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\u0130ngilis dilind\u0259n t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259 ed\u0259ni: Akif Abbasov<\/b><\/p>\n
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Meri<\/b>\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u2013\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 qulluq\u00e7u<\/p>\n
Maykl Dennis<\/b>\u00a0 \u2013\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 45 ya\u015f\u0131nda<\/p>\n
Roz Pemberton <\/b>\u2013\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 20 ya\u015f\u0131nda<\/p>\n
Miss Tereza Braun<\/b>\u00a0 \u2013 78 ya\u015f\u0131nda<\/p>\n
Miss Helen Raun<\/b>\u00a0 \u2013\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 60 ya\u015f\u0131nda<\/p>\n
Ceyms Braun ata<\/b> \u2013\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 65 ya\u015f\u0131nda<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis<\/b>\u00a0\u00a0 \u2013\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 45 ya\u015f\u0131nda<\/p>\n
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I\u00a0 P\u018fRD\u018f<\/b><\/p>\n
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Birinci \u015f\u0259kil<\/b><\/p>\n
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Qonaq ota\u011f\u0131. Yanvar ay\u0131. G\u00fcnorta \u00e7a\u011f\u0131. P\u0259rd\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131landa ilk n\u00f6vb\u0259d\u0259 ota\u011f\u0131n qeyri-adiliyi diqq\u0259ti c\u0259lb edir. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015f etibaril\u0259 o, Holland-parkdak\u0131 dig\u0259r evl\u0259rd\u0259n f\u0259rql\u0259nmir. Qonaq ota\u011f\u0131nda\u00a0\u00a0 n\u0259yin q\u0259rib\u0259, qorxulu olmas\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259k \u00e7\u0259tindir.<\/i><\/p>\n
S\u0259hn\u0259nin d\u0259rinliyind\u0259 – iri p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 arxas\u0131ndan a\u011faclar\u0131n ba\u015flar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 yar\u0131ya q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259mir \u015f\u0259b\u0259k\u0259y\u0259 al\u0131n\u0131b. Ola bilsin ki, m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 mebell\u0259rin yerl\u0259\u015fdirilm\u0259sind\u0259dir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Otaq qeyri-adi \u00fcslubda b\u0259z\u0259dilib. Onu daha m\u00fcnasib qaydaya salmaq olard\u0131. \u018fslind\u0259 bizim g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ba\u015f s\u0131nd\u0131rma\u011fa d\u0259ym\u0259z. Otaqda iki qap\u0131 var: biri a\u00e7\u0131qd\u0131r \u2013 qap\u0131dan pill\u0259k\u0259n meydan\u00e7as\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. \u0130kinci qap\u0131 ba\u011fl\u0131d\u0131r, bir ne\u00e7\u0259 pill\u0259ni a\u015faraq\u00a0 oraya daxil olmaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fcr.<\/i><\/p>\n
P\u0259rd\u0259 qalxark\u0259n birinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259n z\u0259ng s\u0259si e\u015fidilir.<\/i><\/p>\n
(Meri t\u0259l\u0259sik daxil olur. Geyimind\u0259n onun qulluq\u00e7u olmas\u0131 \u0259sla bilinmir. Bi\u00e7imsiz q\u0131\u00e7l\u0131 bu qad\u0131n g\u0259ldi-ged\u0259r qulluq\u00e7udan daha \u00e7ox ev adam\u0131 t\u0259siri ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131r. Meri pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259 \u00f6rt\u00fcl\u00fc qap\u0131ya do\u011fru qalx\u0131r, d\u0259st\u0259yi dart\u0131r. Qap\u0131 q\u0131f\u0131ll\u0131d\u0131r)<\/i><\/p>\n
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Meri<\/b> (astadan<\/i>). Miss Tereza\u2026<\/p>\n
Bir an diqq\u0259tl\u0259 qulaq as\u0131r. Z\u0259ngin yenid\u0259n s\u0259sl\u0259ndiyini g\u00f6r\u00fcb pill\u0259k\u0259n\u0259 sar\u0131 gedir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Pill\u0259k\u0259ni qa\u00e7araq d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n ayaq s\u0259sl\u0259ri ayd\u0131nca e\u015fidilir. Bu zaman q\u0131f\u0131llanm\u0131\u015f otaqdan suyun \u015f\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 g\u0259lir. H\u0259min s\u0259s d\u0259rhal ota\u011f\u0131n n\u0259 is\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259m\u0259xsus bir x\u00fcsusiyy\u0259t\u0259 malik oldu\u011funu biz\u0259 xat\u0131rlad\u0131r. Bel\u0259 g\u00fcman etm\u0259k olar ki, bura \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r yataq ota\u011f\u0131 imi\u015f. O, qonaq ota\u011f\u0131na ox\u015fam\u0131r,\u00a0 tualet ota\u011f\u0131na a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r.<\/i><\/p>\n
Pill\u0259k\u0259nd\u0259 add\u0131m s\u0259sl\u0259ri e\u015fidilir. Merinin v\u0259 ba\u015fqa bir n\u0259f\u0259rin s\u0259si g\u0259lir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Meri.<\/b> Miss Braun sizi \u015f\u0259n \u0259hval-ruhiyy\u0259d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259\u00a0 \u00e7ox \u015fad olacaq. Buna inan\u0131n, miss Roz.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> \u00dcmid edir\u0259m ki, o, m\u0259nim teleqram\u0131m\u0131 al\u0131b\u2026 Uf\u2026 Amma n\u0259 pill\u0259k\u0259ndir?! Qalxd\u0131qca qurtarmaq bilmir.<\/p>\n
Meri.<\/b> He\u00e7 q\u0131\u015f havas\u0131na ox\u015fam\u0131r, ser. Yaman istidir.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Do\u011frudan? Qatarda is\u0259 yaman soyuq idi. Zal\u0131m u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sobalar\u0131 da yand\u0131rmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n
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Meri Maykl Dennisl\u0259 Roz Pembertonu ota\u011fa g\u0259tirir. Maykl\u0131n ya\u015f\u0131 q\u0131rx\u0131 adlay\u0131b. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259mnun aparma\u011fa c\u0259hd g\u00f6st\u0259rs\u0259 d\u0259, sif\u0259tind\u0259 \u0259ks olunmu\u015f qay\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yox ed\u0259 bilmir. N\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 iztirab hissi ke\u00e7irir v\u0259 bacard\u0131\u011f\u0131 q\u0259d\u0259r bunu b\u00fcruz\u0259 verm\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r. Roz t\u0259xmin\u0259n iyirmi ya\u015flar\u0131ndad\u0131r. Yuxudan kal oyand\u0131\u011f\u0131 hiss olunur. Yuxulu g\u00f6zl\u0259ri, cazib\u0259dar v\u0259 bir q\u0259d\u0259r iztirab ifad\u0259 ed\u0259n sif\u0259ti g\u0259nc, yeti\u015fmi\u015f q\u0131z kimi ona son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 yara\u015f\u0131r. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 o, he\u00e7 vaxt bel\u0259 \u2013 bu g\u00fcnki kimi, indi oldu\u011fu t\u0259ki f\u00fcsunkar g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k\u2026<\/i><\/p>\n
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Meri.<\/b> Miss Braun bu saat yan\u0131n\u0131za d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k, ser (gedir<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. D\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k? O, talvarda ya\u015fay\u0131r?<\/p>\n
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Rozla Maykl \u00f6zl\u0259rini narahat hiss edirl\u0259r. Bir-birl\u0259rind\u0259n k\u0259narla\u015f\u0131b ota\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6zd\u0259n ke\u00e7irirl\u0259r.<\/i><\/p>\n
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Hm\u2026 D\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259 qonaq ota\u011f\u0131 d\u00fcz\u0259ldibl\u0259r. G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n bu qonaqlar\u0131 bezdirm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn deyil ki?.. (H\u0259y\u0259canl\u0131 halda ota\u011f\u0131 dolan\u0131b \u0259vv\u0259lki yerin\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131r, Rozdan \u00fc\u00e7 add\u0131m k\u0259narda dayan\u0131r<\/i>). Q\u0259rib\u0259 otaqd\u0131r. N\u0259 is\u0259 qondarma formas\u0131 var. N\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259diyimi ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u0259n? Onlar\u0131n z\u00f6vql\u0259ri korlan\u0131b n\u0259dir?.. Maraql\u0131d\u0131r, bu pill\u0259k\u0259n hara \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r? (pill\u0259l\u0259ri g\u00f6st\u0259rir, qalx\u0131r, qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7maq ist\u0259yir. Xal\u00e7an\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259ril\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lki yerin\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131b ayaq saxlay\u0131r<\/i>). Braunlar n\u0259slinin ail\u0259 sirri\u2026 N\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn a\u011fz\u0131na su alm\u0131san? Dill\u0259ns\u0259n\u0259. \u00dcr\u0259ka\u00e7an bir \u015fey de. De ki, n\u0259yimiz\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259kdir onlar\u0131n i\u015fin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fmaq.<\/p>\n
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(Roz ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yell\u0259yir<\/i>)<\/p>\n
Yox, h\u0259r halda ciddi bir hadis\u0259 ba\u015f verm\u0259yib. M\u0259n ail\u0259nin sadiq dostuyam. S\u0259ni sa\u011f-salamat g\u0259tirib \u00e7\u0131xarm\u0131\u015fam. Vur-tut iki saat gecikmis\u0259n. H\u0259m d\u0259 qabaqcadan onlara teleqram g\u00f6nd\u0259rmi\u015fik. Yetimciy\u0259z m\u00fchafiz\u0259d\u0259 olub. Onlar bihud\u0259 yer\u0259 nigaran\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q \u00e7\u0259kibl\u0259r. S\u0259n ki m\u0259niml\u0259 olmusan.<\/p>\n
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Roz \u0259lini uzad\u0131r, \u00fcsulluca Maykla toxunur. Maykl onun \u0259lini ovcunun i\u00e7\u0259risin\u0259 al\u0131r, b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk s\u0131x\u0131r. Lakin bir-birl\u0259rin\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fma\u011fa \u00fcr\u0259k etmirl\u0259r.<\/i><\/p>\n
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Bax ha, ehtiyatl\u0131 ol. M\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 nigaran qalma. Art\u0131q m\u0259n ehti\u00adya\u00adt\u0131n n\u0259 dem\u0259k oldu\u011funu d\u0259rk ed\u0259c\u0259k ya\u015f h\u0259ddin\u0259 dolmu\u015fam. Amma \u00f6z aram\u0131zd\u0131r, yax\u015f\u0131 t\u0259dbir g\u00f6rd\u00fcm: d\u0259hlizin h\u0259r qurtara\u00adca\u00ad\u011f\u0131nda bir otaq. C\u0259mi iki otaq. Qulluq\u00e7u qad\u0131n oyanmam\u0131\u015f ayr\u0131lma\u011fa macal tapd\u0131q. Dan \u00fcz\u00fc s\u0259liq\u0259 il\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259nin ayaqqab\u0131s\u0131 \u00f6z ota\u011f\u0131n\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131\u00ads\u0131nda qoyulmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b> (yalvar\u0131c\u0131 t\u0259rzd\u0259<\/i>). N\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, ist\u0259klim? Ax\u0131 biz n\u0259d\u0259n qorxmal\u0131 idik?<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Ehtiyat igidin yara\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131d\u0131r. Bu ya\u015f\u0131mda s\u0259n\u0259 \u00absevgilim\u00bb dem\u0259y\u0259 haqq\u0131m yoxdur. M\u0259n yar\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6tm\u00fc\u015f evli ki\u015fiy\u0259m. S\u0259n\u0259 yaln\u0131z \u00ab\u0259zizim\u00bb dey\u0259 m\u00fcraci\u0259t ets\u0259m, bu, g\u00fcl\u00fcnc s\u0259sl\u0259nm\u0259z. Ancaq yad\u0131nda saxla ki, n\u0259 vaxt s\u0259n\u0259 \u00ab\u0259zizim\u00bb deyir\u0259ms\u0259, bu, \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n g\u0259lir, \u0259zizim.<\/p>\n
ROZ<\/b>. \u018fg\u0259r pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259 qalxan olsa, e\u015fid\u0259rik\u2026 (Maykl\u0131 \u00f6p\u00fcr<\/i>)<\/p>\n
Bu vaxt tualet ota\u011f\u0131n\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131 arxas\u0131ndan burulan a\u00e7ar\u0131n s\u0259si e\u015fidilir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Onlar aralan\u0131rlar\u2026 Qap\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r, miss Tereza Braun girir. Bu qoca lediy\u0259 70-d\u0259n art\u0131q ya\u015f verm\u0259k olar. O, ard\u0131nca qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rt\u00fcr.<\/i><\/p>\n
Helen xala\u2026<\/p>\n
Tereza onlara m\u0259h\u0259l qoymur. Yanlar\u0131ndan \u00f6t\u00fcr, el\u0259 bil otaqda he\u00e7 kim yoxdur v\u0259 pill\u0259k\u0259n meydan\u00e7as\u0131nda g\u00f6zd\u0259n itir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. Bu n\u0259 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259dir? Niy\u0259 dill\u0259nm\u0259di? Nec\u0259 bilirs\u0259n, o bizi g\u00f6rd\u00fc?<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>Yox. Ola bilsin ki, e\u015fitdi.<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>Y\u0259qin he\u00e7 e\u015fitm\u0259di d\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n
Tereza qay\u0131d\u0131r. Sevincl\u0259r i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 qollar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131r.<\/i><\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. \u018fzizim, s\u0259n y\u0259qin ki, Rozsan. Meri g\u0259li\u015fin bar\u0259d\u0259 bir k\u0259lm\u0259 d\u0259 dem\u0259di.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b> (onu \u00f6p\u00fcr<\/i>). Sizs\u0259 Helen xalas\u0131n\u0131z. Yoxsa sizi n\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131m?<\/p>\n
Tereza. <\/b>\u018fzizim, m\u0259n Tereza xalayam.<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>M\u0259n nec\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259feh\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Tereza. <\/b>He\u00e7 bir gil\u0259 d\u0259. Aradan g\u00f6r ne\u00e7\u0259 il ke\u00e7ib. O vaxtlar uza\u011f\u0131 alt\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131n olard\u0131, d\u00fcz demir\u0259m?<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>El\u0259dir, Tereza xala. Bu, c\u0259nab Dennisdir.<\/p>\n
Tereza. <\/b>S\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259yi \u00e7oxdan arzulay\u0131rd\u0131m, c\u0259nab Dennis. Bi\u00e7ar\u0259 bac\u0131m q\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6z m\u0259ktublar\u0131nda tez-tez s\u0259ni yad ed\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n
Roz <\/b>(Maykla<\/i>). Anam\u0131 deyir\u2026<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m\u2026 Miss Braun, \u0259min\u0259m, fikirl\u0259\u015f\u00adm\u0259z\u00adsiniz ki, sizin etimad\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 do\u011frultmam\u0131\u015fam.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. Anlam\u0131ram, S\u0259n n\u0259yi n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259 tutursan, c\u0259nab Dennis? Etimad?<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. Biz on iki saat l\u0259ngidik. Bel\u0259 q\u0259rara g\u0259ldik ki, d\u0259fnd\u0259n sonra yor\u011fun-ar\u011f\u0131n yola \u00e7\u0131xmaqdansa dinc\u0259lib yola d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k daha a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 olar.<\/p>\n
Tereza. <\/b>D\u0259fn m\u0259rasimind\u0259 i\u015ftirak ed\u0259 bilm\u0259diyim\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00e7ox heyfsil\u0259nir\u0259m, \u0259zizim. Day\u0131nla Helen xalan\u0131 yalq\u0131z qoyub ged\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. \u00dcmidvaram ki, c\u0259nab Dennis, k\u0259ndd\u0259 gec\u0259l\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 yer tapm\u0131san.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, \u00abQ\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 \u015eir\u00bb karvansaras\u0131nda.<\/p>\n
Tereza <\/b>(Roza<\/i>). Bu g\u00fcn s\u0259h\u0259r Terner ata anan \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn messa\u00a0 oxudu, m\u0259nim \u0259zizim.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. G\u00f6r ha. Bils\u0259ydim, yolda l\u0259ngim\u0259zdim.<\/p>\n
Tereza. <\/b>Ham\u0131m\u0131z kils\u0259d\u0259 olduq. Qarda\u015f\u0131m da getmi\u015fdi. Orada s\u0259ni yad etdik. S\u0259n katoliks\u0259n, c\u0259nab Dennis?<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b> (k\u0259sik-k\u0259sik<\/i>). Xeyr.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. T\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u00fcd\u00fcr, b\u0259s el\u0259 is\u0259 bac\u0131m q\u0131z\u0131 s\u0259ni niy\u0259\u00a0 q\u0259yyum t\u0259yin edib?<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b> (bir q\u0259d\u0259r s\u0259rt<\/i>). N\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 yox? Atam da katolik deyildi.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. El\u0259dir, \u0259zizim. Eh, zavall\u0131 Con\u2026 C\u0259nab Dennis, bir fincan \u00e7ay i\u00e7m\u0259zs\u0259n ki?<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. Narahat olmay\u0131n. M\u0259n yaln\u0131z Rozu \u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. \u00abZ\u0259hm\u0259t \u00e7\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259r \u00f6z \u0259m\u0259kl\u0259ri \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u00fckafata layiq\u00addirl\u0259r\u00bb. Ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n, c\u0259nab Dennis, birc\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259 (qap\u0131ya yax\u0131n\u00adla\u015f\u0131r v\u0259 s\u0259sl\u0259yir<\/i>). Meri!<\/p>\n
Cavab yoxdur. Meydan\u00e7aya sar\u0131 gedib t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r.<\/i><\/p>\n
Meri<\/b>! (meydan\u00e7adan)<\/i>. Saat ne\u00e7\u0259dir?<\/p>\n
Mayk<\/b>l. Be\u015f tamam.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. Meri son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 diqq\u0259tli v\u0259 d\u0259qiqdir. Qayda-qanuna s\u00f6zs\u00fcz \u0259m\u0259l edir. Bu g\u00fcn is\u0259\u2026 q\u0259rib\u0259dir. O, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 alt\u0131ya on d\u0259qiq\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n\u0259d\u0259k burada olur. Bu onun borcudur.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, \u00fczrl\u00fc sayas\u0131n\u0131z, m\u0259n getm\u0259liy\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. Qarda\u015f\u0131m ad\u0259t\u0259n, bu vaxtlar \u00e7ay i\u00e7ir. Meri!.. (pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. Bir g\u00f6r ha\u2026 Buzu s\u0131nd\u0131rd\u0131q. T\u0259rslikd\u0259n h\u0259r ikimiz na\u015f\u0131y\u0131q. Konkid\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bilmirik.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. S\u0259ni narahat ed\u0259n n\u0259dir, \u0259zizim? M\u0259nim fikrimi \u00e7\u0259kir\u00ads\u0259n? Laz\u0131m deyil. Do\u011fru s\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u00fcr (bir az q\u00fcss\u0259li<\/i>). Anam\u0131n d\u0259f\u00adnin\u00add\u0259n sonrak\u0131 gec\u0259 m\u0259n s\u0259nin oldum. Bilir\u0259m, bu yax\u0131n qohumlar ara\u00ads\u0131ndak\u0131 cinsi \u0259laq\u0259 kimi d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli bir g\u00fcnahd\u0131r. Ki\u015f-ki\u015fl\u0259r olsun! Amin!<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. Yox, m\u0259nim qorxum, narahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131m yaln\u0131z \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259\u00addir. Qorxuram bir vaxt m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259l\u00e7atmaz olarsan. Burada, bu qocalar aras\u0131nda ke\u00e7ilm\u0259z, s\u0131x me\u015f\u0259d\u0259 azarsan. N\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, s\u0259ni itirir\u0259m. D\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259r \u00f6t\u00fcr\u2026 Kim bilir sabah n\u0259 ola\u00adcaq (otaqda g\u0259zir<\/i>).<\/p>\n
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Roz \u00e7a\u015fq\u0131n v\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259canl\u0131 halda ortal\u0131qda donub qal\u0131r.<\/i><\/p>\n
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Roz.<\/b> H\u0259y\u0259canlanma, \u0259zizim, m\u0259ni itirm\u0259zs\u0259n. S\u0259n m\u0259nim q\u0259yyumum t\u0259yin olunmusan. M\u0259g\u0259r unutmusan?<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> R\u0259smi g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 b\u0259han\u0259 tap\u0131l\u0131r. S\u0259n bunu dem\u0259k ist\u0259yirs\u0259n? (pill\u0259l\u0259ri qalx\u0131r<\/i>). O buradan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 (tualet ota\u011f\u0131n\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131r<\/i>). Bu n\u0259 c\u0259f\u0259ngiyyatd\u0131r. D\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259 qonaq ota\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131 tualet v\u0259 hamam. \u00c7ox g\u00fcman ki, \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r yataq ota\u011f\u0131 imi\u015f.<\/p>\n
Miss Helen Braun daxil olur.<\/i><\/p>\n
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Helen<\/b>. S\u0259n Rozsan?<\/p>\n
\u00d6p\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrl\u0259r.<\/i><\/p>\n
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\u0130st\u0259kli quzum. Yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr? O vaxtlar s\u0259ni bel\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rar\u00add\u0131m\u2026 C\u0259nab Dennis?<\/p>\n
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\u018fl verib g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrl\u0259r.<\/i><\/p>\n
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S\u0259n inanmazsan, c\u0259nab Dennis, bu ist\u0259kli quzum nec\u0259 d\u0259c\u0259l v\u0259 adame\u015fitm\u0259z idi.<\/p>\n
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Helen \u00f6z bac\u0131s\u0131na nisb\u0259t\u0259n cavan v\u0259 k\u00f6kd\u00fcr. Bir z\u0259n\u0259n xeyla\u011f\u0131 kimi daha mehriban t\u0259sir ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131r. \u018fslind\u0259 is\u0259 ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131na hiss edilm\u0259d\u0259n soxulmaq, xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyin\u0259 q\u0259sd etm\u0259k onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn su i\u00e7m\u0259k kimi asand\u0131r.<\/i><\/p>\n
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G\u0259ldiyinizi Tereza m\u0259n\u0259 dedi. Qulluq\u00e7u vaxt\u0131ndan \u0259vv\u0259l get\u00addi\u00adyind\u0259n indi \u00e7ay\u0131 o haz\u0131rlay\u0131r. Bir yandan baxanda Merid\u0259 g\u00fcnah yoxdur. M\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259 saat h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 qaba\u011fa qa\u00e7\u0131r. Roz, ist\u0259klim, b\u0259lk\u0259 ya\u011f-\u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k haz\u0131rlamaqda xalana k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259s\u0259n?<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>K\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259r\u0259m, ancaq onun harada oldu\u011funu\u2026<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>Pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya \u2013 birinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259y\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f. Orada vurnuxur. D\u0259rhal g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n (Maykla<\/i>). Zavall\u0131 bac\u0131m\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri get-ged\u0259 q\u00fcvv\u0259d\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Ancaq \u0259limizd\u0259n n\u0259 g\u0259lir?! Art\u0131q 78 ya\u015f\u0131 var.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b> (Maykla<\/i>). S\u0259ni bir daha g\u00f6rm\u0259k s\u0259ad\u0259tin\u0259 n\u0259sib olaca\u011fam?<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> C\u0259nab Dennis h\u0259l\u0259 biziml\u0259 \u00e7ay i\u00e7\u0259c\u0259k. D\u00fcz demir\u0259m, c\u0259nab Dennis?<\/p>\n
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Roz k\u00f6n\u00fcls\u00fcz halda ota\u011f\u0131 t\u0259rk edir.<\/i><\/p>\n
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Helen.<\/b> \u018fhval\u0131m el\u0259 pozulmu\u015fdu ki, d\u0259fn m\u0259rasimind\u0259 i\u015ftirak ed\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. \u018fyl\u0259\u015f.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Gecikm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259zdim.<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> H\u0259l\u0259 sizinl\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259timiz olacaq (kreslolardan birind\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fir<\/i>). Braunlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131 Flopsi Bonni\u00a0 kimi h\u0259r \u015feyi bilm\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259rdir. S\u0259n Flopsi Bonnini xat\u0131rlay\u0131rsan, c\u0259nab Dennis?<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Xeyr.<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> B\u0259s Beatris Potteri? O, m\u0259nim n\u0259slimd\u0259ndir. Yax\u0131n\u00adl\u0131q\u00adda onunla Dobenhemd\u0259\u00a0 rastla\u015fd\u0131q. Bazarl\u0131q edirdi\u2026 S\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 bir q\u0259d\u0259r ya\u015fl\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u0259n\u2026<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Q\u0131rx be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131m var (k\u00f6n\u00fcls\u00fcz oturur<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> Y\u0259qin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u0259n: biz katolikl\u0259r h\u0259r \u015feyi m\u00fcf\u0259ss\u0259l \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259yi n\u0259 yaman xo\u015flay\u0131r\u0131q\u2026 \u018fziz Tereza e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 ki, bac\u0131q\u0131z\u0131 son arzusunu yerin\u0259 yetirm\u0259yi katolik olmayan birisin\u0259 tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131b, quruyub qald\u0131.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. M\u0259n onun \u0259rinin dostu idim. Yaln\u0131z dostu yox, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u015fagirdi. M\u0259n ona \u00f6mr\u00fcm boyu borcluyam. London universitetind\u0259 indiki n\u00fcfuzum, i\u015fim, v\u0259zif\u0259m d\u0259 bura daxildir.<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>S\u0259n, \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259, bizi dard\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259li hesab ed\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. Yaz\u0131q Conun pe\u015f\u0259si he\u00e7 vaxt \u00fcr\u0259yimizd\u0259n olmay\u0131b. Ancaq fikrimizi bac\u0131m\u0131z q\u0131z\u0131na dem\u0259mi\u015fdik. Bils\u0259ydi, ona d\u0259rd olard\u0131.<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>Qorxuram m\u0259nim pe\u015f\u0259mi d\u0259 b\u0259y\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259siniz\u2026 Amma m\u0259n sad\u0259c\u0259 psixologiyadan m\u00fchazir\u0259 oxuyuram. Professor deyil\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>N\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan, c\u0259nab Dennis, bunun s\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259rr\u0259c\u0259 d\u0259xli yoxdur. Biz ki s\u0259ninl\u0259 yad adamlar\u0131q. N\u0259 is\u0259, qay\u0131daq v\u0259siyy\u0259t\u00adna\u00adm\u0259\u00adnin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259. Ax\u0131 bu bar\u0259d\u0259 biz h\u0259l\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 bilmirik (mehri\u00adban\u00adcas\u0131na<\/i>). Sad\u0259c\u0259, maraqd\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Rozun 25 ya\u015f\u0131 tamam olanda ild\u0259 s\u0259kkiz y\u00fcz funt alacaq. H\u0259min vaxta q\u0259d\u0259r sizin qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131zla m\u0259n onun himay\u0259\u00e7isi olaca\u011f\u0131q.<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> S\u0259ni niy\u0259 narahat ed\u0259k? Bu i\u015fi bizim ail\u0259nin \u00f6hd\u0259sin\u0259 buraxsan, daha yax\u015f\u0131 olar.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcnd\u0259n qabaq Rozun atas\u0131 m\u0259ni hami t\u0259yin edib. Missis Pemberton is\u0259, sad\u0259c\u0259, bunu q\u00fcvv\u0259d\u0259 saxlay\u0131b. \u018frinin dost\u00adlar\u0131 onun da dostlar\u0131 idi. Conun \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra m\u0259n h\u0259r yay onlara ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259kirdim.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b> (k\u0259d\u0259rli<\/i>). Bac\u0131m q\u0131z\u0131, Braunlar aras\u0131nda katolik olma\u00adyanla nikah ba\u011flayan yegan\u0259 adamd\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b> (g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yi<\/i>r). B\u00fct\u00fcn Braunlardan yegan\u0259si?<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>Xeyr, bizim Braunlardan yegan\u0259 adam deyir\u0259m. Dem\u0259li, s\u0259n h\u0259m d\u0259 q\u0259yyumsan, mister Dennis?<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>B\u0259li, h\u00fcquq\u015f\u00fcnaslar, g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, i\u015fin xatirin\u0259 m\u0259nim Roza h\u0259m q\u0259yyum, h\u0259m d\u0259 himay\u0259\u00e7i olma\u011f\u0131m\u0131 d\u00fczg\u00fcn v\u0259 qanuni hesab edirl\u0259r. El\u0259 ki, v\u0259siyy\u0259tnam\u0259 t\u0259sdiq olundu, m\u0259n daha sizi nara\u015fat etm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>S\u0259n m\u0259ni yax\u015f\u0131 anlamad\u0131n.<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>M\u0259n he\u00e7 d\u0259 himay\u0259\u00e7i rolunu ifa etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yarand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcr\u0259m, miss Braun.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b> (\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc el\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rir ki, guya onun fikrini yax\u015f\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb<\/i>). Roz sar\u0131dan bir q\u0259d\u0259r nigaran qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q. S\u0259nin teleqram\u0131n\u0131 alanda \u00fcr\u0259yimiz t\u0259skinlik tapd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. D\u0259fnd\u0259n sonra o, b\u0259rk yorulmu\u015fdu. B\u00fct\u00fcn gec\u0259ni yol\u00adda ke\u00e7irm\u0259k onu \u00fcz\u00fcb \u0259ld\u0259n salard\u0131. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcz qatar\u0131n\u0131 se\u00e7\u00addim.<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc evd\u0259 yalq\u0131z oturmaq y\u0259qin ki, yaz\u0131q Rozun d\u0259rdini bir az da at\u0131r\u0131b<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>H\u0259r halda d\u0259rhal yola d\u00fcz\u0259lm\u0259k bundan daha bet\u0259r olard\u0131 (laz\u0131m g\u0259ldiyind\u0259n daha art\u0131q ayd\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131raraq<\/i>). \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00e7\u00fcn \u00ab\u201dQ\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 \u015eir\u201dd\u0259 otaq kiray\u0259 etmi\u015fdim.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. Bu s\u0259nin t\u0259r\u0259finizd\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck l\u00fctfkarl\u0131qd\u0131r, c\u0259nab Den\u00adnis. K\u0259nd k\u0259nd olaraq qal\u0131r. Onunla eyni evd\u0259 gec\u0259l\u0259m\u0259li olsayd\u0131n, bu, dedi-qoduya \u015f\u0259rait yaradard\u0131.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. H\u0259tta aram\u0131zdak\u0131 ya\u015f f\u0259rqin\u0259 bel\u0259 baxmayaraq?<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b> (saxta bir g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yi\u015fl\u0259<\/i>). Eh, c\u0259nab Dennis, insan el\u0259 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli m\u0259xluqdur ki\u2026<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>D\u0259h\u015f\u0259tlimi? Z\u0259nn etmir\u0259m. Ola bilsin ki, m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259b v\u0259 anla\u015f\u0131lmaz xilq\u0259t dem\u0259k ist\u0259yirsiniz? Raz\u0131la\u015fm\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131zsa, lap dey\u0259k, k\u00f6m\u0259y\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131 olan b\u0259db\u0259xt bir yaran\u0131\u015f\u2026<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>Son m\u0259ktublar\u0131n\u0131n birind\u0259 bac\u0131q\u0131z\u0131 yaz\u0131rd\u0131 ki, ona b\u00f6y\u00fck k\u00f6m\u0259k g\u00f6st\u0259rmis\u0259n. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259dsiz minn\u0259tdar\u0131q. Biz \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz, dem\u0259k olar, onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn he\u00e7 bir \u015fey ed\u0259 bilm\u0259dik.<\/p>\n
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Helen Maykl\u0131n fikri da\u011f\u0131n\u0131q halda ona qulaq asd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. O, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 bu ota\u011fa al\u0131\u015fa bilmir. Divardak\u0131 l\u0259k\u0259 x\u00fcsusil\u0259 onun diqq\u0259tini c\u0259lb edir. Helen s\u00f6hb\u0259ti davam etdirir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Biz \u0259limizd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259ni ed\u0259c\u0259yik ki, Roz unutsun\u2026<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> \u00dczr ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Unutsun dediniz? N\u0259yi?<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> \u018fziz anas\u0131n\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Bu, laz\u0131md\u0131r? M\u0259n is\u0259, ad\u0259t\u0259n, adamlara yadda saxlama\u011f\u0131n sirl\u0259rini \u00f6yr\u0259dir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> C\u0259nab Dennis, n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259trafa bel\u0259 \u00e7a\u015fq\u0131n n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rd\u0259 bax\u0131rsan?<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> M\u0259n?<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> Qorxuram ota\u011f\u0131n q\u0259rib\u0259liyind\u0259n s\u00f6z a\u00e7asan. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 buras\u0131ndad\u0131r ki, bu bizim yegan\u0259 ota\u011f\u0131m\u0131zd\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> H\u0259y\u0259td\u0259n baxanda bina son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr.<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> Otaqlar\u0131n \u0259ks\u0259riyy\u0259ti q\u0131f\u0131llan\u0131b.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. M\u00fcharib\u0259nin ucbat\u0131ndan?<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b> (ikiba\u015fl\u0131<\/i>). M\u00fcxt\u0259lif s\u0259b\u0259bl\u0259r \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n (onun h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 ota\u011f\u0131 n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259n ke\u00e7irm\u0259kd\u0259 odu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u00fcb<\/i>). Otaqlar\u0131n t\u0259mir\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131 var. Bu is\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck x\u0259rc ist\u0259yir. Haradad\u0131r bel\u0259 imkan?!<\/p>\n
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Tereza \u0259lind\u0259 podnos, podnosda ya\u011f-\u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k v\u0259 keks i\u00e7\u0259ri daxil olur.<\/i><\/p>\n
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Tereza.<\/b> Helen, \u00e7ay qaynay\u0131r. Birc\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259, c\u0259nab Dennis. Art\u0131q h\u0259r \u015fey haz\u0131rd\u0131r.<\/p>\n
