{"id":17539,"date":"2021-12-31T11:19:25","date_gmt":"2021-12-31T07:19:25","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=17539"},"modified":"2021-12-31T11:19:25","modified_gmt":"2021-12-31T07:19:25","slug":"xaliq-r%c9%99himli-%c9%99d%c9%99biyyata-g%c9%99lm%c9%99mis-qovuldum","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=17539","title":{"rendered":"Xaliq R\u018fH\u0130ML\u0130 &#8211; \u018fd\u0259biyyata g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015f qovuldum&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/kultur.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/1800173_286998971495691_171391277621403070_o-e1582738221772.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignleft wp-image-13442 size-medium\" src=\"http:\/\/kultur.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2019\/11\/1800173_286998971495691_171391277621403070_o-e1582738221772-199x300.jpg\" alt=\"1800173_286998971495691_171391277621403070_o\" width=\"199\" height=\"300\" \/><\/a>Yeniyetm\u0259ydim.\u018fd\u0259biyyata b\u00f6y\u00fck mara\u011f\u0131m var idi.\u201dAz\u0259rbaycan\u201d jurnal\u0131na i\u015f\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259lmi\u015fdim Adlar\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fidib \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259rind\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rdar oldu\u011fum lakin \u00fczl\u0259rini g\u00f6rm\u0259diyim \u015fairl\u0259rin ,yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n \u0259hat\u0259sind\u0259ydim.\u018fkr\u0259m \u018fylisli, Qabil, \u018fmir Mustafayev,Nadir Cabbarov,Fikr\u0259t Qoca,\u0130si M\u0259likzad\u0259,\u0130sa \u0130smay\u0131lzad\u0259,Nem\u0259t Veys\u0259lli,\u0130ntiqam Qas\u0131mzad\u0259 v\u0259 dig\u0259r tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015flarla dem\u0259k olar ki, h\u0259r g\u00fcn \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 ,g\u00f6z- g\u00f6z\u0259,s\u00f6z-s\u00f6z\u0259 g\u0259lirdim.Bel\u0259 \u00fcnsiyy\u0259t \u0259d\u0259biyyata mara\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bir az da art\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131.M\u0259n d\u0259 \u015feir yaz\u0131b tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f \u015fair olmaq ist\u0259yirdim.V\u0259 el\u0259m\u0259 t\u0259nb\u0259llik yava\u015f-yava\u015f bu ist\u0259yimin arxas\u0131nca d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm.Qabil m\u00fc\u0259llim o zaman jurnalda \u015feir\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131.H\u0259l\u0259m-h\u0259l\u0259m onun z\u00f6vq\u00fcnd\u0259n jurnala \u015feir adlatmaq o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 asan m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 deyildi.\u00c7ox t\u0259l\u0259bkar idi.Yan\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259n hans\u0131n\u0131n \u015fair olub olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n oxuyurdu.\u015eerin\u0259,s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 ehtiyac qalm\u0131rd\u0131. G\u0259nc \u201c\u015fair\u201d \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7evirib ged\u0259n kimi Qabil m\u00fc\u0259llim onun g\u0259tirdiyi \u015feirl\u0259ri divar boyu d\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n r\u0259fin ged\u0259r-g\u0259lm\u0259z b\u00f6lm\u0259sin\u0259 vasil edirdi. \u015eeir\u0259 s\u00f6z\u0259 h\u0259ddind\u0259n ziyad\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259bkar olan z\u0259hmli Qabil m\u00fc\u0259llimin poetik t\u0259l\u0259bini h\u0259r \u015fair \u00f6d\u0259y\u0259 bilmirdi.N\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131m, g\u00fcnl\u0259rin bir g\u00fcn\u00fc Qabil m\u00fc\u0259llimin ovqat\u0131n\u0131n yax\u015f\u0131 vaxt\u0131nda oxuyub fikir dem\u0259y\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 \u015feir uzatd\u0131m.\u018fll\u0259rim havada qald\u0131.Bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 ciddil\u0259\u015fdi,z\u0259hml\u0259\u015fdi,q\u0259z\u0259bli g\u00f6rk\u0259m ald\u0131.G\u00fcnah i\u015fl\u0259tmi\u015f adam kimi \u015feirl\u0259r \u0259limd\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilib yerimd\u0259 oturdum&#8230;- S\u0259n d\u0259 \u015feir yaz\u0131rsan ,\u2013 deyib \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 ac\u0131qland\u0131.-A bala ,bir d\u0259rn\u0259kl\u0259r\u0259 getgin\u0259n ,bir m\u0259tbuatda \u00e7ap olunginan sonra g\u0259lib m\u0259n\u0259 \u015feir g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259rs\u0259n.Bu n\u0259 c\u00fcr\u0259tdi el\u0259yirs\u0259n? Ax\u0131 bel\u0259 olmaz,yek\u0259 o\u011flansan. Mat\u0131m-qutum qurudu.Ortaya a\u011f\u0131r \u00a0s\u00fckut \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc.