{"id":16912,"date":"2021-08-20T22:28:15","date_gmt":"2021-08-20T17:28:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=16912"},"modified":"2021-08-20T22:28:15","modified_gmt":"2021-08-20T17:28:15","slug":"ari-qas-s%c9%99hl%c9%99bisi-hekay%c9%99si-k%c9%99mal%c9%99-h%c9%99s%c9%99nova","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=16912","title":{"rendered":"\u201cAr\u0131 qa\u015f s\u0259hl\u0259bisi\u201d hekay\u0259si \u2013 K\u0259mal\u0259 H\u0259s\u0259nova"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"IMG_3889<\/a>G\u00f6zl\u0259rimizi yumub a\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z zaman g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fcz m\u0259kan h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 eyni olmaya bil\u0259r. Bu an hans\u0131 m\u0259kan\u0131n real, hans\u0131n\u0131n qeyri-real oldu\u011funu bilm\u0259d\u0259n ya\u015fay\u0131r\u0131q. \u00c7\u00fcnki \u0259vv\u0259lki m\u0259kan\u0131 xat\u0131rlam\u0131r\u0131q da o s\u0259b\u0259bd\u0259n. B\u0259lk\u0259, hal-haz\u0131rda real oldu\u011funa inand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z bu m\u0259kan \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck yuxudur, amma f\u0259rqind\u0259 deyilik. Eynil\u0259 hekay\u0259mizin q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131 olan I adl\u0131 g\u0259nc kimi. O, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumdu\u011fu m\u0259kan ba\u015fqa yer olsa da, a\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131 an g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc yer bir tablonun i\u00e7\u0259risi idi. G\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumub a\u00e7mas\u0131 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r vaxt s\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fc bilinm\u0259z, b\u0259lk\u0259, bir saniy\u0259, b\u0259lk\u0259, bir saniy\u0259d\u0259n d\u0259 daha az, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, saatlar s\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Amma q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n bildiyi t\u0259k bir \u015fey var, o da bu tablonun i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 ill\u0259rl\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131, f\u0131r\u00e7an\u0131 kim tutdu\u011fu bilm\u0259diyi bu r\u0259ssam\u0131n se\u00e7diyi r\u0259ngl\u0259r s\u0259b\u0259bind\u0259n h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259ddind\u0259n art\u0131q b\u0259db\u0259xt ke\u00e7diyi idi. Bu ucu buca\u011f\u0131 olmayan r\u0259sm at\u00f6ly\u0259sind\u0259 he\u00e7 kim bu r\u0259ssam\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259yib, onun s\u0259sini e\u015fitm\u0259yibdir. Kimisi f\u0131r\u00e7an\u0131 tutan \u0259lind\u0259n onu qad\u0131n, kimisi \u00a0ki\u015fi oldu\u011funu, kimisi cavan, kimisi d\u0259 qoca oldu\u011funu deyir. H\u0259tta b\u0259zil\u0259ri f\u0131r\u00e7an\u0131 tutan \u0259llin zamanla \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 q\u0131r\u0131\u015flar yarand\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan onu insan kimi qocald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr. He\u00e7 kimin bir d\u0259f\u0259 olsun g\u00f6rm\u0259diyi bu \u015f\u0259xsi \u00f6z aralar\u0131nda TALE adland\u0131r\u0131blar… TALE-y\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 m\u00fcnasib\u0259t d\u0259 bir m\u0259nal\u0131 deyil. Kimi insan h\u0259yat tablosuna \u00e7\u0259kdiyi g\u00f6z\u0259l r\u0259sml\u0259r, istifad\u0259 etdiyi \u00fcr\u0259k a\u00e7an r\u0259ngl\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u015f\u00fck\u00fcrl\u0259rini bildirs\u0259 d\u0259, kimisi is\u0259 ondan naraz\u0131d\u0131r, dig\u0259r insanlara g\u00f6st\u0259rdiyi r\u0259\u011fb\u0259ti ona g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259diyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, h\u0259yat tablolar\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kdiyi nax\u0131\u015flar, se\u00e7diyi r\u0259ngl\u0259r \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00fczl\u0259rinin g\u00fclm\u0259diyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. \u0130\u00e7i bizim I q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131 olmaqla…<\/p>\n

TALE-yin ona se\u00e7diyi r\u0259ngl\u0259rd\u0259n I-n\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fc he\u00e7 g\u00fclm\u00fcr, qorxudu\u011fu yanl\u0131zl\u0131q v\u0259 qaranl\u0131q onu yaxas\u0131n\u0131 he\u00e7 buraxm\u0131rd\u0131. B\u0259z\u0259n f\u0131r\u00e7adan \u00e7\u0259hray\u0131, sar\u0131, ya\u015f\u0131l kimi r\u0259ngl\u0259r tablonun k\u0259tan par\u00e7as\u0131na toxunanda art\u0131q onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yeni h\u0259yat\u0131n ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn g\u00fcl\u0259c\u0259yini, yeni \u00fcmidl\u0259rin yarand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcns\u0259 d\u0259, ard\u0131nca g\u0259l\u0259n qara r\u0259ng yenid\u0259n h\u0259r \u015feyi m\u0259hv edirdi. Sanki h\u0259yat\u0131 qaranl\u0131qdan ibar\u0259t olmal\u0131 idi. Niy\u0259 TALE h\u0259r k\u0259s\u0259 l\u00fctfkar oldu\u011fu kimi ona da olmurdu? G\u00fcnahkar olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 halda c\u0259zaland\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu h\u0259yat tablosunda, bu r\u0259ngl\u0259rin ah\u0259ngind\u0259 ya\u015famaq ist\u0259mirdi. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259, TALE-yin boz r\u0259ng\u0259 bat\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f\u00a0 f\u0131r\u00e7as\u0131 onun h\u0259yat tablosunun k\u0259tan\u0131na toxunma\u011f\u0131na az qalm\u0131\u015f \u201cB\u0259sdiiiiiiiiiiiiiiir!\u201d dey\u0259 \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. Onun bu s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra TALE-yin f\u0131r\u00e7as\u0131 oldu\u011fu yerd\u0259 d\u0259 dayand\u0131. Bu an bizim q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131n q\u0259lbind\u0259n t\u0259k bir \u015fey ke\u00e7di: \u201cNec\u0259 olur olsun, TALE il\u0259 dan\u0131\u015facam, h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131 bu r\u0259ngl\u0259rd\u0259n xilas etm\u0259yini ist\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m, h\u0259tta yeri g\u0259ls\u0259, ona yalvaracam. Amma bu boz, qara r\u0259ngl\u0259rin \u0259hat\u0259sind\u0259 ya\u015famayacam!\u201d Sanki q\u0259lbind\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259n s\u00f6zl\u0259ri TALE d\u0259 e\u015fitmi\u015fdi v\u0259 bu an ilk d\u0259f\u0259 olan bir hadis\u0259 ba\u015f verdi. TALE-yin f\u0131r\u00e7as\u0131 da, onun f\u0131r\u00e7a tutan \u0259li d\u0259 qeyb\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kildi. \u018fslind\u0259 o bu haqda e\u015fitmi\u015fdi, \u00e7ox ke\u00e7mi\u015f zamanlarda TALE bir anl\u0131\u011f\u0131na qeyb\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilirmi\u015f v\u0259 bu zaman insanlar axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir \u00e7ox sual\u0131n cavab\u0131n\u0131 tap\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. Amma bunu ya\u015fl\u0131lar\u0131n dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir mif olaraq d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u00c7\u00fcnki indiki zamanda insanlar\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131nda saniy\u0259l\u0259r o q\u0259d\u0259r s\u00fcr\u0259tli ax\u0131r ki, he\u00e7 bir saniy\u0259 bel\u0259 olsun d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259 vaxtlar\u0131 olmur. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 k\u0259tan par\u00e7aya \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259n boyalar\u0131n r\u0259ngi tez-tez bir-biri il\u0259 \u0259v\u0259z olunur. Amma ke\u00e7mi\u015f zamanda h\u0259yat daha g\u00f6z\u0259l imi\u015f, zaman yava\u015f axt\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan insanlar h\u0259r r\u0259ngin g\u00f6z\u0259lliyini uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t \u00f6z h\u0259yatlar\u0131nda hiss edirmi\u015f…<\/p>\n

