{"id":19090,"date":"2023-09-12T16:45:04","date_gmt":"2023-09-12T11:45:04","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=19090"},"modified":"2023-09-12T16:46:47","modified_gmt":"2023-09-12T11:46:47","slug":"elcin-isg%c9%99nd%c9%99rzad%c9%99-dodaqlarimda-iki-uc-seirlik-picilti","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=19090","title":{"rendered":"El\u00e7in \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259rzad\u0259 – Dodaqlar\u0131mda iki-\u00fc\u00e7 \u015feirlik p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131…"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"photo_10717\"<\/a>Dodaqlar\u0131mda iki-\u00fc\u00e7 \u015feirlik p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131,<\/p>\n

barmaqlar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131ndan s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n s\u00f6zl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

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H\u0259rfl\u0259ri t\u00fct\u00fcn kimi sar\u0131y\u0131ram v\u0259r\u0259q\u0259…<\/p>\n

X\u0259b\u0259rim var ki, aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131n alt\u0131nda yer yarpaqlay\u0131r,<\/p>\n

yarpaqlar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 k\u00f6lg\u0259m gedir.<\/p>\n

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Udqundu\u011fum g\u00fcnl\u0259r dola\u015f\u0131r bo\u011faz\u0131mda…<\/p>\n

q\u0259h\u0259rdi, bilir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

H\u0259r \u015feir q\u0259h\u0259rdi,<\/p>\n

h\u0259r q\u0259h\u0259r bir n\u0259mli bax\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u00dcz\u00fcm\u00fc d\u0259yi\u015fdirm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m<\/p>\n

bir ovuc suda…<\/p>\n

Bir ovuc suda ax\u0131r ulduzlar.<\/p>\n

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H\u0259r \u015fey ulduz kimi \u00f6l\u00fcr,<\/p>\n

ulduzlar \u015feir kimi.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u00d6l\u00fc \u015feirl\u0259r yaz\u0131ram bir ovuc suda…<\/p>\n

Bir ovuc adamlar qal\u0131b oxuma\u011fa.<\/p>\n

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Ovcumu yumuram b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk,<\/p>\n

adamlar\u0131 qoymuram getm\u0259y\u0259.<\/p>\n

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Sol<\/strong><\/p>\n

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K\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259r d\u0259 sol t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n \u0259sir adam\u0131n,<\/p>\n

ya\u011f\u0131\u015flar da soldan ya\u011f\u0131r.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

At\u0131lan da\u015fa sa\u011f \u00e7iynini d\u00f6nd\u0259rirs\u0259n,<\/p>\n

da\u015f da sa\u011fdan adlay\u0131b sola d\u0259yir.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

K\u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259ki y\u00fckl\u0259ri sanma k\u00fcr\u0259yin da\u015f\u0131y\u0131r,<\/p>\n

sol t\u0259r\u0259fin da\u015f\u0131y\u0131r o y\u00fckl\u0259ri d\u0259,<\/p>\n

o sanc\u0131lar\u0131, o a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131qlar\u0131 da.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Hara d\u00f6ns\u0259n, sol t\u0259r\u0259findi…<\/p>\n

sa\u011f\u0131ndan vursalar da,<\/p>\n

adam solundan \u00f6l\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

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K\u00f6\u00e7\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259n qu\u015flar<\/strong><\/p>\n

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K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r yetim,<\/p>\n

gec\u0259l\u0259r soyuq,<\/p>\n

h\u0259yat anlam\u0131n\u0131 itirmi\u015f eynilik,<\/p>\n

a\u011faclar k\u00f6\u00e7\u0259 duran durnalar kimi,<\/p>\n

amma u\u00e7ma\u011f\u0131 bilm\u0259y\u0259n.<\/p>\n

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Durnalar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131 m\u0259n…<\/p>\n

A\u011fac\u0131n q\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f buda\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131<\/p>\n

yerinin intizar\u0131nda.<\/p>\n

O yer hans\u0131 ocaqdasa, \u00e7oxdan yanm\u0131\u015f,<\/p>\n

k\u00fcll\u0259rini k\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259r sovurmu\u015f.<\/p>\n

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H\u0259rd\u0259n d\u0259 k\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259r o k\u00fcll\u0259ri vurar g\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259…<\/p>\n

A\u011fac\u0131n k\u0259silmi\u015f buda\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131<\/p>\n

yanan yerimin k\u00fcll\u0259rini,<\/p>\n

o k\u00fcll\u0259rd\u0259\u00a0 qanadlar\u0131m\u0131n izi.<\/p>\n

H\u0259r g\u00fcn o k\u00fcll\u0259ri sovurur k\u00fcl\u0259k,<\/p>\n

o k\u00fcll\u0259rd\u0259n \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259r a\u00e7\u0131r k\u00fcl r\u0259ng.<\/p>\n

…K\u00f6\u00e7\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259n qu\u015flar<\/p>\n

f\u0259sill\u0259ri unudur m\u0259nimt\u0259k.<\/p>\n

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Ya\u015fam d\u00fcsturu<\/strong><\/p>\n

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\u00d6l\u00fcm d\u00fcsturut\u0259k<\/p>\n

dodaqlar\u0131ndak\u0131 son g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f \u00f6l\u0259ziy\u0259r.<\/p>\n

