{"id":17085,"date":"2021-10-21T12:40:52","date_gmt":"2021-10-21T07:40:52","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=17085"},"modified":"2021-10-21T12:40:52","modified_gmt":"2021-10-21T07:40:52","slug":"%c9%99li-rzazad%c9%99-yarim-qalan-arzular-hekay%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=17085","title":{"rendered":"\u018fli Rzazad\u0259 -Yar\u0131m qalan arzular (hekay\u0259)"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"kultyr\"<\/a>(hekay\u0259)<\/strong><\/p>\n

Mavi s\u0259mada a\u011fappaq buludlar\u0131n s\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fc bir g\u00fcnd\u0259,\u00a0 G\u0259nc\u0259d\u0259n yola d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb \u00fcz\u00fc paytaxta t\u0259r\u0259f h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t etdim. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 bu g\u00f6z\u0259l v\u0259 q\u0259dim \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n ayr\u0131landa do\u011fmas\u0131ndan ayr\u0131lan u\u015faq kimi i\u00e7imi dar\u0131xmaq hissi b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcr. B\u0259z\u0259n\u00a0 bu haqda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259rk\u0259n s\u0259b\u0259b kimi G\u0259nc\u0259d\u0259 qoyub g\u0259ldiyim dostlar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m. Bilmir\u0259m, b\u0259lk\u0259 ba\u015fqa s\u0259b\u0259bl\u0259r d\u0259 var. \u00d6t\u0259n gec\u0259ni\u00a0 uzun ill\u0259rin dostu K\u0259nan\u0131n Mahrasa ba\u011f\u0131nda yel\u0259\u015f\u0259n evl\u0259rind\u0259 ke\u00e7irmi\u015fdim. Evl\u0259rinin yax\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda yel\u0259\u015f\u0259n \u015e\u0259ms kafesind\u0259, kafe ba\u011flanana q\u0259d\u0259r dostlarla oturub \u00e7ay i\u00e7ib, s\u00f6hb\u0259t etdik. S\u0259h\u0259r a\u00e7\u0131lan kimi yola d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259yimi gec\u0259d\u0259n planla\u015fd\u0131rma\u011f\u0131ma baxmayaraq, K\u0259nan min bir f\u0259nd i\u015fl\u0259dib m\u0259ni bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saat da yubatd\u0131 v\u0259 m\u0259ni g\u00fcnortaya q\u0259d\u0259r evl\u0259rind\u0259 saxlama\u011fa raz\u0131 sald\u0131.\u00a0 Vacib i\u015fl\u0259r olmasayd\u0131, bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn d\u0259 bu q\u0259dim \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 qalacaqd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

G\u0259nc\u0259ni yeni \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m ki, avtomobild\u0259n q\u0259rib\u0259 bir s\u0259s e\u015fidildi.\u00a0 M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, bu s\u0259s m\u00fch\u0259rrik yerl\u0259\u015f\u0259n hiss\u0259d\u0259n ya da onun alt\u0131ndan g\u0259lir. Xasiyy\u0259tc\u0259 narahat, h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 h\u0259ssasl\u0131qla yana\u015fan biri olma\u011f\u0131m, m\u0259ni avtomobild\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n f\u0259rqli s\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259 laqeyid qalmama\u011fa vadar edirdi. Az sonra is\u0259 avtomobilin s\u00fcr\u0259ti nisb\u0259t\u0259n azald\u0131 v\u0259 m\u0259n yolun sa\u011f zola\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 s\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m. Bu\u00a0 s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 Bak\u0131ya vaxt\u0131nda \u00e7atmayaca\u011f\u0131ma \u0259min idim, yolda qalma ehtimal\u0131m da b\u00f6y\u00fck idi. Avtomobil t\u0259miri sexl\u0259rin\u0259 \u00e7atana q\u0259d\u0259r yolun sa\u011f t\u0259r\u0259fi il\u0259 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 s\u00fcrm\u0259kd\u0259n ba\u015fqa \u00e7ar\u0259m qalmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Qar\u015f\u0131da h\u0259l\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 y\u00fcz kilometr var v\u0259 m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00fc\u00e7 min kilometr kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc.\u00a0 Bel\u0259 m\u0259saf\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 adam\u0131n s\u0259bri t\u00fck\u0259nir,\u00a0 psixoloji olaraq yorulur. Yad\u0131ma ill\u0259r \u00f6nc\u0259 q\u0259t ediyimiz 5100 kilometrlik yol d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u00c7atma\u011fa 1000 kilometr qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 v\u0259 biz el\u0259 sevinirdik ki. H\u0259yat da bel\u0259dir, m\u0259qs\u0259d, h\u0259d\u0259f b\u00f6y\u00fck olanda, b\u00f6y\u00fck mane\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259 adama ki\u00e7ik g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. M\u0259qs\u0259d ki\u00e7ik olanda is\u0259 \u0259n ki\u00e7ik mane\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259 reaksiya veririk.<\/p>\n