TALE-yin qeyb\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kildiyini g\u00f6rd\u00fckd\u0259n sonra I onu axtarmaq m\u0259qs\u0259dil\u0259 ill\u0259rl\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu tablodan d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k v\u0259 ucu-buca\u011f\u0131 bilinm\u0259y\u0259n bu at\u00f6ly\u0259d\u0259 s\u0259f\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xmaq q\u0259rar\u0131n\u0131 ald\u0131. Onun ilk add\u0131mlar\u0131 qorxu v\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcdl\u0259 dolu idi: \u201cB\u0259lk\u0259, yanl\u0131\u015f edir\u0259m, b\u0259lk\u0259, h\u0259r k\u0259s kimi qism\u0259tim\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n r\u0259ngl\u0259rl\u0259 ya\u015famal\u0131 idim…\u201d Amma onun t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcdl\u0259r i\u00e7ind\u0259 at\u0131lan add\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131 q\u0259tiyy\u0259tl\u0259 at\u0131lan ad\u0131mlar\u0131 \u0259v\u0259z etdi. Baxmay\u0131n, insan \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131n \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck x\u00fcsusiyy\u0259tidir, ilk h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259 qorxar, utanar, \u00e7\u0259kin\u0259r, amma daha sonra he\u00e7 bu hisl\u0259ri ya\u015fayan o deyilmi\u015f kimi daha q\u0259tiyy\u0259tl\u0259 add\u0131m atar. B\u0259lk\u0259, yanl\u0131\u015f d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m? \u0130nsanlar yalan\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011fa, qeyb\u0259t\u0259, adamlar aras\u0131nda nifaq salma\u011fa, o\u011furlu\u011fa, cinay\u0259t\u0259 bu c\u00fcr ba\u015flamad\u0131m\u0131?<\/p>\n

TALE-yin axtar\u0131\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131 yolda bizim q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131n diqq\u0259tini \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n bir \u00e7ox hadis\u0259l\u0259r oldu. Bunlardan ilki at\u00f6ly\u0259nin d\u00fcma\u011fa boyanm\u0131\u015f divarlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rs\u0259 d\u0259, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ona do\u011fru addamlar atsa da, aradak\u0131 m\u0259saf\u0259 he\u00e7 azalm\u0131rd\u0131, sanki yerind\u0259 add\u0131mlay\u0131rd\u0131. Amma arxaya d\u00f6n\u00fcb baxd\u0131qda ill\u0259rl\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 tablo art\u0131q g\u00f6rs\u0259nmirdi. Bizim g\u0259nc bu zaman anlad\u0131, niy\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 ya\u015fl\u0131lar bu at\u00f6ly\u0259ni ucu buca\u011f\u0131 olmayan yer adland\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

I ill\u0259r boyunca ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 tablodan uzaqla\u015fd\u0131qca s\u0131ra il\u0259 add\u0131mlayan insanlara yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. Daha do\u011frusu yeni do\u011fulmaq \u00fczr\u0259 olan, \u015f\u0259ffaf r\u0259ngli k\u00f6rp\u0259l\u0259r\u0259. H\u0259r biri s\u0131ra il\u0259 k\u0259tan par\u00e7a, f\u0131r\u00e7a, r\u0259ngl\u0259r g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, bir tabloda ya\u015famaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ir\u0259l\u0259yirdil\u0259r. Bu zaman ill\u0259r \u00f6nc\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bu k\u00f6rp\u0259l\u0259r aras\u0131nda oldu\u011funu xat\u0131rlad\u0131. Hans\u0131 r\u0259ngl\u0259rin ah\u0259ngind\u0259 ya\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilm\u0259d\u0259n add\u0131mlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu s\u0131rada h\u0259r bir k\u00f6rp\u0259 kimi\u00a0 TALE-yin \u00a0k\u0259tan par\u00e7as\u0131na vurdu\u011fu ilk f\u0131r\u00e7aya g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 cavab vermi\u015fdi. Bu insanlar aras\u0131nda bir qanun idi, ilk v\u0259 son f\u0131r\u00e7ada m\u00fctl\u0259q g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 t\u00f6km\u0259li idil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Do\u011fulmaq \u00fczr\u0259 olan k\u00f6rp\u0259l\u0259rin yan\u0131ndan bir xeyli araland\u0131qdan sonra bizim q\u0259hr\u0259man bir qrup d\u0259rvi\u015f\u0259 rast g\u0259ldi. Sa\u00e7\u0131-saqqal\u0131 dig\u0259rl\u0259rind\u0259n daha uzun v\u0259 a\u011farm\u0131\u015f olan h\u00fcnd\u00fcr boylu ki\u015fi ir\u0259lid\u0259 add\u0131mlay\u0131r, \u201cKimdir insan?\u201d dey\u0259 soru\u015fur, dig\u0259rl\u0259ri is\u0259 bir n\u0259f\u0259s\u0259 bu suala cavab verirdil\u0259r:<\/p>\n

\u201c \u2013K\u0130MD\u0130R \u0130NSAN?<\/p>\n

\u2013M\u00fcc\u0259rr\u0259d zaman\u0131 salis\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r b\u00f6l\u00fcb hesablayan<\/p>\n

Ancaq ke\u00e7mi\u015fin kini, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yin x\u0259yallar\u0131 il\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131b bu g\u00fcn\u00fcn q\u0259drini bilm\u0259y\u0259n!<\/p>\n

