{"id":16227,"date":"2021-01-16T22:20:31","date_gmt":"2021-01-16T18:20:31","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=16227"},"modified":"2021-01-16T22:20:31","modified_gmt":"2021-01-16T18:20:31","slug":"%c9%99li-rzazad%c9%99-gec%c9%99-g%c9%99l%c9%99n-%c9%99sg%c9%99r","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=16227","title":{"rendered":"\u018fli Rzazad\u0259 – Gec\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n \u0259sg\u0259r"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"10688211_910009672362459_5468691154198345277_o\"<\/a>(hekay\u0259)<\/strong><\/p>\n

G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, ke\u00e7\u0259n ilki q\u0131\u015fla bu ilki q\u0131\u015f aras\u0131ndak\u0131 \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck f\u0259rq n\u0259dir? Ke\u00e7\u0259n il d\u0259 qar bel\u0259 lopa-lopa ya\u011fm\u0131rd\u0131m\u0131? Yox, yox, dey\u0259s\u0259n, onda az-az, h\u0259zin-h\u0259zin ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259, s\u0259hv xat\u0131rlam\u0131ramsa, ke\u00e7\u0259n il yerd\u0259 d\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r qar qalmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, n\u0259n\u0259m demi\u015f, \u201ctorpa\u011f\u0131n n\u0259f\u0259sin\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259n kimi\u201d \u0259riyib yox olmu\u015fdu. Daha n\u0259 olmu\u015fdu ke\u00e7\u0259n q\u0131\u015f? Daha\u00a0 n\u0259yin xatir\u0259siyl\u0259 ovunmu\u015fdum, n\u0259yi d\u0259rd el\u0259mi\u015fdim \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259? He\u00e7 onu da bilmir\u0259m…<\/p>\n

Y\u0259qin el\u0259 buna g\u00f6r\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015fd\u0259 olan hadis\u0259l\u0259r biz\u0259 \u0259fsan\u0259l\u0259r, r\u0259vay\u0259tl\u0259r kimi g\u0259lib \u00e7at\u0131b, \u00e7\u00fcnki d\u0259qiqliyiyl\u0259, oldu\u011fu kimi, ay\u0131-g\u00fcn\u00fc, vaxt\u0131-v\u0259d\u0259si he\u00e7 kimin yad\u0131nda qalmay\u0131b. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, el\u0259 bizim k\u0259ndimizin ad\u0131n\u0131n niy\u0259 \u00c7\u0259m\u0259nli oldu\u011funu kim bilir? Yaydan-yaya g\u00f6z i\u015fl\u0259dikc\u0259 l\u0259p\u0259l\u0259n\u0259n \u0259lvan \u00e7\u0259m\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259mi? B\u0259s, aliml\u0259rin h\u0259r g\u00fcn televizordan ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u201ciqlim d\u0259yi\u015fikliyi\u201d nin yolu he\u00e7 bizim k\u0259nd\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259yib ki? Min ildi bu \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259r, bu \u00e7\u0259m\u0259nl\u0259r he\u00e7 d\u0259yi\u015film\u0259yib ki?<\/p>\n

…Bu fikirl\u0259rl\u0259 a\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131m daha bir s\u0259h\u0259rimi. M\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn Tanr\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fcn\u00fc dan a\u011farmam\u0131\u015fdan \u0259vv\u0259l ba\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131; yuxudan durur, bir \u00e7apma st\u0259kan k\u0259m\u015firin \u00e7ayla q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng bir \u00e7oban d\u00fcrm\u0259yi yeyir\u0259m, sonra da \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc ne\u00e7\u0259 illik \u201c\u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k a\u011fac\u0131ma\u201d- ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131ma \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131ram, yen\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259m demi\u015f, \u201cba\u015f\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fcb-dolan\u0131ram\u201d,\u00a0 yola \u00e7\u0131xma\u011fa haz\u0131r olanda da yayda nazik penc\u0259yimi, q\u0131\u015fda da m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259b r\u0259ngli s\u0131r\u0131ql\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7iynim\u0259 sal\u0131b yola d\u00fcz\u0259lir\u0259m. \u018ftrafdak\u0131 d\u00f6rd k\u0259ndd\u0259 m\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n sa\u011f\u0131c\u0131lardan s\u00fcd\u00fc toplay\u0131b geri-\u00c7\u0259m\u0259nliy\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131ram. O d\u00f6rd k\u0259ndi rayon m\u0259rk\u0259ziyl\u0259 birl\u0259\u015fdir\u0259n yegan\u0259 yol k\u0259ndimizin \u0259t\u0259yind\u0259n-da\u011f\u0131n \u00e7aya baxan yamac\u0131ndan ke\u00e7ir, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 d\u00fcmd\u00fcz yox ha, dolana-dolana, nazlana-nazlana… Bu da n\u0259n\u0259min s\u00f6z\u00fcd\u00fc, yolu nazland\u0131ran n\u0259n\u0259m…Bu g\u00fcn yaman \u00e7ox xat\u0131rlad\u0131m n\u0259n\u0259mi, Allah \u00f6l\u0259nl\u0259riniz\u0259 r\u0259hm\u0259t el\u0259sin, r\u0259hm\u0259tlik yad\u0131ma h\u0259dura d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcr, d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 m\u00fctl\u0259q yax\u015f\u0131 x\u0259b\u0259r e\u015fidir\u0259m. G\u00f6r\u0259k, g\u00fcn\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 indi ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fam…Ya Allah\u0131n ad\u0131…<\/p>\n

H\u0259r g\u00fcn getdiyim yolu bir d\u0259 ona g\u00f6r\u0259 xo\u015flay\u0131ram ki, m\u0259n yolda olanda a\u011far\u0131r dan \u00fcz\u00fc. He\u00e7 b\u0259z\u0259yib el\u0259mir\u0259m, el\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi deyir\u0259m: Tanr\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fcn\u00fc \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r m\u0259nim. M\u0259n nazl\u0131 dolaylar\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na \u00e7atanda s\u00fcr\u0259ti azald\u0131ram, ordan da \u00fcz\u00fca\u015fa\u011f\u0131 asta-asta enir\u0259m, Etibar ki\u015finin d\u0259mir komas\u0131na \u00e7atanda dayan\u0131ram, aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131 kabin\u0259nin d\u0259mirin\u0259 qoyub a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 en\u0259nd\u0259 f\u0259rqin\u0259 var\u0131ram ki, g\u00f6z\u00fcm aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131n alt\u0131n\u0131 se\u00e7ir. G\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l ba\u015flama\u011f\u0131n xeyri d\u0259 \u015f\u0259rind\u0259n \u00e7ox olur; yol-iz s\u0259ssiz, hava daha t\u0259miz, qula\u011f\u0131ma d\u0259y\u0259n h\u0259nirl\u0259rin m\u00fc\u0259llifi t\u0259bi\u0259t…<\/p>\n

Bu g\u00fcn d\u00fcn\u0259nkin\u0259 baxanda bir on d\u0259qiq\u0259 gec \u00e7atm\u0131\u015fam dolaylar\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na; t\u0259k\u0259rl\u0259ri z\u0259ncirl\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m ki, qarl\u0131 yolda s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015fm\u0259sin. Amma yen\u0259 d\u0259, bu dekabr s\u0259h\u0259rinin ayaz\u0131ndak\u0131 do\u011fmal\u0131q m\u0259ni yad\u0131r\u011famay\u0131b, el\u0259 h\u0259m\u0259nkidi sanki… H\u0259m\u0259nkidimi? Yox, h\u0259m\u0259nki ola bilm\u0259z! Ax\u0131, d\u00fcn\u0259n qar bu boyda deyildi, indi ax\u015famdan nec\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131bsa, bir hovur i\u00e7ini \u00e7\u0259kib dinc\u0259lm\u0259yib, g\u00fcnortayacan bel\u0259 ya\u011fsa, diz\u0259 \u00e7atacaq. Birt\u0259h\u0259r rayon m\u0259rk\u0259zin\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131m, y\u00fck\u00fcm\u00fc \u00f6lk\u0259nin \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck s\u00fcd fabrikin\u0259 t\u0259hvil verim, bo\u015f bidonlar\u0131 da g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fcm yerl\u0259rin\u0259 s\u0259liq\u0259yl\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131m, -sabah s\u0259h\u0259r yiy\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 qaytar\u0131b dolu g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259liy\u0259m- sonra ya Allah, \u00fcz\u00fcyuxar\u0131 da asta-asta qalxaram, olmaz, Etibar ki\u015finin komas\u0131nda azca l\u0259ngiyib bir az da onu dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b eynini a\u00e7aram. Adam g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 sevinir yaz\u0131q,\u00a0 o g\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259n\u0259 deyir ki:<\/p>\n

-Sa\u011f olasan, ay \u00c7\u0259m\u0259nli balas\u0131, s\u0259n olmasan, el\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m bu koma, bu ba\u015f\u0131 dumanl\u0131 da\u011flar, ya da \u015f\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 g\u0259l\u0259n \u00e7ay olar.<\/p>\n

H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 bel\u0259c\u0259 deyir: \u201c\u00c7\u0259m\u0259nli balas\u0131\u201d. H\u0259rd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m ki, g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, ad\u0131m\u0131 bilirmi? \u018f\u015f\u015fi, bilm\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259 olar, adama adam laz\u0131m olanda ad\u0131n n\u0259 f\u0259rqi olur ki? Onsuz da bu d\u00fcnyada Etibar ki\u015fi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn birc\u0259 ad\u0131n m\u0259nas\u0131 qal\u0131b. O da \u015eu\u015fad\u0131. \u015eu\u015fa…<\/p>\n

