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\"44897498_572192656547013_7710551909433606144_n\"<\/a>Hekay\u0259<\/p>\n

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Narkotika bir b\u0259lad\u0131r, d\u00fcnyan\u0131 da\u011f\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd universitetin kimya fak\u00fclt\u0259sini bitirmi\u015fdi. \u018fvv\u0259l niyy\u0259ti \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 qalmaq, ev-e\u015fik sahibi olmaq idi. Bu i\u015fd\u0259 day\u0131s\u0131na \u00e7ox g\u00fcv\u0259nirdi. O day\u0131 ki, bir el boyda h\u00f6rm\u0259ti, n\u00fcfuzu var idi. \u015eair idi, alim idi, q\u0259zet\u00e7iydi day\u0131s\u0131.Tez-tez televizora \u00e7\u0131xar, gah \u0130randan, \u0130raqdan, gah da B\u00f6y\u00fck Turandan dan\u0131\u015fard\u0131. Verili\u015f getm\u0259mi\u015fd\u0259n qabaq k\u0259ndd\u0259 ham\u0131 bil\u0259rdi ki, filan g\u00fcn, filan saatda onun \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f\u0131 olacaq. Bunu bac\u0131s\u0131 u\u015faqlar\u0131, qohumlar\u0131 yayard\u0131. Verili\u015f vaxt\u0131 allah t\u0259r\u0259fi, insaf\u0259n ham\u0131 n\u0259f\u0259sini i\u00e7in\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kib, ax\u0131ra q\u0259d\u0259r s\u0259ssizc\u0259 onu dinl\u0259rdil\u0259r. Ax\u0131 nec\u0259 olsa, bu elin, bu k\u0259ndin o\u011flu idi. Onun \u00f6y\u00fcnc, q\u00fcrur yeri idi. Evd\u0259 ham\u0131 C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd\u0259:\u201d Universiteti qurtaranda s\u0259n d\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 qal. Day\u0131n kimi \u015fan-\u015f\u00f6hr\u0259t sahibi ol!..\u201d-dey\u0259rdi. Bu fikir onu qanadland\u0131rar, i\u00e7ind\u0259 r\u0259ngb\u0259r\u0259ng \u015f\u0259h\u0259r duy\u011fular\u0131 yaradard\u0131. O duy\u011fular h\u0259l\u0259 x\u0259yal i\u00e7ind\u0259n boylan\u0131r, ulduzlar q\u0259d\u0259r uzaq, \u00e7ox uzaq bir m\u0259nzild\u0259 yan\u0131b-s\u00f6n\u00fcrd\u00fc. He\u00e7 bir \u015feyd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259tinliyi yox idi C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcn. Cibind\u0259 x\u0259rcl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 pulu vaxtl\u0131- vaxt\u0131nda g\u0259lir, geyim-ke\u00e7imi, \u00fcst-ba\u015f\u0131, nec\u0259 dey\u0259rl\u0259r, ilin f\u0259sill\u0259ri kimi d\u0259yi\u015firdi. Baba, n\u0259n\u0259 bir t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n ald\u0131qlar\u0131 t\u0259qa\u00fcdd\u0259n \u0259l tutur: \u201d Qoy oxusun! N\u0259 var, el\u0259 oxumaqda var!..\u201d-deyirdil\u0259r. Ev\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 y\u00fck d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcrd\u00fc, h\u0259l\u0259 babal\u0131, n\u0259n\u0259li g\u00fcnl\u0259rin sevinci, n\u0259\u015f\u0259siyl\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131 C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd. H\u0259l\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131 olan yax\u0131n dostlar\u0131n\u0131 yem\u0259kxanada b\u0259z\u0259n qonaq edir, t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00fc al\u0131nana q\u0259d\u0259r cibl\u0259rin\u0259 pul da qoyurdu.<\/p>\n

H\u0259yat \u00e7ox q\u0259rib\u0259 oldu\u011fu q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259, s\u0259rt v\u0259 amans\u0131zd\u0131r. B\u0259z\u0259n insan\u0131 el\u0259 dolaylara sal\u0131r ki, h\u0259l\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdikl\u0259rini he\u00e7 \u201cMin bir gec\u0259\u201d na\u011f\u0131llar\u0131ndak\u0131 kimi 40-c\u0131 ota\u011fa q\u0259d\u0259r ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 x\u0259yallar\u0131na bel\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259 bilmir. U\u00e7urumun q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 qayan\u0131n qa\u015f\u0131ndan yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b il\u011f\u0131mla h\u0259qiq\u0259t aras\u0131nda \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131r. A\u011fr\u0131lar-ac\u0131lar, suallar y\u0131\u011f\u0131n-y\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 ax\u0131b t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr. \u00d6m\u00fcr c\u0131\u011f\u0131r-c\u0131\u011f\u0131r ha\u00e7alan\u0131r, yollar dumandan s\u0131yr\u0131l\u0131b c\u0131\u011f\u0131r qur\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259m\u0259r kimi belin\u0259 dolay\u0131r. \u0130nsan\u0131 haralara aparm\u0131r bu d\u00fcnya?! Sel a\u011fz\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f saman \u00e7\u00f6p\u00fc, taxta par\u00e7as\u0131 kimi at\u0131b-tutur, he\u00e7 uff da dem\u0259d\u0259n oynad\u0131b o sahil\u0259, bu sahil\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131r. H\u0259yat insafs\u0131z, amans\u0131zd\u0131r, deyirl\u0259r. Y\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 buraxm\u0131r, s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcb arxas\u0131nca apar\u0131r.<\/p>\n