\u2013 K\u0130MD\u0130R \u0130NSAN?<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00c7ay da\u015flar\u0131 aras\u0131nda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc almaz da\u015f\u0131 z\u0259nn ed\u0259n<\/p>\n

Ancaq q\u0131\u015fda bir g\u00fcl\u0259 h\u0259sr\u0259d qal\u0131b, yayda minbir \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259yin d\u0259y\u0259rini bilm\u0259yib d\u0259y\u0259rd\u0259n d\u0259rs ke\u00e7\u0259n!<\/p>\n

\u2013 K\u0130MD\u0130R \u0130NSAN?<\/p>\n

\u2013\u018fli il\u0259 yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 ka\u011f\u0131z par\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131n qulu olan<\/p>\n

Ancaq h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 marafon qa\u00e7\u0131\u015f\u0131na b\u0259nz\u0259dib \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn astanas\u0131ndan k\u0259\u015fg\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259n!<\/p>\n

\u2013 K\u0130MD\u0130R \u0130NSAN?<\/p>\n

\u2013Heyvanlardan f\u0259rqli olaraq \u0259qli olan<\/p>\n

Ancaq d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259 beynini yormay\u0131b s\u00fcr\u00fc psixologiyas\u0131 il\u0259 ya\u015fayan!<\/p>\n

\u2013 K\u0130MD\u0130R \u0130NSAN?<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00d6vladlar\u0131na sevgini cinsin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 ver\u0259n<\/p>\n

Ancaq \u201cA\u011f g\u0259mi\u201dnin h\u0259sr\u0259ti il\u0259 ona baxan g\u00f6zl\u0259ri g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259n!<\/p>\n

\u2013 K\u0130MD\u0130R \u0130NSAN?<\/p>\n

\u2013\u0130lk A\u015fiqi \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck M\u0259\u015fuq\u0259 \u00e7evir\u0259n<\/p>\n

Ancaq M\u0259\u015fuqunun yaratd\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259hv etm\u0259kd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kinm\u0259y\u0259n!<\/p>\n

\u2013 K\u0130MD\u0130R \u0130NSAN?<\/p>\n

\u2013Sevgid\u0259n dastanlar yazan<\/p>\n

Ancaq ac-susuz \u00e7\u00f6l pi\u015fiyin\u0259 bir qab yem\u0259yi ver\u0259c\u0259k sevgini g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259y\u0259n!<\/p>\n

\u2013 K\u0130MD\u0130R \u0130NSAN?….\u201d<\/p>\n

D\u0259rvi\u015fl\u0259r yan\u0131ndan \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7dikd\u0259n sonra bayaqdan da\u015f\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 oturmu\u015f v\u0259 bir bitkini seyr ed\u0259n qocan\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u018fg\u0259r onun \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259diyi \u201c…b\u0259s bir qab yem\u0259yi v\u0259r\u0259n kimdir?\u201d sual\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitm\u0259s\u0259 idi, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, onu g\u00f6rm\u0259d\u0259n \u00f6t\u00fcb yan\u0131ndan ke\u00e7\u0259c\u0259kdi. Amma n\u0259d\u0259n bilinm\u0259z, ona do\u011fru add\u0131mlamaq, TALE-yi nec\u0259 tapa bil\u0259c\u0259yini ondan soru\u015fmaq ist\u0259di. \u0130\u00e7ind\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259n bu hiss\u0259 bir anlam ver\u0259 bilm\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, tabloda olsa idi, bunu TALE-yin ist\u0259yi adland\u0131rard\u0131.<\/p>\n

TALE-yi nec\u0259 tapa bil\u0259c\u0259yini soru\u015fmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn onun baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kd\u0259n s\u00f6hb\u0259t a\u00e7maq m\u0259qs\u0259dil\u0259 verdiyi: – \u201cSalam, baba, siz n\u0259y\u0259 bel\u0259 diqq\u0259tl\u0259 bax\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z?\u201d – sual\u0131na he\u00e7 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259diyi bir cavab ald\u0131 \u2013 \u201cAr\u0131n\u0131n ilk nakam m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tin\u0259\u201d. Bu an \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259yin \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259ki ar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb \u00a0e\u015fitdiyi s\u00f6zl\u0259rin t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb\u00fcnd\u0259n \u2013 \u201cNec\u0259? Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259dim…\u201d \u2013 s\u00f6yl\u0259diyi s\u00f6zl\u0259r\u0259 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 cavab \u2013 \u201cM\u0259g\u0259r aldad\u0131b-aldanma\u011f\u0131, sevilm\u0259d\u0259n sevm\u0259yi yaln\u0131z insanlara aid x\u00fcsusiyy\u0259tmi z\u0259nn edirdin? Unutma o\u011ful, insan \u00f6vlad\u0131 t\u0259bi\u0259tin bir varl\u0131\u011f\u0131d\u0131r. \u00d6yr\u0259ndiyi h\u0259r \u015feyi ilk t\u0259bi\u0259td\u0259n \u00f6yr\u0259nib.\u201d – onun t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb\u00fcn\u00fc daha da art\u0131rd\u0131. Bir d\u0259 \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 qocan\u0131n \u201cS\u0259n kimi axtar\u0131rsan?\u201d sual\u0131 onu fikirl\u0259r d\u0259nizind\u0259 bo\u011fulmaqdan xilas edib yenid\u0259n o sular\u0131n qoynuna buraxd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u201cNec\u0259?….Siz haradan bildiniz m\u0259n kimis\u0259 axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131?<\/p>\n

\u2013 Bu h\u0259yatda bir yola \u00e7\u0131xan h\u0259r k\u0259sin axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir insan olur.\u00a0 \u00c7ox maraql\u0131d\u0131r ki, bu insan \u00e7ox zaman eyni adam olur… \u0130ndi de g\u00f6r\u00fcm b\u0259s s\u0259n kimi tapmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bu yola \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131san?<\/p>\n