Yegan\u0259 o\u011flu I Qaraba\u011f sava\u015f\u0131na k\u00f6n\u00fcll\u00fc yollanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t x\u0259b\u0259ri \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131. Yad\u0131mdad\u0131, h\u0259min \u0259r\u0259f\u0259l\u0259r Etibar ki\u015fi gec\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259 dolaylar\u0131n t\u0259n ortas\u0131nda yerl\u0259\u015f\u0259n yanacaqdoldurma m\u0259nt\u0259q\u0259sind\u0259 qal\u0131rd\u0131, evin\u0259-yamac\u0131n o \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki \u00c7ayl\u0131 k\u0259ndin\u0259 getmirdi. Deyirdi:<\/p>\n

-Q\u0259fil x\u0259b\u0259r g\u0259l\u0259r u\u015faqdan…<\/p>\n

Sovet vaxt\u0131ndan i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n yanacaqdoldurma m\u0259nt\u0259q\u0259sind\u0259ki d\u0259mir koma bel\u0259 yarand\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131nda; h\u0259l\u0259 onda he\u00e7 kim g\u00fcman etmirdi ki, Etibar ki\u015fi t\u0259kliyin\u0259 yuva qurur burda, el\u0259 bilirdik, bir g\u00fcn dolaylar\u0131n a\u015fa\u011f\u0131s\u0131nda bir \u0259sg\u0259r g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259c\u0259k, Etibar ki\u015fi d\u0259 \u015f\u0259l\u0259-k\u00fcl\u0259sini y\u0131\u011f\u0131b bu \u0259sg\u0259rin yan\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb evin\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259k. Amma o g\u00fcn he\u00e7 g\u0259lib \u00e7atmad\u0131… \u018fksin\u0259, bir g\u00fcn Etibar ki\u015fi g\u00f6z\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259di, yanacaqdoldurma m\u0259nt\u0259q\u0259si g\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 qald\u0131. Ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn \u00e7\u0259kdi, bilmir\u0259m, a\u015fa\u011f\u0131-yuxar\u0131 ged\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131nlardan s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcl\u0259rin naraz\u0131l\u0131qlar\u0131 bir-birin\u0259 sarma\u015f\u0131b d\u0259mir koman\u0131n dam\u0131ndak\u0131 bacada ulayan k\u00fcl\u0259y\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131:<\/p>\n

-Hardad\u0131, ay\u0259, bu ki\u015fi?<\/p>\n

-D\u00fcn\u0259n d\u0259 yoxuydu…<\/p>\n

-\u00c7ayl\u0131dan g\u0259l\u0259n yoxdumu? Bir evin\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259n, bir a\u011f\u0131z haylayan oldumu?<\/p>\n

-Oldu, oldu. Evind\u0259 d\u0259 yoxdu, k\u00fclf\u0259ti t\u0259kdi, el\u0259 o da nigarand\u0131.<\/p>\n

-B\u0259s han\u0131, ay\u0259, bu ki\u015fi? Ya\u011fl\u0131 \u0259pp\u0259k olub yoxa \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131 ha?!<\/p>\n

-Harda olsa, g\u0259l\u0259r,\u00a0 bu boyda camaat ona umuddudur, qoyarm\u0131 camaat\u0131 yanacaqs\u0131z?!<\/p>\n

Do\u011fru deyirdil\u0259r, \u0259traf k\u0259ndl\u0259rin g\u0259l\u0259n-ged\u0259ninin ham\u0131s\u0131 Etibar ki\u015finin yanacaqdoldurma m\u0259nt\u0259q\u0259sin\u0259 \u00fcmidliydil\u0259r; ya burda vurmal\u0131yd\u0131lar yanaca\u011f\u0131, ya da a\u015fa\u011f\u0131-rayon m\u0259rk\u0259zin\u0259 enm\u0259liydil\u0259r. T\u0259bii ki,\u00a0 \u00fcnyet\u0259nd\u0259n \u0259l\u00e7atan daha yax\u015f\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u00c7ox ke\u00e7m\u0259di \u0259l\u00e7atanam\u0131z\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n ba\u011fl\u0131 qalmas\u0131, bir s\u0259h\u0259r Etibar ki\u015fini yen\u0259 d\u0259mir koman\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131nda g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Amma\u00a0 m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259ldi, ki\u015fi bu bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn i\u00e7ind\u0259, el\u0259 bil, az\u0131 iyirmi il geri d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, sanki, s\u0131n\u0131x\u0131b, boyu da balacala\u015f\u0131b. S\u0259b\u0259bini soru\u015fmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, he\u00e7 ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fc harda oldu\u011fuyla maraqlanma\u011fa da c\u00fcr\u0259t el\u0259m\u0259mi\u015fdim.\u00a0 Ta ki, bir h\u0259ft\u0259 sonra \u00c7ayl\u0131dan olan tarix m\u00fc\u0259llimiyl\u0259 rayon bazar\u0131nda qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fanad\u0259k\u00a0 Etibar ki\u015finin \u201csirrinin\u201d n\u0259 oldu\u011funu bilm\u0259mi\u015fdim. M\u00fc\u0259llim dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, Etibar ki\u015fi o\u011flundan x\u0259b\u0259r \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 gedib.\u00a0 Hospitalda yatan\u00a0 yaral\u0131 \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259rd\u0259n biri ona teleqram vurub, t\u0259cili yan\u0131na g\u0259lm\u0259yini ist\u0259yib. Etibar ki\u015fi d\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sib, he\u00e7 kim\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r el\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n yola \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, bir d\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259sini hospitalda d\u0259rib. \u00a0H\u0259min \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259rin \u0259ks\u0259riyy\u0259ti \u015eu\u015fan\u0131n m\u00fcdafi\u0259sind\u0259 Etibar ki\u015finin o\u011fluyla \u00e7iyin-\u00e7iyin\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u00fcbm\u00fc\u015f. \u015e\u0259h\u0259rin erm\u0259ni da\u015fnaklar\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n i\u015f\u011fal\u0131ndan bir g\u00fcn \u0259vv\u0259l naqafil at\u0131lan bir g\u00fcll\u0259y\u0259 tu\u015f g\u0259libmi\u015f yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131n o\u011flu. Yolda\u015flar\u0131 da onu el\u0259 orda-\u015eu\u015fada d\u0259fn edibl\u0259r… A\u011f\u0131r d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259 yaralanan \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259r\u00a0 uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t hospitalda yat\u0131rlar, ta ki, \u00f6zl\u0259rini-s\u00f6zl\u0259rini bil\u0259nd\u0259 Etibar ki\u015fiy\u0259 o\u011flundan bir x\u0259b\u0259r verm\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sirl\u0259r… Onlar s\u00f6yl\u0259dikl\u0259ri x\u0259b\u0259rl\u0259 ki\u015finin \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 su s\u0259p\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259rini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrl\u0259rmi\u015f b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259… M\u0259n ki Etibar ki\u015fini el\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm, \u0259ksin\u0259, suyu qurumu\u015f a\u011faca\u00a0 d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Ana \u00fcr\u0259yi is\u0259 he\u00e7 d\u00f6zm\u0259mi\u015fdi, x\u0259b\u0259rin g\u0259lm\u0259sind\u0259n az sonra Etibar ki\u015finin \u00f6m\u00fcr-g\u00fcn yolda\u015f\u0131 bu d\u00fcnyadan bird\u0259f\u0259lik k\u00fcsm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc,\u00a0 nisgilini d\u0259 k\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131b yer \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 vida s\u00f6z\u00fc s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n torpa\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131na k\u00f6\u00e7m\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc…\u00a0 Ondan sonra Etibar ki\u015finin qaralt\u0131s\u0131 \u00c7ayl\u0131 yolundan da \u0259skik olmu\u015fdu; \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259mir komas\u0131n\u0131n \u0259yri p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sin\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k aylar\u0131 ill\u0259r\u0259 calam\u0131\u015f, ill\u0259ri d\u0259 \u00f6m\u00fcr karvan\u0131na y\u00fck el\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u00a0H\u0259rd\u0259n s\u0259h\u0259rin alatoran\u0131nda m\u0259ni \u0259yl\u0259yib rayondan \u015fey-\u015f\u00fcy alma\u011f\u0131 tap\u015f\u0131randa el\u0259 bilirdim, \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck k\u0259d\u0259ri, \u0259n asan t\u0259s\u0259llisi bax\u0131r. Do\u011frudan da, ya\u015famaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn nec\u0259 asan t\u0259s\u0259llil\u0259r tap\u0131r\u0131q… Eh… \u00c7\u0259tini \u00f6lm\u0259kdi, a ki\u015fi… \u00c7\u0259tini d\u0259rdin\u0259, nisgilin\u0259 t\u0259slim olub bu d\u00fcnyadan g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7\u0259km\u0259kdi…<\/p>\n

\u201c\u015eu\u015fa\u201d k\u0259lm\u0259sini bir d\u0259 V\u0259t\u0259n m\u00fcharib\u0259si ba\u015flayandan sonra Etibar ki\u015finin dilind\u0259n e\u015fitmi\u015fdim. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 \u015f\u00f6vql\u0259…H\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259…Bir az da q\u00fcrurla… H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 rastla\u015fanda \u00e7alla\u015fm\u0131\u015f qa\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 yuxar\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131r, ne\u00e7\u0259 ill\u0259rdi par\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 s\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259rini uzaqlara dikir, ucadan deyirdi:<\/p>\n

