{"id":19375,"date":"2023-12-05T09:40:10","date_gmt":"2023-12-05T05:40:10","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=19375"},"modified":"2023-12-05T09:40:10","modified_gmt":"2023-12-05T05:40:10","slug":"mar-bayciyev-duel-akif-abbasovun-t%c9%99rcum%c9%99sind%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=19375","title":{"rendered":"MAR BAYC\u0130YEV – DUEL (Akif Abbasovun t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259sind\u0259)"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\u0411\u0435\u0437<\/a>Nasir, dramaturq, teatr v\u0259 kino rejissor, \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u015f\u00fcnas, jurnalist Mar Ta\u015fimovi\u00e7 Bayciyev\u00a0 1935-ci mart\u0131n 23-d\u0259 ild\u0259 Calalabadda (Q\u0131r\u011f\u0131z\u0131stan) \u00a0do\u011fulub. Q\u0131r\u011f\u0131z\u0131stan universitetinin m\u0259zunudur (1960), Moskvada ssenarist v\u0259 rejissorluq kursunda t\u0259hsil al\u0131b. . \u201cPravda\u201d v\u0259 \u201cKomsomolskaya pravda\u201d q\u0259zetl\u0259rinin\u00a0 m\u00fcxbiri, Q\u0131r\u011f\u0131zstan Parlamentinin deputat\u0131 olub (1990\u20131995).<\/p>\n

2021-ci il oktyabr\u0131n 29-da Bi\u015fkekd\u0259 d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fib.<\/p>\n

\u018fs\u0259rl\u0259ri: 1. \u201cQay\u0131tma\u201d (hekay\u0259l\u0259r), 1964. 2. Duel: dram, 1968. 3.\u00a0 \u00d6zg\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyi: novellalar, povestl\u0259r, kinopovest, 1969. 4. Pay\u0131z ya\u011f\u0131\u015flar\u0131: hekay\u0259l\u0259r, 1975. 5. M\u0259nim q\u0131z\u0131l bal\u0131\u011f\u0131m: hekay\u0259l\u0259r, povestl\u0259r, 1975. 6.\u00a0 Biz \u2013 ki\u015fil\u0259rik, 1976. \u00a0\u00a0Q\u0259dim na\u011f\u0131l: dram,\u00a0 1978. 7. \u015e\u0259nb\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fc, ax\u015fam: pyesl\u0259r, 1987 v\u0259 s.<\/p>\n

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(5 f\u0259sild\u0259 dramatik novella)<\/p>\n

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M\u0259n qad\u0131nam. Ad\u0131m Nazidir. \u0130yirmi iki ya\u015f\u0131m var. \u0130ki g\u0259ncin birinin ad\u0131 \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r, dig\u0259rininki \u018fzizdir. Buralarda daha\u00a0 he\u00e7 kim yoxdur.<\/i><\/p>\n

H\u0259, yeri g\u0259lmi\u015fk\u0259n, sonradan bir tibb bac\u0131s\u0131 da g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r.<\/i><\/p>\n

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B\u0130R\u0130NC\u0130\u00a0 F\u018fS\u0130L<\/b><\/p>\n

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Yay\u0131n son g\u00fcnl\u0259ri mavi \u0130ss\u0131k-Kul g\u0259r\u0259k ki, f\u0131rt\u0131nal\u0131 olur. G\u00f6l\u00fcn \u00fcz\u0259rini qara\u00a0\u00a0 buludlar al\u0131r v\u0259\u00a0 bu zaman o daha \u00e7ox d\u0259niz\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259\u00adyir. B\u0259z\u0259n\u00a0 g\u00f6y gurulday\u0131r, lakin bu art\u0131q son \u015fim\u015f\u0259kl\u0259rdir. B\u0259z\u0259n k\u00fcl\u0259k da\u011flardan qar havas\u0131 g\u0259tirir. G\u00f6yd\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7\u0259ri qu\u015f karvan\u0131 bir-birinin ard\u0131nca \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7ir. Sahil kims\u0259sizdir. Tutqun gec\u0259dir. Dal\u011falar\u0131n \u015fidd\u0259tli s\u0259si f\u0131rt\u0131nan\u0131n qopdu\u011fundan x\u0259b\u0259r verir. G\u00f6l\u00fcn \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 durna qatar\u0131 u\u00e7ur. Qu\u015flar sakitc\u0259 v\u0259\u00a0 aramla qanad \u00e7al\u0131rlar.<\/i><\/p>\n

M\u0259n sahild\u0259 dayanm\u0131\u015fam. K\u00fcl\u0259k sa\u00e7lar\u0131ma v\u0259 nazik paltar\u0131ma divan tutur.<\/p>\n

\u00dcz\u00fcm\u00fc s\u0259maya tutub q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131ram:<\/p>\n

– Ehe-he,\u00a0 durnalar! Hara u\u00e7ursunuz? M\u0259ni d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fczl\u0259 apar\u0131n. Ehe-he-hey!<\/p>\n

Bilmir\u0259m d\u0259nizd\u0259n, yainki y\u00fcks\u0259klikd\u0259n qula\u011f\u0131ma s\u0259s g\u0259lir:<\/p>\n

– E-e-ey!<\/p>\n

– Oho-ho-o!<\/p>\n

Bu d\u0259f\u0259 s\u0259s a\u00e7\u0131q-ayd\u0131n d\u0259nizd\u0259n g\u0259ldi. Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm ki, bu, \u0259ks-s\u0259da deyil. Dal\u011falar\u0131n qollar\u0131 aras\u0131nda unudulmu\u015f kim is\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 hay verir! M\u0259n sahil boyunca qa\u00e7\u0131r, yayl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 yell\u0259dir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– Buraya! M\u0259n buradayam! Buraya!<\/p>\n

S\u0259s e\u015fidilir:<\/p>\n

– G\u0259lir\u0259m!<\/p>\n

Dal\u011falar\u0131n qoynunda qay\u0131q g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc. Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t sonra 30 ya\u015fl\u0131 bir n\u0259f\u0259r sahil\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0\u00a0 N\u0259 olub? K\u00f6m\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131n?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Yox.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 B\u0259s \u00e7a\u011f\u0131ran kim idi?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 M\u0259n!<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 N\u0259 olmu\u015fdu?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 He\u00e7 n\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 \u00c7\u0131\u011f\u0131rt\u0131 e\u015fidib k\u00f6m\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sdim. D\u0259niz qanunudur.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 M\u0259n\u0259 is\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, s\u0259n k\u00f6m\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131n\u2026<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 Ax\u0131 s\u0259n birinci \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131n\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 M\u0259n durnalarla s\u00f6hb\u0259t edirdim.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Yax\u015f\u0131 s\u00f6hb\u0259t idi. M\u0259ni qorxutdun.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla. \u00c7\u0131\u011f\u0131rt\u0131 e\u015fidib kimins\u0259 batmaqda oldu\u011funu z\u0259nn etdim.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 D\u0259niz\u0259 tullanmaq ist\u0259yirdin?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. \u00dcz\u0259 bilmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Onda bo\u011fulan\u0131 nec\u0259 xilas ed\u0259c\u0259kdin?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Ba\u015flayacaqd\u0131m q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rma\u011fa, o da sahil\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xacaqd\u0131. \u0130nsan d\u0259nizd\u0259 t\u0259nha olanda qorxudan\u00a0 bata bil\u0259r\u2026<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. S\u0259n kimis\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdin?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. B\u0259li.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. O d\u0259nizd\u0259dir?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. B\u0259li.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Qay\u0131dar. F\u0131rt\u0131na qorxulu deyil, ancaq yaman soyuqdur.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Donmusan?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Xeyr.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 B\u0259s niy\u0259 titr\u0259yirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 El\u0259-bel\u0259. Titr\u0259m\u0259yi sevir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Pijonluq etm\u0259, dodaqlar\u0131n g\u00f6m-g\u00f6yd\u00fcr!<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Yax\u015f\u0131, pijonluq etm\u0259r\u0259m. M\u0259n donmu\u015fam.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. El\u0259 is\u0259\u2026 Oda yax\u0131n \u0259yl\u0259\u015f. \u0130ndi s\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259hv\u0259 s\u00fcz\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n \u00e7ad\u0131ra yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131m, \u00f6rt\u00fcy\u00fc \u00e7\u0259kdim. O, \u00abMoskvi\u00e7\u00bb markal\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc.<\/i><\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Oho! \u00d6z ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131nd\u0131r?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Xeyr. Onun ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131d\u0131r! (M\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n i\u015far\u0259si il\u0259 d\u0259nizi g\u00f6st\u0259rdim v\u0259 tonqala \u00e7\u0131r-\u00e7\u0131rp\u0131 atd\u0131m<\/i>).<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 Dem\u0259li,\u00a0 v\u0259h\u015fi adamlars\u0131n\u0131z?<\/p>\n

Neandertal*<\/a> adamlar\u0131q (Tonqal \u00e7ox m\u00f6hk\u0259m q\u0131zm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.\u00a0 Onun \u00fc\u00e7un q\u0259hv\u0259 s\u00fczd\u00fcm<\/i>).<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 \u00c7oxdan burada ya\u015fay\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 \u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc g\u00fcnd\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 \u00c7ox gec g\u0259libsiniz. M\u00f6vs\u00fcm sona yetib. \u00c7imm\u0259k olmaz. Adam-insan da yoxdur.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Adam-insan\u2026 Onlar ma\u011fazada bizi t\u0259ng\u0259 g\u0259tiribl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 S\u0259n ma\u011fazada i\u015fl\u0259yirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Toxuculuq \u015f\u00f6b\u0259sind\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yir\u0259m. O is\u0259 (ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n i\u015far\u0259si il\u0259 d\u0259nizi g\u00f6st\u0259rdim<\/i>) bizim m\u00fcdirdir. Biz h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 m\u00f6vs\u00fcm\u00fcn ax\u0131r\u0131nda, adamlar az olanda g\u0259lirik. O, bal\u0131q tutur, m\u0259n burada qal\u0131ram. Yen\u0259 ist\u0259yirs\u0259n? (O, ba\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 raz\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bildirdi, m\u0259n, q\u0259hv\u0259 s\u00fczd\u00fcm<\/i>).<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 T\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr edir\u0259m. B\u0259s o olmayanda s\u0259n n\u0259 edirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. G\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00a0 kimi: He\u00e7 n\u0259\u2026 Sahild\u0259 g\u0259zir, bal\u0131qqula\u011f\u0131 y\u0131\u011f\u0131ram. K\u00f6hn\u0259 jurnallar\u0131 oxuyuram.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>\u00a0 (bir udum q\u0259hv\u0259 i\u00e7ib<\/i>).\u00a0 Bura dar\u0131xd\u0131r\u0131c\u0131d\u0131r?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Hara dar\u0131xd\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 deyil ki?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 A-a (\u0259limi yell\u0259dim<\/i>). Eyni \u015feydir. F\u0259rqi ondad\u0131r ki, \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u00a0 daha s\u0259sli-k\u00fcyl\u00fcd\u00fcr. He\u00e7 n\u0259 ed\u0259 bilm\u0259zs\u0259n. U\u015faql\u0131qda m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, gedib \u00fcfuq\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xmaq olar. El\u0259 bilirdim orda\u00a0 n\u0259 is\u0259 yeni bir \u015fey, ba\u015fqa al\u0259m, ba\u015fqa g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f var. \u0130ndi bilir\u0259m ki, orada da yeni he\u00e7 n\u0259 yoxdur.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 \u00dcf\u00fcq\u00fcn arxas\u0131nda yeni \u00fcf\u00fcq, yeni d\u0259niz, yeni insanlar, \u015f\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r var\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 H\u0259r yerd\u0259 eyni \u015feyl\u0259 rastla\u015f\u0131rsan. El\u0259 bil qap\u0131s\u0131 q\u0131f\u0131ll\u0131 otaqdasan, otaq is\u0259 s\u0259ni s\u0131x\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 B\u0259s onda durnalar\u0131 niy\u0259 haraylay\u0131rd\u0131n?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 H\u0259r halda onlar harasa u\u00e7urlar.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. U\u00e7urlar\u2026 (Onun s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259sm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259niz\u0259 baxd\u0131m<\/i>). N\u0259 is\u0259 \u00e7oxdand\u0131r g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. \u018frindir?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Oyna\u015f\u0131m.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 Oho!<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 N\u0259 olub.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 He\u00e7\u2026 \u0130ndi n\u0259 is\u0259 \u00f6zg\u0259 c\u00fcr ifad\u0259 edirl\u0259r. \u018fn \u00e7ox dost, yolda\u015f deyirl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 H\u0259r \u015feyi \u00f6z ad\u0131yla \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, s\u0259n haql\u0131san.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 B\u0259s s\u0259n? Bel\u0259 f\u0131rt\u0131nada d\u0259nizd\u0259 n\u0259 edirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 G\u0259zirdim.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 \u0130stirah\u0259td\u0259 olansan?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>\u00a0 (bir q\u0259d\u0259r fikirl\u0259\u015fib<\/i>). Do\u011fru buyrursan. \u00abS\u0259rh\u0259d\u00e7i\u00bb sanatoriyas\u0131n\u0131 tan\u0131y\u0131rsan?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 A-a, s\u0259n zabits\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Tapd\u0131n. \u015e\u0259rqd\u0259 qulluq edirdim. Ke\u015fik\u00e7i katerinin komandiri\u00a0 idim. Haz\u0131rda istefadayam.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Ne\u00e7\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131n var?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 Otuz.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Bu ya\u015fda istefaya \u00e7\u0131xmaq h\u0259l\u0259 tezdir.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 M\u0259nimki bel\u0259 g\u0259tirdi.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 ayd\u0131nd\u0131r: S\u0259n \u2013 c\u0259rim\u0259 alanlardansan. S\u0259rxo\u015fluqla m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olubsan,\u00a0\u00a0 kart oynay\u0131bsan, tiry\u0259k \u00e7\u0259kibs\u0259n, m\u0259sum q\u0131zlar\u0131 aldad\u0131bsan\u2026 Boynuna al.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 H\u0259, m\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259xlaqs\u0131zl\u0131qlar\u0131n\u00a0 yuvas\u0131yam\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>\u00a0 (g\u00fcld\u00fcm<\/i>). B\u0259s h\u0259qiq\u0259td\u0259 nec\u0259?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 H\u0259qiq\u0259t bir q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6zg\u0259 c\u00fcrd\u00fcr. Uzun \u0259hvalatd\u0131r.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Maraq oyatmaq ist\u0259yirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 N\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan? Ba\u015fqa vaxta qals\u0131n\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 \u018fg\u0259r ba\u015fqa vaxt olmasa?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Dem\u0259li, s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn sirli \u015f\u0259xsiyy\u0259t olaraq qalaram.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 B\u0259s n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn Kr\u0131mda, yaxud Qafqazda deyil, burda dinc\u0259lirs\u0259n? \u0130ndi oralarda kurort m\u00f6vs\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fcn \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 vaxt\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 Bura m\u0259nim do\u011fma diyar\u0131md\u0131r. M\u0259n burda do\u011fulmu\u015fam.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Ail\u0259n, ata-anan burdad\u0131r?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 Ail\u0259m yoxdur\u2026 Ata-anam da \u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 S\u0259n at\u0131lm\u0131\u015f u\u015faqsan?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 D\u00fcz tapm\u0131san. \u0130ndiki kimi yad\u0131mdad\u0131r. Bu, yeni il ax\u015fam\u0131 olub. M\u0259ni maliyy\u0259 nazirinin qap\u0131s\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131na tullam\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. El\u0259 h\u0259min ail\u0259d\u0259 d\u0259 t\u0259rbiy\u0259 ald\u0131m.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Oho-ho! Nec\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00fclm\u0259lidir (\u018fziz \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc narahat hiss etdi. N\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259yini bilm\u0259di)<\/i>. Evli d\u0259 deyils\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. N\u0259 vaxtsa olmu\u015fam\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Ayd\u0131nd\u0131r. M\u0259g\u0259r kurorta g\u0259l\u0259n v\u0259 kims\u0259siz sahild\u0259 q\u0131zla rastla\u015fan adam da evli olar? M\u0259n axmaq h\u0259l\u0259\u00a0 bir soru\u015furam da.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 M\u0259n h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n evli deyil\u0259m.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Arvad\u0131n\u0131 k\u00f6rp\u0259 u\u015faqla atm\u0131san.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>\u00a0 (q\u0259mgin<\/i>). \u00dc\u00e7 u\u015faqla\u2026 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fcs\u00fc do\u011fulanda. \u0130ndi is\u0259 qa\u00e7\u0131b alimentd\u0259n gizl\u0259nir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Di b\u0259sdir. Ax\u0131 ciddi soru\u015furam, s\u0259ns\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 Ciddi soru\u015fursansa, h\u0259r \u015fey t\u0259rsin\u0259 olub.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 O s\u0259ni at\u0131b?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 Bel\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 B\u0259s u\u015faqlar?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. U\u015fa\u011f\u0131m\u0131z yox idi\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Uzun s\u00f6z\u00fcn q\u0131sas\u0131, xasiyy\u0259tiniz tutmay\u0131b?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 D\u00fcz\u00fc, bel\u0259dir.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. A-a! Ham\u0131n\u0131z bel\u0259siniz! Q\u0131zlar\u0131n ard\u0131nca qara k\u00f6lg\u0259 kimi g\u0259zir, \u015feir oxuyaraq ba\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 piyl\u0259yir, diz \u00fcst\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz. El\u0259 ki ist\u0259yiniz\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z, ba\u015flay\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z: sarsa\u011f\u0131n biridir, me\u015f\u015fand\u0131r, sonra is\u0259: salyut, qoy c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m olsun, xasiyy\u0259timiz tutmad\u0131!<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 Q\u0259rib\u0259dir,\u00a0 m\u0259nim bar\u0259md\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyi bilirs\u0259n ki.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 G\u0259l bir bilm\u0259yim! Ax\u0131 m\u0259n qara\u00e7\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131yam!<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 Qoy oturmu\u015fuq.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. B\u0259s n\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015firdin (m\u0259n \u00e7iyinl\u0259rimi geni\u015f a\u00e7\u0131b qara\u00e7\u0131 r\u0259qsind\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi dabanlar\u0131m\u0131 yer\u0259 d\u00f6y\u0259-d\u00f6y\u0259 oxudum<\/i>). G\u00f6zl\u0259ri qara, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri ehtirasl\u0131\u2026 Ayd\u0131nd\u0131r?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Ay-d\u0131n-d\u0131r\u2026 G\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m, s\u0259n yaln\u0131z \u00e7oxlu p\u0259r\u0259sti\u015fkar\u0131 olan q\u0131z deyils\u0259n, h\u0259m d\u0259 istedadl\u0131san.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 El\u0259 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 ondad\u0131r ki, he\u00e7 d\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey siz fikirl\u0259\u015fdiyin kimi deyil. Fala baxa bilirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 Bel\u0259 d\u0259\u2026 Bir balaca.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b> (kartlar\u0131 ona ataraq<\/i>). Di, fal\u0131ma bax. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 xa\u00e7 krala.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>\u00a0 (kartlar\u0131 d\u00fcz\u0259r\u0259k<\/i>). O-o! S\u0259ninki yaman g\u0259tirir. S\u0259nin kral\u0131n olduqca varl\u0131, son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 ya\u015fl\u0131 v\u0259 olduqca xeyirxah adamd\u0131r. \u015e\u0259xsi ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 da var. Niy\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcrs\u0259n? Kart yalan deyir?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Di\u2026di\u2026davam et.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Kral ba\u015f\u0131ndan bir t\u00fck bel\u0259 \u0259ksik olmas\u0131na raz\u0131 deyil. Siz bir-birinizi sevirsiniz v\u0259 son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xtsiniz.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Oho! B\u0259lk\u0259 s\u0259n,\u00a0 sirli ki\u015fi, xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyin n\u0259 dem\u0259k oldu\u011funu bilirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 Bir balaca m\u0259lumat\u0131m var\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b> (istehza il\u0259<\/i>). Oy, nec\u0259 d\u0259 maraql\u0131d\u0131r. Tez dan\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 Xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik arzu dem\u0259kdir. Ona yet\u0259nd\u0259 insan xo\u015fb\u0259xt olur.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 B\u0259s sonra?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 Sonra onda ba\u015fqa arzu ba\u015f qald\u0131r\u0131r.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 S\u0259n d\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt idin?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 B\u0259li.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 Bilmir\u0259m. Bu, zamanla \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fclm\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 \u0130ndi\u00a0 nec\u0259, xo\u015fb\u0259xts\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b> (\u0259s\u0259bi halda aya\u011fa qalxaraq<\/i>). \u0130ndi is\u0259 yox\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Ax\u0131, n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 M\u0259n ya\u015famaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 N\u0259 dedin?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b> (siqaret \u00e7\u0131xararaq<\/i>). Bel\u0259\u2026 He\u00e7 n\u0259\u2026 Siqaret \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Oho! Yapon siqaretidir!<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. \u00c7ox yax\u015f\u0131 siqaretdir (Siqaret \u00e7\u0259kdik<\/i>). B\u0259s s\u0259n\u2026 xo\u015fb\u0259xt idin?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcr. \u015e\u0259rab ist\u0259yirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. \u00dcr\u0259yimd\u0259n ke\u00e7ir, amma ist\u0259mir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 He\u00e7.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 He\u00e7.<\/p>\n