\u2013 TALE-yi<\/p>\n

\u2013Onda g\u0259l m\u0259niml\u0259…<\/p>\n

Yan\u0131ndan g\u0259lib ke\u00e7diyi adamlar\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259s\u0259 idi, he\u00e7 bir add\u0131m bel\u0259 ir\u0259li getm\u0259diyini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fc bu m\u0259kanda \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u00fcnyan\u0131n bir \u00e7ox sirl\u0259rini bil\u0259n, h\u0259yat\u0131n \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck se\u00e7imini etmi\u015f simas\u0131 olan bu qoca il\u0259 add\u0131mlayanda yol boyunca I g\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259rini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc: \u201cNiy\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 bel\u0259 bir d\u00f6ng\u0259 var? \u015e\u0259ffaf k\u00f6rp\u0259l\u0259r h\u0259yat\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn r\u0259ngl\u0259rini g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0131raya d\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcr, ancaq g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fc b\u00fct\u00fcn r\u0259ngl\u0259rl\u0259 h\u0259yat tablosu r\u0259ngl\u0259nm\u0259mi\u015f r\u0259smi bitir v\u0259 daha sonra \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 a\u011f t\u00fcl \u00e7\u0259kilib \u00a0\u201cB\u0259yaz qaleriyaya\u201d apar\u0131l\u0131r. B\u0259s bundan sonra bizi n\u0259l\u0259r g\u00f6zl\u0259yir? \u018fb\u0259di sonsuzluqmu, yoxsa bir m\u0259rh\u0259l\u0259d\u0259n ba\u015fqa bir m\u0259rh\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 ke\u00e7idmi? \u018fg\u0259r ke\u00e7iddirs\u0259, bu yeni h\u0259yatda bizim h\u0259yat tablomuz hans\u0131 r\u0259ngl\u0259rl\u0259 boyanacaq? Kimisi deyir, ancaq qara r\u0259ng, kimisi is\u0259 d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l r\u0259ngl\u0259rini g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259yimizi deyir. H\u0259tta o m\u00fcdrik nec\u0259 demi\u015fdi… H\u0259\u0259… bel\u0259 idi… \u201ch\u0259yat\u0131n var olmas\u0131n\u0131n, h\u0259yat tablomuzun bu q\u0259d\u0259r f\u0259rqli r\u0259ngl\u0259rl\u0259 boyanmas\u0131n\u0131n bir m\u0259nas\u0131 olmal\u0131d\u0131r. Bir \u015fey ki, sonsuzlu\u011fa \u00e7evril\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259, niy\u0259 var olur? Dem\u0259li ir\u0259lid\u0259 bir h\u0259yat var, o h\u0259yatda n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259yimiz bizim indiki tablolar\u0131m\u0131zdak\u0131 r\u0259ngl\u0259rd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131d\u0131r.\u201d Amma bu haqs\u0131zl\u0131q deyilmi? TALE ist\u0259diyi r\u0259ngi se\u00e7\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259 biz bu h\u0259yatda \u0259zab \u00e7\u0259kdiyimiz az deyilmi\u015f kimi dig\u0259r h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131zda da \u0259zab \u00e7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259yik. Yoox… Bu haqs\u0131zl\u0131qd\u0131r. M\u0259n m\u00fctl\u0259q TALE il\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fanda etdiyinin bir haqs\u0131zl\u0131q oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m… Yax\u015f\u0131ki bu qocan\u0131 tapd\u0131m, m\u0259nc\u0259, bu TALE-yi g\u00f6r\u00fcbd\u00fcr. \u00dcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki \u0259minlik tamamil\u0259 buna i\u015far\u0259dir…B\u0259lk\u0259, ondan onun n\u0259y\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259diyini soru\u015fum? \u018fn az\u0131ndan TALE-yin qad\u0131n, ya da ki\u015fi oldu\u011funu… Yox, m\u0259nc\u0259, soru\u015fmay\u0131m. Bird\u0259n m\u0259nd\u0259n TALE-yi axtarmaq s\u0259b\u0259bimi soru\u015far v\u0259 verdiyim cavab xo\u015funa getm\u0259yib m\u0259ni onun yan\u0131na aparmaqdan imtina ed\u0259r… H\u0259m d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, h\u0259r fikird\u0259n d\u0259 xo\u015fu g\u0259l\u0259n adam da deyil. D\u0259rvi\u015fl\u0259rin o c\u00fcr hikm\u0259tli s\u00f6zl\u0259rini bel\u0259 b\u0259y\u0259nm\u0259mi\u015fdi…\u201d<\/p>\n

I d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rinin yolda\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 n\u0259 zaman qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda g\u0259lib dayand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u00fcnd\u00fcrl\u00fcy\u00fc 3 metr\u0259 yax\u0131n olan \u00e7\u0259r\u00e7iv\u0259nin qaba\u011f\u0131nda sual dolu g\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259 qoca ki\u015fiy\u0259 baxd\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259ki suallar\u0131 qoca ki\u015fi d\u0259rhal oxumu\u015fdu ki, dill\u0259r g\u00f6zl\u0259r\u0259 t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259\u00e7i olmam\u0131\u015f o, suallara cavab verdi:<\/p>\n

\u2013Bu g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn haqq\u0131nda bir \u00e7ox \u0259fsan\u0259l\u0259r qo\u015fulmu\u015f C\u0259m\u015fidin h\u0259r \u015feyi g\u00f6r\u0259n cam\u0131d\u0131r. S\u0259n TALE-yi ancaq buna baxmaqla g\u00f6r\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n. Onu g\u00f6rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn iki adi g\u00f6z kifay\u0259t etmir…<\/p>\n

\u2013B\u0259s m\u0259n onunla nec\u0259 dan\u0131\u015facam?<\/p>\n

\u2013S\u0259n onu g\u00f6rm\u0259yi bacarsan, dan\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131 da bacaracaqsan.\u201d<\/p>\n

Bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rd\u0259n sonra \u00e7\u0259kin\u0259n add\u0131mlarla C\u0259m\u015fidin Cam\u0131n\u0131n d\u00fcz qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda dayand\u0131. Bu an onun g\u00f6zl\u0259ri cama baxma\u011fa c\u0259sar\u0259t etm\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, yava\u015f-yava\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259r ayaqlardak\u0131 c\u0259sar\u0259td\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u0259 hiss edib cama do\u011fru qalxma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Amma bir bo\u015fluqdan ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 n\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259di.<\/p>\n

\u2013Siz m\u0259n\u0259 TALE-yi g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259yimi demi\u015fdiniz. Amma burada he\u00e7 n\u0259 g\u00f6rs\u0259nmir ax\u0131?<\/p>\n

\u2013\u018fqlin anlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6z g\u00f6rm\u0259z…<\/p>\n

\u2013Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259dim…<\/p>\n

\u2013O\u011ful, s\u0259n B\u0259yaz Qalereyadak\u0131 r\u0259smi bitmi\u015f \u015f\u0259kill\u0259ri g\u00f6rm\u00fcs\u0259n he\u00e7?<\/p>\n

\u2013\u0130ld\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 babamla n\u0259n\u0259min bitmi\u015f tablolar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ziyar\u0259t edir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2013B\u0259s, h\u0259r tablonun alt\u0131ndak\u0131 yaz\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fcs\u0259nmi?<\/p>\n

\u2013B\u0259li, h\u0259r tablonun alt\u0131nda bir s\u00f6z ustad\u0131ndan sitat\u0131 olur.<\/p>\n

\u2013Bu sitatlar\u0131n n\u0259 m\u0259na da\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilirs\u0259nmi?<\/p>\n

\u2013Xeyr, t\u0259k bildiyim TALE bitmi\u015f tablolar\u0131 B\u0259yaz Qalereyaya apard\u0131qdan sonra alt\u0131na o sitatlar\u0131 yerl\u0259\u015fdirir.<\/p>\n

\u2013Ayd\u0131nd\u0131r… S\u0259n TALE-yi h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259yirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u2013G\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259s\u0259 idim, tablodan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb buralara q\u0259d\u0259r g\u0259lm\u0259zdim.<\/p>\n

