{"id":18700,"date":"2023-04-21T21:40:22","date_gmt":"2023-04-21T16:40:22","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=18700"},"modified":"2023-04-21T21:40:22","modified_gmt":"2023-04-21T16:40:22","slug":"%c9%99zizaga-elsev%c9%99r-qargalarin-sohb%c9%99ti","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=18700","title":{"rendered":"\u018fziza\u011fa Elsev\u0259r – Qar\u011falar\u0131n s\u00f6hb\u0259ti"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"41406017_291144274810217_1079621380825153536_n\"<\/a>Hekay\u0259<\/p>\n

\u201cCOV\u0130D \u2013 19\u201d silsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin\u00a0 a\u011fz\u0131na qonub \u201c qarr!.. qarr-r!..\u201d-sal\u0131b q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131\u015fan iki qar\u011fan\u0131n xo\u015fag\u0259lm\u0259z, qulaqbat\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 s\u0259sind\u0259n B\u0259hruz ki\u015fi yata\u011f\u0131nda qurcaland\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 basd\u0131r\u0131b, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk yumsa da , daha yata bilm\u0259di ki, bilm\u0259di. O, u\u015faql\u0131qdan da\u011fda- da\u015fda b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n h\u0259r otun-\u0259l\u0259fin sirrini, qu\u015flar\u0131n da dilini\u00a0 \u00f6yr\u0259nmi\u015fdi. K\u0259ndd\u0259 olanda bu vaxtlar h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 yuxudan durar, gec\u0259d\u0259n otlar\u0131n mirvari kimi g\u0259rd\u0259nin\u0259 d\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n \u015feh damc\u0131lar\u0131 il\u0259 qabarl\u0131 \u0259ll\u0259rini yuyub \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r, dan yerind\u0259n boylanan g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u0259 sar\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc tutub, dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldaya-p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldaya verdiyi bu g\u00f6z\u0259llikl\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 tanr\u0131s\u0131na min k\u0259r\u0259 \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr ed\u0259rdi. Mal-qaran\u0131 \u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259 \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb a\u011faclar\u0131n dibl\u0259rini bell\u0259y\u0259rdi. V\u0259ri a\u00e7ar, suyu kartof, so\u011fan l\u0259kl\u0259rin\u0259 ax\u0131dard\u0131. Toyuq-c\u00fcc\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259n ver\u0259n A\u011fcaya k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259r, samovar\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 k\u00f6z salar, yax\u015f\u0131 bir s\u00fcfr\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131b eyvanda oturard\u0131lar. Halal s\u00fcfr\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 n\u0259 yox idi. Uca Tanr\u0131n\u0131n onlara verdiyind\u0259n h\u0259r \u015fey var idi: t\u0259miz nehr\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131, \u00fcz tutmu\u015f motal pendiri, \u015foru, \u00f6z h\u0259y\u0259tl\u0259rind\u0259ki p\u0259t\u0259kd\u0259n k\u0259sdikl\u0259ri be\u00e7\u0259 bal\u0131. Qaymaql\u0131, k\u0259kotulu \u00e7ay\u0131n, s\u00fcd\u00fcn \u0259tri adam\u0131 i\u015ftaha g\u0259tir\u0259rdi. Uzaqda uzan\u0131b ged\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131 qarl\u0131 Burovar da\u011flar\u0131na baxa-baxa yeyib-i\u00e7\u0259r, dey\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259ri ax\u015fam ed\u0259rdil\u0259r. A\u011fcan\u0131n \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yin\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k \u00e7atmazd\u0131. Zal\u0131m\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131 nec\u0259 bi\u015fir\u0259rdis\u0259, qonum-qon\u015fu t\u0259rifl\u0259m\u0259kd\u0259n doymazd\u0131. T\u0259ndiri qalayanda, divara yapd\u0131\u011f\u0131 k\u00fcnd\u0259 q\u0131zard\u0131qca yumurtal\u0131, z\u0259f\u0259ranl\u0131 ayran\u0131n xo\u015f \u0259tri ba\u011f\u0131-bax\u00e7an\u0131 vurar, tox olsan da, o \u0259tird\u0259n m\u0259st olub, bir tik\u0259 o \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259kd\u0259n dadmamaq g\u00fcnah olard\u0131. O n\u0259 \u0259tri idi, Allah\u0131m, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 c\u0259nn\u0259t qoxusu idi.<\/p>\n