H\u0259yat sonuncu kursda ac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd\u0259 d\u0259 yedirtdi. Atas\u0131 cavank\u0259n d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdi. Evd\u0259 he\u00e7 k\u0259sin, he\u00e7 k\u0259sin a\u011fl\u0131na da bel\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259zdi ki, bel\u0259 ayr\u0131l\u0131q z\u0259ngi tez \u00e7al\u0131nacaq. Ana b\u00fct\u00fcn a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131 \u00e7iynin\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. T\u0259klikd\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131b s\u0131tqasa da, u\u015faqlar\u0131 s\u0131nmas\u0131n, s\u0131x\u0131lmas\u0131n dey\u0259, onlar\u0131n yan\u0131nda g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7in\u0259 ax\u0131td\u0131. D\u00f6rd q\u0131z, iki o\u011ful b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcrd\u00fc evd\u0259 ana. H\u0259r\u0259sinin d\u0259 min qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131, min d\u0259rdi-s\u0259ri. Evd\u0259 q\u0259lb s\u0131n\u0131ql\u0131\u011f\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fc, u\u015faqlar des\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259, dem\u0259s\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259. Ana \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc oda-k\u00f6z\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131rd\u0131, g\u00fcnd\u00fczl\u0259r \u00e7\u00f6ld\u0259, \u00fcz\u00fcm sah\u0259sind\u0259, gec\u0259l\u0259r h\u0259na ba\u015f\u0131nda. Arzular\u0131 yumaq kimi a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r, ilm\u0259-ilm\u0259, buta-buta nax\u0131\u015flan\u0131b xal\u00e7aya, kilim\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcrd\u00fc. Palaz da toxuyurdu. Di\u015fiyl\u0259, d\u0131rna\u011f\u0131yla did\u0259-did\u0259, c\u0131rmaqlaya-c\u0131rmaqlaya eyvanlar\u0131nda yuva qurmu\u015f qaranqu\u015f kimi balalar\u0131na ruzi g\u0259tirirdi. C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd d\u0259 daha Bak\u0131 na\u011f\u0131llar\u0131n\u0131, x\u0259yallar\u0131n\u0131 unutmu\u015fdu. Day\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n k\u00f6m\u0259kliyi il\u0259 q\u0259zetd\u0259 bir i\u015f\u0259 d\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Arada g\u00f6r\u00fcm-bax\u0131m da edirdi day\u0131s\u0131. Neyl\u0259sin, onun da g\u00fcc\u00fc ona \u00e7at\u0131rd\u0131. \u015e\u0259h\u0259r yeriydi, day\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n da ail\u0259si b\u00f6y\u00fckd\u00fc, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131 vard\u0131. Bel\u0259c\u0259 bir il d\u0259 \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7di. C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd k\u0259nd\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131. Evin qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131 il\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131, a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7iynin\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. Nec\u0259 var, qaydas\u0131yla bac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcrtd\u00fc. \u00d6z\u00fcnd\u0259n ki\u00e7ik qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ev-e\u015fik sahibi etdi. H\u0259m atal\u0131q, h\u0259m qarda\u015fl\u0131q y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7\u0259kdi. Bir g\u00fcn ana: \u201c Vaxt ke\u00e7ir ax\u0131, ay o\u011ful! S\u0259nin d\u0259 yuvan olmal\u0131d\u0131r!\u201d-dedi. \u00dcr\u0259yind\u0259kini anas\u0131na a\u00e7\u0131b dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bir g\u00f6z\u0259l sonalan\u0131b, \u201cVa\u011fzal\u0131\u201d qanad\u0131nda isti, do\u011fma bir yuvaya k\u00f6\u00e7d\u00fc. Al\u0131\u015fd\u0131 \u015famlar, x\u0131naland\u0131 \u0259ll\u0259r. Bel\u0259c\u0259, g\u00f6yd\u0259n \u00fc\u00e7 alma d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k \u00fcmidinin i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131na b\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015f bir \u00f6m\u00fcr dastan\u0131, bir \u00f6m\u00fcr na\u011f\u0131l\u0131 ba\u015flad\u0131…<\/p>\n

