{"id":16491,"date":"2021-05-11T13:06:31","date_gmt":"2021-05-11T08:06:31","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=16491"},"modified":"2021-05-11T13:06:31","modified_gmt":"2021-05-11T08:06:31","slug":"akif-abbasov-gec%c9%99-x%c9%99lv%c9%99tc%c9%99-sevgili-yar-g%c9%99lmis-imis","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=16491","title":{"rendered":"AK\u0130F ABBASOV – \u201cGec\u0259 x\u0259lv\u0259tc\u0259 sevgili yar g\u0259lmi\u015f imi\u015f!\u201d"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\"AK\u0130F<\/a>\u00a0 (hekay\u0259)<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u015e\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n \u0259l-ayaq y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ax\u015fam \u00f6z yerini gec\u0259y\u0259 verdi. Gec\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u0259 hamil\u0259 idi.<\/p>\n

Odur ki, h\u0259r\u0259 \u00f6z ota\u011f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kildi. Paltarlar\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fib i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcb gec\u0259 lampalar\u0131n\u0131 yand\u0131rd\u0131lar v\u0259 yataqlar\u0131na uzand\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

Z\u00fcmr\u00fcd\u00a0 d\u0259 ota\u011f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015fdi. H\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t olard\u0131 ki, s\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00e7\u0259p g\u0259lirdi. O, \u0259rinin yalanlar\u0131ndan, ona x\u0259yan\u0259t edib b\u0259han\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n bezmi\u015fdi. Ki\u015fil\u0259r\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 onda allergiya yaranm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Gec\u0259 idi. Yen\u0259 h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 qaranl\u0131q \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Yen\u0259 yer-yurd \u00a0s\u00fckuta q\u0259rq olmu\u015fdu. T\u0259kc\u0259 Z\u00fcmr\u00fcd\u00fcn ota\u011f\u0131ndan i\u015f\u0131q g\u0259lirdi. Ne\u00e7\u0259 aylar idi ki, bu i\u015f\u0131q gec\u0259d\u0259n xeyli ke\u00e7\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yan\u0131ql\u0131 qal\u0131rd\u0131. B\u0259z\u0259n h\u0259tta s\u0259h\u0259r a\u00e7\u0131landa s\u00f6n\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

B\u0259zi insanlar ax\u015famdan rahats\u0131z olsalar da, Z\u00fcmr\u00fcd gec\u0259nin qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ox sevirdi. Yaln\u0131z gec\u0259l\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 t\u0259k-t\u0259nha qala bilirdi. He\u00e7 kim mane olmurdu. Bir \u00f6z\u00fc idi, bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259ri, bir d\u0259 t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcratlar\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u0130ndi d\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin qaba\u011f\u0131nda oturub dizl\u0259rimi qucaqlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 uzaqlara dikilmi\u015fdi. Onu \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n al\u0131b aparan uzaqlara \u2013 sonsuzlu\u011fa ba\u015f vururdu! D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fckc\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 hissl\u0259r ke\u00e7irirdi. \u201cAx\u0131 bu nec\u0259 ba\u015f verdi? Yatar yuxusuna da girm\u0259zdi. Nec\u0259 \u00a0bu h\u0259dd\u0259 g\u0259lib \u00e7atd\u0131?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u0130nana bilmirdi. \u201cH\u0259yat s\u0259n n\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259s\u0259n\u201d mahn\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259rini xat\u0131rlad\u0131. \u015eair n\u0259 do\u011fru-d\u00fczg\u00fcn yaz\u0131bm\u0131\u015f! H\u0259yat do\u011frudan da q\u0259rib\u0259 imi\u015f. G\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259d\u0259n, s\u0259n dem\u0259,\u00a0 \u00a0n\u0259l\u0259r is\u0259 ba\u015f ver\u0259 bil\u0259rmi\u015f. He\u00e7 adam\u0131n a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259n \u015feyl\u0259r. Bir t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131, bir t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n pis.<\/p>\n

Bu, bir saf m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t idi. Bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 onun qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6ym\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. H\u0259min gecikmi\u015f m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259ti yada sald\u0131qca sif\u0259tind\u0259 qeyri-ixtiyari t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm yaran\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