(M\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u015f\u0259rab s\u00fczd\u00fcm. \u018fziz yan\u0131mda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi. D\u0259niz s\u0259mtd\u0259n tirol mahn\u0131s\u0131 e\u015fidildi).<\/i><\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259rin s\u0259si<\/b>. \u00abM\u0259n is\u0259 s\u00fct\u00fcl o\u011flan idim. Tirol da\u011flar\u0131nda \u00f6m\u00fcr s\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fcm\u00bb.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Odur. Gets\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. B\u0259lk\u0259 qal\u0131b ona meydan oxuyum? G\u00f6z\u0259l qara\u00e7\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n yolunda duel\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131m?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. M\u0259n bil\u0259n, gets\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 olar.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Otellodur?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Sad\u0259c\u0259 kobuddur.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. N\u0259 deyir\u0259m ki. Qoy g\u0259lsin, biz \u015fahmat-dama yar\u0131\u015f\u0131 t\u0259\u015fkil ed\u0259rik.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Yumruq davas\u0131 ist\u0259mirs\u0259n ki?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Yox, m\u0259n ziyal\u0131yam.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Onda h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n, gets\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 olar.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Bel\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r ki, kart yalan deyirmi\u015f.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Xudahafiz.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n \u0259limi uzatd\u0131m. Ona n\u0259 is\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259dim, lakin bilm\u0259dim n\u0259 deyim. Bizim sahild\u0259 q\u0259fl\u0259t\u0259n peyda olan bu q\u0259rib\u0259 adam getdi. O, qay\u0131\u011f\u0131 suya it\u0259l\u0259di, at\u0131l\u0131b qay\u0131\u011fa mindi v\u0259 c\u0259ld g\u00f6zd\u0259n itdi. M\u0259n \u00e7ad\u0131ra qay\u0131td\u0131m v\u0259 qab-qaca\u011f\u0131 y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131rma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m.<\/i><\/p>\n

Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259n sonra dig\u0259r qay\u0131q\u00a0 sahil\u0259 yan ald\u0131. \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r sahil\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. O, yenic\u0259 tutdu\u011fu iri bal\u0131\u011f\u0131 mandolina kimi \u0259lind\u0259 saxlayaraq, \u015f\u0259n mahn\u0131 oxudu. \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r d\u0259rhal bal\u0131qlardan birini, sonra ikincisini m\u0259n\u0259 sar\u0131 atd\u0131, m\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131, \u00fcsulluca m\u0259ni qald\u0131rd\u0131, f\u0131rlad\u0131, \u00f6pd\u00fc v\u0259 yer\u0259 qoydu.<\/i><\/p>\n

M\u0259n sakitl\u0259\u015fdim, anlaya bilm\u0259diyim h\u0259y\u0259can \u00f6t\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/i><\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. H\u0259, k\u00f6rp\u0259, i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259n m\u0259ni q\u0131zd\u0131r! (M\u0259n onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yar\u0131m st\u0259kan konyak s\u00fczd\u00fcm<\/i>). Azd\u0131r!<\/p>\n

Lap donmu\u015fam (M\u0259n yen\u0259 s\u00fczd\u00fcm. O,\u00a0 birn\u0259f\u0259s\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kib, qarn\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131\u011fallad\u0131<\/i>). Oho-ho! Yax\u015f\u0131 getdi! Damarlar\u0131mdan xo\u015f bir istilik ax\u0131r. Bilirs\u0259n, Nazi, el\u0259 f\u0131rt\u0131na idi ki\u2026 V\u0259h\u015fi dal\u011falar qay\u0131\u011f\u0131 at\u0131b tuturdu. Mavi r\u0259ngli \u0259jdaha, y\u0259ni\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 d\u0259niz d\u0259 a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b adam\u0131 udmaq ist\u0259yirdi. \u018flq\u0259r\u0259z, az qala getmi\u015fdim f\u0259l\u0259yin kam\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Niy\u0259 bel\u0259 risk edirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b> (bisensl\u0259rini*<\/a> \u015fapp\u0131ldadaraq<\/i>). Eybi yoxdur. Bir el\u0259 uza\u011fa getm\u0259mi\u015fdim.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 S\u0259nin nec\u0259\u00a0 bir igid oldu\u011fundan x\u0259b\u0259rim var.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>.\u00a0 S\u0259nin bundan x\u0259b\u0259rin olsa da, g\u00f6y \u0259jdahan\u0131n x\u0259b\u0259ri yoxdur (tonqala yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131, yapon siqaretl\u0259rinin k\u00f6t\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rd\u00fc<\/i>).\u00a0 Burada kim olub?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Bir g\u0259nc q\u0131z\u0131nma\u011fa g\u0259lmi\u015fdi.\u00a0 Q\u0259hv\u0259 i\u00e7di, m\u0259ni siqaret\u0259 qonaq etdi.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Yapon siqareti. Picon, yaxud casus. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 bunlar\u0131 ay\u0131rd ed\u0259 bilm\u0259kd\u0259dir\u00a0 (M\u0259ni qucaqlad\u0131, Kozlovskini yams\u0131layaraq oxudu<\/i>). “Bu k\u00f6lg\u0259li v\u0259 rahat ba\u011f\u0131 sevir\u0259m\u2026”(\u018fsn\u0259d<\/i>i). N\u0259 direktor var, n\u0259 d\u0259 al\u0131c\u0131lar\u2026 Sakitlikdir\u2026 Niy\u0259 susursan?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Bilmir\u0259m\u2026Hava\u2026Q\u0259hv\u0259 ist\u0259yirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>.\u00a0 N\u0259 is\u0259 \u00e7ox t\u00fcnd \u015fey ist\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Konyak?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Daha isti t\u00fcnd.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Ax\u0131 n\u0259?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>.\u00a0 S\u0259nin \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 \u018fd\u0259bsizlik el\u0259m\u0259.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Yax\u015f\u0131.<\/p>\n

(Biz susduq. S\u00fckut. M\u0259n tutqun d\u0259niz\u0259 baxd\u0131m<\/i>.)<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>\u00a0 (gitaran\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc, astadan z\u00fcm-z\u00fcm\u0259 etdi<\/i>). “Uzaq-uzaq ell\u0259r\u0259, g\u00f6m-g\u00f6y durna qatar\u0131 u\u00e7ur\u2026”<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Sa\u015fa, n\u0259 vaxtsa xo\u015fb\u0259xt olmusan?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b> (gitaran\u0131 \u00e7ala-\u00e7ala<\/i>). D\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259. Bax, el\u0259 indic\u0259 o hal\u0131 ke\u00e7irir\u0259m: yan\u0131mda q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng qad\u0131n, onun yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 ayaqlar\u0131 var\u2026 V\u0259h\u015fi sahil, sakitlik\u2026 Niy\u0259 soru\u015fdun?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Yola d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259zd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l h\u0259kimin yan\u0131nda oldum (\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r \u0259l saxlad\u0131<\/i>). O dedi ki, m\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt ana olmayaca\u011fam (\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r bir daha astadan ifa edir<\/i>). M\u0259ni e\u015fidirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>.\u00a0 Aha.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 B\u0259s niy\u0259\u00a0 susursan?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>.\u00a0 N\u0259 deyim ax\u0131?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Bilmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>.\u00a0 M\u0259n d\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n

(M\u0259n ona baxd\u0131m, lakin o, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya, gitaraya do\u011fru endirib \u00e7almaqda davam etdi, sonra durnalar haqq\u0131nda mahn\u0131 oxuma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. K\u00fcl\u0259yin ani \u015fidd\u0259ti artd\u0131. Tonqal \u00f6l\u0259zidi. \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r, n\u0259 billah el\u0259dis\u0259, m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmad\u0131, alov ke\u00e7di. Alatoranl\u0131qda \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 kibrit \u00e7\u0259kdi. G\u00f6y guruldad\u0131, ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ba\u015flad\u0131, d\u0259niz tutqunla\u015fd\u0131, biz ma\u015f\u0131na do\u011fru g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcld\u00fck.\u00a0 Sahild\u0259 yaln\u0131z k\u00fcl\u0259kd\u0259n \u0259sim-\u0259sim \u0259s\u0259n \u00e7ad\u0131r qald\u0131. Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. D\u0259niz gurulday\u0131rd\u0131<\/i>).<\/p>\n