H\u0259yat e\u015fqi kimi<\/p>\n

g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin yar\u0131a\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan<\/p>\n

bir gil\u0259 ya\u015f qar\u015f\u0131layar \u0259c\u0259li.<\/p>\n

\u018fc\u0259l bilm\u0259z,<\/p>\n

amma g\u00f6zl\u0259rin bil\u0259r<\/p>\n

bir gil\u0259 ya\u015fdak\u0131 ya\u015fam acl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

H\u0259yat d\u00fcsturut\u0259k g\u0259l\u0259r \u00f6l\u00fcm,<\/p>\n

h\u0259yat d\u00fcsturut\u0259k<\/p>\n

\u00e7iyinl\u0259r gizild\u0259y\u0259r \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc da\u015f\u0131ma\u011fa.<\/p>\n

(y\u0259ni el\u0259 bel\u0259 d\u0259 olmal\u0131ym\u0131\u015f misal\u0131)<\/p>\n

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\u00c7iyinl\u0259r bir u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n anas\u0131n\u0131 apar\u0131b ged\u0259rk\u0259n…<\/p>\n

O u\u015faq h\u00f6nk\u00fcr\u0259r,<\/p>\n

o u\u015faq \u00e7iyinl\u0259rd\u0259n k\u00fcs\u0259r.<\/p>\n

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K\u00fcs\u0259r atas\u0131n\u0131n,<\/p>\n

\u0259misinin \u00e7iyinl\u0259rind\u0259n,<\/p>\n

k\u00fcs\u0259r b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7iyinl\u0259rd\u0259n.<\/p>\n

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Ne\u00e7\u0259 ill\u0259r sonra…<\/p>\n

\u015e\u0259hid dostunu \u00e7iyinl\u0259rind\u0259 aparar h\u0259min u\u015faq.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Onda da qay\u0131d\u0131b \u00f6z \u00e7iyinl\u0259rind\u0259n k\u00fcs\u0259r…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Sonra k\u00fcs\u00fcl\u00fc \u00e7iyinl\u0259rind\u0259 da\u015f\u0131yar<\/p>\n

atas\u0131n\u0131,<\/p>\n

\u0259misini,<\/p>\n

ne\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rini,<\/p>\n

do\u011fmalar\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

…G\u00f6z\u0259l bir ax\u015fam,<\/p>\n

sevgilisinin ba\u015f\u0131 qonar \u00e7iyinl\u0259rin\u0259…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Boz dar\u0131xmaq<\/strong><\/p>\n

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\u0130llah ki, can\u0131na dolar g\u00fcnb\u0259g\u00fcn<\/p>\n

r\u0259ngsiz s\u0131x\u0131nt\u0131lar, boz dar\u0131xmaqlar.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7ind\u0259n,<\/p>\n

\u00e7\u00f6l\u00fcnd\u0259n axar bel\u0259c\u0259<\/p>\n

alov dilimit\u0259k,<\/p>\n

birc\u0259 s\u0259ni s\u0131xan<\/p>\n

bu s\u00fckut dar\u0131xmaqlar, s\u00f6z dar\u0131xmaqlar.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u0259r ki, amma \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r<\/p>\n

bu dar\u0131xmaqlar\u0131n \u00f6z r\u0259ngi vard\u0131,<\/p>\n

sevda r\u0259ngi vard\u0131,<\/p>\n

yaz r\u0259ngi vard\u0131…<\/p>\n

Yaz kimi dar\u0131xard\u0131n,<\/p>\n

bir q\u0131z doda\u011f\u0131nda \u0259n dadl\u0131 s\u00f6z kimi dar\u0131xard\u0131n,<\/p>\n

bir s\u00f6zd\u0259n utanan \u00fcz kimi dar\u0131xard\u0131n.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

R\u0259ng-r\u0259ngiydi duy\u011fular\u0131n da…<\/p>\n

ya\u015f\u0131l dar\u0131xard\u0131n,<\/p>\n

al dar\u0131xard\u0131n,<\/p>\n

bir g\u00f6z\u0259l q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131,<\/p>\n

bir gec\u0259 qara,<\/p>\n

bir dan \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 a\u011f dar\u0131xard\u0131n.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bir mavi dar\u0131xmaq g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ya\u015f\u0131nda<\/p>\n

dal\u011falanard\u0131,<\/p>\n

bir sar\u0131 dar\u0131xmaq g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn k\u00f6k\u00fcnd\u0259<\/p>\n

buxarlanard\u0131…<\/p>\n

B\u00fct\u00fcn dar\u0131xmaqlar\u0131n,<\/p>\n

b\u00fct\u00fcn r\u0259ngl\u0259rin sonunda<\/p>\n

bir sevda g\u00f6y qur\u015fa\u011f\u0131yd\u0131…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Sonra da bilm\u0259din nec\u0259, n\u0259 c\u00fcrs\u0259, –<\/p>\n

r\u0259ngi qa\u00e7d\u0131 r\u0259ngl\u0259rin,<\/p>\n

b\u00fct\u00fcn r\u0259ngl\u0259rin yerind\u0259<\/p>\n

bir sevgi yan\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n k\u00fcl\u00fc qald\u0131, tozu qald\u0131…<\/p>\n

B\u00fct\u00fcn r\u0259ngl\u0259rin<\/p>\n

can\u0131nda dar\u0131xmaq adl\u0131 bozu qald\u0131.<\/p>\n

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Bozard\u0131 ke\u00e7diyin v\u0259 ke\u00e7m\u0259diyin b\u00fct\u00fcn k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r,<\/p>\n

k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 adam-adam s\u00f6zl\u0259r,<\/p>\n

add\u0131m-add\u0131m hecalar.<\/p>\n

Bel\u0259c\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini dimdikl\u0259di g\u00fcnb\u0259g\u00fcn<\/p>\n

bu bozumtul qu\u015flar, bu boz s\u0259r\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