Son g\u00fcnl\u0259r C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd yaman narahat idi. N\u0259 q\u0259rar ver\u0259c\u0259yini \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilmirdi. Tez-tez h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, a\u011faclarla dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi barmaqlar\u0131yla g\u00f6vd\u0259l\u0259rini ox\u015fay\u0131r, saralm\u0131\u015f yarpaqlar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131\u011fallay\u0131rd\u0131. S\u0259h\u0259rin \u015fehi, gec\u0259d\u0259n qalm\u0131\u015f q\u0131rov ovqat\u0131na soyuqluq qat\u0131r, i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259 b\u0259lli olmayan q\u0259rib\u0259 duy\u011fu oyad\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130\u015f ota\u011f\u0131nda ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 vurdu\u011fu \u201cMendeleyev c\u0259dv\u0259li\u201dn\u0259 baxma\u011fa \u00fcr\u0259k el\u0259mirdi. El\u0259 bilirdi ki, Mendeleyev ondan k\u00fcs\u00fcb inciy\u0259c\u0259k, kinay\u0259li-kinay\u0259li bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 il\u0259: \u201dN\u0259dir… ax\u0131 m\u0259nim g\u00fcnah\u0131m n\u0259dir?\u201d-dey\u0259 ondan soru\u015facaqd\u0131. He\u00e7 n\u0259! N\u0259 g\u00fcnah\u0131 var idi ki, daha Mendeleyevd\u0259n ail\u0259sinin \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yini \u00e7\u0131xara bilmirdi. C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd \u00e7ox, \u00e7ox sevdirmi\u015fdi u\u015faqlara kimyan\u0131, Mendeleyevi , onun c\u0259dv\u0259lini. \u00c7oxlar\u0131 kimya\u00e7\u0131 olmaq ist\u0259yirdi. Elementl\u0259rin atom \u00e7\u0259kisini, valentliyini, r\u0259ngini, ruhunu, daha n\u0259 bilim n\u0259l\u0259ri \u0259zb\u0259rd\u0259n bilirdi u\u015faqlar. Ancaq n\u0259 faydas\u0131, quru t\u0259rif,\u00a0 savadl\u0131, bilikli olmas\u0131 C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd\u0259 bir g\u00fcn a\u011flaya bilmirdi. Yar\u0131 ac, yar\u0131 tox, u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r aldadacaqd\u0131 ki?! Q\u0259pir\u0259tiv\u00e7i S\u0259fiqulunun ma\u011fazas\u0131ndan nisy\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fc mallar\u0131n siyah\u0131s\u0131 h\u0259r g\u00fcn b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fc. Utansa da, yen\u0259 d\u0259 \u00fcz tutma\u011fa m\u0259cbur idi. \u00dcz\u00fc qara olsun kas\u0131b\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n, bel\u0259c\u0259 h\u0259r g\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n uzaqla\u015f\u0131r, duy\u011fu-duy\u011fu pay\u0131z yarpaqlar\u0131 kimi t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. H\u0259yata Mendeleyev c\u0259dv\u0259linin g\u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 baxmaqdan daha yorulmu\u015fdu C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd. Qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ndan a\u015f\u0131r, \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131r, \u00f6z\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, ail\u0259si \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259s\u0259 bir \u015fey etm\u0259k, yaratmaq ist\u0259yirdi. M\u0259kt\u0259b onun qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6d\u0259y\u0259 bilmir, m\u00fc\u0259llim maa\u015f\u0131 qap\u0131dan g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015f bacadan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. Bazar, d\u00fckan borcu \u00fcst-\u00fcst\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Onunla i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n ki\u015fi m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259rin \u00e7oxusu \u201c\u0130ran bazar\u0131\u201dnda yer g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb \u00e7ax-\u00e7uxla m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olurdu. \u0130lb\u0259il m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259n ki\u015fi m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259r azal\u0131r, \u201c M\u00fc\u0259llim qad\u0131n s\u0259n\u0259tidir!\u201d-dey\u0259nl\u0259rin bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda tab g\u0259tir\u0259 bilmirdi. Daha \u201cMendeleyev c\u0259dv\u0259li\u201d d\u0259 onun yerind\u0259n oynam\u0131\u015f, u\u00e7unmu\u015f \u00fcr\u0259yini m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n ba\u011flaya bilmirdi. El\u0259 bil m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 k\u00f6n\u00fcls\u00fcz g\u0259lib, k\u00f6n\u00fcls\u00fcz d\u0259 gedirdi. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r ke\u00e7irdiyi musiqili t\u0259dbirl\u0259r, gec\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259 yada d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcrd\u00fc. Atas\u0131ndan yadigar qalm\u0131\u015f tardan gitaraya, sonra da elektrogitaraya ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. G\u00f6z\u0259l \u00e7alma\u011f\u0131, mahn\u0131ya uyub uzaqlara, x\u0259yal\u0131n qanadlar\u0131nda \u00e7ox uzaqlara getm\u0259yi var idi. Bir m\u00fc\u0259llim yolda\u015f\u0131 ona, n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259, tez-tez \u201cDal\u011falar\u201d\u0131 \u00e7alma\u011f\u0131 xahi\u015f edirdi. Barmaqlar\u0131 g\u00f6y\u0259r\u00e7in kimi siml\u0259r \u00fcst\u0259 qonard\u0131. Allah, Allah bir yan\u011f\u0131, bir haray-h\u0259\u015fir qopar\u0131rd\u0131 ki, dey\u0259rdin el\u0259 bil qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7san indic\u0259 d\u0259niz k\u00f6p\u00fckl\u00fc, b\u0259mb\u0259yaz dal\u011falar\u0131 il\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259ri t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259c\u0259k. O dal\u011falar\u0131n s\u0259si, o d\u0259nizin n\u0259f\u0259si ham\u0131n\u0131 tilsim\u0259 salar, ovsunlayard\u0131. N\u0259 yaz\u0131q ki, o s\u0259s \u201cMendeleyev c\u0259dv\u0259li\u201d kimi daha uzaqda qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. M\u0259\u015f\u0259di M\u0259mm\u0259d ba\u011f\u0131nda y\u0131\u011f\u0131lan dostlar\u0131-toy \u0259hli onu tez-tez toylarda \u00e7alma\u011fa d\u0259v\u0259t edirdil\u0259r. O, is\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r bunu \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131rmaz, m\u00fc\u0259llim ad\u0131yla toy \u00e7al\u011f\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 ad\u0131n\u0131 yana\u015f\u0131 qoyma\u011f\u0131 a\u011fl\u0131na bel\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259zdi. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc, d\u00fcn\u0259n g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259 c\u0259sar\u0259t ed\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259n \u015fagirdl\u0259ri sabah qaba\u011f\u0131na be\u015f manat pul at\u0131b m\u0259nim havam\u0131 \u00e7al dey\u0259nd\u0259 o, n\u0259 v\u0259ziyy\u0259t\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bil\u0259rdi?! S\u0259rxo\u015fun da havas\u0131, utanan sif\u0259timi olur? Bunu a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259tir\u0259nd\u0259 havalan\u0131r, az qala d\u0259li olmaq d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259sin\u0259 g\u0259lirdi. El\u0259 bil c\u0259miyy\u0259t m\u00fc\u0259llimi a\u011fsaqqall\u0131q, a\u011fayanal\u0131q m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259sind\u0259n yer\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131r, onun ad\u0131ndak\u0131 m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259slik aynas\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ilikl\u0259yib ayaqlar alt\u0131na t\u00f6k\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u0130ndi \u00c7ay\u00e7\u0131 Q\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259r d\u0259, kommunxozun m\u00fcdiri S\u0259m\u0259nd\u0259r d\u0259, h\u0259l\u0259 o cibk\u0259s\u0259n d\u00fckan\u00e7\u0131 Hazarxan da \u201cm\u00fc\u0259llim\u201d olmu\u015fdu. M\u00fc\u0259llim olmaya-olmaya m\u00fc\u0259llim! Daha C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd n\u0259yi g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259liydi ki?! Getdi, taleyin z\u0259r atd\u0131\u011f\u0131 oyuna getdi. C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd m\u00fc\u0259llim getdikc\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259n soyudu, daha \u0259vv\u0259lki h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259, \u015f\u00f6vql\u0259 d\u0259rs dey\u0259 bilm\u0259di. Dilin\u0259 min c\u00fcr b\u0259han\u0259, yalan yeridi. O q\u0259d\u0259r yalan ki, b\u0259z\u0259n uydurdu\u011fu yalanlara \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 inanmal\u0131 oldu. Bir g\u00fcn g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259, be\u015f g\u00fcn b\u0259han\u0259 tap\u0131b m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259n yay\u0131nd\u0131. Bel\u0259c\u0259, az qala \u0259t\u0259yind\u0259 namaz q\u0131l\u0131nmal\u0131 C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd m\u00fc\u0259llim \u201cC\u00fcm\u00fc\u201d m\u00fc\u0259llim oldu. Bir k\u0259nd dolusu n\u00fcfuzunu \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fc, arxas\u0131nca y\u0131\u011f\u0131b-y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131ra bilm\u0259diyi bir y\u0131\u011f\u0131n l\u0259tif\u0259, atmaca, g\u00fclm\u0259c\u0259 buraxd\u0131. D\u0259rs\u0259\u00a0 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259ri axar, yuxulu olard\u0131. El\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin qaba\u011f\u0131nda u\u015faqlar b\u0259z\u0259n onu t\u0259qlid ed\u0259r, onun q\u00fcruruna\u00a0 toxunard\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcnortadan sonra mavi r\u0259ngli , d\u0259mir darvazal\u0131 qap\u0131lar\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcld\u00fc. C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7anda g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 inanmad\u0131. G\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259r tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7al\u011f\u0131\u00e7\u0131 tan\u0131\u015flar\u0131, dostlar\u0131 idi. \u018flimyand\u0131da ona ehtiyaclar\u0131 var idi. \u201cE\u015f\u015f\u0259k Q\u0259z\u0259nf\u0259r\u201d kimi tan\u0131nan gitara\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131 q\u0259fil ail\u0259si il\u0259 daimi ya\u015famaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn Urusiyy\u0259t\u0259 getmi\u015fdi. Qayn\u0131 biznesmendi, b\u00f6y\u00fck \u015firk\u0259ti var idi. Pula pul demirdi, ka\u011f\u0131z pullar\u0131, g\u00f6y \u0259skinaslar\u0131, el\u0259 bil ki, pay\u0131z x\u0259z\u0259ll\u0259ri kimi ba\u015f\u0131na t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. Arvad\u0131 Z\u0259rif\u0259 qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 dil\u0259 tutub Q\u0259z\u0259nf\u0259r\u0259 d\u0259 yan\u0131nda bir i\u015f d\u00fcz\u0259ltdirdi. D\u00fczd\u00fcr, Q\u0259z\u0259nf\u0259r \u0259vv\u0259l n\u0259m-g\u00fcm edir, getm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi. \u00dcr\u0259yind\u0259:\u201d \u018f\u015f\u015fi, ya\u015f\u0131m\u0131n bu \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda da\u011fa-da\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k m\u0259nim harama yara\u015f\u0131r?!\u201d-dey\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lli verir v\u0259 getm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir b\u0259han\u0259 uydurmaq ist\u0259yirdi. Ancaq Z\u0259rif\u0259 ona g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc nec\u0259 b\u0259r\u0259ltmi\u015f, nec\u0259 inand\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131sa, Q\u0259z\u0259nf\u0259r he\u00e7 kim\u0259 bir s\u00f6z dem\u0259d\u0259n, q\u0259fil y\u0131r-y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015f edib yola \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Q\u0259z\u0259nf\u0259r qapal\u0131 adam idi, he\u00e7 kim\u0259s\u0259 bir s\u00f6z dem\u0259z, sirrini i\u00e7ind\u0259 saxlay\u0131b \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcd\u0259rdi. Allah, allah yem\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flayanda doymaq da bilm\u0259zdi. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 u\u015faqlar ona ayama qo\u015fub, \u00f6z aralar\u0131nda zarafatyana \u201cE\u015f\u015f\u0259k Q\u0259z\u0259nf\u0259r\u201d deyirdil\u0259r. \u0130ndi toylar\u0131n qaynayan, \u00fcst-\u00fcst\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131lan vaxt\u0131 idi. Gitaras\u0131z da toy olard\u0131m\u0131?! Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259lacs\u0131z qal\u0131b, C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcn aya\u011f\u0131na xahi\u015f\u0259, \u201cyalvarma\u011fa\u201d g\u0259lmi\u015fdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