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Ert\u0259si g\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f \u015f\u0259f\u0259q sa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131, s\u0259ma mavi, d\u0259niz g\u00f6y idi. “Spidola”dan qopan oynaq musiqi \u0259trafa yay\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. M\u0259n kartof soyur, musiqinin tempin\u0259 uy\u011fun r\u0259qs edirdim. \u018fzizin sahil\u0259 n\u0259 zaman \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan x\u0259b\u0259r tutmad\u0131m. Bird\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 bel\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, kims\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6z qoyur. M\u0259n \u00e7evrildim.<\/i><\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 Af\u0259rin, af\u0259rin!<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Salam, suda bo\u011fulan adam!<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>.\u00a0 Salam.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Dem\u0259li, qam\u0131\u015fl\u0131qda x\u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131 salan s\u0259n idin?!<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Bel\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r\u2026 Dostunuz evd\u0259dir?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Qorxmay\u0131n, bal\u0131q ovuna getdi.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b> (rahat n\u0259f\u0259s alaraq).<\/i> Allaha \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr. Dey\u0259s\u0259n, t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259d\u0259n sovu\u015fdum. O m\u0259nim yuxuma girmi\u015fdi. Yuxuda el\u0259 q\u00fcvv\u0259tli v\u0259 qorxunc g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki, uzaq dursam – yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Do\u011fru deyirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. H\u0259, dar\u0131xd\u0131n\u0131z?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Yox, kartof t\u0259mizl\u0259yir\u0259m. B\u0259s s\u0259n nec\u0259, dar\u0131x\u0131rsan?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Yox, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259zir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Y\u0259ni he\u00e7 dar\u0131xm\u0131rsan?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Dar\u0131xanda d\u0259niz\u0259 bax\u0131ram. D\u0259niz is\u0259, bilirs\u0259n\u2026 H\u0259r \u015feyi – q\u0259mi d\u0259, k\u0259d\u0259ri d\u0259 adama unutdurur. S\u0259ni h\u0259r \u015fey t\u0259ng\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259 bil\u0259r, t\u0259kc\u0259 d\u0259nizd\u0259n ba\u015fqa. Birc\u0259 ona baxmaqdan yorulub-usanmaz, t\u0259ng\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259zs\u0259n. Nec\u0259 deyib\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Lui Araqon?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Yox, Pasternak.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. A-a\u2026\u00a0 Di, davam et.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. N\u0259?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. El\u0259 bel\u0259. B\u0259s s\u0259n burada daha n\u0259 edirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Yem\u0259k yeyir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Fikirl\u0259\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 el\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259. B\u0259s daha n\u0259?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Yat\u0131ram.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. M\u0259n is\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn gec\u0259ni yatmam\u0131\u015fam.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. N\u0259yis\u0259 arzulam\u0131san?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Yox. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, g\u00f6r\u00fcm n\u0259 vaxtsa xo\u015fb\u0259xt olmu\u015fam?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Tapd\u0131n?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Bir \u015fey \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. M\u0259lum oldu ki, he\u00e7 vaxt arzulamam\u0131san.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. B\u0259li.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Bel\u0259 olmur\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 Yet\u0259r, x\u0259yala dalm\u0131\u015fam. Yada salmaq g\u00fcl\u00fcncd\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. G\u00fcl\u00fcnc?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Aktrisa olmaq arzusuna d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm, g\u00fcl\u00fcnc dediyim budur. Axmaq olmu\u015fam (G\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259d\u0259n ona yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131m v\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m<\/i>). M\u0259kt\u0259b xorunun solisti idim. Ham\u0131 m\u0259ni alq\u0131\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131. Onuncunu qurtaranda\u00a0 q\u0259rara g\u0259ldim ki, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc s\u0131nay\u0131m. Teatra – ba\u015f administratorun yan\u0131na getdim. O, q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 dodaql\u0131, daz ba\u015f bir day\u0131 idi. H\u0259min q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 dodaql\u0131, daz ba\u015f day\u0131 dedi ki, Stanislavski v\u0259 Nemirovi\u00e7-Dan\u00e7enko sistemin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, teatr as\u0131lqandan ba\u015flan\u0131r v\u0259 m\u0259ni qarderob\u00e7u kimi i\u015f\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 m\u0259ni yan\u0131na \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131b \u0259l atasan dizl\u0259rim\u0259, g\u00fccl\u0259 yaxam\u0131 qurtard\u0131m. Dedi: “Daha bizim teatrda n\u00fcfuz qazanaca\u011f\u0131na bel ba\u011flamaya bil\u0259rs\u0259n”. D\u00fcz bir h\u0259ft\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ax\u0131td\u0131m. Anam daha bet\u0259rini fikirl\u0259\u015fib tan\u0131\u015f mama-h\u0259kimi ev\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259cbur olub \u0259hvalat\u0131 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. U\u011funub getdil\u0259r\u2026<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Daz ba\u015f adminstrator inc\u0259s\u0259n\u0259t n\u0259 qan\u0131r?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Sonra m\u0259\u015fhur bir artistin yan\u0131nda oldum. Bizim \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 onun\u00e7un b\u00fct\u00fcn q\u0131zlar\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yi gedirdi. M\u0259n\u0259 qulaq as\u0131b: “Vokal s\u0259n\u0259tin\u0259 dair bildikl\u0259rin orta s\u0259viyy\u0259d\u0259dir, ancaq yar-yara\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131na s\u00f6z ola bilm\u0259z\u2026” dedi v\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Ondan zidd-z\u0259hl\u0259m getdi v\u0259 qa\u00e7\u0131b can\u0131m\u0131 qurtard\u0131m. S\u0259n is\u0259 “Arzu!” deyirs\u0259n, \u0259ziz yolda\u015f.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. El\u0259 bu?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Ba\u015fqa bir vaxt da arzu etmi\u015f\u0259m, amma yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131 budur onu xat\u0131rlamay\u0131m. \u00d6z etiraf\u0131mla s\u0259ni c\u0259lb ed\u0259 bildim?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Qurtar.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Bir ara h\u0259bsxanadan qurtulmaq arzusunda idim.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. S\u0259n h\u0259bsd\u0259 d\u0259 olmusan?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Yox. O m\u0259ni xilas etdi (ba\u015f\u0131mla d\u0259nizi g\u00f6st\u0259rdim<\/i>).<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Onun bar\u0259sind\u0259 s\u0259hv etm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Ma\u011fazaya t\u0259z\u0259c\u0259 girmi\u015fdim ki, bird\u0259n yoxlan\u0131\u015f ba\u015fland\u0131 v\u0259 taraq! T\u0259z\u0259 pulla iki min manat \u0259skiyim g\u0259ldi. \u00dc\u00e7 g\u00fcn yoxlad\u0131lar. \u0130\u015fi m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 verm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdil\u0259r. \u0130\u015f\u0259 getmir, evd\u0259 oturub n\u0259 vaxt dal\u0131mca g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259rini g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdim. Az qala a\u011fl\u0131m\u0131 itir\u0259c\u0259kdim. Yuxuda da barmaql\u0131q g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Lap kinoda oldu\u011fu kimi, barmaql\u0131q a\u015fkarda da g\u00f6z\u00fcm \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259n getmirdi. \u00d6z\u00fcmd\u0259n \u00e7ox anama yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u0259lirdi. O d\u0259qiq\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yi partlard\u0131. Bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 o – \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r g\u0259lib h\u0259r \u015feyi yoluna qoydu\u011funu s\u00f6yl\u0259di. Anamla m\u0259n onun boynuna sar\u0131l\u0131b doyunca a\u011flad\u0131q.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. S\u0259n qurtuldun?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. H\u0259.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. H\u0259, buna xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik dem\u0259k olar. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 bel\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc ta \u00fcf\u00fcq\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r i\u015f\u0131qland\u0131ran nur olub\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Bu, yeri v\u0259 onun \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259n quru qurba\u011fas\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 k\u0259rg\u0259danlar\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259min nurdan kor olmaq daha yax\u015f\u0131 idi.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Bax, buna dey\u0259rl\u0259r na\u015f\u00fck\u00fcrl\u00fck. H\u0259min gec\u0259 siz\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n adam ax\u0131 k\u0259rg\u0259dan yox, s\u0259nin xilaskar\u0131n idi.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Bu yalan idi! A\u011f bir yalan!<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Yalan?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. H\u0259. H\u0259r \u015fey s\u0259n dem\u0259, qabaqcadan planla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131l\u0131bm\u0131\u015f. Sonralar \u00f6z\u00fc etiraf etdi. Dem\u0259, iki rulon bostonu o \u00f6z\u00fc gizl\u0259dibmi\u015f. Yoxlan\u0131\u015f\u0131 t\u0259\u015fkil ed\u0259n d\u0259 o imi\u015f. Amma \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc el\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rirdi ki, yoxa \u00e7\u0131xan mallar\u0131n \u0259v\u0259zini \u00f6z cibind\u0259n \u00f6d\u0259yib.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. M\u0259qs\u0259di n\u0259 imi\u015f?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. M\u0259nim r\u0259\u011fb\u0259timi qazanmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ona xilaskar rolunu oynamaq laz\u0131m idi. Onun \u015f\u00f6b\u0259sin\u0259 \u015fagird t\u0259yin olunan ilk g\u00fcnd\u0259n g\u00f6z\u00fc m\u0259nd\u0259 idi. Xeyirxah hami qiyaf\u0259sin\u0259 girib m\u0259ni sat\u0131c\u0131 ke\u00e7irdi. El\u0259 ki, maddi-m\u0259sul \u015f\u0259xs oldum, bu oyunu \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. H\u0259 – \u0259, ancaq n\u0259 ki\u015fidir! Bel\u0259sin\u0259 n\u0259 dey\u0259s\u0259n?… S\u0259n d\u0259 onunla qald\u0131n?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. B\u0259s n\u0259 ed\u0259ydim?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. \u00c7\u0131x\u0131b ged\u0259ydin, qa\u00e7ayd\u0131n!<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Hara?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Hara g\u0259ldi! Buzlaqlara, eskimoslar\u0131n yan\u0131na! B\u00fct\u00fcn bu oyunlardan sonra onu nec\u0259 q\u0259bul etdin? Onunla \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, bir yast\u0131\u011fa ba\u015f qoydun?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b> (istehza il\u0259<\/i>). Yolda\u015f\u0131n \u0259lav\u0259 etm\u0259y\u0259 yen\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fc var?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. O ki, s\u0259ni sat\u0131n al\u0131b (M\u0259n q\u0259h-q\u0259h\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdim<\/i>). Niy\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcr\u00ads\u0259n. Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcr\u0259m, niy\u0259 bel\u0259 \u015fadsan? (M\u0259n g\u00fclm\u0259kd\u0259 davam etdim<\/i>).<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Riyakarl\u0131q etm\u0259yin yet\u0259r.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. M\u0259n?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. S\u0259n!<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. M\u0259n kim\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 riyakarl\u0131q edir\u0259m?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. N\u0259cib adamlara qar\u015f\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Hans\u0131 \u0259sasla bel\u0259 deyirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Ham\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n torpa\u011f\u0131 bir yerd\u0259n g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcl\u00fcb. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc h\u0259qiq\u0259td\u0259 oldu\u011fundan yax\u015f\u0131 q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 verm\u0259k m\u0259qs\u0259dil\u0259 onu ittiham edirs\u0259n. Ham\u0131n\u0131z bir bezin q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131ndans\u0131n\u0131z.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. S\u0259n m\u0259ni t\u0259hqir edirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Do\u011frudan? Yax\u015f\u0131, b\u0259s n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qam\u0131\u015fl\u0131qda gizl\u0259nib\u00a0 o ged\u0259nd\u0259n sonra \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131n?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. M\u0259n onu yox, s\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. S\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, ona x\u0259yan\u0259t ed\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m? (\u018fziz susurdu<\/i>). S\u0259hvin var, dostum! Bax,\u00a0 g\u00f6r, n\u0259 yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 ayaqlar\u0131m var! (donumu yuxar\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kdim<\/i>) Bu ayaqlar onun m\u00fclkiyy\u0259tidir. Onun, yaln\u0131z onun bu ayaqlara malik olmaq h\u00fcququ var. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 ist\u0259nil\u0259n vaxt, n\u0259 zaman ist\u0259s\u0259. S\u0259ns\u0259 he\u00e7 bir \u015fey\u0259 nail ola bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. Mac\u0259ran\u0131 orda – yo\u011fun zabit arvadlar\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda axtar.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. S\u0259n ma\u011fazada\u00a0 \u0259l alt\u0131ndan mallar\u0131 nec\u0259 x\u0131r\u0131d edirss\u0259ns\u0259, insanlar bar\u0259d\u0259 d\u0259 el\u0259c\u0259 m\u00fchakim\u0259\u00a0 y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcrs\u0259n\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Arvad\u0131n s\u0259ni at\u0131b, s\u0259nins\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcnyaya q\u0259z\u0259bin tutub\u2026 Kimin g\u00fcn\u00fc xo\u015f ke\u00e7irs\u0259, ona pax\u0131ll\u0131q edirs\u0259n\u2026<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. S\u0259nin g\u00fcn\u00fcn xo\u015f ke\u00e7ir?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. T\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr et ki, h\u0259!<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. S\u0259n, sad\u0259c\u0259,\u00a0 al\u00e7aq tipl\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259n\u0259 haqq qazand\u0131rmaq ist\u0259yirs\u0259n\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b> (onun s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259sdim v\u0259 dem\u0259k olar ki, isterik t\u0259rzd\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131m<\/i>). H\u0259! H\u0259! H\u0259! V\u0259 bunun s\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259xli yoxdur! \u00d6zg\u0259 q\u0259lbin\u0259 girm\u0259!<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. He\u00e7 haz\u0131rla\u015fm\u0131ram da (qalx\u0131b qay\u0131\u011fa sar\u0131 getdi<\/i>). Xudahafiz!<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. H\u0259l\u0259lik! (\u018fziz sahil\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b qay\u0131\u011f\u0131 it\u0259l\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Quma oturmu\u015f qay\u0131q yerind\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259di. N\u0259hay\u0259t, qay\u0131q suda y\u0131r\u011falanma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.\u00a0 O, avarlar\u0131\u00a0 avar yerin\u0259 ke\u00e7irdi. M\u0259n qay\u0131\u011fa t\u0259r\u0259f qa\u00e7\u0131b qay\u0131\u011f\u0131n k\u0259nar\u0131ndan yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131m<\/i>). Dayan. G\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131m\u0131 ax\u0131td\u0131n, indi is\u0259 aradan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rsan! M\u0259n a\u011flay\u0131ram, g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n (M\u0259n a\u011flad\u0131m<\/i>). S\u0259n gedirs\u0259n. H\u0259r \u015feyi d\u0259 unudacaqsan. M\u0259n is\u0259 burada yalq\u0131z qalaca\u011fam. Ax\u0131 n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259n\u0259 bu axmaq xo\u015fb\u0259xtlikd\u0259n s\u00f6z a\u00e7d\u0131n? (\u018fziz g\u00f6zl\u0259di. O, ax\u0131ra q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259ni dinl\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n ist\u0259nil\u0259n an \u00fcz\u00fcb ged\u0259 bil\u0259rdi. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259\u00a0 d\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259rimd\u0259 tutduqlar\u0131m\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131\u00a0 dem\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sdim<\/i>). S\u0259nin kim v\u0259 nec\u0259 adam oldu\u011funu bilm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m. Amma h\u0259r \u015feyi s\u0259n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015faca\u011fam. Ax\u0131 h\u0259qiq\u0259ti kims\u0259 bilm\u0259lidir\u2026 Siz ham\u0131n\u0131z, el\u0259 bil, qabaqcadan s\u00f6zl\u0259\u015fmisiniz, yaln\u0131z m\u0259ni g\u00fcnahland\u0131r\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z. He\u00e7 olmasa, biriniz soru\u015fmur ki, n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn onu t\u0259rk ed\u0259 bilmir\u0259m. Onun arvad\u0131 qara-q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131q sal\u0131b. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 iclasda bax\u0131blar: m\u0259n ail\u0259 da\u011f\u0131d\u0131ram, onun pullar\u0131na, mal\u0131na g\u00f6z dikmi\u015f\u0259m. Ham\u0131s\u0131 qoy l\u0259n\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lsin! Onun he\u00e7 n\u0259yi m\u0259n\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259k deyil. M\u0259n, sad\u0259c\u0259, qorxuram! T\u0259k-t\u0259nha qalmaqdan qorxuram. U\u015faq ya\u015flar\u0131mdan bundan qorxmu\u015fam. M\u0259nim pl\u00fc\u015f ay\u0131 balas\u0131 var\u0131m idi. O, \u00e7ayda batanda m\u0259n x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259ndim. Anam m\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131, eyz\u0259n h\u0259min c\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fc ald\u0131. Amma m\u0259n ona \u00f6yr\u0259\u015f\u0259 bilm\u0259dim.<\/p>\n

Atam\u0131 xat\u0131rlam\u0131ram, m\u0259n do\u011fulana q\u0259d\u0259r m\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259 h\u0259lak olub. Anam cavan v\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l idi. Biz\u0259 bir ki\u015fi g\u0259l\u0259r, \u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 konfet, g\u00fcl g\u0259tir\u0259r, h\u0259yatdan, sa\u011flaml\u0131qdan, m\u00fcxt\u0259lif \u015feyl\u0259rd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fard\u0131, ancaq h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n n\u0259 is\u0259 arzuolunmaz bir ist\u0259k oxunard\u0131. M\u0259n h\u0259min ist\u0259yin n\u0259 dem\u0259k oldu\u011funu d\u0259rk etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flayanda, ondan zindi-z\u0259hl\u0259m getdi. Ona olan nifr\u0259tim a\u015f\u0131b da\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Kobudluq edir, anam\u0131 evd\u0259n ged\u0259c\u0259yiml\u0259 h\u0259d\u0259l\u0259yirdim\u2026 Anam v\u0259r\u0259m\u0259 tutulanda adamlar\u0131n aya\u011f\u0131 bizim evd\u0259n k\u0259sildi. Anam\u0131n g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 saxlamaq olmurdu. M\u0259n t\u0259kliyin nec\u0259 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli, h\u0259tta r\u00fcsvay\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n\u00a0 bet\u0259r oldu\u011funu ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm\u2026 \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r m\u0259ni h\u0259bsxanadan xilas ed\u0259nd\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck bir arxam oldu\u011funu hiss etdim v\u0259 bundan v\u0259cd\u0259 g\u0259ldim. B\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcnya m\u0259n\u0259 bu s\u0259ma t\u0259ki mavi v\u0259 h\u00fcdudsuz g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc. \u0130nsanlar m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm b\u0259x\u015f edir v\u0259 son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 xeyirxah g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. H\u0259min ya\u015f dodaql\u0131 o administrator da bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 sad\u0259c\u0259 yaz\u0131q v\u0259 miskin adam t\u0259siri ba\u011f\u0131\u015flad\u0131. M\u0259n durnalar kimi mavi yerin \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 qanad a\u00e7\u0131b u\u00e7urdum.<\/p>\n