T\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm q\u0259fil meydana g\u0259ldiyi kimi, tezc\u0259 d\u0259 \u00a0yoxa \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. \u00a0\u00a0Sanki gec\u0259nin qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda itib batd\u0131. Bax\u0131\u015flar da bir an\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 gec\u0259nin z\u00fclm\u0259t qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131na qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259r Z\u00fcmr\u00fcd\u00fc \u00a0qoynuna alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131: “\u0130lahi, bu n\u0259dir m\u0259nim ba\u015f\u0131ma g\u0259lir? M\u0259n u\u015faq deyil\u0259m, ail\u0259liy\u0259m, \u0259rim, iki q\u0131z\u0131m, bir o\u011flum var. G\u00f6r\u0259n, bil\u0259n, e\u015fid\u0259n n\u0259 dey\u0259r? Q\u0131z\u0131m ali m\u0259kt\u0259b t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259sidir.\u00a0 M\u0259n niy\u0259 hiss\u0259 qap\u0131l\u0131ram? \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 almal\u0131yam. Adam\u0131n evind\u0259 s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259t olar. \u0130ndi sevgi ya\u015fama\u011fa ixtiyar\u0131m yoxdur. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 almal\u0131yam. M\u0259n\u0259 aid olmayan birini sev\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m. O ba\u015fqas\u0131na m\u0259xsusdur. \u00c7ox b\u00f6y\u00fck g\u00fcnah i\u015fl\u0259yir\u0259m. Bu n\u0259dir, nec\u0259 ba\u015f verdi? D\u0259li olaca\u011fam\u201d.<\/p>\n

Z\u00fcmr\u00fcd \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0131nayaraq, \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc danlayaraq, h\u0259y\u0259canlanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259ri ya\u015fard\u0131, ya\u015f damlalar\u0131 yana\u011f\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 yuvarland\u0131.\u00a0 Cib d\u0259smal\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb tez g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 sild\u0131. Sils\u0259 d\u0259, a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bilinirdi. G\u00f6zl\u0259ri q\u0131zarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Z\u00fcmr\u00fcd g\u00f6z\u0259g\u0259limli qad\u0131n idi. M\u00fct\u0259nasib \u0259ndam\u0131, bi\u00e7imli q\u0131\u00e7lar\u0131, i\u015fv\u0259li-nazl\u0131, badam\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259ri, \u0259tli dodaqlar\u0131, a\u011f sif\u0259ti, xo\u015fag\u0259l\u0259n qabar\u0131q sin\u0259si vard\u0131. Baxan g\u00f6z \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k bilm\u0259zdi. Cavan \u00a0v\u0259 t\u0259rav\u0259tli idi.<\/p>\n

P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0259kilib \u00a0\u00e7arpay\u0131s\u0131na sar\u0131 getdi. Paltar\u0131n\u0131 soyunub yata\u011f\u0131na uzand\u0131.\u00a0 H\u0259r gec\u0259 bel\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l xan\u0131m\u0131 q\u0259bul etdiyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00a0yataq da sevinirdi, m\u0259mnun idi, \u00a0\u00f6z isti qoynunu h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259, sevincl\u0259 Z\u00fcmr\u00fcd\u0259 \u00a0a\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Z\u00fcmr\u00fcd yuxulaya bilm\u0259di. Yen\u0259 d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259rq oldu: “B\u0259lk\u0259 bu, Allah-taalan\u0131n h\u00f6km\u00fcd\u00fcr. Amma ola bilm\u0259z. Bu b\u0259lad\u0131r! Tanr\u0131 bil\u0259-bil\u0259 m\u0259ni bu b\u0259laya salmaz. Onun yan\u0131nda bir su\u00e7um yox. N\u0259d\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 \u0259ziyy\u0259t, \u0259zab versin!<\/p>\n