\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc cinay\u0259t ba\u015f\u0131nda yaxalanan adam kimi hiss el\u0259dim.G\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259diyim m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n qan\u0131m qarald\u0131,\u0259m\u0259llic\u0259 dilxor oldum.Hirsimn\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259rim doldu.\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u0259d\u0259biyyata g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015f \u0259d\u0259biyyatdan qovulmu\u015f hiss el\u0259dim.T\u0259xmin\u0259n bir h\u0259ft\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmad\u0131q,k\u00fcs\u00fcl\u00fc qald\u0131q.Amma ilk bar\u0131\u015f\u0131q add\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 Qabil m\u00fc\u0259llim \u00f6z\u00fc atd\u0131,b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u00fck el\u0259di.-Xal\u0131q bala, g\u0259tir o \u015feirl\u0259r\u0259 bax\u0131m,bir az \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259\u015fdim he\u015f n\u0259 olmaz.M\u0259n d\u0259 bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rd\u0259n sonra \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259ndim, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131m.\u018fvv\u0259lki q\u0259z\u0259bli Qabil m\u00fc\u0259llimd\u0259n \u0259s\u0259r-\u0259lam\u0259t qalmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.\u00dcz\u00fcn\u0259 o vaxta q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6rm\u0259diyim q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f qonmu\u015fdu,bir az da \u00f6z\u00fc q\u0259sd\u0259n art\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.\u018flini sa\u00e7\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kdi.-H\u0259, g\u0259tir g\u00f6r\u0259k, utanma g\u0259tir o \u015feirl\u0259ri oxuyum.Bir i\u015f idi oldu getdi.G\u0259l bu konfetl\u0259ri d\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr \u00e7ay i\u00e7\u0259rs\u0259n&#8230;-\u015eeirl\u0259ri c\u0131rd\u0131m atd\u0131m Qabil m\u00fc\u0259llim, \u2013 dedim.-N\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan, adam da el\u0259 i\u015f el\u0259y\u0259r.S\u0259n indid\u0259n bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259r\u0259 d\u00f6zm\u00fcrs\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kd\u0259 nec\u0259 \u015fair olacaqsan &#8230;Yax\u015f\u0131 onda n\u0259 vaxt yazsan g\u0259tir\u0259rs\u0259n baxaram&#8230;Bel\u0259c\u0259 ilk \u0259d\u0259bi\u201d travman\u0131 \u201co vaxt ald\u0131m.\u0130ndi zaman d\u0259yi\u015fib h\u0259min m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259yl\u0259 h\u0259r hans\u0131 bir g\u0259nc qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fsa yeddi qat caxab\u0131n\u0131 ver\u0259r.Yeddiqat cavab is\u0259 \u0259d\u0259biyyatda ke\u00e7mir.\u018fsl \u0259d\u0259biyyat t\u0259nqid\u0259, q\u0259z\u0259b\u0259 ,\u201c\u015fapala\u011fa\u201d duru\u015f g\u0259tir\u0259n ,qucaq a\u00e7an \u0259d\u0259biyyatd\u0131r.\u018flb\u0259tt\u0259 q\u0259r\u0259z olmadan.Ruhu \u015fad olsun Qabil m\u00fc\u0259llimin.<\/p>\n<p class=\"bawpvc-ajax-counter\" data-id=\"17539\">Yaz\u0131ya 133 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Yeniyetm\u0259ydim.\u018fd\u0259biyyata b\u00f6y\u00fck mara\u011f\u0131m var idi.\u201dAz\u0259rbaycan\u201d jurnal\u0131na i\u015f\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259lmi\u015fdim Adlar\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fidib \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259rind\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rdar oldu\u011fum lakin \u00fczl\u0259rini g\u00f6rm\u0259diyim \u015fairl\u0259rin ,yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n \u0259hat\u0259sind\u0259ydim.\u018fkr\u0259m \u018fylisli, Qabil, \u018fmir Mustafayev,Nadir Cabbarov,Fikr\u0259t Qoca,\u0130si M\u0259likzad\u0259,\u0130sa \u0130smay\u0131lzad\u0259,Nem\u0259t Veys\u0259lli,\u0130ntiqam Qas\u0131mzad\u0259 v\u0259 dig\u0259r tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015flarla dem\u0259k olar ki, h\u0259r g\u00fcn \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 ,g\u00f6z- g\u00f6z\u0259,s\u00f6z-s\u00f6z\u0259 g\u0259lirdim.Bel\u0259 \u00fcnsiyy\u0259t \u0259d\u0259biyyata mara\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bir az da art\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131.M\u0259n d\u0259 \u015feir yaz\u0131b tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f \u015fair olmaq ist\u0259yirdim.V\u0259 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