-Bax, g\u00f6r\u0259rs\u0259n, uza\u011f\u0131, bir-iki g\u00fcn\u0259 r\u0259dd el\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r erm\u0259nil\u0259ri \u015eu\u015fadan g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00f6nd\u00fckl\u0259rim! R\u0259dd el\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r ey…\u00a0 G\u00f6zd\u0259-qulaqdayam, \u015eu\u015fa i\u015f\u011faldan azad edil\u0259n kimi qolumu qald\u0131r\u0131b oynayaca\u011fam, o\u011ful toyunda oynamaq kimi oynayaca\u011fam \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259! O\u011flum ordad\u0131 m\u0259nim, a \u00c7\u0259m\u0259nli balas\u0131! O\u011flum azad olacaq ey, o\u011flum… \u015eu\u015fa m\u0259nim o\u011flumdu…<\/p>\n

-Ham\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n o\u011fludu, a ki\u015fi!<\/p>\n

-Ona qalsa, La\u00e7\u0131n da q\u0131z\u0131md\u0131, K\u0259lb\u0259c\u0259r d\u0259 n\u0259v\u0259mdi. Amma o\u011ful bel s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcmd\u00fc, a d\u0259rdbilm\u0259z!<\/p>\n

El\u0259 bel\u0259c\u0259 d\u0259 demi\u015fdi m\u0259n\u0259 Etibar ki\u015fi: \u201cd\u0259rdbilm\u0259z\u201d. Q\u0259rib\u0259-q\u0259rib\u0259 s\u00f6zl\u0259ri hardan tap\u0131rd\u0131, dilind\u0259 muncu\u011fu sapa d\u00fcz\u0259n kimi\u00a0 bir-birin\u0259 yara\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b nec\u0259 c\u00fcml\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259ldirdi, bunu da birc\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc bilirdi, bir d\u0259 Yaradan\u0131! M\u0259n n\u0259 kar\u0259ydim ki, bu hikm\u0259ti anlayam? T\u00f6vb\u0259, t\u00f6vb\u0259…\u00a0 H\u0259l\u0259 ne\u00e7\u0259 il \u0259vv\u0259l, Etibar ki\u015finin la\u00e7\u0131n vaxt\u0131nda a\u011fsaqqallar deyirdil\u0259r ki, \u201c\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc Etibar\u0131n dilinin itiliyind\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259yin\u201d. Ne\u00e7\u0259\u00a0 iliymi\u015f, d\u0259rd onun dilinin itiliyini k\u00fctl\u0259\u015fdiribmi\u015f, indi, V\u0259t\u0259n m\u00fcharib\u0259sind\u0259 h\u0259r g\u00fcn g\u0259l\u0259n z\u0259f\u0259r x\u0259b\u0259rl\u0259ri ki\u015fini \u201cdiriltmi\u015fdi\u201d, dilini d\u0259, dil\u00e7\u0259yini d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qaytarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

H\u0259l\u0259 oktyabr\u0131n \u0259vv\u0259lind\u0259-k\u0259ndimizd\u0259n d\u00f6rd igidi c\u0259bh\u0259y\u0259 yola salanda Etibar ki\u015finin o q\u0259rib\u0259 davran\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 demir\u0259m.\u00a0 Ax\u015famdan m\u0259kt\u0259bin direktoru Xano\u011flan m\u00fc\u0259llim qap\u0131ya g\u0259lmi\u015fdi, oba\u015fdan k\u0259ndimizd\u0259n d\u00f6rd igidi-Teymuru, Anar\u0131, F\u00fczulini v\u0259 \u015eahini rayon m\u0259rk\u0259zin\u0259 h\u0259rbi komissarl\u0131\u011fa \u00e7atd\u0131rmal\u0131 oldu\u011fumuzu demi\u015fdi. Oba\u015fdan k\u0259ndin \u00e7\u0131xaca\u011f\u0131nda m\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdil\u0259r. S\u0259h\u0259r Xano\u011flan m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259 birg\u0259 d\u00f6rd aslan par\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259nd\u0259 ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 bir sevinc par\u0131lday\u0131rd\u0131. I Qaraba\u011f sava\u015f\u0131ndan ill\u0259r sonra do\u011fulanlar\u0131n haqq sava\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bu c\u00fcr h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259, ehtirasla g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259yi d\u0259 bir ayr\u0131 q\u00fcruruydu. Dem\u0259k, aradan ke\u00e7\u0259n bu a\u011fr\u0131l\u0131 ill\u0259ri, bu qaysaq ba\u011flamam\u0131\u015f yaralar\u0131 oldu\u011fu kimi anlada bilmi\u015fdik bizd\u0259n sonrak\u0131lara…Dem\u0259k, sevgimizi, do\u011fmal\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131, sevincimizi da\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z kimi\u00a0 d\u0259rdimizi d\u0259 da\u015f\u0131ya bilmi\u015fdik g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yimiz\u0259… Bu da h\u0259r o\u011fulun i\u015fi deyil ha!<\/p>\n

El\u0259 Etibar ki\u015fi d\u0259 ayr\u0131 c\u00fcr \u0259hvaldayd\u0131 o g\u00fcn. Hardan x\u0259b\u0259r tutmu\u015fdu, bilmir\u0259m, \u0259lind\u0259 su dolu iri bir mis par\u00e7 komas\u0131n\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131nda dayan\u0131b bizi g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. D\u00fcz\u00fc, alaqaranl\u0131qda an\u015f\u0131rdammad\u0131m ki, g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm o par\u0131lt\u0131ya ya\u015f qar\u0131\u015f\u0131b, ya yox, birc\u0259 ondan \u0259min\u0259m ki, tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcnd\u0259n bu yana ilk d\u0259f\u0259ydi b\u0259b\u0259kl\u0259rind\u0259 i\u015f\u0131q vard\u0131… Ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fcz onun q\u0259n\u015f\u0259rind\u0259 saxlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b ma\u015f\u0131na qalxm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, birc\u0259-birc\u0259 igidl\u0259rin boynunu qucaqlay\u0131b al\u0131nlar\u0131ndan \u00f6pm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, yer\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259n sonra da s\u0259ssizc\u0259 \u0259liyl\u0259 \u201cget\u201d i\u015far\u0259si vermi\u015fdi. Ma\u015f\u0131n t\u0259rp\u0259n\u0259r-t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259z mis par\u00e7dak\u0131 suyu arxam\u0131zca s\u0259pmi\u015fdi. Dolaylar\u0131n a\u015fa\u011f\u0131s\u0131na \u00e7ata\u00e7atda is\u0259 yuxar\u0131dan haraylanan bir s\u0259s dan \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 oxunan duaya d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc:<\/p>\n

-\u015eu\u015fan\u0131 \u0259sirlikd\u0259n qurtarmam\u0131\u015f qay\u0131tmay\u0131n ha! \u015eu\u015fa amanat\u0131!<\/p>\n

Yola salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q d\u00f6rd igidi, d\u00f6rd d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n toxma\u011f\u0131n\u0131…V\u0259 onlar el\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u0259z\u0259n toxma\u011fa d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r… Sonra da \u00fcr\u0259yimizd\u0259ki q\u00fcruru nisgill\u0259 do\u011fmala\u015fd\u0131ra bilmi\u015fdil\u0259r… Oktyabr\u0131n sonunda g\u00fcn f\u0259rqiyl\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u00fcn-Teymurun, Anar\u0131n v\u0259 F\u00fczulinin bayra\u011fa b\u00fck\u00fcl\u00fc n\u0259\u015fi g\u0259lmi\u015fdi k\u0259nd\u0259… D\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n tapda\u011f\u0131 alt\u0131ndak\u0131 torpaqlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n h\u0259r qar\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131n azadl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u0259man\u0259t etdikl\u0259rimizi torpa\u011fa \u0259man\u0259t ed\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6d\u0259k\u00e7\u0259min qoluyla silib camaat\u0131n i\u00e7in\u0259 g\u00f6z g\u0259zdirmi\u015fdim; Etibar ki\u015fi yox idi… H\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7 d\u0259fnd\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259mi\u015fdi. Amma bilirdim ki, oralardad\u0131, y\u0259qin a\u011flama\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kims\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259sin dey\u0259 hardasa daldalanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131… Ne\u00e7\u0259 ildi \u00f6vlad itkisinin g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ba\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131\u00a0 g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 bula\u011f\u0131n\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da el\u0259 eyni \u00e7\u0259kid\u0259ki d\u0259rd a\u00e7a bil\u0259rdi…<\/p>\n

\u015eahind\u0259n is\u0259 he\u00e7 x\u0259b\u0259r \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131rd\u0131… M\u00fcharib\u0259 bitdi, z\u0259f\u0259r g\u00fcn\u00fc g\u0259ldi \u00e7atd\u0131. \u015eu\u015fan\u0131n azadl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 is\u0259 u\u015faqdan-b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259 ham\u0131 bir ayr\u0131 c\u00fcr ya\u015fad\u0131…M\u0259nc\u0259, ya\u015famaq da h\u0259r ke\u00e7\u0259n g\u00fcn\u0259 aid edilm\u0259m\u0259lidir, bu s\u00f6z\u00fcn d\u0259 \u00f6z d\u0259y\u0259ri var ki, o d\u0259y\u0259rini\u00a0 anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n anlar\u0131n, g\u00fcnl\u0259rin ad\u0131na yara\u015fmal\u0131d\u0131r. \u015eu\u015fan\u0131n azad edildiyi g\u00fcn kimi…\u00a0 M\u00fcharib\u0259nin bitdiyi z\u0259f\u0259r g\u00fcn\u00fc kimi… Bax, h\u0259min g\u00fcnl\u0259ri s\u00f6z\u00fcn \u0259sl m\u0259nas\u0131nda YA\u015eADIM! Xalq olaraq YA\u015eADIQ!<\/p>\n