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Tereza ail\u0259d\u0259 evdar Marfan\u0131n\u00a0 rolunu oynay\u0131r. Onun m\u00fclayim xasiyy\u0259ti var. O, ba\u015fqalar\u0131n\u0131n, \u0259n ba\u015fl\u0131cas\u0131, ilk n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259n safq\u0259lbli\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bilin\u0259n ki\u00e7ik bac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn buyruqlar\u0131n\u0131 ita\u0259tl\u0259 yerin\u0259 yetirir.<\/i><\/p>\n
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Maykl. <\/b>Siz\u0259 minn\u0259tdarl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bildirir\u0259m. M\u00fcsaid\u0259nizl\u0259 m\u0259n gedim.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. N\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan, s\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259 qarda\u015f\u0131m\u0131zla tan\u0131\u015f olmam\u0131\u00adsan.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. T\u0259kid etm\u0259, Tereza. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, i\u015f \u00e7oxdur.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Getm\u0259zd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l bac\u0131n\u0131z q\u0131z\u0131na bir ne\u00e7\u0259 s\u00f6z dem\u0259k ist\u0259rdim.<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> Bac\u0131m\u0131z q\u0131z\u0131na?.. Ax\u0131 o\u2026 o ki\u2026 \u00f6l\u00fcb\u2026<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b> (s\u0259rt<\/i>). \u018fzizim, o, Rozu n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259 tutur.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. V\u0259siyy\u0259tnam\u0259 il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 b\u0259zi m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259ri yoluna qoymal\u0131y\u0131q. Roz is\u0259 burada yoxdur.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. Ehtiyatl\u0131 adamsan. Bu, yax\u015f\u0131 keyfiyy\u0259tdir, c\u0259nab Dennis.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> El\u0259mi?<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> S\u0259n g\u00fcman ki, Roza \u00abM\u0259n\u0259 etibar ets\u0259niz, pe\u015fman olmazs\u0131n\u0131z\u00bb dem\u0259k ist\u0259yirs\u0259n. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri bir vaxtlar daha t\u0259sirli ifad\u0259 etmis\u0259n.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b> (onu anlayaraq<\/i>). Q\u0259yyum ehtiyat\u0131 \u0259ld\u0259n verm\u0259\u00adm\u0259lidir. Yoxsa, barmaql\u0131q aras\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u0259r.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b> (onun fikrini \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259k m\u0259qs\u0259dil\u0259<\/i>). S\u0259n m\u00fctl\u0259q qarda\u015f\u0131mla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259li, bu h\u00fcquqi inc\u0259liyi m\u00fczakir\u0259 etm\u0259lisiniz. Roz g\u0259ncdir, bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259rd\u0259n ba\u015f \u00e7\u0131xartmaq iqtidar\u0131nda deyil. Tereza, Roza de, \u0259g\u0259r yorulubsa uzan\u0131b dincini als\u0131n. Biz \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz c\u0259nab Dennisi m\u0259\u015f\u011ful ed\u0259rik.<\/p>\n
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Roz daxil olur. O, \u00e7ay d\u0259sgah\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259tirir.<\/i><\/p>\n
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Roz. <\/b>M\u0259n q\u0259tiyy\u0259n yorulmam\u0131\u015fam.<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>El\u0259 is\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fin. C\u0259nab Dennis, paltonu n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7\u0131xart\u00adm\u0131rsan? Bu saat Ceymsi d\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259r\u0259m. Y\u0259qin ki, onun uzun ill\u0259r kres\u00adlo m\u00f6htac\u0131 olma\u011f\u0131ndan x\u0259b\u0259rin var (Roza<\/i>). \u00c7ay s\u00fcz, \u0259zizim (\u00e7\u0131x\u0131r<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b> (st\u0259kan-n\u0259lb\u0259ki il\u0259 qurdalan\u0131r<\/i>). Can\u0131m, siz\u0259 n\u0259 olub! Kreslo \u00e7\u0259kib \u0259yl\u0259\u015fin. Yox, yox, Roz, o kresloya d\u0259ym\u0259. O, Helen xalan\u0131nk\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Rozla Maykl yana\u015f\u0131 otururlar. Bir-birin\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r salmadan t\u0259s\u0259rr\u00fcfat i\u015fl\u0259rin\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131 qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f Terezaya bax\u0131rlar.<\/i><\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> Dedin bu g\u00fcn s\u0259h\u0259r ibad\u0259tind\u0259 harada olmusan, \u0259zizim?<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> He\u00e7 yerd\u0259, Tereza xala.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. Nec\u0259 y\u0259ni he\u00e7 yerd\u0259? \u018fzizim, ax\u0131 bu g\u00fcn xa\u00e7\u0131n suya sal\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcn idi. H\u0259, az qala unutmu\u015fdum. Qorxma, g\u00fcnaha batmazsan. Ax\u0131 s\u0259n yolda olmusan.<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>Sad\u0259c\u0259, yad\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b. Qatar\u0131n vaxt\u0131na q\u0259d\u0259r kils\u0259y\u0259 getm\u0259k olard\u0131. Amma el\u0259 m\u00f6hk\u0259m yatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m ki\u2026<\/p>\n
Tereza. <\/b>He\u00e7 olmasa bir tik\u0259, c\u0259nab Dennis.<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>Yax\u015f\u0131, siz dey\u0259n olsun.<\/p>\n
Tereza. <\/b>B\u0259s s\u0259n, Roz?<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>Bir tik\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259 dadaram.<\/p>\n
Tereza <\/b>(\u00e7ay s\u00fcz\u0259r\u0259k<\/i>). Yaz\u0131q anan\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm x\u0259b\u0259ri biz\u0259 \u00e7atan kimi doqquz \u00f6l\u00fc duas\u0131 sifari\u015f verdim.<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>Sa\u011f ol, Tereza xala.<\/p>\n
Tereza. <\/b>Sabah s\u0259h\u0259r tezd\u0259n s\u0259n d\u0259 biziml\u0259 kils\u0259y\u0259 ged\u0259rs\u0259n. Doqquz duadan ikincisi oxunacaq\u2026 Hm\u2026 Meri doqquzun yar\u0131s\u0131n\u00adda g\u0259lir ki\u2026 Eybi yox, biz \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz s\u0259ni oyadar\u0131q.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> T\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr edir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> Ya\u011f-\u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k g\u00f6t\u00fcr, c\u0259nab Dennis (Rozla Maykl eyni vaxtda bo\u015fqaba \u0259l uzad\u0131rlar. T\u0259sad\u00fcf\u0259n \u0259ll\u0259ri bir-birin\u0259 toxunur v\u0259 tez \u0259ll\u0259rini \u00e7\u0259kirl\u0259r<\/i>) (Roza<\/i>) Helen xalan yataca\u011f\u0131n otaq bar\u0259d\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 bir s\u00f6z dedi?<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Xeyr. Bir d\u0259 hara t\u0259l\u0259sir\u0259m?\u00a0 Qa\u00e7a-qa\u00e7 deyil ha\u2026<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n, \u0259zizim, bizim evd\u0259 dar\u0131sqall\u0131qd\u0131r. Otaqla\u00adr\u0131n \u00e7oxusu q\u0131f\u0131llan\u0131b. Fikirl\u0259\u015fdik ki, burada yatma\u011fa etiraz etm\u0259z\u00ads\u0259n. Divan \u00e7ox rahatd\u0131r. M\u00fct\u0259kk\u0259si a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Etiraz etmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. Bayaq bu bar\u0259d\u0259 bac\u0131n\u0131zla da s\u00f6hb\u0259timiz oldu. Xaricd\u0259n baxanda m\u0259nziliniz b\u00f6y\u00fck g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. El\u0259dir, c\u0259nab Dennis, haql\u0131san. Amma otaqlar\u0131n \u0259ks\u0259riyy\u0259tini ba\u011flamaq laz\u0131m g\u0259lib.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. M\u00fchab\u0259nin ucbat\u0131ndan?<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. He\u00e7 d\u0259 yox.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b> (bay\u0131rdan<\/i>).\u00a0 Bu da biz. Qap\u0131n\u0131 bizim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn kim a\u00e7acaq?<\/p>\n
Helen qarda\u015f\u0131 \u0259yl\u0259\u015f\u0259n t\u0259k\u0259rli kreslonu s\u00fcr\u0259r\u0259k i\u00e7\u0259ri girir.<\/i> <\/i>Ceyms Braunun t\u0259xmin\u0259n 65 ya\u015f\u0131 var. Onun ayaqlar\u0131 iri \u015falla \u00f6rt\u00fcl\u00fcb, boynuna \u015farf ba\u011flan\u0131b.<\/i><\/p>\n
Helen<\/b> (qarda\u015f\u0131na<\/i>). Ceyms, Roz budur. Bu is\u0259 onun q\u0259yyumu c\u0259nab Dennisdir.<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>Xo\u015f g\u0259lmis\u0259n, m\u0259nim balam. G\u00f6r aradan ne\u00e7\u0259 il ke\u00e7ib\u2026 Amma s\u0259n m\u0259nd\u0259n \u00e7ox d\u0259yi\u015fmis\u0259n.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b> (ona sar\u0131 \u0259yilir, \u00f6p\u00fcr<\/i>). Nec\u0259 dolan\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z, day\u0131?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Lap yax\u015f\u0131y\u0131q, \u0259zizim. Ma\u015fallah, b\u00f6y\u00fck q\u0131z olubsan. Daha m\u0259nim kreslomu qatara \u00e7evirib onunla oynamazsan. \u00dcmid edir\u0259m ki, c\u0259nab Dennis, o s\u0259ni bir el\u0259 \u0259ziyy\u0259t\u0259 salmay\u0131b. Sizi d\u00fcn\u0259n ax\u015fam g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdik.<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>Z\u0259nn etdik ki, s\u0259h\u0259r tezd\u0259n yola d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k daha a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 olar, c\u0259nab Braun.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. Braun ata, c\u0259nab Dennis. Bizim qarda\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u2026<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>H\u0259, h\u0259, \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259. Ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n, xahi\u015f edir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>H\u0259, Roz, bu g\u00fcnd\u0259n etibar\u0259n yen\u0259 d\u0259 bizim hima\u00ady\u0259\u00admizd\u0259s\u0259n. Biziml\u0259 olmaq s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131xd\u0131r\u0131c\u0131, yainki, \u00e7\u0259tin olmaz ki? D\u00fczd\u00fcr, biz bir q\u0259d\u0259r qocalm\u0131\u015f\u0131q, amma he\u00e7 d\u0259 pis adamlar deyilik.<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>M\u0259n \u00e7ox \u015fadam ki, anam m\u0259ni siz\u0259 tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131b. Sizsiz pu\u00e7 olard\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. S\u0259n Pembertonlar ail\u0259sind\u0259 yegan\u0259 katoliks\u0259n. Amma m\u0259nim n\u0259z\u0259rimd\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt Pembertonlar\u0131 t\u0259msil etm\u0259mis\u0259n.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b> (fincan\u0131 ver\u0259r\u0259k<\/i>). Fincan\u0131 al, Ceyms.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Day\u0131, s\u0259n\u0259 ya\u011f-\u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k verim?<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Yox, \u0259zizim, sa\u011f ol. Yaln\u0131z \u00e7ay i\u00e7\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. \u00c7ox ye\u00adm\u0259k\u00adl\u0259 aram yoxdur.<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> Eh, Roz, ke\u00e7\u0259n gec\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 \u0259hvalat ba\u015f verdi. Hans\u0131 qa\u00add\u0131nsa z\u0259ng edib soru\u015fdu ki, biz \u00f6z bac\u0131m\u0131z q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n g\u0259li\u015fini g\u00f6z\u00adl\u0259\u00ady\u0259n Braunlar\u0131q?<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. O kim idi?<\/p>\n
Tereza. <\/b>Bilmir\u0259m. S\u0259nin bu g\u00fcn g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yini bil\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259st\u0259yi asd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>N\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 bu bar\u0259d\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259mis\u0259n, Tereza. M\u0259nd\u0259n niy\u0259 gizl\u0259tmis\u0259n?<\/p>\n
Tereza. <\/b>El\u0259 bu saat yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. (Roza<\/i>) Y\u0259qin r\u0259fiq\u0259l\u0259\u00adrin\u00add\u0259n biri imi\u015f. S\u0259nd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259r tutmaq ist\u0259yib. El\u0259mi?<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcr. Burada, Londonda kim ola bil\u0259r? (t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 Maykla bax\u0131r<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> Eybi yox, vacib i\u015fi varsa, bir d\u0259 z\u0259ng ed\u0259r. Yeri g\u0259lmi\u015fk\u0259n, Ceyms, m\u00fch\u00fcm bir m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni n\u0259z\u0259rin\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131m. Meri bu g\u00fcn ev\u0259 vaxt\u0131ndan on be\u015f d\u0259qiq\u0259 tez gedib.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. Bu, onun g\u00fcnah\u0131 deyil. M\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259ki saat iyirmi d\u0259qiq\u0259 qaba\u011fa qa\u00e7\u0131r. (Qocalar s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259rk\u0259n Rozla Maykl s\u0259ssiz-s\u0259mirsiz otu\u00adrurlar. Onlar narahatd\u0131rlar. Bo\u015f s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259r\u0259 qo\u015fulmaq \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259\u00adrinc\u0259 deyil<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. \u018fg\u0259r saat \u00e7oxdan qaba\u011fa qa\u00e7\u0131rsa, bu daha pis. De\u00adm\u0259k, o, maraqlan\u0131b bilm\u0259lidir ki, \u0259slind\u0259 saat ne\u00e7\u0259dir (Ceyms\u0259<\/i>). B\u0259l\u00adk\u0259, onunla dan\u0131\u015fasan? S\u0259nin dem\u0259yin daha m\u00fcnasib olar. \u00d6z s\u0259h\u00advini ona anladar. Ah! (q\u0259fl\u0259t\u0259n fincan\u0131 yer\u0259 qoyub qap\u0131ya sar\u0131 getm\u0259k ist\u0259yir<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> N\u0259 olub?<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> \u018fg\u0259r Meri ert\u0259 gedibs\u0259 b\u0259s soba?<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> Soba bir-iki d\u0259qiq\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259r. O da tez \u0259kilm\u0259z. Eh, m\u0259nim i\u015fg\u00fczar Marfam.<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> \u018fg\u0259r ax\u015fam piroq gec haz\u0131r olsa, birinci s\u0259n deyin\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n.<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> El\u0259 is\u0259 qoy m\u0259n bi\u015firim. B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcnahlar da m\u0259nim boynumda qals\u0131n.<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> Bu g\u00fcn m\u0259nim n\u00f6vb\u0259mdir. D\u00fczd\u00fcr, Ceyms? Bi\u015f-d\u00fc\u015fl\u0259 m\u0259n m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olmal\u0131yam.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Bu g\u00fcn c\u00fcm\u0259 ax\u015fam\u0131d\u0131r? H\u0259, s\u0259nin n\u00f6vb\u0259ndir.<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> M\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259r\u0259m, \u0259zizim. S\u0259nin a\u011f\u0131r \u015feyl\u0259r\u0259 g\u00fcc el\u0259diyini g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yim tab g\u0259tirmir.<\/p>\n
S\u00f6hb\u0259t \u0259snas\u0131nda Rozla Maykl qalan adamlardan bir q\u0259d\u0259r aralan\u0131rlar. Tereza gedir. Onun dal\u0131nca \u00e7\u0131xmaq ist\u0259y\u0259n Helen, Maykl\u0131n \u0259lini uzadaraq Rozdan bo\u015f fincan\u0131 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr. Bu an onlar\u0131n \u0259ll\u0259ri \u00fcsulluca bir-birin\u0259 toxunur.<\/i><\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Sa\u011f ol, sevgilim (o, ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 s\u00f6z\u00fc dey\u0259rk\u0259n ehtiyats\u0131zl\u0131q edir. Art\u0131q gecdir, s\u00f6z a\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> Ceyms, c\u0259nab Dennisi bi\u015firdiyim keks\u0259 qonaq et (\u00e7\u0131x\u0131r<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. O, \u0259la keks bi\u015firir, c\u0259nab Dennis, dad\u0131na baxsan, pe\u015fman olmazsan.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Minn\u0259tdaram, ev\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sm\u0259liy\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. El\u0259 t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcfl\u0259nir\u0259m ki\u2026<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> N\u0259y\u0259?<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. Dem\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m ki, s\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox \u0259ziyy\u0259t verdim.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Z\u0259rr\u0259c\u0259\u2026 Amma arvad\u0131m, y\u0259qin ki, narahatd\u0131r. O, x\u0259s\u00adt\u0259hald\u0131r, tez h\u0259y\u0259canlan\u0131r. G\u0259r\u0259k, g\u0259l\u0259n kimi birinci ev\u0259 d\u0259\u00ady\u0259y\u00addim. Amma v\u0259siyy\u0259tnam\u0259 il\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259dar s\u00f6hb\u0259ti qurtarmaq ist\u0259dim.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b> (ist\u0259klisi is\u0259 sabah g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 can ataraq<\/i>). Bir g\u00f6r\u00fcn n\u0259 etmis\u0259n?! Sabaha q\u0259d\u0259r d\u00f6z\u0259 bilm\u0259zdik? Sabah g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n? Onda dan\u0131\u015far\u0131q.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> N\u0259 vaxt ist\u0259s\u0259n, m\u0259n qullu\u011funda haz\u0131r. Sabah z\u0259ng ed\u0259r\u0259m. \u0130ndi is\u0259 dinc\u0259l.<\/p>\n
Braun ata otaqda ola-ola onlar xo\u015f s\u00f6zl\u0259r deyib bir-biril\u0259rini sakitl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rlar.<\/i><\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> S\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 etdin.<\/i><\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Bu, m\u0259nim borcumdur. M\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259nim deyil, q\u0259yyum olmu\u015fam.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> M\u0259ni \u00e7\u0259tinliy\u0259 salma. \u0130ngilis dilinin qrammatikas\u0131n\u0131 s\u0259n dey\u0259n inc\u0259liyin\u0259 kimi bilmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. Bir q\u0259yyum kimi (astadan v\u0259 q\u0259tiyy\u0259tl\u0259<\/i>) \u00e7al\u0131\u015faca\u011fam ki, s\u0259n he\u00e7 bir \u00e7\u0259tinliy\u0259 m\u0259ruz qalmayasan. Xudahafiz, Braun ata.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Xudahafiz, c\u0259nab Dennis. Tezlikl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259yimiz\u0259 \u0259min\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, ka\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131ndan hans\u0131n\u0131sa unutmusan\u2026 Bax, oradak\u0131lar n\u0259dir?<\/p>\n
Bunu ona g\u00f6r\u0259 deyir ki, ke\u015fi\u015fin kreslosu arxas\u0131na ke\u00e7sinl\u0259r v\u0259 o, sevgilil\u0259ri g\u00f6r\u0259 bilm\u0259sin. Onlar \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 macal tapmasalar da, bir anl\u0131\u011fa bir-biril\u0259rin\u0259 q\u0131s\u0131l\u0131rlar.<\/i><\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, paltomun cibind\u0259 qal\u0131b (birlikd\u0259 qap\u0131ya sar\u0131 gedirl\u0259r<\/i>). Siz d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259yin. Vestib\u00fcl uzaqd\u0131r, sabaha q\u0259d\u0259r, Roz.<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>Sabaha q\u0259d\u0259r.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b> (sonuncu d\u0259f\u0259 bu q\u0259rib\u0259 ota\u011f\u0131 n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259n ke\u00e7ir\u0259r\u0259k<\/i>). Xudahafiz (\u00e7\u0131x\u0131r<\/i>).<\/p>\n
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Roz pill\u0259k\u0259n meydan\u00e7as\u0131nda dayan\u0131b onun ard\u0131nca bax\u0131r. O, pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259ri d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fckc\u0259 add\u0131m s\u0259sl\u0259ri e\u015fidilir. Roz qay\u0131tmaq bilmir. Pauza.<\/i><\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Yax\u0131n g\u0259l, \u0259zizim. Bir fincan da i\u00e7.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b> (qay\u0131daraq<\/i>). \u00c7ay\u0131 \u00e7ox da xo\u015flam\u0131ram.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b> (onun fikrini duyaraq<\/i>). H\u0259, pill\u0259l\u0259ri enm\u0259k \u00e7ox vaxt apar\u0131r. Bizim evd\u0259 t\u0259kc\u0259 m\u0259tb\u0259x \u00f6z yerind\u0259 \u2013 birinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259dir. \u0130ndi ki \u00e7ay i\u00e7mirs\u0259n, onda yax\u0131n g\u0259l, yan\u0131mda otur. M\u0259n ayda, ild\u0259\u00a0 bir d\u0259f\u0259 yad adam g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>M\u0259g\u0259r m\u0259n yadam?<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>Yadlar\u0131 da sevm\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u2026<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>H\u0259, el\u0259dir (ona yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131r, fikri is\u0259 \u00f6zg\u0259si il\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011fuldur<\/i>). Day\u0131, bu q\u0259d\u0259r ota\u011f\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131 niy\u0259 q\u0131f\u0131llan\u0131b?<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>Art\u0131q g\u00f6rm\u00fcs\u0259n? Bel\u0259 tez?<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>El\u0259 indic\u0259 m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 \u00e7a\u015f\u0131b qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Q\u0259rib\u0259 evdir. M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259ki otaqlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131 q\u0131f\u0131ll\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Bu d\u0259qiq\u0259 ba\u015fa salaram. \u018fslin\u0259 baxsan, s\u0259feh s\u0259b\u0259bi var.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> El\u0259mi?<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> \u018fg\u0259r t\u0259sad\u00fcfi qonaq olsayd\u0131n, s\u0259b\u0259bini a\u00e7maq laz\u0131m g\u0259lm\u0259zdi. Bu ev s\u0259nin d\u0259 evin olacaq. \u00d6z\u00fcn h\u0259r \u015feyi g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. H\u0259l\u0259 otaqlar bir yana dursun, Tereza xalan da, Helen xalan da s\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259c\u0259k\u2026 Eh, \u0259zizim, h\u0259yatda el\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259likl\u0259r var ki\u2026<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Tereza xalan\u0131n orada g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259si v\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259l qoymamas\u0131 bayaq m\u0259n\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259mmal\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Do\u011fru buyurursan, m\u0259nim balam. Bu, bir q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259z\u0259lidir\u2026 M\u0259n d\u0259 ist\u0259rdim ki, s\u0259n bunu el\u0259 bel\u0259c\u0259, bam\u0259z\u0259 q\u0259bul ed\u0259s\u0259n. Ancaq n\u0259bad\u0259 t\u0259sirl\u0259n\u0259s\u0259n. Bunun he\u00e7 kim\u0259 ziyan\u0131 yoxdur. Qoy b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar s\u0259nin \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259rini yerind\u0259n oynatmas\u0131n. H\u0259rd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m ki, g\u0259ncl\u0259rin \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259ri qocalar\u0131nk\u0131ndan daha pisdir. Qocal\u0131q babat d\u0259rmand\u0131r, ill\u0259rl\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z t\u0259sirini itirmir.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Siz h\u0259l\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 izah etm\u0259diniz ki\u2026<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Bo\u015f \u015feyl\u0259rdir, m\u0259nim balam. B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259diyim anda alaram\u2026 E\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n g\u00fcl\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. Allah can\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011f el\u0259sin, bu, h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n \u00e7ox m\u0259z\u0259li \u0259hvalatd\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Do\u011frudan?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b> (\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 al\u0131r<\/i>). Bilirs\u0259n, bizim \u0259vv\u0259lki qonaq ota\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adm\u0131zda Helen xalan yat\u0131r. \u015eik\u0259st oldu\u011fumdan m\u0259ni ist\u0259yirdil\u0259r yem\u0259k ota\u011f\u0131nda yerl\u0259\u015fdirsinl\u0259r. M\u0259n onlar\u0131 inand\u0131rd\u0131m ki, pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259 m\u0259\u00adni a\u015fa\u011f\u0131, yuxar\u0131 aparmaq onlara \u00e7\u0259tinlik t\u00f6r\u0259d\u0259c\u0259k. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 m\u0259\u00adni o qon\u015fu otaqda \u2013 \u0259vv\u0259lki day\u0259miz ya\u015fayan ki\u00e7ik otaqda yerl\u0259\u015fdirdil\u0259r. Tereza xalan m\u0259nim ota\u011f\u0131m\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 ota\u011f\u0131 tutdu. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r orada g\u00fcnd\u00fczl\u0259r u\u015faqlar at\u0131l\u0131b-d\u00fc\u015f\u0259rdil\u0259r. Bura is\u0259 u\u015faq yataq ota\u011f\u0131 idi. B\u00fct\u00fcn qalan yataq otaqlar\u0131 q\u0131f\u0131llan\u0131b.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Ax\u0131 n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b> (a\u011f\u0131r-a\u011f\u0131r v\u0259 h\u0259v\u0259ssiz<\/i>). Onlar bir vaxt kimins\u0259 \u00f6ld\u00fcy\u00fc otaqlardan istifad\u0259 etm\u0259k ist\u0259mirl\u0259r.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b> (a\u00e7\u0131q bir diqq\u0259tsizlikl\u0259<\/i>). \u0130nsanlarda yataq ota\u011f\u0131nda \u00f6lm\u0259k bir v\u0259rdi\u015f hal\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131b. Bizim evd\u0259 bu otaqdan ba\u015fqa b\u00fct\u00fcn ya\u00adtaq otaqlar\u0131n\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131 ba\u011flan\u0131b. Bac\u0131lar\u0131m h\u0259min otaqlardan istifad\u0259 etmirl\u0259r. Bura h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 u\u015faq yataq ota\u011f\u0131 olub. U\u015faqlar is\u0259 tezlikl\u0259 \u00f6lm\u00fcrl\u0259r. \u00d6l\u0259nd\u0259 is\u0259 qocal\u0131qdan yox.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar n\u0259 vaxtdan ba\u015flan\u0131b?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. D\u0259qiq bilmir\u0259m. Atam \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259 bu m\u0259nim diqq\u0259timi c\u0259lb etdi. Anam\u0131n ota\u011f\u0131 q\u0131f\u0131llananda bu tamam t\u0259bii g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Ax\u0131 orada onsuz da he\u00e7 kim yatm\u0131rd\u0131. Qonaqlar is\u0259 olmurdu\u2026 Ba\u015f\u0131ma bu q\u0259ziyy\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 (ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259rir<\/i>) burada ya\u015fama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m. Bu vaxt atam\u0131n ota\u011f\u0131n\u0131n da q\u0131f\u0131ll\u0131 olmas\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 d\u0259ydi. M\u0259n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259ki otaqlardan birini tutmaq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 Tereza dedi\u2026 H\u0259, m\u0259nc\u0259, Tereza idi. O dedi: Bu ki, Rozun ota\u011f\u0131 olub.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. Rozun?<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> S\u0259nin n\u0259n\u0259nin. Bizl\u0259rd\u0259n yaln\u0131z o, ail\u0259 qurmu\u015fdu. O, bu evd\u0259 s\u0259nin anan\u0131 do\u011fanda \u00f6ld\u00fc.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Dem\u0259li, otaqlar\u0131n q\u0131f\u0131llanmas\u0131 o vaxtdan ba\u015flan\u0131b?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Hans\u0131 Allah b\u0259nd\u0259si n\u0259yin m\u0259hz ha\u00e7an ba\u015f verdiyini bilir? B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, o vaxtdan. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, biz ham\u0131m\u0131z u\u015faq olub bir otaqda yatan vaxtdan.<\/p>\n
Pauza<\/i><\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Nec\u0259 d\u0259 qorxuncdur.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Yox, m\u0259nim q\u0131z\u0131m, bir el\u0259 qorxunc deyil. B\u0259z\u0259n zarafata sal\u0131r, onlar\u0131 burada, bu otaqda \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259yiml\u0259 qorxuduram. Sonra sual verir\u0259m: b\u0259s o vaxt siz – sa\u011f qalanlar hans\u0131 qonaq ota\u011f\u0131ndan istifad\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259ksiniz? Amma bir yandan baxanda, m\u0259nas\u0131z suald\u0131r. Bunu \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 anlay\u0131ram. Onsuz da son n\u0259f\u0259simd\u0259 m\u0259ni s\u00fc\u00adr\u00fcy\u00fcb \u00f6z ota\u011f\u0131ma aparacaq, \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra oran\u0131 da kip ba\u011fla\u00adyacaqlar.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Bayaqdan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z, m\u0259n is\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc d\u00f6y\u00fcb bir \u015fey anlam\u0131ram.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> El\u0259 m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 bu i\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259n ba\u015f a\u00e7a bilmir\u0259m. G\u00f6\u00adr\u00fcn\u00fcr, bu, \u00f6l\u00fcm qorxusudur. T\u0259sad\u00fcfi \u00f6l\u00fcm onlar\u0131 bir o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 t\u0259\u015f\u00advi\u015f\u0259 salm\u0131r. S\u0259nin anan nisb\u0259t\u0259n cavan idi. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 onun \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc s\u0259n dey\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259rin\u0259 salmad\u0131lar. O, \u00f6lm\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259 bil\u0259rdi. Onlar\u0131 lab\u00fcd sonluq qorxudur. T\u0259bii ki, n\u0259 vaxt kim is\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcrs\u0259, onlar laz\u0131m olan i\u015fl\u0259ri g\u00f6r\u00fcr v\u0259 bel\u0259 z\u0259nn edirl\u0259r ki, yax\u015f\u0131 katolikdirl\u0259r. C\u0259naz\u0259 duas\u0131 sifari\u015f verir, ibad\u0259tl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olur, sonra m\u00fcmk\u00fcn q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259r \u015feyi tez unutma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rlar. \u0130lk n\u00f6vb\u0259d\u0259 foto \u015f\u0259kill\u0259r yoxa \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Ax\u0131 niy\u0259? N\u0259d\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc?<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131 budur Dennisd\u0259n soru\u015f \u2013 bu onun ixtisas\u0131d\u0131r. O, m\u00fchazir\u0259 oxuyur, kitab yaz\u0131r, psixologiyan\u0131 t\u0259dris edir. Y\u0259qin dey\u0259c\u0259k ki, bu, qorxu nevrozudur. Yaxud daha m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259b ad tapacaq. M\u0259n olsa-olsa bir ke\u015fi\u015f\u0259m. Psixologiya m\u0259n gir\u0259n kol deyil. Bac\u0131lar\u0131m pis qad\u0131n deyill\u0259r. Onlar\u0131n vicdan\u0131 l\u0259k\u0259l\u0259nm\u0259yib. Allah\u0131n ac\u0131\u011f\u0131na ged\u0259n g\u00fcnah i\u015f tutmurlar. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, bayaq dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qlar\u0131m onlar haqda sa\u011flam fikir yaratm\u0131r. \u00c7ox zaman m\u0259hz g\u00fcnahkarlar ba\u015fqalar\u0131ndan daha m\u00f6hk\u0259m inama malik olur, Allaha inan\u0131rlar. S\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n qorxursan?<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Bilmir\u0259m\u2026 Bu haqda fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Ayd\u0131nd\u0131r. Qoy bu bar\u0259d\u0259 s\u0259n yox, onlar fikirl\u0259\u015fsinl\u0259r.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. B\u0259s s\u0259n, day\u0131, \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n qorxursan?<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Bir vaxtlar qorxard\u0131m. \u0130yirmi il \u0259vv\u0259l. Sonralar ba\u015f\u0131ma el\u0259 m\u00fcsib\u0259tl\u0259r g\u0259ldi ki. Sanki Allah m\u0259ni bu qorxu il\u0259 c\u0259zaland\u0131rd\u0131. Avtomobil q\u0259zas\u0131ndan sonra m\u0259ni g\u0259r\u0259ksiz bir v\u00fccuda d\u00f6nd\u0259rdi. M\u0259n ke\u015fi\u015f\u0259m. Lakin \u015fik\u0259stliyin ucbat\u0131ndan t\u00f6vb\u0259 ed\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 qulaq asa, x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259k\u0259 bilmir\u0259m. Bir s\u00f6zl\u0259, n\u0259 diriy\u0259 hay ver\u0259 bilir\u0259m, n\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcy\u0259 pay. M\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n qorxmazd\u0131m. M\u00f6vcud ik\u0259n g\u0259r\u0259ksiz olmaq \u2013 bax m\u0259ni qorxudan budur, bundan qorxuram.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. Ax\u0131 siz \u00f6z ail\u0259niz\u0259 laz\u0131ms\u0131n\u0131z.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Ke\u015fi\u015f yaln\u0131z \u00f6z \u015f\u0259xsi s\u0259ad\u0259tini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259m\u0259lidir. B\u0259z\u0259n s\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r h\u0259l\u0259 yuxudan alayar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q oyananda el\u0259 z\u0259nn edir\u0259m ki, ayaqlar\u0131m \u00f6z yerind\u0259dir. Sonra yan\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259: \u00abAman Allah, bu g\u00fcn n\u0259 dar\u0131xd\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u00bb, \u2013 deyir\u0259m, \u00abS\u0259h\u0259r tezd\u0259n \u2013 ibad\u0259t, sonra \u2013 m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s pri\u00e7astiye ittifaq\u0131, daha sonra \u2013 mehrab c\u0259miyy\u0259ti\u2026 sonra\u2026 sonra\u2026\u00bb B\u00fct\u00fcn bu qarmaqar\u0131\u015f\u0131ql\u0131qlar m\u0259ni ax\u0131r ki, t\u0259ng\u0259 g\u0259tirdi.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. \u0130ndi m\u0259n burdayam. Birlikd\u0259 d\u0259niz sahilin\u0259, ya da parka g\u0259zintiy\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131q.<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>Lap qiyam\u0259t olar. Amma haradad\u0131r bel\u0259 imkan\u2026 Bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir c\u00fct n\u00f6k\u0259r tutmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r. Pill\u0259k\u0259n h\u00fcnd\u00fcrd\u00fcr, m\u0259n is\u0259 da\u015f kimi a\u011f\u0131ram. Yox, q\u0131z\u0131m, s\u0259n\u0259 \u0259ziyy\u0259t verm\u0259r\u0259m. H\u0259m d\u0259\u2026 bu g\u00fcn-sabah \u0259r\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n.<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>H\u0259l\u0259 o vaxta \u00e7ox var.<\/p>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Helen girir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> Yaz\u0131q, rahats\u0131z m\u0259xluq. Soba tamam-kamal qayda\u00ads\u0131nda idi. Meriy\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bel ba\u011flamaq olar. C\u0259nab Dennis getdi?<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Bir az var gedib.<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> G\u00f6z\u0259l adamd\u0131r, amma m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, onda yumor hissi \u00e7at\u0131\u015fm\u0131r. Flopsi Bonnid\u0259n s\u00f6z a\u00e7d\u0131m, s\u0259n dem\u0259, onun haqq\u0131nda he\u00e7 e\u015fitm\u0259yib.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Yaln\u0131z, buna g\u00f6r\u0259 onu q\u0131nama\u011fa d\u0259ym\u0259z, Helen. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, m\u0259n \u00f6mr\u00fcmd\u0259 \u201c\u0130tirilmi\u015f c\u0259nn\u0259t\u201di oxumam\u0131\u015fam.<\/p>\n