A\u011fca B\u0259hruz ki\u015fi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259r \u015fey idi. Var\u0131- d\u00f6vl\u0259ti, b\u0259r-b\u0259z\u0259yi, evinin zin\u0259ti, yara\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 idi A\u011fca. \u00dc\u00e7 u\u015faq b\u00f6y\u00fctm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r yuvalar\u0131nda. Ev-e\u015fik sahibi etmi\u015fdil\u0259r. Diplom alandan sonra \u00a0\u015f\u0259h\u0259r d\u0259lisi olub, qutu-qutu da\u015f evl\u0259r\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131nm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Onlar k\u0259ndin yolunu unutmu\u015f, getdikl\u0259ri o yollarda da\u015flar, qayalar da mam\u0131rlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ancaq n\u0259 danaq, \u00f6vladlar\u0131 siz dey\u0259n q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 nankor, pis deyildil\u0259r. Gec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz telefonda ba\u015flar\u0131na dolanar, n\u0259v\u0259l\u0259rinin telefonda \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6p\u0259r, g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259r \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259sin\u0259, baba-n\u0259n\u0259 dey\u0259n \u015firin-\u015f\u0259k\u0259r s\u0259sin\u0259\u00a0 az qala qurban ged\u0259rdil\u0259r. Babayla n\u0259n\u0259 k\u0259nd sovqat\u0131ndan, onlar is\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259r geyim-ke\u00e7imind\u0259n g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259rdil\u0259r. H\u0259l\u0259 x\u0259rclik d\u0259 yollayard\u0131lar. Bel\u0259 olanda inciy\u0259rdil\u0259r d\u0259 onlardan. X\u0259rclik n\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 laz\u0131m idi. El\u0259 ald\u0131qlar\u0131 t\u0259qa\u00fcd \u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 \u00e7atard\u0131. Hara x\u0259rcl\u0259y\u0259si idil\u0259r ki, \u00fc\u00e7d\u0259 alacaqlar\u0131, be\u015fd\u0259 ver\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259ri d\u0259 yox idi. \u0130ndi A\u011fcan\u0131n yoxlu\u011fu h\u0259r \u015feyin dad\u0131n\u0131-duzunu qa\u00e7\u0131rtm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. El\u0259 bil B\u0259hruz ki\u015finin h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259nas\u0131n\u0131, xo\u015f g\u00fcnl\u0259rini d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 aparm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Q\u0259brinin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 \u00a0\u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k d\u0259, ot da bitdi. H\u0259r g\u00fcn o q\u0259birin ba\u015f\u0131na dolanmaqdan bezm\u0259di. Boynu b\u00fck\u00fck b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259ni \u00e7ox sev\u0259rdi A\u011fca. N\u0259rgiz g\u00fcl\u00fc, b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 boy ver\u0259nd\u0259 qom-qom, b\u00fck\u00fcm-b\u00fck\u00fcm y\u0131\u011f\u0131b q\u0259brinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 aparard\u0131 B\u0259hruz. \u00c7\u00f6m\u0259ltm\u0259z oturub x\u0259yal\u0259n A\u011fcayla dan\u0131\u015far, \u00f6t\u0259n g\u00fcnl\u0259ri xat\u0131rlay\u0131b geri d\u00f6n\u0259rdi. Soyuq, kims\u0259siz ev ba\u015f\u0131na f\u0131rlanar, h\u0259y\u0259t-bacada \u00f6l\u00fc s\u00fckut onu sanki m\u0259ng\u0259n\u0259y\u0259 sal\u0131b s\u0131xard\u0131. U\u015faqlar\u0131, insaf\u0259n h\u0259min vaxtlarda \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri k\u0259nd\u0259 yax\u0131n etdil\u0259r. H\u0259r iki g\u00fcnd\u0259n bir g\u0259ldil\u0259r-getdil\u0259r. Ba\u011flama-ba\u011flama \u0259rzaq, geyim g\u0259tirdil\u0259r, ged\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 onun b\u00fct\u00f6v bir ilin\u0259 b\u0259s ed\u0259c\u0259k pul x\u0259rcliyi d\u0259 qoydular. H\u0259r g\u00fcn, he\u00e7 olmasa, be\u015f k\u0259r\u0259 telefonda \u201cD\u0259d\u0259, nec\u0259s\u0259n?!\u201d-deyib sordular. K\u0259ndd\u0259 \u00e7ox qala bilm\u0259zdil\u0259r, i\u015f-g\u00fcc adam\u0131, v\u0259zif\u0259 sahibi idil\u0259r. Adlar\u0131-sanlar\u0131 vard\u0131. Biri h\u0259kim, biri alim, biri d\u00f6vl\u0259t adam\u0131 idi. Rayonun ba\u015fbil\u0259nl\u0259ri onlar\u0131n birc\u0259 z\u0259ngin\u0259\u00a0 \u0259l-aya\u011fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259r, g\u00fcnd\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7-d\u00f6rd k\u0259r\u0259 B\u0259hruz ki\u015finin hal\u0131n\u0131 soru\u015far, k\u0259nd x\u0259st\u0259xanas\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f h\u0259kimi tez-tez s\u0259hh\u0259tiyl\u0259, \u0259hvali-ruhiyy\u0259siyl\u0259 maraqlanard\u0131. Qohumlar, qon\u015fular, sa\u011f olsunlar, bi\u015f-d\u00fc\u015f edib g\u0259tir\u0259rdil\u0259r. Ancaq evin istiliyi, do\u011fmal\u0131\u011f\u0131 sanki \u00e7atm\u0131rd\u0131, \u00a0A\u011fca aparm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 onu da. \u00d6vladlar\u0131, dilli-dilav\u0259r g\u0259linl\u0259ri, \u015feytan n\u0259v\u0259l\u0259ri narahat idi, yanlar\u0131na aparmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dil t\u00f6k\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r, lap yalvar\u0131rd\u0131lar. \u201c \u0130st\u0259yirs\u0259n, bird\u0259f\u0259lik k\u00f6\u00e7, \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259, yan\u0131m\u0131za g\u0259l! Hans\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n evi \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259, can\u0131na yat\u0131rsa, orda qal, d\u0259d\u0259!..\u201d deyirdil\u0259r. Dil bo\u011faza qoymur, boynunu qucaqlay\u0131b \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6p\u0259-\u00f6p\u0259 p\u0259rvan\u0259 kimi ba\u015f\u0131na dolan\u0131rd\u0131lar. Ax\u0131rda dil\u0259 tutub birt\u0259h\u0259r raz\u0131la\u015fd\u0131lar ki, q\u0131\u015f\u0131 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259, onlarda ke\u00e7irib, yaz\u0131-yay\u0131 k\u0259nd\u0259 qay\u0131ts\u0131n.<\/p>\n