D\u0259st\u0259nin ad\u0131 \u201cXoruzban\u201d idi. D\u00fcz\u00fc, bu ad \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd\u0259 \u00e7atmad\u0131. H\u0259tta, \u201c Nec\u0259 yan\u0131 \u201cXoruzban\u201d?! Ad q\u0259h\u0259tliyidir… Qoyma\u011fa adm\u0131 tap\u0131lm\u0131rd\u0131?!\u201d-dey\u0259 doda\u011f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda q\u0131m\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 da. Sonra, be\u015f-alt\u0131 toydan sonra buna al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f v\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 dostlar\u0131na haqq da qazand\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Toy qurtaran kimi orda \u00e7ox l\u0259ngim\u0259z, s\u0259sg\u00fccl\u0259ndiricil\u0259ri, musiqi al\u0259tl\u0259rini s\u0259liq\u0259yl\u0259 qo\u015fana\u011fara\u00e7\u0131 C\u0259lilin \u201cJiquli\u201dsinin y\u00fck yerin\u0259 y\u0131\u011far, yem\u0259y\u0259 oturmadan ev yiy\u0259sind\u0259n bir qazan dolusu yem\u0259k v\u0259 toyun x\u0259rcini al\u0131b, t\u0259z\u0259 evl\u0259n\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik dil\u0259yib yola d\u00fc\u015f\u0259rdil\u0259r. \u018fsl m\u0259r\u0259k\u0259, m\u0259clis C\u0259lilgilin ikim\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li, aynab\u0259ndli evl\u0259rind\u0259 ba\u015flard\u0131.<\/p>\n

C\u0259lilin otuz s\u0259kkiz ya\u015f\u0131 var idi. H\u0259l\u0259 subayl\u0131qdan \u0259l \u00e7\u0259kmir, \u201cAy o\u011ful, m\u0259nim g\u0259lin, n\u0259v\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259yimi n\u0259 vaxt do\u011fruldacaqsan?!\u201d-dey\u0259 tez-tez soru\u015fan anas\u0131n\u0131n boynunu qucaqlay\u0131b:\u201d Qoy bir az \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc tutum, bax, el\u0259 bu pay\u0131zdaca s\u0259ni… s\u00f6z verir\u0259m, s\u0259nin kimi g\u00f6z\u0259l anam\u0131 sevindir\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m!..\u201d-dey\u0259rdi. Bel\u0259c\u0259, bir pay\u0131z da \u00f6t\u0259r, ay dolanar, il olard\u0131. Ana \u201cVa\u011fzal\u0131\u201d h\u0259sr\u0259tind\u0259n \u0259riy\u0259r, b\u0259sl\u0259diyi toy to\u011flusu sanki a\u011fr\u0131-ac\u0131 olub \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 g\u0259z\u0259rdi. N\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259, S\u0259may\u0259 xalan\u0131n dualar\u0131 da ke\u00e7mir, arzular\u0131 g\u00f6y\u0259rmirdi. Anan\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 yatan, x\u0259yal\u0131nda b\u0259mb\u0259yaz g\u0259linlik libas\u0131nda g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259diyi q\u0131zlar da durna qatar\u0131 kimi k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcb ged\u0259r, eyvandan boylanan ana toy karvan\u0131na baxa-baxa, d\u0259rind\u0259n bir ah \u00e7\u0259kib:\u201d Xo\u015fb\u0259xt olsunlar!.. Sa\u011f \u0259ll\u0259ri d\u0259 bizimkinin ba\u015f\u0131na!…\u201d-dey\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

C\u0259lilin dostlar\u0131 s\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yeyib-i\u00e7\u0259r, qazanclar\u0131n\u0131 rahat b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u0259r, toyda g\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259ri maraql\u0131 anlar\u0131 xat\u0131rlay\u0131b, doyunca g\u00fcl\u0259rdil\u0259r. Sonra birisi filtirli siqaretin i\u00e7ini doldurub \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r, o birisi ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 a\u011f duz kimi toz t\u00f6k\u00fcb iyl\u0259rdi. D\u0259st\u0259ba\u015f\u0131, m\u00fc\u011f\u0259nni Z\u00fclf\u00fcqar lap a\u011f\u0131n \u00e7\u0131xarard\u0131. X\u00f6r\u0259k qa\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda al\u0131\u015fqanla a\u011f tozu \u0259ridib, su hal\u0131na salar, sonra \u015fprisl\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kib qoluna vurard\u0131. C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd bunlara baxd\u0131qca g\u00f6z\u00fc k\u0259ll\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar, \u201cBunlar n\u0259dir?\u201d-dey\u0259 soru\u015fduqda, ham\u0131s\u0131 bird\u0259n-bir\u0259, g\u00fcl\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259: \u201dZ\u0259hrimard\u0131r! Z\u0259hrimar!..\u201d-dey\u0259rdil\u0259r. T\u0259kc\u0259 C\u0259lili yax\u0131n qoymazd\u0131lar. Ax\u0131 C\u0259lilin ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131yla toya getdikl\u0259ri kimi, s\u0259h\u0259rin a\u00e7\u0131lma\u011f\u0131ndan x\u0259b\u0259r ver\u0259n ilk xoruz ban\u0131nda da evl\u0259rin\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259kdil\u0259r. D\u00fczd\u00fcr, o z\u0259hrimardan C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd\u0259 d\u0259 t\u0259klif edirdil\u0259r, ancaq o, \u00f6z\u00fc-\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n iyr\u0259nir, u\u00e7urumun astanas\u0131na g\u0259ldiyini d\u0259rk etdikc\u0259, bu d\u00fcnyadan ba\u015f g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb qa\u00e7maq ist\u0259yirdi. Ancaq hara, hara qa\u00e7as\u0131yd\u0131 ki?! Evin h\u0259r g\u00fcn artan qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131 ona qa\u00e7ma\u011fa imkan ver\u0259c\u0259kdimi? M\u0259g\u0259r g\u00f6rm\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, \u201cm\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259tin\u0259\u201d s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131 q\u0259pir\u0259tiv\u00e7i S\u0259fiqulunun borc d\u0259ft\u0259rind\u0259ki siyah\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcr, o da yava\u015f-yava\u015f d\u0259yi\u015fib, sif\u0259tini tur\u015fudur?!<\/p>\n