Tereza t\u0259l\u0259sik g\u0259lir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b>\u00a0\u00a0 C\u0259nab Dennis han\u0131?<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> O art\u0131q gedib.<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> H\u0259min ledi yen\u0259 z\u0259ng edib. D\u00fcn\u0259nkini deyir\u0259m. C\u0259nab Dennisl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmaq ist\u0259yir.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Onun telefon n\u00f6mr\u0259si m\u0259nd\u0259 var (g\u00fccl\u0259 sezil\u0259n k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259<\/i>). Onu evd\u0259 tapa bil\u0259r.<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> Ona c\u0259nab Dennisin getdiyini bildirdim. Bel\u0259 olan t\u0259qdird\u0259 s\u0259ninl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmaq ist\u0259diyini s\u00f6yl\u0259di, Roz.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b> (r\u0259ngi avaz\u0131y\u0131r<\/i>). M\u0259niml\u0259?<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> H\u0259min qad\u0131n missis Dennisdir. Onunla dan\u0131\u015fmaq ist\u0259yirs\u0259nmi, \u0259zizim? El\u0259 suallar verir ki, m\u0259n onlara cavab tapa bilmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Ax\u0131 onunla tan\u0131\u015f deyil\u0259m. He\u00e7 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Helen diqq\u0259tl\u0259 qulaq as\u0131r.<\/i><\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Nec\u0259 suallar, Tereza?<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> Deyir ax\u015fam \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc pis hiss edirmi\u015f. \u0130st\u0259yib c\u0259nab Dennisi \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rs\u0131n. S\u0259n dedin o harada qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, \u0259zizim?<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Bilmir\u0259m. Dey\u0259s\u0259n k\u0259ndd\u0259.<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> Sonra s\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259ng \u00e7al\u0131b. S\u0259n d\u0259 evd\u0259 olmam\u0131san. O m\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 t\u0259sir ba\u011f\u0131\u015flad\u0131. Telefona get, q\u0131z\u0131m, o g\u00f6zl\u0259yir.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b> (Roza<\/i>). Yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131 budur, get, onunla \u00f6z\u00fcn dan\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b> (na\u00fcmid<\/i>). Bu, m\u0259nim i\u015fim deyil. Onu tan\u0131m\u0131ram. Maykl hara gets\u0259, bu saat evd\u0259 olacaq.<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> Kefini pozsa, m\u0259nim ist\u0259kli quzum. Yol onu \u0259ld\u0259n sal\u0131b. Helen xalas\u0131 onun \u0259v\u0259zind\u0259 dan\u0131\u015far (\u00e7\u0131x\u0131r<\/i>).<\/p>\n
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\u0130kinci \u015f\u0259kil<\/b><\/p>\n
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Qonaq ota\u011f\u0131. N\u00f6vb\u0259ti g\u00fcn s\u0259h\u0259r tezd\u0259n. Maykl t\u0259kdir. O n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259-s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 deyil. Portfelini a\u00e7\u0131b bir ne\u00e7\u0259 ka\u011f\u0131z \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131r, t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n yerin\u0259 qoyur. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f gedir. Bax\u0131r. Tereza Braun daxil olur.<\/i><\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> Sabah\u0131n xeyir, c\u0259nab Dennis.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Sabah\u0131n\u0131z xeyir, d\u00fcn\u0259n s\u00f6z verdim ki, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> A\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131, bel\u0259 ert\u0259 s\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259mirdik.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Saat on bird\u0259 m\u00fchazir\u0259m var.<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> Qarda\u015f\u0131m s\u0259h\u0259r yem\u0259yini h\u0259l\u0259 qurtarmay\u0131b. Bac\u0131mla m\u0259n s\u0259h\u0259r ibad\u0259tin\u0259 getmi\u015fdik…<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 narahat etm\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259z, miss Braun. M\u0259n Rozun yan\u0131na g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> O, evd\u0259 yoxdur. Biziml\u0259 kils\u0259d\u0259 d\u0259 olmay\u0131b.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> El\u0259 is\u0259 g\u00fcnorta saat \u00fc\u00e7d\u0259n sonra g\u0259l\u0259r\u0259m. Saat ikid\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011f\u0259l\u0259m var.<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> O, g\u00fcnorta da evd\u0259 olmayacaq.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> N\u0259 etm\u0259li, \u00e7al\u0131\u015faram ax\u015fam g\u0259lim.<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> T\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf ki, ax\u015fam da g\u00f6r\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. Bac\u0131m bel\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259di.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b> (ac\u0131 bir istehza il\u0259<\/i>). Miss Braun dedi ki, o, sabah da evd\u0259 olmayacaq, el\u0259mi?<\/p>\n
Tereza. <\/b>B\u0259li.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> N\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn?<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> Y\u0259qin ki, Helen s\u0259b\u0259bini bilir. M\u0259n bilmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Roz haradad\u0131r?<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> Do\u011fru s\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u00fcr, c\u0259nab Dennis, x\u0259b\u0259rim yoxdur. M\u0259n\u0259 he\u00e7 d\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyi izah etmirl\u0259r.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> M\u0259n anas\u0131n\u0131n v\u0259siyy\u0259tin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 Roza h\u0259m q\u0259yyum, h\u0259m d\u0259 himay\u0259\u00e7i t\u0259yin olunmu\u015fam. Onunla dan\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 yasaq etm\u0259y\u0259 bac\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n ixtiyar\u0131 yoxdur.<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> M\u0259n anlamaq iqtidar\u0131nda deyil\u0259m, c\u0259nab Dennis. Onun hans\u0131 i\u015fi qanuni, hans\u0131 i\u015fi qeyri-qanuni g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00adm\u00fc\u00adr\u0259m. O, \u00e7ox inadkard\u0131r. B\u00f6y\u00fck bac\u0131 olma\u011f\u0131ma baxmay\u0131n, o, b\u00fc\u00adt\u00fcn i\u015fl\u0259ri \u00f6z bildiyi kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcr. He\u00e7 Ceymsi d\u0259 saya salm\u0131r. Onun ke\u00ad\u015fi\u015f oldu\u011funu bel\u0259 unudur. Eh, c\u0259nab Dennis, Helen evd\u0259 el\u0259 qay\u00adda-qanun yarad\u0131b ki… (tualet ota\u011f\u0131n\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131na bax\u0131r<\/i>). Do\u011frusu, x\u0259\u00adca\u00adl\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kir\u0259m. K\u0259nar \u015f\u0259xs bizim haqq\u0131m\u0131zda n\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259r? \u018fg\u0259r He\u00adlen mane olmasa, onu (tualet ota\u011f\u0131na i\u015far\u0259 edir<\/i>) pill\u0259k\u0259n meydan\u00ad\u00e7a\u00ads\u0131na k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcr\u0259 bil\u0259rik.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. \u018fg\u0259r burada Rozun qay\u0131tmas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259li olsam?<\/p>\n
Tereza. <\/b>A\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131, Rozun evd\u0259 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131na bir o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259\u00a0 \u0259min deyil\u0259m. Ancaq h\u0259r halda, evd\u0259 d\u0259 olsa, bac\u0131m onun s\u0259ninl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259sin\u0259 imkan verm\u0259z.<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>Miss Braun, m\u0259ktub yaz\u0131b siz\u0259 vers\u0259m, onu Roza \u00e7atd\u0131rars\u0131n\u0131z?<\/p>\n
Tereza. <\/b>G\u0259r\u0259k Helend\u0259n \u00f6yr\u0259nim?<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>Ax\u0131 m\u0259n onun himay\u0259\u00e7isiy\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Tereza. <\/b>Helen bel\u0259 hesab edir ki, bu, s\u0259hv\u0259n olub.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b> (ac\u0131ql\u0131<\/i>). Miss Braunun nec\u0259 hesab etm\u0259si m\u0259ni q\u0259tiyy\u0259n maraqland\u0131rm\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Helen Terezan\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131q qoydu\u011fu qap\u0131dan g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. O, Ceymsin kreslosunu it\u0259l\u0259y\u0259-it\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259tirir. Qad\u0131nda \u0259vv\u0259lki mehriban sif\u0259td\u0259n \u0259s\u0259r-\u0259lam\u0259t qalmay\u0131b. \u0130ndi ayd\u0131nd\u0131r ki, o nec\u0259 bir m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259b xarakter\u0259 malikdir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> Sabah\u0131n xeyir, c\u0259nab Dennis. N\u0259 ert\u0259\u00a0 g\u0259lmis\u0259n?<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b> (fikrind\u0259n d\u00f6nm\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k<\/i>). G\u0259ldim ki, Rozu g\u00f6r\u00fcm. Sabah\u0131n\u0131z xeyir, Braun ata.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259d\u0259n hali olsayd\u0131m, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 bir k\u00f6m\u0259yim d\u0259y\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. N\u0259 bilm\u0259k olar? Buras\u0131 var ki… he\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 bilmir\u0259m n\u0259 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259dir.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. C\u0259nab Dennis, s\u0259n ged\u0259nd\u0259n sonra arvad\u0131n z\u0259ng vurmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. Bilir\u0259m, m\u0259n\u0259 dedi.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. \u0130ndi Roza g\u00f6r\u0259 cavabdehlik hissi yaln\u0131z bizim boynu\u00admuza d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Biz h\u0259r \u015feyi yerli-yataql\u0131 ayd\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131rma\u011fa borcluyuq.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. Siz n\u0259yi n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259 tutursunuz? Deyin, bil\u0259k.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Allah xatirin\u0259, yan\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 yer\u0259 qoyun, s\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131b m\u0259n d\u0259 aya\u011fa qalxmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m. (Onlar \u0259yl\u0259\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131rlar<\/i>.)<\/p>\n
Tereza. <\/b>O kresloda yox, c\u0259nab Dennis. O, Helenin kreslo\u00adsu\u00addur.<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>Yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131 budur, Tereza, s\u0259n get, Meriy\u0259 g\u00f6z qoy.<\/p>\n
Tereza. <\/b>Bu g\u00fcn m\u0259nim n\u00f6vb\u0259m deyil.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. C\u0259nab Dennisl\u0259 m\u0259nim s\u00f6hb\u0259tim var.<\/p>\n
Tereza. <\/b>Ax\u0131 m\u0259n ham\u0131n\u0131zdan b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. El\u0259 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 buras\u0131ndad\u0131r, \u0259zizim. Bu s\u00f6hb\u0259tin s\u0259n ya\u015fda olan adamlara q\u0259tiyy\u0259n d\u0259xli yoxdur.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b> (qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 k\u00f6m\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r<\/i>). Ceyms…<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Get, \u0259zizim. Biz burada laz\u0131m olandan da \u00e7oxuq.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, Meri ikinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259y\u0259 qalxd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. Meri q\u0131f\u0131ll\u0131 otaqlar\u0131 y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131rmaq x\u0259yal\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259z.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. Ona x\u0259b\u0259rdarl\u0131q etmi\u015f\u0259m. H\u0259r halda, yoxlasan, yax\u015f\u0131 olar.<\/p>\n
Tereza t\u0259l\u0259sik ota\u011f\u0131 t\u0259rk edir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> H\u0259, Ceyms…<\/p>\n
X\u0259st\u0259 g\u00f6rk\u0259mli Ceyms sakitc\u0259 \u00f6z t\u0259k\u0259rli kreslosunda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib, dill\u0259nmir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Pauza.<\/i><\/p>\n
S\u0259n c\u0259nab Dennisl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa s\u00f6z vermi\u015fdin.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b> (k\u00f6m\u0259ksiz, dem\u0259k olar ki, sif\u0259tind\u0259 yalvar\u0131c\u0131 ifad\u0259 ol\u00addu\u00ad\u00ad\u011fu halda<\/i>). N\u0259 c\u0259nab Dennis katolikdir, n\u0259 d\u0259 bura t\u00f6vb\u0259 h\u00fccr\u00ad\u0259si… M\u0259nim is\u0259 s\u0259lahiyy\u0259tim \u00e7atm\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> Ax\u0131, Ceyms, qad\u0131n soru\u015fa bilm\u0259z ki…<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Bu g\u00fcn ikinci d\u0259f\u0259dir ki, m\u0259ni sor\u011fu-suala tuturlar. Bel\u0259 olan t\u0259qdird\u0259 lap ali m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259y\u0259d\u0259k gedib \u00e7\u0131xmaq olar. Siz \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259k ist\u0259yirsiniz ki, Rozla m\u0259n bir-birimizi sevirikmi? H\u0259?<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. Do\u011frudur, c\u0259nab Dennis, ancaq biz he\u00e7 v\u0259d\u0259 sual\u0131 bel\u0259 kobud t\u0259rzd\u0259 qoymazd\u0131q.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> M\u0259n katolik deyil\u0259m. Qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131z bunu \u00e7ox do\u011fru v\u0259 d\u00fczg\u00fcn dedi. Ancaq m\u0259n \u201cm\u0259n\u0259viyyat\u0131 t\u0259hqir etm\u0259y\u0259\u201d c\u0259hd g\u00f6st\u0259r\u00adm\u0259\u00admi\u015f\u0259m. D\u00fczd\u00fcr, m\u00fchazir\u0259 oxuyark\u0259n ciddi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m, h\u0259tta bir q\u0259d\u0259r s\u0259rt adam t\u0259siri ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131ram. Bu, d\u0259qiqlik m\u0259fhumunun ba\u015f\u00adqa s\u00f6zl\u0259 ifad\u0259si dem\u0259kdir.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, indiy\u0259 kimi s\u0259n he\u00e7 d\u0259… d\u0259qiq olmam\u0131san.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Haqq\u0131n\u0131z olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 halda dediniz. Sizinl\u0259 raz\u0131la\u015f\u0131ram. Cavab verm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> Biz s\u0259nin haqq\u0131nda daha pis fikr\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259li olaca\u011f\u0131q.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> \u00d6z ad\u0131ndan dan\u0131\u015f, Helen, m\u0259n bel\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> \u00d6t\u0259n gec\u0259ni harada ke\u00e7irmis\u0259n, c\u0259nab Dennis? Ax\u0131 s\u0259n k\u0259ndd\u0259 qalmam\u0131san, el\u0259 deyil?<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Tutaq ki, el\u0259dir.<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> B\u0259s n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bunu bizd\u0259n gizl\u0259tmis\u0259n?<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. M\u0259n h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n otaq tutmu\u015fdum…<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. Missis Dennis z\u0259ng ed\u0259nd\u0259 is\u0259…<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> M\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 iki n\u0259f\u0259r c\u0259lb edilm\u0259lidir. Rozun raz\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 olmadan m\u0259n he\u00e7 bir suala cavab verm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. Yax\u015f\u0131 olard\u0131, onunla dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa icaz\u0259 ver\u0259ydiniz.<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> Xeyr, c\u0259nab Dennis, onu bir daha g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Lap melodramd\u0131r. Yaman h\u00f6c\u0259t adams\u0131n\u0131z (q\u0259fil qorxu il\u0259<\/i>). O x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259nm\u0259yib ki?<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Yox.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b> (Helen\u0259<\/i>). Niy\u0259 bel\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z, miss Braun? Biz ki u\u015faq deyilik.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. S\u0259n u\u015faqsan.<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>S\u0259hviniz var.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. Lap tutaq ki, u\u015faq deyils\u0259n. C\u0259nab Dennis, l\u00fctf\u0259n de, ne\u00e7\u0259 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n var?<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>Yoxumdur.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. Rozla n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u0259n?<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>V\u0259siyy\u0259tnam\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Rica edir\u0259m, a\u00e7\u0131q dan\u0131\u015f\u0131n. Bu zaman m\u0259nim daha \u00e7ox xo\u015fuma g\u0259lirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n
Maykl <\/b>(sancmaq m\u0259qs\u0259dil\u0259<\/i>). Onu sevir\u0259m! Kifay\u0259t q\u0259d\u0259r a\u00e7\u0131q dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m?<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>A\u00e7\u0131qm\u0131? Bu… \u0259d\u0259bsizlikdir. Anas\u0131n\u0131n d\u0259fnind\u0259n sonra u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 ba\u015fdan \u00e7\u0131xarm\u0131san.<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>Sizin m\u0259ntiqiniz kitabxanalar k\u00fcnc\u00fcn\u0259 at\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259rin toz basm\u0131\u015f s\u0259hif\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n boylan\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Helen dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa can at\u0131r, Ceyms onu saxlay\u0131r.<\/i><\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>\u00dcr\u0259yini bo\u015faltd\u0131n? \u0130ndi bizi yalq\u0131z burax.<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>G\u00f6rm\u00fcrs\u0259n n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r? A\u011fz\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259ni tullay\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>Ac\u0131qlanmaq laz\u0131m deyil. Birisi x\u0259trimiz\u0259 d\u0259yirs\u0259, h\u0259min adama qar\u015f\u0131 bizd\u0259 kin-k\u00fcdur\u0259t yaran\u0131r. Bu, yax\u015f\u0131 hal deyil, Helen. \u018fsas m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 bizim inciyib-incim\u0259m\u0259yimizd\u0259 deyil, s\u00f6hb\u0259t daha m\u00fch\u00fcm adamlardan gedir.<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>S\u0259n onu m\u00fch\u00fcm adam say\u0131rsan…<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. B\u0259li, say\u0131ram. O bizd\u0259n daha \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259tli adamd\u0131r. S\u0259nl\u0259 m\u0259n yaln\u0131z \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 t\u0259\u015f\u0259xx\u00fcs sata bil\u0259rik. Ba\u015fqa s\u00f6zl\u0259 des\u0259k, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn x\u00fcsusi \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259t k\u0259sb ed\u0259 bil\u0259rik. O is\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n yaln\u0131z yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015fa vurub. Bizd\u0259n daha art\u0131q \u0259zab \u00e7\u0259kir.<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> Ceyms, xahi\u015f edir\u0259m moiz\u0259 oxumayasan.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, ancaq h\u0259rd\u0259n ke\u015fi\u015f olma\u011f\u0131m yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Ru\u00adhani ata kimi q\u0259rar \u00e7\u0131xarma\u011fa m\u0259cbur oluram. Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, ged\u0259s\u0259n.<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> Ceyms, he\u00e7 olmasa s\u00f6z ver…<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Helen, s\u0259nin s\u0259sin h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 eyni avazda s\u0259sl\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259 z\u0259h\u00adl\u0259m gedir. Ax\u0131 bizim h\u0259r ikimizin bir aya\u011f\u0131 gordad\u0131r. Bu d\u00fcn\u00adyada bu g\u00fcnl\u00fck, sabahl\u0131q qona\u011f\u0131q, \u018fzray\u0131la pay aparan\u0131n birisiyik.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. Oh, s\u0259nin xasiyy\u0259tin lap d\u00f6z\u00fclm\u0259zdir (gedir<\/i>).<\/p>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0Pauza.<\/i><\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n, s\u00f6z a\u011fz\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xmam\u0131\u015f s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc…<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Hans\u0131 s\u00f6z?<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> \u00d6l\u00fcm. Yax\u015f\u0131 onunla n\u0259 ed\u0259k?<\/p>\n
Pauza.<\/i><\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> M\u0259nc\u0259, miss Braun g\u0259r\u0259k tamam…<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> S\u00f6hb\u0259t Rozdan gedir. Evli olma\u011f\u0131ndan onun x\u0259b\u0259ri var?<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Var.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Bayaq, dey\u0259s\u0259n, ikinci d\u0259f\u0259 sor\u011fu-suala tutuldu\u011funu dedin?<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b> (narahat halda otaqda g\u0259zinir, ha\u00e7andan-ha\u00e7ana Ceym\u00adsin kreslosunun yan\u0131nda dayanaraq<\/i>). D\u00fcn\u0259n ax\u015fam ev\u0259 g\u0259\u00adl\u0259nd\u0259 art\u0131q arvad\u0131m qap\u0131n\u0131n arxas\u0131n\u0131 vurub \u00f6z \u00e7arpay\u0131s\u0131nda uzan\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00add\u0131. Hiss etdim ki, hikk\u0259si yer\u0259-g\u00f6y\u0259 s\u0131\u011fm\u0131r. Bu g\u00fcn s\u0259h\u0259r is\u0259 \u00f6z h\u00f6km\u00fcn\u00fc oxudu.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> H\u00f6km \u0259dal\u0259tli oldu?<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Siz \u0259dal\u0259t\u0259 inan\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z? (q\u0259z\u0259bli istehza il\u0259<\/i>) H\u0259, az qala unutmu\u015fdum. Siz Allah\u0131n \u0259dal\u0259tin\u0259, h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 qadir Tanr\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259tin\u0259 inan\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z ax\u0131.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Hakim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0259nin n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259 tutdu\u011fun \u0259dal\u0259tin kor q\u0259\u00adpik d\u0259 qiym\u0259ti yoxdur (o \u00e7evrilib otaqda g\u0259zi\u015f\u0259n Maykl\u0131n h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t\u00adl\u0259\u00adrin\u0259 g\u00f6z qoyur<\/i>). Allah m\u00fchakim\u0259 etmir, sad\u0259c\u0259, d\u00fczg\u00fcn h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t edir. Bizim b\u00fct\u00fcn \u015f\u00fcurlu, yaxud \u015f\u00fcursuz niyy\u0259timiz ona b\u0259llidir. El\u0259 buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 o \u0259dal\u0259tlidir.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b> (Ceymsin kreslosuna sar\u0131 g\u0259l\u0259r\u0259k<\/i>). Sizin fikrinizi ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m. M\u0259n orta ya\u015fl\u0131 ki\u015fiy\u0259m. Arvad\u0131m m\u0259nd\u0259n bo\u015fanmaz, el\u0259mi?<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>Bu v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f yolu tapmaq dem\u0259k deyil.<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>M\u0259n is\u0259 Rozla evl\u0259nm\u0259k\u00a0 ist\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>Onunla sad\u0259c\u0259 ya\u015famaq s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0259rf\u0259li olard\u0131. Bu onun boynuna daha az minn\u0259t qoyard\u0131.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. Sizin m\u0259ntiqiniz\u0259 yaln\u0131z nifr\u0259t edir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>Uzun ill\u0259rdir m\u0259n bu ayaqs\u0131z b\u0259d\u0259n\u0259 nifr\u0259t edir\u0259m. M\u0259g\u0259r m\u0259nim nifr\u0259timin bir \u015feyi d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 g\u00fcc\u00fc \u00e7at\u0131r? Faktlara nifr\u0259t etm\u0259k \u2013 vaxt\u0131n m\u0259nas\u0131z itirilm\u0259sidir.<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>M\u0259n a\u011flabatan faktlara inan\u0131ram (Pauza)<\/i>. Ata, bizim psixologiyada da d\u00f6n\u00fckl\u0259r var. M\u0259n r\u00f6yan\u0131n t\u0259hlilin\u0259 inan\u0131ram. Ancaq h\u0259rd\u0259n el\u0259 sad\u0259, el\u0259 q\u0131sa yuxular g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m ki, ilk bax\u0131\u015fdan adama el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, onlar\u0131n t\u0259hlil edilm\u0259sin\u0259 l\u00fczum yoxdur. Onlar yaln\u0131z \u00fcmumi t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr v\u0259 boyalardan, sad\u0259c\u0259, g\u00f6z\u0259llik hissind\u0259n ibar\u0259t olur. V\u0259ssalam. Onda m\u0259n daha d\u0259rin\u0259 getm\u0259kd\u0259n imtina edir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> N\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259yirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> M\u0259n \u00f6z \u015f\u0259xsi m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tim haqda fikir s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259 qadir\u0259m. Bu ya\u015f\u0131mda nec\u0259 olub e\u015fq\u0259\u00a0 m\u00fcbt\u0259la olmu\u015fam? Bunu \u00f6y\u00adr\u0259n\u00adm\u0259k, y\u0259qin, sizin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn maraql\u0131d\u0131r… H\u0259yat k\u0259h\u0259r at kimi d\u00f6rdnala \u00e7aparaq gedir. \u00d6mr\u00fcn bu f\u0259r\u0259hsiz g\u00fcnl\u0259rind\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l bir q\u0131z qar\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r. \u00d6z e\u015fqind\u0259n m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259lvan \u00e7\u0259l\u0259ngl\u0259r h\u00f6r\u00fcr. Onun sevgisi m\u0259ni qanadland\u0131r\u0131r. F\u0259q\u0259t, h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131n tez s\u00f6n\u0259c\u0259yi fikri, qocal\u0131q \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 sonuncu yoxu\u015fu d\u0131rma\u015fmaq fikri, bakir\u0259liyin cazib\u0259si m\u0259ni \u0259yl\u0259yir, m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tl\u0259 \u0259lb\u0259yaxa olma\u011fa vadar edir. Bu, Hayd-parkda q\u0259fl\u0259t\u0259n taydi\u015fl\u0259 rastla\u015fmaq kimi qorxuncdur. H\u0259, ata, s\u0259n h\u0259r \u015feyi t\u0259hlil ed\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n. F\u0259q\u0259t m\u0259nas\u0131 varm\u0131? Yax\u015f\u0131, tutaq ki, bunu qorxu nevrozu adland\u0131rd\u0131m. Bir fikirl\u0259\u015fin. Ax\u0131 bundan sonra m\u0259n\u0259 g\u0259nc, q\u0259\u00ad\u015f\u0259ng, g\u00fcl kimi a\u00e7an f\u0259r\u0259hnak bir \u00fcz, bir c\u00fct g\u00f6z baxacaq… H\u0259l\u0259 bir m\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131n. \u00d6z m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259timi nec\u0259 d\u0259 hikm\u0259tli obrazla ifad\u0259 edir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. H\u0259qiq\u0259tin b\u0259z\u0259n son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 yalan g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259sin\u0259 ke\u015fi\u015fi inand\u0131rmaq laz\u0131m g\u0259lmir. Bu m\u0259n\u0259 lap \u00e7oxdan – t\u00f6vb\u0259 ed\u0259nl\u0259ri dinl\u0259y\u0259rk\u0259n b\u0259yan olub. Ancaq f\u0259rqi yoxdur. M\u0259n s\u0259nin m\u00f6vcud olmama\u011f\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 yaxud he\u00e7 olmasa, \u00f6zg\u0259 c\u00fcr olma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcn tutard\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>Y\u0259ni nec\u0259?<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Lap el\u0259 n\u00fcmun\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn baban\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259k. Xaricd\u0259 olar\u00adk\u0259n o, kim bilir, ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 \u00fcmumixanalara ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259kib. Lakin ona g\u00fcn kimi ayd\u0131n idi ki, o, yaln\u0131z k\u0259bin k\u0259sdirdiyi qad\u0131n\u0131 sevm\u0259k h\u00fc\u00adqu\u00adquna malikdir. \u00d6z halalca arvad\u0131n\u0131 atmaq fikri is\u0259 \u00f6mr\u00fcnd\u0259 onun a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259lm\u0259zdi. Bu, cinay\u0259t i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259kd\u0259n daha pis g\u00fcnah say\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. O vaxtlar d\u00fcnyayi-al\u0259m \u00e7ox t\u0259l\u0259bkar idi B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259n bir insan kimi babandan qat-qat y\u00fcks\u0259kd\u0259 durursan, ancaq o, insanlara s\u0259nd\u0259n qat-qat az q\u00fcss\u0259 g\u0259tirirdi.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> M\u0259n he\u00e7 kim\u0259 q\u00fcss\u0259-k\u0259d\u0259r g\u0259tirm\u0259k niyy\u0259tind\u0259 deyil\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> S\u0259nin t\u0259x\u0259yy\u00fcl\u00fcn bir o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 bitkin deyil. Ax\u0131 nec\u0259 ola bil\u0259r, e\u015fqbazl\u0131qla, m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t fitn\u0259-f\u0259sad\u0131 il\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olasan, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 he\u00e7 kim\u0259 d\u0259rd-\u0259l\u0259m verm\u0259y\u0259s\u0259n?<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> M\u0259n he\u00e7 d\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t fitn\u0259-f\u0259sad\u0131 il\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olma\u011fa haz\u0131rla\u015fm\u0131ram. Arvad\u0131mla sakitc\u0259, h\u0259tta bir q\u0259d\u0259r s\u0259mimi \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 ayr\u0131laca\u011fam. Bu siz dey\u0259n d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259 d\u0259 q\u00fcss\u0259-k\u0259d\u0259r, \u0259zab-\u0259ziyy\u0259t\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259b olmayacaq.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> M\u0259n s\u0259hv etdim. \u018fg\u0259r arvad\u0131n\u0131 at\u0131rsansa v\u0259 ona he\u00e7 bir d\u0259rd-\u0259l\u0259m verm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yini z\u0259nn edirs\u0259ns\u0259, t\u0259x\u0259yy\u00fcl\u00fcn son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 bitkindir.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Biz onunla… \u0259slin\u0259 varsan\u0131z, \u0259r-arvadl\u0131q m\u00fcnasib\u0259tini \u00e7oxdan pozmu\u015fuq.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Q\u0259rib\u0259dir. Bir evd\u0259, bir dam\u0131n alt\u0131nda ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z, bir yast\u0131\u011fa ba\u015f qoydu\u011funuz halda bir-biriniz\u0259 n\u0259 olmusunuz? Yolda\u015fm\u0131, \u015f\u0259rikmi, b\u0259lk\u0259 bac\u0131-qarda\u015f?<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> M\u0259n he\u00e7 kimi incitm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m. Bir k\u0259si incitm\u0259k, d\u0259rd\u0259-q\u0259m\u0259 d\u00fc\u00e7ar etm\u0259k m\u0259nim yat\u0131b yuxuma da girm\u0259z. Siz el\u0259 bilirsiniz, Rozla evl\u0259nm\u0259k q\u0259na\u0259tin\u0259 g\u0259ldiyimd\u0259n arvad\u0131mdan soyu\u00admu\u00ad\u015fam? \u018fsla. \u0130ki ay \u0259vv\u0259l Roz diqq\u0259timi bel\u0259 c\u0259lb etmirdi. M\u0259n onlara ged\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259kiml\u0259r Rozun anas\u0131n\u0131 m\u00fcayin\u0259 edib g\u00f6st\u0259rdil\u0259r ki, onda d\u00f6\u015f anginas\u0131 var. Sizin bac\u0131n\u0131z q\u0131z\u0131 \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l bilirdi ki, yersiz bir add\u0131m atarsa, yaxud a\u011f\u0131r \u015fey qald\u0131rarsa, ist\u0259nil\u0259n anda \u00f6l\u00fcm onu yaxalaya bil\u0259r. O, Rozu m\u0259n\u0259 tap\u015f\u0131rmaq ist\u0259yirdi. Katolik olmasam da, o m\u0259n\u0259 inan\u0131rd\u0131. \u018frinin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc bizim h\u0259r ikimiz \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn a\u011f\u0131r itki olmu\u015fdu… S\u00f6hb\u0259t \u0259snas\u0131nda Roz ota\u011fa girdi. M\u0259n g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn ucu il\u0259 d\u0259 ona baxm\u0131rd\u0131m. Lakin o, anas\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6pm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7arpay\u0131ya do\u011fru \u0259y\u00adi\u00adl\u0259nd\u0259 sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131n \u0259tri m\u0259ni bihu\u015f etdi… Sonra Roz otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. O, vaqonun p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259n baxark\u0259n g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fcz land\u015faft\u0131 xat\u0131r\u00adla\u00add\u0131r\u00add\u0131. Bu an adam\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n qatar\u0131 saxlamaq v\u0259 … d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k ke\u00e7irdi…<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> H\u0259, sonra…<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> M\u0259n qatar\u0131 \u0259yl\u0259dim.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 c\u0259rim\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259b olunur.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. M\u0259n bel\u0259 bir c\u0259rim\u0259ni \u00f6d\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 canla-ba\u015fla haz\u0131ram. Yaln\u0131z \u00f6z\u00fcm. Ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131n buna haqq\u0131 yoxdur.