H\u0259r ax\u015fam B\u0259hruz ki\u015fi nec\u0259 yat\u0131r, s\u0259h\u0259ri nec\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131, bunu bir Allah bilirdi, bir d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc. Gec\u0259 el\u0259 bil o qaranl\u0131q i\u00e7in\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcr, i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259n x\u0131s\u0131n-x\u0131s\u0131n onu yeyirdi. Yuxudan tez-tez diksinib oyan\u0131r, \u0259ll\u0259rini qoynuna qoyub, bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 bir n\u00f6qt\u0259y\u0259 zill\u0259m\u0259kl\u0259 fikrind\u0259 d\u00fcnyan\u0131 \u0259ri\u015f-ar\u011fac edirdi. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 boylan\u0131r, bo\u015f qalm\u0131\u015f h\u0259y\u0259t-bacalarda bir insan \u00a0axtar\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130nsan \u00fcmid idi, i\u015f\u0131q idi sanki onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. Ancaq, dey\u0259s\u0259n, o \u00fcmid d\u0259 q\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, bir ins-cins d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcrd\u00fc, yiy\u0259siz \u00a0itd\u0259n-pi\u015fikd\u0259n savay\u0131. \u201c Evd\u0259 qal!\u201d \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131\u015f\u0131 bir xof salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin can\u0131na. Ekranlar da bir t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n od p\u00fcsk\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc. Filan yerd\u0259 filan q\u0259d\u0259r\u2026 D\u00fcnya da\u011f\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131, g\u00f6z g\u00f6r\u0259-g\u00f6r\u0259 da\u011f\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130nsan \u00f6vlad\u0131na d\u00fcnya darl\u0131q edirdi. \u00dcmidl\u0259r q\u0131r\u0131l\u0131r, q\u0131r\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. B\u0259dbinlik, k\u00fcsg\u00fcnl\u00fck duman kimi \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcr, ya\u011f\u0131\u015fa d\u00f6n\u00fcb h\u0259y\u0259t-bacaya \u00e7il\u0259nirdi.<\/p>\n