Onun he\u00e7 vaxt \u00f6z u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131, ail\u0259sini atmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilirdim, lakin m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bunun he\u00e7 bir \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259ti yox idi. M\u0259n \u00f6z u\u015fa\u011f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdim. (\u018fziz qay\u0131qdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131, onu sahil\u0259 b\u0259nd etdi. Onun \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 \u0259min oldum. Sakitc\u0259 v\u0259 aramla dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. O, dinm\u0259zc\u0259 qulaq as\u0131rd\u0131<\/i>).\u00a0 Sonradan o \u00f6z al\u00e7aql\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 boynuna ald\u0131\u2026 B\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcnya alt-\u00fcst oldu. Yanar k\u00f6m\u00fcr \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 ayaqyal\u0131n g\u0259zib, lakin aya\u011f\u0131mda he\u00e7 bir yan\u0131q hiss etm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k, \u00e7\u0131lpaq g\u0259zib bunu ay\u0131b bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k bir g\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. H\u0259kimin yan\u0131na getdim v\u0259 \u2026 m\u0259nim k\u00f6ks\u00fcm\u00fcn alt\u0131nda ya\u015famaqda olan ki\u00e7ik varl\u0131q \u2026m\u0259hv edildi\u2026 v\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey m\u0259nas\u0131z v\u0259 \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259tsiz oldu. M\u0259n onu\u00a0 t\u0259rk etdim.. Unutma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131m.. M\u0259n o\u011fru da, k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259 qad\u0131n\u0131 da \u2026ola bil\u0259rdim\u2026lakin onun yan\u0131na qay\u0131td\u0131m\u2026Ba\u015fqa birisi il\u0259 ciddi m\u00fcnasib\u0259t ola da bilm\u0259zdi\u2026 Bu g\u00fcn bunun, sabah ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na papaq ola bilm\u0259zdim. Riyakarl\u0131q etm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259dim. Bilir\u0259m, gec-tez onu t\u0259ng\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m\u2026Anam \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259 m\u0259n tamamil\u0259 t\u0259nha qalaca\u011fam\u2026He\u00e7 vaxt u\u015fa\u011f\u0131m olmayacaq\u2026(G\u00f6zl\u0259rimi qald\u0131r\u0131b \u018fziz\u0259\u00a0\u00a0 baxd\u0131m. O susurdu<\/i>). \u00c7ox sa\u011f ol ki, ax\u0131ra q\u0259d\u0259r qulaq asd\u0131n\u2026\u0130ndi ged\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n\u2026 (O susurdu<\/i>). Niy\u0259 dinl\u0259nmirs\u0259n? (O cavab verm\u0259di<\/i>). Riyakarl\u0131q etm\u0259k ist\u0259mirs\u0259n? B\u0259lk\u0259 s\u0259n do\u011frudan da vicdanl\u0131 adamsan? \u2026<\/p>\n

(M\u0259n\u00a0 qalx\u0131b \u00e7ad\u0131ra sar\u0131 getdim. He\u00e7 n\u0259 olmay\u0131bm\u0131\u015f kimi sakitc\u0259 \u201cSpidola\u201dn\u0131 qo\u015fdum. Gurultulu caz musiqisi e\u015fidildi. Sonra arxas\u0131 \u00fcst\u0259 uzan\u0131b aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131 aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 a\u015f\u0131r\u0131b musiqinin ritmin\u0259 uy\u011fun sur\u0259td\u0259 q\u0131\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131 oynatma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m. \u018fziz bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t dayan\u0131b durdu. Sonra\u00a0 s\u0259rt h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259 qay\u0131\u011f\u0131 it\u0259l\u0259di, at\u0131l\u0131b mindi v\u0259 xudahafizl\u0259\u015fm\u0259d\u0259n uzaqla\u015fd\u0131.\u00a0 Az sonra \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r sahil\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. O, qa\u015fqabaql\u0131 idi<\/i>).<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259<\/b>r. B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fcm h\u0259d\u0259r\u0259 getdi. Tilova birc\u0259 bal\u0131q da d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259di (O, qay\u0131\u011f\u0131 dart\u0131b quma \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131, m\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131<\/i>). N\u0259 olub? (\u201cSpidola\u201dn\u0131n\u00a0 s\u0259sini azaltd\u0131<\/i>). Niy\u0259 a\u011flam\u0131san?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. El\u0259-bel\u0259.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259<\/b>r. T\u0259nhal\u0131\u011f\u0131n adi g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131d\u0131r?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. G\u0259ls\u0259n\u0259, ba\u015fqa yer\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7\u0259k?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259<\/b>r.\u00a0 Yax\u015f\u0131. Sabaha qals\u0131n. S\u0259nin arzun m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qanundur (q\u0259buledicini qurdalama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131<\/i>).<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Sa\u015fa!<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259<\/b>r. M-m!<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. S\u0259nd\u0259n soru\u015fmaq ist\u0259yirdim\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259<\/b>r. Buyur, g\u00f6r\u00fcm\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Niy\u0259 bunu etdin?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259<\/b>r (ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131raraq<\/i>). N\u0259 etdim?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Bastonu gizl\u0259tdin?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259<\/b>r. Yen\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131n? (o, futbol mar\u015f\u0131 tutdu, reportaja qulaq asma\u011fa haz\u0131rla\u015fd\u0131. Lakin art\u0131q verili\u015fin ax\u0131r\u0131 idi<\/i>). Ah, l\u0259n\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015f, g\u00fcl kimi f\u00fcrs\u0259ti \u0259ld\u0259n verdik.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Ax\u0131 n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259qiq\u0259ti dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131n? M\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt bilm\u0259zdim\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259<\/b>r (fitl\u0259 futbol mar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7alaraq<\/i>). Y\u0259qin bel\u0259 laz\u0131m imi\u015f\u2026 Bildim ki, g\u00fcnah\u0131mdan ke\u00e7\u0259rs\u0259n. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. \u018fg\u0259r ke\u00e7m\u0259s\u0259ydim?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259<\/b>r. Bel\u0259 etm\u0259zdin\u2026 Ax\u0131 m\u0259n\u00a0 vicdanl\u0131 adamam\u2026 (Q\u0259buledicid\u0259n q\u0259h-q\u0259h\u0259 s\u0259si e\u015fidildi. M\u00fc\u011f\u0259nni \u00abBiz\u0259 hans\u0131\u00a0\u00a0 yem\u0259k verdil\u0259r, orda hans\u0131 \u015f\u0259raba qonaq etdil\u0259r\u00bb operettas\u0131ndan\u00a0 m\u0259\u015fhur n\u00f6mr\u0259ni ifa edirdi<\/i>).<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Sa\u015fa\u2026 S\u0259n m\u0259niml\u0259 evl\u0259n\u0259 bil\u0259rdin? (\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r radioq\u0259buledicini bir k\u0259nara qoydu v\u0259 son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 diqq\u0259tl\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 baxd\u0131, \u00e7\u00fcnki, bu bar\u0259d\u0259 ilk d\u0259f\u0259 idi ki, soru\u015furdum<\/i>).<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259<\/b>r. Ax\u0131, n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 bu bar\u0259d\u0259 soru\u015fdun?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Maraq g\u00fcc g\u0259ldi. De d\u0259. Evl\u0259n\u0259 bil\u0259rdin?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259<\/b>r (bir q\u0259d\u0259r fikirl\u0259\u015f\u0259r\u0259k<\/i>). Evl\u0259nm\u0259k? Ax\u0131 niy\u0259? (O, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini m\u0259n\u0259 zill\u0259di. M\u0259n \u00e7iyinl\u0259rimi \u00e7\u0259kdim<\/i>). Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u0259n, k\u00f6rp\u0259\u2026 M\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t azadl\u0131q dem\u0259kdir, insan h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n ki\u00e7ik b\u0259z\u0259yi dem\u0259kdir. M\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t d\u00fcnyan\u0131n fani olmas\u0131n\u0131, h\u0259r c\u00fcr xo\u015fag\u0259lm\u0259zlikl\u0259ri, bu l\u0259n\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015f atom bombas\u0131n\u0131\u2026 unutma\u011fa imkan verir\u2026 S\u0259n m\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn azadl\u0131\u011f\u0131n bir par\u00e7as\u0131san. \u018fg\u0259r evl\u0259ns\u0259k, azadl\u0131q y\u00fck\u0259 \u00e7evril\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259 biz t\u0259s\u0259lli axtarmal\u0131 olaca\u011f\u0131q. Ail\u0259 ba\u015flanan yerd\u0259 azadl\u0131q bitir. Bunu ham\u0131 bilir v\u0259 k\u00f6n\u00fcll\u00fc olaraq ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 c\u0259nc\u0259l\u0259 sal\u0131r\u2026 A\u011f\u0131ldank\u0259ml\u0259r\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Dem\u0259li, evl\u0259nm\u0259zdin.<\/p>\n

(\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r q\u0259buledicinin nizamlay\u0131c\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 burub \u00e7ad\u0131ra girdi. M\u00fc\u011f\u0259nni q\u0259h-q\u0259h\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kirdi. Gec\u0259 idi. Ulduzlar\u00a0 sayr\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. D\u0259niz\u00a0 i\u015f\u0131q sa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131. D\u0259niz dinc\u0259lirdi<\/i>\u2026)<\/p>\n

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\u00dc\u00c7\u00dcNC\u00dc\u00a0 F\u018fS\u0130L<\/b><\/p>\n

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S\u0259h\u0259r. \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r uzaqda, d\u0259nizd\u0259 romans oxuyurdu: \u00ab\u00dcz m\u0259nim qay\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u2026\u00bb M\u0259n sahild\u0259 dayan\u0131b onun getdikc\u0259 ki\u00e7il\u0259n v\u0259 n\u0259hay\u0259t, Da\u015f burunda yoxa \u00e7\u0131xan qay\u0131\u011f\u0131na baxd\u0131m.<\/i><\/p>\n

Sonra \u00e7ad\u0131ra qay\u0131td\u0131m, jurnal g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb onu v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259dim. Oxumaq ist\u0259mirdim. Siqaret \u00e7\u0259kir, d\u0259niz\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131m. Aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b sahil\u0259 getdim, yenid\u0259n \u00e7ad\u0131ra qay\u0131td\u0131m, jurnal\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm, bir k\u0259nara tullad\u0131m\u2026 \u00d6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 etiraf etm\u0259y\u0259 utan\u0131rd\u0131m ki, m\u0259n \u018fzizi g\u00f6zl\u0259yir\u0259m v\u0259 bel\u0259 bir h\u0259y\u0259candan iztirab \u00e7\u0259kirdim:\u00a0 Do\u011frudan\u00a0 g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k?<\/i><\/p>\n

Kims\u0259 astadan fit \u00e7ald\u0131. M\u0259n fit\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u0259dim, lakin diksindim v\u0259 g\u0259rgin bir v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 donub qald\u0131m.<\/i><\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Bonjur, madam! Suare, puare, muare! (Arxaya d\u00f6nd\u00fcm. O, sahild\u0259 dayanm\u0131\u015f v\u0259 iri pl\u00fc\u015f meymunun p\u0259nc\u0259sind\u0259n tutmu\u015fdu<\/i>). Madam, m\u0259nim b\u00f6y\u00fck dostum ikinci Burbon s\u0259ni salamlay\u0131r (O, meymunu m\u0259n\u0259 uzatd\u0131<\/i>).<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Q\u0259\u015f\u0259ngdir (Meymunu g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm<\/i>). Fikirl\u0259\u015fdim ki, bir d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259zs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Niy\u0259 bu q\u0259rara g\u0259ldin?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. N\u0259 is\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 bel\u0259 g\u0259ldi.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. G\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn kimi, m\u0259n yen\u0259 d\u0259 buradayam. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 t\u0259k yox.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Niy\u0259 g\u0259ldin?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Tapa bilmirs\u0259n? S\u0259n ki, m\u0259nim haqq\u0131mda h\u0259r \u015feyi bilirs\u0259n. Bax, m\u0259n m\u00fcnasib an\u0131 se\u00e7ir v\u0259 \u2026 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Yax\u015f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259k!<\/p>\n