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. El\u0259 is\u0259 de g\u00f6r\u00fcm, bac\u0131m haql\u0131d\u0131r? S\u0259n d\u0259fn m\u0259rasi\u00admin\u0259 haz\u0131rla\u015fark\u0259n art\u0131q q\u0259rara alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131n ki…<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. N\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z? M\u0259n son d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259r\u0259d\u0259k bu bar\u0259d\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. \u018fg\u0259r sizin yerinizd\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259 olsayd\u0131m, bu m\u0259n\u0259 toxunard\u0131. S\u00f6hb\u0259t m\u0259nim \u00f6z\u00fcm v\u0259 Roz haqq\u0131nda getdiyind\u0259n, \u0259l\u00adb\u0259tt\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc biab\u0131r\u00e7\u0131 v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 qoymaq ist\u0259m\u0259zdim. Siz g\u00f6r\u00fcn n\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015firsiniz: \u201cEhsan s\u00fcfr\u0259sind\u0259n qalan yem\u0259kl\u0259r birba\u015fa g\u0259tirildi toy m\u0259clisin\u0259\u201d, toy ki olmad\u0131. Ona h\u0259l\u0259 indi d\u0259 \u00fcmid azd\u0131r. Biz n\u0259 etm\u0259liyik?<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> S\u0259n psixoloqsan. Freydin, Yunqun, Adlerin\u00a0 hikm\u0259t\u00adl\u0259rin\u0259 m\u00fcraci\u0259t et, b\u0259lk\u0259 onlar s\u0259n\u0259 yol g\u00f6st\u0259rdil\u0259r. S\u0259n m\u0259nd\u0259n yaln\u0131z ke\u015fi\u015f cavab\u0131 ala bil\u0259rs\u0259n.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. M\u0259n ke\u015fi\u015f cavab\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yir\u0259m. He\u00e7 olmasa, n\u0259y\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 m\u00fcbariz\u0259 aparaca\u011f\u0131m m\u0259n\u0259 m\u0259lum olar.<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>M\u0259n yaln\u0131z bir cavab ver\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m. S\u0259n arvad\u0131na qar\u015f\u0131 pis m\u00fcnasib\u0259tind\u0259n, Roza olan m\u00fcnasib\u0259tind\u0259n, \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 v\u0259 inanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n Allaha yanl\u0131\u015f m\u00fcnasib\u0259tind\u0259n \u0259l \u00e7\u0259k. Get, onunla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259, m\u0259ktub da yazma. O yazsa da, cavab verm\u0259. Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259, s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tin, cans\u0131x\u0131c\u0131 ke\u00e7\u0259c\u0259k. N\u0259 etm\u0259li? S\u0259n zal\u0131m adam deyils\u0259n…<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>B\u0259s sonra?<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>Haqq-taaladan \u00fcmidini \u00fczm\u0259. H\u0259r \u015fey yax\u015f\u0131 olar.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b> (\u0259s\u0259bi<\/i>). Yax\u015f\u0131 olar? Yax\u015f\u0131 haqq\u0131nda q\u0259rib\u0259 m\u00fchaki\u00adm\u0259\u00adniz var. F\u0259rz ed\u0259k ki, ondan \u0259l \u00e7\u0259kdim. \u00c7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l. O vaxt onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 x\u0259yan\u0259tl\u0259 \u0259kiz do\u011fulacaq. Yenid\u0259n sev\u0259rs\u0259, m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tin \u0259b\u0259di deyil, ke\u00e7ici olmas\u0131 fikri onu t\u0259rk etm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc m\u00fcdafi\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131rlayacaq, \u00f6z q\u0131n\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kilib bel\u0259c\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcb ged\u0259c\u0259k. M\u0259n is\u0259 son on ild\u0259 ke\u00e7irdiyim h\u0259yat\u0131 yen\u0259 d\u0259 davam etdir\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. Art\u0131q bezdiyim qad\u0131nla bir dam\u0131n alt\u0131nda ya\u015fayacaq, bir yast\u0131\u011fa ba\u015f qoysam da, yax\u0131nl\u0131q etm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259diyim\u00add\u0259n yar\u0131 gizli, yar\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131q t\u0259sad\u00fcfi qad\u0131nlarla g\u00fcn ke\u00e7ir\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. Arvad\u0131m isteriya x\u0259st\u0259liyin\u0259 d\u00fc\u00e7ar olub. Bu, o dem\u0259kdir ki, onillik \u00fcr\u0259ka\u00e7maz g\u00fcnl\u0259rim onu bu v\u0259ziyy\u0259t\u0259 sal\u0131b. U\u015fa\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259n o, naxo\u015fdur. H\u0259rd\u0259n fikirl\u0259\u015fir\u0259m, b\u0259lk\u0259, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc el\u0259 onun \u00f6z qondarmas\u0131d\u0131r. Onun \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc m\u0259nim g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda olmay\u0131b.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> S\u0259n \u00f6z arvad\u0131na \u015f\u0259fa ver\u0259 bilm\u0259zs\u0259n?<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Q\u0259tiyy\u0259n. M\u0259n onun d\u0259rdinin, azar\u0131n\u0131n bir paras\u0131yam. D\u00fczd\u00fcr, n\u0259 vatxsa bir yast\u0131\u011fa ba\u015f qoymu\u015f, sevincd\u0259n kam alm\u0131\u015f\u0131q. Lakin o s\u0259ad\u0259t uzaq ke\u00e7mi\u015fd\u0259n boylan\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Dem\u0259k, s\u0259n ev-e\u015fiyini da\u011f\u0131dacaqsan. Allah xatirin\u0259, bir daha m\u0259niml\u0259 psixologiyadan dan\u0131\u015fma. Sad\u0259c\u0259, de, n\u0259 etm\u0259k fikrind\u0259s\u0259n?<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Rozla evl\u0259nm\u0259k fikrind\u0259y\u0259m. T\u0259bii, sakit insan h\u0259yat\u0131 ya\u015famaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m. \u0130st\u0259yir\u0259m ail\u0259m olsun. Roz m\u0259nim soyad\u0131m\u0131 q\u0259bul ed\u0259r. Rahatl\u0131q, dinclik xatirin\u0259, \u00f6vlad xatirin\u0259 g\u00fcz\u0259\u015ft\u0259 ged\u0259r. \u0130zdivac bar\u0259d\u0259 he\u00e7 k\u0259s \u0259sl h\u0259qiq\u0259ti bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. Arvad\u0131m, ola bilsin ki, bir vaxt bo\u015fanma\u011fa raz\u0131l\u0131q versin. Onda biz k\u0259bin d\u0259 k\u0259sdir\u0259rik.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b> (istehza il\u0259<\/i>). Bel\u0259 fikri x\u0259yal\u0131na g\u0259tirm\u0259. Roz bel\u0259 nikaha raz\u0131l\u0131q verm\u0259z!<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>Siz onu tan\u0131m\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z!<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>\u018fksin\u0259, m\u0259n ona s\u0259nd\u0259n daha yax\u015f\u0131 b\u0259l\u0259d\u0259m. S\u0259n katolikin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 tovlay\u0131b onu k\u0259bin ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131na qol \u00e7\u0259kdirm\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259cbur ets\u0259n d\u0259, bunu h\u0259qiqi nikah adland\u0131rmaq olmaz. B\u0259zi m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 biz s\u0259nd\u0259n az s\u0259hv etmirik. Lakin bunu d\u0259rk etm\u0259y\u0259, he\u00e7 olmasa, bizd\u0259 sa\u011flam fikir tap\u0131l\u0131r. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 Roz birt\u0259h\u0259r \u00f6z ehtiras\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6n\u00add\u00fcr\u00adm\u0259yinc\u0259 rahatl\u0131q tapmayacaq, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc b\u0259xtiyar sanmayacaq. An\u00adcaq el\u0259 ki, h\u0259min ehtiras s\u00f6nd\u00fc, m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t alovunun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 su \u00e7i\u00adl\u0259n\u00addi, o s\u0259ni t\u0259rk ed\u0259c\u0259k. O zaman art\u0131q k\u0259bin ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131 da s\u0259nin dad\u0131na yetm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. \u00d6z taleyini bizd\u0259n biri il\u0259 ba\u011flama\u011fa d\u0259ym\u0259z, \u0259zizim.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> N\u0259 eybi? M\u0259n risk edir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> B\u0259s arvad\u0131n?<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> \u00d6z ist\u0259yin\u0259 \u00e7atmay\u0131nca onun isteriya tutmalar\u0131 v\u0259 qalmaqallar\u0131 davam ed\u0259c\u0259k. \u0130ki c\u00fcr h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t etm\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fcr. \u018fvv\u0259la, ona g\u00fcz\u0259\u015ft\u0259 getm\u0259k olar. Bu is\u0259 n\u00f6vb\u0259ti tama\u015fan\u0131 s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259ndirm\u0259k dem\u0259kdir. Bu vaxt o, yax\u015f\u0131 taz\u0131 kimi m\u00fcv\u0259ff\u0259qiyy\u0259t qazan\u0131r. Sad\u0259c\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259k d\u0259 olar. T\u0259nhal\u0131qda he\u00e7 n\u0259d\u0259n tama\u015fa \u00e7\u0131xarmaq onun n\u0259yin\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131r? Yar\u0131m saat m\u00fcdd\u0259tin\u0259 d\u0259 olsa, o q\u0259d\u0259r evi t\u0259rk etmi\u015f\u0259m ki. M\u0259n onun xeyrin\u0259 gedir\u0259m. Siz\u0259 zal\u0131m t\u0259siri ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131ram, el\u0259mi? M\u0259n zal\u0131m deyil\u0259m. Onu sevir\u0259m. O m\u0259nim arvad\u0131md\u0131r. O \u00f6z sa\u011flaml\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bizim u\u015fa\u011f\u0131m\u0131za g\u00f6r\u0259 itirib. Qoy o, xo\u015fb\u0259xt olsun. M\u0259n \u00e7ox \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Daha bacarm\u0131ram. Bel\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131 davam etdirm\u0259k a\u011f\u0131ls\u0131zl\u0131qd\u0131r. He\u00e7 birimiz \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yax\u015f\u0131 olmayacaq. Gec-tez onunla \u0259laq\u0259ni k\u0259s\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. \u0130ztirabl\u0131 g\u00fcnl\u0259ri n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn uzatmal\u0131yam? Niy\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259? (kresloya yax\u0131n g\u0259lir<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b> (titr\u0259yir, ba\u015f\u0131 k\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u0259 enir<\/i>). N\u0259 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli d\u00fcnyad\u0131r!<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> B\u0259lk\u0259 bir anl\u0131\u011fa ke\u015fi\u015f oldu\u011funuzu unudas\u0131n\u0131z?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b> (\u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 ac\u0131 bir t\u0259n\u0259 il\u0259<\/i>). Bunu sutkada 22 saat unuduram. Kifay\u0259t deyilmi?<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Bir insan kimi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc Rozun yerind\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr edin. Sizc\u0259, o bu evd\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 qocan\u0131n, qap\u0131s\u0131 q\u0131f\u0131ll\u0131 otaqlar\u0131n \u0259hat\u0259sind\u0259 s\u0259ad\u0259t tapa bil\u0259r?.. Bu otaqlar niy\u0259 q\u0131f\u0131ll\u0131d\u0131r?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b> (p\u0259rt v\u0259 sakit s\u0259sl\u0259<\/i>). Onlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn birisi \u00f6l\u0259n otaqda ya\u00ad\u015fa\u00admaq qorxulu idi. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn yataq otaqlar\u0131n\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131 ba\u011f\u00adlan\u0131b.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b> (t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259<\/i>). Bel\u0259 de. Q\u0259rib\u0259 hadis\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 m\u0259n \u00e7ox rast\u00adla\u015fm\u0131\u015fam. Bu beyind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xmayan nevrozdur. Dem\u0259, he\u00e7 d\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn insanlar kamala yetmir, h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n ya\u015fa dolmurlarm\u0131\u015f. B\u0259zil\u0259ri h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 inan\u0131rlar ki, onlar \u00f6lm\u00fcrl\u0259r.<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>S\u0259n bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fclm\u0259mi\u015f, t\u0259l\u0259m-t\u0259l\u0259sik \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131lm\u0131\u015f h\u00f6km\u00fc nec\u0259 d\u0259 b\u0259y\u0259nirs\u0259n, Dennis.<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>Bu n\u0259 g\u00fcn-r\u00fczgard\u0131r, bilmir\u0259m. Siz he\u00e7 Rozu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fc\u00adn\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz? \u018fg\u0259r bac\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131zdan biri \u00f6l\u0259rs\u0259, nec\u0259 olacaq? V\u0259 yaxud, siz \u00f6ls\u0259niz? Bir t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr edin. Roz mebell\u0259ri bir otaqdan dig\u0259rin\u0259 da\u015f\u0131y\u0131b aparma\u011fa k\u00f6m\u0259k edir. M\u0259g\u0259r bu m\u0259sum q\u0131z \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259yatd\u0131r?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. S\u0259nin d\u0259lill\u0259rin \u00e7oxdur, amma…<\/p>\n
Pauza.<\/i><\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b> (qalibl\u0259r\u0259 xas \u0259da il\u0259<\/i>). Amma n\u0259?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Allah\u0131n m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259ti d\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fckd\u00fcr.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. El\u0259 g\u00fcman etm\u0259yin ki, m\u0259n ona bel ba\u011flayaca\u011fam.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> B\u0259z\u0259n biz \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz d\u0259 \u00fcmidimizi ona ba\u011flam\u0131r\u0131q.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Bac\u0131n\u0131za a\u011f\u0131z a\u00e7maq s\u0259m\u0259r\u0259sizdir. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 sizd\u0259n t\u0259v\u0259qqe edir\u0259m: Rozla dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa izn verin.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> B\u0259lk\u0259 s\u0259n ona yalq\u0131z qalma\u011fa imkan ver\u0259s\u0259n. Qoyasan \u00f6z taleyini \u00f6z\u00fc h\u0259ll etsin.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Yaxud onun \u0259v\u0259zind\u0259 bac\u0131n\u0131z h\u0259ll etsin.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b> (son c\u0259hdi edir<\/i>). S\u0259n psixoloqsan. Yax\u015f\u0131 bilirs\u0259n ki, ad\u0259\u00adt\u0259n cavan q\u0131zlar s\u0259n ya\u015fda ki\u015fil\u0259r\u0259 tez b\u0259nd olurlar. Bilirs\u0259n niy\u0259? Ata n\u0259vazi\u015fi g\u00f6rm\u0259dikl\u0259rind\u0259n, bir ata sora\u011f\u0131nda olduq\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n\u00addan.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b> (tutulur<\/i>). N\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259yirsiniz?<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Roz \u00f6z atas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b> (Ceymsin son s\u00f6zl\u0259ri x\u0259nc\u0259r t\u0259k onun b\u0259d\u0259nin\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yir, h\u0259ddind\u0259n art\u0131q odlu<\/i>). \u00c7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l. M\u0259n onun atas\u0131n\u0131 \u0259v\u0259z etm\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131ram. Onu xo\u015fb\u0259xt etm\u0259kd\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n \u0259l \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r\u0259m. Sevgiy\u0259 mane olmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yax\u015f\u0131 t\u0259klifdir. M\u0259ns\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015firdim, qara sa\u00e7\u0131m, yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259m olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 b\u0259han\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259ksiniz… Sa\u00e7lar a\u011far\u0131r, ikinci buxaq yaran\u0131r. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc bir ata kimi duymaq is\u0259 uzun ill\u0259r insan \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn f\u0259xar\u0259t olur.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Uzun \u00f6m\u00fcr s\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 yaman \u0259mins\u0259n ha…<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. M\u0259n onu t\u0259ng\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259mi\u015f \u00f6l\u00fcb ged\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259. Amma bu g\u00fcmana \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259m var.<\/p>\n
A\u015fa\u011f\u0131dan z\u0259ng s\u0259si e\u015fidilir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. Olarm\u0131 gedib onu tap\u0131m?<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> O, evd\u0259 yoxdur. Helen y\u0259qin bu bar\u0259d\u0259 t\u0259dbir g\u00f6r\u00fcb.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Onu burada g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. H\u0259r halda s\u0259ni qovmaq x\u0259yal\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b> (pill\u0259k\u0259nd\u0259 add\u0131m s\u0259sl\u0259rini e\u015fid\u0259r\u0259k<\/i>). Bu Rozdur.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> \u00d6mr\u00fcnd\u0259 ola bilm\u0259z. Meridir.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> N\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z? Bu onun add\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259sidir. O qal\u00adx\u0131r. Onunla sizin raz\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131zla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm, yoxsa raz\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z olmadan?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Onunla s\u00f6hb\u0259tin hans\u0131 m\u00f6vzuda olacaq?<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>Ondan xahi\u015f ed\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m ki, \u015feyl\u0259rini y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131rs\u0131n.<\/p>\n
Roz daxil olur. Maykl\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb h\u0259m t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nir, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u015fadlan\u0131r.<\/i><\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>He\u00e7 olmasa, z\u0259ng ed\u0259ydin… M\u0259n\u0259 dedil\u0259r, s\u0259n z\u0259ng edib bildirmis\u0259n\u00a0 ki…<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>N\u0259?..<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>G\u0259l\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. Bir h\u0259ft\u0259liy\u0259 harasa gedirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> M\u0259n z\u0259ng etm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Bizim g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259yimiz\u0259 mane olmaq ist\u0259yirl\u0259r.<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>M\u0259nas\u0131z c\u0259hddir. Day\u0131, y\u0259qin sizin x\u0259b\u0259riniz yoxdur.<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>Yox. O s\u0259ninl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmaq ist\u0259yir. M\u0259ni apara bil\u0259rs\u0259n.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> (gah birin\u0259, gah da dig\u0259rin\u0259 bax\u0131r<\/i>). N\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r var? Deyin g\u00f6r\u00fcm, n\u0259 olub? H\u0259r ikiniz…<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> O ist\u0259yir ki, s\u0259n \u015feyl\u0259rini y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131rasan…<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b> (Maykla<\/i>). Dem\u0259li gedirik? (H\u0259y\u0259canl\u0131 halda, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc unudaraq<\/i>). Onlar h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rdard\u0131rlar? \u0130st\u0259yirs\u0259n bu g\u00fcn gedim? El\u0259 bu saat?<\/p>\n
Maykl \u00e7a\u015fq\u0131nl\u0131qla onu bax\u0131r. Q\u0131z \u00e7ox g\u0259nc v\u0259 son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 t\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259sizdir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, \u00e7amadan\u0131 bo\u015faltmam\u0131\u015fam. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259d\u0259n sonra haz\u0131r olaram (q\u0259fil pe\u015fman\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q hissi il\u0259 day\u0131s\u0131na sar\u0131 \u00e7evrilir<\/i>). Ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n, day\u0131, sizin yan\u0131n\u0131zda art\u0131q-\u0259skik dan\u0131\u015f\u0131ram. Y\u0259qin bizim \u0259xlaqs\u0131z oldu\u011fumuzu z\u0259nn edirsiniz…<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. \u0130\u015find\u0259 ol, q\u0131z\u0131m. Sizd\u0259 t\u0259qsir yoxdur. K\u00f6rp\u0259 u\u015faqlar kimi n\u0259 etdiyinizi bilmirsiniz.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b> (f\u0259r\u0259hl\u0259<\/i>). Bizi \u00e7ox da u\u015faq bilm\u0259yin.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Roz, z\u0259hm\u0259t olmasa, qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7.<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>Sizi k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259ndirm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdim. Sad\u0259c\u0259 i\u015f bel\u0259 g\u0259tirdi.<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>M\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 narahat olma.<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>Bilir\u0259m, sizinl\u0259 bu t\u0259rzd\u0259 ayr\u0131lmaq, ona qo\u015fulub bu \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259k yax\u015f\u0131 deyil. Amma m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn f\u0259rqi azd\u0131r. Biz xo\u015fb\u0259xtik, bax, \u0259sas m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 bundad\u0131r, day\u0131.<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>O da xo\u015fb\u0259xtdir?<\/p>\n
Roz n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rini Maykla zill\u0259yir. O, xo\u015fb\u0259xt adam t\u0259siri ba\u011f\u0131\u015flam\u0131r.<\/i><\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> N\u0259 oldu, sevgilim?<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Arvad\u0131m bilir.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b> (g\u0259ncliyin qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 v\u0259 laqeydliyi il\u0259<\/i>). Gec-tez bilm\u0259liydi. O, b\u0259rk hirsl\u0259ndi?<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Yox.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Y\u0259qin s\u0259nin\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7\u0259tin olub?<\/p>\n
Mayk<\/b>l. Yox.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> H\u0259r halda yax\u015f\u0131 hal deyil. Ancaq s\u0259nl\u0259 birlikd\u0259 bizim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259r \u015fey g\u00f6z\u0259l olacaq, g\u00f6r\u0259rs\u0259n. O birt\u0259h\u0259r d\u00f6z\u0259r…<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> O \u00e7ox a\u011flad\u0131. M\u0259n onu g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 t\u0259rk etdim.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131z. Yoxsa \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc sizinl\u0259 cinay\u0259t yolda\u015f\u0131 hesab edir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> \u00dczr ist\u0259yir\u0259m, day\u0131 (qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131r, Ceymsin kreslo il\u0259 qap\u0131dan ke\u00e7m\u0259sin\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k edir<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. M\u0259nim yan\u0131ma g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n?<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. Siz Allah, g\u00f6r n\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015firsiniz. Sizinl\u0259\u00a0\u00a0 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259mi\u015f he\u00e7 ged\u0259r\u0259m? (onun ard\u0131nca qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rt\u00fcr v\u0259 Maykla sar\u0131 d\u00f6n\u00fcr<\/i>). H\u0259, i\u015fl\u0259r nec\u0259dir, \u0259zizim?<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. Arvad\u0131m bo\u015fanm\u0131r. Ola bilsin ki, biz he\u00e7 vaxt k\u0259bin k\u0259sdir\u0259 bilm\u0259dik.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b> (\u00f6t\u0259ri \u00fcmidsizlikl\u0259<\/i>). Ah… (sakitl\u0259\u015fir<\/i>). \u018fslin\u0259 baxsan\u0131z, bunlar ham\u0131s\u0131 bo\u015f \u015feyl\u0259rdir. Onsuz da k\u0259bin h\u0259qiqi olmayacaqd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. S\u0259n h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n katoliks\u0259n. \u018fv\u0259ll\u0259r katolikl\u0259rl\u0259 he\u00e7 qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m.\u00a0\u00a0 S\u0259nin anandan ba\u015fqa.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. \u018fslind\u0259 m\u0259n xalis katolik deyil\u0259m. Yar\u0131m katolik\u0259m. Atam da katolik deyildi.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. He\u00e7 o s\u0259nin yad\u0131na g\u0259lir?<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. G\u0259lmir. T\u0259kc\u0259 \u015f\u0259klini g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m. Onun burnu bir q\u0259d\u0259r s\u0259ninkin\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b> (tutulur<\/i>). Bu n\u0259z\u0259rimi c\u0259lb etm\u0259yib.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. \u015eeyl\u0259rimi ya\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131m? (s\u00f6hb\u0259ti davam etdir\u0259r\u0259k paltarlar\u0131n\u0131 ki\u00e7ik \u00e7amadana y\u0131\u011fma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131r<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. Dini m\u0259hdudiyy\u0259tl\u0259r s\u0259ni narahat etmir?<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b> (b\u0259z\u0259k-d\u00fcz\u0259k l\u0259vazimat\u0131 v\u0259 pijama il\u0259 tualet ota\u011f\u0131na gir\u0259r\u0259k etinas\u0131z halda<\/i>). M\u0259nc\u0259, gec-tez h\u0259r \u015fey qaydas\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k. V\u0259 m\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcm yata\u011f\u0131nda t\u00f6vb\u0259 ed\u0259r\u0259k xo\u015f bir q\u00fcdsiyy\u0259tl\u0259 \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m (vanna ota\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. Bizim u\u015faqlar\u0131m\u0131z qeyri-qanuni do\u011fulacaq.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. Bic do\u011fulmu\u015f u\u015faqlar \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 u\u015faqlard\u0131r. \u015eekspir d\u0259 bel\u0259 deyir (pijaman\u0131 b\u00fck\u00fcb ki\u00e7ik \u00e7amadana qoyur<\/i>). Biz ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 semesterd\u0259 \u201cKral Con\u201du ke\u00e7dik. M\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s bac\u0131lar bu yerl\u0259rd\u0259n tez qa\u00e7\u0131b canlar\u0131n\u0131 qurtarma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar. Qeyri-qanuni u\u015faqlar haqq\u0131nda deyilmi\u015f bel\u0259 bir k\u0259lam\u0131 xat\u0131rlay\u0131rsan: \u201cS\u0259ssiz-s\u0259mirsiz, x\u0259lv\u0259ti do\u011fulmu\u015f…\u201d Falkenbric\u00a0 m\u0259nim yaman xo\u015fuma g\u0259lir. Lap \u00e7oxdan\u0131n s\u00f6hb\u0259tidir. Adam el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, d\u00fcn\u0259n olub.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. Xalalar\u0131n s\u0259ni bir d\u0259 buralara ayaq basma\u011fa qoymazlar.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b> (donunu g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u015fkafa sar\u0131 ged\u0259r\u0259k<\/i>). El\u0259 bilirs\u0259n bu m\u0259ni narahat edir? Sevgilim, m\u0259nim bu evi g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm yoxdur. B\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131mla bu xarabaya nifr\u0259t edir\u0259m. Bilirs\u0259nmi onlar otaqlar\u0131 niy\u0259 q\u0131f\u0131llay\u0131blar?<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. X\u0259b\u0259rim var.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, onlar\u0131n hans\u0131 harada \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259k? Bu fikir h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 m\u0259ni narahat edir. \u018fg\u0259r onlardan biri bu otaqda \u00f6l\u0259rs\u0259, daha yat\u00adma\u00ad\u011fa otaqlar\u0131 qalmaz. Edqar Allan Ponun hekay\u0259l\u0259ri kimi d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tlidir.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> G\u00f6r n\u0259 \u00e7ox kitab oxumusan?<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> M\u0259n\u0259 ac\u0131\u011f\u0131n tutmur ki? S\u0259nin t\u0259l\u0259bin m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qanundur. Ruf kimi m\u0259n\u0259 yaln\u0131z hara getm\u0259k laz\u0131m g\u0259ldiyini s\u00f6yl\u0259, o saat yola d\u00fcz\u0259lim: \u201cS\u0259nin xalq\u0131n h\u0259m d\u0259 m\u0259nim xalq\u0131m olacaq…\u201d. S\u0259nin xalq\u0131n, y\u0259qin, ham\u0131s\u0131 psixoloqdur.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Ham\u0131s\u0131 yox.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. M\u0259n Freydin \u201cG\u00fcnd\u0259lik h\u0259yat\u0131n psixologiyas\u0131\u201d \u0259s\u0259rini oxumu\u015fam. \u201cPinqvin\u201d n\u0259\u015friyyat\u0131 burax\u0131b.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. El\u0259mi? Bir g\u00f6r ha.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> M\u0259nim ist\u0259klim, s\u0259ni n\u0259 is\u0259 narahat edir, yerind\u0259n oynad\u0131r. Ba\u015fqa qad\u0131na a\u015fiq olmam\u0131san ki?<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> S\u0259ninl\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 son qoyulub.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> N\u0259s\u0259 inanma\u011f\u0131m g\u0259lmir. M\u0259n\u0259 yiy\u0259l\u0259nm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ox da vaxt itirm\u0259din.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. Ax\u0131 vaxt m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn q\u0131z\u0131l idi.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Yox, n\u0259s\u0259 s\u0259ni h\u0259y\u0259canland\u0131r\u0131r. D\u00fcn\u0259n d\u0259 bel\u0259 idin. N\u0259 olub?<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Sad\u0259c\u0259, l\u0259n\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015f m\u0259suliyy\u0259t hissi m\u0259ni rahat buraxm\u0131r. Qulaq as, Roz, m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 ciddidir. S\u0259n \u0259m\u0259lli-ba\u015fl\u0131 fikirl\u0259\u015fmis\u0259n?<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> M\u0259n fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m. S\u0259n h\u0259yata b\u0259l\u0259ds\u0259n, m\u0259n is\u0259 yox. Sevgilim, m\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt a\u015fiq olmam\u0131\u015fam. S\u0259n is\u0259 olmusan.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> M\u0259n?<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. \u00d6z arvad\u0131na.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> H\u0259.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> S\u0259n a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131san. M\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 etm\u0259k laz\u0131m g\u0259ldiyini anlat. M\u0259n d\u0259 o c\u00fcr h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t edim. \u015eeyl\u0259rimi y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fam. \u0130st\u0259yirs\u0259n onlar\u0131 bo\u015fald\u0131m. \u0130st\u0259klim, s\u0259n\u0259 m\u00fcnasib olacaq h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 haz\u0131ram. \u018fg\u0259r m\u0259n\u0259 des\u0259n Riqel-Korta get, bu saat ged\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Riqel-Korta?<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Sevgilil\u0259r, ad\u0259t\u0259n, hara gedirl\u0259r? Harada g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrl\u0259r? Ham\u0131 bel\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r. \u0130st\u0259yirs\u0259n, bu saat gedim ora, sonra qay\u0131d\u0131m. \u0130st\u0259yirs\u0259n s\u0259ninl\u0259 h\u0259r g\u00fcn orada g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm. \u018fg\u0259r ist\u0259yirs\u0259n, \u015feyl\u0259rimi \u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb s\u0259ninl\u0259 uzunmudd\u0259tli s\u0259f\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131m?<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. Yaln\u0131z uzunm\u00fcdd\u0259tli s\u0259f\u0259r\u0259mi?<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Allah xatirin\u0259, q\u0259lbind\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259ni m\u0259n\u0259 de. M\u0259n son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 s\u00f6z\u0259baxanam.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> M\u0259nim mehriban\u0131m, biz yaln\u0131z \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00adm\u0259\u00adm\u0259\u00adliyik.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259ni m\u0259cbur etm\u0259. Laz\u0131m deyil. M\u0259n h\u0259yata nab\u0259l\u0259d\u0259m. M\u0259nim ba\u015f\u0131ma n\u0259 oyun des\u0259n, g\u0259l\u0259 bil\u0259r. V\u0259 h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 bel\u0259 bir sual e\u015fid\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m: \u201cHe\u00e7 bu bar\u0259d\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdin? B\u0259s filan m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 bar\u0259d\u0259?\u201d Rica edir\u0259m, laz\u0131m deyil… He\u00e7 olmasa indi. Sad\u0259c\u0259, m\u0259n\u0259 de, n\u0259 edim?<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> S\u0259ni varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m q\u0259d\u0259r sevir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Bilir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> S\u0259nin ehtiyats\u0131z olma\u011f\u0131n\u0131, hiss\u0259 qap\u0131lma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259mir\u0259m. D\u0259rind\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> \u018fg\u0259r h\u0259yat\u0131mda bir k\u0259r\u0259 s\u0259hv ed\u0259r\u0259ms\u0259, n\u0259 eybi? Qoy olsun. H\u0259l\u0259 qabaqda n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r il var.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> S\u0259nin day\u0131n zal\u0131m adam olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 n\u0259z\u0259rim\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131rd\u0131… M\u0259n g\u0259ncl\u0259r\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 b\u0259l\u0259d deyil\u0259m. Son g\u00fcnl\u0259r o q\u0259d\u0259r sars\u0131nt\u0131 ke\u00e7irmi\u015f\u0259m ki…<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> He\u00e7 m\u0259ni demirs\u0259n. Ancaq bu q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259y\u0259canlanma\u011fa d\u0259ym\u0259z. Qay\u011f\u0131 qay\u011f\u0131 g\u0259tirir. M\u0259nim day\u0259m bel\u0259 dey\u0259rdi. G\u0259l ba\u015fqa \u015feyl\u0259r bar\u0259d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259yi, m\u00fcv\u0259qq\u0259ti d\u0259 olsa, unudaq. Sonra h\u0259r \u015fey arxada qalacaq. Yaddan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b ged\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> \u018fg\u0259r bacarsayd\u0131m…<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. Bacararsan, vallah, bacararsan.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Bu g\u00fcnk\u00fc h\u0259yat\u0131 ya\u015famaq s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn asand\u0131r. Ke\u00e7\u00admi\u015fin bir el\u0259 q\u0259mli iz qoymay\u0131b. G\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yin is\u0259 parlaqd\u0131r. M\u0259nim sabah\u0131m is\u0259 el\u0259 q\u0131sad\u0131r ki. M\u0259nim \u0259v\u0259zimd\u0259 s\u0259nin day\u0131n asanca, barma\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 o g\u00fcnl\u0259ri saya bil\u0259r. Ke\u00e7mi\u015fd\u0259 is\u0259 art\u0131q \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn ba\u015fa vurulmu\u015f uzun d\u00f6vr\u00fc qal\u0131b.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. D\u00fcn\u0259n s\u0259n bu g\u00fcnk\u00fc kimi aqil g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcrd\u00fcn.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> M\u0259nim \u201caqilliyiml\u0259\u201d hesabla\u015fmal\u0131 olacaqsan.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> \u018fg\u0259r laz\u0131m g\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259, m\u00fctl\u0259q (\u00e7amadan\u0131 ba\u011flay\u0131r<\/i>). Ged\u0259k.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> G\u0259r\u0259k \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 ev\u0259 gedib xudahafizl\u0259\u015fim.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Y\u0259qin bu s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7\u0259tin olacaq.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b> (s\u0259rt).<\/i> \u00d6z m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259tinl\u0259 yarama duz basma. \u018fvv\u0259l-ax\u0131r uzun ill\u0259rd\u0259n sonra onun da haqq\u0131 var ki, say\u0131ls\u0131n, adam yerin\u0259 qoyulsun!<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. N\u0259 deyirs\u0259n, m\u0259nim s\u0259n\u0259 ac\u0131\u011f\u0131m tutmur. \u0130nsan\u0131 laqeyd ed\u0259n bu d\u00fcnyaya ac\u0131\u011f\u0131m tutur.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b> (yar\u0131 ciddi, yar\u0131 zarafatla<\/i>). Bird\u0259n o s\u0259ni dil\u0259 tutar ha.<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>\u018fsla!<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>S\u0259n uzun ill\u0259r ona m\u0259xsus olmusan. O, laz\u0131mi s\u00f6zl\u0259ri tapma\u011f\u0131 bacarar. M\u0259n is\u0259 bacarm\u0131ram.<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>Bel\u0259 s\u00f6zl\u0259r he\u00e7 s\u0259n\u0259 laz\u0131m da deyil. S\u0259n g\u0259ncs\u0259n. G\u0259nclik is\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 dem\u0259kdir (Maykl onun diqq\u0259tini \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 c\u0259lb edir<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>Harada g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259k?<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. Lankaster-Qreyt stansiyas\u0131nda. Bir saatdan sonra.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b> (Maykl\u0131n t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcd etm\u0259sind\u0259n t\u0259\u015fvi\u015f\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259r\u0259k<\/i>). S\u0259n yen\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259ni sevirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>H\u0259<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>M\u0259n \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m, lap d\u00fcn\u0259nki kimi?<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Lap el\u0259c\u0259.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> M\u0259n s\u0259n dey\u0259n q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 deyil\u0259m. Amma bundan sonra yax\u015f\u0131 olma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015faca\u011fam.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> He\u00e7 n\u0259d\u0259n qorxma (onu \u00f6p\u00fcr<\/i>). S\u0259nin firavan g\u00fcnl\u0259rin h\u0259l\u0259 \u00f6nd\u0259dir.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> S\u0259nd\u0259n sonra h\u0259yat m\u0259n\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259k deyil. \u0130st\u0259yir\u0259m \u00fcr\u0259yimiz h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bir vursun, bir d\u0259 dayans\u0131n.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b> (ged\u0259rk\u0259n<\/i>). Bir saatdan sonra.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Xudahafiz, \u00fcr\u0259yim.<\/p>\n