Yolun sa\u011f t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 yanacaq doldurma m\u0259nt\u0259q\u0259sinin ya\u015f\u0131l divarlar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc.\u00a0 H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lib ki, bizim \u00f6lk\u0259d\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131l r\u0259ngi bir yanacaqdoldurma m\u0259nt\u0259q\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 bir d\u0259 aptek binalar\u0131nda g\u00f6rm\u0259k olar. M\u0259nt\u0259q\u0259nin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndan yava\u015f- yava\u015f ke\u00e7ib \u0259trafa g\u00f6z g\u0259zdirdim.\u00a0 \u018frazid\u0259 avtoyuma v\u0259 qap\u0131s\u0131 ba\u011fl\u0131 bir \u0259rzaq d\u00fckan\u0131 vard\u0131. Biz\u0259- y\u0259ni m\u0259n\u0259 v\u0259 m\u0259nim avtomobilim\u0259 is\u0259 bunlardan he\u00e7 biri laz\u0131m deyildi. Y\u0259qin ki yen\u0259 d\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 on kilometr getm\u0259li, \u015fans\u0131ma s\u0131\u011f\u0131naraq avtot\u0259mir sexi axtarmal\u0131yd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 bu vaxt yanacaqdoldurma m\u0259nt\u0259q\u0259sinind\u0259n g\u0259nc bir o\u011flan\u0131n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. \u00dcst ba\u015f\u0131ndan t\u0259mir\u00e7iy\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. Ax\u0131 avtomobil ustalar\u0131n\u0131n geyiml\u0259ri ad\u0259t\u0259n ya\u011f izl\u0259ri il\u0259 l\u0259k\u0259li olur. Aya\u011f\u0131nda topu\u011fa q\u0259d\u0259r k\u0259silmi\u015f rezin \u00e7\u0259km\u0259 vard\u0131. Gur, qara, q\u0131vr\u0131m sa\u00e7lar\u0131 vard\u0131. \u018fynin\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 yerd\u0259n de\u015filmi\u015f g\u00f6y r\u0259ngd\u0259 g\u00f6d\u0259kc\u0259 geyinmi\u015fdi.\u00a0 \u018flind\u0259ki iki \u0259d\u0259d iki litrlik \u015f\u0259ffaf su qab\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 r\u0259ngind\u0259\u00a0 yanacaq oldu\u011fu bilinirdi. O yanacaq al\u0131b harasa gedirdi. Onsuz da yava\u015f ged\u0259n avtomobili saxlay\u0131b, yan oturacaq t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259ki \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259ni a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sald\u0131m v\u0259 o\u011flan\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rmaq ist\u0259yirdim ki, ona m\u00fcraci\u0259t etm\u0259k ist\u0259diyimi anlay\u0131b \u00e7evrildi v\u0259\u00a0 istiqam\u0259tini d\u0259yi\u015fib m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f add\u0131mlad\u0131.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fma\u011f\u0131na az qalm\u0131\u015f uca s\u0259sl\u0259 ona salam verdim. Ondan yax\u0131nl\u0131qda h\u0259r hans\u0131 bir avtomobil t\u0259miri sexinin olub olmamas\u0131n\u0131 soru\u015fdum. O is\u0259 susaraq m\u0259n\u0259 bir az da yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131 v\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131q p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n boylanaraq asta v\u0259 sakit s\u0259sl\u0259 m\u0259niml\u0259 salamla\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

-Buyurun qarda\u015f. E\u015fidir\u0259m \u2013dey\u0259 s\u0259sl\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

-M\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259cili t\u0259mir sexi laz\u0131md\u0131r.\u00a0 Ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131ma n\u0259s\u0259 olub, s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 s\u00fcr\u0259 bilmir\u0259m, qaz\u0131 s\u0131xanda sanki ma\u015f\u0131n narahat hiss edir \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc-sanki n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 bu g\u0259nc o\u011flan\u0131n\u00a0 avtomobil\u0259 bir \u00e7ar\u0259 tapaca\u011f\u0131na \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc inand\u0131rma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

-Burdan bir-iki kilometr k\u0259ndin i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 bizim sexmiz var- o fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259d\u0259n cavab verdi. M\u0259n d\u0259 orda i\u015fl\u0259yir\u0259m. Sizi, oraya y\u00f6nl\u0259ndir\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m-dedi.\u00a0 Dem\u0259k bel\u0259- o \u0259i il\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131ya i\u015far\u0259 ed\u0259r\u0259k dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Qabaqdak\u0131 d\u00f6ng\u0259d\u0259n sa\u011fa d\u00f6n\u00fcb d\u00fcz gedin. Yolun sa\u011f t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 qap\u0131s\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131q sex g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259ksiniz. Siz gedin m\u0259n d\u0259 bir azdan gl\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m- deyib yola d\u00fcz\u0259lm\u0259k ist\u0259dikd\u0259, m\u0259n ona birlikd\u0259 ora\u00a0 getm\u0259yi t\u0259klif etdim. \u201cyox, \u0259limd\u0259 benzin var, sonra\u00a0 ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n\u0131zda qoxusu qalar\u201ddey\u0259 cavab verdi.<\/p>\n

G\u0259ncin bu q\u0259d\u0259r diqq\u0259tli v\u0259 qabiliyy\u0259tli olmas\u0131 \u00e7ox xo\u015fuma g\u0259lmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

\u201cQarda\u015f, \u0259yl\u0259\u015f. O n\u0259 s\u00f6zd\u00fcr?\u00a0 Ma\u015f\u0131ndan benzin iyi g\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259\u201d deyib bu q\u0131vr\u0131msa\u00e7 o\u011flan\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131na oturmas\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259kid etdim. G\u0259nc o\u011flan utana \u2013utana qar\u015f\u0131 qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b,\u00a0 oturdu.<\/p>\n

-Onda bel\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r s\u0259n o sexd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yirs\u0259n?-\u00a0 bu q\u0131sa yola k\u00f6rp\u00fc salmaq m\u0259qs\u0259di il\u0259 soru\u015fdum.<\/p>\n

-B\u0259li, m\u0259n sexd\u0259 ustan\u0131n k\u00f6m\u0259k\u00e7isiy\u0259m-dey\u0259 g\u0259nc o\u011flan cavab verdi. \u018flind\u0259ki benzin qablar\u0131n\u0131 ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131nda yer\u0259 qoymu\u015f, a\u015fmas\u0131nlar dey\u0259\u00a0 bir \u0259li il\u0259 saxlam\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

-Af\u0259rin, dem\u0259k s\u0259n d\u0259 avtomobil t\u0259mirini art\u0131q m\u0259nims\u0259mis\u0259n<\/p>\n

-Pis deyil\u0259m -o g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k dedi.\u00a0 S\u0259kkizinci sinifd\u0259n ustan\u0131n yan\u0131nda i\u015fl\u0259yir\u0259m. \u00c7ox yax\u015f\u0131 v\u0259 bacar\u0131ql\u0131 ustad\u0131r, h\u0259m d\u0259 ana t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n uzaq qohumumuzdur. Atam r\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259n sonra, babam \u0259limd\u0259 bir s\u0259n\u0259t olsun v\u0259 anama k\u00f6m\u0259k olum dey\u0259, m\u0259ni o ustaya tap\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. O da sa\u011f olsun m\u0259ni \u00f6z n\u0259v\u0259si kimi saxlay\u0131r, qay\u011f\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kir. Art\u0131q d\u00f6rd il\u0259 yax\u0131nd\u0131r ki, ma\u015f\u0131n t\u0259mirind\u0259y\u0259m-dey\u0259 g\u0259nc tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yol yolda\u015f\u0131na h\u0259ddind\u0259n art\u0131q isti m\u00fcnasib\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259rirdi.<\/p>\n