(Biz h\u0259r\u0259miz \u0130kinci Burbonun bir \u0259lind\u0259n yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b \u00e7ad\u0131ra t\u0259r\u0259f getdik. Oturub siqaret \u00e7\u0259kdik<\/i>).<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng qad\u0131nsan!<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Bax, bu oldu k\u0259\u015ff! B\u0259s s\u0259nin arvad\u0131n nec\u0259, q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng idi?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. O el\u0259 indi d\u0259 q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng olmal\u0131d\u0131r. Ancaq y\u0259qin ki, \u00e7ox qocal\u0131b: iyirmi iki ya\u015f\u0131 var\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. S\u0259n onu sevirdin?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Dey\u0259s\u0259n\u2026 A\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131, d\u0259qiq dey\u0259 bilmir\u0259m\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. N\u0259 vaxt evl\u0259nmi\u015fdiniz, he\u00e7 olmasa, bunu bilmirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. S\u00f6z\u00fcn d\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc des\u0259m, h\u0259r \u015fey n\u0259 is\u0259 t\u0259sad\u00fcf\u0259n, \u00e7ox m\u0259nas\u0131z bir \u015fey kimi oldu\u2026 H\u0259m evl\u0259ndik, h\u0259m d\u0259 ayr\u0131ld\u0131q\u2026 M\u0259nim v\u0259 yolda\u015flar\u0131m\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131 sad\u0259 idi, ancaq \u00f6zg\u0259 c\u00fcr h\u0259yat da arzulam\u0131rd\u0131q. Bel\u0259 h\u0259yat bizi t\u0259min edirdi. Patrulluq \u00fczm\u0259l\u0259ri, sahild\u0259 is\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259nc\u0259li gec\u0259l\u0259r, gitara, \u015f\u0259rab, nazl\u0131-q\u0259mz\u0259li g\u00f6z\u0259ll\u0259r\u2026 Bir d\u0259f\u0259 q\u0131zlardan biri yan\u0131mda anas\u0131 ona icaz\u0259 verdiyi vaxtdan bir q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7ox qald\u0131\u2026 S\u0259h\u0259r tezd\u0259n yuxudan oyan\u0131b g\u00f6rd\u00fcm\u00a0 ki, q\u0131z m\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131b z\u00fclm-z\u00fclm a\u011flay\u0131r. \u201cDi, qalx\u201d, -dedim! Gedib, zaqs\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sdirdik. Dostlar\u0131m bu izdivaca n\u00f6vb\u0259ti \u0259yl\u0259nc\u0259 kimi bax\u0131rd\u0131lar. A\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131, m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131 ciddi t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr etmirdim. Toydan sonra ilk d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259niz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. Gec\u0259 buxtada qald\u0131m. Ulduzlara, okeana tama\u015fa etdim. Bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 xeyirxah v\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131, \u00fcst\u0259lik xo\u015fb\u0259xt hiss etdim. \u00dcr\u0259yim xo\u015f bir duy\u011fudan isindi: z\u0259rif v\u0259 inc\u0259 varl\u0131q dayan\u0131b yegan\u0259 \u00fcmidi v\u0259 m\u00fcdafi\u0259\u00e7isi olan bir adam\u0131n, g\u00f6z i\u015fl\u0259dikc\u0259 uzan\u0131b ged\u0259n sular \u0259hat\u0259sind\u0259 olan bir\u00a0 insan\u0131n\u00a0 geri d\u00f6nm\u0259sini g\u00f6zl\u0259yir. Bu, m\u0259n idim. Bu, d\u0259md\u0259m\u0259ki v\u0259 q\u0131zlar\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 tovlay\u0131b yoldan \u00e7\u0131xaran h\u0259r hans\u0131 bir adam yox, m\u0259hz m\u0259n \u2013 g\u00fccl\u00fc d\u0259niz c\u0259ngav\u0259ri m\u0259n\u00a0 idim. H\u0259-\u0259, o m\u0259ni sevirdi, bilirsiniz, az qala d\u0259lic\u0259sin\u0259 sevirdi. \u00dcr\u0259yi h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 s\u0259ks\u0259k\u0259d\u0259 idi. Ona el\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259rdi ki, m\u0259n d\u0259nizd\u0259 \u00e7oxdan qalm\u0131\u015f m\u0259rmiy\u0259 toxunmu\u015fam, yaxud yapon brakonyerl\u0259ri v\u0259 tede t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n \u0259sir al\u0131nm\u0131\u015fam. Ev\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 a\u011flar, p\u0259rvan\u0259 t\u0259ki ba\u015f\u0131ma dolanar, h\u0259r bax\u0131\u015fdan\u00a0 diksin\u0259rdi. Birlikd\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z iki il bel\u0259c\u0259 \u00f6td\u00fc. Sonra m\u0259nim daxilimd\u0259 el\u0259 bil n\u0259 is\u0259 q\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131. Onda m\u0259n daha \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 hesabat vermirdim. \u0130ndi m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, m\u0259n sad\u0259c\u0259 bel\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259td\u0259n yorulub-usanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. \u00d6z ke\u00e7mi\u015f sarsaq s\u0259rb\u0259stliyim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn q\u0259ribs\u0259mi\u015fdim. Bu ara onun \u0259vv\u0259lki ni\u015fanl\u0131s\u0131 ordudan qay\u0131td\u0131 v\u0259 bu m\u0259nim m\u0259nas\u0131z v\u0259 yersiz iradlar\u0131m, yanl\u0131\u015f \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259rim, \u00f6c\u0259\u015fm\u0259l\u0259rim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn b\u0259han\u0259 oldu. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, onun h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6z\u00fclm\u0259z etmi\u015fdim. Bir g\u00fcn \u015feyl\u0259rini y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b anas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na getdi.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. S\u0259n is\u0259 f\u0259r\u0259hinizd\u0259n qanad a\u00e7d\u0131n?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Yox, qorxdum. Onun ard\u0131nca yolland\u0131m. Qay\u0131tmas\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dil t\u00f6kd\u00fcm. Lakin g\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259d\u0259n o, q\u00fcrurlu v\u0259 adame\u015fitm\u0259z oldu. \u201cDedi, s\u0259ni, yaln\u0131z s\u0259ni sevir\u0259m. V\u0259 buna g\u00f6r\u0259 ist\u0259mir\u0259m ki, yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131n g\u0259lib, m\u0259n\u0259 ac\u0131yasan\u2026\u201d V\u0259ssalam. S\u0259n bu q\u0259ziyy\u0259 haqq\u0131nda n\u0259 dey\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. \u0130lahi. M\u0259n deyim? Bilmir\u0259m\u2026 M\u0259nc\u0259, insan sizin\u00a0 bu pl\u00fc\u015f meymun kimi sad\u0259 olan, lakin ona h\u0259r \u015feyi xat\u0131rlatmayan, \u0259zab-i\u015fg\u0259nc\u0259 verm\u0259y\u0259n bir \u015fey\u0259 malik olsa, daha yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Yeri g\u0259lmi\u015fk\u0259n, \u0130kinci Burbonu s\u0259nin\u00e7in h\u0259diyy\u0259 g\u0259tirmi\u015f\u0259m. Ola bilsin ki, h\u0259min ay\u0131 balas\u0131n\u0131 \u0259v\u0259z etsin. \u018fslin\u0259 baxanda, o \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 \u0259v\u0259zdir\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. B\u0259s birinci Burbonu kim\u0259 h\u0259diyy\u0259 vermis\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. O \u00f6l\u00fcb\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Nec\u0259? O canl\u0131 idi?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. B\u0259li. O, canl\u0131 v\u0259 \u00e7ox zir\u0259k idi. H\u0259tta bir balaca s\u0131rt\u0131ql\u0131\u011f\u0131 vard\u0131. Bunu is\u0259 h\u0259min meymunun xatir\u0259sini yad etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn alm\u0131\u015f\u0131q.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. O n\u0259d\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fc?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b> Radiasiyadan.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Radiasiyadan?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Bizim qay\u0131q radiaktiv zonaya d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 o da katerd\u0259 idi. Burbon y\u00fcz \u0259lli rentgen \u015f\u00fcas\u0131 ald\u0131. Bu is\u0259 meymun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6l\u00fcm dem\u0259k idi.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. B\u0259s insan \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. El\u0259 insan \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Katerd\u0259 ekipaj vard\u0131?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259\u2026 Ax\u0131, o, he\u00e7 d\u0259 \u00abU\u00e7an hollandiyal\u0131\u00bb deyildi. Meymundan savay\u0131, katerd\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 n\u0259f\u0259r vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n. <\/b>Onlar ham\u0131s\u0131? (\u018fziz ba\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 t\u0259sdiq etdi v\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n siqaret \u00e7\u0259kdi<\/i>). <\/b>Ax\u0131 bu nec\u0259 oldu ki, ba\u015f verdi?<\/b><\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Ke\u015fik\u00e7i kateri neytral sularda radiaktiv zona a\u015fkar etmi\u015fdi. Ratsiya s\u0131radan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Qar\u015f\u0131dan s\u0259rni\u015fin g\u0259misi g\u0259lirdi. \u0130\u015f\u0131q siqnal\u0131 verm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259min zonan\u0131 yar\u0131b ke\u00e7m\u0259k laz\u0131m idi.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. H\u0259, h\u0259. Lap yax\u0131nlarda hardasa s\u0259rni\u015fin g\u0259misini xilas etmi\u015f \u00fc\u00e7 d\u0259niz\u00e7i haqq\u0131nda oxumu\u015fam. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 \u201cMayak\u201dla x\u0259b\u0259r veribl\u0259r\u2026 Orada atom sualt\u0131 qay\u0131\u011f\u0131 partlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. H\u0259, o bar\u0259d\u0259 yazm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. H\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fc h\u0259lak oldu?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Salamat qurtarmaq qeyri-m\u00fcmk\u00fcn idi.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Ax\u0131 onlar h\u0259min l\u0259n\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015f zonan\u0131 ke\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259 bil\u0259rdil\u0259r!<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. B\u0259li, ke\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259 bil\u0259rdil\u0259r. G\u0259mid\u0259 is\u0259 min n\u0259f\u0259r adam vard\u0131. Onlar is\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7c\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259r idi. \u00d6zg\u0259 c\u00fcr h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t etm\u0259k olmazd\u0131. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 buras\u0131ndad\u0131r.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Q\u0259rib\u0259 m\u00fchakim\u0259 y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcrs\u0259n\u2026<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. M\u0259nc\u0259, v\u0259t\u0259nda\u015f m\u00fcharib\u0259sind\u0259 h\u0259lak olanlar da, \u0130spaniyada \u00f6l\u0259nl\u0259r d\u0259, Odessa yax\u0131nla\u011f\u0131nda yerl\u0259\u015f\u0259n\u00a0 vodoka\u00e7kada d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u0259nl\u0259r d\u0259, Vladimir Komorov da bel\u0259 m\u00fchakim\u0259 y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u0259rdi\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Bir \u015feyi ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcr\u0259m\u2026 \u0130nsan\u0131n \u00f6z \u015f\u0259xsi h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 k\u00f6n\u00fcll\u00fc qurban verm\u0259sind\u0259 bir m\u0259na varm\u0131? Bu ki, d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tdir.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. \u018fg\u0259r, bu, vacibdirs\u0259 – m\u0259nas\u0131 var\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Bel\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r ki, s\u0259ninki g\u0259tirib.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. N\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bel\u0259 z\u0259nn edirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. H\u0259min g\u00fcn s\u0259n n\u00f6vb\u0259d\u0259 olmam\u0131san\u2026<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Xeyr, m\u0259n d\u0259 n\u00f6vb\u0259d\u0259 idim\u2026 (Biz susduq. M\u0259n sars\u0131ld\u0131m. \u0130lahi, m\u0259n\u0259 bax\u2026 D\u00fcn\u0259nki k\u0259\u015ffim \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259tsiz g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc v\u0259 m\u0259ni utand\u0131rd\u0131. Bilm\u0259dim ki, n\u0259 deyim v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc nec\u0259 apar\u0131m. Ona n\u0259 is\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 s\u00f6zl\u0259r dem\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim, lakin laz\u0131mi s\u00f6zl\u0259r tapa bilm\u0259dim)<\/i>. Bax, g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n, yen\u0259 d\u0259 qan\u0131n\u0131 qaraltd\u0131m (O, saat\u0131na baxd\u0131<\/i>). Nahara az qal\u0131b. Yoxa \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan x\u0259b\u0259r tutsalar, ham\u0131 bir-birin\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. H\u0259kiml\u0259r h\u0259r add\u0131m\u0131ma g\u00f6z qoyurlar, x\u00fcsus\u0259n son g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259. Sabah g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. \u00c7ao!<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. S\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m.\u00a0 (\u018fziz\u00a0 qay\u0131\u011fa sar\u0131 gedib it\u0259l\u0259di, at\u0131l\u0131b mindi v\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcb getdi. M\u0259n \u0259limd\u0259 meymun dayan\u0131b durdum<\/i>).<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b> (uzaqdan<\/i>). Burbonu incitm\u0259yin, yax\u015f\u0131 cavand\u0131r!<\/p>\n

(\u018fziz\u00a0 g\u00f6zd\u0259n dem\u0259k olar ki, it\u0259nd\u0259n sonra, m\u0259n meymunu tullay\u0131b, sahil\u0259 do\u011fru qa\u00e7d\u0131m, \u0259limi a\u011fz\u0131ma qoyaraq q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131m<\/i>).<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. \u018fg\u0259r s\u0259n inqilab etm\u0259mis\u0259ns\u0259? \u0130spaniyada \u00f6lm\u0259mi\u00ads\u0259ns\u0259? Kosmosa u\u00e7mursansa? G\u0259mil\u0259ri xilas etmirs\u0259ns\u0259? \u018fg\u0259r h\u0259tta \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ki\u00e7ik q\u0259rib\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 qura bilmirs\u0259ns\u0259? Miskin t\u0259nhal\u0131\u011f\u0131na q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 \u00e7ala bilmirs\u0259ns\u0259? Onda nec\u0259, n\u0259 etm\u0259li? H\u0259-\u0259?<\/p>\n

(D\u0259nizd\u0259n k\u00fcl\u0259k \u0259sirdi. Cavab g\u0259lm\u0259di. Bir q\u0259d\u0259r dayand\u0131m, sonra sudan araland\u0131m, Burbonu qald\u0131rd\u0131m v\u0259 qumun \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm<\/i>).<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259rin s\u0259si<\/b>. Nazi-i (\u00d6nc\u0259 meymunu gizl\u0259tm\u0259k ist\u0259dim. Lakin fikrimd\u0259n da\u015f\u0131nd\u0131m<\/i>). Nazi, m\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k et.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n meymunu \u00e7ad\u0131r\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na qoyub \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131\u015fa t\u0259l\u0259sdim. Qay\u0131q\u00a0 g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc. \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r dizi \u00fcst\u0259 qay\u0131qda dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Onun \u0259ll\u0259ri al-qana boyanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. O, \u00e7iyinl\u0259rimd\u0259n tutub m\u0259ni qucaqlad\u0131. Biz \u00e7ad\u0131ra sar\u0131 getdik.<\/i><\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Yeni baza \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yax\u015f\u0131 yer tapm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, qay\u0131qdan tullananda l\u00f6vb\u0259r\u0259 toxundum\u2026 Yaram d\u0259rin deyil, ancaq qan dayanmaq bilmir! (Onu \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdirib yaras\u0131n\u0131 yodla t\u0259mizl\u0259dim v\u0259 t\u0259nzifl\u0259 sar\u0131ma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m<\/i>). Tar\u0131m \u00e7\u0259kdin (M\u0259n sar\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bo\u015faltd\u0131m<\/i>). Bird\u0259n qanda z\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259nm\u0259 ba\u015flasa, a?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Ola bil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. N\u0259, n\u0259?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Qanda z\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259nm\u0259 ba\u015flasa, \u00f6l\u0259rs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b> (vahim\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259<\/i>). N\u0259 s\u0259fehl\u0259yirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Burada n\u0259 var ki? Qanda z\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259nm\u0259 ba\u015flasa, \u00f6l\u0259rs\u0259n. S\u0259n he\u00e7 \u00f6l\u00fcm haqq\u0131nda fikirl\u0259\u015firs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. M\u0259nim daha vacib i\u015fl\u0259rim var.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. He\u00e7 \u00f6l\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b> (\u0259lini aln\u0131ma qoyaraq<\/i>). H\u0259rar\u0259tim qaydas\u0131ndad\u0131r?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. De g\u00f6r\u00fcm, ba\u015fqa adamlar\u0131n yolunda \u00f6l\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Hans\u0131 adamlar\u0131n?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. \u018fg\u0259r s\u0259nin yan\u0131na\u2026g\u0259ls\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Kim g\u0259ls\u0259?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Tutaq ki, Allah. H\u0259, Allah g\u0259lib: “\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r, \u00f6l, yoxsa minl\u0259rl\u0259 ba\u015fqalar\u0131 \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259k” des\u0259, \u00f6l\u0259rs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Ax\u0131 n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. \u00d6lm\u0259zs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Yox.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n. Qoy minl\u0259rl\u0259 ba\u015fqalar\u0131 \u00f6ls\u00fcn, h\u0259?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. \u00d6ls\u00fcnl\u0259r d\u0259. Burda m\u0259nim n\u0259 g\u00fcnah\u0131m var?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. \u018fg\u0259r s\u0259n ba\u015fqalar\u0131n\u0131n yolunda \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 haz\u0131r olan \u00f6zg\u0259 birisin\u0259 rast g\u0259ls\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Dem\u0259k, o, gicb\u0259s\u0259rdir, yaxud psix. \u015e\u00f6hr\u0259t axtar\u0131r.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Ax\u0131 \u015f\u00f6hr\u0259t onun n\u0259yin\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259kdir?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Pulu yoxdur, \u015f\u00f6hr\u0259t ist\u0259yir. Psixl\u0259r azd\u0131r?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Lap alver\u00e7i kimi fikirl\u0259\u015firs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. S\u0259n\u0259timdir! N\u0259yi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m, onu da deyir\u0259m. Ba\u015f\u00adqalar\u0131 is\u0259 \u00e7\u0131lpaq b\u0259d\u0259nl\u0259rind\u0259ki t\u0259nas\u00fcl \u00fczvl\u0259rini yarpaqla \u00f6rt\u00fcrl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Dem\u0259k, s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc he\u00e7 vaxt qurban verm\u0259zdin?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b> (ani fikirl\u0259\u015f\u0259nd\u0259n sonra<\/i>). \u00dcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, ola bilsin ki, bunu ed\u0259r\u0259m. Lakin insanlar buna layiq deyil.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Layiq deyil?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. B\u0259s s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn nec\u0259, kimins\u0259 xatirin\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc qurban ver\u0259rdin?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 m\u0259n bunu etmi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. \u018f\u015fi qoy oturmu\u015fuq. Kimin yolunda?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Anam\u0131n.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. N\u0259 vaxt olub?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. S\u0259n bostonu gizl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 anan\u0131n n\u0259 d\u0259xli var?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. O m\u0259n\u0259: “\u018fg\u0259r s\u0259ni tutsalar, \u00f6l\u0259r\u0259m” dedi. M\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259nin yan\u0131na getdim.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Anan bilirdi ki, s\u0259ni tutmayacaqlar. Aya\u011f\u0131nda mal qalmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan onun x\u0259b\u0259ri vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. S\u00f6zl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdiniz?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. S\u0259nin xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyin namin\u0259\u2026 Ona el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, biz evl\u0259n\u0259c\u0259yik.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Ola bilm\u0259z!<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Hiyl\u0259g\u0259rlik el\u0259m\u0259. S\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn h\u0259r \u015feyi bilirdin.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. M\u0259n he\u00e7 n\u0259 bilmirdim!<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Bilm\u0259m\u0259yin s\u0259nin\u00e7in s\u0259rf\u0259li idi, ona g\u00f6r\u0259.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Yalan deyirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. He\u00e7 Yeni ili xat\u0131rlay\u0131rsan? Anan i\u00e7ib a\u011fz\u0131ndan qa\u00e7\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. S\u0259n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda dayan\u0131b a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131n. M\u0259n\u00a0 s\u0259nin yan\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sdirib d\u00fcz s\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r oturdum, arvad\u0131ma is\u0259 milis \u015f\u00f6b\u0259sin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc dedim. Yad\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b? (M\u0259n yaddan \u00e7\u0131xarma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m h\u0259min m\u0259nfur gec\u0259ni xat\u0131rlad\u0131m v\u0259 yaln\u0131z indi h\u0259r \u015feyi ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. Doda\u011f\u0131m\u0131 di\u015fl\u0259yib susdum<\/i>). H\u0259, niy\u0259 dinmirs\u0259n? B\u0259lk\u0259 m\u00fczakir\u0259ni davam etdir\u0259k?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. \u0130lahi! Biz insanlar nec\u0259 d\u0259 iyr\u0259ncik (M\u0259n \u0259ll\u0259riml\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc qapad\u0131m<\/i>).<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b> (\u0259lini m\u0259nim \u00e7iynim\u0259 qoyaraq<\/i>). S\u0259n, k\u00f6rp\u0259 quzum, bundan h\u0259l\u0259 indi x\u0259b\u0259r tutursan? M\u0259n is\u0259 g\u00f6r n\u0259 vaxtdan\u2026 \u018fn yax\u0131n v\u0259 \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 dostu atama \u015f\u0259r atanda, ba\u015fqa \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 dostu ana\u00adma \u0259l atanda, sonra is\u0259 m\u0259nzilimiz\u0259 yiy\u0259l\u0259nib ail\u0259mizi k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 t\u00f6k\u0259nd\u0259 bilirdim. Ham\u0131 bizd\u0259n \u00fcz d\u00f6nd\u0259rmi\u015fdi. Anam\u0131 i\u015f\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. \u00dc\u00e7 il m\u0259ni instituta q\u0259bul etm\u0259dil\u0259r. Bir \u0259lc\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259r g\u00fcn da\u011fa-da\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fck. Gec\u0259l\u0259r stansiyada k\u00f6m\u00fcr, \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fck qarp\u0131z y\u00fckl\u0259yirdim. X\u0131rda alverl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 qohumlar\u0131mdan birinin yan\u0131na gedib on manat ist\u0259dim. M\u0259n ged\u0259nd\u0259n sonra evd\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131l saat\u0131n yoxa \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fkar etdil\u0259r. Ham\u0131 m\u0259nd\u0259n-ac bazar itind\u0259n \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259nirdi. Sonradan saat divan\u0131n arxas\u0131ndan tap\u0131ld\u0131. Dem\u0259, u\u015faq at\u0131bm\u0131\u015f. Bunu e\u015fid\u0259n kimi g\u0259lib onlar\u0131n evd\u0259ki b\u00fct\u00fcn p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259l\u0259rini q\u0131rd\u0131m. M\u0259ni tutub sa\u011f can\u0131mda israhat qoymad\u0131lar\u2026 H\u0259, bu da s\u0259n\u0259 insanlar! S\u0259ns\u0259 ist\u0259yirs\u0259n ki, onlar\u0131n yolunda \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 gedim. Ola bilsin ki, haradasa m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s adamlar var. Ancaq m\u0259n bel\u0259l\u0259rini g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. O, bastonu he\u00e7 c\u00fcr unuda bilmirs\u0259n? \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259l\u0259k kimi g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259. Onsuz da ya\u015famaq instinkti s\u0259ni s\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131r. V\u0259 s\u0259n al\u00e7aql\u0131qlara \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fir, daha heyr\u0259t etmirs\u0259n. \u00c7\u00fcnki s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn d\u0259 al\u00e7aql\u0131q etm\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131rlan\u0131rsan.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. El\u0259 bu? Daha ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 n\u0259 yoxdur? Ba\u015fqa h\u0259qiq\u0259t yoxmu?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. H\u0259qiq\u0259t? Bu, materiyan\u0131n h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tidir, k\u00f6rp\u0259. Materiyan\u0131n h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tidir, onun da\u011f\u0131lmas\u0131d\u0131r. Bomba partlay\u0131\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcr. Ayr\u0131l\u0131qd\u0131r. Do\u011fulu\u015fdur. \u00d6l\u00fcmd\u00fcr. B\u00fct\u00fcn qalanlar\u0131 is\u0259 \u0259xlaqd\u0131r, bir d\u0259 \u0259ncir yarpa\u011f\u0131*<\/a>. \u0130nsanlar \u00f6z \u00e7\u0131lpaq b\u0259d\u0259nl\u0259rinin t\u0259nas\u00fcl \u00fczvl\u0259rini \u00f6rtm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn onlar\u0131 uydurublar.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n. <\/b>\u0130\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259 bir \u015fey var (\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r axsaya-axsaya ma\u015f\u0131na do\u011f\u00adru gedib konyak \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131 v\u0259 meymunu g\u00f6rd\u00fc<\/i>). Bu n\u0259 m\u00fcq\u0259v\u00advad\u0131r?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n. <\/b>\u0130kinci Burbondur\u2026<\/b><\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. O haradan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Y\u0259qin hans\u0131sa psix itirib\u2026 (\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r meymunu qolu getdikc\u0259 tullad\u0131. M\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131, butulkan\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b m\u0259n\u0259 v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 konyak s\u00fczd\u00fc. M\u0259n i\u00e7dim<\/i>). Yen\u0259 s\u00fcz.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. B\u0259lk\u0259 b\u0259sdir?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. S\u00fcz (\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 baxd\u0131 v\u0259 konyak s\u00fczm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. M\u0259n g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi a\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 onun \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lir<\/i>). Yen\u0259 s\u00fcz (M\u0259n a\u011flad\u0131m. Ona da, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 d\u0259 yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u0259ldi)<\/i>.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Laz\u0131m deyil\u2026a\u011flamaq laz\u0131m deyil, k\u00f6rp\u0259\u2026 (St\u0259kan\u0131n yanlar\u0131ndan konyak s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc<\/i>).<\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/b><\/p>\n