\u2013O zaman B\u0259yaz Qalereyaya get. Alt\u0131nda eyni sitat yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f tablolar\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259ki a\u011f t\u00fcl\u00fc qald\u0131r. Sonra h\u0259min iki tabloya niy\u0259 eyni sitat\u0131n yaz\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131na bax. \u018fg\u0259r s\u0259b\u0259bini anlarsansa, o zaman bu camda TALE-yi d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n…\u201d<\/p>\n

I qocan\u0131n dedikl\u0259rind\u0259n bir m\u0259na ver\u0259 bilm\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, son \u00fcmid B\u0259yaz Qalereyaya do\u011fru yol ald\u0131…<\/p>\n

N\u0259h\u0259ng h\u0259rfl\u0259rl\u0259 yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f B\u018fYAZ QALEREYA ifad\u0259sinin alt\u0131ndan ke\u00e7ib girdiyi m\u0259kanda b\u00fct\u00fcn tablolar eyni nizamda m\u00fcxt\u0259lif c\u0259rg\u0259 v\u0259 s\u0131ralarla d\u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Tablolar\u0131n aras\u0131 il\u0259 add\u0131mlayanda ilk g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 sata\u015fan sitat\u0131 \u2013 \u201cKirli bir p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n bax\u0131b h\u0259r k\u0259si v\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyi kirli z\u0259nn edirsiniz (Franz Kafka)\u201d- oxuduqdan sonra tablonun \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259ki a\u011f t\u00fcl\u00fc qald\u0131rd\u0131. R\u0259simd\u0259 \u0259traf\u0131ndak\u0131 h\u0259r k\u0259s\u0259 nifr\u0259tl\u0259 baxan ya\u015fl\u0131 bir qad\u0131n t\u0259svir olunmu\u015fdu. Frans Kafkan\u0131n bu sitat\u0131n\u0131 oxuduqdan sonra g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc r\u0259sm onu he\u00e7 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndirm\u0259di. Ancaq qocan\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259rini yada sal\u0131b bu sitat\u0131n yaz\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 ikinci tablonu axtarma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Bu q\u0259d\u0259r say\u0131-hesab\u0131 olmayan tablolar\u0131n i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 eyni sitat\u0131 tapmaq he\u00e7 d\u0259 asan olmayacaqd\u0131. Amma I-n\u0131n bu yolda geri add\u0131m atmaq da fikri yox idi…<\/p>\n

Uzun axtar\u0131\u015fdan sonra ax\u0131r ki, Franz Kafkan\u0131n sitat\u0131 yer alan ikinci tablonu tapd\u0131 v\u0259 \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259ki a\u011f t\u00fcl\u00fc qald\u0131rd\u0131qda bayaq g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc portretd\u0259n daha f\u0259rqli bir r\u0259sm qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda dayand\u0131. Box\u00e7as\u0131ndak\u0131 yem\u0259kl\u0259ri \u0259traf\u0131ndak\u0131 insanlara paylayan sevgi dolu bir qad\u0131n\u0131n r\u0259smi var idi. I g\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259rin\u0259 bir m\u0259na verm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015faraq qocan\u0131n yan\u0131na do\u011fru ir\u0259lil\u0259di…<\/p>\n

\u2013Tapd\u0131n s\u0259b\u0259bi?<\/p>\n

\u2013Tapd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

\u2013O zaman cam\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na dayan v\u0259 TALE-yi g\u00f6r.<\/p>\n

I cam\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na dayananda bayaq g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259 yenid\u0259n t\u0259krarland\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013Ax\u0131 siz demi\u015fdiniz ki, m\u0259nan\u0131 tapsam TALE-yi g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2013M\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 cavab\u0131n bilm\u0259diyin bir m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 ist\u0259diyin m\u0259nan\u0131 y\u00fckl\u0259yib ona inanaraq camda TALE-yi g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n dem\u0259mi\u015fdim… S\u0259n o qalereyada ne\u00e7\u0259 sitata baxd\u0131n?<\/p>\n

\u2013Bir sitata… Frans Kafkan\u0131n \u201cKirli bir p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n bax\u0131b h\u0259r k\u0259si v\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyi kirli z\u0259nn edirsiniz\u201d sitat\u0131na…<\/p>\n

\u20131 sitat anlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlama\u011f\u0131na kifay\u0259t etdi deyirs\u0259n? Bir m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni anlamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir t\u0259r\u0259fi dinl\u0259m\u0259k kifay\u0259t etm\u0259z. O zaman yanl\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259rs\u0259n. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin bir t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259 il\u0259 dig\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fi he\u00e7 vaxt eyni g\u00f6rs\u0259nm\u0259z. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 s\u0259n bird\u0259n \u00e7ox sitata baxmal\u0131 idin. H\u0259m d\u0259 niy\u0259 baxmad\u0131n? O q\u0259d\u0259r tablonun aras\u0131nda axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131n bir h\u0259qiq\u0259ti tapmaq \u00e7\u0259tindir, ona g\u00f6r\u0259? B\u0259z\u0259n insanlar\u0131n etdiyi \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck s\u0259hv bu deyilmi? Canlar\u0131n\u0131 yand\u0131ran m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 tez bir anlam y\u00fckl\u0259yib yeni bir yola \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rlar. Sanki \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu yeni yol a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131na bir m\u0259lh\u0259m olacaq. Amma unudurlar\u00a0 ki, \u0259sl a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011faldacaq m\u0259rh\u0259m h\u0259qiq\u0259td\u0259dir. B\u0259z\u0259n h\u0259qiq\u0259t yeni yolda deyildir, \u0259vv\u0259lki yolda s\u0259nin onu g\u00f6rm\u0259yini g\u00f6zl\u0259yir…. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 geri qay\u0131t, TALE-yi g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259yirs\u0259ns\u0259, \u0259sl h\u0259qiq\u0259tini tap.<\/p>\n

Bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rd\u0259n sonra bir cavab bel\u0259 verm\u0259y\u0259n I yenid\u0259n qalereyaya do\u011fru geri qay\u0131td\u0131. V\u0259 bir \u015feyi anlad\u0131 ki, TALE-yi g\u00f6rm\u0259k, h\u0259qiq\u0259ti tapmaq he\u00e7 d\u0259 onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn asan olmayacaq…<\/p>\n