-Lap yax\u015f\u0131, \u00fcmid edir\u0259m ustan m\u0259nim ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131ma bir \u00e7ar\u0259 q\u0131lar, m\u0259n d\u0259 rahatl\u0131qla gedib \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7ataram-deyib t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcm b\u0131\u011f yeri yenic\u0259 t\u0259rl\u0259mi\u015f g\u0259ncin \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– \u015e\u00fcbh\u0259 etmir\u0259m, m\u0259nim ustam rayonda say\u0131l\u0131b se\u00e7il\u0259n\u00a0 \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 ustalardand\u0131r.<\/p>\n

-Yax\u015f\u0131, b\u0259s de g\u00f6r\u00fcm, s\u0259n bura benzin alma\u011fa g\u0259lmi\u015fdin?<\/p>\n

-B\u0259li, sex\u0259 t\u0259mir \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir ma\u015f\u0131n g\u0259lib. T\u0259mir vaxt\u0131 m\u0259lum oldu ki, yanaca\u011f\u0131 azd\u0131r. Usta xahi\u015f etdi g\u0259lib \u201czapravka\u201ddan benzin al\u0131b apar\u0131m. H\u0259m d\u0259 bizd\u0259\u00a0 bel\u0259 hallar \u00e7ox olur. Sexd\u0259 usta il\u0259 ikimiz i\u015fl\u0259yirik. Ustam m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259miri \u00f6yr\u0259dir, M\u0259n onun qullu\u011funu tutur, \u0259rzaq d\u00fckan\u0131na, ehtiyat hiss\u0259l\u0259ri d\u00fckan\u0131na, \u201czapravkaya\u201d m\u0259n gedir\u0259m-dey\u0259\u00a0 m\u0259suliyy\u0259tli tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131qlar yerin\u0259 yetir\u0259n adam kimi cavab verdi.<\/p>\n

– Soru\u015fmaq ayb olmas\u0131n siz n\u0259\u00e7isiniz, hardan g\u0259lirsiniz?-dey\u0259 iri, a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini m\u0259n\u0259 dikib soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

-M\u0259n.. M\u0259n G\u0259nc\u0259d\u0259 Nizami G\u0259nc\u0259viy\u0259 h\u0259sr olunmu\u015f t\u0259dbird\u0259n qay\u0131d\u0131ram. Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131, m\u00fc\u0259llim v\u0259 t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259\u00e7iy\u0259m.<\/p>\n

-Aha, dem\u0259k yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z?-onun bird\u0259n bir\u0259 s\u0259si d\u0259yi\u015fdi. Bilirisiniz.. M\u0259n kitab oxuma\u011f\u0131 \u00e7ox sevir\u0259m. \u018fn \u00e7ox da\u00a0 q\u0131\u015fda sexd\u0259ki soban\u0131n k\u0259nar\u0131nda oturub m\u00fctali\u0259 edir\u0259m. El\u0259 g\u00fcn olur ki, t\u0259mir \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn az ma\u015f\u0131n g\u0259lir v\u0259 m\u0259n h\u0259min g\u00fcn\u00fcn yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 kitab oxumaqla ke\u00e7irir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

-N\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l. Kitab oxuyanlar\u0131 sevir\u0259m,\u00a0 Hans\u0131 m\u00f6vzular\u0131 oxuyursan?<\/p>\n

-Detektiv romanlar\u0131 oxuma\u011fa \u00fcst\u00fcnl\u00fck verir\u0259m. Amma \u00fcmumiyytl\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 m\u00f6vzularda olan b\u00fct\u00fcn\u00a0 kitablar\u0131 oxuyuram. M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, kitab yaz\u0131l\u0131bsa, ona \u0259m\u0259k s\u0259rf olunubsa, onu oxumaq ziyan g\u0259tirm\u0259z.\u00a0 Bu il \u00e7atdlra bilm\u0259dim, amma g\u0259l\u0259n il s\u0259ndl\u0259rimi ali m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 ver\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. G\u00f6r\u0259k nece olur?<\/p>\n

-Allah qoysa yax\u015f\u0131 olar, \u0259min ol ki \u0259sas bir i\u015f\u0259 ba\u015flamaq haqq\u0131nda verdiyin q\u0259rard\u0131r. Q\u0259rar verildis\u0259, bir il gec, bir il tez bu ba\u015f ver\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n

\u018fsas yoldan sa\u011fa d\u00f6n\u00fcb, k\u0259ndin i\u00e7\u0259risin\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 kilometr yol gedirdik. \u018ftraf\u0131 h\u00fcnd\u00fcr a\u011faclarla \u0259hat\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015f \u00e7ox da b\u00f6y\u00fck olmayan avtomobil t\u0259mir sexin\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131q. \u0130\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259 a\u011f r\u0259ngd\u0259 Niva markal\u0131 vatomobilin arxas\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Avtomobili\u00a0 sexd\u0259n k\u0259narda saxlay\u0131b d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck. M\u0259nim g\u0259nc yol yolda\u015f\u0131m ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 yanaca\u011f\u0131 sexin i\u00e7\u0259risin\u0259 apard\u0131. \u00c7ox ke\u00e7m\u0259d\u0259n qay\u0131d\u0131b m\u0259ni i\u00e7\u0259ri d\u0259v\u0259t etdi. Nivan\u0131n alt\u0131ndak\u0131 \u201cyama\u201ddan ya\u015f\u0131 altm\u0131\u015fa \u00e7atm\u0131\u015f h\u00fcnd\u00fcr, iri g\u00f6vd\u0259li bir ki\u015fi \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, fikirli halda al\u0259tl\u0259r d\u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f d\u0259mir stolun yan\u0131nda yer\u0259 b\u0259rkidilmi\u015f b\u0131\u00e7aq itil\u0259y\u0259n d\u0259stgah\u0131 i\u015f\u0259 sald\u0131 v\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259ki d\u0259miri f\u0131rlanan da\u015fla itil\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Onun ba\u015f\u0131 i\u015f\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, sexd\u0259 \u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n ba\u015fqa kimin oldu\u011funun da f\u0259rqnd\u0259 deyildi.\u00a0 F\u0131rlanan da\u015fdan \u00e7\u0131xan \u00e7\u0131nq\u0131 v\u0259 u\u011fultu s\u0259si \u0259traf\u0131 b\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. Stolun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki qara radiodan g\u0259l\u0259n h\u0259zin musiqi s\u0259si, u\u011fultu s\u0259sind\u0259n batm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. G\u0259nc o\u011flan m\u0259ni sexin i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 divara s\u00f6yk\u0259nmi\u015f k\u00f6hn\u0259 divanda\u00a0 otrma\u011fa d\u0259v\u0259t edib, g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259yimi t\u0259klif etdi. \u00c7ox ke\u00e7m\u0259di art\u0131q t\u0259mir olunmu\u015f Nivan\u0131n sahibi onu i\u015f\u0259 sal\u0131b,\u00a0 sexd\u0259n aralan\u0131b getdi v\u0259 \u201cyama\u201dn\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 m\u0259nim ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131m \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131ld\u0131.\u00a0 Ya\u015fl\u0131 usta ciddi \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 m\u0259ni ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n problemi il\u0259 q\u0131sa sor\u011fu-suala tutdu v\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda q\u0259bir\u0259 ox\u015far qaranl\u0131q \u201cyamaya\u201d d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.\u00a0 Sonradan ad\u0131n\u0131n To\u011frul oldu\u011funu bildiyim g\u0259nc, ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259mir ed\u0259n ustaya onun ist\u0259yi il\u0259 gah a\u00e7ar verir, gah da avtomobilin alt\u0131ndak\u0131 z\u00fclm\u0259t d\u0259rinlikd\u0259 ustan\u0131n yax\u015f\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259si \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn uzun naqilin ba\u015f\u0131nda yanan lampan\u0131 tuturdu. Bu i\u015fin ortas\u0131nda To\u011frul m\u0259niml\u0259 d\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t\u0259 vaxt tap\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