B\u0259hruz ki\u015fi p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 yax\u0131n g\u0259lib qar\u011falara qulaq k\u0259sildi. N\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rlar, n\u0259d\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rlar \u00a0bilm\u0259k ist\u0259di. Biri ala, biri qara qar\u011fa idi, yan-yana oturmu\u015fdular. B\u0259hruz ki\u015fiy\u0259 el\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc ki, el\u0259 bil onlar da k\u0259d\u0259rli, fikirli idil\u0259r. Qarr-r!.. Qar-rr!.. \u2013el\u0259yib qara qar\u011fa dill\u0259ndi: – Bu n\u0259dir, n\u0259 sirdir, ala qar\u011fa? Olmaya, d\u00fcnya da\u011f\u0131l\u0131r ?! Parklar, ba\u011flar bo\u015fal\u0131b, insanlar evl\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilib, daha biz\u0259 da\u015f atan, bizi yams\u0131lay\u0131b dodaq b\u00fcz\u0259n d\u0259 yoxdur. Zibil qablar\u0131 da dolmur, \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k q\u0131r\u0131qlar\u0131 da g\u00f6z\u0259 d\u0259ymir. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r b\u00fct\u00f6v \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259kl\u0259ri , torba-torba yem\u0259kl\u0259ri d\u0259 zibil qablar\u0131n\u0131n d\u00f6rd d\u00f6vr\u0259sin\u0259 t\u00f6k\u0259rdil\u0259r. Utanmadan, \u00e7\u0259kinm\u0259d\u0259n. Olmaya daha insanlar barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 sorur, yem\u0259k-i\u00e7m\u0259yi d\u0259 unudur?<\/p>\n

– Qarr-r!.. Qar-rr!.. Deyirl\u0259r, b\u0259la g\u0259lib!- dey\u0259 ala qar\u011fa qanadlar\u0131n\u0131 sin\u0259sin\u0259 y\u00fcng\u00fclc\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rpa-\u00e7\u0131rpa cavab verdi: – A\u011f\u0131r b\u0259la, can alan, g\u00f6z\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259z \u00a0b\u0259la. Kimin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259sind\u0259n qopub, kimin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b bilinmir. \u0130ndi c\u0259zaland\u0131rmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ham\u0131 g\u00fcnah ke\u00e7isi axtar\u0131r. \u018fl i\u015fd\u0259n soyuyub, b\u0259d fikirl\u0259r h\u0259r g\u00fcn qap\u0131lar\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcr. \u201c Evd\u0259 qal!\u201d- bu g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ged\u0259c\u0259k? Bu , \u00e7ox ged\u0259 bilm\u0259z! \u00c7ox gets\u0259, evd\u0259kil\u0259ri evd\u0259, \u00e7\u00f6ld\u0259kil\u0259ri d\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6ld\u0259 q\u0131racaqlar!..<\/p>\n

