etdim:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-S\u0259h\u0259r, incim\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259n,b\u0259s o \u00fc\u00e7m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li evin ne\u00e7\u0259nci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259sind\u0259 s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yer ayr\u0131l\u0131b, gec\u0259l\u0259r s\u0259nin h\u0259ms\u00f6hb\u0259tin kim olur,\u0259zabl\u0131 g\u00fcnd\u00fczl\u0259rinin &#8220;xo\u015f xatir\u0259l\u0259rini&#8221; kiminl\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb t\u0259s\u0259lli tapirsan,kimdir s\u0259nin d\u0259rd orta\u011f\u0131n?<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0M\u0259nim ona verdiyim bu sual onun r\u0259ngini bel\u0259 a\u011fappaq etdi,g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n leysan ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131 ya\u011fd\u0131 v\u0259 verdiyi cavab bu oldu:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-Nazl\u0131 xan\u0131m, m\u0259n sizin bir yazar oldu\u011funuzu bildiyim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, sizin yan\u0131n\u0131za g\u0259ldim,o \u00fc\u00e7 m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li evin birinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259sind\u0259 m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn,\u00a0 bir otaq ay\u0131r\u0131blar v\u0259 h\u0259m\u0259n otaqda \u015eamilin n\u0259v\u0259si il\u0259 birg\u0259 yat\u0131ram,u\u015faqlar m\u0259ni \u00e7ox sevirl\u0259r,\u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc onlara \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l na\u011f\u0131llar dan\u0131\u015f\u0131ram.Sev\u0259r\u0259k dinl\u0259dikl\u0259ri na\u011f\u0131l: &#8220;Fatman\u0131n&#8221; na\u011f\u0131l\u0131 ,\u00e7\u00fcnki orada m\u0259nd\u0259n f\u0259rqli olaraq zal\u0131m \u00f6gey ana obraz\u0131 vard\u0131r,bird\u0259 onlar m\u0259nim\u00a0 laylalar\u0131m\u0131 dinl\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n yatmazlar..Sonda sevinc v\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259r dolu g\u00fcnl\u0259rimin bir\u00a0 ortaq dostu var \u00fcr\u0259yim,\u00f6z\u00fcm s\u00f6yl\u0259yib,\u00f6z\u00fcm t\u0259s\u0259lli tap\u0131ram.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0B\u0259li,siz m\u0259n\u0259 do\u011fru ad verdiniz,&#8221;Qara qulluq\u00e7u&#8221;,m\u0259n o evin qara qulluq\u00e7usuyam,q\u0131zl\u0131q l\u0259yaq\u0259tini o evd\u0259 itirmi\u015f qara qulluq\u00e7u,bir gec\u0259nin b\u0259d\u0259lini \u00f6d\u0259y\u0259n qara qulluq\u00e7u, s\u0259hv\u0259n d\u00fcnyaya\u00a0 bir \u00f6l\u00fc q\u0131z u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 g\u0259tirm\u0259y\u0259 ixtiyar\u0131 olan qara qulluq\u00e7u.B\u0259lk\u0259, \u00f6vlad\u0131m sa\u011f qalsayd\u0131,onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u015eamil m\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 daha da yaxin bil\u0259rdi,\u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc qad\u0131n\u0131 ki\u015fiyl\u0259 mehriban ed\u0259n,onlar\u0131 biri-birin\u0259 ba\u011flayan yaln\u0131z evladd\u0131r,N\u0259 edimki bu arzumda \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259 qald\u0131,m\u0259nim yaz\u0131m\u0131 yazan tanri qara q\u0259l\u0259ml\u0259 yazm\u0131\u015fd\u0131r.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0Bilmir\u0259m m\u0259n kim\u0259m,bac\u0131yam,\u00f6gey anayam,y\u00fczl\u0259rl\u0259 insana xidm\u0259t etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259lmi\u015f qulluq\u00e7uyam?<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0H\u0259r iki ail\u0259nin insanlar\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, can\u0131m\u0131 f\u0259da etdim,bir ail\u0259nin\u00a0 \u00fczvl\u0259ri arxamca qap\u0131 ba\u011flad\u0131lar,sanki bunu s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259dil\u0259r bu evd\u0259,bu ail\u0259d\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 yer yoxdur,yaln\u0131zl\u0131q insan\u0131 \u0259zaba,\u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 bel\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fckl\u0259yir,m\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc deyil \u0259zab dolu g\u00fcnl\u0259ri ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131 se\u00e7dim.Sabah m\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fckd\u0259n sonra m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, n\u0259 f\u0259rqi var hans\u0131 ail\u0259 daha \u00e7ox a\u011flayacaq,y\u0259qin ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m ail\u0259nin \u00fczvl\u0259ri daha \u00e7ox a\u011flayacaq,c\u00fcnki olan onlara olacaq qara qulluq\u00e7ular\u0131 onlara \u0259lvida s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k,bu h\u0259yat\u0131 t\u0259rk