-Szin d\u0259 kitablar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 oxumaq ist\u0259y\u0259rdim-g\u0259ncin fikri yoldak\u0131 s\u00f6hb\u0259timizd\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

-Niy\u0259 d\u0259 olams\u0131n.. xo\u015fb\u0259xltikd\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131nda romanlar\u0131mdan biri var. Onu s\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259diyy\u0259 ed\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n

-Do\u011frudan?-m\u0259sum simal\u0131 o\u011flan\u0131n sevinci g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

-K\u0259ndd\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259rimin kitabxanalar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7oxdan oxuyub bitirmi\u015f\u0259m-q\u0131m\u0131\u015faraq davam etdi. Tez- tez onlardan oxumaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn kitabalar g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb yenid\u0259n qaytar\u0131ram. N\u0259 vaxtsa, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn d\u0259 \u015f\u0259xsi kitabxanam\u0131n olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 arzulay\u0131ram, amma h\u0259l\u0259 ki bu arzu olaraq qal\u0131r.<\/p>\n

-ay balla harda qald\u0131n? indi dan\u0131\u015fmaq vaxt\u0131d\u0131r? G\u0259l o\u00a0 i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 tut bura, g\u00f6zl\u0259rim kor oldu ax\u0131 \u2013\u00a0 ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131ndan g\u0259l\u0259n \u0259s\u0259bi ustan\u0131n s\u0259sind\u0259n diksindim. To\u011frul, ustan\u0131n danlaq s\u0259sin\u0259 he\u00e7 kefini d\u0259 pozmad\u0131, \u201cbir n\u00f6v ad\u0259kt\u0259r\u0259y\u0259m\u201d deyib g\u00fcl\u0259- g\u00fcl\u0259 ustan\u0131n yan\u0131na qa\u00e7d\u0131.<\/p>\n

Amma m\u0259n bir az p\u0259rt kimi olmu\u015fdum.\u00a0 Ustan\u0131n To\u011frula\u00a0 bu t\u0259mbehind\u0259n bir az da m\u0259n\u0259 pay d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc hesab etdim.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 bu vaxt To\u011frul yenid\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f g\u0259ldi, qar\u015f\u0131mdak\u0131 stolun \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 qoyulmu\u015f elektirik samovar\u0131 i\u015f\u0259 sal\u0131b yenid\u0259n ustan\u0131n yan\u0131na qay\u0131td\u0131, dizl\u0259rini yer\u0259 at\u0131b yan\u0131ndak\u0131 a\u00e7arlardan birini ona uzatd\u0131.<\/p>\n

-Day \u201cfsyo\u201d, ged\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n-dey\u0259 bir az s\u00fckutdan sonra \u00a0To\u011frula dedi. Get \u00e7ay s\u00fcz, bir st\u0259kan \u00e7ay i\u00e7\u0259k.<\/p>\n

To\u011frul ki\u00e7ik stolun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 st\u0259kan p\u00fcrr\u0259ngi \u00e7ay s\u00fczd\u00fc, q\u0259ndl\u0259 dolu qab\u0131 ortaya qoydu.<\/p>\n

-Kanfetimiz qutar\u0131b qarda\u015f, adi q\u0259ndl\u0259 \u00e7ay\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 q\u0259bul et-dey\u0259 bayaqdan s\u0259rt v\u0259 ciddi insan t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcrat\u0131 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flayan usta, sexin k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259n as\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u0259l\u00fczyuyanda\u00a0 qaralm\u0131\u015f \u0259ll\u0259rini yuya -yuya m\u0259n\u0259 baxmadan yum\u015faq t\u0259rzd\u0259 dedi.<\/p>\n

-\u018fst\u0259\u011ffirullah day\u0131, valla \u00e7aya ehtiyac yoxdur, bel\u0259 d\u0259 xo\u015fdur. Bir d\u0259 m\u0259n onsuz da \u015firniyyatdan istifad\u0259 etmir\u0259m, \u00e7ox vaxt \u00e7ay\u0131 da \u015f\u0259k\u0259rsiz i\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131ram-deyi\u0259 ona cavab verdim.<\/p>\n

-Ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n haz\u0131rd\u0131, amma Bak\u0131ya \u00e7atan kimi s\u00fcr\u0259t qutusunun\u00a0 ya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdirs\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 olar. N\u0259s\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm su i\u00e7m\u0259di ondan.<\/p>\n

-Sa\u011f ol Usta. G\u0259nc\u0259d\u0259n bura q\u0259d\u0259r bird\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 servis tapmad\u0131m, yax\u015f\u0131 ki, To\u011frulla rastla\u015fd\u0131m, el\u0259 bil Allah onu m\u0259nim qar\u015f\u0131ma m\u0259l\u0259k kimi \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131. Sa\u011f olsun, m\u0259ni bura g\u0259tirdi. Yoxsa, kim bilir qabaqda ba\u015f\u0131ma n\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kdi.<\/p>\n