– B\u0259s sonra, sonra n\u0259 olacaq? \u2013dey\u0259, qara qar\u011fa s\u0259brini bo\u011fa bilm\u0259yib soru\u015fdu. Sonra eyni \u00e7\u0131l\u011f\u0131nl\u0131qla da ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin a\u011fz\u0131ndak\u0131 taxtaya \u00e7\u0131rpa-\u00e7\u0131rpa: – H\u0259r \u015fey biz\u0259 qalacaqm\u0131?!..-dedi.<\/p>\n

– B\u0259s n\u0259 bilmi\u015fdin, qara qar\u011fa! E\u015fitm\u0259mis\u0259n ki, ev, yurd sahibsiz qalanda qurd-qu\u015f \u00e7oxalar, qar\u011fa- quz\u011funlar da dil a\u00e7\u0131b dan\u0131\u015far?!..<\/p>\n

– Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 deyirl\u0259r: \u201c \u00dc\u00e7 y\u00fcz il boz qar\u011faya, y\u00fcz il Lo\u011fmana d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc? \u201c<\/p>\n

– Bo\u015f s\u00f6hb\u0259tdir, qara qar\u011fa! \u0130nsanlar t\u0259s\u0259lli tapmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn uydurublar. \u00dc\u00e7 y\u00fcz il ya\u015fasayd\u0131q n\u0259 d\u0259rdimiz vard\u0131 ki?!<\/p>\n

– Ged\u0259k, ala qar\u011fa, ged\u0259k! D\u00fcz\u00fc d\u00fcnya bizimdir. U\u00e7 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ist\u0259yirs\u0259n, rahat u\u00e7! Da\u015f atan\u0131n, ki\u015f dey\u0259nin, \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 toxunan\u0131n\u00a0 daha yoxdur. B\u0259ni Ad\u0259m \u00f6vlad\u0131 indi bir-birini silahs\u0131z q\u0131r\u0131r, evd\u0259 oturdub ayaq \u00fcst\u0259 \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcr, ehtiyac n\u0259 oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259 vadar edir. B\u0259s bu t\u0259bi\u0259t g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi il\u0259 onlara verilm\u0259mi\u015fdimi?! Da\u011flar ucal\u0131\u011f\u0131, d\u0259r\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259rinliyi, \u00e7aylar sular\u0131n\u0131n \u015f\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131, bulaqlar p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 il\u0259 onlara b\u0259s etmirdimi?! Uca yaradan d\u00fczl\u0259r\u0259, g\u00f6z i\u015fl\u0259dikc\u0259 uzan\u0131b ged\u0259n \u00e7\u00f6ll\u0259r\u0259 g\u00fcll\u0259rd\u0259n xal\u0131 s\u0259rm\u0259mi\u015fdimi? Qu\u015flar dan yerini s\u00f6k\u00fcb \u00fcf\u00fcqd\u0259n g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f boylananda onlar\u0131n s\u0259h\u0259rini xo\u015f s\u00fcrudlar\u0131, \u015f\u0259rqil\u0259ri il\u0259 salamlam\u0131rd\u0131m\u0131? Gec\u0259 \u015fehl\u0259ri otlar\u0131n, \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rin yaxas\u0131na mirvari kimi s\u0259pilib q\u0131z\u0131l\u0131 g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f \u015f\u0259f\u0259ql\u0259ri il\u0259 onlara min sehr yaratm\u0131rd\u0131m\u0131?! Da\u015f atd\u0131qlar\u0131, ki\u015f dedikl\u0259ri qu\u015flar onlar\u0131n yaratd\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259hv etm\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259n c\u00fcc\u00fcl\u0259rd\u0259n, b\u00f6c\u0259kl\u0259rd\u0259n qorumurdumu? Yen\u0259mi deyim, g\u00f6r h\u0259l\u0259 sadalamal\u0131, sadalamad\u0131qlar\u0131m n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r var?! Niy\u0259, niy\u0259 insan \u00f6vlad\u0131 bunlar\u0131n q\u0259drini bilm\u0259di? Nankorluq etdimi, yox!.. yox!.. a\u011fl\u0131n\u0131 itirdi, \u015feytana uydu. D\u00fcz yolunu qoyub, \u0259yriy\u0259 sar\u0131 getdi. Ged\u0259k, ged\u0259k , ala qar\u011fa!..<\/p>\n