Maykl gedir. Roz \u00e7amadan\u0131 ba\u011flay\u0131r. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b baxmaq ist\u0259yir. Yax\u015f\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn stulun \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r. Tereza daxil olub tualet ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7ir. Qap\u0131 onun ard\u0131nca \u00f6rt\u00fcl\u0259rk\u0259n Helen g\u0259lir. Rozun \u00e7amadan\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb ayaq saxlay\u0131r. Roz \u00e7evrilir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. \u0130st\u0259kli quzum (p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259ni g\u00f6st\u0259rir<\/i>), a\u00e7maq ist\u0259yirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b> (q\u0131zar\u0131r<\/i>). Ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n, Helen xala (\u00e7amadana yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>Hara gedirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>Ceyms day\u0131 il\u0259 xudahafizl\u0259\u015fm\u0259y\u0259.<\/p>\n
Helen taq\u0259tsiz halda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc\u00a0 kresloya y\u0131x\u0131r.<\/i><\/p>\n
Siz nahaq yer\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 demisiniz ki, Maykl harasa \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b gedib. Onun\u00adla indic\u0259 ayr\u0131ld\u0131q… Qay\u0131d\u0131b Tereza xala il\u0259 d\u0259 vidala\u015faca\u011fam (\u00e7\u0131x\u0131r<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Helen dinm\u0259zc\u0259 kresloda oturub barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131n ucu il\u0259 ya\u015faran g\u00f6zl\u0259rini silir. Tereza tualet ota\u011f\u0131n\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r.<\/i><\/p>\n
Helen <\/b>(amiran\u0259<\/i>). Tereza, o gedir! Onu saxlamaq laz\u0131md\u0131r!<\/p>\n
Tereza ona fikir verm\u0259d\u0259n ota\u011f\u0131 ke\u00e7m\u0259k ist\u0259yir (onun yolunu k\u0259sir). \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc bel\u0259 a\u011f\u0131ls\u0131z aparma, Tereza! He\u00e7 olmasa, indi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc gicliy\u0259 qoyma!<\/i><\/p>\n
Tereza bac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131ndan \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7ir v\u0259 ota\u011f\u0131 t\u0259rk edir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>Tereza!<\/p>\n
Az sonra Tereza yenid\u0259n g\u0259lir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. Helen, m\u0259ni \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131n?<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. S\u0259n ki n\u0259 dediyimi e\u015fitdin?.. (q\u0259fil \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259 il\u0259<\/i>). B\u0259lk\u0259 e\u015fitm\u0259din?<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> M\u0259n Ceymsin yan\u0131nda idim. Nec\u0259 e\u015fid\u0259 bil\u0259rdim?<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b> (\u015f\u0259n<\/i>). S\u0259n burada idin (tualet ota\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259rir<\/i>). \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc el\u0259 apar\u0131rd\u0131n, el\u0259 bil m\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u00fcrd\u00fcn.<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> Ah, yox, \u0259zizim, s\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lib.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. Dey\u0259s\u0259n, m\u0259ni heyr\u0259t\u0259 salmaq ist\u0259yirs\u0259n. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc tam sa\u011flam hiss edirs\u0259n, Tereza?<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> M\u0259nc\u0259, h\u0259. Dey\u0259s\u0259n, n\u0259 haqdasa m\u0259niml\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmaq ist\u0259yirdin.<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> \u018fyl\u0259\u015f, Tereza. Bilirs\u0259n, el\u0259 bu saatca yan\u0131mdan \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc-s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc bilmirdin. On il \u0259vv\u0259l doktor dediyi kimi…<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b> (qorxu i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259<\/i>). Doktorun n\u0259 dediyi yad\u0131ma g\u0259lmir.<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> O dedi ki, s\u0259n g\u0259r\u0259k son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259… son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 ehtiyatl\u0131 olasan.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b> (inild\u0259yir<\/i>). M\u0259n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ehtiyatl\u0131 olmu\u015fam, Helen.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. O dedi ki…<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b> (yalvar\u0131c\u0131<\/i>). M\u0259n qulaq asmaq ist\u0259mir\u0259m, Helen. E\u015fitm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. S\u0259n\u0259 \u201cZ\u0259rif \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259yin\u201d\u00a0\u00a0 haqq\u0131nda bir \u015fey oxuyum?<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. Ax\u0131 onu yaln\u0131z m\u0259n x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259 oxuyursan. M\u0259g\u0259r m\u0259n x\u0259st\u0259y\u0259m, Helen? Y\u0259ni x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015f\u0259m? (oturur<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b> (yana\u015f\u0131 \u0259yl\u0259\u015f\u0259r\u0259k<\/i>). Yuxudan ay\u0131landa b\u0259d\u0259nind\u0259 z\u0259iflik hiss etm\u0259din ki?<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b> (dili-doda\u011f\u0131 \u0259sir<\/i>). Bilmir\u0259m… Dey\u0259s\u0259n bir az…<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>Ba\u015f\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131, h\u0259, \u0259zizim?<\/p>\n
Tereza. <\/b>M\u0259nc\u0259 yox… Azac\u0131q…<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>B\u0259s \u00fcr\u0259yin?<\/p>\n
Tereza. <\/b>Yox, nec\u0259 ki? Helen, s\u0259n ki… bel\u0259 hesab etmirs\u0259n ki…<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>\u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, yox. Amma biz ya\u015fl\u0131 adamlar g\u0259r\u0259k ehtiyatl\u0131 olaq \u0259zizim. Yax\u015f\u0131 olar, yata\u011fa uzanasan.<\/p>\n
Tereza. <\/b>M\u0259n art\u0131q \u0259ziyy\u0259t verm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m, Helen. Sabah bi\u015f-d\u00fc\u015f n\u00f6vb\u0259si m\u0259nimdir. Ax\u015fam Meri \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b ged\u0259nd\u0259n sonra el\u0259 bir adam yoxdur ki, ev i\u015fl\u0259rind\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k etsin.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. Bizim art\u0131q Rozumuz var. O m\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259r. O, alic\u0259nab q\u0131zd\u0131r. Onun k\u00f6m\u0259yin\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131m\u0131z oldu\u011funu bildikd\u0259 bizi t\u0259rk etm\u0259z. Bu saat onu \u00e7a\u011f\u0131raram. S\u0259ni is\u0259 yata\u011fa uzadar\u0131q.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. Ancaq, b\u0259ri ba\u015fdan deyir\u0259m, \u00f6z \u00e7arpay\u0131mda uzanma\u00adya\u00adca\u011fam. B\u0259lk\u0259 el\u0259 burda dinc\u0259lim?<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b> (s\u0259sini al\u00e7aldaraq<\/i>). Biz ki \u015f\u0259rtl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdik.<\/p>\n
Tereza. <\/b>S\u0259nin n\u0259 dediyini e\u015fitm\u0259dim, \u0259zizim.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. Qula\u011f\u0131n bu g\u00fcn n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r e\u015fidir. Gah e\u015fidirs\u0259n, gah e\u015fitmirs\u0259n. Bir \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc s\u0131na. Aya\u011fa qalxa bil\u0259rs\u0259n, Tereza?<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259 (\u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 qalx\u0131r v\u0259 yenid\u0259n kresloya y\u0131x\u0131l\u0131r<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. Yata\u011f\u0131na uzan, \u0259zizim. Biz Rozla s\u0259n\u0259 xidm\u0259t ed\u0259rik.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b> (yalvar\u0131c\u0131<\/i>). Helen, rica edir\u0259m…<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>S\u0259nin \u0259ntiq\u0259 yataq ota\u011f\u0131n var. G\u0259l, bel\u0259 ed\u0259k. Merini Berns Outsa g\u00f6nd\u0259rim. O s\u0259nin\u00e7\u00fcn bir d\u0259n\u0259 ikona als\u0131n. Anam\u0131z\u0131n portreti g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n onun as\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 yer a\u011f l\u0259k\u0259 kimi qal\u0131b. \u0130konan\u0131 divardan –\u00a0 onun yerind\u0259n asar\u0131q. Bir d\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6vliya Tereza ist\u0259yirs\u0259nmi?<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. He\u00e7 olmasa \u00f6vliya Vinsent de Paulu… Ancaq, Helen…<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra sa\u011fal\u0131b aya\u011fa qalxarsan.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b> (\u00fcmidsiz)<\/i>.\u00a0 Bir ne\u00e7\u0259?<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> Ged\u0259k, \u0259zizim. \u0130ndi g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n ki, ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131n k\u00f6m\u0259yi olmadan yeriy\u0259 bilmirs\u0259n. Add\u0131m at g\u00f6r\u0259k.<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> Niy\u0259 yeriy\u0259 bilmir\u0259m. Bu d\u0259qiq\u0259 (ehtiyatla qalx\u0131r, bir add\u0131m at\u0131r<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> Ehtiyatl\u0131 ol! M\u0259n\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259n!<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> Yox, yox! (s\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259yir, qorxunc ba\u011f\u0131rt\u0131 il\u0259 stula s\u0259rilir<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b> (qap\u0131ya t\u0259r\u0259f gedir v\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r<\/i>). Roz! Roz! (onun s\u0259sind\u0259 \u0259sl qorxu hissi duyulmur<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Ayaq \u00fcst\u0259 g\u00fccl\u0259 dayanan Tereza divana sar\u0131 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 add\u0131m at\u0131r v\u0259 d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 y\u0131x\u0131l\u0131r. Helen geri d\u00f6n\u0259rk\u0259n Terezan\u0131 d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259d\u0259 s\u0259rili g\u00f6r\u00fcb d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> Tereza, \u0259zizim, yalvar\u0131ram, cavab ver, Teraza! (a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u0259yilir, bac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131rmaq ist\u0259yir. N\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 fikrind\u0259n vaz ke\u00e7ib pill\u0259k\u0259n meydan\u00e7as\u0131na do\u011fru qa\u00e7\u0131r, d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131r<\/i>). Roz! Roz! Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, Roz! M\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k et, Roz! K\u00f6m\u0259k et!<\/p>\n
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\u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc\u00a0 \u015f\u0259kil<\/p>\n
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Qonaq ota\u011f\u0131. \u00dc\u00e7 h\u0259ft\u0259 \u00f6tm\u00fc\u015f. Ax\u015fam erk\u0259ndir. Tereza Braun \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib. Ayaqlar\u0131 iri \u015falla \u00f6rt\u00fcl\u00fcb. Onun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda Ceyms ata \u00f6z kreslosunda oturub ucadan \u015fer oxuyur.<\/i><\/p>\n
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Ceyms. Ged\u0259r\u0259m uza\u011fa m\u0259n gec\u0259 yar\u0131<\/p>\n
Qorxunc qaranl\u0131\u011fa, z\u00fclm\u0259t\u0259 sar\u0131.<\/p>\n
Harasa qa\u00e7aram buludlarvari,<\/p>\n
D\u00fcnya s\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f oca\u011f\u0131 and\u0131rar,<\/p>\n
M\u0259ni d\u0259 odlu \u00fcr\u0259k yand\u0131rar.<\/p>\n
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G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fl\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131lan h\u0259r ayd\u0131n s\u0259h\u0259r<\/p>\n
Daha parlaq g\u00fcn\u0259 m\u0259ni s\u0259sl\u0259y\u0259r.<\/p>\n
Hardasa bir g\u00f6z\u0259l hey yol izl\u0259y\u0259r,<\/p>\n
O yerd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc sana bil\u0259ydim.<\/p>\n
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Ka\u015f onu duyayd\u0131m, qana bil\u0259ydim<\/p>\n
M\u0259n\u0259 ke\u015fik \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n bu tutqun gec\u0259,<\/p>\n
Bir ayd\u0131n s\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n \u0259zizidir nec\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n
(bird\u0259n dayan\u0131r<\/i>)<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. Niy\u0259 dayand\u0131n? Davam et. Bu, Helen oxuyandan daha \u00e7ox xo\u015fuma g\u0259lir. D\u00fczd\u00fcr, ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259diyin yerl\u0259r d\u0259 var, amma xo\u015fuma g\u0259lir. Helen is\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 \u00f6vliya Terezan\u0131 oxuyur. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 onu m\u0259nim “z\u0259rif \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259yim” adland\u0131r\u0131r. \u018fslind\u0259 o, Helenin \u00f6z “z\u0259rif \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259yidir”.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Helen yan\u0131l\u0131r. El\u0259 g\u00fcman edir ki, s\u0259nl\u0259 m\u0259n art\u0131q qocalm\u0131\u015f\u0131q. Hay\u0131m\u0131z gedib, vay\u0131m\u0131z qal\u0131b. Adam qocalanda is\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131 da azal\u0131r. Y\u0259qin o, bel\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcn qocald\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan sanki bix\u0259b\u0259rdir. N\u0259 is\u0259\u2026 ham\u0131s\u0131 \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7\u0259r. Biz\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 onda z\u0259rr\u0259c\u0259 kin-k\u00fcdur\u0259t yoxdur.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. S\u0259n allah d\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc de. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn \u0259vv\u0259l m\u0259n do\u011frudan \u00f6l\u00fcml\u0259 \u00e7arp\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Haradan bilim? \u018fslind\u0259 Rozdan ba\u015fqa ham\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n bir aya\u011f\u0131 gordad\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. Bilirs\u0259n, h\u0259rd\u0259n el\u0259 anlar olur ki, m\u0259n bir vaxtlar u\u015faq ota\u011f\u0131 olmu\u015f, bir vaxtlar u\u015faq oyuncaqlar\u0131m\u0131z s\u0259p\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015f otaqda \u00f6lm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m. \u00dcr\u0259yimd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r kimins\u0259 \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f oldu\u011fu otaqda \u2013 h\u0259qiqi yataq ota\u011f\u0131nda \u00f6lm\u0259k ke\u00e7ir.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Bu s\u0259nin haqq\u0131nd\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. Yox. Bu fikir yaln\u0131z bir anl\u0131\u011fa x\u0259yal\u0131mdan ke\u00e7ib. Sonra vahim\u0259 m\u0259ni b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcb. Helen deyir, otaqlar\u0131 q\u0131f\u0131llamaq fikri birinci m\u0259nim a\u011fl\u0131ma g\u0259lib. Xat\u0131rlaya bilmir\u0259m, bu, d\u00fczd\u00fcrm\u00fc?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. M\u0259nc\u0259, bu q\u0259rara ikilikd\u0259 g\u0259lmisiniz. M\u0259hz hans\u0131\u00adn\u0131z\u0131n ideyas\u0131 oldu\u011funu yad\u0131ma sala bilmir\u0259m. Ancaq \u0259min\u0259m, g\u00fcnl\u0259rin bir g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259 biz qarda\u015f-bac\u0131lar da olmasa, bir qeyrisi o q\u0131f\u0131ll\u0131 otaqlar\u0131n qap\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 taybatay a\u00e7acaq. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bu igid bizim Roz oldu\u2026<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. \u0130nsanlar\u0131 ruh maraqland\u0131r\u0131r. Ham\u0131 ondan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r. M\u0259n is\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 rahatl\u0131q, dinclik \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 h\u0259sr\u0259t qalan \u00f6l\u00fcl\u0259r v\u0259 qarabas\u00adma\u00adlar haqda fikirl\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259rq oluram. Yad\u0131mdad\u0131r, bir d\u0259f\u0259 Helen bel\u0259 p\u0259cmurd\u0259 k\u00f6n\u00fcll\u0259rd\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 hekay\u0259t dan\u0131\u015f\u0131b.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. G\u0259r\u0259k \u0259vv\u0259ld\u0259n bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fayd\u0131m. Qap\u0131s\u0131 ba\u011flanacaq otaqlara bir \u0259ncam \u00e7\u0259k\u0259ydim. O vaxtlar bu el\u0259 bo\u015f v\u0259 m\u0259nas\u0131z q\u0259rib\u0259lik t\u0259siri ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131 ki, ba\u015f qo\u015fma\u011f\u0131, sad\u0259c\u0259, l\u00fczumsuz san\u0131rd\u0131m. Yox\u2026 g\u0259r\u0259k o zamanlar mane olayd\u0131m. M\u0259nim \u00e7ox az k\u00f6m\u0259yim d\u0259yib, Tereza. \u0130st\u0259yirs\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 v\u00fcsal\u0131na yetm\u0259diyim arzular\u0131mdan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131m. Onlar h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 rahatl\u0131q vermir. Fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259 ki, x\u0259rifl\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, u\u015faql\u0131q edir\u0259m. Yox. Lap <\/b>g\u0259ncliyim\u00add\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131 \u00fcz\u0259rini f\u0259lak\u0259tl\u0259r alm\u0131\u015f bir Allah b\u0259nd\u0259sin\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k etm\u0259k bar\u0259d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f, laz\u0131mi anda laz\u0131mi s\u00f6zl\u0259r s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. N\u0259 vaxtsa uzaq ke\u00e7mi\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, m\u0259n insanlara h\u0259\u00adqiqi k\u00f6m\u0259k g\u00f6st\u0259rmi\u015f\u0259m. Be\u015f ild\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 olsa, yen\u0259 bir \u015fey\u00addir\u2026 \u0130ndi is\u0259\u2026 sabah, ya qeyri sabah bir hadis\u0259 \u00fcz vers\u0259, he\u00e7 bil\u00admi\u00adr\u0259m laz\u0131mi s\u00f6zl\u0259r tapa bil\u0259r\u0259mmi\u2026 \u00d6z\u00fcm\u0259 s\u0259n dey\u0259n \u0259min deyil\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. M\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n qorxuram, Ceyms. H\u0259tta \u00f6l\u00fcm haqda fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259kd\u0259n bel\u0259 xoflan\u0131ram. Roz ilk d\u0259f\u0259 bu ev\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259m basanda, dey\u0259s\u0259n, onu d\u0259 b\u0259rk qorxutmu\u015fam. Biz \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz d\u0259 pis adamlar deyilik. El\u0259 is\u0259 \u0259traf n\u0259d\u0259n bu q\u0259d\u0259r qorxuya b\u0259l\u0259nib?<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>Y\u0259qin Rozu s\u0259ni b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259n vahim\u0259 qorxuya sal\u0131b. \u00d6l\u00fcm haqda s\u0259nin axmaq hissl\u0259rin onu h\u00fcrk\u00fcd\u00fcb.<\/p>\n
Tereza. <\/b>Ceyms, m\u0259g\u0259r bu, axmaq hissdir?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Allaha inanan k\u0259sl\u0259r \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n qorxmamal\u0131d\u0131rlar.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. B\u0259s c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m, Ceyms?<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>Biz h\u0259l\u0259 o g\u00fcnah\u0131 etm\u0259mi\u015fik. M\u0259n Allah\u0131n d\u0259rgah\u0131na p\u0259nah apar\u0131ram. C\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m\u0259 g\u0259ldikd\u0259 is\u0259, o, \u00f6z qoynuna bizi yox, daha layiqli olanlar\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259yir. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, m\u0259n c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m\u0259 bizim i\u00e7imizd\u0259 oturmu\u015f \u015feytan\u0131n namiz\u0259dliyini ir\u0259li s\u00fcr\u0259rdim.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. \u0130ndi \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc nisb\u0259t\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 hiss edir\u0259m. H\u0259m d\u0259 yaln\u0131z ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, yenid\u0259n burada – qonaq ota\u011f\u0131ndayam. Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, Helen m\u0259nim ota\u011f\u0131m\u0131n divar\u0131nda \u015f\u0259kil as\u0131b a\u00e7\u0131q-a\u015fkar g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n l\u0259k\u0259nin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6rt\u00fcrd\u00fc. Ancaq h\u0259r halda “z\u0259rif \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k”d\u0259n imtina etdim. \u00d6z aram\u0131zd\u0131r, h\u0259min \u00f6vliya Helenin yaman xo\u015funa g\u0259lir. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, o, cavan \u00f6l\u00fcb. B\u0259z\u0259n Helen Roza el\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rl\u0259 bax\u0131r ki, el\u0259 bil fikirl\u0259\u015fir: “M\u0259n s\u0259nd\u0259n \u00e7ox ya\u015fayaca\u011fam”.<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>S\u0259n\u0259 dinc\u0259lm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r. Yen\u0259 oxuyum?<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> Oxu.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> “\u00d6vliya Con ruhun z\u00fclm\u0259t gec\u0259sind\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fmaqdan yorulmurdu. S\u0259ninl\u0259 m\u0259n bel\u0259 inc\u0259 m\u0259tl\u0259bl\u0259ri anlamaq s\u0259viyy\u0259sind\u0259 deyilik. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 buras\u0131ndad\u0131r ki, Allaha h\u0259ddind\u0259n art\u0131q yax\u0131n olmaq insan\u0131 qurudur, onun q\u00fcvv\u0259sini t\u00fck\u0259ndirir. Biz ham\u0131m\u0131z onunla aram\u0131zda m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n qibt\u0259 edil\u0259c\u0259k m\u0259saf\u0259 saxlay\u0131r\u0131q. \u00d6vliya Con onu \u0259hat\u0259 ed\u0259n z\u00fclm\u0259t gec\u0259ni t\u0259svir etm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r. El\u0259 bir gec\u0259ni ki, orada m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t yoxdur. H\u0259tta ibad\u0259t etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn q\u00fcvv\u0259, g\u00fcc t\u00fck\u0259nib”<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> M\u0259n s\u0259h\u0259r d\u0259, ax\u015fam da ibad\u0259t edir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Hm\u2026 Tereza, \u00f6z z\u0259rif v\u0259 kims\u0259y\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k etm\u0259y\u0259n dualar\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rlay\u0131ram. “Bizim atam\u0131z\u2026”, “H\u0259zr\u0259ti M\u0259ry\u0259m\u2026”, “T\u00f6vb\u0259\u2026”. Amma m\u0259n el\u0259 bir ibad\u0259t tan\u0131m\u0131ram ki, on d\u0259qiq\u0259 \u0259r\u00adzin\u00add\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn fikrim yaln\u0131z duada olsun, k\u0259nar \u015feyl\u0259r haqda fikr\u00adl\u0259\u015fm\u0259yim. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rim\u0259 qida olmaq etibar\u0131 il\u0259 bu kainat m\u0259nd\u0259n o q\u0259d\u0259r uzaqd\u0131r ki\u2026 M\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259 ke\u015fi\u015fi olark\u0259n hiss edirdim ki, ibad\u0259t\u0259 vaxt\u0131m \u00e7atm\u0131r. Art\u0131q o vaxtdan qaytar\u0131lmas\u0131 m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmayan iyirmi il \u00f6t\u00fcb. Lakin “bizim atam\u0131z\u2026” s\u00f6zl\u0259ri\u00a0 dilimin \u0259zb\u0259ridir. El\u0259 bilirs\u0259n bunu da \u0259m\u0259lli-ba\u015fl\u0131 deyir\u0259m?<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. M\u0259nc\u0259, Ceyms, s\u0259nin d\u0259 z\u00fclm\u0259t gec\u0259n vard\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>Yox, bel\u0259 \u00fcmidsizlik he\u00e7 v\u0259d\u0259 m\u0259ni \u00e7ul\u011famaz. M\u0259\u00adh\u0259ll\u0259 ke\u015fi\u015fi kimi yor\u011fun, \u00fcz\u00fcc\u00fc i\u015fd\u0259n art\u0131q \u00e7oxdan yaxa qurtar\u00adm\u0131\u00ad\u015fam. Bac\u0131lar\u0131mla rahat, qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131z h\u0259yat s\u00fcrm\u0259k m\u0259nim n\u0259z\u0259rimd\u0259 d\u00fcnyalara d\u0259y\u0259r. Kitablar\u0131 v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259yib m\u00f6minl\u0259rin dedikl\u0259rini s\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131ram. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fcn onlara he\u00e7 bir b\u0259nz\u0259rim yoxdur. N\u0259 etm\u0259li, m\u0259n bir adamam, m\u0259ni d\u0259 Allah bel\u0259 yarad\u0131b\u2026 Bu g\u00fcn nahara n\u0259yimiz olacaq, Tereza?<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> Pendirli makaron. (bird\u0259n Ceymsin zarafatla dediyini z\u0259nn edib<\/i>) Oh, Ceyms\u2026<\/p>\n
Helen daxil olur.<\/i><\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> Merini g\u00f6rm\u0259misiz ki?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. M\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259 yoxdur?<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. M\u0259n onu tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131q dal\u0131nca g\u00f6nd\u0259rmi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> D\u00fckana?<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> Yox.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Uza\u011fa gedib?<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b> (m\u00fc\u0259mmal\u0131<\/i>). Park\u0131n i\u00e7\u0259risiyl\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. Biz q\u0259lyanalt\u0131 etdikd\u0259n sonra onu g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. El\u0259 o vaxt gedib. El\u0259 bilirdim g\u0259lib st\u0259kan-n\u0259lb\u0259kini yuma\u011fa \u00e7atacaq. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, bu i\u015fi \u00f6z\u00fcm g\u00f6rm\u0259li olaca\u011fam (gedir<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. Bununla n\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi?<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>Bilmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. X\u0259st\u0259 olark\u0259n Roz m\u0259nim \u00fcst\u00fcmd\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck \u0259ziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kdi. M\u0259niml\u0259 \u00e7ox mehriban davrand\u0131. Qorxu i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 n\u0259 vaxt oyan\u0131rd\u0131msa, onu \u00e7arpay\u0131m\u0131n ba\u015f t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 kresloda m\u00fcrg\u00fc vuran g\u00f6\u00adr\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Yad\u0131ma g\u0259lir. M\u0259n lap u\u015faq olanda, he\u00e7 onda Helen do\u011ful\u00admam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, anam h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn gec\u0259 lampas\u0131 yand\u0131rard\u0131. M\u0259n \u00e7ox qorxaq idim. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259\u2026 lampan\u0131n alovu kimins\u0259 sakit n\u0259f\u0259sin\u0259 ox\u015far s\u0259s \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131rd\u0131. Roz da yatanda eyn\u0259n o c\u00fcr n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> O, s\u0259mimi q\u0131zd\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> Ancaq \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r m\u0259niml\u0259 s\u0259rt davran\u0131rd\u0131. Bilmir\u0259m niy\u0259?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. \u0130ndi bunun he\u00e7 bir \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259ti yoxdur.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n ged\u0259rk\u0259n Helen Rozun gedi\u015fi bar\u0259d\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 is\u0259 dedi. O hara getm\u0259k ist\u0259yir? Dey\u0259s\u0259n, Helen deyirdi, Roz bizd\u0259n qa\u00e7maq fikrind\u0259dir. Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcr\u0259m n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bu q\u0259na\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lib? Bu qorxu hissi il\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259dard\u0131r?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. H\u0259y\u0259canlanma\u011fa d\u0259ym\u0259z. H\u0259l\u0259 ki, o buradad\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. M\u0259ni he\u00e7 n\u0259d\u0259n agah etmirsiniz. \u00c7ox m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni \u00fcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259 anlamaq iqtidar\u0131nda deyil\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> T\u0259l\u0259b d\u0259 etm\u0259. Bir \u015feyi \u00f6yr\u0259nib bilm\u0259kd\u0259ns\u0259, daha \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda olana inan. Bel\u0259 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259ri psixoloqlar\u0131n \u00f6hd\u0259sin\u0259 burax. Onlar soru\u015facaqlar: “Bu h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n bel\u0259dir?” Do\u011frudan, bu fikird\u0259siniz? Yaxud yaln\u0131z n\u0259yi fikirl\u0259\u015fdiyinizi fikirl\u0259\u015firsiniz?…”<\/p>\n
He\u00e7 birisi pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n add\u0131m s\u0259sl\u0259rini e\u015fitmir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Meri<\/b> (bay\u0131rdan<\/i>). Ancaq miss Roz\u2026 Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, mis Roz\u2026<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. Ged\u0259k, ged\u0259k!<\/p>\n
Meri<\/b>. Miss Roz, m\u0259n\u0259 \u0259mr etmi\u015fdil\u0259r ki\u2026<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>Bilir\u0259m n\u0259yi \u0259mr edibl\u0259r.<\/p>\n