-H\u0259\u0259, To\u011frul o\u011fuldu, o\u011ful-dey\u0259 ki\u015fi islanm\u0131\u015f yek\u0259\u00a0 \u0259ll\u0259rini d\u0259stmala silib divanda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi.- Art\u0131q ne\u00e7\u0259 ildir ki, yan\u0131mda \u015fagirdlik edir, ma\u015fallah s\u0259n\u0259ti d\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259nib. D\u00fczd\u00fcr m\u0259n ist\u0259mir\u0259m o da m\u0259nim kimi t\u0259mir sexl\u0259rind\u0259 \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcts\u00fcn. Deyir\u0259m bala… \u2013\u00f6sk\u00fcr\u0259k onun s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259sdi, stolun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259ki siqaret qutusundan bir \u0259d\u0259d g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb dama\u011f\u0131na qoydu, al\u0131\u015fqanla yand\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259\u00a0 davam etdi,- H\u0259\u0259\u0259, deyir\u0259m bala n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ki, cavansan, get oxu, t\u0259hsil al, \u0259lin bu qara -quradan t\u0259mizl\u0259nsin. \u018fll\u0259rim\u0259 bax, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yusam da qaras\u0131 getmir, burda q\u0131rx ilin qaras\u0131 var.\u00a0 Oxuma\u011fa h\u0259v\u0259si var dey\u0259 deyir\u0259m, yoxsa dem\u0259zdim. G\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m el\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259n kitab d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcr. M\u00fc\u015ft\u0259ri olmayanda, avara i\u015fl\u0259rl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olmur, kitab oxuyur, a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 u\u015faqd\u0131r. Deyir\u0259m bala, \u0259g\u0259r\u00a0 kitab -d\u0259ft\u0259r\u0259 bel\u0259 h\u0259v\u0259sin varsa, get oxu b\u00f6y\u00fck adam ol-ki\u015fi siqaretin d\u0259rin qullablar\u0131na qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f\u00a0 \u00f6sk\u00fcr\u0259yini d\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 saxlay\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

-Niy\u0259 d\u0259 olmas\u0131n. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259 oxusun, amma bu da bir s\u0259n\u0259tdir. Ma\u015fallah g\u0259nc ya\u015f\u0131nda ma\u015f\u0131n d\u00fcz\u0259ltm\u0259yi bacar\u0131rsa, bu onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259yatda bir u\u011furudur- dey\u0259 ki\u015finin s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 q\u00fcvv\u0259t verdim.<\/p>\n

\u0130kimiz d\u0259 \u00e7evrilib To\u011frula baxd\u0131q. Bizim bu s\u00f6hb\u0259timiz qar\u015f\u0131m\u0131zda ayaq\u00fcst\u0259 dayan\u0131b isti \u00e7aydan qurtum vuran q\u0131vr\u0131msa\u00e7 o\u011flan\u0131n m\u0259sum simas\u0131nda sevinc cizgil\u0259ri yaratm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sanki el\u0259 bu an hans\u0131sa ali t\u0259hsil m\u00fc\u0259ssis\u0259in\u0259 daxil ol\u0131du\u011funu e\u015fitmi\u015f v\u0259 onun sevincini ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131.\u00a0\u00a0 Bu soyuq sexd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n sad\u0259 k\u0259nd u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 bir anl\u0131q qanadlar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b u\u00e7ma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Bunu usta da hiss edirdi<\/p>\n

-G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n, bel\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259n h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 az qal\u0131r ki, u\u00e7sun-usta m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7evrilib dedi. T\u0259kc\u0259 qanadlar\u0131 \u00e7atm\u0131r.\u00a0 Bu il daha ke\u00e7di, n\u00f6vb\u0259ti il s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259rini ver\u0259rs\u0259n unuiversitet\u0259. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ki, m\u0259n d\u0259, baban da sa\u011f\u0131q, s\u0259ni korluq \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 qoymar\u0131q, bir \u0259limiz \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 olar- To\u011frula baxaraq dedi. -\u018fsas\u00a0 oxusun, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ki, m\u0259n d\u0259 varam ona k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259r\u0259m.\u00a0 \u0130\u015fdir, \u00f6m\u00fcr biz\u0259 v\u0259fa q\u0131lmasa, onda i\u015fl\u0259yib ba\u015f\u0131na \u00e7ar\u0259 q\u0131lar-dey\u0259 usta siqaretdind\u0259n n\u00f6vb\u0259ti qullab\u0131 ald\u0131.<\/p>\n

-Xeyirlisi-dey\u0259 usta davam etdi- N\u0259is\u0259.. bilmir\u0259m, nec\u0259 olur olsun, ist\u0259yir oxusun, ya oxumas\u0131n amma m\u0259nim arzum To\u011frulu b\u00f6y\u00fck adam kimi g\u00f6rm\u0259kdir. Allah adam\u0131n q\u0259lbin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 verir. Bu q\u0259lb ki To\u011frulda var, o g\u0259r\u0259k ham\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n tan\u0131na, tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f adam ola, barmaqla g\u00f6st\u0259ril\u0259, ham\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n sevil\u0259. Biz d\u0259 onunla f\u0259xr ed\u0259k. Bax, m\u0259n onu bel\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Avtomobil d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra biz t\u0259xmin\u0259n iki saat m\u00fcxt\u0259lif m\u00f6vzularda\u00a0 s\u00f6hb\u0259t etdik, dedik g\u00fcld\u00fck, To\u011frul \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k planlar qurduq. O is\u0259 boyaqab\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 oturub, simas\u0131na hakim k\u0259silmi\u015f\u00a0 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259m\u0259xsus\u00a0 t\u0259b\u0259s\u00fcm\u00fc il\u0259\u00a0 bizi dinl\u0259yirdi. Ad\u0259ti \u00fczr\u0259 sevincind\u0259n u\u00e7ma\u011fa qanad\u0131 yox idi.<\/p>\n

Usta v\u0259 To\u011frulla xudahafizl\u0259\u015f\u0259rk\u0259n To\u011frula m\u00fc\u0259llifi oldu\u011fum kitab\u0131 imzalayaraq verdim. Kitab\u0131n ilk s\u0259hif\u0259sin\u0259 \u201c\u018fziz qarda\u015f\u0131m To\u011frul H\u0259s\u0259nzad\u0259y\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259llifd\u0259n h\u0259diyy\u0259\u201d yaz\u0131d\u0131m. G\u0259nc\u00a0 sevincini ifad\u0259 etm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tinlik \u00e7\u0259kirdi.<\/p>\n