– Ged\u0259k, hara ged\u0259k, qara qar\u011fa, insans\u0131z viran\u0259likl\u0259r\u0259mi ged\u0259k?! Ax\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6ll\u0259r d\u0259, d\u00fcz\u00fc-d\u00fcnya da onlars\u0131z dar\u0131x\u0131r, biz dar\u0131xan kimi…<\/p>\n

B\u0259hruz ki\u015fi asta-asta p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin qaba\u011f\u0131ndan arxaya \u00e7\u0259kilib \u00e7arpay\u0131s\u0131nda oturdu. El\u0259 bil \u00e7iyinl\u0259rind\u0259n a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fck as\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. G\u00fccl\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131rd\u0131. D\u00fcnya sanki d\u0259rdl\u0259riyl\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 s\u0131\u011fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bir \u015f\u0131m\u015f\u0259k \u00e7axmas\u0131na b\u0259nd olan s\u0259ma kimi, bulud kimi damla-damla, dolu-dolu t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131r idi. Xatir\u0259l\u0259r oyalanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, durna qatar\u0131 kimi k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcb g\u0259lirdi. \u018fll\u0259ri il\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc qapay\u0131b sakit-sakit, h\u0259zin-h\u0259zin a\u011flad\u0131. \u00dcr\u0259yi bo\u015fal\u0131ncaya q\u0259d\u0259r a\u011flad\u0131. U\u015faqlar\u0131 a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilm\u0259sinl\u0259r dey\u0259, \u0259l-\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yuyub, \u015fkafdan asd\u0131\u011f\u0131 paltar\u0131n\u0131 geydi.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 A bala, ay g\u0259lin, ay q\u0131z\u0131m!- deyib g\u0259linini \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

H\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 i\u015f\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259c\u0259 yola salm\u0131\u015f Afaq xan\u0131m B\u0259hruz ki\u015finin yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131 ota\u011fa yax\u0131nla\u015fa-yax\u0131nla\u015fa: -G\u0259ldim, d\u0259d\u0259, g\u0259ldim! \u2013dedi. Qap\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6ym\u0259y\u0259 macal tapmam\u0131\u015f qap\u0131 onun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. B\u0259hruz ki\u015fini kostyumda g\u00f6r\u00fcb t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 A bala, ay q\u0131z\u0131m, o \u00e7antam\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 g\u0259tirs\u0259n\u0259!<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 S\u0259h\u0259rin g\u00f6z\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f xeyir ola, ay d\u0259d\u0259, \u00e7anta n\u0259yin\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131r?<\/p>\n

– Gedir\u0259m, ay q\u0131z\u0131m, \u00f6z evim\u0259 gedir\u0259m.-dedi B\u0259hruz ki\u015fi. Daha qar\u011falar\u0131n dedikl\u0259rini xat\u0131rlatmad\u0131. Xat\u0131rlatsayd\u0131, g\u0259lini, onsuz da, ona inanmayacaq, \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 \u201c Ki\u015fi, dey\u0259s\u0259n, x\u0259rifl\u0259yib ax\u0131?!\u201d- dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259c\u0259kdi.<\/p>\n