D\u00d6RD\u00dcNC\u00dc F\u018fS\u0130L<\/b><\/p>\n

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Qa\u015fqaralan vaxtd\u0131r. D\u0259nizin \u00fcz\u0259ri il\u0259 ard\u0131-aras\u0131 k\u0259silm\u0259y\u0259n qu\u015f karvan\u0131 \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7irdi.\u00a0 M\u0259n sahild\u0259 oturub s\u0259ssiz-s\u0259mirsiz d\u0259niz\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131m. \u018fziz yan\u0131mda dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Daha \u00e7ox onun bu s\u0259h\u0259r g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n qorxurdum. V\u0259 h\u0259r halda o g\u0259ldi. Onunla v\u0259 \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259rl\u0259 d\u00fcn\u0259nki s\u00f6hb\u0259td\u0259n sonra daxilimd\u0259 \u00e7ox b\u00f6y\u00fck narahat\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q vard\u0131. H\u0259l\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt \u00fcr\u0259yim bel\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131lmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. B\u0259lk\u0259 s\u0259nin qar\u015f\u0131nda n\u0259 is\u0259 bir g\u00fcnah\u0131m var (M\u0259n cavab verm\u0259dim<\/i>). N\u0259 olub? D\u00fcn\u0259n bir dost kimi s\u00f6hb\u0259t etdik\u2026 B\u0259lk\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 s\u00f6z deyibl\u0259r? (M\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 yell\u0259dim<\/i>). Allah xatirin\u0259 cavab ver, s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 olub?<\/p>\n

(M\u0259n c\u0259ld ona t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7evrildim v\u0259 aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131m. O m\u0259n\u0259 baxd\u0131, t\u0259qsirkar adamlar kimi g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di. Bu insan n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259nim h\u0259yat\u0131ma daxil oldu? Bird\u0259n m\u0259n daha bet\u0259ri bar\u0259d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm: b\u0259lk\u0259 onu el\u0259 t\u0259hqir edim ki, o, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259lik \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getsin? Ola bilsin ki, bu, h\u0259m m\u0259nim\u00e7in, h\u0259m d\u0259 onun\u00e7un daha yax\u015f\u0131 olar?\u00a0 Xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik\u00add\u0259n bunu etm\u0259dim. M\u0259n dinm\u0259z-s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259z \u00e7ad\u0131ra yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131m, Burbonu g\u0259tirib ona verdim<\/i>).<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Boyun qa\u00e7\u0131r\u0131rsan? (g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k<\/i>) Yetim\u00e7\u0259d\u0259n?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. O m\u0259nd\u0259n boyun qa\u00e7\u0131r\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Yalvar\u0131ram, de,\u00a0 b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar n\u0259 dem\u0259kdir?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Ciddi bir \u015fey yoxdur.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Bu bir sutka \u0259rzind\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 is\u0259 olub?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Ciddi bir \u015fey olmay\u0131b. Sad\u0259c\u0259, b\u0259zi \u015feyl\u0259ri bilmi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, n\u0259yi?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Bilm\u0259s\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Bax, bu olmad\u0131. \u018fg\u0259r m\u0259n\u0259 aidiyy\u0259ti varsa, g\u0259r\u0259k dey\u0259s\u0259n.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. S\u0259n\u0259? \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, bunun s\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 aidiyy\u0259ti var. D\u0259h\u015f\u0259t buras\u0131ndad\u0131r ki, indi m\u0259n\u0259 aid n\u0259 varsa, eyni zamanda, s\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 aiddir. S\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, orda-d\u0259nizd\u0259 q\u0259hr\u0259manl\u0131q g\u00f6st\u0259rmis\u0259n? \u018fslind\u0259\u00a0 cinay\u0259t t\u00f6r\u0259tmis\u0259n.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. M\u0259n? S\u0259ni ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bilmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. B\u0259li. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259nin xilas etdiyin g\u0259mid\u0259 \u00f6z q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n l\u0259yaq\u0259tini h\u0259rraca qoymu\u015f m\u0259nim anam, yaxud bir q\u0131z\u0131 al\u00e7aqcas\u0131na aldad\u0131b onu \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fck anal\u0131q s\u0259ad\u0259tind\u0259n m\u0259hrum etmi\u015f insan olub? B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 orda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00fcnahs\u0131z qurban kimi g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259n bir n\u0259f\u0259r \u015f\u0259r\u0259fsiz varm\u0131\u015f. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 g\u0259mid\u0259 \u00f6z dostuna \u015f\u0259r atm\u0131\u015f, sonra is\u0259 onun arvad\u0131n\u0131 k\u00f6rp\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131 il\u0259 k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 tullay\u0131b onun m\u0259nzilin\u0259 yiy\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015f bir adam varm\u0131\u015f? B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 orda ya\u015f dodaql\u0131, dazba\u015f, cavan q\u0131zlar\u0131 yoldan \u00e7\u0131xaran bir adminstrator varm\u0131\u015f. S\u0259n is\u0259 \u00f6z h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131z bahas\u0131na b\u00fct\u00fcn bu kompaniyan\u0131 xilas edibs\u0259n!<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. B\u0259sdir! S\u0259n b\u0259\u015f\u0259r n\u0259slinin \u0259claf oldu\u011funu s\u00fcbut etm\u0259k ist\u0259yirs\u0259n. Lakin bel\u0259 b\u0259sit t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcrl\u0259 ist\u0259yin\u0259 nail ola bilm\u0259zs\u0259n. V\u0259 bel\u0259 bir iddian \u0259sass\u0131zd\u0131r ki, g\u0259mid\u0259ki adamlar\u0131 xilas etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6z h\u0259yat\u0131mdan ke\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259zdi\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. B\u0259lk\u0259, d\u00fcnya \u0130ss\u0131k-Kulun \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259ki s\u0259ma kimi mavi, insanlar is\u0259 u\u00e7an bu qu\u015flar kimi l\u0259k\u0259sizdir?\u2026<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Yox, Nazi. D\u00fcnya n\u0259 mavidir, n\u0259 d\u0259 qara. O, spektrin b\u00fct\u00fcn r\u0259ngl\u0259ri il\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259nir. N\u0259 vaxta q\u0259d\u0259r insan m\u00f6vcuddur, yer \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t d\u0259, nifr\u0259t d\u0259 olacaq. N\u0259 vaxta q\u0259d\u0259r insan \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k v\u0259 \u0259tl\u0259 qidalan\u0131r, h\u0259yat u\u011frunda m\u00fcbariz\u0259 olacaq. N\u0259 vaxta q\u0259d\u0259r insan \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 m\u0259hkumdur, k\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259, itki d\u0259 olacaq\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Bel\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r ki, \u015f\u0259r m\u0259hvedilm\u0259zdir?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Bu, \u015f\u0259r deyil, h\u0259yatd\u0131r. M\u00fcbariz\u0259siz is\u0259 h\u0259yat yoxdur.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. El\u0259 is\u0259 barrikadalar qurmaq, \u00f6z h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 qurban verm\u0259k niy\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131r?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. \u0130nsan\u0131n \u0259sl\u0259n-n\u0259sl\u0259n xeyirxah, m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259tli v\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 oldu\u011funu s\u00fcbuta yetirm\u0259k, onun ehtiyac v\u0259 yoxsulluqdan, k\u00f6l\u0259lik v\u0259 \u0259sar\u0259td\u0259n \u0259yilmi\u015f belini d\u00fcz\u0259ltm\u0259kd\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. G\u00f6z\u0259l s\u00f6zl\u0259rdir\u2026 He\u00e7 olmasa s\u0259n bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri dem\u0259y\u0259ydin..<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rin yolunda atan h\u0259lak olub.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Ba\u015fqalar\u0131 is\u0259 \u015f\u0259r i\u015fl\u0259r g\u00f6rm\u0259kd\u0259 davam edirl\u0259r!<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Onlar xeyirxah olduqlar\u0131n\u0131 bilm\u0259y\u0259n\u00a0\u00a0 b\u0259db\u0259xtl\u0259rdir.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>.\u00a0 B\u0259s bunu\u00a0 bil\u0259n adam nec\u0259 – xo\u015fb\u0259xtdir?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. H\u0259.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. S\u0259n xo\u015fb\u0259xts\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. M\u0259n \u0259sas borcumu yerin\u0259 yetirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131m\u2026 H\u0259r \u015fey \u00e7ox sad\u0259dir.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b> (sakitc\u0259<\/i>). M\u0259n\u0259 bel\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, s\u0259nin xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyin yaln\u0131z ondan ibar\u0259tdir ki, etdiyin yax\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n pe\u015fman\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 macal tapmam\u0131\u015f d\u00fcnyan\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n\u2026<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. M\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259 ya\u015famaq ist\u0259rdim..<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Lakin s\u0259nin c\u0259hdin d\u0259nizd\u0259ki damla kimidir. S\u0259nin etdiyini minl\u0259rl\u0259 ba\u015fqalar\u0131 etm\u0259k ist\u0259mirl\u0259r\u2026<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. M\u0259n ki, etdim\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Bel\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r ki, s\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 yaln\u0131z \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 getmis\u0259n? (Bird\u0259n \u018fzizin ba\u015f\u0131 gic\u0259ll\u0259ndi v\u0259 o, qumun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 oturdu.\u00a0 \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc ona sar\u0131 atd\u0131m<\/i>).<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Narahat olma\u2026Bu saat ke\u00e7\u0259r\u2026Tezlikl\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey \u00f6t\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k (O, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131\u00a0 y\u0131r\u011falad\u0131. M\u0259n dizi \u00fcst\u0259 onun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda otur\u00addum, yana\u011f\u0131m\u0131 onun ovcuna s\u00f6yk\u0259dim<\/i>).<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla m\u0259ni\u2026M\u0259n \u00e7ox yaramaz qad\u0131nam. M\u0259n q\u0259ddar h\u0259\u015f\u0259ratam. M\u0259nim b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcnyaya ac\u0131\u011f\u0131m tutub. \u00d6z iztirablar\u0131m, q\u0259mim-k\u0259d\u0259rim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, he\u00e7 vaxt ana ola bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qisas almaq ist\u0259yirdim.<\/p>\n