-Bu kitab m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ox d\u0259y\u0259rli olacaq. Bu h\u0259m m\u0259nim arzusunda oldu\u011fum \u015f\u0259xsi kitabxanam\u0131n, h\u0259m d\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259llifin \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n imza il\u0259 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m ilk kitab\u0131md\u0131r. Valla bilmir\u0259m nec\u0259 t\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr edim siz\u0259, u\u00e7ma\u011fa qanad\u0131m yoxdur.<\/p>\n

-To\u011frul, s\u0259nin q\u0259d\u0259r el\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259 sevinir\u0259m. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki s\u0259nin kimi bir o\u011flanla, usta kimi qay\u0131\u011f\u0131ke\u015f, insanp\u0259rv\u0259r biri\u00a0 il\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f oldum. Valla, bu d\u00fcnyada biz\u0259 qalan ancaq \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz olaca\u011f\u0131q. Var d\u00f6vl\u0259t, d\u00fcnya mal\u0131 he\u00e7 n\u0259dir. \u0130nsan q\u0259lbi, insan sevgisi,\u00a0 m\u0259hz budur bizim \u0259sl qazanc\u0131m\u0131z. Bax, m\u0259nim ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131m xarab olmasayd\u0131, s\u0259n\u0259 rast g\u0259lm\u0259s\u0259ydim, bir- birimizi tan\u0131mayacaqd\u0131q, s\u0259n\u0259 kitab ver\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259kdim. Bir az\u00a0 qabaq\u00a0 yolda m\u0259n narahat idim, amma indi qat- qat rahatam. Ma\u015f\u0131n da d\u00fcz\u0259ldi v\u0259 m\u0259n yoluma davam edir\u0259m. Bu hadis\u0259d\u0259n he\u00e7 n\u0259 itirm\u0259dim, amma qazanc\u0131m siz oldunuz. Allah qoysa, s\u0259n ali m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 daxil olarsan v\u0259\u00a0 biz h\u0259l\u0259 Bak\u0131da tez tez g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259yik. M\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259nin oxuma\u011f\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir qarda\u015f kimi \u0259limd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259ni \u0259sirg\u0259m\u0259r\u0259m. \u018fn az\u0131ndan Bak\u0131da s\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6z -qulaq yolda\u015f\u0131 olaram.\u00a0 Bax, usta dediyi kimi s\u0259n g\u0259r\u0259k barmaqla g\u00f6st\u0259ril\u0259n adam olasan.<\/p>\n

-N\u0259 vaxt bu ell\u0259rd\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259r olsan, biz\u0259 ba\u015fvurmam\u0131\u015f ke\u00e7m\u0259-usta m\u0259niml\u0259 xudahafizl\u0259\u015fm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259ll\u0259rini m\u0259n\u0259 uzatd\u0131.<\/p>\n

-\u018flb\u0259tt\u0259 he\u00e7 sizi unudaramm\u0131? N\u0259 vaxt g\u0259ls\u0259m m\u00fctl\u0259q bu \u00fcnvana ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. To\u011frul, s\u0259n d\u0259 m\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r\u00a0 bu kitab\u0131 oxu, bir yerd\u0259 m\u00f6vzunu m\u00fczakir\u0259 ed\u0259rik. Oldumu?<\/p>\n

-S\u00f6z.-dey\u0259 To\u011frul cavab verdi, ill\u0259rin dostu kimi m\u0259niml\u0259 qucaqla\u015faraq xudahafizl\u0259\u015fdi v\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259ril\u0259 m\u0259ni yola q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Ma\u015f\u0131n \u0259vv\u0259lkit\u0259k \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 kimi asfalt\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fc ild\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fc Bak\u0131ya do\u011fru can at\u0131rd\u0131. Bu iki\u00a0 g\u00fcn \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l bir g\u00fcn oldu. D\u00fcn\u0259n G\u0259nc\u0259d\u0259ki t\u0259dbirimizin xo\u015f t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcrat\u0131, bu g\u00fcn d\u0259 To\u011frul v\u0259 usta kimi iki m\u0259n\u0259viyyat\u0131 z\u0259ngin insanlarla tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m. T\u0259kc\u0259 m\u0259yus oldu\u011fum,\u00a0 onlar\u0131n\u00a0\u00a0 mobil telefon n\u00f6mr\u0259l\u0259rini g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259yi unutma\u011fm oldu. Ka\u015f\u00a0 telefon n\u00f6mr\u0259l\u0259rini g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259yidim. N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 olard\u0131 tez- tez telefonla \u0259lq\u0259 saxlay\u0131b hal-\u0259hval tutard\u0131m. Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131z arzulara o q\u0259d\u0259r qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, he\u00e7 onlar\u0131n da yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259di m\u0259nd\u0259n n\u00f6mr\u0259 ist\u0259sinl\u0259r. Bir d\u0259 Allah bilir m\u0259n buralardan n\u0259 vaxt ke\u00e7\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Mart\u0131n ortalar\u0131na az qal\u0131r, qar\u015f\u0131dan g\u0259l\u0259n\u00a0 yaz f\u0259slinin, q\u0131\u015f\u0131n i\u015f\u011fal\u0131na m\u0259ruz qalm\u0131\u015f t\u0259bi\u0259ti\u00a0 azad etm\u0259yin\u0259 say\u0131l\u0131 g\u00fcnl\u0259r var. Art\u0131q soyuq q\u0131\u015f \u00f6z qar\u0131n\u0131, boran\u0131n\u0131 qoltu\u011funa vurub bu m\u0259ml\u0259k\u0259td\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b gedib. Yarad\u0131l\u0131\u015fda el\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259r var ki, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m onlar \u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn deyil, ba\u015fqa \u015feyl\u0259r\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131q olaraq m\u00f6vcuddurlar. M\u0259qs\u0259d o ba\u015fqa \u015fey dedikl\u0259rimizin var olmas\u0131d\u0131r. \u015e\u0259xs\u0259n m\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m ki, q\u0131\u015f ona g\u00f6r\u0259 yarad\u0131l\u0131b ki, biz yaz\u0131n, yay\u0131n d\u0259y\u0259rini anlaya bil\u0259k. G\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131q gec\u0259nin, \u015firin\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131q ac\u0131n\u0131n, yax\u015f\u0131 insana qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131q pis insan\u0131n m\u00f6vcud oldu\u011fu\u00a0 kimi. Amma m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259nin dig\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fi d\u0259 var ki,\u00a0 h\u0259yatsev\u0259r insan q\u0131\u015fda g\u00f6z\u0259llik tapd\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi pis insanda da hans\u0131sa bir m\u00fcsb\u0259t c\u0259h\u0259t tapma\u011fa qadir oland\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Bu bahar\u00a0 g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259 G\u0259nc\u0259d\u0259 ke\u00e7iril\u0259c\u0259k m\u0259n\u0259vi d\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259rin t\u0259bli\u011fi il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 t\u0259dbir x\u0259b\u0259ri m\u0259ni ikiqat sevindirir. H\u0259m bel\u0259 bir t\u0259dbird\u0259 i\u015ftirak etm\u0259yim, h\u0259m d\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 dar g\u00fcnd\u0259 yax\u015fl\u0131q etmi\u015f, bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saatl\u0131q da olsa bel\u0259 \u00f6m\u00fcrm\u0259 daxil olmas\u0131na baxmayaraq, ill\u0259rin dostlar\u0131 kimi d\u0259rin, unudulmaz iz buraxan,\u00a0 do\u011fmala\u015fan usta v\u0259 onun \u015fagirdi To\u011frulla n\u00f6v\u0259ti g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f f\u00fcrs\u0259tim m\u0259ni uzaqlara qanadland\u0131r\u0131r. Evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xark\u0259n, gec\u0259d\u0259n To\u011frul \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn se\u00e7ib ay\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m kitablar\u0131 da avtomobild\u0259ki saxlanc yerin\u0259 qoydum. \u018fmin\u0259m ki, To\u011frul arzusunda oldu\u011fu \u00f6z \u015f\u0259xsi kitabxanas\u0131na \u0259lav\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259k bu bir ne\u00e7\u0259 kitab\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 \u00e7ox sevin\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn dediyi kimi \u201cu\u00e7ma\u011fa qanad\u0131 olmayacaq\u201d.\u00a0 Son g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259n aylar ke\u00e7ib, \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259siz ki, ona verdiyim kitab\u0131 da oxuyub v\u0259 m\u00fczakir\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn maraql\u0131 fikirl\u0259ri d\u0259 olmam\u0131\u015f deyil.<\/p>\n