S\u0259n d\u0259 ki, bu boyda \u00e7oxlu\u011fun s\u0259ssizliyind\u0259,<\/p>\n

g\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259 bozarm\u0131\u015f<\/p>\n

bir g\u00f6yqur\u015fa\u011f\u0131na baxar, baxarsan…<\/p>\n

\u0130llah ki, bu q\u0259d\u0259r r\u0259ngl\u0259rd\u0259n sonra<\/p>\n

durub el\u0259c\u0259 boz dar\u0131xarsan.<\/p>\n

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Q\u00fcrubda<\/strong><\/p>\n

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G\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259 g\u00fcn bat\u0131r… \u00e7oxdan,<\/p>\n

g\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259 g\u00fcn bat\u0131r… \u00e7oxdan,<\/p>\n

g\u00f6zl\u0259rim g\u00fcn\u0259 bat\u0131r… \u00e7oxdan.<\/p>\n

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\u00c7oxdan…<\/p>\n

g\u00fcns\u00fcz g\u00fcnl\u0259r do\u011fur,<\/p>\n

g\u00fcn do\u011fmur.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u00c7oxdan…<\/p>\n

g\u00f6zl\u0259rim bat\u0131r q\u00fcrubda.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

B\u0259zi \u015feyl\u0259r…<\/strong><\/p>\n

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B\u0259zi \u015feyl\u0259r anlad\u0131lmaz,<\/p>\n

anlad\u0131lmaz…<\/p>\n

Anlad\u0131lmaz aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda<\/p>\n

q\u0131r\u0131lan g\u00fczg\u00fcn\u00fcn s\u0259si,<\/p>\n

ha des\u0259n d\u0259,<\/p>\n

q\u0131r\u0131qlar\u0131n o anda \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131\u011f\u0131 x\u0131r\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131n\u0131<\/p>\n

t\u0259svir ed\u0259 bilm\u0259rs\u0259n oldu\u011fu kimi.<\/p>\n

Bir q\u0259bir \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 solan g\u00fcl\u00fc<\/p>\n

anlada bilm\u0259zs\u0259n,<\/p>\n

anlada bilm\u0259zs\u0259n o g\u00fcl nec\u0259 solur.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7ind\u0259n bir t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm ke\u00e7\u0259r h\u0259yata…<\/p>\n

n\u0259 h\u0259yata anlada bil\u0259rs\u0259n,<\/p>\n

n\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259…<\/p>\n

N\u0259 d\u0259 he\u00e7 kim\u0259.<\/p>\n

Anlada bilm\u0259zs\u0259n<\/p>\n

s\u0259b\u0259bi n\u0259dir bu t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcn.<\/p>\n

He\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fcn d\u0259 anlaya bilm\u0259rs\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc…<\/p>\n

sad\u0259c\u0259, \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b ged\u0259rs\u0259n –<\/p>\n

el\u0259 o gedi\u015fd\u0259n ged\u0259rs\u0259n ax\u0131rda.<\/p>\n

O gedi\u015fi d\u0259 anladamazsan.<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u00fcnki b\u0259zi \u015feyl\u0259r anlad\u0131lmaz, anlad\u0131lmaz.<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u00fcnki b\u0259zi \u015feyl\u0259r edilir,<\/p>\n

gedilir,<\/p>\n

susulur!<\/p>\n

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T\u0259nhal\u0131qda unudulmaq<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u00c7ox \u00e7\u0259tinmi\u015f t\u0259nhal\u0131qda t\u0259nhal\u0131q,<\/p>\n

\u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tinmi\u015f unudulmaq nec\u0259 d\u0259.<\/p>\n

Gec\u0259nin bir al\u0259mind\u0259 qay\u011f\u0131l\u0131<\/p>\n

durub bel\u0259 t\u0259k g\u0259zi\u015fm\u0259k k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259.<\/p>\n

Xatir\u0259l\u0259r qo\u015fun olur, bilirs\u0259n…<\/p>\n

ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011f\u0131r, xatir\u0259l\u0259r islan\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Bir yandan da,<\/p>\n

q\u0259fil bax\u0131b g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n<\/p>\n

bir ya\u015f pi\u015fik aya\u011f\u0131na yaslan\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Ha neynirs\u0259n,<\/p>\n

aralanm\u0131r pi\u015fik d\u0259,<\/p>\n

miyoltusu t\u0259kliyin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015f\u0131r.<\/p>\n

D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u0259n, bu t\u00fcnl\u00fckd\u0259, ah, n\u0259d\u0259n<\/p>\n

pi\u015fik m\u0259nim aya\u011f\u0131ma dola\u015f\u0131r?<\/p>\n

Uzaqla\u015f\u0131b qaranl\u0131qda itirs\u0259n,<\/p>\n

pi\u015fik qal\u0131r, ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011f\u0131r bel\u0259c\u0259.<\/p>\n

\u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tinmi\u015f,<\/p>\n

\u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tinmi\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n,<\/p>\n

t\u0259nhal\u0131qda pi\u015fik olmaq bir gec\u0259.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