Toy el\u0259 toy idi. Ancaq onun da q\u0259rib\u0259 bir ba\u015f a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131, \u00fcr\u0259k bulanmas\u0131 var idi. \u00c7al-\u00e7a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131 g\u00fcnl\u0259rind\u0259 iki hadis\u0259ni unuda bilmirdi C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd. Birincid\u0259, yek\u0259qar\u0131n, tosm\u0259r\u0259k bir ki\u015fi qabaqlar\u0131na bir \u201c\u015firvan\u201d at\u0131b, \u0259dal\u0131-\u0259dal\u0131:\u201d M\u0259nim havam\u0131 \u00e7al\u0131n!-demi\u015fdi.-Uzund\u0259r\u0259ni.\u201d El\u0259 \u00e7alma\u011fa b\u0259nd idil\u0259r ki, oynayan i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259 bir m\u0259r\u0259k\u0259 qopartd\u0131 ki, g\u0259l g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n. S\u0259sg\u00fccl\u0259ndiricil\u0259ri q\u0131r\u0131b tullad\u0131. \u00c7al\u011f\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n d\u00f6vr\u0259sin\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131qlar\u0131 stolu t\u0259pikl\u0259 vurub a\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130\u00e7kili oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u00f6y\u00fcb-s\u00f6yl\u0259nm\u0259yin\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259rh\u0259d qoymad\u0131. Toy yiy\u0259siyl\u0259 qohum oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6tk\u0259m tan\u0131mad\u0131.Al\u0259m qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131 bir-birin\u0259. Kimi fit \u00e7al\u0131r, kimi st\u0259kan-n\u0259lb\u0259kini hara g\u0259ldi f\u0131rlad\u0131r, yumruq, t\u0259pik davas\u0131 gedirdi. Ev yiy\u0259si h\u0259min g\u00fcn \u201cman\u0131slar\u0131\u201d o ki var g\u00fcnahland\u0131rd\u0131.\u201dToyumu zay edib, x\u0259rcimi bat\u0131rd\u0131n\u0131z!\u201d-dedi. D\u00fcz n\u0259 az, n\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7ox, yar\u0131bayar\u0131 k\u0259sdi pullar\u0131. N\u0259 dey\u0259 bil\u0259rdil\u0259r ki, toyu bat\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. \u0130\u015f milis\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Be\u015f n\u0259f\u0259r x\u0259st\u0259xanal\u0131q olmu\u015fdu. Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, \u00f6l\u0259n, \u015fik\u0259st qalan yox idi. O g\u00fcn\u00fc kor-pe\u015fiman qay\u0131tm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. H\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 dil\u0259n\u00e7i pay\u0131 q\u0259d\u0259r qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ona da \u00e7al\u011f\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar \u00f6z aralar\u0131nda q\u0259pik-quru\u015f deyirdil\u0259r… Bir d\u0259, ikinci d\u0259f\u0259 \u015faba\u015f \u00e7ox olmu\u015fdu. Hardasa, el\u0259 bir toyun haqq\u0131 q\u0259d\u0259r. Biri k\u0259d\u0259rd\u0259n, a\u011fr\u0131dan, biri d\u0259 sevincd\u0259n, f\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n o \u201cz\u0259hrimara\u201d\u0131 dadm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd. Sonra n\u0259 olmu\u015fdusa, x\u0259yal\u0131 g\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259 u\u00e7mu\u015f, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck, \u0259n a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 adam\u0131 saym\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Daha \u201cz\u0259hrimar\u0131\u201d \u00f6z\u00fc axtar\u0131r, \u00f6z\u00fc al\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259r\u0259k\u0259ti, oturu\u015fu\u011fu , duru\u015fu\u011fu da d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi. M\u0259kt\u0259bin yolunu itirmi\u015f, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ciddi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015fd\u0259 olan C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd m\u00fc\u0259llim daha u\u015faqlarla zarafatla\u015f\u0131r, b\u0259z\u0259n oturdu\u011fu d\u0259rs otaqlar\u0131nda g\u00f6zl\u0259ri baxa-baxa s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcr, h\u0259tta g\u00f6zl\u0259rini bir hovur yumub ayaq\u00fcst\u0259 yatma\u011f\u0131, xoruldama\u011f\u0131 da olurdu. Daha o, C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd m\u00fc\u0259llim yox, u\u015faqlar demi\u015fk\u0259n, \u201cC\u00fcm\u00fc m\u00fc\u0259llim\u201d olmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

\u201cZ\u0259hrimar\u201d \u00f6z i\u015fini g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u018fll\u0259ri tutmur C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcn, barmaqlar\u0131 bir \u00fcmidd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 x\u0259zan yarpa\u011f\u0131 kimi \u0259sirdi. G\u00f6zl\u0259ri ax\u0131r, sif\u0259ti min ilin yor\u011funu t\u0259ki kobudla\u015f\u0131r, k\u0259l\u0259-k\u00f6t\u00fcrl\u0259\u015firdi. Daha toylara da \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131r, he\u00e7 bir d\u0259st\u0259 onu yax\u0131na buraxm\u0131rd\u0131. Ev\u0259 g\u0259lir d\u0259 g\u0259lmir, ehtiyac i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259 soyuq-soyuq dola\u015f\u0131r, s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259t yarad\u0131rd\u0131. Evin yegan\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k g\u0259tir\u0259ni o idi. U\u015faqlar\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259bliydi. Onlar\u0131n da yax\u015f\u0131 musiqi duyumu var idi. Arada onlar\u0131 da \u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 apar\u0131rd\u0131 ki, m\u0259clisin havas\u0131na uy\u011funla\u015fs\u0131nlar, kimin yemi, kimin t\u0259l\u0259bi n\u0259 oldu\u011funu ucundan-qula\u011f\u0131ndan d\u0259rk etsinl\u0259r. Arada, m\u0259clisin \u015firin yerind\u0259 gitaran\u0131 o\u011fullar\u0131na \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr, \u00e7ay i\u00e7\u0259-i\u00e7\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 k\u0259nardan bax\u0131rd\u0131. D\u00fczd\u00fcr, toyun z\u0259hmi a\u011f\u0131r idi, u\u015faqlar h\u0259l\u0259 al\u0131\u015fmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar, arada xallar\u0131 xallara qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r, d\u0259st\u0259 ba\u015f\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 demi\u015fk\u0259n, ke\u00e7idl\u0259rd\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259n yersiz \u201cqu\u015f\u201d da burax\u0131rd\u0131lar. Amma toyun bir yax\u015f\u0131 x\u00fcsusiyy\u0259ti o idi ki, buna he\u00e7 k\u0259s fikir vermir, s\u0259sg\u00fccl\u0259ndiricinin gurultusu alt\u0131nda i\u00e7kid\u0259n dumanlanm\u0131\u015f ba\u015flar onu ay\u0131rd edib tutmaq f\u00fcrs\u0259ti, imkan\u0131 qazanm\u0131rd\u0131. El\u0259 bil duy\u011fular kor\u015fal\u0131r, hissiyyatlar \u00f6z g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc itirirdi. Ham\u0131 oynama\u011fa, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fc \u201ctama\u015fa\u201ds\u0131 il\u0259 se\u00e7ilm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Kimin h\u00fcn\u0259ri n\u0259 idi ki, ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131n oyununu k\u0259s\u0259. Onda bir m\u0259r\u0259k\u0259 qopurdu ki, g\u0259l g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n. Bel\u0259 m\u0259qamlarda Roma qladiatorlar\u0131 da onlar\u0131 g\u00f6rs\u0259ydi, b\u0259lk\u0259 h\u0259s\u0259d d\u0259 aparard\u0131. Toy sahibinin \u0259rki vard\u0131 \u201cs\u00fclh\u201d yaratma\u011fa, ancaq i\u015f b\u0259rk\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 onu da e\u015fitmir, onu da aral\u0131\u011fa sal\u0131b yax\u015f\u0131ca d\u00f6y\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. Toyda \u015fuluqluq salmaq, nec\u0259 dey\u0259rl\u0259r, b\u0259zil\u0259ri \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn v\u0259rdi\u015f\u0259, q\u0259hr\u0259manl\u0131\u011fa d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 toy sahibi qabaqcadan \u00e7al\u011f\u0131\u00e7\u0131larla da \u015f\u0259rt k\u0259sir, b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131 ki, \u201caman\u0131n g\u00fcn\u00fcd\u00fcr, s\u0259hv\u0259 yol verm\u0259yin, kimis\u0259 c\u0131z\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xarmay\u0131n…\u201d. Bunu C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd \u00e7ox g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, h\u0259tta qat\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb d\u00f6y\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fc d\u0259 az olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Neyl\u0259sin, bir tik\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yin x\u0259trin\u0259 susur, h\u0259r \u015feyi \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 sal\u0131b b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259zablara d\u00f6z\u00fcrd\u00fc. H\u0259r g\u00fcn g\u0259rginlik, h\u0259r g\u00fcn \u0259s\u0259bilik, yuxusuzluq t\u0259bi\u0259t\u0259n sakit g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015fl\u00fc C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd\u00fc, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 hiss etm\u0259d\u0259n, d\u0259yi\u015fdirirdi. K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259-bay\u0131r s\u00f6hb\u0259ti dan\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131na,yersiz oturu\u015fu\u011fu- duru\u015fu\u011fu, g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7ox x\u0259l\u0259l g\u0259tirirdi. M\u00fc\u0259llim ad\u0131, sanki ona b\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn yad olmu\u015fdu. Bu ad \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259nd\u0259 utan\u0131r,\u00f6z\u00fc-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilib i\u00e7ind\u0259ki a\u011fr\u0131-ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n \u0259zab\u0131nda bo\u011fulmaq, \u0259riyib itm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n