T\u0259dbir bit\u0259n kimi yenid\u0259n Bak\u0131ya do\u011fru h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t edir\u0259m. G\u0259nc\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xark\u0259n d\u00fckanlar\u0131n birind\u0259n \u015firniyyat alm\u0131\u015fam. Ya\u015f\u0131l yanacaq doldurma m\u0259nt\u0259q\u0259sinin yan\u0131na \u00e7atanda\u00a0 \u0259trafa g\u00f6z g\u0259zdirir\u0259m. M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, To\u011frul\u00a0 yen\u0259 ordan \u00e7\u0131xacaq v\u0259 i\u00e7i yanacaqla dolu suqab\u0131lar\u0131 \u0259lind\u0259 da\u015f\u0131yaraq,\u00a0 i\u015fl\u0259diyi sex\u0259 do\u011fru h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t ed\u0259nd\u0259, yen\u0259 m\u0259niml\u0259 rastla\u015facaq v\u0259 biz bir yerd\u0259 ustan\u0131n yan\u0131na ged\u0259c\u0259yik. Avtomobili saxlay\u0131r v\u0259 bir-iki d\u0259qiq\u0259 \u0259trafa bax\u0131ram, x\u0259yal\u0131mda ba\u015f ver\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259k hadis\u0259nin t\u0259siri m\u0259ni burada g\u00f6zl\u0259tdirir. Amma yanacaq doldurma m\u0259nt\u0259q\u0259sinin h\u0259y\u0259tind\u0259 sakitlik h\u00f6km s\u00fcr\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