(O m\u0259nim ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 k\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0131xd\u0131. M\u0259n onun \u00fcr\u0259yinin nec\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc e\u015fitdim.\u00a0 O m\u0259nim sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6pd\u00fc, biz\u00a0 susduq. Lakin m\u0259n \u00f6z s\u0259simi e\u015fitdim. Dey\u0259s\u0259n, o da bunu e\u015fitdi<\/i>).<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim s\u0259sim<\/b>. Bu vaxta q\u0259d\u0259r harada idin? M\u0259n s\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. B\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6mr\u00fcm boyu g\u00f6zl\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, amma ba\u015fqalar\u0131 g\u0259ldil\u0259r. G\u0259ldil\u0259r v\u0259 m\u0259ni \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. Budur, s\u0259n g\u0259ldin. S\u0259ninl\u0259 olma\u00ad\u011f\u0131 nec\u0259 d\u0259 arzulay\u0131ram! Yaln\u0131z s\u0259ninl\u0259! Amma s\u0259n \u00e7ox gec g\u0259ldin. D\u00fcnya nec\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259dal\u0259tsiz qurulub. \u0130nsanlar n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir-birl\u0259rin\u00add\u0259n qorxur, bir-birl\u0259rin\u0259 n\u0259d\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc k\u0259l\u0259k g\u0259lirl\u0259r, sevm\u0259k, u\u015faq do\u011fmaq, bu\u011fda s\u0259pm\u0259k \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli bombalar ixtira edirl\u0259r. Tezlikl\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259lik ged\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. Amma m\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259\u00adya\u015far olacaqsan. M\u0259nim q\u0259lbimd\u0259, vicdan\u0131mda, q\u00fcrurumda \u0259b\u0259di yuva salacaqsan\u2026Sa\u011f ol, m\u0259nim xeyirxah\u0131m\u2026<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b> (m\u0259nim g\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259 baxaraq<\/i>). Bu g\u00fcn m\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdin?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. S\u0259ni h\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdim. Bu g\u00fcn is\u0259 yox. S\u0259nin g\u0259lm\u0259yini ist\u0259mirdim, ancaq bununla bel\u0259, g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdim\u2026 \u0130st\u0259yirs\u0259n s\u0259nin palatanda n\u00f6vb\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kim?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. \u0130caz\u0259 verm\u0259zl\u0259r\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. \u018fg\u0259r nec\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131rsa xahi\u015f edils\u0259?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Nec\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131rsa xahi\u015f edils\u0259 d\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259yi d\u0259ym\u0259z\u2026 (M\u0259n ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. O m\u0259nim ona \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fm\u0259yimi ist\u0259mirdi<\/i>).<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. H\u0259, h\u0259\u2026 \u0130caz\u0259 verm\u0259zl\u0259r, bilir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Onlar m\u0259ni tam konsiliumla m\u00fc\u015fahid\u0259 edirl\u0259r. N\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 m\u0259n o biril\u0259rind\u0259n a\u011f\u0131ram\u2026 Edikl\u0259 Sergey \u00e7ox z\u0259ifdirl\u0259r\u2026 (Bird\u0259n m\u0259nd\u0259 \u00fcmid yarand\u0131<\/i>).<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. B\u0259lk\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 gec deyil? M\u0259n oxum\u015fam haradasa\u2026 H\u0259, dey\u0259s\u0259n Yuqoslaviyada. H\u0259, Yuqoslaviyada m\u00fcalic\u0259 ed\u0259 bilirl\u0259r\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. H\u0259, h\u0259\u2026 \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, h\u0259r \u015fey ola bil\u0259r. H\u0259r \u015fey\u2026<\/p>\n

Tibb bac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n uzaqdan e\u015fidil\u0259n s\u0259si.<\/b> \u018fziz-iz, haradas\u0131n\u0131z?<\/p>\n

\u018fziz<\/b>. Axtar\u0131rlar. Getm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r (O, aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131, \u0259lini m\u0259n\u0259 uzatd\u0131<\/i>).<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Sizi \u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259r\u0259m, yax\u015f\u0131?<\/p>\n

(Biz asta add\u0131mlarla sahil boyunca ir\u0259lil\u0259yirdik. L\u0259p\u0259d\u00f6y\u0259n s\u0259s qopar\u0131rd\u0131. Al\u00e7aqdan d\u0259nizin \u00fcz\u0259ril\u0259 qa\u011fay\u0131lar u\u00e7urdu. Biz getdik. Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t sonra \u0259lind\u0259 bal\u0131qla dolu vedr\u0259\u00a0 tutmu\u015f \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r sahild\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc. O, \u00e7ad\u0131ra yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131<\/i>).<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Nazi-i! (Ona hay ver\u0259n olmad\u0131<\/i>). Nazi-i, haradasan? (\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r ma\u015f\u0131na do\u011fru\u00a0 gedib baxd\u0131, ins-cins yox idi. Sahil\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131<\/i>). Nazi-i!<\/p>\n

(Cavab g\u0259lm\u0259di. O bizim d\u00fc\u015f\u0259rg\u0259miz boyunca qa\u00e7d\u0131. M\u0259ni \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 axtard\u0131. Qay\u0131\u011f\u0131n arxa t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi. Bir q\u0259d\u0259r oturub, aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131, bizim ard\u0131m\u0131zca yolland\u0131. Tezlikl\u0259 m\u0259n qay\u0131td\u0131m, qay\u0131\u011f\u0131 v\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 bal\u0131q olan vedr\u0259ni g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Ma\u015f\u0131na yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131m. \u00c7amadan\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm. \u015eeyl\u0259rimi y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b, Burbonu g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm. \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r g\u0259ldi. O, h\u0259y\u0259canl\u0131 idi<\/i>).<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Harada idin? (M\u0259n susurdum. O m\u0259n\u0259 lap yax\u0131n g\u0259ldi<\/i>). Soru\u015furam, harada idin?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Da\u015fl\u0131 burunda\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Orda n\u0259 k\u00fcll\u0259nirdin?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. T\u0259k deyildim.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. G\u00f6rd\u00fcm. O kim idi?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. \u0130nsan idi\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. O haradan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Dey\u0259s\u0259n, g\u00f6yd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Gic zarafat\u0131 burax.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Yax\u015f\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Soru\u015furam, o kim idi?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. \u0130nsan\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Meymun olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilir\u0259m!<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, bilirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 qatma. Ora niy\u0259 getmi\u015fdin?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. El\u0259-bel\u0259<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. B\u0259s niy\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131n?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b> \u00c7\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Hara getm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b> Bilmir\u0259m\u2026S\u0259nd\u0259n ayr\u0131l\u0131ram\u2026 bird\u0259f\u0259lik\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Bird\u0259f\u0259lik? G\u00f6z\u00fcm ayd\u0131n\u2026get!<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Salamat qal!\u00a0 (\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r qay\u0131\u011fa oturdu, siqaret \u00e7\u0259kdi v\u0259 bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259niz\u0259 zill\u0259di. M\u0259n \u00e7amadan\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm<\/i>). \u015eossey\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ma\u015f\u0131nla apar\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. \u015einl\u0259ri yeyilib\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Eybi yox\u2026 H\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 t\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr edir\u0259m\u2026Piyada ged\u0259r\u0259m\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Xo\u015f g\u0259ldin\u2026<\/p>\n

(M\u0259n \u00e7amadan\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, yola d\u00fcz\u0259ldim. O, qanr\u0131l\u0131b h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n getdiyimi g\u00f6r\u00fcb \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259n\u0259 sar\u0131 atd\u0131, dart\u0131b \u00e7amadan\u0131 \u0259limd\u0259n ald\u0131<\/i>).<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Burax m\u0259ni, Sa\u015fa!<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Yax\u015f\u0131, axmaql\u0131q etdiyin yet\u0259r.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b> Axmaql\u0131q etmir\u0259m, Sa\u015fa.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Ax\u0131 n\u0259 olub?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. \u018fn ba\u015fl\u0131ca \u015fey olub\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. N\u0259?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Ba\u015fqas\u0131na rast g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. N\u0259 vaxt?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Yar\u0131m saat \u0259vv\u0259l. Bax, el\u0259 bu yerd\u0259.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>.\u00a0 Onu deyirs\u0259n? (Ba\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 sanatoriyan\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259rdi<\/i>).<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. H\u0259 (\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r \u00e7iyinl\u0259rimd\u0259n yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b g\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259 baxd\u0131 v\u0259 q\u0259h-q\u0259h\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi<\/i>).<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. \u018fl\u0259 sal\u0131rsan? H\u0259? Amma oyunbazsan ha! (M\u0259nim g\u00fclm\u0259diyimi g\u00f6r\u00fcb it\u0259l\u0259di v\u0259 qa\u015fqaba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 t\u00f6kd\u00fc<\/i>). Do\u011fru s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u00fcr?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. H\u0259.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. S\u0259n onunla olmusan?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. H\u0259, olmu\u015fam.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. \u0130ndi o haradad\u0131r?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. \u00c7\u0131x\u0131b getdi.<\/p>\n

(\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r ma\u015f\u0131na t\u0259r\u0259f cumdu, m\u00fch\u0259rrikin iri a\u00e7ar\u0131n\u0131 qamarlad\u0131<\/i>).<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Onu \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m!<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b> \u00c7atmazsan\u2026<\/p>\n

(\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r a\u00e7ar\u0131 tullad\u0131, m\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131, sa\u00e7lar\u0131mdan yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131. M\u0259n diz \u00fcst\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fcm<\/i>).<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Zarafat edirs\u0259n? De ki, yalan deyirdim!<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Yox.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Qanc\u0131q! (O, \u00e7amadan\u0131 qolu getdikc\u0259 tullad\u0131 v\u0259 v\u0259h\u015fi q\u0259ddarl\u0131qla m\u0259ni d\u00f6ym\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Sanki onun b\u00fct\u00fcn f\u0259lak\u0259tl\u0259rin\u0259 bais m\u0259n idim<\/i>). \u0130ndi ged\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n!<\/p>\n

(O, sahil\u0259 do\u011fru getdi, arxas\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 sar\u0131 \u00e7evir\u0259r\u0259k \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi. M\u0259n aya\u011fa qalxa bilmirdim. \u018flim b\u0259rk a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259n a\u011fr\u0131dan v\u0259 incidiyimd\u0259n a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131m<\/i>).<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Niy\u0259 bel\u0259 etdin?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. R\u0259dd ol burdan!<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. S\u0259n b\u0259dxah adam deyils\u0259n, amma \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yalandan b\u0259dxah kimi g\u00f6st\u0259rirs\u0259n\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. \u00c7\u0131x, get!<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. S\u0259n xeyirxah adamsan, ancaq \u00f6z\u00fcn bunu bilmirs\u0259n\u2026 (O, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7evirib m\u0259ni e\u015fitm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi<\/i>). \u018fg\u0259r bils\u0259ydin nec\u0259 xeyirxah adamsan, he\u00e7 zaman bel\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t etm\u0259zdin\u2026<\/p>\n

(O, t\u00fcp\u00fcr\u0259r\u0259k siqaretini atd\u0131. M\u0259n oturub a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131m. B\u0259d\u0259nim a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 b\u0259rk incimi\u015fdim, \u00e7amadan\u0131 he\u00e7 c\u00fcr a\u00e7a bilmirdim. N\u0259hay\u0259t, a\u00e7d\u0131m, g\u00fczg\u00fc \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131m, sa\u00e7 d\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcm\u00fc qaydaya salma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m. Yana\u011f\u0131m\u0131 boyam\u0131\u015f tu\u015fu sildim. O, aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131, m\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131, \u0259limd\u0259n tutdu<\/i>).<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. A\u011fr\u0131d\u0131r, h\u0259? (M\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n i\u015far\u0259si il\u0259 t\u0259sdiq etdim. O, son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 inc\u0259 s\u0259mimiyy\u0259t v\u0259 sevgi il\u0259 \u0259limi \u00f6pd\u00fc, sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131 s\u0131\u011fallad\u0131). <\/i>\u00a0S\u0259nin\u00e7in ay\u0131b deyil? Bir ki\u015fi s\u0259n\u0259 azl\u0131q edir?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. B\u0259s s\u0259n\u0259 bir qad\u0131n azl\u0131q edir?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. M\u0259n ki\u015fiy\u0259m.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. M\u0259n d\u0259 qad\u0131nam.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Qulaq as, Nazi, nahaq yer\u0259 m\u0259ni \u0259l\u0259 sal\u0131rsan. Ax\u0131 m\u0259n d\u0259 insanam. M\u0259nim d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 m\u0259nliyim, \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259rim, \u015f\u0259r\u0259fim v\u0259 h\u0259tta \u00fcr\u0259yim var.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Q\u0259rib\u0259dir\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. G\u0259l, ciddi dan\u0131\u015faq.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. G\u0259l\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. M\u00fcf\u0259ss\u0259l dan\u0131\u015f, g\u00f6r\u0259k n\u0259 olub?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. M\u00fcf\u0259ss\u0259l? M\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259yat\u0131m boyu axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131m adama rast g\u0259ldim, o\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Ancaq rica edir\u0259m, lirikas\u0131z-filans\u0131z! O kimdir?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. D\u0259niz\u00e7i-zabit. Meymunu da m\u0259n\u0259 o ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131b.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. O s\u0259ninl\u0259 evl\u0259nm\u0259k ist\u0259yir?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Tezlikl\u0259 o \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259k\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. X\u0259st\u0259dir?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. H\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. B\u0259s el\u0259 is\u0259 hara getm\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131n?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Sad\u0259c\u0259, \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b gedir\u0259m\u2026Eskimoslar, a\u011f ay\u0131lar olan yerl\u0259r\u0259\u2026 H\u0259r \u015feyi t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n ba\u015flayaca\u011fam\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. M\u0259ni t\u0259rk ets\u0259n, \u00fcr\u0259yim partlar\u2026 (\u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 idi ki, ondan bel\u0259 s\u00f6zl\u0259r e\u015fidirdim. M\u0259n ona baxd\u0131m: b\u0259lk\u0259 aldad\u0131r? Yox. O, \u00e7iyinl\u0259rimd\u0259n tutdu<\/i>).<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Laz\u0131m deyil, Sa\u015fa. \u0130ndi bunun he\u00e7 bir m\u0259nas\u0131 yoxdur.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. S\u0259nsiz ya\u015faya bilm\u0259r\u0259m\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. \u0130lahi! S\u0259n nec\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 v\u0259 m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259b adamsan\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. \u0130st\u0259yirs\u0259n, birlikd\u0259 ged\u0259k. H\u0259? M\u0259n h\u0259r \u015feyi ataram. H\u0259tta ticar\u0259ti d\u0259. Pedaqoji institut qurtar\u0131b m\u00fc\u0259llim olaram. S\u0259n oxuyar, \u00f6z sevimli \u0259yl\u0259nc\u0259n-n\u0259\u011fm\u0259 il\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olarsan. Bizim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ikilikd\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ke\u00e7\u0259r.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Gecdir, Sa\u015fa.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. Xo\u015fb\u0259xt olmaq he\u00e7 vaxt gec deyil.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. \u0130kilikd\u0259 bizim\u00e7in dar\u0131xd\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 olacaq\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. B\u00f6y\u00fck o\u011flumu da \u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259rik. Arvad\u0131m ver\u0259r, s\u0259n onu do\u011fma balan kimi sev\u0259rs\u0259n\u2026 O \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r\u2026 M\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla. Bunu \u00e7oxdan etm\u0259li idim. Amma m\u0259ni d\u0259 q\u0131namal\u0131 deyil. Otuz be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131nda \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcn \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fdiyi ail\u0259ni t\u0259rk etm\u0259k, sevimli balalar\u0131n\u0131 atmaq asan deyil. Bu, qar\u015f\u0131da s\u0259ni n\u0259l\u0259r: f\u0259lak\u0259tmi, yainki qa\u015f-da\u015fla, x\u0259zin\u0259 il\u0259 dolu adan\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259diyini bilm\u0259d\u0259n bel\u0259 bir qay\u0131qda kompazs\u0131z-filans\u0131z okeana \u00e7\u0131xmaq kimi bir \u015feydir. Ancaq indi h\u0259r \u015feyi g\u00f6t\u00fcr-qoy etmi\u015f\u0259m. S\u0259ni itir\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m\u2026 G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn nuru! M\u0259n qaranl\u0131qdan qorxuram, \u00e7ox qorxuram! M\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla\u2026M\u0259n ki, s\u0259nin x\u0259tirin\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 haz\u0131ram! M\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tin xatirin\u0259\u2026 Bizim \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn xatirimiz\u0259\u2026(M\u0259ni \u00f6pm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131<\/i>).<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. M\u0259nim qay\u011f\u0131ma qalacaqsan?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. H\u0259!<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. M\u0259ni sev\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. H\u0259!<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Bizim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yax\u015f\u0131 olacaq?<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. H\u0259! H\u0259! H\u0259!\u00a0 (O m\u0259ni \u00f6pd\u00fc. M\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi yumaraq g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yirdim. M\u0259n ona inan\u0131rd\u0131m. S\u0259ma mavi di. Yer mavi idi. Biz mavi idik. D\u0259niz mavi idi\u2026<\/i>).<\/p>\n