El\u0259<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

G\u00fcn d\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259r, yad\u0131n it\u0259r,<\/p>\n

unudular, ad\u0131n it\u0259r,<\/p>\n

d\u00fcnyada \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n bet\u0259r<\/p>\n

ya\u015famaq zoruymu\u015f el\u0259.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcn d\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n,<\/p>\n

bir g\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcn d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259rs\u0259n,<\/p>\n

ill\u0259rd\u0259n sonra dey\u0259rs\u0259n,<\/p>\n

sevgil\u0259r koruymu\u015f el\u0259.<\/p>\n

Aya\u011f\u0131ndan izin\u0259c\u0259n,<\/p>\n

doda\u011f\u0131ndan s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259c\u0259n,<\/p>\n

bax\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259c\u0259n<\/p>\n

adam da yoluymu\u015f el\u0259!<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Q\u0131r\u0131l\u0131r<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Sularda l\u0259p\u0259l\u0259r q\u0131r\u0131l\u0131r,<\/p>\n

sularda k\u00f6rp\u0259l\u0259r q\u0131r\u0131l\u0131r.<\/p>\n

A\u011fr\u0131n\u0131n, ac\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n<\/p>\n

ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259, k\u00f6rp\u00fcl\u0259r q\u0131r\u0131l\u0131r.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bu h\u0259yat donduqca, g\u00f6rd\u00fcm,<\/p>\n

bir umud s\u0131nd\u0131qca, g\u00f6rd\u00fcm,<\/p>\n

bir qazi yand\u0131qca, g\u00f6rd\u00fcm,<\/p>\n

can\u0131nda q\u0259lp\u0259l\u0259r q\u0131r\u0131l\u0131r.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bu d\u00fcnya n\u0259 ald\u0131, n\u0259 verdi,<\/p>\n

d\u0259rdi d\u0259 bir matah n\u0259m\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

\u00d6m\u00fcr d\u0259 bir g\u00f6d\u0259k k\u0259m\u0259rdi,<\/p>\n

dart\u0131ram, t\u00f6rp\u00fcl\u0259r q\u0131r\u0131l\u0131r.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Geyindir\u0259m ki,<\/p>\n

bu \u00f6m\u00fcr \u00e7\u0131lpaq qalmas\u0131n.<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u0131lpaq qalmas\u0131n –<\/p>\n

umuddan,<\/p>\n

sabahdan,<\/p>\n

m\u0259nd\u0259n…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Qal\u0131b<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u018fl \u00e7atmayan x\u0259yallar<\/p>\n

g\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259n iraqda,<\/p>\n

iraqda qal\u0131b, iraqda.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u018fll\u0259rim yan\u0131b ocaqs\u0131z,<\/p>\n

bu evin k\u0259rpicl\u0259ri<\/p>\n

qopub d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr suvaqs\u0131z.<\/p>\n

Xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik d\u0259 ha\u00e7and\u0131,<\/p>\n

bir sevgi sora\u011f\u0131nda,<\/p>\n

soraqda qal\u0131b, soraqda.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bu \u00f6m\u00fcr xatir\u0259di<\/p>\n

kiml\u0259rs\u0259, oxuyub ke\u00e7ir,<\/p>\n

xatir\u0259l\u0259r yen\u0259 d\u0259<\/p>\n

q\u0259r\u0259nfil qoxuyub ke\u00e7ir –<\/p>\n

sevgil\u0259r m\u0259ktublarda,<\/p>\n

xatir\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259ft\u0259rd\u0259 –<\/p>\n

varaqda qal\u0131b, varaqda.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Ayr\u0131l\u0131q<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

M\u0259n bir notun nec\u0259 s\u0131zlamas\u0131na \u015fahid\u0259m,<\/p>\n

sonra o biri notlar s\u0131zlay\u0131r,<\/p>\n

sonra bir b\u0259st\u0259…<\/p>\n

B\u0259st\u0259d\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n a\u011fr\u0131ya a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131r kims\u0259,<\/p>\n

kims\u0259 h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131r\u0131r o n\u0259\u011fm\u0259y\u0259,<\/p>\n

kims\u0259 d\u0259 o n\u0259\u011fm\u0259ni m\u0131z\u0131ldan\u0131r yol\u00e7ulu\u011funda…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bir a\u011fr\u0131n\u0131n qanadlar\u0131nda u\u00e7ur g\u00fcnl\u0259r,<\/p>\n

g\u00fcnl\u0259r \u00f6m\u00fcr qaras\u0131,<\/p>\n

k\u0259f\u0259n b\u0259yaz\u0131.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

G\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259n dem\u0259,<\/p>\n

notlardan de…<\/p>\n

h\u0259ft\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n de…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

H\u0259ft\u0259 d\u0259 yeddi g\u00fcn,<\/p>\n

notlar da.<\/p>\n

H\u0259r g\u00fcn bir a\u011fr\u0131l\u0131 not,<\/p>\n

h\u0259r not bir ba\u015fqa r\u0259ng,<\/p>\n

h\u0259r r\u0259ng bir ba\u015fqa ayr\u0131l\u0131q.<\/p>\n

Yen\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn yollar ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, Yar\u0259bb!<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Ke\u00e7\u0259r<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bir yuxuydu, oyaq g\u00f6rd\u00fcm,<\/p>\n

bilmir\u0259m, n\u0259 sayaq g\u00f6rd\u00fcm,<\/p>\n

bir avars\u0131z qay\u0131q g\u00f6rd\u00fcm,<\/p>\n

i\u00e7imd\u0259n yell\u0259nib ke\u00e7\u0259r.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Da\u015fa \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 n\u0259l\u0259r, n\u0259l\u0259r,<\/p>\n

o sevincl\u0259r, o sevm\u0259l\u0259r,<\/p>\n

o susmalar, o dinm\u0259l\u0259r,<\/p>\n

ya\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131, lill\u0259nib ke\u00e7\u0259r.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u0130t h\u00fcr\u0259nl\u0259r y\u00f6n\u00fcm is\u0259,<\/p>\n

bu qaranl\u0131q \u00f6n\u00fcm is\u0259,<\/p>\n

ayr\u0131l\u0131qlar m\u0259nim is\u0259…<\/p>\n

sevdalar k\u00fcll\u0259nib ke\u00e7\u0259r.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Rostok-K\u00f6ln qatar\u0131nda<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