– Bu ev s\u0259nin deyilmi, ay d\u0259d\u0259? Olmaya s\u0259nin x\u0259trin\u0259 d\u0259ymi\u015fik, qurban\u0131n olum?! Ax\u0131 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 s\u0259ni b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcm bilmi\u015f\u0259m. Atam\u0131 itir\u0259nd\u0259n , u\u015faql\u0131qdan ata qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n n\u0259 oldu\u011funu bilm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, o qay\u011f\u0131n\u0131n n\u0259 oldu\u011funu s\u0259nd\u0259n \u00f6yr\u0259nmi\u015f\u0259m!..- q\u0259h\u0259r onu bo\u011fdu\u011fundan daha dan\u0131\u015fa bilm\u0259di g\u0259lin. Susdu, g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 yanaqlar\u0131n\u0131 islatd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Afaq u\u015faq ya\u015flar\u0131nda ata-anas\u0131n\u0131 itirib, baba-n\u0259n\u0259 himay\u0259sind\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Atas\u0131 diplomat idi, t\u0259yyar\u0259 q\u0259zas\u0131nda d\u00fcnyalar\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdil\u0259r. H\u0259min g\u00fcn be\u015f ya\u015fl\u0131 Afaq da onlarla ged\u0259c\u0259kdi. Ancaq x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259ndiyind\u0259n, \u201c Qoy sa\u011fals\u0131n, sonra g\u0259lib aparars\u0131n\u0131z!\u201d- dey\u0259n babas\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259kidiyl\u0259 evd\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Kim bilir, b\u0259lk\u0259 tale bel\u0259 yazm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00d6m\u00fcr d\u0259n\u0259si h\u0259l\u0259 bitm\u0259mi\u015fdi. G\u00f6y\u0259rm\u0259li, g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u0259 sar\u0131 boy atmal\u0131 idi. F\u0259xriyl\u0259 d\u0259 oxuduqlar\u0131 universitetin h\u00fcquq fak\u00fclt\u0259sind\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f olmu\u015fdular. F\u0259xrigilin ail\u0259sin\u0259 ilk g\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yi q\u0131zm\u0131\u015f, o ail\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lin yox, lap do\u011fma bir \u00f6vlad olmu\u015fdu. A\u011fca anas\u0131, B\u0259hruz da atas\u0131 olmu\u015fdu. Ata-ana sevgisinin n\u0259 oldu\u011funu onlardan g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

– Qada\u011fa saatlar\u0131 qoyulub, ya\u015fl\u0131 adamlar k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xa bilm\u0259z, d\u0259d\u0259! \u0130ndi n\u0259qliyyat da yoxdur, nec\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n? Bir d\u0259, ay\u0131bd\u0131r, ay d\u0259d\u0259! B\u0259rk ayaqda dem\u0259zl\u0259r ki, haa qocaya da sahib \u00e7\u0131xa bilm\u0259diniz?!<\/p>\n

– Ged\u0259c\u0259m, q\u0131z\u0131m, \u00fcz vurma, n\u0259qliyyat olmasa da ged\u0259c\u0259m! Laz\u0131m g\u0259ls\u0259, lap dizin- dizin s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcb ged\u0259c\u0259m. S\u0259n m\u0259nd\u0259n narahat olma, q\u0131z\u0131m, h\u0259l\u0259 can\u0131m suludur, aya\u011f\u0131m yer tutur.<\/p>\n

– Onda, ay d\u0259d\u0259, o\u011flunuza m\u0259n n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259m? M\u0259nd\u0259n incim\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kmi? D\u00f6vl\u0259t adam\u0131d\u0131r, sabah k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 saxlasalar onun haqq\u0131nda n\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259rl\u0259r? Dem\u0259zl\u0259r ki, haa… bir qoca d\u0259d\u0259sin\u0259 sahib \u00e7\u0131xmayan, d\u00f6vl\u0259t\u0259mi sahib \u00e7\u0131xacaq? Qurban olum, d\u0259d\u0259, qoy he\u00e7 olmasa \u00f6z\u00fc g\u0259lsin, sonra n\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259c\u0259ksinizs\u0259 el\u0259 d\u0259 olsun!..<\/p>\n