Amma eyni zamanda bu \u201c\u0259ziyy\u0259t, \u0259zab\u201d adland\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan rahatl\u0131q tap\u0131rd\u0131, \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259ri sakitl\u0259\u015firdi. Vaxts\u0131z g\u0259lmi\u015f sevgini qar\u015f\u0131lamaq, ona \u201cxo\u015f g\u0259ldin!\u201d dem\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. Bu sevgi onun \u0259n \u00e7\u0259tin an\u0131nda g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. H\u0259yatdan, ya\u015famaqdan\u00a0 bezdiyi \u0259n a\u011f\u0131r g\u00fcnl\u0259rind\u0259 onu salamlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Q\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n, d\u0259rdd\u0259n, k\u0259d\u0259rd\u0259n \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259k hala d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fc bir vaxtda \u201cG\u0259ldim, yarana m\u0259lh\u0259m olum dey\u0259!\u201d \u2013 s\u00f6yl\u0259mi\u015fdi ona. Bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 peyda olmu\u015fdu ki, onu ya\u015fats\u0131n\u201d<\/p>\n

Z\u00fcmr\u00fcd \u00a0t\u0259skinlik tapd\u0131, dodaqlar\u0131nda t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259: \u201cM\u0259ni ONUN n\u0259f\u0259si ya\u015fatd\u0131. O, m\u0259n\u0259 ikinci h\u0259yat verdi!”<\/p>\n

Z\u00fcmr\u00fcd yor\u011fan\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi. Yor\u011fan da bu g\u00f6z\u0259l qad\u0131n\u0131 b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk qucaqlad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Z\u00fcmr\u00fcd \u00a0g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumub yatma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bird\u0259n ona el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, kims\u0259 yor\u011fan\u0131 astaca qald\u0131r\u0131b onun yan\u0131na girdi. H\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 deyildi. Kim idis\u0259 Z\u00fcmr\u00fcd xan\u0131m\u0131 qucaqlay\u0131b asta s\u0259sl\u0259\u00a0 qula\u011f\u0131na p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lday\u0131rd\u0131: “S\u0259n h\u0259yatsan!”.<\/p>\n

Bu, onun s\u0259si idi. Vaxts\u0131z g\u0259l\u0259n sevginin. Z\u00fcmr\u00fcd xan\u0131ma el\u0259 bil d\u00fcnyan\u0131 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flad\u0131lar. Qad\u0131n h\u0259min s\u00f6zl\u0259rin sehrind\u0259n xo\u015fhal olaraq ona q\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131. N\u0259 zaman yuxuya getdiyini bilm\u0259di. S\u0259h\u0259r tezd\u0259n\u00a0 oyananda g\u00f6rd\u00fc ki, \u00e7arpay\u0131da t\u0259k uzan\u0131b.\u00a0 Z\u00fcmr\u00fcd \u00a0bir q\u0259z\u0259ld\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi, ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki,\u00a0 \u201cGec\u0259 x\u0259lv\u0259tc\u0259 ona sevgili yar g\u0259lmi\u015f imi\u015f!\u201d<\/p>\n

Bu xo\u015f t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcratdan sif\u0259tin\u0259 t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm qondu. Amma \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 dedi: \u201cA\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 olmal\u0131, hiss\u0259 qap\u0131lmamal\u0131yam!\u201d<\/p>\n

Bak\u0131 \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri, 25 aprel 2021-ci il<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

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Yaz\u0131ya 281 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 (hekay\u0259) \u015e\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n \u0259l-ayaq y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ax\u015fam \u00f6z yerini gec\u0259y\u0259 verdi. Gec\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u0259 hamil\u0259 idi. Odur ki, h\u0259r\u0259 \u00f6z ota\u011f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kildi. Paltarlar\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fib i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcb gec\u0259 lampalar\u0131n\u0131 yand\u0131rd\u0131lar v\u0259 yataqlar\u0131na uzand\u0131lar. Z\u00fcmr\u00fcd\u00a0 d\u0259 ota\u011f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015fdi. H\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t olard\u0131 ki, s\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00e7\u0259p g\u0259lirdi. O, \u0259rinin yalanlar\u0131ndan, ona x\u0259yan\u0259t edib b\u0259han\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n bezmi\u015fdi. Ki\u015fil\u0259r\u0259 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":6147,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16491"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=16491"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16491\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":16492,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16491\/revisions\/16492"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/6147"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=16491"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=16491"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=16491"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}