Bu ya\u015fant\u0131n\u0131n arxas\u0131nda Etibar ki\u015finin a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 da vard\u0131, belini \u0259y\u0259n \u00f6vlad itkisiyl\u0259 h\u0259mah\u0259ng\u00a0 k\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u00fc qabardan\u00a0 \u015eu\u015fa q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259si d\u0259… O g\u00fcnd\u0259n b\u0259ri h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 rastla\u015fanda m\u0259ni el\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259 salamlay\u0131r ki:<\/p>\n

-N\u0259t\u0259h\u0259rs\u0259n, ay \u00c7\u0259m\u0259nli balas\u0131?<\/p>\n

-Yax\u015f\u0131yam, s\u0259n neynirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

-Can\u0131m\u0131 sazlay\u0131ram, \u015eu\u015faya ged\u0259c\u0259yik ax\u0131.<\/p>\n

-Ged\u0259rik, ged\u0259rik, azca\u00a0 hava a\u00e7\u0131ls\u0131n.<\/p>\n

-Hans\u0131 havada des\u0259n, ged\u0259r\u0259m ey… Di g\u0259l, s\u0259nin bu amanat ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131na belim b\u0259rk d\u00f6y, b\u00f6yr\u00fc \u00fcst\u0259 y\u0131x\u0131l\u0131b qalar \u015eu\u015fa da\u011flar\u0131nda.<\/p>\n

-Yox, a ki\u015fi! S\u0259n d\u0259 s\u00f6z dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131n ha! Ne\u00e7\u0259 ildi bayram dem\u0259d\u0259n, seyran dem\u0259d\u0259n bu qarl\u0131-buzlu dolaylar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xan bu qara ma\u015f\u0131n d\u00f6ym\u00fc?!<\/p>\n

-\u015eu\u015fa yolu h\u0259r yola b\u0259nz\u0259m\u0259z! Yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131, \u00f6y\u00fcnm\u0259kd\u0259ns\u0259 yaz\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259, ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 da arada g\u0259tir bir o yan-bu yan\u0131na ke\u00e7im, d\u0259mir-d\u00fcm\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fc yoxlay\u0131m. S\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 var, bir d\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcn kefin k\u0259sdi, bu qara ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 el\u0259 bu dolay\u0131n ortas\u0131ndaca qoyub getdin.<\/p>\n

A\u015fa\u011f\u0131-yuxar\u0131 g\u00fcna\u015f\u0131r\u0131 s\u00f6hb\u0259timiz m\u0259hz bu axarda davam edirdi, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259n ax\u0131rda \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n bir \u015faqqanaq \u00e7\u0259kir, ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131ma minib \u00fcz\u00fcyuxar\u0131 k\u0259nd\u0259 sar\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Hiss edirdim ki, Etibar ki\u015finin d\u0259 eyni a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r bu c\u00fcr s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259rl\u0259.\u00a0 Onu da bilirdim ki, h\u0259r adama bel\u0259 \u0259rk el\u0259mir, bel\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259k q\u0131zd\u0131r\u0131b s\u00f6hb\u0259tin ba\u015f\u0131na \u00e7at\u0131 sal\u0131b doland\u0131rm\u0131r. Bu da bir ayr\u0131ca xo\u015fuma g\u0259lirdi, n\u0259 yalan deyim…<\/p>\n

…Bu dekabr s\u0259h\u0259rind\u0259 d\u0259 Etibar ki\u015fi qaba\u011f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Amma bu d\u0259f\u0259 hal\u0131nda bir q\u0259rib\u0259lik vard\u0131. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 koman\u0131n yar\u0131a\u00e7\u0131q qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda durar, arxas\u0131ndan vuran i\u015f\u0131qda \u0259lini yell\u0259y\u0259r, rayona en\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131nlar\u0131 saxlayard\u0131. \u0130ndi is\u0259 d\u00fcz ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131na qa\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bunu el\u0259 q\u0259fil el\u0259mi\u015fdi ki, bir anl\u0131q ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda qalaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 fikirl\u0259\u015fdim. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc toplay\u0131b ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 saxlad\u0131m, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 kabin\u0259nin aynas\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131m:<\/p>\n

-Neyn\u0259diyindi, ay evi y\u0131x\u0131lm\u0131\u015f?! Demirs\u0259nmi, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 b\u0259db\u0259xt ed\u0259rs\u0259n, m\u0259ni d\u0259!<\/p>\n

-S\u0259n d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 xo\u015fbaxt dey\u0259nd\u0259, g\u0259r\u0259k xo\u015fbaxtlar y\u0131x\u0131l\u0131b \u00f6ls\u00fcn! Bir a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcm!-Bunu deyib Etibar ki\u015fi komaya sar\u0131 qa\u00e7d\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ma\u015f\u0131ndan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb m\u0259n d\u0259 onun arxas\u0131nca y\u00f6n\u0259ldim. Amma komaya bir-iki add\u0131m qalm\u0131\u015f i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b \u00e7\u0131mx\u0131rd\u0131:<\/p>\n

-Ma\u015f\u0131ndan d\u00fc\u015f dedim, dal\u0131mca g\u0259l dem\u0259dim! Orda dur!<\/p>\n

-B\u0131y, a ki\u015fi, nolub?<\/p>\n

-Bir toxta deyir\u0259m, g\u0259lir\u0259m indi…-Bunu dey\u0259-dey\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131n arxas\u0131ndak\u0131 as\u0131lqana ke\u00e7irdiyi kostyumun d\u00f6\u015f cibini e\u015firdi.<\/p>\n

Handan-hana axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tapd\u0131 dey\u0259s\u0259n, ovcunu i\u015f\u0131\u011fa tutub baxd\u0131, rahatl\u0131qla n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131b ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 tez koman\u0131n i\u00e7in\u0259 do\u011fru uzatd\u0131. Bilmir\u0259m m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259ldi, yoxsa do\u011frudan da, Etibar ki\u015fi astaca n\u0259s\u0259 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lday\u0131b ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yell\u0259di? Yox, bu g\u00fcn ki\u015fiy\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 oldu\u011fu d\u0259qiqdi. Allah el\u0259m\u0259mi\u015f, bird\u0259n hu\u015fu ged\u0259r ha?! Qocal\u0131qd\u0131 da, v\u0259fas\u0131 yoxdu ki, adam urvat\u0131n\u0131 ax\u0131r g\u00fcn\u0259c\u0259n saxlas\u0131n…<\/p>\n

-Al, say g\u00f6r\u00fcm ne\u00e7\u0259di? \u2013Etibar ki\u015fi i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b ovcundak\u0131 pullar\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 uzatd\u0131.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb sayd\u0131m:<\/p>\n

-Q\u0131rx iki manatd\u0131.<\/p>\n

-Azd\u0131…-Bir az fikr\u0259 getdi, dedi:-G\u00f6zl\u0259, indi g\u0259lir\u0259m.\u00a0 Kitab\u0131n aras\u0131na qoydum, dey\u0259s\u0259n, d\u00fcn\u0259nki\u00a0 on manat\u0131…Yad\u0131m qurusun…-S\u00f6yl\u0259n\u0259-s\u00f6yl\u0259n\u0259 yen\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7di, bu d\u0259f\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 arxas\u0131yca \u00e7\u0259kib b\u0259rk \u00f6rtd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Havan\u0131n ayaz\u0131 s\u0131r\u0131ql\u0131n\u0131n boynundan i\u00e7\u0259ri dolurdu, yaxal\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 qald\u0131rd\u0131m, pulu cibim\u0259 qoyub \u0259ll\u0259rimi bir-birin\u0259 s\u00fcrtd\u00fcm. Bird\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, d\u0259mir koman\u0131n \u0259yri p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259 bir yox, iki k\u00f6lg\u0259 var. Sa\u011f \u0259limin arxas\u0131 il\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi ovu\u015fdurub t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n aynaya baxd\u0131m; yan\u0131lmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. H\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n d\u0259, i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259 iki n\u0259f\u0259r vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

-Sabah-sabah kim ola? H\u0259l\u0259 ki\u015fi d\u0259 onu m\u0259nd\u0259n gizl\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fa…<\/p>\n

-G\u0259lir\u0259m, darqursaq olma!-Etibar ki\u015fi qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri dey\u0259nd\u0259 anlad\u0131m ki, fikirl\u0259\u015fdiyimi ucadan demi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc o yer\u0259 qoymad\u0131m:<\/p>\n

-Donduq ki soyuqdan! Bir st\u0259kan \u00e7ay da ver\u0259n olmad\u0131 ki, bala,\u00a0 he\u00e7 olmasa e\u015fikd\u0259 i\u00e7, komaya ke\u00e7m\u0259yin\u0259 day izn yoxdu!<\/p>\n

-Diliac\u0131l\u0131q el\u0259m\u0259 ha! S\u00f6z dey\u0259r\u0259m, d\u0259ymi\u015fin dura-dura kal\u0131n t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259r!<\/p>\n

-\u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131na atma\u011f\u0131n b\u0259s d\u00f6y, indi d\u0259 \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 \u201cxox\u201d g\u0259lirs\u0259n?!-Hiss edir\u0259m ki, \u015faqqanaq \u00e7\u0259km\u0259yim\u0259 az qal\u0131b. S\u00f6zl\u0259rin \u0259n s\u0259rtl\u0259rini se\u00e7ir\u0259m beynimd\u0259…<\/p>\n