Yenid\u0259n yolland\u0131\u011f\u0131 qalereyada ilk diqq\u0259tini \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n sitat Alber Kamyunun \u00a0\u00a0\u201cM\u00fcv\u0259ff\u0259qiyy\u0259t asan \u0259ld\u0259 edilir. \u00c7\u0259tin olan m\u00fcv\u0259ff\u0259qiyy\u0259t\u0259 layiq olmaqd\u0131r.\u201d s\u00f6zl\u0259ri idi. Sitat\u0131n qeyd olundu\u011fu tabloda \u0259lind\u0259 m\u00fckafat qazanm\u0131\u015f orta ya\u015fl\u0131 bir adam v\u0259 \u0259traf\u0131nda is\u0259 ona q\u00fcrur v\u0259 sevincl\u0259\u00a0 baxaraq alq\u0131\u015flayan insanlar\u0131n t\u0259sviri var idi. Bir q\u0259d\u0259r axtar\u0131\u015fdan sonra eyni sitat\u0131n qeyd olundu\u011fu tablonu tapanda g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc portret \u0259vv\u0259l g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n tamam f\u0259rqli idi. \u018flind\u0259 m\u00fckafat tumu\u015f g\u0259nc o\u011flan \u00fczg\u00fcn v\u0259 yaln\u0131z idi. Tablonun k\u0259narlar\u0131nda t\u0259svir olunmu\u015f insanlar is\u0259 sanki bu g\u0259nc o\u011flana q\u0131nayan g\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

I g\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259rind\u0259ki ziddiyy\u0259tliy\u0259 bir m\u0259na verm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qocan\u0131n dediyi kimi ba\u015fqa sitatlara da baxmaq ist\u0259di. Bu s\u0259f\u0259r is\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc sitat Ya\u015far Kamal\u0131n \u201c\u0130nsan x\u0259yallar\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6ld\u00fcy\u00fc g\u00fcn \u00f6l\u0259r\u201d s\u00f6zl\u0259ri idi. Sitat\u0131n yerl\u0259\u015fdiyi tablonun \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259ki a\u011f t\u00fcl\u00fc qald\u0131randa yataq ota\u011f\u0131nda t\u0259svir olunmu\u015f b\u00f6y\u00fck bir taxt diqq\u0259tini \u00e7\u0259kdi. Daha do\u011frusu, taxt\u0131n bir t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 b\u0259yaz g\u0259linlik, dig\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 a\u011fz\u0131ndan a\u011f k\u00f6p\u00fck t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n g\u0259nc bir q\u0131z\u0131n v\u0259 taxt\u0131n a\u015fa\u011f\u0131s\u0131nda is\u0259 yuvarlanm\u0131\u015f bo\u015f d\u0259rman qab\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259sviri…<\/p>\n

Y.Kamaldan g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcl\u0259n sitat\u0131n yer ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 dig\u0259r tablodak\u0131 r\u0259smd\u0259 \u00f6n planda g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u00fck, \u0259lind\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259m stol qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda oturmu\u015f ya\u015fl\u0131 bir qad\u0131n, stolun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 m\u00fcxt\u0259lif h\u0259cmli kitablar\u0131n v\u0259 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131s\u0131nda is\u0259 oynayan balaca u\u015faqlar\u0131n t\u0259sviri, bir q\u0259d\u0259r arxa planda g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u00fck q\u0259zet oxuyan ya\u015fl\u0131 bir adam v\u0259 ona bir fincanda \u00e7aym\u0131, kofemi ver\u0259n g\u0259nc bir q\u0131z, tablonun bir k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259 is\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259 meyv\u0259-t\u0259r\u0259v\u0259zl\u0259 ota\u011fa gir\u0259n g\u0259nc bir adam\u0131n t\u0259sviri diqq\u0259tini \u00e7\u0259kdi…<\/p>\n

Lev Tolstoyun \u201cBir k\u0259s ki a\u011fr\u0131n\u0131 hiss edir – canl\u0131d\u0131r. O k\u0259s ki, ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 hiss edir \u2013 insand\u0131r\u201d, Vivian Greenin \u201cH\u0259yat\u0131n m\u0259nas\u0131 f\u0131rt\u0131nan\u0131n bitm\u0259sini g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259k deyil, ya\u011f\u0131\u015fda r\u0259qs etm\u0259yi \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259kdir\u201d, Konfutsinin \u201cZaman pula b\u0259nz\u0259yir, laz\u0131ms\u0131z yer\u0259 x\u0259rcl\u0259m\u0259s\u0259n h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 \u00e7atar\u201d sitatlar\u0131n\u0131n yer ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 tablolara da baxandan sonra I sanki axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131 cavab\u0131 tapd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hiss edib qocan\u0131n yan\u0131na yolland\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013Bu s\u0259f\u0259r tapd\u0131m. Axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131m cavab…<\/p>\n

\u2013Dayan! Ke\u00e7 cam\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na!<\/p>\n

I bu s\u0259f\u0259r \u0259vv\u0259lkind\u0259n daha \u00fcr\u0259kli \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 cam\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na ke\u00e7di v\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n m\u00fcdd\u0259t diqq\u0259tl\u0259 cama baxd\u0131…<\/p>\n

\u2013N\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n camda?<\/p>\n

\u2013Bir adam g\u00f6rs\u0259nir, amma bulan\u0131q \u015f\u0259kild\u0259…<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00c7\u00fcnki indi s\u0259nin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rin d\u0259 bulan\u0131qd\u0131r ona g\u00f6r\u0259. Eyn\u0259n s\u0259n o d\u0259rvi\u015fl\u0259r kimi bax\u0131rsan bu h\u0259yata… D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn TALE h\u0259yat tablolar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 r\u0259ngl\u0259m\u0259zd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l n\u0259 edirdi?… Get, yenid\u0259n qay\u0131t qalereyaya. H\u0259qiq\u0259ti \u00f6z\u00fcn tap. M\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131n cavab\u0131 s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m…<\/p>\n

I h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131 cavab\u0131 tapa bilm\u0259diyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, \u00fczg\u00fcn olsa da, yenid\u0259n tabloya qay\u0131tmaq da fikri \u00a0yox idi. \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 idi ki, sonuna q\u0259d\u0259r m\u00fcbariz\u0259 aparmaq ist\u0259yirdi. Ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 olsa, o q\u0259d\u0259r B\u0259yaz Qalereyaya ged\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259 axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131 o cavab\u0131 tap\u0131b TALE-yi g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259kdi.<\/p>\n