ed\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\"><\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0\u0130ndi is\u0259 m\u0259n gedim,art\u0131q gecdir,m\u0259nim s\u0259hvl\u0259rl\u0259 dolu h\u0259yat\u0131m insanlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir d\u0259rs olsun,b\u00fct\u00fcn valideyinl\u0259r q\u0131zlar\u0131n\u0131, qarda\u015flar bac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 qorusunlar,onlara arxa dayaq \u00e7\u0131xs\u0131nlar,m\u0259nim etdiyim s\u0259hvl\u0259ri t\u0259krarlayaraq bu h\u0259yatda kims\u0259 uduzmas\u0131n,m\u0259n ne\u00e7\u0259 illik \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fc yel\u0259 verdim,\u00e7oxunu ata evind\u0259,az\u0131n\u0131 is\u0259 \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 kimil\u0259rin\u00a0 evind\u0259 ke\u00e7irdim,\u0259r qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131,\u0259r n\u0259vazi\u015fi n\u0259dir bilm\u0259dim,amma ya\u015fad\u0131m.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0M\u0259nim ad\u0131m S\u0259h\u0259rdir,talehim is\u0259 qara gec\u0259d\u0259n d\u0259 qara.B\u0259lk\u0259 ad\u0131m S\u0259h\u0259r oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, h\u0259r \u0259zablara,h\u0259r b\u0259laya d\u00f6zm\u0259yi bacard\u0131m,\u00e7\u00fcnki Allah d\u0259rd ver\u0259c\u0259yi adamlar\u0131 \u00f6nc\u0259 imtahan edir,sonra onlar\u0131 d\u0259rdl\u0259ri il\u0259 ba\u015f-ba\u015fa burax\u0131r.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0Bilmir\u0259m g\u00fcnah\u0131m n\u0259dir ki,m\u0259n\u0259 ayr\u0131lan s\u0131naq m\u00fcdd\u0259ti bitmir ki, bitmir,s\u00f6yl\u0259nil\u0259n c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m odunu m\u0259n bu h\u0259yatda \u00e7\u0259k\u0259si oldum.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0Nazl\u0131 xan\u0131m:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-S\u0259h\u0259r, m\u0259n s\u0259nin haqq\u0131nda yaln\u0131z bunlar\u0131 s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m,<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-S\u0259n, S\u0259h\u0259r xan\u0131m,h\u0259yatdan,yax\u0131nlar\u0131ndan, ,do\u011fmalar\u0131ndan \u00fcz d\u00f6nd\u0259rib, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259hv ed\u0259r\u0259k ya\u015fayan- ac\u0131lar\u0131n qad\u0131n\u0131san!!!!<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u0130ll\u0259r \u00f6tm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc amma m\u0259n h\u0259r zaman S\u0259h\u0259ri d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm.Bir g\u00fcn bir m\u0259clisd\u0259 \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 il\u0259 \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 g\u0259ldik m\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u00fcb \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259nara tutdu,amma m\u0259n ondan \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259dim:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-Salam \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 baci nec\u0259siniz?M\u0259n\u0259 bel\u0259 g\u0259lir ki,m\u0259ni tan\u0131mad\u0131n\u0131z.O q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259 m\u0259nim \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 baxaraq-tan\u0131d\u0131m Nazl\u0131 xanim sizi unutmaq olarm\u0131?<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0M\u0259n,siz\u0259\u00a0 k\u0259ndd\u0259\u00a0 s\u00f6yl\u0259dim- sizi hami b\u00f6y\u00fck m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tl\u0259 sevir,h\u00f6rm\u0259t edir<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0M\u0259n q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k-S\u0259h\u0259r nec\u0259dir,yen\u0259 k\u0259ndd\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131r?<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">&#8211; B\u0259li,S\u0259h\u0259r orada ya\u015fay\u0131r bizd\u0259 burada y\u0259ni \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131r\u0131q.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-\u015e\u0259fiq\u0259 xanim S\u0259h\u0259ri h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131za almaqda m\u0259qs\u0259diniz n\u0259 idi,o bi\u00e7ar\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131 n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, b\u0259db\u0259xt etdiniz,allahdan qorxmadin\u0131z?<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">Bu g\u00fcn \u015e\u0259fiq\u0259nin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri ya\u015fard\u0131:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0-Siz s\u00f6yl\u0259diyiniz kimi m\u0259nd\u0259 rayonda b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm,\u015eamilin ail\u0259si olduqca b\u00f6y\u00fck idi,qaynana,qaynata,alti bald\u0131z,\u00fc\u00e7 qay\u0131n,ham\u0131 \u00f6vladlar\u0131 il\u0259 birlikd\u0259 istirah\u0259t \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, ata evin\u0259 g\u0259lirdi,m\u0259n \u00e7ox yorulurdum bilmirdim ki,onlara nec\u0259 qulluq edim.