H\u0259r stansiyada bir x\u0259yal \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcr\u0259m,<\/p>\n

h\u0259r dayanaca\u011fa<\/p>\n

bir m\u0259zar da\u015f\u0131y\u0131ram,<\/p>\n

uzaqla\u015f\u0131ram va\u011fzallardan.<\/p>\n

Va\u011fzallar he\u00e7 d\u0259 qovu\u015fdurmur h\u0259sr\u0259tlil\u0259ri,<\/p>\n

va\u011fzallar ay\u0131r\u0131r,<\/p>\n

va\u011fzallar \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck ayr\u0131l\u0131q m\u0259kan\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259l\u0259rin mam\u0131r ba\u011flam\u0131\u015f<\/p>\n

umudlar\u0131 r\u0259ngd\u0259di h\u0259yat da…<\/p>\n

El\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131l\u0131na aldan\u0131rsan,<\/p>\n

r\u0259ngin\u0259 susay\u0131rsan..<\/p>\n

H\u0259r limanda bir vidan\u0131n<\/p>\n

k\u00f6lg\u0259si sar\u0131l\u0131r boynuna…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bir \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fck ixtisar<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

M\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259n \u00f6yr\u0259nmi\u015fdim ixtisar el\u0259m\u0259yi,<\/p>\n

sonra h\u0259yat \u00f6yr\u0259tdi…<\/p>\n

M\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 yaz\u0131 taxtas\u0131nda ed\u0259rdim ixtisarlar\u0131,<\/p>\n

h\u0259yatda h\u0259yat\u0131mdan…<\/p>\n

Sanki h\u0259yat ixtisar el\u0259m\u0259kd\u0259n ba\u015fqa<\/p>\n

he\u00e7 n\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259d\u0259 bilmirdi…<\/p>\n

Silib at\u0131rd\u0131n el\u0259<\/p>\n

bel\u0259c\u0259 ixtisara d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc<\/p>\n

ne\u00e7\u0259 dost,<\/p>\n

ne\u00e7\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f,<\/p>\n

ne\u00e7\u0259 insan.<\/p>\n

M\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259n sonra<\/p>\n

g\u00fcnl\u0259rin ixtisar\u0131na ke\u00e7dim,<\/p>\n

sonra aylar\u0131n,<\/p>\n

sonra ill\u0259rin…<\/p>\n

El\u0259 oldu ki,<\/p>\n

b\u00fct\u00f6v bir ili ixtisar el\u0259dim \u00f6mr\u00fcmd\u0259n,<\/p>\n

sonra b\u00fct\u00f6v bir \u00f6mr\u00fc…<\/p>\n

Sonra sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131 ixtisar el\u0259dim,<\/p>\n

\u00fcr\u0259yimi,<\/p>\n

\u0259ll\u0259rimi…<\/p>\n

Sonra da \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc ixtisar el\u0259dim!..<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Qocal\u0131q et\u00fcd\u00fc<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259rini e\u015fitm\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259r,<\/p>\n

\u0259ll\u0259rini nec\u0259 e\u015fitsinl\u0259r…<\/p>\n

Ya \u0259ll\u0259rin n\u0259 deyir divarlarda,<\/p>\n

n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r barmaqlar\u0131n bir-biriyl\u0259.<\/p>\n

Barmaqlar\u0131n on d\u0259c\u0259l u\u015faq,<\/p>\n

dala\u015fard\u0131lar,<\/p>\n

sarma\u015fard\u0131lar,<\/p>\n

k\u00fcs\u00fc\u015f\u0259rdil\u0259r h\u0259rd\u0259n…<\/p>\n

Barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131n ucundan g\u0259l\u0259rdi<\/p>\n

\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u0259yin d\u0259,<\/p>\n

yanma\u011f\u0131n da.<\/p>\n

\u0130ndi on d\u0259c\u0259l u\u015faq,<\/p>\n

on susqun qocad\u0131…<\/p>\n

\u018fll\u0259rin \u0259sir,<\/p>\n

\u0259ll\u0259rinin \u00fcst\u00fc \u00e7atlay\u0131r ayazlarda…<\/p>\n

N\u0259f\u0259sin d\u0259 \u00e7atm\u0131r barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131n ucuna…<\/p>\n

\u0130sid\u0259 bilmirs\u0259n on qocan\u0131,<\/p>\n

on qocan\u0131n u\u015faq xatir\u0259l\u0259rini…<\/p>\n

Amma bir zaman \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n qopub<\/p>\n

qa\u00e7maq ist\u0259yirdi barmaqlar\u0131n.<\/p>\n

Qoymad\u0131n,<\/p>\n

bildin ki, ir\u0259lid\u0259 divarlar\u0131<\/p>\n

oxumaq olacaq barmaqlar\u0131nla.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u00d6l\u00fcm<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u018fn \u00e7ox \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc g\u0259zdiririk can\u0131m\u0131zda,<\/p>\n

son n\u0259f\u0259sin ba\u015fucunda.<\/p>\n

Hara gedirik, \u00f6l\u00fcm yan\u0131m\u0131zda,<\/p>\n

ham\u0131dan yax\u0131n,<\/p>\n

h\u0259tta \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259n d\u0259…<\/p>\n