-M\u0259n ha?! S\u0259n s\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fcn ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda qal\u0131b \u00f6l\u0259m ha?! Ay\u0259, m\u0259n h\u0259r s\u0259nin kimisinin ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda qal\u0131b \u00f6lm\u0259r\u0259m. Ad\u0131m-san\u0131m var!<\/p>\n

-\u018fc\u0259l g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 ada-sana bax\u0131r, el\u0259mi?! \u2013Daha \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc saxlaya bilmir\u0259m, q\u0259hq\u0259h\u0259m qarl\u0131 havada buz \u015faqq\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 kimi s\u0259sl\u0259nir.<\/p>\n

Etibar ki\u015fi bu d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 ovcundak\u0131 on manat\u0131 uzatd\u0131:<\/p>\n

-Oldumu \u0259lli iki?<\/p>\n

-H\u0259…<\/p>\n

-Di yax\u015f\u0131, dedikl\u0259rimi birc\u0259-birc\u0259 alarsan. Yad\u0131nda qalarm\u0131? Yoxsa i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259n ka\u011f\u0131z-q\u0259l\u0259m g\u0259tirimmi?<\/p>\n

-A ki\u015fi, s\u0259n bu g\u00fcn lap \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yad olmusan ha! Ne\u00e7\u0259 ildi burdan ke\u00e7ir\u0259m? He\u00e7 birc\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 tap\u015f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u0259skik alm\u0131\u015fam? Art\u0131q alm\u0131\u015fam ki, \u0259skik yox.<\/p>\n

-\u00c7\u0259m\u0259nlid\u0259niydin el\u0259mi?<\/p>\n

-H\u0259…Guya bilmirs\u0259nmi?<\/p>\n

-Bir d\u0259 soru\u015fanda ay\u0131b\u0131n art\u0131r?<\/p>\n

-Paho… Di tez el\u0259, n\u0259 almal\u0131yam den\u0259n, g\u00fcn bir boy qalxacaq indic\u0259.<\/p>\n

-S\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259yir g\u00fcn, narahat olma, s\u0259n rayona \u00e7atmay\u0131nca boyunu g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n

-Niy\u0259? M\u00fcqavil\u0259mmi var?<\/p>\n

-Yox, s\u0259n kims\u0259n ki, Allah\u0131n g\u00fcn\u00fc s\u0259ninl\u0259 \u015f\u0259rt k\u0259ssin? M\u0259n tap\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015fam!<\/p>\n

\u0130kinci d\u0259f\u0259 u\u011funuram. Daha n\u0259s\u0259 dem\u0259y\u0259 dilim tutmur. Etibar ki\u015fi z\u0259nnl\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 bax\u0131r:<\/p>\n

-G\u00fclm\u0259yini qurtaranda de, alacaqlar\u0131n\u0131 say\u0131m.<\/p>\n

-De…De g\u0259lsin…-D\u0259rind\u0259n bir n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131b belimi d\u00fcz\u0259ldir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

-Dem\u0259li bel\u0259, bir d\u0259st isti corab,\u00a0 yax\u015f\u0131 \u015firnil\u0259rd\u0259n d\u0259 bir-iki kilo… Yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndan ha, a\u011f\u0131za qoyanda ma\u011f\u0131l bir \u015fey dads\u0131n.<\/p>\n

-Ba\u015f \u00fcst\u0259!<\/p>\n

-Sonra… Bazarda hans\u0131 meyv\u0259 varsa ondan al, qonaq qaba\u011f\u0131na \u00e7\u0131xas\u0131 olan\u0131ndan.<\/p>\n

-B\u0131y… Qona\u011f\u0131n var?<\/p>\n

-S\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc k\u0259sm\u0259! H\u0259l\u0259 siyah\u0131 uzundur.-Bunu h\u00fcnd\u00fcrd\u0259n des\u0259 d\u0259, sonra s\u0259sini al\u00e7ald\u0131r:- Bir\u00a0 qutu da \u0259m\u0259lli siqaret…<\/p>\n

-Siqaret?<\/p>\n

Daha n\u0259s\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259s\u0259m d\u0259, demir\u0259m, s\u00f6zl\u0259rimi uduram. M\u0259ni susma\u011fa vadar ed\u0259n Etibar ki\u015finin \u00fcrk\u0259kc\u0259sin\u0259 koman\u0131n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sin\u0259 d\u0259yib qay\u0131dan\u00a0 bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131d\u0131… Bu bax\u0131\u015flarda do\u011fma h\u00fcznl\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131, bir q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n raz\u0131 qalm\u0131\u015f adam\u0131n rahatlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ifad\u0259 var. S\u00f6z\u00fc \u00e7evirir\u0259m:<\/p>\n

-Siqaret var bir manat, var iki manat… Hans\u0131ndan?<\/p>\n

-Hans\u0131 yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131 ondan.\u00a0 \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f, bu g\u00fcn o, n\u0259ydi ad\u0131, \u018fz\u0259m\u0259tin kababxanas\u0131na-zada \u00fcz tutma, bu g\u00fcn d\u0259 nahar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcn alt\u0131nda Allah ver\u0259nd\u0259n el\u0259.<\/p>\n

-Qeydim\u0259 el\u0259 qalansan, bir yax\u015f\u0131 so\u011fan\u00e7al\u0131 qay\u011fanaq el\u0259 m\u0259n d\u00f6n\u0259n\u0259.<\/p>\n

-Onu sabah…Sabah… Bu g\u00fcn tez qay\u0131t g\u0259l, yubanma. Evind\u0259 yumurta tap\u0131lmayan k\u0259nd\u00e7iy\u0259 k\u0259nd\u00e7i dem\u0259zdik biz o vaxt. Yoxundusa, qay\u0131danda yumurta ver\u0259r\u0259m, amma qay\u011fanaq sabah.<\/p>\n

-Yax\u015f\u0131-yax\u015f\u0131. X\u0259sis\u0259 dedil\u0259r \u00e7ay\u0131 ne\u00e7\u0259 q\u0259ndl\u0259 i\u00e7irs\u0259n? Dedi, evimd\u0259 bir, qon\u015fuda \u00fc\u00e7 q\u0259ndl\u0259.<\/p>\n

Bu d\u0259f\u0259 ikimiz d\u0259 g\u00fcld\u00fck. Etibar ki\u015fi \u0259lini k\u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 vurub ba\u015f\u0131yla yola i\u015far\u0259 el\u0259di. Ma\u015f\u0131na atlay\u0131b i\u015f\u0259 sal\u0131ram, dolay\u0131n birini burulandan sonra qeyri-ixtiyar\u0131 \u00e7evrilib komaya bax\u0131ram. Bacas\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xan t\u00fcst\u00fcd\u0259 d\u0259 bu sirr var sanki… \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 bu sirr \u00f6mr\u00fcnd\u0259 doda\u011f\u0131 siqaret s\u00fcm\u00fcrm\u0259mi\u015f bir qocan\u0131n \u201csiqaretin \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndan al\u201d dem\u0259si q\u0259d\u0259r d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcd\u00fcr. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc… Biz\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259yi \u00f6yr\u0259d\u0259nl\u0259r d\u0259 el\u0259 qocalar deyilmi? Qoca… Yox, \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131 ulular\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n ehtiramla dil\u0259 g\u0259tirdiyi \u201ca\u011fsaqqal\u201d k\u0259lm\u0259sidi. N\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l deyibl\u0259r ey… Bir \u015feyi d\u0259 anlay\u0131ram bu g\u00fcn: n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ki, bizd\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u0259r var h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131zda, dem\u0259k, h\u0259l\u0259 hardasa u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zla aram\u0131zda bir k\u00f6rp\u00fc var. Yan\u0131nda u\u015faq olduqlar\u0131m\u0131z bir-bir h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131zdan yox olduqca b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcr\u00fck, ah\u0131lla\u015f\u0131r\u0131q, ixtiyarla\u015f\u0131r\u0131q…<\/p>\n

Yad\u0131ma \u015eahin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr… \u0130ki ayd\u0131r x\u0259b\u0259r-\u0259t\u0259r \u00e7\u0131xmayan \u015eahin. \u018fn son kims\u0259 internetd\u0259n bir \u015f\u0259klini tapm\u0131\u015fd\u0131,\u00a0 \u015eu\u015fan\u0131n giri\u015find\u0259ki \u201c\u015eU\u015eA\u201d yaz\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda \u0259lind\u0259 avtomat dayan\u0131b g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yirdi. \u0130ndi o \u015f\u0259kil b\u00fct\u00fcn onu tan\u0131yanlar\u0131n telefonundayd\u0131. El\u0259 m\u0259nim d\u0259… H\u0259rd\u0259n a\u00e7\u0131b-bax\u0131r, bu boyda, bu buxunda bir igidin bir qar d\u0259n\u0259si kimi nam\u0259lumluqda \u201cyoxa \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131\u201d a\u011fl\u0131ma s\u0131\u011fd\u0131ramm\u0131rd\u0131m. Nec\u0259 y\u0259ni bu yek\u0259likd\u0259 adamdan bir s\u0259s \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131r?! Bir \u201cg\u00f6rd\u00fcm\u201d dey\u0259n tap\u0131lm\u0131r?! \u00dcr\u0259yimd\u0259 bir d\u0259 o qorxu var ki, I Qaraba\u011f m\u00fcharib\u0259sind\u0259 itkin d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nl\u0259rin ad\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na yaz\u0131la \u015eahinin ad\u0131… Allah el\u0259m\u0259sin, Allah el\u0259m\u0259sin…<\/p>\n