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0S\u0259h\u0259r \u00e7ox zir\u0259ng,t\u0259mizkar q\u0131z idi,yorulmaq n\u0259dir bilmirdi,d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm tutar qat\u0131q,tutmaz ayran, onu o\u011flan do\u011fmaq ad\u0131yla \u015eamil \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259tirdim,sonluq da g\u00f6z \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259.O,zaman allahdan qorxmurdum,amma bu g\u00fcn qorxuram,alma m\u0259zlumun ah\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ixar ah\u0259st\u0259-ah\u0259st\u0259,qizim ail\u0259si il\u0259 birlikd\u0259 q\u0259zaya d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc,bu g\u00fcn bir n\u0259v\u0259m \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fck \u015fik\u0259stdir,h\u0259r baxd\u0131qca \u00fcr\u0259yim a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131r.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0\u00a0Bir yetim\u0259 z\u00fclm etdim,R\u0259bbim ah\u0131n\u0131 gec ald\u0131,amma \u00e7ox g\u00fccl\u00fc ald\u0131.Siz o evi t\u0259rk etdiyiniz g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra ba\u015f verdi bu hadis\u0259.\u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 Siz \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n ac\u0131m\u0131\u015fd\u0131n\u0131z bi\u00e7ar\u0259 S\u0259h\u0259rin talehin\u0259.B\u0259li,bu g\u00fcn sizd\u0259n qa\u00e7\u0131ram,\u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc siz h\u0259qiq\u0259tl\u0259ri s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259n insans\u0131n\u0131z,art\u0131q h\u0259yat m\u0259nim g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 bir he\u00e7dir.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0M\u0259n S\u0259h\u0259ri \u00f6z\u00fcm \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qulluq\u00e7u g\u0259tirdim,indi zaman d\u0259yi\u015fib,\u00f6z\u00fcm bu ya\u015f\u0131mda n\u0259v\u0259m\u0259 qulluq\u00e7ular edir\u0259m,sanki R\u0259bbim m\u0259ni h\u0259rt\u0259r\u0259fli imtahan etdi,art\u0131q insanlar\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxma\u011fa bel\u0259 utan\u0131ram.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">.M\u0259n onun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxaraq:<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">-N\u0259v\u0259niz, \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ox \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcm,b\u0259li h\u0259r zaman Allahdan qorxmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r.Yetimin ahini almaq\u00a0 \u00f6z\u00fc bir \u0259zabd\u0131r.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0Amma,S\u0259h\u0259r bu g\u00fcn firavan ya\u015fay\u0131rsa onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, \u00e7ox sevindim.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<li dir=\"ltr\">\n<p dir=\"ltr\">\u00a0Unutmayaq haqq nazirl\u0259r ,amma \u00fcz\u00fclm\u0259z.<\/p>\n<\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p class=\"bawpvc-ajax-counter\" data-id=\"16196\">Yaz\u0131ya 481 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0(real hekay\u0259) \u00a0\u00a0S\u0259h\u0259r yenic\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131.Arti\u011f g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin \u015f\u0259f\u0259ql\u0259ri \u0259traf\u0131 isidirdi.O,yatma\u011fa deyil aya\u011fa qalxma\u011fa \u00fcst\u00fcnl\u00fck verdi.Nazl\u0131 xan\u0131m yata\u011f\u0131ndan qalx\u0131b h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 endi.. T\u0259miz k\u0259nd havas\u0131n\u0131 ciy\u0259rl\u0259rin\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi,\u0259trafa g\u00f6z\u00fcdolusu n\u0259z\u0259r yetirdi.H\u0259y\u0259ti diqq\u0259tl\u0259 seyr ed\u0259n Nazl\u0131 xan\u0131m qollu-budaql\u0131 f\u0131nd\u0131q a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fm\u0259yi q\u0259rara ald\u0131.Findiq a\u011fac\u0131ndan q\u0259rib\u0259 taq-taq s\u0259si g\u0259lirdi,o a\u011faca qiqq\u0259tl\u0259 baxdi,a\u011facd\u0259l\u0259n findiqlar\u0131 dimdiyil\u0259 q\u0131r\u0131b yer\u0259,y\u0259ni [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16196"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=16196"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16196\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":16198,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16196\/revisions\/16198"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=16196"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=16196"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=16196"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}