Qap\u0131 taybatay a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r. Roz Merini ota\u011fa it\u0259l\u0259yir. Roz ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259n xeyli d\u0259yi\u015fib. Bu g\u00fcn son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 \u0259s\u0259bidir. G\u00f6zl\u0259rinin d\u0259rinliyind\u0259 bir k\u0259d\u0259r gizl\u0259nmi\u015fdir. \u00dc\u00e7 h\u0259ft\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259l o \u00f6z m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tind\u0259n m\u0259st olmu\u015fdu. \u015ead-xuraman, q\u0131z\u011f\u0131n bir q\u0131z idi. \u0130ndi is\u0259 sanki bir q\u0259d\u0259r ya\u015fa dolub. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r oldu\u011fu kimi \u015fux, t\u0259rav\u0259tli g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcr. Q\u0259lbind\u0259 b\u0259sl\u0259diyi g\u00f6z\u0259l \u00fcmidl\u0259ri qay\u00e7\u0131lanm\u0131\u015f, qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na ac\u0131 bir \u00fcmidsizlik \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131r. Bu ne\u00e7\u0259 h\u0259ft\u0259d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259, hadis\u0259l\u0259ri saf-\u00e7\u00fcr\u00fck etm\u0259y\u0259 kifay\u0259t q\u0259d\u0259r vaxt tapd\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan son vaxtlar bu v\u0259 ya dig\u0259r m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259nin h\u0259llind\u0259 daha q\u0259tiyy\u0259tl\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t edir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. H\u0259, ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, dan\u0131\u015f g\u00f6r\u0259k.<\/p>\n
Meri<\/b>. Miss Roz, vallah\u2026<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. H\u0259, az qala unutmu\u015fdum. S\u0259n ax\u0131 buyruq qulusan.\u00a0 . Qul sahibi is\u0259 burada yoxdur (qap\u0131ya yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b haraylay\u0131r<\/i>). Helen xala! Helen xala!<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. O, m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259dir, Roz.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. Eybi yoxdur, bu saat harada olsa, g\u0259l\u0259r. Onun c\u0259susu art\u0131q qay\u0131d\u0131b.<\/p>\n
Meri<\/b>. Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, miss Roz\u2026<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. Bu sizin \u00fcmumi k\u0259l\u0259yinizdir.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. S\u00f6hb\u0259tin hans\u0131 k\u0259l\u0259kd\u0259n getdiyini bilmirik.<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>\u018fhv edin. G\u0259r\u0259k sizi qatmayayd\u0131m. O saat oxun hans\u0131 s\u0259mtd\u0259n at\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bil\u0259ydim. Bu onun i\u015fidir. Onun m\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fc yoxdur.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Ola bilm\u0259z.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. B\u0259li, g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fc yoxdur. S\u0259b\u0259bini bilir\u0259m. Sevgi – insan \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn t\u0259bii ehtiyacd\u0131r. Sevm\u0259k \u2013 Yer \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 m\u00f6vcud olmaq, b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u0259k, boya-ba\u015fa \u00e7atmaq dem\u0259kdir. \u00d6vlad sahibi olmaq, \u00f6lm\u0259k dem\u0259kdir. O is\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlara nifr\u0259t edir. Q\u0131f\u0131ll\u0131 otaqlar\u0131n divarlar\u0131n\u0131 geni\u015fl\u0259ndirm\u0259k, h\u0259min otaqlar\u0131n \u0259hat\u0259sind\u0259 yaln\u0131z qap\u0131s\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131q birc\u0259 otaq \u2013 qonaq ota\u011f\u0131 saxlamaq, onu is\u0259 sevgid\u0259n, h\u0259yatdan, \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n ay\u0131rmaq x\u0259yal\u0131ndad\u0131r. Burada he\u00e7 k\u0259s he\u00e7 zaman \u00f6lm\u00fcr! \u018fb\u0259di h\u0259yata bir bax\u0131n! Burada he\u00e7 k\u0259s\u00a0 he\u00e7 zaman n\u0259 do\u011fulur, n\u0259 do\u011fur! Ax\u0131 bu, xatal\u0131d\u0131r. M\u0259ntiq\u0259 bir bax\u0131n! Bu otaqda gec\u0259l\u0259r m\u0259n\u0259 yatma\u011fa icaz\u0259 verirl\u0259r. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, m\u0259n g\u0259nc\u0259m. \u018fzray\u0131l burada m\u0259niml\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fs\u0259, onda Yer \u00f6z oxundan \u00e7\u0131xar. Biz sevib-sevilm\u0259y\u0259 qadirik. Bu is\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u0259k, boya-ba\u015fa \u00e7atmaq dem\u0259kdir.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b> (g\u0259lir<\/i>). Meri, s\u0259n burada neyl\u0259yirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. Onu buraya m\u0259n g\u0259tirmi\u015f\u0259m. Onun m\u0259lumat\u0131 m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 maraql\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. Hans\u0131 m\u0259lumat\u0131, \u0259zizim?<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. Nec\u0259 hans\u0131? M\u0259nim h\u0259r add\u0131m\u0131m haqq\u0131nda toplad\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259lumat. Saat \u00fc\u00e7\u0259 on be\u015f d\u0259qiq\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259mi\u015f oradan getm\u0259yim haqda m\u0259lumat. Bir d\u0259 h\u0259min adam g\u0259l\u0259n kimi binaya girdiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn Merinin onu tan\u0131ya bilm\u0259m\u0259si bar\u0259d\u0259 m\u0259lumat.<\/p>\n
Helen. Meri, yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131 budur, s\u0259n get.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. Mane olmay\u0131n, onun hesabat\u0131n\u0131 dinl\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>Meri, \u00e7\u0131x get.<\/p>\n
Meri gedir. Pauza.<\/i><\/p>\n
S\u00f6hb\u0259tin n\u0259 bar\u0259d\u0259 getdiyind\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rsiz\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>\u018fksin\u0259, x\u0259b\u0259rdars\u0131n\u0131z. Meriy\u0259 qaranl\u0131q qalan m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259r bar\u0259d\u0259 \u0259trafl\u0131 m\u0259lumat\u0131 m\u0259nd\u0259n ala bil\u0259rsiniz. Maykl \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yar\u0131s\u0131nda \u2013 m\u0259nd\u0259n v\u0259 Merid\u0259n xeyli \u0259vv\u0259l g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Saat \u00fc\u00e7d\u0259 m\u0259n binaya girdim. Soyundum. Saat be\u015fd\u0259 qalx\u0131b geyindim. Biz onunla bir \u00e7arpay\u0131da uzand\u0131q. B\u0259li, qol-boyun olduq. B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlardan Merinin x\u0259b\u0259ri yoxdur. Siz Mayklla \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259yim\u0259 mane olan\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 g\u00fcnd\u0259n etibar\u0259n h\u0259r h\u0259ft\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7-d\u00f6rd d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fck (k\u0259d\u0259rli<\/i>). \u018fg\u0259r Merinin vaxt\u0131n\u0131 bel\u0259 bo\u015f \u015feyl\u0259rl\u0259 almasayd\u0131n\u0131z, burada m\u0259nsiz d\u0259 ke\u00e7in\u0259rdiniz. M\u0259nim k\u00f6m\u0259yim\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131n\u0131z qalmazd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Helen, deyil\u0259nl\u0259r do\u011frudur?<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> M\u0259lum fikr\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, do\u011frudur. M\u0259n \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259nirdim. \u0130st\u0259yirdim ayd\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131m, g\u00f6r\u00fcm, h\u0259r g\u00fcn bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saatl\u0131\u011fa o hara gedir?<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Bu s\u0259nin n\u0259yin\u0259 laz\u0131m idi?<\/p>\n
Tereza sakitc\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131r.<\/i><\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> Zar\u0131ma, Tereza.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. M\u0259n t\u0259krar edir\u0259m. Bu s\u0259nin n\u0259yin\u0259 laz\u0131m idi?<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> O bizim himay\u0259mizd\u0259dir. Bel\u0259 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259ri ayd\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131r\u00admaq is\u0259 m\u0259nim \u00f6hd\u0259m\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc. S\u0259n onlar\u0131 bir-birind\u0259n ay\u0131rmaq iqtidar\u0131nda deyildin. Roz onunla \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259yi v\u0259d etmi\u015fdi. Bu, bilirs\u0259n, nec\u0259 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli g\u00fcnahd\u0131r?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. S\u0259n buna \u0259min idin?<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259. Ax\u0131 o, evlidir.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> M\u0259g\u0259r onun evli olma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilm\u0259yin onun h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n g\u00fcnahkar olma\u011f\u0131na \u015f\u0259had\u0259t verir?<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. He\u00e7 olmasa, \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 bir azca sa\u011flam \u0259qid\u0259 tap, Ceyms.<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>\u018fg\u0259r s\u0259nd\u0259, az da olsa, m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259t tap\u0131lsa, m\u0259n d\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015faram.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. S\u0259n axmaqsan.<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>A\u015f\u0131q g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rar. M\u0259n g\u00f6z\u00fcm g\u00f6r\u0259n\u0259 inan\u0131ram. Allah bundan art\u0131q m\u0259nd\u0259n t\u0259l\u0259b d\u0259 etmir.<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>S\u0259n onun \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6ym\u0259sini e\u015fitdin? \u018fg\u0259r onlara mane olmasayd\u0131m, getdikc\u0259 a\u011f ed\u0259c\u0259k, g\u00fcn\u00fc-g\u00fcnd\u0259n daha yax\u0131n olacaqd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b> (k\u0259skin<\/i>). Mane oldun?<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>B\u0259li, biz bir-birimizin m\u0259\u015fuqu olduq. Bir yast\u0131\u011fa ba\u015f qoyduq. Siz ki, d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli g\u00fcnahdan bu q\u0259d\u0259r s\u00f6z a\u00e7\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z, el\u0259 is\u0259 n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn onunla \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259yim\u0259 imkan verm\u0259diniz? M\u0259g\u0259r bel\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r? B\u0259lk\u0259 Riqel-Kortda g\u00fcnd\u00fcz g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u0259ri xo\u015funuza g\u0259lir?<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>B\u0259li, bu, yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. Bu, lab\u00fcd sonu yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>Amma n\u0259 dediniz! Ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr d\u0259 ola bilm\u0259zdi. M\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259ti m\u0259hv etm\u0259k sizin t\u0259r\u0259finizd\u0259n l\u00fctfkarl\u0131qd\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> Bel\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259ti, b\u0259li.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Yaxud dig\u0259r m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t aras\u0131nda n\u0259 f\u0259rq var? M\u0259g\u0259r o, evli olmasayd\u0131, m\u0259n onu ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr sev\u0259rdim? (sual\u0131na \u00f6z\u00fc astaca cavab verir<\/i>) Bu, daha b\u00f6y\u00fck xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik olard\u0131.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b> (bayaqdan \u0259lveri\u015fli an\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k<\/i>). S\u0259n dedin ki, onlara mane olmusan?<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> B\u0259li, buna g\u00f6r\u0259 pe\u015fman da deyil\u0259m. M\u0259n onu kils\u0259nin qoynunda\u00a0 saxlam\u0131\u015fam. \u0130ndi o, ist\u0259nil\u0259n zaman t\u00f6vb\u0259 etm\u0259y\u0259 ged\u0259r.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> T\u00f6vb\u0259d\u0259n sonra yen\u0259 bildiyini et, sonra yen\u0259 t\u00f6vb\u0259\u2026 Siz g\u00fcman edirsiniz ki, bu, ail\u0259li, u\u015faql\u0131 olmaqdan, \u0259sl insan kimi ya\u015famaqdan, qo\u015fa qar\u0131maqdan yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r?<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> Bu, sad\u0259c\u0259, \u00f6l\u00fcm g\u00fcnah\u0131nda ya\u015famaq dem\u0259kdir.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Allahda daha sa\u011flam \u0259qid\u0259, bir d\u0259 m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259t olur.<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> Allah\u0131n m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259tin\u0259 h\u0259ddind\u0259n art\u0131q bel ba\u011flamaq \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 \u0259lav\u0259 g\u00fcnahd\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> B\u0259s nec\u0259? X\u0259b\u0259rim var. Rahibl\u0259r bunu \u00f6yr\u0259nibl\u0259r, buna ehtimal n\u0259z\u0259riyy\u0259si deyirl\u0259r.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> S\u0259n bayaq onlara mane oldum dey\u0259nd\u0259 n\u0259yi n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259 tuturdun?<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. Tereza x\u0259st\u0259 deyildi.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. X\u0259st\u0259 deyildi?\u00a0 O ki hu\u015fsuz halda d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 y\u0131x\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> M\u0259n Terezaya x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259ndiyini bildirdim, o da inand\u0131.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> (sin\u0259sind\u0259n inilti qopur<\/i>). Oh\u2026<\/p>\n
Davam ed\u0259n s\u00fckut.<\/i><\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> (\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc m\u00fcdafi\u0259 ed\u0259r\u0259k<\/i>). M\u0259n t\u0259cili t\u0259dbir g\u00f6rm\u0259liy\u00addim, Ceyms.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. \u018fg\u0259r s\u0259n s\u0259feh yox, a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 adam olsayd\u0131n, dey\u0259rdim, \u00e7ox zal\u0131msan.<\/p>\n
Tereza<\/b>. Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcr\u0259m, n\u0259 bar\u0259d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z.<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>(k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259 Helen\u0259<\/i>). B\u0259lk\u0259 onu s\u0259n ba\u015fa salasan? M\u0259nim \u0259limd\u0259n he\u00e7 n\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259z. Tereza, \u0259zizim, Helenl\u0259 \u00f6z ota\u011f\u0131na get. Bu q\u0259d\u0259r oturdu\u011fun b\u0259sdir, get, dinc\u0259l.<\/p>\n
Tereza. <\/b>Ceyms, m\u0259ni uzaqla\u015fd\u0131rmaq ist\u0259yirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>Bel\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131r. M\u0259nim kitab\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr. Rozla t\u0259klikd\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t etm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Tereza. <\/b>(qap\u0131ya sar\u0131 gedir, qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda ayaq saxlay\u0131r<\/i>). B\u0259s s\u0259n, Helen, gedirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>(Ceyms\u0259<\/i>). S\u0259n\u0259 etibar etmir\u0259m. M\u0259n qal\u0131ram.<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>Qoy s\u0259n dey\u0259n olsun. Roz, Terezan\u0131 \u00f6t\u00fcr.<\/p>\n
Roz Terezan\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n tutub qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r.<\/i><\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> (\u00e7\u0131xark\u0259n yalvaran u\u015faq s\u0259si il\u0259<\/i>). M\u0259n\u0259 \u201eGec\u0259n xeyr\u0259 qals\u0131n\u201c dem\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n, Ceyms?<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> H\u0259l\u0259 tezdir, nahardan qabaq yan\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. Ax\u015fam is\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 yatasan dey\u0259, kitab oxuyaca\u011fam.<\/p>\n
Rozla Tereza gedirl\u0259r<\/i><\/p>\n
(Helen\u0259<\/i>) s\u0259n Terezan\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u0259 bais ola bil\u0259rdin.<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> M\u0259n yaln\u0131z kefsiz oldu\u011funu ona s\u00f6yl\u0259dim\u2026 D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259dim ki,\u2026<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> S\u0259n \u00f6z d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rin bar\u0259d\u0259 kifay\u0259t q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u0259r\u0259nl\u0259din.<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> B\u00fct\u00fcn hadis\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 o \u0259xlaqs\u0131z adam baisdir.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Onda g\u00fcnah yoxdur. H\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 bizim \u015f\u00fcurumuz, xeyirxahl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z, \u00f6vliyalar\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131ndan b\u0259hs ed\u0259n kitablar, Allah\u0131n m\u00f6min b\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259rinin \u015f\u0259kill\u0259ri, mehrab c\u0259miyy\u0259tin\u0259 verdiyimiz ian\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259b olsayd\u0131, \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259 ona b\u00f6yl\u0259 bir iztirab verm\u0259zdi. O bizi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn sevincin\u0259, k\u0259d\u0259rin\u0259 \u015f\u0259rik ed\u0259rdi\u2026<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> B\u0259s n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn o bunu etmir?<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 bizim evd\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t yox, qorxu h\u00f6km s\u00fcr\u00fcr. \u018fg\u0259r ondan qurban t\u0259l\u0259b ediriks\u0259, \u0259v\u0259zind\u0259 ona n\u0259 verm\u0259liyik? Dini h\u0259qiq\u0259tl\u0259r d\u0259stimi?<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> \u00d6z\u00fcnd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f Ceyms.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> N\u0259 deyir\u0259m ki\u2026 S\u0259xav\u0259t barda\u015f qurub \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib, Al\u00adlah-taala s\u00f6z\u00fc dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r, amma b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc ziyandan \u00f6zg\u0259 xeyir vermir.<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> Maykl q\u0131z\u0131 yoldan \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> A\u011f\u0131ls\u0131z m\u0259ntiqdir. \u018fg\u0259r lap s\u0259n dey\u0259n olsa bel\u0259.<\/p>\n
Roz g\u0259lir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Roz<\/b> (meydan oxuyurcas\u0131na<\/i>). H\u0259, n\u0259 oldu?<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>(Helen\u0259<\/i>) g\u0259r\u0259k ondan \u00fczr ist\u0259y\u0259s\u0259n.<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>\u00dczr ist\u0259yim?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b> (Roza<\/i>). Helen s\u0259ni g\u00fcdm\u0259kd\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 i\u015f g\u00f6rm\u0259yib.<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>O bizim himay\u0259mizd\u0259dir. O bizi aldad\u0131b.<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>Siz m\u0259ni aldatm\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z!<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. Yalana qar\u015f\u0131 yalan!<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>B\u0259sdir, mumla. \u0130lahi, m\u0259ni m\u0259hv et, s\u0259n m\u0259ni t\u0259ng\u0259 g\u0259tirmis\u0259n. \u00c7\u0131x, xahi\u015f edir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. M\u0259n burada qalmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. M\u0259n s\u0259nin qarda\u015f\u0131nam, bundan savay\u0131, h\u0259m d\u0259 ke\u015fi\u015f\u0259m. S\u0259nd\u0259n bizi yalq\u0131z buraxma\u011f\u0131 xahi\u015f edir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. (qap\u0131ya sar\u0131 gedir, lakin d\u00f6n\u00fcb yeni bir t\u0259hqir\u0259 \u0259l at\u0131r<\/i>). Kils\u0259 s\u0259nin kimi f\u0259rsiz ke\u015fi\u015fd\u0259n \u00f6z yaxas\u0131n\u0131 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r tez qur\u00adtarsa, bir o q\u0259d\u0259r yax\u015f\u0131 olar,<\/p>\n
Helen \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r v\u0259 ard\u0131nca qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rt\u00fcr<\/i>.<\/p>\n
S\u00fckut.<\/i><\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>(meydan oxuyurcas\u0131na<\/i>). B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131n n\u0259 dem\u0259k oldu\u011funu, n\u0259hay\u0259t, ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz?<\/i><\/p>\n
Cavab g\u0259lmir.<\/i><\/p>\n
\u0130ndi ki, Tereza xala sa\u011fal\u0131b, m\u0259n azadam. M\u0259n Mayklla \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b gedir\u0259m. Biz \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r oldu\u011fu kimi indi d\u0259 qovu\u015fma\u011fa can at\u0131r\u0131q.<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>\u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r oldu\u011fu kimi?<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Biz bir-birimizi t\u0259ng\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259mi\u015fik, \u0259g\u0259r bunu n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259 tutursunuzsa (meydan oxuyurcas\u0131na<\/i>), biz daha d\u0259rin m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tl\u0259… Biz bir-birimiz\u0259 daha yax\u0131ndan b\u0259l\u0259d olmu\u015fuq.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Riqel-Korta ke\u00e7irdiyiniz saatlar\u0131n bel\u0259 u\u011furlu olma\u00ads\u0131na \u00e7ox \u015fadam.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b> (titr\u0259k s\u0259sl\u0259<\/i>). M\u0259ni \u0259l\u0259 salmay\u0131n! Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, \u0259l\u0259 salmay\u0131n.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> S\u0259ni \u0259l\u0259 salmaq fikrind\u0259 deyil\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Day\u0131, b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar m\u0259nim \u0259zablar\u0131m\u0131 g\u00fcnb\u0259g\u00fcn art\u0131r\u0131r. Q\u00fcss\u0259d\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yim tel-tel olur (onun kreslosu \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259d\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fir<\/i>). Art\u0131q yorulmu\u015fam. N\u0259 etm\u0259li oldu\u011fumu anlaya bilmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> B\u0259s o nec\u0259?<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. Bir yerd\u0259 olanda h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 d\u00f6z\u00fcr\u00fck. Saat \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yar\u0131s\u0131nda biz xo\u015fb\u0259xt oluruq, saat \u00fc\u00e7d\u0259 yen\u0259 s\u0259ad\u0259t i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcr\u00fck. Sonra bir q\u0259d\u0259r yat\u0131r\u0131q. Saat d\u00f6rdd\u0259 d\u0259 bizim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn pis ke\u00e7mir. Amma sonra saat\u0131n \u0259qr\u0259bl\u0259ri be\u015f\u0259 on d\u0259qiq\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259diyini biz\u0259 xat\u0131rlad\u0131r. H\u0259min an q\u0259m-q\u00fcss\u0259 bizi b\u00fcr\u00fcm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131r… H\u0259r g\u00fcn be\u015f\u0259 on be\u015f d\u0259qiq\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259mi\u015f\u2026 Saat be\u015f\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fanda \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 apar\u0131r\u0131q. Buxar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259ki q\u0131z\u0131l suyuna \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015f z\u0259hl\u0259mgetmi\u015f frans\u0131z saat\u0131 bizi t\u0259l\u0259sdirir. Bir g\u00fcn yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 baxmay\u0131b o saat\u0131 s\u0131nd\u0131raca\u011fam… B\u0259sdir daha… B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 s\u0259n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131n \u0259d\u0259bsizlik deyil ki?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Davam et. Canl\u0131 insan nitqin\u0259 qulaq asmaq ayda-ild\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 ke\u015fi\u015f\u0259 n\u0259sib olur. Ad\u0259t\u0259n h\u0259r \u015fey \u00f6l\u00fc formalarla biz\u0259 izah edilir.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. \u00abAx\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 t\u00f6vb\u0259d\u0259n sonra, \u00fc\u00e7 h\u0259ft\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259l 27 d\u0259f\u0259 zina etmi\u015f\u0259m\u00bb Helen xala ist\u0259yir ki, m\u0259n m\u0259hz bel\u0259 cavab verim. Amma, ata, \u0259sl m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 he\u00e7 d\u0259 bunda deyil. Bel\u0259 z\u0259nn edilir ki, biz sizin vasit\u0259nizl\u0259 Allahla \u00fcnsiyy\u0259td\u0259 oluruq. Dem\u0259li, xudav\u0259ndi-al\u0259m\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey \u0259linin i\u00e7i kimi ayd\u0131nd\u0131r. H\u0259tta buxar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki saat da… M\u0259n t\u00f6vb\u0259 etm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m. Ey b\u00f6y\u00fck Yaradan, biz\u0259 daha s\u00f6nm\u0259z m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t b\u0259x\u015f et! Bizim birlikd\u0259 ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131m\u0131za imkan ver! Raz\u0131 olma ki, bu xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyi Riqel-Kortda, yen\u0259 bir daha Riqel-Kortda tapaq! Bax, m\u0259n bel\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m, m\u0259nim balam.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. Biz n\u0259 ed\u0259k?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. M\u0259nim balam…<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. (s\u0259rt<\/i>). M\u0259n bir ke\u015fi\u015f kimi sizd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259r alm\u0131ram. Bel\u0259 bir cavab m\u0259n\u0259 m\u0259lumdur. Ancaq m\u0259n Helen xalan\u0131 inand\u0131ra bilmir\u0259m ki, Allah \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn Riqel-Kortda h\u0259ft\u0259d\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, vidala\u015f\u0131b, ayr\u0131lmaq s\u0259rf\u0259lidir, n\u0259inki ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Nec\u0259 y\u0259ni ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr?<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. Rahatl\u0131q, ail\u0259, o\u011ful-u\u015faq, ya\u015fa dolmaq. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 h\u0259r c\u00fcr kils\u0259d\u0259n uzaq.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Onda s\u0259n xo\u015fb\u0259xt ola bilm\u0259zs\u0259n.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. Olaram. Yan\u0131lmay\u0131n. Ata, Pri\u00e7astiyesiz\u00a0 ke\u00e7in\u0259r\u0259m. Bu m\u0259n\u0259 i\u015fg\u0259nc\u0259 verm\u0259z. H\u0259yatda Maykls\u0131z ya\u015famaq is\u0259…<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. \u0130nsanlar hicrana \u00fcst\u00fcn g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259 qadirdir. G\u00fcnl\u0259r ke\u00e7ir…<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. B\u0259li, amma, insan n\u0259yis\u0259 d\u0259f etm\u0259lidir. Onunla birg\u0259 olma\u011f\u0131m\u0131z haqq\u0131nda yuxular g\u00f6rm\u0259k, lakin oynayark\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc t\u0259nhal\u0131qda tapmaq, yenid\u0259n yuxu g\u00f6rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yatmaq, vaxt\u0131n yax\u0131nla\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k tez-tez saata bax\u0131b d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259ri saymaq…<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b> (q\u00fcss\u0259li, t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u00fc<\/i>). Bu \u00fc\u00e7 h\u0259ft\u0259 \u0259rzind\u0259 nec\u0259 d\u0259 kamala yetmis\u0259n.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. Maykldan m\u0259hrum olandan sonra Allah\u0131 h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n sev\u0259c\u0259yim\u0259 \u00fcmid edirsiniz? Allah t\u0259s\u0259lli verm\u0259zd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l bizi bax bel\u0259c\u0259 \u0259zab \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259cbur edir.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. S\u0259n m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni h\u0259ddind\u0259n art\u0131q sad\u0259l\u0259\u015fdirirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. Ax\u0131 hadis\u0259l\u0259rin gedi\u015fi \u00f6z\u00fc sad\u0259dir. Burada anla\u015f\u0131lmaz bir \u015fey yoxdur, ata. Bu, t\u0259bii sevgi \u0259laq\u0259sidir. Sizs\u0259 el\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259rd\u0259n s\u00f6z a\u00e7\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z ki…<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. B\u0259db\u0259xtlik oras\u0131ndad\u0131r ki, s\u0259n Allaha az inan\u0131rsan. Sor\u011fu-sual etm\u0259d\u0259n, kor-koran\u0259 Allah\u0131n d\u0259rgah\u0131na p\u0259nah aparsan, y\u00fcng\u00fcll\u0259\u015f\u0259rs\u0259n, o s\u0259n\u0259 yol g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259r…<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b> (sif\u0259ti da\u015fa d\u00f6n\u00fcr. Ceyms onu inand\u0131ra bilmir<\/i>). H\u0259? Onunsa \u0259lind\u0259n he\u00e7 n\u0259 g\u0259lmir, lal kimi sakitc\u0259 dayan\u0131r, \u0259trafl\u0131 seyr edir. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, ona q\u0259hr\u0259manlar laz\u0131md\u0131r. M\u0259n is\u0259 q\u0259hr\u0259man deyil\u0259m. M\u0259n qorxa\u011fam. Bu q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259rd\u0259 d\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcm yoxdur. M\u0259nim kimil\u0259r \u00e7oxdur, ata, lap \u00e7ox. Allah laz\u0131mi m\u0259qamda qorxaqlar\u0131n xatirin\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcr.<\/p>\n
A\u015fa\u011f\u0131dan z\u0259ng s\u0259si e\u015fidilir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Allah onlar\u0131 q\u0259hr\u0259man \u015f\u0259klin\u0259 sald\u0131, h\u0259tta Petri d\u0259.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. Allah\u0131n m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259ri haqq\u0131nda \u00e7ox oxumu\u015fuq. Ancaq onun d\u00f6n\u00fck b\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259ri haqq\u0131nda m\u0259lumat\u0131m\u0131z yoxdur. Bu b\u0259xt\u0259v\u0259r d\u00f6n\u00fckl\u0259r Allah haqq\u0131nda n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r az fikirl\u0259\u015firl\u0259r, bir o q\u0259d\u0259r rahat h\u0259yat s\u00fcr\u00fcrl\u0259r.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> D\u00f6n\u00fck olma\u011f\u0131 da bacarmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>.\u00a0 M\u0259n is\u0259, day\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc yoxlamaq bel\u0259 ist\u0259mir\u0259m. M\u0259n qorxa\u011fam. M\u0259n\u0259, sad\u0259c\u0259, c\u00fczi insan rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u0259r\u0259kdir. Lakin bel\u0259 bir reseptl\u0259 yox: \u201cAllah\u0131 sev, \u00fcmidini ona ba\u011fla, t\u0259dric\u0259n h\u0259r \u015fey yax\u015f\u0131 olacaq\u201d… Day\u0131, xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, katoliziml\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259si olmayan bir \u015fey dan\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n
Helen t\u0259l\u0259sik g\u0259lir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. S\u0259ni soru\u015furlar, Roz.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Kim?<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. Missis Dennis.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Ona n\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131r? (\u015f\u00fcbh\u0259 il\u0259<\/i>) O bura nec\u0259 g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b?<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b> (gizli bir t\u0259nt\u0259n\u0259 il\u0259<\/i>). M\u0259n ki dedim. O, Rozu g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259yir.<\/p>\n
Sar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 udmu\u015f Roz d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yana \u00e7evirir. <\/i><\/p>\n
\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Pauza<\/i><\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. S\u0259nin qurmana ox\u015fay\u0131r. De ki, Roz x\u0259st\u0259dir, evd\u0259 yoxdur. A\u011fl\u0131na n\u0259 g\u0259lir de, t\u0259ki r\u0259dd olub getsin.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. Onun haqq\u0131 var ki…<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Bu u\u015faq kifay\u0259t q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259zab \u00e7\u0259kib.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b> (\u015f\u00fcbh\u0259 il\u0259<\/i>). U\u015faq?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. H\u0259.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b> (ona sar\u0131 d\u00f6n\u0259r\u0259k, s\u0259rt<\/i>). M\u0259n burda g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz qaba\u011f\u0131n\u00adda\u00adyam, el\u0259 deyilmi? N\u0259yi g\u00f6zl\u0259yirsiniz Qoyun g\u0259lsin (qap\u0131ya yax\u0131n\u00adla\u015f\u0131b taybatay a\u00e7\u0131r<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Helen c\u0259ld \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, Meriy\u0259 \u0259mr edir ki, Missis Dennisi yuxar\u0131 g\u0259tirsin<\/i>.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. (Rozu t\u0259rk etm\u0259k ist\u0259mir<\/i>). Onunla bacararsan?<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. Son \u00fc\u00e7 h\u0259ft\u0259d\u0259 onun haqq\u0131nda az fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. (kreslonu qap\u0131n\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259yir<\/i>). G\u0259r\u0259yin olsam, m\u0259ni s\u0259sl\u0259. \u00d6z ota\u011f\u0131mda olaca\u011fam.<\/p>\n
Roz inadla cavab vermir. Ceyms ota\u011f\u0131 t\u0259rk edir. Roz y\u00f6n\u00fc divara dayan\u0131r. Meri missis Dennisi ota\u011fa \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr. Onun ard\u0131nca c\u0259ld qap\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flay\u0131r. Missis Dennis t\u0259xmin\u0259n 45 ya\u015flar\u0131ndad\u0131r. Onun sa\u00e7lar\u0131 vaxt\u0131ndan \u0259vv\u0259l a\u011far\u0131b, g\u0259rgin v\u0259 \u0259s\u0259bi sif\u0259tind\u0259 q\u0259tiyy\u0259tli bir ifad\u0259 var. O, narahat halda \u0259trafa boylan\u0131r. Ota\u011f\u0131n q\u0259rib\u0259liyi onu t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndirir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Missis Dennis<\/b>. Maykl buradad\u0131r?<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Yox, siz onu burada tapaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131za \u0259min idiniz?<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis.<\/b> O, m\u00fchazir\u0259si oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yl\u0259di, amma indi m\u0259n he\u00e7 n\u0259y\u0259 inanm\u0131ram. Siz Rozsunuz, el\u0259dir?<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Siz onun arvad\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z, el\u0259dir?<\/p>\n