\u015e\u0259hid olmu\u015f \u00fc\u00e7 igidd\u0259n birinin-F\u00fczulinin n\u0259n\u0259sini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn qabaq, M\u0259tan\u0259t n\u0259n\u0259ni… Arvad dilind\u0259 \u201c\u015f\u00fck\u00fcr\u201d il\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259ri a\u00e7\u0131r, ax\u015fam\u0131 yola sal\u0131rd\u0131: \u201c\u015e\u00fck\u00fcr k\u0259r\u0259min\u0259, \u0130lahi! Balam\u0131n meyidini rahatca torpa\u011fa basd\u0131rmaq n\u0259sibimiz oldu! Kimin balas\u0131 sa\u011fd\u0131, sa\u011f g\u0259lsin, \u015f\u0259hid olub, g\u0259tirib torpa\u011fa ver\u0259 bilsin…\u201d<\/p>\n

Bildim ki, sonuncu c\u00fcml\u0259 \u015eahin\u0259 aiddi… G\u00f6r\u0259n, hardad\u0131 ax\u0131? M\u00fcharib\u0259 bit\u0259li\u00a0 bir ay olur, sa\u011fd\u0131sa, niy\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 z\u0259ng el\u0259mir evl\u0259rin\u0259?\u00a0 He\u00e7 olmasa, \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259rl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259 ged\u0259nl\u0259r, \u0259sg\u0259r pay\u0131 aparanlar bar\u0131 \u00e7oxlu \u015f\u0259kill\u0259r \u00e7\u0259kdir\u0259, baxaq, o \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rd\u0259n birind\u0259s\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xa \u015eahinin g\u00fcl\u0259r \u00fcz\u00fc qaba\u011f\u0131m\u0131za…<\/p>\n

…Rayon m\u0259rk\u0259zind\u0259 d\u0259, el\u0259 geriy\u0259 qay\u0131danda da el\u0259c\u0259 \u015eahin g\u0259lib dururdu g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131nda. El\u0259 bil, \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 damm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Amma n\u0259? Hardan bil\u0259ydim… Buna a\u011fl\u0131m \u00e7atmaz, yox, bu, Yaradan\u0131n hikm\u0259tidi, b\u0259nd\u0259 i\u015fi deyil…<\/p>\n

Etibar ki\u015finin komas\u0131na \u00e7at\u0131b ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 saxlad\u0131m. M\u0259n kabin\u0259d\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259mi\u015f ki\u015fi ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc ald\u0131:<\/p>\n

-Noooldu? \u015e\u0259kiy\u0259 ip\u0259y\u0259 ged\u0259n g\u0259ldi, \u00c7\u0259m\u0259nli balas\u0131 g\u0259lm\u0259di…<\/p>\n

-Bir g\u00fcnortan xeyir, a ki\u015fi!\u00a0 \u015e\u00fck\u00fcr el\u0259, h\u0259l\u0259 \u015e\u0259kiy\u0259 gedib ip\u0259k dal\u0131nca, \u00c7in\u0259 gets\u0259ydi, qay\u0131tmazd\u0131.<\/p>\n

-Niy\u0259? Yolda s\u0259n\u0259 rast g\u0259l\u0259rdi, \u00e7\u0259n\u0259nin alt\u0131na salard\u0131n?<\/p>\n

-S\u0259n\u0259 s\u00f6z \u00e7atd\u0131ran\u0131 ild\u0131r\u0131m vursun, Etibar ki\u015fi!<\/p>\n

-\u0130ld\u0131r\u0131m da h\u0259dura adam vurmur ha, onun da bir urvat\u0131 olur!<\/p>\n

G\u00fcl\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259 \u0259limd\u0259ki iri ka\u011f\u0131z torban\u0131 ona uzad\u0131ram. O da t\u0259l\u0259sik torban\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb komaya t\u0259r\u0259f d\u00f6n\u00fcr. \u018flimi cibim\u0259 sal\u0131b pulun qal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131ram:<\/p>\n

-A ki\u015fi! Pulun qal\u0131b ey…<\/p>\n

-G\u00f6zl\u0259…G\u00f6zl\u0259…-dey\u0259-dey\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7ir. Qap\u0131 yen\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131l\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Pulu ovcumda tutub komaya t\u0259r\u0259f bir-iki add\u0131m at\u0131ram. Qula\u011f\u0131ma d\u0259y\u0259n s\u0259s o q\u0259d\u0259r tan\u0131\u015fd\u0131r ki…Amma n\u0259 dediyini an\u015f\u0131rdamm\u0131ram. \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7m\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m, sabaha s\u00f6z verib Etibar ki\u015fi, n\u0259dirs\u0259, bu sirr bel\u0259 \u00fcst\u00fcba\u011fl\u0131 qalmayacaq. \u018fyilib\u00a0 sol \u0259lim\u0259 bir az qar g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb ovxalay\u0131ram. U\u015faql\u0131qdan ad\u0259timdi,\u00a0 fikirli olanda h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ovcumda n\u0259yis\u0259 ovxalay\u0131ram.<\/p>\n

-G\u0259l, s\u0259ni yola sal\u0131m.-Etibar ki\u015fi qolumdan tutub \u00fcz\u00fc ma\u015f\u0131na t\u0259r\u0259f dart\u0131n\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Yan-yana ma\u015f\u0131na \u00e7at\u0131r\u0131q, \u0259limd\u0259ki pulu uzad\u0131ram, sakitc\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb pamb\u0131ql\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n yan cibin\u0259 d\u00fcrt\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcr\u00fcr. Bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 uzaqlara dikib, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini d\u0259 q\u0131y\u0131b. Dem\u0259li, n\u0259s\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fir. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 bu n\u0259s\u0259 el\u0259-bel\u0259 \u015fey deyil ha, u\u011frunda b\u00fct\u00fcn fikirl\u0259rini k\u00f6hl\u0259n edib \u00e7apma\u011fa d\u0259y\u0259r. S\u00f6hb\u0259t\u0259 c\u0131\u011f\u0131r\u0131 m\u0259n sal\u0131ram:<\/p>\n

-Ne\u00e7\u0259 kilometr qal\u0131b?<\/p>\n

-N\u0259? N\u0259 kilometri?<\/p>\n

-He\u00e7… G\u00f6rd\u00fcm g\u00f6zl\u0259rin yol \u00e7\u0259kir, dedim y\u0259qin, rayon m\u0259rk\u0259zin\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015farsan.<\/p>\n

-Ox\u015fama ox\u015fam\u0131\u015f\u0131na… Sonra dey\u0259rl\u0259r, Etibar kimi dili itidi.<\/p>\n

-S\u0259nd\u0259n d\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259liy\u0259m ya yox?<\/p>\n

-G\u00f6r n\u0259 deyir\u0259m. Ax\u015fam hava qaralanda yava\u015fca bu qara ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fca\u015fa\u011f\u0131 yell\u0259, s\u0259n\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcm olacaq.<\/p>\n

-Gec\u0259mi?<\/p>\n

-H\u0259…<\/p>\n

-Gec\u0259nin \u015f\u0259ri \u00e7ox olur, ki\u015fi!<\/p>\n

-B\u0259ni-ad\u0259min xeyir \u0259m\u0259li \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn gec\u0259yl\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fcn f\u0259rqi yoxdur, \u00c7\u0259m\u0259nli balas\u0131. Bunu da yaz \u00f6yr\u0259ndikl\u0259rinin yan\u0131na. Di c\u0259ld ol, at\u0131l ma\u015f\u0131na, d\u00fcz \u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcn alt\u0131na get, qay\u011fana\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ye. Ax\u015fama g\u00f6zl\u0259yir\u0259m, bil\u0259s\u0259n.<\/p>\n

-Qay\u011fanaq s\u0259nin boynunad\u0131, ax\u015fam olsun, sabah olsun, f\u0259rq el\u0259m\u0259z.<\/p>\n

-Di yax\u015f\u0131, yumurtas\u0131z evin yiy\u0259si, ax\u015fama. Dinc\u0259ldinmi?<\/p>\n

G\u00fcl\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131na \u0259yl\u0259\u015fir\u0259m. Bir d\u0259 k\u0259ndin gir\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259 Xano\u011flan m\u00fc\u0259llimi g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 dayan\u0131ram:<\/p>\n

-G\u00fcnortan xeyir, m\u00fc\u0259llim!<\/p>\n

-Bu vaxt\u0131n xeyir!<\/p>\n

-Hara bel\u0259?<\/p>\n

-He\u00e7… \u00dcr\u0259yim dar\u0131xd\u0131, el\u0259 bu qar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 bir-iki iz sal\u0131m dedim.<\/p>\n

-At\u0131l, apar\u0131m qap\u0131ya.<\/p>\n

-G\u0259z\u0259-g\u0259z\u0259 qay\u0131daram, ba\u015f\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fcm. Eynim a\u00e7\u0131lar bir az da. Bu qar\u0131 da, k\u0259r\u0259min\u0259 qurban oldu\u011fum, h\u0259r il eyni \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcyl\u0259 paylam\u0131r\u00a0 b\u0259\u015f\u0259r\u0259.<\/p>\n

T\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 i\u015f\u0259 sal\u0131ram. Bilir\u0259m ki, Xano\u011flan m\u00fc\u0259llimi d\u0259 k\u0259ndin \u00e7\u0131xaca\u011f\u0131na q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u0259kib g\u0259tir\u0259n fikrin, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259nin\u00a0 i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u015eahinin ad\u0131 var.<\/p>\n