\u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc d\u0259f\u0259dir qay\u0131td\u0131\u011f\u0131 qalereyada ilk oxudu\u011fu sitat olan Dostoyevskinin \u00a0– \u201cH\u0259yat\u0131n ipl\u0259ri \u00f6z \u0259lind\u0259dir. Bir ipl\u0259 intihar da ed\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n, yell\u0259nc\u0259k d\u0259 qura bil\u0259rs\u0259n\u201d – s\u00f6zl\u0259rinin yer ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 tablonun t\u00fcl p\u0259rd\u0259sini qald\u0131randa g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc portretd\u0259 yell\u0259nc\u0259kd\u0259 yell\u0259n\u0259n v\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 qaranl\u0131q bir ota\u011f\u0131 ayd\u0131nladan s\u0259mimi bir g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn \u0259ks olundu\u011fu, sa\u00e7\u0131ndak\u0131 b\u0259yazl\u0131\u011f\u0131, \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki z\u0259rif q\u0131r\u0131\u015flar\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259s\u0259n ya\u015fl\u0131 oldu\u011funa inanmaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmayan g\u0259nc ruhlu bir qad\u0131n t\u0259svir olunmu\u015fdu. Bu tablonun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t dayand\u0131qdan sonra eyni sitat\u0131n yer ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 ikinci tablonu axtarma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Amma bu axtar\u0131\u015f dig\u0259rl\u0259rind\u0259n daha da uzun s\u00fcrd\u00fc. Ancaq yen\u0259 d\u0259 axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131 tablonu tapd\u0131. \u00dcz\u0259rin\u0259 \u00f6rt\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f b\u0259yaz t\u00fcl p\u0259rd\u0259ni qald\u0131randa indiy\u0259 kimi tama\u015fa etdiyi bir \u00e7ox tablolardak\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u0259r g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 canland\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnki tablodak\u0131 g\u0259nc q\u0131z biraz \u0259vv\u0259l yell\u0259nc\u0259kd\u0259 t\u0259svir olunan qad\u0131n idi. Sad\u0259c\u0259 bu s\u0259f\u0259r sa\u00e7\u0131nda b\u0259yazl\u0131q, \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 z\u0259rif q\u0131r\u0131\u015flar yox idi. H\u0259m d\u0259 bu d\u0259f\u0259 o, yell\u0259nc\u0259k qurdu\u011fu ipl\u0259 intihar etmi\u015f, \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 biraz \u0259vv\u0259l g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc, h\u0259yata sevgi dolu baxan g\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00fcmidsizlik, g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 \u0259v\u0259z olunmu\u015fdu…<\/p>\n

I bu an anlad\u0131 qocan\u0131n \u0259slind\u0259 n\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259diyini… \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 onu g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc zaman d\u0259rvi\u015fl\u0259rin \u201cKimdir insan? \u2013 Sevgid\u0259n dastanlar yazan…Ancaq ac-susuz \u00e7\u00f6l pi\u015fiyin\u0259 bir qab yem\u0259yi ver\u0259c\u0259k sevgini g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259y\u0259n\u201d s\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 niy\u0259 \u201cb\u0259s bir qab yem\u0259yi ver\u0259n kimdir?\u201d sual\u0131n\u0131n verm\u0259sinin s\u0259b\u0259bini….<\/p>\n

\u2013G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, o\u011ful, bu s\u0259f\u0259r axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tapm\u0131san… Ke\u00e7 cam\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131n TALE-yin kim oldu\u011funu g\u00f6r v\u0259 s\u0259nin h\u0259yat tablona niy\u0259 o r\u0259ngl\u0259ri se\u00e7diyini soru\u015f!<\/p>\n

I cam\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131 siman\u0131 tapmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn deyil, bildiyi siman\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ke\u00e7di.<\/p>\n

\u2013Camda kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n, o\u011ful?<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u2013Art\u0131q axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tapm\u0131san…<\/p>\n

Bu an I \u0259trafa baxanda h\u0259yat tablolar\u0131nda oturan v\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda is\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259 r\u0259ngl\u0259r v\u0259 f\u0131r\u00e7a il\u0259 \u00f6z h\u0259yat tablolar\u0131n\u0131 r\u0259ngl\u0259y\u0259n insanlar\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc… G\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 olan, ancaq indiy\u0259 kimi g\u00f6rm\u0259dikl\u0259rinin f\u00fcsunkarl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan ovsunlanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, qocan\u0131n s\u0259si il\u0259 bu ovsundan oyand\u0131…<\/p>\n

\u2013H\u0259yat bir se\u00e7imdir, o\u011ful. N\u0259yi g\u00f6r\u00fcb, n\u0259yi g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yinin, n\u0259y\u0259 inan\u0131b, n\u0259y\u0259 inanmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131n se\u00e7imi… Amma bunlar\u0131n t\u0259m\u0259lind\u0259 is\u0259 4 da\u015f dayan\u0131r: \u00fcmid, s\u0259br, g\u00fcv\u0259n v\u0259 sevgi. \u018fg\u0259r se\u00e7diyin h\u0259yat yollar\u0131nda bu d\u00f6rd\u00fcnd\u0259n biri yoxsa, dem\u0259li \u00f6z \u0259linl\u0259 \u00f6z h\u0259yat tablona boz, qara r\u0259ngl\u0259ri g\u0259tirm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131rsan. M\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 bunu \u0259vv\u0259l d\u0259 dey\u0259 bil\u0259rdim. Ancaq s\u0259n ba\u015fqa bir \u015fey\u0259 inand\u0131\u011f\u0131n zaman m\u0259nim s\u00f6zl\u0259rimin bir faydas\u0131 olmaz… O\u011ful, q\u0259lbin s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259diyini qulaq e\u015fitm\u0259z… Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259, m\u0259n susma\u011f\u0131 se\u00e7dim. \u00d6z\u00fcn \u00f6z yolunu tap dey\u0259. H\u0259m d\u0259 o\u011ful, yad\u0131nda saxla bir yol yanl\u0131\u015fd\u0131rsa, q\u0259lbd\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 narahatl\u0131q v\u0259 huzursuzluq olar. H\u0259r insan yanl\u0131\u015f yollar se\u00e7\u0259 bil\u0259r, amma yenid\u0259n do\u011fru yola qay\u0131tmaq da ancaq \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131d\u0131r, ba\u015fqas\u0131ndan deyil…<\/p>\n

Qocan\u0131 dinl\u0259y\u0259-dinl\u0259y\u0259 \u0259traf\u0131 seyr el\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 I at\u00f6ly\u0259nin tavan\u0131nda yaz\u0131lan bir sitat g\u00f6rd\u00fc: \u201cM\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259tkaram, m\u0259nim inc\u0259s\u0259n\u0259t \u0259s\u0259rim m\u0259nim h\u0259yat\u0131md\u0131r\u201d (Robin \u015earma)<\/p>\n

\u2013M\u0259n tavandak\u0131 yaz\u0131lar\u0131 indiy\u0259 kimi he\u00e7 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdim<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00c7\u00fcnki…<\/p>\n

\u2013\u018fqlin anlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6z g\u00f6rm\u0259z!<\/p>\n

Bu an \u0259trafdan saat\u0131n alarm s\u0259si g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Bir qad\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259hr\u0259m s\u0259si is\u0259 at\u00f6ly\u0259d\u0259 \u0259ks-s\u0259da edirdi: O\u011ful… oyan… i\u015f\u0259 gecikirs\u0259n…<\/p>\n