\u0130nsan \u00fcmid\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131b ya\u015fay\u0131r. \u00dcmidin bitdiyi yerd\u0259 \u00f6m\u00fcr d\u0259 bitir. Deyirl\u0259r, sonuncu \u00f6l\u0259n \u00fcmiddir. \u00dcmid Tanr\u0131 sevdas\u0131d\u0131r. O, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 insan\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131ran, \u201cVar ol!\u201d-dey\u0259n Tanr\u0131 nidas\u0131d\u0131r. Qulaqlar tutulanda, o nida k\u0259sil\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259n z\u00fclm\u0259t ya\u011f\u0131r. El\u0259 bil ulduzlar da k\u00fcs\u00fcb, daha o g\u00f6yl\u0259rin yaxas\u0131ndan as\u0131lm\u0131r. Ulduzlar k\u0259hk\u0259\u015fan\u0131 da \u00e7\u0131ra\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcb i\u015f\u0131q-i\u015f\u0131q parlam\u0131r. He\u00e7 durnalar da q\u0259rib g\u00f6yl\u0259rin nisgilin\u0259 b\u0259l\u0259nib daha uzaqlara u\u00e7mur. He\u00e7 bu son bahar da g\u0259lmir, x\u0259zan n\u0259\u011fm\u0259sini oxuya. R\u0259ng-r\u0259ng, ilm\u0259-ilm\u0259 pay\u0131z xal\u0131s\u0131 toxuya. Q\u0131z\u0131l\u0131-\u00e7\u0259hray\u0131 yarpaqlar otlar\u0131n yaxas\u0131ndan boyunba\u011f\u0131 kimi as\u0131la. Da\u011flar da i\u00e7ind\u0259 bir a\u011fr\u0131ya s\u00f6yk\u0259nib bir az da qocalacaq. Bir bax\u0131\u015f, bir h\u0259sr\u0259t g\u00f6yn\u0259rtisi kimi b\u00fck\u00fcm-b\u00fck\u00fcm i\u00e7in\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259c\u0259k. D\u00fcnya bir bax\u0131\u015f boyu ki\u00e7il\u0259c\u0259k, bir kor\u015falm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6z i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fcb bula\u011f\u0131na da\u015f qoyacaq.<\/p>\n