…S\u0259h\u0259rin alatoran\u0131nda enm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m dolaylar ax\u015fam\u0131n qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131na k\u00f6n\u00fcl ver\u0259nd\u0259 bir ayr\u0131 al\u0259m olurmu\u015f… G\u00f6r ha, ne\u00e7\u0259 ildi s\u0259h\u0259r enib, g\u00fcnorta qalx\u0131ram bu yamac\u0131. He\u00e7 g\u00f6r, bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 olsun a\u011fl\u0131ma g\u0259libmi ki,\u00a0 ax\u015fam\u0131n hal\u0131 n\u0259t\u0259h\u0259rdi? Ad\u0259tk\u0259rd\u0259 olmaq da bir d\u0259rddi insana, p\u0259rak\u0259nd\u0259 olmaq da…<\/p>\n

Ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 saxlay\u0131b h\u0259y\u0259canla komaya t\u0259r\u0259f add\u0131mlay\u0131ram. Ax\u015fam\u0131n qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131 qat\u0131la\u015fd\u0131qca koma da\u00a0 f\u0259rqli d\u0259yir g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259, el\u0259 bil, hans\u0131sa q\u0131\u015f na\u011f\u0131l\u0131n\u0131n d\u00fcz ortas\u0131ndayam, hans\u0131sa qara me\u015f\u0259nin d\u0259rinliyind\u0259 bir nurani qocan\u0131n hikm\u0259t dolu komas\u0131n\u0131n astanas\u0131ndayam…<\/p>\n

-G\u0259ldin, R\u00fcst\u0259m?<\/p>\n

Etibar ki\u015fi el\u0259 h\u0259lim s\u0259sl\u0259 m\u0259ni \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r ki, \u00f6z\u00fcm m\u0259\u0259tt\u0259l qal\u0131ram. H\u0259m d\u0259 f\u0259rqin\u0259 var\u0131ram ki, ilk d\u0259f\u0259di ad\u0131m\u0131 onun dilind\u0259n e\u015fidir\u0259m.\u00a0 Cavab verm\u0259d\u0259n i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7ir\u0259m v\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131mda dayanan adam\u0131n kimliyini d\u0259rk etm\u0259yim bir ne\u00e7\u0259 an \u00e7\u0259kir.\u00a0 Birc\u0259 k\u0259lm\u0259 s\u00f6z \u201cah\u201d kimi qopur sin\u0259md\u0259n:<\/p>\n

-\u015eahin!<\/p>\n

Qollar\u0131m\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b qucaqlay\u0131ram. O da qollar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131r, amma k\u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 birc\u0259 \u0259l d\u0259yir…\u00a0 G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc h\u0259rl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m ki, \u015eahinin sol qolunun dirs\u0259kd\u0259n a\u015fa\u011f\u0131s\u0131 yoxdur. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 onu daha b\u0259rkd\u0259n qucaqlad\u0131m, ba\u011fr\u0131ma bas\u0131b h\u00f6nk\u00fcrd\u00fcm. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ke\u00e7di bilmir\u0259m, Etibar ki\u015finin h\u00f6kml\u00fc s\u0259si\u00a0 q\u0259h\u0259rimin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0259pildi:<\/p>\n

-Toxtay\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcm. Yek\u0259-yek\u0259 ki\u015fil\u0259rdi, h\u00f6nk\u00fcrt\u00fcl\u0259rin\u0259 bax.<\/p>\n

\u015eahinin g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 baxd\u0131m, q\u0131pq\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 idi, anlad\u0131m ki, a\u011flamaqdand\u0131… Kim bilir, n\u0259 vaxtdan, n\u0259y\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131r bu igid? Bir anl\u0131q beynimd\u0259n ke\u00e7irdim ki, s\u00f6hb\u0259tin m\u0259cras\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259s\u0259m, yen\u0259 q\u0259h\u0259rim\u0259 yenil\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. \u00dcz\u00fcm\u00fc Etibar ki\u015fiy\u0259 tutdum:<\/p>\n

-S\u0259h\u0259r tezd\u0259n dey\u0259ydin, indiy\u0259 bir yerd\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131b qurtarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q.<\/p>\n

-M\u0259n ha? M\u0259nim g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n ya\u015f da \u00e7\u0131xmay\u0131b. \u015eu\u015fan\u0131 azad el\u0259y\u0259n igidin qaba\u011f\u0131nda a\u011flamaq olmaz! O, m\u0259nim o\u011flumu azad eliyib e! O\u011flumu… \u015eu\u015fam\u0131… M\u0259n ancaq gedib orda a\u011falayaram, o da ta s\u0259nin kimi boynumu b\u00fck\u0259-b\u00fck\u0259 yox, bel\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 dik tutub a\u011flayaram.<\/p>\n

Etibar ki\u015fi\u00a0 \u00e7\u0259n\u0259sini yuxar\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b qollar\u0131n\u0131 yana a\u00e7d\u0131.\u00a0 Onun bu \u015fax duru\u015fu da m\u0259ni g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259tdi. \u015eahinin \u00e7iynind\u0259n tutub\u00a0 taxta k\u0259tilin birini g\u00f6st\u0259rdim. Oturdu, m\u0259n d\u0259 bir k\u0259til g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb q\u0259n\u015f\u0259rind\u0259 yerimi rahatlad\u0131m. N\u0259 soru\u015faca\u011f\u0131m\u0131, n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259yimi beynimd\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr-qoy el\u0259yirdim. Etibar ki\u015fi d\u0259 bir \u0259lli so\u011fan soyur, bir \u0259lli d\u0259 balaca k\u00fcp\u0259d\u0259n ya\u011f \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b tavaya sal\u0131r, h\u0259rd\u0259n d\u0259 masaya bo\u015fqab-\u00e7\u0259ng\u0259l da\u015f\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131.\u00a0 \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc toparlay\u0131b \u015eahin\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 dem\u0259liydim, bilirdim, amma n\u0259? Bax, \u0259n \u00e7\u0259tini\u00a0 deyil\u0259si o s\u00f6z\u00fc tapmaq idi…<\/p>\n

-Bilir\u0259m, R\u00fcst\u0259m. \u0130ndi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u0259n ki, niy\u0259 burdayam. Niy\u0259 k\u0259nd\u0259, evimiz\u0259 getmir\u0259m… -\u015eahin asta-asta s\u00f6hb\u0259t\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131, dey\u0259s\u0259n, m\u0259nim s\u00f6z \u0259lind\u0259 na\u00e7ar qald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 duymu\u015fdu: – Ax\u0131, k\u0259nd\u0259 nec\u0259 gedim?! Yad\u0131nda bizi h\u0259rbi komissarl\u0131\u011fa apard\u0131\u011f\u0131n g\u00fcn? Bir \u00f6nc\u0259ki ax\u015fam ham\u0131m\u0131z\u00a0 F\u00fczuligil\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q. M\u0259tan\u0259t n\u0259n\u0259 bir-bir ham\u0131m\u0131z \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dua oxudu, sonra da \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259n\u0259 tutub dedi: \u201cAy \u015eahin,\u00a0 can\u0131m s\u0259n\u0259 qurban, F\u00fczuli bir az cans\u0131zd\u0131r, \u00f6z\u00fcn bilirs\u0259n. El\u0259 u\u015faql\u0131qdan yel \u0259s\u0259nd\u0259 \u0259yilib qovaq \u015f\u00fcv\u00fcl\u00fc kimi. \u00dcr\u0259kdi, durmur, d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u0259 getm\u0259liy\u0259m dedi, dinc\u0259lm\u0259di, day biz\u0259 d\u0259 u\u011furlamaq qal\u0131r. Nolar, bir-biriniz\u0259 fikir verin, bu, ayr\u0131, amma F\u00fczulid\u0259n mu\u011fayat ol, ba\u015f\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fcm\u201d.\u00a0 H\u0259l\u0259 F\u00fczulinin balaca, m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 oxuyan bac\u0131s\u0131 nec\u0259 a\u011flad\u0131 o ax\u015fam… El\u0259 ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f b\u00f6lg\u0259sind\u0259 F\u00fczuliyl\u0259 eyni d\u0259st\u0259d\u0259 vuru\u015faca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bil\u0259nd\u0259 \u00e7ox sevindim. G\u00f6z\u00fcm \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 olacaqd\u0131 n\u0259 d\u0259 olsa. Amma… F\u0259l\u0259yin say hesab\u0131 bizimkiyl\u0259 d\u00fcz g\u0259lmir, ay R\u00fcst\u0259m…\u00a0 H\u0259min g\u00fcn… F\u00fczuliyl\u0259 yan-yana d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fck. Q\u0259fil h\u00fccuma ke\u00e7mi\u015fdik. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 itirmi\u015f d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259ri el\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumub havaya at\u0259\u015f a\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131lar. Bir d\u0259 onu g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, F\u00fczuli m\u0259ni ke\u00e7ib ir\u0259li cumdu. El\u0259 bil, Allah ona m\u0259xsusi bir c\u0259sar\u0259t \u0259ta el\u0259mi\u015fdi o anda. El\u0259 y\u00fcy\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc, z\u0259nn el\u0259dim, \u0259lin\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259ni bir h\u0259ml\u0259d\u0259 \u0259liyl\u0259 par\u00e7alayacaq. A\u011fz\u0131m\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b \u201cDayan!\u201d dem\u0259y\u0259 macal tapmad\u0131m, el\u0259 bir partlay\u0131\u015f s\u0259si e\u015fidildi ki, d\u00fcnya yerind\u0259n oynad\u0131 sand\u0131m. Y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131m. \u00dcst\u00fcm\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n torpa\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131b aya\u011fa qalxanda g\u00f6z\u00fcm birinci F\u00fczulini axtard\u0131. Al-qan i\u00e7ind\u0259ydi… N\u0259f\u0259s alm\u0131rd\u0131…<\/p>\n