– Yox, narahat olma q\u0131z\u0131m! Evd\u0259 qalmaqd\u0131rsa, onda g\u0259r\u0259k ham\u0131 \u00f6z evind\u0259 qals\u0131n, kims\u0259 kim\u0259 y\u00fck olmas\u0131n. G\u0259r\u0259k o evin i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u00f6nm\u0259sin, oca\u011f\u0131 qaralmas\u0131n. Bir ocaq s\u00f6n\u00fcrs\u0259, o yurdun xeyir-b\u0259r\u0259k\u0259ti d\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilir, g\u0259l\u0259ni- ged\u0259ni \u0259skilir, h\u0259y\u0259t-bacas\u0131nda s\u0259liq\u0259-sahman da pozulur. Yad bax\u0131\u015f, yad n\u0259f\u0259s sahibsiz evl\u0259rin q\u0259ddini \u0259yir, q\u00fcruruna k\u00f6lg\u0259 sal\u0131r. O, evd\u0259 m\u0259nim A\u011fcamin x\u0259yal\u0131, \u00f6vladlar\u0131m\u0131n \u015firin g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc ya\u015fay\u0131r. Y\u0259qin A\u011fca da m\u0259nd\u0259n nigarand\u0131. Bu v\u0259d\u0259l\u0259r h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 q\u0259brinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qom-qom n\u0259rgizg\u00fcl\u00fc, b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 aparard\u0131m. \u0130ndi ha\u00e7and\u0131 getmir\u0259m, k\u00fcs\u00fcb m\u0259nd\u0259n dey\u0259n, daha yuxuma da g\u0259lmir. R\u0259hm\u0259tlik tez-tez dey\u0259rdi: \u201c Ki\u015fi s\u0259nsiz bu evin bir g\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 olmas\u0131n!\u201d G\u00f6r, m\u0259nsiz ke\u00e7\u0259n bir g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcn a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131na d\u00f6zm\u0259y\u0259n o ev, indi ne\u00e7\u0259 ayd\u0131r yolumu g\u00f6zl\u0259yir. Yurddan k\u0259narda \u00f6m\u00fcr olsa da, q\u0131z\u0131m, o \u00f6m\u00fcr\u00fcn \u015firinliyi olmaz. Yurd i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131na b\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259n \u00f6m\u00fcr, m\u00f6hn\u0259td\u0259 \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259n \u00f6m\u00fcrd\u00fcr. Yurd insan\u0131n soyuqda yor\u011fan\u0131, qaranl\u0131qda i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131, a\u011fr\u0131l\u0131 g\u00fcnl\u0259rind\u0259 \u00fcmid\u0259 sar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f m\u0259lh\u0259mi, \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yidir. Tanr\u0131 he\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259ni d\u0259 yurdsuz, arxas\u0131z etm\u0259sin!..<\/p>\n

B\u0259hruz ki\u015fi ayaqlar\u0131na sar\u0131nan n\u0259v\u0259l\u0259rini qucaqlay\u0131b d\u00f6n\u0259-d\u00f6n\u0259 \u00f6pd\u00fc, g\u0259lini il\u0259 sa\u011folla\u015f\u0131b h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u015e\u0259h\u0259rin k\u0259nar\u0131na q\u0259d\u0259r onu aparacaq sifari\u015fli 189 sayl\u0131 taksi ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. O, ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n arxa qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7a-a\u00e7a qald\u0131\u011f\u0131 ota\u011f\u0131n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259si a\u011fz\u0131na baxd\u0131. Qar\u011falar \u00e7oxdan u\u00e7ub getmi\u015fdil\u0259r. O qar\u011falar ki…<\/p>\n

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Hekay\u0259 \u201cCOV\u0130D \u2013 19\u201d silsil\u0259sind\u0259n P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin\u00a0 a\u011fz\u0131na qonub \u201c qarr!.. qarr-r!..\u201d-sal\u0131b q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131\u015fan iki qar\u011fan\u0131n xo\u015fag\u0259lm\u0259z, qulaqbat\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 s\u0259sind\u0259n B\u0259hruz ki\u015fi yata\u011f\u0131nda qurcaland\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 basd\u0131r\u0131b, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk yumsa da , daha yata bilm\u0259di ki, bilm\u0259di. O, u\u015faql\u0131qdan da\u011fda- da\u015fda b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n h\u0259r otun-\u0259l\u0259fin sirrini, qu\u015flar\u0131n da dilini\u00a0 \u00f6yr\u0259nmi\u015fdi. K\u0259ndd\u0259 olanda bu vaxtlar h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 yuxudan durar, gec\u0259d\u0259n otlar\u0131n mirvari […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18700"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=18700"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18700\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":18701,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18700\/revisions\/18701"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=18700"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=18700"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=18700"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}