C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcn ki\u00e7ik o\u011flu F\u0259xri h\u0259ssas idi. Atas\u0131n\u0131n sars\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n oxuyur, n\u0259l\u0259r \u00e7\u0259kdiyini yax\u015f\u0131 anlay\u0131rd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 qap\u0131lma\u011f\u0131ndan, x\u0259t\u0259r yetir\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n qorxur, narahatlan\u0131rd\u0131. Hiss etdirm\u0259d\u0259n, evd\u0259 kim\u0259s\u0259 bir s\u00f6z dem\u0259d\u0259n sakitc\u0259 onu izl\u0259yirdi. O \u201cz\u0259hrimar\u201d\u0131n havas\u0131, vaxt\u0131 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 atas\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc nec\u0259 da\u011fa-da\u015fa \u00e7\u0131rpd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da az g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Arada hirsl\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259:\u201d K\u0259s\u0259c\u0259m, vallah, k\u0259s\u0259c\u0259m o barmaqlar\u0131… M\u0259n\u0259 x\u0259yan\u0259t ed\u0259n o barmaqlar n\u0259yim\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259kdir?!..\u201d-deyib b\u0259rkd\u0259n q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131r, barmaqlar\u0131ndan qisas al\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi yumru\u011funu d\u00fcy\u00fcnl\u0259yib b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk divara \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131rd\u0131. Barmaqlar\u0131 \u0259zilib, qan\u0131 damana q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd ev \u0259\u015fyalar\u0131n\u0131n saxland\u0131\u011f\u0131 yar\u0131qaranl\u0131q zirz\u0259miy\u0259 girmi\u015fdi. Quru tut a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6vd\u0259sind\u0259n k\u0259silmi\u015f \u0259t taxtas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib, \u00e7\u0259n\u0259sini baltan\u0131n sap\u0131na s\u00f6yk\u0259mi\u015fdi. Dal\u011f\u0131n, hardasa bir az da k\u00fcsg\u00fcn, bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 bir n\u00f6qt\u0259y\u0259 zill\u0259yib d\u0259rin fikr\u0259 getmi\u015fdi. Cavabs\u0131z suallar ax\u0131n-ax\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr, \u00fcr\u0259yini, yadda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 c\u0131rmaqlay\u0131rd\u0131: -\u0130ndi m\u0259n neyl\u0259m\u0259liy\u0259m? Qaba\u011fa yol yoxdur, qaranl\u0131qd\u0131r, geriy\u0259 d\u0259 qay\u0131da bilm\u0259r\u0259m. B\u00fct\u00fcn k\u00f6rp\u00fcl\u0259ri yax\u0131b-yand\u0131rm\u0131\u015f, h\u0259r \u015feyi\u00a0 alt-\u00fcst etmi\u015f\u0259m. D\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nin ed\u0259 bilm\u0259diyini \u00f6z\u00fcm-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 etmi\u015f\u0259m. M\u0259n niy\u0259, niy\u0259 ax\u0131 bu x\u0259yan\u0259t\u0259 yol vermi\u015f\u0259m, taleyim\u0259 balta \u00e7al\u0131b, \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u0259 sa\u011falmaz yara vurmu\u015fam? Allah\u0131m, niy\u0259… niy\u0259 bu g\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm? Niy\u0259 s\u0259nin verdikl\u0259rin\u0259 arxa \u00e7evirib, nankorluq etdim. M\u0259n\u0259 daha n\u0259 verm\u0259liydin ki, verm\u0259din. A\u011f\u0131l, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259, qabiliyy\u0259t verdin, insan kimi ya\u015fay\u0131m dey\u0259. M\u0259ns\u0259, verdikl\u0259rin\u0259 \u015f\u00fckr edib ya\u015famaq \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259, \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u0259, taleyim\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n k\u0259sildim. Eyvan\u0131m\u0131zdak\u0131 o bapbalaca dimdikl\u0259ri il\u0259 balalar\u0131na ruzi g\u0259tir\u0259n qaranqu\u015f q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 olmad\u0131m. \u0130ndi \u0259limd\u0259n n\u0259 g\u0259lir… he\u00e7 n\u0259!.. \u00d6mr\u00fc \u0259ridib yel\u0259 verdim. Be\u015f q\u0259piklik h\u00f6rm\u0259tim var idi, onu da itirdim. Ax\u0131 m\u0259n kim\u0259 laz\u0131mam… kimdir m\u0259ni itirib-axtaran. He\u00e7 evd\u0259kil\u0259rin d\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxa bilmir\u0259m. Art\u0131q y\u00fck\u0259 \u00e7evrilmi\u015f\u0259m, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259ni \u00e7iyinl\u0259rind\u0259 da\u015f\u0131mal\u0131d\u0131rlar ki?! U\u015faqlar\u0131ma n\u0259 g\u00fcn a\u011flad\u0131m, he\u00e7 d\u00fcz-ax\u0131ll\u0131 t\u0259hsil d\u0259 ver\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. Yaz\u0131qlar\u0131n n\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131d\u0131r ki, h\u0259l\u0259 canlar\u0131 da b\u0259rkim\u0259yib, \u00e7\u0259limsizdirl\u0259r. S\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yuxusuz qalmaq, onun-bunun \u0259das\u0131, t\u0259n\u0259si il\u0259 qol-boyun olmaq, oynamaq asand\u0131r m\u0259g\u0259r?! Bir tik\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yin xatirin\u0259 susursan, ancaq susqunlu\u011fun b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259zaba, a\u011fr\u0131ya d\u00f6n\u00fcb yadda\u015f\u0131nda oyaland\u0131qca i\u00e7ini yeyirs\u0259n. Hardasa, duy\u011fular\u0131nla bir anl\u0131q \u00f6z\u00fcn olmaq ist\u0259yirs\u0259n, ancaq il\u011f\u0131mlanan duy\u011fular\u0131n kor\u015fald\u0131qca, sanki h\u0259r g\u00fcn s\u0259nd\u0259n u\u015faqla\u015f\u0131r, el\u0259 bil ki, i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn olan\u0131 basd\u0131r\u0131b arxaya baxmadan da nagahani bir yol tutub gedirs\u0259n. Ax\u0131 bu n\u0259 h\u0259yatd\u0131, bu n\u0259 \u00f6m\u00fcrd\u00fc biz ya\u015fay\u0131r\u0131q: \u00f6l\u0259-\u00f6l\u0259, s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259-s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259. Bir \u00f6m\u00fcr ki, s\u0259n\u0259 v\u0259fa q\u0131lm\u0131r, onu ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131n n\u0259 m\u0259nas\u0131 var. \u0130lan, \u00e7ayan, k\u0259rt\u0259nk\u0259l\u0259 deyilik ki, s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259-s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259 ya\u015fayaq. S\u0259n Tanr\u0131n\u0131n b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259 bax ki, insan\u0131 h\u0259yatda \u0259z\u0259ld\u0259n nida i\u015far\u0259si kimi d\u00fcm-d\u00fcz ya\u015fama\u011fa \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r. Sonra \u0259m\u0259lin\u0259, g\u00fcnahlar\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131mlar, b\u00fck\u00fclm\u0259l\u0259r qoyub sual i\u015far\u0259si kimi \u201cNiy\u0259? Ax\u0131 niy\u0259?\u201d m\u00fchakim\u0259si il\u0259 yand\u0131r\u0131r. G\u00fcnahkar uzaqda deyil, bula\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z g\u00fcnah el\u0259 i\u00e7imizd\u0259dir. Bir anl\u0131q h\u0259zz, n\u0259\u015f\u0259 irad\u0259mizi q\u0131r\u0131b ona h\u00f6km edirs\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz d\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131n quluna, k\u00f6l\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7evrilmirikmi? M\u0259g\u0259r iztirab, \u0259zab i\u00e7ind\u0259 bo\u011fulmaq kim\u0259s\u0259 f\u0259r\u0259hli, i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 bir \u00f6m\u00fcr yaz\u0131rm\u0131?! Yox, yazm\u0131r! B\u0259s onda insan niy\u0259 bil\u0259-bil\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131b ona sar\u0131 can at\u0131r? \u015eeytan\u0131 qatmayaq, \u201c\u015eeytan yoldan \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131!\u201d-dem\u0259y\u0259k. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fcz d\u0259 iblisl\u0259\u015firik, odda, k\u00f6zd\u0259 yansaq da, yen\u0259 qaranl\u0131\u011fa, \u015f\u0259r\u0259 bula\u015f\u0131r\u0131q. \u00a0Allah\u0131m, \u00f6lm\u0259k, \u00f6lm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m! Niy\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r aciz, zavall\u0131, yaz\u0131q g\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm? \u00d6z\u00fcm \u00f6z \u0259liml\u0259 \u00f6z evimi y\u0131xd\u0131m?! Hans\u0131 g\u00fcn\u0259 \u015f\u00fckr edim, hans\u0131 \u00fcmid\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131m? Daha s\u0131\u011f\u0131nas\u0131 \u00fcmid d\u0259 qalmay\u0131b, ayna kimi \u00e7ilikl\u0259nib t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcb. Q\u0131r\u0131q, s\u00f6k\u00fck \u00fcmidl\u0259r m\u0259ni hara q\u0259d\u0259r apara bil\u0259r ki?!<\/p>\n

F\u0259xri yar\u0131qaranl\u0131q zirz\u0259mid\u0259 divardan as\u0131lm\u0131\u015f q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 so\u011fan r\u0259s\u0259l\u0259rinin b\u00f6yr\u00fcnd\u0259 durmu\u015fdu. \u0130\u00e7\u0259rinin havas\u0131 t\u0259miz olsun dey\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bir lay\u0131n\u0131 azac\u0131q a\u00e7\u0131q qoyduqlar\u0131 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n i\u00e7\u0259ri girmi\u015fdi. Atas\u0131 arxas\u0131 ona t\u0259r\u0259f oldu\u011fundan o\u011flunu g\u00f6rm\u00fcrd\u00fc. Ancaq aralar\u0131ndak\u0131 m\u0259saf\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck deyildi. Atas\u0131n\u0131n dodaqlar\u0131 alt\u0131nda p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 da yax\u015f\u0131 e\u015fidirdi. C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcn \u00fcr\u0259k a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131yla dediyi: \u201dAllah\u0131m, \u00f6lm\u0259k, \u00f6lm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m!\u201d k\u0259lm\u0259l\u0259ri F\u0259xrini silk\u0259l\u0259di. \u0130r\u0259li yeridi, atas\u0131 baltan\u0131 barmaqlar\u0131na vurmaq ist\u0259diyi yerd\u0259 arxadan baltan\u0131 tutdu. C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd qanr\u0131l\u0131b h\u0259yacanla, \u00e7a\u015fq\u0131nl\u0131qla arxaya baxd\u0131. Ki\u00e7ik o\u011flu F\u0259xri idi. F\u0259xri g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 saxlaya bilm\u0259di. Atas\u0131n\u0131 b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk qucaqlay\u0131b i\u00e7in-i\u00e7in a\u011flad\u0131. -Ata bizi kimin \u00fcmidin\u0259 burax\u0131b gedirs\u0259n? Olmaya bizi d\u0259 atas\u0131zl\u0131q oduyla yand\u0131rmaq ist\u0259yirs\u0259n? Ax\u0131 niy\u0259, niy\u0259?! \u00d6z\u00fcn demirdinmi ki, ata a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 atas\u0131z olanlar bil\u0259r?! Demirdin ki, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn s\u0259rv\u0259tini qurban ver\u0259r\u0259m, t\u0259ki atam qap\u0131m\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcb, o xo\u015fb\u0259xt atal\u0131 g\u00fcnl\u0259rimi geri qaytara?! B\u0259s biz\u0259 ata laz\u0131m deyil?! Ax\u0131 atas\u0131zl\u0131q a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 h\u0259r g\u00fcn s\u0259ni yand\u0131r\u0131rsa, onda nec\u0259 r\u0259va bilirs\u0259n, bu a\u011fr\u0131 odunda biz d\u0259 yanaqm\u0131?! Qurban\u0131n olum, ata, can\u0131na q\u0131yma?! T\u0259kc\u0259 s\u0259nin quru ad\u0131n, quru n\u0259f\u0259sin bizim varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131m\u0131zd\u0131r. Allaha \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr, \u0259limiz \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131r, azdan-az, \u00e7oxdan da \u00e7ox qazan\u0131r\u0131q. Kimd\u0259n pis ya\u015fay\u0131r\u0131q ki?! Atal\u0131 g\u00fcnl\u0259r taleyin biz\u0259 verdiyi i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131, xo\u015f g\u00fcnl\u0259rdir!.. Amand\u0131, can\u0131m ata, o g\u00fcnl\u0259ri \u0259limizd\u0259n alma!..<\/p>\n