Missis Denis.<\/b> M\u0259n sizin m\u0259ktublar\u0131n\u0131zdan birini oxudum. M\u0259ktub onun xalat\u0131n\u0131n cibind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Bel\u0259 de.<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis<\/b>. Maykl m\u0259ktublar\u0131 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ehtiyats\u0131z saxlay\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Siz bunu s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lmisiniz? Bundan \u00f6tr\u00fc d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259y\u0259 qalxma\u011fa d\u0259y\u0259rdimi?<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis<\/b> (ac\u0131-ac\u0131<\/i>). M\u0259ktubunuz el\u0259 t\u0259sirli idi ki… Amma siz ona h\u0259ddind\u0259n art\u0131q inan\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> \u0130nan\u0131ram! Bunu d\u00fcz dediniz.<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis.<\/b> \u00c7ox t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf. Bu q\u0259d\u0259r f\u0259dakarl\u0131q etm\u0259yiniz \u0259b\u0259sdir. He\u00e7 olmasa… H\u0259… Y\u0259qin onun nec\u0259 bir ilan oldu\u011fundan x\u0259b\u0259rsizsiniz. Rola girm\u0259yi g\u00f6z\u0259l bacar\u0131r. T\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 q\u0131zlarla onun aras\u0131nda h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 anla\u015f\u0131lmazl\u0131qlar olur. Bu, \u00e7ox g\u00fcman ki, Freydi birlikd\u0259 qira\u0259t etdikl\u0259ri \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnd\u00fcr. Toyumuzdan \u00fc\u00e7 il\u0259 sonra bizim u\u015fa\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259tta ondan bo\u015fanmaq ist\u0259dim.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> B\u0259s bunu n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn etm\u0259diniz?<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis<\/b> (q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259<\/i>). \u00c7\u00fcnki m\u0259niml\u0259 olmaq ona xo\u015f idi! M\u0259niml\u0259 olmaq ona h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 xo\u015f olacaq! M\u0259n onun b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcnahlar\u0131ndan ke\u00e7ir\u0259m. B\u0259s siz?<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> M\u0259ns\u0259 ke\u00e7mir\u0259m. \u00c7\u00fcnki sevir\u0259m. Onu \u00f6z s\u0259xav\u0259timin g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 ba\u011flamaq niyy\u0259tind\u0259 deyil\u0259m. \u018fg\u0259r m\u0259ni t\u0259rk etm\u0259k ist\u0259s\u0259ydi, onu he\u00e7 vaxt saxlamazd\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis.<\/b> O h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 sizi t\u0259rk etm\u0259k bar\u0259d\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fir.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 onun haqq\u0131 var. H\u0259tta s\u0259hv etm\u0259y\u0259 bel\u0259…<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis.<\/b> Maykl h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n sizi sevs\u0259ydi, m\u0259ni atard\u0131…<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> \u00dc\u00e7 h\u0259ft\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259l o buna haz\u0131r idi.<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis.<\/b> H\u0259l\u0259 ki m\u0259niml\u0259dir.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, m\u0259n ged\u0259 bilm\u0259dim.<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis<\/b>. Niy\u0259?<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Onu saxlayan q\u00fcvv\u0259 m\u0259ni saxlad\u0131 (amans\u0131z<\/i>). Onun\u00a0 siz\u0259 yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u0259lir! El\u0259 m\u0259nim d\u0259…<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis<\/b> (kinli<\/i>). \u00d6t\u0259n gec\u0259 bu, hiss olunmad\u0131.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> (\u00fcr\u0259k a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 il\u0259<\/i>). Siz\u0259 inanm\u0131ram!<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis.<\/b> \u018fg\u0259r onu sizd\u0259n ay\u0131rma\u011fa haz\u0131ramsa, onda nec\u0259?…<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. Yalan deyirsiniz! Yalan dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz d\u0259 bilirsiniz! Bura niy\u0259 g\u0259lmisiniz? Bu, \u0259xlaqs\u0131zl\u0131qd\u0131r, al\u00e7aql\u0131qd\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis. <\/b>\u018fxlaqs\u0131zl\u0131q? Bu s\u00f6z\u00fc sizd\u0259n e\u015fitm\u0259k t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb do\u011furur. M\u0259n onun arvad\u0131yam.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Arvad\u0131 olaraq qal\u0131n. M\u0259n is\u0259 yaln\u0131z onun m\u0259\u015fuq\u0259si olmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis bird\u0259n tabs\u0131z halda kresloya \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcr, a\u011flama\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131r.<\/i><\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. (bir anl\u0131\u011fa sakitc\u0259\u00a0 bax\u0131r, lakin d\u00f6z\u0259 bilmir<\/i>). Ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n (d\u0259rin bir \u00fcmidsizlikl\u0259<\/i>). B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar nec\u0259 d\u0259 m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259bdir.<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis<\/b>. Onu m\u0259n d\u0259 sevir\u0259m. \u0130st\u0259yir\u0259m o, yaln\u0131z m\u0259niml\u0259 qals\u0131n. Bu siz\u0259 \u0259zab verm\u0259z.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b> (ac\u0131<\/i>). \u018fzab verm\u0259z?<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis<\/b>. M\u0259n h\u0259qiq\u0259ti dem\u0259dim. Biz art\u0131q \u00e7oxdand\u0131r ki, yax\u0131n olmam\u0131\u015f\u0131q. Laz\u0131m g\u0259ldiyi kimi.<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>Hm… \u018fsl sevgi he\u00e7 d\u0259 bunda deyil. B\u0259z\u0259n sad\u0259c\u0259 onunla birlikd\u0259 olmaqdan, bir havadan n\u0259f\u0259s almaqdan \u00f6tr\u00fc h\u0259r \u015feyi qurban ver\u0259r\u0259m. Bir a\u00e7arla qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7maq, birg\u0259 nahar etm\u0259k, sakitc\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131 oturub kitab oxumaq…<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis<\/b> (\u0259s\u0259bi<\/i>). N\u0259 vaxt yola d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz? Ax\u0131 siz \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259k q\u0259rar\u0131na g\u0259lmisiniz… M\u0259ni \u00fczm\u0259yin, deyin!<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Bilmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis.<\/b> Siz g\u0259ncsiniz. Kefiniz ist\u0259y\u0259n ki\u015fi il\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bil\u0259rsiniz. Y\u00fczl\u0259rl\u0259 erk\u0259k bir \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn sizin ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131za d\u00fc\u015f\u0259r! Yalvar\u0131ram, ondan \u0259l \u00e7\u0259kin! (s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259sir<\/i>). Onsuz ya\u015faya bilmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Roz onun isterik hal ke\u00e7irdiyni v\u0259 get-ged\u0259 v\u0259ziyy\u0259tinin pisl\u0259\u015fdiyini g\u00f6r\u00fcr. O, t\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, qorxu hissi ke\u00e7irir.<\/i><\/p>\n
O m\u0259ni atsa, \u00f6l\u0259r\u0259m.\u00a0 \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Yox, yox! Bel\u0259 i\u015f tutmay\u0131n!<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis.<\/b> Tutaram… Hm… \u00dcr\u0259yinizd\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259ni duydum: \u201c\u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6ld\u00fcrs\u0259, n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 olar. M\u0259n d\u0259 Maykla \u0259r\u0259 ged\u0259r\u0259m…\u201d Bel\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcn\u00fcz?<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m…<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis.<\/b> Ondan \u0259l \u00e7\u0259kin, yalvar\u0131ram. Bir yerd\u0259 giz\u00adl\u0259nin, o sizi axtar\u0131b tapa bilm\u0259sin. Siz g\u0259ncsiniz. Buna d\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fcz \u00e7atar.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Ancaq m\u0259n bel\u0259 bir \u0259zaba sad\u0259c\u0259 qatla\u015fmaq ist\u0259mir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis.<\/b> M\u0259n x\u0259st\u0259y\u0259m. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 \u018fzray\u0131l bu g\u00fcn-sabah can\u0131m\u0131 ald\u0131. N\u0259 olar, bir az g\u00f6zl\u0259yin. \u00c7ox demir\u0259m, uza\u011f\u0131 yar\u0131m il. Onda g\u00f6r\u0259rsiniz ki… Yar\u0131m il s\u0259n dey\u0259n \u00e7ox da deyil (dem\u0259k olar ki, ba\u011f\u0131r\u0131r<\/i>). M\u0259ni s\u0259fal\u0259t\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fckl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 haqq\u0131n\u0131z yoxdur! (aya\u011fa qalx\u0131r, Roza sar\u0131 gedir<\/i>) Haqq\u0131n\u0131z yoxdur! (bird\u0259n onun sif\u0259tin\u0259 bir sill\u0259 vurur, lakin o d\u0259qiq\u0259 dizi \u00fcst\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcb yumru\u011fu il\u0259 stolu d\u00f6y\u0259cl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131r<\/i>) M\u0259n buna vadar oldum. Siz m\u0259cbur etdiniz… \u00d6lm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m!!! \u00d6lm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m! \u00d6lm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m!!! (stolu d\u00f6y\u0259cl\u0259m\u0259kd\u0259 davam edir<\/i>)<\/p>\n
Roz k\u00f6m\u0259ksiz halda onun ba\u015f\u0131 \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 dayan\u0131b n\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yini bilmir.<\/i><\/p>\n
O da m\u0259nim \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcm\u00fc ist\u0259yir. Siz ham\u0131n\u0131z bunu g\u00f6zl\u0259yirsiniz.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Yox, yox (\u00fcmidsiz<\/i>). Bizim \u0259n m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s amal\u0131m\u0131z onun s\u0259ad\u0259tidir…<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis.<\/b> \u018fg\u0259r o m\u0259ni t\u0259rk ets\u0259, a\u011fl\u0131m\u0131 itir\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m (l\u0259ng\u0259r vura-vura qalx\u0131r, Rozun ayaqlar\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr… \u0130steriya tutmas\u0131 ke\u00e7ib gedir. Yenid\u0259n stulda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fir<\/i>). Z\u0259hm\u0259t olmasa, bir az su verin.<\/p>\n
Roz tualet ota\u011f\u0131n\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131na sar\u0131 gedir. O, i\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259nd\u0259 missis Dennis c\u0259ld qalx\u0131r, stolun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu\u011fu \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr, a\u00e7\u0131b oradan \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 qab \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131r, qapa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 burub a\u00e7\u0131r, Roz g\u0259lir. Missis Dennis \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 qab\u0131 ovcunda s\u0131x\u0131r (su dolu st\u0259kan\u0131 al\u0131r).<\/i><\/p>\n
\u0130\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u0259 bil\u0259rsinizmi, \u0259zizim. Onsuz da ayd\u0131nl\u0131qd\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Roz elektrik a\u00e7ar\u0131na sar\u0131 gedir. Missis Dennis h\u0259bl\u0259ri ovcuna bo\u015fald\u0131r. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 yava\u015f-yava\u015f bo\u015fald\u0131r ki, Roz onlar\u0131 g\u00f6rs\u00fcn. Geri d\u00f6n\u0259n v\u0259 onun n\u0259 etdiyini g\u00f6r\u0259n Roz qad\u0131na t\u0259r\u0259f qa\u00e7\u0131r, dart\u0131b d\u0259rman \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259sini onun \u0259lind\u0259n al\u0131r v\u0259 k\u00fcnc\u0259 at\u0131r.<\/i><\/p>\n
Missis Dennis<\/b> (son d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 \u0259s\u0259bi<\/i>). Niy\u0259 bel\u0259 edirsiniz? Onsuz da ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131 tapaca\u011fam!<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> \u00d6z i\u015finizdir. Siz, sad\u0259c\u0259, m\u0259n\u0259 qara-qorxu g\u0259lirsiniz? (pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259 s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fan add\u0131m s\u0259sini e\u015fidib qap\u0131ya do\u011fru qa\u00e7\u0131r<\/i>).\u00a0 Aman Allah, bu ki Maykld\u0131r!<\/p>\n
Maykl g\u0259lir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Maykl!..<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b> (arvad\u0131na n\u0259z\u0259r salaraq<\/i>). Onun burda oldu\u011funu m\u0259n\u0259 dedil\u0259r.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b> (\u00fczg\u00fcn<\/i>). O \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Bo\u015f \u015feydir. K\u00f6hn\u0259lmi\u015f f\u0259nddir (arvad\u0131na<\/i>). B\u0259s s\u0259n bir daha artistlik etm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 s\u00f6z vermi\u015fdin. Ay\u0131b deyil, \u0259zizim?<\/p>\n
Missis Denis.<\/b> M\u0259n\u0259 “\u0259zizim” dem\u0259.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> S\u0259n \u0259zizs\u0259n. N\u0259y\u0259 layiqs\u0259n, o adla da \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131ram.<\/p>\n
Roz diqq\u0259tl\u0259 onlara bax\u0131r. O, \u0259zab \u00e7\u0259kir, \u00e7a\u015f\u0131b qal\u0131r. S\u0259n dey\u0259n ya\u015fa dolmay\u0131b ki, insanlar\u0131n bir-birl\u0259rini m\u00fcxt\u0259lif c\u00fcr sevdikl\u0259rini anlas\u0131n.<\/i><\/p>\n
Missis Dennis.<\/b> S\u0259n ki m\u0259ni t\u0259rk etm\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131rsan.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. B\u0259li.<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis.<\/b> G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n, \u00f6z\u00fcn d\u0259 etiraf edirs\u0259n. \u0130ndiy\u0259 kimi bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 olsun bunu m\u0259n\u0259 dem\u0259mis\u0259n.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> M\u0259n z\u0259if, irad\u0259siz olmu\u015fam. \u0130ndi is\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey sona yetdi. \u0130nsan q\u0259lbini duymaqda m\u0259ni m\u00fct\u0259x\u0259ssis hesab edirl\u0259r. Amma \u0259m\u0259li h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t etm\u0259k laz\u0131m g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 he\u00e7 m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 bunu ba\u015fqalar\u0131ndan yax\u015f\u0131 bacarm\u0131ram.<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis.<\/b> Maykl, ax\u0131 o s\u0259nl\u0259 m\u00fcqayis\u0259d\u0259 \u00e7ox g\u0259ncdir.<\/p>\n
Maykl <\/b>(a\u011fr\u0131 i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259<\/i>). M\u0259n art\u0131q onu qocaltm\u0131\u015fam.<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis.<\/b> B\u0259s m\u0259nim taleyim nec\u0259 olacaq, Maykl? T\u0259s\u0259lli tapma\u011fa u\u015fa\u011f\u0131m da yoxdur.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. H\u0259r \u015fey yax\u015f\u0131 olacaq. S\u0259nin dostlar\u0131n var. Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t ke\u00e7\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259\u2026 (\u00f6z g\u00fcnah\u0131n\u0131 hiss edib, dem\u0259k olar, onun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda g\u00fcnah\u0131n\u0131 yuma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r<\/i>)\u2026 V\u0259 h\u0259tta biz, b\u0259lk\u0259, g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bildik.<\/p>\n
Roz c\u0259ld \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yana \u00e7evirir. Art\u0131q onlar\u0131 birlikd\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259k iqtidar\u0131nda deyil.<\/i><\/p>\n
Onlar q\u0131za do\u011fma \u0259r-arvad t\u0259siri ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131rlar.<\/i><\/p>\n
Missis Dennis.<\/b> \u00c7\u0131x\u0131b gets\u0259n, qula\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ard\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 m\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u0259rs\u0259n. Harada oldu\u011fumu, ba\u015f\u0131ma haran\u0131n k\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00fcn t\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc, x\u0259st\u0259mi, ya da ki, sa\u011flam oldu\u011fumu bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. G\u0259lib g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 imkan verm\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> S\u0259nin yenid\u0259n xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik tapma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilirs\u0259n n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r arzulay\u0131ram? Bizim birlikd\u0259 b\u0259xtiyar g\u00fcnl\u0259rimiz olmay\u0131b. M\u0259nim\u00ad\u00e7in bu cans\u0131x\u0131c\u0131 h\u0259yat Rozla tan\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fum g\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r davam edib.<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis.<\/b> Xo\u015fb\u0259xtilkd\u0259n yaman d\u0259m vurursan. B\u0259li, tale m\u0259nim \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131b. Bu ne\u00e7\u0259 ild\u0259\u00a0\u00a0 m\u0259ni axtar\u0131b-aramayan s\u0259ad\u0259t t\u0259nhal\u0131qdam\u0131, s\u0259nsizl\u0259\u015f\u0259n g\u00fcnl\u0259rimd\u0259mi m\u0259ni tapacaq? Bel\u0259 z\u0259nn edirs\u0259n? Ancaq m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 t\u0259kc\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt olmaqda deyil. S\u0259n \u00f6z m\u00fchazir\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt k\u0259sl\u0259rl\u0259 tez-tez rastla\u015f\u0131rsan. M\u0259n yalq\u0131z qalmaq ist\u0259mir\u0259m, Maykl. T\u0259nhal\u0131qdan qorxuram. Maykl, Allah xatirin\u0259\u2026 Hm\u2026 Az qala Allaha inanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 unutmu\u015fdum. O is\u0259 (\u0259li il\u0259 Rozu g\u00f6st\u0259rir<\/i>) inan\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b> (d\u00f6z\u0259 bilmir, yenid\u0259n onlara sar\u0131 \u00e7evrilir v\u0259 m\u00fcbariz\u0259 meydan\u0131na at\u0131l\u0131r<\/i>). Dayan\u0131n, xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, dayan\u0131n. Siz ki ucunu tutub ucuzlu\u011fa gedirsiniz.<\/p>\n
Maykl v\u0259 missis Dennis Roza bax\u0131rlar. \u0130ndi o, burada yad adam t\u0259siri ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131r.<\/i><\/p>\n
(gah birini gah da dig\u0259rin\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r sal\u0131r<\/i>). Biz bir-birimizi sevirik, missis Dennis. Bax, bel\u0259c\u0259, \u00e7ox sad\u0259c\u0259. Bu, adi hald\u0131r. H\u0259r g\u00fcn y\u00fczl\u0259rl\u0259 bel\u0259 hadis\u0259l\u0259r ba\u015f verir. Ham\u0131 sevir. H\u0259r g\u00fcn yeni sev\u0259nl\u0259r meydna at\u0131l\u0131r. Q\u0259zet oxumursunuz m\u0259g\u0259r?!\u00a0\u00a0 X\u0259b\u0259rsiz olmazs\u0131n\u0131z. H\u0259r ay y\u00fczl\u0259rl\u0259 bo\u015fanma olur.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. H\u0259r ay y\u00fczl\u0259rl\u0259 b\u0259db\u0259xtlik.<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>\u018fzizim, s\u0259n ki, b\u0259db\u0259xt olma\u011fa haz\u0131rla\u015fm\u0131rsan. Ax\u0131 onunla qalm\u0131rsan. M\u0259niml\u0259 ya\u015famaq, \u00f6m\u00fcr s\u00fcrm\u0259k ist\u0259yirs\u0259n. Biz xo\u015fb\u0259xt olaca\u011f\u0131q.<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis. <\/b>G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n, o, \u0259zab \u00e7\u0259kmir.<\/p>\n
Maykl <\/b>(ona sar\u0131 \u00e7evrilib ac\u0131qla<\/i>). Bu bar\u0259d\u0259 o, ucadan ba\u011f\u0131rm\u0131r. He\u00e7 n\u0259d\u0259n tapan\u00e7a kimi a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131r\u2026 V\u0259ssalam (sakitc\u0259<\/i>) Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, m\u0259n d\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131ram. Bizim ham\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259ri korlan\u0131b.<\/p>\n
Missis Dennis.<\/b> Daha bundan bel\u0259 \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259\u015fm\u0259li olmayacaqsan (aya\u011fa qalx\u0131r<\/i>). Get ev\u0259 (\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fcz\u0259ldir<\/i>). M\u0259n s\u0259nin g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k evini n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259 tuturam. \u015eeyl\u0259rini y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131ra bil\u0259rs\u0259n. M\u0259n orada olmaya\u00adca\u00ad\u011fam (qap\u0131ya do\u011fru gedir<\/i>). Bu g\u00fcn orda gec\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n. Evd\u0259 olmayaca\u011fam (\u00e7\u0131x\u0131r<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Roz \u0259lini Maykla uzad\u0131r. O is\u0259 bunu g\u00f6rm\u00fcr. Qap\u0131ya bax\u0131r.<\/i><\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b> (\u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259<\/i>). Onun \u0259lind\u0259n n\u0259 x\u0259ta des\u0259n, \u00e7\u0131xar (ota\u011f\u0131 t\u0259rk edir, arvad\u0131n\u0131 haraylay\u0131r, \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 biz onun ad\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fidirik<\/i>). Marion! Marion!<\/p>\n
H\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259li uzan\u0131ql\u0131 qalan Roz qulaq as\u0131r. Bird\u0259n \u0259li yan\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr.<\/i><\/p>\n
(Bay\u0131rdan<\/i>) Marion! (asta add\u0131mlarla ota\u011fa qay\u0131d\u0131r, \u00f6z al\u0259min\u0259 qap\u0131l\u0131r<\/i>). He\u00e7 n\u0259 etm\u0259z! \u0130nsanlar qorxunc intiharlarla \u00f6zl\u0259rini m\u0259hv etmirl\u0259r!<\/p>\n
Pauza.<\/i><\/p>\n
El\u0259dir?<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. B\u0259li\u2026 Biz n\u0259 etm\u0259k niyy\u0259tind\u0259yik, Maykl?<\/p>\n
O q\u0131z\u0131 e\u015fitmir, onun bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 qap\u0131ya zill\u0259nib.<\/i><\/p>\n
Maykl! Maykl! Biz n\u0259 etm\u0259liyik?<\/p>\n
Maykl <\/b>(\u00fcmidsiz bir q\u00fcss\u0259 il\u0259<\/i>). Bizmi? Xo\u015fb\u0259xt olma\u011fa haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131r\u0131q.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. S\u0259n d\u0259.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259\u2026 S\u0259ninl\u0259 birg\u0259. Buna q\u00fcvv\u0259miz \u00e7atar (ac\u0131 t\u0259n\u0259 il\u0259 \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259<\/i>). Ax\u0131 \u00f6zg\u0259nin b\u0259db\u0259xtliyin\u0259 d\u00f6zm\u0259y\u0259 n\u0259 var? Buna ba\u015fqalar\u0131ndan daha yax\u015f\u0131 m\u0259n b\u0259l\u0259d\u0259m. S\u0259n\u0259timl\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259dar bu v\u0259zif\u0259 m\u0259nim boynuma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Siz\u0259 n\u0259 olub? Bir t\u0259h\u0259rsiniz, b\u0259lk\u0259, \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259yimizi ona bildirdiyn \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dilxorsan?<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Getm\u0259yimizi ona m\u0259n bildirdim? H\u0259\u2026\u0259\u2026 Az qala unutmu\u015fdum. O m\u0259ni haldan \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. B\u0259s getm\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131rla\u015fm\u0131rsan?<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. Biz ki \u00e7oxdan \u015f\u0259rtl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fik. Xalan sa\u011falan kimi \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b ged\u0259c\u0259yik.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> O, sap-sa\u011flamd\u0131r. M\u0259n art\u0131q azadam.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b> (astadan<\/i>). El\u0259 is\u0259\u2026 H\u0259\u2026 el\u0259 is\u0259, \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259\u2026 ged\u0259 bil\u0259rik.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> N\u0259 vaxt? Bu g\u00fcn, sabah?<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. (t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcd ed\u0259r\u0259k<\/i>). Sabah yox, o biri g\u00fcn. M\u0259n onunla \u00fczl\u00fc\u015fm\u0259liy\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. Onu bu q\u0259d\u0259r sevm\u0259yini ist\u0259m\u0259zdim.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Q\u0131sqanma, \u0259zizim. Laz\u0131m deyil.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Q\u0131sqanm\u0131ram. Sad\u0259c\u0259, s\u0259nin\u00a0 \u0259zab \u00e7\u0259km\u0259yin\u0259 d\u00f6z\u0259 bilmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> \u015eeyl\u0259rini y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u2026 Sabah yox, o biri g\u00fcn (onu \u00f6p\u00fcr, qap\u0131ya sar\u0131 y\u00f6n\u0259lir<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> (h\u0259y\u0259canl\u0131. N\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yini bilmir. M\u0259kt\u0259bli q\u0131z sad\u0259l\u00f6vhl\u00fcy\u00fc il\u0259<\/i>). A lientot<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> (arvad\u0131 haqda fikir onu t\u0259rk etmir<\/i>). O haraya getmi\u015f olar? Onun s\u0259n dey\u0259n \u00e7ox r\u0259fiq\u0259si d\u0259 yoxdur (gedir<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Onun ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 s\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n sonra Roz \u0259li il\u0259 a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 qapay\u0131r. Bir an pill\u0259k\u0259nd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n ayaq s\u0259s\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 qulaq as\u0131b q\u00fcss\u0259li halda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fir. H\u00f6nk\u00fcrm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259lini b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk a\u011fz\u0131na s\u0131x\u0131r. Helenin s\u0259si v\u0259 kreslo t\u0259k\u0259rl\u0259rinin c\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 onu aya\u011fa qalxma\u011fa m\u0259cbur edir. Helen kresloda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fmi\u015f qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259tirir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> N\u0259 vaxt gedirs\u0259n?\u2026 \u00d6yr\u0259nm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Sabah yox, birisi g\u00fcn (onun cavab\u0131 el\u0259 z\u0259if s\u0259sl\u0259nir ki, sanki o \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 buna inanm\u0131r<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b> (qarda\u015f\u0131na<\/i>). Terezaya kitab oxuma\u011f\u0131 v\u0259d etmis\u0259n. Unutma ha\u2026<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Yad\u0131mdad\u0131r. S\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn b\u0259zi \u015feyl\u0259ri unutmusan.<\/p>\n
Bir anl\u0131q t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcdd\u0259n sonra Helen Roza yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131r v\u0259 onun yana\u011f\u0131ndan \u00f6p\u00fcr. Helen gedir. Roz \u0259lini yana\u011f\u0131na apar\u0131r, onun \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 yana\u011f\u0131nda hiss edir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Uzun pauza.<\/i><\/p>\n
Bir \u015fey\u0259 ehtiyac var?<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> (dem\u0259k olar ki \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259<\/i>). Ona dedim ki, m\u0259ni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259cbur etm\u0259sin. M\u0259n ona x\u0259b\u0259rdarl\u0131q etmi\u015fdim.<\/p>\n
Braun ata sakitc\u0259 kreslosunda b\u00fcz\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb dill\u0259nmir.<\/i><\/p>\n
\u018fg\u0259r o g\u00fcn \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b gets\u0259ydik, xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik tapard\u0131q. M\u0259ni fikir\u00adl\u0259\u015f\u00adm\u0259y\u0259 vadar etm\u0259s\u0259l\u0259r, he\u00e7 n\u0259 bar\u0259sind\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259r\u0259m. Bir d\u0259 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m adamlar haqq\u0131nda fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259k n\u0259yim\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131r? Onun sad\u0259c\u0259 ad\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitmi\u015fdim. V\u0259ssalam. O is\u0259 \u00f6z aya\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 g\u0259lib buraya \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Yumru\u011fu il\u0259 stolu d\u00f6y\u0259cl\u0259di, kresloda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn qoras\u0131n\u0131 t\u00f6kd\u00fc. M\u0259n onlar\u0131 bir yerd\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Onlar \u0259r-arvad\u0131rlar, day\u0131! M\u0259n he\u00e7 v\u0259d\u0259 bu h\u0259qiq\u0259t bar\u0259d\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259mi\u015fdim. Do\u011frudur, Maykl evli oldu\u011funu m\u0259n\u0259 demi\u015fdi. Amma onlar\u0131 bir yerd\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdim. Lap kitablarda yaz\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi. Bu g\u00fcn is\u0259 onlar\u0131 bir yerd\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Day\u0131, m\u0259n\u0259 yol g\u00f6st\u0259rin (onun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr<\/i>). Deyin, m\u0259n n\u0259 edim, ata?<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> S\u0259n ata dem\u0259kl\u0259 a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131 qapay\u0131r, m\u0259ni zal\u0131m olma\u011fa vadar edirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> \u0130st\u0259yir\u0259m m\u0259n\u0259 yol g\u00f6st\u0259rib, “bel\u0259 et”, “el\u0259 et” desinl\u0259r. \u0130st\u0259yir\u0259m, kims\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 “bura g\u0259l”, “ora get” desin. M\u0259n beynimi yormaq ist\u0259mir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> \u018fg\u0259r m\u0259n onu “t\u0259rk et” des\u0259m?<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. Buna d\u00f6zm\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Madam ki, bel\u0259 z\u0259ifs\u0259n, yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131 budur, onunla \u00e7\u0131x get.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Onun arvad\u0131n\u0131n iztirab\u0131na d\u00f6z\u0259 bilmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> S\u0259n lap u\u015faqsan. Lakin u\u015faq olsan da, i\u015ftahan b\u00f6y\u00fckd\u00fcr. Bird\u0259f\u0259lik ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259lis\u0259n ki, ya \u015f\u0259xsi s\u0259ad\u0259tind\u0259n vaz ke\u00e7m\u0259lis\u0259n, ya da \u00f6zg\u0259nin iztirablar\u0131na g\u00f6z yummal\u0131san. Kims\u0259 \u0259zab \u00e7\u0259km\u0259lidir. Ba\u015fqa yol yoxdur.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Yer \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt insanlar says\u0131z-hesabs\u0131zd\u0131r, h\u0259yat adl\u0131 yolu birg\u0259 ged\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259r d\u0259 \u00e7oxdur. Bel\u0259l\u0259ri xo\u015f g\u00fcnl\u0259rin birind\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrl\u0259r ki, onlar bir-birl\u0259rind\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc yaranmam\u0131\u015flar. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 ayr\u0131l\u0131rlar\u2026 Bu bar\u0259d\u0259 bilirsiniz n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r oxumu\u015fam.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> M\u0259n d\u0259 oxumu\u015fam. Sehrli na\u011f\u0131llar da \u00e7ox zaman “H\u0259min vaxtdan etibar\u0259n onlar \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u0259rinin ax\u0131r\u0131na q\u0259d\u0259r xo\u015fb\u0259xt h\u0259yat s\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r” s\u00f6zl\u0259ri il\u0259 qurtar\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>Dem\u0259li, bel\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fcr.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Axmaqlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, b\u0259li! \u018fzizim, sizin he\u00e7 biriniz a\u011f\u0131ls\u0131z deyilsiniz. Maykl insan arzusunun t\u0259hlili il\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olur. S\u0259nin g\u00fcnah\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 ayd\u0131n oldu\u011fu kimi, onun da \u015f\u0259xsi eqoizmi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 b\u0259llidir. Psixoloq v\u0259 katolik\u2026 Siz \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc Riqel-Kortda sutkada iki saatdan \u00e7ox aldada bilm\u0259zsiniz.<\/p>\n
Roz. <\/b>M\u0259n buna qadir\u0259m. Qadir.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Onda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc h\u0259yat\u0131n boyu aldatm\u0131\u015f olarsan. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, bayaqki isteriya tutmas\u0131 uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t yad\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xmayacaq. Qad\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6z \u0259rin\u0259 \u00fcmid b\u0259sl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 haqq\u0131 var.<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b> (sin\u0259sind\u0259n inilti qopur<\/i>). Ah\u2026<\/p>\n
Qap\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r, Tereza daxil olur. O, xalatdad\u0131r. Roz \u0259lil\u0259 a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 tutub n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259ril\u0259 onu izl\u0259yir. Tereza onlara fikir verm\u0259d\u0259n tualet ota\u011f\u0131na girir. Qap\u0131 onun arxas\u0131nca \u00f6rt\u00fcl\u0259rk\u0259n Roz h\u00f6nk\u00fcr\u00fcb ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 Ceymsin dizl\u0259ri \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 qoyur, Ceyms onun sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 tumarlay\u0131b sakitl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r.<\/i><\/p>\n
(ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131r<\/i>). Bu, d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tdir! D\u0259h\u015f\u0259t! D\u0259h\u015f\u0259t!<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Ondak\u0131 q\u0259rib\u0259liyi adi hal kimi q\u0259bul ed\u0259c\u0259yini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm. S\u0259n is\u0259 h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 t\u0259sirl\u0259nirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> M\u0259n daha da burada \u2013 onlar\u0131n \u0259hat\u0259sind\u0259 ya\u015faya bilm\u0259r\u0259m! G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz, n\u0259 oyunlardan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rlar? M\u0259n he\u00e7 k\u0259sin he\u00e7 zaman \u00f6lm\u0259diyi otaqda yatmaram! Day\u0131, yalvar\u0131ram! M\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259yi buyurun! M\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259k h\u00fcququ verdiyinizi s\u00f6yl\u0259yin! Katolizmd\u0259n s\u00f6z a\u00e7may\u0131n. M\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k edin! Yalvar\u0131ram! K\u00f6m\u0259k edin!<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. S\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k etm\u0259k m\u0259nim borcumdur. \u0130st\u0259yir\u0259m dad\u0131na yet\u0259m. \u00d6z h\u0259yat\u0131m bahas\u0131na olsa bel\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131l\u0131q etm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Ancaq a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131 a\u00e7an kimi dilim d\u0259y\u0259ri bir q\u0259piy\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259z dini katexizisin\u00a0 a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fck\u00fc alt\u0131nda lal olur.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> Dem\u0259li, m\u0259n\u0259 he\u00e7 bir \u00fcmid ver\u0259 bilm\u0259zsiniz?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. \u00dcmidimi? Bu, ba\u015fqa m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259. \u00dcmid h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 var.<\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> N\u0259y\u0259?<\/p>\n
CEYMS. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 al\u0131b onu unut.<\/i><\/p>\n
Roz c\u0259ld\u00a0 aya\u011fa s\u0131\u00e7ray\u0131b ondan aralan\u0131r<\/i>.<\/p>\n
(s\u00f6zl\u0259r \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 a\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r. \u00c7eyn\u0259nmi\u015f ifad\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n savay\u0131 s\u00f6z tapa bilmir<\/i>). \u018fzizim, kils\u0259y\u0259 get. Xeyir-b\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t ordad\u0131r. D\u0259rdin\u0259 \u0259lac taparsan. \u018flin\u0259 t\u0259sbeh al. T\u0259sbehin var? M\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s M\u0259ry\u0259min ayaqlar\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u2026 Dua et\u2026<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. (nifr\u0259t v\u0259 \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259 il\u0259<\/i>). Dua edim?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Roz,\u2026 xahi\u015f edir\u0259m\u2026 (q\u0131z\u0131n ver\u0259c\u0259yi cavab onu qorxutdu\u011fundan \u0259zabla laz\u0131mi s\u00f6zl\u0259r axtar\u0131r, lakin yen\u0259 d\u0259 tapa bilmir<\/i>). Bir az g\u00f6zl\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n
Roz<\/b>. Dediniz onunla gets\u0259m, o, \u00f6mr\u00fc boyu b\u0259db\u0259xt olacaq. B\u0259s burada qalsam? N\u0259y\u0259 nail olaca\u011fam? Bu ayaqyolundan, canl\u0131lar ya\u015fayan yegan\u0259 otaqdan savay\u0131 he\u00e7 n\u0259yim olmayacaq. Deyirsiz, \u0259limi Allah\u0131n \u0259t\u0259yind\u0259n \u00fczm\u0259yim. H\u0259l\u0259 \u00fcmid var, dua edim. Ax\u0131 kim\u0259? Siz m\u0259n\u0259 Allah haqq\u0131nda, onun m\u00f6min b\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259ri haqq\u0131nda dan\u0131\u015fmay\u0131n! M\u0259n sizi ayaqdan m\u0259hrum ed\u0259n, m\u0259ni is\u0259 Maykldan m\u0259hrum etm\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259n Allah\u0131n\u0131za inanm\u0131ram. M\u0259n sizin kils\u0259y\u0259 v\u0259 Allah\u0131n anas\u0131 m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s M\u0259ry\u0259m\u0259 inanm\u0131ram. \u0130nanm\u0131ram! \u0130nanm\u0131ram! Z\u0259rr\u0259c\u0259 inam\u0131m yoxdur!<\/p>\n
Ceyms \u0259lini ona uzad\u0131r. Roz yana \u00e7\u0259kilir. Helen g\u0259lir, soyuq n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rl\u0259 bu m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259ni seyr edir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. Nahar vaxt\u0131d\u0131r (Ceyms\u0259<\/i>). Tereza s\u0259ni \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r, m\u0259ns\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259lik burada s\u00fcfr\u0259 sal\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Olmaz bu g\u00fcn ba\u015fqa otaqda nahar ed\u0259k?<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> S\u0259n ki ba\u015fqa otaq olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6z\u0259l bilirs\u0259n (kresloya yax\u0131n g\u0259lib onu qap\u0131ya do\u011fru s\u00fcr\u00fcr<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Ceyms daha m\u00fcqavim\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259rmir. O, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn qocal\u0131\u011f\u0131, x\u0259st\u0259 g\u00f6rk\u0259mi il\u0259 bar\u0131\u015f\u0131r.<\/i><\/p>\n
Helen<\/b> (Roza<\/i>). Stolun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 s\u00fcfr\u0259 sal. Bu saat qay\u0131d\u0131b s\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Helen Ceymsi apar\u0131r.<\/i><\/p>\n
Roz.<\/b> (t\u0259nha<\/i>) \u0130nanm\u0131ram! \u0130nanm\u0131ram! (\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc unutmu\u015f halda otaqda g\u0259zinir. \u015e\u00fc\u015f\u0259 qab g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 sata\u015f\u0131r. Diz \u00fcst\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcb onu qald\u0131r\u0131r. Sonra \u00fcmidsiz halda tualet ota\u011f\u0131n\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131na do\u011fru gedir v\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r<\/i>). Tereza xala! \u018fziz Tereza xala!<\/p>\n
Tualet ota\u011f\u0131n\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r. Tereza \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, ad\u0259ti \u00fczr\u0259 Roza<\/i><\/p>\n
\u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259t verm\u0259d\u0259n ota\u011f\u0131 dola\u015f\u0131r.<\/i><\/p>\n
Tereza xala, xahi\u015f edir\u0259m!<\/p>\n
Bir anl\u0131\u011fa adama el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, qoca, x\u0259rifl\u0259mi\u015f idrak bu \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131\u015fa, haya s\u0259s ver\u0259c\u0259k. Tereza arxa \u00e7evrilir. Sonra yenid\u0259n qap\u0131ya sar\u0131 gedir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Allah xatirin\u0259, m\u0259niml\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f, Tereza xala! Bu m\u0259n\u0259m, Rozam\u2026<\/p>\n
Tereza \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, ard\u0131nca qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rt\u00fcr.<\/i><\/p>\n
(\u00dcmidsiz halda tualet ota\u011f\u0131n\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 meydan\u00e7aya d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr<\/i>). Do\u011frudanm\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 he\u00e7 kim k\u00f6m\u0259k etm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k? (\u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 qabdak\u0131 h\u0259bl\u0259ri bo\u015faltma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131r. Ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 bo\u015faltd\u0131qdan sonra, dua \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn c\u0259hd g\u00f6st\u0259rir, lakin duan\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259rini yad\u0131na sala bilmir<\/i>). Bizim atam\u0131z\u2026 s\u0259n\u2026 siz\u2026siz\u2026 (bird\u0259n u\u015faq kimi tamamil\u0259 \u015f\u00fcursuz t\u0259ll\u0259ff\u00fcz etdiyi s\u00f6zl\u0259rin \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259tin\u0259 varmadan ovcunun i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259ki h\u0259bl\u0259r\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r salaraq dua etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131r<\/i>). Ya r\u0259bb! Anam\u0131, day\u0259mi, bac\u0131m Mariya-Luizan\u0131 hifz et v\u0259 g\u00fcnah\u0131mdan ke\u00e7! Yalvar\u0131ram, el\u0259 et ki, bir daha m\u0259rasiml\u0259r olmas\u0131n.<\/p>\n
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Yataq ota\u011f\u0131. Ert\u0259si g\u00fcn. Yor\u011fan-d\u00f6\u015f\u0259k d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259d\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcb qal\u0131b. Ceyms ata \u00f6z kreslosunda oturub. Maykl (arxas\u0131 ona sar\u0131) p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n bax\u0131r. Meri kreslonu qap\u0131ya sar\u0131 apar\u0131r<\/i>.<\/p>\n
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Meri<\/b> (n\u0259f\u0259sini d\u0259rir<\/i>). Evd\u0259 s\u0259liq\u0259-sahman yaratma\u011f\u0131n vaxt\u0131 \u00e7oxdan \u00e7at\u0131b. \u0130caz\u0259 vers\u0259ydiniz, m\u0259nzil\u0259 \u0259l g\u0259zdir\u0259rdim. Bayaq bunlar\u0131 miss Helen\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 \u00e7\u0131mx\u0131rd\u0131: “S\u0259n\u0259 m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 yox, g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn i\u015fl\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 pul verilir” dedi.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. \u0130st\u0259yirs\u0259n, deyim, s\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k etsinl\u0259r.<\/p>\n
Meri.<\/b> D\u0259ym\u0259z, ser. Qoyun h\u0259r k\u0259s \u00f6z i\u015fi il\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olsun. Bel\u0259 olan t\u0259qdird\u0259 g\u00fcnaha daha az batar\u0131q (kreslonu qap\u0131ya kimi g\u0259tirir, sonra geri d\u00f6n\u0259r\u0259k Ceyms\u0259<\/i>). Bayaq s\u0259hv etdim. G\u0259r\u0259k miss Helen\u0259 tutarl\u0131 cavab ver\u0259ydim: “Miss Helen, siz haql\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z” dey\u0259ydim. “Ancaq m\u0259n he\u00e7 d\u0259 m\u0259sum v\u0259 bi\u00e7ar\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131 pusmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn deyil, evd\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm i\u015fl\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 z\u0259hm\u0259t haqq\u0131 al\u0131ram!”. Az qala d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259kl\u0259r yad\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 (d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259kl\u0259ri kreslonun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131r)<\/i>. G\u00f6r n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r bo\u015f yer var. Sizc\u0259, bo\u015f sand\u0131qlar\u0131n burada qalmas\u0131na etiraz etm\u0259zl\u0259r? Bundan bel\u0259 yem\u0259yi harada yey\u0259c\u0259ksiniz? Ay\u0131bd\u0131r, vallah. Bu boyda imar\u0259td\u0259 bir d\u0259n\u0259 f\u0259rli-ba\u015fl\u0131 qonaq ota\u011f\u0131 tap\u0131lm\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Helen g\u0259lir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. Buralarda yaman \u00e7ox vaxt itirirs\u0259n, Meri.<\/p>\n
Maykl p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n aralan\u0131r.<\/i><\/p>\n
(Maykl\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb<\/i>). Sizin burada oldu\u011funuzu bilm\u0259dim, c\u0259nab Dennis.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. X\u0259yala d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 yoluxma\u011fa g\u0259ldim. Siz Allah, bir bax\u0131n. Onun \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc bar\u0259d\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r verm\u0259y\u0259 qabiliyy\u0259tiniz \u00e7atmay\u0131b.<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> S\u0259n bizim ail\u0259nin \u00fczv\u00fc deyils\u0259n (stullardan birini g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> \u00d6l\u00fcmd\u0259n qorxan insan \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn siz kifay\u0259t q\u0259d\u0259r m\u00fcsib\u0259t t\u00f6r\u0259tmisiniz.<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b> (ona m\u0259h\u0259l qoymur<\/i>). Ceyms, \u0259g\u0259r Terezan\u0131n ota\u011f\u0131ndan yataq ota\u011f\u0131 kimi istifad\u0259 ets\u0259k, ota\u011f\u0131m\u0131z kifay\u0259t q\u0259d\u0259r geni\u015fl\u0259n\u0259r. S\u0259ni ba\u015fqa yer\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcrm\u0259k laz\u0131m g\u0259lm\u0259z.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> Bu g\u00fcn harada yataca\u011f\u0131m m\u0259ni maraqland\u0131rm\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>H\u0259yatsa davam etm\u0259lidir, Ceyms. \u018fg\u0259r qad\u0131n olsayd\u0131n, bunu daha ayd\u0131n ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259rdin.<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>Roz da qad\u0131n idi. G\u0259nc, m\u0259sum. \u00d6l\u00fcm onun qoynuna \u00e7ox erk\u0259n girdi. Al yanaqlar\u0131n\u0131, q\u00f6n\u00e7\u0259 dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131 vaxts\u0131z soldurdu<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b> (yen\u0259 stul qoyur<\/i>). M\u0259ni niy\u0259 ittiham edirs\u0259n? G\u00fcnahkar sa\u00ady\u0131la bilin\u0259c\u0259k adam s\u0259ns\u0259n. Onun vicdan\u0131n\u0131 s\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcn, namu\u00adsu\u00adnu l\u0259k\u0259l\u0259din. N\u0259tic\u0259d\u0259 o, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259sd etdi. \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fc \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 r\u0259va bildi.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b> (ittiham ed\u0259r\u0259k<\/i>). \u018fg\u0259r m\u0259nim arvad\u0131m\u0131 dart\u0131b buraya g\u0259tirm\u0259s\u0259ydiniz, o, intihar etm\u0259zdi.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. \u018fg\u0259r p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259, qatar, k\u00f6rp\u00fc\u2026 olsayd\u0131\u2026 siz dey\u0259n idi. \u0130ndi m\u00fcq\u0259ssiri axtarma\u011f\u0131n m\u0259nas\u0131 varm\u0131? Bunun ona k\u00f6m\u0259yi d\u0259\u00ady\u0259\u00adc\u0259k? (Maykla<\/i>). A\u015fna, dey\u0259s\u0259n, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc bu i\u015fd\u0259 t\u0259qsirli hesab etmirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> Kimin g\u00fcnahkar olmas\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00fcn kimi b\u0259llidir.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b> (\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r<\/i>).\u00a0 \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, siz\u0259 b\u0259lli olar. \u018fg\u0259r \u00f6z \u00e7irkin v\u0259 x\u0259bis \u00fcr\u0259yiniz\u0259 bir balaca n\u0259z\u0259r salsan\u0131z, bu d\u0259qiq\u0259 m\u00fcq\u0259ssirin ad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259rsiniz.<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> M\u0259nc\u0259, Freyd m\u00fcq\u0259ssirlik, g\u00fcnahkarl\u0131q kimi bir anlay\u0131\u015f\u0131n m\u00f6vcudlu\u011funu inkar edir.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> Allah xatirin\u0259, psixologiyadan bu g\u00fcn birc\u0259 k\u0259lm\u0259 d\u0259 s\u00f6z salmay\u0131n. Psixologiya da onun k\u00f6m\u0259yin\u0259 yetm\u0259di. B\u00fct\u00fcn bu kitablar, b\u0259rli-b\u0259z\u0259kli s\u0259tirl\u0259r, m\u00fchazir\u0259l\u0259r, r\u00f6yalar\u0131n t\u0259hlili\u2026 dem\u0259 bo\u015f \u015feyl\u0259rmi\u015f. \u015eeytan cildin\u0259 girmi\u015f \u00f6l\u00fcm toxumlar\u0131 imi\u015f. D\u00fcz demir\u0259m? M\u0259n bir psixoloq kimi insan q\u0259lbini yax\u015fq\u0131 oxuyurdum. N\u0259 olsun, bir \u015fey\u0259 m\u00fcv\u0259ff\u0259q ola bildim? (\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yana \u00e7evirir<\/i>). O burada d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259d\u0259 uzanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. H\u0259tta bizim \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259rimiz d\u0259 m\u00fcq\u0259ssir olma\u011f\u0131m\u0131za \u015f\u0259had\u0259t ver\u0259r.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. M\u00fcq\u0259ssirsiniz, buna varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259min\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>M\u0259n \u2013 z\u0259rr\u0259c\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. El\u0259 is\u0259 n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bu otaqda yatm\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z? G\u00fcnahkar de\u00adyil\u00adsiniz? Dem\u0259k, h\u0259r \u015fey \u00f6z qaydas\u0131ndad\u0131r. El\u0259 is\u0259 n\u0259d\u0259n qorxur\u00adsunuz?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Helen, do\u011frudan da, n\u0259d\u0259n qorxuruq?<\/p>\n
Helen <\/b>(vahim\u0259li<\/i>). Biz ki \u015f\u0259rtl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdik. S\u0259n ki x\u0259b\u0259rdarsan…<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>\u015e\u0259rtl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdiniz?<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b>. Terezan\u0131 vahim\u0259y\u0259 salmaq olmaz. O \u00e7ox qocad\u0131r. El\u0259 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli anlar\u0131 olur ki… Onun irad\u0259si ziddin\u0259 getm\u0259k yaramaz. M\u0259n he\u00e7 n\u0259d\u0259n qorxmuram, Tereza is\u0259…<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Dem\u0259li, s\u0259b\u0259bkar odur?<\/p>\n
Helen. <\/b>H\u0259, odur. Bu otaqda he\u00e7 kim yatmamal\u0131d\u0131r, Ceyms.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. M\u0259n d\u0259?<\/p>\n
Helen<\/b> (d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tl\u0259<\/i>). Ax\u0131 h\u0259r \u015fey art\u0131q h\u0259ll olunub, qurtar\u0131b, Ceyms. Terezan\u0131n yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131 otaq h\u0259m d\u0259 qonaq ota\u011f\u0131 olacaq. \u0130ndi Meri oran\u0131 qaydaya sal\u0131r. Ceyms, s\u0259n ki onun rahat v\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck otaq oldu\u011fundan x\u0259b\u0259rdarsan (stulu \u00e7\u0259kib qap\u0131n\u0131n arxas\u0131na apar\u0131r, qay\u0131d\u0131r<\/i>). Bu ota\u011f\u0131 is\u0259 indi q\u0131f\u0131llamal\u0131y\u0131q.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Bizi yalq\u0131z burax. \u00d6z i\u015finl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful ol, Helen.<\/p>\n
Helen t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcd edir, Maykla bax\u0131r.<\/i><\/p>\n
Bir az burda oturmaqla d\u00fcnya da\u011f\u0131lmaz.<\/p>\n
Helen dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa c\u0259hd g\u00f6st\u0259rir, lakin n\u0259 is\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fir, stulu qap\u0131b gedir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Pauza.<\/i><\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>Rozla m\u0259n… Daha do\u011frusu, a\u015fiql\u0259 onun t\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259siz m\u0259\u015fuq\u0259si bu ota\u011fa \u00fc\u00e7 h\u0259ft\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259l g\u0259lmi\u015fdik (\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 haqq qazand\u0131r\u00admaq ist\u0259yir<\/i>). H\u0259min\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 g\u00fcn, bilirsiniz, o nec\u0259 d\u0259 \u015fad v\u0259 xuraman idi. Onun sevinci a\u015f\u0131b da\u015f\u0131r, \u00fcz\u00fc f\u0259r\u0259hd\u0259n g\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>O \u00e7ox s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 ya\u015fa doldu, kamala yetdi.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. Ke\u00e7\u0259n gec\u0259 Roz sizinl\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t etdi?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. B\u0259li.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. Ax\u0131 n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bel\u0259 etdi?<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>\u0130ztirablar daim onu h\u0259d\u0259l\u0259yirdi. Sizin, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn, arvad\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n iztirablar\u0131 gec\u0259li-g\u00fcn\u00fcd\u00fczl\u00fc onu t\u0259qib edirdi.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. Bir az \u0259vv\u0259l arvad\u0131m buraya \u2013 m\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259ng vurmu\u015fdu. “X\u0259b\u0259r qu\u015f qanadl\u0131 olur” deyibl\u0259r. Haradansa \u00f6yr\u0259nib. D\u0259rin h\u00fcznl\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259ndiyini x\u0259b\u0259r verirdi.<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>Fikrin n\u0259dir?<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>Onunla ya\u015famaqda davam ed\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. \u018fg\u0259r bunu h\u0259yat adland\u0131rmaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fcrs\u0259. Q\u0259rib\u0259 m\u0259ntiqdir. M\u0259ni psixoloq hesab edirl\u0259r. M\u0259n is\u0259 iki insan \u00fcr\u0259yi q\u0131rm\u0131\u015fam.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Psixologiya s\u0259n\u0259 insanlar\u0131n q\u0259lbind\u0259n ba\u015f \u00e7\u0131xarma\u011f\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259d\u0259 bil\u0259r. Sevm\u0259yi is\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259tmir.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. M\u0259n ki onu sevirdim.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. X\u0259b\u0259rim var. Onu el\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259 sevirdim. Ancaq bizim he\u00e7 birimiz \u2013 n\u0259 s\u0259n, n\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259n onu h\u0259qiqi m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tl\u0259 sevm\u0259yib. B\u0259lk\u0259 \u00f6vliyalar… Yox, he\u00e7 onlara da inanm\u0131ram. D\u00fcn\u0259n ax\u015fam Allah sevimli balama, k\u00f6rp\u0259 quzuma \u00fcmid verm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn onu m\u0259nim yan\u0131ma g\u00f6nd\u0259rmi\u015fdi. O, k\u00f6m\u0259k \u0259lini ona uzad\u0131m dey\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox yalvard\u0131: \u00abM\u0259n\u0259 he\u00e7 bir \u00fcmid ver\u0259 bilm\u0259zsiniz?\u00bb dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu. M\u0259n d\u0259 Allaha m\u00fcraci\u0259t etdim: \u00abOnun sual\u0131na cavab tapmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259n\u0259 q\u00fcvv\u0259t ver!\u00bb. Allah is\u0259 iyirmi il m\u0259ni bu kresloda oturma\u011fa ona g\u00f6r\u0259 vadar etmi\u015fdi ki, bel\u0259 m\u0259qama haz\u0131r olum. \u0130mdad dil\u0259y\u0259n\u0259 yol g\u00f6st\u0259rim. F\u0259ras\u0259tsiz oldu\u011fumu g\u00f6r\u0259n Ulu Tanr\u0131 da susdu. M\u0259n Roza dua etm\u0259yi m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. \u018fg\u0259r duan\u0131n t\u00f6r\u0259d\u0259c\u0259yi f\u0259sad\u0131 qabaqcadan duya bils\u0259ydim, ona ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr k\u00f6m\u0259k g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259rdim. Roz \u00abDua edim?\u00bb s\u00f6zl\u0259rini sonsuz nifr\u0259tl\u0259, dem\u0259k olar ki t\u00fcp\u00fcr\u0259r\u0259k dedi.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. M\u0259n axmaq x\u0259yallar\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ndan qovsun dey\u0259 bir anl\u0131\u011fa arvad\u0131m\u0131n ard\u0131nca \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Onun \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 x\u0259t\u0259r yetir\u0259c\u0259\u00adyind\u0259n qorxurdum. Ancaq bu x\u0259ta daha \u0259ziz adama toxundu. \u0130ndi ba\u015f\u0131ma haran\u0131n k\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00fc t\u00f6k\u00fcm? Do\u011frudanm\u0131 he\u00e7 n\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k?<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>\u00dc\u00e7 qoca qonaq ota\u011f\u0131ndan m\u0259hrum oldu. Psixoloq x\u0259st\u0259 arvad\u0131 il\u0259 qald\u0131. O is\u0259 yoxa \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131… G\u00f6lm\u0259\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 at\u0131lm\u0131\u015f da\u015f yoxa \u00e7\u0131xan kimi.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. Bu f\u0259lak\u0259tl\u0259rin baisi Allaha yen\u0259 inan\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z?<\/p>\n
Ceyms.<\/b> B\u0259li.<\/p>\n
Maykl.<\/b> El\u0259 is\u0259, bu kort\u0259bii, m\u0259n dey\u0259rdim ki, a\u011f\u0131ls\u0131z inamd\u0131r.<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>B\u0259z\u0259n bel\u0259 d\u0259 olur.<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>\u00dcst\u0259lik dey\u0259rdim zal\u0131m bir inam…<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>Seminariyada \u00f6yr\u0259dil\u0259nl\u0259rin dem\u0259k olar, ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 unutmu\u015fam. H\u0259tta Allah\u0131n m\u00f6vcudlu\u011fu haqq\u0131ndak\u0131 f\u0259rziyy\u0259l\u0259ri d\u0259. H\u0259… dey\u0259s\u0259n, b\u0259zi \u015feyl\u0259r yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Hans\u0131 m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s kitabdasa deyilir: \u00abBizim duy\u011fular\u0131m\u0131z n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259rin s\u0131x\u0131nt\u0131, inams\u0131zl\u0131q v\u0259 \u00fcmidsizlikl\u0259 b\u0259l\u0259nirs\u0259\u00bb, etiqad bir el\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck \u0259minlikl\u0259: \u00ab\u00dcmidini Allaha ba\u011fla, h\u0259r \u015fey yax\u015f\u0131 olacaq\u00bb deyir.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. \u00abH\u0259r \u015fey yax\u015f\u0131 olacaq\u00bb? Siz bunu do\u011frudan duyursunuz?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Yox, duymuram. M\u0259nim duy\u011fular\u0131m sars\u0131nt\u0131, qeyri-\u0259minlik v\u0259 \u00fcmidsizlikl\u0259 y\u00fckl\u0259nib. N\u0259 etm\u0259li, m\u0259n d\u0259 bel\u0259 z\u0259if\u0259m.<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>M\u0259ns\u0259 z\u0259ifl\u0259r\u0259 ac\u0131mayan Allaha inanmazd\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b> (yalvar\u0131c\u0131<\/i>). S\u0259n\u0259 and verir\u0259m, bu g\u00fcn onu rahat burax. Ona inanm\u0131rsansa da, onun haqq\u0131nda bel\u0259 nifr\u0259tl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fma. \u018fg\u0259r m\u00f6vcuddursa, o da Rozu sevirdi. Onun \u015f\u00fcursuz halda z\u0259h\u0259r i\u00e7m\u0259sini d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcb. Bizl\u0259rd\u0259n he\u00e7 k\u0259s m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t v\u0259 iztirab\u0131n q\u0259drini bilmir. \u0130ndi Allah onu s\u0259xav\u0259tl\u0259 Rozun ba\u015f\u0131na s\u0259pir.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b> (\u0259zabla<\/i>). F\u0259q\u0259t gec deyilmi?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b> (onu t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndirm\u0259k m\u0259qs\u0259dil\u0259<\/i>). Bu g\u00fcn s\u0259nin daxilind\u0259 bir a\u011fr\u0131 dill\u0259nir. He\u00e7 n\u0259 ed\u0259 bilm\u0259zs\u0259n. Bu t\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259rd\u0259 x\u0259r\u00e7\u0259ngd\u0259n \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f bir adam uyuyur. Bax onun daxilind\u0259 d\u0259 bir a\u011fr\u0131 dill\u0259nir. Biz \u00e7\u0259tin\u0259, dara d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 \u0259zab-\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259n gileyl\u0259nir, ahu-zar edirik. S\u0259n ist\u0259yirs\u0259n bu \u0259zab-\u0259ziyy\u0259t d\u00fcnyas\u0131nda a\u011fr\u0131 v\u0259 iztirabdan t\u0259crid olunmu\u015f yegan\u0259 \u015f\u0259xs olasan?<\/p>\n
Maykl. <\/b>Siz is\u0259 Allah t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n d\u00fcnyan\u0131n bel\u0259 yarand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 z\u0259nn edirsiniz, el\u0259mi?<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. B\u0259li. M\u0259n onun h\u0259r\u0259miz\u0259 bir d\u0259rd verdiyin\u0259 d\u0259 inan\u0131ram. O yaln\u0131z d\u00fcnyan\u0131 yaratmay\u0131b. \u018fb\u0259diyy\u0259t yarad\u0131b. \u0130ztirab, a\u011fr\u0131 s\u0259nl\u0259 m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn uzun h\u0259ngam\u0259dir. U\u015faq do\u011fmu\u015f qad\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn is\u0259 bu, sad\u0259 bir i\u015fdir. \u00d6l\u00fcm bizim u\u015fa\u011f\u0131m\u0131zd\u0131r. Biz \u0259zab, \u0259ziyy\u0259tin, iztirab\u0131n i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131b \u00f6z \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc do\u011furuq. A\u011fr\u0131 m\u0259ni d\u0259 sizin kimi qovurur. Roz is\u0259 art\u0131q rahatlan\u0131b. O art\u0131q \u00f6z u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 do\u011fub. \u00d6l\u00fcm onun\u00e7un art\u0131q m\u00f6vcud deyil.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. El\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z, sanki o sa\u011fd\u0131r (bird\u0259n h\u00fccuma ke\u00e7ir<\/i>). H\u0259, h\u0259… Az qala yad\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Hm… Rozun sa\u011f qald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, o d\u00fcnyada ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kils\u0259niz siz\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259dir, el\u0259mi? O \u00f6z g\u00fcnah\u0131 ucbat\u0131ndan l\u0259n\u0259tl\u0259nm\u0259yib. Onu m\u0259nim arvad\u0131m\u0131n \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u0259ngam\u0259l\u0259r c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m \u0259zab\u0131nda yanma\u011fa vadar edib.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Bizi axmaq yerin\u0259 qoyma. Kim dey\u0259 bil\u0259r ki, biz onun son q\u0259rar\u0131ndan x\u0259b\u0259rdar olmu\u015fuq. Son d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 yaln\u0131z Allah onunla olub.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. Siz \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz t\u0259sdiq etdiniz ki, \u00abDua edim?\u00bb s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc o nec\u0259 nifr\u0259tl\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259di.<\/p>\n
Ceyms. <\/b>O, q\u0131z\u0131n son s\u00f6zl\u0259ri deyildi v\u0259 ola da bilm\u0259zdi. S\u0259n lap yax\u015f\u0131 bilirs\u0259n ki, m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t nifr\u0259tl\u0259 bac\u0131-qarda\u015f do\u011fulur…<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b>. O he\u00e7 d\u0259 m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259b xilq\u0259t deyildi. G\u0259ncl\u0259r\u0259 xas h\u0259r c\u00fcr nevroz, riya v\u0259 t\u0259zadlar ona yad idi. Onun sizin kils\u0259y\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131 yox idi. O, aydan ar\u0131, g\u00fcnd\u0259n duru idi. He\u00e7 bir g\u00fcnah\u0131n sahibi deyildi. Sad\u0259 bir q\u0131z idi.<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Sad\u0259 oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnm\u00fc onu sevirdin? Z\u0259nn etmir\u0259m. O, d\u00f6z\u00fcml\u00fc idi. Onda b\u00f6y\u00fck s\u0259bir vard\u0131. Sizi valeh ed\u0259n bu idi. \u00c7a\u015f\u0131b bird\u0259n etiraz ed\u0259rs\u0259n. Onda h\u0259r bir d\u0259rd\u0259 d\u00f6z\u00fcm vard\u0131. Bu is\u0259 h\u0259r k\u0259s\u0259 b\u0259x\u015f edilmir… El\u0259 buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259r ikimiz onu sevirdik.<\/p>\n
Maykl<\/b> (k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259<\/i>). \u00abG\u00f6lm\u0259\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f da\u015f…\u00bb<\/p>\n
Qap\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r. Tereza daxil olur. Qoca ledi yor\u011fan-d\u00f6\u015f\u0259yin a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 alt\u0131nda s\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259yir. Onlar\u0131 divan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcr.<\/i><\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Bu n\u0259dir, Tereza?<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> M\u0259nim ota\u011f\u0131m\u0131 qonaq ota\u011f\u0131 d\u00fcz\u0259ldirl\u0259r. M\u0259n burada yataca\u011fam.<\/p>\n
S\u0259hn\u0259nin arxas\u0131ndan Helenin s\u0259si e\u015fidilir: \u201cTereza, haradasan, Tereza?\u201d<\/i><\/p>\n
Helen g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. Maykla fikir vermir.<\/i><\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> Tereza, s\u0259n yen\u0259 x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259ndin? N\u0259 edirs\u0259n? Bu yor\u011fan-d\u00f6\u015f\u0259k kimindir? Ax\u0131 h\u0259r \u015fey qaydaya sal\u0131n\u0131b.<\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> M\u0259n burada yataca\u011fam (yata\u011f\u0131 salma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131r<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Helen.<\/b> Burada? Ceyms, onu ba\u015fa sal… Bi\u00e7ar\u0259 n\u0259 etdiyini bilmir. Burda yatmaq olmaz. M\u0259n ona icaz\u0259 vermir\u0259m. Ax\u0131 biz \u015f\u0259rtl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdik. Ceyms, di ona bir \u015fey de…<\/p>\n
Tereza soyuqqanl\u0131 halda yata\u011f\u0131 salmaqda davam edir. Ceym\u00adsin bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 bac\u0131lar\u0131na zill\u0259nir. Maykl p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n aralan\u0131r, bax\u0131r.<\/i><\/p>\n
Helen<\/b> (t\u0259la\u015f i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259<\/i>). Tereza, \u0259zizim, laz\u0131m deyil. Ax\u0131 o burda \u00f6ld\u00fc. Bu otaqda can verdi (divan\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda diz \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcb bac\u0131s\u0131na mane olma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r<\/i>).<\/p>\n
Ceyms<\/b>. Qurtar, Helen! Yet\u0259r a\u011f\u0131ls\u0131zl\u0131q etm\u0259yimiz! Allah siz qad\u0131nlar kimi m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259tsiz deyil. Qorxu i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 onsuz da kifay\u0259t q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6m\u00fcr s\u00fcrm\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fcz. Bir az da insan kimi ya\u015fay\u0131n, \u0259zizim. Bir az da insan kimi ya\u015fay\u0131n!<\/p>\n
Helen bird\u0259n \u00fczg\u00fcn halda yata\u011fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, u\u015faq kimi h\u00f6nk\u00fcr\u00fcr.<\/i><\/p>\n
\u0130ndi Tereza ondan daha g\u00fccl\u00fcd\u00fcr. O, Helenin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib onun ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 tumarlay\u0131r. Uzaq ke\u00e7mi\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi b\u00f6y\u00fck bac\u0131 \u0259rkil\u0259 onunla dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r.<\/i><\/p>\n
Tereza.<\/b> N\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259kdir g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131? N\u0259y\u0259? Onlar yaln\u0131z k\u0259l\u0259m suvarmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn laz\u0131md\u0131r. Ham\u0131s\u0131 bo\u015f \u015feydir, \u0259zizim. Ax\u0131 n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn burada yata bilm\u0259r\u0259m, h\u0259? N\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131z, \u0259ziz balam\u0131z haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n qorxmal\u0131, vahim\u0259l\u0259nm\u0259liyik? Rozun \u00f6ld\u00fcy\u00fc ota\u011f\u0131n yerini he\u00e7 bir otaq m\u0259n\u0259 ver\u0259my\u0259c\u0259k…<\/p>\n
P\u0259rd\u0259 sal\u0131nark\u0259n Tereza h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 Helenin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 tumarla\u00admaqda davam edir.<\/i><\/p>\n
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\u0130ngilis dilind\u0259n t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259 ed\u0259n:<\/b><\/p>\n
Akif ABBASOV<\/b><\/p>\n
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Yaz\u0131ya 46 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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