Yerind\u0259 oturub<\/p>\n

n\u00f6vb\u0259sini g\u00f6zl\u0259yir s\u0259birl\u0259,<\/p>\n

s\u0259birsiz olanda,<\/p>\n

bir q\u0259za olur,<\/p>\n

\u00d6l\u00fcm q\u0259zas\u0131…<\/p>\n

\u018fn t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259li anlarda bel\u0259,<\/p>\n

bilirs\u0259n ki,<\/p>\n

n\u0259s\u0259 olsa,<\/p>\n

\u00f6l\u00fcml\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b ged\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n.<\/p>\n

\u00d6l\u00fcm…<\/p>\n

\u018fn yax\u0131n dostdu, b\u0259lk\u0259<\/p>\n

\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259diyin,<\/p>\n

tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131n,<\/p>\n

bilm\u0259diyin.<\/p>\n

B\u0259lk\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 sev\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n!<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u00d6z\u00fcn<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Hayandasa, b\u00fcdr\u0259s\u0259n,<\/p>\n

qolundan yap\u0131\u015f, yap\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n

N\u0259fsinl\u0259 davalarda<\/p>\n

\u00f6z\u00fcnl\u0259 \u00e7arp\u0131\u015f, \u00e7arp\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

G\u00fcn a\u011fla, g\u00fclm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn,<\/p>\n

yol axtar, g\u0259lm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn,<\/p>\n

\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 \u00f6lm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn<\/p>\n

\u00f6z\u00fcnl\u0259 tap\u0131\u015f, tap\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bir d\u0259 bax\u0131b g\u00f6r\u0259rs\u0259n<\/p>\n

\u00f6z aya\u011f\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f,<\/p>\n

\u015feytana g\u00fcl\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259<\/p>\n

tikdiyin pap\u0131\u015f, pap\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Unutdurur<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Y\u00fcz k\u0259lm\u0259 i\u00e7nd\u0259 bir k\u0259lm\u0259 olur,<\/p>\n

y\u00fcz s\u00f6z\u00fc bir k\u0259lm\u0259 s\u00f6z unutdurur.<\/p>\n

Ne\u00e7\u0259 q\u0131\u015f donursan, buz ba\u011flay\u0131rsan,<\/p>\n

dondu\u011fun q\u0131\u015flar\u0131, s\u0131rs\u0131ralar\u0131<\/p>\n

lap birc\u0259 yaz g\u0259lir, yaz unutdurur.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

H\u0259r \u015feyin \u00e7oxu da h\u00fczur g\u0259tirmir,<\/p>\n

\u00e7oxluqlar, toxluqlar \u00f6z\u00fcr g\u0259tirmir,<\/p>\n

el\u0259 azlar var ki, birc\u0259 \u00e7imdikdi,<\/p>\n

o q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7oxlu\u011fu, o q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7oxu,<\/p>\n

olur ki, bir \u00e7imdik az unutdurur.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Sevirs\u0259n, sevirs\u0259n, dey\u0259 bilmirs\u0259n,<\/p>\n

ya\u015f ke\u00e7ir, ilk sevgi ke\u00e7mir, g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n,<\/p>\n

h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 sevirs\u0259n,<\/p>\n

niy\u0259?<\/p>\n

bilmirs\u0259n,<\/p>\n

bir \u00f6m\u00fcr s\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fcn o yad qad\u0131n\u0131,<\/p>\n

birc\u0259 s\u0259n bilirs\u0259n, bir \u00f6m\u00fcrd\u00fc ki,<\/p>\n

el\u0259 ilk sevdiyin q\u0131z unutdurur.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

El\u0259yir<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bu s\u0259ssizlik i\u00e7ind\u0259<\/p>\n

\u00e7\u0259kilir\u0259m \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259,<\/p>\n

g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131m s\u0259s el\u0259yir.<\/p>\n

Dinl\u0259yir\u0259m,<\/p>\n

sanki hava g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131mdan<\/p>\n

\u00e7is\u0259kl\u0259yir, sis el\u0259yir.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Ulart\u0131lar, \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131rt\u0131lar,<\/p>\n

ne\u00e7\u0259-ne\u00e7\u0259 hayq\u0131rt\u0131lar,<\/p>\n

ne\u00e7\u0259-ne\u00e7\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131rt\u0131lar<\/p>\n

g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259sl\u0259rind\u0259,<\/p>\n

bat\u0131r, bat\u0131r, p\u0259s el\u0259yir.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u018fvv\u0259l duru s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259rdi,<\/p>\n

indi ya\u015flar lilli ax\u0131r,<\/p>\n

bulan\u0131qd\u0131, kirli ax\u0131r…<\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7im yan\u0131r ocaq-ocaq,<\/p>\n

g\u00f6z\u00fcm bel\u0259 his el\u0259yir.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Yoxluq<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

S\u0259n d\u0259 yoxsan,<\/p>\n

\u00f6m\u00fcr d\u0259 ki, yoxlu\u011funa b\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcb.<\/p>\n