\u015eahinin s\u0259si titr\u0259di, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sald\u0131. Sonra yegan\u0259 \u0259liyl\u0259 masadak\u0131 siqaret qutusunu qaba\u011f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kdi, bir siqaret \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b a\u011fz\u0131na qoydu, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f uzatd\u0131.\u00a0 Al\u0131\u015fqan\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb siqaretini yand\u0131rd\u0131m, aya\u011fa durub ikiadd\u0131ml\u0131q koman\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 var-g\u0259l el\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 c\u0259hd etdim. Etibar ki\u015fi \u0259lind\u0259ki yumurta qab\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 qap\u0131n\u0131n dal\u0131ndak\u0131 pasl\u0131 vedr\u0259y\u0259 atmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259yilmi\u015fdi, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131randa g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, yanaqlar\u0131nda ya\u015f par\u0131lday\u0131r, amma dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131 bir-birin\u0259 b\u0259rk s\u0131x\u0131b. M\u0259n d\u0259 q\u0259h\u0259rimi uddum, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc toxtad\u0131b qay\u0131d\u0131b yerimd\u0259 oturdum. \u015eahin yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q siqaretini n\u0259lb\u0259kisin\u0259 bas\u0131b s\u00f6nd\u00fcrd\u00fc, i\u00e7ini \u00e7\u0259kdi. Hiss el\u0259dim ki, a\u011flay\u0131r… Bel\u0259 bir anda hans\u0131 s\u00f6z\u00fc des\u0259m yax\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131, g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n? Bilmir\u0259m… \u018fslind\u0259, he\u00e7 a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131 a\u00e7as\u0131\u00a0 halda da deyil\u0259m, bir h\u0259nir el\u0259s\u0259m, yen\u0259 h\u00f6nk\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259yimd\u0259n qorxuram.\u00a0 Susmal\u0131yd\u0131m… \u015eahin i\u00e7ind\u0259ki o y\u0131\u011f\u0131n d\u0259rdin bir damc\u0131 y\u00fcng\u00fcll\u0259\u015fm\u0259si \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dan\u0131\u015fmal\u0131yd\u0131… M\u0259n d\u0259 dinl\u0259m\u0259liydim… Eyn\u0259n s\u0259bir da\u015f\u0131 kimi…<\/p>\n

-Sa\u011f qald\u0131m m\u0259n… Sona q\u0259d\u0259r d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm, \u015eu\u015faya da qalxd\u0131m d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u0259-d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u0259. Amma el\u0259 hey M\u0259tan\u0259t n\u0259n\u0259nin s\u0259si qula\u011f\u0131mda cingild\u0259di: \u201cF\u00fczulid\u0259n mu\u011fayat ol…\u201d Qula\u011f\u0131mdak\u0131 bu g\u00fcy\u00fclt\u00fcyl\u0259 \u015eu\u015faya qalx\u0131rd\u0131m… Sonra nec\u0259 oldu, bilmir\u0259m, bir d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc hospitalda a\u00e7d\u0131m. S\u0259n dem\u0259, \u015eu\u015fan\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131ma\u00a0 m\u0259rmi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb,\u00a0 sol qolumu dirs\u0259kd\u0259n a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 apar\u0131b. Dostlar\u0131m dedil\u0259r ki, qolumu \u00e7ox axtar\u0131blar, tapa bilm\u0259yibl\u0259r.\u00a0 \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 bunu el\u0259 g\u00fcnahkarcas\u0131na s\u00f6yl\u0259yirdil\u0259r ki… Dedim, eybi yox, n\u0259 o\u011fullar can\u0131n\u0131 qoydu torpaq u\u011frunda, bir qol n\u0259di ki d\u0259rdini \u00e7\u0259kim?! \u018fksin\u0259, t\u0259s\u0259llim bildim, \u00f6z\u00fcm \u015f\u0259hid olmasam da, qolum \u015f\u0259hid oldu. Sonra da Teymurun, Anar\u0131n \u015f\u0259hid oldu\u011fu x\u0259b\u0259rini e\u015fitdim hospitalda. \u00dcr\u0259yim g\u0259lm\u0259di k\u0259ndd\u0259 kim\u0259s\u0259 z\u0259ng edib \u201cm\u0259n sa\u011fam\u201d dey\u0259m. Adama dem\u0259zl\u0259rmi, onlardan n\u0259yin art\u0131qd\u0131r ki, sa\u011f qay\u0131td\u0131n? Utand\u0131m…\u00a0 Teymurun\u00a0 ail\u0259si, Anar\u0131n ail\u0259si g\u0259ldi g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131na, nec\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131m onlar\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259? Deyim,\u00a0 bax\u0131n, m\u0259n sa\u011f qay\u0131tm\u0131\u015fam?! H\u0259l\u0259 M\u0259tan\u0259t n\u0259n\u0259… G\u0259l\u0259mmirdim, R\u00fcst\u0259m, ne\u00e7\u0259 vaxtd\u0131, yolu \u0259lim\u0259 al\u0131b \u00c7\u0259m\u0259nliy\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f g\u0259l\u0259mmirdim. \u0130ki g\u00fcn qabaq yuxuma g\u0259ldi F\u00fczuli, \u201cn\u0259n\u0259m s\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259yir\u201d-dedi. Birt\u0259h\u0259r buracan g\u0259ldim, burdan yuxar\u0131 qalxammad\u0131m… \u0130ndi bilmir\u0259m, h\u0259r \u015f\u0259hid ail\u0259sin\u0259 d\u0259rdmi olaca\u011fam, yoxsa t\u0259s\u0259llimi? Qalm\u0131\u015fam na\u00e7ar…<\/p>\n

-\u015e\u0259xs\u0259n m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn indiy\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r tapa bilm\u0259diyim t\u0259s\u0259llim, \u00fcr\u0259k rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131msan, bala!- Etibar ki\u015fi \u00f6tk\u0259m s\u0259sl\u0259 bunu deyib qay\u011fanaq \u00e7\u0259kdiyi bo\u015fqablar\u0131 masaya d\u00fczd\u00fc:- Di ba\u015flay\u0131n, bir-iki qism\u0259t al\u0131n, sonra da yol ba\u015flayaq! Bilir\u0259m, indi ham\u0131-b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00c7\u0259m\u0259nli s\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259yir, bala. Ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n boyunu g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259diyi ged\u0259ni s\u0259ns\u0259n. S\u0259n d\u0259 ki… Yolun ged\u0259r-g\u0259lm\u0259z ha deyildi, \u015eu\u015fayayd\u0131, getdin d\u0259, g\u0259ldin d\u0259! M\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 c\u0131\u011f\u0131r a\u00e7d\u0131n, o\u011flumu azad el\u0259din! Bu gec\u0259 qara ma\u015f\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcyuxar\u0131d\u0131, amma hava a\u00e7\u0131lan kimi \u00fcz\u00fc \u015eu\u015faya ged\u0259c\u0259yik… Di\u00a0 tez olun, soyutmay\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcm. Ya Allah\u0131n ad\u0131…<\/p>\n

Yana\u011f\u0131mdan axan ya\u015flar\u0131 silm\u0259y\u0259 bel\u0259 c\u0259hd el\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n t\u0259ndir \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yini \u0259liml\u0259 tik\u0259l\u0259dim, h\u0259r tik\u0259ni bir loxmal\u0131q el\u0259yib \u015eahinin bo\u015fqab\u0131n\u0131n k\u0259nar\u0131na d\u00fczd\u00fcm, bundan sora \u00f6mr\u00fc boyu \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yini loxmalama\u011fa bir k\u00f6m\u0259k\u00e7iy\u0259 ehyiyac\u0131 olacaqd\u0131, t\u0259k qolla ona \u00e7\u0259tin olacaq…<\/p>\n

…O ax\u015fam\u00a0 qara ma\u015f\u0131nda \u00c7\u0259m\u0259nliy\u0259 iki n\u0259f\u0259r girdi: m\u0259n v\u0259 \u015eahin… Amma ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 birinci M\u0259tan\u0259t n\u0259n\u0259nin qap\u0131s\u0131nda saxlad\u0131m…<\/p>\n

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(hekay\u0259) G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, ke\u00e7\u0259n ilki q\u0131\u015fla bu ilki q\u0131\u015f aras\u0131ndak\u0131 \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck f\u0259rq n\u0259dir? Ke\u00e7\u0259n il d\u0259 qar bel\u0259 lopa-lopa ya\u011fm\u0131rd\u0131m\u0131? Yox, yox, dey\u0259s\u0259n, onda az-az, h\u0259zin-h\u0259zin ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259, s\u0259hv xat\u0131rlam\u0131ramsa, ke\u00e7\u0259n il yerd\u0259 d\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r qar qalmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, n\u0259n\u0259m demi\u015f, \u201ctorpa\u011f\u0131n n\u0259f\u0259sin\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259n kimi\u201d \u0259riyib yox olmu\u015fdu. Daha n\u0259 olmu\u015fdu ke\u00e7\u0259n q\u0131\u015f? Daha\u00a0 n\u0259yin […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16227"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=16227"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16227\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":16229,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16227\/revisions\/16229"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=16227"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=16227"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=16227"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}