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D\u0259fn\u0259 a\u011faclar\u0131n\u0131n bitdiyi me\u015f\u0259likd\u0259n h\u00fcnd\u00fcr boylu qad\u0131n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b d\u00fcz bir da\u015f\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 oturub qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 baxan qocaya t\u0259r\u0259f ir\u0259lil\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Bu qad\u0131n aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 torpa\u011fa bas\u0131b yerimirdi, az qala torpa\u011fa he\u00e7 toxunmurdu. B\u00fct\u00fcn v\u00fccudu il\u0259 \u0259trafa i\u015f\u0131q sa\u00e7\u0131r, b\u00fct\u00fcn harmonik h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259ri il\u0259 d\u00fcnya ah\u0259nginin i\u00e7ind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b se\u00e7ilirdi…<\/p>\n

\u2013Paris, n\u0259y\u0259 bel\u0259 diqq\u0259tl\u0259 bax\u0131rsan?<\/p>\n

Qoca Paris q\u00fcdr\u0259tli ilah\u0259 Afinan\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259rhal aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b t\u0259nzim etdi v\u0259 daha sonra yenid\u0259n \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 baxaraq onun sual\u0131na cavab verm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013Ar\u0131n\u0131n nakam m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tin\u0259?<\/p>\n

\u2013Nec\u0259? Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259dim…<\/p>\n

\u2013Bu bitki Ar\u0131 qa\u015f s\u0259hl\u0259bisidir. \u00dcz\u0259rind\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcz \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259r nec\u0259 d\u0259 di\u015fi ar\u0131ya b\u0259nz\u0259yir, el\u0259 deyilmi?<\/p>\n

\u2013D\u00fczd\u00fcr…<\/p>\n

\u2013Bax, bu \u0259traf\u0131nda u\u00e7an ar\u0131lar onu \u00f6z di\u015fisi z\u0259nn edir. Ancaq bitkinin \u00f6z toxumlar\u0131n\u0131 yaymaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn onun m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tind\u0259n istifad\u0259 etdiyini bilmir…<\/p>\n

\u2013Bir g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc o ar\u0131lar\u0131n aldanma\u011f\u0131na kifay\u0259t edir?<\/p>\n

\u2013Xeyr… \u0130nsan\u0131 aldadan s\u00f6zl\u0259rdirs\u0259, ar\u0131n\u0131 aldadan \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259yin buraxd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0259tirdir… Amma s\u00f6zl\u0259r daha t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259lidir. X\u00fcsus\u0259n d\u0259, m\u0259tn alt\u0131nda yatan m\u0259nas\u0131n\u0131 tam olaraq anlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, nec\u0259 yarand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tam d\u0259qiq bilm\u0259diyimiz s\u00f6zl\u0259r M\u00fcqq\u0259dd\u0259s kitaba da yaz\u0131ls\u0131n, ya da bir alman\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 f\u0259rq etm\u0259z, insan\u0131 da yanl\u0131\u015f yola y\u00f6n\u0259ld\u0259r ilah\u0259l\u0259ri d\u0259…<\/p>\n

\u0130lah\u0259 Afina Parisin n\u0259y\u0259 i\u015far\u0259 vurdu\u011funu d\u0259rhal anlad\u0131 v\u0259 bura g\u0259lm\u0259k m\u0259qs\u0259dini xat\u0131rlayaraq:<\/p>\n

\u2013Se\u00e7diyin se\u00e7imin qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda s\u0259n\u0259 s\u00f6z verdiyim kimi Kentavr Xirondan da daha m\u00fcdrik olma\u011f\u0131 b\u0259x\u015f etdim. Amma s\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7obanl\u0131qla m\u0259\u015f\u011fulsan. G\u00f6z\u0259ll\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259li Yelenan\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 xan\u0131m ed\u0259, qarda\u015f\u0131n Hektorun yerin\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259 bil\u0259rdin…<\/p>\n

\u2013Yelenan\u0131n cismind\u0259ki g\u00f6z\u0259llik, m\u0259nim se\u00e7diyim xan\u0131m\u0131n ruhunda var idi. \u0130ndi is\u0259 ill\u0259r Yelenan\u0131n cismind\u0259ki g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi aparsa da, m\u0259nim xan\u0131m\u0131m\u0131n ruhundak\u0131 g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi \u0259ksin\u0259 art\u0131rd\u0131. Sizc\u0259, m\u0259n yanl\u0131\u015f se\u00e7immi etdim?<\/p>\n

\u2013Bu bax\u0131mdan s\u0259n haql\u0131san, amma var-d\u00f6vl\u0259t i\u00e7ind\u0259 ya\u015faya bil\u0259c\u0259yin halda yoxsulluq \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259n…<\/p>\n

\u2013\u018fziz \u0130lah\u0259m, qarda\u015f\u0131m Hektorun 5 o\u011flu var idi, ancaq taxt-tac davalar\u0131ndan sonra 1 o\u011flu qald\u0131, o da taxta \u00e7\u0131xan kimi atas\u0131ndan yegan\u0259 xatir\u0259 qalan anas\u0131n\u0131 zindana sald\u0131. M\u0259nim is\u0259 2 o\u011flum, 1 q\u0131z\u0131m v\u0259 8 d\u0259 n\u0259v\u0259m var. \u015e\u00fck\u00fcr c\u0259h-calal i\u00e7ind\u0259 ya\u015famaqsaq da, evimizd\u0259 bir g\u00fcn bel\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik \u0259ksik olmur. Sizc\u0259, m\u0259n xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyi bel\u0259 ala bilm\u0259y\u0259n taxt-tac\u0131 se\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k yanl\u0131\u015f q\u0259rarm\u0131 ald\u0131m?<\/p>\n

Bu an Parisin diqq\u0259ti onu maraqla izl\u0259y\u0259n iki c\u00fct g\u00f6z\u0259 sata\u015fd\u0131. V\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc Afinadan o iki c\u00fct g\u00f6z\u00fcn sahibin\u0259 \u00e7evirib sual\u0131n\u0131 bir d\u0259 ona \u00fcnvanlad\u0131:<\/p>\n

\u2013\u018fziz oxuyucum, s\u0259nc\u0259, m\u0259n yanl\u0131\u015f se\u00e7immi etdim?<\/p>\n

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G\u00f6zl\u0259rimizi yumub a\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z zaman g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fcz m\u0259kan h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 eyni olmaya bil\u0259r. Bu an hans\u0131 m\u0259kan\u0131n real, hans\u0131n\u0131n qeyri-real oldu\u011funu bilm\u0259d\u0259n ya\u015fay\u0131r\u0131q. \u00c7\u00fcnki \u0259vv\u0259lki m\u0259kan\u0131 xat\u0131rlam\u0131r\u0131q da o s\u0259b\u0259bd\u0259n. B\u0259lk\u0259, hal-haz\u0131rda real oldu\u011funa inand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z bu m\u0259kan \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck yuxudur, amma f\u0259rqind\u0259 deyilik. Eynil\u0259 hekay\u0259mizin q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131 olan I adl\u0131 g\u0259nc kimi. O, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumdu\u011fu m\u0259kan ba\u015fqa yer olsa […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16912"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=16912"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16912\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":16913,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16912\/revisions\/16913"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=16912"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=16912"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=16912"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}