S\u0259nsiz h\u0259r \u015fey<\/p>\n

\u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259, \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b gedib, k\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcb.<\/p>\n

U\u011fra\u015f\u0131ram<\/p>\n

yerind\u0259ki a\u011fr\u0131larla, bel\u0259c\u0259,<\/p>\n

buludlar\u0131 da\u015f\u0131y\u0131ram<\/p>\n

yast\u0131\u011f\u0131ma h\u0259r gec\u0259.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bilirs\u0259n d\u0259,<\/p>\n

gec\u0259l\u0259rin bulud olmaq a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131,<\/p>\n

h\u0259l\u0259 bir d\u0259,<\/p>\n

bir i\u015faran umud olmaq a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bir yalan\u00e7\u0131 h\u0259v\u0259s kimi<\/p>\n

g\u0259lib i\u00e7imd\u0259n ke\u00e7ir.<\/p>\n

Arzular\u0131m qanad a\u00e7\u0131b<\/p>\n

pay\u0131z k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcnd\u0259n ke\u00e7ir.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

S\u0259n d\u0259 yoxsan,<\/p>\n

\u00e7\u0259kdiyimi bil\u0259s\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Yoxluq \u00e7\u0259kilm\u0259z imi\u015f,<\/p>\n

ka\u015f ki, ka\u015f ki, g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u00d6m\u00fcr<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Unuda, unuda, unuda,<\/p>\n

gedirs\u0259n, gedirs\u0259n, gedirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Bel\u0259c\u0259, hardasa, hardasa,<\/p>\n

itirs\u0259n, itirs\u0259n, itirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Az\u0131rsan \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259,<\/p>\n

bir gizli s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259, s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259,<\/p>\n

\u00f6mr\u00fcn o \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259, \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259,<\/p>\n

bitirs\u0259n, bitirs\u0259n, bitirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Ya\u015f kimi yanaqda, yanaqda,<\/p>\n

ka\u015f kimi dodaqda, dodaqda,<\/p>\n

qu\u015f kimi budaqda, budaqda<\/p>\n

\u00f6t\u00fcrs\u0259n, \u00f6t\u00fcrs\u0259n, \u00f6t\u00fcrs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Tale t\u00fcrk\u00fcs\u00fc<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bu ax\u0131 taledir, bu ax\u0131 b\u0259xtdir,<\/p>\n

Sa\u011f\u0131na-soluna \u00e7ap\u0131r, \u00e7ap\u0131l\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn\u00fc yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q, bir g\u00fcn\u00fc dolu,<\/p>\n

bir g\u00fcn\u00fc el\u0259c\u0259, bo\u015fdan yap\u0131l\u0131r.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn\u00fc ya\u015f\u0131ld\u0131r, bir g\u00fcn\u00fc sar\u0131,<\/p>\n

Gedir \u0259n sonuncu m\u0259nzil\u0259 sar\u0131.<\/p>\n

Q\u0259fil yoxa \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r yoxunda var\u0131,<\/p>\n

N\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc, n\u0259 izi, tozu tap\u0131l\u0131r.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u018fvv\u0259li ba\u015flayan yoldur, g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n,<\/p>\n

ortas\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131lan g\u00fcld\u00fcr, g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n,<\/p>\n

ax\u0131r\u0131 bir ovuc k\u00fcld\u00fcr, g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n,<\/p>\n

k\u00fcl\u0259y\u0259 qap\u0131l\u0131r, yel\u0259 qap\u0131l\u0131r.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

T\u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Yalq\u0131z u\u00e7an qu\u015flar\u0131n<\/p>\n

qanad\u0131n\u0131n k\u00fcl\u0259yi,<\/p>\n

\u0259sdi \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259, \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259.<\/p>\n

Bir-iki s\u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259<\/p>\n

el\u0259 k\u00f6z kimi<\/p>\n

basd\u0131m k\u00f6ks\u00fcm\u0259, k\u00f6ks\u00fcm\u0259.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u018fll\u0259rim buluda d\u00f6nd\u00fc,<\/p>\n

a\u011flad\u0131, el\u0259 a\u011flad\u0131,<\/p>\n

m\u0259n bir s\u00f6z saxlad\u0131m i\u00e7imd\u0259,<\/p>\n

Allah da m\u0259ni saxlad\u0131…<\/p>\n

Amma bir umudsuzluq<\/p>\n

g\u0259lib m\u0259ni haqlad\u0131,<\/p>\n

durdu q\u0259sdim\u0259, q\u0259sdim\u0259.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u00d6z\u00fcm\u0259 a\u011flama, dedim,<\/p>\n

o bir s\u00f6z\u00fc \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259<\/p>\n

daha saxlama – dedim…<\/p>\n

N\u0259 dedim, haqq\u0131ma dedim,<\/p>\n

dedim ki, bu taled\u0259n,<\/p>\n

bu \u00f6m\u00fcrd\u0259n,<\/p>\n

bu umuddan<\/p>\n

he\u00e7 n\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259, g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Od olub \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc yand\u0131rsam,<\/p>\n

su olub odumu s\u00f6nd\u00fcrs\u0259m,<\/p>\n

bu \u00f6m\u00fcr\u00fc,<\/p>\n

bu g\u00fcn\u00fc<\/p>\n

bir g\u00fcn t\u0259rsin\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6nd\u0259rs\u0259m –<\/p>\n