Gec\u0259dir. D\u0259niz nura q\u0259rq olub. \u201cMayak\u201d\u0131n \u015f\u0259rti ad\u0131n\u0131 bildir\u0259n siqnallar yer \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc dola\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Aqniya Bartonun h\u0259y\u0259canl\u0131 s\u0259si. H\u00f6rm\u0259tli radio dinl\u0259yicil\u0259ri! \u00ab\u0130nsan\u0131 tapmal\u0131\u00bb verili\u015fimizin ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 d\u0259f\u0259 s\u0259sl\u0259ndiyi g\u00fcnd\u0259n bir ay ke\u00e7ir. Budur, qar\u015f\u0131mda bir y\u0131\u011f\u0131n m\u0259ktub durur. Onlar\u0131n birind\u0259 deyilir: \u00abH\u00f6rm\u0259tli Aqniya Lvovna, sizin \u015feirl\u0259riniz u\u015faql\u0131qdan m\u0259n\u0259 tan\u0131\u015fd\u0131r. Biz onlar\u0131 qarda\u015f\u0131m Alekseyl\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 m\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l \u00f6yr\u0259nirdik. \u0130ndi Aleksey yoxdur. Q\u0131rx ikinci ild\u0259 Leninqradda bizim ev\u0259 bomba d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Qarda\u015f\u0131mla m\u0259n k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 qa\u00e7d\u0131q. M\u0259n onu itirdim. \u00d6z \u015f\u0259klimi siz\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rir\u0259m. Biz Alekseyl\u0259 \u0259kizik. Bir-birimizi tapmaqda biz\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k edin\u2026\u00bb<\/p>\n

Ba\u015fqa bir m\u0259ktub: \u201cYolda\u015f, Barto, m\u0259n Sovet \u0130ttifaq\u0131 Q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131 Pyotr Beskalov Moskvadan Berlin\u0259d\u0259k b\u0259d\u0259nimd\u0259 bir yer bel\u0259 \u00e7\u0131z\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f gedib \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fam. Ancaq \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck yara var. Arvad\u0131m \u0130rina Viktorovnan\u0131 v\u0259 o\u011flum \u0130qoru itirmi\u015f\u0259m. Biz Xar\u00adkovda ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131q. C\u0259bh\u0259d\u0259n qay\u0131danda evin\u00a0 yerind\u0259 bo\u015f m\u0259\u00adh\u0259l\u00adl\u0259 v\u0259 xarabal\u0131qlar g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, radio vasit\u0259sil\u0259 m\u0259lumat ver\u0259siniz. B\u0259lk\u0259 onlar\u0131n hans\u0131sa sa\u011fd\u0131r v\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 cavab ver\u0259c\u0259kdir\u201d.<\/p>\n

\u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc m\u0259ktub: \u201cMustafa Taqayev yaz\u0131r ki, uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t h\u0259rbi x\u0259st\u0259xanada yat\u0131b v\u0259 m\u00fchasir\u0259 zonas\u0131nda olan ail\u0259sini-1900-ci il t\u0259v\u0259l\u00adl\u00fcdl\u00fc anas\u0131 Z\u00fclfiyy\u0259 \u018fhm\u0259dovan\u0131, 1920-ci il t\u0259v\u0259ll\u00fcdl\u00fc arvad\u0131 Mari\u00adya Nikolayevnan\u0131, 1941-ci il t\u0259v\u0259ll\u00fcdl\u00fc q\u0131z\u0131 Tamaran\u0131 itirib\u2026\u201d. \u0130v\u00e7enko Sergey Petrovi\u00e7 1935-ci il t\u0259v\u0259ll\u00fcdl\u00fc qarda\u015f\u0131 Alekseyi axtar\u0131r\u2026<\/p>\n

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Bu g\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi\u00a0 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdik. S\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n hava tutqun olub. Qara bulud topalar\u0131 d\u0259nizin \u00fcz\u0259ril\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t edirdi. Havadan ya\u011f\u0131\u015f qoxusu g\u0259lirdi. \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r ma\u015f\u0131nla \u0259ll\u0259\u015fir, m\u0259n is\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259ri y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131m: biz q\u0259rara g\u0259lmi\u015fdik ki, \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 qay\u0131daq.<\/i><\/p>\n

Uzaqdan g\u00f6y gurultusunu xat\u0131rladan u\u011fultu qopdu. \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b qulaq asd\u0131.<\/i><\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>.\u00a0 Y\u0259qin t\u0259yyar\u0259dir. \u0130ndi daha yaza q\u0259d\u0259r tufan olmayacaq. Da\u011flara ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011f\u0131r\u2026 (M\u0259n da\u011flara baxd\u0131m. A\u011f zirv\u0259l\u0259r buludlar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. M\u0259n arxa \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131na apard\u0131m v\u0259 \u00e7ad\u0131r\u0131n b\u0259rkidildiyi payalar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xarma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131m<\/i>). Qoy onlar g\u0259l\u0259n il\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r qals\u0131nlar. He\u00e7 kim toxunmaz. Yax\u0131nlarda Talasda minillik tarixi olan q\u0259dim q\u0259biristan tap\u0131blar. Deyil\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, meyit \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcb, tabut is\u0259 q\u0259t-t\u0259z\u0259dir. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki,\u00a0 ard\u0131cdand\u0131r. \u00c7ox m\u00f6hk\u0259m a\u011facd\u0131r (M\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131na yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131m. \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n hans\u0131sa detal\u0131n\u0131 \u0259lind\u0259 h\u0259rl\u0259dirdi<\/i>). \u00dcz\u00fcm\u00fc sil, Nazi. (M\u0259n onun ya\u015f aln\u0131n\u0131 sildim, sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fcz\u0259ltdim. O m\u0259ni \u00f6pd\u00fc, qucaqlamaq ist\u0259di, m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc k\u0259nara verdim<\/i>).\u00a0 Bayaqdan susub dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131rsan, niy\u0259?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. B\u00fct\u00fcn gec\u0259ni dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fam. \u0130ndi fasil\u0259dir.<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b> (t\u0259la\u015fla<\/i>). B\u0259lk\u0259 fikrind\u0259n da\u015f\u0131nm\u0131san? (Bu an o m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox g\u00fclm\u0259li v\u0259 \u0259ziz g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc. \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r\u0259 bax\u0131b g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259dim, o da g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di. Sonra \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r detal\u0131 yerin\u0259 taxd\u0131. Motor i\u015f\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc<\/i>). H\u0259, d\u00fcz\u0259ldi! \u0130ndi \u0259limi yuya bil\u0259r\u0259m\u2026 Loro\u015ffuko demi\u015fk\u0259n, indi duman\u0131 yar\u0131b g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k \u00fcf\u00fcql\u0259r\u0259 do\u011fru ged\u0259k (Sabunu g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb d\u0259niz\u0259 sar\u0131 getdi<\/i>). Ehe, bir bax, kims\u0259 qay\u0131qla buraya g\u0259lir (M\u0259n s\u0259ks\u0259ndim<\/i>). Dey\u0259s\u0259n qad\u0131nd\u0131r.<\/p>\n

(\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r \u0259lini yell\u0259di. Biz d\u0259niz\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131q. Bir azdan bir qay\u0131q sahil\u0259 yan ald\u0131. A\u011f xalatl\u0131 q\u0131z qay\u0131\u011f\u0131 idar\u0259 edirdi. \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r qay\u0131\u011f\u0131 sahil\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi. Q\u0131z s\u0131\u00e7ray\u0131b qumun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Yay \u00e7\u0259km\u0259l\u0259ri azac\u0131q buland\u0131. O, balacaboylu, sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n sa\u00e7l\u0131, ayd\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u00fc bir q\u0131z idi, m\u0259l\u0259kciy\u0259z\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. Dey\u0259s\u0259n, bu, o zaman \u018fzizi s\u0259sl\u0259y\u0259n q\u0131z idi<\/i>).<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z<\/b>. M\u0259n Nazini axtar\u0131ram (M\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131<\/i>). Siz\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131r\u00adma\u00ad\u011f\u0131 xahi\u015f etdil\u0259r (z\u0259rfi uzatd\u0131<\/i>).\u00a0 \u018fzizd\u0259ndir. Onun dal\u0131s\u0131ycan sanitar vertolyot g\u0259lib (M\u0259n z\u0259rfi a\u00e7\u0131b bir k\u0259nara \u00e7\u0259kildim<\/i>).<\/p>\n

\u018fzizin s\u0259si<\/b> (m\u0259ktub<\/i>). \u201c\u018fziz Nazi! Ax\u015fam m\u0259n\u0259 qan k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. Amma s\u0259h\u0259r tezd\u0259n hal\u0131m yen\u0259 xarabla\u015fd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc he\u00e7 vaxt bel\u0259 pis hiss etm\u0259mi\u015fdim. Deyirl\u0259r akademik Pavlov \u00f6l\u0259rk\u0259n ke\u00e7irdiyi hissl\u0259ri assisentin\u0259 dikt\u0259 edib. M\u0259n n\u0259 alim, n\u0259 d\u0259 r\u0259ssamam. M\u0259nim u\u015faqlar\u0131m yoxdur. M\u0259n ev tikm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, a\u011fac da \u0259km\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. M\u0259n \u00f6z hissl\u0259rimd\u0259n, duy\u011fular\u0131mdan savay\u0131 insanlara he\u00e7 bir \u015fey qoyub ged\u0259 bilmir\u0259m. M\u0259n ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcm: insan ona g\u00f6r\u0259 do\u011fulur ki, Yer \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 n\u0259 is\u0259 etsin. Bunun namin\u0259 o, ya\u015famal\u0131d\u0131r. Xeyirxahl\u0131q v\u0259 pislik el\u0259m\u0259k insan\u0131n \u00f6z \u0259lind\u0259dir. Bax\u0131r \u00f6z vicdan\u0131na. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 yad\u0131nda saxla ki, insan \u00f6z m\u00f6vcudlu\u011fu zaman\u0131 xeyirxah v\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259ldir. M\u0259n \u00f6z h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131 yaln\u0131z yax\u015f\u0131l\u0131q v\u0259 xeyirxahl\u0131q\u00a0 yolunda qoydum. M\u0259ni tik\u0259-tik\u0259 ets\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259 \u00f6z \u0259qid\u0259md\u0259n d\u00f6nm\u0259r\u0259m. B\u0259dxahl\u0131q h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 m\u00f6vcud olub, ancaq onu ed\u0259nl\u0259r b\u0259dxahl\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u0259 y\u00fcz qat bet\u0259rdir. S\u0259ni \u00f6pm\u0259diyim\u0259, s\u0259ninl\u0259 \u00e7ad\u0131rda ya\u015famad\u0131\u011f\u0131ma, gec\u0259l\u0259r \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 g\u0259zm\u0259diyim\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 bilirs\u0259n n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r heyfsil\u0259nir\u0259m. Lakin bununla bel\u0259\u2026Biz g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck, bir-birimizi tan\u0131d\u0131q. Bilir\u0259m, m\u0259ktub kefini pozacaq. Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla. M\u0259n pijonluq etm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 pis hiss edir\u0259m. M\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcr\u0259m. Salamat qal, Nazi! M\u0259n s\u0259ni sevir\u0259m!\u00bb<\/p>\n

(Uzaqlarda motor gurultusu e\u015fidildi<\/i>).<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Onu n\u0259 vaxt aparacaqlar?<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z<\/b>. \u0130ndic\u0259.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Hu\u015fu ba\u015f\u0131ndad\u0131r?<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z<\/b>. Yox.<\/p>\n

(\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r biz\u0259 baxmadan qa\u015fqabaql\u0131 v\u0259 dilxor halda \u0259lini yuyurdu<\/i>).<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. S\u0259nin ne\u00e7\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131n var, ay q\u0131z?<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z<\/b>. On yeddi. N\u0259 olub ki?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. S\u0259nin ni\u015fanl\u0131n var?<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z<\/b>. Yoxdur.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. He\u00e7 ki\u015fil\u0259rl\u0259 olmusan?<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z<\/b>. Yox\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Do\u011fru deyirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z<\/b>. Oy, siz\u0259 n\u0259 olub! (\u0130ncimi\u015f halda \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7evirdi. M\u0259n m\u0259ktubu ona uzatd\u0131m<\/i>.)<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b> G\u00f6t\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z<\/b>. N\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. \u0130nsanlar s\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259\u015f\u0259rat kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259 oxuyarsan.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z<\/b>. M\u0259g\u0259r bel\u0259 d\u0259 olur?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Olur.<\/p>\n

(Vertolyotun u\u011fultusu artd\u0131. U\u011fultu art\u0131q b\u00fct\u00fcn havaya yay\u0131ld\u0131. Vertolyot havaya qalxd\u0131<\/i>)<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. \u018fziz! (M\u0259n vertolyotun ard\u0131nca qa\u00e7d\u0131m, ili\u015fib y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131m. Gurultu k\u0259sildi. M\u0259n tam sakitlik olana q\u0259d\u0259r \u00fcz\u00fcqoylu uzand\u0131m. Yaln\u0131z ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n s\u0259si g\u0259lirdi. Sonra\u00a0 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 qald\u0131rd\u0131m. \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r v\u0259 q\u0131z m\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131<\/i>).<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b> (x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259rin dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi sakit v\u0259 asta-asta<\/i>). H\u0259, qurtard\u0131?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Qurtard\u0131 (M\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131na sar\u0131 getdim, \u00e7amadan\u0131 v\u0259 Burbonu g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm<\/i>).<\/p>\n

\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r<\/b>. \u0130ndi leysan ba\u015flayacaq (M\u0259n cavab verm\u0259dim v\u0259 yola d\u00fcz\u0259ldim. O \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131rd\u0131<\/i>). Ay d\u0259li, hara?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n<\/b>. Bilmir\u0259m\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n bir \u0259limd\u0259 \u00e7amadan, o biri \u0259limd\u0259 meymun sahil boyu ir\u0259lil\u0259yirdim. K\u00fcl\u0259k sif\u0259tim\u0259 d\u00f6y\u0259cl\u0259yir, ya\u011f\u0131\u015f \u015f\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131 il\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. Dal\u011falar ayaqlar\u0131m\u0131 qucaqlay\u0131rd\u0131lar. M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, hans\u0131sa \u0259z\u0259m\u0259tli bir musiqini dinl\u0259yir\u0259m. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bu Raxmaninovun musiqisi idi\u2026<\/i><\/p>\n

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*<\/a> bisens – \u0259li bil\u0259k oyna\u011f\u0131ndan b\u00fck\u0259n \u00e7iyin \u0259z\u0259l\u0259si (t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259\u00e7id\u0259n<\/i>)<\/p>\n<\/div>\n

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Nasir, dramaturq, teatr v\u0259 kino rejissor, \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u015f\u00fcnas, jurnalist Mar Ta\u015fimovi\u00e7 Bayciyev\u00a0 1935-ci mart\u0131n 23-d\u0259 ild\u0259 Calalabadda (Q\u0131r\u011f\u0131z\u0131stan) \u00a0do\u011fulub. Q\u0131r\u011f\u0131z\u0131stan universitetinin m\u0259zunudur (1960), Moskvada ssenarist v\u0259 rejissorluq kursunda t\u0259hsil al\u0131b. . \u201cPravda\u201d v\u0259 \u201cKomsomolskaya pravda\u201d q\u0259zetl\u0259rinin\u00a0 m\u00fcxbiri, Q\u0131r\u011f\u0131zstan Parlamentinin deputat\u0131 olub (1990\u20131995). 2021-ci il oktyabr\u0131n 29-da Bi\u015fkekd\u0259 d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fib. \u018fs\u0259rl\u0259ri: 1. \u201cQay\u0131tma\u201d (hekay\u0259l\u0259r), 1964. 2. Duel: […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[8,3,21],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19375"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=19375"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19375\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":19377,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19375\/revisions\/19377"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=19375"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=19375"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=19375"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}