\u018fsas yoldan\u00a0 sa\u011fa ilan kimi\u00a0 burulan k\u0259ndin yolu il\u0259\u00a0 i\u00e7\u0259riy\u0259 do\u011fru h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t etdikc\u0259, yenic\u0259 ayaq basm\u0131\u015f bahar\u0131n abu havas\u0131 daha \u00e7ox hiss olunma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131b.\u00a0 Yolun sa\u011f v\u0259 solu yamya\u015f\u0131l \u00e7\u0259m\u0259nliy\u0259 boyan\u0131b, el\u0259 bil Tanr\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fc yer\u0259 en\u0259r\u0259k \u00e7\u00f6ll\u0259r\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131l bitkil\u0259ri, otllar\u0131 \u00f6z \u0259ll\u0259ri il\u0259 \u0259kir v\u0259 yenid\u0259n s\u0259maya y\u00fcks\u0259lir. Ya da t\u0259bi\u0259t Tanr\u0131n\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na qoyub \u00e7\u0259kdiyi bir tablo v\u0259 biz\u0259 d\u0259 o tablonun i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 yer verilmi\u015f, t\u0259bi\u0259tin ki\u00e7ik hiss\u0259l\u0259riyik. Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, el\u0259 bu f\u0259sild\u0259 g\u0259ldim buralara. \u0130\u00e7im deyir ki, ke\u00e7\u0259n d\u0259f\u0259kind\u0259n f\u0259rqli olaraq bu d\u0259f\u0259ki g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fcz daha \u00e7ox yaddaqalan olacaq. \u00d6t\u0259n\u00a0 d\u0259f\u0259 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m insanlarla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm, bu d\u0259f\u0259 is\u0259 sanki ill\u0259rin dostlar\u0131 il\u0259 qabaqcadan planla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259 gedir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Avtomobili yolun sa\u011f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kib, sexin sol t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 saxlay\u0131ram. D\u0259mird\u0259n olan qo\u015fa qap\u0131lar a\u00e7\u0131qd\u0131r, \u00e7\u00f6ld\u0259n qaranl\u0131q\u00a0 ma\u011faran\u0131 xat\u0131rladan\u00a0 sexin i\u00e7ind\u0259\u00a0 is\u0259 he\u00e7 bir ma\u015f\u0131n yoxdur. \u0130\u00e7imd\u0259n bir sevinc hissi ke\u00e7ir; Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, g\u0259li\u015fim sexd\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131n olmayan vaxta t\u0259sad\u00fcf etdi. Ustan\u0131 da i\u015find\u0259n ay\u0131r\u0131b, vaxt\u0131n\u0131 almayaca\u011f\u0131ma sevinir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Sexin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 a\u011fac da\u00a0 yeni a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rini ba\u015f\u0131na y\u0131\u011f\u0131b \u00f6z n\u00f6vb\u0259ti dirili\u015fini toy bayram edir. \u0130ndi To\u011frul m\u0259ni g\u00f6rc\u0259k y\u0259qin ki \u00e7ox sevin\u0259c\u0259k, q\u0259fil g\u0259l\u0259n qona\u011f\u0131n\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131layacaq, xudahafizl\u0259\u015f\u0259rk\u0259n qucaqlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi qucaqlayacaq, m\u0259n d\u0259 onu sin\u0259m\u0259 s\u0131xaca\u011fam.\u00a0 Avtomobild\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, saxlac yerin\u0259 y\u0131\u011fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m d\u00f6rd kitab\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr, \u015firniyyat\u0131 qoydu\u011fum sellofan torban\u0131 da dig\u0259r \u0259lim\u0259 al\u0131b sex\u0259 daxil oluram.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131na \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fmi\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi\u00a0 q\u0131y\u0131b, yar\u0131qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131ram. Ke\u00e7\u0259n d\u0259f\u0259 m\u0259n oturdu\u011fum k\u00f6hn\u0259 divan, uzun ill\u0259rin yor\u011fun qocas\u0131\u00a0 kimi sexin ba\u015f t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 m\u00fcvazin\u0259tini itirm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn enli k\u00fcr\u0259yini divara s\u00f6yk\u0259nib.\u00a0 D\u0259mir masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoyulmu\u015f ki\u00e7ik radiodan h\u0259zin, bir az k\u00f6vr\u0259k milli musiqinin s\u0259si fonunda\u00a0 i\u00e7\u0259ri add\u0131mlay\u0131ram.\u00a0 Bu vaxt, g\u00f6z\u00fcm divan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 divardan as\u0131lm\u0131\u015f r\u0259ngli \u015f\u0259kil\u0259 sata\u015f\u0131r. R\u0259ngli foto\u015f\u0259kild\u0259n \u0259sg\u0259r geyimind\u0259 q\u0131vr\u0131msa\u00e7l\u0131 nur \u00fczl\u00fc bir g\u0259nc iri g\u00f6zl\u0259rini g\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259 dikib, m\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131b t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm edir.\u00a0 Sin\u0259sin\u0259 \u201c\u015e\u0259hid To\u011frul H\u0259s\u0259nzad\u0259\u201d yaz\u0131l\u0131b. El\u0259 bil t\u0259mirxanan\u0131n \u0259n a\u011f\u0131r kuvalt\u0131 il\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131ma z\u0259rb\u0259 d\u0259yir, ayaqlar\u0131m s\u00fctun kimi yerin t\u0259kin\u0259 girir.<\/p>\n

He\u00e7 kimd\u0259n bir \u015fey soru\u015fmadan h\u0259r \u015feyi anlay\u0131ram. To\u011frul V\u0259t\u0259n M\u00fcharib\u0259sind\u0259 \u015f\u0259hid olmu\u015fdu.\u00a0 O, q\u0131vr\u0131msa\u00e7 g\u00f6z\u0259l simal\u0131 o\u011flan, barmqla g\u00f6st\u0259ril\u0259n adam olmu\u015fu. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 u\u00e7ma\u011fa qanad\u0131 olmayan To\u011frula ax\u0131r ki u\u00e7maq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qanad qism\u0259t olmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

Divanda\u00a0 yumaq kimi b\u00fck\u00fcl\u00fcb oturmu\u015f ar\u0131q bir ki\u015fi,\u00a0 yenic\u0259 yand\u0131rm\u0131\u015f siqaretinin duman\u0131 aras\u0131nda \u00f6zk\u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n\u00a0 bo\u011fulur.\u00a0 G\u00f6zl\u0259rimi \u015e\u0259hid To\u011fruldan \u00e7\u0259kib, diqq\u0259tl\u0259 ona bax\u0131ram. Bu ona…ustaya \u00e7ox ox\u015fay\u0131r. Amma o, ke\u00e7\u0259n d\u0259f\u0259ki kimi h\u00fcnd\u00fcr, iri g\u00f6vd\u0259li deyil. Boyu balacala\u015f\u0131b, yuma\u011fa d\u00f6n\u00fcb, divanda oturmu\u015f k\u00f6rp\u0259 u\u015faq kimi az qala ayaqlar\u0131 da yer\u0259 d\u0259ymir. D\u0259rdi- s\u0259ri t\u0259mirxanan\u0131n i\u00e7in\u0259 s\u0259p\u0259l\u0259nib, he\u00e7 durub y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131rmaq haqq\u0131nda da d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcr. Bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndan d\u0259rin k\u0259d\u0259r duyulur, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259min \u0259zab\u0131ndan qa\u00e7\u0131b qurtulmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qaranl\u0131q ma\u011faran\u0131n i\u00e7in\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilib, \u00e7ar\u0259siz bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 divarlarda g\u0259zdirir. Sin\u0259sin\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r uzanm\u0131\u015f a\u011fappaq s\u0259liq\u0259siz saqqal v\u0259 b\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131ndan siqaretin t\u00fcst\u00fcs\u00fc havaya qalx\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u018fli Rzazad\u0259<\/strong><\/p>\n

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(hekay\u0259) Mavi s\u0259mada a\u011fappaq buludlar\u0131n s\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fc bir g\u00fcnd\u0259,\u00a0 G\u0259nc\u0259d\u0259n yola d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb \u00fcz\u00fc paytaxta t\u0259r\u0259f h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t etdim. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 bu g\u00f6z\u0259l v\u0259 q\u0259dim \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n ayr\u0131landa do\u011fmas\u0131ndan ayr\u0131lan u\u015faq kimi i\u00e7imi dar\u0131xmaq hissi b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcr. B\u0259z\u0259n\u00a0 bu haqda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259rk\u0259n s\u0259b\u0259b kimi G\u0259nc\u0259d\u0259 qoyub g\u0259ldiyim dostlar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m. Bilmir\u0259m, b\u0259lk\u0259 ba\u015fqa s\u0259b\u0259bl\u0259r d\u0259 var. \u00d6t\u0259n gec\u0259ni\u00a0 uzun ill\u0259rin dostu K\u0259nan\u0131n […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17085"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=17085"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17085\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":17087,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17085\/revisions\/17087"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=17085"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=17085"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=17085"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}