F\u0259xrinin ac\u0131 g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 dediyi h\u0259r s\u00f6z\u00fc tikan olub C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcn \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 sanc\u0131l\u0131r, qur\u011fu\u015fun kimi \u00e7iyinl\u0259rind\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131b, az qala, n\u0259f\u0259sini k\u0259sirdi. G\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 saxlaya bilmir, o\u011flunun \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6p\u0259-\u00f6p\u0259, q\u0131r\u0131q-q\u0131r\u0131q: \u201c F\u0259xrim…, q\u00fcrurum…, balam m\u0259nim! B\u0259s m\u0259n neyl\u0259yim, Sizin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcz\u0259 baxa bilmir\u0259m ax\u0131?! Bu g\u00fcnah m\u0259ni \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcr, h\u0259r g\u00fcn qurd kimi i\u00e7imi yeyir, h\u0259r g\u00fcn s\u0259ssizc\u0259 m\u0259ni \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcb dirildir. Bu x\u0259tan\u0131, g\u00fcnah\u0131 \u00e7iynimd\u0259 da\u015f\u0131ya bilmir\u0259m ax\u0131?! Niy\u0259 m\u0259n bu oyuna g\u0259ldim, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc bataql\u0131\u011fa sal\u0131b, h\u0259r g\u00fcn \u0259zaba, nifr\u0259t\u0259 do\u011fru \u00e7\u0259kildim? Bel\u0259mi t\u0259rbiy\u0259 alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, bel\u0259mi ata-ana qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131, n\u0259f\u0259si il\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm? M\u0259n yolumu azd\u0131m, o\u011ful, buna g\u00f6r\u0259 h\u0259yat m\u0259n\u0259 haram g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. Yalan\u00e7\u0131 n\u0259\u015f\u0259y\u0259, s\u0259raba, il\u011f\u0131ma uyub i\u00e7imd\u0259 bir anl\u0131q \u201cxo\u015fb\u0259xt, i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 d\u00fcnya\u201d qurmaq ist\u0259dim. \u0130\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131m qaranl\u0131q, d\u00fcnyam z\u00fclm\u0259t oldu. H\u0259r g\u00fcn d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcm bataql\u0131q \u00e7\u0259kdi, \u00e7\u0259kdi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259! \u0130ndi el\u0259 bilirsiniz m\u0259n ya\u015fay\u0131ram? Yox, ya\u015famaq n\u0259dir, m\u00fcq\u0259vvayam! Hissiz, duy\u011fusuz, h\u0259yat e\u015fqi \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f, m\u00fcq\u0259vva! M\u0259hsulu y\u0131\u011f\u0131ld\u0131qdan sonra \u00e7\u00f6ld\u0259 at\u0131l\u0131b qalm\u0131\u015f, unudulmu\u015f, s\u0259rs\u0259ri k\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259rin, qar\u0131n, ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n arams\u0131z d\u00f6yd\u00fcy\u00fc g\u0259r\u0259ksiz bostan uyu\u011fuyam.<\/p>\n

-Yox, el\u0259 dem\u0259, el\u0259 dem\u0259, ata!- F\u0259xri atas\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259sdi.- S\u0259n bizim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259r \u015feys\u0259n! \u0130stiliks\u0259n, i\u015f\u0131qsan, arxa, dayaqsan. Dar g\u00fcnd\u0259 \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qa\u00e7acaq, quca\u011f\u0131na s\u0131\u011f\u0131nacaq yerimizs\u0259n. Bundan da b\u00f6y\u00fck var-d\u00f6vl\u0259t olarm\u0131 biz\u0259?!<\/p>\n

F\u0259xri atas\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7iyinl\u0259rind\u0259n tutub \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7\u0259kdi. \u00dcz\u00fcnd\u0259n, g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6p\u0259-\u00f6p\u0259, \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n tutub yar\u0131mqaranl\u0131q zirz\u0259mid\u0259n \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131. H\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 a\u011faclar \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259mi\u015fdi. Hasar dibind\u0259ki yas\u0259m\u0259nin \u0259tri al\u0259mi ba\u015f\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Ar\u0131lar \u00a0v\u0131z\u0131lday\u0131b \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kd\u0259n-\u00e7i\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 qonur, qumrular asta-asta \u00f6t\u00fcr, eyvandak\u0131 qaranqu\u015f yuvas\u0131ndak\u0131 k\u00f6rp\u0259l\u0259r, \u0259tc\u0259 balalar yem da\u015f\u0131yan anan\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb haray-h\u0259\u015firl\u0259 civild\u0259\u015firdil\u0259r. K\u00fclli-kainat\u0131n g\u00f6z\u0259li G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, bu g\u00fcnk\u00fc kimi bel\u0259 i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131, bel\u0259 isti, do\u011fma olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ev d\u0259, el\u0259 bil, C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcn g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc: a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131, do\u011fma, mehriban o\u011fullar\u0131 kimi!..<\/p>\n

Bak\u0131 \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri, 2022, 19 yanvar-15 may.<\/p>\n

Yaz\u0131ya 84 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Hekay\u0259   Narkotika bir b\u0259lad\u0131r, d\u00fcnyan\u0131 da\u011f\u0131d\u0131r. C\u00fcm\u015f\u00fcd universitetin kimya fak\u00fclt\u0259sini bitirmi\u015fdi. \u018fvv\u0259l niyy\u0259ti \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 qalmaq, ev-e\u015fik sahibi olmaq idi. Bu i\u015fd\u0259 day\u0131s\u0131na \u00e7ox g\u00fcv\u0259nirdi. O day\u0131 ki, bir el boyda h\u00f6rm\u0259ti, n\u00fcfuzu var idi. \u015eair idi, alim idi, q\u0259zet\u00e7iydi day\u0131s\u0131.Tez-tez televizora \u00e7\u0131xar, gah \u0130randan, \u0130raqdan, gah da B\u00f6y\u00fck Turandan dan\u0131\u015fard\u0131. Verili\u015f getm\u0259mi\u015fd\u0259n qabaq k\u0259ndd\u0259 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16,3,21],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18121"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=18121"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18121\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":18123,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18121\/revisions\/18123"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=18121"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=18121"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=18121"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}