bo\u011fularam,<\/p>\n

\u00f6z s\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n,<\/p>\n

qalxan t\u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259, t\u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bu da m\u0259n!<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Ruhuna \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259r s\u0259pdiyin adamlar\u0131n<\/p>\n

ulduz oldu\u011funa inanarsan gec\u0259l\u0259r…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Adamlar yoxa \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131qca<\/p>\n

ulduzlar \u00e7oxalar.<\/p>\n

Ulduzlar \u00e7oxald\u0131qca<\/p>\n

ulduzlar\u0131 sayarsan bir-bir –<\/p>\n

bu o,<\/p>\n

bu da babam,<\/p>\n

bu da atam, n\u0259n\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Onlar\u0131n yan\u0131nda da<\/p>\n

ads\u0131z bir ulduza ad qoyarsan,<\/p>\n

bu da m\u0259n!..<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

V\u0259t\u0259n<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

N\u0259\u011fm\u0259 d\u0259 bitir,<\/p>\n

\u015feir d\u0259,<\/p>\n

yol da…<\/p>\n

H\u0259l\u0259 arzular da –<\/p>\n

birc\u0259 s\u0259n,<\/p>\n

birc\u0259 s\u0259n<\/p>\n

bitmirs\u0259n,<\/p>\n

V\u0259t\u0259n!<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u015eu\u015fam!<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

O bizim a\u011faclar\u0131yd\u0131,<\/p>\n

o bizim k\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259riydi,<\/p>\n

o bizim ya\u011f\u0131\u015flar\u0131yd\u0131…<\/p>\n

Duru\u015fundan tan\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131m,<\/p>\n

qoxusundan tan\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131m,<\/p>\n

ya\u011fmas\u0131ndan tan\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

A\u011fac da boynub\u00fck\u00fcyd\u00fc,<\/p>\n

k\u00fcl\u0259k d\u0259 q\u0131r\u0131q-q\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131yd\u0131,<\/p>\n

bulud da \u00e7ilik-\u00e7iliyiydi…<\/p>\n

A\u011fac\u0131na qurban olum, – dedim,<\/p>\n

buluduna qurban olum, – dedim,<\/p>\n

da\u015f yoluna qurban olum – dedim…<\/p>\n

O q\u0259d\u0259r qurban oldum ki, –<\/p>\n

g\u00f6rd\u00fcm anam da qurband\u0131,<\/p>\n

g\u00f6rd\u00fcm balam da qurband\u0131…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Qurbanlar\u0131n\u0131 q\u0259bul el\u0259, \u015eu\u015fam!<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\u00d6m\u00fcrs\u00fcz \u00f6m\u00fcr<\/strong><\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Bezib, \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n bezib<\/p>\n

soyunasan bu \u00f6mr\u00fc, –<\/p>\n

\u0259lind\u0259n,<\/p>\n

aya\u011f\u0131ndan,<\/p>\n

g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n soyunasan.<\/p>\n

Sa\u00e7\u0131ndan,<\/p>\n

b\u0259d\u0259nind\u0259n,<\/p>\n

\u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n soyunasan.<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Sonra \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b ged\u0259s\u0259n,<\/p>\n

\u00f6mr\u00fcn gerid\u0259 qala<\/p>\n

\u018flinl\u0259,<\/p>\n

aya\u011f\u0131nla,<\/p>\n

sa\u00e7\u0131nla,<\/p>\n

qula\u011f\u0131nla<\/p>\n

\u00f6m\u00fcrs\u00fcz ged\u0259s\u0259n…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Sonra \u00f6mr\u00fcn olmaya,<\/p>\n

el\u0259c\u0259 ya\u015fayasan<\/p>\n

bir t\u0259nha ma\u011farada.<\/p>\n

Gec\u0259n-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fcn,<\/p>\n

yaz\u0131n-pay\u0131z\u0131n olmaya…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

El\u0259c\u0259 bir g\u00fcn\u00fcn ola,<\/p>\n

da\u015fa “qarda\u015f” dey\u0259s\u0259n,<\/p>\n

\u00e7i\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 “bac\u0131”,<\/p>\n

torpa\u011fa “ana”.<\/p>\n

Sonra soyundu\u011fun \u0259lin g\u0259l\u0259<\/p>\n

g\u00f6zl\u0259rini qapaya…<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

m\u0259nb\u0259: \u0259d\u0259biyyat q\u0259zeti<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

Yaz\u0131ya 37 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Dodaqlar\u0131mda iki-\u00fc\u00e7 \u015feirlik p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131, barmaqlar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131ndan s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n s\u00f6zl\u0259r.   H\u0259rfl\u0259ri t\u00fct\u00fcn kimi sar\u0131y\u0131ram v\u0259r\u0259q\u0259… X\u0259b\u0259rim var ki, aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131n alt\u0131nda yer yarpaqlay\u0131r, yarpaqlar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 k\u00f6lg\u0259m gedir.   Udqundu\u011fum g\u00fcnl\u0259r dola\u015f\u0131r bo\u011faz\u0131mda… q\u0259h\u0259rdi, bilir\u0259m. H\u0259r \u015feir q\u0259h\u0259rdi, h\u0259r q\u0259h\u0259r bir n\u0259mli bax\u0131\u015f.   \u00dcz\u00fcm\u00fc d\u0259yi\u015fdirm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m bir ovuc suda… Bir ovuc suda ax\u0131r ulduzlar.   H\u0259r \u015fey […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[15,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19090"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=19090"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19090\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":19093,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19090\/revisions\/19093"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=19090"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=19090"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=19090"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}